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august 29

august 29
2008

my two brothers and my friend

my two brothers and my friend
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was at the also

was at the also
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it was four of us going off said realize

it was four of us going off said realize
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that we lost the car cage so it was

that we lost the car cage so it was
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kicking my foot in the water kicking my

kicking my foot in the water kicking my
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foot in the water same time i see two

foot in the water same time i see two
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guys coming down the road my brother

guys coming down the road my brother
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said simone be careful because

said simone be careful because
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the rain started pouring down also we're

the rain started pouring down also we're
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not the rain i was in front someone was

not the rain i was in front someone was
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in front of me

in front of me
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and i hear gunshot ringing now

and i hear gunshot ringing now
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and i see you like fire the gunman shot

and i see you like fire the gunman shot
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i want them to run

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so i said murder run

so i said murder run
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right there and then i realized it's

right there and then i realized it's
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something really bad

something really bad
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one man go on man

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i don't hear someone and i see my

i don't hear someone and i see my
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we know it was because we were gay

we know it was because we were gay
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when i get up to run out the boy said

when i get up to run out the boy said
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the batman get to about the lesbian dead

the batman get to about the lesbian dead
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i live like a refugee now

i live like a refugee now
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left everything

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because if i go back for them

because if i go back for them
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they will kill me

they will kill me
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i could sleep

i could sleep
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because my mommy gets shot and i killed

because my mommy gets shot and i killed
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getting

getting
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out of my area

out of my area
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my momma was looking for a kid

my momma was looking for a kid
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and then they

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shoot my mommy and then my mama run and

shoot my mommy and then my mama run and
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then she should put her like she did

then she should put her like she did
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i got two shots

i got two shots
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okay i can't only show you one but i

okay i can't only show you one but i
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can't show you the next one

can't show you the next one
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got the next one is like neymar buttocks

got the next one is like neymar buttocks
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and that's gonna be private and i got

and that's gonna be private and i got
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one here

one here
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i don't know if you can see it and get

i don't know if you can see it and get
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it let it go here

it let it go here
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and come here

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this cut is the cut that then cut my for

this cut is the cut that then cut my for
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the operation

the operation
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and then i was crying

and then i was crying
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and then i showed you to the hospital

and then i showed you to the hospital
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she started crying

she started crying
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and then when she wanted to tell me that

and then when she wanted to tell me that
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piece of a liver

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and a kidney gone

and a kidney gone
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i love her kindergarten watching a

i love her kindergarten watching a
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far different

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i'm really sorry so i should have to see

i'm really sorry so i should have to see
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all of them things are here kayla i'm

all of them things are here kayla i'm
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so okay

so okay
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everything it was going to say to me

everything it was going to say to me
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it's all

it's all
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okay

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you sure

you sure
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yes it's okay i'll put a little smile on

yes it's okay i'll put a little smile on
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your face please okay people are shocked

your face please okay people are shocked
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you know them

you know them
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police lock up one of them

police lock up one of them
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but the next one's still odd

but the next one's still odd
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when i want them kill me i'm not going

when i want them kill me i'm not going
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to kill my daughter

to kill my daughter
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so i'm not sure i forget myself or the

so i'm not sure i forget myself or the
hair

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and there are many many countries in the

and there are many many countries in the
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where being gay remains an abominable

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crime where the lives of lgbt folks are

crime where the lives of lgbt folks are
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their country of birth

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and that my friends as you know is the

and that my friends as you know is the
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lived reality of my husband maurice

lived reality of my husband maurice
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we got married last year in august but

we got married last year in august but
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we decided to keep our marriage a secret

we decided to keep our marriage a secret
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in jamaica because it would have created

in jamaica because it would have created
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i've been the face of the lgbt movement

i've been the face of the lgbt movement
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and that was necessary to maintain my

and that was necessary to maintain my
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safety to maintain my credibility to

safety to maintain my credibility to
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maintain my access i'm maurice tomlinson

maintain my access i'm maurice tomlinson
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we asked the jamaican public to support

we asked the jamaican public to support
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us in this call for the recognition of

us in this call for the recognition of
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rights for all jamaicans including gays

rights for all jamaicans including gays
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according to mr tomlinson there's a

according to mr tomlinson there's a
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strong case that the so-called anti-gay

strong case that the so-called anti-gay
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law enables people to commit human

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rights abuses against homosexuals i had

rights abuses against homosexuals i had
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already received quite a few death

already received quite a few death
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threats simply because i had been

threats simply because i had been
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publicizing the murders the

publicizing the murders the
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you know home invasions the attacks as

you know home invasions the attacks as
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well as teaching my particular brand of

well as teaching my particular brand of
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and i knew that

and i knew that
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this information getting old that i was

this information getting old that i was
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married to a man

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world is in trouble anytime mojo

world is in trouble anytime mojo
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mountain come back

mountain come back
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a gunshot bank

a gunshot bank
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unfortunately on saturday january 7th

unfortunately on saturday january 7th
2012

2012

2012
the

the

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jamaica observer published a photo of a

jamaica observer published a photo of a
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wedding

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captioned jamaican gay activist mary's

captioned jamaican gay activist mary's
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it said maurice tomlinson the leading

it said maurice tomlinson the leading
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jamaican gay activist got married to a

jamaican gay activist got married to a
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canadian man this week and his husband

canadian man this week and his husband
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has been identified as tom decker a

has been identified as tom decker a
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police officer and pastor in the

police officer and pastor in the
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metropolitan community church of toronto

metropolitan community church of toronto
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tomlinson reportedly wept with joy

tomlinson reportedly wept with joy
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throughout the ceremony

throughout the ceremony
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i sent a text to tom who then started to

i sent a text to tom who then started to
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you know he kept notifying me how many

you know he kept notifying me how many
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death threats had come in

death threats had come in
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my jamaican is not that good but

my jamaican is not that good but
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boom bye bye

boom bye bye
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those uh

those uh
hateful

hateful

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that means

that means
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the man was killed after a heated

the man was killed after a heated
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argument with men who labeled him as

argument with men who labeled him as
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homosexual gruesome killing of 16 year

homosexual gruesome killing of 16 year
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old ashane gordon as well as the

old ashane gordon as well as the
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injuring of his the bodies of two men

injuring of his the bodies of two men
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who were believed to have been

who were believed to have been
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homosexuals were found in an open lot on

homosexuals were found in an open lot on
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trafalgar this is the second chopping

trafalgar this is the second chopping
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parish had to leave everything i don't

parish had to leave everything i don't
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think i've ever felt

think i've ever felt
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that vulnerable i mean i've done

that vulnerable i mean i've done
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acts of public

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activism for lgbt rights in jamaica but

activism for lgbt rights in jamaica but
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i've never felt that vulnerable

i've never felt that vulnerable
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as i did when this came out and when

as i did when this came out and when
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i just felt that there's no one i could

i just felt that there's no one i could
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i just needed to get out

i just needed to get out
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but stopping the work now might be too

but stopping the work now might be too
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premature

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the work needs to be done there is so

the work needs to be done there is so
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much that can be done

much that can be done
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right now is not the time

right now is not the time
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to be there it is just simply too

to be there it is just simply too
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dangerous and in order for the work to

dangerous and in order for the work to
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continue but i'm not i mean i

continue but i'm not i mean i
i

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i love you tom you know that i know and

i love you tom you know that i know and
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i'm i'm very well and we're probably not

i'm i'm very well and we're probably not
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not ever going to see eye to eye on this

not ever going to see eye to eye on this
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no because i like to

no because i like to
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as i said i mean i i married a husband

as i said i mean i i married a husband
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right now i'm playing a game of hide and

right now i'm playing a game of hide and
seek

seek

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and there are keepers seeking me

and there are keepers seeking me
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and tonight this is memorial

and tonight this is memorial
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and then my keeper liquor team him

and then my keeper liquor team him
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this is his home

this is his home
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let me kill him instead i'm giving him

let me kill him instead i'm giving him
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79 stuff

79 stuff
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and kill him

and kill him
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because brian was one of the few would

because brian was one of the few would
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show him face just like me so i guess

show him face just like me so i guess
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that's what they kill him for for being

that's what they kill him for for being
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a gay and being a proud gay

a gay and being a proud gay
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j flag was formed to say well we're

j flag was formed to say well we're
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going to be the organization to stand up

going to be the organization to stand up
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let the world know why gay people has

let the world know why gay people has
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been facing because gay people have been

been facing because gay people have been
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facing a lot of discrimination a lot of

facing a lot of discrimination a lot of
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homophobic attacks in jamaica this is

homophobic attacks in jamaica this is
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meted out from all different

meted out from all different
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cross-section from the government the

cross-section from the government the
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police the church society in general so

police the church society in general so
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it's like you know it's just us against

it's like you know it's just us against
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the whole of jamaica

the whole of jamaica
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i am very concerned

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that homosexual in jamaica have become

that homosexual in jamaica have become
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so brazen

so brazen
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they have found themselves into

they have found themselves into
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organizations yes

organizations yes
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j flaxseek to tell the world that

j flaxseek to tell the world that
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homosexuals in this country

homosexuals in this country
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are being violently abused

are being violently abused
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got killed by other homosexuals because

got killed by other homosexuals because
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those comments are very irresponsible

those comments are very irresponsible
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i've seen them for myself i have been

i've seen them for myself i have been
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witness

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to these things

to these things
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so i know

so i know
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once they find out that you are gay

once they find out that you are gay
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martin let me use the word batman

martin let me use the word batman
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they want to kill you just drop me a

they want to kill you just drop me a
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card living

card living
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if there's a two one hour on the street

if there's a two one hour on the street
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they look suspicious then

they look suspicious then
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two weeks ago a two guy around me with

two weeks ago a two guy around me with
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my shade

my shade
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nearly killed me

nearly killed me
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look at simone

look at simone
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what happened there

what happened there
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she could have died

she could have died
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she lost a kidney on a part of her liver

she lost a kidney on a part of her liver
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they even tried to shoot her vagina out

they even tried to shoot her vagina out
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saying that um she didn't have any use

saying that um she didn't have any use
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for it since she wasn't sleeping with a

for it since she wasn't sleeping with a
man

man

man
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when i heard that she was shot it was

when i heard that she was shot it was
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like please don't let her die please

like please don't let her die please
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don't let her die because you know i

don't let her die because you know i
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colleen is somebody i can talk to she's

colleen is somebody i can talk to she's
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my friend when i expect everything i

my friend when i expect everything i
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tell her i have to leave the country

tell her i have to leave the country
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she's trying anything to help me

she's trying anything to help me
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to help her to get off the island we

to help her to get off the island we
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could get her to the us embassy to see

could get her to the us embassy to see
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if they would give her a visa and when

if they would give her a visa and when
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she gets there then she could always

she gets there then she could always
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this is the form so i'll fill it out to

this is the form so i'll fill it out to
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you that you need to sign and make sure

you that you need to sign and make sure
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that you have everything that is correct

that you have everything that is correct
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this is my

this is my
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picture

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for the visa

for the visa
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everybody said it looked nice

everybody said it looked nice
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i will pretend to be the consonant you

i will pretend to be the consonant you
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know yeah i cannot ask you i guess yeah

know yeah i cannot ask you i guess yeah
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you can do that

you can do that
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so miss edwards so how long do you plan

so miss edwards so how long do you plan
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to stay in the united states man

to stay in the united states man
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i'm just for two weeks

i'm just for two weeks
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two weeks but your application says

two weeks but your application says
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eight days

eight days
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well yes but you're gonna need to really

well yes but you're gonna need to really
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know what you're saying and it's not

know what you're saying and it's not
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foundation it's federation consideration

foundation it's federation consideration
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yes remember you can't be soft-spoken

yes remember you can't be soft-spoken
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they have to speak with confidence

they have to speak with confidence
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because conviction let them realize that

because conviction let them realize that
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you know this is for real this is who

you know this is for real this is who
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you are

you are
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i'll speak up a little bit speak up with

i'll speak up a little bit speak up with
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order and speak firmly all right

order and speak firmly all right
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yeah all right now yes all right another

yeah all right now yes all right another
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confidence no

confidence no
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but i need to learn this tonight and

but i need to learn this tonight and
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study it

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and know what i'm dealing with

and know what i'm dealing with
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and what i'm going to say

and what i'm going to say
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i have to get this visa

i have to get this visa
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to get out here

to get out here
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you're laughing but i know it's it's a

you're laughing but i know it's it's a
special

i feel

i feel
so

so

so
almost

when i go home at night i go home with

when i go home at night i go home with
everything

everything

everything
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i don't sleep

i don't sleep
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you know i'm like thinking why why why

you know i'm like thinking why why why
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can't gay people just live their lives

can't gay people just live their lives
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without anyone thinking they need to

without anyone thinking they need to
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kill us

kill us
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i have to go and open pray

i have to go and open pray
that

that

that
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everything come true for me

everything come true for me
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i'm a bit scared

i'm a bit scared
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uh simone went to the embassy but she

uh simone went to the embassy but she
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she didn't get through

she didn't get through
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meaning what meaning she didn't get the

meaning what meaning she didn't get the
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visa if it denied the visa yes okay

visa if it denied the visa yes okay
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um did they say why uh she didn't ask me

um did they say why uh she didn't ask me
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anything she only asked me two questions

anything she only asked me two questions
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she asked me about if i ever travel

she asked me about if i ever travel
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and if i have a family in the u.s

and if i have a family in the u.s
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and what did you say

and what did you say
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i said no i don't have any family in the

i said no i don't have any family in the
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u.s and i never travel

u.s and i never travel
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well unfortunately

well unfortunately
the

the

the
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the consular officer's decision

the consular officer's decision
over

over

over
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visa matters is not reviewable meaning

visa matters is not reviewable meaning
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there's no where to appeal that

there's no where to appeal that
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if you go right back in there tomorrow

if you go right back in there tomorrow
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or the next day or the next day they're

or the next day or the next day they're
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nothing more think about that with my

nothing more think about that with my
feelings

gay people in jamaica always have to

gay people in jamaica always have to
hide

hide

hide
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as far as um straight germans are

as far as um straight germans are
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concerned once you're gay you have no

concerned once you're gay you have no
place

place

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in this country

in this country
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i really think

i really think
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if i had not left when i did

if i had not left when i did
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and i just continued as business as

and i just continued as business as
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the potency of the death threats at that

the potency of the death threats at that
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point i just couldn't believe that

point i just couldn't believe that
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people felt so threatened by the fact

people felt so threatened by the fact
that

that

that
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i went to canada and married a man

i went to canada and married a man
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we're not saying that gay people should

we're not saying that gay people should
be

be

be
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obliterated from the face of the earth

obliterated from the face of the earth
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we are not saying that my government has

we are not saying that my government has
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never said that my government never say

never said that my government never say
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that and nor am i saying that

that and nor am i saying that
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but because your behavioral pattern

but because your behavioral pattern
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is in breach of all decency

is in breach of all decency
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guess what

guess what
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it's rooted in a number of things

it's rooted in a number of things
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firstly we are a

firstly we are a
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predominantly christian country and

predominantly christian country and
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fervently christian country it may not

fervently christian country it may not
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be reflected entirely in terms of how we

be reflected entirely in terms of how we
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how we live sometimes but

how we live sometimes but
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we are

we are
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passionately committed to certain basic

passionately committed to certain basic
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christian principles

christian principles
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jamaica is a homophobic society

jamaica is a homophobic society
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we grew up

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to dislike homosexuals we grow up to

to dislike homosexuals we grow up to
hate

hate

hate
homosexuality

homosexuality

homosexuality
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i i knew it was wrong

i i knew it was wrong
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or felt it was wrong ever since i could

or felt it was wrong ever since i could
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read the bible

read the bible
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and of course it had been

and of course it had been
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preached against

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i don't believe god made anybody

i don't believe god made anybody
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homosexuals just as if i don't believe

homosexuals just as if i don't believe
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god's concept is

god's concept is
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an adam and an eve a man and a woman for

an adam and an eve a man and a woman for
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continuity of the human race

continuity of the human race
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and i hate the act of homosexuality

and i hate the act of homosexuality
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because it has

because it has
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the possibility within it

the possibility within it
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to cause the human race to become

to cause the human race to become
extinct

i believe that god does not judge people

i believe that god does not judge people
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god judges sin

god judges sin
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and aids generally caused and believed

and aids generally caused and believed
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to be caused by homosexual promiscuity

to be caused by homosexual promiscuity
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uh is a violation both of them of god's

uh is a violation both of them of god's
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laws laws of nature and decency and as a

laws laws of nature and decency and as a
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result we pay the price when we violate

result we pay the price when we violate
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the laws of god in case anybody doesn't

the laws of god in case anybody doesn't
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know god calls it an abomination

know god calls it an abomination
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it's an abomination

it's an abomination
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i

i

i
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remember also watching us televangelists

remember also watching us televangelists
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they were always on air talking about

they were always on air talking about
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how homosexuality is an abomination and

how homosexuality is an abomination and
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hiv and aids are god's condemnation and

hiv and aids are god's condemnation and
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judgment for gays

judgment for gays
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um and i was you know

um and i was you know
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late 80s into the 90s

late 80s into the 90s
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during my formative you know years my

during my formative you know years my
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teenage years into early adulthood so

teenage years into early adulthood so
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that made me paranoid about

that made me paranoid about
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homosexuality but the feelings were

homosexuality but the feelings were
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the first time but i realized that i'm

the first time but i realized that i'm
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lesbian and i've tried to add the

lesbian and i've tried to add the
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feelings and fight the feelings but that

feelings and fight the feelings but that
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wasn't getting me nowhere

wasn't getting me nowhere
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i just keep between me and my brother

i just keep between me and my brother
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this monster is a hard story i can

this monster is a hard story i can
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remember but someone was young and going

remember but someone was young and going
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to school she turned to me and said

to school she turned to me and said
pearl

pearl

pearl
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gentle and say i'm gay i said you're

gentle and say i'm gay i said you're
crazy

crazy

crazy
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i thought it was me alone she said

i thought it was me alone she said
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i'm gay too

i'm gay too
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i was happy to know that i wasn't alone

i was happy to know that i wasn't alone
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we grow in a family with strong

we grow in a family with strong
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christian values i was the big brother i

christian values i was the big brother i
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i grew up in spanish town the root was

i grew up in spanish town the root was
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there that's the only place i know in

there that's the only place i know in
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jamaica to live

jamaica to live
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it's where my parents have grown up and

it's where my parents have grown up and
everything

everything

everything
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but unfortunately as a homosexual you

but unfortunately as a homosexual you
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can't stay in the community

can't stay in the community
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earth it's sad

earth it's sad
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to know that

to know that
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here in jamaica where i live

here in jamaica where i live
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in a place where i grow up and try to

in a place where i grow up and try to
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kill me because i'm a lesbian

kill me because i'm a lesbian
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after getting shot my sister went and

after getting shot my sister went and
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lived with friends so we have to

lived with friends so we have to
separate

separate

separate
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i didn't have anywhere to stay

i didn't have anywhere to stay
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i literally sleep on the stream i didn't

i literally sleep on the stream i didn't
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have phone or anything to communicate

have phone or anything to communicate
but

but

but
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somehow i survived and i have to run for

somehow i survived and i have to run for
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my life

my life
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so her brother end up leaving jamaica

so her brother end up leaving jamaica
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and then he got in touch with her and

and then he got in touch with her and
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told her about where he was

told her about where he was
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so we try to find out what's the best

so we try to find out what's the best
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route getting to europe was even harder

route getting to europe was even harder
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at the moment when we were trying to get

at the moment when we were trying to get
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her out we thought it was more important

her out we thought it was more important
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to get her out and then try to get her

to get her out and then try to get her
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child out after that

child out after that
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so she made arrangements with family

so she made arrangements with family
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members to do the best that she can for

members to do the best that she can for
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her child

her child
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i try not to show my daughter that i'm

i try not to show my daughter that i'm
scared

scared

scared
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so i try to

so i try to
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tough up

tough up
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i don't get emotional runner

i don't get emotional runner
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my dad i'm a beautiful dad i'm one

my dad i'm a beautiful dad i'm one
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sister grow up

sister grow up
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my mum may never get really visibility

my mum may never get really visibility
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is freaking off the jungle caleb he's

is freaking off the jungle caleb he's
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the king of kayla who is the king

the king of kayla who is the king
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of the unit

of the unit
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and who is the king of me

and who is the king of me
kayla

kayla

kayla
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i am the king of the jungle the king of

i am the king of the jungle the king of
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the jungle is a lion

the jungle is a lion
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i didn't want to tell her that i'm

i didn't want to tell her that i'm
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running away

running away
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imagine telling a seven-year-old that's

imagine telling a seven-year-old that's
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our mom why she adore and love so much

our mom why she adore and love so much
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despite the very real risk to his own

despite the very real risk to his own
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life and safety maurice tomlinson has

life and safety maurice tomlinson has
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been one of the most outspoken advocates

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for lgbti rights in jamaica

for lgbti rights in jamaica
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and i'm very proud to announce the 2012

and i'm very proud to announce the 2012
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very first recipient of the david cater

very first recipient of the david cater
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vision and voice award maurice tomlinson

vision and voice award maurice tomlinson
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i can't tell you that there was a point

i can't tell you that there was a point
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in time when i started being totally

in time when i started being totally
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accepting of myself as a gay man

accepting of myself as a gay man
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i cannot point to that time i was

i cannot point to that time i was
always

always

always
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an activist of one sort or the other and

an activist of one sort or the other and
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when i was doing my hiv activism i

when i was doing my hiv activism i
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realized that lgbt were particularly

realized that lgbt were particularly
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marginalized and whether or not you

marginalized and whether or not you
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considered that the sin they certainly

considered that the sin they certainly
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did not deserve that kind of

did not deserve that kind of
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marginalization and victimization

marginalization and victimization
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as my mother tells it during her youth

as my mother tells it during her youth
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everyone knew at least one person in the

everyone knew at least one person in the
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village who was gay

village who was gay
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but no one cared

but no one cared
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people respected the privacy of others

people respected the privacy of others
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and the anti-sodomy law was rarely if

and the anti-sodomy law was rarely if
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ever invoked

ever invoked
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all this changed during the 1980s and

all this changed during the 1980s and
90s

90s

90s
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when there was a coarsening of jamaican

when there was a coarsening of jamaican
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society through a deliberate export of

society through a deliberate export of
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hate and intolerance to jamaica

hate and intolerance to jamaica
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by american televangelists

by american televangelists
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the previously unused law then became a

the previously unused law then became a
fixture

fixture

fixture
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the laws of this country are very

the laws of this country are very
specific

specific

specific
burglary

burglary

burglary
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is an offense

is an offense
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it is an abominable offense

it is an abominable offense
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and it carries up to 12 years

and it carries up to 12 years
imprisonment

imprisonment

imprisonment
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you cannot consent to burglary

you cannot consent to burglary
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unless and until that law is repealed

unless and until that law is repealed
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the law is to be respected by an

the law is to be respected by an
adherent

adherent

adherent
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it's so simple

it's so simple
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the fact is the antibody law makes me

the fact is the antibody law makes me
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at least to

at least to
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the average jamaican police officer

the average jamaican police officer
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an unapprehended criminal with few

an unapprehended criminal with few
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if any human rights

if any human rights
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there's a challenge this evening to a

there's a challenge this evening to a
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controversial jamaican law a legal team

controversial jamaican law a legal team
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and several human rights groups have

and several human rights groups have
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joined forces to have jamaica's sodomy

joined forces to have jamaica's sodomy
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law repealed the existence of the law

law repealed the existence of the law
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contributes to homophobia in a very

contributes to homophobia in a very
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direct way one person had a knife stuck

direct way one person had a knife stuck
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in his forehead we've had instances of

in his forehead we've had instances of
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you know stonings um it's just been

you know stonings um it's just been
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horrendous the amount of abuses that

horrendous the amount of abuses that
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lgbt jamaicans have been exposed to

lgbt jamaicans have been exposed to
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hearing these stories i think

hearing these stories i think
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is what converted me hearing about the

is what converted me hearing about the
abuse

abuse

abuse
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seeing the people having to actually go

seeing the people having to actually go
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and document

and document
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and seeing the blood still dripping from

and seeing the blood still dripping from
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people who have just been abused i no

people who have just been abused i no
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longer felt comfortable staying in the

longer felt comfortable staying in the
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background so i started writing the

background so i started writing the
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newspapers and speaking on air as a

newspapers and speaking on air as a
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lawyer saying this is just wrong

lawyer saying this is just wrong
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this allows you specifically to

this allows you specifically to
extort

extort

extort
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um gay men so we are urging the

um gay men so we are urging the
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government of jamaica to act to repeal

government of jamaica to act to repeal
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these sections to me it was a human

these sections to me it was a human
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rights issue

rights issue
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it's a fundamental human rights issue it

it's a fundamental human rights issue it
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unleashed a avalanche of hate against me

unleashed a avalanche of hate against me
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after the last set of death threats my

after the last set of death threats my
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husband and i immediately saw the eerie

husband and i immediately saw the eerie
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similarities to david cato

similarities to david cato
david

david

david
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had been outed as well

had been outed as well
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in an almost similar fashion

in an almost similar fashion
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uh newspaper in uganda had published a

uh newspaper in uganda had published a
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picture of david and some other lgbt

picture of david and some other lgbt
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activists with the caption hang them

activists with the caption hang them
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there after our kids

there after our kids
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and soon after that david was murdered

and soon after that david was murdered
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i promise

i promise
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in david carter's name

in david carter's name
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that i will never abandon my role in the

that i will never abandon my role in the
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struggle for the full human rights of

struggle for the full human rights of
lgbt

lgbt

lgbt
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until those human rights are fully

until those human rights are fully
realized

realized

realized
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the last night i was with kayla i didn't

the last night i was with kayla i didn't
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tell her goodbye as in goodbye because i

tell her goodbye as in goodbye because i
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don't think it's right for a parent to

don't think it's right for a parent to
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say goodbye

say goodbye
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so i tell her that i'm going to travel

so i tell her that i'm going to travel
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and i soon come back

and i soon come back
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so i left

so i left
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i discovered that i don't need a visa to

i discovered that i don't need a visa to
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go to turkey and the plane go to

go to turkey and the plane go to
amsterdam

amsterdam

amsterdam
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and playing land in amsterdam i walk

and playing land in amsterdam i walk
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down to the immigration

down to the immigration
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and i tell them

and i tell them
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i'm not going home

i'm not going home
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when i said asylum

when i said asylum
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and then the lady said the immigration

and then the lady said the immigration
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lady said no don't cry you're safe i

lady said no don't cry you're safe i
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promise you you're safe here

promise you you're safe here
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nobody's going to hurt you i didn't want

nobody's going to hurt you i didn't want
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to cry but all the emotion feelings that

to cry but all the emotion feelings that
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what happened to me after the gunshot

what happened to me after the gunshot
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and my daughter and the life style we

and my daughter and the life style we
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live after me getting shot and not

live after me getting shot and not
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working knowing that i was the

working knowing that i was the
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breadwinner to take care of her

breadwinner to take care of her
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it was just everything was just rushing

it was just everything was just rushing
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to my mind and knowing the fact that i

to my mind and knowing the fact that i
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leave her there and you know

leave her there and you know
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what can happen

what can happen
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so i was

so i was
crying

crying

crying
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this is my new home i live here

this is my new home i live here
now

now

now
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this is an asylum center

this is an asylum center
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probably 500 people live on this

probably 500 people live on this
building

building

building
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most of the people that here don't speak

most of the people that here don't speak
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english they speak somali arabics farsi

english they speak somali arabics farsi
french

french

french
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so it's kind of hard for me but

so it's kind of hard for me but
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much on my best for go along each and

much on my best for go along each and
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everybody have different story

everybody have different story
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you stay here and you wait until you get

you stay here and you wait until you get
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the 20th of this month

the 20th of this month
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will be 10 months

will be 10 months
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i haven't seen my daughter

i haven't seen my daughter
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i know i saw your birthday

i know i saw your birthday
exactly

exactly

exactly
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enough for waiting for it until the

enough for waiting for it until the
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papers don't come true that's what

papers don't come true that's what
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matters the other time someone for wait

matters the other time someone for wait
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until the paper come true then manu

until the paper come true then manu
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if we can't get here

if we can't get here
okay

to the r writer

to the r writer
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people might think she'll not understand

people might think she'll not understand
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but i think she understands

but i think she understands
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i think she understands

i think she understands
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kayla is the only child i had to tell

kayla is the only child i had to tell
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kayla here that i don't know when i'm

kayla here that i don't know when i'm
coming

coming

coming
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it's hard

it's hard
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you'd rip your heart out

you'd rip your heart out
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mush your art in million pieces

mush your art in million pieces
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simone story is more than tragic

simone story is more than tragic
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you know it's a more than child

you know it's a more than child
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and there's no protection so that means

and there's no protection so that means
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jamaica is not protecting all its

jamaica is not protecting all its
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citizens as as it claims

citizens as as it claims
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about three months after simone left

about three months after simone left
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jamaica i was asked to be on a radio

jamaica i was asked to be on a radio
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talk show

talk show
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i didn't show my face but people in my

i didn't show my face but people in my
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community they know my voice

community they know my voice
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you know i was all of a sudden there i

you know i was all of a sudden there i
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was pretty much out at two

was pretty much out at two
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you know and then i realized that maybe

you know and then i realized that maybe
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it was time for me to pat my bags and

it was time for me to pat my bags and
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it's that sense of vulnerability that

it's that sense of vulnerability that
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you know you can't turn to the police

you know you can't turn to the police
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for help

for help
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in case of anything

in case of anything
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that makes me

that makes me
really

really

really
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that's why i'm happy that you get out

that's why i'm happy that you get out
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safely i am happy too

safely i am happy too
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but i don't feel i'm not it's gonna take

but i don't feel i'm not it's gonna take
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you a little while to settle you may not

you a little while to settle you may not
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never be

never be
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settled either

settled either
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because although i'm here and it's two

because although i'm here and it's two
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years i'm still

years i'm still
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not settled really sometimes i kind of

not settled really sometimes i kind of
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regret leaving though because i feel

regret leaving though because i feel
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like i left too early that's exactly

like i left too early that's exactly
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where i'm at because like there's so

where i'm at because like there's so
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much work there's so much work to be

much work there's so much work to be
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done and people

done and people
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tom my husband he just

tom my husband he just
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he he can't get it he thinks i'm crazy

he he can't get it he thinks i'm crazy
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stupid to even want to think of going

stupid to even want to think of going
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back and i really thought that well i

back and i really thought that well i
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would stay and fight it but then you

would stay and fight it but then you
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know i really got

know i really got
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got the message that you know maybe i

got the message that you know maybe i
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need to just ease away and

need to just ease away and
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i had people storming my car in my

i had people storming my car in my
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office and they tried to break in the

office and they tried to break in the
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house they stoned it and everything and

house they stoned it and everything and
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tried to you know pull off the girl and

tried to you know pull off the girl and
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you know but

you know but
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yeah so you know it was just time for me

yeah so you know it was just time for me
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to go and it's like a relate that we're

to go and it's like a relate that we're
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running you know you have to pass the

running you know you have to pass the
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button and that's how someone had passed

button and that's how someone had passed
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it on to us yeah that's why we got

it on to us yeah that's why we got
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involved and therefore so if it's time

involved and therefore so if it's time
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to give it up and we can do what we can

to give it up and we can do what we can
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it was inspiring when i met you first it

it was inspiring when i met you first it
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was inspiring to meet you

was inspiring to meet you
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and know that you're willing to be so

and know that you're willing to be so
out

out

out
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you know and so such a strong voice

you know and so such a strong voice
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because i think that was what was

because i think that was what was
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missing a strong voice we don't have

missing a strong voice we don't have
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that now and

that now and
um

um

um
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it's so painful sometimes and i'm like

it's so painful sometimes and i'm like
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i'm sorry i'm i'm sorry i'm jamaican you

i'm sorry i'm i'm sorry i'm jamaican you
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know sometimes i hear about other

know sometimes i hear about other
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countries who are making progressive

countries who are making progressive
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moves and then i'm like so why can't

moves and then i'm like so why can't
jamaica

jamaica

jamaica
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you know

you know
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but then you know personal safety has to

but then you know personal safety has to
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come first because if without that then

come first because if without that then
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you're not going to be able to help at

you're not going to be able to help at
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all so that was the decision that adds

all so that was the decision that adds
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this thing you're listening to my

this thing you're listening to my
husband

husband

husband
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but remember i've been there done that

but remember i've been there done that
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so it's a case where you know it was

so it's a case where you know it was
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like should i should i should i should

like should i should i should i should
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have but you know how crazy jamaican

have but you know how crazy jamaican
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skin get and how serious they can get

skin get and how serious they can get
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too many people we have lost

too many people we have lost
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well i'm still

well i'm still
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trying to figure it out figure it out

trying to figure it out figure it out
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i'm still my heart is definitely going

i'm still my heart is definitely going
back

back

back
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i kind of lift my hats off to him you

i kind of lift my hats off to him you
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know trying to go back because i know

know trying to go back because i know
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it's something that needs to be done and

it's something that needs to be done and
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i think about brian williamson and

i think about brian williamson and
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everyone who have been killed

everyone who have been killed
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you know especially for brian brian

you know especially for brian brian
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could have left whenever

could have left whenever
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you know but he stayed and i wish that i

you know but he stayed and i wish that i
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the reality is my perspective

the reality is my perspective
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both as a

both as a
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hiv and an lgbt activist is critical at

hiv and an lgbt activist is critical at
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this point because

this point because
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the government

the government
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i think

i think
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wants to push the agenda forward but

wants to push the agenda forward but
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they need help

they need help
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no one should be

no one should be
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discriminated against because of their

discriminated against because of their
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so at their sexual orientation

so at their sexual orientation
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government should provide the protection

government should provide the protection
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and i think that we

and i think that we
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should have a look at the burglar law

should have a look at the burglar law
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the government would be cautious in

the government would be cautious in
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attempting any change in the murder law

attempting any change in the murder law
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as the majority of jamaicans 61

as the majority of jamaicans 61
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said they would have a more negative

said they would have a more negative
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view of the administration if it were to

view of the administration if it were to
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do that as much as the one might say

do that as much as the one might say
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it's a personal issue but it's gonna

it's a personal issue but it's gonna
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destroy this society it's gonna destroy

destroy this society it's gonna destroy
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with you so we need to address it we

with you so we need to address it we
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begin with news about the meeting of a

begin with news about the meeting of a
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male student of the university of

male student of the university of
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technology by security they have come

technology by security they have come
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under attack on several occasions for

under attack on several occasions for
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their divergent sexual orientation man

their divergent sexual orientation man
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was reportedly set on fire by six men

was reportedly set on fire by six men
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and then thrown into executive director

and then thrown into executive director
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of j flag noted this is the seventh such

of j flag noted this is the seventh such
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murder in the last three months

murder in the last three months
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i don't think things are getting better

i don't think things are getting better
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in jamaica

in jamaica
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either you stay and die or you run away

either you stay and die or you run away
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i know that if i go back to jamaica

i know that if i go back to jamaica
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i am not going back with the protection

i am not going back with the protection
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of the jamaican police and that's scary

of the jamaican police and that's scary
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but i need to go back

but i need to go back
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because you can't be here

because you can't be here
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and be accessible there we have to see

and be accessible there we have to see
jamaican

jamaican

jamaican
gays

gays

gays
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functioning in jamaica if we want to see

functioning in jamaica if we want to see
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jamaica become tolerant towards its

jamaica become tolerant towards its
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jamaican citizens don't even want to see

jamaican citizens don't even want to see
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the risk

the risk
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it gets sometimes you get sick and tired

it gets sometimes you get sick and tired
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of being sick and tired

of being sick and tired
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but

but

but
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just going off

just going off
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and risking your life

and risking your life
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is not going to be productive uh i mean

is not going to be productive uh i mean
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imagine what david cato could have done

imagine what david cato could have done
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well that's true because um and

well that's true because um and
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just imagine the work that he could have

just imagine the work that he could have
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i did think about the murders of bran

i did think about the murders of bran
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williamson and

williamson and
david<00:37:11.280> cato

david cato

david cato
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david

david

david
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was just like me i think reporting on

was just like me i think reporting on
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the abuses against ugandan lgbt

the abuses against ugandan lgbt
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educating his society about the negative

educating his society about the negative
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impact of homophobia

impact of homophobia
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to be killed for that

to be killed for that
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simple act of humanity was

simple act of humanity was
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was just frightening

was just frightening
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you see how she's looking yeah no i

you see how she's looking yeah no i
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from jamaica

from jamaica
jamaica

may have a future now whenever our

may have a future now whenever our
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future jamaica normal our future

future jamaica normal our future
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kind of hard for me to be open because

kind of hard for me to be open because
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do you feel safe

do you feel safe
honest

why are you still scared why are you

why are you still scared why are you
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still looking over your shoulders

still looking over your shoulders
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because like you're still frightened

because like you're still frightened
inside

inside

inside
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honestly because scotchmen are used to

honestly because scotchmen are used to
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it as i must say

it as i must say
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how much years me living at jamaica as a

how much years me living at jamaica as a
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lesbian i'm yusuf idol

lesbian i'm yusuf idol
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the reason why you came to holland is

the reason why you came to holland is
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for you to be free so now be free

for you to be free so now be free
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it's better to be here than be in

it's better to be here than be in
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jamaica because the torture you've been

jamaica because the torture you've been
through

through

through
however

however

however
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it's hard it's hard i've i've lost more

it's hard it's hard i've i've lost more
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than i've gained it's not like

than i've gained it's not like
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i was running for a better life now

i was running for a better life now
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you're in holland

you're in holland
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so everything goes okay so you want to

so everything goes okay so you want to
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long as i um love at the end of the day

long as i um love at the end of the day
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you have family there you come from

you have family there you come from
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jamaica yeah i have my family there my

jamaica yeah i have my family there my
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family is straight i'm a lesbian so i

family is straight i'm a lesbian so i
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have to look out for myself and also i

have to look out for myself and also i
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don't have to look talk to my daughter

don't have to look talk to my daughter
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too i tried to see if i could bury this

too i tried to see if i could bury this
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homosexual life lifestyle but it goes

homosexual life lifestyle but it goes
nowhere

nowhere

nowhere
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because it's it's

because it's it's
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it's it's in me i couldn't push it aside

it's it's in me i couldn't push it aside
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and say i come back next week because

and say i come back next week because
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when when i was with the girl i was

when when i was with the girl i was
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thinking about her boy

thinking about her boy
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so it didn't go anywhere and there were

so it didn't go anywhere and there were
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several people gone through that married

several people gone through that married
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have kids and then

have kids and then
boom

boom

boom
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they couldn't hold it any longer so i

they couldn't hold it any longer so i
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i've been through it i've tried i tried

i've been through it i've tried i tried
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just for society's sake you understand

just for society's sake you understand
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say for the the guys who shoot me i do

say for the the guys who shoot me i do
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it for your sake it didn't work so you

it for your sake it didn't work so you
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come now to kill me

come now to kill me
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you understand they even just like girl

you understand they even just like girl
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you know they they had proof that you're

you know they they had proof that you're
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gay it was somebody that we know

gay it was somebody that we know
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actually because it's somebody that

actually because it's somebody that
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lives in the community it comes a shock

lives in the community it comes a shock
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to me because me and that boy brother

to me because me and that boy brother
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went to school together

went to school together
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it's not like moana run from them i

it's not like moana run from them i
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don't know

don't know
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you're just running for your life i'm

you're just running for your life i'm
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they don't know what they did to my life

they don't know what they did to my life
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they can never understand what they did

they can never understand what they did
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to my life

to my life
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they are not god

they are not god
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and god know who i am

and god know who i am
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and no man can judge me

and no man can judge me
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no man at all let me shoot me yeah they

no man at all let me shoot me yeah they
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shoot me but i'm alive

shoot me but i'm alive
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right now my daughter live first i'm

right now my daughter live first i'm
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caught fire fire with fire it's no good

caught fire fire with fire it's no good
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i'm a fight with love i'm a fight with

i'm a fight with love i'm a fight with
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my autumn

my autumn
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tom

tom
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are you coming back into the bedroom

are you coming back into the bedroom
uh

uh

uh
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yes probably okay all right i think i'm

yes probably okay all right i think i'm
done

i thought i would have been mentally

i thought i would have been mentally
prepared

prepared

prepared
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for this return but

for this return but
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not really ready for this i think but

not really ready for this i think but
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not really ready not to go

not really ready not to go
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when i explained to him that i needed to

when i explained to him that i needed to
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go back

go back
he

he

he
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of course

of course
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being tom

being tom
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a lovely neurotic husband i thought he

a lovely neurotic husband i thought he
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was the worst idea in the world he said

was the worst idea in the world he said
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he wasn't going to come because

he wasn't going to come because
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he thought he would have added to my

he thought he would have added to my
insecurity

insecurity

insecurity
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by being there but then

by being there but then
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thankfully he changed his mind and

thankfully he changed his mind and
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decided that

decided that
um

um

um
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he needed to be there with me because

he needed to be there with me because
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if i was going to face any danger we're

if i was going to face any danger we're
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i need to prove to this bigots that they

i need to prove to this bigots that they
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can't chase us all away and

can't chase us all away and
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kill us

kill us
all

all

all
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but some of us are willing to stick

but some of us are willing to stick
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around and actually

around and actually
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fight for

fight for
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for activists such as myself

for activists such as myself
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there's always a debate

there's always a debate
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do we pursue

do we pursue
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legislative change

legislative change
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or do we seek to um achieve

or do we seek to um achieve
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a redress through the courts when we

a redress through the courts when we
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know there is discrimination

know there is discrimination
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a judicial challenge will only result in

a judicial challenge will only result in
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a very narrow victory

a very narrow victory
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which will then have to sell

which will then have to sell
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to the population

to the population
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it is

it is
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sometimes a hard sell

sometimes a hard sell
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but if we get a legislative challenge

but if we get a legislative challenge
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we are

we are
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bringing the society along with us

bringing the society along with us
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the only way to change the society is

the only way to change the society is
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for people to be visible gays to be

for people to be visible gays to be
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visible to their family friends etc

visible to their family friends etc
co-workers<00:44:57.359> so

co-workers so

co-workers so
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you're at this catch-22 the government

you're at this catch-22 the government
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wants us to be visible so that that will

wants us to be visible so that that will
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reduce the level of homophobia first to

reduce the level of homophobia first to
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be visible you have to ensure that

be visible you have to ensure that
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there's security

there's security
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the government doesn't want to provide

the government doesn't want to provide
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the security or is failing to provide

the security or is failing to provide
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the security that they should

the security that they should
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because the law says it's illegal to be

because the law says it's illegal to be
gay

hello

hello
hi

[Laughter]

[Laughter]
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i'm good i'm now being berated by him

i'm good i'm now being berated by him
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because you see in a way what we're

because you see in a way what we're
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dealing with is our bully system

dealing with is our bully system
if

if

if
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maurice does not set foot back here

maurice does not set foot back here
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the bullies have won

the bullies have won
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oh yeah i totally understand that

oh yeah i totally understand that
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doesn't change the situation

doesn't change the situation
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it explains it

it explains it
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but it doesn't change it

but it doesn't change it
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the fact remains

the fact remains
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that you are under death threat that

that you are under death threat that
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this is not a safe place for you you

this is not a safe place for you you
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know yeah

know yeah
i<00:46:35.680> understand

i understand

i understand
but

don't

don't
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know there is

know there is
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you know

you know
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how do you feel

how do you feel
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am i allowed to feel

am i allowed to feel
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yes you are

yes you are
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even seriously am i allowed to have an

even seriously am i allowed to have an
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[Music]

[Music]
i'm<00:46:58.720> trying<00:46:59.119> to<00:46:59.359> understand

i'm trying to understand

i'm trying to understand
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why maurice feels he needs to do this

why maurice feels he needs to do this
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to a certain extent i still must say it

to a certain extent i still must say it
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well let me clarify that because this

well let me clarify that because this
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has come up on numerous occasions and i

has come up on numerous occasions and i
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think it is time we put this matter to

think it is time we put this matter to
rest

rest

rest
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i am doing this for the movement

i am doing this for the movement
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because i want to make sure that when

because i want to make sure that when
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i'm gone

i'm gone
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fully that the issue of lgbt human

fully that the issue of lgbt human
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rights will continue to be discussed

rights will continue to be discussed
intelligently

intelligently

intelligently
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by people who have access to

by people who have access to
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you know

you know
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decision makers policy makers because

decision makers policy makers because
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there's been a lot of misconception

there's been a lot of misconception
misrepresentation

misrepresentation

misrepresentation
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i need people who are in power now to

i need people who are in power now to
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know somebody who can represent the

know somebody who can represent the
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issues reasonably well i mean i know

issues reasonably well i mean i know
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i know

i know
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tom that maurice you are advocating the

tom that maurice you are advocating the
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advocacy of others over these past few

advocacy of others over these past few
years

years

years
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right have

right have
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opened some doors no the thing is that

opened some doors no the thing is that
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different doors open

different doors open
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some of them you'd rather shut but you

some of them you'd rather shut but you
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open some other doors for people to

open some other doors for people to
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begin to think and i'm i'm seeing that

begin to think and i'm i'm seeing that
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this is about

this is about
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leaving something

leaving something
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that will have an impact long after i'm

that will have an impact long after i'm
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gone i hope you've made your point the

gone i hope you've made your point the
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point isn't i'm not finished making my

point isn't i'm not finished making my
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point yet then you know that finished

point yet then you know that finished
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yes yes you know that well

yes yes you know that well
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and i keep making your point

and i keep making your point
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no i'll make it work

no i'll make it work
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when the newspaper the jamaica observer

when the newspaper the jamaica observer
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published the unauthorized photo

published the unauthorized photo
that

that

that
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pretty much made me even more

pretty much made me even more
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militant for the rights of lgbt because

militant for the rights of lgbt because
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now i'm not only speaking about a group

now i'm not only speaking about a group
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of people i'm talking about myself as

of people i'm talking about myself as
well

well

well
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i mean there's nothing left to hide no

i mean there's nothing left to hide no
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i'm now so

i'm now so
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outed that it's impossible for me to

outed that it's impossible for me to
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even think about retreating into the

even think about retreating into the
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i started challenging jamaicans directly

i started challenging jamaicans directly
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as a gay man

as a gay man
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we filed a case on behalf of two

we filed a case on behalf of two
jamaican

jamaican

jamaican
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gays who have suffered extreme abuses

gays who have suffered extreme abuses
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because of their sexual orientation

because of their sexual orientation
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our goal in firing this case is to

our goal in firing this case is to
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repeal the anti-sodomy law

repeal the anti-sodomy law
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hello good evening here to see a lot of

hello good evening here to see a lot of
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japan maurice tomlinson

japan maurice tomlinson
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it's extraordinary law maurice isn't it

it's extraordinary law maurice isn't it
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i mean i was looking at it again

i mean i was looking at it again
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whoever's shall be convicted of the

whoever's shall be convicted of the
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abominable crime of buggery shall be

abominable crime of buggery shall be
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liable to be imprisoned and kept to hard

liable to be imprisoned and kept to hard
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labor for a term not exceeding 10 years

labor for a term not exceeding 10 years
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more about whoever shall attempt to

more about whoever shall attempt to
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commit the said abominable crime

commit the said abominable crime
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i mean even in murder

i mean even in murder
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you don't find the hideous crime of

you don't find the hideous crime of
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murder the fiendish crime of rape or the

murder the fiendish crime of rape or the
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very language of the law

very language of the law
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incites people to hatred it generates

incites people to hatred it generates
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hate hate

hate hate
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always at the back of my mind hoped to

always at the back of my mind hoped to
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be able to find a case

be able to find a case
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when in which it could be tested the

when in which it could be tested the
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fact that he a british lord is involved

fact that he a british lord is involved
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in overturning a british imposed law is

in overturning a british imposed law is
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just incredibly important

just incredibly important
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the fact that it's the

the fact that it's the
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law against sodomy which he helped to

law against sodomy which he helped to
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overturn in northern ireland is just

overturn in northern ireland is just
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invaluable the court ruled that the law

invaluable the court ruled that the law
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had to be

had to be
reformed

reformed

reformed
repealed

repealed

repealed
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and it was

and it was
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northern ireland society did not break

northern ireland society did not break
down

down

down
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promiscuity did not break out we're not

promiscuity did not break out we're not
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asking for full repeal we're just asking

asking for full repeal we're just asking
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for review

for review
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so in that case what do you think

so in that case what do you think
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our chances considering what the new

our chances considering what the new
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prime minister said about a review

prime minister said about a review
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there are some problems

there are some problems
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and there is

and there is
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a lot of prejudice still in both parties

a lot of prejudice still in both parties
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the time will come

the time will come
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when we will win that vote right

when we will win that vote right
um

um

um
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i'm i'm hopeful

i'm i'm hopeful
but

but

but
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i just don't want to hear of any more

i just don't want to hear of any more
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murders it is overwhelming no it is i'm

murders it is overwhelming no it is i'm
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sure it is but don't be despondent

sure it is but don't be despondent
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i mean i've lived long enough i suppose

i mean i've lived long enough i suppose
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to see causes which seem to have

to see causes which seem to have
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insuperable yeah obstacles to them

insuperable yeah obstacles to them
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being being one yeah

being being one yeah
the<00:51:36.960> the<00:51:37.200> world<00:51:37.680> changes

the the world changes

the the world changes
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and it's it's impossible when you're in

and it's it's impossible when you're in
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the middle of the period of change to

the middle of the period of change to
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say that the change is going to happen

say that the change is going to happen
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next year right but um

next year right but um
every

every

every
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move we make helps to break it down

move we make helps to break it down
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helps to ridicul it helps to ridicule it

helps to ridicul it helps to ridicule it
yeah

yeah

yeah
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helps to show what damage it caused

helps to show what damage it caused
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because i don't think we should be

because i don't think we should be
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talking about this petition

talking about this petition
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without talking about the real life

without talking about the real life
tragedies

tragedies

tragedies
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because this is not just an academic

because this is not just an academic
question

it's been two years i got my ulcer i get

it's been two years i got my ulcer i get
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my paper

my paper
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the way the ounce set is it's just for

the way the ounce set is it's just for
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me in her

me in her
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i bought this butcher frame because i

i bought this butcher frame because i
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wanted to put some picture in there with

wanted to put some picture in there with
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my daughter and also with me but because

my daughter and also with me but because
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my daughter is not here i haven't put

my daughter is not here i haven't put
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anything i just make it stay empty

anything i just make it stay empty
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you know home is not at home without a

you know home is not at home without a
child

child

child
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being separated from kale is like you

being separated from kale is like you
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know it's a punishment

know it's a punishment
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sometimes i wonder

sometimes i wonder
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what's it gonna be like

what's it gonna be like
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what i'm gonna say to her

what i'm gonna say to her
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i'm gonna ogre

i'm gonna ogre
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how do she look she get bigger she gets

how do she look she get bigger she gets
smaller

smaller

smaller
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what you're gonna think

what you're gonna think
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me loving her kayla it made me stronger

me loving her kayla it made me stronger
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you know it gave me an extra drive tell

you know it gave me an extra drive tell
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me that

me that
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you can do it

you can do it
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yeah yeah yeah what does it cost school

yeah yeah yeah what does it cost school
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yeah and come back a bit a bit and now

yeah and come back a bit a bit and now
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it plots yeah and it's so filled but

it plots yeah and it's so filled but
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it's cool yeah that states

it's cool yeah that states
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now

with my sexuality

with my sexuality
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okay yeah yeah so it

okay yeah yeah so it
flick

flick

flick
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i'll leave her

i'll leave her
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i never expect how it was gonna be so

i never expect how it was gonna be so
long

long

long
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i don't know if she's mad with me which

i don't know if she's mad with me which
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i asked her and she said she's mad at me

i asked her and she said she's mad at me
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small but

small but
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so i tell her i'm gonna make it up back

so i tell her i'm gonna make it up back
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i don't want him to be too mad at me

i don't want him to be too mad at me
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i just do it because i want her to be

i just do it because i want her to be
happy

happy

happy
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even if i live in jamaica with her

even if i live in jamaica with her
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everybody gonna tell her after a while

everybody gonna tell her after a while
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that her mom is a lesbian i don't want

that her mom is a lesbian i don't want
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nobody to tell her mom is a lesbian i

nobody to tell her mom is a lesbian i
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want to tell her myself if anybody to

want to tell her myself if anybody to
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tell her i don't want her to go anywhere

tell her i don't want her to go anywhere
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and nobody teases no your mom is a lesbo

and nobody teases no your mom is a lesbo
no

no

no
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going to make sure you feel bad

going to make sure you feel bad
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because i'm a lesbian it's not a disease

because i'm a lesbian it's not a disease
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i don't have aids

i don't have aids
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as if having aged there's a problem you

as if having aged there's a problem you
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know but

know but
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i'm not dying

i'm not dying
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whatever i'm is i'm not dying you know

whatever i'm is i'm not dying you know
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understand so i just want you to be she

understand so i just want you to be she
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and be comfortable with her and don't

and be comfortable with her and don't
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so that's why i do what i have to do

so that's why i do what i have to do
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once simone has her daughter she can

once simone has her daughter she can
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feel safe and close that chapter of her

feel safe and close that chapter of her
life

life

life
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you miss your friends and family but

you miss your friends and family but
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you're not going to miss jamaica

you're not going to miss jamaica
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i'm not going to miss the head

i'm not going to miss the head
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i really think that we can start to undo

i really think that we can start to undo
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all that hate it's going to take a lot

all that hate it's going to take a lot
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and

and
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i mean i don't know where

i mean i don't know where
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my work is in that process i certainly

my work is in that process i certainly
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oh lord good morning

oh lord good morning
i

i

i
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decided to keep going back every week

decided to keep going back every week
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from toronto

from toronto
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so that i could continue teaching my

so that i could continue teaching my
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class in discrimination law for the rest

class in discrimination law for the rest
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we have to complete the syllabus today

we have to complete the syllabus today
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because this is the last class okay

because this is the last class okay
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remember when we discussed

remember when we discussed
discrimination

discrimination

discrimination
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and we looked at what is immutable is it

and we looked at what is immutable is it
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a function of nature or nurture or does

a function of nature or nurture or does
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it matter

it matter
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in relation to sexual orientation can

in relation to sexual orientation can
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gaze change

gaze change
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and as i like to

and as i like to
say

say

say
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i've tried it all

i've tried it all
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it didn't work for me and in the case

it didn't work for me and in the case
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lawrence and texas

lawrence and texas
the

the

the
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court i try not to dwell on the the

court i try not to dwell on the the
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death threats because you just do what

death threats because you just do what
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you have to do for the people who can't

you have to do for the people who can't
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speak up for themselves can't advocate

speak up for themselves can't advocate
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for themselves and i hope

for themselves and i hope
that

that

that
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my work will not be in vain i know that

my work will not be in vain i know that
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there's a tremendous backlash right now

there's a tremendous backlash right now
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um by the religious right

um by the religious right
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in jamaica against the advances that

in jamaica against the advances that
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i really hope to stay here

i really hope to stay here
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but i don't want to put

but i don't want to put
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by being in montego bay

by being in montego bay
so

so

so
that

that

that
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is the more important thing to me

is the more important thing to me
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i don't want them to be exposed to

i don't want them to be exposed to
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can you come a minute please

can you come a minute please
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if i were single

if i were single
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this would have played out very

this would have played out very
differently

differently

differently
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i'm glad i'm married i'm glad i have

i'm glad i'm married i'm glad i have
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someone who loves me enough to go

someone who loves me enough to go
through

through

through
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i fought too hard to establish myself as

i fought too hard to establish myself as
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a gay man

a gay man
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in a relationship that

in a relationship that
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is of my own choosing and one that i'm

is of my own choosing and one that i'm
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proud of and i don't want to push

proud of and i don't want to push
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jamaica is more than island

jamaica is more than island
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but no matter where you go in the world

but no matter where you go in the world
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no matter what happened you're still

no matter what happened you're still
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gonna miss where you're from you know

gonna miss where you're from you know
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i just want to you know go back go to j

i just want to you know go back go to j
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flag sit down in the office that i used

flag sit down in the office that i used
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to sit in and just kind of breathe in

to sit in and just kind of breathe in
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but um i know i can't

but um i know i can't
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so what do you do you just have to stay

so what do you do you just have to stay
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arrival three

arrival three
alright

okay

okay
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mommy<01:01:27.760> don't<01:01:28.079> cry

mommy don't cry

mommy don't cry
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what do you look for

what do you look for
all<01:01:43.440> right

enjoy your mom okay and thanks for

enjoy your mom okay and thanks for
everything

oh i'm a friend

oh i'm a friend
this<01:02:10.000> susan

cake

cake
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[Laughter]

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don't cry

don't cry
okay

what was the flag

what was the flag
asleep

asleep

asleep
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i love you

i love you
stop<01:02:38.480> by<01:02:38.640> the<01:02:38.799> whole<01:02:39.039> sheridan

come on

come on
come<01:03:01.920> on

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okay<01:03:06.640> you're<01:03:06.799> home

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good

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so

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a<01:03:48.240> speed<01:03:48.720> keep<01:03:48.960> coming

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okay<01:03:55.520> don't<01:03:55.760> know<01:03:56.319> ah

all right

all right
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