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[Teal Swan] I want to start
with a meditation for you.

So, if everybody
could close their eyes...

Drop into this meditation
by watching your breath.

Just watch
your natural rhythm.

As you exhale,
feel yourself drifting

into a state of deep presence.

Allow yourself to consider
that there are

two kinds of connections
that we form with other people.

There's the connection
that's positive,

which feels like love.
Joyous times spent together,

care, fondness,
and so much more.

And there is a connection
that is negative,

that feels like fear, worry,

obligation, desperation,

jealousy, and so much more.

It appears like a cord
between you and another person.

Now, see one person
in your life

who you are attached to
by one of these cords,

and accept that this person
is someone with whom

you have a painful bond.

Why might you have allowed them
to attach this cord to you?

What are you afraid will happen
if this cord isn't there?

Imagine the cord falling
from the other person.

Feel yourself being set free
from your painful bond.

You are now ready to return
to the full waking state.

Gently open your eyes.

♪♪

[exhaling]

-[Teal] Blake!
-[sighs]

[Teal]
Blake, where are you?

[Teal] I am hoping that
this private investigator

we hired will get somewhere.

I need to get this horrible
slander piece on me taken down.

So if we can
do something with her,

then people will probably be
shutting me out less,

which I'm really
hoping happens.

[squeaky yawn]

Should I be afraid of her,
or is she nice?

Hi, Joy. You're back!

You've been gone for three days,
you had me worried.

I thought the raccoons got ya.

There you go, sweetheart. Yum.

-[video call sound]
-[Molly Monahan]
So, well, I'm thrilled,

uh, to finally
have the opportunity

to speak with you.
This has been a long, uh,

a long process, um...

So, my job was to--

Investigate everything.

[Molly] Right. I'm-- you know,
I'm coming from a place

where you hired me
to be honest, and I feel

it's important for me
to check in with you.

-OK.
- So, here's the deal.

Um, "Does she cause suicide?

Is she a cult?" No, maybe.

And I wanted you to hear that
from me before I start

writing this up, that, um,
your non-negotiable list

-kinda solidified that for me.
-[Teal] OK.

And I need to delve deeper
into that honestly.

[Teal]
Let's do it, then.

OK, so, I'm kind of
interested in the--

in the headquarters
and your relationship

with your core group,

what your expectations
are of them--

-Uh-huh.
- And what, um, and...

[Teal] So do you want
me to answer your question?

- Yeah.
-[Teal] There's no
real division for me,

in my life, for somebody
who's really, you know,

this focused on
what they're focused on.

There's no, like,
work/life balance. It's--

Everything I do in my life
is always feeding into the work,

and vice-versa. So, anybody
who's really close to me,

it doesn't really work
to have relationships unless

they're kind of on the boat,
because I'm not gonna--

it's not gonna be equal,
honestly.

- Mm-hmm.
-With me, if that makes sense.

Kinda. So, would you say
that you have

the total and only answer?

-No.
- Really?

-Yeah.
- I thought it was your vision.

[Teal] Yeah,
but I'm the people--

But basically,
you're the driving force.

No. I wouldn't say
that I'm the driving force.

I would say
that people's life experience

is the driving force.

- OK, let's go to number two.
-OK.

"Attempts to isolate from
existing close relationships,

friends, and family,
cut family ties."

Um, you alluded to that
earlier on, you know,

if you're gonna be here,
you're gonna have

to limit
your relationships--

That's not what I said.

- Um...
-No. I-- Totally the opposite.

Totally the opposite of that.
I-- I have no interest

in limiting people's
relationships. I would love it

if they were able to have as
close relationships as possible.

I want to facilitate that.
But what I encourage the most

is to see everybody in existence
as one human family,

so that's why it's almost
like the vision for the world

is-- is one tribe.

If somebody resists
buying into the mission,

are they countered with
questions of their own belief

in theirself or their own,
um, selfishness,

like you're not willing
to commit to the cause, or--?

-[Teal] No.
- OK.

Um-- [clears throat]
"Once you're in,

heavy pressure to stay in."

No. [nervous chuckle]

You're-- You're stepping
into a territory

that really frustrates me,
and I literally don't know

what the answer is,
because anything

that causes people pain
is my interest

to find a solution
to those things.

Mmkay. Um... OK.

You have a heavy schedule,
and uh, I'm at the very end

of my investigation.
I'll wrap up what I've got,

and then if I hear from you
again, I hear from you again.

-[Teal] OK.
-[video chat sign off noise]

-I'm not happy after that.
-[Matthias Deffner]
Yeah, no, I--

That's not an acceptable thing
I just heard from her.

Yeah, I'm nervous. I mean,
now it's clear for

she's coming from, you know,
we shouldn't publish this.

-That's why--
-[Teal] You fix
this shit, Matthias.

Yes.

[Teal] How I am represented
is a very big deal to me.

-Yes.
-[Teal] I am trusting
you to do that

so I can focus on my work.

Like, I lost trust for you
and Blake, just now, again.

-[Matthias] Yes.
-Yeah.

[Teal] I did not say
what she said I said.

"You can't have relationships
and be part of this."

I don't understand what these
people want my answers to be.

"No, I'm not actually
very dedicated to this.

No, I don't expect
the people around me

to be dedicated to this.
No, I don't think it's a problem

if they have partners that are
completely incompatible

-to this."
-[sighs]

[Teal]
What do they [bleep] want?

[Blake]

[sighs]

[fingernails clicking]

[sighs]

[birds chirping]

I have a question for you.

What would you make you
go back to Germany?

What comes up is being
completely alone.

[clock ticking loudly]

[clock chiming]

[Teal]
I am really angry today.

I basically realized
in the last few days

that it's-- it's because
a personal truth

is not actually being shared.

There's a lot of reasons why.
I mean, like,

people have many reasons why
they resist a personal truth.

Whether it's
to avoid consequences,

or because admitting to it
is gonna make them feel bad

about themself,
whatever it is.

Juliana. That's what's
happening with you.

[sighs] You feel like
an adversary to me,

and I need that to change.

[Tristen]
Like, "enemy."

Opposing.

I need your truths
on the table.

What you actually think
about me, pretty [bleep] quick.

I can tell you've got
all kinds of personal truths

about what you think
is unhealed about me

and unhealthy about me,
and unhealthy about

the company I run, unhealthy
about the house I lead,

unhealthy about
my dynamics with people.

It's literally unhealthy,
unhealthy, unhealthy,

unhealthy, unhealthy--
[chuckles]

-[Juliana grunts]
-Yeah, thi-this is

what you've been doing
since the minute you landed.

You keep insulting me.
It's all over your energy field.

So I suggest
you talk about that.

What do you feel when
you hear that, Juliana?

[Teal] That is--
because if you weren't aware,

you have this smirk
on your face.

A smirk? No, I'm...

I'm afraid, actually.

[Teal]
You should be.

Do you know what would be
interesting to me, actually?

Is based off of the interaction
that you and I have had,

what you think your attitude
towards me is

and what
every other person here

thinks your attitude
towards me is.

What I think of you
is that you're, like,

really clear on what you want
and where you want to go

in your life, and that
you have, like,

a very clear commitment
to your mission.

But in general, like...

You are a powerful person.

All right, let's go
to somebody else, then.

'Cause that was
a very toned down,

very sweet,
very sugarcoated answer.

[sighs]

[Matthias] I do feel
that you really wanted

to be part of this.
I think that, uh, the mission

is fascinating for you.
You say she's powerful,

but I feel you see
a negative power in her.

Unfortunately, I don't think
you see that Teal

actually has
your best interest,

and there's no resolution
if you don't

recognize authority.
[sighs]

[Tristen] I think you think that
she doesn't care about people.

I think you think
she's hungry for power.

I think you think
she's manipulative

with her sexuality.

[Teal]
Your turn, Sky.

I think you hate Teal
on one level.

Like, you're envious of her.

I think you feel
threatened by her.

I think you're afraid of her.
[clears throat]

I think you want what she has.

[Blake]
Damn, Sky.

Just sound you listed,
like, every bad thing

you could think of.
I don't know.

You think I support and add to
painful suffering in the world.

You think that
I'm an attention whore.

You think I'm narcissist.

You think I control others,

even the way they see things.

You think I'm too masculine,
too harsh, not very nice,

don't care about people,
manipulate Blake.

I'm tyrannical, have
the wrong values, use people.

I hurt myself and others.
I'm power-hungry

and responsible for
the power struggles

between you and me.
I want everyone for myself.

I surround myself with enablers.
That I'm very powerful,

that I'm very talented,
that I have

a very meaningful mission.
How conflicting.

That's what I get to live with
in the room with me every day.

And somehow, you're the one
being attacked.

[Blake] Well, the point of this
was to bring it up, right?

And then to deal
with it, or...

I don't know,
what was the point of this?

I don't know, Blake,
what was the point of this?

[muffled chatter]

[sighs]

[both lightly panting]

[car passing]

[dog whimpering]

[breathing heavily]

[exclaims]

[Matthias] OK, so, well,
we have to make a meeting

where we can see
how we can transfer everything

so we can take over.

[Teal]
That really pisses me off.

This operates,
this whole thing operates

according to the 18-year promise
that we made each other, Blake.

The promise that we're
on the boat,

and we're gonna
do this together,

and that's our life.

And this has broken my heart.

Mine, too.

[Teal]
I think you're weak.

That's my honest truth.

I think you lack bravery.

I think you lack honor.

But you've made your bed,
and now you get to lie in it.

He who chooses a weak path
does not become

a match to greatness.

[sighs]

I have no patience
for this anymore.

If you want to flip
the favor around,

like you guys
have been doing to me,

the level of [bleep] judgment
you have on me

being a narcissistic bitch,

you're a
[bleep] absolute loser.

Always will be.

Never forget those words.

[Blake] Think I'll pack
the rest of this stuff

and head out.

K.

OK.

Love you.

[sighs]

[sighs]

OK. Bye.

I'm just gonna be downstairs
for a little longer.

[door closes]

[Blake]
Do you need any help?

I don't know.

[Blake]
Here we are.

[water running]

Can I help you with that?

[sighs] I don't...

Oh, [bleep].

Oh, no.

Oh, shit.

[gasps]

[bleep]

Oh, no.

[Juliana]
Oh, shit.

[Blake groans]

I think she's still alive.

I can feel her...

just barely.

[sniffles]

[car passing, horn honking]

[sniffles]

[crying]

[breathing heavily]

[knife scraping]

[sighs]

[water running]

[Blake]
I am posting in the Teal Tribe

about how I'm stepping back
from Teal Eye.

OK.

There it is.

Jesus Christ.

-[alert sound]
-Oh, there we go. There it is.

[alert sound]

Here's our first "sad face."

"Thank you, Blake Dyer, for all
that you have done for Teal,

the team, and the tribe.
I can imagine

it's a tough decision to make.
Wish you all the best

and support you in
following your happiness."

Like, this, like,
this is-- this is men.

This is men
that are encouraging him

abandoning me
because of high pressure.

I want you to sit with that
for a minute.

[sighs]

[alert sound]

[Blake]
"I wish you and your wife

a meaningful journey together

in your new path." Hm.

All these people are, like,
wishing him and his wife

a wonderful life together,
and if they really knew

what had happened here,
they'd be wanting her dead.

They would.

[alerts dinging]

[Blake] Oh, my gosh.
It is so many messages.

[chuckles]

Uh, "Spreading
lots of love, Blake.

Thanks for all
you've done for us.

These past 10 years
of following Teal's content

would not have been the same
without you so happy.

See you following your heart."

I have not been able
to cry about this.

At all.

It just-- it feels like war.
It feels like

this is not a space to cry.
It feels like

the person closest to you
just completely

[bleep] your life
and dealt you the worst hand

that anybody's ever
dealt you before. And I--

In, like, full-blown...

How do we survive
this situation as a group?

How do we get out of this
financially?

How do we protect
ourselves legally?

This is, like, a nightmare.
[sighs]

I built every relationship
in my life

on top of this one.
Because I didn't trust at all,

and he's the one
that taught me how to trust,

and he's ruined it all.
So, for 18 years, I was like--

I mean, I can't tell you how
many-- in the beginning,

how many therapists were like,
"You have to trust this person.

This person has proven
that he will never leave you.

This person is the person
you have to open up to.

Stop being like you are,
stop distrusting people."

To the point where
I was like, "All right,

I'm gonna have to accept
that he's proven himself."

So I built my life
on the foundation

of Blake Dyer as my family.

He's broken every [bleep]
promise he made.

What is it
that I should've done

to make Blake feel valued or
to make Blake value this more?

Or love me more?
Like, what is it

that I should've done?
I know the most dangerous thing

in the world is to think
you're the good guy.

So I'm awake at night
doubting myself,

because that's what I teach
other people to [bleep] do.

Consider that maybe
you're not the good guy.

That's the only way
you're gonna be able

to change your behavior,
to make relationships work

in the future. The thing is,
I can't figure out

what the [bleep] to change,
so... [sighs]

[Teal] Hello, everyone.
Today's about

how to express emotion.

Emotions are energy,
and energy has to go somewhere.

So when you suppress
that energy, your emotions,

instead of express that energy,
it sits in your body

and rots it from within.

My life purpose and mission is
to find an answer to suffering.

The only emotions
that you can heal are the ones

that you let yourself feel
and let yourself express.

The negative emotions
which we're experiencing

are not completely negative.
And when we're running away

from those emotions, we are
running away from ourselves.

[panting]

[Teal] So I think that it's time
that we do the opposite,

that we learn how
to positively embrace

our negative emotions
as a part of our living,

breathing experience.
So try this process.

I hope it benefits you.
Have a good week.

[breathing heavily]

-OK, you guys ready?
-Mm-hmm.

Here's the problem
we get to address today,

is the fact that
I am not protected.

-Mm-hmm.
-[Teal] If any member of my team

finds a partner, it's like
I don't even have the option

to put up any boundaries
around that person

if they're totally incompatible
to what I'm doing,

and I don't get to say
anything about it.

Otherwise, I'm the nightmare.

-[Matthias] Yeah.
-[Graci] Yeah.

I want you to be able to get
partners, but I also,

given what's
previously happened,

don't really want you
to have partners.

'Cause this has just been
such a problem for me.

Yeah.

[Teal] What all of you are is,
you're either

my greatest protection
or my greatest liability.

I need you to see that today.
So what we're trying to do

is make up a contact,
make you not a liability.

All right, so how
do you keep me safe?

[Cyan] So, I feel like what we
need to do as team members

is choose what consequences
we say yes to

upon bringing a partner
into this circle.

Yeah. Basically,
what this boils down to

is I need to be able
to get rid of you

if you bring somebody close
that's dangerous to me.

Mm-hmm. Yeah.

So how about this?
Agreement number one,

we're the ones holding
the boundaries for it.

-This is what we stand for.
-[Teal] Mm-hmm.

[Graci] This is what
we want to do with our life.

And putting the pressure
on our partner to choose that.

The problem I keep running into
is that people on my team

don't understand
the necessity for these--

these non-negotiables
and rules of fame.

[Graci]
So number two is

the non-negotiables
are non-negotiable.

[Teal] And so does
any partner you have.

-[Graci] Yeah.
-The partner signs up
to the non-negotiables.

-[Teal] They have to, yeah.
-[Graci] Yeah.

[Graci]

[exhales sharply]

I can't be kept awake at 3:00
in the [bleep] morning

before an interview
by a-- a screaming baby.

[Graci] All the girls here
are on board.

We're not having kids.

[Teal] Mm-hmm. We need
to write this down.

I want this to be
part of the contact.

[keyboard clacking]

[keyboard clacking]

OK, so...

[man on computer]
Where is the Ark?

"Where is the Ark?"
This is what comes to my mind

when I'm asked, what do I think
is going to happen

with my report
after I submit it.

And, uh, this scene
says it well.

♪♪

[laughs]

-[chuckling]
-[mouse clicking]

That's all I've got
to say about that. [laughs]

[Molly] They made it clear
that they don't wanna

look at what I've found.
But it's frustrating

to work this hard
on something,

and though I am not
attached to outcome,

it's gonna get shelved.

"When we only do things
that please us

and don't frighten us,
over time,

fewer and fewer things
please us.

Until we find ourselves
prisoners

in gardens
of our own making."

[Master of Ceremonies] OK, guys,
it is time to acknowledge

the extraordinary contributions
of all of your great minds

in the healthcare industry.
Please join me in welcoming

the oh-so-amazing Teal Swan,
owner and founder

- of Teal Eye LLC. Give it up.
-[applause]

[Molly] This is where I believe
Teal Swan has buried herself,

in a prison
of her own making.

[man]

[clamoring, cheering]

[Matthias] Congratulations.
Over 150 million views.

[Tristen] Thanks for
saving all of our lives.

[Molly] I have no way of knowing
the ultimate effect

that Teal Swan is having
on all these different orbits

of people around her,
but I'm concerned

about her followers.

'Cause these
are fragile people.

For some of them,
she is all they have.

[Cyan] Congratulations.
We are certifying you

in the completion process.

-[shrieks]
-Well done.

I can't believe it!

So pretty soon, you're gonna
get an invite from us

to the CPC worldwide network,
so we're gonna connect you

with all the other
certified practitioners

all around the globe
that have also passed.

We'd happy to have you
be part of the family.

[Molly] You're never
completely whole

when you separate from somebody
you're that entwined with.

When you leave, you almost
have to become somebody else.

But you have the power
to change who you are.

And I think it helps to know
that you can do that.

[woman speaking German
over P.A.]

Hi!

[Juliana speaking German]

[both laugh]

Hi, my love!

[both laughing]

Hi!

[Juliana's Mom]

[laughs]

[no dialogue]

[no dialogue]

[speaking German]

[sniffles]

[speaking German]

[speaking German]

[speaking German]

[speaking German]

[Teal] If I was to show you
an image of the average person,

they're walking around
like a hollow shell.

Loneliness is the epidemic
on this planet.

I don't want to live
in the world like that.

A person does not
go looking for God

unless they were missing
something in humanity.

You don't go looking for God
unless people have failed you.

What I've found is an answer
to that suffering.

What I've found
was the place that I fit in.

You realize
that's everything.

Finding meaning for
your suffering is everything.

[Cyan]
So who's ready to dive in?

[cheering, applause]

All right,
without further ado,

we introduce to you,
Teal Swan.

[cheering, applause]

[Teal]
Wow. OK.

By raise of hands,
who here feels like

they're in pain and like
there's no way out of it?

["Yo! My Saint"
by Karen O playing]

♪ Don't you
tell another lie ♪

♪ Don't you
tell another truth ♪

♪ My heart,
it isn't bulletproof ♪

♪ From visions of you ♪

♪ Forget 'em,
get 'em, get 'em ♪

♪ I used
to rule the streets ♪

♪ I was young enough
to know that ♪

♪ There was something
to believe in ♪

♪ Now I'm tired
of the lies they tell ♪

♪ I'm trying
to disguise myself ♪

♪ The perfect crime
that I'll commit ♪

♪ Is loving you
despite all of it ♪