All language subtitles for A.Million Little Things S05E13 - One Big Thing

Previously on
"A Million Little Things"...

We're at the point
where any treatment we try

may affect
his quality of life.

I want to celebrate
every second we have left.

And I want to do that
as your wife.

Yo, Gare!

You seeing this?
Your little man's doing it!

Yay!

Gary,
Javi is walking!

What are you writing?

"Don't be jealous."

That is very funny.

We're both
in wheelchairs,

only I don't need someone
to push mine.

Pay attention, this is a
watershed moment for your son.

Those are not actually
his first steps.

That was last week.

He's doing this whole
"crib to 5k" thing. Yeah.

Well, in that case,
the little punk

is just rubbing it
in my face,

and I don't appreciate it
one bit.

Hey, Mendez, you have
to eat something.

And not just 'cause there's a
hungry Mastiff eyeing your eggs.

Yeah, I know
you're not hungry,

but, sweetie, you gotta
keep your strength up.

You shouldn't take your pain
meds on an empty stomach.

Mmm.
Mmm! Delicious.

You don't know what
you're missing, truly.

Egg-ceptional.Mm-hmm.

I'm sure now that
you've licked his fork,

he's really
gonna want that.

You know
he's not 2 years old.

You don't have to airplane it
into his mouth-hangar.

No, I wasn't.

Hey, Gare. How about I make you
that thing you like

with the peanut butter
and ice cream

that you call a smoothie
we all know is a milkshake?

There we go.

Cookie dough smoothie
coming up.

Hmm?
What is it, Powder?

You, uh,
change your mind?

You want me to make the egg
choo-choo train

go into
the mouth tunnel?

Well,
it's coming right up.

Chugga chugga chugga,
all aboar--

Are you sure?

Okay.

Hey, what's up, man?Hey, Rome.

I'm with Gary.

I need you to meet me
at my place right away.

Are you saying
what I think you're saying?

Yep.
I'll be right there.

Oh, my God, Rome,
tell me you're filming.

Son, baby mama,
anyone else who's watching,

Ed, I want to -- I want to make
sure I get this right, okay?

Because it's going
into the archives.

It was a momentary --
Listen to me.

It was a visceral,
emotional response --

Visceral, understood.

But the fact remains
that in that moment,

you thought
Aaron Burr was a Blackmun.

Because the actor playing him
in "Hamilton" was Black!

I'm never gonna live this down,
am I?

Uh, probably not.

Doubtful, bro.No, no, no.

He thought that Aaron Burr
was Black for the same reason

that you thought umbrellas
could make you fly --

because you saw it once
in a musical.

Oh, and that's sweet, though!I do know --

I do know that Barack Obama
was our first Black president.

Wait a minute. What?

You think Obama was the first
Black president?

Yeah.

He is, right? Wha--

You guys are jerks,
man.

Hey, you heard it
here first, son.

If you're struggling
in African American studies,

make sure you go to Rome
for tutoring.

Or go to a Black man.

Ooh!Ooh!

Eddie strikes back!

He is not throwing away
his shot!

Give me your best side, bro.
This is going to festivals.

Oh, man.
Turn the camera off.

Dude, you said
to never stop filming,

especially when Eddie's
making a fool of himself.

You're right,
I did say that.

Now turn it off.

Uh, I need to talk to you guys
about something.

Uh, I got a favor to ask.

Yeah, anything.Yeah, say the word.

First of all, you two have been
nothing short of spectacular,

hanging out with me at chemo,
helping out with Colin.

And obviously,
I'm gonna beat this thing.

Amen.Of course you are, man.

But if I don't...

...I need you two
to help me end it.

Oh, dude, say the word,

I'll hit you over the head
with a blunt object.

We can end it right now.

We walk over to the fridge,
slam it really hard,

or you break wind into this,
we strap it over his face --

He's out. Painless.Hold him
down, hold him down.

Guys, I'm serious.

What? Wait, whoa,
what are you talking about?

If by some chance
things go south,

I do not want to be stuck
in some hospital bed in pain,

crapping myself, and --
and wasting away into nothing.

So if we get to that point,
which we won't...

...I need you to go see Kevin,
okay?

He'll know why
you're there.

That's right,
during my last round of chemo,

I did
all the party planning.

How's that
for multi-tasking?

He's gonna give you
the right drugs...

and you're gonna use those drugs
to put me out of my misery.

What? Dude, I --

Hey, I love you,
and I will do anything for you,

but this is
completely off the table.

Oh, really?
I've never --

You two rallied around me
when I was at my lowest moment.

You helped me get on
antidepressants,

you helped me
deal with things

that not even my dad
would accept.

And now you want me
to take you out?

No, Rome,
that's not what I want.

This is
completely different.

If I can get better, hell,
even if I can stay like this,

but if I'm in pain,
man --

I was in pain.No, I am talking about

excruciating physical pain.

The kind that only comes
with Stage 4 cancer.

I'm not gonna even
pretend to know

what you were going through,
but you got help.

You said it yourself,

you had to be reminded
that the dark days would pass.

But if we exhaust
all medical possibilities

and we're just running out
the clock, that's it.

There's no more sun
for me.

Look, guys, I-I-I realize

this is a big ask, I do.

You think?

You're the one that's always
talking about the elevator, Ed.

I mean,
what did we say?

This is it.
This is Rutledge.

No. Rutledge was Jon
making us promise

that we would look out
for each other's families.

Exactly.

I need you to look
after my family.

I cannot let Maggie watch me
suffer and die

from the same disease
that she has battled twice.

It's called
death with dignity,

and that's all I want.

That's why we've been
making these videos,

so that someday, my son
can look at his father

and see a man
who is optimistic,

living life
to the fullest,

and the same goes for you two,
the whole crew.

I do not want you gathered
around my bed ugly-crying

and waiting for me
to take my final breath.

No, I want you all together
at some big ass dinner,

laughing
and telling stories

about how Eddie thought
Aaron Burr was Black.

I lost myself in the music.

Have you talked to Maggie
about this?

No, of course not.

And don't you dare tell her,
either.

Game's not over, guys.
I'm right here.

This...

This is Plan Z.

And I just --
I want it to be in place.

I, um...

I need it...

to be in place.

Alright.

We won't tell Maggie.

But if we do need a Plan Z,
youwill.

And by the grace of God,

she won't ever have
to watch this.

How will we know
it's time?

Thanks.

Doctor: I'm not worried
about her falling.

She's annoying everybody.

It's just talkie, talkie,
talkie.

There he is.Okay, I'm on it.

Hey, man.

Oh, no.

Kev...

he's in a lot of pain.

He told us to come to you
when it was time.

Yeah, he said you'd know
exactly what to do.

Uh...

guys, I don't know
what you're talking about.

I can't help you
with anything like that.

Excuse me.

Wait. Hey.
Kev, hold up.

So you're saying you and Gary
never talked about any of this?

Then why would
he tell us that?

Look, I don't know, okay?
I don't know.

And even if we had,
I can't.

What you're talking about
is illegal in Massachusetts.

I could lose my job.

Kevin, he's not eating.

Can you please at least
tell us what to do?

Look, Gary's my dude,
okay?

But my hands are tied.

Here's what I can do,
though.

You can take him this,
and...

...let's hope he eats it.

Grown-ass man loved him
some gelatin, right?

Seriously?

Pre-school snack,
that's your consolation prize?

I thought
you cared about him.

I do.

Hey, Rome.
Let's just get out of here.

Thanks for nothing.

D, hey.
Is everything alright?

Yes!
Hi, neighbor.

Hi.
Hi, Javi!

Gary's upstairs
waiting for you.

I left the door unlocked.

Okay, perfect.

You sure you don't
need my help with --Oh, we got it.

It's a big help you just being
there with him while he's awake.

I know he'll be happy
to see you.

Okay.

Dude, what the hell
are we gonna do?

Come on, bro,
you were in a band,

you're telling me
you can't track down drugs?

Isn't that 90%
of what roadies do?

Yes, but the last time
I had a roadie,

I also had a flip phone.

What about you, man?

What about me?Dude, you're a teacher

at a prep school
full of rich kids.

Haven't you seen "Euphoria"?Of course I've seen "Euphoria."

Well, think about it!

Ooh, what about your dad's
"assisted living facility"?

What are you using
air quotes for?

The place is legit
filled with old people.

And I don't think we can take
our man out with Viagra, either.

What about your sister?No, she's sober again.

Great. And by the time
she's not, it'll be too late.

Wait, you can't be pissed that
my sister's back on the wagon.

I'm not mad at Lindsay,
that's my girl!

Wha--
What do you mean, "your girl"?

Look,
I'm just mad at Kevin

because he lied to us.Dude, I know.

There's no way Gary would have
made something like that up.

Well, it's irrelevant now

because if we don't figure
something out,

we're gonna have to
go back to our boy

and tell him
that we couldn't come through

with the one thing
that he asked us to do.

Oh, my God.

I can't believe
I'm about to say this.

What?

Say it.

Dakota.

I can call Dakota.

She can score us
whatever we need.

You know,
I bet the bastard

didn't even
give us lime flavored.

Hang up the phone, Ed.

Hello?

Kevin gave us
more than gelatin.

Eddie, is that you?

Uh, hey, Dakota. Hey.

We should catch up sometime.
Now's not the time. Bye.

Oh, o--

Well, Ed...

I guess we no longer
have a problem.

Yeah, we do.

This just got too real.

I can't do this.

Okay.

I'll be right here
if you need anything.

Thank you.

Hey.
Hi.

Uh,
you ready for this?

No, but, uh,
let's do it anyway.

Thank you.

Wait, this is the one

the funeral home
wants 6 grand for.

They only want
$4,800 for it.

Not for long.
Just, uh, follow my lead.

What?

Hey, guys.What are you --

Can I help you
with something?

I-I hope so.

It's our uncle.
He's about to meet his maker.

I mean, it could be weeks,
it could be tomorrow.

We just don't know.

But that's how life is,
right?

You just don't know.

Oh.

How's he doing
with all of this?

Uh, this is the first time
he's left Gary's side.

Mm.

Yeah, never thought
I'd be jealous of a dog.

But he knows what's up.

But we're gonna get through it
together, aren't we, pal?

Um, heads up,

I think
you're being recognized.

Oh, please.

I don't mean
to sound ungrateful,

but this was hard enough before
my listeners caught wind of it.

Hold that thought.

I'm so sorry
to interrupt.

No, please.

You are in the room
with Dr. Bloom.

Uh, I don't know
what that means.

I just wanted to say
I voted for you.

I really wanted you
to win.

I hope you think
about running again.

Yeah,
that makes two of us.

Thank you so much.
I

I have a few years
to recover.

We'll see.

But thank you for coming up
and saying that.

No. Thank you.

Look at you!
Mm.

Oh, there she is.

Ah!Hey. Sorry I'm late.

I had to go
to three different stores

to find the right color.No problem.

We are ready.Greta: Okay.

Are you ready?Let's go paint the town.

You ready to go? Let's do it.

And Charlie learned
to take selfies,

so here are
like 47 of them.

But I didn't just pop in
to show you some photos.

I also came because

I wanted to say
thank you.

"I don't have condoms."

You know, when I heard
you couldn't make a sound,

I was actually looking forward
to our conversation.

You okay?

Oh, God!

Gary, that's --
I felt that on my leg!

Don't you dare
lift that up!

Don't you d--[ Laughing, coughing ]

You make me laugh
without saying anything.

Am I that easy?

Don't answer that.

Did you know that
when I first met you,

I pegged you to be
this snarky smartass

who seemed angry
at the whole world?

I was right.

But I was just outside
thinking about, uh...

about the day
you came to the house.

Every day in every single way
since then,

you have stepped up
for us.

Me, especially.

No, I'm gonna say all
the good things I want to say,

because for once,
you can't cut me off.

You're the best friend
I've ever had.

You're more than that.
You're...

my brother.

And I want you to know
that you can count on me.

I am going to be here
for Maggie.

I'm gonna be here
for your son.

I know his name is Javi,
shut up!

Enough with the board.

Do you remember
the day, uh,

you found out
about Eddie and me?

It was your birthday.

Gosh, it was hard
to face you that night

when you came by.

Even though I hurt you,
you --

you never abandoned me.

And you took care of my kids
when you knew that I couldn't.

And that night,
when we lit your candles,

do you remember
what you wished for?

Same wish
you make every year.

Gary, I know
that the only reason

Eddie and I are together
is because of you,

'cause you told him
to follow his heart.

And I am happy.

We all are.

And in time,
Maggie will be happy again.

I promise you.

So I wanted to say thank you
for making that wish.

Should I be scared?

What are you gonna write?

God.

You're impossible!

Oh, my God, Gary.

You know,
off the record,

I've never let anybody
do that to me.

But hey, if I thought
it'd cure your cancer...

I'd flip 'em right over.

That was quite the performance.

Yeah, but we saved
a thousand bucks including tax.

Gary would be so proud.

Yeah, I can't wait
to tell him.

On second thought,
uh,

maybe we don't mention
any of this to him.

Better.
Yeah.

So,
I put the item on hold,

and it'll be ready
whenever you're ready for it.

Thank you so much,
you're very kind.

Yeah, my sister's right,
you're very kind.

And -- And good luck
with your Etsy shop.

Thanks.

Oh,
here's your credit card.

Sophie Dixon?

Yeah. Uh, sorry,
do we know each other, or...?

Jon: Hey, wait.
Hold the door, that's my plane.

I'm sorry, sir, we've already
closed the jet bridge.

Here's the head count.

No, no, I have to
get on the plane.

Once the jet bridge door
is closed, I can't open it.

No, it's just...
my name's Sophie, too.

It's kismet!

It really is.
You know what?

I'm going to give you
my employee discount.

Oh, thank you.

Hey, sleepyhead.

Delilah leave already?

Alright, we're going
on a field trip.

I gotta show you something.

Hey, Eddie.
What are you doing here?

Hi. I need to talk to you
about something.

I'm not supposed to say
anything to anyone,

but I need your opinion

because from the moment
I met you,

you've had this
unbelievable ability,

despite what
you're going through,

to think about things
rationally and objectively,

and right now,
I need your strength.

Well, in that case,
step into my office.

Coming!

Rome.
Hey, Pop.

What's wrong? Nothing.

I wanted to hear your voice,
see your mug,

drop off some bagels,
and hang out with my old man.

Nope.

I know my boy.

Something's wrong.

Gary's not gonna make it.

Oh, Rome.

I'm so sorry.

Come here, son.

That's right.
Let it out.

Katherine,
I-I can't do this.

Look at me.

I helped Gary with all
his estate planning.

He knew
this was coming.

Maggie knew
this was coming.

It's why they didn't
go to Mexico.

I know that what he's
asking you to do is --

it's unthinkable,
but...

maybe the alternative
is even worse.

Taking care of all of us
is what's giving Gary purpose.

It's how
he defines himself.

And now he can't do that
anymore.

And while we may all
have thoughts about it,

it is hislife.

I get that you're in
an impossible situation...

...but I can't make
that decision for you, Eddie.

Hey, Dad.

Hey, bud.
What are you doing?

I was gonna play
some street hockey.

Oh, that's fun.

Maybe later we can --Dad.

You have to do this.

Buddy, uh...

I don't know how much
you heard,

but it is
very complicated stuff,

and maybe when
you're a little older,

it might make more sense,
but...maybe not.

I'm a whole lot older,

and I'm still struggling
to understand.

I do understand.

It's just like when Scott
the cat tried to eat that bird.

I-I didn't want to give up,
but you helped me understand

that we needed
to let the bird go.

He was suffering.

So is Uncle Gary.

He's in pain, Dad.

And as difficult
as it is,

it's the most humane thing
we can do.

Sometimes the right thing
to do is really hard,

but isn't that
what love is?

Come here.

I know it's hard.

Thank you.

Tell me a story about Gary.

I don't know, Pop.

There are so many.

I remember one time

I was flying out of Logan
to some conference,

and don't ask me how,

but, uh, just as I got
past security,

I realized that I left
my phone at home.

Ah.
And it was only, like,

45 minutes
till my flight,

and Gina's across town
in the truck.

So I borrow some guy at the
gate's phone and I call Gary.

Gary drives to my place,
grabs my phone,

drives to the airport,

and even though
he didn't have a ticket,

somehow managed to talk
his way past security...

What?!

...runs to my gate,

hands me my phone

just before they close the doors
to my flight.

You see, son?

This is why it's good to have
a couple white friends.

You know Tyrell wasn't
getting through security.

No, he...

Thank you, Pop.

You tell Gary

I said thank you for being
such an amazing friend

to my son.

I will.

I'll check in on you
later.

Okay, Pop, and don't forget
to take your pills, okay?

Don't forget
to take yours.

I love you, Pop.

Love you, son.

I can't wait
for you to see this.

No looking.

Are those eyes closed?

Alright.

Uh...you crushed it.

This is amazing!

Yeah, I did okay,
considering the canvas

I had to work with,
the time frame --

oh,
my fear of heights --

Just take the compliment.Thank you so much.

Alright, no peeking,
Mendez.

I know you can't talk
and I'm not letting you see,

so you're probably smelling
a lot more of Boston

than you'd probably like to.

Alright.

You can open your eyes.

You keep insisting
that I choose to remember

all of the wonderful things
we've done together.

And you're right.

Well, I made you...

...this.

Yeah. He -- He helped.

It wasn't just me,
you know?

You have fun today?
Are you kidding me?

I have never
felt so alive!

Imagine how you'd feel
if you actually

had been up there
committing the crime.

Right?

Hey, guys.
What are you doing here?

Maggie, we need to show
you something.

What is it?

It's a video
that Gary made.

A while ago.

Is Daddy making
silly faces?

Yeah.

Hey, Bloom.

If you're seeing this video,

it means none of our
valiant efforts worked out.

And sadly,
we don't have the bankroll

to cryogenically freeze my body
and stash me in an ice chamber

somewhere in
Southern California.

But seriously, we exhausted
every other possibility.

I know how hard you fought,
my love.

And I hope you know, too.

But it's time.

But it's what he wants.

Mnh-mnh. You know how I feel
about this.

I do know.

That's why I didn't tell you
about it before.

And, honestly, I don't know
how to do this,

but I don't think I could
live with myself if I didn't.

I just need you

to get Javi.

Take him
to Katherine's.

I'll be there as soon
as I can.

Gina.

Okay,
I-I can't not say this.

You were a terrible first date,
Gary Mendez.

I love you, Gary.

I know.

I got him, Maggie.

Hi.

Yeah.

# I've heard it said

# That people
come into our lives #

# For a reason

# Bringing something
we must learn #

# And we are led

# To those who help us
most to grow #

# If we let them

# And we help them in return

# Well, I don't know
if I believe that's true #

# But I know
I'm who I am today #

You're not doing this.# Because I knew you

Maggie --I am doing it.

You two
go to Katherine's.

# Who can say if I've been
changed for the better? #

Is this a bad time to tell you
I never liked you?

# Because I knew you

I love you, man.

I'll keep Eddie
in line.

I love you.

# I have been changed

And Eddie thought
Aaron Burr was a Black man

just because the actor playing
him in "Hamilton" was Black.

What?

Alright, alright,
my turn, my turn.

Here's something
you guys don't know.

Yeah?Gary has seen my boobs.

-What?!
-I know. That's right.

Oh, yeah, that was for, like,
an insurance appraisal, right?

Wait, what?

Apparently,
his cable was out.

Yes, I told him he could come
watch the game at our place.

Yeah.
But you didn't tell me.

No, I didn't!

Okay.

So, I made 200 bucks
busking one time,

and it was the most
I had ever made, ever,

and then I find out

that it was because Gary had
gone around Harvard Square

giving out
$5 and $10 bills.

# It well may be

# That we will
never meet again #

# In this lifetime

# So let me say before we part

# So much of me Okay.

Alright,
"Made you look."

Yeah, well...

# You'll be with me ...you won.

# Like a handprint on my heart

Wewon.

# And now whatever way
our stories end #

# I know you have
re-written mine #

# By being my friend

No, he did not
pay for dinner.

Ipaid for dinner.

He said he forgot his wallet,
but you know what?

I just think he spent all
his money on those frosted tips.

Probably.

I mean, uh, I'm 12,

my -- my dad just died,

and, you know, I-I have
this really big secret.

And, uh...

out of the blue,

Gary has the balls
to turn to me and say,

"When you're ready to tell me
Ella's a boy..."

"...I'm ready
to hear it."

I mean,
who says that to a kid?

Gary Mendez
says that to a kid.

# Because I knew you

# Because I knew you

I want you
to know it's okay

if you want to go now,
alright?

I'm gonna be okay

and Javi's
gonna be okay

'cause we have friends
all around us

who are gonna help
take care of us, okay?

So you can let go.

Yeah. It's time.

Alright?
I love you.

I love you so much.

Okay, here we go.

Hey, pal. It's Dad.

And in some weird, uh

...."Back to the Future" way,

that's actually you crying
in the background.

But your mom's on it,

just like I know she's been
on it these last 16 years --

Wait, is it 16?!

What?!

Oh, yeah, happy birthday.

Jav, let's go!

Whoa.
Do you have chest hair now?

I want to get that
driving lesson in

before we get to Rome
and Gina's.

You're watching it again?

I mean, the man went through
the trouble of making it for me.

The least I could do
is run it back.

16?! Oh, my God.

That means you're
gonna be driving.

Good luck, everybody.

Watch out, watch out,
watch out!

Says the
woman who got a ticket

for driving too slowly.

No, you do not talk
to your mother that way.

And I was looking
for an address...

for a while.

Well, that's fair.

Believe it or not...

# And there you were

...this is my last video
for you.

Don't worry. You can watch it
as many times as you want.

It's not gonna self-destruct.

I mean, it --
it may self-destruct.

I don't know what videos
are like in the future.

Even though that may seem sad,

I want you to know something
that I didn't know

untilmy dad was gone.

# I want to stop
and thank you, baby #

It's actually something
your mom taught me.

He's with me
all the time.

# And thank you

That's so sweet.
Yeah.

Even though
I'm gone physically,

I am still here.

Our relationship --
it isn't over.

Javi had his first
driving lesson today,

and I thought I was
going to end up here

next to you,
in the ground.

It just changes.

I know you're watching,
so I'm not gonna bore you

with all
the small things.

Um, I hope you're having fun
with your dad.

Sure, there's gonna be times

when you wish
I was still around

and that this story ended
in a different way.

I owe this girl a walk.

Daisy has been
very patient with me.

Hi, girl! You ready?

But you can't let that
keep you from moving forward.

I have a date on Saturday.

He's a father
at Javi's school, and...

he seems
emotionally available.

So, if you could, uh,

talk to the big guy for me,
that would be great.

# Thank you

I miss you, Mendez.

# How sweet it is
to be loved by you #

The key is to do what I did.

Surround yourself with
an incredible group of friends

because if you choose wisely,

those friends will become
your family.

We leaned on each other
through the toughest of times.

'Cause you're gonna
make mistakes.

Son, you absolutely
have to make mistakes.

But when you surround yourself

with the right group
of friends,

they're gonna be there for you

when you lose sight
of the horizon.

But you're also gonna
be there for them,

and you're gonna celebrate
incredible things.

Hey, hey, hey,
none for my baby mama.

Our little man in there
is still training.

How about you?

Theo!

Lana, will you
light the candles?

# Happy birthday, dear Javi

So, when you find
that group of friends --

and you will --
hold on to them.

# ...than I was to myself

# For me, there's you
and there ain't nobody else #

And as amazing as they'll be,
know this --

I will always be right here,

right next to you, loving you.

# I wanna stop
and thank you, baby #

And anytime a complete stranger
smiles at you out of nowhere...

I got it.

# To be loved by you There you go.

Thanks.
Yeah.

Enjoy the game.

...there's a decent chance
that's me.

# How sweet it is
to be loved by you #

Here you go, guys.

Mmm. Thank you.Soda?

Yeah, that's what we get
for sending a 16-year-old.

Come on.

To the band of dads?

Band of Dads!

# Ooh, ooh, ooh

Ohhh!

Let's take a photo.
Okay, okay.

Ready? Ready?
Everyone say, "Go, B's!"

Go B's!

Go B's!

# By you

Oh, and mijo?

Have a beautiful life.