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So, uh, Dave's parents

aren't renting a condo
in Vail too, are they?

Dave?

Dave,
the guy you're dating.

His name's--
Look, you know what his name is.

Drew.

Yeah, Drew.

And he's going to Hawaii
with his family over the break.

Hm. So let's do some
accounting here.

Sarah, Vail.

Drew, the big island.

Bailey,

nowhere.
Hey.

You know, maybe you could get
together with some friends,

and drive up to Tahoe
for a couple of days.

Skiing's a party scene.
I gotta steer clear of that.

I just wish I had more
to keep me busy. You know?

All this spare time on my hands
just makes me kind of nervous.

Nervous you'll--

Oh, um--

You know,
maybe you could help out Charlie

at the restaurant.
You know,

make some extra money,
hang with the staff.

Yeah.
And try to ignore the huge bar

stocked with every kind
of liquor known to man.

I'm sorry, I didn't--

Look, Bailey, I-- I wish--

It's-- It's a family thing.
Otherwise--

No. No.

Y-you're going. You're going.

And you're gonna have
a great time,

and you're not gonna worry
about me at all.

You know, you can worry about me
a little if you want,

but don't, like,
obsess about me or anything.

Okay.

Excuse me, but I need your butt.

You wish.

Sit.

Heh-heh.

You will have a phone up there, right?

Oh, come on,
why don't we just say

we're going to Oregon
or to the Grand Canyon or--?

No. How fun is that?

This has gotta be, like,
totally random,

chance, fate,
the will of the gods.

So just do it, and--
And no peeking.

Okay. Okay.

Uh, we are going to be spending
our spring break

in...

Ow.
Hm.

- The Pacific Ocean.
- Yeah.

Not unless your motorcycle
doubles as a Jet Ski.

Well, you do it.
This is your idea.

Okay. Watch and learn.

Carson City, Nevada,
and points beyond.

- Cool.
- Let's do it.

Let's hit the road.

Don't you want your map?

No.
So, what if we get lost?

That's kind of the point.

♪ Everybody wants to live ♪

♪ Like they wanna live ♪

♪ And everybody wants to love ♪

♪ Like they wanna love ♪

♪ Everybody wants to be ♪

♪ Closer to free-ee-ee-ee ♪

♪ Closer to free ♪

So we're going live in about,
uh, 45 seconds. Okay?

I'm gonna, um,
do a quick intro,

and then I'll introduce you
and Grace.

Where's Grace?

I'll, uh--
Just give me a second.

Hey, you okay?

My stomach's a little... Actually, you're looking--

- What?
- I don't know.

Green.

Green?

Great, Charlie.

Just what a girl needs to hear
before she's being beamed

into households all over
the Bay area.

- I look green.
- That's not what I--

Good morning.
This is Gemma Rollins

coming to you live
from Golden Gate Park.

I'm here this morning
with Grace Wilcox,

contender for the new
city council seat.

Now,
this race is said to ride

on a few key issues.

One of them... Charlie,

I need you
to fill in for me.

What?
What are you talking about?

I-- I think-- No.

- I know I'm gonna be sick.
- Sick?

You mean, like,
sick sick?

Well,
it's just a question or two--

Now, Grace--

Uh, Charlie Salinger,

Miss Wilcox's campaign manager,
will fill us in.

Sure.
Um, on-- On what exactly?

The parks?
Right, uh, the parks.

They can really do that?

Apparently, I'm paying a fine
or imprisonment.

How long
is the imprisonment?

Well, can't you make an excuse?
I don't know,

write a note to the--

You know,
the head of the jury duty,

and tell them
that you made a promise

to a 14-year-old orphan.

I'm sure the government eats
stuff like that up.

Claudia.

I'm just upset. Okay?

I mean, this is--

I was really looking forward
to this.

I mean, it's not like it's been
the greatest year for me.

You know?

This is a big deal.

Can't you just miss the first
couple days of the trial?

It's not like I wouldn't
rather be in L.A.,

and listening to you play than
sitting in some stupid jury box.

They sent me a copy
of the program in the mail.

"Los Angeles Chamber Orchestra
presents its Fourth Annual

Young Soloist Series."

Think they invite you again if
you cancel at the last minute?

You're not gonna cancel,
Claud, because of me.

Well,
who else is gonna bring me?

Not Charlie.

Why not Charlie?

I can't leave the restaurant
for four days like this

at the last minute. I don't have
anybody to run the place.

- Plus I've got Owen.
- And Grace's campaign.

That is not the reason, Claud.

We've gotta work something out, Charlie.

They invite something like
four people a year.

Well, what about Julia?

Julia's gone.

She's off with Griffin somewhere.

Okay. Then I'll call Joe.

He's down there since Franny got
the L.A.-New York route, right?

I'll fly down myself. I'm sure
they'd let me stay with them.

Claud, I don't--I'm gonna call.

- No, Claud, don't.
- Why not?

They got a tiny
little place. Plus,

you can't ask 'em
to cancel their plans

at the last minute just to--
To baby-sit you.

That's too much to ask
even for Joe.

Why don't you let me
take her?

I'm on break. It's--
It's not a problem.

And I wanna do it.

Bailey, I don't know.

You don't trust me.

Bailey--No. No, I don't--

I don't blame you.
But you know what?

You can trust me, Charlie,

because I got more to prove
than anybody right now.

And, anyway, it's the only way
that Claud's gonna get to go.

And there's no way
we can say no, Charlie.

She's been working on this piece
for, like, three months.

Four months.

I'm not gonna blow this.

No way.

Don't, don't, don't.

Ha-ha-ha.

Wow. I bet you won't find
that in a AAA guidebook.

I can't believe
we did that.

What do you
call that anyway?

Yeah. There's the mile-high club
if you do it in a plane.

But in two states at once,
what is that?

Uh,
we're crossing the state line?

Horizontally?

So we started
in California--

And ended up in Nevada.

- Are you ready to roll?
- Yeah.

Hey, you know what?

We should do it on every
state line that we hit.

How far to Utah?

Oh, about 10 minutes.

Ha-ha.

You still bad?

What? Oh, yeah.

All I can say is thank God
for the bushes.

Oh, come on, Grace,
it's just the flu.

No, it's not.

Could be.

No, Charlie. It isn't the flu.

What? Why are you being
so hard on yourself?

You don't have to be superhuman, Grace.

You know, you're tired
and overworked and--

Late.
Huh?

I'm late, Charlie.

I'm usually so regular
you can set a clock by me.

What?

And this--
It's the third morning in a row

I've gotten sick.

But it couldn't-- I mean,

we were careful.
We were really careful.

Wow.

You sure it's not the flu?

Ladies and gentlemen,

we've started our cocktail
and beverage service.

Cocktails are $4.
Beer and wine are $3.

Do you think I should sway more?

I mean, when I perform.

I always thought
it looked kind of goofy,

but audience eat stuff
like that up.

They think they're getting
their money's worth

or something if you
give them a lot of:

Okay.
Take Nadja Solerno-Sonnenberg.

Okay, technically,
she's really good.

But come on,
what's the real reason

she cleans up
on the soloist circuit?

It's because when she plays,

she looks like she's sawing
a sequoia in half.

Am I right? Huh?

Huh?
Claud,

could--?

- You wanna switch seats?
- No way.

Come on, I want to look out
the window for a while.

Forget it.
I called dibs in the car.

Right, you did.

Oh, you know the other thing
people are total suckers for?

When the horsehair
on your bow breaks.

Like that's a sign
that you're playing really hard.

- Please.
- Hi. Can I get you a drink?

Can I get an OJ?
Sure.

A little more aggressive.
You know what I mean?

We don't want any
timid Bartók.

Okay.
Okay.

Grab something to drink.

We'll come back in five
and do the second movement.

Hey, Claud.

That sounded great up there.

How would you know?
The movement's in C,

you were squeaking back and
forth in your chair in B sharp.

Sorry. Sorry.

Anyway, the, um-- The conductor
seems like a nice guy.

Uh-huh. What were you doing
with your chair?

Oh, you noticed that?

I was just--

I was staring up and--
And squinting.

You know how sometimes you can
make the ceiling feel like

it's moving in and out?

- Go away, Bailey.
- What?

Y-you're bugging me.

Oh, okay.
Then, uh-- Then, I'll stop.

No. I want you to go
because you're bored

- and you're annoying.
- No, I'm not.

I'm not bored. I'm not.
I'm interested.

Claud, I'm very interested.

And, anyway, I said I was
gonna look out for you, so--

You don't need to look after me.

I'm in the middle
of rehearsal, and I'm fine.

So why don't you go out
and have a nice time.

I don't know. Claud,
I think I would just rather--

Go.

Pick me up at 6:30.

We'll go out
and have some dinner.

It'll be great 'cause I've got
a surprise for you.

So, what do you think?

The guy in the little town
in Nevada

says it's the condenser but--

No. It's more likely your coil, man.

That's what I tried
to tell him.

Either way,
he didn't have the part.

That's right.

We figured we could
fix it faster here at home

and then just
sort of take off again.

Well, your condenser's fine, man.

So it's definitely your coil.
You must've been

running her on--One cylinder. Yeah, I know.

Electric's kind of funky.
I was thinking about--

So anyway, can you fix it?

'Cause we already lost a day
waiting for a ride back,

and we're kind of in a rush.

Sure.

You know, I got a couple
of coils around here somewhere,

but everything's
pretty much packed up.

Packed up? Why?

Oh,
I'm selling the shop.

You know, moving on.

Hey, here they are, man.

Ever think about
electronic ignition,

'cause that would solve
a lot of problems.

Sweet. Uh, maybe a Bonneville
head and some carbs?

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. Wait.
We don't need a carb.

And we don't need any,
um, heads.

And we-- What we really
need is-- What do you call it?

- A coil.
- A coil. Thank you.

We need a coil.
That's all we need.

- We're kind of in a rush.
- Okay.

Be done in the morning.

Excellent.

Oh, you know what?
Maybe we should sleeve...

- Concentric carb.
- Yeah.

- I'm right there with you, man.
- Coil.

We just need a coil.

You guys get a lot
of attention, Joe.

And, uh...

And of course there's some
genetics involved in it too,

but...

Mrs. Reeves.
Hi, it's Bailey calling.

Great. Just great.

Yeah. I'm feeling real good.

Um, anyway, is--
Is Sarah around?

Oh. Well,
when do you expect her back?

That late, huh?

Dennis.
Hey, man, it's Bailey.

Hey, is my brother around?

Okay, but he's working
the dinner shift tonight, right?

So he should be back--

Oh, with Grace.

Okay. Um...

Yeah. Yeah.

Could you if he checks in?

Uh...

No, it's not an emergency,
exactly, but--

But it's important.

Okay, man. Thanks.

Bye.

Mrs. Reeves, hi.
It's-- It's Bailey again.

Hi. Um...

Look, I know--
I know that you and Mr. Reeves

have been kind of upset about
Sarah and I

spending time together since
the accident and everything.

And I-- I didn't know
if you were so mad

that you would tell me
she wasn't there

if she actually was, because
if she is, I really do need to--

Oh, okay.

Right. Right.

Okay.
I'm sorry to bother you again.

Bye.

You okay?

No, I'm not okay.

I mean, what are the odds?

A pregnancy test either turns up
white or it turns up blue.

And what do I get? Plaid.

Maybe we shouldn't have
bought generic.

Could the timing
possibly be any worse?

I don't know. Maybe not.

I mean,
maybe you're not even--

But I was wondering, if you
were, maybe we should talk abo--

Whatever I do, whatever I do,
this is a lose-lose situation.

Well, if you think about it,
I mean--

And the political fallout
from this is--

It's a disaster.
No matter what.

Not necessarily. And that's
what I was trying to--

And-- And I do something
about this and it gets out,

I mean,
I lose half the vote easy.

And if I decide to have the baby
as a single mother,

I lose the family values vote.

So no matter what I decide--What if we got married?

Excuse me?

Well, think about it.

I mean, yeah, the--
The timing is off and--

And we are making this up
as we go along,

but it's working out, right?

Us, I mean.

So--
So if you are pregnant,

if that's what the doctor says, then

why not?

I mean, I could do that.

We could do it.

Charlie. Wow.

Um--

Grace Wilcox?

This way, please.

Just putting it out there
as an option.

That's all.

You still here?

Yeah.
My brother's a little late.

He probably just got lost
or something.

You want me
to give you a lift?

Oh, no. No.

He'll be here.

Hey. Forgot a few necessities
the first time around.

Would have been brushing
with a twig.

You just get back from the shop?

Hey, what--? What time does
he open in the morning?

What?
Uh, 7, I think.

Great. So we can get
an early start then.

You know how you, uh-- You were
saying how you wanted to start

leaving more things
up to chance, or--

Fate. Yeah.

Yeah.

What exactly
did you mean by that?

Um, well, i-it's like
with our trip.

You know how we were gonna go
through Willits, right?

Well, I just called AAA,
and they told me

it's under a foot of water
because of the rains.

So if it hadn't been for
your bike, like, going dead--

We wouldn't have ended up
back here, right?

And I wouldn't have gone
to the bike shop,

and I never would have met Carter.

Who wouldn't have fixed your
bike so we could take off

and steer clear of Willits.

See, fate.

Yeah. Well, sort of.

You see, uh, we, uh--

We can't take off.

What do you mean can't?

It's just that little
coil thingy, right?

I-- I was thinking, you know,
you said that how--

How one thing leads to the next
for a reason, right?

Like--
Like this trip being blown.

Well, it's not exactly blown.
It's--

Now I have this totally
amazing opportunity.

What opportunity?

I-- I told Carter that I'd--
That I'd buy it, Jule.

The bike shop.

I'm gonna use my money

to buy the bike shop.

- Hey, Bailey.
- Hey.

Joe, Franny,
what are you doing--?

What are you doing here?

Are we gonna do this
through the door?

Bailey.

What are you--?

I thought you were on the wagon,
Bailey?

I am. It's just-- I was--

What are you guys
doing here anyway?

Claudia invited us
to have dinner together.

Oh, my God, what time is it?

It's 7:00.

Oh, my God,

I was supposed to pick her up
a half hour ago.

Where is she?

She's at the Music Center.

Joe, don't-- Don't tell her.
Okay?

I'm gonna have some coffee,
and I'll be fine

in a couple minutes.
Just don't tell her.

Please, don't tell her.

Hey, you guys.

- Hi, sweetie. How's it going?
- Hey.

- Hi.
- Hey, Claud.

I thought we were gonna--Let me take this.

Meet at the hotel?
Yeah, we were.

Well, you know,
we ran into Bailey

because we got there early and--Oh, you did?

- Yeah.
- You did? 'Cause he was supposed

to pick me up,
like, forever ago.

No. That's our fault.
Our fault entirely.

I was pressing him for details
about you guys and--

And, uh, we just, uh,
lost track of time.

- Yeah.
- Is he parking or something?

No, no. He's, uh--

I talked him into letting us
take you out to dinner.

Just the three of us?

- Yeah.
- Yup.

And--
And then we were thinking

maybe you'd like to spend
the night at our place.

- Yeah.
- How does that sound?

Okay. But--

Maybe-- Maybe I should
just check in with Bailey.

You know, make sure he doesn't--

He doesn't feel like
I'm deserting him or something.

Oh,
I wouldn't do that.

No. He was gonna go out.

What's going on?

Why isn't Bailey going with us?

Well, like I said,
sweetie, he's--

Never mind. I know why.

He was drinking again,
wasn't he?

Wasn't he?

Look, it doesn't make it
any easier

when someone doesn't
tell you the truth.

It just makes that sick feeling
in your stomach worse.

He'd been drinking, yes.

He promised.

Do you realize
how much work this is gonna be?

Uh-huh. But I already
told him that I'd buy it, so...

That is an oral agreement
subject to inspection

and God knows what else.
That is totally non-binding.

- You can get out of it.
- I don't want to get out of it.

Oh, yeah. Okay.

So why don't you
tell me what his

average monthly net profit is.

He brings in three
or four grand easy.

- That's gross.
- What's gross about it?

- That's good money.
- No. Gross income.

Total. You have to subtract
the expenses to get the net.

Net profit, you know?

After payroll, parts, insurance,
mortgage, taxes.

Oh, I don't know.

Griffin,
you're buying a business here,

not deodorant.
Didn't you ask him anything?

Yes. Yeah, sure, I asked him.

I asked him things like, uh,
I don't know--

how much business he gets.

He says that he stays busy
all the time, so...

There was no one in there
the other day.

- We were, like, it.
- It was, like, 2:00 on a weekday.

On a Saturday you can't even
get near that place.

I know, I've been there.

Okay. Okay.

So does he own
or rent the building?

'Cause if he rents, you need
to know the terms of the lease.

If he owns, you need to know the
market value of the property.

Look, I'm gonna have Arnie
take care of all that stuff.

All right?
What's with you anyway?

You know, this is a good thing.

You should be excited for me.

I am. It's just--

What do you know
about running a business?

I know that I can do it.

God, I just feel like
a 300-pound weight

has been lifted
off my shoulders.

Yeah. I bet you would.

I mean, Dr. Siegel was right
about the stress

causing a hormonal imbalance.

Of course the test results
were wacky.

I mean,
look at my life right now.

Anyway, what a relief, huh?

Relief? Yeah.

And all I could think about
was what if, you know?

And I kept trying
to put it out of my mind.

But I'm doing these interviews,

and lobbying
with possible donors.

And it was like this thing
hanging over my head

the whole time.
I mean, God, can you imagine?

Oh, and, Charlie,
yesterday at the doctor's,

the fact that you would--
You were great.

You were just great.

I mean it. Thank you.

Anyway, thank God it's not
an issue, right?

We should celebrate.

Oh, did I tell you Dr. Siegel's
putting me on the pill?

Some new dosage,
low estrogen or something.

So this will never
happen again.

Yeah, you mentioned that.

Can you just clear away
the coffee and stuff?

Do you need me
to order you some more?

No.

Oh. Wait, wait, wait.

Here is the key
to the minibar.

We-- We won't be needing
it anymore.

And if one of us calls
to get the bar restocked,

can you just make sure
that no one does that?

Uh, sure.

You think you
embarrassed me enough?

No.

Okay. Come on, sweetheart.
You better get ready.

That picture-taking thing
is in less than an hour.

I'm not going.

I canceled.

Claudia.

What?
Like we're really gonna go?

It's a whole reception, Bailey.

Okay? There'll probably be
beer there. Okay? And wine.

Well, then,
I won't go in with you.

- I'll just drop you off.
- Oh, right.

That's better.
I'll have a great time

worrying if you're somewhere
getting drunk.

I'm not gonna go get drunk, Claudia.

Look, I slipped up. Okay?

People slip up,
but it's not like--

At least I'm admitting it.
Right?

And that's the most
important thing right now,

because I'm definitely not
kidding myself anymore.

And you know what?

This is actually--
This is probably the best thing

that could've happened to me.

'Cause here I am
for the past two weeks,

and all I can think about
is I need a drink.

I gotta have a drink.
Because if I have a drink,

then everything that is wrong,

and everything that is making me
feel bad will go away.

Well, I had a drink,

and it wasn't that great.

And it didn't make me
feel better.

So now I know that,

and maybe I needed

to go through that so--

Claudia.

So I-- I was thinking,
there's still, like,

four days left
of spring break.

And I figured it'd be totally
stupid to just stay here

and waste the entire vacation.
You know?

Mm-hm.

So I think--
Well, more like I've--

I've decided I'm--
I'm gonna go.

I'm just gonna get in my car
and drive.

Do it the way we planned, you
know, no reservations, no maps.

Yeah. Okay.

Okay?

So-- So wait.
You don't mind?

Well, no.

I mean, what's the point of you
hanging around here?

I mean, this stuff's gotta be
totally boring to you, right?

You might as well go out
and have some fun.

That's funny.
I kind of thought

I was supposed to be
having fun with you.

It's only one road trip, Julia.

Is that all?

Griffin, this isn't--

This isn't what I expected.

And-- And I don't
just mean the trip.

I mean, this is--
This is a preview, isn't it?

Of how things
are gonna be for us.

I mean, I--
I thought with you coming back

and me not going to college
we were gonna

do this thing together.
You know?

We are.

Are we? 'Cause now--

Now this feels like we're--
We're stuck here.

I never said you had to stay.

Then I won't.

It's not-- Julia--

I-I don't get it.

I don't-- I don't get you.

You're the one
that said that--

That it's not enough
for me just to want you.

Well, now, I want this.

I don't know about you, but I am
gonna sleep like a baby.

Grace.

Yeah?

Look,
I know this is, um--

I wanna ask you something.

I think I should
probably ask you.

Do you ever
see it happening with us?

Kids, I mean.

What?

Oh, Charlie, God.

I mean,

I totally understand where
you're coming from.

I was-- I was relieved too,
when you told me.

But, I don't know,

I wasn't nearly as relieved
as you were.

Charlie, come on,
why are we talking about this?

It's too soon to be
talking about this.

Yeah. I know it is.

It's not like I'm looking
to have kids right now.

But, I don't know. This--

This thing sort of came up
and-- And now I'm wondering.

You seem so--

Like your mind is made up
about it. Is that--?

Is that a now thing, or is that
more like a forever thing?

Charlie,

I don't wanna have children.

That's just not part
of my game plan.

Well, how do you know that?

I mean, maybe you just haven't
met the right guy.

I mean, until now.

Look,

when I was little
and I used to play with dolls,

sometimes I'd be the teacher
and they'd be my students.

And sometimes I'd be Diana Ross

and they'd be my Supremes.

But they were never my babies, Charlie.

I just didn't think
that way.

Not then and not now.

But maybe--

Charlie, you asked
and I'm being honest with you.

I'm--

I don't wanna have children.

And that's--

That's just kind of who I am.

Hey. I know you said
you didn't want me to be here,

but, wow, Claud,
you were incredible.

The couple next to me, they were
clapping so hard for you.

If you didn't do an encore,

I think they would have ended up
in the hospital.

So you wanna
do something?

You wanna get some dessert
and celebrate?

- Or we can check out Melrose?
- Just-- Just cut it out. Okay?

Cut what out?

Being all nice and concerned
and "what do you want, Claud?"

You're only doing it
'cause you screwed up.

Claudia.

Look, Claudia,
what do you want me to say?

- I'm sorry.
- You're always sorry,

and I'm just getting sick
of of it. Okay?

Well--'Cause all I do

is worry about you,
Bailey, and--

What--? What happened to you
worrying about me?

Of course I worry about you, Claud.

Do you? Do you know
what a big deal tonight was?

Do you really know
how scary it is to stand

in front
of a thousand people

who have heard the Bartók
a zillion times, only--

Only played by Itzhak Perlman
or-- Or Isaac Stern?

It's-- It's hard to breathe,
and--

And your fingers, they--
They feel all thick and you--

Y-you feel-- You feel--

What?

Alone.

I felt alone.

I can't count on you anymore, Bailey.

And I can't go to you to make me
feel better because you're--

All of a sudden
I'm the one taking care of you,

cleaning up after you,
watching out for you,

and it's not fair.

Why not?
Why isn't that fair?

Because I'm older
than you?

Because you need
taking care of and I don't?

Will you stop?

Listen, Claudia,
I wish more than anything

that you didn't have to watch me
fight this the way I am.

But you do.

Now, I am sorry,
but that is just the way it is.

Great.

Hey, you know what?

You know what?
You're not a baby anymore.

And you're not gonna be a kid
for that much longer either.

So maybe--

Maybe you could
come through for me.

Hey.
Hey.

I thought you guys were
heading out of town?

Yeah,
I thought so too.

Is something going on?

Hm?

Oh, no. I was just
in the mood for an early lunch.

Yeah? It's 9:30.

Charlie,

do you think I'm selfish?

Incredibly. Why?

No, I-- I mean it.

Okay. Selfish in what way?

Well, Griffin is buying
a motorcycle shop

with the money he got,
and it's, like,

this really great opportunity
for him. You know?

And that's bad because?

No. No.

It's good.
Good for Griffin.

But not for you?

Well,

yeah.

Yeah. 'Cause now we can't do
any of the stuff

I thought we were
gonna do together, and...

I don't know.

It's just everything
is going great.

And I-- I thought we wanted
the same things.

And now all of a sudden, he
wants something that is, like,

totally different.

And I just--

I don't know
where to put that.

You know what I mean?

Yeah. I sort of do.

I guess the question
you gotta ask yourself is

which is more important?

Griffin or all that stuff
you want.

Is it something
you can work out?

I mean,
is it worth working out?

Yeah, I think so.

Well, then your problem's
solved.

Right.

Problem solved.

So where'd you guys
disappear to this morning?

Claudia took me backstage
at the Music Center,

and we watched this incredible
string quartet rehearse,

and, um-- And we talked.

I told him about Walter Alcott

and all that stuff.

Oh, yeah?

It just goes from bad to worse, huh?

Things can turn around.
You never know.

Yeah.

Hey, I'm talking
from experience here.

I mean, you're looking at a guy
whose doctor said to him,

"If you keep doing the one thing
that you really love to do,

"if you keep working
your restaurant,

you're gonna kill yourself."

I was 50 years old.
I had no job, no family.

Do you think I went wandering
around the world for fun?

I was lost.

I was lost.

And then I met this woman.

Yeah, well, that's great.

You're a lucky guy.

It's not luck.

I don't know. Maybe it's because
I'm getting older,

and I need to start
making sense of this world,

but I kind of like to think that
it was God looking out for me.

It was God saying,
"I'm not gonna let you go."

Okay.

I know what this is about.

This is about me and God and not
wanting to go to AA, right?

Everybody needs something
to believe in, Bailey,

besides themselves.

Not me.

I don't.

I hate to break it to you, Joe,

but we're all pretty much
on our own here.

And there's nobody
looking out for any of us.

Just cut it out, Bailey.

Don't say stuff like that.

Somebody was looking out
for me.

Somebody was looking out
for your father

when he stopped drinking.

Yeah, well, it wasn't God. Okay?

Look, you believe whatever
you want to believe in, Joe.

If you're afraid of dying,
and you need to believe in God,

then that's your business.

I'm just saying
that I don't see him in my life.

How about in the fact that your
father's inside of you?

Come on.
I'm serious.

Your father is in you,

and this is the proof,
and it means nothing to you.

Really?

The fact that I got
this disease from him?

It means plenty to me, Joe.

Why do you insist on always
looking at the bad stuff,

Bailey?

You really think
I showed up at your house,

and told you about
your dad's drinking

because I wanted to make things
worse for you?

I told you
because I thought it would

give you a little hope.

Yeah. You got what made
your father start drinking.

But if you just look for it,
you got what made him stop too.

You know what--CLAUDIA: Why not?

Why isn't it possible?

Maybe you got all the stuff
that made us love him

and made Mom love him.

Maybe you got all of him.

No, I don't.

What does this have to do
with God anyway?

Are you kidding me?

Your father didn't disappear.
He's inside of you.

And that doesn't
just happen.

If the world were random
and mean,

the way you think it is...

I think that it's proof
that there's someone

or something
looking out for us.

- I don't know.
- It's not a curse, Bailey.

It's a gift.

You just gotta
look at it that way.

Every time you fight
the urge to drink,

every time you beat
the urge to drink,

you feel him.

And you know he didn't really
leave you when he died.

He's still here.

You're not alone, Bailey.

Hey.

I thought you left town.

No.

I brought this for--

I thought it might help
brighten up the place.

Carter in his office?

No. He went home.

Gave me my own set of keys.

Why didn't you go?

'Cause you're not there.

♪ Tell me your dark side ♪

I'm sorry.

It's just it seems like
everyone else knows what they--

What they want.

But maybe

so do I.

Did I tell you
what I got Owen?

Uh-uh.

It's a snow globe
of an earthquake. The big one.

You shake it, and all the
buildings kind of fly around.

Huh.

That's--

That sounds cheery.

Yeah.

I'm sure he'll love it.

Yeah.

You know what? They said they're
gonna, um--

They said they're gonna send me
a copy of the performance.

Really?

Well, that's great, Claud.

That's--

What's--?

It's, uh-- It's a meeting.

It's an AA meeting.

I can get home by myself, Bailey.

You sure?

Go.

You don't have to wait up.

I'll wait up.

♪ Tell me you feel ♪

♪ Deny your silent fear ♪