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♪ You got to keep
'em separated ♪

[The Offspring singing
"Come Out And Play"]

[bell ringing]

[female #1]
'Dawn, what a paper
you wrote. What a..'

You don't smoke.

Not you. Detention.

♪ They're like
the latest fashion ♪

Bad attitude, Mr. Litvack.
Detention.

♪ The kids are strappin'
on their way to the classroom ♪

♪ Getting weapons with
the greatest of ease ♪

♪ The gangs stake
their own campus locale ♪

♪ And if they catch you slippin'
then it's all over pal ♪

- What are you doin' in here?
- Studying.

Detention, this afternoon.

♪ Bash it up
bash it up hey ♪

♪ Man you're
talking back to me ♪

♪ Take him out
you got to keep 'em separated ♪

♪ Hey

♪ Man you're disrespecting me

That took some work.

Uh, yeah, sir.

How did you get it all up there?

- Glue stick.
- Where did you get that?

This is the one who..

Suicide.
Committed suicide.

And this is school property.

Detention, this afternoon.

♪ By the time
you hear the siren ♪

♪ It's already too late

♪ One goes to the morgue
and the other to jail ♪

♪ One guy's wasting
and the other's a waste ♪

[dramatic music]

[music continues]

What did Brattman have to say?

- Ah, new info on a case.
- Which?

Kid named Trevor Dawson.

Died in '94 falling from
the roof of his high school.

Accident?

Oh, Northwest
handled it as a suicide.

This note was found
on Trevor's body.

"I want my parents to know

"that I don't regret
what I'm doing.

"It may seem extreme

"but it's the best for everyone.

Trevor Dawson."

Suicide note.
Sounds straightforward.

Only now,
we have the other half.

Custodian at Trevor's
high school just died.

Landlord calls the cops when
he finds the guy's apartment

full of creepy
high school memorabilia..

...including this.

[Stillman]
'"May 13th, '94.'

This is TD,
writing from a scary spot."

Looks like the same handwriting.

"I want you to know
that I'm in danger.

"If something
happens to me today

please tell my parents
I love them."

This new note ends there.

Oh, put the two pieces together.

[Vera]
'Same page ripped in half.'

Top of the note, Trevor says

he's in danger,
he knows he's gonna die.

[Vera]
What kind of kid was this?

- He run with a bad crowd?
- No record, no drugs.

So why would someone
wanna kill a high school kid

no record, no drugs, nothing?

Why would a high school kid,
no record

no drugs problems
wanna kill himself?

[theme music]

[music continues]

[siren wailing]

So yesterday, I look over.

I see a telephone
message from Miller.

Today, gone, whisked away.

That's crazy.

'Cause of the content.

It says

"Veronica,
about Wednesday night."

Veronica?

Wednesday night
is the only night

Miller can work, strict rule.

- I don't know, man.
- Oh, I know.

- How you doing?
- 'What's up?'

- Alright.
- 'What do you got?'

Well, day he died, Trevor Dawson
was in after-school detention

'at Westmoreland High
from three to six.'

Autopsy puts his death
just before six.

What did the other
kids in detention say?

Dawn Hill, Boris Litvack
and Raquel Montero.

All of them said
Trevor slipped out

just before
detention's over.

A few minutes later,
they're leavin'

he's dead in the parking lot.

Well, worth talking
to them again.

Not teenagers anymore.
They could be more forthcoming.

There a teacher
watching this detention?

A Mr. Abe Monti,
died in a car wreck, 2002.

Back in '94, he tells
the kids he's stepping out

for a few minutes,
falls asleep

in the teacher's lounge instead.

Anything helpful on
the school security tape?

Tape runs out before
Trevor leaves detention.

Gives you the chilling glimpse
back into high school, though.

Pretty much it
for the whole tape.

Sitting, eyeballing each other.

We should visit
Trevor's parents.

Let them know
we're looking into this again.

And be sensitive.

Don't wanna get
their hopes up for nothing.

You think the murder angle
will get their hopes up?

They lose their son either way.

Him being murdered means
maybe it ain't their fault.

[instrumental music]

That's his handwriting, it is.

"I am in danger."

Does that mean anything
to you, Mr. and Mrs. Dawson?

I don't know who he
could be in danger from

but I do know that
it never made sense to me

that Trevor would kill himself.

He never said
anything like that?

No, he didn't say too much
to us anyway, round then.

[Mr. Dawson]
'He was in a phase, yeah.'

'Moody, locking
himself up in his room.'

But, to go that far

he would have really
had to have been hurting.

And we would have seen that.

What was it like
for Trevor at school?

- Any enemies?
- I don't think so.

Yeah, he didn't
really have any friends.

He didn't fit the popular mold.

He was a creative type,
that's why. Very sensitive.

- 'Very.'
- How do you mean?

You know this Kurt Cobain
from the band Nirvana?

Killed himself. Yeah.

After he did, Trevor wouldn't
leave his room for a week.

A few weeks after that, he died.

We tried to be caring
about this Cobain thing

but, well, I myself
didn't totally get it.

Trevor's
spray-painting has left me

with a major
cleaning job on my hands.

Not to mention the landscaping
that Trevor set on fire.

Fletch Canalli
kicked my candle over.

That wasn't me.
I was making a memorial.

- What were you thinking?
- Chuck.

Kurt Cobain died, dad.

Is he a friend of yours?
What happened?

One of his rock stars
killed himself.

It's the one that wears
all the layers of clothes.

Oh, great. That's great.

- Why are you acting out?
- I'm not.

You risked getting expelled

for a guy who wears makeup

gets high on drugs
and takes his own life.

This is your hero? Huh?

I mean, I know you
don't like sports..

Oh, please.

If you are using drugs,
let's just deal with it.

It's the music, okay?

It's his songs.
It's not drugs, mom.

The first time
I ever heard his music

was the first time I ever
felt like I wasn't alone.

You are not alone, Trevor.

♪ What is wrong with me

♪ I'm out of love

It's on his senior page.

Kurt Cobain.

- Can we, uh, take this?
- Yeah.

You know, I was big
on Led Zeppelin

but I never would have
offed myself for them.

'You see what I mean?'

So you never bought that

to pushing Trevor
over the edge.

After he died,
our phone bill came back

and there was page
after page of him

calling some teen hotline.

Crisis hotline kind of thing?

That was the one thing
that made us think

that maybe he was
really having dark thoughts.

But it was too late
by then, obviously.

[Jeffries]
Teen hotline Trevor called
wasn't just for suicidal kids.

It was for any kind of crisis.

So he could have talked about
what he was in danger from.

Possible, but they can't
give out transcripts.

Protecting caller privacy.

I got the call logs
from the months

before Trevor's death.

Look at this.

One of the volunteers
is named Dawn H.

Like Dawn Hill.

This the same girl who
was in detention with Trevor

the day he died?

Bet they're one and the same.

I wonder if that's
a coincidence.

[siren wailing]

Yes, that was me.

I talked to Trevor Dawson
on the teen hotline once.

You were trained to talk
to kids who were suicidal?

Kids in any kind of crisis.

Pretty coincidental

you and Trevor winding up
in detention together.

The one time
I ever got detention.

- Was the day Trevor died.
- Yeah.

- So you two knew each other.
- Not really.

Teen hotline was anonymous,
first-name basis only.

Very strict rules about that.

But you knew he was the same
Trevor that day in detention.

I figured it out

but I don't think
he knew I was the same Dawn.

Trevor wrote a note that day.
Said he was in danger.

Danger? Really?

He didn't talk about that?

You mean on the teen hotline?

Not that I should tell you,
but no.

- What about in detention?
- We didn't talk.

- Nobody said anything?
- Nothing of substance.

It wasn't like
"The Breakfast Club."

It was like high school.

[Stone Temple Pilots
singing "Vasoline"]

- What is that?
- College book.

It has, like, every college
and what you need to get in.

Can I see it?

What do you need? Money?

Grades, activities

good SAT scores, sports

leadership stuff.

SAT scores are racist.

- Did you hear that?
- I got a 1420.

And I got an 1180

so I guess,
there goes that theory, huh?

No way. This place has
classes on Japanese poetry.

You should apply.

It's $28,000 a year to go there.

Well, maybe if you'd done
better on your SATs

you could get
a scholarship but whatever.

- Yeah, whatever.
- You guys?

Please don't talk.
You know the rules.

I had those loafers when I was
in, like, the second grade.

Girls.

You have a little
lipstick, like..

...all over your face.

No! Does that mean
I'm not pretty?

'Does this mean I'm cut
from the dance squad?'

Mr. Monti?

If you had to choose
which one of us

could be your kid,
would you choose me or Dawn?

Mr. Litvack, silence.

He didn't wanna
hurt your feelings.

- Ha.
- You know what you need, Dawn?

To get high.
Come over to my place.

I can have my mom
call your mom

and say it's okay
for you to sleep over.

- She'll do it, too.
- Boris, you do this every time!

I'm going to
the teacher's lounge

to get an aspirin.

While I am gone, do me a favor

and just consider why it is

you insist on being
cruel to one another.

Because it's high school
and we hate ourselves?

Mr. Dawson, the corner.

You know
you're being recorded.

So behave.

♪ Keep getting stuck here

♪ All the time

So the detention monitor

he made Trevor sit
in the corner?

Yeah.

I think so.

That's what you said.

Well, then, yes.

If I remember correctly.

Why, does that mean something?

Thanks for your time, Dawn.

The Trevor Dawson on this tape

is not sitting in the corner

where Dawn said he was.

If he moved after ten minutes

this tape won't show it.

This tape runs for three hours.

Sort of.

Take a look.

See here?

This girl's got
her hands folded.

- What happened there?
- It's a cut.

What do you mean?

This tape runs on a loop.

'First ten minutes
over and over.'

- How'd this get missed in '94?
- It's good work.

Well orchestrated.

"Well orchestrated" meaning

they sit still on purpose?

That's why the tape works.

So the kids were in
on faking the tape?

Which means they were
all in on faking their alibi.

The loop tape makes it look like

they were all
sitting in detention

'quietly studying.'

Not pushing
Trevor Dawson off the roof.

Looks like those kids
in detention cooperated

to make the fake security tape.

Conspiracy to keep anyone
from seeing the hours

before Trevor Dawson died?

Why would those kids
wanna kill Trevor?

Well, kids in detention
are usually troubled types.

Who knows what's brewing
in the hormone-addled brain?

I took a look at their files.

One of them has a record.

"Boris Litvack."

Assortment of
drug-related charges.

Plus nine months for DVD piracy.

The kid's got
technical know-how.

Let's see if he'll own up
to making this tape.

Hey, V.
Hi.

'I know, I know,
I'm sorry.'

'How'd it go?'

[instrumental music]

[Valens]
'Boris Litvack?'

'Philly PD.'

She's gonna be all over
the manager about this.

Your boss know
you got a record, Boris?

Yeah. Must disclose.

But here at the Dunk N' Glaze,
we don't discriminate.

Well, what about
a murder charge?

That something
that'd get you fired?

I'm guessin'.

Then maybe you feel
like telling us

the truth about Trevor Dawson.

Kid did himself in.
He jumped off the roof.

Well, we got another idea.

And we think you,
Raquel Montero and Dawn Hill

used detention as an alibi
so you could off Trevor.

Whoa.

I encourage you to not let your
imagination spin out of control.

I knew the kid from detention.

Didn't have some murderous
relationship with him.

You were the only one
in that room who knew

how to mess around with
electronics, make that tape.

Reason it keeps
popping in our head

is you don't want anyone to know

you were throwing
Trevor off the roof.

I made the tape
to cover my ass.

[Vera]
'For what?'

Trevor and I snuck
out of detention

to lift sulfuric acid
from the chem classroom.

Why'd you need sulfuric acid?

I was gonna make Ecstasy.

You're a model citizen
there, Boris.

Well, I didn't have a lot
of follow-through back then

so I never did it,
rest assured.

But...that's why
I made the tape.

Why'd the girls
go along with it?

Raquel did
whatever Trevor did

and Dawn didn't really
know what was going on.

All these labels are,
like, scientific

and I can't read any of them.

[Trevor]
'Dawn, do you know the chemical
formula for sulfuric acid?'

Can you find it?

Are you guys sure
Monti is passed out?

I cannot get caught.

Relax, Hill.

Look at this.

Yes, dude, take that.

Are you out of your mind?

Uh, yeah,
'cause I need a ciggy.

Put it out.

You're gonna get us caught.

Keep it down, Montero.

You know what they're saying
about your hero, Trev?

Shh. What?

That Courtney did it to him

because he wanted a divorce.

She's crazy. I love her.

She's like,
"You're never leaving me."

Are you just really freaked out
about what we're doing?

I know it's scary--

Have you just, like,
moved on from me or what?

There is nothing
to move on from.

You are such a liar.

'Seriously.'

I held you in my arms
and we listened to Kurt

and you-you cried.

It was the day he died.

I can't believe
I ever told you to hang on

like I cared
if you lived or died.

I take it back.

[glass shattering]

You're a crazy bitch.

Raquel Montero
was a crazy bitch.

She had a thing for Trevor?

Thought she was
the Courtney to his Kurt.

Where'd you all go
after the science room?

We went our separate ways
till a little before 6:00

when we knew Monti'd come back

and check on us.

How'd you know he'd do that?

That was his detention routine.

Excuse himself,
booze up, snooze

wake up at 6:00.

Where'd Trevor go?

I left campus to stow
the pilfered materials

away in my house.

'When I came back to detention'

Trevor was already dead.

Well, you think
he could have been

with Raquel while
you were at home?

'She was pretty good
at being wherever he was'

'any given time.'

And you know
what they say about Courtney.

[instrumental music]

Hello, there.

Are you two from
the neighborhood?

Raquel Montero?

You remember a kid
named Trevor Dawson?

I'm in the middle
of work here.

And we're in the middle
of a murder investigation.

I thought Trevor
committed suicide.

We know about the tape, Raquel.

We know you four didn't
stay in detention that day.

Which means you have
no alibi for when Trevor died.

Nothing like cops yelling at you
to make you feel 16 again.

Well, way we hear it,
you were obsessed with Trevor.

Thought you were
the Courtney to his Kurt.

Who told you that?

It was Boris Litvack, wasn't it?

Well, it can feel
pretty bad at that age..

...getting rejected
by a boy you like.

And when the boy you like would
rather kill himself

than kiss you,
that feels bad, too.

So what did you do?

Wrote in my journal and cried.
I didn't push anybody.

So you weren't afraid
of Trevor moving on, then?

Afraid for him.

Afraid of that bitch, Dawn Hill

pulverizing his heart.

Dawn Hill?

Dawn Hill was
Trevor's secret girlfriend

'in 1994.'

Oh, yes, you heard me.
"Secret."

[clanking]

Hey, do you have
to be so loud?

Yeah.

You're gonna wake up Monti
and then we're all gonna

have detention till
we're, like, dead.

You think he bought us
hating each other?

Definitely.

Principal Ellis
made me take down Kurt

so I put this up instead.

- See how beautiful you are?
- Oh, God.

Take that down.
People will see it.

- Why does that matter?
- You know why.

I can't remember.

It has to be just us.

Hello?
Yeah, I know, too.

And you won't tell.

I'm blocking all of
this out, believe me.

'I don't wanna
live a lie anymore.'

Being with you is the most
real thing I've ever felt

and I'm psyched about it.

Look, what's between
you and me is a secret.

- Drama.
- Yes! Bitch.

I told you
Rex Tyson had a gun.

Yes, you did.

My dad's got a gun

but it's like old from Spain.

I'm taking it.

What?

What's between
you and me is a secret.

Dawn, I--

And it needs to stay that way

or we're dead.

You're dead.

[instrumental music]

- Why would Dawn want a gun?
- I don't know.

But girlfriend was worked up.

But none of Dawn's friends knew
she and Trevor were together?

No.

That was her whole thing.

Reputation,
reputation, reputation.

Do you think she would kill
to protect her reputation?

It's what you live
and die by in high school.

Excuse me, please.

Hi, can I help you?

Trevor was pushed, not shot.

Holding a gun on a guy is
one way to get him off the roof.

One thing when
a 17 year-old

keeps her boyfriend
a secret from her friends.

But a 30 year-old
keeping it from the cops?

I'm 28.

Well, you're too old
to not know

what you're dealing
with here, Dawn.

Lying to the police in
a murder investigation.

- You push him, Dawn?
- No.

Maybe it was just an impulse.

Kid pissing you off,
acting like

the world's got to
know about you two

when maybe you're just
trying to get some.

Don't talk about it
like that, alright?

Like what?

Like it didn't mean anything

when it meant everything.

What was a good girl
like you doing with a gun?

I never used that gun.

Not even to protect
your reputation?

I didn't care
about my reputation.

I wasn't ashamed of Trevor.
I loved him.

He's the one who thought
I should have a gun.

Okay, Dawn.

Why's that?

I told him something
that put him in danger.

I didn't mean to, but

I had to tell somebody.

What?

What was happening to me.

Tell us.

We met on the teen
hotline in March.

We talked once and
then everyday after that

he'd call at the same
time and I'd answer.

I miss his voice.

I listened to it.

You're right.
He had a great voice.

You know that song

"Jesus Don't Want
Me For A Sunbeam?"

It's kind of what it's like.

'That's how you feel?'

'Tell me.'

It's like about how like..

...how even God wouldn't
want you in heaven, you know?

'Like nobody thinks
anything of you.'

I do.

'You don't know me, though.'

[sighs]

Believe me

'you wouldn't.'

In English class,
freshman year

Miss Capeci
read somebody's poem

that was supposed
to be anonymous

'about walking in
the parking lot'

'and running your hands
along the fence'

and your fingers going numb.

And just wishing

that the rest of you
would go numb, too.

'I knew it was yours
because I saw'

'the drawings in the margins'

'and that's what you drew
all over your desk.'

When you sat behind me.

Dawn Hill?

You're Dawn Hill
from my high school?

Yeah.

And I think you're a really
great artist and writer, Trevor.

And I bet you could
even go to art college.

God.

- I'm hanging up.
- Please, don't.

'You, of all people.'

'I mean, you're like..'

...you don't understand.

You think I'm different
from you, but I'm not.

- I think those things, too.
- 'No.'

About..

...not being able to
go on another day.

'But you're Dawn Hill.'

You're gonna have
some perfect life.

'Will you please
just listen to me'

and don't hate me
for what I'm telling you?

Yeah.

I'm scared to go home.

I'm scared because..

...my stepfather
is someone who..

...I don't know
what's wrong with him.

What, Dawn?

I'm afraid I'll never
be able to say..

..."I love you" to anybody..

...because that's
what he says to me.

And he smells horrible.

Like so drunk.

'And when my mom
washes my nightgown'

she goes
"Have you been drinking?"

And I just want to say to her

'"It's your husband.'

He's been in my bed."

- Oh, Dawn.
- Yeah.

- Do you hate me?
- No.

I wanna see you.

In person.

That's why you had the gun.

Your stepdad.

But I couldn't even
bring it into the house.

Did your father
know about Trevor?

My stepdad didn't like me
to have boys in my life.

He was very possessive.

So they never met?

I hope not.

Trevor talked
about it sometimes.

What do you mean?

He thought he could
reason with my stepfather.

A sweet, naive kid
sitting down with a monster.

'I thought
I'd made him happy.'

Gave him a reason
to live, but..

Trevor's parents never
knew about me either.

They never knew
that somebody loved him.

Dawn's stepfather
is Philip Hill.

Owns half the commercial
real estate in Roxborough.

You get anything from DHS?

If he was abusing
his stepdaughter

no one who could've
helped her knew about it.

Thought I might've had
too much time on my hands

flipping through this
thing, but look at this.

[Stillman]
'"Falling from heaven."
What is that?'

Not sure.

But check this out.

[Vera]
'Raquel's page.
Senior message.'

"But beautiful we three are."
Gibberish.

'Now look
at Boris Litvack's page.'

'"Good-bye forever bloody."'

Put it all together
starting with Boris

you get
"Good-bye forever

"bloody but beautiful

we three are
falling from heaven."

The three of them, falling.

"Bloody but beautiful."
Talking about death.

These three,
it's suicide.

And they're predicting it.

"We three are
falling from heaven."

It's a pact.

[Vera]
'Trevor, Boris, Raquel.'

Trevor's the only one
who took the plunge.

You three all go up on the roof

let Trevor jump
and then call "psych"?

I wasn't there, man.

What'd you have that made you
want in on this suicide pact?

I was depressed.

What, you don't
remember high school?

Talk to me about
the pact, Boris.

Why did you put it
in the yearbook?

So we wouldn't back out.

Didn't work though.

I didn't have the stones.

Kept thinking of my mom seeing
me with my eyes glazed over

and my head cracked open.

I got caught up.

Suicide, it seemed
romantic, I guess.

So you backed outta
the plan and Trevor didn't.

- Not exactly.
- That's what happened.

Trevor was committed
to it, I wasn't.

What do you mean, Raquel?

I should say first

I'm not guilty of anything.

Mm-hmm.

The suicide pact
was in the winter.

By the time spring came

Trevor had met Dawn,
and the plan changed.

Keep goin'.

The lovebirds made a pact.

- Brought us in on it.
- What kind of pact?

Wasn't to kill ourselves.
It was to kill him.

[Smashing Pumpkin
singing "Today"]

- I feel sick.
- Me, too.

[Trevor]
Yeah, me, too.

It's okay, baby.

He's gonna be gone.

After tonight, your
stepfather's gonna be gone.

What if he grabs the gun?

First thing I do
when I go in there..

...is point it at his face

'and tell him
this is what happens'

when you're not
worthy of life.

Here. Gloves.

You guys, you don't
have to do this.

All I have is just one more year

and if I can just
make it to college--

Yeah, where he'll
visit you, Dawn.

And it won't stop.

What if something goes wrong?

I wrote a note.

Just in case
something happens to us.

If your stepfather hurts us or..

...if we get arrested.

"This is TD,
writing from a scary spot.

"I want you to know
that I am in danger.

'"If something
happens to me today'

"please tell
my parents I love them.

'"I want my parents to know'

'"that I don't regret
what I'm doing.'

"It may seem extreme,
but it's best for everyone.

Trevor Dawson."

[Boris]
'You know, with my mom'

yeah, I can drink.

I can toke up in front of her.

But sometimes I feel like

if I were to put
a gun to my head

'she couldn't care
about that either.'

I am willing to take

whatever consequences
there are, Dawn.

Me too, baby.

Let's do our fingerprints.

You're burning them off?

Yeah, maybe we should
just wear gloves, man.

It's what professionals do.

[Raquel]
You guys.

I don't have
my inhaler, you know.

I seriously can't
even breathe right now.

What, you want me
to go to the crime scene

and just pass out?

I can't go.

- Stay with Dawn.
- 'Okay.'

'Cause I just mean,
I really shouldn't go.

Whatever.

It's time.
Trevor.

♪ The greatest day

I love you.

♪ I want to turn you on

♪ I want to turn you round

♪ I want to turn you on.. ♪

I faked my asthma attack.

I didn't,
like, wanna be

like a dead or on the lam.

I wanted to live.

So that was the note

everyone thought
was Trevor's suicide note?

It was in case something
went wrong with the plan.

So you and Dawn stayed back?

Boris and Trevor took the gun
and went to kill Dawn's stepdad.

But Philip Hill is alive.

And that was
the last time I saw Trevor.

This kid, Trevor Dawson

was pushed from
the roof of his high school.

[Hill]
I'm not talking to you
without my lawyer.

He was your stepdaughter's
boyfriend.

You got the wrong kid.

Dawn didn't do
the boyfriend thing.

Focused on academics.

Oh, I'm sure that's why she
didn't do the boyfriend thing.

I don't know what you mean.

He knew your secret, Phil.

What you were
doing to that girl.

'And now I know.'

Be a lot harder to pick me off.

Lawyer.

[knock on door]

What is this?

Dawn wants to know
what happened that night.

What do you know about that?

- Those were my friends.
- 'Come on, Dawn.'

Do you have any idea
what those boys did to me?

What they were
going to do to me?

I gave them the alarm code.

Trevor was at your house
the night he died, Philip.

And you went without a scratch.

Never called the cops, either.

Maybe because whatever
Trevor did to you

it wasn't as bad
as what you did to him.

It was for my family what I did.

How does that work?

Not calling the police..

...because I didn't want it
to get back to my family

'have their hearts broken.'

The lies those punks
were spewing about us.

You're a parent, man.

You're somebody's dad.

You're supposed to
love them and protect them

and give a crap
if they live or die

'or if they're hurting.'

'Your kids didn't
ask to be born.'

'You did it to them.'

You brought 'em here

'and now you don't
care how they feel.'

'You ignore them.'

'You rape them.'

They need you, man.

'You're supposed to care.'

And you don't.

Stop it, man, stop.

Stop, please.

I don't wanna do this.

Get away from me.

I'm doing it.

[panting]

Look, I love your stepdaughter

more than anything
in the whole world.

And that's why
I'm taking her away from you.

Because that's what you do
for someone you love.

You protect them from pain.

[panting]

Can't do this, man.

It's messed up.

Let's go.

[muffled scream]

Not cool, man.

That kid was a maniac, Dawn.

And you did the right thing.

And stayed with me.

'Because we're family.'

You sure you didn't
find those kids

at the high school
later, Philip?

I was tied up till
the housekeeper came.

[Jeffries]
'Dawn, you didn't see the boys'

after they come back
from your house?

Boris.

He said Trevor had jumped.

So, Boris was the last to see?

I want you to know,
I don't blame you, Dawn

for telling
those boys what you did.

You were young.

And you took that away from me.

Goodbye, Philip.

Don't think you can walk out
of here and relax, Phil.

'You'll see me again.'

I promise.

We didn't hurt Philip Hill.

I don't care
about that guy, Boris.

We want to know what happened
between you and Trevor

after he didn't
let you kill Philip.

Even though we backed out

I think it messed with his head

how close we came.

Why do you think that?

He got all quiet.

Thinking about his own parents.

Rage he had about them.

But that was you.

You're talking about you.

I mean, you're the one
whose mother wouldn't care

if you put a gun to your head.

Trevor was gonna
go off with Dawn.

I mean, he had plans.
His parents cared.

[Rush]
'But you had no one.'

And the only plan
you had was a suicide pact

with a kid
who was gonna leave you

because he'd found
a way to be happy.

Which I never did, FYI.

Trevor said,
"Hang in there.

You'll find a way."

But I can't.

It should have been me.

Who died up there.

'Is that what you thought?'

That's the truth.

It was supposed to be me.

[Trevor]
'Hey, Boris.'

Hey, Boris, stop, man.

We got to go back to the pact.

This is so screwed up.

We didn't do anything, man.

We have nothing to run from.

I got to get out.

'I got to get out of my life.'

You know what I mean.

Yeah, but I'm over that.

I don't wanna be,
like some screwed-up guy

with, like, death
everywhere, you know?

I thought you were depressed.

[sniffles]

I wanna go get in my car
right now with Dawn, man

and-and I want to hold her

and I wanna talk
to her all night.

'And I know
you think that's gay.'

But I just wanna be here..

...you know?

I just want to, like

I don't know, love somebody.

'I want things, man.'

Like life things.

If I jumped off
this roof right now

and I was laying dead down there

with blood all over me

man, I'd think about my mom.

- She wouldn't care.
- Don't say that.

She wouldn't.

She hates me, man.

Well, then she's a bitch, man.

Because you're a good guy.

- I'm such a screw-up.
- No, you're not.

You're smart.
You got to endure, man.

- No.
- You got to hang in there.

- Nobody wants me around, man.
- That's not true, man.

I know what you're thinking,
but it's not the case.

- Yes, it is.
- No, it's not.

Hey, stop, man.
What are you...?

- Trevor, just let me.
- Stop.

[instrumental music]

[Smashing Pumpkins
singing "Landslide"]

♪ I took my love
I took it down ♪

♪ I climbed a mountain
and I turned around ♪

♪ And I saw my reflection

♪ In a snow-covered hill

♪ Till the landslide
brought it down ♪

♪ Oh mirror in the sky

♪ What is love

♪ Can the child
within my heart ♪

♪ Rise above

♪ Can I sail
through the changing ♪

♪ Ocean tides

♪ Can I handle the seasons

♪ Of my life

♪ Oh

♪ Well I've been afraid

♪ Of changing

♪ 'Cause I've built

♪ My life around you

♪ But time makes you bolder

♪ Even children get older

♪ And I'm
getting older too ♪

♪ Well I've been
afraid of changing ♪

♪ 'Cause I've built

♪ My life around you

♪ Time makes you bolder

♪ Even children get older

♪ And I'm getting older too

♪ I get older too

♪ I took my love
and took it down ♪

[female narrator]
Stay tuned for scenes
from our next episode.

[theme music]

[music continues]