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According to some folks,

the fairy of the lighthouse appears to the man she likes.

I have been at the lighthouse for three years,

but the fairy has not shown herself to me.

Maybe, I am not the type she likes.

Come in.

Good morning, Ma.

Have you eaten?

Yes. How about you?

Yes, Ma. I have.

Wow, beautiful.

I dreamt of Dahlal last night.

We were in Paris

at the Eiffel Tower.

We got separated from Madame Khalidya and Ernie.

The kids loved me very much.

You know when I left,

they cried so hard.

Ma,

you loved Dahlal and her sibling too.

Because of them,

my loneliness from being away from you became bearable.

They would show their affection by hugging me and telling me,

'I love you, Dada Yvonne.' And...

Then, they would kiss me on my cheeks.

Because of that job,

I was able to travel around Europe.

Because they couldn't go on tour without me.

Because Madame Khalidya couldn't speak English.

I was their translator.

Ma, what is your favorite place in Europe?

Well...

Oh, I love Switzerland.

It's clean.

The old buildings are beautiful.

Particularly, the ones near the river.

- It's just expensive there. - I see.

Yes, Ma, I remember

spending twenty thousand pesos in one night for beer.

Just for beer, Ma.

Yes. It is expensive there.

Did you visit Jet d'Eau?

Yes, Ma.

I shot a video of the place.

Really?

The fountain is so huge.

You should have shown me the video.

Ma, you've seen it already.

Really?

You know what?

Working overseas was really difficult.

Especially, for the Arabs. But I didn't let them abuse me.

One time, Madame Khalidya berated me and said,

'You, poor foreigner!'

I said, excuse me,

we had money also.

We just got poor.

But I am educated.

It was hard. Working overseas is difficult.

I had no choice.

You and your siblings had to study.

I'm sorry.

For our showbiz news,

Michael Sy is starring in a gay film,

to be directed by Director Jim.

According to Boss Vince of Viva, he asked Director Jim

to take care of Michael since it is the actor's biggest break.

Were you a happy child?

Yes, I was.

Director Jim has resigned from the film with Michael Sy,

because of a family emergency?

But why did he have to leave the film project

that is in danger of being shelved according to rumors.

What is the real reason?

Is it true that the director, and the actor had a fight?

I really don't understand this government.

I think they are just letting us all die.

I don't think they have a plan regarding the pandemic.

Because if COVID continues,

there would be no protest rallies.

It would be difficult to overthrow them.

Just chill, okay?

Even if you join the protest, what would it do?

That's exactly the problem. You just keep quiet.

Aren't you ashamed being quiet on this government's blunders?

What for? To be reprimanded by the management? No way.

I just returned to work.

And the bosses don't want us involved in politics.

They don't care how history would judge them.

Oh, well. They have always been fence-sitters.

Here, wear this.

Thanks.

Why do you allow people to bully you?

I'm used to it.

Ever since I was a kid,

I was bullied already.

My father used to hit me with a belt.

He would hang me upside down.

So, what's new?

I don't mind it anymore. I'm used to it.

Do you hate your father?

I couldn't blame him, though.

Whose father would want to have a gay child?

You can hide your being gay.

No way.

This is what I want.

That's why I left home.

So no one would interfere with me.

If they don't like me,

it's okay.

What's important is I'm happy.

Are you not afraid that the fairy might appear to you?

The fairy will not appear to me.

I am the fairy.

The fairy was so beautiful.

She's the type of woman that men look for.

She's the woman in every man's dream.

Why didn't you finish it?

I had to see you again.

I had to see you again to know if there is a happy ending.

And who is Fidel? Was he the husband of Ligaya?

Fidel.

Fidel was the older brother of Ligaya.

We were best of friends.

Our friendship became deep.

I treated him more than like a brother.

Six months.

We have been prisoners for six months.

ECQ.

MECQ.

GCQ.

Are we going back to the old normal?

Gone is the old normal.

There is nothing to go back to.

We have been exposed for what we are.

There will be a fresh start.

That's just it?

That's just it.

It comes. It goes.

There is. There is nothing. Dichotomy of life.

We should accept things the same way.

Whether it brings happiness or sadness.

Ah, so you don't get sad anymore?

You don't feel happy, too?

That's different.

I still feel happy.

I get sad. But I relish them both.

It's like,

I won't wish not to be sad because

for me to know that I am happy...

- Okay. - I have to experience being sad first.

Why were you so nice to me?

The bosses asked me to.

Please, take care of me.

- You know what? - What?

I would not just have taken care of you.

We could have created new experiences together.

- We would have made films. - Film festivals. - Yes.

- Europe. - Berlin.

No, no, no. Amsterdam.

I did.

I have.

I've always taken care of you.

- You had a hard on in that scene, right? - No.

Well, according to Manuel. I was not on the set, so...

Will you get a hard on even if there is a lot of people around?

It's been a while, yet, you still remember it.

You know, there is a theory that says,

we tend to add details

to memories we want to forget,

or those that we don't really remember.

And that is the beginning of forgetting.

- Are you okay? - Yes.

- I might miss this. - What?

This. You.

Us. Together.

Finally.

Finally, we're here.

I've waited for this moment for so long.

I waited so long to see you again.

I waited so long to talk to you again.

You changed the course of my life.

But I never blamed you for that.

I would love to, but my father is arriving.

You changed me

and...

Whatever happened, I never hated you for it

because I know

that you, too, have changed.

You, too, might have suffered.

Did you really feel harassed?

Did I abuse you?

Why didn't you fight back?

Why did you just leave?

Why didn't you say something before?

- Why didn't you talk to me? - I don't know.

I didn't know what to say.

When Kat asked me

what was going on between us,

I didn't know what to say.

Because there was nothing.

Then she asked me

if something happened,

I couldn't lie to her.

I've lied enough.

I said...

I said, yes.

But then, she asked me if I was forced to do it.

We had our dreams, too.

I admit, it was hard for me too.

It was difficult for me.

I didn't know whom to listen to.

So, I said, I would quit.

I would quit being an actor.

So, when my manager asked me why,

I couldn't answer.

It was Kat who answered.

I will ask you now.

Did I harass you?

Did I abuse you? Did I?

Why did you say we're just cousins?

Because it is shameful.

Are you ashamed of us?

- What are we? - What do you mean?

You better define what we are and who I am to you.

You always make a big fuss about it. Forget about it, okay?

Are you ashamed of me?

It's not that.

I'm not just comfortable with other people.

Maybe you are ashamed of yourself?

- What would I be ashamed of? - That you're gay.

Stop it. It's pissing me of.

Why can't you accept that you're gay?

If you can't do that, this relationship is going nowhere.

Screw you! Don't push it, okay?

Why can't you accept that you're gay?

You're gay!

You're an idiot! You're gay!

Screw you!

Ma, what are you looking for?

My ATM card.

Why there? You always keep it in your bag.

I looked inside the bag. It's not there.

The last time we used it, you put it inside the bag.

You know what, Anna got it.

I already gave her money, and she still got my ATM card.

Ma, why would Anna do that?

You said, you gave her money, so why would she take the card?

I don't trust Anna.

All she does is ask for money. And she knows my PIN.

Ma, I've always told you not to think ill of my siblings,

your children.

That's all they need from me, money, money, money.

Probably, when I don't have money, no one would mind me.

My siblings,

I sent all of them to school.

They were able to finish school because of me.

And then when they got jobs, they forgot about me.

When they got money,

when they had houses, they became arrogant.

They all took advantage of me.

Ma.

Where did you find it?

- How did it get there? - I don't know.

♪ Why have I been orphaned ♪

♪ My heart is full of sorrow ♪

♪ Joy has deserted me ♪

♪ My eyes are drowned in tears ♪

♪ I am just like a bird ♪

♪ That can no longer fly ♪

♪ Because it is weary and tired ♪

♪ From looking for its nest ♪

♪ If you're only aware ♪

♪ What I truly feel ♪

♪ Ever since you left me, my love ♪

♪ You will come back ♪

♪ To take me away ♪

♪ From this profound sadness ♪

♪ Why have I been orphaned ♪

♪ My heart is full of sorrow ♪

♪ Joy has deserted me ♪

♪ My eyes are drowned in tears ♪

♪ I am just like a bird ♪

♪ That can no longer fly ♪

♪ Because it is weary and tired ♪

♪ From looking for its nest ♪

♪ If you only know ♪

♪ What I truly feel ♪

♪ Ever since you left me, my love ♪

♪ You will come back ♪

♪ To take me away ♪

♪ From this profound sadness ♪

♪ If you only know ♪

♪ What I truly feel ♪

♪ Ever since you left me, my love ♪

♪ You will come back ♪

♪ To take me away ♪

♪ From this profound sadness ♪

Through my fault.

Through my fault.

Through my most grievous fault.

Therefore, I ask Blessed Mary, ever virgin.

All the angels and saints,

And you my brothers and sisters.

To pray for me to the Lord, our God.

May Almighty God have Mercy on us.

Forgive us our sins.

And bring us to everlasting life.

Amen.

- Lord, have mercy. - Lord, have mercy.

- Christ, have mercy. - Christ, have mercy.

- Lord, have mercy. - Lord, have mercy.

May your kindness, Oh Lord, be upon us.

Who have put our hope in you.

The earth is full with the goodness of the holy.

Please all stand to honor the Holy Gospel.

Love is patient.

Love is kind.

It is not jealous.

It is not pompous.

It bears all things.

Believes all things.

Hopes all things.

Endures all things.

Love never fails.

The Word of the Lord.

Lord, Holy Father, Almighty and Eternal God.

Hosanna in the highest.

Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord,

Hosanna in the highest.

- The Lord be with you. - And in your spirit.

Arjan and Kaye.

Bow your heads and pray for God’s blessings.

May the God, our Eternal Father,

Keep you in one heart and love for one another.

Amen.

And may Almighty God bless you all.

The Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.

Amen.

Our celebration is over, go in peace.

Thanks, be to God.

Amen.

There are things that are hard to explain.

Because some people are narrow-minded.

But more than anything else,

what matters is

our freedom.

Now, I understand why people have created fairies.