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♪ A sign in the sky tonight ♪

♪ no one's gonna tell me it's a trick of the light ♪

♪ may never come but I'm willing to wait ♪

♪ what can I say? I'm a man of the faith ♪

♪ and there's an ocean in my body ♪

♪ and there's a river in my soul ♪

♪ and I'm crying ♪

It's alright, you're fine.

Er, where's, where's jacob, where's my son?

It's alright, there's someone right there, okay?

it's okay, okay, it's okay.

That's it, that's fine.

It's okay.

It's fine, just try to breathe now, okay.

You'll be fine, okay, you'll be okay.

thank you.

Okay, just take a rest now, okay.

I'm going to make some coffee.

You want some val?

No, I'm fine.

Paul's making me breakfast.

You're through your troubles?

Yeah.

I think it might be for the best if you don't bring it up

With him.

It's your rodeo darling.

Hi jen.

How is she?

She's not great.

She's on a drip, asleep.

Okay, well at least that gives us a chance to have a proper

Look through her place.

How's jacob?

He didn't want to go to mam's, so I just dropped

Him at mairead's.

Hey look, will you have a look through her pockets for her

Phone, maybe they were in touch, and I will see you at

Her place.

I'll think of a way to get joe there too.

We just need to find something before she's discharged.

Are you sure about this jen?

look, we owe this to grace.

Don't let me down on this anna, okay?

Okay, bye.

Your money, you'll get it.

I just need more time.

Time!

Yeah.

You'd be doing time right now if it weren't for me.

Possession with intent to supply.

How much time did you skip all because I didn't rat?

I said you'd get your money, leon, and then I don't want to

See your face again.

We had plans, finn.

A bar in Spain.

Me at the front mixing cocktails.

You at the back cutting gear.

Of course, I mean we could always set up here.

They're mad for coke in these bum fuck country towns,

Aren't they?

Come on man.

We could run it round here you and me.

It's not who I am anymore.

Hey, finn.

Later.

Hello.

She is not ready to be discharged yet.

You found her?

She's the mother of my late husband's sons, we co-parent.

We're going to put her on some

Medication for withdrawal.

Make sure she takes it.

She's going to want to drink so don't let her out

Of your sight.

Any history of acting out?

Verbal abuse?

Violent outbursts?

The next few weeks are going to be hard.

We'll monitor her until she wakes up and then

She can be discharged.

Alright?

A rose by any other name might smell as sweet.

Romeo and juliet, is it?

Didn't end well for them either.

Val told you.

I'd have known anyway.

Mother's instinct.

Caro, it happened weeks before val and I ever met.

I, I would never do anything to hurt her.

So, this random fling just showed up, out of the blue and

You forgot to bring it up.

Speaking as a woman who's been cheated on many, many times,

You'll pardon me if I don't immediately swallow your story.

She was--

I don't want to know who she is, just that

She's out of the picture.

Is she?

Completely.

But should it happen again just remember that this is a family

That knows how to cover its tracks and, speaking for

Myself, I can always claim diminished responsibility.

I understand.

If you lie to her again, you'll have me to content with and I

Have my own special style.

you said there was a break-in.

did I?

Jenny, you know full well that going through her house without

A warrant is highly illegal.

You need to leave right now!

She was there, joe.

She was there and this is telling us that there is bus

Ticket or a hotel booking or something that will prove it.

Proves what?

I don't know yet.

But why would she lie?

About going up there?

About what happened between her and grace.

And you think that bringing me here under false pretenses is

The best to, to show that?

It's not in her car.

Her phone.

Jesus christ!

Look, we thought that if we could get a hold of elaine's

Phone, we might be able to prove that her and grace were

In contact around the time that she died!

You need to drop this.

Directing your grief into blaming someone else is not

Going to bring her back.

Let's be honest, jenny, no one wants to admit the truth.

That grace--

Don't, don't you say it.

Jesus christ, joe, she was the love of your life.

Something happened to her, and you are standing

There like a gobshite!

Jen, take it easy.

Well, who's side are you on all of a sudden?

You know what, I don't want any part of it, even if it

Is for grace.

Death exposes the hidden cracks that lay beneath you in

A lost loved one.

To truly grieve is to take ownership of all you

Were to each other.

It's so true.

Your mother was a genius.

Well, she was one of a kind that's for sure.

I can't believe this has just been sitting here.

It's her best work.

I'd be lost without this book.

Did she ever set it up, the center for grief counselling?

No.

That's a shame.

She's right though.

I mean there are things that happened between myself, and

Grace I just haven't dealt with.

I think the hardest thing about death is, not grieving the

Relationship you had with the person, but grieving the

Relationship you didn't have.

There are moments in our past.

Decisions I made on her behalf.

I just, I, I just need to face up to them.

But it wasn't all your fault.

Yeah, but I, I have to admit I, I, I had a tendency to treat

Grace's mental health as something I was going through,

Not her and I need to take ownership of that!

Well don't you think it's a bit too soon to be

Dredging up this stuff?

No!

I just don't want you to put yourself in a place where

You're assigning blame.

Paul, she would never have been near that bloody retreat if our

Relationship had be functioning like it was supposed to, with

Love and compassion.

Now I am the parent, that's on me.

Your mother is bang on the money.

I know my own mind, paul.

My own culpability is exactly what I have to deal with.

Are we fighting?

No, are we?

Come on, we're through all that.

Come on.

Thank you, for giving me a second chance.

And if you're serious about this, at least

Let me try to help.

What?

Val threw you out.

She didn't throw me out, just mum.

What happened?

Don't know.

No one's telling the truth, as usual.

She said I could stay but I don't want to.

It doesn't feel like home anymore.

It's a really weird atmosphere.

How?

Paul, he doesn't like people getting in his way.

Gran totally backs him up.

It's like walking on eggshells.

No, it can't be as bad as that.

She's changed.

Paul wants her all to himself.

Come on, jacob, that doesn't sound like the val I know.

Maybe the val you know, the val I know are different people.

Where you going?

I'll be back in a while.

Help yourself to anything you want love, alright?

See you shortly.

Okay?

Yeah.

Alright erm, we can review this together later.

Just relax now.

Let your mind drift.

Think of an early memory of grace.

Something, something that was cherished between

The two of you.

Grace.

I got you grace.

I got you.

How do you feel?

Sad.

A child trusts you with their life.

I just let her down.

Need a break?

No, just keep going, keep going.

Jen!

Jesus.

She was in deep.

What am I doing jen?

The doctor told me to stay close.

Make sure she stays sober for jacob's safety.

I've no home for him now.

Look anna.

We need to work out if elaine possesses

A threat to our family.

If she does, we'll see her put away for the rest

Of her days and then jacob's future is going

To be about a thousand times better.

Okay?

You never told me what happened between you and mam.

Okay, well you might as well know.

About a year ago I--

My god!

I knew it.

It's a booking for a guest house near the retreat.

She followed grace up there.

What are you thinking about now?

London, er, grace thought she was going on a shopping for her

Debs, but denis made her have a termination and a, I didn't

Even know she was pregnant.

Where were you?

I don't know.

I mean she was just acting out; you know.

Driving me mad.

I should have known she was in trouble, but I just needed a,

No, I wanted a break from her.

What happened after london?

She became even more unwell.

Er, extreme mood swings, you know.

Lashing out.

I couldn't cope so I er, so I sent her away.

Denis said it was a private retreat, but jesus

When we got there.

What?

It was an institution!

Sign here, please.

And I let them take her away anyway, you know.

I had her sectioned.

please, no.

Mam, mam, please, mam.

And when she screamed out my name.

D'you know what I did?

mam, mam, please no!

I just put my hands over my ears, and I just blocked the

Noise out.

mam, please, mam, no, please no.

Mam!

How was it between you after that?

She was afraid.

Of what?

Me.

She never trusted me after that.

Grace.

Grace!

It's okay.

It's not, she was my baby and I just, I, I controlled

Everything and I just suffocated that poor child.

What are you doing in my house?

Making sure you've no alcohol anywhere.

You nearly died last night, elaine.

Aha, well I didn't so you can go now.

For god's sake.

We have a duty to jacob.

We can't let you do this!

And I have a duty as a doctor, elaine.

If you drink again you could kill yourself.

Get out of my house!

We're not going anywhere.

Fine, stay if you want.

Makes no difference to me.

Anna, give me that.

You touch a drop of that, we're calling o'rourke and you'll go

Right back to prison.

Well, that's what you want for jacob too, is it, me out of the

Way again.

I think he'd love you for that anna.

Jenny, jenny, please I just, I just need one drink

Jenny, please.

Consider this an intervention.

You have a teenage son who saved your life last night.

We're doing this for his sake, not yours.

Please, please.

Is val in?

Not a good time, mair.

They need their privacy.

Then what are you doing here?

Val!

Mairead, we need a few minutes.

I just spoke to jacob.

What happened between you and anna?

Jacob said there was some kind of a row!

Mairead, this is not a good time.

My niece and her son have been asked to leave their home.

So, if it's alright with you, I'd like a minute with my

Sister, please.

Go on, it's okay.

What's the story, val?

It's complicated.

Jacob is distraught!

Mair, I don't want you to worry, okay.

Just trust me on this.

Anna and I, I have my reasons.

Come on, sis, you can tell me.

Mairead, drop it.

I know you're grieving.

I know every day has its darkness, but we

Have to stick together.

You can't fall out with your kids now.

I know.

Why didn't you call me?

I could have come up and, I don't know, separated the pair

Of you or something.

Mair, let it be!

And what are you going to do mam?

Send me to my room?

If I thought it would do any good.

Have you forgotten the night that you climbed out of your

Bedroom window?

Two o'clock in the morning and got stuck on a drainpipe.

I had to send for the fire brigade.

Yeah, well you weren't complaining when they arrived.

Didn't you date one of them?

No, three of them.

Sorry, sorry to interrupt.

Erm, val may I, it's just for work.

Yeah, of course.

Can I get you ladies anything, tea, coffee?

G&t for me.

No, we're good, thanks.

Look, let me talk to anna.

Come on val, this is not who we are.

I'm sorry mairead, I just, I really don't want

To talk about it.

That's my final word.

Sorry.

Right, I know when I'm not wanted!

Don't be like that.

Come on mair.

Come--

You alright?

What do we do now?

Let me think.

Shit!

What is it?

Finn's on a job, I'm supposed to be picking up nell.

I'm going to call frank; I don't want you to

Be alone with her.

No, it's okay.

I'm fine.

Should I give her one of these now or?

Let's have her sweat it out for a bit.

You never know, if she gets desperate, she might let

Something slip.

Here, if we give her enough rope, she might hang herself.

Jennifer ahern.

Pardon me, erm, doctor.

I'm leon, finn's brother.

Well, foster brother.

To be fair there were about 25 of us.

But I just thought I'd come over and surprise him.

Right, yeah, yes, sorry.

Where are my manners?

It's nice to meet you.

Erm, and, and finn, finn doesn't know that you're here?

No.

Right, well you should come to ours for dinner and we'll

Surprise him.

If you just put your number in my phone, I'll text

You the address.

Alright, it sounds perfect.

How did you feel when grace told the garda it

Was you who killed dad?

I said how did you feel?

God, I need a drink.

Then answer the question!

You want to a drink so bad, come on!

Just me the key!

Well then, answer the question, elaine!

What happened with you and grace?

I don't know what you're talking about.

I know you were up there elaine.

Don't deny it.

Tell me what happened, or I swear to god I'll pour this

Drink down the sink.

Is elaine there?

Why, what's the problem?

She failed to sign in at the station this morning.

Can I come in?

Jacob!

Food poisoning.

Yeah.

And what time did you start feeling sick at?

Er, erm.

It was about ten, wasn't it?

Yeah, yeah.

It kept me awake so I erm, I slept in.

You really expect me to believe that you haven't been drinking?

Well, it was my fault, elaine rang in sick at the

Hotel and erm, I was supposed to call you.

But you forgot.

By failing to sign in at the station at her allotted time,

Elaine is in violation of the terms of her parole agreement.

That's a very serious offence.

I know.

If I was a woman in her situation, I'd have crawled to

That station rather than miss a signing.

Sorry, the last thing I'd want is for elaine

To be in any trouble.

Is it?

No more slip ups.

I'll see you in the morning.

If I find out that you or your family have taken the law

Into your own hands again, you'll live to regret it!

Hey.

I thought I was cooking tonight.

Veggie curry, your favourite.

Thanks love.

Erm, I hope you made enough?

Why?

'cause, look who I found.

Surprise!

You heading out?

Yeah, erm, I just thought I'd go and

Square things with mairead.

It's a sister thing.

If we even have one cross word I literally, I, I, I can't eat,

I can't sleep until it's forgiven.

No that's okay you don't have to explain.

But, hey, hey, you know you're entitled to keep your private

Life private.

You shouldn't have to apologize for it.

No, I know, it's just that,

Mairead can drive me up the wall sometimes, but, she's my

Sister and we never let the sun go down on a fight.

I know, it's just, you're dealing with a lot of heavy

Stuff at the moment.

Thank you.

Erm, looking back I know allowed other family demands

Get in the way and I think that did have an effect on grace.

Now, I know I can't change that now, but I can make sure it

Won't happen again.

Not with you, not with us.

Well, I'm just, I'm just looking out for you that's all.

Likewise.

I mean look this is, this is your home to just

As much as it is mine.

I, I just, I need to erm, make mairead

Understand that, you know.

Okay.

Say hi for me.

Yeah.

If she'd seen that bottle I'd be in the back of

A squad car by now.

Why did you cover for me?

Something happened between you and grace.

Tell me the truth and I'll pour the biggest drink of your life.

I swear!

When grace went to the gards about denis, I knew I was going

To prison, so what was the point in staying sober and then

One day, out of the blue, grace shows up, at my door.

She wants to apologise, I was drunk, I told her to fuck off!

But still, the idea of an ahern coming

To me to tell me she was sorry.

So yeah, I went up to donegal to see her.

I thought if I can forgive her for what she did, I can survive

Anything, even prison.

So I spoke to her, we made amends and said our goodbyes

And that was the last time I saw her.

I was with my defence counsel in dublin when he got the call to

Say she'd died.

It was three days after I saw her in donegal.

Here's to the happy couple.

To er, long lost family.

Finn.

I'll go.

She's fine.

So how long are you here for?

Erm, I'm not sure yet.

And er, where's home?

Well, that's the erm, that's the big question.

You see I was supposed to move to malaga to set up a bar with

A friend.

But he chickened out.

Still, I mean this is a nice little town.

Maybe I'll look for a license here.

Hey, that'd be amazing, right?

You could be my doorman.

Get the old fists going again.

A, excuse me, I've just gotta make a call.

I'm staying at the coast hotel, and I trust you'll sort my bill

For me?

Me being family and all.

Is she talking?

Yeah, but we're wrong, jen.

She's innocent, it's not her.

Wa-you sure?

She did go to visit grace in donegal, but she was in dublin

With her defence team the day grace died.

Damn it!

I'll call you back.

What's going on with you?

I didn't ask him here, you did.

Yeah.

He has come all this way to see you and you are

Behaving like a child.

It's an act.

He's not here to play happy families.

He's dangerous jen.

Don't believe a word he says.

No-- I'm not totally naive, finn.

Okay I know that you two must have done stuff together

But that doesn't mean that he's up to no good now.

Up to no good?

We had a dog in our foster home, everyone loved it.

Leon drowned it to get back at our foster dad.

This, this is what he did to me.

He's a scumbag, jen.

He's looking for a pay-out.

He'll drown us too if he doesn't get it.

who's a little cutie-pie?

Look at those chubby cheeks.

You and me are going to take a walk.

No.

Jen!

Leon!

Get the fuck out!

If you and your family want to see the back of me,

It'll cost you fifty grand, mate.

You're getting nothing from me.

I'm warning you leon, don't mess with this family.

You come anywhere near us again I swear it'll be the last thing

You ever do.

Yeah, we're not done mate.

You are going to pay up one way or another.

He's just using you, darling!

He doesn't love anybody.

He never did.

Hey.

Hey.

Can I just start by saying I didn't know

About jacob staying with you.

Well, he found elaine passed out drunk last night,

Barely breathing.

She was taken to the hospital, jenny brought him here.

Shit, I had no idea.

He should never have been in that house.

Val, whatever the issues with anna.

Mair.

I mean I'm sorry if it sounds harsh!

You know what I have carried anna for so long,

I just, I need my space.

Val, the sister I know, and love would never allow

Her grandson to walk into that kind of danger.

I, I just can't make you out.

I don't know if it's all since the loss of grace or paul.

Paul has nothing to do with this.

Well then why do I get the feeling you're being

Forced to choose between him and your family.

Paul is my husband, he is family and jacob is anna's son,

It's her job to, to raise him and protect him, not mine.

I just want to be left in peace.

Jesus.

Maybe this just wasn't the best idea.

Maybe we just need a, a bit of space from each other,

I, I just--

I, I can give you some peace, if you want?

No, no, no, good to know you visit her too.

Whenever I can.

Hah.

It doesn't make it any easier though, does it?

I miss her every minute of every day joe.

I know.

Grace would have hated to see me like this, you know, she

Would have said, "go on now mam, get out there,

Go and live your life."

"tears won't bring me back."

That's why we have to find

A way to keep her alive in our hearts, joe, you know, and

I just keep thinking.

If I couldn't help her when she was

With us that doesn't mean we can't help others.

Now she's gone, you know.

I'll leave you to it.

Are we going to talk?

Well, I just had a really shitty twenty-four hours, so I

Don't know if I actually have the strength.

He's got into your head, hasn't he?

About me, shall we call it off?

This.

No, I, I just.

'cause when you hear stuff like I stole

Things and threatened people.

Lied to the police.

Protected criminals from going to prison.

It scares you.

A little.

But you're an ahern, jen.

You stole.

Threatened people.

Lied.

You don't scare me.

Take it.

Hiya, you alright?

Yeah, yeah fine.

She's talking now.

I think you should get over here.

It, yeah, right away.

You really want that?

'cause if you do, it's over for you and the boys.

There's no going back.

It's your choice, but if you really want to change, I'll

Help you.

I give my word.

So, tell me, how is life on the

Wild atlantic way?

Let's just say the waters have been a bit choppy lately.

Val and I had a dust up.

I'm sorry.

I thought you were really close.

Yeah, we are, were.

I don't know, like, we fight but in that sense that

It's out of true love.

This is different, she's doing things, saying things, it's.

I don't know, it's like I don't know her.

Since when, the wedding.

Look, I'm not accusing anyone of anything

But val's one drive in life has always been keeping

The family together!

She's in love mairead.

It's the honeymoon phase.

You've been there.

You've been married.

Yeah, but I failed the practical.

Well, I'm very glad you did.

You're making me wish I'd never got on that plane.

Look this thing with val, d'you think it's paul?

I don't know what to think.

I was just about to make us dinner.

Not for me.

Actually, you wouldn't mind making yourself scarce tonight?

It'll just be nice for paul and I to have some time to

Ourselves, for once.

Of course.

Alright lads, party's over, I want to see everyone's ids now.

Check your pockets, bags, ids now, please!

Val?

You did breakfast.

I thought I'd do dinner.

How did it go with mairead?

I give it about a four out of ten.

Sorry love.

You were right I, I have nothing to apologise for.

You know I'm beginning to think my mother's book has

Opened the floodgates.

Believe me your mother has done me the biggest favour today.

Food'll be ready in ten.

Come on, there's something I want to show you.

Shit!

God, it really is beautiful here.

This place has seen the best of memories and the worst.

This house hasn't been a home for anyone since grace died.

If we're to stay here we have to reimagine it.

Not as a home but a, a haven.

What d'you mean?

Well, we, we own all the land from the back of the house

Right down to the shoreline.

What if we make your mother's dream come true and turn all of

It into a center for grief counselling.

A place where people can come and find peace in the wake of

Their loss.

What, what about your family?

It's not their decision.

It's ours.

From now on it's just you and me.

I love you.

And I love you.

Just you and me.

I like the sound of that.

How are you feeling?

Here, take two of those.

It'll help with the withdrawal.

But you know I had nothing, nothing to do with what

Happened to her.

I just miss her so much and I feel like we let her down.

There are just too many things that don't add up.

We need to work out what happened.

To get closure.

We thought that maybe you had grace's phone.

I mean if we could just find out who she was talking to in

Those last few days, we might know what went on.

There was someone on their way to see her in donegal, after I

Left and, and I know she was anxious about it.

Wa, who, who, who was it?

She didn't say.

But I know she'd been in contact with joe around

That time.

Maybe he knows and if you find that phone...

look, I don't think you should come this weekend.

I need more time to work things out.

I really mean it, joe.

I've told reception not to let you in, so please, just

Please respect what I am saying.

I'm sorry grace.

I'm so sorry.

♪ and if I see a sign in the sky tonight ♪

♪ no one's gonna tell me it's a trick of the light ♪

♪ may never come but I'm willing to wait ♪

♪ what can I say? I'm a man of the faith ♪

♪ and there's an ocean in my body ♪

♪ and there's a river in my soul ♪

♪ and I'm crying ♪

♪ and we carry the sun ♪