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♪ It goes on and on

The human body has three systems of communication--

the nervous, endocrine, and immune systems.

♪ It goes on and on

♪ Get away from me, yeah

♪ What we do for the people

♪ Trying to save you from your ego ♪

♪ This world never stops

♪ Till you're free to find the [inaudible] ♪

♪ Said you needed a hero

When any of these systems experience a malfunction,

it can wreak havoc on the body.

♪ Try to copy me

♪ Try to steal my flair

♪ I go for love

♪ It's time to let it rain

Effective communication between surgeons in the OR

is just as essential.

Guess who took the red eye?

Guess who took the whole day off?

♪ We're gonna get higher

♪ Tiptoe through fire

♪ We're gonna get high

♪ Till we find our way

♪ It goes on and on

When a life is at stake,

there's no time or space for body language

or carefully chosen words.

♪ It goes on and on

You're saying I should crawl into a hole and hide?

No, I'm saying changing your phone number

and email address isn't the worst idea.

I'm not gonna let them win.

It's just a cell phone number.

Just a cell phone number?

It's the only one I've ever had.

I've known that number longer than I've known you.

I've been reading--

I've been reading up on other doctors who've been doxxed,

and it only gets worse from here.

Calls at all hours of the night, email inboxes flooded,

people showing up at your door.

You want to move.

Look, we'll find an Airbnb.

It'll just be six months, tops. - Six months!

- Like a vacation-- - Oh, no.

No, this will blow over.

They'll get bored or find someone

else to be outraged about.

Mm-hmm, mm-hmm.

Look, I'll have an intern babysit my phone.

♪ It goes on and on

But no matter how hard we try,

there's always a risk of being misunderstood.

Or simply unheard.

You look like crap.

Yeah, I worked the closing shift at Joe's.

What's your excuse?

Do we still have that thing tonight?

Yes, cake tasting at 7:00.

Oh.

Can't wait to see what you do with floral

arrangements, Adams.

Remember when you fainted in the OR?

So this is Pierce's last day?

Oh, God, I hate that.

Apparently Ndugu's staying.

I work at a bar.

I hear things.

Good for her.

You don't like Ndugu?

Don't like marriage.

What's wrong with marriage?

It's a distraction.

From what?

Meaningful career,

making an impactful contribution to the world,

fully-realized individual potential.

Ready.

Are you sure?

Sorry.

Are you going to get off work on time tonight?

Because I made us this reservation

at that pizza place you keep talking about.

- Pizzageddon? - Mm-hmm.

It's impossible to get into.

Well, I have an in with the manager.

I delivered his baby.

Did I forget? Is it my birthday?

Is it your birthday? - No, I just--

I figured that we deserved a night out.

- Yeah. - Yeah!

- All right. - OK.

Those two need to get a room.

What, Link and Wilson?

Yeah, they basically just had sex in front of us.

You remember what sex is, right?

I'm just saying. Messy.

I don't know.

Hey, you remember when you and me used to be like that?

Nope.

Do you smell margaritas?

It's me.

Joe's had a two-for-one special last night.

Oh, maybe you should try soap next time.

Oh, maybe you should try being the maid of honor

for someone you have feelings for who's

marrying someone else-- oh, wait.

Mission accomplished. - We're just friends.

Don't care.

Oh, but can you bring leftovers from the cake tasting?

Ow. Ow!

- What do we got? - William Hudson, 32.

GCS 14.

Left upper extremity deformity and abdominal contusion.

Systolic's in the low 100s. - Trauma three.

- OK. What happened? - Am I bleeding?

He, uh, tried to mail himself to his girlfriend in Florida.

- Excuse me? - It's her birthday tomorrow.

Says he was trying to surprise her.

Wait, you put yourself in a box?

Ow!

And the box fell from the conveyor belt

while they were loading it into the plane.

Yeah, maybe for the best.

He could have died in the cargo hold.

He could still die here.

What?

I'll go page Hunt.

You guys still use pagers?

Excuse me, excuse me. Hi, are you doctors?

Uh, yes, we are. How can we help you?

We're here to speak to Dr. Margaret Pierce.

Do you have an appointment?

Viv, this was not a good idea.

Can you just call Dr. Pierce?

Uh, her-- her schedule is very busy.

But if you, um, give me your information, I can--

No, no, no, no. We just drove 400 miles

in my 1994 roadie van,

without air conditioning, so that my friend here

could be seen for the giant tumor

that is crushing her heart.

So can you two baby doctors just pick up the phone

and call Dr. Margaret Pierce?

Because we are not leaving until you do.

- You packing up? - Yeah.

I'm at that point where I'm just throwing everything

into a bag because I don't have time to decide whether

I want to keep it or not.

I know this is all happening really fast.

Um, it's actually happening a little quickly for me, too.

But this is just such a huge opportunity.

I guess I thought this place meant more to you

than just a stepping stone for something bigger.

Richard, of course it does.

I mean, we just revived the residency program.

We just lost Meredith. - I know.

And I told Teddy when I gave her

my resignation that I would help interview new candidates

over video chat.

In my day, you accepted a job after your fellowship,

then you worked there until you retired.

They taught you that loyalty mattered.

So out of loyalty, I should not pursue research that would

save thousands of patients?

You've already started doing that here with Winston.

I hate that you're upset, but I'm not going to apologize--

Dr. Margaret Pierce,

can you please come to the nurses' station

on the first floor, please?

I guess, um...

- Dr. Margaret Pierce... - We'll talk later.

Can you please come to the nurses' station

on the first floor.

Ma'am, you are not allowed--

Dr. Margaret Pierce, can you please

come to the nurses' station--

Security is on their way, and the longer we do this,

the longer it will-- - Oh, my God. I'm here.

Second floor please!

Why am I being paged on repeat by someone

who doesn't even work here?

- We're so sorry, Dr. Pierce. - She grabbed the phone.

- And we called security. - Dr. Pierce!

Um, big fan.

This is Nola.

She has mediastinal mass syndrome

due to the large thymoma which has

completely taken over her heart.

Uh, Dr. Griffith,

uh, get them upstairs in a room,

so I can do a proper consult, but do not ever

come into a hospital that way again,

or you'll be quickly escorted out.

Uh, I thought you were leaving.

I'm going to push my flight.

Next time, try listening to the patients

before you call security on them.

I'm sorry.

I know it's uncomfortable. - Uncomfortable?

It hurts like hell.

Can't you give him anything for the pain?

We need to complete the initial exam first.

Can I just get back to playing "Minecraft"?

What mode are you playing?

- Survival. - Mm.

Just nailed an enchanting table,

then you came in and started trying to kill me.

Ow! - Sorry.

David.

Oh hey, Daisy.

Dr. Webber.

Well, look who we have here.

Dr. Kwan?

Grayson Friedman, 13.

History of ulcerative colitis,

which has previously been in clinical--

He knows already. He's my doctor.

Hey. Sorry.

Dr. Webber diagnosed Grayson when he was eight.

We've been managing his condition with meds.

But this morning, the pain was so bad he collapsed

on the floor in the bathroom.

Do you think he needs surgery?

- No. - Last time you mentioned

an ostomy. - No, I know what that is.

It's not that bad. Don't do surgery, please.

We won't do anything until we find out what's going on.

We'll run some tests,

and then we'll get you something for your pain.

Thank you.

I don't want surgery.

I don't even think I need it.

Order a CBC, CMP, inflammatory markers with a CT.

Then put him on an IV steroid

with a PRN of morphine to make him comfortable,

and page me when you get the scans.

Uh, Dr. Webber?

Do you think that maybe we could find some time to talk?

Seems like we're doing that now, Schmitt.

Well, I don't have my notes with me.

Right.

I've been thinking about fellowships

and attending positions,

and I would love to pick your brain--

You haven't applied for your fellowships yet?

I submitted my recommendations

for most candidates months ago.

I've been exploring options,

and I would love your suggestions.

You're a fourth-year resident, Schmitt.

My suggestion would be,

get your act together sooner than later.

Nola, we're really here.

You're--you're really being examined

by Dr. Margaret Pierce.

I mean, the Dr. Margaret Pierce!

Meeting you in person, it's like--

That time we met Stevie Nicks.

I'm digging this more.

I am flattered.

Oh, keep her elevated.

If she's flat, the tumor could further

compress the vasculature, which could lead to more swelling.

Griffith?

Uh, Nola Marquez, 42.

Developed a mediastinal mass

with a tissue diagnosis of a thymoma.

The tumor grew alongside her heart,

putting pressure on it and the vasculature,

causing SVC syndrome.

Symptoms include shortness of breath

and mental acuity issues.

- It's not that bad. - No one believes you.

- Sisters? - Close.

We're, uh, friends since elementary school.

We met in chorus, and been rocking together ever since.

- You're in a band? - We are a band.

Double Helix.

Ever since Nola got diagnosed she hasn't touched her guitar.

I can barely sleep, let alone perform.

Viv has dragged me to every heart surgeon

in the Pacific Northwest.

No one will operate.

They all say it's too risky.

Bunch of cowards. But now we have the best.

Dr. Pierce, she's--she's not pop rock, she's Led Zeppelin.

Double Helix is back.

All right, well, first things first.

Let's get some scans, see where we are.

Griffith, Millin.

Uh, she's been fasting, and we've both been visualizing.

So she's ready for surgery the minute you are.

Why didn't you show up with flowers?

That was all I'm saying.

It was supposed to be a grand romantic gesture.

I surprised you in Germany.

Yeah, but you came on a plane.

Yeah, like a regular human person.

We need to check his upper left extremity for a fracture.

Order some AP and lateral films.

OK.

What's the lesson here?

Romance can be fatal.

Wouldn't be the first time.

Or it can save lives and heal.

Oh, please.

You're just trying to prove me wrong

because you didn't even know that Jo and Link were an item.

No. No, Jo and I are-- we're just friends.

Friends who have slept together.

Wait, you guys slept together?

- How do you know that? - You know what?

Just, uh, page me when the scans come in.

How much longer do I have to be in here?

Not long.

Just think like you have a health bar

that needs replenishing.

It's a video game reference.

I'm aware.

How do you not know if you're doing general or subspecialty?

It's a fellowship reference.

Wow.

You're really begging for a pile of scut, Kwan.

No, I'm genuinely asking

how you got into your fourth year of residency

without a clear direction.

Well, let's see.

Maybe it was the worldwide pandemic that happened

in the middle of my residency,

or the program being shut down last year.

Take your pick.

Well, I like to track each subspecialty

I'm interested in with a spreadsheet

and monitor trends in each area.

I'm hot.

And it's really dark in here, guys.

I really want to get out.

Grayson, just, um, hum a song or sing.

Like what?

Anything inside your head.

You studying for your bar mitzvah?

Yeah. I sound terrible.

I've been practicing for over 300 days in a row,

and I still sound awful, right?

- Yes. - Keep chanting.

It's acute severe colitis.

That smells delicious.

I was thinking after we eat, we can go on a walk.

Um, I wanted to talk--

Hey, what's wrong?

With Mer gone and Maggie leaving,

there's not going to be any Sunday dinners.

Mm.

On Sundays, Maggie cooks,

and she puts enough leftovers in my fridge

to get me to Wednesday.

So maybe it's time to learn how to cook.

I have a history of spiraling when people leave me,

and a good old-fashioned spiral does not leave

much time for cooking lessons.

What does it leave time for?

All kinds of fun things.

Uh, pulling away from people you love,

starting fights, lack of sleep,

spilling your worst instincts to someone who just flew

halfway across the country to cook for you.

You love your sisters.

This is a big change. Anybody would be sad, Amelia.

How could I be sad with you here?

Yasuda, I have a job for you.

Oh, Dr. Bailey, thank you.

At your service.

Hey, I need you to hold on to this.

That is my lifeline, and I'm entrusting it to you.

Do not answer it unless caller ID says

it's my husband Ben Warren, or a hospital number.

Got it.

So Grey Sloan, your husband, or Ben Warren?

My husband is Ben Warren.

Do I need to entrust this to someone else?

Nope. I got this.

Entrust me.

Hey, if you don't screw it up,

maybe she'll entrust you to babysit her tablet next.

Do I need to get surgery?

We should really wait for your parents.

I can't get surgery.

My bar mitzvah's to be in 36 hours.

You haven't been taking your medication.

What?

No, I have. Every day.

My parents set this, um, annoying alarm.

Um--

Grayson, I have your urine results.

The labs don't lie, but sometimes patients do.

Yeah, OK, I-- I stopped.

But just for a little bit.

I've been in these Hebrew classes,

and the pills and infusions, they made me--

they made me really tired, so tired that I--

I fainted one day, and everyone saw.

And then the--the medications, they dried my eyes out.

And then the eye drops, they burned.

And I got this gross-looking rash on my neck

that Eloise Schurmann saw--

Do you know how worried your parents have been?

Dr. Webber--

How much money they've spent on your treatments?

Now you need surgery. - No. No surgery.

It doesn't even hurt that badly.

Just--just give me some steroids or infusions.

The Torah portion is only 25 minutes.

I can make 25 minutes. - No, you can't.

- Please. - If you don't get

the surgery immediately, the inflammation in your intestine

will get worse, spread further,

and lead to an incredibly serious infection.

You would be in excruciating pain, and you would die.

- Kwan! - You know what?

Dr. Kwan is right.

Grayson, you're not an adult, and you're not a doctor.

I'm talking to your parents, because clearly

you aren't mature enough to understand how much

we care about you, and how much harm

you could have done to yourself.

OK, Hudson's X-rays are in.

Uh, sorry. One sec.

It's Jo.

Um, it looks like a simple

mildly displaced humeral fracture.

Yeah, and a shattered spleen with decreasing responses

to fluids.

Teddy and I can take him up for an ex-lap now.

And I will set and reduce the fracture when you're done.

Mm-hmm.

I know what you're thinking--

that I should tell Jo I have feelings for her.

But listen, we built a home together as friends.

Our kids are practically siblings.

If I make a move and she doesn't feel the same way,

it's over.

Saying something is not a good idea.

That is not at all what I was thinking.

So you think it's a good idea?

I have no opinion.

Plus, the last person I talked to about their relationship

was Ndugu, and his wife is moving to another state.

Not to mention him and Altman.

What was that, Yasuda?

Do you and Altman need us to prep him for surgery?

Yes.

And type and cross two units of blood.

And deep breath.

My parents toured with the band for a minute.

They were called Blessed Wolf.

Well, I tried to name us after our third grade teacher,

Mrs. Hatmaker, but Nola here nixed it.

Two women in a folk rock duo called

the Hatmakers might as well sew up their vaginas forever.

Is Viv your only emergency contact?

My ride or die, since day one.

And you repay me by trying to die.

Think about all the songs you'll be

able to write about my death.

Oh, you're better off.

I mean, who needs a spouse when you have a bandmate?

Well, we prefer the term platonic soulmate.

Another excellent band name.

We're going to talk to Dr. Pierce,

and we'll be back to update you.

Thank you.

OK, what is your problem? - With what?

You're hating on marriage to anyone who will listen,

when I'm about to get married.

Or I'm doing my job and connecting with our patients.

Yeah, but you don't know Trey.

You don't know our relationship.

I know.

Get married, don't get married. I don't care.

But it's not a distraction.

I've been singularly focused on becoming a surgeon

since I was eight.

Griffith, I've already said I don't care.

Who are you trying to convince?

Doctors? It's Nola. Something happened.

We were talking and she gasped.

And then, um, this machine started going off.

I don't know. - Grab a crash cart.

How's her airway?

Airway's patent and she's breathing.

She has JVD.

OK, we need to get her oxygen, and page Dr. Pierce!

O2.

What happened?

Her BP dropped.

JVD, muffled heart sounds. - What does it mean?

Cardiac tamponade.

Someone tell me what that means.

Nola's tumor has caused fluid to accumulate

around her heart.

We need to relieve the pressure by draining it,

by doing what's called a pericardiocentesis.

18-gauge spinal needle.

Griffith?

Find your landmarks.

Find one centimeter inferior to the left xiphocostal angle.

Yep.

Insert the needle at a 30-degree angle.

Good.

And slowly advance it toward the left shoulder,

while aspirating.

And you should start to see fluid.

Good, there it is. Good.

She's stable, but we don't have much time.

Until what?

Until the fluid builds up again.

Let's get her to the CCU, and page Dr. Ndugu right now.

Do you hear something?

Don't worry about it, William.

- Maybe it's Rose. - Who's Rose?

Oh, she's my girlfriend.

She's so pretty and smart.

Except for her teeth.

Don't worry about it, William.

It's not Rose.

Oh, my God.

It's not my fault.

Stop calling, asshat!

You're not harassing Dr. Bailey.

You are harassing me! A poor, overworked,

tired intern who would really appreciate it if you could--

hello?

Hi.

Sorry.

I'll--I'll tell her.

That was Dr. Bailey's optometrist.

Tuck's glasses are ready.

Do you need me to hold the phone for a while?

No, thank you.

Do you need me to hold the phone for a while?

You in the Nether worlds now?

Do you play with friends, or--

Do you think Dr. Webber will

still want to be my doctor after this?

Of course he will.

I disappointed him.

Well, if it makes you feel any better, so have I.

Kids at school call me a defect,

because I'm always in the nurse's office taking my meds.

I just wanted to be normal, you know?

You know, I tried for a really long time

to be what I thought was normal,

and then I decided to see what would happen if I stopped.

What happened?

I liked myself a lot more.

OK.

I'm ready.

OK.

You paged?

I wasn't sure you'd answer it.

You're still my boss till the end of the day.

Pushed my flight till tomorrow.

Looks like a large thymoma in the mediastinum.

It's already starting to tamponade

with sympathetic fluid, so I don't have a lot of time.

Tumor is shaped like a heart.

You didn't notice? - No.

I was more concerned with how close it was

to the heart, not its shape.

Have you considered doing a reconstruction of the SVC?

Yes.

But I'm concerned that the tumor involves

the innominate artery.

OK, what if you take the entire SVC and left subclavian?

You'd have to resect the sternum,

the SVC, and all the pericardium,

but you'd get the entire tumor.

That's if she doesn't decompensate first.

If I go into the wrong dissecting plane

even a tiny bit, she bleeds out and dies.

She'll die if she continues to have fluid buildup.

What if we use a bovine pericardial patch

for the reconstruction?

Maybe that would allow us to have clear margins.

No interns. There's no margin for error.

Just you and me. - Just you and me.

I'm sorry.

It's OK.

We hardly get to see each other,

and I'm sitting here crying like somebody died.

Even though I'm scaring you, I'm so glad that you're here.

Oh, it takes a lot for this one to scare.

I've hidden parts of myself in every relationship

I've ever had, except for this one.

It feels so freeing.

I just can be myself,

queen of spirals.

You can't be the queen of something that's only, like,

a tiny part of who you are.

You are sweet and kind.

But I also think that you are underestimating

my ability to fall off the deep end.

I'm not underestimating anything.

The Amelia I know is a badass neurosurgeon,

an amazing mom.

She works hard on her sobriety.

She's a loving sister, a devoted friend.

The Amelia I know is inspiring.

She is not the queen of spirals.

She is just a queen.

Dr. Bailey, Dr. Altman, Dr. Fox.

All married surgeons with stellar careers.

Careful.

The tissue is very friable.

I'm aware, Dr. Pierce.

All right.

Specimen's coming out.

Her blood pressure's soaring.

Uh, why aren't you doing anything?

Pressure is stabilized.

Pseudo tamponade effect.

The heart isn't used to all that space without the tumor.

Now it's alone and happy.

Let's start the reconstruction.

Put her on bypass.

Dr. Hunt and I were able to perform your splenectomy

without any complications.

You should heal nicely. - Same with your shoulder.

You're going to need a couple of months of rehabilitation,

but then you should be able to regain normal function.

Great.

Thanks. - Mm-hmm.

William, this is all good news.

Yeah. No, sorry.

Um, Rose heard what I did, and she dumped me.

You know...

I fell for her the second I saw her

in line for Space Mountain.

Company retreat in Orlando.

I thought she was the love of my life.

How could I have been so wrong?

Listen, me and my wife,

we were friends for years before we became a couple.

We met when we were army surgeons together.

So just to get this right, are you judging me

for meeting Rose at a theme park,

or for believing in love at first sight?

Neither.

Listen, even though it took us years to get together, I knew.

I knew from the moment that I saw her

emerging from a surgical tent in 100 degrees heat,

having just repaired an aortic dissection

and saving a soldier's life.

I knew I wanted her in my life. - Then what took you so long?

Well, I was--

I was engaged, and then I was married for a while,

and she was married.

Our timing was just never quite right.

But those relationships, they came and went.

And our friendship outlasted them all,

even after she moved out of the country.

Then one day, I--

I just realized that she was the one person

that I wanted to talk to at the end of a long day,

or a great day.

When I was reading a book or watching a movie, I'd think,

man, she would love this, you know?

She just kept--she would constantly pop into my mind

until finally, I just--

I got on that plane to Germany, and I--

I just told her.

So if you feel that way about Rose,

if you know you want her in your life,

you should just try again.

Yeah.

I don't think Rose is it.

Excuse me.

I got to be somewhere.

Mm-hmm.

I mean, I did mail myself in a box, but she's not it.

Thank you for that story.

Oh, look all of this inflammation and necrosis.

I mean, this is almost the entire colon.

How long had Grayson's symptoms been under control?

Oh, years.

The medication protocol worked wonders.

And now he's completely turned that around.

Foolish to the point of stupid.

Dr. Kwan, do you even remember

what being 13 is like?

Because I do.

It was really, really hard.

You think Grayson doesn't already know

that he disappointed everyone around him?

You think he doesn't already feel stupid?

Believe me, he does.

Did you even hear him when he was trying to tell us

that the medications made him feel terrible,

worse than it already feels to be 13?

Did you listen to your patient?

Of course I did. But--

Grayson has spent an entire year working his butt off

on becoming a man, so maybe stop chastising him

like a toddler and freaking him out that he could die.

Sometimes being a good doctor, or a parent,

or even a good mentor,

means listening to what the other person needs.

Suction, Kwan.

All right.

What is it?

There's no back wall left for the reconstruction.

I don't think the patch is going to work.

♪ Everything's alive and wild and dying ♪

What if we access the jugulars

and use reverse cryoartery,

and drain into the right atrium?

Two incisions, end to end, on the two jugulars.

Yes.

You think we can pull it off?

I think we're Nola's only option.

All right, let's do it. Right angle.

Vessel loop.

♪ Since I was a child

♪ I've been fighting

♪ I am an animal

♪ My wild's undeniable

♪ A miracle, a mess

♪ Ethereal, blood and flesh

♪ I am an animal

♪ The animal is in all of us

I'm not saying I'm going to throw it in the toilet.

But if you throw it in the toilet, I would cover for you.

Just shut it up.

I can't.

What are you doing?

Oh, my God!

What on Earth do you think you're doing?

Respectfully, Dr. Bailey,

have you considered just turning it off?

Uh, have you considered being a wife,

a mother, and a high-level professional?

Give me the phone.

OK.

No.

No, no, no, no, no, no. - Oh, no. No, no, Viv.

- I can't. - She's OK, Viv.

Viv, she's alive.

She's in the ICU.

We were able to successfully remove the mass.

Wait, what--what?

The tumor is gone.

She has a long recovery, but she's stable.

I thought she was dead. I just--

your faces, those were not

"I just saved a life against all odds" faces.

Yeah. We have a lot going on.

Thank you.

Dr. Pierce, I knew you were the person.

Thank you.

It was teamwork.

I could not have done it without Dr. Ndugu.

Oh, thank you, thank you.

♪ Carry you through when there's no other way ♪

♪ Hold you in my arms

♪ Like I know what to do

♪ Hold you in my arms

How long?

How long do I have the ostomy for?

Well, a few months.

Your--your parents went to get something to eat,

but they've been with you the whole time.

I didn't mean to worry them or to make you mad.

I just didn't think it'd be such a big deal.

You know, I remember your diagnosis

like it was yesterday.

It was a while ago.

I was in, uh, kindergarten.

And you were very worried about missing

your end-of-class party.

Yeah.

I was worried about missing the ice cream cake.

I've known you for a long time, son.

And I look forward to seeing what's next for you.

I mean, your bar mitzvah, high school graduation,

college.

And when you make a decision that puts your future at risk,

well, it's-- it's frustrating.

But I'm not mad at you.

And if it came off that way, I--

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry, too.

Good.

Now that we've got that out the way,

I want you to do me a favor.

Now, when you heal up from the surgery,

I'm going to give you a prescription

for a new medication.

You want me to promise to take it?

I want you to tell me if it gives you any problems,

if something's off, and we'll--

we'll find a solution together.

- OK. - OK.

All right, let's check that ticker.

♪ Carry you through

- Hey. - Hey.

♪ When there's no other way ♪

♪ Hold you in my arms

I have to hand it to you, you really went for

your two favorite things in that speech--

proving me wrong and getting laid.

I was just trying to make our patient feel better.

- Uh-huh. - Mm-hmm.

Did it work?

Didn't you see Link?

I meant the other thing.

♪ And I'll carry you through ♪

Your mom's watching the kids for the night.

Dr. Mary Edwards Walker, first female surgeon

in the United States, the second female

to graduate from medical school.

Married.

Started a practice with her husband.

Wow, you're still worried about what I think of you?

The marriage isn't a distraction.

It's the damn wedding.

It's a pain in my ass.

It's the menu, and the seating chart,

and the dress shop is harassing me

because they want me to come get measured.

But I am here from sunrise till sundown,

because I'm trying to prove I'm just as good

as the rest of you.

Also, bridal shops are open, like, three hours a day

or something, and I can't ask Adams to measure me

because we all know why, and my sister won't text me back.

So I'm not going to get measured,

so I'm not going to get married,

so I'm not going to have a dress--

OK, OK, OK. Lift your arms.

What?

Lift.

What are you doing?

Well, we can't let Adams near your inseam.

And again.

Thank you.

You owe me a drink.

Jo, you are... donuts in human form.

OK.

No, no. All right.

You are--you are twinkle lights and yellow roses,

and although I hate most of humanity, I do not hate you.

That--oh, um.

Uh, in fact, you are the only person

I want to come home to for the rest of my--why--

why didn't I write a song?

Should have written a song.

Hey, Jo.

I canceled the--

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. What happened?

It's Luna. Something's wrong.

Wait, wait, whoa. What's wrong?

The daycare think that--

that there's a problem with her hearing.

I--I need--

I need to get her checked out.

I'll be right there.

No, no, no.

We're gonna--we're gonna come straight home,

so you stay there, OK?

- OK. - OK.

When we don't feel heard or validated,

it can be very easy to forget that we aren't actually alone.

♪ Wait

♪ Let the colors flow

♪ The changing of the season

♪ Ain't enough to bring you home ♪

Hey, there are my girls.

Hey, you ready to go home?

Uh, we're not going home. I got us a rental.

What is this?

It's a picture of Tuck in school.

I know it's a picture of Tuck, but who sent it to you?

One of the numbers who's called my phone over 40 times.

I know.

I just changed the number, changed the emails.

We're taking the kids out of school for a few days.

And that there is a difference

between being alone, and just feeling lonely.

Sometimes, being alone is the only way

we can hear our own hearts trying to communicate

what it is that we actually want...

I smell cake.

What we need, and who we love.

Oh, no fork.

So we can move through this world

with better communication when we actually have

something important to say...

Hey.

Hell of a way to go out today.

I could not have done that surgery without you.

You would have figured it out.

No, I wouldn't have.

I wouldn't have figured out a lot of things without you.

You push me to be better.

You challenge me.

You inspire me to never give in on a challenging case.

And the way that you accessed that jugular today, it was--

It was what?

♪ So come on, bring the rain ♪

♪ Like a tidal wave when you're tired of waking up ♪

♪ Oh, come on, bring the rain ♪

♪ Oh, come on, bring the rain ♪

And to be crystal clear when we do.

I had a great day.

Me too.

Don't go back to Minnesota.

I'm not.

Um,

the team wants me to open up a lab in London.

I'd run it.

Triple the size, triple the staff.

I wanted to tell you earlier, but you were already so sad.

You want to go?

Amelia, I accepted.

I am going.

Fantastic.