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[sighing]

Sorry, everything's a bit cold this morning.

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Thanks to jodi arias,

I've had my life threatened repeatedly,

I've been attacked.

I lost my job and my family.

For a while, I was the second most-hated person in america.

Marked by the devil herself.

I think I'm okay with a bit of cold.

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Let's start with your name.

Donavan bering.

D-o-n...

A-v-a-n...

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[buzzing gate]

[gate opening]

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[donavan] I thought being sent to jail

Was my rock bottom.

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Now I know, it wasn't even close.

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My plan was simple: To survive.

Take one day at a time and just get through it.

What wasn't in the plan?

Falling in love.

[indistinct chatter]

Watch out for rosie today.

She's looking for someone to punish.

Well, she's always been nice to me.

Nobody's nice in here.

You understand that, right?

Okay.

Babe, trust me.

The ones that aren't getting out,

They've got nothing to lose.

If I hadn't met you, I don't think I would have made it.

Yeah, but you did.

And you will.

Stay by my side, I got you.

Y'all hear what's for lunch today?

Prime ribs with baby baked potatoes and

Grilled asparagus.

Or a chunk moldy bread arpaio found in a dumpster.

-[snickering] -no.

Lemon meringue pie for dessert.

Seriously, shut up.

Or...

-Chocolate fudge cake. -Oh, yeah.

-You see what you started? -Yup.

Warm raspberry crumble with vanilla ice cream

Just melting on top.

-Ooh... -That's the one.

Meeting tracy made jail survivable.

Now I- we- had a new plan.

[door buzzing]

Do our time, live happily ever after.

And then, jodi arias walked through the door.

[faint] yeah...

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None of us had access to the news.

While the rest of the world knew her as the woman

Who'd soon be on trial for murdering her boyfriend,

All we knew was she didn't look like she belonged here.

Snitch.

She won't last long.

There's only one empty bunk that way.

Oh, hell no!

Oh! Uh-oh! [laughing]

[indistinct chatter]

♪ [suspenseful] ♪

[guard] brown... Brown!

There's no way I'm bunking with a snitch!

-Get out! -Hey!

This ain't summer camp, brown.

You don't get to choose who you bunk with.

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You want to get written up?

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[book hits to the floor]

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[snickering]

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Hey!

Got a new girlfriend, brown?

-[lip smacking] -[laughing]

[indistinct heckling]

I guess they're not even trying to

Disguise snitches anymore.

God, it's like dropping a baby bunny

Into a coyotes' den.

I know, right.

A snitch can get your charges upped,

Get you sent to the hole.

But we haven't done anything.

It doesn't matter!

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Never forget where you are.

I won't, I promise.

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[buzzer]

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[sighing]

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Goodnight.

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[echoing footsteps in distance]

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Did she say anything?

What is she doing in there all day?

Drawing, writing.

"dear diary, I'm starting to reconsider

My life as a snitch."

I know how we can find out for sure.

Ask her to do something illegal.

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So you never thought about it?

Tattoos?

You'd be good at it.

-Well, how would we- -there are ways.

You in?

[echoing footsteps in the distance]

Can I do the first one on you?

Sure.

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Getting your hands on the stuff you need

To do jail tattoos is easy.

But tattooing is a major infraction,

Right up there with doing drugs or fighting.

If you're caught, you could lose all your privileges

And end up in solitary.

No snitch would take the risk.

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[effort grunting]

You need it to be a fine powder.

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-Thanks. -For what?

Trusting me to do this.

I felt so alone coming here, this means...

It means a lot.

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[rattling & footsteps]

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[footsteps fading]

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Now, shampoo.

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Just a drop.

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[whispering] alright.

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You know what happens if you get caught, right?

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[jodi humming]

[buzzer]

[cell door closing & latching]

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Can I ask you a question?

You mean "the" question?

How'd I end up here?

You don't have to answer.

Same as everybody.

Bad choices.

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I was with a guy who tied somebody up,

Beat him, left him for dead.

I thought he was gonna kill me too.

I was high and...

I don't trust cops.

[sighing]

I got charged like I did it.

I'm not going home for a long time.

And your... Girlfriend?

Did you know her before?

No, met here...

Day she arrived.

And her bad choice?

Ah...

She trusted somebody that burned a business down

For insurance money.

She found out about it, didn't snitch.

So, they put in her in maximum security?

She's from alaska.

They thought she was a flight risk.

I'm so sorry for what you've both gone through.

It doesn't seem fair.

What about you?

I'm not supposed to talk about it.

Is this hurting?

It looks like it would.

It's fine.

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There was so much blood.

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Sorry...

It's just that...

Travis, my boyfriend...

He was murdered.

Stabbed and shot right in front of me.

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What do you think so far?

Um... [clearing throat]

You'll get better with practice.

[laughing]

It'll be great when it's done.

Trust me.

[indistinct chatter]

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[whispering] hey...

I finally got a crystal they can't take from me.

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So, she's okay?

Yeah, I think so...

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Hey!

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This is donavan.

I'm jodi.

Initials of my niece and nephew.

And now I appreciate the skill those took.

I have another one on my back and a buddha on my leg.

-You're buddhist? -Since I was 22.

I asked my mom to send me books.

There's one about buddhism on my list.

I'll share it with you.

I'm actually mormon now.

I converted for my boyfriend, travis.

For me, really, for us.

But I'm fascinated by all religions.

Tracy's wiccan.

When I was younger, I had a boyfriend who was wiccan,

So it was a big part of my life too.

What I love most both about buddhism and wicca

Is the emphasis on nature.

When you strip everything else away,

All the stuff that doesn't matter,

That's what we have left, nature.

And love...

Sorry, sometimes I talk too much about subjects

I'm really passionate about.

That's okay.

I think it's beautiful that you two found each other.

Here, of all places.

I think it was anne frank who wrote,

"I don't think of all the misery,

But of the beauty that still remains."

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Does anybody want this? I don't need it.

I'll take it.

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Of course we liked her.

She was smart, she was interesting.

And she wasn't like anybody else we'd ever met.

"pernicious."

You realize none of this is sinking in, right?

Okay well, how about a word from yesterday then?

"duress."

We're being forced to learn words under duress.

[laughing] see?

"pernicious."

No clue.

"causing great harm or damage in a way that

Is not easily seen or noticed."

Huh.

Let's do another one.

[inaudible conversation]

[crying] mom, I just miss you...

Thank you so much.

What was that about?

Nothing.

She needed to call her family,

But she couldn't afford it.

You put money on her phone account?

Do you even know her?

She needed her mom.

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There's this one or...?

I want something to symbolize my love for tracy.

My boyfriend travis used to do that.

He wouldn't even have to say anything.

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He'd just look at me and I knew.

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More than anything else, that's what I miss.

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He was murdered.

The police think I did it, that's why I'm here.

As if I could ever kill somebody I loved.

Crazy, right?

[indistinct chatter]

Not everybody liked her.

Hey...

They're making a plan to get jodi.

Who?

Who do you think?

Today.

What am I going to do?

[clicking tongue]

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You want to get to arias...

You gotta go through me.

Everybody got that?!

Got it?

♪ [suspenseful] ♪

Do you...

[shouting] hear me?!

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[indistinct chatter]

During the day, jodi stuck to us like glue.

But nights were another story.

[cell door unlatching and opening]

[buzzer]

[cell door closing & latching]

[fading footsteps]

Hey, where were you?

I've been doing tv interviews.

It's going to help my case.

If people get to know me, see that I'm smart and

Articulate, hear my side of the story.

[scoffing]

Yeah, I'm sure there are hundreds of women

Who would love to tell their side of their story.

[whispering] why you?

It's not my fault that people are interested in me.

[sighing] be careful.

Always.

[humming]

Jodi did endless interviews.

While everybody on the outside was seeing this...

I'd be shaking in my boots right now if I had to

Answer to god for such a heinous crime.

I'm very grateful that this is one thing

I'll never have to answer to.

I did not kill travis.

All we were seeing was this...

[tv] ...Sprucing up any dish.

And these pastries will be the apple of your eye.

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[humming 'amazing grace']

[humming]

[humming]

[humming]

I'm gonna call you songbird from now on.

That's what you remind me of.

Goodnight, songbird.

Goodnight.

[singing] amazing grace,

How sweet the sound.

That saved a wretch like me.

I once was lost...

But now am found.

Was blind, but now I see.

'twas grace that brought... My heart...

Until my dying day,

That song will never bring me comfort.

Thanks to jodi, it's burned in my memory as

Something I was too naive to realize at the time...

The sound of the devil singing us to sleep.

[singing] ...How precious did that grace appear

The hour I first believed.

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[donavan] prison crushes you.

Makes you less than you are.

But tracy gave me hope.

Hope I could survive it.

We were a team facing it together.

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[door opening & buzzer]

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It didn't take long for us to realize that there was

One set of rules for jodi arias,

And one set of rules for everybody else.

[door latching & buzzer]

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This is gonna look so good, donovan.

Can't wait.

Guard.

[donavan clearing throat]

This ain't your cell, brown, clear out.

Where were you yesterday, officer bricker?

We missed you.

You need to wrap this up in here.

Since you asked so nicely.

Love the new haircut, by the way.

[laughing]

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[gasping]

There are benefits to being nice to them, you know.

You can do what you want.

I'm no badge bunny.

So you don't want one then?

Nope.

[singing] chocolate chip cookies.

Chocolatey chip in tracy's tummy tum.

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-Mm! -Mmm!

-My god. -Mm, right?

The lady who lived next door to us

Made these when I was little.

She'd see me sitting outside and call me over.

Sometimes it was all I had to eat that day.

Where was your family?

Ah... I lived with my grandmother.

Yeah...

She hated me.

Or...

[sighing] that's how it felt.

I'm sure she didn't.

My grandmother carried around a wooden spoon with her.

She would beat me with it every single day.

[sniffling]

Sometimes she would beat me so hard...

It would break in half.

Then she'd use the belt.

I had so many bruises and welts on my body that

I had to wear a long-sleeved shirt and

Pants to school just to hide them.

At the end of her life, my grandmother apologized.

I sat by her side for a week.

She just kept saying it over and over.

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There's not enough apologies in this world

For being a monster.

[sniffling]

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I'm so sorry.

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I can't imagine.

My parents weren't perfect,

But my childhood was pretty much ideal.

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You're such a beautiful person.

You didn't deserve that.

Nobody does.

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Anybody that hurts a kid

Deserves to suffer.

Every last one of them.

[door buzzer]

[cell door closing & latching]

Well, I'm sure the sugar will

Help us sleep like babies tonight.

[tracy] yeah.

Hey?

I hope you dream of...

Something better.

Yeah, thanks.

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[jodi chewing]

[indistinct chatter]

Donavan has her court case today.

Judge will decide how much longer she's here.

What do you think is going to happen?

In my experience, nothing good.

She's so scared.

I have to do something.

She'll be fine.

[sighing]

If I could just make her laugh,

I know it would make her feel better.

Donovan!

[cheering & whistling continues]

Brown, arias.

Show's over.

Arias!

[chatter quiets]

I love you more than unicorns!

[inaudible]

[door buzzer & door opening]

[indistinct chatter]

[jodi] don't worry.

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She doesn't deserve to be here.

But if she goes home...

You don't want to lose her.

I could be here for ten years.

I can't ask her to wait.

I don't think you have to.

She loves you and you love her.

It's worth doing whatever it takes to hang on to that.

Sure.

Listen to me.

You can't let anybody take that love away from you.

Ever.

Thanks, songbird.

And a sexy dance every now and then never hurts.

[snickering]

Always happy to help.

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[indistinct chatter]

Five months, minus time served.

The judge wished he could give me less,

Doesn't think I should be here at all.

Yeah, he's right.

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So, what, you could be out of here in a couple weeks?

I could.

Hey look, it doesn't matter where we are.

We're still together.

-I love you. -I love you too.

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Sorry to interrupt.

I had an idea.

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It wasn't real...

You look so beautiful.

...But it was as close as we could get at the time.

And it felt real to us.

Fate, karma and destiny have brought

Tracy and donavan together in a marriage

Of two faiths and two beautiful souls.

We had no idea that the hand that blessed our marriage

Was the same hand that, just five months earlier,

Stabbed travis alexander as many as 29 times,

Shot him in the head, and sliced his throat with so

Much force that it just about decapitated him.

♪ [eerie] ♪

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[gasping]

You okay?

Yeah, just, weirdest dream.

Hm, I get those a lot too.

All I saw was you, alone...

Like, wearing a white dress.

Like floating.

I mean, it was beautiful, but...

Something about it...

It was a prophecy.

What do you mean?

If I'm found guilty, I'm going to kill myself.

Songbird!

Don't worry about it, no jury will convict me.

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[sighing]

Hey, hey, possible incoming.

Who is it?

It's the new guy, schmidt.

Don't worry about him.

Did you flash him?

I can neither confirm nor deny.

[laughing] oh my god.

You're the worst.

We do what we have to do.

Mind if I sign my name to it?

Um...

I want you to have something to remember me by.

[sighing]

Songbird, please don't.

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I told the police everything that happened that night.

I was there when two intruders broke in-

One male, one female.

Dressed in black, wearing masks.

[whispering] I saw them kill travis.

I thought they were going to kill me too,

But I got away.

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As long as I'm in here, do you think they're even

Bothering to look for the real murderers?

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I just thought, when I'm gone,

At least my name will still be with you.

Maybe knowing I'm at peace will bring you peace too.

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Never mind, it's a silly idea.

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No...

I mean...

Sure, why not?

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[donavan] when jodi tattooed her name on tracy,

It seemed innocent enough.

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Up until that day, the three of us had been inseparable.

That was about to change.

[screaming] no!

Somebody reported your relationship

With donavan bering. You know how this works.

We have to separate you.

This isn't right and you know it!

Please let her stay, please.

Arias, step outside, step outside.

What's happening!?

They're moving her to tower b.

No!

Don't make this harder than necessary, brown.

Let's go.

This is bull!

The one good thing I have in my life.

[effort grunting]

Songbird, you and donavan

Have to take care of each other.

No, no, no, I can't do this without you.

-I love you. -I love you too.

It's gonna be okay, it's gonna be okay.

-Let's go. -No!

-Brown, let's go! -I'm not going!

-Let's go! -Tracy!

-Stay back! -[groaning & sputtering]

-Tracy! -[taser buzzing]

Tracy! Tracy!

Tracy! Stop, you're hurting her!

Lock down, back to your cells!

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[chatter] come on, you don't want to get in trouble.

[door buzzer]

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[door closing]

After tracy was moved to solitary...

Jodi was scared.

So was I.

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Tracy kept us safe.

And now, no matter where we were,

Locked down or not, anything could happen.

And there were new arrivals

Who had seen plenty of jodi on tv.

They figured they'd get their 15 minutes of fame

By being the one to kill jodi arias.

[guard] take it easy out there.

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On the outside, I may have looked like

I could protect jodi.

But on the inside, I knew I couldn't.

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[rustling]

And I missed my wife.

[echoing footsteps]

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[indistinct chatter]

I really don't want to lose touch with you

After you leave.

Me either.

Hey, remember that first day when I met you?

I knew you came into my life for a reason.

Our bond of sisterhood, it makes me feel like

I can survive anything. That's all thanks to you.

Me?

When are you going to start believing people

When they tell you how awesome you are?

Hey, maybe you can help me with my social media,

So I can get the word out about my innocence.

I need somebody I trust to help me with that.

You know I trust you more than anyone, even my family.

Sure, whatever you need, yeah.

[indistinct chatter]

[whispering] I got a note from tracy.

She told me to act out so they put me in the hole too.

You're not going to do it, are you?

-I have to. -No, you don't.

It's the last chance I have to see her before I'm released.

When I'm out, I'll be on probation,

It's not like I can go visit.

I can't wait years to see her again.

But you'll be abandoning me!

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Either way, I'm getting out soon.

I can't protect you forever.

If you do this, I will never forgive you.

-Songbird- -ever!

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[pa chiming]

[guard] lock down!

[indistinct chatter]

I warned the guards that I wasn't going to lock down.

They knew why.

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They had no choice but to send me to the hole.

They knew I'd go willingly.

Bering.

Bering!

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I hope she's worth it.

Let's go.

Arias! Back to your cell.

[donavan] protective custody.

"the hole".

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No communication with humans,

No privileges, no humanity.

[sighing & breathing heavily]

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[door buzzer]

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Just one second of every day made it worth it.

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[cell door closing & locking]

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Before long, letters from jodi started appearing.

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"my dearest donavan, I miss you so much."

[humming]

"somewhere in time I must have done

An enormous amount of good deeds

To have been rewarded with such wonderful and

Selfless friends as you two."

[clattering in distance]

"I just don't know what I'll do without you."

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"hello, my lovely friend."

"I'm so grateful that you've offered to help me

When you get out."

[laughing]

[indistinct chatter]

"I'm more determined than ever to clear my name and

Gain my freedom.

You can help me make that happen."

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"I'd like to know what is being posted online on

Some specific personal social media pages.

I will send you a list of names,

Including travis' family members."

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"I'd definitely like to know if any of them mention that

They're in favor of the death penalty.

A true christian should never favor death.

That is god's place to say."

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"my dearest tracy...

I know that times are tough for you right now

But don't you dare give up.

Love you and miss you.

Your songbird."

"thinking of what good friends you are makes me cry,

And crying is something I don't do often anymore

As I've gone numb since being hit with

One traumatic event after another."

[grunting & coughing]

[indistinct chatter] yeah, get her!

[indistinct chatter & grunting]

Yeah, get her!

Rosie!

[echoing footsteps]

One word...

One word...

You're both dead.

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[crying]

[sobbing]

[humming]

[indistinct chatter in distance]

[singing quietly] amazing grace...

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[guard] brown, roll up, you're moving out.

After tracy's sentencing,

She was transferred to perryville prison

To serve out the remainder of her ten years.

Let me say goodbye to donavan.

[guard] let's go.

I knew there was a good chance I wasn't

Going to be able to see her for years.

I love you, donavan bering!

I love you too!

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[crying]

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Not long after, they released me.

But I would never be the same.

Jail changed me.

It didn't make me feel remorse for failing to

Report a crime when I should've.

I carried plenty of remorse long before

I was put behind bars.

[door buzzer]

[mechanical whirring]

Jail made me mistrust a system that

Treats people like us way differently than the

Sheriff's rich hunting buddies.

More than anything,

Jail made me want to hold those I loved close and

Fight for them with everything in me.

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It's lies, all of it.

I know her, jodi's a good person.

She would never- you don't know her!

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[sighing]

[phone ringing]

[phone ringing]

Hello?

[phone] you have a call from the arizona

Department of corrections, estrella jail.

To accept the call from inmate-

[jodi] jodi arias-

[automated message] press 2.

[phone beeping]

[automated message] this call is being recorded.

Songbird!

[jodi] oh, I really wish I could hug you right now!

It's unbearable without you!

[indistinct chatter]

I sent some letters to your house, did you get them?

Probably.

I saw you on magazines, on tabloids,

There are so many of them. You're everywhere.

How did I look?

The things they're saying are awful.

Are there any pictures of me when I was blond?

Travis loved my hair that way.

[jodi] when I found out I was gonna be arrested,

I had to dye it back to my natural.

No way I was just gonna let it grow out and end up with

A two-tone mess.

Can you imagine me doing interviews like that?

I guess not.

Look for the first letter I sent.

[jodi] I drew a songbird on it.

Oh, I got it.

I need you to get in touch with some people for me.

-Who are they? -Friends!

People who can help.

[sighing]

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Jodi never told me how she knew them.

I thought they were old friends of hers.

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They weren't.

They were new friends, like me,

Who believed in her innocence and

Were willing to help her prove it.

Hello, is this lukas?

Lukas was a computer genius in germany.

He'd written a program that had made him enough money

To spend his time on his hobbies,

Like helping an accused american murderer

Prove her innocence.

Whatever jodi needed researched, he was her guy.

There was a lawyer from miami

Who I only knew by his last name, olek.

Whenever jodi wasn't sure her own lawyers were

Making the best decisions,

Olek came to the rescue with his legal expertise.

There were the becks in new york.

They were great at drumming up even more supporters.

Whenever jodi needed anything,

All it took was one call and they'd be there.

That was just the beginning of team arias.

All of us dedicated to saving jodi.

When you were released from prison and

You began working for jodi arias,

Did you believe she was innocent of the

Murder of travis alexander?

Yes.

Was she innocent?

Hell no.

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[clanging]

While I was trying to restart my life,

Tracy was facing a new, much tougher prison.

And she was doing it alone.

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For me, helping jodi was becoming

My whole world.

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My new job was finding a publisher for the book

Jodi had been writing about herself and

Getting her own words out there on social media.

[phone: Jodi] I am so grateful for every letter,

Comma, postcard, comma...

Are you getting this?

"every letter, comma, postcard-"

It's my name, donavan.

No spelling errors, no missing punctuation.

If you make any mistakes,

I'm the one that looks like an idiot.

I cannot look stupid.

Ever. Understand?

I'm being careful, I promise.

At first, the posts were harmless,

And I was happy to help my friend.

Pretty soon she was calling me

With instructions every day.

Then twice a day, sometimes more.

[phone ringing]

Hello? This is donavan.

Yes, I know jodi arias.

Yep, 4pm, I can.

They want to interview me.

Who?

One of the news stations. I don't want to be on tv.

Think about how much it'll help my case

For people to hear the truth.

[sighing] I don't know, I'm not like you.

I'm not comfortable in front of a camera.

[jodi] oh, you'll be great.

I thank god for you every day,

You know that, right?

[sighing]

Jodi is smart, she's generous.

She wouldn't hurt a fly, let alone someone she loved.

She told me that intruders in black masks

Broke into his house, a male and a female.

I'm not sure if they were there

As a robbery gone wrong,

Or if they intended to hurt him for whatever reason.

Luckily, jodi escaped without them killing her, too.

People see the front page of the tabloids and they assume

They know what happened, but they don't.

I know jodi.

Everything about her is love and not hate.

Fired for what?

Going on tv, supporting someone who's innocent

Until proven guilty?

You know I work hard here.

This isn't fair.

♪

[phone ringing]

Hey.

What are you doing, dov?

You're defending murderers now?

-No, I... -We saw you on tv!

-Mom did too. -Jodi's my friend.

I know that she didn't do any-

[brother] how can you still be so gullible?

You've already been to jail for trusting the wrong person.

-Didn't you learn a thing? -This is different.

[brother] damn right it is!

Do I need to call your probation officer to

Save you from yourself?

[donavan] but I haven't done anything wrong.

Jodi's not a convicted felon,

I'm allowed to talk to her without violating

My probation.

Do you have any idea how much she's hated?

You seriously want to be on the receiving end of that?

I've been on the receiving end of hate my whole life!

"freak! Dyke!"

And what, when the kids were coming after you,

You didn't mind me standing up to

The bullies then, did you?

That's not the same thing and you know it.

It is to me, jodi is a victim too.

♪

Look, I love you, but you're choosing

Jodi arias over your family.

Oh, please.

[brother] I've got to watch out for my kids, dov.

Don't call me, don't call mom.

We didn't want this, but we're done.

We're just done.

♪

[sighing]

♪

♪

[donavan] life was about to get harder for tracy, too.

♪

♪

Does that say, "jodi arias"?

♪

[guard] open 7-1-3.

[buzzer & door opening]

♪

What's going on? What are you doing?

Turn around! Hands behind your back!

[panicked breathing]

Tell me, just tell me what's happening!

I didn't do anything! Please, I didn't do anything!

Where are you taking me?

♪ [suspenseful] ♪

♪

Why am I here?

When was the last time you communicated

With donavan bering?

What is this about?

Are you gonna answer the question or

Am I gonna write you up?

When was the last time you communicated

With donavan bering?

She was on the approved visitors list.

Then she got removed.

I guess you'll have to see her like the rest of us,

On tv.

Let's talk about your tattoos.

I had them all when I got here.

What about the one with the murderer's name on it?

This facility operates under my rules.

And only my rules.

Whatever plans you're putting in place for jodi arias,

Abandon them now and save yourself.

I'm not planning anything.

When was the last time arias contacted you?

-She sends me letters. -About what?

I don't know. Pep talks,

"hang in there," that kind of stuff.

What does she ask you to do for her?

Nothing!

You call her songbird?

She sings a lot.

Who else does she know here?

I don't know!

We know what she's up to at estrella.

And she's not gonna get away with it here.

[laughing]

Oh my god,

You're actually afraid of jodi arias.

[laughing]

You best think about how many years you got left in here.

How hard do you want them to be?

If she's sending you instructions,

If she's laying the groundwork for an

Escape attempt, we will find out about it.

And as god as my witness, brown,

You'll regret the day you ever heard the name

Jodi arias.

Or had it permanently etched in your skin.

♪

The jodi I know would never have harmed travis.

While jodi sits in jail,

The intruders are free to murder again.

Why are you not talking about them?

I'd spent months doing jodi's bidding.

Posting whatever she wanted.

Getting messages to team arias.

And coordinating with jodi's mom.

By the time I finally met her parents in person,

I'd spent so much time talking to them

On the phone, they already felt like family.

At last!

Oh...

♪

Come on in, hun.

Donavan...

Oh, no, no, no, it's okay.

♪

Thank you for everything you're doing for us.

They haven't found us here yet.

Who?

Oh, you know, all of them.

We had to shut down our restaurant for good.

Every week, more...

Broken windows, more threats.

They found my mother's house.

Told her they were going do to her

What was done to travis.

She's in her 80s, it's just not right.

It doesn't matter if we change our phone number.

They find us. I don't know how.

We live in fear.

Fear that their threats are real.

Fear that they're gonna find our daughter guilty and

Sentence her to... [crying]

Jodi's difficult, we know.

We're not blind to who she is.

Bill...

She's no angel.

But she's still our child.

♪

You know I'm here to help any way I can.

I'm not going anywhere.

After my own family had disowned me,

I needed jodi's parents as much as they needed me.

♪

They were afraid of jodi arias.

What are you looking for?

Tracy paid the price.

♪ [suspenseful] ♪

♪

Oh, hey, that's my wife!

Please don't, please, please don't, please,

It's all I have.

♪

♪

[phone ringing]

Hello?

Tracy needs to talk to you, I'll put her through.

[tracy] donavan, you need to stop helping jodi.

What's going on, are you okay?

[tracy] they keep searching my cell.

They won't stop.

They're looking for anything from jodi.

Tell her to stop writing to me.

You should stop helping her too.

Trust me, you need to walk away from this.

♪

I can't.

[phone] this call is being recorded.

[donovan] songbird.

I need to ask you a favor.

Okay.

[jodi] I know you believe in the power of prayer.

And I'm sure you pray for me each and every day and

I'm endlessly grateful for that.

[indistinct chatter]

As you know, my trial is coming up.

I'm asking that you set aside a special day for

The purpose of praying and fasting for me.

♪ [suspenseful] ♪

Can you do that for me?

Donavan?

Sure, of course.

♪

♪

♪

♪

[door opening]

[indistinct shouting continues]

They're threatening us! Do something!

[indistinct chatter]

♪

[donavan] on that first day,

I didn't care about anything the prosecution said.

It was their job to prove jodi's guilt...

We knew that.

[indistinct chatter]

♪

But when jodi's own lawyer gave her opening statement,

It took everything in me not to stand up and scream.

Jodi arias killed travis alexander.

[indistinct chatter]

There is no question about it.

The million-dollar question...

It's, what would have forced her to do it?

And throughout this trial, you will hear

That jodi was indeed forced.

I didn't hear anything else.

♪

[phone ringing]

[phone] you have a call from the arizona department

Of corrections, estrella jail.

To accept the call from inmate-

[jodi] jodi arias-

[automated message] press 2.

[phone beeping]

[automated message] this call is being recorded.

[jodi] donavan?

♪

I know you're probably angry right now.

And I can't blame you.

I need you to know that I didn't tell you everything

Because I was ashamed.

And I didn't want you, of all people,

To think less of me.

I was worried that if I told you what really happened,

I'd lose you.

And I can handle a lot, but not that.

All my life, whenever I heard a story of

Some woman whose husband was abusive,

I could never understand why she wouldn't just leave.

How she could suffer through that kind of abuse and then,

Get into bed with him at the end of the day and

Cry herself to sleep.

I never understood it...

Until the one crying herself to sleep was me.

If it was up to me, none of this would be coming out now.

I don't want people to think less of him.

And I don't want people to see that I was weak,

That I let that happen to me, let it get that far.

But...

My lawyers tell me that the only way to save my life

Is to tell the truth.

When jodi dropped the intruder theory and

Claimed self-defense, I had to accept that

She was capable of murder after all.

I was shocked, I was angry,

But I knew one thing from my own experience.

When somebody tells you they're a victim

Of domestic abuse...

You believe them.

I was back on team arias, believing jodi,

Supporting her parents.

But the details of the crime would test us all.

He was stabbed so many times,

The coroner couldn't even make sure of the count.

Then a shot to the head, and a final cut to the throat.

As one of the experts described it,

She had killed travis three times.

One minute it was horrific autopsy photos,

And the next...

A sex tape.

[tape: Jodi] oh, travis...

You make me feel so dirty. [moaning]

[hushed chatter]

They'd spent months harassing tracy about jodi,

Writing her up for no good reason.

Locked down 23 hours a day,

No phone calls, no visitors.

All for what, knowing jodi arias?

[jodi] I need you to tweet that travis liked

Looking at little boys in their underwear.

I don't know.

It'll help my case if people know

What kind of person he was.

I can't post that.

[jodi] sure you can.

Fine, say it's a rumor then.

I designed a domestic abuse survivor t-shirt.

We can sell them on one of my supporter pages and

Donate the proceeds to a women's charity.

I need you to find one we can work with.

Also, talk to lukas and see who's running this website

"justice for travis."

I sent you a list of some of the people supporting that

We need to make sure look blocked on all my pages.

Oh, and get that list to the becks,

They can check them out.

We need to go after them.

Oh, and talk to my mom,

And tell her to put more money on my phone.

And commissary.

I'm dying for some chocolate.

♪

I should've listened to tracy,

But I still believed jody was a victim.

♪

[lawyer] did you kill travis alexander

On June 4th, 2008?

Yes, I did.

[lawyer] why?

The simple answer is that he attacked me,

And I defended myself.

[donavan] after sticking with jodi so long,

She must've thought there was nothing she could say

Or do that would make me change my mind about her.

She was wrong.

Let's back it up a little and

Talk about your immediate family.

My mom began to carry a wooden spoon in her purse.

She would beat me with it.

Every single day.

It was a wooden kitchen spoon that she would carry

In her purse and if we were misbehaving,

She would use it on us.

[lawyer] when you say, "use it"?

She would hit us with it.

It felt pretty hard, it left welts.

Sometimes she would beat me so hard,

It would break in half.

What happened when you were ten years old?

♪

I think that's the first year my dad

Started to use a belt.

I had so many bruises and welts on my body...

That I had to wear a long -sleeved shirt and pants

To school just to hide 'em.

Did he leave welts?

He didn't leave welts as often as my mom.

She also used the belt.

♪

My dad was very intimidating,

So I don't think he had to hit us

Quite as hard to get the point across.

My mom didn't carry that fear factor with her,

So I think she used more force.

So, you loved them, and they hit you?

Yes.

At the time, I didn't know she was

Stealing tracy's story.

But I did know that what was coming out of jodi's mouth

Was a lie.

I was lucky, my childhood was ideal.

Growing up, my childhood was pretty much ideal.

And her lies were hurting people I cared about.

I didn't...

I know.

I wasn't perfect...

But I would never.

She's my little girl.

We know the truth.

♪

[indistinct chatter]

♪

♪

What you got?

What you need?

[echoing footsteps]

♪ [suspenseful] ♪

Inmate down, inmate down!

♪

A-pod 7-1-3.

Inmate down and unresponsive!

We need an ambulance!

Come on, brown, come on, stay with us!

[alarm bell ringing]

[phone ringing]

[phone ringing]

Yeah?

[phone] donavan bering?

Who's asking?

[phone] I'm an officer at perryville,

This call is off the record.

Is tracy okay?

[phone] she's okay, but she attempted suicide.

I have to see her, I'll come right-

I'll come down right away.

[phone] you know that's not possible.

You're not official next of kin.

I shouldn't be making this call, but if it was me...

Can I talk to her? Please, please.

It's donavan.

Babe, are you there?

I'm sorry.

If you die, I'm going too, you hear me?

I did everything I'm supposed to do.

They won't leave me alone.

It's all 'cause of jodi.

And they're taking it out on me.

They're not even hiding it.

[gasping]

I can't live like this anymore.

I promise you, it'll get better.

I'll write the warden, I'll call,

Do whatever it takes...

Get them to stop.

I'm sorry. [crying]

I'm so sorry it took me so long

To see who jodi really is.

That everything out of her mouth is a lie.

♪

She's taken so much from us.

♪

No more.

[gasping] no more.

♪

[crying]

♪

[typing]

[sighing]

I changed the passwords.

Social media was jodi's lifeline.

I cut it off.

♪

♪

[sighing]

♪

I'm gonna continue using the media coverage

That I've been given.

But not to help jodi.

To defend you.

You're my family now, both of you.

That's why I'm gonna keep my mouth shut about what a

Despicable human being I think she really is.

♪

♪

We're gonna be late.

♪

♪

From very early on,

Jodi was completely obsessed with travis.

I started seeing things about her that were...

Disturbing.

I said, "travis, I'm afraid we're gonna find you

Chopped up in her freezer."

[sizzling bbq]

[indistinct chatter]

♪

♪

♪

♪

[muffled] how do you know her?

I saw that you were looking at her...

Bikini, sitting by the pool.

Who is she?

[indistinct speaking]

You still haven't answered my question.

Who is she?

♪

♪

[phone ringing]

Without me to post her lies,

Without me to post her attacks

On anybody who criticized her,

Without me to give instructions to team arias,

She had nothing.

[phone ringing]

♪

But nobody leaves jodi arias.

Ask travis alexander how that worked out for him.

♪

♪

♪ [suspenseful] ♪

♪

They all came after me at once.

♪

Lukas in germany, the computer genius who helped

Jodi by finding anything and everything online,

Was now hacking into sites to find personal information

About me, ruining my life in any way possible.

Olek, the lawyer, as it turns out,

His best connections were with people who didn't mind

Breaking the law on his behalf.

And they had plenty of time on their hands

To come after me.

I was already hated enough for supporting jodi.

The team arias attacks were so much worse.

They humiliated me online, hacked my accounts,

Falsely reported I'd committed crimes that

Could send me to prison for years.

They contacted my friends and family and

Started going after them too.

I was terrified, for myself, and everyone I cared about,

But every time I called the cops they'd just say it was

My own fault for associating with people like jodi arias.

♪

[jodi] I sit in bonded captivity in the filth of a

Dark and artificial environment while someone else,

Who has nothing to gain or lose

Whether I live or die, fights for me.

We may both have people that pray for us to live,

But the difference is I also have people that

Pray for me to die.

When everyone else was turning their backs on me

During the darkest time of my life,

You claimed to be a solid and immovable rock in my support,

But it is you that has shown me the facade

That our friendship really was.

I have to accept what is so blatantly obvious and

Staring me in the face:

It was a false sense of hope, strength,

And support you instilled in me.

False!

[attacker] you're either helping jodi...

Or you're lying awake at night wondering which one

Of your loved ones we'll find next.

[coughing]

Your choice, bering.

♪

[jodi] you may say "goodbye" if you wish.

[donavan coughing]

[jodi] many have.

But it is too painful for me to say it back.

♪

[phone ringing]

Hello?

[phone] you have a call from the

Arizona department of corrections, estrella jail.

To accept the call from inmate-

[jodi] jodi arias-

[automated message] press 2.

[sighing]

[phone beeping]

[automated message] this call is being recorded.

Donavan!

I missed talking to you so much.

You know, when you changed my social media passwords

And wouldn't answer your phone,

I was so mad. [laughing]

I did feel like you betrayed me.

But it's in the past now and I love you.

Everything you said about your parents in court,

How they beat you?

[jodi] don't worry about that.

It's all my lawyers, they think it'll help.

What about travis liking little boys?

Is that a lie too?

[jodi] ignore all that stuff.

They're just trying to save my life.

You understand that, right?

Can you pretty please change my passwords back

And post something for me?

♪

[phone beeping]

[dial tone]

[sighing]

[slamming phone]

[sighing]

So, you ready for the verdict?

I guess so. How are things over there?

-Any better? -Yeah.

Thanks to you.

How many complaints did you file?

Hm, about a dozen.

Got my privileges again.

And, looks like I'm getting my old job back at programs.

My old supervisor there is putting in a good word for me.

After jodi's sentenced and moved over there,

They won't put her in your unit, right?

No, no.

She won't be anywhere near me.

-Don't worry. -I can't help it.

[tracy] babe, once the verdict is read, it's over.

She'll have nothing left to lose or gain.

And her puppets have nothing left to fight for.

Songbird will either be caged or killed.

Either way, you'll be free.

[donovan] I know.

-Hey. -What?

I love you more than unicorns.

Me too.

♪

The jury couldn't come to a consensus.

Some thought jodi deserved the death penalty.

Others didn't.

Even knowing what she had done and how she had done it,

Some of them were still conned by her.

Thank you, donavan.

You know I'm here for you no matter what, okay.

Jodi arias...

♪

The court finds, as the jury found,

The crime is especially cruel.

The offense was committed with at least

Two deadly weapons.

A gun and at least one knife.

The crime involved substantial planning

And preparation.

The defendant did not render aid to the victim.

The defendant destroyed evidence at the crime scene.

The defendant went to great lengths to conceal

Her involvement in the crime.

The court has also considered the

Defendant's childhood, background,

Family history, and her expressed remorse.

The court finds that a natural life sentence

Is appropriate.

[indistinct chatter]

It is ordered the defendant shall be incarcerated in the

Department of corrections for the rest of her natural life,

With no possibility of parole.

[indistinct chatter]

[gasping & sobbing]

♪

♪

♪

It felt wrong to wish jodi arias would die

In an execution chamber.

But I did.

Jodi arias claimed no jury would ever convict her,

But she will spend the rest of her natural life

Behind bars.

♪

♪

There's one word jodi would never say and mean...

Sorry.

♪

I'm not jodi arias.

I'm sorry for believing her.

I'm sorry for all the things I did on her behalf.

The alexanders didn't deserve how she vilified them,

And I will go to my grave feeling remorse for my part.

A polygraph wouldn't clear the names of

The ones jodi took down with her,

But it was the only thing left I could do

To bring the truth into the light.

I did it for the memory of travis alexander,

For bill and sandy arias, and for tracy and me.

The press wanted the inside scoop,

So I gave it to them.

Did jodi arias tell you that she falsely accused

Travis alexander of being a child molester?

Yes.

Did jodi arias tell you she lied about

Being abused by her parents?

Yes.

[typing]

Let me guess...

No deception detected?

No deception detected.

♪

[sighing]

♪

I will never be as trusting again,

But I won't stop loving and caring for those

Who deserve it.

♪

Jodi arias took a lot from us.

♪

But she didn't take everything.

♪

♪

♪

[applauding]

♪

♪

Is that hebrew?

It's beautiful.

I dated a guy once who was jewish.

I'm actually mormon now. I converted for my boyfriend.

But I'm fascinated by all religions.

Do you want this?

I'm not going to eat it.

♪

♪

I'm jodi.

♪

♪

♪

♪

♪

♪