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She used to say she'd die for me and Ciaran.

That's what mothers do.

Nah. They live for you.

Can I come over later?

It's a...a shit time, Becky. I'm...

Our patrol will keep looking for when Sarah surfaces.

Is that something you wanna see?

Sarah and I helped Mum die.

When...when you and Den were in Canberra.

It's what she wanted.

Was it peaceful? Yeah.

I need your advice, Wayne. Don't.

Don't what? Don't tell him.

It'll destroy him.

Mum's gonna be so proud of you.

Oh, Den.

It was so beautiful.

It's just this eerie thing.

Like I know Mum's already gone.

Well, that's 'cause you're preparing yourself.

Don't you reckon?

Like, it will happen but, ah, not for months. Maybe a year.

Who knows but...

..when it does...

..we four, we're gonna stick together.

Mum, um, I'm just so relieved to know, um, you're there.

Well, you've always been there.

And...

Claire, is that her?

I can hear her breathing.

Ask her if... Yep, you're on speaker.

Has she been able to talk today?

Uh, no, not today, I don't think.

Well, Mum,

um, I'll be home from tour soon.

And I'll make up for all that time away.

But some things can't wait.

Tonight I'm gonna ask Wayne to marry me.

And I want your blessing.

Is that her?

No, that was me. Sorry.

Well, yeah, yeah, just make sure she can hear.

Yeah, she can hear you. Go on.

Yeah, well... Well, no, that's it.

Nah. Except to say...

Mum, Wayne matches everything that you taught me, Mama.

About love...and trust.

Yeah, she smiled, Den. She's proud.

She did?

Crimson lippie?

Yeah.

Why?

Well, because she loves unicorns, and unicorns are gay.

Come on, babe. We need to go pick the kids up.

No, I need to get a few more things and then to Bunnings.

I'm not going to Bunnings with you. We always fight.

No, we don't. Really?

Headed out tonight?

Oh, hey.

No, we're just...

We're just gonna have a barbie at home,

you know, dress up with the kids, little bit of fun, avoid the crowd.

You? Yeah, not this year.

How's the family doing? They OK?

You know, you can phone me if you need anything.

At the station. I-I can give you my number.

Not sure what the point is when we don't have any answers.

Den, not every family gets answers.

What's important is to focus on your wellbeing.

Counselling. Yeah, I phoned that number.

Oh, good. That's really good.

Believe me, it's...

It's important to get that support after trauma.

She tends to be right about these things.

It gets a bit annoying, actually. OK.

You look after yourself.

Yeah. See ya.

See ya.

Happy Mardi Gras.

Can you maybe turn that off?

Ah, no. Bluetooth's too sophisticated. I can't.

Gotta get one of my boys to fix it.

Please.

Oh, God, this one friend.

She just messages me constantly.

I mean, really good friend, you know. She cares and...

You remember Lizzie Jankovic? Remember her?

Did Vinnies with her.

That's too much info. I don't care.

Oh, right, OK. Um...

Oh, what do I say?

Um...

"Lizzie...nothing new to report."

Just tell her you need a break.

Oh, there he is. Hey.

My God. What on Earth's he wearing?

Oh, my God, he's blind.

We're right here in this giant th... Honk the horn.

No. Stop it. It's an offence.

We're gonna get arrested? What, are you gonna pay the fine?

Hey. We're right here.

Left. Other left.

Oh, my God. Oh, jeez.

I feel like your choreographer.

Felt like his choreographer.

We really need to tell him.

Wayne said telling Den about Mum is a really bad idea.

It would send him over the edge.

Hey! What's with the wig?

Oh, well, uh...

It's just, um, Wayne and I

had tickets to the Mardi Gras party tonight.

But obviously we can't.

So we might watch it on TV, dress up.

Oh, fun.

Yeah, but why can't you go?

I'm just worried about Hanna.

Mm.

Well, you know, we could...

..we could hold the fort, couldn't we? Have a...have a girls' night in.

Just you and me.

Yeah, maybe.

Maybe.

Yeah, I just thought with things starting on Monday...

Yeah, I can't wear these to school.

Oh. The teachers would lose their shit.

These are sick.

And they fit? Yeah.

I'm gonna wear them to the party tonight.

Oh, you have a party tonight? Oh, I mean, sorry.

It's just... It's just like a thing.

Oh, Han, that's terrific. You know.

Seeing all your school friends...

..it will make Monday that little bit easier.

Yeah.

Ciaran...

Just ask Hanna where he is.

No, no, leave her. She's in there going through her mum's clothes.

It's a healthy step.

Ursula's having a nervy turn.

Did Ciaran, um, say to you where he was goi...

Where he was... What? What's so funny?

Nothing. Oh, jeez. Baby, are you OK?

Are you OK? Oh, God.

Oh.

It's OK.

So I was thinking

you could invite your friends over here instead of going out.

Yeah, we'd love to meet your schoolmates.

You know, Uncle Scott subscribes to all those streaming things.

Or they're showing Mardi Gras.

Oh, yeah. Yeah.

Yeah, watch the parade. Do some yummy food.

You keep a very neat vehicle.

Thanks. Just a hire car.

Busy? Booming.

But anytime just text. We can always come. It doesn't matter how late.

Appreciate it.

Yeah, we, um...

We just changed our plans for tonight and...

So we need four.

Four fireworks.

Um...

Four fireworks, please.

Four caps, yeah? That's what you ordered?

Yeah. Sorry, I thought, um...

I thought I had to keep using the...

The code words are just for text messaging.

OK. Do I pay you now?

Thank you.

OK, and spread.

No. No. Your legs, not your cheeks.

Oh. Sorry.

Great.

So why weren't you gonna go out tonight?

Oh, just family things.

Thanks for fitting me in, by the way. Oh, that's alright.

OK, now turn to the front.

Elbows bent.

Great.

You guys got kids?

Yeah.

We got two. Hanna and Ciaran.

Ciaran's doing his HSC. Hanna's in Year 10.

They're great.

You sound like cool dads.

Eyes and mouth closed.

Jeez, eh?

Yeah, the thing with steel on the coast, rust.

Mm.

Have you got a feel on this builder that Sarah got on the job?

The...cowboy?

Yeah. Potentially. Yeah.

Oh.

You going out?

Oh, just out with friends.

Yeah.

How about this?

She's had Godzilla through, huh?

Happy Mardi Gras.

# Ooh ooh ooh

# I can't exist # I can't exist

# I will surely miss your tender kiss

# So don't you leave me this way

# Oh, baby!

# My heart is full of love and desire for you

# So come on down and do what you've got to do

# You started this fire down in my soul

# Now can't you see it's burning out of control... #

Bring us your rain to cleanse these sinful streets.

Rain to wash us.

Fucking fundamentalists! Rain out this parade!

Let it pour!

Hey, don't let them ruin your night, darling.

Mardi Gras is sacred.

You, heavens above, rain down righteousness.

Oh, eat my shit and die.

Salvation, spring up.

Let righteousness flourish.

Ciaran.

Oh, it's lovely to have you here.

Becky'll be down in a sec.

I know you don't know us very well, but you're always welcome here.

You feel like a break or have a meal

or watch some telly or play the Xbox.

Or if you need to have a talk.

I lost a parent young, so...

I heard it takes two years.

A mate told me that.

Well, not a mate but...

It takes two years before you go back to being yourself.

Ah, Ciaran.

You're never yourself again.

You become someone new after something like this.

And that person's good too.

Hey. Hey.

No goon bags from the dodgy guy at the bottle-o, Beck.

Oh, my God, Mum. Mums know.

Why is it so little? 170? Hey.

OK. Hey.

Wow! Is that Sarah's top? Hey! You look great.

I don't want my school friends coming over.

Oh.

They're just...they're really immature

and they send weird messages asking about Mum

and they just...they don't really get what we're going through, you know?

But George is having a party. Remember George?

Yeah.

Yeah, so she's having a Mardi Gras thing and she said I could come.

I might be a little bit late home,

but Mum lets Ciaran come home late all the time.

OK, and how old is George?

I mean, is there... Is there gonna be drinking?

I don't know how old she is, but, like, over 18.

So, like, there will be drinking but I'm not gonna drink

'cause, honestly, like, I don't...

Like, the smell of it just makes me wanna spew.

OK, well... Can I have the address, please?

Definitely, Han. You can go.

Text me.

Jeez.

It's just every queen is going to ask me how I'm getting on.

Well, maybe just have a ready-made response

and say it by rote so you won't exhaust yourself.

I can do that.

And I don't need to be high, do I, to have a good time?

Sure. But I could get some in case you wanted to.

Really?

Oh, thank God.

Now you send up a flare if you need rescuing.

Happy Mardi Gras!

Hey! Wayney! Mwah!

Drag queens know - when you've got a big wig, a big wig,

you just put it in the wig so you hide your stash up there, right,

and then it's too tall for the sniffer dogs.

No! That's genius. Yeah. Yeah.

You know what I do, you know those toys,

the little chocolate with the toys in it?

I just get the capsule and stick it up my anus.

Happy Mardi Gras.

Hey! How are you, my love?

Good, how are you?

Oh, I just don't know how you face the day, Den.

It's so heinous.

Well, Wayne's taking very good care of me.

Yeah?

Hey. Hey.

This is cute.

Hey, George, you want shimmer?

Oh, no. God, no. This is Hanna.

Hey. She might.

Hello, Hanna. Welcome. I'm Franky.

Oh, glitter kills dolphins.

That's all good. This is made out of tiny eucalyptus particles.

OK.

But good on you for caring about the dolphins.

Can you believe the cops are marching?

Where were they when gay men

were getting thrown off the cliffs of Bondi, huh?

I got walloped once by a cop - cops - hanging out at a loo.

Jesus. Were you there for a shit?

No. A root.

Oh, how rude.

How do I know you?

I hooked up with your hubby last week.

Oh. The busboy. Mm-hm.

I'm Wayne.

I'm Wayne too.

OK. Mm-hm.

I heard about, um...

I mean, everyone's talking about it in there.

Yeah, no, and Den's OK.

And how are you?

You realise you're grieving too, right?

Yeah.

You've gotta be gentle on yourself.

I know.

There was a time when every third person in my Filofax was dying,

so I've had some practice.

Wait, what's a Filofax?

Oh, piss off!

You want? Ah, no, no, no.

I'm gonna wait till the showgrounds.

His sister used to call me Wayney Cakes.

Loved it.

I got you something.

Was I a bit of a dick?

Yes, you were.

Holy shit, I'm a talking bear.

Why has the bear got an accent?

Because I come from Mother Russia.

Salute, Comrade.

You sound like Count from Transylvania.

You know, 'Sesame Street'.

It's just...

When I'm not around, you can... hold him and think of me.

I know it's not the same

but when Craig and I divorced, I got so depressed.

I was so, so alone. I still am.

Well, Wayne's taking very good care of me.

I'm glad to hear that.

Where is he?

Thanks.

Mwah. Are you having a good time?

I'm very ready for my first cap. Oh!

I was gonna wait for the party.

Oh, so you can keep an eye on me? A little bit. Hold that.

I know what you're like. Mm-hm.

Go on.

Just one. OK.

Wish me luck. See you on the other side.

Den! Hey! Happy Mardi Gras. Hey!

Hey, girls. I heard...

Oh, this one's taking very good care of me.

Do you boys want to pump with us?

Oh, no, no. He just... Oh, yeah, sure.

Hi. No.

No, Den. Den, Den, Den, Den. Keep a lid on it.

Oh, I took both and it hasn't come on yet.

Darl, shush, shush.

Oh, I love it when you shush me. Ooh, it's just, I...

It's just...

I want you to have the best time tonight.

That's all I want for you. Argh!

I'm glad we're doing this, Wayney Cakes.

Oh, hello.

OK. OK. Sir.

Separate, please.

Separate.

Push your hands together like this.

Oh, no, we've got a dog. It's a greyhound.

And it's probably... I've probably got food on my shoe.

Yeah, it's true. It's a rescue greyhound.

No. Put your hands together like that.

You're not gonna put hands in pockets or touch your mouth.

You're gonna follow me, sir, OK? Come on, sir.

Do I just stay here?

Despite the rain, it's been another dazzling

Sydney Gay and Lesbian Mardi Gras.

There were big cheers for the crowd favourites...

..including the Dykes on Bikes...

..the First Nations float and Sydney Leather Pride.

Tonight, all rainbows lead to Moore Park for the afterparty,

the celebrations until...

Urs!

Urs, the tarp!

Urs! Claire! Where are you two? The tarp's fallen off the roof.

OK.

Get in.

Oh, my God. I left the teddy out there.

No, no, no. He's here. I've...got him in here.

Becky.

Mm? Are you asleep?

Wake up.

Mm-mm.

Hey. Where you going? Hey.

Ah...Den summoned me.

Said he needs me there, so...

You wanna borrow a pair of heels? Uh-uh.

Are you gonna wear those workboots?

Yes.

OK. OK.

I hope you're not just going out 'cause Scott's here.

Yeah, I know he can be a bit, you know...

Yeah, that's not my business.

It's just a bit weird at home now that Xavier's moved out.

Oh, good on him.

Yeah.

I mean, we just...

Our place is mortgaged up to something crazy

and, I don't know, we just got into...

..a little bit of...

They were just silly investments, you know.

And I knew they were stupid. I just don't...

Just don't ask Scott about it.

He'll just tell you he's getting us out of it.

You think that'll happen before or...after the stuff with Mum's will?

Oh, please don't.

That was about our home.

That wasn't about money.

OK.

I'll see ya.

Becky.

Why are you wearing a bum bag? What?

Any sharp objects? Weapons that can cause me injury?

No.

You look like a dealer. I look like a gay.

Gonna need to look at your phone.

You need a warrant to look at my phone.

You a lawyer? I'm a florist but I know the law.

I'm gonna need you to lower your shorts.

Come on, hurry up.

Lift your genitals for us.

OK. And squat.

You've been arrested before, Wayne?

I don't have to answer that.

Oh, so he has. Very interesting.

What's that?

What? What was that?

Open it. It's a contact lens.

Open it.

I'm not even really a drug user.

This is, like, a once-a-year thing for me. I run a small business.

Can't something be done? Like...

Are you offering me a bribe, are ya? What?

No, no. Definitely not. No.

OK.

So here's what happens next. I know what's gonna happen next.

Yeah, you failed the attitude test again, Mr Drummond.

You'll be set an appearance date for the magistrate.

And if you fail to attend,

a warrant will be issued for your arrest.

Yes, sir.

Stay there. Not done yet.

How's the party going, Wayne?

Good?

Good night?

Oh, my God, darling. What happened? What happened?

It's alright. They didn't find anything.

Oh, good. Well, hurry up and take your drugs. Come on, catch up.

Let's just get in. No, no, no, Claire's coming.

Claire?

I was worried about you and I didn't wanna do this on my own.

I wouldn't leave you on your own.

Mwah. Ooh, you're cold.

Are you sure you wanna do this?

I'm sure I wanna be with you.

Come on. Argh!

# I know you know it I can't control it

# Come meet the greatest Here in this moment

# I know you know it I can't control it

# Come meet the greatest Sing with the chorus

# All hail the queen Bow down to me

# Step up on the scene And they bow down to me

# All hail the queen I'm royalty

# Watch me put in work Doing so royally

# All hail the queen Bow down to me

# Step up on the scene And they bow down to me

# All hail the queen I'm royalty... #

Come dance with us.

Yeah, come on. No, that's alright.

# What else can I say? I take they breath away

# I keep it ice cold Even on a summer day

# I got the remedy Baby, I'm everything

# I wear the crown That's a power, it will never fade

# I know you know it... #

Don't wanna dance? Nah.

But, nah, thanks for, like...

This has been sick.

Think I'm just gonna leave all this.

Am I a trash bag? Nup.

Hey, um, do you think I'll get, like, ID'd tonight?

Oh, ah...

We're heading to the city.

I mean, I'd love you to tag along but it's just...

They're pretty strict, especially at Mardi Gras.

Yeah.

I hope I didn't make you think... No.

No, no, no. Oh, my God.

Um, no, that's fine. Um...

Yeah, like, a bunch of my school friends are doing something tonight

'cause someone, like, their parents are away, so...

Cool.

Where did you get that top?

Um, like, H&M.

OK. Couple of roadies.

It's meant to be a cosmopolitan but, yeah, it's not.

Um, and here's the pineapple juice you wanted, Hanna.

# Even on a summer day I got the remedy... #

Thanks. # Baby, I'm everything

# I wear the crown That's a power, it will never fade

# I know you know it I can't control it

# Come meet the greatest Here in this moment

# I know you know it I can't control it

# Come meet the greatest Sing with the chorus

# I'm royalty I'm royalty

# Watch me put in work... #

You sure you're OK?

Yeah.

# Watch me put in work Doing so royally... #

OK. I'll see ya?

# Watch me put in work Doing so royally

# So royally

# Come meet the greatest Sing with the chorus

# All hail the queen Bow down to me

# Step up on the scene And they bow down to me

# All hail the queen I'm royalty

# Watch me put in work Doing so royally

# All hail the queen Bow down to me... #

Cherry!

Alright. I gotta go. Right, left.

Mwah, love you. Mwah!

Have a great night. Happy Mardi Gras.

You two are amazing. Mwah. Love you. Mwah!

'Bye, 'bye, 'bye, 'bye, 'bye.

Let's boogie. Boogie, boogie, boogie, boogie, boogie.

Boogie, boogie, boogie, boogie, boogie.

Oh, my God, this is so good.

But that cafe's gross.

Is that yours? Yeah.

Can I have a swig? Where'd you get the drugs?

Mm. Guy with a bum bag.

Yours coming on yet? Yeah, great.

Really? Yeah.

Hey, I want Den to have a really great time tonight, OK?

Oh, 100%.

He can get a bit chatty when he's high.

Be careful where the conversation goes.

Sorry?

You didn't see what the will battle did to Den. I did.

I will tell him eventually how Pam died but not tonight.

Not on drugs, yeah?

Right.

Well, I need a dance floor and I think you need your second cap.

Oh, God. You're already so fucking high, Wayne.

Yeah.

Come on.

I'll try and get to hardware in the morning, get some better tarps.

Yeah, or you could just leave it.

It's the builder's responsibility.

I know what you're doing here.

You...you've stopped me from seeing this place.

I haven't.

Yes, you have.

Because you can't face that...

..this house is unviable.

No-one can afford this renovation

and now that our boys are moving out, you're frightened

because maybe you can't stand the thought of raising two kids again

with me.

That's not how I see it, Scott.

Hey, Hanna. Hey.

What's going on?

Nothing.

Have you been drinking?

Hey? No. Um...

I just... I've just been pretending.

That's OK. You don't have to tell me all the deets.

I'm...

I know you're in love.

I just feel...I just get things, like, in my head

that I think they're gonna, like, happen...

..but it doesn't mean they will, does it?

What do you mean?

I just want him to keep making the house.

And you know what, we're gonna find a way.

I keep, like, pretending Mum's alive but maybe she's not.

That's OK.

Oh. Oh. That's OK.

That's OK. That's OK.

You let it go. That's alright.

# I need us to march right here, right now

# Oh-oh, martini... #

You're God!

# I need us to imagine that, like, wow

# Oh-oh, martini

# I need us to march right here, right now

# Oh-oh, martini

# I need us to imagine... #

Gonna get some water. I'll come.

Do you wanna come? Yeah, I'll come.

Oh, amazing!

Come with us.

Wayne's gonna come too. Amazing!

Come and get some water, Wayne.

I can't believe how high Wayne is.

Having a good night? Yeah, great. You?

Yeah. Yeah. Great.

# So let me be the accident that's bound to happen

# Martini... #

I'm gonna marry him.

Yeah? Good.

No. Wayne.

# Oh-oh, martini... #

Yeah, he's your fiance.

# I need us to imagine that, like, wow... #

You need crimson lippie.

I brought Mum's.

Huh?

# I need us to march right here, right now

# Oh-oh, martini

# I need us to imagine that, like, wow

# Oh-oh, martini... #

No, that was me. Sorry.

Yeah, she can hear you. Go on.

She smiled, Den.

She's proud.

# I need us to march right here, right now

# Oh-oh, martini... # Kiss my cheek.

# I need us to imagine that, like, wow

# Oh-oh, martini... # PAM: Den!

# I need us to march right here, right now... #

I've been calling out to you, hon.

I don't want to lose you.

Oh! It's the ketamine doing that.

Hello.

No, no, no. I wasn't sleeping. I...

What is it, Constable?

"Deidre Chambers. What a coincidence."

Ooh!

Oh, Wayne doesn't need any. He's off his chops tonight.

Hey, you guys are such a cute couple.

They found her.

Police divers. First light.

They found Sarah.

We received an anonymous tip through Crime Stoppers

that gave us a location to search.

Sure it's her?

Where exactly was she found?

Our inquiries are ongoing, Ciaran.

Whoever it is who didn't report Mum,

it was either a fisherman or someone doing something illegal.

I really wanna go out there.

Come back inside.

I can't always be the fucking afterthought in this family.

She just wrote a shitty will, OK? I'll fix it.

I gave so much to this family.

Oh, and I didn't? And I didn't?

Fuck you.

I need your help. Why?

I just...I need to borrow, like a board or something.

'Cause... Well, you can't.

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