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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:46,630 --> 00:00:48,980 In Herman Williams' seminal work on the joys 2 00:00:48,980 --> 00:00:53,370 of being a model train hobbyist, he writes, 3 00:00:53,370 --> 00:00:55,420 "Many an hour have I spent 4 00:00:55,420 --> 00:00:59,210 "blissfully lost in a world of my own creation. 5 00:01:00,770 --> 00:01:03,080 "For the model train enthusiast, 6 00:01:03,080 --> 00:01:07,690 "there exists a secret world of order and symmetry. 7 00:01:07,690 --> 00:01:11,520 "Nestled into the corners of our basements and attics, 8 00:01:11,520 --> 00:01:13,350 "we lord over a world 9 00:01:13,350 --> 00:01:16,830 "where the hobbyist plays omnipotent creator. 10 00:01:18,360 --> 00:01:21,710 "There, in 1:87 scale, 11 00:01:21,710 --> 00:01:24,360 "the neighbors are always kind, 12 00:01:24,360 --> 00:01:27,410 "the lovers always end up together, 13 00:01:27,410 --> 00:01:31,630 "and the trains always take you to the far-off places 14 00:01:31,630 --> 00:01:34,110 "you always swore you'd go." 15 00:01:35,680 --> 00:01:38,030 In life, of course, 16 00:01:38,030 --> 00:01:42,470 nothing is nearly as neat and tidy. 17 00:01:42,470 --> 00:01:46,340 ♪ Well, if you close the door ♪ 18 00:01:47,650 --> 00:01:51,560 ♪ The night could last forever ♪ 19 00:01:51,560 --> 00:01:56,350 ♪ And keep the sunshine out ♪ 20 00:01:56,350 --> 00:02:00,140 ♪ And say hello to never ♪ 21 00:02:00,140 --> 00:02:02,490 ♪ 'Cause all the people are dancing ♪ 22 00:02:02,490 --> 00:02:04,880 ♪ And they're having such fun ♪ 23 00:02:04,880 --> 00:02:09,800 ♪ I wish it could happen to me ♪ 24 00:02:12,370 --> 00:02:17,410 - ♪ So baby close that door ♪ 25 00:02:17,410 --> 00:02:20,680 ♪ And never have to see the day again ♪ 26 00:02:20,680 --> 00:02:21,940 ♪ Oh, yeah ♪ 27 00:02:21,940 --> 00:02:24,990 ♪ I'd never have to see the day again ♪ 28 00:02:24,990 --> 00:02:26,470 ♪ That's right ♪ Sing! 29 00:02:26,470 --> 00:02:29,210 ♪ I'd never have to see the day again ♪ 30 00:02:32,170 --> 00:02:34,650 - Encore, Allie! 31 00:02:34,650 --> 00:02:36,260 - No! 32 00:02:36,260 --> 00:02:37,700 I am way too drunk 33 00:02:37,700 --> 00:02:39,220 to be singing in front of people. 34 00:02:39,220 --> 00:02:41,530 Aw, but we love you! Come on! 35 00:02:41,530 --> 00:02:43,310 And I wanna keep it that way. 36 00:02:43,310 --> 00:02:47,660 Um, okay. That was for my beautiful, sweet, 37 00:02:47,660 --> 00:02:49,880 darling fiance, Nathan. 38 00:02:51,840 --> 00:02:53,750 Who loves that song very much. 39 00:02:54,670 --> 00:02:56,800 Bubba, you wanna come up here? 40 00:02:56,800 --> 00:02:59,020 - No. 41 00:02:59,020 --> 00:03:01,500 Come on! It's our engagement party. 42 00:03:01,500 --> 00:03:03,290 He's very shy! 43 00:03:03,290 --> 00:03:06,330 Nathan! Nathan! Nathan! 44 00:03:06,330 --> 00:03:09,940 Nathan! Nathan! Nathan! Nathan! 45 00:03:12,300 --> 00:03:14,990 Mm! Ah! Mm! 46 00:03:14,990 --> 00:03:16,910 - Did you like it? - It was amazing. 47 00:03:18,520 --> 00:03:21,040 - Hey, y'all... 48 00:03:21,040 --> 00:03:25,130 Um, I'll just briefly say that she played that song for me 49 00:03:25,130 --> 00:03:26,740 on our very first date 50 00:03:26,740 --> 00:03:28,830 on a beautiful, old piano she found 51 00:03:28,830 --> 00:03:30,440 at the back of an empty bar. 52 00:03:30,440 --> 00:03:32,710 - Well, you better go, girl! - Come on. Come on! 53 00:03:32,710 --> 00:03:35,230 - Always be closing. Absolutely! 54 00:03:35,230 --> 00:03:37,280 Welcome to the family! 55 00:03:37,280 --> 00:03:39,890 - Allison... - Yes... 56 00:03:41,450 --> 00:03:46,240 Every memory I cherish in my life has you in it. 57 00:03:46,240 --> 00:03:48,550 Some of them are just tiny seconds. 58 00:03:49,770 --> 00:03:51,330 The way you close one eye 59 00:03:51,330 --> 00:03:53,770 when you really wanna focus on tasting something. 60 00:03:53,770 --> 00:03:56,250 - I do that. I do that. 61 00:03:56,250 --> 00:03:57,510 I go, like... 62 00:04:04,350 --> 00:04:06,040 I can't believe this is real. 63 00:04:06,040 --> 00:04:07,350 It's real, baby. 64 00:04:07,350 --> 00:04:08,700 - Thank God. Mm. 65 00:04:08,700 --> 00:04:10,270 - I love you. - I love you. 66 00:04:10,270 --> 00:04:12,270 Aw. 67 00:04:12,270 --> 00:04:13,750 - Okay. - Hey... 68 00:04:15,620 --> 00:04:20,010 - Um... Drink, smoke, be merry. Yeah. 69 00:04:20,010 --> 00:04:21,760 And if you choose to sleep with Chip, 70 00:04:21,760 --> 00:04:24,580 make sure he wears, like, 11 condoms. 71 00:04:26,330 --> 00:04:28,240 I'm, like, literally a virgin. 72 00:04:28,240 --> 00:04:31,420 - He's kidding. He's kidding. 73 00:04:31,420 --> 00:04:34,900 - ♪ Time keeps on coming ♪ 74 00:04:36,030 --> 00:04:37,420 ♪ I've been all around ♪ 75 00:04:43,690 --> 00:04:46,520 ♪ I'll keep on loving... ♪ 76 00:04:46,520 --> 00:04:48,130 No! No, no, no. 77 00:04:48,130 --> 00:04:50,390 - No. Come on, baby. No phone. - Oh. 78 00:04:50,390 --> 00:04:51,960 When we get married, we have to make rules 79 00:04:51,960 --> 00:04:54,480 - about phones in the bed. 80 00:04:54,480 --> 00:04:56,050 Oh, shut up. 81 00:04:56,050 --> 00:04:59,270 You are on your phone, like, ten times more than me, 82 00:04:59,270 --> 00:05:01,880 looking up rusty old trucks. 83 00:05:01,880 --> 00:05:05,890 Uh, a '67 cloth top Bronco 84 00:05:05,890 --> 00:05:08,720 is a work of art, baby. It's not a truck. 85 00:05:08,720 --> 00:05:10,720 - I'm looking at art. - Yeah. Oh. 86 00:05:10,720 --> 00:05:13,630 - Like this butt. 87 00:05:13,630 --> 00:05:16,330 I am so high from that gummy you gave me. 88 00:05:16,330 --> 00:05:18,160 - What the fuck was that? 89 00:05:18,160 --> 00:05:20,120 I still can't feel my ankles. 90 00:05:20,120 --> 00:05:22,080 You don't need your ankles right now. 91 00:05:22,080 --> 00:05:25,730 Yeah, but I would still like to feel my ankles. 92 00:05:25,730 --> 00:05:27,340 Hey, come kiss me. 93 00:05:27,340 --> 00:05:28,820 - Hey, babe? - Yeah? 94 00:05:28,820 --> 00:05:30,740 This creepy doctor from my sales list 95 00:05:30,740 --> 00:05:32,830 is really trying to flirt with me on Instagram. 96 00:05:32,830 --> 00:05:35,440 Maybe you gave him the wrong impression. 97 00:05:35,440 --> 00:05:36,610 What? 98 00:05:36,610 --> 00:05:37,960 Come on! As if! 99 00:05:37,960 --> 00:05:40,140 I go in there, and I'm, like, 100 00:05:40,140 --> 00:05:42,360 waving my engagement ring around. 101 00:05:42,360 --> 00:05:44,880 You always say, "Flirting is a part of the job." 102 00:05:44,880 --> 00:05:46,710 Someone's bound to get the wrong impression. 103 00:05:47,620 --> 00:05:49,020 It's very light flirting. 104 00:05:49,020 --> 00:05:51,060 - Ah, okay. - It is! 105 00:05:51,060 --> 00:05:52,720 It's like... It's just... 106 00:05:52,720 --> 00:05:55,410 It's sushi with a smile, 107 00:05:55,410 --> 00:05:57,720 so that he can write the fucking prescription, 108 00:05:58,900 --> 00:06:00,420 and I can get a fat bonus, 109 00:06:00,810 --> 00:06:01,990 and then 110 00:06:02,900 --> 00:06:06,730 you and I can maybe one day 111 00:06:06,730 --> 00:06:08,170 move to the city. 112 00:06:08,170 --> 00:06:10,040 If we don't go to hell first. 113 00:06:10,040 --> 00:06:12,690 Oh! Why would you say that? 114 00:06:12,690 --> 00:06:15,000 - Come on! - I'm sorry. 115 00:06:15,000 --> 00:06:18,440 I'm only pushing HUMIRA, like, 116 00:06:18,440 --> 00:06:22,960 I won't go to hell for moderate to severe psoriasis. 117 00:06:22,960 --> 00:06:25,970 Come on. That would be so unfair. 118 00:06:25,970 --> 00:06:27,360 Yeah, yeah. 119 00:06:27,360 --> 00:06:28,800 Shut up. 120 00:06:28,800 --> 00:06:30,410 - Okay. Hey. - Mmm. 121 00:06:30,410 --> 00:06:31,580 It's just a stepping stone, baby. 122 00:06:31,580 --> 00:06:33,020 I know. 123 00:06:33,020 --> 00:06:35,450 Do you think it's too late for astronaut school? 124 00:06:35,450 --> 00:06:37,630 - What? 125 00:06:37,630 --> 00:06:39,150 - What? - Nothing. 126 00:06:39,150 --> 00:06:41,290 I could be a professional dancer. 127 00:06:41,290 --> 00:06:43,110 - Oh, word? - Yeah. Yeah. 128 00:06:43,110 --> 00:06:45,330 - You got them moves? - Ooh. 129 00:06:45,330 --> 00:06:46,810 - Wait, let me stand up. 130 00:06:46,810 --> 00:06:48,640 I'm way better when I stand up. 131 00:06:48,640 --> 00:06:49,950 - Okay. - It's so much better 132 00:06:49,950 --> 00:06:51,690 when I stand up. 133 00:06:51,690 --> 00:06:53,340 - Are you ready? - Yeah, yeah, yeah. 134 00:06:55,470 --> 00:06:57,610 - Whoa. - What genre is this? 135 00:06:57,610 --> 00:06:59,260 I don't know, but my body just goes... 136 00:06:59,260 --> 00:07:00,350 Go. 137 00:07:00,350 --> 00:07:02,440 Is this modern, right? 138 00:07:02,440 --> 00:07:04,270 - This is professional. - Wow. 139 00:07:04,270 --> 00:07:05,350 So I would appreciate it 140 00:07:05,350 --> 00:07:06,660 if you took me seriously right now. 141 00:07:06,660 --> 00:07:08,100 I'm taking you very seriously. 142 00:07:08,100 --> 00:07:11,530 And then, we'll finish with something like this. 143 00:07:14,010 --> 00:07:15,540 But I'm not gonna show you anymore, 144 00:07:15,540 --> 00:07:17,410 because it's a work-in-progress. 145 00:07:17,410 --> 00:07:19,630 And the professional is tired, 146 00:07:19,630 --> 00:07:22,110 and I wanna cuddle. 147 00:07:22,110 --> 00:07:24,850 ♪ Came into this life on my own ♪ 148 00:07:24,850 --> 00:07:27,680 ♪And I'll try Yes I'll try ♪ 149 00:07:27,680 --> 00:07:29,900 ♪ Hope for love turn out the light ♪ 150 00:07:29,900 --> 00:07:33,290 ♪ And I gave my own life My own life, my own life ♪ 151 00:07:41,960 --> 00:07:43,910 Oh, calm the fuck down. 152 00:07:45,440 --> 00:07:47,180 I swear, this road has been under construction 153 00:07:47,180 --> 00:07:48,920 my entire life. 154 00:07:48,920 --> 00:07:50,750 When will New Jersey be done? 155 00:07:50,750 --> 00:07:52,100 - She's a work-in-progress. - Never. 156 00:07:52,100 --> 00:07:54,360 Oh, by the way, how's Ryan doing? 157 00:07:54,360 --> 00:07:56,540 Oh, you mean your future niece? 158 00:07:56,540 --> 00:07:59,280 Oh, my goodness. She's so pretty! 159 00:07:59,280 --> 00:08:01,320 Yeah, the varsity coach said she might start next year. 160 00:08:01,320 --> 00:08:02,410 - Oh, yeah? Mmm-hmm. 161 00:08:02,410 --> 00:08:04,720 She scored 19 goals last season! 162 00:08:04,720 --> 00:08:05,980 - Tell her. Tell her. - Wow! 163 00:08:05,980 --> 00:08:08,420 Oh, my God. You must be so proud of her. 164 00:08:08,420 --> 00:08:09,550 I can't believe I haven't met her. 165 00:08:09,550 --> 00:08:10,720 I'm so sorry Nathan and I 166 00:08:10,720 --> 00:08:12,070 haven't made it down there yet. 167 00:08:12,070 --> 00:08:13,550 Don't worry about it. I mean, it's far. 168 00:08:13,550 --> 00:08:14,770 We're gonna try to come up more often 169 00:08:14,770 --> 00:08:16,080 now that our dad's getting older. 170 00:08:16,080 --> 00:08:17,860 Yeah. 171 00:08:17,860 --> 00:08:21,260 Well, I've only met your dad a few times, 172 00:08:21,260 --> 00:08:23,560 but that we can't blame on distance. 173 00:08:25,390 --> 00:08:27,480 This is fucking nuts. I'm sorry. 174 00:08:27,480 --> 00:08:28,650 Wait, so tell us about 175 00:08:28,650 --> 00:08:30,350 these wedding dresses we're seeing. 176 00:08:30,350 --> 00:08:32,090 Yes, please. I couldn't sleep last night thinking about it. 177 00:08:32,090 --> 00:08:34,440 Shut up! - You are such a good sport. 178 00:08:34,440 --> 00:08:37,230 No, he isn't. He just thinks that after we see dresses, 179 00:08:37,230 --> 00:08:38,580 - we're going to go... - Yeah? 180 00:08:38,580 --> 00:08:39,750 - ...on a pub crawl. Mmm-hmm. 181 00:08:39,750 --> 00:08:41,190 But actually we're going to see a play. 182 00:08:41,190 --> 00:08:42,630 - You are? - No, we're not. 183 00:08:42,630 --> 00:08:44,190 You said that we'd have to get tickets already. 184 00:08:44,190 --> 00:08:46,240 No. We just gotta see some shit nobody else wants to see. 185 00:08:46,240 --> 00:08:47,630 - Oh, great. That's awesome. 186 00:08:47,630 --> 00:08:49,020 - Yeah, right? - Great. Great. 187 00:08:49,020 --> 00:08:51,020 Hey, look, it's finally opening up. 188 00:08:51,020 --> 00:08:53,460 All right, so I think it might be a little tight 189 00:08:53,460 --> 00:08:54,990 getting you to a play, 190 00:08:54,990 --> 00:08:58,510 but, um, let me just check... 191 00:09:01,380 --> 00:09:02,990 - Okay, so now it's saying... 192 00:09:02,990 --> 00:09:04,260 Allie! 193 00:09:04,260 --> 00:09:05,430 Look out! 194 00:09:20,660 --> 00:09:22,140 Here we are. 195 00:09:22,140 --> 00:09:24,540 You got me here so early. 196 00:09:24,540 --> 00:09:26,670 Yeah, well, it's 197 00:09:26,670 --> 00:09:29,110 better to be a half-hour early 198 00:09:29,110 --> 00:09:30,670 than one minute late. 199 00:09:32,500 --> 00:09:34,550 Grandpa, have you ever played any video games? 200 00:09:34,550 --> 00:09:36,330 - No. 201 00:09:37,680 --> 00:09:39,940 You've got that perfect little brain up there 202 00:09:39,940 --> 00:09:42,550 and you're just melting it away with that crap. 203 00:09:43,030 --> 00:09:44,600 Okay. 204 00:09:44,600 --> 00:09:45,820 Nathan. - 205 00:09:45,820 --> 00:09:47,040 It's Uncle Nathan. Answer it. 206 00:09:47,910 --> 00:09:49,390 Why would he be calling me? 207 00:09:50,780 --> 00:09:51,820 Pick it up. 208 00:09:56,440 --> 00:09:59,620 Thought we weren't talking anymore. 209 00:10:10,760 --> 00:10:13,800 Uh-huh. Uh-huh. Nathan. Nathan. 210 00:10:13,800 --> 00:10:16,280 I've... I've got Ryan here in the car. 211 00:10:16,280 --> 00:10:18,070 I'm just dropping her off at school. 212 00:10:18,070 --> 00:10:19,420 I'll call you right back. 213 00:10:21,720 --> 00:10:24,940 Yes, I heard what you said. I'm headed right there. 214 00:10:24,940 --> 00:10:26,860 I just gotta drop her off, okay? 215 00:10:29,650 --> 00:10:31,950 See, that wasn't so bad. 216 00:10:31,950 --> 00:10:34,430 Mom says she wishes you guys could find a way to get along. 217 00:10:35,830 --> 00:10:38,040 I... I've... I've got to leave, sweetie. 218 00:10:38,040 --> 00:10:40,130 But I look like a dork being here this early. 219 00:10:40,130 --> 00:10:41,570 I'm sorry. 220 00:10:42,480 --> 00:10:43,480 I'll, uh... 221 00:10:44,310 --> 00:10:46,270 I'll be picking you up today. 222 00:10:46,270 --> 00:10:47,790 Why can't Mom? 223 00:10:47,790 --> 00:10:49,190 She said they'd be back from the city today, right? 224 00:10:50,400 --> 00:10:51,540 Well... 225 00:10:53,580 --> 00:10:55,150 - she can't. Okay. 226 00:10:55,150 --> 00:10:56,320 I'll text her. 227 00:10:56,320 --> 00:10:57,630 Okay. 228 00:10:57,630 --> 00:10:59,110 Okay. Bye. 229 00:10:59,940 --> 00:11:01,290 Tell me you love me. 230 00:11:02,680 --> 00:11:04,640 I love you, Grandpa. 231 00:11:04,640 --> 00:11:06,070 I love you too. 232 00:11:08,730 --> 00:11:10,120 - Bye. - Bye. 233 00:11:31,490 --> 00:11:34,490 Mom, my head hurts so much. 234 00:11:34,490 --> 00:11:37,890 I can't even explain how much pain my head's in. 235 00:11:37,890 --> 00:11:39,410 Can you click on the morphine again? 236 00:11:39,410 --> 00:11:40,850 I've been clicking on it. 237 00:11:40,850 --> 00:11:43,020 I'm clicking on it, and nothing is happening. 238 00:11:43,020 --> 00:11:44,330 Oh, shoot, you're right. It is empty. 239 00:11:44,330 --> 00:11:45,680 We gotta get more. 240 00:11:45,680 --> 00:11:46,980 We'll have to get the nurse to get us more. 241 00:11:46,980 --> 00:11:48,200 Nathan, why are you looking at me like that? 242 00:11:48,680 --> 00:11:50,380 Like what? 243 00:11:50,380 --> 00:11:52,340 Is it bad? Do I look that bad? 244 00:11:52,340 --> 00:11:53,690 No, he's just upset, sweetheart. 245 00:11:53,690 --> 00:11:55,170 He's upset 'cause we've been 246 00:11:55,170 --> 00:11:56,640 - so worried all night long. Okay. Okay. 247 00:11:56,640 --> 00:11:58,730 This backhoe thing just reversed 248 00:11:58,730 --> 00:12:00,610 into the middle of the street. 249 00:12:00,610 --> 00:12:01,740 I know, I know. 250 00:12:01,740 --> 00:12:03,390 I didn't know what to do. 251 00:12:03,390 --> 00:12:04,650 I know, but you don't have to worry about that right now. 252 00:12:04,650 --> 00:12:06,180 - Right, Nathan? - Yeah. 253 00:12:06,180 --> 00:12:07,700 No, you just need to focus on getting better. 254 00:12:07,700 --> 00:12:08,790 That's all you need to think about, okay? 255 00:12:08,790 --> 00:12:10,440 Okay. - Right, Nathan? 256 00:12:10,440 --> 00:12:12,100 - Yeah. Sorry to interrupt, 257 00:12:12,100 --> 00:12:13,750 but the police are here to collect a blood sample. 258 00:12:13,750 --> 00:12:15,100 Oh, no. Absolutely not. 259 00:12:15,100 --> 00:12:16,750 Now is not a good time. She is in a lot of pain. 260 00:12:16,750 --> 00:12:18,320 - You have to come back. - No. 261 00:12:18,320 --> 00:12:20,100 She just woke up. - Why are the police here? 262 00:12:20,100 --> 00:12:21,710 Unfortunately, I can't. 263 00:12:21,710 --> 00:12:24,060 Legally, the sample has to be drawn as soon as possible. 264 00:12:24,060 --> 00:12:25,500 We waited for her to stabilize, 265 00:12:25,500 --> 00:12:26,590 but with an accident like this, 266 00:12:26,590 --> 00:12:27,980 it's imperative we test... 267 00:12:27,980 --> 00:12:29,720 What is he talking about? It wasn't my fault. 268 00:12:29,720 --> 00:12:32,030 - Officer, she doesn't know. - It wasn't her fault. 269 00:12:32,030 --> 00:12:33,330 With an accident of this magnitude 270 00:12:33,330 --> 00:12:34,770 involving fatalities, we're required... 271 00:12:34,770 --> 00:12:36,510 - She hasn't been told. - Fatalities? 272 00:12:36,510 --> 00:12:37,820 She hasn't been told, 273 00:12:37,820 --> 00:12:39,210 - you fucking asshole! Fuck. 274 00:12:39,210 --> 00:12:41,080 She didn't know. - Mama, what's going on? 275 00:12:41,080 --> 00:12:42,340 - I'm so sorry, honey. - What is he talking about? 276 00:12:42,340 --> 00:12:43,470 I'm so sorry. 277 00:12:43,470 --> 00:12:45,220 Nathan? 278 00:12:45,220 --> 00:12:46,830 Nathan, what's going on? 279 00:12:50,700 --> 00:12:51,960 They're gone. 280 00:12:54,140 --> 00:12:55,620 They're both gone. 281 00:12:56,140 --> 00:12:57,230 Who's gone? 282 00:12:57,230 --> 00:12:58,450 Honey... 283 00:13:14,070 --> 00:13:16,640 No, Mom. 284 00:13:18,900 --> 00:13:20,860 Why, Mom? 285 00:13:20,860 --> 00:13:22,950 I'm so sorry, honey. 286 00:13:51,800 --> 00:13:54,590 ♪ Wake up with the sun in morning ♪ 287 00:13:54,590 --> 00:13:57,500 ♪ Go to sleep with the moon at night... ♪ 288 00:13:57,500 --> 00:13:58,980 Hey, guys! Bella here. 289 00:13:58,980 --> 00:14:00,460 Welcome to my bathroom! 290 00:14:00,460 --> 00:14:03,420 Today, we're gonna learn to cut our own hair. 291 00:14:03,420 --> 00:14:04,860 So let's jump in. 292 00:14:04,860 --> 00:14:08,210 To get started, we grab this first front layer 293 00:14:08,950 --> 00:14:10,430 just like this. 294 00:14:10,430 --> 00:14:13,960 And put your scissors at, like, a slight angle. 295 00:14:15,740 --> 00:14:18,740 Okay, it's now or never. 296 00:14:18,740 --> 00:14:20,090 Go for it! 297 00:14:20,090 --> 00:14:22,010 ♪ What their purpose is on earth ♪ 298 00:14:22,010 --> 00:14:24,790 ♪ To love and be loved in return... ♪ 299 00:14:24,790 --> 00:14:25,880 Fuck. 300 00:14:25,880 --> 00:14:27,270 You nailed it! 301 00:14:27,270 --> 00:14:29,750 You're officially a stylist just like me! 302 00:14:29,750 --> 00:14:31,150 Now, go ahead 303 00:14:31,150 --> 00:14:33,850 and grab the same layer on the other side. 304 00:14:33,850 --> 00:14:35,890 And just go for it! 305 00:14:35,890 --> 00:14:38,240 Okay. 306 00:14:38,240 --> 00:14:41,070 ♪ Happiness comes from inside ♪ 307 00:14:41,070 --> 00:14:43,460 ♪ At the center of your mind... ♪ 308 00:14:43,460 --> 00:14:44,550 Fuck. 309 00:14:44,550 --> 00:14:45,900 Does it look even? 310 00:14:46,290 --> 00:14:47,900 Uh... 311 00:14:47,900 --> 00:14:49,690 Not exactly. No. 312 00:14:49,690 --> 00:14:52,170 Good job. You look amazing! 313 00:14:53,780 --> 00:14:55,170 Thank you. 314 00:14:55,170 --> 00:14:57,780 ♪ You can change the darkest day ♪ 315 00:14:57,780 --> 00:15:00,700 ♪ Simply by the things you say... ♪ 316 00:15:01,700 --> 00:15:03,310 Wow... 317 00:15:03,310 --> 00:15:06,360 ♪ Oooh oooh ooh ♪ 318 00:15:07,920 --> 00:15:09,620 I love it. 319 00:15:12,840 --> 00:15:16,280 Oh, my God. Allie, what the hell is all this? 320 00:15:16,280 --> 00:15:20,020 You have got to stop buying all this crap. 321 00:15:21,680 --> 00:15:25,200 Yeah, well, one of them is an acrylic nail set 322 00:15:25,200 --> 00:15:27,590 that I know you'll appreciate more than I will. 323 00:15:27,590 --> 00:15:28,990 And the others are ankle weights. 324 00:15:28,990 --> 00:15:30,990 Remember? We said we were gonna get in shape? 325 00:15:31,900 --> 00:15:33,470 Oh, my God. 326 00:15:33,470 --> 00:15:36,520 Allie, what the hell did you do to your hair? 327 00:15:36,520 --> 00:15:38,000 What? It's makeover Monday. 328 00:15:38,000 --> 00:15:41,000 - It's Friday. - Oh. 329 00:15:41,000 --> 00:15:43,050 - It's so dark in here. - No, please, don't open that. 330 00:15:43,050 --> 00:15:44,440 Mama, that is so bright! 331 00:15:44,440 --> 00:15:46,480 Did you go to physical therapy today? 332 00:15:46,480 --> 00:15:48,440 Um, well, I tried to, 333 00:15:48,440 --> 00:15:50,490 - but I overslept. - Allie... 334 00:15:50,490 --> 00:15:52,880 What? I don't need PT. I don't. 335 00:15:52,880 --> 00:15:54,270 Allie, your hair. 336 00:15:55,060 --> 00:15:56,620 You don't like it? 337 00:15:56,620 --> 00:15:58,760 I just don't understand why you would cut your own hair. 338 00:15:58,760 --> 00:16:01,110 Well, the girl said it was easy, and it was not. 339 00:16:01,110 --> 00:16:02,500 What girl? 340 00:16:02,500 --> 00:16:05,890 This girl on the Internet. She's an influencer. 341 00:16:05,890 --> 00:16:07,720 She influenced me. 342 00:16:07,720 --> 00:16:12,070 Such a pigsty in here. I am not happy about this. 343 00:16:12,070 --> 00:16:13,900 Hey, Mama, can you tell me where my pills are? 344 00:16:13,900 --> 00:16:16,380 Which ones? 345 00:16:16,380 --> 00:16:20,040 We said we were going to wean off of them. Remember? 346 00:16:20,040 --> 00:16:22,000 - Did we? - Yes. 347 00:16:22,000 --> 00:16:24,740 Because "we" are in pain 348 00:16:24,740 --> 00:16:26,610 and "we" need more. 349 00:16:26,610 --> 00:16:27,960 They're not gonna give you more, Allie. 350 00:16:27,960 --> 00:16:29,400 - They have to! - No, they don't. 351 00:16:29,400 --> 00:16:30,920 I need them! 352 00:16:30,920 --> 00:16:32,530 Listen to me. 353 00:16:32,530 --> 00:16:34,660 You're not in physical pain anymore. 354 00:16:34,660 --> 00:16:36,790 Have you been doing the tapping thing 355 00:16:36,790 --> 00:16:38,190 that that one shrink taught you? 356 00:16:38,190 --> 00:16:40,410 Remember? For anxiety and stress, 357 00:16:40,410 --> 00:16:42,230 and it calms you down on the... 358 00:16:42,230 --> 00:16:43,930 - eyes, and then the lips. - Mom! 359 00:16:43,930 --> 00:16:45,630 Or play your piano. That always cheers you up. 360 00:16:45,630 --> 00:16:46,980 I don't wanna talk about this, please. 361 00:16:46,980 --> 00:16:49,810 I have the worst headache! Can you just stop? 362 00:16:49,810 --> 00:16:52,720 Can you call the doctors and help me, please? 363 00:16:52,720 --> 00:16:54,510 Which one? Patel? He said no more. 364 00:16:54,510 --> 00:16:56,860 Okay, well, fuck Patel. Fuck Patel! 365 00:16:56,860 --> 00:16:58,640 How about Goldberg, or... 366 00:16:58,640 --> 00:17:00,510 or Fong? 367 00:17:00,510 --> 00:17:02,120 - Allie... - Please, Mom. 368 00:17:02,120 --> 00:17:03,300 - Just call 'em. Just help me. - You're being a little... 369 00:17:03,300 --> 00:17:04,690 - No. - Just help me, please. 370 00:17:04,690 --> 00:17:06,300 Guess what? They all said "no." 371 00:17:06,300 --> 00:17:08,350 Patel. Goldberg. Fong. Rosenberg. 372 00:17:08,350 --> 00:17:10,260 Okay, well, I'll try Vromen. He loves me. 373 00:17:10,260 --> 00:17:12,180 Vromen is an orthodontist. 374 00:17:12,180 --> 00:17:13,660 Yeah, but he used to flirt with me 375 00:17:13,660 --> 00:17:15,750 when his fingers were really deep inside my mouth, 376 00:17:15,750 --> 00:17:18,270 and it was very inappropriate, and so, he really owes me one. 377 00:17:18,270 --> 00:17:20,140 Allie, I don't like how you're acting. 378 00:17:20,140 --> 00:17:21,360 You know what? Enough is enough. 379 00:17:21,360 --> 00:17:23,150 You gotta get out of this living room, 380 00:17:23,150 --> 00:17:24,760 take off your pajamas, 381 00:17:24,760 --> 00:17:26,670 and get your ass, and go get a job. 382 00:17:26,670 --> 00:17:27,800 I'm sick of this crap. 383 00:17:27,800 --> 00:17:30,110 As if you have any right 384 00:17:30,110 --> 00:17:32,200 lecturing me on medicating myself. 385 00:17:32,200 --> 00:17:33,590 What is that supposed to mean? 386 00:17:33,590 --> 00:17:36,770 It means, Mom, you're such a fucking hypocrite! 387 00:17:36,770 --> 00:17:39,600 You don't think that I clock how many Xanax you take? 388 00:17:39,600 --> 00:17:41,770 Or how many glasses of wine you drink? 389 00:17:41,770 --> 00:17:43,770 You think I'm just a zombie that doesn't notice anything, 390 00:17:43,770 --> 00:17:46,470 but I notice fucking everything! I see you. 391 00:17:46,470 --> 00:17:50,090 So, can I have my pills, please? 392 00:17:50,090 --> 00:17:52,300 You're not listening. There's no more. 393 00:17:59,530 --> 00:18:01,440 You get right back here, 394 00:18:01,440 --> 00:18:03,050 - you little brat! - No! 395 00:18:03,050 --> 00:18:05,490 What in the hell do you think you are doing? 396 00:18:05,490 --> 00:18:06,750 Get out of there! 397 00:18:06,750 --> 00:18:07,930 - Get out of there! Get off me! 398 00:18:07,930 --> 00:18:09,410 - No! Get out of there! - Let go! 399 00:18:09,410 --> 00:18:11,670 What are you doing? - No! Are they in here? 400 00:18:11,670 --> 00:18:14,460 Get back! Cut it out! - You are hurting me! 401 00:18:14,460 --> 00:18:15,810 Stop it! 402 00:18:15,810 --> 00:18:17,590 - Stop it! Put that back! Mom! 403 00:18:18,680 --> 00:18:19,720 No. 404 00:18:19,720 --> 00:18:21,160 - Open the door. - No. 405 00:18:21,160 --> 00:18:22,770 - Open the fucking door! - Stop it! Stop it. 406 00:18:22,770 --> 00:18:24,120 - Mom, let me out. - No. 407 00:18:24,120 --> 00:18:26,300 Let me out. Let me out! 408 00:18:26,300 --> 00:18:27,560 Mama! 409 00:18:27,560 --> 00:18:29,340 - No! Stop it! - Give me those... Ow. 410 00:18:29,340 --> 00:18:31,520 - Stop it! Ow! Ow, ow, ow, ow. 411 00:18:31,520 --> 00:18:33,650 - You fucking crazy little brat. No! 412 00:18:36,260 --> 00:18:38,220 Shit! 413 00:18:38,220 --> 00:18:40,530 No, no, no, no, no, no. 414 00:18:40,530 --> 00:18:42,530 Mama, no! Please. No! 415 00:18:44,700 --> 00:18:46,750 Why the fuck did you do that? 416 00:18:46,750 --> 00:18:47,930 I'm in pain! 417 00:18:47,930 --> 00:18:49,060 I don't give a shit! 418 00:18:49,060 --> 00:18:50,540 Your daughter is in actual pain! 419 00:18:50,540 --> 00:18:51,970 I don't give a shit! 420 00:18:51,970 --> 00:18:55,540 I fucking hate you so much! 421 00:18:55,540 --> 00:18:57,200 You're bleeding! 422 00:19:01,370 --> 00:19:02,720 You get back here right now. 423 00:19:02,720 --> 00:19:04,160 Leave me alone. - You come back here. 424 00:19:04,160 --> 00:19:05,250 Leave me alone. - I'm gonna grab your... 425 00:19:06,550 --> 00:19:07,900 Leave me the fuck alone! 426 00:19:07,900 --> 00:19:09,080 I'm not gonna leave you the fuck alone, 427 00:19:09,080 --> 00:19:10,250 - you little brat. - Ugh! 428 00:19:15,950 --> 00:19:17,300 Allison! 429 00:19:17,300 --> 00:19:19,440 - Leave me alone! Where are you going? 430 00:19:19,440 --> 00:19:21,310 Leave me alone! 431 00:19:32,540 --> 00:19:34,320 Let's go, Ryan! 432 00:19:35,630 --> 00:19:37,450 Attagirl! Attagirl! 433 00:19:44,110 --> 00:19:46,110 Fuck! 434 00:19:46,110 --> 00:19:47,850 So you're the Ryan that's been talking to Damien? 435 00:19:47,850 --> 00:19:49,120 Get the fuck outta my face. 436 00:19:49,120 --> 00:19:50,340 See, you talk to people like that, bitch, 437 00:19:50,340 --> 00:19:51,860 that's why you have no fucking friends. 438 00:19:51,860 --> 00:19:53,030 Why are you hitting on me, huh? 439 00:19:53,030 --> 00:19:54,510 Uh, I'm not the one named "Ryan." 440 00:19:54,510 --> 00:19:56,250 It's a fucking dyke's name. You a dyke? 441 00:19:56,250 --> 00:19:59,170 - Only when I fuck your mother. - Oh, at least I have a mother. 442 00:20:02,610 --> 00:20:04,180 What the fuck did you just say to me? 443 00:20:04,920 --> 00:20:06,180 Hey! 444 00:20:06,180 --> 00:20:09,440 Stay away from Damien, you fucking whore. 445 00:20:10,400 --> 00:20:11,440 Hey! 446 00:20:11,440 --> 00:20:13,400 Break that up, Ref! 447 00:20:14,790 --> 00:20:15,880 Break it up. Break it up! 448 00:20:16,190 --> 00:20:17,230 Hey! 449 00:20:19,840 --> 00:20:22,890 Hey! That's it! You're both out. Red card. 450 00:20:22,890 --> 00:20:24,280 Ryan, what the hell was that? 451 00:20:24,280 --> 00:20:25,760 I quit. 452 00:20:25,760 --> 00:20:28,070 I quit. I hate this fucking game. 453 00:20:28,070 --> 00:20:30,110 Why? Because you got in a fight? 454 00:20:30,110 --> 00:20:32,160 Come on, that's not you. 455 00:20:32,160 --> 00:20:34,290 You're tough. You're not a quitter. 456 00:20:34,290 --> 00:20:37,340 - She made fun of Mom. - What? 457 00:20:37,340 --> 00:20:39,520 She said, "At least I have a mom." 458 00:20:42,300 --> 00:20:43,870 Well, fuck her. 459 00:20:47,570 --> 00:20:48,650 Well... 460 00:20:50,000 --> 00:20:52,440 And what kind of a punch was that? 461 00:20:52,440 --> 00:20:54,700 You throw this hard right hook 462 00:20:54,700 --> 00:20:57,360 and then you leave yourself wide open for the jab. 463 00:20:58,450 --> 00:21:00,140 We're gonna have to work on that. 464 00:21:17,860 --> 00:21:19,030 Hi. 465 00:21:19,030 --> 00:21:21,600 I'm here to get a prescription refilled. 466 00:21:21,600 --> 00:21:24,430 Last name, Johnson. Birthday, August 24th. 467 00:21:24,430 --> 00:21:26,390 Okay. For which medication? 468 00:21:26,390 --> 00:21:29,520 Uh... The Oxy. OxyContin. 469 00:21:29,520 --> 00:21:31,700 It says here you are out of refills. 470 00:21:31,700 --> 00:21:34,310 I see you've been on them for over a year now. 471 00:21:34,310 --> 00:21:36,400 Your doctor's probably trying to wean you off of them. 472 00:21:36,400 --> 00:21:38,790 As I'm sure you know, they can be very addictive. 473 00:21:38,790 --> 00:21:40,660 Oh, really? I hadn't fucking heard that. 474 00:21:42,530 --> 00:21:43,670 Sorry. 475 00:21:43,670 --> 00:21:45,410 I'm sorry. I'm sorry. 476 00:21:46,150 --> 00:21:48,320 Listen... 477 00:21:48,320 --> 00:21:50,240 I was in a really bad car accident, 478 00:21:50,240 --> 00:21:53,330 and I need them, because I'm in a lot of pain. 479 00:21:53,330 --> 00:21:54,370 Just now? 480 00:21:55,590 --> 00:21:56,720 What? No. 481 00:21:56,720 --> 00:21:59,290 Your elbow is bleeding. 482 00:21:59,290 --> 00:22:01,070 Oh, shit. Look, it's fine. 483 00:22:01,070 --> 00:22:02,600 Let me go get you a bandage. 484 00:22:02,600 --> 00:22:04,470 I don't need a fucking bandage. It's fine. 485 00:22:08,730 --> 00:22:09,820 Then take this. 486 00:22:12,650 --> 00:22:14,830 Oh, my goodness. Thank you so much. Thank you. 487 00:22:17,130 --> 00:22:19,790 I feel so much better now. Thank you. 488 00:22:20,310 --> 00:22:21,660 Fucking bitch. 489 00:22:33,020 --> 00:22:34,890 Burn, but guess what that burn is? 490 00:22:34,890 --> 00:22:37,980 That burn is in your soul. It is lifting you up. 491 00:22:37,980 --> 00:22:39,420 You are climbing that mountain 492 00:22:39,420 --> 00:22:41,330 and you are reaching higher heights 493 00:22:41,330 --> 00:22:42,990 than you ever have before. 494 00:22:42,990 --> 00:22:44,340 Keep pedaling. 495 00:24:20,210 --> 00:24:22,430 Hi. - Hi! 496 00:24:22,430 --> 00:24:24,260 - Hey! - Hi! 497 00:24:25,390 --> 00:24:26,520 Hi. 498 00:24:26,520 --> 00:24:29,140 Oh, my God. I love your hair! 499 00:24:29,140 --> 00:24:32,790 - It is so chic. Who did it? - Ah, thank you! Um... 500 00:24:32,790 --> 00:24:35,400 I, uh, got a new gal. 501 00:24:35,400 --> 00:24:37,970 Well, I gotta get her number. 502 00:24:37,970 --> 00:24:39,410 Okay. 503 00:24:39,410 --> 00:24:42,370 Oh, I was so happy that you reached out. 504 00:24:42,370 --> 00:24:45,330 Because you weren't responding to any of my texts. 505 00:24:45,330 --> 00:24:47,200 Of course, I wanted to give you your space, 506 00:24:47,200 --> 00:24:48,890 but I was worried. 507 00:24:48,890 --> 00:24:50,370 Hi, good morning. - Hey! 508 00:24:50,370 --> 00:24:51,680 Can I get you anything? 509 00:24:51,680 --> 00:24:54,550 Uh, yeah. Can I please get a Jack and Coke? 510 00:24:55,070 --> 00:24:57,080 Uh... 511 00:24:57,080 --> 00:24:59,510 Sorry, our bar doesn't actually open until 11:00. 512 00:24:59,510 --> 00:25:00,860 Oh. 513 00:25:00,860 --> 00:25:04,340 Uh, okay. In that case, I'll get a black coffee. 514 00:25:04,340 --> 00:25:06,130 - Oat milk latte. - You got it. 515 00:25:09,440 --> 00:25:11,830 So, how's, how's work? 516 00:25:11,830 --> 00:25:13,010 You're still at Purdue, right? 517 00:25:13,010 --> 00:25:14,570 - Still repping Purdue. - Yeah. 518 00:25:14,570 --> 00:25:15,970 You'd think it would've been a shit show 519 00:25:15,970 --> 00:25:17,790 because of the bankruptcy and all the lawsuits. 520 00:25:17,790 --> 00:25:19,660 - Mm. - But, between you and me, 521 00:25:19,660 --> 00:25:21,540 my numbers have actually increased. 522 00:25:21,540 --> 00:25:22,800 Wow. 523 00:25:22,800 --> 00:25:26,150 My bonus last quarter was insane. 524 00:25:26,150 --> 00:25:28,330 - It sells itself. - Yeah. 525 00:25:28,330 --> 00:25:29,540 Karl Marx was wrong. 526 00:25:29,540 --> 00:25:31,680 Turns out the opiate of the masses 527 00:25:31,680 --> 00:25:32,760 is opium. 528 00:25:37,510 --> 00:25:38,680 Anyway. 529 00:25:38,680 --> 00:25:39,950 How are you doing? 530 00:25:39,950 --> 00:25:41,470 When are you going back to work? 531 00:25:41,470 --> 00:25:42,820 Listen, I'm just gonna cut right to it 532 00:25:42,820 --> 00:25:43,910 because you're my friend 533 00:25:43,910 --> 00:25:45,910 and I know you're gonna understand. 534 00:25:45,910 --> 00:25:47,080 Um... 535 00:25:48,210 --> 00:25:50,830 I'm still in a lot of pain. 536 00:25:50,830 --> 00:25:52,350 Oh, Allie... 537 00:25:52,350 --> 00:25:56,480 I know, and my docs are cutting my Oxy scripts 538 00:25:56,480 --> 00:25:58,750 because everyone's really freaked out 539 00:25:58,750 --> 00:26:00,230 about addiction these days. 540 00:26:00,230 --> 00:26:02,050 Uh... 541 00:26:02,050 --> 00:26:04,750 So, I was wondering if it would be possible... 542 00:26:04,750 --> 00:26:06,620 Allie, please tell me you didn't invite me 543 00:26:06,620 --> 00:26:08,890 to breakfast to hit me up for pills. 544 00:26:09,280 --> 00:26:10,410 No. 545 00:26:10,410 --> 00:26:12,410 - No, no, no, no, no. 546 00:26:12,410 --> 00:26:14,630 It's just until I can get in, and see my docs. 547 00:26:14,630 --> 00:26:16,810 Um, because my fucking mother, 548 00:26:16,810 --> 00:26:19,590 she threw my last refill into the toilet, so... 549 00:26:19,990 --> 00:26:21,640 No way. 550 00:26:21,640 --> 00:26:23,340 Are you fucking with me right now? 551 00:26:23,340 --> 00:26:24,820 No. 552 00:26:24,820 --> 00:26:26,820 If you have a problem, you need to get some help. 553 00:26:26,820 --> 00:26:29,260 I can help you find the right rehab. 554 00:26:29,260 --> 00:26:31,300 Please don't hand me a pamphlet. 555 00:26:31,300 --> 00:26:32,820 I already have one. 556 00:26:32,820 --> 00:26:35,130 Well, then find them on the street if you have to. 557 00:26:35,130 --> 00:26:37,180 Every dive bar in this town's got a guy 558 00:26:37,180 --> 00:26:39,350 with a pharmacy in his front pocket. 559 00:26:39,350 --> 00:26:41,220 You know, Becka, 560 00:26:42,490 --> 00:26:44,580 I really didn't want to do this. 561 00:26:46,360 --> 00:26:47,450 But... 562 00:26:49,410 --> 00:26:50,840 there's a handful of things 563 00:26:50,840 --> 00:26:54,110 that happened at your bachelorette party 564 00:26:54,110 --> 00:26:57,680 that I'm pretty sure you want to be kept private. 565 00:26:57,680 --> 00:27:01,330 Allison, are you trying to blackmail me for OxyContin? 566 00:27:01,330 --> 00:27:03,160 I'm just asking you for help. 567 00:27:04,290 --> 00:27:06,510 Like, as a friend. 568 00:27:08,340 --> 00:27:10,510 But you did blow that dancer. 569 00:27:11,470 --> 00:27:12,730 It happened for a second. 570 00:27:12,730 --> 00:27:15,870 I know, I know. But you did it, and I saw. 571 00:27:16,870 --> 00:27:17,960 It never went in my mouth. 572 00:27:17,960 --> 00:27:21,530 It was in your mouth. 573 00:27:21,530 --> 00:27:22,790 Past the tip. 574 00:27:23,750 --> 00:27:26,270 Past the fucking tip. 575 00:27:27,310 --> 00:27:28,660 Allie, you need help. 576 00:27:29,840 --> 00:27:31,490 Destroy my life if you have to. 577 00:27:31,490 --> 00:27:35,100 But for the love of God, get some fucking help! 578 00:27:35,100 --> 00:27:36,580 Okay, bye. Fuck you. 579 00:27:36,580 --> 00:27:38,020 Fuck you! 580 00:27:43,940 --> 00:27:46,250 Uh... I don't... Oh, fuck. 581 00:27:48,640 --> 00:27:50,340 I don't have any money. I'm really sorry. 582 00:27:50,340 --> 00:27:51,690 I can't pay for those. 583 00:27:51,690 --> 00:27:54,170 That's okay. Take it. 584 00:27:54,170 --> 00:27:56,080 I mixed in a little tequila for you. 585 00:28:04,700 --> 00:28:06,050 That's disgusting. 586 00:28:07,570 --> 00:28:08,570 Thank you. 587 00:28:11,660 --> 00:28:14,450 Mr. Adams, we really wanna do 588 00:28:14,450 --> 00:28:16,620 everything we can to help Ryan. 589 00:28:18,890 --> 00:28:20,500 But she needs to take some responsibility 590 00:28:20,500 --> 00:28:22,500 for her behavior. 591 00:28:22,500 --> 00:28:25,590 That girl does not listen to a thing I say. 592 00:28:27,240 --> 00:28:28,720 To be honest, 593 00:28:28,720 --> 00:28:30,460 I was hoping you were calling me in here 594 00:28:30,460 --> 00:28:32,160 to give me some advice. 595 00:28:33,900 --> 00:28:35,730 I need help. 596 00:28:35,730 --> 00:28:37,730 It's just that we're a public school. 597 00:28:37,730 --> 00:28:40,650 We have 2,000 kids to look after. 598 00:28:40,650 --> 00:28:42,210 We don't have the bandwidth 599 00:28:42,210 --> 00:28:44,870 to micromanage her in ways that she deserves and needs. 600 00:28:44,870 --> 00:28:46,610 So, what are you saying? 601 00:28:47,610 --> 00:28:49,310 I will give her an extra strike 602 00:28:49,310 --> 00:28:51,750 because of the circumstances. 603 00:28:51,750 --> 00:28:53,400 But if she doesn't tone down her language 604 00:28:53,400 --> 00:28:55,050 with her teachers 605 00:28:55,050 --> 00:28:56,930 and gets into one more fight, 606 00:28:57,880 --> 00:28:59,230 we'll have to expel her. 607 00:29:20,910 --> 00:29:23,780 Hi, can I get a double tequila, please? 608 00:29:31,740 --> 00:29:32,740 Allison. 609 00:29:33,700 --> 00:29:35,790 Yo, I know you. 610 00:29:36,920 --> 00:29:37,920 It's Mark. 611 00:29:38,880 --> 00:29:40,060 Yeah, hey. 612 00:29:40,060 --> 00:29:41,930 Yeah. 613 00:29:41,930 --> 00:29:44,580 I haven't seen you since high school. 614 00:29:44,580 --> 00:29:47,020 This is Diego. You remember Diego? 615 00:29:47,020 --> 00:29:48,190 - Hey. Hey. 616 00:29:49,240 --> 00:29:51,020 You just having a little breakfast? 617 00:29:51,020 --> 00:29:53,810 Uh... Um... I just... 618 00:29:55,420 --> 00:29:57,330 I just needed to get out of the house. 619 00:29:57,330 --> 00:29:59,420 Yeah, I feel that. 620 00:29:59,420 --> 00:30:01,860 I heard what happened to you. The accident. 621 00:30:01,860 --> 00:30:03,030 Saw it in the Star Ledger. Sorry. 622 00:30:03,030 --> 00:30:04,470 What happened? 623 00:30:04,470 --> 00:30:05,690 She was in that accident on the turnpike. 624 00:30:05,690 --> 00:30:07,260 Two people died. 625 00:30:07,260 --> 00:30:08,820 Holy shit. 626 00:30:09,870 --> 00:30:11,260 That was you. 627 00:30:12,220 --> 00:30:14,220 Oh, bro. 628 00:30:14,220 --> 00:30:16,180 That would've fucked me up. 629 00:30:16,180 --> 00:30:17,400 It wasn't my fault. 630 00:30:17,400 --> 00:30:20,010 Yeah, I'm sure. But, like, still... 631 00:30:25,880 --> 00:30:26,840 Damn. 632 00:30:30,280 --> 00:30:33,280 Hey, can I have another one, please? 633 00:30:34,590 --> 00:30:35,760 You having a tough day? 634 00:30:36,980 --> 00:30:38,330 Just a day. 635 00:30:39,770 --> 00:30:42,030 I just wanna get as far away from here as possible. 636 00:30:42,030 --> 00:30:43,380 Yo, there's this app, 637 00:30:43,380 --> 00:30:44,770 it tells you the exact opposite 638 00:30:44,770 --> 00:30:46,690 of where you are on the globe is. 639 00:30:46,690 --> 00:30:48,780 That's where you should go. I'll look it up for you. 640 00:30:48,780 --> 00:30:51,340 Yo, that's how I feel every fuckin' day of my life. 641 00:30:51,340 --> 00:30:53,780 I can't seem to escape this town. 642 00:30:53,780 --> 00:30:55,430 It's like there's a force field around it 643 00:30:55,430 --> 00:30:57,090 or something. 644 00:30:57,090 --> 00:30:59,790 Like, some people know how to get outta here. 645 00:30:59,790 --> 00:31:01,310 But the rest of us, 646 00:31:01,310 --> 00:31:03,050 we just keep banging our heads up against the glass. 647 00:31:03,050 --> 00:31:05,230 It's Perth. That's the city 648 00:31:05,230 --> 00:31:07,100 on the other side of the globe from here. 649 00:31:07,100 --> 00:31:08,970 You should go to Perth. 650 00:31:08,970 --> 00:31:11,540 I don't have enough money to get to Perth, 651 00:31:11,540 --> 00:31:13,020 but thank you. 652 00:31:13,020 --> 00:31:14,980 Aren't you engaged to Nathan Adams? 653 00:31:16,190 --> 00:31:18,150 I was, yeah. 654 00:31:18,150 --> 00:31:20,720 He was an amazing running back in high school. 655 00:31:20,720 --> 00:31:21,900 He used to run every fucking play. 656 00:31:21,900 --> 00:31:23,030 - You remember him, Mark? Yeah. 657 00:31:23,030 --> 00:31:24,160 Every fucking play, 658 00:31:24,160 --> 00:31:25,770 they'd come on the PA system like, 659 00:31:25,770 --> 00:31:29,380 "Nathan Adams, the ball carrier." 660 00:31:29,380 --> 00:31:31,340 He was the whole fucking team. You remember him, Mark? 661 00:31:31,340 --> 00:31:33,210 Yeah, I remember him. 662 00:31:33,210 --> 00:31:34,780 Isn't he deaf? 663 00:31:34,780 --> 00:31:38,170 Uh... In one ear. Since birth. 664 00:31:38,170 --> 00:31:39,480 Wow, that's impressive 665 00:31:39,480 --> 00:31:41,090 that he could be, like, that good, you know? 666 00:31:41,090 --> 00:31:42,740 And half deaf. 667 00:31:42,740 --> 00:31:44,050 So you're, like, single? 668 00:31:44,050 --> 00:31:47,100 Yo. Shut the fuck up, Diego. 669 00:31:47,100 --> 00:31:49,530 What? You think she's gonna date you? 670 00:31:49,530 --> 00:31:51,230 Where are you gonna take her? You live with your mom. 671 00:31:51,230 --> 00:31:54,060 God damn. 672 00:31:54,060 --> 00:31:55,280 Allison, I'm sorry. 673 00:31:55,280 --> 00:31:58,370 My fucking friend has no tact at all. 674 00:31:58,370 --> 00:32:01,110 We're not used to having 675 00:32:01,110 --> 00:32:03,760 pretty girls such as yourself come in here. 676 00:32:03,760 --> 00:32:05,500 So, you gotta excuse his 677 00:32:05,500 --> 00:32:07,250 lack of decor. 678 00:32:09,510 --> 00:32:10,730 Decorum. 679 00:32:11,550 --> 00:32:12,640 What? 680 00:32:13,770 --> 00:32:16,040 "Decor" is 681 00:32:16,040 --> 00:32:20,130 the Bud Light lamp above my head. 682 00:32:21,220 --> 00:32:23,870 "Decorum" is his behavior. 683 00:32:25,480 --> 00:32:27,790 Neither is currently ideal. 684 00:32:32,490 --> 00:32:34,320 Hey, can I ask you something, like, 685 00:32:35,400 --> 00:32:37,100 between us old friends? 686 00:32:37,100 --> 00:32:39,360 You weren't our friend. You were popular. 687 00:32:39,360 --> 00:32:41,540 - You were a bitch, actually. - All right. Diego. 688 00:32:43,280 --> 00:32:46,070 That's old shit. Right, Allison? 689 00:32:46,070 --> 00:32:48,550 We're past that. We're grown-ups. 690 00:32:48,550 --> 00:32:51,460 Those of us stuck behind this force field, 691 00:32:51,460 --> 00:32:54,420 - we gotta stick together. Yeah. 692 00:32:54,420 --> 00:32:58,640 Um, do you know where I could get some Oxy? 693 00:32:58,640 --> 00:33:00,170 God damn, girl. 694 00:33:00,170 --> 00:33:02,340 No foreplay. No nothing. 695 00:33:02,340 --> 00:33:05,560 No "How are you? How's your family?" 696 00:33:05,560 --> 00:33:07,000 No, we don't fuck with pills. 697 00:33:07,780 --> 00:33:09,180 I remember in high school 698 00:33:09,180 --> 00:33:11,090 you were the guys that could, like, 699 00:33:12,010 --> 00:33:13,220 get anything. 700 00:33:13,220 --> 00:33:15,180 And now you're just buttering us up. 701 00:33:16,790 --> 00:33:18,880 I don't have any money. 702 00:33:18,880 --> 00:33:21,320 How are you gonna pay for that tequila? 703 00:33:21,320 --> 00:33:24,020 I hadn't got that far yet. 704 00:33:24,020 --> 00:33:25,930 - Is that Rolex real? - Wait a second. 705 00:33:26,630 --> 00:33:28,630 Wait. Allie Johnson. 706 00:33:28,630 --> 00:33:31,590 Miss lovely Allie Johnson. 707 00:33:32,720 --> 00:33:34,850 You just stroll in here. 708 00:33:34,850 --> 00:33:36,770 You got no money. 709 00:33:36,770 --> 00:33:39,250 And you expect us to get you Oxy? 710 00:33:39,250 --> 00:33:41,950 For free, and then you want us to pay for your drink. 711 00:33:43,470 --> 00:33:44,950 Why the fuck would we do that? 712 00:33:46,430 --> 00:33:47,870 Nostalgia? 713 00:33:48,910 --> 00:33:50,350 Old friends? 714 00:33:50,350 --> 00:33:51,960 You thought you were such hot shit in high school. 715 00:33:51,960 --> 00:33:53,130 You're no fucking different now. 716 00:33:53,130 --> 00:33:54,610 All right. Shut up. 717 00:33:55,010 --> 00:33:56,440 Sorry. 718 00:33:56,440 --> 00:33:59,790 This guy. No decorum. 719 00:33:59,790 --> 00:34:00,970 No, he's right. 720 00:34:02,360 --> 00:34:04,930 I didn't think I was better than you. I knew it. 721 00:34:05,970 --> 00:34:07,630 I looked down on guys like you. 722 00:34:09,110 --> 00:34:12,020 I thought you were Jersey trash 723 00:34:12,020 --> 00:34:14,630 that would never be able to make it out of town. 724 00:34:17,980 --> 00:34:19,510 Fucking bitch. 725 00:34:19,510 --> 00:34:21,340 But now you're sitting here 726 00:34:22,080 --> 00:34:23,730 right beside us 727 00:34:23,730 --> 00:34:26,380 and you're looking for a fix. 728 00:34:26,380 --> 00:34:27,950 A favor. 729 00:34:27,950 --> 00:34:30,170 The favor is a fix. 730 00:34:31,740 --> 00:34:34,000 - You're a fucking junkie now. - No, I'm not. 731 00:34:34,000 --> 00:34:36,090 - You're a fucking junkie. - No. 732 00:34:36,090 --> 00:34:37,180 Yeah, you are. - Yeah, you are. 733 00:34:37,180 --> 00:34:38,570 Come on. You're a fuckin' junkie. 734 00:34:38,570 --> 00:34:39,880 No. I'm not like you. 735 00:34:39,880 --> 00:34:41,310 Allie Johnson, 736 00:34:41,310 --> 00:34:43,710 you're so much more like who you think we are 737 00:34:43,710 --> 00:34:45,230 than we actually are. 738 00:34:47,100 --> 00:34:49,490 Come on. Say it, say it, say it. 739 00:34:49,490 --> 00:34:51,280 "I'm a fucking junkie." You might like it. 740 00:34:51,280 --> 00:34:53,110 Fuck you. It's a pill. 741 00:34:53,110 --> 00:34:56,240 It's heroin in a pretty little dress. 742 00:34:56,240 --> 00:34:57,940 I thought you were the nice one. 743 00:34:59,290 --> 00:35:01,900 Why don't you say it? Say... Say, 744 00:35:02,770 --> 00:35:05,160 "I'm a fucking junkie," 745 00:35:05,160 --> 00:35:07,730 and then I'll get you whatever you want. Anything. 746 00:35:09,250 --> 00:35:12,520 Say it. Just, like, just come out with it. 747 00:35:12,520 --> 00:35:13,690 I'm currently reliant... 748 00:35:13,690 --> 00:35:17,220 No, that's not what I fucking said. 749 00:35:17,220 --> 00:35:20,090 You sneaky little bitch. That's not what I fucking said. 750 00:35:20,090 --> 00:35:21,350 - Is that what I said? - No. 751 00:35:21,350 --> 00:35:23,180 That is not what I said. 752 00:35:25,050 --> 00:35:27,530 Say you're a fuckin' junkie. Look at me. 753 00:35:27,530 --> 00:35:28,710 Look at me! 754 00:35:29,710 --> 00:35:32,540 Look me in the eyes, and say, 755 00:35:32,540 --> 00:35:35,760 "I'm a fucking junkie." 756 00:35:35,760 --> 00:35:37,150 Say it! 757 00:35:41,240 --> 00:35:42,940 I'm a fucking junkie. 758 00:35:47,120 --> 00:35:48,160 Good girl. 759 00:35:50,690 --> 00:35:52,120 Beth, I got these tequilas. 760 00:35:53,430 --> 00:35:55,730 I'm sorry for raising my voice. 761 00:35:55,730 --> 00:35:56,910 We're just catching up. 762 00:35:57,520 --> 00:35:59,170 Allie, this is Beth. 763 00:35:59,170 --> 00:36:01,220 She's divine. She's the best. 764 00:36:08,620 --> 00:36:09,970 That's not Oxy. 765 00:36:10,710 --> 00:36:11,920 Same shit. 766 00:36:51,180 --> 00:36:52,360 Thank you. Ooh, she just walked in. 767 00:36:53,660 --> 00:36:55,140 Oh, my God. I was so worried about you. 768 00:36:55,140 --> 00:36:56,230 Where were you? 769 00:36:56,230 --> 00:36:59,230 - I'm so sorry. - Oh, babe, oh. 770 00:36:59,230 --> 00:37:01,150 - I'm sorry. - Uh-huh. No... 771 00:37:01,150 --> 00:37:02,850 I need help. 772 00:37:02,850 --> 00:37:04,190 I know. I never should have 773 00:37:04,190 --> 00:37:05,670 flushed those pills down the toilet. 774 00:37:05,670 --> 00:37:08,200 I had no right. I'm so sorry. I was just so worried. 775 00:37:08,200 --> 00:37:09,420 Can you help me, please, Mama? 776 00:37:09,420 --> 00:37:11,200 Yes, yes, I already did. 777 00:37:11,200 --> 00:37:13,250 Here, I got these from Linda. 778 00:37:13,250 --> 00:37:14,860 She's the woman who works next to me 779 00:37:14,860 --> 00:37:16,510 in the toy kiosk at the mall. 780 00:37:16,510 --> 00:37:17,990 Her doctor gave them to her 781 00:37:17,990 --> 00:37:19,780 after she got punched in the face by a shoplifter, 782 00:37:19,780 --> 00:37:20,990 but she said she didn't need them. 783 00:37:20,990 --> 00:37:22,300 She swore by the neck brace. 784 00:37:22,300 --> 00:37:24,080 But you need 'em, honey. So here. 785 00:37:24,080 --> 00:37:26,740 That right there is a gift from Linda, okay? 786 00:37:26,740 --> 00:37:28,310 And we can worry about kicking it later. 787 00:37:28,310 --> 00:37:29,740 Let's not rush things. 788 00:37:29,740 --> 00:37:31,960 What matters the most is that you're home safe. 789 00:37:31,960 --> 00:37:35,140 Oh, babe. Oh, my baby. 790 00:37:39,750 --> 00:37:41,280 Hey, Ry? 791 00:37:42,890 --> 00:37:44,800 Got Chinese food! 792 00:37:45,710 --> 00:37:48,240 I got sweet and sour chicken, 793 00:37:48,240 --> 00:37:51,020 beef with broccoli, steamed rice. 794 00:37:51,760 --> 00:37:52,720 Where are ya? 795 00:37:53,370 --> 00:37:54,680 Hey, Ry? 796 00:37:55,940 --> 00:37:57,070 Ryan! 797 00:37:58,730 --> 00:38:01,160 What the... Daniel, get out! 798 00:38:01,160 --> 00:38:02,470 - Hey. Hey! 799 00:38:02,470 --> 00:38:04,170 Okay. Whoa, whoa! Okay. 800 00:38:04,170 --> 00:38:06,260 Whoa, whoa, whoa. Calm down! It's not what you think. 801 00:38:06,260 --> 00:38:08,520 I'm pretty sure it is what I think. How old are you? 802 00:38:08,520 --> 00:38:09,690 Daniel! Get off of him. 803 00:38:09,690 --> 00:38:11,040 Shut up! 804 00:38:11,040 --> 00:38:12,650 I asked you a question, boy. How old are you? 805 00:38:12,650 --> 00:38:15,000 - I'm 20. - She's 16, and I'm an ex-cop. 806 00:38:15,000 --> 00:38:16,570 Looks like you picked the wrong girl. 807 00:38:16,570 --> 00:38:17,790 You're choking him! 808 00:38:17,790 --> 00:38:19,620 She said she was 18 online. 809 00:38:19,620 --> 00:38:22,320 If I ever catch you near my granddaughter again, 810 00:38:22,320 --> 00:38:23,970 I'm gonna rip your fucking dick off 811 00:38:23,970 --> 00:38:25,580 and shove it down your throat. You feel me? 812 00:38:25,580 --> 00:38:27,230 Yes, sir. Yes. 813 00:38:27,230 --> 00:38:29,020 Get the fuck out of here. 814 00:38:29,020 --> 00:38:31,460 Yes, sir. Uh, I need my clothes. 815 00:38:31,460 --> 00:38:34,150 They're in my house. They're my clothes now. 816 00:38:34,150 --> 00:38:35,330 Run away! 817 00:38:37,720 --> 00:38:38,850 Daniel! 818 00:38:38,850 --> 00:38:40,900 Get out of my fucking room! 819 00:38:40,900 --> 00:38:42,250 What the fuck? 820 00:38:42,250 --> 00:38:44,250 Hey, look, everybody! 821 00:38:44,250 --> 00:38:46,730 Statutory rapist from Williamsburg! 822 00:38:46,730 --> 00:38:47,950 I need my keys! 823 00:38:47,950 --> 00:38:51,300 Oh, his keys! His keys! Look at him! 824 00:38:51,300 --> 00:38:54,650 He's scrambling to his car! Statutory rapist! 825 00:38:54,650 --> 00:38:55,870 Hey, Belinda, 826 00:38:55,870 --> 00:38:58,400 I found this fool in bed with my Ryan. 827 00:38:58,400 --> 00:39:00,270 She said... She said she was 18 online. 828 00:39:00,270 --> 00:39:01,700 You're a fuckboy. 829 00:39:01,700 --> 00:39:03,970 He's a fuckboy! That's what the kids call them! 830 00:39:03,970 --> 00:39:06,530 Get out of our neighborhood, fuckboy! 831 00:39:06,530 --> 00:39:08,100 Okay. Okay! 832 00:39:08,100 --> 00:39:09,190 Get out of here, fuckboy! 833 00:39:09,190 --> 00:39:10,280 All right! All right! 834 00:39:10,280 --> 00:39:11,540 Right fucking now! 835 00:39:11,540 --> 00:39:13,630 - Wet, flaccid fuckboy! Okay, okay! 836 00:39:13,630 --> 00:39:14,720 Okay! 837 00:39:17,940 --> 00:39:19,980 I cannot believe you just did that! 838 00:39:19,980 --> 00:39:21,070 Give me your phone. 839 00:39:22,420 --> 00:39:24,160 Give me the fucking phone right now! 840 00:39:29,210 --> 00:39:30,690 You're grounded. 841 00:39:30,690 --> 00:39:33,950 You hear me? You're grounded until... 842 00:39:33,950 --> 00:39:37,090 Shit, I can't think of when you won't be grounded. 843 00:39:37,090 --> 00:39:38,910 You can't just lock me up, Daniel. 844 00:39:38,910 --> 00:39:41,870 For the last fucking time, Ryan, 845 00:39:41,870 --> 00:39:43,920 you call me "Grandpa." 846 00:39:46,660 --> 00:39:50,450 I hate you! I fucking hate you! 847 00:41:06,130 --> 00:41:09,960 ♪ Oh, I'm headed to the mountains ♪ 848 00:41:12,220 --> 00:41:15,710 ♪ I'll be back in a week or two ♪ 849 00:41:17,530 --> 00:41:19,800 ♪ Don't you try to reach me ♪ 850 00:41:19,800 --> 00:41:22,540 ♪ 'Cause I won't pick up for you ♪ 851 00:41:25,800 --> 00:41:28,460 ♪ I've got some things I neeed to do ♪ 852 00:41:43,730 --> 00:41:47,960 ♪ Oh, I'm headed to the mountains ♪ 853 00:41:49,960 --> 00:41:52,920 ♪ The only place I feel at peace ♪ 854 00:41:55,530 --> 00:41:58,010 ♪ And I knew you'd come after me ♪ 855 00:41:58,010 --> 00:41:59,180 ♪ So I threw away your keys... ♪ 856 00:42:02,450 --> 00:42:08,930 ♪ But I know you'd never go when I say leave ♪ 857 00:42:08,930 --> 00:42:14,070 ♪ I'm headed to the mountains don't wait up for me ♪ 858 00:42:23,860 --> 00:42:25,560 Allison, don't go. 859 00:42:27,300 --> 00:42:30,610 - This was a mistake. - No. No, it isn't. 860 00:42:30,610 --> 00:42:34,610 Trust me, I know how hard it is to get here. 861 00:42:34,610 --> 00:42:37,570 It's damn near impossible, and you did it. 862 00:42:37,570 --> 00:42:39,700 Don't run away now because of me. 863 00:42:39,700 --> 00:42:40,970 There are thousands of meetings. 864 00:42:40,970 --> 00:42:42,580 - I'll find another one. - Well, yeah, 865 00:42:42,580 --> 00:42:44,320 but this one has the best snacks. 866 00:42:44,320 --> 00:42:45,970 - I wanna go. - No. 867 00:42:45,970 --> 00:42:48,490 No, no. You've made it this far, and I wouldn't. 868 00:42:48,490 --> 00:42:50,670 I don't wanna be here. 869 00:42:50,670 --> 00:42:52,240 Nobody does in the beginning. 870 00:42:52,240 --> 00:42:54,680 I don't wanna be anywhere. 871 00:42:54,680 --> 00:42:57,330 Then you are definitely in the right spot. 872 00:42:58,420 --> 00:42:59,770 I thought you were sober. 873 00:43:00,550 --> 00:43:01,940 Ten years. 874 00:43:01,940 --> 00:43:05,690 I kinda slacked off coming to regular meetings, 875 00:43:05,690 --> 00:43:07,430 and then lately, I... 876 00:43:08,470 --> 00:43:10,470 I realized I need the support. 877 00:43:11,470 --> 00:43:12,690 Because of what happened? 878 00:43:12,690 --> 00:43:15,830 No, no, no! No, it's... 879 00:43:15,830 --> 00:43:17,390 Is the accident the reason why you came back? 880 00:43:17,390 --> 00:43:18,830 No, I just feel that... 881 00:43:18,830 --> 00:43:20,570 Daniel, am I the reason why you're back here? 882 00:43:20,570 --> 00:43:21,700 Yes! 883 00:43:25,660 --> 00:43:27,010 Yes, of course. 884 00:43:29,060 --> 00:43:30,580 What the hell do you want me to say? 885 00:43:31,450 --> 00:43:33,370 - I'm sorry. - No. 886 00:43:33,370 --> 00:43:35,280 Look. 887 00:43:35,280 --> 00:43:39,720 I got ten years, and lately, I've been feeling 888 00:43:39,720 --> 00:43:43,250 like I really, really want a drink. 889 00:43:45,070 --> 00:43:46,420 This works. 890 00:43:48,690 --> 00:43:49,770 Thank you. 891 00:43:49,770 --> 00:43:52,820 Um, I'm gonna find somewhere else. 892 00:43:52,820 --> 00:43:54,600 There are thousands of these meetings. 893 00:43:54,600 --> 00:43:57,870 Yeah, but somehow you found your way to this one. 894 00:43:59,480 --> 00:44:00,870 Now isn't that something? 895 00:44:03,790 --> 00:44:05,400 All right, come on. 896 00:44:10,010 --> 00:44:11,140 Come on. 897 00:44:13,230 --> 00:44:14,280 Okay. 898 00:44:15,840 --> 00:44:17,850 Everybody, welcome. 899 00:44:17,850 --> 00:44:19,370 This is the regular meeting 900 00:44:19,370 --> 00:44:22,070 of the Live and Let Live group of Alcoholics Anonymous. 901 00:44:22,070 --> 00:44:23,370 My name is Simone, 902 00:44:23,370 --> 00:44:26,160 and I'm an alcoholic, and your secretary. 903 00:44:26,160 --> 00:44:29,070 Let us open the meeting with the Serenity Prayer. 904 00:44:31,250 --> 00:44:32,380 God... 905 00:44:32,380 --> 00:44:33,560 ...grant me the serenity 906 00:44:33,560 --> 00:44:36,080 to accept the things I cannot change, 907 00:44:36,080 --> 00:44:38,740 the courage to change the things I can, 908 00:44:38,740 --> 00:44:41,780 and the wisdom to know the difference. 909 00:44:47,570 --> 00:44:51,230 Hey, you got up awfully early this morning. 910 00:44:51,230 --> 00:44:53,230 I went to an NA meeting. 911 00:44:53,230 --> 00:44:55,970 What? You did? - Mmm-hmm. Mmm-hmm. 912 00:44:55,970 --> 00:44:59,710 Oh, Allie. I'm so happy to hear that. 913 00:44:59,710 --> 00:45:02,060 Well, I'm not saying I'm gonna go again. 914 00:45:02,060 --> 00:45:04,370 Well, you gotta start somewhere, 915 00:45:04,370 --> 00:45:05,940 and sounds like you did. 916 00:45:05,940 --> 00:45:07,500 - Mm-hmm. - So that's good. 917 00:45:07,500 --> 00:45:12,120 I don't know if I'll be able to just quit, though, Mom. 918 00:45:12,120 --> 00:45:14,210 I think I need real help, 919 00:45:14,210 --> 00:45:16,820 like an in-patient program or something. 920 00:45:16,820 --> 00:45:18,690 Well, honey, neither of us has insurance, 921 00:45:18,690 --> 00:45:21,390 so how the hell are we supposed to pay for that? 922 00:45:21,390 --> 00:45:22,950 I mean, you gotta get a job. 923 00:45:22,950 --> 00:45:25,740 Mom, who's gonna hire me like this? 924 00:45:25,740 --> 00:45:27,830 - Come on. - Like, no... 925 00:45:27,830 --> 00:45:29,000 What do you mean? 926 00:45:29,000 --> 00:45:30,700 You're a beautiful 26-year-old woman. 927 00:45:30,700 --> 00:45:33,400 - You're smart, you're funny... - No, I'm not. No, I'm not. 928 00:45:33,400 --> 00:45:35,140 - Yes, you are. - No, I'm not. 929 00:45:35,140 --> 00:45:36,880 That's the old me you're describing. 930 00:45:36,880 --> 00:45:37,970 You're still you. 931 00:45:37,970 --> 00:45:40,930 No, I'm not! I'm... 932 00:45:40,930 --> 00:45:43,230 I'm something else. 933 00:45:45,020 --> 00:45:46,190 I'm something... 934 00:45:47,240 --> 00:45:48,760 Ugh. Um... 935 00:45:54,200 --> 00:45:56,250 I was thinking, um... 936 00:45:59,820 --> 00:46:03,470 You know how Dad was probably gonna get me a wedding gift, 937 00:46:03,470 --> 00:46:05,780 or, well, at least he was gonna come, right? 938 00:46:05,780 --> 00:46:07,650 Maybe instead of whatever it was 939 00:46:07,650 --> 00:46:09,480 that he was gonna give me, 940 00:46:11,000 --> 00:46:15,350 maybe he could help pay for me to get help. 941 00:46:15,350 --> 00:46:17,790 And so, I was wondering if you 942 00:46:18,490 --> 00:46:20,100 would call him for me. 943 00:46:20,100 --> 00:46:23,410 Allie, I will never speak to that man as long as I live. 944 00:46:23,410 --> 00:46:24,890 Do you know what he did? 945 00:46:24,890 --> 00:46:27,540 He packed his car up, and he left us with nothing. 946 00:46:27,540 --> 00:46:29,540 But it is what it is, okay? 947 00:46:29,540 --> 00:46:32,980 So, you gotta pull yourself up by your bootstraps, now. 948 00:46:34,590 --> 00:46:35,810 Thanks, Mom. 949 00:46:35,810 --> 00:46:37,590 Yeah, I'm sorry I can't get over this 950 00:46:37,590 --> 00:46:39,420 as fast as you want me to. 951 00:46:39,420 --> 00:46:41,030 - Allie... - Nah. 952 00:46:52,170 --> 00:46:53,830 Well, look who it is. 953 00:46:54,570 --> 00:46:56,870 Hi, Dad. 954 00:46:56,870 --> 00:47:00,050 What brings you to the less glamorous side of the river? 955 00:47:00,050 --> 00:47:02,440 Ryan asked me to come see her. 956 00:47:02,440 --> 00:47:05,100 Turns out, she really wanted me to talk to you. 957 00:47:05,100 --> 00:47:07,450 - Oh? - She's worried about you. 958 00:47:07,450 --> 00:47:09,150 She's worried about me? 959 00:47:10,150 --> 00:47:12,020 That girl's crazy. 960 00:47:12,020 --> 00:47:14,940 She says she thinks you need a friend. 961 00:47:14,940 --> 00:47:16,720 Hell, I don't need a friend. 962 00:47:16,720 --> 00:47:18,900 I need a dog crate the size of a teenager. 963 00:47:22,330 --> 00:47:24,470 Look, Nathan, I understand your need 964 00:47:24,470 --> 00:47:26,420 to move on after the breakup... 965 00:47:28,860 --> 00:47:29,910 but, hell, I never imagined 966 00:47:29,910 --> 00:47:32,820 I'd be doing this all by myself. 967 00:47:32,820 --> 00:47:34,480 You raised two kids. 968 00:47:34,480 --> 00:47:35,740 I had your mother. 969 00:47:37,570 --> 00:47:40,180 And you and your sister were much better behaved than Ry. 970 00:47:42,920 --> 00:47:45,360 What? Come on. Speak your mind, son. 971 00:47:45,360 --> 00:47:48,270 We were good because we were terrified of you. 972 00:47:49,970 --> 00:47:51,750 So, I'm not surprised 973 00:47:51,750 --> 00:47:53,190 you don't have any tools in your arsenal 974 00:47:53,190 --> 00:47:55,410 since you lost the only one that you had. 975 00:47:55,410 --> 00:47:56,890 Fear. 976 00:47:59,890 --> 00:48:05,460 I have apologized 100 times to you for the way I was. 977 00:48:07,990 --> 00:48:11,510 Your sister found a way to give me another chance. 978 00:48:11,510 --> 00:48:13,170 How come you can't? 979 00:48:13,170 --> 00:48:16,650 'Cause Molly never really got the brunt of it, did she? 980 00:48:16,650 --> 00:48:19,700 I guarantee you that if she was standing here now, 981 00:48:19,700 --> 00:48:22,310 she would be begging you to drop this shit, 982 00:48:22,310 --> 00:48:23,870 and help me raise her child. 983 00:48:23,870 --> 00:48:25,400 Well, she isn't. 984 00:48:27,310 --> 00:48:28,790 No, she's not. 985 00:48:32,840 --> 00:48:34,580 I have to catch the train. 986 00:48:35,750 --> 00:48:37,190 I saw Allison. 987 00:48:41,670 --> 00:48:42,810 Where? 988 00:48:42,810 --> 00:48:44,890 Not supposed to say. 989 00:48:45,980 --> 00:48:47,550 AA? 990 00:48:47,550 --> 00:48:48,770 Not supposed to say. 991 00:48:48,770 --> 00:48:50,120 What the hell does she need AA for? 992 00:48:50,120 --> 00:48:51,900 - I'm not supposed to... - To say. 993 00:48:54,380 --> 00:48:55,380 I got it. 994 00:48:57,120 --> 00:48:59,470 Of all the meetings, she ends up at yours? 995 00:48:59,470 --> 00:49:02,000 She saw me, she tried to run away, 996 00:49:02,000 --> 00:49:04,220 but I pulled her back. 997 00:49:04,220 --> 00:49:05,440 Why? 998 00:49:06,610 --> 00:49:07,830 She's suffering, Nathan. 999 00:49:09,400 --> 00:49:10,440 Broken. 1000 00:49:11,310 --> 00:49:12,400 Lost. 1001 00:49:12,400 --> 00:49:14,790 You're the one who blamed her! 1002 00:49:15,930 --> 00:49:17,320 I stood by her! 1003 00:49:17,320 --> 00:49:20,580 Yeah, until she left your ass. 1004 00:49:20,580 --> 00:49:24,060 Sorry. Sorry, that came out harsher than I meant. 1005 00:49:24,060 --> 00:49:26,110 I have to catch the train. 1006 00:49:26,110 --> 00:49:27,460 Please, Nathan. 1007 00:49:28,290 --> 00:49:30,460 I need help. 1008 00:49:30,460 --> 00:49:33,250 Ryan asked me to come by and say "hi" to you. 1009 00:49:34,290 --> 00:49:35,550 And I did. 1010 00:49:36,900 --> 00:49:37,900 Okay. 1011 00:49:40,600 --> 00:49:41,690 Hi. 1012 00:50:00,840 --> 00:50:03,450 - Best first date ever. - I heard that. 1013 00:50:17,470 --> 00:50:20,340 I used to drink whiskey until I blacked out. 1014 00:50:21,770 --> 00:50:23,860 Wake up the next morning to find out 1015 00:50:25,040 --> 00:50:27,300 what I had done, who I had been. 1016 00:50:33,220 --> 00:50:35,000 My father was a drunk. 1017 00:50:37,920 --> 00:50:42,060 He beat me right up to the day he died. 1018 00:50:44,580 --> 00:50:48,060 And I vowed I would never lay a hand on my children. 1019 00:50:50,370 --> 00:50:51,720 And I didn't... 1020 00:50:53,760 --> 00:50:55,290 while I was sober. 1021 00:50:58,200 --> 00:50:59,810 But in the blackness... 1022 00:51:03,600 --> 00:51:07,340 I always denied because I really couldn't remember. 1023 00:51:09,080 --> 00:51:10,910 Sometimes there'd be a bruise. 1024 00:51:13,000 --> 00:51:16,390 "Oh, you must have fallen down. 1025 00:51:16,390 --> 00:51:18,480 "I'm your daddy. I would never hurt you." 1026 00:51:20,050 --> 00:51:22,570 August 11th, '99... 1027 00:51:25,880 --> 00:51:30,320 I woke up on my front porch to the sound of church bells... 1028 00:51:33,240 --> 00:51:34,930 and an ice cream truck. 1029 00:51:35,980 --> 00:51:38,070 So, I knew it was Sunday. 1030 00:51:38,070 --> 00:51:42,250 First thing I saw was my captain 1031 00:51:43,510 --> 00:51:46,030 standing over me, 1032 00:51:46,030 --> 00:51:48,640 poking me in the ribs with his nightstick. 1033 00:51:51,950 --> 00:51:53,300 An ambulance. 1034 00:51:55,130 --> 00:51:58,870 My son, Nathan, sitting in the back, 1035 00:52:00,260 --> 00:52:01,700 bleeding from the head. 1036 00:52:03,140 --> 00:52:05,750 Medics had bought him a popsicle. 1037 00:52:08,050 --> 00:52:09,930 Turns out that... 1038 00:52:11,930 --> 00:52:13,760 in the blackness... 1039 00:52:17,320 --> 00:52:20,460 I had beat him so bad 1040 00:52:20,460 --> 00:52:23,680 that he lost the hearing in his right ear. 1041 00:52:23,680 --> 00:52:24,770 Forever. 1042 00:52:26,200 --> 00:52:29,510 And to this day, every time I see him, 1043 00:52:29,510 --> 00:52:33,040 I beg for his forgiveness. 1044 00:52:34,470 --> 00:52:36,520 It's just a little dance we do. 1045 00:52:37,820 --> 00:52:39,430 A mere formality. 1046 00:52:41,440 --> 00:52:43,050 Because we both know... 1047 00:52:45,870 --> 00:52:48,400 that there are some things that are just 1048 00:52:50,050 --> 00:52:52,010 impossible to forgive. 1049 00:52:56,230 --> 00:53:01,240 I do believe even God knows that. 1050 00:53:08,590 --> 00:53:11,030 When I was a cop, I used to eat here every day. 1051 00:53:11,990 --> 00:53:13,680 Free coffee refills. 1052 00:53:16,510 --> 00:53:17,510 You hungry? 1053 00:53:19,210 --> 00:53:20,210 No. 1054 00:53:20,950 --> 00:53:21,950 Hmm. 1055 00:53:24,430 --> 00:53:26,650 Funny, the things we stop caring about. 1056 00:53:28,740 --> 00:53:30,440 I used to want to travel. 1057 00:53:32,090 --> 00:53:34,310 I would leaf through National Geographic 1058 00:53:34,310 --> 00:53:36,320 and dog-ear all of the exotic places 1059 00:53:36,320 --> 00:53:38,620 I would visit once I retired. 1060 00:53:41,410 --> 00:53:43,410 Never do that now. 1061 00:53:43,410 --> 00:53:46,150 - You still could. - No, no. I couldn't. 1062 00:53:51,240 --> 00:53:56,900 I wasn't drunk, or on anything, by the way. 1063 00:53:57,690 --> 00:53:58,690 What? 1064 00:53:59,950 --> 00:54:02,390 When I saw you the other day at the meeting, 1065 00:54:04,080 --> 00:54:08,220 I instantly got worried that you may have thought 1066 00:54:08,220 --> 00:54:11,390 that I was drinking or on drugs 1067 00:54:11,390 --> 00:54:13,090 on the day of the accident, and I wasn't. 1068 00:54:13,090 --> 00:54:15,530 I was sober. It wasn't my fault. 1069 00:54:17,270 --> 00:54:19,530 I have every report ever written 1070 00:54:19,530 --> 00:54:21,320 committed to memory. 1071 00:54:21,970 --> 00:54:23,060 Right. 1072 00:54:25,370 --> 00:54:26,630 So, you know that it was 1073 00:54:26,630 --> 00:54:28,370 the backhoe guy's fault, Alvarez. 1074 00:54:28,370 --> 00:54:30,070 I don't wanna get into that all right now. 1075 00:54:30,070 --> 00:54:31,590 Okay, yeah, you're right. 1076 00:54:36,550 --> 00:54:39,250 Nathan said that he was deaf since birth. 1077 00:54:40,600 --> 00:54:41,950 He never told you? 1078 00:54:43,340 --> 00:54:45,520 Maybe he wanted me to like you. 1079 00:54:47,080 --> 00:54:48,740 I doubt that. 1080 00:54:52,390 --> 00:54:56,480 I thought that raising Ryan would offer me the chance 1081 00:54:56,480 --> 00:54:59,140 to be a better father than I ever was. 1082 00:55:00,010 --> 00:55:01,750 Shit. 1083 00:55:01,750 --> 00:55:04,710 I'm in way over my head. 1084 00:55:04,710 --> 00:55:07,970 I got one of those audiobooks from the library. 1085 00:55:07,970 --> 00:55:09,230 How to Talk to a Teen. 1086 00:55:09,230 --> 00:55:11,190 Oh, yeah? 1087 00:55:11,190 --> 00:55:12,850 How's that working out? 1088 00:55:12,850 --> 00:55:15,460 - Well, it's from the '80s... 1089 00:55:15,460 --> 00:55:16,810 It's on a cassette. 1090 00:55:16,810 --> 00:55:17,900 Right. 1091 00:55:17,900 --> 00:55:19,510 Its advice is, 1092 00:55:20,860 --> 00:55:22,340 "Chaperone a dance." 1093 00:55:26,080 --> 00:55:28,340 "Chaperone a dance." 1094 00:55:28,340 --> 00:55:30,260 I just caught her having sex 1095 00:55:30,260 --> 00:55:32,520 with a boy who looked like a man. 1096 00:55:34,910 --> 00:55:36,780 A dance would be delightful. 1097 00:55:38,180 --> 00:55:40,140 Can I give you some advice 1098 00:55:41,140 --> 00:55:43,140 from a former teenage girl? 1099 00:55:44,920 --> 00:55:46,400 She's gonna have sex. 1100 00:55:47,840 --> 00:55:50,800 And nothing you say is gonna change that. 1101 00:55:53,280 --> 00:55:55,460 Just make sure she's on birth control. 1102 00:55:55,460 --> 00:55:56,670 - Birth control? - Yeah. 1103 00:55:56,670 --> 00:55:59,110 She's 16! 1104 00:55:59,110 --> 00:56:01,330 No, we'll be going the abstinence route. 1105 00:56:02,420 --> 00:56:03,720 No offense, Daniel, 1106 00:56:03,720 --> 00:56:06,510 but, uh, there's a knot in your logic. 1107 00:56:07,990 --> 00:56:09,380 You're trying to solve a problem 1108 00:56:09,380 --> 00:56:11,210 by looking in the other direction. 1109 00:56:14,650 --> 00:56:16,610 I could talk to her if you want me to. 1110 00:56:16,610 --> 00:56:18,570 Oh, well, no thanks. 1111 00:56:18,570 --> 00:56:20,180 - It's okay. Of course. - That's not appropriate. 1112 00:56:20,180 --> 00:56:21,610 I don't even know why I just said that. 1113 00:56:21,610 --> 00:56:22,870 - I'm sorry. - No, it's okay. 1114 00:56:22,870 --> 00:56:24,400 It's just that I don't think that it's... 1115 00:56:24,400 --> 00:56:25,960 I just felt the need, 1116 00:56:27,440 --> 00:56:30,400 um, the instinct to help in some way. 1117 00:56:31,360 --> 00:56:32,880 It's the least I could do. 1118 00:56:40,460 --> 00:56:42,370 I don't know how to do this. 1119 00:56:43,370 --> 00:56:44,330 What? 1120 00:56:44,850 --> 00:56:46,380 Start all over. 1121 00:56:48,160 --> 00:56:49,510 How do you do it? 1122 00:56:50,770 --> 00:56:52,160 Takes work. 1123 00:56:55,170 --> 00:56:58,130 - Can I tell you a secret? - Sure. 1124 00:57:03,130 --> 00:57:05,350 I'm not sure I have the will. 1125 00:57:27,500 --> 00:57:30,030 What does "amor fati" mean? 1126 00:57:33,940 --> 00:57:35,560 Certain things are private. 1127 00:57:36,730 --> 00:57:38,560 Do you think I'm fucked up? 1128 00:57:39,990 --> 00:57:42,040 Are you high right now? 1129 00:57:43,350 --> 00:57:44,480 No. 1130 00:57:45,870 --> 00:57:47,870 I was a cop for 40 years. 1131 00:57:47,870 --> 00:57:49,570 I was an addict for 50. 1132 00:57:51,090 --> 00:57:53,180 So, I'm gonna ask you again. 1133 00:57:54,400 --> 00:57:55,920 Are you high right now? 1134 00:57:56,920 --> 00:57:58,140 Well, I... 1135 00:57:59,970 --> 00:58:01,620 I broke a pill in half. 1136 00:58:01,620 --> 00:58:03,060 So, half. 1137 00:58:04,890 --> 00:58:07,330 Yes, I think you're fucked up, Allison. 1138 00:58:10,240 --> 00:58:11,550 Not half. 1139 00:58:12,420 --> 00:58:14,290 All fucked up. 1140 00:58:14,290 --> 00:58:16,200 Do you think I'll ever pull out of this? 1141 00:58:18,030 --> 00:58:23,340 I mean, like, maybe one day I might be the kind of person 1142 00:58:24,780 --> 00:58:26,260 that people want their granddaughter 1143 00:58:26,260 --> 00:58:28,300 to hang out with? 1144 00:58:28,300 --> 00:58:30,000 I have no idea. 1145 00:58:31,790 --> 00:58:33,050 Me neither. 1146 00:58:48,370 --> 00:58:51,370 Can I have my phone back, please? 1147 00:58:51,370 --> 00:58:54,200 I'm running out of ideas on how to handle you, Ryan. 1148 00:58:55,290 --> 00:58:56,850 Grandpa, everybody at my age has sex. 1149 00:58:56,850 --> 00:58:58,730 It's, like, not a big deal. 1150 00:58:58,730 --> 00:59:00,120 I know it was different when you were younger, 1151 00:59:00,120 --> 00:59:02,950 but that's just, like, not how it is anymore. 1152 00:59:06,910 --> 00:59:09,260 Well, let me ask you something. 1153 00:59:15,480 --> 00:59:16,530 Are you... 1154 00:59:19,050 --> 00:59:21,100 Are you using 1155 00:59:21,920 --> 00:59:24,230 any protection? 1156 00:59:24,230 --> 00:59:25,840 Oh, my God! 1157 00:59:25,840 --> 00:59:28,540 I am so not gonna talk about this with my grandfather. 1158 00:59:28,540 --> 00:59:30,540 How the hell do you think I feel? 1159 00:59:34,590 --> 00:59:37,110 - I know you're upset. - I'm not upset. 1160 00:59:37,110 --> 00:59:38,370 Maybe you should go back 1161 00:59:39,240 --> 00:59:40,770 and see that therapist again. 1162 00:59:40,770 --> 00:59:42,070 No. I just 1163 00:59:43,200 --> 00:59:45,860 want my phone back. 1164 00:59:45,860 --> 00:59:49,080 I don't have any friends at Columbia 1165 00:59:49,080 --> 00:59:51,390 and I want to 1166 00:59:51,390 --> 00:59:54,040 hang onto the few I still have on Long Beach Island. 1167 00:59:55,390 --> 00:59:57,090 How come you can't make friends? 1168 00:59:57,090 --> 00:59:58,740 I've been through a lot this year. 1169 00:59:59,260 --> 01:00:00,530 Hmm. 1170 01:00:01,480 --> 01:00:03,960 And nobody really understands. 1171 01:00:05,180 --> 01:00:07,620 They try. Some, but... 1172 01:00:08,580 --> 01:00:10,190 I mean, it's fake. 1173 01:00:10,190 --> 01:00:12,020 Don't you think most people are so fake? 1174 01:00:13,450 --> 01:00:16,060 I would probably say "duplicitous." 1175 01:00:17,060 --> 01:00:18,150 What does that mean? 1176 01:00:18,980 --> 01:00:20,500 Fake. 1177 01:00:23,590 --> 01:00:24,940 I'm on your side. 1178 01:00:26,900 --> 01:00:27,940 I know. 1179 01:00:28,600 --> 01:00:30,250 Tell you what. 1180 01:00:30,250 --> 01:00:33,120 You can have your phone back 1181 01:00:33,120 --> 01:00:37,000 if you promise to start taking birth control pills. 1182 01:00:37,000 --> 01:00:39,000 Ugh! Oh, my God! Daniel! 1183 01:00:39,000 --> 01:00:40,130 Grandpa! 1184 01:00:42,960 --> 01:00:44,050 Grandpa. 1185 01:00:45,480 --> 01:00:48,360 Is it a deal? I'll make the appointment. 1186 01:00:50,010 --> 01:00:52,270 Fine. Fine. 1187 01:00:52,270 --> 01:00:53,750 I just 1188 01:00:53,750 --> 01:00:56,800 never want to talk to you about sex ever again. 1189 01:00:58,020 --> 01:01:00,150 Oh, really? 1190 01:01:01,020 --> 01:01:02,810 'Cause I just love this shit. 1191 01:01:09,730 --> 01:01:11,550 Have you ever been on campus before? 1192 01:01:11,550 --> 01:01:13,250 Not since I was a kid. 1193 01:01:13,250 --> 01:01:14,900 I used to do swim meets here. 1194 01:01:14,900 --> 01:01:16,210 - Oh, yeah? - Yeah. 1195 01:01:16,210 --> 01:01:18,210 - You were a swimmer? Uh, yeah. 1196 01:01:18,210 --> 01:01:20,740 Well, I was 12, but yeah, I was pretty good. 1197 01:01:20,740 --> 01:01:22,870 I still have all the trophies and the ribbons. 1198 01:01:22,870 --> 01:01:24,830 - That's cool. - Mmm. 1199 01:01:24,830 --> 01:01:27,700 - What stroke? - Mostly freestyle. 1200 01:01:29,090 --> 01:01:30,350 Why'd you stop? 1201 01:01:31,230 --> 01:01:34,450 Um, my dad left. 1202 01:01:34,450 --> 01:01:37,270 Yeah, it was kinda the thing that we used to do together. 1203 01:01:37,270 --> 01:01:39,710 He would cheer so loud I could hear him underwater. 1204 01:01:41,060 --> 01:01:43,060 Seemed kind of pointless to do it without him. 1205 01:01:44,410 --> 01:01:46,810 - Where'd he go? - Ohio. 1206 01:01:48,160 --> 01:01:49,720 Started a whole new family in Ohio. 1207 01:01:49,720 --> 01:01:51,290 Wow. 1208 01:01:51,290 --> 01:01:54,030 He has 10-year-old twins. Yeah. 1209 01:01:54,030 --> 01:01:56,120 I don't know if they swim or not, though. 1210 01:01:56,120 --> 01:01:58,690 Oh, man. I am always just amazed at people 1211 01:01:58,690 --> 01:02:01,260 who can, like, up and leave their kids like that. 1212 01:02:01,260 --> 01:02:02,390 Mmm. 1213 01:02:02,390 --> 01:02:03,740 I just don't know how you could, 1214 01:02:03,740 --> 01:02:06,830 like, fucking sleep at night. 1215 01:02:06,830 --> 01:02:10,920 For so long, I thought that I'd done something wrong. 1216 01:02:10,920 --> 01:02:14,360 Like, it was my fault, or I'd let him down. 1217 01:02:15,530 --> 01:02:18,400 And then I just realized, 1218 01:02:18,400 --> 01:02:21,710 I don't know, maybe some people just aren't good. 1219 01:02:21,710 --> 01:02:22,840 Hmm. 1220 01:02:24,370 --> 01:02:26,670 It's kinda like he, like, restarted a level 1221 01:02:26,670 --> 01:02:29,110 in a video game with a fresh life. 1222 01:02:29,110 --> 01:02:31,630 - That's exactly what he did! 1223 01:02:31,630 --> 01:02:35,640 He packed up the car, and left his Rolex 1224 01:02:35,640 --> 01:02:38,290 in the attic of my dollhouse, 1225 01:02:38,290 --> 01:02:39,860 and he drove away. 1226 01:02:43,690 --> 01:02:44,730 Hey, let's sit for a second, okay? 1227 01:02:44,730 --> 01:02:46,520 - Yeah, yeah. 1228 01:02:48,170 --> 01:02:51,780 Uh... So, I'll sponsor you. 1229 01:02:51,780 --> 01:02:54,920 - Okay. - But, um, 1230 01:02:54,920 --> 01:02:56,830 you gotta start taking this shit seriously. 1231 01:02:58,310 --> 01:03:00,750 You can't keep coming to meetings high. 1232 01:03:00,750 --> 01:03:02,190 What? 1233 01:03:05,010 --> 01:03:06,760 How did you know? 1234 01:03:08,100 --> 01:03:10,890 Uh, because I was you. 1235 01:03:10,890 --> 01:03:13,810 And I've helped dozens of women who were you. 1236 01:03:15,240 --> 01:03:19,030 And some beat it, and some are dead. 1237 01:03:21,860 --> 01:03:23,120 But, you know, 1238 01:03:24,290 --> 01:03:26,730 if you want my time, you gotta commit. 1239 01:03:26,730 --> 01:03:28,040 Because I have a toddler so I just 1240 01:03:28,040 --> 01:03:29,340 - don't have time for bullshit. - Yeah. 1241 01:03:29,340 --> 01:03:33,090 No, I do. I... I... I really wanna beat it. 1242 01:03:33,090 --> 01:03:35,870 Then I want you to do 90 meetings in 90 days. 1243 01:03:35,870 --> 01:03:37,440 - Wow. - Yeah. 1244 01:03:37,440 --> 01:03:40,270 And, um, we're gonna get you started on step one. 1245 01:03:41,360 --> 01:03:42,310 Okay. 1246 01:03:43,570 --> 01:03:44,710 Okay. 1247 01:03:44,710 --> 01:03:48,490 Also, enough hiding out, man. 1248 01:03:48,490 --> 01:03:49,750 It's time you shared with the group. 1249 01:03:51,840 --> 01:03:53,850 - All right. - Uh... 1250 01:03:56,460 --> 01:04:02,510 Hi, I'm Allison, and I'm addicted to, uh, 1251 01:04:03,900 --> 01:04:05,420 pills. 1252 01:04:05,420 --> 01:04:07,600 Hi, Allison. 1253 01:04:07,600 --> 01:04:08,730 Uh... 1254 01:04:10,210 --> 01:04:12,390 Sorry. Can I start again? 1255 01:04:12,390 --> 01:04:14,610 I've never done this before, and I'm nervous. 1256 01:04:14,610 --> 01:04:15,740 You got it. 1257 01:04:20,390 --> 01:04:25,440 Hi, I'm Allison, and I'm an addict. 1258 01:04:25,440 --> 01:04:27,310 Hi, Allison. 1259 01:04:30,490 --> 01:04:31,670 I... 1260 01:04:33,930 --> 01:04:34,890 Um... 1261 01:04:38,060 --> 01:04:39,670 I was the driver 1262 01:04:41,110 --> 01:04:43,110 of a car 1263 01:04:43,110 --> 01:04:44,940 that was in a really bad accident. 1264 01:04:48,200 --> 01:04:49,600 Two people died. 1265 01:04:53,210 --> 01:04:54,520 The woman was... 1266 01:04:58,260 --> 01:05:01,700 The woman was about to be my sister-in-law. 1267 01:05:05,660 --> 01:05:08,270 We were on our way to try on my wedding dresses. 1268 01:05:12,620 --> 01:05:13,750 And then we weren't. 1269 01:05:15,230 --> 01:05:16,490 It wasn't my fault. 1270 01:05:18,150 --> 01:05:21,630 I wasn't on drugs or booze, or drunk, or anything. 1271 01:05:23,720 --> 01:05:24,890 But, uh... 1272 01:05:35,300 --> 01:05:39,040 Surviving that day was, is... 1273 01:05:42,390 --> 01:05:44,300 the most painful thing 1274 01:05:44,300 --> 01:05:46,180 I will ever have to live through. 1275 01:05:48,740 --> 01:05:51,050 I got hurt, too. 1276 01:05:52,050 --> 01:05:53,790 They put a hole in my head. 1277 01:05:54,840 --> 01:05:56,880 And, um, 1278 01:05:56,880 --> 01:05:58,540 that helped because at least I had something 1279 01:05:58,540 --> 01:05:59,930 I could blame the pain on. 1280 01:06:02,670 --> 01:06:03,930 But then that healed... 1281 01:06:06,800 --> 01:06:08,240 and I was still hurting. 1282 01:06:10,200 --> 01:06:11,460 And I guess that's why I didn't realize 1283 01:06:11,460 --> 01:06:13,510 how bad it was because to me... 1284 01:06:15,860 --> 01:06:17,550 I was still in so much pain. 1285 01:06:27,610 --> 01:06:30,870 I was, um, prescribed them for physical pain, 1286 01:06:30,870 --> 01:06:33,010 and they really helped with that. They really did. 1287 01:06:37,400 --> 01:06:39,920 But they made me numb. Blissfully numb. 1288 01:06:45,500 --> 01:06:47,110 Without them I want to die. 1289 01:06:48,760 --> 01:06:50,370 Every day. 1290 01:06:54,110 --> 01:06:56,900 I've never said that out loud before. 1291 01:07:00,080 --> 01:07:01,030 Um... 1292 01:07:03,040 --> 01:07:05,820 I've never really faced reality without them. 1293 01:07:08,170 --> 01:07:10,390 And I don't know if I'll be able to handle what I see, 1294 01:07:10,390 --> 01:07:13,740 but I'm here to try. 1295 01:07:18,530 --> 01:07:19,920 Okay. That's it. 1296 01:07:21,400 --> 01:07:23,710 That's it. 1297 01:07:27,450 --> 01:07:28,630 What happens now? 1298 01:07:44,950 --> 01:07:46,120 You made all of this? 1299 01:07:47,640 --> 01:07:51,340 Uh, I assembled it and designed it. 1300 01:07:51,340 --> 01:07:53,090 Yeah. 1301 01:07:53,090 --> 01:07:57,000 You see, the houses come as a kit. 1302 01:07:57,000 --> 01:07:59,960 You just assemble them and paint them... 1303 01:07:59,960 --> 01:08:02,400 Schoolhouse, I built from scratch. 1304 01:08:06,840 --> 01:08:10,230 Hey, there are two kids making out back here. 1305 01:08:10,230 --> 01:08:11,840 - That's me. 1306 01:08:12,970 --> 01:08:14,850 - You were handsome. 1307 01:08:15,280 --> 01:08:16,330 And tiny. 1308 01:08:17,850 --> 01:08:21,500 Yeah, my very first kiss behind the schoolhouse. 1309 01:08:23,160 --> 01:08:24,640 Olivia Williams. 1310 01:08:26,510 --> 01:08:28,950 It was fall. Tip of her nose was cold. 1311 01:08:30,210 --> 01:08:32,170 Little runny. 1312 01:08:32,170 --> 01:08:35,430 She stood on tiptoe. Tasted like bubble gum. 1313 01:08:36,650 --> 01:08:37,610 Is that who you married? 1314 01:08:37,610 --> 01:08:39,610 No! No, no. 1315 01:08:39,610 --> 01:08:43,440 No, she dumped me the next day for Charlie Cook. 1316 01:08:43,440 --> 01:08:46,750 - Oh. - He smoked Camels. 1317 01:08:46,750 --> 01:08:50,360 And drove a Buick Riviera Roadmaster. 1318 01:08:50,360 --> 01:08:52,540 So, is this all inspired by your life? 1319 01:08:53,320 --> 01:08:54,320 Kinda. 1320 01:08:55,540 --> 01:08:57,150 Supposed to be South Orange. 1321 01:08:58,500 --> 01:08:59,540 I grew up here. 1322 01:09:01,020 --> 01:09:02,630 I was a cop in Newark. 1323 01:09:03,680 --> 01:09:05,030 I've always lived here. 1324 01:09:07,200 --> 01:09:08,200 Who's the soldier? 1325 01:09:09,030 --> 01:09:10,420 That's me. 1326 01:09:10,420 --> 01:09:12,770 Day I got home from Vietnam. 1327 01:09:14,120 --> 01:09:16,600 That other little figure there is my father. 1328 01:09:16,600 --> 01:09:20,000 He came down to the station to pick me up. 1329 01:09:20,000 --> 01:09:21,960 - This is incredible. - Mm. 1330 01:09:23,520 --> 01:09:25,260 How long did it take you? 1331 01:09:25,260 --> 01:09:27,270 Years. 1332 01:09:27,270 --> 01:09:29,440 I started with a single figure-eight 1333 01:09:30,230 --> 01:09:32,100 and a two-car train. 1334 01:09:32,920 --> 01:09:34,530 I work on it when I can. 1335 01:09:35,580 --> 01:09:37,620 Got more time now that I've retired. 1336 01:09:38,580 --> 01:09:40,450 My wife passed. 1337 01:09:40,450 --> 01:09:42,760 Ryan used to hang out with me down here. 1338 01:09:44,070 --> 01:09:46,980 She liked the whistle and the microphone. 1339 01:09:46,980 --> 01:09:48,330 There's a microphone? 1340 01:09:48,330 --> 01:09:49,770 Right over there. 1341 01:09:49,770 --> 01:09:51,380 How else you gonna tell your passengers 1342 01:09:51,380 --> 01:09:53,070 - that the train's coming? 1343 01:10:09,220 --> 01:10:12,660 ♪ Take the last train to Clarksville ♪ 1344 01:10:12,660 --> 01:10:15,710 ♪ And I'll meet you at the station ♪ 1345 01:10:15,710 --> 01:10:18,580 ♪ You can be there by 4:30 ♪ 1346 01:10:18,580 --> 01:10:20,670 ♪ 'Cause I booked your reservation ♪ 1347 01:10:20,670 --> 01:10:22,500 ♪ Don't be slow ♪ 1348 01:10:22,500 --> 01:10:24,630 ♪ Oh no no no ♪ 1349 01:10:24,630 --> 01:10:27,020 ♪ Oh no no no ♪ 1350 01:10:27,020 --> 01:10:29,330 ♪ And I don't know if I'm ever ♪ 1351 01:10:29,330 --> 01:10:31,030 ♪ Coming home ♪ 1352 01:10:32,420 --> 01:10:34,810 That was just a little serenade for your people 1353 01:10:34,810 --> 01:10:36,380 from the heavens above. 1354 01:10:36,380 --> 01:10:39,600 Think that's one of the reasons I enjoy it so much. 1355 01:10:39,600 --> 01:10:42,300 Why? 'Cause you get to play God? 1356 01:10:42,300 --> 01:10:45,910 Well, so much of my life has been outta control. 1357 01:10:48,090 --> 01:10:50,260 Down here, 1358 01:10:50,260 --> 01:10:53,180 I get to decide if Olivia chooses me. 1359 01:10:55,090 --> 01:10:57,140 I get to decide if my father comes 1360 01:10:57,140 --> 01:10:59,450 to pick me up at the station when I get home. 1361 01:11:00,580 --> 01:11:01,880 Did he? 1362 01:11:01,880 --> 01:11:02,970 No. 1363 01:11:05,230 --> 01:11:08,110 He was passed out drunk in our backyard. 1364 01:11:10,800 --> 01:11:13,420 He'd lain face down so long, 1365 01:11:14,760 --> 01:11:17,330 an inch of snow had gathered on his back. 1366 01:11:21,420 --> 01:11:23,990 Next morning at breakfast, he offered me a beer, 1367 01:11:25,650 --> 01:11:26,690 so... 1368 01:11:28,390 --> 01:11:30,610 I had a beer with him at breakfast, 1369 01:11:32,960 --> 01:11:34,310 and I never stopped. 1370 01:11:39,750 --> 01:11:41,570 When did you last talk to Nathan? 1371 01:11:46,270 --> 01:11:48,230 Daniel, this is God. 1372 01:11:48,230 --> 01:11:51,450 Allison would like you to change the conversation now. 1373 01:11:52,930 --> 01:11:54,890 - I'll bet she would. 1374 01:11:54,890 --> 01:11:57,330 All right. Let's get outta here. 1375 01:12:08,910 --> 01:12:10,170 Ryan? 1376 01:12:10,170 --> 01:12:12,520 It's only one o'clock. Why are you home? 1377 01:12:12,520 --> 01:12:15,000 We had a half-day for the active shooter drill. 1378 01:12:15,000 --> 01:12:17,170 - I told you this morning. 1379 01:12:17,170 --> 01:12:20,260 Well, this is a friend of mine from the program. 1380 01:12:20,260 --> 01:12:21,180 Hi. 1381 01:12:22,440 --> 01:12:24,050 Hi. 1382 01:12:24,050 --> 01:12:25,970 - You should probably get going. - Yeah. Yeah. 1383 01:12:25,970 --> 01:12:27,840 I'm gonna go. 1384 01:12:27,840 --> 01:12:30,230 Wait, I know you from somewhere. 1385 01:12:30,230 --> 01:12:31,320 No, you don't. 1386 01:12:31,750 --> 01:12:32,710 You do? 1387 01:12:32,710 --> 01:12:33,670 How do I know you? 1388 01:12:34,320 --> 01:12:36,370 Uh... My... I'm... 1389 01:12:36,370 --> 01:12:37,800 I'm Allison. 1390 01:12:37,800 --> 01:12:39,460 Yeah, I've seen you before. 1391 01:12:39,460 --> 01:12:41,760 I thought you said the active shooter drill ended at 2:00. 1392 01:12:41,760 --> 01:12:43,980 Yeah, that's when the pretend shooter fights back. 1393 01:12:43,980 --> 01:12:45,990 Today, he shot himself, so we got out early. 1394 01:12:47,600 --> 01:12:48,770 Why do I know you? 1395 01:12:48,770 --> 01:12:50,510 I'm not sure what I'm supposed to say. 1396 01:12:50,510 --> 01:12:52,650 - You were Nathan's fiancee. - No. 1397 01:12:52,650 --> 01:12:54,300 - You were in the car. - No. 1398 01:12:54,300 --> 01:12:56,560 - I was, yeah. - Weren't you driving? 1399 01:12:56,560 --> 01:12:57,560 Wasn't she driving? 1400 01:12:57,560 --> 01:12:59,040 We're in the program together. 1401 01:12:59,040 --> 01:13:01,180 - But I thought you said it was her fault. - What? 1402 01:13:01,180 --> 01:13:03,440 How could you bring her into our house? 1403 01:13:03,440 --> 01:13:05,010 Get out of our fucking house! 1404 01:13:05,010 --> 01:13:06,920 - Okay. It's okay. I'm sorry. I... 1405 01:13:06,920 --> 01:13:09,620 I'm so sorry. I thought you were in school. 1406 01:13:09,620 --> 01:13:11,050 You ruined my fucking life! 1407 01:13:11,050 --> 01:13:14,320 I know, I know, I know. I'm... I'm really sorry. 1408 01:13:14,320 --> 01:13:17,630 You shouldn't be here! This is our house! 1409 01:13:17,630 --> 01:13:18,890 My mom grew up in here! 1410 01:13:18,890 --> 01:13:21,110 I sleep in her bedroom. I use her sheets! 1411 01:13:21,110 --> 01:13:23,150 All right. All right. She's leaving. 1412 01:13:23,150 --> 01:13:25,370 Uh, just in case this is the last time 1413 01:13:25,370 --> 01:13:27,460 I ever get to talk to you, please know, 1414 01:13:29,200 --> 01:13:31,680 I also wish it was me. 1415 01:13:32,510 --> 01:13:33,770 Okay? I do. 1416 01:13:35,040 --> 01:13:36,340 I'm gonna go. 1417 01:13:36,340 --> 01:13:38,210 I never got to say goodbye. 1418 01:13:39,430 --> 01:13:42,130 I know. 1419 01:13:45,440 --> 01:13:48,700 They were going to see a play. 1420 01:13:54,360 --> 01:13:55,490 I know. 1421 01:13:57,140 --> 01:13:58,670 She wanted to see a musical, 1422 01:13:58,670 --> 01:14:00,930 because she loved all the fancy costumes. 1423 01:14:06,070 --> 01:14:07,550 I didn't know that. 1424 01:14:07,550 --> 01:14:10,510 She said you made Nate really happy. 1425 01:14:10,510 --> 01:14:12,460 That you were the best thing that ever happened to him. 1426 01:14:13,810 --> 01:14:15,340 He made me happy, too. 1427 01:14:20,170 --> 01:14:22,260 Okay, I'm gonna go. 1428 01:14:23,210 --> 01:14:24,430 - Allison. 1429 01:14:27,170 --> 01:14:28,180 Yeah. 1430 01:14:29,610 --> 01:14:31,050 Would you like to stay for dinner? 1431 01:14:31,920 --> 01:14:33,180 What? 1432 01:14:34,920 --> 01:14:35,750 Uh... 1433 01:14:45,800 --> 01:14:49,150 So, you're an alcoholic, too? 1434 01:14:49,150 --> 01:14:50,500 Ryan. 1435 01:14:50,500 --> 01:14:51,590 Uh, no. 1436 01:14:53,030 --> 01:14:55,770 Alcohol's not exactly my problem. 1437 01:14:55,770 --> 01:14:57,640 - What is? Meth? 1438 01:14:57,640 --> 01:14:58,950 Ryan. 1439 01:14:58,950 --> 01:15:02,120 No. Not meth. Um... 1440 01:15:05,210 --> 01:15:07,300 Prescription painkillers. 1441 01:15:08,040 --> 01:15:09,220 Oxy. 1442 01:15:09,220 --> 01:15:10,870 How do you know about Oxy? 1443 01:15:10,870 --> 01:15:12,570 Kids at my school snort it. 1444 01:15:12,570 --> 01:15:13,700 It's heroin! 1445 01:15:13,700 --> 01:15:15,050 No, it's not. 1446 01:15:15,050 --> 01:15:16,440 I could get it easier than I could get a beer. 1447 01:15:16,440 --> 01:15:17,750 They sell it at Rite Aid. 1448 01:15:19,530 --> 01:15:21,360 - So why'd you dump Uncle Nate? - Ryan. 1449 01:15:21,360 --> 01:15:22,750 He said you ghosted him. 1450 01:15:22,750 --> 01:15:24,060 It's not your business. 1451 01:15:24,060 --> 01:15:26,930 I just don't understand how 1452 01:15:26,930 --> 01:15:28,710 if he was gonna stay with you, 1453 01:15:28,710 --> 01:15:30,800 even after everything that happened, 1454 01:15:30,800 --> 01:15:31,800 why'd you dump him? 1455 01:15:33,150 --> 01:15:34,370 I was upset. 1456 01:15:38,420 --> 01:15:40,160 And so I ran. 1457 01:15:40,160 --> 01:15:41,860 - Like you, quitting soccer. Shut up! 1458 01:15:41,860 --> 01:15:43,690 You don't say "shut up" to me! 1459 01:15:43,690 --> 01:15:44,990 Ever again! 1460 01:15:47,910 --> 01:15:49,650 Why'd you quit soccer? 1461 01:15:49,650 --> 01:15:51,170 - She got into a fight. - 'Cause I hate every girl on the team. 1462 01:15:51,170 --> 01:15:52,220 Oh. 1463 01:15:53,910 --> 01:15:55,960 Your parents were telling me how amazing you were. 1464 01:15:57,530 --> 01:15:59,310 - They were? Mm-hmm. 1465 01:15:59,310 --> 01:16:01,270 Your dad actually was saying 1466 01:16:01,270 --> 01:16:03,140 how you were definitely gonna get a scholarship. 1467 01:16:05,010 --> 01:16:06,580 I wanna go to Stanford. 1468 01:16:08,930 --> 01:16:10,450 Why are you laughing? 1469 01:16:12,540 --> 01:16:16,240 You quit the team, you're mouthing off in school, 1470 01:16:16,240 --> 01:16:17,590 and you're not doing your homework. 1471 01:16:17,590 --> 01:16:19,370 You're gonna get into Stanford? 1472 01:16:19,370 --> 01:16:21,030 I didn't say I quit the team permanently. 1473 01:16:21,030 --> 01:16:22,990 I said I wanted to take a break. 1474 01:16:22,990 --> 01:16:24,380 And I had a 4.0 down the shore. 1475 01:16:24,380 --> 01:16:26,510 I could get it back in a second if I cared. 1476 01:16:26,510 --> 01:16:27,770 Why don't you care? 1477 01:16:27,770 --> 01:16:28,640 Why, do you think? 1478 01:16:30,470 --> 01:16:31,690 Shit. Okay. 1479 01:16:31,690 --> 01:16:32,950 Why don't we just call it a night, okay? 1480 01:16:32,950 --> 01:16:34,260 Yeah, I'm gonna go home. 1481 01:16:39,220 --> 01:16:40,610 Hey, um... 1482 01:16:44,050 --> 01:16:47,100 Um, just in case you, I don't know, 1483 01:16:49,060 --> 01:16:50,490 wanna talk, need to talk... 1484 01:16:51,930 --> 01:16:53,020 This is me. 1485 01:16:53,020 --> 01:16:55,060 And it's up to you, but I'm here. 1486 01:16:56,370 --> 01:16:57,500 Okay. 1487 01:17:01,890 --> 01:17:03,640 I'm sorry about all that. 1488 01:17:03,640 --> 01:17:04,850 Uh, it's fine. 1489 01:17:06,680 --> 01:17:08,550 You see what I'm dealing with. 1490 01:17:08,550 --> 01:17:10,080 Honestly, it's okay. 1491 01:17:11,210 --> 01:17:12,430 Look. 1492 01:17:13,560 --> 01:17:15,470 She's a very fragile kid. 1493 01:17:16,780 --> 01:17:21,000 So, I'd appreciate it if you didn't contact her. 1494 01:17:22,920 --> 01:17:23,960 Oh. 1495 01:17:24,610 --> 01:17:25,610 Okay. 1496 01:17:27,140 --> 01:17:29,490 Yeah, I just... 1497 01:17:29,490 --> 01:17:32,710 I just wanted her to know that I was available 1498 01:17:32,710 --> 01:17:35,190 if she wanted to talk or anything. 1499 01:17:35,190 --> 01:17:37,320 I'm just asking if you will 1500 01:17:38,280 --> 01:17:39,760 please just let her be. 1501 01:17:40,630 --> 01:17:41,850 Scout's honor. 1502 01:17:41,850 --> 01:17:44,720 No, that's Spock's "Live long and prosper." 1503 01:17:44,720 --> 01:17:46,370 We Boy Scouts do this. 1504 01:17:46,370 --> 01:17:48,510 Oh. I prefer Spock. 1505 01:17:49,420 --> 01:17:51,420 Live long and prosper, Daniel. 1506 01:17:51,420 --> 01:17:52,510 Good night. - Thank you. 1507 01:18:08,440 --> 01:18:09,440 Mmm. 1508 01:19:45,880 --> 01:19:47,930 Go, baby! Go, go, go! 1509 01:19:47,930 --> 01:19:49,320 Come on, come on, come on. 1510 01:19:49,320 --> 01:19:50,710 Come on! Yes! Yes! Yes! Yes! 1511 01:19:50,710 --> 01:19:52,540 - Yeah! 1512 01:19:52,540 --> 01:19:53,720 Attagirl! 1513 01:19:54,720 --> 01:19:56,200 Attagirl! 1514 01:20:00,680 --> 01:20:01,810 Thank you. 1515 01:20:43,940 --> 01:20:45,330 Why do you ride your bike everywhere? 1516 01:20:45,940 --> 01:20:46,990 Um... 1517 01:20:48,470 --> 01:20:50,510 I haven't been in a car since the accident. 1518 01:20:51,300 --> 01:20:52,860 'Cause you feel guilty? 1519 01:20:55,340 --> 01:20:56,480 Uh, no. 1520 01:20:57,170 --> 01:21:00,740 Because I feel... scared. 1521 01:21:00,740 --> 01:21:02,260 Daniel says you were using your phone. 1522 01:21:04,570 --> 01:21:06,490 Uh, I was using Maps. 1523 01:21:07,790 --> 01:21:08,880 Everyone uses Maps. 1524 01:21:08,880 --> 01:21:10,750 Yeah, well, he has all the reports. 1525 01:21:10,750 --> 01:21:11,970 He's memorized them. 1526 01:21:13,190 --> 01:21:15,320 He stares at them at night. It's weird. 1527 01:21:15,320 --> 01:21:18,320 Okay, well, I was there. 1528 01:21:18,320 --> 01:21:23,110 And the person who wrote those reports wasn't, so... 1529 01:21:23,110 --> 01:21:25,550 Tell me why you ended it with Nate. 1530 01:21:25,550 --> 01:21:27,420 My mom would want you guys to be together still. 1531 01:21:28,640 --> 01:21:30,730 Ryan, I don't even know what to say to that. 1532 01:21:31,730 --> 01:21:33,640 My mom used to really, um... 1533 01:21:35,910 --> 01:21:38,820 just, like, look out for him and stuff, you know? Um... 1534 01:21:39,780 --> 01:21:40,820 And... 1535 01:21:42,220 --> 01:21:44,920 I've been thinking maybe now I'm supposed to. 1536 01:21:45,790 --> 01:21:46,920 Because she can't. 1537 01:21:48,480 --> 01:21:50,970 I bet that would make her really proud. 1538 01:21:50,970 --> 01:21:52,230 I could tell you about what's happening 1539 01:21:52,230 --> 01:21:53,270 - with him if you want. - No, that's okay. 1540 01:21:53,270 --> 01:21:54,620 Thank you, though. 1541 01:21:54,620 --> 01:21:56,010 I've tried really hard to avoid all of that... 1542 01:21:56,010 --> 01:21:57,230 He moved to Tribeca. 1543 01:21:57,230 --> 01:21:58,230 Wow. 1544 01:21:59,320 --> 01:22:01,280 Yeah. He has a dog. 1545 01:22:01,280 --> 01:22:02,930 - A dog? - Mm-hmm. 1546 01:22:02,930 --> 01:22:05,680 A French Bulldog named Jasper. 1547 01:22:05,680 --> 01:22:07,500 He never really struck me as a Frenchie type, 1548 01:22:07,500 --> 01:22:09,330 but okay. 1549 01:22:09,330 --> 01:22:10,590 It's his girlfriend's. 1550 01:22:15,210 --> 01:22:16,210 Oh. 1551 01:22:17,340 --> 01:22:18,430 Yeah. 1552 01:22:19,910 --> 01:22:22,000 I... I don't need to hear this. 1553 01:22:23,220 --> 01:22:24,870 - Are you okay? - Mm-hmm. 1554 01:22:26,830 --> 01:22:29,000 How long have they been going out? 1555 01:22:29,000 --> 01:22:31,880 I don't know. Like, four months, I think. 1556 01:22:32,660 --> 01:22:33,570 Wow. 1557 01:22:33,570 --> 01:22:36,920 Yeah. She's a paralegal. 1558 01:22:37,970 --> 01:22:39,140 I don't even know what that is. 1559 01:22:39,140 --> 01:22:40,880 Is that, like, a good thing? 1560 01:22:42,150 --> 01:22:44,060 Yeah. Wow. 1561 01:22:44,060 --> 01:22:46,190 - You just keep saying, "Wow." - Yeah. 1562 01:22:46,190 --> 01:22:47,630 It's just a lot to take in. 1563 01:22:49,420 --> 01:22:50,890 Um... 1564 01:22:50,890 --> 01:22:53,460 I'm really happy for him. I am. 1565 01:22:53,460 --> 01:22:55,070 He really deserves to be happy. 1566 01:22:55,940 --> 01:22:57,470 I... 1567 01:22:57,470 --> 01:22:59,510 - I shouldn't have told you. - No, no, no. It's fine. 1568 01:22:59,510 --> 01:23:01,600 But you're upset. 1569 01:23:01,600 --> 01:23:03,650 We went through so much together. 1570 01:23:05,820 --> 01:23:08,960 I really want good things to happen to him. 1571 01:23:09,830 --> 01:23:11,180 I'm really sorry 1572 01:23:11,180 --> 01:23:12,440 - I made you upset. It's okay. 1573 01:23:12,440 --> 01:23:13,610 - I'm gonna go to the bathroom. - I really 1574 01:23:13,610 --> 01:23:15,010 meant for this to be friendly. 1575 01:23:15,010 --> 01:23:17,010 Yeah. I'll see you in a second. 1576 01:24:08,190 --> 01:24:09,670 Hey. 1577 01:24:09,670 --> 01:24:11,150 Is something wrong? 1578 01:24:11,150 --> 01:24:13,500 I, um... I forgot I have a job interview. 1579 01:24:13,500 --> 01:24:16,200 So, I'm gonna go. 1580 01:24:16,200 --> 01:24:17,500 - You sick? 1581 01:24:18,110 --> 01:24:19,110 Yeah. 1582 01:24:19,110 --> 01:24:21,460 - Withdrawal? - I'm trying. 1583 01:24:21,460 --> 01:24:23,340 All right. Look, don't stop. 1584 01:24:24,250 --> 01:24:25,250 - Okay? - Okay. 1585 01:24:26,860 --> 01:24:27,820 Don't use. 1586 01:24:29,560 --> 01:24:30,730 Okay. 1587 01:24:30,730 --> 01:24:32,130 Don't stay home tonight. Do something. 1588 01:24:32,130 --> 01:24:34,090 - Okay. Okay. - All right? Okay. 1589 01:24:35,300 --> 01:24:36,170 You need a hug? 1590 01:24:38,090 --> 01:24:39,090 Um, if I hug you, 1591 01:24:39,090 --> 01:24:40,870 I'm gonna sob, so no. 1592 01:24:40,870 --> 01:24:42,400 Well, I can handle that. 1593 01:24:42,400 --> 01:24:44,440 No, I shouldn't. Not in front of Ryan. 1594 01:24:44,440 --> 01:24:45,970 Okay. 1595 01:24:45,970 --> 01:24:47,840 Well, I'm hugging you with my eyes. 1596 01:24:48,270 --> 01:24:49,230 Thank you. 1597 01:24:50,490 --> 01:24:51,890 - Be careful. - Okay. 1598 01:24:56,060 --> 01:24:58,810 I have to go. So, I'll see you another time. 1599 01:24:59,150 --> 01:24:59,980 Bye. 1600 01:25:02,460 --> 01:25:03,590 Fuck me. 1601 01:25:04,030 --> 01:25:04,990 Hey. 1602 01:25:05,380 --> 01:25:06,470 Let's go. 1603 01:25:06,470 --> 01:25:07,990 This asshole charged me six buck 1604 01:25:07,990 --> 01:25:09,030 for a cup of coffee. Come on. 1605 01:25:11,250 --> 01:25:13,990 Okay. 1606 01:25:13,990 --> 01:25:17,170 ♪ It starts so early now ♪ 1607 01:25:17,170 --> 01:25:20,910 ♪ The sun has gone to Birkenau ♪ 1608 01:25:20,910 --> 01:25:24,530 ♪ As shadows creep across your brow ♪ 1609 01:25:24,530 --> 01:25:26,790 ♪ I love you just the same ♪ 1610 01:25:28,310 --> 01:25:29,580 Fuck! 1611 01:25:29,580 --> 01:25:31,660 ♪ These freakish holidays ♪ 1612 01:25:31,660 --> 01:25:35,580 ♪ That make us act like renegades ♪ 1613 01:25:35,580 --> 01:25:39,190 ♪ A blood bath at the Ice Capades ♪ 1614 01:25:39,190 --> 01:25:41,460 ♪ Just makes me love you ♪ 1615 01:25:41,460 --> 01:25:47,290 ♪ More than I should ever have been allowed ♪ 1616 01:25:47,290 --> 01:25:50,510 ♪ In a world of candy guns ♪ 1617 01:25:50,510 --> 01:25:56,040 ♪ Sweet as demons in the candy apple sun ♪ 1618 01:25:56,040 --> 01:26:02,130 ♪ Think it quiet but then don't sing it loud ♪ 1619 01:26:02,130 --> 01:26:05,260 ♪ Through a world of number ones ♪ 1620 01:26:05,260 --> 01:26:08,050 ♪ Pointed skyward at the... ♪ 1621 01:26:08,050 --> 01:26:09,180 Look at me! 1622 01:26:13,050 --> 01:26:15,530 ♪ ...here like Buffalo ♪ 1623 01:26:15,530 --> 01:26:18,930 ♪ Now it feels like Bamako ♪ 1624 01:26:18,930 --> 01:26:22,110 ♪ I love you seven ways ♪ 1625 01:26:23,590 --> 01:26:26,240 ♪ You wear those baby tees ♪ 1626 01:26:28,290 --> 01:26:29,980 Allie! 1627 01:26:29,980 --> 01:26:32,510 Allie! 1628 01:26:34,030 --> 01:26:35,080 Allie? 1629 01:26:35,080 --> 01:26:36,860 Did you job hunt today? 1630 01:26:40,990 --> 01:26:42,390 Please leave me alone. 1631 01:26:43,130 --> 01:26:45,480 I was looking on Etsy. 1632 01:26:45,480 --> 01:26:47,570 And I was thinking it would be so cute 1633 01:26:47,570 --> 01:26:49,390 if we found, like, a craft that we like. 1634 01:26:49,390 --> 01:26:51,610 And maybe we could make a little money. What do you think? 1635 01:27:08,330 --> 01:27:09,720 I was thinking it'd be so cute 1636 01:27:09,720 --> 01:27:11,590 if it was like something fun that we could sell. 1637 01:27:11,590 --> 01:27:15,510 Like little bibs for babies that catch their food, 1638 01:27:15,510 --> 01:27:18,120 or salad dressing. 1639 01:27:18,120 --> 01:27:20,430 Or you know, just... 1640 01:27:22,080 --> 01:27:23,340 And you know what? 1641 01:27:23,340 --> 01:27:25,210 We could be on Shark Tank! 1642 01:27:25,210 --> 01:27:27,080 Can you imagine, Allie? 1643 01:27:27,080 --> 01:27:28,300 And I know you're like, 1644 01:27:28,300 --> 01:27:30,610 "Oh, shut up, Mom! You're drunk again." 1645 01:27:30,610 --> 01:27:31,740 But listen... 1646 01:27:42,450 --> 01:27:44,450 Ooh, I just thought of the best idea! 1647 01:27:44,450 --> 01:27:47,450 We could do, um, papier-mache! 1648 01:27:48,280 --> 01:27:49,850 Papier-mache! 1649 01:27:49,850 --> 01:27:51,540 So it would be like, 1650 01:27:51,540 --> 01:27:53,330 do a little dance, a little song. 1651 01:27:53,330 --> 01:27:55,460 "Hey, Sharks! You know how everybody likes papier-mache." 1652 01:27:55,460 --> 01:27:58,900 I would be like, "Hey, Sharks! Hey, Sharks!" 1653 01:27:58,900 --> 01:28:01,380 Hey, Sharks! Oh... Sharks!" 1654 01:28:01,380 --> 01:28:03,820 Wait, that's too hard. We'll be like, 1655 01:28:03,820 --> 01:28:07,600 "I'm Diane. This is my associate, Allison. 1656 01:28:07,600 --> 01:28:12,740 "And this is our... whatever!" You know... 1657 01:28:13,910 --> 01:28:15,740 You weak piece of fucking shit. 1658 01:28:15,740 --> 01:28:17,790 You couldn't make it go two days. 1659 01:28:19,050 --> 01:28:20,530 I fucking hate you. 1660 01:28:21,360 --> 01:28:24,790 I hate you so much. 1661 01:28:24,790 --> 01:28:27,580 Allie, do you remember when you were in fourth grade, 1662 01:28:27,580 --> 01:28:30,060 you made that giant mitochondria? 1663 01:28:30,060 --> 01:28:35,020 That's something that would sell, I promise you. 1664 01:28:35,020 --> 01:28:37,630 We could be like, "Hey, Sharks!" 1665 01:28:37,630 --> 01:28:40,160 We got them for you! Papier-mache!" 1666 01:28:40,160 --> 01:28:43,810 You know, like all the... 1667 01:28:51,210 --> 01:28:53,950 I knew you would like that idea! I knew it! 1668 01:30:21,430 --> 01:30:22,430 Yes! 1669 01:30:24,440 --> 01:30:25,960 You're on the wrong side. 1670 01:30:26,740 --> 01:30:28,610 What? No, I'm not. 1671 01:30:31,750 --> 01:30:33,310 Oh. 1672 01:30:33,310 --> 01:30:34,840 Well, good thing you came! 1673 01:30:34,840 --> 01:30:36,010 Oh, my God! 1674 01:30:36,530 --> 01:30:37,880 Get over here. 1675 01:30:37,880 --> 01:30:39,450 Whoo! Party! 1676 01:30:58,210 --> 01:30:59,950 - Hello, Diane! - Oh, hey! 1677 01:30:59,950 --> 01:31:01,990 I don't know 1678 01:31:01,990 --> 01:31:04,300 how much Allison has told you. 1679 01:31:05,560 --> 01:31:07,520 But we've been going to the same program. 1680 01:31:07,520 --> 01:31:09,610 Oh, yeah, she said. She told me, yeah. 1681 01:31:10,520 --> 01:31:11,790 My granddaughter, Ryan, 1682 01:31:11,790 --> 01:31:14,790 has taken an interest in Allison and, 1683 01:31:14,790 --> 01:31:16,490 well, now I can't find her. 1684 01:31:16,490 --> 01:31:19,400 So I just thought I'd drop by and see if she might be here. 1685 01:31:20,670 --> 01:31:22,140 I tried texting them, 1686 01:31:22,140 --> 01:31:25,500 but, you know, they all go green. 1687 01:31:25,500 --> 01:31:26,500 Do you know what that means? 1688 01:31:26,500 --> 01:31:27,760 I have no idea. 1689 01:31:27,760 --> 01:31:29,980 I hate when that happens, when they go... 1690 01:31:29,980 --> 01:31:31,410 It's all green 1691 01:31:31,410 --> 01:31:32,980 and you don't know if it's sent. It's so weird. 1692 01:31:32,980 --> 01:31:34,770 Right. Right. Right. - Drives me crazy. 1693 01:31:34,770 --> 01:31:36,510 You'll have to let me know if you figure that out. 1694 01:31:38,510 --> 01:31:40,160 I'm not tech-y. 1695 01:31:40,160 --> 01:31:43,600 But I actually tonight was trying to find Allison myself. 1696 01:31:43,600 --> 01:31:45,690 But do you really think they're together tonight? 1697 01:31:47,520 --> 01:31:49,390 Both missing at the same time. It... 1698 01:31:50,610 --> 01:31:52,220 seems a little curious. 1699 01:31:52,220 --> 01:31:54,530 Seems like no matter how old they get, 1700 01:31:54,530 --> 01:31:56,830 - you never stop worrying. - Yeah. 1701 01:31:56,830 --> 01:31:58,270 But they always seem to turn up. 1702 01:31:59,750 --> 01:32:00,970 Not always. 1703 01:32:02,840 --> 01:32:04,320 Yeah. 1704 01:32:04,320 --> 01:32:07,100 Well, can you let me know if you find them? 1705 01:32:07,100 --> 01:32:08,630 - I will. - Great. 1706 01:32:10,630 --> 01:32:11,540 Thank you. 1707 01:32:12,410 --> 01:32:13,850 What's that? 1708 01:32:13,850 --> 01:32:15,020 Oh, I was just... I... 1709 01:32:15,020 --> 01:32:17,200 I was just saying thank you so much 1710 01:32:17,200 --> 01:32:19,510 for being so kind to Allison. 1711 01:32:19,510 --> 01:32:22,810 She said you've always been so warm to her and you know, 1712 01:32:22,810 --> 01:32:26,170 I... just wanted to say thanks, 'cause, you know, 1713 01:32:26,170 --> 01:32:29,860 like, some people wouldn't be like that, so... 1714 01:32:29,860 --> 01:32:33,610 Well, we're all just trying to move on, I suppose. 1715 01:32:33,610 --> 01:32:34,910 Yeah. 1716 01:32:34,910 --> 01:32:36,040 I don't think Allie and I are doing 1717 01:32:36,040 --> 01:32:37,830 a very good job of that, Daniel. 1718 01:32:39,220 --> 01:32:40,570 You know what they say. 1719 01:32:40,570 --> 01:32:42,360 What? 1720 01:32:42,360 --> 01:32:45,100 "Comparison is the thief of joy." 1721 01:32:45,100 --> 01:32:47,450 Oh. I didn't know they said that. 1722 01:32:48,880 --> 01:32:49,930 Well... 1723 01:32:51,100 --> 01:32:52,410 somebody did. 1724 01:32:52,410 --> 01:32:54,370 Yeah. 1725 01:32:55,850 --> 01:32:57,460 Well, I best be going then. 1726 01:32:57,460 --> 01:32:58,890 Oh, yeah, of course. 1727 01:32:58,890 --> 01:33:00,290 Night. - Good night. 1728 01:33:14,470 --> 01:33:16,870 ♪ Stare into space ♪ 1729 01:33:18,390 --> 01:33:20,130 ♪ Out in the blue ♪ 1730 01:33:20,130 --> 01:33:21,570 Oh, my God, there he is! 1731 01:33:21,570 --> 01:33:23,310 Look at him! Isn't he so hot? 1732 01:33:25,050 --> 01:33:26,880 Is that a face tattoo? 1733 01:33:26,880 --> 01:33:29,010 - Yeah! - Oh, my God! 1734 01:33:29,970 --> 01:33:32,230 I love this song! 1735 01:33:32,230 --> 01:33:33,670 Quinn sent it to me in a playlist. 1736 01:33:33,670 --> 01:33:36,100 He, like, knows so much about music. 1737 01:33:38,150 --> 01:33:39,240 Thank you. 1738 01:33:40,370 --> 01:33:41,630 For getting me to come. 1739 01:33:42,500 --> 01:33:43,590 Yeah. 1740 01:33:44,770 --> 01:33:48,070 ♪ You're the only thing ♪ 1741 01:33:48,070 --> 01:33:49,600 That's the guitarist, Thomas. 1742 01:33:49,600 --> 01:33:52,510 He's staring right at you! 1743 01:33:52,510 --> 01:33:54,860 Oh, stop. No, I'm okay. I'm fine. 1744 01:33:54,860 --> 01:33:56,170 I know, you can do so much better. 1745 01:33:56,170 --> 01:33:57,870 What? No. - But he is fucking hot. 1746 01:33:59,820 --> 01:34:03,920 Uh... Okay, I, um... I gotta go get someone in. 1747 01:34:03,920 --> 01:34:04,870 But I'll be right back. 1748 01:34:04,870 --> 01:34:06,220 - Should I come with you? - No. 1749 01:34:06,220 --> 01:34:07,920 - Are you sure? - No, I'll be right back. Yeah. 1750 01:34:07,920 --> 01:34:10,050 ♪ Take a photo ♪ 1751 01:34:11,570 --> 01:34:13,660 ♪ Make it real ♪ 1752 01:34:15,710 --> 01:34:17,670 ♪ You're the stardust ♪ 1753 01:34:23,670 --> 01:34:27,030 ♪ Stardust ♪ 1754 01:34:27,030 --> 01:34:30,160 ♪ Lighting the fields ♪ 1755 01:34:31,900 --> 01:34:34,290 ♪ Caught in a state ♪ 1756 01:34:35,770 --> 01:34:38,340 ♪ Watching it fall ♪ 1757 01:34:39,470 --> 01:34:42,040 ♪ Aquarius bloom ♪ 1758 01:34:43,480 --> 01:34:45,960 ♪ Just bought a car ♪ 1759 01:34:51,960 --> 01:34:53,490 Surprise! 1760 01:34:55,360 --> 01:34:56,710 Nathan? 1761 01:34:57,840 --> 01:34:59,320 - Hi! Hi! 1762 01:35:00,540 --> 01:35:01,840 Ryan? 1763 01:35:01,840 --> 01:35:03,580 - What? - Hi! 1764 01:35:04,760 --> 01:35:06,760 Uh, sorry. 1765 01:35:06,760 --> 01:35:09,940 Allie, uh, this is my girlfriend, Joelle. 1766 01:35:11,030 --> 01:35:13,110 Hi. I'm sorry. Um... 1767 01:35:13,850 --> 01:35:14,940 Nice to meet you. 1768 01:35:14,940 --> 01:35:16,510 I've heard so much about you. 1769 01:35:17,380 --> 01:35:18,420 Oh. 1770 01:35:19,690 --> 01:35:20,690 Okay. 1771 01:35:20,690 --> 01:35:22,120 I think we're the victims 1772 01:35:22,120 --> 01:35:24,600 of a teenage girl's good intentions. 1773 01:35:24,600 --> 01:35:26,350 What? - I said... 1774 01:35:26,350 --> 01:35:28,870 I said I think she meant well. Ryan. 1775 01:35:31,480 --> 01:35:33,310 I'm gonna go. I'm gonna go. 1776 01:35:33,310 --> 01:35:34,440 Are you good? - I'm fine. 1777 01:35:34,440 --> 01:35:35,750 I'm fine. I'm gonna go. 1778 01:35:35,750 --> 01:35:36,880 Allie! 1779 01:35:40,490 --> 01:35:42,010 Ryan. 1780 01:35:42,010 --> 01:35:43,930 What the fuck did you just do that for? 1781 01:35:45,150 --> 01:35:47,240 No offense, but you weren't supposed to come. 1782 01:35:47,240 --> 01:35:49,370 I know being a paralegal is a good job, 1783 01:35:49,370 --> 01:35:50,940 but he's supposed to be with Allie. 1784 01:35:50,940 --> 01:35:53,370 - I'm sorry. Ryan? 1785 01:35:53,370 --> 01:35:54,980 What the fuck did you just do? 1786 01:35:55,900 --> 01:35:57,420 I'm fixing it. 1787 01:35:57,420 --> 01:35:59,070 For Mom. 1788 01:35:59,070 --> 01:36:01,470 Go find her and then I'm taking you home. 1789 01:36:05,080 --> 01:36:06,470 I am so sorry. 1790 01:36:07,130 --> 01:36:08,950 Serious... This... 1791 01:36:08,950 --> 01:36:10,350 - It's fine. It's okay. - Yeah? 1792 01:36:10,350 --> 01:36:11,610 - Yeah. Yeah. - You good? 1793 01:36:11,610 --> 01:36:12,960 I'm fine. I need a drink. 1794 01:36:12,960 --> 01:36:14,130 - But I'm fine. - Yes. 1795 01:36:14,130 --> 01:36:15,390 Oh, fuck! 1796 01:36:20,230 --> 01:36:21,490 You guys have been great, 1797 01:36:21,490 --> 01:36:22,660 - thank you so much! 1798 01:36:22,660 --> 01:36:24,060 Allie! 1799 01:36:24,060 --> 01:36:26,450 Why the fuck did you just do that? 1800 01:36:26,450 --> 01:36:28,490 I thought it was gonna make you happy. 1801 01:36:28,490 --> 01:36:31,540 You thought that would make me happy? 1802 01:36:31,540 --> 01:36:33,280 Yeah! - Are you insane? 1803 01:36:33,280 --> 01:36:35,460 Hi! Can I please get, um... Hey, I'm sorry. 1804 01:36:35,460 --> 01:36:38,160 Could I just get a glass of tequila, please? 1805 01:36:38,160 --> 01:36:39,460 Fuck, I can't breathe. 1806 01:36:39,460 --> 01:36:40,770 - Ryan, I can't fucking breathe! - Calm down. 1807 01:36:40,770 --> 01:36:42,600 Calm down, okay? I'm sorry. 1808 01:36:42,600 --> 01:36:44,730 You fucking did that on purpose! 1809 01:36:44,730 --> 01:36:46,030 You did that to hurt me, right? 1810 01:36:46,030 --> 01:36:47,860 Is that what you did? Yeah, you did. 1811 01:36:47,860 --> 01:36:49,340 - Just admit it. Yes, you did! - No, I didn't! 1812 01:36:49,340 --> 01:36:50,910 - You did that on fucking purpose! - No, I didn't! 1813 01:36:50,910 --> 01:36:53,870 You killed, baby! You killed! 1814 01:36:53,870 --> 01:36:56,300 - That was incredible, man! Hi! Hi! 1815 01:36:56,300 --> 01:36:58,570 I'm Quinn's friend, Ryan. 1816 01:36:58,570 --> 01:37:00,440 You guys sounded so good! 1817 01:37:00,440 --> 01:37:02,270 You're gonna be so famous! 1818 01:37:02,270 --> 01:37:04,970 I know. I really have to savor my anonymity. 1819 01:37:04,970 --> 01:37:08,710 Hey, we're gonna go to this party over in Williamsburg. 1820 01:37:08,710 --> 01:37:10,230 You guys wanna come? 1821 01:37:11,840 --> 01:37:13,630 Fuck, yeah, whatever. Let's go! 1822 01:37:13,630 --> 01:37:14,800 I need to get outta here. 1823 01:37:21,070 --> 01:37:22,850 Do you have the time? 1824 01:37:22,850 --> 01:37:24,720 - Yeah. 1825 01:37:28,340 --> 01:37:30,470 Hey, Danny. Everything okay? 1826 01:37:30,470 --> 01:37:34,210 I can't find Ryan. I've tried everything. 1827 01:37:34,210 --> 01:37:38,170 Anyway, my mind can't help but wonder if... 1828 01:37:38,170 --> 01:37:40,440 Well, if you've seen Allison or not. 1829 01:37:40,440 --> 01:37:43,700 Uh, no, I haven't, but I can text her if you want. 1830 01:37:43,700 --> 01:37:45,090 Well, I've tried texting both of them, 1831 01:37:45,090 --> 01:37:46,490 but neither one is answering. 1832 01:37:46,490 --> 01:37:47,700 What's wrong? 1833 01:37:47,700 --> 01:37:49,140 Daniel can't find his granddaughter. 1834 01:37:49,140 --> 01:37:51,530 Um, well, if he pays for the phone, he can just log 1835 01:37:51,530 --> 01:37:53,140 into the account, and use Find My Phone. 1836 01:37:53,140 --> 01:37:55,580 Yeah. Daniel, do you know what Find My Phone is? 1837 01:37:55,580 --> 01:37:57,060 No, what the hell is that? 1838 01:37:58,890 --> 01:38:01,150 This is amazing! 1839 01:38:01,940 --> 01:38:05,720 Whoa! 1840 01:38:28,140 --> 01:38:29,140 Fuck! 1841 01:38:30,620 --> 01:38:34,140 Allie, this is Jarvis. He has the stuff you asked for. 1842 01:38:34,140 --> 01:38:35,400 Hey! 1843 01:38:35,400 --> 01:38:37,140 I don't have any thirties, just dope. 1844 01:38:37,140 --> 01:38:40,150 Uh, yeah, okay. Yeah, whatever you have. 1845 01:38:41,980 --> 01:38:43,670 Can you spot me? 1846 01:38:43,670 --> 01:38:45,760 - I'll pay you back, I promise. - Uh, okay, all right. 1847 01:38:52,590 --> 01:38:53,600 Thanks. 1848 01:39:01,690 --> 01:39:03,260 It's coming. Look like! 1849 01:39:06,610 --> 01:39:07,570 Yeah, here it is. 1850 01:39:07,570 --> 01:39:08,740 Okay, what does it say? 1851 01:39:16,710 --> 01:39:19,400 - The whole room is spinning. 1852 01:39:21,360 --> 01:39:22,890 Oh, that's my phone. 1853 01:39:24,150 --> 01:39:25,410 Don't worry about it. 1854 01:39:27,280 --> 01:39:29,980 Can we just stop for a second? 1855 01:39:29,980 --> 01:39:31,370 Where is my phone? 1856 01:39:33,460 --> 01:39:35,070 I think I'm gonna throw up. 1857 01:39:38,030 --> 01:39:39,290 What the fuck! 1858 01:39:40,640 --> 01:39:42,910 She's in the fucking city! 1859 01:39:42,910 --> 01:39:45,130 She's in fucking Williamsburg! 1860 01:39:45,130 --> 01:39:47,210 Okay, Daniel, wait. I'm gonna come pick you up. 1861 01:39:47,210 --> 01:39:49,170 I don't want you to do something you're gonna regret. 1862 01:39:49,170 --> 01:39:50,870 I'm gonna kill that motherfucker. 1863 01:39:50,870 --> 01:39:52,700 Yeah, that's exactly what I'm worried about. I'm on my way. 1864 01:40:06,410 --> 01:40:08,980 - Okay. Easy does it. 1865 01:40:08,980 --> 01:40:10,980 - You're wasted. - No, I'm not. 1866 01:40:13,410 --> 01:40:14,500 Ryan? 1867 01:40:39,180 --> 01:40:40,400 Ryan? 1868 01:40:44,620 --> 01:40:46,360 - Ryan, are you in there? 1869 01:40:46,360 --> 01:40:48,710 She's fine. Go the fuck away! 1870 01:40:48,710 --> 01:40:49,890 Ryan? 1871 01:40:58,290 --> 01:40:59,370 Ryan? 1872 01:41:00,850 --> 01:41:03,070 Can you just open the door, please? 1873 01:41:05,380 --> 01:41:06,380 Ryan. 1874 01:41:06,380 --> 01:41:07,600 Go away! 1875 01:41:07,600 --> 01:41:09,820 Allison? Where's Ryan? 1876 01:41:09,820 --> 01:41:11,300 What're you doing here? 1877 01:41:11,300 --> 01:41:13,560 Where the fuck is Ryan? 1878 01:41:13,560 --> 01:41:15,870 She's in here. I'm trying to... She won't answer. 1879 01:41:15,870 --> 01:41:16,960 - Ryan! 1880 01:41:17,910 --> 01:41:18,960 Ryan? 1881 01:41:20,390 --> 01:41:22,090 It's your grandpa, open the door. 1882 01:41:23,310 --> 01:41:24,790 Open the door, baby. 1883 01:41:24,790 --> 01:41:26,100 Fuck off! 1884 01:41:28,230 --> 01:41:30,270 - What the fuck! Ryan! 1885 01:41:30,270 --> 01:41:32,930 You again! Get the fuck up! 1886 01:41:32,930 --> 01:41:34,100 - Danny, no, no, no. - Oh, my God! 1887 01:41:34,100 --> 01:41:35,670 - Don't do that! - Nothing happened. 1888 01:41:35,670 --> 01:41:38,240 Tell me why I shouldn't kill you, motherfucker? 1889 01:41:38,240 --> 01:41:39,670 We were just making out. 1890 01:41:39,670 --> 01:41:40,890 You hurt my baby. 1891 01:41:43,550 --> 01:41:45,250 - Now, I'm gonna hurt you. 1892 01:41:45,250 --> 01:41:46,680 - No, no, no, no, no. Danny! 1893 01:41:47,640 --> 01:41:48,550 Dad! 1894 01:41:49,080 --> 01:41:50,950 No! 1895 01:41:50,950 --> 01:41:53,470 The hell you're doing here? This is family business. 1896 01:41:53,470 --> 01:41:55,130 Don't do this. 1897 01:41:55,130 --> 01:41:57,130 Go on back to your new life, Nate. 1898 01:41:57,130 --> 01:41:58,780 Put the gun down, please. 1899 01:41:58,780 --> 01:42:00,130 Please, please! 1900 01:42:00,130 --> 01:42:01,520 He's not worth it. 1901 01:42:01,520 --> 01:42:03,790 I got nothing left to lose. 1902 01:42:03,790 --> 01:42:05,090 You got me! 1903 01:42:06,440 --> 01:42:07,530 You got Ryan! 1904 01:42:08,310 --> 01:42:09,700 We need you! 1905 01:42:09,700 --> 01:42:11,970 You do this, it's over! 1906 01:42:14,360 --> 01:42:15,970 We get no more time. 1907 01:42:15,970 --> 01:42:18,100 Danny, put the gun down. 1908 01:42:20,280 --> 01:42:21,280 Please. 1909 01:42:28,590 --> 01:42:29,590 Oh, my... 1910 01:42:31,200 --> 01:42:32,250 That's my niece. 1911 01:42:32,950 --> 01:42:34,380 She's 16 years old. 1912 01:42:36,340 --> 01:42:37,730 Oh, my God! All right, we gotta get out of here. 1913 01:42:37,730 --> 01:42:38,860 Hey, Ryan, baby? 1914 01:42:38,860 --> 01:42:40,430 - Please get up. - My fucking nose! 1915 01:42:40,430 --> 01:42:43,430 Get over here! My fucking nose! 1916 01:42:56,660 --> 01:42:58,190 The fuck is the matter with you? 1917 01:42:58,190 --> 01:42:59,620 I was trying to protect her! 1918 01:42:59,620 --> 01:43:01,020 Protect her? - Yeah! 1919 01:43:01,020 --> 01:43:03,280 I told you to stay away from her! 1920 01:43:03,280 --> 01:43:04,540 Who the fuck are you 1921 01:43:04,540 --> 01:43:06,070 to be talking about protecting somebody? 1922 01:43:06,070 --> 01:43:07,680 - You're a mess. - Dad! 1923 01:43:07,680 --> 01:43:10,110 I was... I was trying to help. 1924 01:43:10,110 --> 01:43:11,640 I was... I was trying to... 1925 01:43:12,460 --> 01:43:13,900 I was trying to make it right. 1926 01:43:13,900 --> 01:43:15,290 Let me tell you something. 1927 01:43:15,990 --> 01:43:17,640 You will never ever 1928 01:43:17,640 --> 01:43:19,770 be able to fix the things you've done to me. 1929 01:43:20,950 --> 01:43:22,040 You hear me? 1930 01:43:22,820 --> 01:43:24,480 I want my life back. 1931 01:43:24,480 --> 01:43:25,740 I want my child back. 1932 01:43:26,870 --> 01:43:29,480 My baby, my... Molly. 1933 01:43:30,830 --> 01:43:32,350 You took my baby away from me! 1934 01:43:32,350 --> 01:43:33,700 Dad! Enough. 1935 01:43:33,700 --> 01:43:35,010 Nah, it's okay. 1936 01:43:36,750 --> 01:43:37,750 Say it. 1937 01:43:39,190 --> 01:43:40,620 Shit, I wanted to hate you. 1938 01:43:42,010 --> 01:43:43,230 But I stopped myself. 1939 01:43:45,890 --> 01:43:49,150 And when you walked into that meeting, I thought... 1940 01:43:50,150 --> 01:43:52,460 This is God testing me. 1941 01:43:52,460 --> 01:43:56,860 This is proof of a higher power 1942 01:43:56,860 --> 01:43:59,070 testing me in this church. 1943 01:44:00,770 --> 01:44:02,160 Trying to see if he could break me. 1944 01:44:03,250 --> 01:44:04,380 But I'll show him. 1945 01:44:07,080 --> 01:44:08,260 I'm unbreakable. 1946 01:44:09,780 --> 01:44:11,610 I will offer my hand 1947 01:44:12,310 --> 01:44:13,920 to this sorry 1948 01:44:14,740 --> 01:44:18,660 little fucking pill-junkie. 1949 01:44:18,660 --> 01:44:21,840 All I asked you to do was stay away from this child. 1950 01:44:23,320 --> 01:44:24,360 Now look at her. 1951 01:44:25,710 --> 01:44:26,970 She got no mother. 1952 01:44:29,150 --> 01:44:30,150 No father. 1953 01:44:32,240 --> 01:44:34,200 And how many years can I have left? 1954 01:44:36,550 --> 01:44:38,900 What a fucking waste you are. 1955 01:44:39,250 --> 01:44:40,160 Dad! 1956 01:44:40,160 --> 01:44:43,210 What a fucking waste of a soul. 1957 01:44:45,300 --> 01:44:46,560 Of a chance. 1958 01:44:46,560 --> 01:44:48,910 Danny, enough. You've said your piece. 1959 01:44:48,910 --> 01:44:50,820 This isn't how it was supposed to be. 1960 01:44:52,870 --> 01:44:54,040 I'm a good person. 1961 01:44:56,000 --> 01:44:58,180 I never said God has to be fair. 1962 01:44:58,960 --> 01:45:00,090 I just never thought 1963 01:45:01,700 --> 01:45:03,010 he could be this cruel. 1964 01:45:06,620 --> 01:45:07,930 Taxi! 1965 01:45:07,930 --> 01:45:09,360 Hold on, Danny, let me take you home. 1966 01:45:09,360 --> 01:45:10,450 No. 1967 01:45:10,450 --> 01:45:13,450 I'll go with him. Hey! Hey, Ryan! 1968 01:45:13,450 --> 01:45:15,890 Come on, wake up. We're taking you home. 1969 01:45:29,210 --> 01:45:31,300 You drank! 1970 01:45:31,300 --> 01:45:35,350 You turned your map app back on at 17:36:22. 1971 01:45:36,650 --> 01:45:39,740 Impact was at 17:36:24. 1972 01:45:41,260 --> 01:45:45,220 Skid marks show you lost 30 feet before you swerved. 1973 01:45:46,400 --> 01:45:49,230 You didn't have time to stop 1974 01:45:49,230 --> 01:45:52,060 because you were looking at your fucking phone, Allison. 1975 01:45:53,580 --> 01:45:55,100 Stop blaming Alvarez. 1976 01:45:56,540 --> 01:45:58,500 They're dead because of you. 1977 01:46:17,910 --> 01:46:19,910 All right. All right. It's all right. 1978 01:46:19,910 --> 01:46:21,220 Come here. Come here. 1979 01:46:22,910 --> 01:46:25,090 It's all right. Okay. 1980 01:46:28,220 --> 01:46:29,660 No, that can't go over there. 1981 01:46:29,660 --> 01:46:31,230 That can't... 1982 01:46:32,230 --> 01:46:34,320 That can't... That can't go... 1983 01:47:30,330 --> 01:47:31,590 Good morning. 1984 01:47:32,330 --> 01:47:33,510 Good morning. 1985 01:47:34,860 --> 01:47:36,420 I made a house. 1986 01:47:38,690 --> 01:47:40,030 Do you have a headache? 1987 01:47:42,560 --> 01:47:43,560 Yeah. 1988 01:47:49,520 --> 01:47:51,000 Hey. 1989 01:47:51,000 --> 01:47:53,050 Can I, uh, sell this, please? 1990 01:48:02,490 --> 01:48:03,580 I'll give you $12,500. 1991 01:48:05,020 --> 01:48:06,410 Yeah. Yeah, okay. Thank you. 1992 01:48:07,150 --> 01:48:08,370 It is a beauty. 1993 01:48:12,150 --> 01:48:15,590 ♪ I woke up today ♪ 1994 01:48:17,330 --> 01:48:20,340 ♪ At least that much is true ♪ 1995 01:48:24,170 --> 01:48:27,300 ♪ I saw what people see ♪ 1996 01:48:29,300 --> 01:48:33,260 ♪ What a year this made of me ♪ 1997 01:48:40,440 --> 01:48:44,620 ♪ I tried a hundred times ♪ 1998 01:48:44,620 --> 01:48:49,100 ♪ But each time I thought of you ♪ 1999 01:48:50,760 --> 01:48:52,590 Thank you. 2000 01:48:52,590 --> 01:48:57,810 ♪ I hate myself ♪ 2001 01:48:57,810 --> 01:49:01,640 ♪ I fuckin' hate myself ♪ 2002 01:49:08,600 --> 01:49:13,210 ♪ And I ♪ 2003 01:49:15,090 --> 01:49:18,920 ♪ I want days of pain ♪ 2004 01:49:21,610 --> 01:49:24,840 ♪ Oh, to feel ♪ 2005 01:49:24,840 --> 01:49:29,010 ♪ The things I need ♪ 2006 01:49:33,670 --> 01:49:36,150 ♪ To pay off this shame ♪ 2007 01:49:36,150 --> 01:49:40,070 ♪ And I know that makes me broken ♪ 2008 01:49:40,070 --> 01:49:44,120 ♪ I know that makes me weak ♪ 2009 01:49:46,470 --> 01:49:50,690 ♪ I guess I'll put my armor back on now ♪ 2010 01:49:52,250 --> 01:49:55,210 ♪ I found a way ♪ 2011 01:49:55,210 --> 01:49:58,040 ♪ But I turned around ♪ 2012 01:50:00,520 --> 01:50:03,220 ♪ One step to start ♪ 2013 01:50:03,220 --> 01:50:08,010 ♪ But I'd rather fall down ♪ 2014 01:50:10,920 --> 01:50:13,880 ♪ Too much of a coward ♪ 2015 01:50:13,880 --> 01:50:17,060 ♪ To just say I'm wrong ♪ 2016 01:50:17,060 --> 01:50:19,190 Grandpa, you are not gonna believe this. 2017 01:50:19,190 --> 01:50:20,370 One of the girls on the team 2018 01:50:20,370 --> 01:50:21,850 invited me to a party this weekend. 2019 01:50:22,200 --> 01:50:23,500 You? 2020 01:50:23,500 --> 01:50:24,900 - Yes, me! 2021 01:50:28,940 --> 01:50:32,600 ♪ Help me, please ♪ 2022 01:50:34,210 --> 01:50:38,040 ♪ Try to fix yourself ♪ 2023 01:50:38,040 --> 01:50:40,820 ♪ That's all they said to me ♪ 2024 01:50:49,750 --> 01:50:52,790 ♪ Try to fix myself ♪ 2025 01:50:54,010 --> 01:50:57,360 ♪ To know how hard that would be ♪ 2026 01:51:07,590 --> 01:51:08,500 Hi. 2027 01:51:10,720 --> 01:51:11,720 Hi. 2028 01:51:15,990 --> 01:51:17,510 Thank you so much for coming. 2029 01:51:18,640 --> 01:51:19,560 Sure. 2030 01:51:24,080 --> 01:51:25,700 - You look great. 2031 01:51:26,610 --> 01:51:27,870 I nearly put makeup on, 2032 01:51:27,870 --> 01:51:30,000 and then I just laughed at myself. 2033 01:51:32,350 --> 01:51:33,400 Do you like my clips? 2034 01:51:34,140 --> 01:51:35,660 Wow, yeah. 2035 01:51:35,660 --> 01:51:37,100 I stole them from a pharmacy. 2036 01:51:37,840 --> 01:51:38,930 - Not recently. 2037 01:51:38,930 --> 01:51:41,100 - Like, a while back. 2038 01:51:45,500 --> 01:51:46,760 I don't know where to start. 2039 01:51:46,760 --> 01:51:47,760 That's okay. 2040 01:51:48,330 --> 01:51:49,940 Um, I'll start. 2041 01:51:57,550 --> 01:51:59,250 Nate, I didn't have... 2042 01:52:01,430 --> 01:52:02,910 the faintest idea 2043 01:52:04,430 --> 01:52:06,390 how to handle my own grief. 2044 01:52:09,830 --> 01:52:12,390 I didn't even know if I was allowed to grieve. 2045 01:52:12,390 --> 01:52:14,740 We were all flailing. 2046 01:52:14,740 --> 01:52:16,920 Yeah, but I abandoned you, 2047 01:52:18,050 --> 01:52:19,710 and that was so selfish. 2048 01:52:22,140 --> 01:52:24,450 I ran as fast as I could away from you. 2049 01:52:25,620 --> 01:52:27,630 I still wanted you to be my wife. 2050 01:52:29,110 --> 01:52:30,150 I know. 2051 01:52:35,070 --> 01:52:37,200 But the truth is, Nate, I... 2052 01:52:39,290 --> 01:52:40,900 I was so sure 2053 01:52:42,380 --> 01:52:43,250 I was gonna... 2054 01:52:47,520 --> 01:52:49,650 - try... - I know. 2055 01:52:51,780 --> 01:52:53,130 And you know I tried. 2056 01:52:55,610 --> 01:52:57,400 I tried, but I couldn't. 2057 01:52:59,920 --> 01:53:01,790 'Cause I didn't wanna hurt you again. 2058 01:53:01,790 --> 01:53:03,580 It wasn't your fault. 2059 01:53:03,580 --> 01:53:04,750 It was. 2060 01:53:06,490 --> 01:53:07,880 Your dad was right. 2061 01:53:09,490 --> 01:53:10,840 If I hadn't been looking at my phone, 2062 01:53:10,840 --> 01:53:12,370 I could have stopped in time. 2063 01:53:16,680 --> 01:53:19,720 You deserve an apology that never came, and I'm so sorry. 2064 01:53:24,380 --> 01:53:25,510 I'm really sorry. 2065 01:53:32,340 --> 01:53:34,260 I've been spending some time with him lately. 2066 01:53:34,260 --> 01:53:35,300 Yeah. 2067 01:53:36,610 --> 01:53:39,130 - Oh, it's a work-in-progress. 2068 01:53:40,350 --> 01:53:41,350 Good. 2069 01:53:44,750 --> 01:53:46,310 He kept me alive, you know. 2070 01:53:50,360 --> 01:53:51,620 I know about your ear. 2071 01:53:57,590 --> 01:54:02,110 Hey... I need you to be clear on one thing. 2072 01:54:04,900 --> 01:54:06,460 I loved you so much. 2073 01:54:10,210 --> 01:54:11,860 And along with everything else, 2074 01:54:13,340 --> 01:54:14,820 I will forever grieve 2075 01:54:14,820 --> 01:54:17,080 for the life that we might have had. 2076 01:54:19,960 --> 01:54:21,040 Me too. 2077 01:54:24,610 --> 01:54:26,830 - We were a good team. 2078 01:54:28,230 --> 01:54:30,100 It would be nice 2079 01:54:30,100 --> 01:54:32,010 if we could one day find some way 2080 01:54:32,010 --> 01:54:33,880 to be in each other's lives. 2081 01:54:34,840 --> 01:54:36,410 Maybe that's unrealistic, 2082 01:54:36,410 --> 01:54:37,630 - but... - Maybe. 2083 01:54:38,760 --> 01:54:39,710 Yeah. 2084 01:54:41,370 --> 01:54:42,540 Maybe. 2085 01:54:53,730 --> 01:54:55,470 I think we can all thank Elaine. 2086 01:54:55,470 --> 01:54:57,080 Thank you so much. 2087 01:54:57,080 --> 01:54:59,340 I really appreciated getting to know you, 2088 01:54:59,340 --> 01:55:01,430 and talking to you. 2089 01:55:01,430 --> 01:55:04,130 Everybody, our deeply inappropriate stories 2090 01:55:04,130 --> 01:55:05,520 - from yesterday... 2091 01:55:05,520 --> 01:55:08,700 ...have been well in my head. King's laughing. 2092 01:55:08,700 --> 01:55:11,090 Your stories are foul. 2093 01:55:12,400 --> 01:55:14,010 Mama, 2094 01:55:14,010 --> 01:55:15,320 I'm so grateful for you. 2095 01:55:15,320 --> 01:55:17,450 Thank you for everything you've done for me. 2096 01:55:17,450 --> 01:55:18,930 And I love you. 2097 01:55:28,940 --> 01:55:31,940 The food was terrible. Thank you. 2098 01:55:31,940 --> 01:55:33,900 ♪ I can't shake you off, dear ♪ 2099 01:55:33,900 --> 01:55:37,340 ♪ It's something I have tried to do ♪ 2100 01:55:37,340 --> 01:55:41,520 ♪ But I can't shake you off, dear ♪ 2101 01:55:41,520 --> 01:55:44,690 ♪ Sit on trains and think of you ♪ 2102 01:55:44,690 --> 01:55:46,390 ♪ But I...♪ 2103 01:55:46,390 --> 01:55:50,960 ♪ Oh, I can't tell ♪ 2104 01:55:52,050 --> 01:55:58,230 ♪ If it hurts or it helps ♪ 2105 01:56:00,450 --> 01:56:06,280 ♪ So breathe me in ♪ 2106 01:56:07,320 --> 01:56:11,760 ♪ One last time ♪ 2107 01:56:15,070 --> 01:56:17,900 ♪ And we play ♪ 2108 01:56:17,900 --> 01:56:23,120 ♪ Our rehearsed ♪ 2109 01:56:23,120 --> 01:56:27,210 ♪ Goodbyes ♪ 2110 01:56:30,870 --> 01:56:34,700 ♪ I can't shake you off, dear ♪ 2111 01:56:34,700 --> 01:56:38,960 ♪ It's something I have tried to do ♪ 2112 01:56:38,960 --> 01:56:43,580 ♪ But I can't shake you off, dear ♪ 2113 01:56:43,580 --> 01:56:47,410 ♪ I sit on trains and think of you ♪ 2114 01:56:48,450 --> 01:56:54,850 ♪ But you are the best part ♪ 2115 01:56:56,550 --> 01:57:01,810 ♪ You ♪ 2116 01:57:04,640 --> 01:57:05,900 Thank you. 2117 01:57:09,430 --> 01:57:12,950 Um, I recently recorded my first EP, 2118 01:57:12,950 --> 01:57:14,390 and it's at the coat check 2119 01:57:14,390 --> 01:57:16,870 because I'm also the coat check girl. 2120 01:57:16,870 --> 01:57:19,050 Uh, so come buy a CD, 2121 01:57:19,050 --> 01:57:20,570 or I won't give you your coats back. 2122 01:57:31,890 --> 01:57:33,670 Hi. 2123 01:57:33,670 --> 01:57:35,670 I know you're calling about my one-year clean, 2124 01:57:35,670 --> 01:57:37,850 but I need to tell you what I just did. 2125 01:57:40,590 --> 01:57:42,110 Yeah. No, I can talk. 2126 01:57:43,900 --> 01:57:44,810 Okay. 2127 01:57:58,000 --> 01:57:59,260 Hey, Dwayne. 2128 01:57:59,260 --> 01:58:00,790 Could you take these to the kitchen for me? 2129 01:58:00,790 --> 01:58:02,440 Thank you so much. 2130 01:58:05,180 --> 01:58:06,880 She'll give it back. Right, Ryan? 2131 01:58:06,880 --> 01:58:08,360 - That's nice. Thank you. 2132 01:58:08,360 --> 01:58:11,670 Hey. How's it going? Ooh, wait, I have cupcakes. 2133 01:58:11,670 --> 01:58:14,020 - Need any help? - No, no, no. I'm all good. Thank you. 2134 01:58:14,020 --> 01:58:14,970 Actually, we broke up 2135 01:58:14,970 --> 01:58:16,190 - a few months ago. - Yeah... 2136 01:58:16,190 --> 01:58:17,500 Hey, Mama. - Yes? 2137 01:58:17,500 --> 01:58:20,200 Could you go pass these around over there? 2138 01:58:20,200 --> 01:58:21,330 I think they would like some. 2139 01:58:21,330 --> 01:58:22,590 - Sure. - Thank you. 2140 01:58:22,590 --> 01:58:24,770 - Ooh, they smell so good. - They are good. 2141 01:59:38,750 --> 01:59:40,450 Dear Allison. 2142 01:59:40,450 --> 01:59:43,980 Down here in 1:87 scale, 2143 01:59:43,980 --> 01:59:45,540 the lovers always kiss, 2144 01:59:46,410 --> 01:59:49,110 the neighbors are always kind, 2145 01:59:49,110 --> 01:59:52,160 and the trains always take you to the far-off places 2146 01:59:52,160 --> 01:59:54,420 you always swore you'd go. 2147 01:59:56,120 --> 01:59:58,250 In life, of course, 2148 01:59:58,250 --> 02:00:00,510 nothing is nearly as neat and tidy. 2149 02:00:02,250 --> 02:00:05,390 Everything I own has been left to Nathan and Ryan. 2150 02:00:06,390 --> 02:00:08,220 Nathan has agreed to move home 2151 02:00:08,220 --> 02:00:11,000 and be her guardian until she's off to college. 2152 02:00:12,130 --> 02:00:13,270 He'll need help. 2153 02:00:14,270 --> 02:00:16,920 Please help him, Allie. 2154 02:00:16,920 --> 02:00:20,360 Molly always said Nathan was the best version of himself 2155 02:00:20,360 --> 02:00:21,530 when he was with you. 2156 02:00:22,750 --> 02:00:24,410 Who knows, 2157 02:00:24,410 --> 02:00:28,980 maybe you can even get her into Stanford. 2158 02:00:28,980 --> 02:00:30,940 When we first met in that diner, 2159 02:00:31,810 --> 02:00:34,590 you asked what my tattoo meant. 2160 02:00:34,590 --> 02:00:37,550 - Amor fati is Latin. 2161 02:00:37,550 --> 02:00:39,730 It means "to love one's fate." 2162 02:00:40,950 --> 02:00:44,210 Neither of us chose this fate, Allie. 2163 02:00:44,210 --> 02:00:47,870 But perhaps we can find a way to love it. 2164 02:00:47,870 --> 02:00:51,960 Fate has given me one final year with my son. 2165 02:00:51,960 --> 02:00:55,090 He looks at me differently these days. 2166 02:00:55,090 --> 02:00:58,180 Once in a while I even catch him smiling at me 2167 02:00:58,180 --> 02:01:01,530 with a look that might just even be love. 2168 02:01:02,880 --> 02:01:04,930 Amor fati, Allison. 2169 02:01:06,100 --> 02:01:07,450 Until we meet again, 2170 02:01:08,840 --> 02:01:09,840 Daniel. 2171 02:01:13,370 --> 02:01:14,370 Allie? 2172 02:01:14,980 --> 02:01:16,290 Yeah? 2173 02:01:16,290 --> 02:01:17,370 What are you doing? 2174 02:01:18,810 --> 02:01:19,900 Come on upstairs. 2175 02:01:19,900 --> 02:01:20,850 Yeah, okay. 2176 02:01:46,490 --> 02:01:51,490 ♪ Down in the valley the first of May ♪ 2177 02:01:55,060 --> 02:02:00,680 ♪ Gatherin' flowers both fresh and gay ♪ 2178 02:02:03,770 --> 02:02:10,730 ♪ Gatherin' flowers both red and blue ♪ 2179 02:02:10,730 --> 02:02:12,860 ♪ How little thought of what... ♪ 2180 02:02:15,690 --> 02:02:18,040 ♪ ...what love could you do ♪ 2181 02:02:19,480 --> 02:02:23,740 ♪ Don't you ♪ 2182 02:02:27,360 --> 02:02:31,530 ♪ Break my heart ♪ 2183 02:02:36,840 --> 02:02:40,370 ♪ Don't you ♪ 2184 02:02:44,680 --> 02:02:48,330 ♪ Break my heart ♪ 2185 02:02:55,730 --> 02:03:01,220 ♪ I put my hand in into the bush ♪ 2186 02:03:04,700 --> 02:03:08,700 ♪ Finding the sweetest sweetest rose ♪ 2187 02:03:13,050 --> 02:03:18,970 ♪ I pricked my finger deep to the line ♪ 2188 02:03:20,100 --> 02:03:24,370 ♪ And left the sweetest rose ♪ 2189 02:03:24,370 --> 02:03:28,680 ♪ Sweetest rose behind ♪ 2190 02:03:28,680 --> 02:03:32,200 ♪ Don't you ♪ 2191 02:03:36,560 --> 02:03:40,300 ♪ Break my heart ♪ 2192 02:03:45,870 --> 02:03:49,790 ♪ Don't you ♪ 2193 02:03:53,700 --> 02:03:58,100 ♪ Break my heart ♪ 2194 02:04:37,400 --> 02:04:42,010 ♪ Don't you ♪ 2195 02:04:45,100 --> 02:04:49,020 ♪ Break my heart ♪ 2196 02:04:54,550 --> 02:04:59,460 ♪ Don't you ♪ 2197 02:05:02,600 --> 02:05:06,560 ♪ Break my heart ♪ 2198 02:05:13,300 --> 02:05:18,830 ♪ Thousands and thousands all on this Earth ♪ 2199 02:05:32,110 --> 02:05:35,630 ♪ Honey you've been on my mind ♪ 2200 02:05:35,630 --> 02:05:39,110 ♪ Like Christmas and birthdays when I was five ♪ 2201 02:05:39,110 --> 02:05:41,290 ♪ Like the ticking clock for racers ♪ 2202 02:05:41,290 --> 02:05:43,420 ♪ And those in the prison line ♪ 2203 02:05:43,420 --> 02:05:47,120 ♪ Like Everest for Mallory and how drinkers know their wine ♪ 2204 02:05:47,120 --> 02:05:50,820 ♪ And the birds and the bees when you hit nine ♪ 2205 02:05:50,820 --> 02:05:54,950 ♪ And pearls for those girls 2206 02:05:54,950 --> 02:05:58,610 ♪ Who always have their hair in pretty curls ♪ 2207 02:05:58,610 --> 02:06:07,840 ♪ You're on my mind ♪ 2208 02:06:07,840 --> 02:06:11,360 ♪ Honey you've been in my head ♪ 2209 02:06:11,360 --> 02:06:15,320 ♪ Like homework on Sunday when I've been laughing instead ♪ 2210 02:06:15,320 --> 02:06:19,200 ♪ Like cigarettes for the cool kids behind the garden shed ♪ 2211 02:06:19,200 --> 02:06:23,850 ♪ And love for the lovers and the elephant by my bed ♪ 2212 02:06:23,850 --> 02:06:27,900 ♪ And pearls for those girls ♪ 2213 02:06:27,900 --> 02:06:31,860 ♪ Who always have their hair in pretty curls ♪ 2214 02:06:31,860 --> 02:06:35,950 ♪ And football for English boys ♪ 2215 02:06:35,950 --> 02:06:39,700 ♪ Who always have the newest toys ♪ 2216 02:06:39,700 --> 02:06:50,050 ♪ You're on my mind ♪ 2217 02:06:56,760 --> 02:07:03,500 ♪ So don't you go away too long ♪ 2218 02:07:04,940 --> 02:07:18,470 ♪ Oh don't you go away too long ♪ 2219 02:07:19,300 --> 02:07:23,480 ♪ Oh don't you go ♪ 2220 02:07:23,480 --> 02:07:27,440 ♪ Away too long ♪ 2221 02:07:27,440 --> 02:07:31,660 ♪ You're on my mind ♪ 2222 02:07:32,570 --> 02:07:37,580 ♪ You're on my mind ♪ 154718