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Scalpel.

You all right?

What?

Another nightmare?

Yeah.

What about?

Nothing.

I'm fine. Go on back to sleep, probie.

You've got a big day tomorrow.

Hey, you know,

if I was doing what you're doing

for my stepfather, I'd...

I'm fine with it.

I know you are.

I'm just saying that I'd be having nightmares, too.

Listen, t...

You've made me feel like one of the team.

If there's anything I can do, just...

Probie, forget about it, all right?

Now go on back to sleep, man.

You sure you're okay?

Yeah.

Yeah, man. Look, go on. Get out of here.

Major Carter.

Teal'c.

I thought you were going to get in a few hours of kelnoreem?

I was unable to do so.

Does that happen often?

It is rare, but it does happen,

most often when recovering from an injury.

You look okay to me.

Why don't you try a glass of warm milk?

I would prefer not to consume bovine lactose

at any temperature.

A cup of herbal tea, then.

It can't hurt.

Very well.

You know, you might just be preoccupied

with the upcoming mission.

I mean, there is a lot at stake.

This could be the rebel jaffas' last chance.

Don't deny you're worried about it. It's all over your face.

What's on my face?

You know, t, maybe Carter's right.

You should think about this a little more.

What?

The whole kidney thing?

Oh, you're talking about the transplant.

Yeah, t-man,

we're talking about the transplant.

Hey, what do I need with two?

Yeah. One'll do you, right?

Well, isn't it true

that you can lead a perfectly healthy life

with just one kidney?

I'll go check on breakfast.

T...

This is major surgery.

I know that.

Look, we've gotten second and third opinions

and second and third opinions on those ones,

and they all come back the same.

They're not going to find a better match than I am.

Either I do this or brae dies...

And frankly, after all brae's done for me, I owe him.

All we're saying is if there was another option...

It's already arranged and booked. I go in day after tomorrow.

Gentlemen and lady,

breakfast is served.

That's captain to you, probie, and it had better be good.

Rescue two, engine seven,

we have a two-car head-on collision

with possible multiple injuries.

Please be advised one of the vehicles is leaking gas.

Roger that, dispatch.

Confirm location at Taylor way overpass.

Roger that.

E.t.a. Five minutes.

10-4. 10-4, over and out.

Okay, probie, get ready to get your feet wet.

Ready. Yes, you are.

Probie, air up.

Ray, stretch out a preconnect.

Terry, I want foam on that line.

Can you hear me?

Chief, we've got one adult male and a kid

trapped inside the northbound vehicle,

the other driver's outside,

and the red vehicle's leaking gas pretty bad.

I've got the gas leak.

Great.

Hi there. Can you hear me?

Good boy. I need you to stay still.

We're going to get you out of here soon, okay?

He's alert and responsive. What've you got?

Okay, give me a hand here.

Let's pop the door!

Okay, stay still. We're going to get you out. Come on, probie.

Hurry up with that clamp!

It's all right. You're going to be all right.

Easy, now.

On my count.

3,2, 1.

I need a charged line. Let's get this fire out.

Something's wrong.

I can't charge the line

there's no pressure.

Everybody out of there!

T, get your ass out of there.

That's an order!

Save yourself.

I'm getting you out, old man!

Save yourself!

No!

Teal'c!

Get a medical team down here now!

Yes, ma'am.

Well, whatever happened, you seem fine now.

Still, I've never heard of any Jaffa fainting before, let alone you.

I did not faint, Dr. Fraiser.

Sorry, Teal'c, but you did.

One minute I was talking about the upcoming mission,

the next minute, you were lying flat on your back.

Could this have anything to do with his inability to kelnoreem earlier?

Well, kelnoreem meditation is like sleep

in the sense that it's necessary

in order for a Jaffa to rejuvenate his body,

but not being able to reach a state of kelnoreem

on just one occasion

wouldn't cause you to faint like that, would it?

No, it would not.

And you're not in any pain?

None.

Maybe you were just bored with what I was saying.

Oh, fine.

On that note, I'll say good night.

'Night, Sam.

Prescribe him some warm milk.

I have no intention of remaining here, Dr. Fraiser.

Teal'c, this has never happened to you before,

so want to run a few tests.

That would be completely... ah!

Doctor's orders.

Now, close your eyes and try to relax, okay?

Very well.

You are one lucky son of a bitch.

O'Neill?

Brae...

Brae, he was in that car.

What? He was in the car.

Who was? Brae.

Did you get him out?

T, he's two floors up waiting for his new kidney.

We're trying to arrange for him to come down for a little visit.

The guy in the car, what happened to him?

There's no way. He was dead before we got there.

I could have sworn...

Yeah, listen, um...

They're thinking of postponing the surgery for a day or so.

I'm fine.

Sure you are. How's your head?

Pretty bad.

Well, I'm going to go see what western medicine has for you, huh?

Chief.

Thanks for being here for me, man.

Anytime.

Brae, you old fart, are you still alive?

Chief, you sorry excuse for a human being,

when are you going to get the message and stop visiting me?

Like a moth to a flame. I can't help myself.

Hi, honey. Hi, Jack. Is he awake?

Yeah. He's got a little headache.

I'm not surprised he's in pain.

He was sent flying, the way I hear it.

Yep.

Why don't you go on in?

Uh, Jack.

You go ahead without me.

Did t say anything about brae?

About thinking he was the guy in the car?

Yeah.

I mean, he's been mumbling in his sleep.

Do you think he's okay?

I mean, do you think this transplant thing

is making him...

This is a big deal.

I think it'd mess with anyone's head.

Look, I know a resident psychologist here.

I'll have a talk with him.

He's good. You'll like him.

Thanks, Jack.

Yeah.

I don't know what I would dq, my love.

You'll never have to know.

You want to tell me what the hell you were thinking?

I guess I wasn't.

We're firemen.

There's putting your life on the line

and there's being stupid.

Guess which one you picked?

I know, I know.

His only fault is he wants to help people.

By sacrificing himself?

It doesn't matter now.

It's over.

He's all right.

No, he's not.

Brae, what're you talking about, man?

You're starting to scare me.

You should be scared.

Brae.

Why aren't you burned anywhere?

The car exploded right in your face,

and you come away from it with a headache.

Something's wrong...

And he knows it.

What is happening?

I'm sorry, Teal'c.

I didn't mean to wake you.

Wake me?

According to these readings, you've been fast asleep for most of the night.

My mind was filled with images,

thoughts of me, yet I was not entirely myself.

It happens to humans all the time.

It's called dreaming, Teal'c.

You don't dream while in kelnoreem meditation?

Not in this manner.

While in a state of kelnoreem,

I am in complete control of my thoughts.

So how do you feel?

It was so real.

Ooh, I love when that happens.

It's not uncommon, especially in the first moments

after one wakes up, to feel disoriented.

Not uncommon for humans.

Very strange for Jaffa.

So, doc, this is teal'c

we're dealing with here, right?

I mean, aside from the bad dreams

and the odd fainting spell, he's still, what...

Then he's still better off than 99% of my patients.

The tests show you're in otherwise perfect health.

Good. So he can go back to work?

Yeah, as long as the dreams

don't become debilitating or you faint again,

I don't see why not.

Excellent. Let's go.

Just two more minutes, colonel.

I'd like to perform a routine examination

of his symbiote, and then you can go.

Hi.

Hi.

I'm Dr. Daniel Jackson. I'm one of the resident psychologists here.

I heard you might like to talk.

So...

Daniel Jackson.

You can just call me Daniel if you like.

You think I'm crazy?

No, not yet. We just met.

We haven't met before?

No. No, I don't think so.

I'm sure we have.

Well, maybe in another life or something,

you know, if you believe in that sort of thing. Some people do.

I just came by to talk.

About what?

Whatever's on your mind,

possibly about this operation that's scheduled

for, for, what is it, tomorrow?

Of course, it had to be postponed, because apparently,

you were blown 20 feet across a street.

I'm going through with it.

I never said you shouldn't go through with it...

But a couple of your friends

just thought you might want to talk about it, so...

Just so you know.

Can we get out of here? Maybe go for a walk or something?

Sure.

You're the doctor.

Right. Let's go.

So how did brae become your stepfather?

I don't know. Technically, I guess he isn't.

I kind of just think of him that way.

He raised me after my father died.

He did good.

You've got a good job, you help people out,

and from what your friends tell me, you're quite the hero.

Yeah, well, that was just plain stupid.

What was?

What brought me here in the first place.

We came on a crash site,

and one of the drivers was hurt pretty bad.

You thought he was brae, your stepfather.

Who told you that?

Your friends care about you. That's why they've asked me to see you.

It's a good thing.

You're giving up a part of yourself,

a vital part,

and you're doing it out of love.

So?

So? So maybe you're afraid.

Maybe subconsciously you're afraid

that you won't be yourself anymore.

The doctor told me I would lead a perfectly normal life

after the transplant. Self-preservation is a powerful instinct.

I'm not afraid, doc, not one bit.

That's quite a burden to carry, all that denial,

and until you're willing to let it go,

I can't let you go through with the operation.

No. You can't stop me.

Yes, I can, actually, and I will.

Why? In medicine,

we don't destroy one man's life to save another.

Look at me, doc.

I'm the healthiest human being you've ever seen,

and you know it. I'm a hundred percent.

We're not just talking about your body.

Then what?

You've been having nightmares almost every night,

from what I've been told.

Big deal.

And, and it's a big and,

yesterday, you had a full-blown hallucination.

I'm sorry, but that is a big deal.

Look, all I'm saying is that your life

is every bit as important as brae's,

so if you're going to go through with this,

you have to accept what it's going to do to you.

I want to save brae.

I know you do, and I want to help you do that.

That is a promise.

Now, if you know your way back to your room, I have to go.

I'm extremely late for another appointment,

so, uh...

What is it, doc? Is my hour up already?

No, actually, your 20 minutes are up.

We'll work our way up to an hour.

Hey, let's go.

Do you know how much it costs to keep that thing on?

I'm ready.

Good. Let's move out.

What's wrong with you?

Nothing is wrong, O'Neill.

I need you to focus.

I am ready.

All right, then.

You are afraid to die.

No.

Because you know I will be waiting for you in the afterlife.

Who are you?

You know who I am, Teal'c.

I am your god.

No!

Excuse me, sir?

Are you lost?

No, I'm...

Are you sure you're all right?

I'm fine.

It's the wrong room.

Sorry.

Sir? Sir?

You cannot escape your fate, sholva.

Hey, come on. Let's go.

Do you know how much it costs to keep that thing open?

Bratac's waiting for you.

Something is wrong.

What is it?

He must have taken it.

Who must have taken what?

Shut it down.

Teal'c.

My symbiote is gone.

Fraiser just gave you a clean bill of health.

My symbiote is gone!

My symbiote is gone!

Get a medical team down here right now.

Help me.

Help me.

Hold on, old man.

Help me. Help me.

- It's just a nightmare. - You're safe.

I was in the hospital.

That's right.

They performed the transplant, and you recovered.

They sent you home.

What?

I don't remember.

You've saved his life.

I don't remember coming home.

But you are home with me,

and everything's all right.

O'Neill...

O'Neill picked me up...

And took me home.

That's right.

Brae's going to be fine, and so are you.

It's just a nightmare, my love.

I feel like...

Shauna, I feel like I'm going insane.

A few bad dreams...

You can't tell anybody about this, okay?

Because I don't want people to start thinking I'm going crazy.

I promise.

When I'm there, this is the dream.

When you're there?

I'm part of something...

A military... Underground, a secret place.

Sweetheart, listen to what you're saying.

I'm serious.

It's a dream. They say this is the dream,

and when I'm there, I believe it.

When I'm there, it makes sense that this can't be real...

But when I'm here...

Hey...

Honey...

Look at me.

Look at me.

Kiss me.

How can that not be real?

Hey.

How're you feeling?

Better,

and you?

They haven't told you?

They say my body is rejecting the new kidney.

What?

They're pumping me full of antirejection drugs

and this and that and everything,

but I've got to say...

If it doesn't take, I'm ready to go.

I really am.

How do you know this operation

isn't keeping me from going to abetter place?

Come on, brae, don't even start talking like that.

Why are we so afraid of dying?

I'm not afraid.

I am, okay?

I'd rather die myself than let you go...

So you hang in there, old man,

because I did not go through this

so you could give up on me.

Am I late?

I thought it was supposed to be at 11:00.

It is.

Oh, good.

Been up to see brae?

I just came from there.

How's he doing?

His body is rejecting the new kidney.

Well, you knew that might happen.

There's got to be something we can do.

You've done everything humanly possible.

I didn't go through this so brae could die.

Why are you going through this?

I mean, why do you think this is happening?

I mean, all of it...

Brae, the nightmares you've been having, all of it.

Well, the nightmares are gone.

You're not dreaming you're part of some secret military operation underground?

Shauna told you.

No.

Then how the hell do you know?

I just... know. It doesn't matter.

Fine.

I'll ask her myself.

Because we've talked about this before.

You just don't remember.

Just like you don't remember the operation

or getting discharged from the hospital, right?

Right?

Well, tell me about it again.

I'm part of something, a team.

Who's on this team?

Same as the firehall,

chief O'Neill, captain Carter,

hell, even probie is there.

Probie is who? Probationary fireman.

It's the same as calling someone a rookie. Right.

His name's Jonas.

And what does this team do,

the one in your dream?

Go places, you know, try to make a difference,

help people.

You're a fireman.

No.

We, um...

You're just going to have to trust me.

All right.

We go to other planets

through a big ring of shimmering blue water.

I'm not even human.

You're a... A Jaffa.

I carry this thing around in my gut.

It's called a symbiote.

It helps keep me alive.

Something like a kidney? Something you might be hesitant to give up?

Let me ask you this.

Does brae fit anywhere into your dream?

Which one?

Hell, I don't even know what's real anymore.

Well, you're not alone in that.

Philosophers have been trying

to figure out that question for a long time.

So let me just get this straight.

When you're there, this is the dream,

and when you're here, that's the dream.

They're both so real.

In both you're having nightmares?

Hell, I'm not even supposed to dream in the other one.

Because you're Jaffa?

Don't ask me.

Well, it's really neither here nor there.

The point is both can't be real.

No.

So you're trying to figure out

which of the two lives you seem to be leading is the real one,

so that you can stay there or here

orwhereverit is you're supposed to be

once and for all,

but maybe the answer to that question

is something you haven't even considered.

Maybe neither one is real.

What?

Think about it.

If you can't distinguish between them...

If the one seems equally as real as the other...

Maybe you don't belong in either one.

Then what do I do?

Hang in there just a little while longer.

You can't leave me here like this.

I haven't left your side, Teal'c...

And I'm not going to.

That's a promise.

O'Neill?

It's okay. Yeah.

You're going to be all right. Just hang in there.

Teal'c, listen to me, okay?

This is very important.

How long have you gone without your symbiote?

Bra'tac!

He's alive, thanks to you, but I need to know how long?

You must save bratac.

We'll do our best, okay?

Let's take them both directly to O.R. one.

Let's move.

Easy.

What happened, colonel?

It was a setup from the get-go, sir.

The meeting of the rebel leaders?

There was no meeting.

It was an ambush.

We found over a hundred rebel Jaffa dead.

Every single one of them had had their symbiotes removed, except one.

Bratac. He and Teal'c were the only warriors left alive.

Teal'c left for this meeting over three days ago.

How did he manage to survive that long without his symbiote?

Sir, it's possible that Teal'c survived the ambush

and then used his own symbiote

to keep both he and bratac alive until we got there.

He knew we'd show up as soon as he was late.

Well, how long can two Jaffa survive

with only one symbiote between them?

We have no idea, sir. Up until a couple of hours ago,

we didn't even think it was possible.

Report to the briefing room in one hour.

Yes, sir.

We've managed to stabilize them

by using the same method Teal'c must have used

to keep them both alive,

otherwise he would have been dead when they found him.

We're essentially transferring the symbiote

from one to the other.

How long can you keep them both alive that way?

I really don't know, sir.

It's a miracle they've survived this long.

Don't ask me how Teal'c had the strength

or the wherewithal to keep it up.

Dr. Fraiser, forgive the obvious,

but why can't we just get him another symbiote?

We've looked into it.

It's all but impossible right now

to find a symbiote that isn't already being used.

Right.

We contacted the tok'ra

as soon as we received your emergency radio transmission

and apprised them of Teal'c and bratac's condition.

Jacob is on the way.

Sir, if it comes down to a choice...

Jack, we have to consider

that Teal'c has already made a choice,

and according to Dr. Fraiser,

he's gone through hell in order to see it through.

Well, let's hope it doesn't come down to that.

Dad, thank god you're here.

Hopefully I'm not too late.

How are they?

Shauna...

Shauna?

Shaun'auc.

She was very important in Teal'c's life.

You see, when a Jaffa goes without his symbiote

for any protracted length of time,

at least according to Jaffa legend,

his life flashes before his eyes.

You know, it might help if you talk to him.

Yeah.

Teal'c...

You've got to hang in there.

I need you.

You made me feel like one of the team.

If there's anything I can do...

Don't worry about it, probie.

Go back to sleep.

Probie?

Dr. Fraiser.

What's their condition?

They're critical, all three of them.

Three?

Due to his advanced age

and the fact that his body is showing signs

of rejecting the symbiote,

bratac has had to have it longer than Teal'c.

Now it seems that the strain of keeping them both alive is too much for the symbiote.

I don't think it could restore either one of them at this point.

Well, what about a hand device?

I brought something better,

something that should work as effectively as a symbiote,

at least for the short term.

What's that? Tretonin, sir.

The drug the pangarans offered us?

That ground Goa'uld, isn't it?

It's a little more refined than that, Jack,

but yes, it is derived from Goa'uld symbiotes.

It supplanted the immune system in the pangarans.

Why couldn't it do the same for the Jaffa?

I've already considered it. It won't work.

The sample I studied was designed to take the place of a human immune system.

We've since refined it specifically for Jaffa physiology.

The tok'ra have been looking forward to an end

to the Jaffa dependence on symbiotes for centuries.

Now, we've been working on this tretonin variant

since you introduced us to the pangarans,

but it hasn't been tested.

Even if it does work,

I mean, Teal'c and bra'tac

will become just as dependent on the tretonin as the pangarans.

Given time, we can solve that problem...

But at least they'll be alive.

If I knew for a fact

that this is what Teal'c wanted...

Janet,

this could ultimately lead to freedom

from Goa'uld oppression for all Jaffa.

That's something Teal'c and bratac want more than anything.

Do it.

Yes, sir.

Teal'c without junior...

That's a concept.

Hey, Teal'c.

Am I dreaming?

No, not this time.

It's late. Everyone's gone home for the night.

I just wanted to make sure you were okay.

What of bra'tac?

Bra'tac's fine...

Thanks to you.

And to you as well, I believe.

No. No, that was you.

I don't know anyone that could have done what you did.

You kept him alive for three days

without ever thinking about yourself,

and every time you gave up your symbiote,

you knew it might be for the last time.

This experience has been very different for me.

It seemed so real.

Your mind took you where you needed to go to get you through this,

but I promise you this is real.

You're just going to have to trust me on that.

You can go to sleep.

When you wake up, everything is going to be fine.

Is that a promise, Daniel Jackson?

That's a promise.