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I'm going to thank you.

I came out to my parents when I was eighteen.

At first.

They threatened to kick me out of the house and take away my college fund.

But

then they changed their mind

and told me that everything could stay the same.

If I would agree to go to the conversion therapy camp.

The drove for hours to a small town in the middle of nowhere.

They left me with his therapists who met US at the door and he

promised to make me straight.

I promise you.

Will get her all straight.

He smelled like shaving cream.

There are other women in the house

but we were always kept apart.

No eye contact

no temptation me would say.

He confiscated my phone.

We could only read romance novels.

He made me wear a backpack full of bricks

and stare at the wall to remind myself.

Of the burden of being a lesbian.

Separate.

Everytime I would talk back.

Another brick.

Until I just couldn't take it any longer.

Someone had to stop him.

And.

I knew his weakness from the second I smelt him.

Hmm I.

I.

Every woman.

Hmm.

Yeah.

Time preserve.

Police.

Two character.

What we're going to do.

Cross your legs.

Just laughs.

Sure.

I want you to be.

To be in the moment

man.

Feel.

The energy.

A man and woman should have.

With each other.

Relax.

You're.

All lambs.

Please.

She.

Just look into my eyes.

Sri is great.

God.

Apparently not.

Both.

Okay.

It means so much to me.

To help.

Miss gosh.

Week.

Women

are confused.

I mean start English.

Program.

I feel like was.

My.

God given right destiny.

Seeing all these kind of.

Views.

Female women in the world.

She.

I understand the temptation.

But here.

Show you.

The right way.

The only way.

Being in the moment.

I've been confused by.

Media.

Music videos.

Whenever it houses.

I'm lucky that other people.

Sheet how I see

and believe in me.

And my my purpose what I'm trying to do.

I have a lot of.

Powerful.

Sponsors supporting me.

Throughout my journey.

Because they believe also.

Women.

Should be with men.

That's right.

See.

I feel your bond I feel connection.

It's important.

Just be there.

Learn to be comfortable.

Oh man.

As.

It was meant to be.

She.

Breathe in.

That.

Makes the prompts.

See.

The more.

You start

accepting.

The right way.

The straightway.

You learn.

That's your purpose.

To be.

Store.

Incubators for a man.

Rats.

You're getting so comfortable like.

I could feel it so much.

She.

Straight is great.

Greatness.

Straightness.

Ten let it out.

Good job.

When I see you.

And I look in your eyes.

I see someone.

Who loves being at home.

Who loves

taking care of the man.

Yeah.

Provides cut out.

Deborah.

I would like to try something a little.

Different.

Are you up for that differ.

What does that mean.

It's just some.

A different form of therapy.

A more.

Personal.

Close.

It's

it will help you prepare.

For when you are in this moment when you find.

The right man to be with.

Would you like to try that.

Yeah.

I would too.

If.

You would like.

Disrobe

and aldis row.

And we're going to.

Lay down next to each other.

And just be there.

Next to each other.

In the.

Uniforms

that god has given US.

Okay.

Good.

Alright.

Well.

I'll start.

You can take your shirt off.

See.

There's nothing to be worried about.

Here.

And now your bottom.

Straightness

is craziness.

Deep breaths I know you can do it

I know you want to get there.

But dispute the first way.

Have you never.

Lie down next to someone before.

A man.

I see how that would be.

Scary.

Do you need help.

Okay.

Why.

Give me your clothes.

Lena.

It's been a month.

Actually here.

Please.

Trust me.

Jesus I know you can.

I'm sorry.

You should take your underwear off also.

Hmm.

I bet this is how.

I felt for Adam and Eve the first time.

They lay down next to

other.

It felt right.

Special.

You know.

Starting this.

Was an easy.

I didn't make a lot of sacrifices cause a lot of people at first.

Didn't believe.

While I believe.

That took a long time to.

Find the right people to.

Support me.

Once I found them.

I knew.

I just soon.

The right thing.

I know this must be confusing for you.

The people you surround yourself have a.

Huge influence on.

How you become.

Or what you become for the rest of your life.

There are so many.

Confused people out there that.

Just assume.

What they're doing is right and they don't know how.

Many people they're hurting.

Or something where you want to do right.

Don't wanna hurt people.

Like your parents.

I think you're really prey.

Or wanting to be here.

Or green.

Acknowledging

even.

That what you're doing is.

Brave.

When you go back.

Only your friends see how.

Straight ingrate you become.

I bet they're going to say hey.

I want to go there too because.

My life is confusing.

I don't want to be confused.

Hmm.

What's going through your head now.

Snouts at.

The right time to talk.

Is there something.

You feel naturally that you want to.

Do.

I think I'm starting to feel a lot more confident.

That's great.

See.

Laying next to a man.

Is different than a woman.

Hmm.

I want you to feel comfortable here.

Just think we'll leave here on your nineteenth.

Birthday.

You're gonna have a whole.

New life.

Ready for you.

Is there something on your mind.

By just thinking about or want to say or ask.

I touched myself.

If.

That's what you're naturally.

Feel the urge to do them yes.

Yes you can.

That's really good.

Are you

put it at me.

If.

You feel like

that's.

Really what you want then.

I'll do that.

That's really what I want.

List inside your.

Oh.

Sh.

Different.

More natural.

Feels better when a man.

Yes.

Ducks.

Same.

No time.

Have thirty sessions.

Every night.

Two three times a day.

In terms.

Of.

Cause it's your first time.

Incidents.

I applaud you.

Pink.

St Louis.

Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Oh.

Oh.

Shukri.

Superb.

Hmm.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Or.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Oh.

Ugh.

Ooh.

Oh.

Whoops.

Oh.

Hmm.

Ooh.

It's really special.

She.

Was.

Niche.

Yeah.

Ugh.

Oh so.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Is.

Oh my word.

Ooh.

He.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh well.

Whoop whoop whoop whoop whoop

whoop.

Oh.

I.

Know.

Yeah.

Hopefully

you're.

In.

Yeah.

Then.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yes.

Yeah.

Have you ever.

Have you ever put a pin

in your mouth.

Okay.

I tire.

Like this.

European heads around.

Really hard.

Or soft depending on.

The perfect manufacturing.

They're all gonna like it different.

This is okay.

That's perfect.

In eye contact.

Always perfect.

When you find the right man and get married.

Be your job to always.

Keep eye contact.

See.

You kidding.

See that's that comes out.

It's called prequel.

To be scared.

It's fine.

It is where.

Sticky.

But that's what helps lube inside you.

When you're ready to be.

Impregnated.

Here.

Email.

I know it's a little weird at

first.

I get it.

Okay

you cheating me so much.

You're welcome.

Now.

Thank you goes too far.

But.

A man will eventually want

to.

Continue now.

She got comfortable.

Just like them.

Safer than.

The england

seventy house.

How so.

Among the psychiatry sick.

Explain all.

Always.

That's really good.

Yep.

The Crescent works.

You alone too.

Can you find the right man.

Find out what he likes.

I.

Totally enjoy.

This I think you're.

Okay.

For the first time.

You can proceed.

No.

Doing it right.

Yes.

That is.

As long as you're under my roof.

Yeah.

I want you to leave here.

With the knowledge you need to go out into the real world.

Chris why.

Strange

screens.

Oh.

Wow.

How far down can you go.

I would try.

You can if you like.

Yeah.

No.

Oh.

It's.

Just.

Men love

playing with their testicles.

Do

your testicles.

You can.

Squeeze it like that.

Put them in your mouth.

Yeah.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Hero.

Gonna make somebody very happy.

I'm gonna make some mom and daddy have the orange guy.

Yeah.

Cheapskate

great

spot.

Exactly.

Exactly.

Yeah.

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Oh.

Wow.

Oh.

Ugh.

Oh.

I.

Love wow.

Yeah.

Knock.

Knock.

Knock back.

Yeah.

Here.

The only sets.

Any sign of a here.

We'll be down near future.

See.

Yeah.

Yeah.

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Yeah.

Yeah.

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Heh

heh.

Yeah.

Yeah.

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ooh.

Shot.

Oh.

Earlier.

This week.

That's cool.

Ooh.

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Hm

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Hm.

Ooh.

Ooh.

Oh yeah.

Yeah.

Like.

Oh.

Yes.

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Pushback.

Yeah.

Yeah

yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Interesting.

Yes.

For shines.

Just.

Yeah.

It.

Sucks.

Yeah.

Yeah.

That.

Is.

Oh.

Wow.

His.

Office.

He likes you.

Yeah.

Oh.

Doing Grant.

June so good.

Yeah.

I know I know.

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Oh.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Oh.

Ugh.

Ook ook ook is this.

Yeah.

Is.

She.

Yeah.

East.

Hmm.

Oh

my.

Me.

You sure.

Yeah.

Want you take

inside of me.

That's what you want.

Leaps and bounds.

However.

He took silk.

You're finding your street.

Speaking here.

Greatness.

Come here.

Term.

Yeah.

Yeah I

know.

It's.

Thanks relax.

Yeah.

But didn't you.

Trust me.

We're filter.

Hmm.

No.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Oh.

Yeah.

Yeah.

You.

Know.

Yeah.

Ugh.

Hmm.

Yeah.

That's true.

You do.

Yeah.

Sometimes.

Meals can be.

So tire.

Just gonna have to.

Kinda.

Might nine.

Just.

Oh.

Yeah.

Yeah.

That's.

It's.

That's right.

I try.

I.

Find a rhythm that works.

For him.

Oh god.

That's.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Oh

cool.

Yeah yeah.

I.

Hmm.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Oh my.

Tuesday.

Oh.

That's

cool.

Show your appreciation.

For again.

Shows that you care.

Oh.

Yeah.

Hi.

That's right.

Nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope.

Later.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Ooh.

Ooh.

Do you still love me.

YouTube.

TV.

You've

used.

Oh my god.

Yeah.

Oh.

Ugh.

Ugh.

Oh.

Ugh.

Ugh.

Oh.

Hmm.

That was a.

Your session.

Course not just one.

Eric.

Said we have to do many more.

Now that ray.

If you want to.

Put those back on and.

Refreshing.

I skipped breakfast.

Tomorrow.

Nine one one what's your emergency.

You gotta understand you gotta let me algebra.

I.