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My God.

Sam.

This is a surprise.

Yeah. I guess I should've called.

Are you okay?

Yeah. I... I...

I'm in therapy,

and my therapist said that I should...

come and talk to you.

You're in therapy?

Mm-hmm.

H-How's hara doing?

She just turned 12 last month.

Mm.

Her reading's getting better.

It turns out she's pretty fast.

She likes running races against the boys.

Have you heard of panta bhat and fuchka?

No.

That's what she eats.

Her favorites.

I'm surprised you haven't heard of those,

with all the...

places you eat.

Did you tell her about us?

That's against the rules.

You don't tell them about divorce or anything...

upsetting in your family.

Mm. Right.

I actually have another one now, too.

Muntaha.

Wow.

Do you want to see a picture?

Sure.

Wow.

She's cute.

Yeah, and she also likes panta bhat and fuchka.

Alan, can you come closer to the door?

I'm here.

Listen.

Your hands are free, right?

Yeah.

And you said you have...

like, meetings with him.

Appointments?

- Sessions. - Sessions.

Do you think you could have one with him here now?

We... actually do.

We do have them here.

Great.

That's weird. Right?

Yeah, it's weird.

I don't really have a choice.

We're both prob-probably going to be dead soon.

I say we go down swinging.

Next time you have one of your sessions,

I want you to convince him to bring me in.

Make up some... good therapy reason.

And once I'm there,

you jump him.

And I'll, like...

throw my body on him, too.

Did you see Kenny last summer?

Mm-hmm. Twice.

Raleigh and Chicago.

Chicago was...

What did your therapist want you to talk to me about?

I don't know. He just said I should come talk to you.

So...

You never picked up your La-Z-Boy.

Do you still want it?

Okay.

- All right? - Mm-hmm.

All right.

Okay, just try and get it in.

All right, go. One, two, three.

- That's... - No? Okay.

- No. - All right.

Okay.

Go.

Thanks.

Elias?

Yeah.

You gave me a message for your family.

But you may be the one who gets out of here. So...

I'd like to give you a message for mine, too.

Okay.

Okay.

Tell my daughter, Shoshana, that I love her.

And that I treasured our life together.

And that...

I want her to find a way to move on.

Ezra, my son...

Tell him I loved him very much

and that his mother loved him, too.

Even when it was difficult between them.

And that I'm...

sorry that there was so much...

conflict in the family when she was dying

and that I...

That's a lot to remember.

Um, just...

Just tell them what you can remember.

Can you k...

keep talking?

Please?

When Ezra went to college...

he fell in with one of those rabbis with the black hats

and...

suddenly he's an Orthodox Jew.

No parties.

Doesn't turn the lights on or off during the Sabbath.

Beth, my wife...

this all...

just drove her crazy.

Everybody following their own paths

wasn't exactly her cup of tea.

I did my best to help her with it, but...

Ezra did not make it easy.

His family could not even come over to our house

without bringing their own food.

You know about kosher food?

It's regular food with a thousand rules.

This one birthday party

for Ezra's son...

she wanted to bring some...

He's back.

I got my chair back.

So you saw her?

Yeah.

What did you talk about?

She's got these kids...

who we adopted in Bangladesh.

We adopted 'em from this...

organization.

I mean, we-we adopted one of 'em.

She just got another one.

And...

she loves them a lot.

How did it feel seeing her?

Yeah.

I liked it.

Mm.

But I don't think it accomplished

what you were hoping.

Like, diverting me.

These kids of Mary's and yours...

when they grow up,

I bet you want them to be responsible

for the things they do in life.

It has to be hard in Bangladesh.

You want them to overcome, not...

blame everything on their circumstances

or the people who hurt them.

That's part of what we're talking about here, Sam...

Can you imagine me beating the shit out of those kids?

Like...

punching 'em, hitting 'em

like they're worthless pieces of shit?

How can anybody...

Yeah, I'm gonna do this now.

Wait. Wait. Wait! Sam!

- No. Listen to me! - This guy's gonna get it.

- He's gonna get it right now. - Candace! Get down here!

Get down here! Right now!

- We have a problem down here! - No! No!

- Sam? - No! No, no, no...

No, please. Please.

- Oh, Sam, stop! - Wait, please, please.

- Wait, wait. - Mom, go back upstairs.

No. You listen to me.

Stop right now.

You are supposed to be protecting me

by not doing this.

Get back here!

What?

Go to your room.

Right now.

- I don't want to. - Sam.

You need your good night's sleep.

You know, sometimes you feel better after that.

Fuck!

: I'm okay.

They gone?

His mother... sh-she seems okay.

- Shh. - Mommy!

- I'm a cantor, but I'm also a mommy. This is my son Ezra. - Mommy.

Here, come sit with me over here.

Why don't we play one of your favorite songs, then?

What song should we play?

- What's your favorite song? - "Got That Shabbat."

"I Got That Shabbat Feeling"?

Okay. Here we go.

: Head.

Come, sit down.

You told me that you get very angry

with people who treat you rudely.

That everyone you hurt

somehow deserves what happens to them.

And...

I'm starting to think that

that's not actually what's going on, Sam.

What do you mean?

What I mean is, after everything you went through as a child,

you are angry,

as anyone would be who experienced that.

And that anger has made you violent.

Which is also very human. So...

really, Sam,

you are just looking for people

who will serve as an excuse

for you to act out those feelings.

And the people that you choose...

I-I think it's almost random.

If you run into someone when you are in that state of mind,

I think you will find a way

- to be offended by them. - No, you're wrong.

Those people, each and every one of those people

is a fucking asshole. You weren't there.

You were never there. That piece of shit,

he acts however he wants.

He treats people like shit.

I understand why you feel that way.

I know

that is what you are experiencing.

But part of therapy

is finding a way to look beyond

what you are experiencing in the moment

and to search more deeply.

Sam, I think this is a great opportunity

for you to search more deeply.

I know it's what you want.

I know it's why we are both here right now.

I want you to consider what I just told you.

May I tell you something more?

I don't know.

I think you are angry

because of what your father did, like you always said.

But I think it connects with your father

on deeper levels as well.

You said that he would beat you

if you didn't do

exactly what he said instantly.

If you even took a moment to think about it.

Isn't that what you said?

Mm-hmm.

So that was, like, his reason

to hurt you, in his mind.

But then that got into your mind.

So you-you think that there is a reason

that all of these people are behaving this way towards you,

when in reality,

they're just going about their business.

They didn't do anything to provoke your attacks

any more than you did to provoke your father.

He was just a violent, out of control abuser.

You weren't responsible.

You were just a little boy.

Elias Petraki in there...

he didn't do anything to deserve this either.

He's just a guy who cooks, manages a Greek restaurant,

makes food that you like.

He got into a little tangle with you

over an inspection,

and he might have looked at you funny

or been obnoxious or disrespectful.

He looked at me...

He looked at me like I was...

I was... a son of a bitch.

You know, it doesn't-it doesn't...

- it doesn't-it doesn't matter. - Sam.

- He's-he's... he's... - Sam.

I want you to bring Elias out here

so the three of us can talk.

What would the point of that be?

You seem to think that he is such a horrible person

that he doesn't deserve to live.

Let's see

- if there's more to him. - I don't want to.

- I want him dead. - I know you do,

but I think

the three of us talking could be an important

- part of our work. - These aren't his therapy sessions. These are

- my therapy sessions. - I'm not suggesting that

we do this for him.

This is your therapy.

I've gotten to know Elias some,

and I think he's a good young man.

And I think if you get to know him,

you will feel differently about him.

Elias,

we want you to show your full self here

so he can see you as something more

than he does right now.

Do you think that you could tell him

a little bit about yourself?

I know how hard this is, given the circumstances,

but... do your best.

Okay. Um...

Why don't you tell him about the pastitsio,

and how you came up with that idea.

O... Okay.

Um...

It's okay. I know this is hard.

Tell him about it.

How you were in Asia.

Okay. Yeah, I...

Okay.

I work in a restaurant

with... with my parents.

They-they came from Greece.

All that way. They...

they had a-a dream to...

What? What? Wh...

Should I, uh...

I-I... Okay.

So, I-I had this idea

- to com-to combine udon noodles... - I...

No, no. No, no, no!

- Alan! - No, no, no! No.

No! Candace!

No! Don't...

No, God. Candace!

Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no, no!

Oh, God, no!

No. Oh!

No!

No! No, God!

No, no, no, no!

No!

No.