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Good luck not eating this.

Pork buns

from Qian's.

What, are you giving me the silent treatment?

Doesn't seem very sophisticated for a therapist.

I'm not your therapist anymore. I'm your prisoner.

I understand why you would think that, but...

you have to...

Don't worry. It's not a head or anything.

Oh, that's a relief.

You ever heard of the John Doe Killer?

I think so.

The whole idea was to make it look like robberies.

So the police didn't get one of those task forces going.

So, you know, I took... I took all this.

And...

next think I know, they're calling me the John Doe Killer

'cause sometimes it took 'em a few days

to figure out who these people were

without their IDs and stuff.

And... now I'm kind of stuck with it.

You believe me now?

You don't think I believed you?

I get why it's easier for you to think

that maybe I'm not telling the truth.

I believed you.

Would you like a watch?

No, thanks.

Keep track of time for yourself.

I mean, they still work.

Most of 'em.

It's hard at first for everyone,

but especially someone like you.

Someone like me?

So in your head.

That's where everything takes place, including meditation.

Like I said, it's hard for someone like you.

I'll be home by 5:00.

Oh, come on.

Shit.

Oh, fuck.

Ah.

Okay.

Thai food tonight.

I got us Kaeng tai pla.

This place makes their own sauce using fermented fish entrails,

which I know sounds gross, but it gives it a lot of flavor.

And then, Khanom moa gang. They use

taro and duck eggs. That's dessert.

You usually can't find it this way.

I don't think you can open that with a plastic fork.

After I do it,

I'm... just...

I bet most people couldn't...

feel like that.

It's not a normal feeling.

It's more like... dead.

I need to get better.

Isn't that what you... enjoy doing?

Isn't healing people?

I brought you here so we could work together.

I know you hate it, but...

if you're not going to be a part of the process,

where is that gonna leave us?

Successful therapy requires a safe environment.

The patient and the therapist have to be able

to dig into... complicated emotional territory

without anything like fear

hanging over every session.

I don't know what to do about that.

At least I want you...

to make me a promise that while we are in therapy together,

that you will not commit any acts of physical violence

against me or anyone else

unless you talk to me first.

You mean you want me to talk to you before I...?

Yes.

- So you can talk me out of it? - So I can

try to help you...

get out of it.

So together, we can try to understand

where this terrible need is coming from, and to address it.

You have no idea what it's like.

- I understand. - These fucking people...

I work with a lot of people with very serious,

almost impossible-to-resist compulsions.

Making this kind of commitment is key to the process.

- I don't think it's the same. - I'm not saying it's the same.

I'll do my best.

And actually, it was my wife's idea.

Uh, she's known Chava's mother her whole life.

So, if we have anyone to thank, it's the rebbetzin.

Chava can keep up with your son

in-in both the intellectual area and with humor.

Oh.

I'm so sorry.

I should have brought a real knife.

- Oh, no, no. - No.

It's fine.

- I was going to eat that. - This isn't funny.

I'm upset, too, but we need to let him be.

Oh, please don't tell me you don't hate this

just as much as I do.

He's rebelling, Beth.

Everyone does it.

So, should I tell you more about my life?

Sure.

There's this guy,

uh, and I can't stop thinking about him.

I wish you knew what this feels like. Uh...

I did an inspection a while ago

at a... a Greek restaurant in Garten.

Greek, but a-a modern take.

They do these moussaka-filled gyozas

that just... dissolve in your mouth.

I actually used to go there with my wife,

even before I inspected it.

You're married?

I was.

That was one of those things I didn't, uh, tell you

'cause I couldn't be fully truthful.

Anyway, uh, there were items in the prep cooler

that weren't dated,

and the refrigerator door seal needed to be replaced.

And these aren't uncommon things,

but they need to be addressed,

and they affect a restaurant's rating.

I explained it all to the guy who runs the place,

the owners' son, and...

he didn't think it was a big deal.

I told him it was.

He said I should come back in a week,

and everything would be fixed.

I said the current wait time for reinspection

in Lincoln County is seven months.

He thought I was trying to get a bribe.

And he starts talking to me

in this funny way, like...

he knows how things really work,

and I don't,

and I'm just some piece of shit.

And when people talk to me like that...

Anyway, I just left,

which is what I do in those situations.

Then a couple weeks later, my supervisor,

Kyle, tells me to go back right away

and redo the inspection, no reason given.

And when I went there, everything is fixed,

and the guy barely looks at me.

Smug.

When was this?

I don't know.

About four months ago.

And I haven't stopped...

thinking about him.

Every single day.

I'm trying not to...

I-I usually can't stop, but...

I don't know if other people have this.

Do other people have this?

People get obsessed with interactions they've had, yes.

I-I went back to the restaurant...

the same night, and I parked across the street,

and I waited until they closed.

I've never done anything that they could trace back to me,

but that night, I... I was like...

I didn't do it.

How do you think you managed that?

I don't know.

I didn't want to get caught. I guess that helped.

And you said this was about four months ago?

Yeah.

Just before you came to talk to me.

And you thought I could help you not hurt him.

Mm-hmm.

I need a pen and paper for notes.

I really thought through all the things

that you were going to need here.

I'm going to need a pen and paper.

I'm not going to attack you with a piece of paper.

And you can find a pen that doesn't worry you.

The restaurant guy.

The more time that passes,

the less anyone would connect me with that place.

I think it's important to note that you did not hurt him.

But I want to.

I want to right now.

You asked me to talk to you first.

I am talking to you.

It's not really helping.

You've been holding this in for four months, Sam.

I get why it's hard.

Jesus.

I'm late for work.

Let's have a session after dinner.

Hello?

Hello?

Can you hear me up there?

I can hear you!

Are you okay?

Can you talk?

Hello.