All language subtitles for Xena.s04.e13-paradise.found

[ Wind Whistling,
Thunder Crashing ]

[ Xena's Voice ] Gabrielle, I'm
all for your spiritual quest,

and India is a fine place
to go, but...

remind me why we decided
to take the scenic route.

[ Gabrielle's Voice ]
Come on.

Local legends say that these
mountains are a holy place.

No, no, no, no. I don't care
about the local legends.

I'm talking about the local thugs
who tried to cut us up in the pass.

Well, I'd apologize.
Again.

The truth is,
I think you enjoyed it.

Having my leg gashed open?

No, having a good reason
to bust some head.

That's ridiculous.

You smiled.
What?

When that big guy came at you, and
you tossed him at the other three?

You smiled. I
winced. He was big.

You smiled!
I was relieved!

You still smiled.
Oh! Give me that.

You've got hands
like a sailor.

It was a thing
of beauty.

Did you see how
they fell over?

Just like
a game of dominoes.

[ Scoffing ] Yeah. It
wasn't a game to them.

Let me get this straight: you're
standing up for a bunch of thugs...

who tried to rob and kill
us? Those guys were scum.

I admit that.

I just wonder if...
maybe your fighting for good...

has more to do with the
fighting part than the good part.

Think my fighting for good is
a cover for something darker?

[ Clicks Tongue ]
I don't know.

It's funny.

I come to places like this--
you know, spiritual places--

looking for
some sort of answer.

- Makes you wonder.
- Wonder what?

If instead of reaching out,

maybe we should be
looking in.

Was it that vision again?

Xena, would you
just forget that?

You always say that we control
our own destiny, right?

Right.
[ Stones Clattering ]

What was that?
[ Moaning In Pain ]

Ju-Just stay here.
Don't break those stitches.

I'll be right back.
[ Groans ]

[ Thunder Crashes ]

[ Faint Gasp ]
Gabrielle?

Gabrielle?

Gabrielle?

Gabrielle!
[ Echoing ]

Gabrielle!
[ Echoing ]

Gabrielle, answer me!
[ Echoes ]

Gabrielle!

[ Twittering ]

What happened?

Xena, is it--
[ Gasping ]

I fell down a... hole.

Yeah, what is it
with you and holes, huh?

Look. [ Gasps ]
My wound. It's gone.

[ Fluttering ]

[ Man Narrating ] In a time of ancient gods
-- [ Xena Yells ]

warlords and kings,

a land in turmoil
cried out for a hero.

She was Xena,

a mighty princess
forged in the heat of battle.

The power.

The passion.

-The danger.
- [ Kiaiing ]

Her courage
will change the world.

[ Sniffing Deeply ]

Where are we?

Good question.

Do you know what
this place reminds me of?

Illusia.

But so far, the only music
I've heard is the birds singing.

Xena, do you think we're dead?

Yah!

What do you think you're
doing, sneaking up on us?

What are you doing...
b-breaking into this garden?

We didn't break in. We just fell through a
-- a hole in a cave.

A cave? There's no gate
through a cave around here.

What is this place? Well
-- [ Chuckles ] that kinda depends on you.

Aah!
[ Whimpers, Grunts ]

Don't play games with us.
How do we get outta here?

Ask Aidan. He-he--
Aidan owns the whole estate,

and everything in it, except me.

- And how do we find this Aidan?
- Well, he's everywhere.

But start at the house.
Up at the path.

Poor man.

Come on.

[ Gabrielle ] It's
beautiful. Don't you think?

[ Xena ] Yeah, in that yucky,
"I'm-in-paradise" kind of way.

Let's find out what's going on.

[ Gabrielle ] If Aidan
did this, he's got talent.

And a whole lotta time
on his hands.

[ Gabrielle ] They're so
unusual. The poses, the color.

Look.
What do you think?

Without a face, it could
be anyone. [ Man ] Exactly.

You see, these figures represent
the ultimate inner peace.

- Something anyone can achieve.
- Don't bet the farm on it.

She means it's easier for some
people than it is for others.

Very true. Took me almost ten
years, but then my demons ran deep.

You can't get rid of those overnight,
but you can eventually release them.

I'm living proof.
I'm also Aidan, and you are?

Xena.

This is my friend, Gabrielle.

Welcome to my home.

This is some hospitality
you've got here.

My leg. Yesterday it had a gash
on it, and took twelve stitches.

Now it's gone.
Healed completely.

How do you explain that?
It's amazing, isn't it?

Technically, I guess you'd
call it, "Mind shifting matter."

You saying your mind healed
Xena's leg? Oh, no, no.

Not just my mind. You see,
there's breathing...

and "meditational" techniques--
the whole approach to the--

I'm babbling again, aren't I? If you'd
be interested, I'd love to show you.

It's potent stuff,
but I think we'll pass.

If you'll just direct us
off the place, we'll be going.

[ Sighs ] A woman of
action. Commendable.

Yet you still eat
and sleep, don't you?

Why not stay the night here,
and start out fresh tomorrow?

- Well--
-Good food, fine wine--

Warm bath?

[ Slapping Xena ]

Excellent.

[ Whispers ]
Gabrielle!

Gods, this is bliss.
[ Sighs ]

How long do you think we've
been in here? I'm prunin'.

Would you relax? Aidan's right. You
need to just learn to slow down.

You know, I'm surprised
at you, Xena. Why?

For someone who's seen
what Lao Ma and Alti can do,

it's strange you're not
curious about Aidan.

I've seen enough to know that most
people can't handle spiritual powers.

And Aidan is no Lao Ma.

Well, yeah, he's a bit odd. That doesn't
mean we can't learn something from him.

I wanna ask him to teach me his breathing
techniques. Will you come with me?

Thanks, but I've been breathing
just fine on my own for years now.

Well, you know, I could
give him another chance.

After all, the guy
did heal my leg.

That's mighty big of you,
Xena. [ Door Rattles ]

[ Groaning ]

Oh! Lieutenant Gar, reporting
as ordered. With clothes, sir.

[ Whispers ]
Sir?

And inhale.

Slowly up,
through the nose,

and-and-and...

exhale, slowly
down, down.

Concentrate on
the breathing only.

[ Exhales ]
Good.

[ Chuckles ]
Good.

[ Sighs ] I've never concentrated
on just breathing before.

Whoever does? But that's exactly
where it starts, from a single breath.

Without breath,
there is no life, right?

Right.

Something wrong?
No, nothing.

Gabrielle. May I?
A small warning.

These breathing techniques. The "meditational"
techniques that I'm teaching you.

The whole approach to
an inner stillness--

It could stir up
some thoughts and feelings...

that you didn't
even know you have.

Some of '��em, not so nice.

I'm game if you are.
Good.

[ Singing ]

[ Woman Singing
In Foreign Language ]

[ Woman Continues ]

[ Gabrielle Thinking ] I feel like some
power has just poured new life into me.

That's what I'm
gonna call her: Hope.

[ Gasps, Groans ]

I guess that was one of those
thoughts that you warned me about.

Maybe we should stop.
Hmm?

Why?

Well, to really do this, to
reach that inner stillness,

you're going to have
to clear a path,

and that means facing whatever
comes up, and just releasing it.

[ Scoffs ] You don't know what
I carry. And to face that--

No, I know, I know. It feels like
a burning fire inside, doesn't it?

I lost
my wife and child, too.

I'm sorry.
No, no.

The thing is, facing that pain
and coming to terms with it,

and then releasing it--

it's allowed me
to do all this.

You want to heal the world,
right? And I believe you can.

But first you've
got to heal yourself.

It's gonna be hard, but that's the only
way you're going to access that power.

You're saying that
if I do this,

that I can create a perfect
world just by thinking it?

Exactly! Once you tap
into that inner stillness,

you can do
absolutely anything.

You just envision it,
then make it real.

[ Chuckles ]

Can I teach others
to do this? Xena?

Guaranteed. See,
you're a good person,

and this place can help
draw that goodness from you.

Here, you can become what you really
are deep down inside. Everyone does.

We strip away all the layers, and
all that's left is your core self.

The real you.

[ Singing ]

Yah! Ha.

[ Shouts ]

[ Kiaiing ]

[ Kiaiing ]

[ Chirping Frantically ]

[ Screaming ]
Shut up!

[ Chirping Stops ]

Okay. I take you by the shoulders,
and pull you up toward me.

Bend your back.
That's it. That's it.

Now, raise your right arm
up to me. Grab hold.

That's it. Now your--
Now your left.

Always breathing, in through
the nose, out through the nose.

A little more.
It's okay?

[ Whispers ]
Yeah. Good. Good.

Now, I want you to focus
the breath into the pose.

Into the stillness.

Focus the breath
into the stillness.

All right, can you feel
your chest expanding? Yes.

[ Gabrielle's Voice ] I'm sorry.
I never meant to lie.

[ Scoffs ] Xena, I couldn't
kill her. She's my daughter.

You're a mother!
You know this!

I had to save her.
[ Crying ]

[ Sobbing ] I'm
sorry. By the gods!

It's okay. Okay, here.

[ Continues Sobbing ]
We'll rest a minute.

Shh, shh.
I'm a monster.

No, you're not. Whatever it was that
you saw or felt, it's just the past.

The past has no power
if you face it.

Facing it
givesyouthe power.

[ Sighs Deeply ]

[ Footsteps Departing ]

[ Huffing ]

Are you sure you wanna
stay another day?

[ Sighs ]

I haven't felt this clean
since before Hope was born.

I think Aidan is
really onto something.

Aw, Zeus, you don't
really like this guy?

That's it, isn't it?
You like him.

[ Sighs ]
I should have known.

That's not it.

What he says to me...

about reaching
for the stillness,

releasing the pain--

Ugh! God!
It all rings true.

Don't kid yourself. I saw what
inner peace did for Lao Ma.

Aidan's way seems so numbing!

[ Sighs ]
I was skeptical...

until I tried it.

It was incredible.

I realized
I never came to terms...

with my failure as a mother.

I kept the guilt in my heart.

You did the only thing
you could do.

There wasn't a choice.

It didn't make it any easier.

Today, I faced that pain.

I let it go.

I feel so clear.

So light.

I wish you could
experience that.

Well, apparently,
my mind is just too active.

Isn't that what he said?

All you have to do is look at
this place to see that it works.

It's perfect.

If there is one thing
I've learned,

it's that anything that looks
too good to be true usually is.

I wish you could see how right
this feels for me, how freeing.

Another day, huh? Well,
I guess it won't kill me.

Thank you.

[ Panting ]

How are you feeling?

Lighter. Much lighter.
Excellent, excellent. That's it.

That's the core you that's
surfacing. [ Inhaling ]

Releasing all that
pain and guilt helped free it,

and the longer you stay here
the stronger it'll get,

until there's nothing left but
your pure essence: a radiant light.

What if it's not radiant?
What if it's darker?

Well, the same thing,
only in reverse.

Instead of being still, and
lighter, you become jumpy...

and a darkness
starts to show inside you.

How does it show?

Changes in your appearance, mental
lapses, delusions, spontaneous bleeding.

It's all very unpleasant.

You're worried about Xena,
aren't you?

Well, you must let that go.

A blind man could see
that she has got her dark side.

I did too.
But I beat it, and so can she.

How can you be so sure?

Because she has
powerful help: you.

Xena! I've been
looking all over for you.

Are you all right?

Sure, why wouldn't I be?

It's just
-- Aidan says that you could be in some trouble.

It's because of your dark side,
and he says it could get serious,

like bleeding, delusions,
physical changes--

Really? Well, I'll be
sure and keep you posted.

Are you sure you're okay?

See, I feel so light right now, and I know I
could show you how to get there if you want.

Know what I want?
Know what I want?

- [ Sniffs ]
- What are you doing?

- What I want-- [ Growling ]
- Xena, that hurts.

- I'll show you what I want!
- That hurts!

- [ Grunting ]
- It hurts! That hurts! Stop!

Xena?
What?

I asked if you want me
to teach you what I've learned.

Some other time, huh?

Okay.

If you need anything--
I'll come find you. Thanks.

Are you sure you're okay?

Perfect.

Okay, Aidan, you can
dazzle Gabrielle...

with your party tricks and
bull, but I want the truth.

What's goin' on?

By the looks of it,
your fight's already begun.

My fight?

You mean, all that horse manure
about the dark part of me?

It's true. Here,
the real you comes out,

whether it's something
like Gabrielle's or--

Are you saying that these delusions
that I'm having, they're--

they're part of some kind of
war going on inside of me?

- What do I do?
- Do?

Don't!

To stop them?
What do I do to stop them?

Nothingcanbe done.
Once they start,

the only thing
that stops them is death.

Wait.

These delusions you're having. Right
now, that's all they are. In your mind.

But that will change.
Change? How?

They'll start to bleed
through into real life.

You mean I'll act them out?
Hurt Gabrielle?

Or worse.

I don't belie--

There's gotta be
something I can do.

There is, for Gabrielle.

You can leave before
you risk hurting her.

No, I would never
hurt Gabrielle.

You say that,
and you even believe it,

but if the darkness
in you wins, no one is safe.

Not even the people
that you love.

You take it
from somebody who knows.

You get out
before it's too late.

For both of you.

I'm dying.

You're what? It's my back
-- I-- [ Chuckles ]

I think I pulled something doing
one of his meditative poses.

Let me take a look at it.
Let's see. [ Cries Out ]

It's a knot. Right there.
Oh, yeah.

I can feel it.
Lie down. I can fix this.

[ Grunts, Sighs ]

Okay.

[ Gabrielle Sighs ]

- There.
- That feels great.

Just relax.

I feel so peaceful.

We've come a long way,
the two of us.

A long way.
Lie down.

And you've taught me
a lot...

about kindness...

and mercy and love.

Love.

You've got a good heart,
Gabrielle.

It's pure and it's honest.

And no one should
ever hurt you.

No one should ever hurt you.

[ Screams ]

Good-bye, Gabrielle.

[ Footsteps Receding ]

A service medallion.

Gar?

[ Gasping, Whimpering ]

I know you're out there.

Piggy! Come here! The longer
ya take, the madder I get.

-And you don't wanna make me mad.
- [ Whimpering ]

- Oh!
-I can smell you sweatin'--

Piggy, Piggy, Piggy!

Come on, Gar. I won't bite.

Yet. Mmm! Ooh--

I didn't mean-really
mean it, not really.

I know you won't bite,
not for a while.

Gar! These statues were
real men once-- your platoon.

- What happened to them?
- Nothing. Aidan made sure of that.

Nothing, that's what
happened! But I knew.

Yeah, and I fought it!
You fought what?

Peace, quiet, stillness!
Shh.

I
-- I tried to warn them, but everything was so perfect, they didn't believe me.

Well, you believe me now,
don't you, men?

You tried to warn
them about what?

Aidan! It's all him!

He makes everyone so still.

He leeches their goodness.
Goodness. In a perfect place...

going to waste without evil
to keep it alive and fighting.

- So, Aidan feeds off goodness.
- Yeah.

And when he's done with them,
all that's left is-- Gabrielle.

No! You--
You can't fight him. I tried.

He'll take what good's still
in you and use it against you!

Then I won't give him
the ammunition.

[ Laughing ]
Now, who's talking crazy?

What choice
do I have, huh?

If I don't let go of any goodness that's
still left in me, I don't stand a chance.

No, you can't! I mean, if you do that, what's
to stop you killing us all? Even Gabrielle?

One thing, Pops. You.

What?

Now, go!
[ Whimpering ]

'��Cause by the time
I get back to Aidan,

any good that's still in me
doesn't stand a prayer.

You're very powerful, Gabrielle.

The sooner you tap that source, the
sooner we can use it to change the world.

Now, sink deeper.
And deeper.

Now--

[ Birds Chirping,
Fluttering ]

[ Loud Chirp ]

[ Squishing ]
[ Laughs ]

[ Cackling Evilly ]

Sink down.

Be still, still as stone,
still as death.

Let her go!

You're too late.
She's too deep.

See for yourself.

Soon I'll drain her completely.

[ Yells ]

[ Screams ]

Come on, fight me!
[ Yells ]

What goodness can I gain?

What little light is left in even
your dark soul to make me stronger?

- [ Screams ]
- [ Screams ]

Gabrielle!

[ Yelling ]

[ Crackling Sound ]

Oh, come on, you can do
better than that!

[ Screams ]

Come on, ya rat bastard!
Come do it yourself!

[ Chuckles Evilly ]

[ Crackling Continues ]

No!

Oh! Don't!
[ Screams ]

[ Crackling Continues ]
Xena, no!

[ Groans, Yells ]

[ Gasps ]

Wha--
What happened?

Uh, you're free, now.

Aidan's gone.
Unfortunately, so are your men.

My men died years ago,
permanently pacified by Aidan.

He'd have done the same to me. But I saw
through his illusions, and I fought him.

It-- It drove me mad.

Well, that's what
kept you alive.

Aidan wasn't able
to steal your mind.

You embraced your demons
and they saved you.

To survive, I knew
I'd have to do the same,

even if it meant scaring you
to get a rise out of Gabrielle.

You attacked him on purpose?

I knew that no matter how far under you were,
you'd never let me take an innocent life.

[ Gasps ] Well, just as
well for me it worked!

I-I'm free?

I got a wife! I got kids!

Oh! Oh, thank you!

Thank you!

Freedom! Real freedom!

I learned something
about myself. And you?

Yeah?

I sometimes talk about your darkness
like it's some sort of disease.

But without it, neither
one of us would be here.

It's kind of ironic.

Yeah.

Do I really have hands
like a sailor?

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