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Every disease has its unique course

it takes in the body when left untreated.

The process begins with exposure to a root cause

that sends a ripple effect throughout the body.

Simone, - I didn't know, okay? - No, sorry.

I-I-I can't do the "I don't know"

story anymore.

You knew exactly what was happening.

You chose not to see it.

Yeah, I guess moving to Seattle hasn't changed

how quick you are to point a finger.

Excuse me?

Well, you constantly assume that I'm trying to hurt you--

No, you saw me come home - from work every night in tears. - Okay. Mm-hmm.

You saw me almost throw in the towel on my career.

You were too scared of tarnishing your sterling reputation

- to speak up for me! - I was an intern.

The disease then progresses,

ultimately resolving in one of three possible outcomes--

you get better, you stay chronically ill,

or you die. Simone: They kicked me out, Trey!

Oh, they've been fighting nonstop

since he arrived last night.

Yeah, I heard.

I almost fell asleep during rounds.

Well, maybe we should cancel.

Uh, we have an empty house.

We are having a party.

I don't care if he's her ex-fiancé or whatever.

Trey is the competition.

If they're fighting, it means you're still in this.

Team Skywalker.

You two were half a second away from boning last night.

The sexual tension was, frankly, oppressive.

Yeah, well, what am I supposed to about it?

Mm, stop sulking and tell her how you feel

so I don't have to look at your sad, sad face all night.

Surgeons swoop in once a diagnosis is made

and the patient needs reinforcements.

We take decisive action

in order to give them a fighting chance.

Ohh. I spent the first half of the day

fending off requests for comment...

...on the death of Jermaine Talbott

and the other half

trying to get a grasp on our budget deficits,

which are substantial, by the way.

Well, they always are.

Oh, I am kicking myself

for inviting Bailey and Warren to dinner tonight.

Makes two of us

especially because - Allison bit Pru again. - What?

I was told when I picked her up from daycare.

Why didn't you tell me?

I am. This is me telling you.

Wait. So, what-- Is this becoming a thing?

I mean, should we cancel dinner? You know what?

Don't-- Don't answer that.

I knew I should have picked up more wine.

I think Tuck is building a fort with Pru,

so we're set...

...unless you want to cancel and just go to bed early.

We will do no such thing.

Yeah.

What's that?

Well, we can't show up empty-handed.

Yeah, but what if it sends the wrong message?

What message? That we like pie?

Their daughter has now bitten our daughter.

Twice.

It's a problem.

Do you remember the last time

that you and I had a civilized, adult dinner

without children present?

Let's get out of here - while we still can. - Mm-hmm.

Mr. Simms needs neurochecks q two hours,

and Natalia Asaki was just admitted for pre-op,

so coordinate with Webber and Pierce.

Are you going to the party tonight?

You look nice.

In an appropriate, respectful way.

Just try not to kill anyone.

So... I guess we're the only ones stuck here

while everyone else gets drunk and makes poor decisions.

I hate the ICU.

Oh, there's nothing to it.

Just try not to kill anyone.

Everyone has to stop saying that.

Well, have fun.

While you're running codes, I'll be on Pierce's service,

scrubbing in on her Ivor Lewis procedure

in the morning.

Natalia Asaki?

I hate you.

Don't hate the player,

hate the game.

Okay, now I hate both.

Ew.

Uh, you know, I haven't had a chance

to congratulate you on your partial heart transplant.

Now, there's some groundbreaking stuff.

We worked hard on it. Thank you. Yeah.

Well, you keep this up, you'll be in line

for a Catherine Fox Award.

And you and Winston sure do make a great team.

Dr. Pierce...

I just wanted to say thank you

for allowing me to scrub in tomorrow--

Uh, Dr. Pierce, Dr. Webber,

I have studied the Ivor Lewis procedure extensively.

I know that the major complications

are respiratory and atrial arrhythmias,

which can be controlled by amiodarone.

Well, this is an 8-hour surgery,

so if you're not too tired after your overnight in the ICU,

you may also scrub in.

Who's a player now?

Natalia, Elliot. Welcome to Seattle.

- Thank you. - Thank you.

I hope your trip from Coeur d'Alene

wasn't too bad.

I slept through most of it, thanks to him.

And I'm highly caffeinated right now.

Well, we're glad you made it.

Dr. Kwan?

Natalia Asaki, 32, stage II esophageal cancer,

status post neoadjuvant therapy, admitted for pre-op

for an Ivor Lewis procedure first thing in the morning.

- Which is? - Uh, resecting the esophagus

through an abdominal incision and a right thoracotomy,

then pulling the stomach into the chest

to replace the esophagus.

I'm sorry.

Amor, my painting sold.

The landscape from our camping trip.

I love that one. Yeah.

How much?

$500.

She's an art teacher at an after-school program,

but she sells her own pieces on the side.

I'm sorry, but the past couple of months

of chemo and radiation were...

not the most fun I've ever had.

We're ready to put this chapter behind us.

Well, let's get a move on.

Okay, Kwan, Millin,

let's start Natalia's pre-op work-up--

bloodwork, EKG, chest X-ray.

Um, I definitely need all that before the surgery?

You do. We will be back in a bit.

Babe, don't worry.

We'll figure out a way to pay for it.

It's okay.

Oh, it's my fault?!

Look, I hate that they kicked you out.

Alright? I really hate it.

I promise you, I hate it more.

Oh, still so competitive.

Ah.

Hey.

Come here.

Trey, I was broken.

I-I felt... broken.

But I am sorry that I disappeared on you.

I'm sorry. I should have chased after you.

I wanted to. I should have.

I mean, you kinda did. You're here.

I feel like I waited too long.

Did I wait too long?

Can we just go to the party and try to have fun?

I missed you.

I missed you.

Ben, Bailey. Enter at your own risk.

Ooh, come on in. - Oooh, look at that. - Mm-hmm. Apple pie.

My mother's recipe.

Maybe you can think of it when you are approving

budget requests for the clinic.

Thank you. You shouldn't have.

Hey, I heard there were some fires down in south Seattle.

- You been on those? - Uh, no, no, no.

Uh, we have a little girl now, so I sit the crazy stuff out.

That never stopped Owen.

Ah, please excuse her.

She's exhausted after one day of the job

that you and I did for years.

Wine?

Uh, by wine, can you mean bourbon?

Good idea.

Yeah.

Cheese and crackers are on the coffee table.

- Oh. - Oh, fantastic.

I'd love a bite.

Chest X-ray is normal.

Coags, CBC, CMP all look good.

Oh, great. Let's start her on her bowel prep--

Help!

I was just finishing her EKG,

and she started seizing.

Okay, well, let's get her on her side.

Blood glucose was normal, so it can't be that.

And her sats are 92 on room air.

I checked her airway. There's no vomit.

Let's get some suction in here, anyway.

Elliot, does she have a history of epilepsy or alcohol abuse?

No, never. What's going on?

We don't know, but we are going to find out.

Let's load her up with Keppra and lorazepam.

A-And, Kwan, take Elliot out and page neuro.

- Let's hurry. - I love you, Natalia.

It's okay.

Yeah, my place is definitely a work in progress,

so you have to promise not to judge me when you get here.

Okay, is there a door?

There is.

Alright. A bed?

Uh-huh. No duvet cover, though.

No! Well, that's it. I'm canceling.

Okay, uh, crap.

I got to go.

I'll see you tomorrow. Okay.

Oh, hey.

You are still here. Awesome.

Uh, would you take Scout for a bit?

I was on my way home with him,

and I just got paged for a consult on a grand mal seizure.

Well, I was on my way home,

and I got egged by a couple of angry Tank fans.

Seriously?

Based on how tonight's going,

I could, uh, use some time with my only fan.

Okay. It should not take long.

You have fun with Daddy, okay?

Mwah! Bye.

Can anyone help me?! Gahhhh!

Uh... Please, I need help.

I-I-I'm a surgeon.

At least for now.

Here. Here. Here.

My stupid wife promised she'd be back from trial

before I went into labor.

I take it that didn't happen?

Aah! Oh, okay. Alright.

Just-- Just breathe.

Uh, I'll-- I'll page OB.

It-- Oh, thank God.

Hi. So sorry.

Hi. You must be Whitney.

Okay, let's get you upstairs.

Thank you, Dr. Lincoln.

I can take it from here.

Okay. I can't let go. I can't let go.

I'm sorry, but my anxiety hovers around an 8

when I'm not in labor.

You mind if I bring a plus-one?

It-- It's fine by me.

Sure. Yeah.

- Okay, okay. - Gahhhhh!

Okay.

Okay, let's do this.

♪ I go to Mars in my head

Levi.

Push one of... Levi!

...one of epi and atropine. Hey!

Oh, sorry.

You need to get laid.

Like, badly.

And you cannot get laid

if you're the guy sleeping at the party.

I just worked a 16-hour shift,

and alcohol is a depressant.

You want to know what time I got up this morning?

Noon.

I shouldn't even be here.

Like it or not, I am a manager now,

and boundaries are important.

You're where fun goes to die.

♪ So I'm gonna make him proud in the end ♪

Hey. You came.

Nice house.

Yeah, Levi and I live in a studio.

This place has rooms.

A few weeks ago, I was living in a van,

and I thought that was nice.

- Dr. Schmitt. - Yasuda.

Good booze is over here.

Find someone to talk to.

Oh. Anyone.

♪ And I start reverting back ♪

H--

♪ I start reverting back now, honey ♪

♪ Swap my happiness for checks ♪

- It's good out here. - Yeah, actually, it is.

You mind getting us some drinks?

Uh, your usual? Yeah.

Coming right up.

Hey.

♪ Forget Okay.

Can we talk?

I don't know if, uh, now is the best time.

Look, I-I am sorry about last night.

Trey showing up was... unexpected.

Does he know about you and I?

No, of course not.

A whiskey ginger.

You remember last New Year's Eve?

Might have went a little hard on the whiskey gingers.

Might not have made it to midnight.

Rookie move.

Yeah, she kept giving the finger to every stranger walking by,

saying, "Let's send last year to hell."

At least I had the right holiday.

♪ Is going to die

So, new-onset - grand mal seizure? - [ Sighs ] Yep.

Stage II adenocarcinoma of the esophagus,

had chemoradiation two months ago,

scheduled for surgery tomorrow.

Kwan, what are the possible causes of new-onset seizures?

Meningitis, encephalitis, alcohol withdrawal,

stroke, hyponatremia, or...

Mm.

Natalia's esophageal cancer metastasized to her brain.

Most likely a localized met in the right temporal lobe.

And it's bleeding.

Damn it.

What happened?

Am I okay?

Natalia, your CT scan shows

a possible metastasis in your brain.

We'll need to excise it immediately.

What about the surgery we came here for?

I am so sorry that this is not the news that you wanted,

but we have to do this surgery as soon as possible.

I can't believe this is happening.

Could you just give us a minute?

Of course.

We'll be back with consent forms.

You know... you might as well go home and get some rest.

I have no place better to be.

You sure? Yeah, yeah.

Give Catherine my best.

Okay, Whitney, you are 6 centimeters dilated.

You are having this baby.

No one really tells you how much this hurts.

Mother-- Oh, sorry.

I'll try not to-- Holy crap!

He's heard worse. Trust me.

Do you have any idea how lucky you are

that you didn't push your son's watermelon body

out of your teeny tiny vagina?!

I-I don't have a teeny tiny vagina.

But if it makes you feel any better,

I am so hated by the city of Seattle right now,

I can't walk outside without getting literal egg on my face.

No. Yes, I'm officially in hiding.

That actually does make me feel a little better.

- Gahhhhh. - Okay, Whitney. Just breathe.

Yeah.

What?

Well, when I first heard you were living

with a bunch of interns in a house with fire damage,

I was kinda scared for you.

Oh, hard same.

They seem cool.

Even though they're not quite your caliber.

No. Don't judge my people.

Oh, they're your people now?

I mean... yeah. They kinda are.

Come on.

Now, you were the top of your class

in every class you've ever been in.

And you're top tier.

I'm sorry, but these?

These are not - your people. - Trey, I swear to God, we just--

No, no, no, you're only mad because you know it's true.

Grey-Sloan isn't the program it used to be,

and you don't belong here.

You belong with me, at the top.

And if you present your case and you come back...

Present my case?...and you stay calm and collected...

- Oh, wow. - Look, we could have it all back, Simone.

We could have us back. We could have our future back.

These are not your people.

Baby, I'm your people.

I'm walking away, Trey.

And I promise if you walk after me,

I won't remain calm and collected.

- Come on. - No!

Simone. No!

Sorry.

♪ I've been dreaming

You think this is hard?

Tuck spent 45 minutes in - the bathroom the other morning. - Mm.

45, alright?

You know what he was doing?

Do we want to know?

He was shaving.

Sorry. Sorry.

Manscaping.

His chest.

He's going out for the swim team.

Ah.

I mean, Pru might be a threenager,

but at least she doesn't hog the bathroom.

She's been angling for a dog.

Aww.

Oh, that's all we need, right?

You know, little puppy teeth

nipping at her fingers and toes.

Mm. You know, here we are,

kid-free, finally,

and we're still talking about kids.

Right, who wants to talk about adult stuff?

I do. Okay.

Uh, Bailey, how's the clinic?

Mm, busy.

We can hardly keep up with the demand.

Uh, how's the... medical license?

Still suspended, but, you know, getting there.

Is it?

Do you want to help me in the kitchen?

I can't. No license, so...

I can help you with something. Ah.

No, no, no, no, no. Don't be silly.

Teddy's got it, right?

Right. Mm.

So, uh...

should we go back to talking about kids?

It'll be okay. Babe.

It'll be okay.

I'll start driving on the rideshare app.[ Weakly ] Babe.

And if you need another surgery after that,

I'll take on more guitar students or-- Amor.

Stop!

Uh, Natalia, Elliot.

This is the consent form

identifying the risks of the procedure.

They say I could die, right?

If I die...

How deep in the hole are you?

During the pandemic, they made us both part-time.

We just got the only health insurance we could afford,

and we thought we were gonna be fine,

but now we're buried in debt, and I'm gonna die

and leave the love of my life poor and homeless.

You two should get a divorce.

That's not funny.

No, and it wasn't meant to be.

Dr. Kwan, - please step outside. - No, medical divorce is a real thing.

It could help Elliot not get saddled by Natalia's debt.

It could help Natalia to qualify for more insurance or aid,

since they won't have a joint income.

And if they have assets, it could protect them.

Wait.

That's brilliant.

What? Babe.

No, you're my wife.

Dr. Kwan, I'd like a word. Outside, please.

Now. I'm not divorcing the woman I love.

I said do not follow me!

Are you okay?

Do I look okay?

Um, well, you look...

Well, you look perfect.

What? To me, you kinda always look perfect.

And maybe my timing isn't great,

but I need to say that even when you're upset,

you are... pretty damn perfect.

Lucas-- You're so smart.

And when you get mad, you get smarter.

Like, when you get mad 'cause you can't figure out a case...

that's when you figure it out.

So, right now-- now you look like a person

who's about to... solve a big mystery.

Like a person who's gonna...

figure everything out.

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♪ I believe I've seen a ghost ♪

♪ And I don't know who it is

♪ It just follows me around

♪ Pretending to exist

♪ I've never related more

♪ To anything or anyone before ♪

♪ I can't explain it

Simone, - can I come in? - No.

Baby, baby, I'm-- I'm sorry for what I said, okay?

I-I love you. I-I'm sorry.

I just-- I'm trying to get this right,

and I keep getting it wrong.

Baby. Baby, please.

Trey, can you just give me a minute, okay?

Can we talk later? No.

I-I've never loved anyone the way that I love you.

Look, I can't see my life with anyone else.

I-I know I'm a snob.

I know I'm an ass.

But I'll-- I'll be better.

'Cause you make me better.

Trey, I'm...

I'm tired. I just need a few minutes.

Okay.

I'll come find you.

I love you.

♪ To anything or anyone before ♪

Okay.

We were engaged. We had a whole life.

He knows my family.

My dad loves him. My grandmother loves him.

He's-- Do you love him?

♪ Politely, I asked, "Are you real?" ♪

Yeah, 'cause if you love him, you should...

Yeah, you should go talk to him.

♪ It said, "Here, let me prove it" ♪

Are you serious? Yeah, no.

If you love him, you should...

...you should fight for him.

Now you're...

pushing me toward him?

Hey, I'm not pushing you.

♪ "Don't kill the messenger," it begged ♪

I'm saying, do you love him?

♪ "You're alive"

Yeah, okay. I'm gonna go.

♪ "Quit acting like you're dead" ♪

I'm-- I'm so-- I'm so-- Hey, hey, hey.

Don't say you're sorry.

♪ Like a mirror...

We're good.

♪ ...it spoke so clear

♪ "Don't you recognize..."

Lucas, wait.

♪ "...the reason why you're here?" ♪

Can y-- Before you open the door,

can I just make sure he's not out there?

♪ "To be enchanted"

Yeah, okay. Now you can say you're sorry.

♪ "To be enchanted"

- What happened in there? - Do you have any idea how crushing medical debt can be

for people who aren't millionaires?

Of course I do.

But before you cross a line with a patient,

you have to talk to an attending first.

I could have called financial services

or a social worker or a pastor or a therapist

or someone who is trained to have that kind of conversation.

Her brain is bleeding.

They don't have that kind of time to go through--

You had time to talk to me.

Now her brain is bleeding and she's fighting with her husband.

And that is not an improvement,

and it has not saved us any time.

She is my patient.

You are here at my invitation.

Is that understood?

Okay, Dr. Kwan.

The invitation is rescinded.

And let's hope she signs that consent form

that'll allow us to save her life.

Alright, what is that one, again?

I don't know. Let's see.

Bourbon. With...

Bourbon.[ Laughing ] Bourbon.

Uh, I might have drank from that.

Don't care.

- Hey. - Hey.

♪ Maybe this will be the song I hear, when it all goes wrong ♪

This is Taryn.

She was a surgeon, but followed sanity

and became a bartender.

And this is Trey. He might like crabs.

- He's from Baltimore. - Yeah.

Um, I'm visiting Simone.

So, uh, how'd you two meet?

Uh, med school.

Physiology class.

I'd sit on the opposite side of the lecture hall

- to see her smile. - [ Chuckles ] Yeah.

I hooked up with a girl in my physiology class, too.

Oh, cool.

Not my story. Not my story.

Oh, you're not getting off that easy.

Uh, I was home sick one day. Didn't show up to class.

Trey spent the entire day cooking his mom's famous soup,

brought it to my apartment with notes from class,

told me he liked my smile.

I told him I'm not really a soup person,

but clutch on the notes.

And just like that, I was in love.

Wow, Griffith. You missed a class?

You want to - get some air? - Yeah, sure.

♪ I'm not living, I'm just killing time, time ♪

Do you want to go see - the hole in the roof? - Yes.

Yeah? Yeah.

- Okay, come on. - Okay.

♪ Suffocating on my own supply ♪

♪ Caught up in the tangle of your lives, lives ♪

♪ Suffocating on my own supply ♪

Party that bad?

No, I'm just, uh, bad at-- at this.

At parties? Yes.

And people.

I'm not even that drunk, so I'm also bad at alcohol?

I'm Carlos. Traveling nurse.

Uh, I'm only here for a couple months,

but here's the thing...

Levi. Here's the thing, Levi.

If you leave, you won't get to hang out with me.

You-- You brought your own drinks.

Oh, I work way too hard

to drink whatever surgical interns can afford.

♪ Get my mind in line

♪ Submissive till the day I die ♪

♪ I'll detach--

Um, Altman, did you have a chance to look at those résumés?

Oh. Um, no. Not yet.

Which résumés?

Uh, for chief of trauma.

There are some excellent candidates in there.

Oh, um, I think you mean "interim" chief of trauma.

No, she doesn't.

You literally just promised me my job back yesterday.

- I...didn't know that. - Mm. Mm.

But it turns out hiring a decent interim chief of trauma

is harder than hiring a permanent one.

Seriously? Oh.

Look, if I have to wait for your license,

I-I need to consider my options.

Okay, so when were you gonna tell me?

- This is me telling you. - Mm.

Y-- Now that I think about it,

the candidates weren't that great, just--

You know what, Owen?

Maybe if you had asked me how my day was,

this would've come up earlier.

Been there.

I don't think they were asking our opinion.

You know, like it or not, you can barely

practice medicine right now, anyway.

Do you know who practices the least amount of medicine, Teddy?

The chief of surgery.

This is a business decision.

Just grow up and deal with it.

My wife wants a divorce.

We said... "'til death do us part."

I'm so sorry.

I can only imagine how you're feeling right now.

Everything's been always so...

...easy with her.

I still think the biggest fight we ever had

was over refilling the water pitcher.

Most of us can only dream of having a love like that.

I'm just saying that,

if you trusted her enough to marry her,

why not trust her enough to un-marry her?

Don't make it mean something it doesn't.

She loves you and she wants to protect you.

So maybe just... let her.

I didn't know what kind of flowers

to get for our divorce,

but turns out,

you can't have them in the ICU,

so fake ones it is.

This is Aaron, uh,

one of the hospital lawyers

who's nice enough to help us pro bono.

Fortunately, the divorce petition's

rather simple for you two.

No kids, no owned property,

no assets.

Once you sign, I will file a copy

with the court in Idaho immediately.

I just need you both to sign there.

It feels like we're getting married again.

Amor, I promise to love you until my dying breath.

Whether it's in a few minutes,

days, or years.

I promise that my love for you

will only grow in divorce

like it has in marriage.

And I promise you to keep trying

to refill the water pitcher.

I am the luckiest girl in the world

to be divorcing you.

Natalia, as your ex-husband...

...I promise to be there for you

in good times and in bad.

In sickness and in health.

I promise to treat each day as a gift.

And I promise to love you

for every moment of every day

for the rest of our lives together.

I've witnessed several weddings

in hospital rooms,

but this is definitely the first divorce.

Okay.

Um, I'm ready.

It's okay.

Mnh. Unh-unh.

I changed my mind. I can't do it.

Yes, you can, Whitney.

You are doing great.

I have a brother who's not well,

ruined my parents' lives.

So sorry to hear that.

I told my wife that I was scared our kid

would get my brother's genes.

You know what she said?

"We don't have that in our family."

And I just accepted that?!

You know what, Whitney?

Hey, you're right. Alright?

The world is a terrifying, mostly awful place,

and you can't choose your kids.

Tell me something to make me feel better.

When I look at my son drooling in the corner,

he gives me hope.

Pure, blind, probably irrational hope.

He gives me a reason to put my fears aside

and believe that everything might be okay.

So, traveling doesn't get old for you?

No way. Uh, I'm a Sagittarius.

I'm, um...

Jewish.

Ah, smart, funny, and a doctor.

Mm.

The dying wish of Hilda Narvaez Garcia.

My mother.

Oh, I'm so sorry.

Oh, no, she's still alive.

She's just very dramatic about my love life.

Does she cut out magazine articles

and comment on your sock choices?

Yes! Yes!

Plus, a whole lot more which I will not tell you

because I want you to pick up my call one day.

That was me asking for your number.

I-- Oh, I--

Maybe we can go someplace

where they bring drinks to you.

Like, um, I know this place downtown--

Yes.

You know, when I was chief,

at least I paid my co-workers

the respect of full transparency.

Oh, please. When you were chief,

the hospital almost went under.

Oh, wait. It kinda did.

That was not my fault.

When you're chief, everything is your fault.

That's why I can't have a chief of trauma

with a suspended medical license!

Oh, just say it again, Teddy.

We having fun yet?

You wanna know why Allison is biting kids?

Because her dad is a man-child

who can't control his tantrums!

Yeah, well, she's not old enough to drink,

so she can't take after her mom!

Okay, enough! Ugh, this won't work.

Altman, you are the chief now, officially.

And this is just poor leadership.

Okay, whatever happened between the two of you

needs to be fixed

because, yes, now your child is biting other people.

You said biting happens.

It does.

But you two constantly biting each other

with your sharp words and nasty looks

and rage at all times isn't helping.

Pretty soon, that rage of yours

is going to infect the entire hospital

and we'll all be biting at each other

like zombies or cannibals!

So for all of our sakes, get some help.

Ben, get the pie.

Okay.

Oh, maybe we should have people over more often.

Bite me.

Woman on P.A.: Dr. Newton. Dr. Erica Newton to trauma two.

Dr. Newton to trauma two.

Thanks for pissing off Pierce.

I've never scrubbed in on a craniotomy. Have fun.

She gave me like a week's worth of progress notes to review.

Just apologize.

Tell her you screwed up.

I don't apologize unless I'm wrong.

Now, can you go scrub in on the surgery

that you basically stole so I can focus?

Okay, Whitney, it's time to push.

One, two, three.

Gahhhhhhh!

♪ You said some things you didn't mean ♪

♪ I lost my nerve in the disbelief ♪

♪ I'm gonna take my heart out and wipe it clean ♪

♪ I hope it saves me

♪ My hope is weak

♪ And I have run towards the cliff ♪

♪ I've fallen into the blue

♪ But don't try to stop me

♪ 'Cause I'm in recovery

♪ Light me a fire, I'll step too close ♪

♪ I'll learn to let go of you ♪

Okay, Whitney, one last push.

One, two, three.

Gahhhh!

♪ And I have run towards the cliff ♪

♪ I've fallen into the blue

♪ But don't try to stop me

♪ 'Cause I'm in recovery

Hi, stranger.

Oh! Oh!

♪ You're losing grip

♪ I feel release

Simone, look, I meant what I said...

I'll come here if that's what it takes.

Your family would never forgive you.

Maybe not. They're snobs.

They're such snobs.

I'll tell you what, though.

They get that I don't want to lose you.

I have to fight for you.

Whatever it takes.

Our program treated me like human garbage.

And tonight you suggested

that if I had just stayed calm and collected

and continued to suck it up, that I might have--

No, I didn't say that. I-I didn't.

I hate the way they treated you.

I just miss you, okay?

I miss you.

I hate sleeping without you.

Nothing's fun without you.

♪ Oh, baby, I miss you so much ♪

When I left, I was a mess, and it was easier for me

to leave the whole chapter behind me.

But I spent so many nights...

♪ And I'll begin, don't touch me now ♪

...wishing you'd show up on my doorstep.

What changed?

♪ And this is springtime

Nothing.

Nothing's changed.

Trey.

Simone Audrey Griffith, I've loved you

since the day I met you and-- and every single day since.

♪ I've fallen into the blue

You're my favorite person.

You're my North Star.

Alright, you're my past and you're my future.

Baby, put your ring back on and marry me.

Marry me for real this time.

♪ I'll learn to let go of you ♪

♪ But don't try to stop me

Yeah? Yeah.

Yeah? Yes, yes, yes.

♪ Don't try to stop me

♪ 'Cause I'm in recovery

Your pie was the best thing that happened tonight, hands down.

In fairness, the bar was very low.

You gonna tell me what this is about,

or are you gonna make me drag it out of you?

The resentment.

I've been sensing it on you for a while now and...

I can smell it on you like cheap cologne.

Yeah, well, my cologne is cheap, so maybe it's just that.

I do not want to end up like Hunt and Altman.

Before you went to work, we were doing so well.

Wait-- I know you're not saying

you resent me going back to work.

I do.

I don't know what I expected,

but it wasn't that.

Look, I am aware that I sound like an ass.

I'm working on it.

And I hate myself for even saying it,

but I-I've never done this before, Miranda.

I've never parented a little girl.

A-And Pru's lost so much in her life.

I just-- I worry, you know,

that-- that I'm not doing it right.

And I-- I miss you.

Okay, I know starting up this clinic

has been a big undertaking,

but I am prioritizing our family--

I mean, I'm limiting my hours in the OR,

I'm barely taking weekend calls,

I'm-- I'm delegating to Wilson--

But now you're saying that isn't enough?

Can we please just go home now?

God, yes.

This is sad.

I can fix it.

♪ I got the feels for ya ♪

♪ That's how I know it's real ♪

Why?

♪ Real love ♪

Just get up!

♪ Yeah, I got the feels for ya, woo ♪

♪ That's how I know it's real love ♪

♪ Real love ♪

Hey!

♪ I got the feels for ya ♪

Come on.

♪ That's how I know it's real love ♪

♪ Real love ♪

♪ I got the feels for ya ♪

♪ Yeah ♪

♪ That's how I know it's real, real love ♪

♪ Yeah, I got the feels for ya, woo ♪

♪ That's how I know it's real love ♪

♪ Real love ♪

♪ I got the feels ♪

♪ Feels, feels, feels ♪

♪ Do you feel the love? ♪

♪ Ooh, yeaaah ♪

Woman on P.A.: Dr. Cohen to Radiology.

Dr. Harlene Cohen to Radiology.

Brought you these.

It's kinda a weird breakfast, but, uh...

Here.

Thank you.

For, um...

everything.

Kwan?

Kwan.

I explicitly took you off of Natalia's case.

Okay, look.

You want me to pretend that

medical bills don't exist?

That the system doesn't force people

to choose between bankruptcy and death?

Dr. Kwan, that--If my mom could've divorced me,

she would've done it in a heartbeat,

but I opened up credit cards to pay for her care,

and every time I get a bill,

it feels like a noose around my neck.

Forgive me for not wanting

to put someone else through that.

Dr. Kwan, I...

Um...

How'd it go last night?

Is everything okay?

Nothing is okay. Everyone is in pain.

Maggie, what's going on?

When you and Catherine were

going through your rough patch

where you couldn't, um,

speak to each other without fighting,

how did you know that it was just a rough patch

and it wasn't something more...

malignant?

Well, I think with-- with Catherine, uh,

we always still had the love underneath it all.

When that dries up,

then it's time to reevaluate.

Surgical intervention doesn't always work.

Look, Maggie, whatever's going on,

you and Winston have so much love between you

that whatever it is, you'll work through it.

I know you will.

Thank you. Thank you.

♪ Like trying to find a missing person ♪

Sometimes, despite our schooling and centuries

of medical advancement, the disease wins.

♪ From the inside out

Well, looks like Whitney and her wife made up.

Well, babies don't give you much room to hold a grudge.

♪ Like trying to dive into a river ♪

You cut your hair.

I discovered I have a lot of free time during the day

when all my patients cancel on me.

Looks nice.

♪ Like holding candles with no matches ♪

Oh! I can't believe you two are still here. Ugh.

Yeah, Scout and I got board-certified

in OB-GYN last night and delivered a baby. Mm.

Nope, not joking.

How was your surgery?

It was fine. It was just a long night.

Yeah.

I'm gonna slip out the back

and try to get - home this time. - Mm-hmm.

- Bye. - Okay.

He just... held a laboring mom's hand for hours

and took care of her like it was his job,

all while in the midst of a major personal crisis.

He's perfect.

How do you just let someone like that go?

I've also had a long night.

He wasn't perfect for me.

But maybe he's perfect for you?

It takes over our cells one by one,

until the damage can no longer be reversed.

I didn't wake you, did I?

No, I was just... resting my eyes.

Yeah.

I just had the longest, strangest, saddest night

and wanted to see your face.

Well, here it is.

Will you fly here real quick

and hit the button on the coffee maker?

When that happens,

all you can do is take the loss and move on.

♪ I keep searching

♪ For something

I'm so sorry. I-I didn't know.

Forget it.

But when you can change the course of someone's disease,

you can change the course of their life.

You missed a helluva party last night, Millin.

Griffith's got some big news.

Wow! Congratulations.

You all are late for rounds

and being hungover is no excuse.

I need clothes off and scrubs on.

Get up!

Oh, go fall on a lightsaber.

♪ All the broken puzzle pieces ♪

It's enough to make you want to come back the next day

and do it all over again.

♪ That used to fit together somehow ♪

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