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♪ OOH ♪

♪ ALL YOU GOT TO KNO-O-W

IS WHO YOU ARE ♪

♪ OOH ♪

♪ ULTIMATE...

CONSCIOUSNESS ♪

♪ OOH-OOH ♪

♪ NOW YOU ARE JESUS ♪

♪ AND I FEEL YOU'RE READY

FOR THAT ♪

ALL THAT STORY, MAN...

♪ OOH-OOH ♪

IS JUST DEAD.

IT WAS NO ACCIDENT THAT THOSE

PEOPLE SHOWED UP AND GATHERED

AROUND JIM BAKER, FATHER YOD,

YAHOWHA.

THE SOURCE FAMILY WAS A GROUP

OF PEOPLE WHO WERE DESTINED

TO BE TOGETHER.

AND NOBODY CAME TO FATHER.

WE WERE ALL MAGNETICALLY DRAWN

TO HIM.

I WALKED OUT ON EVERYTHING,

AND IT MEANT NOTHING BECAUSE

WHAT I'M WAS GOING INTO WAS SO

INCREDIBLE.

ALL I DID WAS I LOOKED AT

HIM, AND HIS EYES WERE LIKE

BURNING INTO ME.

AND IMMEDIATELY MY HEART

STARTS POUNDING OUT OF MY CHEST.

EVERYTHING TURNED WHITE

AROUND HIS HEAD, AND IT WAS

THE VOICE OF GOD SPEAKING

DIRECTLY TO ME.

AND I KNOW THIS SOUNDS

INSANE, BUT I SAW LIGHTNING

BOLTS COMING OUT OF HIS EARS.

AS SOON AS YOU WANTED

SOMETHING, IT WAS THERE.

AND YOU WERE THERE WITH THE MOST

BEAUTIFUL YOUNG WOMEN IN THE

WORLD.

IT WAS TRULY UTOPIAN.

IT WAS LIKE WE WERE SPOILED.

WE HAD THIS SUPERRICH FATHER

THAT WAS THE SMARTEST GUY IN

THE WORLD, THE STRONGEST GUY

IN THE WORLD, THE MOST

BENEVOLENT GUY IN THE WORLD

AND TOTALLY LOVED US.

IT WAS LIKE BEING IN THIS DREAM.

IT WAS CLEARLY THE MOST

INTERESTING GAME IN TOWN.

THERE WAS NO QUESTION ABOUT

THAT.

IF YOU WANTED TO CREATE

A SORT OF ARCHETYPE OF THE

ULTIMATE EARLY '70's SOUTHERN

CALIFORNIA SPIRITUAL CULT,

YOU COULD DO NO BETTER THAN

THE SOURCE FAMILY.

IT WAS ALMOST LIKE A SURREAL

EXPRESSION OF ALL THESE PECULIAR

CURRENTS THAT WERE IN THIS

PARTICULAR TIME AND PLACE...

HEALTH FOOD, A MIXTURE OF

EASTERN AND WESTERN MYSTICISM,

A KIND OF HIGH, HEDONIC STYLE.

THEY TRANSFORMED SEX, DRUGS,

AND ROCK 'N' ROLL INTO A GENUINE

RELIGIOUS FORMATION.

IN THE FAMILY, I WAS KNOWN

AS OM-NE THE AQUARIAN.

MY NAME IS DAMIAN PAUL,

ALSO KNOWN AS YAHOWHA #3.

MY NAME WAS ZINARU IN

THE FAMILY.

MY NAME IS

HARVEST MOON AQUARIAN.

MY NAME IS OCTAVIUS AQUARIAN.

I'M DJIN AQUARIAN.

I WAS NAMED ORBIT...

ORBIT THE AQUARIAN.

GOSH, YOU GOT SUCH A GREAT NAME,

AND I GOT A DORKY NAME... ORBIT.

I WAS KNOWN AS GALAXY IN

THE FAMILY.

AND I'M ELECTRICITY AQUARIAN.

I'M ISIS AQUARIAN.

I FEEL THAT THAT'S MY ENERGY

MORE THAN CHARLENE PETERS.

I WAS MAGUS THE AQUARIAN

IN THE SOURCE FAMILY.

I'M A VERY CURIOUS PERSON.

ANYTHING THAT SEEMED INTERESTING

TO ME, I PURSUED.

IT WAS 1965, AND I WAS AT

HARVARD.

IT WAS A PRETTY PHENOMENAL TIME.

TIM LEARY AND DICK ALPERT,

WHO BECAME BABA RAM DAS, WERE

TWO OF MY PROFESSORS THERE.

I WAS INTERESTED IN

EXPERIMENTATIONS, AND I ACTUALLY

WOUND UP GETTING KICKED OUT OF

THERE THE FOLLOWING YEAR.

AT THE TIME, THERE WAS THE

ANTI-VIETNAM MOVEMENT, THERE WAS

THE CIVIL RIGHTS MOVEMENT, AND

I WAS STARTING TO GET INTERESTED

IN THE SPIRITUAL MOVEMENT.

I BOUGHT THIS BOOK CALLED

"SPIRITUAL COMMUNITIES OF

THE SOUTHWESTERN UNITED STATES,"

AND ONE OF THEM TURNED OUT WAS

WHERE RAM DAS HAD WOUND UP, AND

THERE WAS THE 3HO, WHICH WAS

YOGI BHAJAN, AND I GOT TURNED

ON TO SWAMI SATCHIDANANDA.

IT WAS LIKE BEING ON THIS

MAGICAL RIDE OF GOING FROM PLACE

TO PLACE, MEETING PERSON AFTER

PERSON.

AND WE DROVE OUT TO

CALIFORNIA...

AND WE STOPPED AT THIS PLACE

CALLED THE SOURCE RESTAURANT,

WHICH WAS SUPPOSED TO BE

THE BIG, HAPPENING RESTAURANT

IN LOS ANGELES.

THERE WERE ALL THESE BEAUTIFUL

YOUNG WOMEN THAT SURROUNDED US,

AND THEY SAID, "NOW YOU HAVE TO

COME AND YOU HAVE TO MEET

FATHER."

I CLIMBED UP THIS LADDER INTO

THE ATTIC OF THE SOURCE

RESTAURANT, AND DOWN AT THE END

OF THIS LONG ROOM WAS THIS GUY.

HE JUST LOOKED LIKE THE ULTIMATE

GURU FATHER FIGURE.

AND THE ONLY THING THAT I COULD

THINK OF IS THAT IF YOU'RE IN

FRONT OF A GURU, YOU KISS THEIR

FEET, AND SO I BENT OVER, AND

I KISSED HIS TOES, AND HE LOOKED

DOWN AT ME, AND HE SAID,

"FAR FUCKING OUT."

♪ JUST ONE LOOK AT YOU ♪

♪ AND I CAN SEE... ♪

AND HE SAID, "YOU ARE MY SON,

AND I AM YOUR FATHER."

AND I SAID, "YES."

♪ ...ALL ETERNITY ♪

♪ BUT YOU NEVER CRIED JUST

FOR YOURSELF ♪

♪ YOU WERE LOOKING OUT FOR

SOMEONE ELSE ♪

♪ AND NOW YOU'RE FREE ♪

THE SOURCE WAS NOT JUST

SPIRITUAL PURSUIT.

IT WAS A LOT OF YOUNG KIDS WHO

NEED A FATHER AND A DISCIPLINE,

AND AN EXAMPLE, AND, BOY, WAS

HE.

HE COULD KICK ANYBODY'S ASS.

YO, HEY-UH, HEY.

YO, HEY-UH, HEY.

YO, HEY-UH, HEY.

YO, HEY-UH, HEY.

YO, HEY-UH, HEY.

YO, HEY-UH, HEY.

YO, HEY-UH, HEY.

HE WAS A MILLIONAIRE MULTIPLE

TIMES.

HE SHOT AIRPLANES OUT OF

THE SKY, HE KILLED PEOPLE.

YA HO...

JIM'S FATHER...

LEFT WHEN HE WAS A BABY.

AND SO HE LOOKED UPON MY FATHER

FOR GUIDANCE.

AND MY FATHER WAS PAUL BRAGG,

THE ORIGINATOR OF

HEALTH-FOOD STORES, AND DAD

AND HE, THEY WOULD GO HIKING.

THEY TALKED EVERYTHING OVER,

AND MY FATHER WAS SO PROUD

OF JIM BAKER.

HE WAS AN EXTRAORDINARY KID

THAT THE AGE OF 12, HE WAS NAMED

AMERICA'S STRONGEST BOY.

HE WAS A JUDO CHAMPION.

HE HAD LIVED THROUGH

WORLD WAR II.

HE HAD DONE HAND-TO-HAND COMBAT.

AND, YOU KNOW, HE WAS 6'4",

SO HANDSOME.

HE HAD A CHARISMA.

THE WOMEN... OH, THE WOMEN.

DID THEY LOVE HIM.

JIM BAKER WAS A LEGEND IN

HOLLYWOOD IN THE RESTAURANT

BUSINESS.

HE HAD OPENED THE AWARE INN

RESTAURANT ON SUNSET BOULEVARD,

WHICH WAS ONE OF THE FIRST

NATURAL-FOOD RESTAURANTS IN

THE UNITED STATES.

HE HAD THE DISCOVERY INN

IN TOPANGA.

HE OPENED UP THE OLD WORLD

RESTAURANT, WHICH BECAME A VERY

SUCCESSFUL CHAIN.

I WAS AT THE OLD WORLD.

I WORKED THERE AS THE MANAGER

DURING THE TIME THAT JIM HAD

GONE TO JAIL.

SO JIM HAD A BACKGROUND

AS A KILLER.

THERE WERE NEWS CLIPPINGS THAT

HE HAD ACTUALLY KILLED TWO GUYS

WITH HIS BARE HANDS.

HE KNEW VIOLENCE.

HE KNEW THE DARK SIDE OF

HUMANITY.

IN 1963, HE GOT INTO ANOTHER

PROBLEM.

IT WAS WITH A TV ACTRESS

AND HER WEALTHY HUSBAND.

JIM DISPATCHED HIM WITH TWO

KARATE CHOPS TO THE THROAT

AND A BULLET TO THE HEAD.

FATHER TOLD US EVERYTHING ABOUT

HIS LIFE NO MATTER HOW UGLY.

HE TOLD US ALL ABOUT THE

BANK ROBBERIES THAT FUNDED

THE AWARE INN AND THE SOURCE.

WE THINK HE ROBBED ANYWHERE

BETWEEN 2 AND 11 BANKS.

THE MUSIC, THE WHOLE HIPPIE

LIFESTYLE KICKED IN.

JIM ENDED UP MEETING A FRENCH

GIRL NAMED DORA.

HE STARTED DOING ACID.

THERE WAS MARIJUANA, AND HE LOST

A LOT OF HIS CONTROL.

JIM DID END UP DOING A LOT

OF SPEED... IN THOSE DAYS,

IT WAS BLACK BEAUTIES...

AND HE WOULDN'T SLEEP FOR DAYS.

JIM WOULD COME IN AT NIGHT,

EMPTY THE CASH REGISTERS, AND

THEY HAD NO MONEY TO OPEN UP

IN THE MORNING.

AND IT JUST SPIRALED

COMPLETELY OUT OF CONTROL

AT THAT POINT.

THE INVESTORS STEPPED IN, AND

THEY AXED HIM RIGHT OUT OF HIS

OWN RESTAURANT.

AND I THINK THAT WHAT HE DID

WAS TO SAY I HAVE TO DO

SOMETHING WITH MY LIFE.

HE STARTED TO THINK ABOUT

HOW HE COULD BETTER HIMSELF.

ON APRIL 1, 1969, HE OPENED

UP THE SOURCE RESTAURANT.

IT WAS A VEGETARIAN RESTAURANT

ON SUNSET BOULEVARD, WHICH

BECAME VERY SUCCESSFUL.

♪ GOOD FOOD ♪

♪ FOOD FOR THE HUNGRY CHILDREN ♪

♪ WHO, WHO ♪

♪ WHO WILL BE FED? ♪

THE SOURCE RESTAURANT WAS ONE

OF THE FIRST HEALTH-FOOD

RESTAURANTS IN THE COUNTRY,

AND AT ONE TIME, IT WAS WRITTEN

UP IN THE TRADE MAGAZINES AS

MAKING MORE MONEY PER SQUARE

FOOT THAN ANY RESTAURANT IN

THE COUNTRY.

♪ ...FOR FEEDING ♪

♪ WHO, WHO ♪

♪ WHO WILL BE FED? ♪

♪ GOOD FOOD ♪

♪ FOOD FOR THE HUNGRY ♪

AND THEY HAD THE BEST SALADS

EVER.

I MEAN, THAT WAS INCREDIBLE

FOOD, AND ALL THE PEOPLE WERE,

LIKE, GORGEOUS.

♪ COME TO THE SOURCE

FOR GOOD FOOD ♪

YOU COULD BE IN THERE,

AND THERE WAS GOLDIE HAWN.

IT'S LIKE, OKAY, WHATEVER,

ALTHOUGH WE WERE VERY AWARE

THAT SHE WAS SITTING THERE

EATING HER JONI MITCHELL.

I CAN REMEMBER STEVE McQUEEN

COMING IN ONE MORNING, AND HE

SAID, "OH, YOU'RE NOT OPENED

YET, " AND I SAID, " WELL, YOU CAN

GO IN THE KITCHEN AND MAKE

YOURSELF A SANDWICH."

AND I SAT AT A TABLE WITH HIM

'CAUSE I WANTED TO ASK HIM

QUESTIONS ABOUT JIM BAKER 'CAUSE

THEY WERE GOOD BUDDIES.

♪ LA-LA-LA-LA, LA-LA-LA-LA ♪

I REMEMBER ALL THE GUYS FROM

THE GROUP YES PULLING UP INTO

THE PARKING LOT IN FIVE SEPARATE

LIMOUSINES.

♪ LA, LA, LA ♪

♪ LA-LA-LA-LA-LA-LA-LA ♪

♪ LA-LA-LA-LA ♪

♪ LA-LA-LA-LA-LA ♪

JOHN LENNON COMING IN TWO

NIGHTS IN A ROW, AND I BROUGHT

THEM OUT TWO HIGH-PROTEIN SALADS

AND TWO HIGH-PROTEIN DRINKS WITH

ORANGE JUICE.

I'M GONNA... I'M GONNA HAVE

THE ALFALFA SPROUTS AND A PLATE

OF MASHED YEAST.

YOU HAVE FROM THE MID '60s ON

THIS KIND OF UNRAVELING OF

CONVENTIONAL SOCIAL MODES.

YOU HAVE PSYCHEDELICS ENTERING

IN AND REWRITING PEOPLE'S MINDS.

ALL OF THE POLITICAL TENSIONS

OF THE TIME LEAD TO THIS

EXPLOSIVE DIONYSIAN ENERGY.

IT LEADS TO A LOT OF VERY

PUZZLED, VERY CONFUSED, VERY

LOST PEOPLE.

AND WHEN YOU HIT THE EARLY '70s,

AND, INDEED, THINGS ARE STARTING

TO SPIRAL DOWN THE TOILET,

PEOPLE START SEARCHING BIG TIME,

WHICH IS WHY SO MANY PEOPLE TURN

TO INTENSE FORMS OF RELIGIOUS

AND SPIRITUAL PRACTICE.

TO SOME, THE NEW SPIRITUAL

INFLUENCE FROM THE EAST IS

A THREATENING INTRUSION.

THEY ARE ALARMED WHEN THEIR

CHILDREN RENOUNCE THEIR WAY

OF LIFE AND FOLLOW TEACHINGS

WHICH SEEM SO ALIEN.

COULD THEY HAVE BEEN

BRAINWASHED?

♪ HOW LONG IN TI-I-ME... ♪

SO IT'S NO ACCIDENT THAT

THE SOURCE FAMILY GROWS OUT

OF THE SOURCE RESTAURANT, THIS

EXPERIMENT IN HEALTHY, ORGANIC

LIVING.

THAT KIND OF LIFESTYLE CARRIED

WITH IT A LIFE OF MORE CLARITY

AND MORE PLEASURE AND MORE

HEALING.

♪ YOU KNOW YOU DON'T HAVE

TO BE ♪

I REALIZED THAT I HAD TO

CHANGE MY LIFESTYLE BECAUSE

I WAS GOING TO DIE IF I DIDN'T

JUST LIKE SO MANY CASUALTIES

OF THE '60s.

I WAS ON THE ROAD FOR ABOUT

FIVE YEARS WITH A BAND CALLED

THE FIELDS.

WORKING WITH THE DOORS AND

LED ZEPPELIN, I FOUND MYSELF

PRETTY BURNT OUT.

I DECIDED TO QUIT THE BAND AND

DEVOTE MYSELF TO BEING HEALTHY

AND DOING YOGA AND GO TO WORK

AT THE SOURCE RESTAURANT.

♪ AND IT SEEMS LIKE A CHORE ♪

♪ JUST TO HOLD THAT FROWN ♪

♪ WELL, BABY... ♪

A LOT OF THE CHILDREN OFF

THE SUNSET STRIP, WHEN THEY

CAME, THEY WERE VERY YOUNG.

THEY WERE UNDERAGE, YOU KNOW,

BUT IT WAS THE NATURE OF THE

TIMES.

♪ IT'S TIME TO MAKE THAT

CHANGE ♪

MY NAME IS NANCY HIRSCH,

AND I WAS HEAVEN.

I WAS 12 YEARS OLD AND LIVING

IN LOS ANGELES, AND I WOULD

SNEAK OUT AFTER SCHOOL AND JUST

GO TO THE SOURCE AND WORK.

♪ MM-MM-MM ♪

♪ OOH ♪

JIM BAKER WAS THIS

BIGGER-THAN-LIFE MAN,

CHARISMATIC, AND HIM AND ROBIN

WERE HUSBAND AND WIFE, SO I WAS

MESMERIZED BY THEIR ENERGY

TOGETHER.

♪ ...YOUR LIGHT AND

SHI-I-NE ♪

♪ STEP INTO... ♪

ROBIN WAS 19 YEARS OLD AT

THE TIME, JUST ABSOLUTELY,

INCREDIBLY BEAUTIFUL, SPIRITUAL

SOUL.

♪ ...AND SHI-I-NE ♪

MY NAME IS ROBIN BAKER,

AND I WAS MOTHER AH-OM IN

THE FAMILY.

I NEVER EXPERIENCED LOVE IN

MY LIFE LIKE I DID WITH

JIM BAKER.

♪ I WANT TO WAKE UP ♪

I NEVER KNEW THAT ANYBODY

COULD POSSIBLY LOVE A PERSON

LIKE THAT.

HE OPENED ME UP TO A WORLD THAT

WAS FILLED WITH LIGHT AND LOVE

AND PROTECTION AND

CONSCIOUSNESS.

ROBIN LIVED IN MY BUILDING.

HER MOTHER AND MY MOTHER WERE

FRIENDS.

ROBIN WAS ALWAYS SICK, AND SHE

ALMOST DIED.

BUT THEN WHEN SHE MET JIM BAKER,

HE SAVED HER LIFE.

HE PUT HER ON A REALLY GOOD

DIET, AND SHE WAS REALLY DOING

WELL.

HE WAS MY NIGHT IN SHINING

ARMOR.

AND HE TOLD ME EVERYTHING ABOUT

HIMSELF... ABOUT HIS VIOLENT

NATURE AND HOW HE'D BECOME

SPIRITUAL AND HOW THIS HAD SAVED

HIM AND THAT HE WAS A DIFFERENT

PERSON NOW.

♪ SWEET LI-I-GHT ♪

♪ FILL MY CUP FULL ♪

I USED TO GO TO THE SOURCE

ALL THE TIME, AND I'D SEE JIM

THERE, AND IT'S WHEN A GOT A BIT

FRIENDLY WITH HIM BECAUSE WE GOT

OUR POT FROM THE SAME DEALER.

BUT THEN HE MET YOGI BHAJAN...

AND HE BECAME ENAMORED WITH

YOGI BHAJAN.

BHAJAN WAS MAKING A MARK FOR

HIMSELF HERE.

HE HAD HOUSE IN CHEVIOT HILLS

THAT HAD A GARAGE FULL OF

ROLLS-ROYCES.

JIM HAD AN AWAKENING

SPIRITUALLY THAT AFFECTED HIM

IN EVERY WAY.

HE BECAME SOFTER, GENTLER,

AND HE SAID, "GREAT THINGS ARE

HAPPENING IN MY LIFE, PATRICIA."

ONE DAY WHEN I CAME IN, HE

HAD A HUGE PICTURE OF

YOGI BHAJAN OVER HIS FIREPLACE.

I SAID, "SO WHEN ARE YOU GOING

TO PUT YOUR PICTURE UP THERE

INSTEAD?"

AND HE SAID, "I WOULD NEVER DO

A THING LIKE THAT.

HE IS A GREAT GURU.

I LEARN A LOT FROM HIM."

SIX MONTHS LATER WHEN I CAME IN,

THERE WAS HIS PICTURE.

HE BEGAN TO BECOME THE

EARTHLY SPIRITUAL FATHER.

WE SAT TOGETHER IN FRONT OF ALL

THESE MASTERS AND SAGES AND

PEOPLE LIKE MANLY P. HALL AND

ALAN WATTS AND KRISHNAMURTI.

WE DECIDED TO PICK THE BEST OUT

OF EVERY RELIGION, PHILOSOPHY,

THEOLOGY, AND TURN IT INTO

THE FOUNDATION OF OUR SPIRITUAL

FAMILY.

NEW YEAR'S EVE WAS MY TURNING

POINT WITH EVERYTHING THAT I HAD

PUT IN AND THE CONSCIOUSNESS

THAT I HAD WORKED HARD TO

ACHIEVE AND THE PROMISES THAT

WERE MADE OF ILLUMINATION IN

EVERYTHING ELSE.

THE SUNSET STRIP WAS HORNS

HONKING, PEOPLE WITH SHAVING

CREAM.

AND I WALKED UP TO THE FRONT

DOOR OF THE SOURCE RESTAURANT,

AND I WAS TO PICK UP JIM BAKER.

WELL, HE WAS STANDING THERE WITH

HIS EYES UP TO HIS THIRD EYE,

AND HE WAS KIND OF WEAVING

A LITTLE BIT, HAD HIS SHAWL

AROUND HIM, AND I LOOKED UP

AT HIM, AND I THOUGHT HE WAS

WEAVING, SO I TOUCHED HIM ON

THE SHOULDER, AND THE SECOND

I TOUCHED HIM, MY KUNDALINI SHOT

UP MY SPINE.

♪ AWAKEN, AWAKEN, AWAKEN ♪

I TURN AROUND, AND I LOOKED,

AND IT ALL DISAPPEARED.

THERE WAS NOTHING.

THERE WAS NO SUNSET STRIP,

THERE WAS NO RESTAURANT,

THERE WAS NO NOTHING.

ALL I SAW WAS CLOUDS AND ANGELS

AND MUSIC OF THE SPHERES, AND MY

EYES WERE WIDE OPEN LIKE THIS,

AND I'M GOING...

AND HE STARTED LAUGHING, AND HIS

LAUGHTER WAS LIKE THUNDER

ROLLING IN THE HEAVENS.

♪ DON'T BE AFRAID TO FIND

YOUR SOUL ♪

♪ DON'T BE AFRAID TO FIND

YOUR SOUL... ♪

SO I KNEW AT THAT POINT THAT

HE WAS MY EARTHLY SPIRITUAL

FATHER.

♪ AWAKEN, WAKEN FROM YOUR

SLEEP ♪

♪ AWAKEN, WAKEN FROM YOUR

SLEEP ♪

♪ AWAKEN, WAKEN FROM YOUR

SLEEP ♪

♪ AWAKEN, WAKEN FROM YOUR

SLEEP ♪

ROBIN PUT A BLACKBOARD IN

FRONT OF THE RESTAURANT AND

WROTE "THIS SUNDAY AT

11:00 A.M., JIM BAKER WILL GIVE

A CLASS IN MEDITATION.

DON'T BE LATE!"

AND I THOUGHT, "HMM. MEDITATION.

I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO TRY THAT."

SO I CAME THAT VERY FIRST

SUNDAY, AND I WAS NOT ON LSD,

BUT I HAD QUITE A SPIRITUAL

EXPERIENCE.

IT WAS A POWERFUL,

PSYCHEDELIC EXPERIENCE

IN A SPIRITUAL SENSE.

RATHER THAN LOOKING AT HIM,

I WAS LOOKING INTO HIM.

FATHER SAID YOU CAN DO

ANYTHING YOU WANT TO DO IN LIFE

AS LONG AS YOU'RE KIND.

AND THAT WAS THE LAW THAT WE

LIVED BY.

Both: ♪ IT'S GOOD TO BE

HOME ♪

♪ DIFFERENT PLACES, BUT FAMILIAR

SOULS ♪

♪ THIS FEELING GROWS ♪

♪ ON ITS OWN ♪

♪ WITH THE FLOW ♪

♪ I'M RESTING INSIDE ♪

♪ FROM THE CHANGES THAT HAVE

RULED MY LIFE ♪

♪ AT LAST I FOUND ME SOME PEACE

IN THE BACK OF MY MIND ♪

♪ I'VE BEEN GONE FOR SO LONG

FROM THIS PLACE I CALL HOME ♪

PRETTY SOON, EVERY SUNDAY

WAS SUCH A SPECIAL EVENT.

Both: ♪ BUT THERE'S NONE

IN THIS WORLD... ♪

WE COULD TELL THAT THE PEOPLE

THAT WERE COMING WERE ON

THE PATH, SEEKING TO BECOME

SPIRITUALLY ENLIGHTENED, SO WE

STARTED TO HIRE A FEW OF THEM,

AND THEY STARTED TO STAY, AND

THESE WERE PEOPLE THAT WE COULD

TRUST.

Both: ♪ ...THROUGH THE SOUNDS

OF MUSIC ♪

♪ I COULD REACH YOUR MINDS ♪

THEY WERE FISHING FOR PEOPLE

TO BRING IN AND TO MAKE PART

OF WHAT IT WAS THAT THEY WERE

DOING.

AND JIM INSISTED THAT THEY

DIDN'T CALL HIM JIM ANYMORE,

PEOPLE WHO KNEW HIM.

I MEAN, COME ON.

FATHER YOD?

GIVE ME A BREAK.

YOD?

GIVE ME A BREAK.

WE WERE LIVING IN VANS AND

LITTLE APARTMENTS, AND ONE DAY

FATHER SAID, "THAT'S IT."

HE SAID, "YOU'RE SPENDING ALL

THIS MONEY ON RENT EVERYWHERE.

WE COULD TAKE THAT MONEY AND ALL

LIVE TOGETHER," AND HE FOUND

THE HOME THAT HAD BEEN THE

ORIGINAL HOME OF THE CHANDLER

FAMILY OF THE L.A. TIMES,

AND WE MOVED IN THERE.

♪ WE'VE GOT A NICE

LITTLE PLACE WE CAN GO ♪

♪ WHERE EVERYTHING FLOWS

AND EVERYTHING GOES ♪

♪ TAKE A DEEP BREATH ♪

♪ DON'T YOU JUST KNOW ♪

♪ IT'S HOME? ♪

♪ WHAT FINER PLACE COULD THERE

BE? ♪

♪ SUN IN OUR EYES ♪

♪ WE'LL LIVE IN THE TREES ♪

♪ FATHER IS RIGHT ♪

♪ LIFE IS A BREEZE AT HOME ♪

I THINK THAT I HAD ALWAYS

LONGED TO BE PART OF A REALLY

CLOSE FAMILY WHERE EVERYBODY

JUST LOVED EACH OTHER.

SO I HAD ALL THESE BROTHERS

AND SISTERS, AND I HAD A FATHER,

AND I HAD A MOTHER.

ROBIN, HIS WIFE, WAS OUR MOTHER.

IT WAS JUST EVERYTHING JUST

SEEMED MAGICAL.

♪ HOME ♪

PEOPLE WOULD JUST SHOW UP,

AND YOU DIDN'T KNOW MUCH ABOUT

THEIR BACKGROUNDS.

PEOPLE COULD HAVE SHOWN UP THERE

THAT WERE ON WITNESS PROTECTION

PROGRAMS OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT,

AND YOU COULD JUST DISAPPEAR

INTO THIS GROUP.

SHORTLY AFTER WE MOVED IN

THERE, THERE WAS A GREAT BIG

PIANO IN THE FRONT ROOM, AND

MUSICIANS STARTED TO COME.

THERE WERE A LOT OF PEOPLE

THAT CAME AND WENT.

I THINK OUR NUMBERS LIST GOES

INTO THE HUNDREDS.

THERE WAS ANDRé PREVIN'S

DAUGHTER, THE FAMOUS PRODUCER

AND COMPOSER AND WRITER.

SKY SAXON WAS A ROCK STAR,

AND HE HAD A HIT SONG OR TWO

IN THE SEEDS, AND GIRLS REALLY

LIKED HIM.

AND ADLA, WHO WAS THE NIECE

OF TOM BRADLEY, THE MAYOR OF

LOS ANGELES.

MY FRIEND BUD CORT JOINED,

AND HE WAS REALLY DEDICATED

FOR A WHILE THERE.

HE THOUGHT HE'D FOUND NIRVANA.

WHEN I HIT L.A., I ENDED UP

HANGING OUT IN THIS HOUSEHOLD

WHERE ROB REINER AND

RICHARD DREYFUSS LIVED IN

LAUREL CANYON, AND I MET THIS

VERY FAMOUS ROCK PHOTOGRAPHER,

RON RAFFAELLI.

AND THAT WAS THE START OF

A THREE-YEAR LOVE AFFAIR THAT

WAS VERY INTENSE.

WE WERE ENGAGED, AND WE WERE

GOING TO GET MARRIED AND HAVE

KIDS.

RON AND I WERE CASTING FOR

A PHOTO SHOOT, AND HE SAID,

"I NEED JESUS... LOTS OF

JESUSES."

I DROVE DOWN TO THE SOURCE, AND

THERE'S ALL THESE GREAT-LOOKING

MEN IN WHITE ROBES WITH THEIR

LONG HAIR, AND I SAID,

"IS JIM BAKER HERE?"

SO OUT COMES THIS MAN...

AND I JUST LOOKED AT HIM, AND

I JUST WENT, "OH, MY GOD."

AND HE JUST GAVE ME A BIG HUG.

HE JUST SAID, "WELCOME.

WELCOME HOME."

WHAT I JUST SAW HELD MORE FOR ME

THAN ANYTHING THAT I HAD, AND

RON WOULD NOT COME WITH ME.

AT THE TIME, I WAS SHOOTING

GROUPS LIKE THE BEACH BOYS,

LED ZEPPELIN,

THE ROLLING STONES, THE DOORS,

JEFFERSON AIRPLANE.

AND YOU THINK I'M GOING TO GIVE

UP MY CAREER AND MY ART AND WAIT

ON TABLES?

SHE HAD NOTHING.

SHE DIDN'T HAVE A BANK ACCOUNT.

SHE HAD GIVEN HIM EVERYTHING SHE

OWNED!

THEY WERE JUST ODD.

THEY WERE LIKE LITTLE

AUTOMATONS, ROBOTIC IN SOME

RESPECT THAT THERE WAS SOMEBODY

PULLING THE STRINGS.

♪ WE ARE THE SAGES ♪

♪ REINCARNATED ♪

♪ UP TO OUR OLD TRICKS

AGA-A-IN ♪

IT WAS NO SECRET THAT IT WAS

A CULT.

♪ WE ARE HIS SOUL ♪

♪ HIS SOUL AND OURS ARE ONE ♪

♪ WE ARE... ♪

I WAS 100% YES.

IT'S LIKE I HAD JUMPED INTO

A 25-FOOT POOL AND I COULDN'T

SWIM.

BUT I HAD JUMPED IN.

I JUST... I WAS HUNGERING FOR

IT.

IT ALMOST FELT LIKE

A CHANGELING, LIKE SOMEBODY HAD

COME IN AND TAKEN MY SISTER AND

REPLACED HER WITH A SLIGHTLY

VACANT HIPPIE.

MY DAD AND ELENA HAD A

REALLY, REALLY, REALLY TOUGH

RELATIONSHIP, AND HE WAS A

HARD-ASS.

AND THEN, SURPRISE, SURPRISE.

SHE HAS A WONDERFUL, LOVING

FATHER WHO ACCEPTS HER AND

LOVES HER.

YOU KNOW, I DON'T FEEL LIKE I

HAD TO GET A GRADUATE DEGREE

IN PSYCHOLOGY TO KNOW WHY

THE SOURCE FAMILY WAS MEANINGFUL

TO MY SISTER.

IN THAT ERA, IT WAS COMMON

TO NOT HAVE A CLOSE RELATIONSHIP

WITH YOUR FATHER, AND I THINK

MANY OF US CRAVED HAVING A

LOVING, PATERNAL BEING TO REALLY

SEE US FULLY FOR WHO WE WERE.

♪ LITTLE BIRD, KEEP FLYING ♪

♪ CAN'T YOU SEE I'M DYING? ♪

WE LIQUIDATED A VICTORIAN

FLAT COMPLETE WITH ANTIQUES

FRONT TO BACK, FANTASTIC STEREO

EQUIPMENT, THREE VEHICLES ALL

IN THREE DAYS.

AND THE NEXT NIGHT, I HAD MY NEW

JOB.

I WAS WASHING DISHES IN

THE SOURCE RESTAURANT.

WE WENT TO THE DEPARTMENT

OF SOCIAL SECURITY, AND WE ALL

APPLIED FOR NAMES AS THE

AQUARIAN FAMILY, AND SO I WAS

GONNA BE FROM THEN ON MAGUS,

MIDDLE NAME "THE" AQUARIAN.

♪ OHH ♪

♪ OHHHHHHH ♪

"LOVELY" PREVIN, HER FATHER

WAS CONCERNED ABOUT HER BEING

UNDERAGE, AND SO HE SENT

THE POLICE TO PICK HER UP ON

A COUPLE OF OCCASIONS, AND

THE SOURCE FAMILY WAS GIVEN

A WARNING SAYING, YOU KNOW,

"YOU CAN'T HAVE MINOR WOMEN

HERE.

THERE'S STATUTORY RAPE LAWS."

THE NEXT MORNING JIM DECIDED

THAT ANY WOMAN THAT WAS UNDER 18

WHO WAS PART OF THE FAMILY HAD

TO GET MARRIED.

SURE ENOUGH, SUNFLOWER AND I

ENDED UP TOGETHER.

MY PARENTS WEREN'T CRAZY ABOUT

IT.

I WAS 16.

WHEN I CAME INTO THE FAMILY,

I'D COME FROM A STUDIO, SO I HAD

CAMERA EQUIPMENT, AND IT WAS

JUST A NATURAL THING FOR ME

TO DO TO START DOCUMENTING

FATHER AND THE FAMILY.TING

FATHER MADE ME THE FAMILY

HISTORIAN AND THE TEMPLE KEEPER.

I JUST TOOK MY CAMERA, MY TAPE

RECORDER, AND WENT RIGHT INTO

THE INNER CIRCLE...

AND FOLLOWED HIM EVERYWHERE.

MORNING MEDITATIONS... STARTED

RECORDING MORNING CLASSES.

THAT WAS LIKE REALLY INTENSE.

EVERY MORNING, IT WAS THE SAME

THING.

WE WOULD GET UP AT 4:00 IN

THE MORNING AND GO STAND IN

THE SWIMMING POOL IN ICE-COLD

WATER.

HE USED TO CALL IT

A SPIRITUAL BOOT CAMP.

WE HAD A WHOLE EXERCISE REGIMEN

THAT WE DID, INCLUDING DIPS,

PULL-UPS, PUSH-UPS ON OUR

FINGERTIPS.

SO WE'D COME BACK AND HAVE

BREAKFAST.

WE WERE EATING RAW FOOD.

WE WERE... BASICALLY IF IT WAS

CUT WITHIN 15 MINUTES, IT WAS

OKAY, BUT, OTHERWISE, THE

LIFE-FORCE HAD DRAINED OUT

OF IT.

THAT WAS FOLLOWED BY THE

SACRED HERB... ONE SIX-SECOND

INHALATION OF MARIJUANA.

♪ IT'S ALL IN THE BREATH ♪

♪ IT'S ALL IN THE BREATH ♪

♪ IT'S ALL IN THE BREATH ♪

♪ IT'S ALL IN THE BREATH ♪

♪ IT'S ALL IN THE BREATH ♪

♪ IT'S ALL IN THE BREATH ♪

AND THE HERB AT THAT TIME

IN THE MORNING IN THAT SETTING,

IT FELT LIKE LSD.

I SAW MYSELF CHANGING IN

A LOT OF GOOD WAYS.

I DID FEEL THAT I WAS NO LONGER

VERY CONDITIONED OR SUBJECTIVE

OR THAT I WAS ROOTED IN ANY ONE

PHILOSOPHY OR IDEOLOGY.

WE KNEW WE WERE PART OF

A DRAMATIC SOCIAL ADVENTURE

AND SOMETHING THAT HADN'T

HAPPENED BEFORE.

WE WOULD SIT WITH THIS GUY,

AND HE WOULD HAVE THESE WHAT

WERE CALLED MEDITATIONS, BUT HE

WOULD JUST RIFF.

OH, MAN, WAS HE WAY UP THERE

SOMEWHERE LAYING IT DOWN, DADDY!

HE WAS KIND OF LIKE A

COMBINATION OF LENNY BRUCE

AND KRISHNAMURTI.

♪ WE ARE GOD-MEN ♪

♪ YOU ARE GOD-MEN ♪

♪ WE ARE GOD-MEN ♪

♪ YOU AR-R-E... ♪

HE WAS PURSUING THIS IDEA

THAT WE WERE A SPECIALLY CHOSEN

GROUP OF PEOPLE, THAT WE'RE

DESTINED TO USHER IN

THE AQUARIAN AGE.

♪ ...GOD MADE ♪

AND THAT THE CHILDREN THAT WE

WERE BRINGING INTO THE WORLD

WERE THE SAINTS AND SAGES

OF THIS NEW AGE.

♪ YAHO... WHA ♪

APRIL 7, 1972, I HAD JUST

TURNED 16, AND SUNFLOWER WAS 28.

♪ YAHO... WHA ♪

AND THIS BEING THE FIRST

CHILD OF MINE AND THE FIRST

CHILD OF THE FAMILY, THERE HAD

TO BE A LOT OF FAITH.

♪ YAHO... WHA ♪

NOW, AFTER 22 HOURS' LABOR,

IT WAS GETTING A LITTLE INTENSE,

AND WE WERE SENSING THAT

SOMETHING WAS NOT RIGHT.

THIS BABY WAS NOT COMING,

AND FINALLY WHEN HE STARTED

TO CROWN, THE HEAD CAME OUT, WE

REALIZED THAT THE UMBILICAL CORD

WAS WRAPPED AROUND HIS NECK

THREE TIMES, AND HE WAS BORN

DEAD.

THERE WAS NO LIFE IN THIS CHILD.

HE WAS STILLBORN.

AND SO FATHER PICKED HIM UP, AND

HE GOT DOWN ON HIS KNEES, AND HE

SAID, "MY GOD," HE SAID, "IF YOU

LET THIS CHILD LIVE, I WILL

NEVER SPEAK ANYTHING BUT THE

WORD OF GOD SO LONG AS I LIVE,"

AND HE TOOK A DEEP BREATH AND HE

BLEW IT INTO HIS MOUTH, AND

WITHIN 5 SECONDS, HE CAME TO

LIFE.

FATHER YOD STOOD UP AND REACHED

INTO HIS POCKET, AND HE SAID,

"HERE'S HIS NAME."

HE SAID, "I GIVE HIM THE NAME

SOLOMON, GOD OF THE SUN."

AND HE BECAME JUST A PERFECT

CHILD.

THERE WAS NOTHING WRONG WITH

HIM.

THAT WAS THE BIGGEST MIRACLE

I'VE EVER SEEN IN MY LIFE.

THERE'S NO DOUBT ABOUT IT FOR

ANYBODY THAT WAS IN THAT ROOM

THAT THIS WAS A MIRACLE, SO...

IT WAS ONE OF MANY THAT I SAW

THROUGHOUT THE COURSE OF

THE TIME THAT I SPENT WITH

FATHER YOD.

THROUGH MANY, MANY AGES OF

DARKNESS, THERE WERE BRILLIANT

MOMENTS OF SPIRITUAL GENIUS

AMONGST THE DRUIDS OR

THE NATIVE AMERICANS OR

THE EGYPTIANS OR THE ATLANTEANS.

FATHER WOULD START READING AND

STUDYING THESE ERAS OF HISTORY

AND BEGIN TO EMULATE THEIR

PHILOSOPHY, AND WE WOULD BEGIN

DRESSING LIKE INDIANS OR

TEMPLARS.

IT GOT INTO SOME VERY, VERY

FAR-OUT STUFF...

THE WAY WE ATE AND THE WAY WE

BREATHED AND THE WAY WE WOULD

SIT AND LOOK AT THE SUN UNTIL

IT WOULD ALMOST FRY OUR EYES.

AND WHEN WE GOT INTO

CEREMONIAL MAGIC, WE JUST

CREATED THIS RANT IN THE ASTRAL

WORLD, AND PEOPLE SAW VAMPIRES

WALKING DOWN THE OAK STAIRCASES.

THOSE KINDS OF EXPERIENCES

WERE AS REAL TO ME AS IT IS REAL

SITTING HERE TALKING TO YOU

RIGHT NOW.

IT WASN'T LIKE I WAS THINKING

I WAS HAVING A DAYDREAM OR

A FANTASY.

IT WAS REAL.

♪ YOU CREA-A-TE ♪

♪ JUST LIKE HIM ♪

WE USED TO STAIR AT THE MOON

UNTIL OUR EYES WOULD GET BLURRY,

AND THEN WE'D CLOSE OUR EYES,

AND WE'D BE STARING AT THE MOON

INSIDE OF US.

AND THEN WE WOULD SUDDENLY DROP

INTO WHAT HE CALLED THE HALLS

OF AMENTI.

♪ NOW THOUGHTS... ♪

AND THE HALLS OF AMENTI WAS

THIS, LIKE, I THINK FICTIONAL,

MYSTICAL PLACE THAT WAS DOWN

IN THE CENTER OF THE EARTH.

♪ IN THE HEAVENS ♪

WELL, I NEVER WENT TO

THE HALLS OF AMENTI.

AND PEOPLE, NOT ONLY WOULD THEY

GO IN THERE, BUT, LIKE, THIS ONE

GUY, ABRAHAM, HE WOULD FALL DOWN

ON THE GROUND, AND HE'D BE JUST

GOING LIKE... HE'D BE FLOPPING

AROUND LIKE A FISH.

THIS STUFF REALLY STARTED TO

SEEM CRAZY TO ME, AND I FELT

LIKE MAYBE PEOPLE ARE JUST GOING

FULLY CRAZY HERE.

IF YOU COULD IMAGINE GOING ON

THE HIGHEST ROLLER COASTER

YOU'VE EVER BEEN ON AND GOING

AS FAST AS HUMANLY POSSIBLY,

THAT'S WHAT LIFE IN THE FAMILY

FELT LIKE.

♪ YE-E-E-AH ♪

AND CHANGES HAPPENED SO FAST,

AND IF YOU WEREN'T THERE, YOU

DIDN'T KNOW WHAT WAS GOING ON.

♪ ANGE-E-LS ♪

♪ TO DELIVER YOU ♪

THE DAY THAT HE CAME HOME AND

ANNOUNCED THAT HE WAS GONNA HAVE

MORE THAN ONE WOMAN, MORE THAN

ONE WIFE, HE ASKED ME WHAT I

THOUGHT, AND I SAID, "I THINK

YOU'RE A DIRTY OLD MAN ON

A LUST TRIP.

THAT'S WHAT I THINK."

THE SIXTH COMMANDMENT, A MAN

AND HIS WOMAN ARE ONE.

LET NOTHING SEPARATE THEM.

OH, HE SO BLEW THAT COMMANDMENT.

ONE DAY FATHER YOD SAID,

"WELL, WOULD YOU WANT TO COME

AND LIVE WITH ME?"

AND I JUST LOOKED AT HIM AND

I SAID, "OH, YEAH."

I WAS JUST SHORT OF 17 AT THAT

POINT.

♪ OHH! YEAH ♪

♪ YEAH ♪

♪ UH-HUH ♪

SO HIS 13 WOMEN, WE WERE

DIFFERENT AGES.

WE ALL HAD A DIFFERENT ROLE.

♪ YEAH ♪

♪ OKAY, MAKE IT...

MAKE IT CRY ♪

♪ MAKE IT CRY ♪

I BECAME ON OF YAHO'S WOMEN

WHEN I WENT THROUGH THE PAIN

OF LOSING SUNFLOWER TO

AQUARIANA.

♪ OH! YEAH ♪

♪ YEAH ♪

♪ HERE WE GONNA GO ♪

THAT WAS REALLY DIFFICULT

FOR ME 'CAUSE SHE WAS MY BEST

FRIEND.

♪ OH! YEAH ♪

I HAD A LITTLE BIT OF

A LOYALTY TO ROBIN, SO IT FELT

LIKE BETRAYAL ON MY PART TO BE

WITH HIM, BUT, I MEAN, YOU JUST

CAN'T SAY NO TO HIM.

HE WOULD TEACH US HOW TO HAVE

SEX AND ENJOY OUR BODIES.

AND IT WAS INCREDIBLE.

HE TAUGHT ME A LOT, AND WE WERE

ALL VERY COMFORTABLE GIVING

THE OTHER ONE THEIR SPACE.

IF I WAS MAKING LOVE TO HIM,

IT WAS BASICALLY... YOU KNOW, WE

CALLED IT DIONISM, IT'S TANTRAS,

IT'S SEXUAL PRACTICE.

I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW ANYBODY ELSE

WAS IN THE ROOM.

♪ YEAH ♪

♪ OHH! ♪

BUT THERE WAS NEVER, "I HAVE

TO BE ALONE OR YOU HAVE TO LEAVE

THE ROOM."

♪ YEAH ♪

♪ OH! YEAH ♪

HE WOULD BE WITH THESE YOUNG

GIRLS, AND, TO ME AT MY AGE

THEN, I MEAN, I KNEW BETTER THAT

YOU DON'T TRY TO SEDUCE A CHILD,

BECAUSE IT WAS OBVIOUS THAT

THESE WERE CHILDREN, AT LEAST

COMPARED TO ME AS A 30-YEAR-OLD,

AND HE'S A 50-YEAR-OLD, AND SO I

BEGAN TO LOSE RESPECT FOR HIM.

JIM BAKER HAD AN M.O. OF

LEAVING A PERSON WHEN IT SERVED

ITS PURPOSE.

HE HAD A WIFE AND CHILD IN OHIO

THAT HE JUST WALKED OUT ON, AND

THEN HE WAS REMARRIED, AND THEY

HAD THREE CHILDREN, AND HE LEFT.

HE TREATED ME LIKE I WAS

THE QUEEN OF HEAVEN AND EARTH.

AND THEN HE JUST, IN ONE

AFTERNOON, JUST STRIPPED THAT

AWAY FROM ME.

HE MIGHT AS WELL HAD SKINNED ME

ALIVE.

♪ A RENAISSANCE ♪

WE TOOK A COMMITMENT

OF MARRIAGE, AND IN THAT

COMMITMENT, WE DID NOT AGREE

TO CHEAT ON EACH OTHER.

WE DID NOT AGREE TO COMMIT

POLYGAMY.

WE DID NOT AGREE FOR HIM TO HAVE

SEX WITH UNDERAGED WOMEN.

WE DID NOT AGREE FOR HIM TO

IMPREGNATE OTHER WOMEN.

♪ PAST... ♪

SHE WAS MADLY IN LOVE WITH

HIM AND SHE ADORED HIM, SO,

OF COURSE, WHEN, YOU KNOW, HE

HAS MORE WOMEN, AND ESPECIALLY

WHEN HE'S SHOWING A FAVORITE,

WHICH HE DID WITH ME, IT WAS

HORRIFIC FOR HER.

I WAS MAKUSHLA IN THE SOURCE

FAMILY, AND I WAS YAHOWHA'S

MOTHER ANGEL.

♪ NEW EARS TO HEAR ♪

EVEN THOUGH HE WAS TWICE

MY AGE, HE SAW ME AS HIS MOTHER.

♪ A TRACE OF FEAR ♪

I ALWAYS FELT HONORED TO BE

IN THE ROLE.

I FELT LIKE I WOULD DO ANYTHING

JUST TO BE THERE NEAR HIM.

IT WAS VERY HARD ON ROBIN.

I THINK IT WAS EXTREMELY HARD

FOR HER TO FEEL SECURE.

I THINK

BECAUSE ALL WOMEN KNOW HOW

HORRIBLE THAT IS...

WHEN YOU'RE IN LOVE, AND YOUR

HEART IS BROKEN.

♪ WITHIN THE DARKEST NIGHT ♪

SHE WENT THROUGH THAT PERIOD

IN FRONT OF EVERYBODY.

♪ AND SETS ME FREE FROM

MY FE-E-ARS ♪

HE WALKED BY WITH HIS LITTLE

ENTOURAGE ONE DAY, AND I SAID,

"HEY, HONEY."

AND HE SAYS, "YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED

TO CALL ME HONEY ANYMORE.

I HAVE 13 WIVES NOW."

SO THE ONE MAN/ONE WOMAN LAW

CHANGED, AND, OF COURSE, FOR

THE PEOPLE THAT WERE LEGALLY

MARRIED OR HAD CHILDREN,

YOU KNOW, THIS WAS QUITE

A CHALLENGE.

SOME PEOPLE THREATENED TO LEAVE

THE FAMILY, SOME PEOPLE DID

LEAVE THE FAMILY.

IT WAS GETTING VERY, VERY

STRANGE THERE.

THE TEACHINGS ON HEALTH WERE,

IN MANY CASES, I THINK, VERY

PROGRESSIVE AND VERY ADVANCED.

SOME OF THEM, I THOUGHT, WERE

REALLY IRRESPONSIBLE.

FOR EXAMPLE, WE COMPLETELY

ABDICATED THE RIGHT TO USE

MEDICINE FOR ANY REASON

WHATSOEVER.

♪ HUSH, BABY ♪

I HAD A YOUNG BOY, AND HE

DEVELOPED A VERY, VERY SERIOUS

EAR INFECTION, AND HE WAS

RUNNING AN EXTRAORDINARILY

HIGH FEVER, LIKE 104, AND

I REALLY WANTED TO GET HIM

ANTIBIOTICS.

♪ AND THERE'S NO NEED

FOR KEEPING... ♪

I WAS SCARED SHITLESS THAT

MY KID WAS GONNA DIE.

♪ ...ANYTHING ♪

THEY'RE CHANTING AND THEY'RE

SHINING BLUE LIGHT AND GREEN

LIGHTS ONTO HIM, AND THERE WAS

SO MUCH PEER PRESSURE.

I KNEW I HAD TO GET THE HELL

OUT OF THERE, AND SO I JUST

LEFT.

I HAD THE FEELING THAT HE WAS

STARTING TO REALLY GO CRAZY.

IT SEEMED LIKE ANYTHING COULD

HAPPEN.

THE MOTHER HOUSE WAS

WONDERFUL, BUT THERE WAS A LOT

OF STRESS FROM THE NEIGHBORS

BECAUSE CHARLIE MANSON HAD

KILLED THE LaBIANCAS OVER

ON THE OTHER STREET A COUPLE

OF YEARS EARLIER.

THE NEIGHBORS PUT SO MUCH

PRESSURE ON THE OWNER, THAT SHE

ULTIMATELY BUCKLED AND SOLD IT

TO A VERY WEALTHY MEXICAN

PHYSICIAN, AND WE HAD TO MOVE.

THERE WERE 140 PEOPLE LIVING

IN A THREE-BEDROOM, THREE-BATH

HOUSE.

THAT WAS AN EXTREME SITUATION

FOR EVERYONE 'CAUSE NOW WE WERE

GONNA HAVE TO GIVE UP EVEN MORE

WHERE HE WANTED TO MAKE US

TIGHTER.

WE JUST TOOK CARE OF WHAT

NEEDED TO BE DONE, PUTTING 150

WHAT WE CALLED CUBBYHOLES UP IN

SOMEBODY'S HOUSE, AND THEY WERE

JUST LIKE BUNKS.

I WAS GIVEN $30,000 AND TOOK

ALL THE BAND MEMBERS OUT, AND

WE WENT AND BOUGHT EQUIPMENT.

WE HAD THE LATEST AND THE BEST.

THE STUDIO WAS A TWO-CAR GARAGE,

AND WE BUILT A SOUND ROOM,

AND IT WAS SOUNDPROOF, AND

WE COULD PLAY TO THE WALL.

THE WHOLE CREATIVE ENERGY

WAS REALLY INSPIRING FOR

EVERYONE, INCLUDING YAHOWHA.

♪ MM-MM-MM ♪

IT WAS A DIFFERENT KIND OF

MUSIC-MAKING THAN ANYTHING I HAD

EVER EXPERIENCED.

WE'D START OFF WITH SOMETHING

THAT WOULD BE GOING ALONG,

AND OCTAVIUS WOULD BE PLAYING

FAMILIAR BEATS, AND ALL OF A

SUDDEN FATHER WOULD COME IN WITH

BAM, BAM, BAM... OFFBEAT,

YOU KNOW, EVERYWHERE, WHATEVER

HE PLEASED, YELLING AND

SCREAMING, AND THAT, OF COURSE,

WOULD TAKE IT... IT WOULD BREAK

DOWN THE CONCEPT OF EVERYTHING

THAT YOU EVER THOUGHT MUSIC

SHOULD BE, AND IT WOULD TAKE IT

TO A PLACE WHERE YOU WERE LEFT

OUT THERE ON THE EDGE OF THE

CLIFF.

♪ BA ♪

♪ BA-DA-DA, DA-DA-BOOM ♪

♪ BA-DA-BOOM, BA-DA ♪

♪ BA-DA-DA-DA-DA-DA ♪

♪ BA-DA-BOOM ♪

AND EVERY MORNING AFTER

MEDITATION, WE WOULD GO INTO

THE RECORDING STUDIO.

WE RECORDED OVER 65 ALBUMS

SPONTANEOUSLY.

♪ BOOM ♪

♪ BA-DA-BOOM ♪

♪ BA-DA-BOOM ♪

♪ BA-DA-DA-DA ♪

♪ BA-DA-BOOM ♪

♪ BA-DA-BOOM ♪

THESE WERE SOME OF THE MOST

RARE AND COVETED ALBUMS FOR

AMERICAN COLLECTORS OF

PSYCHEDELIA.

"PENETRATION" SOUNDS LIKE

A RITUAL IN PROGRESS, AND IT'S

LIKE, WHAT IS THIS?

IS IT BLACK MAGIC?

IS IT WHITE MAGIC?

♪ DA-DA-HEY ♪C?

♪ GONNA RIDE-A, RIDE-A ♪

♪ BOOM-DA-DA-BOOM ♪

♪ DA-DA-HEY ♪

THERE WAS NO CONCERN FOR

COMMERCIAL SUCCESS, AND THE

FREEDOM AND THAT SPIRIT I THINK

IS WHAT SINGS TO PEOPLE.

♪ DA-DA-HEY ♪

♪ GONNA RIDE-A, RIDE-A ♪

IT WAS AN EMBRACE OF GOD

AND ROCK 'N' ROLL, AND YOU CAN

HEAR IT AND YOU CAN SEE IT.

AND WHEN YOU COME INTO CONTACT

WITH THE RESIDENT VIBRATION

OF THAT, YOU START TO

UNDERSTAND, LIKE, THAT IT'S WAY

HEAVIER, WAY MORE COMPLICATED,

WAY RICHER, AND IT CONTINUES

TO RESONATE.

♪ RIDE-A, RIDE-A ♪

♪ FOR... THE... HUMAN... RACE ♪

♪ NO PLACE ♪

♪ BA-DA-BOOM, DA-DA-HEY ♪

♪ GONNA RIDE-A, RIDE-A ♪

♪ BOOM ♪

HE USED TO SEND DJIN AND I

OUT TO THE RECORD LABELS, AND WE

WERE DENIED AT EVERY LABEL.

HENCE, THE NEXT GENERATION,

THE HIGH SCHOOLS.

WE HEARD THAT THIS WAS

THE HIGH SCHOOL WITH THE

CONSCIOUSNESS.

THAT'S THE FACT OF IT.

MY SONS GO OUT, AND THEY LOOK

AROUND, PICK UP ON THE

VIBRATIONS AND SAY, "FATHER,

OUR SOUND CAN BE HEARD AT

THAT SCHOOL.

I KNOW IT."

YEAH.

MM-HMM.

WE NUMBER ABOUT 140, GIVE OR

TAKE A FEW.

AND WE'RE LOOKING AROUND FOR

4,000 JUST LIKE YOU.

YEAH.

YEAH.

YOU BELIEVE IN REINCARNATION,

DON'T YOU?

YOU WILL COME AGAIN, WON'T YOU?

OH, YEAH.

YOU'VE ALWAYS BEEN HERE.

YEAH, I'M THE FATHER YOU ALL

WANTED...

NEVER THOUGHT YOU HAD, BUT YOU

DO HAVE.

A LOT OF THOSE SHOWS, PEOPLE

CAME AND WANTED TO KNOW AFTER

THE SHOW WHAT'S GOING ON.

WE SAID, "YOU WANT TO KNOW

WHAT'S GOING ON, COME TO THE

MORNING MEDITATION," AND,

OF COURSE, A LOT OF THEM DID.

IT WAS KIND OF FATHER'S WAY

OF REACHING OUT JUST TO REACH

THE PEOPLE THAT YOU WERE

SEEKING.

YOU KNOW? THAT'S RIGHT.

IT WASN'T ALL PEACE AND LOVE.

THERE WERE THINGS THAT WERE

HAPPENING THAT WERE A LITTLE

OFF, AND THINGS THAT WERE

AGAINST WHAT I THOUGHT IT SHOULD

BE.

IT WAS ALL PRESENTED AS IF

THE WOMEN COULD CHOOSE TO BE

WITH WHOEVER THEY WANTED, BUT,

IN REALITY, IT KIND OF WASN'T

EXACTLY LIKE THAT.

ORBIT AND I WERE TOGETHER AT

THAT TIME.

I REMEMBER ONE TIME ISIS CAME

DOWN.

SHE SAYS, "YAHOWHA WANTS TO TALK

TO YOU RIGHT NOW.

HE WANTS TO SEE YOU

IMMEDIATELY."

AND MERCURY WAS THERE, AND I

CAME UP TO YAHOWHA AND HE SAID,

"I WANT YOU TO DO SOMETHING."

AND I SAID, "WHAT'S THAT?"

HE SAYS, "I WANT YOU TO BE

WITH MERCURY."

I WAS WITH MERCURY FROM THEN ON

UNTIL FURTHER DIRECTION WAS

GIVEN.

FATHER BECAME INTERESTED

IN SEXUAL MAGIC FROM THE

TEACHINGS OF THE ORDER

OF THE GOLDEN DAWN, WHICH WAS

AN OCCULT SOCIETY INTERESTED

IN CHANNELING SEXUAL ENERGY

FOR MAGICAL PURPOSES.

WELL, THAT'S WHAT EVERYBODY

WANTS TO KNOW ABOUT, AND THEY

SAY, "WOW, YOU KNOW, WHAT

HAPPENED BACK THEN?

YOU HAD TWO WIVES?

OH, MY GOD.

YOU MUST HAVE BEEN SCREWING

YOUR HEAD OFF AND, YOU KNOW,

DOING ALL OF THESE FANTASTIC

ORGIES AND STUFF."

NO, IT WASN'T THAT AT ALL.

THE SEX MAGIC WAS TO RAISE

YOUR CONSCIOUSNESS.

IT WAS DEFINITELY NOT ABOUT

LUST.

SO THIS WAS NOT SOMETHING

TO BE TAKEN LIGHTLY.

THIS WAS LIKE TAKING THE

HEAVIEST OF EVERYTHING.

THIS WAS THE HEAVIEST.

IT WAS NOT REVEALED TO

ANYBODY.

FOR A NUMBER OF PEOPLE,

THAT WAS WHERE THE LINE GOT

DRAWN AND WHERE PEOPLE BEGAN

TO THINK THIS HAS GONE TO THE

DARK SIDE AND WERE LEAVING.

THAT CEREMONY KEPT US BOUND

AT A VERY MOLECULAR LEVEL, AND

YOU HAD TO PARTICIPATE IN THAT.

I FINALLY GOT THE STRENGTH

AND THE COURAGE TO LEAVE, AND

THEN I GOT PREGNANT WITH TAU.

AFTER I GAVE BIRTH TO THIS

CHILD, I THOUGHT THAT POSSIBLY

HE WOULD COME TO HIS SENSES.

AND THEN THEY STARTED CALLING

HIM GOD.

♪ I SPEAK...

TO YOUR SO-O-O-U-UL ♪

FATHER YOD ENDED UP CHANGING

HIS NAME TO YAHOWHA, WHICH HE

SAID WAS THE NAME OF GOD.

HE DID THINK HE WAS GOD, WE

THOUGHT HE WAS GOD, AND HE

WAS GOD.

♪ I KNOW YOU ♪

♪ AND IT'S NOT THAT ♪

♪ AND I GOT YOUR NUMBER ♪

YOU KNOW, WHEN YOU'RE LIVING

IN LOS ANGELES, AND YOU'RE A BIG

GUY WITH WHITE HAIR AND A

FOLLOWING OF WOMEN AND DRIVING

A ROLLS-ROYCE, A LOT OF EYES

ARE ON YOU.

♪ I GOT YOUR NUMBER ♪

WE WERE OPPRESSED IN

LOS ANGELES.

THE BUILDING DEPARTMENT HATED

US.

♪ SEEKING AWAKE FROM

YOUR SLEEP ♪

CITY HALL HATED US.

WE WERE HOUNDED BY BUILDING

INSPECTORS, HEALTH INSPECTORS,

CHILD SERVICES.

♪ WANTS TO SEE HIS SON ♪

♪ LET'S GO ♪

♪ LET'S GO-OH-OH-OH-OH! ♪

♪ YA HO ♪

THERE WAS A DEFINITE SENSE

OF UNEASE.

♪ YA HO ♪

♪ YA HO ♪

IT SOUNDS A LITTLE STRANGE

WHEN I SAY THIS NOW, BUT WE

REALLY THOUGHT ARMAGEDDON WAS

COMING.

WE ARE NOW WARNED IN THE YEAR

1975, MAYBE '6, THERE WILL BE

A NUCLEAR WAR BETWEEN THREE

MIGHTY NATIONS.

♪ YA HO ♪

♪ YA HO ♪

WE SOLD OUR BUSINESS, WHICH

WAS MAKING TONS OF MONEY, AND

WE JUST PACKED UP AND LEFT.

♪ YA HO ♪

♪ YA HO ♪

FATHER ENVISIONED OUR WHOLE

LIFESTYLE BLOSSOMING INTO

HEALING CENTERS, SCHOOLS,

FARMS.

WE CAME THINKING THAT WE

WERE GONNA HAVE THIS WONDERFUL

HEALTH SPA ON THIS BEAUTIFUL

ACRES IN KAUAI, PEOPLE WERE

GONNA COME FROM THE MAINLAND

FOR RETREAT.

WE GOT THERE, IT WAS HELL.

WE WERE NOT WANTED ON KAUAI.

KAUAI HAD A FEELING TOWARD US

THAT SEEMED TO INSTILL MORE AND

MORE PARANOIA IN US.

PEOPLE ON KAUAI WERE ALREADY

A BIT GUN-SHY, YOU MIGHT SAY,

OF THE ENCROACHMENT OF SPIRITUAL

COMMUNES.

THERE WAS TAYLOR CAMP AND THEN

THERE WAS THE KRISHNA CAMP,

AND THERE WERE A LOT OF HIPPIES

ON WELFARE.

WHEN WE ARRIVED ON KAUAI,

WE WERE TAILED BY THE POLICE,

WHICH WAS AN INTIMIDATION

TACTIC.

NO ONE IN KAUAI WOULD HIRE

SOMEONE FROM THE SOURCE.

I MEAN, THEY MISSPENT THE MONEY,

TOO.

THEY BOUGHT A BIG BOAT FOR

FISHING AND THEY BOUGHT AN

AIRPLANE TO SPOT THE FISH.

SOMEONE WROTE A LETTER

TO THE NEWSPAPER AND SAID,

"WHO ARE THESE MANSON

FAMILY-TYPE PEOPLE?"

AND FATHER CALLED THE NEWSPAPER

AND SAID, "I WANT TO GIVE YOU

AN INTERVIEW."

HE SAID, "WE ARE NOT A MANSON

FAMILY."

WITHIN 24 HOURS, THEY WERE

SHOOTING BULLETS THROUGH THE

HOUSE.

YAHOWHA HAD THE SONS

STATIONED AT A GUARD POST

AT THE END OF THE LAND.

POW, POW, POW.

I'M NOT SURE HOW SUCCESSFUL

THAT WAS.

I WAS AN ARMED GUARD WITH TWO

WEAPONS IN THE DARK WITH NO

LIGHTS, AND I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW

THE WEAPONS, SO I WOULD HAVE

PROBABLY SHOT MYSELF IF I HAD

HAD TO TRY TO DEFEND US.

THAT WAS EXACTLY WHY I

AVOIDED THE VIETNAM DRAFT.

YOU KNOW, FOR ME, IT WAS LIKE,

WHAT'S GOING ON HERE?

IT WAS OUT OF CONTROL LIKE

A RUNAWAY TRAIN.

WHAT WE HAD ENVISIONED AND WHAT

BECAME OF THAT VISION WAS LIKE

CROSSING THE GRAND CANYON.

ALL OF THESE MEN, THEY GET

TO A CERTAIN POINT OF POWER,

AND THEY HAVE SUCH

RESPONSIBILITY, THEY DON'T HAVE

THE STRENGTH TO CARRY IT

THROUGH, AND IT STARTS

CRUMBLING.

YOU KNOW, JIM JONES GIVES

EVERYBODY KOOL-AID.

♪ IT'S A KNACK ♪

♪ IT'S A KNACK ♪

♪ IT'S A KNACK ♪

HE DID START QUESTIONING

WHAT DO WE DO NOW?

IT KIND OF CAME TO A POINT WHERE

WE WEREN'T MOVING FORWARD AS

A FAMILY.

♪ YEAH, I'VE COME ♪

♪ A LONG WAY ♪

♪ AND I'M NO-O-T HERE TO STAY ♪

HE WAS TIRED.

YOU KNOW, IF YOU WENT IN TO

SLEEP IN HIS ROOM, THERE WASN'T

SEX.

IT WAS ALL SPIRITUAL.

♪ SOON BE ON MY WAY ♪

THE MEDITATIONS DURING THAT

SUMMER WERE REALLY INTENSE.

YAHOWHA WENT FOR LONG PERIODS

OF JUST SILENCE.

AND HE WOULD JUST... HE'D BE

LIKE THIS, AND THEN HE'D COME

OUT OF IT AND BE LIKE, "I'VE

TAUGHT YOU EVERYTHING.

THERE'S NOTHING ELSE TO TEACH

YOU."

HE WAS LIKE, "OKAY,

LITTLE BIRDIES.

FLY OUT OF THE NEST."

AND SO ONE MORNING THEY HAD

ARRANGED A SPECIAL MORNING

MEDITATION, WHICH INCLUDED

A LARGE BOWL OF MAGIC MUSHROOMS

WITH SOURCE DRESSING, OF COURSE,

ON IT.

AFTER BEGINNING TO FEEL THE

EFFECTS, FATHER SUGGESTED THAT

WE GO UP AND TAKE A LITTLE WALK

OUTSIDE IN NATURE.

HE STARTED TO SPEAK, AND HE

SAID, "I'M NOT GOD.

I'M NOT GOD.

I'M JUST A MAN."

AND MAKUSHLA SAID, "Shh, Shh,

Shh.

DON'T SAY THAT.

YOU'RE GOD, YOU'RE GOD."

HE GOES, "NO, I'M NOT.

I'M A MAN.

I'M A MAN LIKE ANY OTHER MAN."

AND IT CHANGED MY RELATIONSHIP

TO HIM THAT DAY, AND I KNOW IT

CHANGED HIS RELATIONSHIP TO

HIMSELF AND TO THE WHOLE

PHENOMENON OF THE FAMILY.

I REALIZED THAT ANY RELATIONSHIP

WITH A TEACHER SHOULD BE

TEMPORARY, THAT, AT THE END OF

IT ALL, WE ARE OUR OWN TEACHER,

AND WE ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR OUR

OWN EVOLUTION.

THE NEXT CHAPTER FOR ME INVOLVED

GOING OUT ON MY OWN, AND THAT'S

WHAT I DID.

AUGUST 25, 1975, THE MORNING

MEDITATION STARTED OUT LIKE

NORMAL, AND I WAS WEARING

A BLACK DRESS, AND I DIDN'T

USUALLY WEAR BLACK DRESSES.

I WORE A LOT OF WHITE.

AAH!

AND I SCREAMED.

I SCREAMED BECAUSE THERE WAS

JUST... IT JUST FELT LIKE THERE

WAS AN AIR.

IT FELT LIKE SOMETHING HAD COME

OVER HIM.

YAHOWHA.

HE SAID THAT HE WAS GONNA GO

HANG GLIDING.

HE WAS GONNA JUMP OFF OF

MAKAPU'U CLIFFS, AND MERCURY

WAS GOING TO LAUNCH HIM OFF.

YEAH.

AAH!

AND ALL THE WOMEN STARTED

SCREAMING AND YELLING,

"NO, YAHOWHA," AND YET EVERYONE

KNEW THAT WHAT YAHOWHA WANTED

TO DO THAT HE WAS GONNA DO IT.

AAH! AAH!

THERE WAS SOMEONE COMING UP

THE DRIVEWAY AS WE WERE LEAVING

TO GO TO MAKAPU'U CLIFFS,

AND YAHOWHA ROLLED DOWN HIS

WINDOW AND SAID TO HER...

WHICH MEANS "WE WHO ARE ABOUT

TO DIE SALUTE YOU."

♪ THE LA-A-ND...

OUTSIDE ♪

♪ IT'S LONELY THROUGH THE DAY ♪

AND THE WIND WAS INCREDIBLY,

INCREDIBLY POWERFUL.

♪ I'VE CRIED... ♪

♪ MY HEART OUT ♪

♪ IT'S GONE ♪

YOU KNOW, I WAS TELLING

YAHOWHA NOT TO GO.

♪ TO PRAY ♪

♪ WHAT DOES...

IT MATTER? ♪

♪ LE-E-T IT BREAK ♪

MERCURY LAUNCHED HIM OFF,

AND AS SOON AS YAHOWHA WENT OFF

THE CLIFF, THIS FEROCIOUS WIND

THAT HAD BEEN BLOWING SO

INCREDIBLY STRONG WAS LIKE

SOMEONE WENT, "CUT," AND THE

WIND JUST STOPPED.

AND THE KITE NOSE-DIVED, AND

HE PULLED OUT OF THE NOSEDIVE

AND RECOVERED AND CIRCLED OUT

OVER THE OCEAN, AND HE CAME BACK

IN AND LANDED IN A LITTLE CAMP

OF NATIVE HAWAIIANS.

WE RACED DOWN THE MOUNTAIN,

AND WHEN WE GOT THERE, THIS IS

WHAT HE LOOKED LIKE.

OHH!

OH, YAHOWHA.

YOU'RE GONNA TAKE IT HARD.

NOO.

OH, GOD.

HE'S OKAY, HE'S OKAY.

♪ OHH, OHH, OHH, OHH ♪

YOU WANT US TO CARRY YOU

HOME?

YOU WANT TO GET UP?

WE CAN CARRY YOU.

WE CANCARRY YOU, YAHOWHA.

YEAH, YAHOWHA.

EHH.

OHH.

OHH.

OH, YAHOWHA.

OH, YAHOWHA.

EHH.

OHH.

OHH.

WHAT DO YOU WANT US TO DO,

YAHOWHA?

OHH.

WHAT... WHAT CAN WE DO

TO HEAL IT?

"TRANSMUTE PAIN."

IT WILL HEAL, THOUGH, WON'T IT?

OH, YAHOWHA.

YAHOWHA ASKED IF HE SHOULD GO

TO THE HOSPITAL, AND I TOLD HIM

THAT HE COULD, BUT IF HE DID,

IT WOULD BE AGAINST HIS BELIEFS.

SO HE DECIDED NOT TO GO.

SO TIME HAD PASSED.

IT WAS THE AFTERNOON.

I GUESS IT WAS AROUND 5:00

IN THE AFTERNOON, AND YAHOWHA

WAS LYING ON THE FLOOR.

I WAS LOOKING AT YAHOWHA'S EYES,

AND HE WAS LOOKING INTO MINE,

AND THEN IT SEEMED LIKE ALL TIME

STOOD STILL.

AND I SAID, "YAHOWHA?"

HE HAD, IN THAT MOMENT, PASSED.

WE BELIEVED THEN THAT WHEN

SOMEONE DIED TO LEAVE THE BODY

IN A NATURAL STATE SO THAT

THE SOUL CAN VIEW ITS RIVER

OF LIFE TO PREPARE ITSELF

FOR ITS NEXT STEP.

SO THAT'S WHAT WE DID FOR HIM.

[ MELODIC WHISTLING

[ CONTINUES ]

ALMOST MY WHOLE ADVENTURE

WITH THE FAMILY WAS DONE THROUGH

THE LENS OF A CAMERA, INCLUDING

HIS DEATH.

I WITNESSED HIM LEAVING THE BODY

THROUGH THE LENS OF A CAMERA...

WHICH IS

PRETTY WEIRD.

BUT I JUST... THAT WAS MY ROLE.

THE CAUSE OF DEATH WAS LISTED

AS UNKNOWN WHEN THEY DID THE

AUTOPSY.

THERE WAS NO BROKEN BONES,

THERE WAS NO INTERNAL

HEMORRHAGE, THERE WAS NOTHING

'CAUSE HIS KUNDALINI WAS...

YOU KNOW, IT WAS RELEASED, AND

HE LEFT THE BODY SPIRITUALLY.

IT WAS JUST THE TIME FOR HIM

TO LEAVE THE BODY, AND SO THAT

WAS WHAT HAPPENED.

THE LOCAL NEWSPAPER SAID THAT

THE SOURCE LEADER, YAHOWHA, HAD

DIED IN A HANG-GLIDING ACCIDENT,

AND NEXT TO THAT ARTICLE, THERE

IS AN ARTICLE THAT THERE WAS

A NEW STAR IN THE SKY, AND

YAHOWHA RELATED VERY MUCH TO

THE COSMIC EVENTS, AND WE

THOUGHT THAT WAS A BEAUTIFUL

THING.

I THOUGHT WE WOULD ALWAYS BE

TOGETHER.

I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD CUT MY

HAIR OR CUT MY BEARD.

I THOUGHT I'D BE A VEGETARIAN

FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE, AND

WITHIN TWO YEARS, THE FAMILY

ALL WENT THEIR SEPARATE WAYS.

ONCE FATHER WAS DEAD, AND THE

FAMILY WAS DISPERSED, IT FELT,

TO ME, LIKE EVERYTHING THAT I

HAD EMBRACED AS AN IDEAL WAS

NOW STUPID.

THE PEOPLE WHO ONCE LOVED AND

ADMIRED US NOW THOUGHT WE WERE

FOOLS.

WELCOME TO THE

NATURAL CAUSES RESTAURANT.

I'M JASON AND THIS IS MY

OLD LADY, SUNSET.

SHE'S REALLY FAR OUT.

WELCOME TO OUR SPACE.

IT IS NO ACCIDENT THAT YOU HAVE

STUMBLED UPON OUR DOOR.

WHAT ARE YOUR SIGNS?

OH, GEMINI AND PISCES.

YOU'RE AT THE RIGHT TABLE.

IT'S PERFECT.

PERFECT FOR YOUR ENERGY.

OKAY, GEMINI, PISCES.

NO, NO.

IT'S THE OTHER WAY AROUND.

OH, I KNEW IT!

OH!

WE COULD NO LONGER BE

THE WIDE-EYED, INNOCENT HIPPIES

THAT WE HAD BEEN IN 1971.

THIS WAS AN UGLY WORLD, AND

EVERYONE DID WHAT THEY HAD TO DO

TO SURVIVE.

♪ JUST MOVING ON ♪

♪ YOU TRIED TO ♪

♪ LEAVE IT ALONE ♪

♪ YOU JUST CAN'T HIDE YOUR

LOVE AWAY ♪

♪ HEY, HEY ♪

I HAVE ALL THE PHOTO ALBUMS

AND THE DIARIES.

THE LEGACY IS ALL DOCUMENTED.

YOU KNOW, HE STILL TALKS TO ME,

AND HE SAYS, "I HAVEN'T RELEASED

YOU FROM YOUR DUTIES YET."

MY DESTINY BASICALLY AS A FAMILY

HISTORIAN HAS BEEN TO SAVE THE

LEGACY.

[ MELODIC WHISTLING

[ CONTINUES ]

I ORGANIZED FAMILY GATHERINGS.

HE'S STILL SAYING, "YOU KNOW,

YOU'RE NOT DONE YET.

YOU KNOW, WE ARE STILL DOING

THE WORK."

SO I'M CURRENTLY LIVING IN

HAWAII.

I BOUGHT 10 ACRES ADJACENT TO

OTHER SOURCE FAMILY MEMBERS.

I NOW HAVE A COMPLETELY GREEN

HOUSE BUILT OUT OF RECYCLED

MATERIALS.

I AM OFF THE GRID, SOLAR-POWERED

ELECTRICAL SYSTEM, AND ONE OF

THE GREATEST JOYS IS THAT MY

SON, SOLOMON, WHO WAS THE

FIRSTBORN IN THE SOURCE FAMILY,

HAS LAND ADJACENT TO ME,

27 ACRES ADJACENT TO ME, AND

HE'S ALSO HELPING, WORKING,

DOING THE SAME THING.

♪ COME ON, BABY, AND BOOGIE ♪

♪ DOWN BY THE OCEAN ♪

♪ COME ON, BABY, AND BOOGIE ♪

♪ DOWN BY THE OCEAN ♪

♪ AND WE'LL HAVE A PARTY ♪

♪ COME ON ♪

MY NAME IS CELESTE.

MY FAMILY NAME WAS TAU AQUARIAN.

I'M THE DAUGHTER OF JIM BAKER,

YAHOWHA, AND ROBIN BAKER,

AH-OM.

I DON'T THINK IT WAS A VERY

POSITIVE TIME FOR MY MOTHER.

I THINK IT TOOK HER YEARS TO GET

OVER THE FAMILY.

I DON'T THINK SHE EVER HAS.

I THINK IT WAS... I THINK IT

BROKE HER IN WAYS THAT ARE

UNIMAGINABLE TO ME.

YOU KNOW, SHE STRUGGLED TO MAKE

ENDS MEET.

MY MOTHER REALLY DID TRY TO

SUPPORT US, AND SHE WORKED A LOT

OF JOBS.

IT WAS JUST A DARK TIME.

I GOT SICK.

I'VE INHERITED A HORRIBLE

ILLNESS... A NUMBER OF THEM.

I'M CURRENTLY ON THIS MANY DRUGS

ON A DAILY BASIS.

TILL YOU'VE WALKED A MILE IN MY

MOCCASINS, YOU CAN'T POSSIBLY

UNDERSTAND WHAT THIS IS LIKE.

I DON'T CHOOSE TO LIVE IN

A CITY... OR IN TENUOUS PLACES.

SURVIVAL THROUGH THE COMING

YEARS MAY BE CHALLENGING.

I HAVE A WELL WHERE I CAN PUMP

MY OWN WATER WITHOUT

ELECTRICITY.

I HAVE TWO YEARS' WORTH OF FOOD

SQUIRRELED AWAY, AND I'M NOT

TELLING YOU WHERE.

WE ARE GOING TO BE IN

COMMUNICATION WITH GREAT RACES

OF WISDOM AND TECHNOLOGY, AND WE

HAVEN'T BEEN READY FOR THAT.

FOR YEARS I JUST DIDN'T TELL

PEOPLE ABOUT IT.

YOU KNOW, I WAS ABLE TO STEP

FROM ONE WORLD COMPLETELY INTO

ANOTHER ONE, AND PEOPLE ASK ME,

"OH, WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?"

"OH, I LIVED IN HAWAII."

I DON'T THINK ANYBODY HAS

A RIGHT TO JUDGE ME.

I DON'T REGRET ANY OF IT.

YAHOWHA TAUGHT US TO LIVE IN

THE MOMENT AND TO KEEP CHANGING.

♪ WELL, ALL THESE WORDS

I SAY, YOU MUST BELIEVE,

MY FRIEND ♪

ONE OF THE THINGS THAT FATHER

OFTEN SAID WAS HEAVEN IS HERE

NOW.

IT'S UP TO YOU TO CREATE IT

IN YOUR LIFE RIGHT NOW.

♪ WE ALL WILL MEET AGAIN ♪

WE HAD ALL THESE AMAZING

EXPERIENCES THAT I WOULDN'T

TRADE THE WORLD FOR.

WOULD I DO IT AGAIN?

NO WAY.

I DON'T EVEN LIKE HAVING

SOMEBODY SPEND THE NIGHT AT MY

HOUSE...

I'M NOT INTERESTED IN LIVING

IN A COMMUNE.

MUCH LESS SHARING MY

BATHROOM WITH 40 PEOPLE.

BEEN THERE, DONE THAT, I LIKE

MY OWN TOOTHBRUSH.

♪ LA-LA-LA-LA ♪

♪ LA-LA ♪

IT'S A BIG PART OF MY LIFE.

IT MADE ME A LOT OF WHO I AM

TODAY.

IT GAVE ME THE COURAGE TO TRY

TO DO THINGS THAT NORMAL PEOPLE

DON'T TRY TO DO.

I REALLY GOT THAT ONE TRAIT FROM

JIM BAKER WAS TO BE FEARLESS.

♪ DON'T REGRET WHAT YOU HAVE

LEFT BEHIND ♪

THERE'S SO MANY THINGS THAT

HAVE STAYED WITH ME FROM

THE SOURCE FAMILY.

THE WAY I RUN MY BUSINESS TODAY

IS BASICALLY THE WAY JIM BAKER

TRAINED ME BACK IN 1970, '71.

♪ ...LITTLE FURTHER DOWN

THE LINE ♪

♪ THEN YOU WILL SEE ♪

I FEEL LIKE I GAINED FROM

ALL OF IT.

I DON'T THINK I WOULD DO IT

AGAIN, BUT I WOULDN'T HAVE IT

HAVE BEEN ANY DIFFERENT FROM HOW

IT WAS.

♪ WELL, ALL THESE WORLDS

I SAY, YOU MUST BELIEVE,

MY FRIEND ♪

♪ THOUGH WE GO OUR SEPARATE

WAYS... ♪

AFTER BEING WITH YAHOWHA,

IT SEEMED LIKE AN IMPOSSIBLE

THING TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP

WITH ANYBODY.

I FEEL LIKE STILL TO THIS DAY

I WORK WITH NOT GIVING MY POWER

AWAY TO ANOTHER.

♪ OUR ROADS WILL FINALLY

END ♪

♪ THE SAME ♪

♪ AND THEN WE ALL WILL JOIN... ♪

FOR ME, IT REALLY GAVE ME

STABILITY IN A TIME THAT WAS

TOUGH FOR MY FAMILY, AND I

REALLY FEEL THAT IT'S ONLY MADE

ME BETTER TODAY.

♪ LA-LA-LA, LA-LA-LA-LA ♪

♪ LA-LA-LA ♪

♪ LA-LA-LA, LA-LA-LA-LA ♪

♪ LA-LA-LA-LA, LA-LA-LA ♪

NO ONE'S WRITING THE SCRIPT

FOR YOU.

YOU WRITE IT.

YOU WRITE IT FOR YOURSELF.

AND YOU CAN WRITE YOURSELF IN

AS A VICTIM OR AS A HERO.

YOU CAN BLAME OTHER PEOPLE, BUT,

YOU KNOW, YOU'RE DOING IT ALL

ALL THE TIME.

YOU CAN DO IT UNCONSCIOUSLY

OR YOU CAN DO IT CONSCIOUSLY.

GOD JUST LOVES YOU, THAT'S ALL.

HE MAKES EVERYTHING POSSIBLE.

♪ WE ARE THE MORIANS ♪

♪ REINCARNATED ♪

♪ UP TO OUR OLD TRICKS

AGA-A-IN ♪

♪ YA-A-HO-O-WHA-A ♪

♪ OHH ♪

♪ YA-A-HO-O-WHA-A ♪

♪ OHH ♪

♪ YA-A-HO-O-WHA-A ♪

♪ OHH ♪

TODAY IN HAWAII, WE PRESENT

THE SOURCE FAMILY, AND A SPECIAL

PRESENTATION OF BREATH.

ON VIOLIN IS LOVELY.

ON LEAD GUITAR, HONG.

BASE GUITAR, SUNFLOWER.

ON RHYTHM GUITAR, OR LEAD

GUITAR, IS RHYTHM.

AND ON DRUMS, MY BROTHER

OCTAVIUS.

BREATH IN

"WOMAN BEYOND THE SUN."

♪ THERE'S A WOMAN BEYOND

THE SUN ♪

♪ AND SHE'S CALLING ME TO COME

THERE ♪

♪ WHISPERING WORDS OF LOVE ♪

♪ WHISPERING EVERYWHERE ♪

♪ THERE'S A WOMAN BEYOND

THE SUN ♪

♪ AND SHE SAID SHE IS SECURE

THERE ♪

♪ SHE'S TELLING ME I MUST COME

QUICKLY ♪

♪ FOR SHE SAYS I WILL ENJOY

THERE ♪

Both: ♪ AND I'M COMING

AS FAST AS I CAN GO ♪

♪ AND I'M LEARNING AS MUCH

AS I CAN KNOW ♪

♪ OH, AND I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE ♪

♪ THE SMILE WHEN I ARRIVE ♪

♪ AND I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE ♪

♪ SUNLIGHT IN HER EY-Y-ES ♪

♪ THERE'S A WOMAN BEYOND

THE SUN ♪

♪ AND YOU KNOW I THINK

SHE LOVES ME ♪

♪ SHE'S TELLING ME I HAVE

TO COME THERE ♪

♪ BEFORE SHE'LL EVER HAVE ME ♪

♪ AND I'M COMING AS FAST

AS I CAN GO ♪

♪ AND I'M LEARNING AS MUCH

AS I CAN KNOW ♪

♪ OH, AND I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE ♪

♪ THE SMILE WHEN I ARRIVE ♪

♪ AND I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE... ♪