All language subtitles for Greys Anatomy S19E10_Subtitles01.ENG

Oh, my God.

No, hey, no, no, no.
Stop. [ Laughs ] Stop.

One of the more harrowing parts

of complex heart surgeries

is the moment
we wean the patient

off the cardiopulmonary
bypass machine.

Oh, Lucas!

We start slowly warming
the patient.

- You're up early.
- Couldn't sleep.

As the patient's
temperature rises...

we check to make sure
all of the air

has been removed
from the heart.

Good morning!

- Hey.
- Morning.

Coffee for the road?

- Mm.
- You can bring it back tonight.

Thank you.

Anybody want
a weed whacker?

The house on the corner's giving
away a bunch of stuff for free.

Oh, I'm gonna be late,
but I'll see you tonight.

- Bye!
- Bye.

She took my mug.

Apparently,
she'll bring it back. Tonight.

I found some good
bridesmaid dress options.

If you're looking.

Those dresses belong
in a museum.

They're free.
And go away.

You think
that I could officiate?

'Cause I've always wanted
to do that.

I barely know you.

Oh, I'm sorry,
are you gonna do it?

Trey and I still have
a lot to figure out.

Yes!
I'm in the mix.

Once the aortic cross-clamp
is removed,

all eyes are on the heart
for that moment of truth.

Will it start to beat?

Hey,
can I borrow a shirt?

I need to bring some
more clothes over here.

Uh, help yourself.

Thank you.

You know, I'm gonna
go make breakfast.

Uh, meant to tell you--
We are out of the good granola.

Really?
I just bought some.

I know.
Been on a yogurt kick.

I'll get some more.

Oh, is that Kai?

Will you tell them I said hi?
When are they coming back here?

I've got this documentary
I want to show them.

Yeah, can I talk about this
a little later?

Yeah.
Um, they're about
to go into a meeting,

so I just-- I've gotta--No, of course, of course.

To be continued.

Oh, uh,
I'm-- I'm sorry.

I didn't know anyone was here,
um, doing this.

Morning, baby.
Meet Taya.

Taya is Seattle's most highly
regarded Reiki practitioner.

R-Reiki.
Uh, of-- of course.

Reiki, you know, it's
an energy healing technique.

It clears the mind, promotes
relaxation, improves focus.

I thought I'd give it a try
before my surgery today.

- You want to go next?
- Uh, no, no, thank you.

I was just, uh,
looking for my raincoat.

It's in the hall closet.

And it's not like my workload
has just evaporated.

My paperwork has doubled
with the clinic.

Oh, please complain more about
data entry to a chief resident.

You want to make it a contest?
Because I work two jobs,

I moonlight in general,
plus I'm a mom.

That's like four jobs.

Well, I feel like
I have seven.

I'm having
recurring dreams

about intern
rotation assignments

when I should be
dreaming about... hot nurse.

What?
Hot.

Nurse. Hot.
What?

Carlos. Oh, wait, quick.
Hide-- Hide me.

Oh, my God.
What is happening right now?

Carlos and I had
a-an interaction

at the intern
house party.

A quality interaction?

Very high quality, yes.

And afterwards,
he gave me his number.

So, what's the problem?

He thinks I'm cool.

So?
Look at me.

Okay, well, just take off
the bike helmet.

Okay.

- I'll tell you when he's gone.
- Oh, gosh.

Hey, have you assigned someone
to supervise me today?

Right, I knew I was
forgetting something.

I have to got to look
at microscopes

and then a compliance meeting,
whatever that is,

so somewhere between that
and the hundred other things

I have to do, uh,
I will get you a supervisor.

Do that first.
Owen, I-I--

I called
the medical commission.

- And said what?
- I asked them for an appeal,

and they granted me one.

They're sending
a preceptor.

He will assess me,
and if I pass,

they will temporarily
reinstate my license.

You just decided that? You
didn't even talk to me about it?

You and I are broken.
You know it, I know it.

I'm pretty sure
the entire hospital knows it.

If I can
practice medicine again,

maybe we can stop
resenting each other.

Alright, when are they
coming to assess you?

Today.
He's downstairs right now.

So, about the supervisor.

Porter's with Ndugu.
Millin's with Dr. Webber.

Griffith and Yasuda,
you're with, uh, Shepherd.

And Massey's on scut.

As a gentle reminder,

I will be in the OR today
with the Dr. Fox,

so do not page me, call me,
or attempt to find me.

Uh, what if our patient
is dying?

Take that attitude
and channel it into saving them.

Move.

I've come to return my interns.

Pretty sure there's
a no-return policy.

All my surgeries
have been canceled.

Only thing they'd be learning is
how to be the viper of Seattle.

Well, I see that a possible
teaching opportunity--

- Where do you want us?
- Look, just give me a second.

Dr. Schmitt,
we're late.

Oh, I'm--
I'm so sorry, Dr. Fox.

I just need to reassign
these interns.

Who wants to come
fix a penis?

Totally.
I'm in.

Consider them reassigned.
Let's go, fellas.

Let's go.

Uh, Natalia Asaki, 32, post-op
day two from right craniotomy

for resection
of a metastatic lesion

from the primary
esophageal carcinoma.

Well, your incision
is healing well, Natalia.

No sign of infection.

Will I be able
to travel soon?

Honey, you just had
brain surgery.

Let's not
rush anything, okay?

Our friends chipped in

to give us
a divorce-honeymoon.

We want to go to Europe
to see the sunsets.

Sunset is Natalia's
favorite time of the day.

Mm. It's the magical hour when
the sky becomes a painting.

My wife and I took
a spectacular trip recently,

and yes,
it really does feed the soul.

See? Our trip is
doctor-recommended.

When can we book
our plane ticket, Dr. Webber?

Well, we need to get
a PET scan first.

And then we'll re-stage
the cancer,

and we'll go from there.

Thank you.

Venice first.

If there's gelato,
I'll follow you anywhere.

Yes.

Barbara Collins, 45,

presents with double vision
and headaches.

A CT revealed a tumor in
the center region of the brain.

Today, we will do
a trans-ventricular

endoscopic approach
to resect it.

And once removed,
we'll send it to pathology

to determine if the mass
is benign or cancerous.

And there it is. Our baby sister
finally has cancer.

Took you long enough.

Dr. Shepherd, meet my sisters,
Didi and Paula.

They flew in from Boston last
night to offer their... support.

We never miss
a cancer diagnosis.

We don't know for sure
that it is cancer.

I'll need to obtain
tissue first.

She has it.
We've all had it.

I had breast cancer,
Carol had skin cancer,

and Paula had butt cancer.

We all get it, and then
we make the best of it.

That's right. Yeah.

Barbara, you can finally
come to cancer camp.

We go every year
with our chemo girls,

but this one never
could because--

- No cancer.
- No cancer.

Oh, I forgot.
I brought champagne.

Huh?

Our mother was fertile
for 40 years,

and she finally gave up sex
when Barbara was born.

Is your other sister
on her way?

Carol? No.
She's, uh...

Oh, no. Ladies,

meet Carol.

She died 15 years ago.

Well, she kicked the cancer,
but then she fell off a ladder.

She was always
the clumsy one.

Your sister's in that box?

- Yeah.
- Yep.

Well,
we take her everywhere.

She loved meeting
new people.

Yeah.

It's nice--
nice to meet you.

- Aww.
- See, that's nice.

Good for you.

Yeah.

Oh. Bailey. Hey. Look,
I want to apologize

for Owen and I fighting in front
of you and Ben at dinner.

Cappuccino?

Fine.

Honestly, your pie
was the first thing

that Owen and I
agreed on in months.

I mean, the best pie ever.
The most tender crust,

and the filling was sweet,
but not too sweet.

I mean,
what is your secret?

You know, you're my boss now.
You don't have to butter me up.

No, I dreamt about your pie, truly.

You can just ask for
what you want, Dr. Altman.

Owen is being evaluated by
the medical commission today,

and he's trying really hard
to fix this,

and if anything goes wrong,

he can't be reevaluated
for another six months.

I'm still waiting
for the question.

Would you supervise him,
please?
No.

What happened to I'm your boss
and I can ask for what I want?

Doesn't mean I have to say yes.
I'm busy.

And I'm rooting for him.

Mm.

Okay.

Link.

What are you doing
right now?

Gerald Lien, age 60,

a history of increasingly
painful, curved erections

that led to a diagnosis
of Peyronie's disease.

Okay,
so who can tell me

the pathophysiology
of this disease?

It's an
inflammatory condition

that can cause
a bend in the penis,

and it's thought to be
caused from repeated injuries

due to athletics,
accidents, or sex.

Correct.
Okay, let's go meet Gerald.

Gerald.

So nice to see you again.

This is Dr. Schmitt,
Dr. Kwan, and Dr. Adams.

They're gonna be
assisting me today.

Gerald first came to me
about six months ago,

when his symptoms
first started,

and we weren't able
to help him surgically

because we needed to wait
until the progression stabilized

and there was
no further curvature.

You had to wait
six months?

Uh, sorry.
Please just fix it.

You can fix it, right?
So I can stop avoiding my wife?

Today, Dr. Fox will resect
the plaques that have built up

and then place a xenograft
to repair the damage.

Gerald, are you sure there
isn't anyone you want to call

and let them know
you're having surgery today?

My wife and our friends think
I'm at a conference right now,

where, in about three hours,
I'm gonna pull a muscle,

which will require me to be
in bed for a couple days.

Understood.
Alright, Schmitt, Kwan, Adams,

let's go and study
his penile ultrasound,

and I will see you
in the O.R.

Thank you, Dr. Fox.

I'll need her latest scans
so we can go over

my approach
and positioning--

Excuse me, Dr. Shepherd?
Didi and I were wondering

if you could tell us
where we could get some coffee.

Uh-- Uh, there's
a cafeteria downstairs,

or Dr. Yasuda could grab
some from the lounge.

- Oh, that would be great.
- Oh.

Sure.
Two coffees, coming right up.

Actually, three.

Uh, and Carol takes hers
with cream and sugar.

She always
had a sweet tooth.

Okay. Sure.

Thank you, Dr. Yasuda.

Mm-hmm.

How do I get coffee
for a dead person?

Same way you get coffee
for a living person.

Pour it in a cup.

You worried she'll get mad at
you if you screw up her order?

It looks like a... Boomerang.

- How does he pee?
- Sideways?

As you can see,
the ultrasound shows

a build-up
of fibrous plaques,

and these plaques
can contain calcifications

or completely ossify,
which means--

The tissue
can turn to bone.

Correct. It's worth noting
this is not an ortho case.

It's very complex.

So be sure to carefully review
the ultrasound studies.

Be extremely prepared.
Then get him up to pre-op.

So, he's got bone...

In his bone.

Nope.

Penile surgery can be
bloody and messy,

and if anything goes wrong,
this man's erectile function

will be permanently impaired.

So, let's hear 'em.

All of 'em, right now.

Get your jokes out now.

Not one more after you
set foot outside that door.

Captain Hook. Gargoyle gherkin.
Bendy straw.

Get back to work.

Today, I'll be assessing
your clinical skills,

bedside manner,
- and diagnostic knowledge.
- Yeah.

I want you to pretend
I'm not here.

Do everything
like you normally would.

Yeah.
Mr. Williams, I am Dr. Hunt.

I am here to take a look
at that cut.

- Can you tell me how it happened?
- What's he doing here?

Oh, sorry, I should have
introduced myself.

I'm Dr. Lincoln.

You-- You killed
the Tank.

Mnh-mnh.
I don't want him touching me.

Dr. Lincoln is
an excellent surgeon,

but he is just here
to observe today.

Observe what?

Wh-- Well, I am
in a probationary period.

Not because of any malpractice
or anything,

more bureaucratic stuff.

I assure you, I am a fully
board certified trauma surgeon,

more than capable of sewing up
a small head laceration.

So, when you're ready--

I'll wait for another doctor.
Not you.

Mr. Williams,
I really need to close that up

before it becomes infected,
so--

Mm,
I'll take my chances.

Alright.

So, the PET scan
won't take long.

You can go back to planning
your trip once we're finished.

Our first stop
is the island

where Monet painted
"San Giorgio Maggiore at Dusk."

He's one of
my favorite painters.

Do you have a favorite place
in Europe, Dr. Millin?

I have never been,

but I've always wanted
to go to Paris someday.

Ooh!

She has a case
of the somedays.

The what?
Natalia always says

that there are seven days
in a week,

and someday
isn't one of them.

When you live in "someday,"
you waste today.

I had a real bad case
until I met her. She
knocked it out of me.

The last time he used
the word "someday,"

I made him sleep
in the guest room.

Also known as the porch.
She made me sleep on the porch.

Oh, God, she's bleeding!
Hey, Natalia, hey.

I need suction and a crash cart,
and page Dr. Webber! Now!

It's okay.
Hey, hey. Hey, hey, hey.

Into this.
Can you breathe?

You know Peyronie's disease
is actually really common?

Affects 1 in 11 men.

Worried you got
a kink in the hose?

If you bring that hyena home
again tonight,

I am sleeping in my van.

How is that a threat?

Her name is Cara.

Yeah, Cara
from internal medicine.

Did she wear
her stethoscope in bed?

What does that
even mean?

Is she why you're worried
you have Peyronie's disease?

- You're worried about Peyronie's?
- No.

I don't trust anyone
who doesn't cut.

You know, maybe I'm not
interested in "trusting" her.

The people need sleep!

Are you kidding me?
I have to get out of here.

I understand.

Seems like
it's going well.

That woman is yelling
in his face.

Well, it's not you
for once.

This is me trying
to be encouraging.

It's a UTI.Owen: You're probably right,

but I need to do
a full work-up,

just to make sure that
nothing else is going on.

It burns when I pee,
and I have to go all the time.

It's textbook UTI.

Just give me the antibiotics,
and I'll free up a bed.

We can't. I need to take your
vitals and take a urine sample.

And how long
will that take?

That depends on how busy
the labs are,

but I promise we will get you
out of here as soon as we can.

Okay, I'm already missing the
study group for my logic class,

and then I have an econ paper
due at 5:00 p.m.,

and my restaurant shift
starts at 7:00.

I don't have time
for this.

I'll just use my friend's
leftover antibiotics.

No, no, no.
I wouldn't recommend that.

Okay, what's next?

We just need to send off
your type and screen,

and then we'll
be ready to go.

Okay.

Uh, can I
ask you something?

- Now that it's just you and me?
- Of course.

If things don't go smoothly
in there, could it be permanent?

There's always the possibility
of tissue damage,

nerve damage, or more
severe erectile dysfunction,

but that only happens
in 20% of the cases.

And Dr. Fox is excellent.

Oh.

My wife's name is Gloria,
but I call her Glow

because she...
just glows.

She was a history professor
before she retired.

She loves big concerts,
dive restaurants,

and the ocean,
and I didn't tell her

because I didn't want her
to feel sorry for me.

Or look at me differently.

So, what if I'm
in that 20%?

How long have you been married?37 years.

I don't think that your
condition will be permanent,

but your marriage
sounds like it is.

Right.

I'll be back in a few minutes
to take you to pre-op.

Right there.
Natalia's esophageal tumor

has eroded into the aorta
and the posterior mediastinum.

Tumor's everywhere.

So, her heart's
bleeding out.

Essentially, yeah.

Can you resect it?

I wouldn't know
where to begin.

You paged me?

I need a second opinion.

Large esophageal mass,

which has eroded into
the aorta and pericardium.

Sorry.
Uh, you don't think

a-a descending stent graft
would work?

That won't help her.

Well, so what do we do now?

Nothing.
Best thing we can do

for Natalia is, uh,
give her pain medication

and help her
go peacefully.

How much time do I have?

It depends.

Could be anywhere
from a few days

to a few hours.

I'm so sorry, Natalia.

We'll make sure
you're comfortable.

Whatever you need.

Thank you.

When Elliot gets back,
we can walk him through this.

We know that these
conversations can be difficult.

No.

Just let us
plan our trip.

Natalia, your husband
needs to be prepared.

He needs to say goodbye.

No, he doesn't.

He doesn't need that.

We cannot handle that.

Please.

Let us... plan our trip.

I talked to Nurse Staci,
and I got the full download.

- The full download?
- Yeah. Carlos.

Okay, dogs, not cats.

Star Trek, not Star Wars.
That's good, right?

And then, oh, he went
to Costa Rica last year

just to see the sloths.

- Isn't that so cute?
- This is stalking.

I really don't want to be
implicated in a stalking case.

Listen, you and Nico broke up
over a year ago.

- I have surgery.
- Oh, my God.

Will you just talk to him?
It's not a big deal.

No. I am not you.

Why is it that every time
someone like me feels insecure,

a very good-looking,
charming person is like,

"Just do it.
It's not a big deal.

It's fun.
It'll be easy"?

Oh, and he hates
vampire shows!

I know you're scared
of vampires.

So, you got kids?

Yes.

- Okay, what do we got?
- Edgar Reyes, 38,

MVC, unrestrained driver
with blunt trauma to the chest.

Got diminished breath
sounds bilaterally,

satting at 80%.

BP is 95/40.

Intubated and needle decompressions
done in the field.

You ready?
On my count.

1, 2, 3, let's go.

Okay,
let's bring in the X-ray.

Okay, sats are dropping.

I'm seeing extensive
subcutaneous emphysema.

Plate's already in.

Alright, here we go.

Damn it.
Deviated trachea.

I can't make out
if there's a hemothorax

with all the air
in the tissue.

Okay, there's no oxygen
getting to his lungs.

Systolic's falling.
We should call for bronchoscopy.

He'll be dead by then,
especially if he has
a ruptured airway.

Get me a 10-blade,
gloves, and betadine.

- What the hell are you doing?
- He might have a tracheal injury.

We need to do something
before he codes.

So wait for the bronchoscopy
so you don't go in blind.

We don't have time for me
to check all those boxes, okay?

Somebody page Dr. Ndugu!

Who can tell me
why I am injecting the penis

with papaverine
to induce an erection?

Hello?

The penis must be erect--

In order to place
the correct anatomic markings.

Correct. 15-blade.

Dr. Kwan,
should I make the incision

on the long or short side
of the curvature?

Short side.

Correct.

Here we go.

Oh, nice blood flow.

Suction, Kwan.

Kwan.

Blue?
Kwan.

Blue.

I would have bet my money
on the other one.

Oh, crap.

Eyes on the field, Schmitt.

Someone get that intern
off my O.R. floor.

Adams,
get him out of here.

If I leave,
can I come back?

Now!

So, there's a chance
I won't remember anything

- when I wake up?
- Well, there is a chance,

but I'm very, very good
at my job.

Oh, don't worry, honey,
you'll be fine.

The doctors told Paula

she'd never be able
to eat spicy food.

And I eat hot sauce
on my eggs every day.

And remember when they forgot
to give Didi her nipple?

Who needs two nipples?

Yeah, see, there.
- It all works out.
- You know what?

We really need to get her
into the operating room.

Her pulse is thready. But I will
update you as soon as I can.

Okay. Mwah.
We'll be waiting for you.

Yeah,
all three of us.

What's wrong
with my pulse?

Nothing.
It's perfect.

But sometimes,
we need our space.

You're right.
You are very good at your job.

Woman over P.A.:
Pathology, extension 2479.

Pathology,
extension 2479.

Mr. Asaki,
is everything alright?

Natalia sent me
to get hot chocolate.

She only does that
when she knows

that things are
gonna get worse.

It's her tell.

Coughing up blood is not
a sign of recovery, is it?

There are always
unforeseen complications

with any kind of cancer.

Is she dying?

This is really
a conversation

you should be having
with your wife.

Do we at least
have a month?

A week?

Do I have today?

I just need a minute.

I don't want her
to see me like this.

I don't want to cause her
any more pain.

Oxygen saturation
still dropping, Hunt.

It's at 62%.

Tube's in. Ambu bag.

We had to do the clamshell
to get a better visualization

of the tracheal repair.

Okay.
Sats are rising.

Oh, wow. Okay.

Patient is
hemodynamically unstable.

He needs an exploration and
a definitive tracheal repair.

Alright. Okay.
Let's go.

Woman over P.A.:
Dr. Erica Newton to Trauma 2.

Dr. Newton to Trauma 2.

Dr. Millin?
Are you alright?

We're Natalia's doctors,

and she is dying, and we are
standing here doing nothing.

You gave her pain meds.
That's not nothing.

She trusted us.

We should be doing everything we
can think of to fix her heart.

I mean, isn't that what you
would want if it were you?

Or your wife?

I wanted to become a surgeon
because we heal people.

You don't just prescribe
them medicine and wait
to see if it works.

You wheel them to the O.R.,
and then you open them up,

and then you fix them.

That's our job.
And right now, we are failing.

We are failing Natalia,
and we are failing Elliot,

and I don't know
what to do with that.

The worst part of this job
is the powerlessness you feel

when you know there is
nothing you can do.

Yes, we could take her
back to the O.R.,

but all we would be doing
is killing her faster.

The best surgeons,
the best,

learn how to live
with the worst part of this job.

Ready?

Ready.

Wait. If I die--Barbara--

If Carol can die from putting up
Super Bowl decorations,

I can die
from brain surgery.

If I die, do not let them
carry me in a box.

I don't care. Let them
throw me out the car window.

Okay.

Dr. Seip to oncology.
Dr. Seip, report to oncology.

Where's your preceptor?

Gone.
He said he had what he needed.

Ha. Yeah, was that
before or after

you did an intracavitary
intubation in the E.R.?

You know what, Bailey?

I thrive on order and protocol.
I'm a solider.

The chain of command
is in my bones,

but I also know when to break
the rules to save the patient.

My license
wasn't suspended

because of my ability
to practice medicine.

It was suspended because

I fundamentally disagreed
with the law,

because I did
what I thought was right.

I want to get
my license back,

and of course I want
to fix things with Teddy,

but if I had done anything
differently today, that
patient would be dead.

I did what I thought was
right, and I don't know how
to do this job any other way.

Hey, none of those words
you just said

is a thing that your wife
or any of us don't know.

Have you tried apologizing

for all of the things
that you got wrong

instead of constantly defending
the things you got right?

Dr. Andorka to the NICU.

Dr. Mary Andorka to the NICU.

Is he in
a lot of pain?

I'm sorry.
And-- And you are?

Gloria. Glow.
Gerald's wife.

Oh, I wasn't aware
that he had called you.

He didn't.
He has no idea I am here.

I've--
I've known all along.

He doesn't seem
to remember

that I handle
all of our insurance payments.

You never
said anything to him?

I thought I should wait
until he was ready to tell me.

And then months went by,
and he didn't,

and I respect that.

I respect his pride enough
to pretend.

Well, the surgery
turned out beautifully.

Thank you.

Oh, you don't want to stay?
See him?

I just needed to know
that he was going to be okay.

I'll wait for his call.

Hmm.

♪ No matter what the cost
or the distance ♪

♪ No bounds between
our hearts ♪

Natalia...

your pain may increase
over the next few hours,

and we'll adjust your medication
to help, alright?

Thank you.

♪ You can't bear ♪

♪ No mountain
I won't scale to meet you ♪

♪ My love will find a way
to reach you ♪

♪ From the breeze
kissing your cheek ♪

♪ To the gentle smile
of stranger ♪

Can we go to that restaurant
in Venice?

Oh, with the mussels
in the pie?

- It's our first stop.
- Yeah?

We can sit outside,
right at dusk, so we can see...

The sunset.

And walk
all along the canals.

The pigeons might get us,
but who cares, right?

Yeah.

♪ I ♪

And someone will take
our picture right by that tower.

♪ I ♪

The wind will be blowing
your hair around,

and you'll keep asking
for another one.

Then we'll go to Florence.

We'll go to Lake Como.

We'll keep going
until we run out of money.

♪ Rivers will dry ♪

We'll see the sunsets
every day.

We'll see the sunsets
every day.

♪ Sun will rise and fall
and still ♪

♪ I ♪

♪ I ♪

♪ I am here ♪

♪ I ♪

♪ I ♪

♪ I am here ♪

♪ I am here ♪

♪ I am here ♪

♪ I am, I am, I am ♪

♪ Here ♪

♪ I am, I am, I am ♪

♪ I am here ♪

♪ I am, I am, I am ♪

♪ Ohhh ♪

♪ I ♪

♪ I ♪

♪ I am here ♪

Okay, spit it out.

Say whatever you want to say.
Come on.

Fine.

I fainted when I saw a penis
bleeding like a fire hydrant.

We found it.

We found the one thing

that makes
Dr. Benson Kwan squeamish.

Are you happy?

You know, I lost out
on a surgery today

because you passed out.

Then I had to drag
your sorry ass in here--

heavier than it looks,
by the way--

and, uh, babysit you.

The way I see it,
you owe me.

Fine. I will do your progress
notes for a week.

Two weeks.

What?

Nothing. Just, uh,
sizing up the competition

and liking my odds.

Shut up.

Did you get
all the tumor out?

I did. And the pathology
report came back.

It was a colloid cyst.
Your tumor is benign.

- Say it again?
- Barbara doesn't have cancer.

Oh, don't worry.
You'll get it.

You still got time, huh?

Yeah, you'll probably get
breast cancer like me,

and then you can do a tummy tuck
when they do the mastectomy.

I don't want cancer!

And no matter what you say,
or how positively you say it,

having cancer is not fun.

Didi, you were exhausted
all the time,

and I know you hated
losing your hair.

You love your hair.

And, Paula, I hated watching you
throw up all the time

and then boast about
how skinny you were.

I hate
everything about cancer.

I don't want it,
I've never wanted it,

and you need to stop making me
feel guilty for being healthy.

I love you both so much,

and I love
that you somehow turned

the most horrible disease
that can happen to us

into something positive.

But I still don't want it.

And you have to stop carrying
our dead sister around in a box.

That is very weird.

It is.

We stay positive because,

the truth is, it's the only way
we can deal with it, right?

But you're right.
Cancer sucks.

I hate cancer, too.

And while we're telling
the truth,

there's something else
you need to know.

That's not Carol.
I left her in Reno in 2007.

We've been carrying around
cat litter for 15 years.

No. Stop it.

Cat litter.
Stop it.

Stop it.

I heard what happened.

I'm sorry.

I am sorry that I made decisions
that affected your life,

my life,
and the life of our kids.

I'm sorry that we had
to flee to L.A.

I'm sorry that I couldn't
bring myself to face it

or even talk about it
with you,

all the while
you supported our family.

I'm sorry that my surfing
partner was attractive.

You were right. I distracted
myself with her attentions,

and then I pretended
like I wasn't doing that.

I am sorry.

I'm sorry for everything.

Wait, stop.
It, um--

It's my turn.

I'm-- I'm also sorry.

I'm-- I'm sorry
that I wasn't as supportive

as I could have been
when you were struggling

with the possibility
of losing your career.

I'm sorry that instead
of talking to you,

I chose to drink.

I'm sorry
that instead of accepting

that we are all
less than perfect,

I chose to lash out,
and I'm sorry,

because I know that nothing
you have ever done

was meant to hurt me
or the kids or you

or-- or our somewhat
chaotic life.

You did it because you believed
it was right. And I love you.

I always have,
and I always will.

Also, um,
Dr. Patel called.

And, um, you passed.

And I would really love it
if you would return

to chief of trauma
effective immediately.

Congratulations.

I would kiss you,
but I'm chief,

and people can
see through the window.

Did you never examine penises

in the Caribbean?

What about your
urology rotation?

Once again,
it's not about the penis.

I didn't expect that amount
of blood in the field

and forgot
to eat breakfast.

I saw you eat a bagel
and a sandwich.

I don't want
to talk about it.

Natalia died.

I'm sorry.

Yeah. Me, too.

Let's go.

Both of you. Come on.

Did you hear
about Kwan?

- No.
- He passed out in surgery--

I meant, "No, I don't want
to talk about this."

Uh, do you have
a problem with me?

No, no.
Just had a long day.

Really tired.
Didn't get any sleep last night.

You sure that's it?

Your fiancé's calling.

Hey. Perfect timing.
Just got off my shift.

You ready?

Yeah.

I'll see you at home.

♪ Energy has got me
flowin' freely ♪

Sorry,
What did you say?

♪ It's easy when you just
wake up glowin' like diamonds ♪

Sorry. Sorry,
I had to follow up

on the solo penile
placation grafting I did today.

You didn't need to include
the word "solo" in that.

Dr. Fox let me
place the graft,

and it was flawless.

That's great.

No, it is great.

I-I'm not Glasses anymore.

Somebody passed out in the O.R.
today, and it wasn't me.

It was Kwan.
We all heard.

I am a successful
chief resident,

and I deserve
to claim it.

Right now.

Why are you
telling me this?

What unit is Carlos on?

Okay, thanks.

♪ I feel alive,
vibin', flyin', yeah ♪

Carlos.

Hey.

Would you wanna
grab a drink with me?

I'd love that.

Okay. Let's go.

I'm...
on a double shift.

Right.

But tomorrow works?

Alright then. Tomorrow.

♪ Ladi dadi ladi dadi dadi,
ladi dadi ♪

♪ And I'm only goin' up
from here ♪

How'd the surgery go?

Oh. I had an intern pass out
on the O.R. floor

when I cut into a penis.

Ooh, Lord, have mercy.

What is it, baby?

When we went to Kyoto,

we met a Reiki healer

who talked about using Reiki
for pain management.

I remember.

Catherine...

I know something's wrong.

And I know you're trying
to protect me.

But whatever it is,
I'm ready to hear it.

My cancer
is progressing.

Acceptance letters,

medical scans,
the next morning's news--

We all have moments in which we
want to hide from the results.

♪ But they're not talking ♪

Hey.

♪ It's quiet in the streets ♪

Hey. Uh...

can I stay at your place
one more night?

What, you're
heading back home?

I'm, uh--
I'm gonna check into a hotel.

You are?

Yeah. Yeah, I feel like
I've worn out my welcome.

Now you think you've worn out
your welcome?

You've been stealing my clothes
and eating my food for years.

At least at my apartment,
we both have bathrooms.

That was different.
You're Meredith's sister-in-law,

I was her sister.
You didn't have a choice.

Hey.

Just because
Meredith moved,

nothing has changed
between us.

We are still
there for each other, okay?

Okay.

♪ I can still see the light ♪

But get your own cereal.

Yours will still taste better.
I can't explain it.

♪ The light ♪

Come on.
Let's go home.

♪ I can still see the light ♪

♪ If I know one thing ♪

♪ It's that all my plans
are nothing ♪

♪ But wishes in the wind ♪

♪ Ooh, yeah ♪

But instead of
closing your eyes

and delaying the inevitable...

♪ And my future rearranges ♪

- Mm, mm!
- What is happening?

- Oh, no.
- You know you want to.

- I really, really don't.
- You do.

Oh, come on.

Mm, fine.

Yes!

You're next.

♪ When it gets darker,
it gets even harder ♪

Nope.
Not my color.

Ohh.
Do they all smell?

Like dead people.

And cabbage.

Absolutely.
Yeah.

- Here.
- Okay, thank you.

Alright.

...find someone
to hold your hand...

You look...

Bad.

Yes. Alcohol now. Cheers.

Cheers.
Cheers.

Actually, may I, uh...

Are we gonna be invited
to your wedding?

We better be.

As I said,
we're figuring things--

Are you kidding me?!
Come on!

I'm kidding.
I'm kidding. I'm kidding.

You're obviously invited.

We'll get back to you.

...and face it with you.

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