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uh you have two carters

uh this is neil carter

carter is that your only white shirt

great where were you oh is that

let's go to the washroom all right

as long as you're here for the train fine

um next oh you want your tickets chain good boy

good boys

good uh

yep

mark okay

um

hey chase

come on girls off the bus off the bus come on hurry up

whoa here pussy

here pussy here pussy

here pussy here

pussy

silence i mean shut up and i mean right now

shut up chase

do you want your ticket hey it's christmas sir

i'm lonely what can i say do you want your ticket

i'm not gonna ask you again

chase do you want your ticket

chase

do you know what the word happy means sir

okay you're gated right

sir i'm gonna come and spend

two hours with you next saturday

no you're gonna spend four hours with me next term

sir you can't do that enough anderson

and stand behind the yellow line anderson

you know what what

you gotta learn to say fuck you faster

ha ha

shit my god gilbert

it's my sister's hmm

what did you put in that lead of course

oh um tanya this is simon henderson

henderson tanya hi hi

wow i didn't know philip had a sister

yeah neither did i

here you go

hey man have a good christmas you too

hi oh hi

do you have much feeling to go toronto it's a long trip

yeah i like being on the train

did you live there oh no

my father lives in hong kong

he works there

so i guess i live with him when i'm not at school

him and his girlfriend karen

she's norwegian

she just follows my father around all the time

says anything he wants her to

i guess that makes life easy

yeah for him i guess

my mother she lives in england and

but her my dad and me are getting together

over the holidays in toronto

just the three of us for the first week

and then karen comes in

i haven't seen my mother in two years

the last time i saw her was in england

she saw me off to the airport

she wrote me afterwards that she

had trouble leaving

she got lost because

it was raining and she was crying

and she had to pull her car over the side of the road

because she couldn't see the signs

um must be pretty excited

i mean must feel really good

knowing you're gonna see her after two years

hmm yeah i don't usually ramble on about it

no where are you going

where are you going hamilton

do you live there yeah for all my life

is it getting cold yeah i think i'm gonna go back in

um it's nice talking yeah nice talking

dad

good trip yeah

where's mom she's waiting for us

where is she she's here waiting to see you

why don't you let me take this

i rented a car it's on the street

a miracle trying to find a place to park

so how's everything at school good

colonel sends his regard not

good i got first shut up one more and i break the wreck

we're in the finals

yeah it's good it's very good

you gonna hack no

oh

simon

your mother's here but she's not well

and she won't be able to spend the week with us

what do you mean

well she's

exhausted she had a kind of breakdown

and i took her to the hospital

she arrived early this morning

and waited for me at the airport

my plane was late

and when i finally got in she was very pale

i was trying to find a place for her to sit

and she fainted

so i took her to an emergency room

and she started screaming

she wouldn't let me near her

her doctor in england has been notified

he's waiting for her

they're a doctor

summon me

this kind of thing has happened to your mother before

can we just go see her now

i'm sorry simon

i'm very sorry about this

dad

am i going on

if you want to

oh my god oh my god oh my god oh my god

oh my god oh my god oh my god oh my god oh my god

simon

my god you're all wet

you like porcupine

my porcupine

you're a big man a big tall beautiful man

i'm spoiling your holiday

i gotta go back to england simon

tomorrow i think

they think they can get me on the plane

we'll do this right the next time i promise

i promise

okay

you should go your father's waiting

we all spent the day waiting for each other

okay

a cafe with david fisher and

i return to fourteen thousand immediately thank you

she seems alright

but why can't she stay

simon

second stop

let's fuck up this

simon your mother may appear to be okay but she's not

she's very ill and it's not good for her to be here now

it's been like this before

she's been in and out of hospitals for the past

three and a half years

i love you

three and a half years

i thought i didn't

i didn't know

you didn't tell me

you never told me anything

i thought you were too young

i just wanted you to be happy simon

you should be happy when you're young

i'm not so young

i'm sorry simon

i wish this hadn't happened

your mother had seemed so much better

what's wrong with her

it's a terrible thing simon

i've tried to imagine what it's like

and the best i can do is

you know when you dream

and you see people and things that don't exist

well it's like that

except you're awake

the brain malfunctions and you're dreaming

you're not supposed to be

to some extent it can be controlled with medication

simon when i first knew your mother she

we loved each other we really did

when she was away for two months

when you were all eleven twelve

i was twelve twelve

well she was in the hospital

she's a liar

no silence she wrote me all those letters

she sent me all that stuff

she never told me anything no

so were you dead

you're a liar too simon

don't say that

what am i supposed to say

you don't tell me the truth

you don't tell me what's happening

you told me that you wouldn't take your money

to come and see me

and i believe you

i was only trying to protect you

oh bullshit

protect me that's bullshit she

she broke down and

whatever you wanna call it this morning

when she saw you not me

when she saw you

stop screaming

you don't love her anymore that's all

you don't love her

that's not true

anything you say

anything you say again

i'll tell you this son

what i feel doesn't matter

sometimes what you feel

shut up you left it for another woman

karen there's nothing to do

with what happened to your mother

or our divorce

nothing at all

now if you want to we can talk about this

no i don't wanna talk kim

i don't wanna talk about anyone simon leave me alone

okay dad you can just leave me alone

simon let's go back to the hotel

we can get some rest

and we'll talk about this in the morning

you don't have to talk

we'll have to

dad

dear mom

dad and karen went skiing in lake placid

i didn't want to go so i came back early

dad got really upset

because karen had planned the trip in advance

and he told me you must learn to respect other people

because in life you can't always do what you want

he also said that when you see us

you feel guilty because you cause us pain

and that i can't help you right now

your illness being what it is

there's nobody here and it feels strange

as if i were the ruler of the place

as if the school belonged to me

or maybe it's me that belongs here

classes start the day after tomorrow

i love you very much simon

don't think about it do it you're right

just listen

hey guys hey guys

hey

happy new year

good to be back isn't it

here's the last term's final left

benny sir hand them back to the fleet

carter

masber

hi sir

chan

stewart

chase

henderson

gillette

back

gabriel

conway

clark

peggy

that nerve

front spaghetti

anderson oh hey what's up man not much

take it easy okay

excellent yeah

what do you know

you're talking to yourself simon

i'm not gated

fuck you just got here

troll tried to nail him at the station

going home it was a bad scene you just

no nick maybe you forgot

not the troll

that's bullshit man

you can't be get off school grounds

i mean trying to get home for christmas you just can't

yeah but troll makes his own rules

you think maybe he's not back yet

i mean i don't get it

well he's back

hey villabred

how's your sister

um the colonel wants to see you me that's what he said

hi simon

that's fine okay

oh anderson did you have a nice holiday fine

and yourself sick busy very busy closer anderson

good reflex

nice to see you how's your father fine sir

he's well sir

i heard you came earlier thirsty oh yes

my father had some business come up unexpected

a new mother how is she fine

look henderson as the new boy maxwell cobb

cobb he'll have your class scheduled

he's a soccer player

so i want you to take him around for a few days

what's your next class chemistry

good go and get him and take him to the lab and tell mr

soyuz i was the cause of your delay

something wrong i don't know where he is sir

of course well he's in the infirmary

the infirmary until we get another room for him

why you want a third in your room

god yeah anderson we're in the same class

does this look straight to you i know

up on the corner okay

anderson meet evie

she goes to how i feel she's a day student

oh yeah i know how i feel

she drives she's seventeen oh yeah of course

so um how long you been here

oh you mean here yeah three years

did the somebody send you to check up on me

oh no just show you around

the colonel

colonel johnston

he's the headmaster

he owns the whole school

he used to be colonel in the army

on weekends he still wears his uniform

rides his horse around

jesus

where do you play anywhere really

except between the posts no good that's where i play

oh you're the goalie yeah i've heard about you

no

stay there cop take a cup of water

stay where you are god

come on goalie

right lads four laps four laps thank you

oh man my combo hey you're not gonna make it

here we go

three satisfied

dearest simon

i'm back in the country and found your letter thank you

i'm much better and i'm writing a very long book

it's a lot of work and i never go outside

i'm as white as a boiled fish

i treasure the time we had together

in that huge hospital in toronto

i'm with you always mama

you're answering a question on norman clay chair

what's the first thing that you do

bulk car you ask yourself if it's a binary compound

or an oxy acid very good

and how do you tell if it's a binary compound

neil carter

sorry how do you tell if it's a binary compound neil

alright ends in i d e

that's right ends in i d e

that's the flag that tells you eureka

and it kicks in a whole new set of rules

mr henderson you're late

what sawyer's law

what's sawyer's law sorry sir

okay

furthermore

binary compounds are made up of two different elements

and furthermore again

there are two different kinds of binary compounds

and what might they be mr cobb

ionic and covalent

very good mr cop thank you very much ionic

made up of a metal and a non metal

one on each side of the staircase

oh

fine

haha

oh

max hey how's it going going it's okay

where were you last night

was that you this morning what coming in

where were you jesus max i was looking out my window

i was having fun with evie last night

all night all night

her parents have gone to montreal for fuck sake

you're gonna get kicked out

oh anderson aren't you tired tired yet but happy

very happy i bet

hey henderson okay

trolling to see you in his office right now

i guess so thanks

oh relax man

drink your cocoa

paul took him away no i gotta

hey who the hell is that in your room

what are you talking about

some guy sleeping on your bed

on my bed yeah

i don't know

tom

oh good henderson

right your mother arrived here this morning

she was very tired so she's resting in your room

my mother yes she wants to take you away after classes

so i'm giving you an overnight pass

where

where what where is she taking me sir

oh she mentioned something about a hotel in town

i thought there were rules

well i'm making an exception in your case

but the next time your mother wants to ask you out

she has to get permission

one week in advance and in writing

just like everybody else

we've got practice today

i'll clear it with mr zurger

it's the day before the game

you don't do anything

anyway your mother said she was ill in christmas

and couldn't spend the holidays with you

i'm doing you a favor come on guys let's go

hey guys wait up

simon

what are you doing here

well i wanted to give you a surprise

surprise

well can you give me a kiss

oh i dream of you

i've gotta go i've got a class

yes of course yes right well i'll see you after yep

you weighed thirteen stones

fathered three illegitimate children

she was a top notch journalist who was always late

a mudlu in the nineteenth century

here during the franco prussian war

bismuth conceded

that he knew more about what was going on

than the commanders did

he wrote a description of the battle of balaklava

the charge of the light brigade

henderson knows but he's not going to tell us

henderson who am i talking about

william howard russell

hey man what's wrong just

you've reached the home of john henderson

and one is available to take your call at the moment

if you'd like to leave a message for karen and myself

please do so

yeah oh

my god

arthur

ready

let's go man

it was nice talking to you

yes yes i enjoyed it

goodbye goodbye

take care simon

i'll see you

mind walking thought a walk might be nice fine

he's nice mr sheamus shane

he likes you

i saw i saw i told you where you are

did you tell dad what what do you mean

does he know you're here no why no reason

i just wondered if he knew you were here

i suffer from schizophrenia simon

it's a disease it's manageable

i know what the cure is and i'm doing it

thank you

simon

simon

it's good luck

simon it's good luck

come on hurry hurry

hurry

oh make a wish make a wish

don't tell me what you wish i wasn't going to alright

how do you feel it's the girls group

oh that's nice you guys and me hey girlfriend

i was thinking about the book you said you were writing

what's it about my book yeah

you don't have to talk about it

if you don't want it no no

i i don't mind

though i don't think i know what it's about

i've still got that same old desk that was my father's

i sit there

i look out the window

there's no dirt road that winds up the hill

there's a large tree between the house and the barn

and a little hamster in the barn

and benjamin the donkey in the photograph i sent you

i used to have a horse but i couldn't afford him

there's no running hot water

i'd like to cut off the electricity

if i could find the courage

should

i think it's important

to learn to survive outside systems based on money

you should come and visit me

i'd like to ready

yeah i would

really really really yeah really really really

all right

come in the summer when everything's green

take long walks

teach you to call benjamin

we'll do this simon

between now and then

you must think about it every night

before you go to sleep all right

and i'll do the same

because if we both want it badly enough

it will happen

do you think you can get ready in time

mom do you know l u r

just a minute

i wanna read you something

she's standing on my lips and her hair is in my hair

she is the color of my eye

she is the body of my head and my shade

she is engulfed as a stone against the sky

she will never close her eyes

and she does not let me sleep

and her dreams in the bright day

like the suns evaporate

and me laugh cry and laugh

speak when i have nothing to say

it's lovely

can i make a copy of that yeah

what do you want to do when you finish school

i don't know

maybe be a journalist lads

you write nice letters

and turn off the light here

can you hear my heartbeat

so glad

i think it's because there's so many old people here

the walls are very thick

bum bum bum bum bum bum bum bum

doesn't it go bum bum bum

it'll be nice this summer

yes

mom

mom what's wrong

i don't think

i don't think that you should visit me

but

everything's alright

i feel better now

sometimes you need to cry

sometimes you do

it's good to cry

someone don't spoil everything

you're the one that spoils everything

it's not me it's you

what do you think that i'm stupid

you think i don't get what's going on

you talk to me like i'm two years old

you don't tell me a fucking thing

don't shout at me

i want to be with you sometime

i wanna be with you

simon i'm not

i'm not good with people

that's why i live the way i do

i'm not people

i know that

that's what you said

oh doesn't matter what you say

it doesn't mean anything anyway

i know i'll never come to england

i'll never see you where you live

it'll never happen

i'll never meet benjamin never

no i won't i know i won't

you just lock me in a school pretend i don't exist

stand and open the door

i didn't want to send you to boarding school

your father went there when he was younger

open the door please open the door

i'll open it if you promise i can come visit you

i thought you said you were a grown up

you act like a baby open the door

you you read poetry

you read elwad

i'll tell you about elwad

he had a friend who was a czech poet

and during a purge

the czech government decided his friend should be hung

elwad danced to the street while they were hanging

and that's elwad for you

and what do you know

open the door

just like your fart you just like your fart

mom

no no no there's glass on the floor

there's glass all over the floor

oh no she's done it no she's really done it

god i can't move this glass is on the floor

how did you do that

what break the window that was my head

must be an old window must be an old head

are you alright did you catch yourself

no blood no blood this time

just be black and blue

i'll say you mugged me

here walk across this

bridge

what cover you up so far

just told me for a while just told me

what should we do about the window

oh i'll put a towel on

i pick up the glass

in a while yeah in a while

you sure you got everything yep

one last dog

we please pay our bill yeah suddenly

also last night i broke the window

and i wrong

so please add the cost of the place

in the class the window

yes the window the glass

you're playing football this afternoon

i hope you make the shut up record

shut up is that what you call it yeah

how did you know about that your father told me

glory is nice

what are you doing after the game

i have a lit test monday so study

life's better than school you know

i mean it gets better once you get out

i miss you already

five one two three four five six seven eight

we thank you for traveling victor rail canada

it was a kind of journey

yeah

wow

get out get out get out

happy new year

come on man i'm sorry about that right let's go

look anything i'm sorry all right

the guy should never have gotten through

it was my fault

yeah come on son at least we didn't lose the game

what's up with henderson

i said cause you didn't get a shout out

you didn't break your record

fucking stupid

look nobody asked you alright martin fuck you man

yeah fuck you too

fucking stupid

right mother

fucking right

go to hell henderson

shut up martin fuck you you're an asshole

you stand up and run

henry andrews wake up what i'm getting you out of here

come on let's go

getting me out

if he's throwing a little party

you're out of your mind

get your clothes on

now we got a lift test tomorrow

come on evie's waiting let's go

what the fuck's going on

but don't worry about it chase

just go back to bed alright

where are you going holy mary mother of god

be back in a little bit

you're going to a party

i wanna come

look chase this one's for henderson alright

next time i promise i'll have a party just for you

alright fuck man look chase another time

just go back to bed

fuck jesus ninety eight

thank you

hey thanks

nice car thanks

hi hi simon

oh

right back

and then

you dance well simon thank you

so do you

who's gonna go

haha haha

oh

hey henderson wanna feel a real piece of ass stop it

hey relax it was just a joke it's not funny

i hate them

you know the first thing i knew about max was you

he was hanging your picture up

you're really nice simon

come on carl

what come on

simon yeah do you know a girl named tanya

yeah no one so weird sister

do you like her simon

well do you like her yeah she's nice

why are you blushing simon

she want you to know

she'll be at the dance next weekend

what she likes you

she told me

hey babe road time

lexi

come on relax

hey when you get back last night man

i didn't hear you commit

you weigh well last night anderson no

you look like shit

so you don't know who she was i never seen her before

maybe she's his girlfriend

now poulter's got a woman

even if she does tell him i mean so what

what's he gonna do

say last night he had his girlfriend here

while she's sneaking out she saw me besides

all she saw was some guy standing in the hallway

there's no rules

those guys can't stand in the hallway yeah

thank you

henderson

would you come here please

come here please

sir a phone call for you and mr johnston's office

who anderson i don't know

don't worry you can finish your test later

hello simon it's dad simon

look simon i'm in london and i've got some sad news

your mother was in an accident at the train station

now everything will be okay but i

i'd like you to come to london

school will take care of the arrangements

and i'll see you tomorrow okay tomorrow

at heathrow i'll be there

okay

goodbye bye son

i'm sorry

how old was she

thirty five

you

simon simon simon

right back yeah behind

hi dad

i know mom's dead

the girl blurted it out

if you want you can rest at the hotel

while i take care of things for tomorrow

how did it happen

she was standing on the station platform

when the train was coming in

she apparently

fell and struck her head

how did she fall

there must have been people somebody must have seen

there were two witnesses but they weren't much help

everything happened so fast

what about the police

what did they say

not very much simon

they don't know why she was at the train station

she didn't have a train ticket

her mini can't be found anywhere

her personal things

her clothes her paintings her manuscripts

everything was found in front of her house

it had all been burned

the animals had been set free

she did all that

simon

when you saw her how was she

did she talk to you after she left me no

the colonel told me she'd come to see you

how was she

who were the and eternal judge

do not let the pains of death

turn us away from you at our last hour

please be seated

the lord is my shepherd i shall not want

he maketh me to lie down in green pastures he leadeth

me beside the still waters

the righteousness for his namesake ye

though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death

i will fear no evil for thou art with me

thy rod and thy staff they comfort me

now prepare

as the table before me in the presence of my nemes

now anointest my head with oil

my cup runeth over

surely goodness and mercy shall follow me

all the days of my life

and i will dwell in the house of the lord forever

i'll see you at easter call me for anything anything

i'll wait to get on the plane

i wish you'd known she was coming to see me

i wish she told you the doctor simon

it's not your fault what happened

you mustn't blame yourself don't ever do that

you loved her and she knew it

and she was glad you did and said so many times

thank you

hmm hmm

haha haha

haha

hi hi

so

yeah

did you just get back

pretty grim huh

okay i rented you this for tonight

if you still want it thanks

do you mind if i

she was beautiful

you know i remember when my cousin died

my aunt laid all her pictures out

i covered the whole floor

she said that

she never wanted to be surprised by any of them

so i guess i'll see you tonight

no i think i better get some sleep

well i'll leave that there for you just in case

might be a little big

oh i'm sorry

if you need anything you know where i am

bye

wow

oh my god

i'm sorry son i'm really sorry

don't sweat it in

sorry

courtney courtney

and then

oh my god it's

i just wanna be

mom

and

i don't know

i know where we are

we're home

i thought you were dead

nobody knows i'm here but i'm really dead

i just had to disappear

i don't understand why what are you doing

what happened

i have to go now

don't tell anyone you saw me

let's get started

okay

so