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=Have a Crush on You=

=Episode 26=

I won't see you off then.

Close the door for me.

Then get some rest, Mr. Ning.

(You can be frank with me.)

(Can I recover?)

(You mean)

(my illness)

(is beyond hope?)

Eat more greens.

It's good for your blood glucose level.

Have you taken your diabetic medication?

I forgot.

For heaven's sake,

you should've taken it before meals.

How can you forget?

It'll be useless to eat it after your meal.

Why can't you remember?

Dear,

don't be mad, okay?

I'll definitely remember after this.

I'll take my medication on time.

Let's eat.

I'm not hungry.

Eat more, okay?

What's wrong?

Nothing.

I'm fine.

My leg is a little numb.

The other day,

you went for a medical checkup.

Is it time to get the medical report?

Not yet.

It'll only be ready after a week.

Didn't they say it'll be ready in three days?

You remembered incorrectly.

I'll be okay.

I'll feel better if I go rest inside for a bit.

Don't worry.

I'm fine.

Are you sure you'll be fine?

Where's the gastrodia elata I bought for you the other day?

I'll boil some water with it for you.

It's okay. I don't need it.

(Imaging File)

Right frontal lobe lesion.

Malignant tumor.

Xinran!

Come out here!

Isn't this your medical report?

How long do you plan to keep this from me?

I never wanted to hide it from you.

I don't want you to worry.

Listen.

You have to be in the hospital for surgery.

I'm calling Zhiqian now.

Shouzheng,

don't call and give Zhiqian trouble.

He's my son.

Who else can I call about this matter?

Don't call him.

Dear!

Are you feeling dizzy again?

Come.

Sit down.

I just blacked out for a moment.

The doctor at West District Hospital said

my tumor

is aggressive

with a low chance of survival.

That's why

we need to turn to Zhiqian for help even more.

We'll do the surgery.

Don't trouble Zhiqian.

He still hasn't forgiven you

because of me.

Why would you think that?

When his mom and I divorced,

we haven't even met.

I did hurt Zhiqian because of the divorce.

But it has nothing to do with you at all.

You chose

not to have a child because of him.

You're not wrong, both logically and emotionally.

I must call him.

Shouzheng,

don't tell him.

I've made up my mind.

I don't want to treat it.

Let's just

take things naturally.

Xinran,

I've always listened to you.

But this time,

you must listen to me.

Please.

Come.

(Door's open.)

Thanks, Grandpa.

Dad, you're home.

See? Grandpa prepared

a lot of dishes for you.

I've already eaten at the cafeteria.

You can enjoy them yourself.

Here.

Take your time eating.

Ning Xiang,

tell me.

Do you like the dishes

I made for you?

Do you want the truth or a lie?

How about a lie first?

This food is absolutely amazing!

What about the truth?

I couldn't eat another bite

if I wanted to!

Oh, then stop eating if you're stuffed.

You can go and play.

Okay.

Maybe

you can have some.

It's okay.

I'm already full.

Why are you here today?

I was thinking

since Ning Xiang hasn't been home for so long,

I'd drop by to visit.

I also have a favor

to ask of you too.

Can you help me

look at this CT film?

Whose CT film is this?

An old friend.

From the film,

there's more gray matter in the brain.

This is a woman's CT film.

Just tell me

what's the situation like.

Whose CT film is this?

Your stepmom.

So is there hope?

The West District Hospital said

they couldn't do the surgery.

I thought

since you're

an influential neurosurgeon nationwide,

Zhiqian,

I'm begging you.

Please help your stepmom.

I know

I've done you wrong in the past.

That's why I've never asked anything

from you all this while.

But now...

Zhiqian,

I'm begging you.

Please save Xinran.

I thought you came

because you missed your grandson.

I though you prepared a meal for us

because you were concerned about us.

I didn't think it was for this.

I can't do this surgery.

Find someone else.

Dad,

Grandpa left.

Hello? Yes, Uncle Ning.

What's the matter?

Calm down. I'll be right over.

How's her condition?

It doesn't look optimistic.

What did Mr. Ning say?

He didn't say anything.

You know how estranged he is from us.

I came to you

because I had no choice.

You can give Madam Liu's complete medical record

to me.

Okay.

All right.

They're all here.

Uncle Ning, I'll see you off.

No, it's okay.

You should get back to work.

It's okay. It won't take too much time.

(Liu Xinran)

Look at Cheng,

acting lovey-dovey every day.

Why must you make me feed you?

He may be too much.

But we should keep a distance.

Don't get in their way.

Why should he torture us with such a display?

I don't care. I'm going to interrupt them.

Can I join?

Mr. Ding,

you're here.

Hello, Mr. Ding.

Where is he?

I just saw Mr. Ding.

But where did he go?

Yeah, he's right.

He was heading that way.

So you two tried

to scare me, huh?

All right. I'll remember this.

You dropped it on my clothes.

I'm sorry.

Who says you can sit here?

Oh, come on. Let's eat together.

We can cover for you.

What if Mr. Ding really comes?

Even if he's here,

I'm not scared.

I didn't do anything wrong.

Are you really not scared if my dad is here?

No.

Why should I be scared?

My pants are stained with oil.

I'll wipe it off for you.

I'll wipe it off you too.

I...

Okay, you got it.

My lips.

Stop being annoying.

We're not trying to annoy you.

You have some on your thigh too.

Wipe off the oil stain.

Mr. Ding.

Hello, Mr. Ding.

Wipe it off quickly.

Don't worry.

It's greasy.

It's okay.

Hi, Dad.

Don't scare me.

Mr. Ding.

I'm not scared if the mayor is here.

Let alone your dad.

My dad is really here.

Oh, Mr. Ding.

Dad,

why don't you sit down

and join us?

I had my lunch.

I'm heading back to the office.

You had your lunch?

See you, Mr. Ding.

-Take care, Mr. Ding. -Take care, Mr. Ding.

You and your big mouths.

Sit down. It's okay.

We won't be in your way anymore.

We're leaving.

You guys are so ridiculous.

Don't waste your food.

Mr. Qian.

Hello, Mr. Qian.

I'm done with lunch.

Are you leaving me here?

Remember to wash the lunchbox.

Okay.

What's the matter, Mr. Qian?

Cheng,

you were not scheduled with a lot of surgeries lately.

Are you spending more time on the outpatient duty?

Ning made the arrangement.

Four days a week.

Four days?

I can't believe

Dr. Ning.

Ah, yes.

Are you in Dr. Ning's research group?

No.

I have to go for the outpatient duty.

I'll get going first, Mr. Qian.

Cheng,

I'll let you join my research group

if you're willing to.

Thank you for inviting me.

But I truly don't have any spare time.

But I'll think about it.

Brat.

You should be busy with performing surgeries,

get it?

I'm only saying this to you.

I think highly of you.

You have more opportunities if you join me.

I'll think about it.

I'll get going first.

Cheng,

you have a great future.

This brat doesn't even clean the table.

Enjoy your meal.

Did my dad come and see you?

Is Madam Liu's condition

very serious?

This is her medical record.

You can take a look at it.

Why did you put these on my desk?

So it's more convenient for you to grasp the situation.

Who says I'm performing surgery on her?

Why did you look at her film if you're not?

You took her medical record, so you'll be responsible.

(Outpatient Building)

Dr. Sun is an expert in neurosurgery at the 3rd People's Hospital.

Let's hear what he has to say.

Liuzheng,

sorry for troubling you.

By reason,

we shouldn't have come to you.

Madam Liu, don't say that.

It doesn't matter if I'm with Zhiqian,

I've already treated both of you

as my family.

Let's go.

It does look

like glioblastoma multiforme.

Ruan,

I'm sure you know

from clinical studies

that it's difficult to treat malignant tumors like this.

It's highly invasive,

and the boundary between healthy brain tissues is unclear.

It's almost impossible

to remove the tumor

through surgery

without causing complications.

Glioblastoma grows rapidly.

The patient's condition may be worse

than what's shown on the film.

I'm sure you also know

the best way

is to do the surgery as soon as possible.

But honestly speaking,

our hospital has never accepted such a case.

I'm not confident either.

Is there any other way?

As I said,

she may have a chance

if Ning Zhiqian performs the surgery.

I remember

he performed a similar case before.

The surgery was a success.

There was no relapse after the surgery.

I understand.

You should go

to Ning Zhiqian

and discuss this with him.

Thank you, Dr. Sun.

Don't mention it.

(Beiya Hospital)

Vital signs?

Normal.

Let's begin.

It looks like glioblastoma.

It should be the same as Madam Liu's case.

Periosteal elevator.

Patient's vital signs?

Normal.

Patient's vital signs?

Normal.

Use the umbrella.

Mr. Ning,

the glioblastoma surgery

you just did

was really incredible.

I have a question

to ask you.

Well,

what's the difference between glioblastoma multiforme

and glioblastoma?

The conditions of the patient in the OR

and hers are different.

What's the difference?

I find it similar.

Can you tell me more specifically?

Just go back and watch the video of the surgery.

Is she admitted to the 3rd People's Hospital?

Did you admit her?

She's in Ward 2...

You don't have to tell me where she's at.

I'm not performing the surgery anyway.

Don't walk in the rain.

Mr. Ning, why are you eating spicy food?

Aren't you afraid of suffering from gastrospasm?

If you're here to persuade me,

you can give it up.

I think it's not easy for Uncle Ning.

No one has it easy.

I know you feel bad.

I understand how you feel.

What do you understand?

What am I feeling?

I know what Uncle Ning did

hurt you a lot.

Stop. Don't try to persuade me.

I'm not performing the surgery.

Sun Guodong from the 3rd People's Hospital

and Dr. Wu from Jiangnan University

are the best candidates.

I'm sure you know what it's like between Zhiqian and his dad.

It has always been like this.

But I didn't expect

he would be stuck in this situation.

Me too.

He used to say

everyone was equal on the operating table.

I didn't expect him to be so resistant.

When Uncle Ning refused

to get back with Zhiqian's mom,

he was indeed heartbroken.

I know.

I think

he was about Ning Xiang's age.

But it's been so many years.

I don't think he would still act out until this day.

Do you know

why Madam Wen suggested to remarry?

After his parents divorced,

Zhiqian followed his mom.

But Aunt Wen was so busy with her work

that she often neglected him.

That's why he always hung out with us.

One day, when Aunt Wen came back after her night shift,

she found him missing.

And she found out

Zhiqian woke up in the middle of the night

and went to look for his dad.

He walked several kilometers on foot.

I guess this matter

affected her a lot.

So she decided

to give Zhiqian a complete home

by

remarrying Uncle Ning.

But no one expected

that Uncle Ning

already has Aunt Liu.

I think

he couldn't let it go because of this, right?

Maybe.

But knowing him,

the more you try to talk to him about it,

the more it'll backfire.

I know.

So I'm really out of ideas now.

That's why I came to see you for ideas.

Does it have to be Zhiqian

to perform this surgery?

He recommended a couple of doctors.

But honestly speaking,

Madam Liu's tumor is extremely tricky.

We can't afford to wait anymore.

Besides,

Uncle Ning

really wants Zhiqian to perform the surgery.

In that case,

we can only try other ways.

Dad,

why didn't Grandpa come today?

(Wen Yi)

Grandpa is busy lately.

So he won't be coming.

Is Grandma sick?

That's not your grandma.

I think she's my grandma.

Look carefully.

This is your grandma.

Have you memorized her look yet?

Actually, both of them are my grandma.

Zheng,

Zhiqian asked me out for a workout.

I'll talk to him.

Don't worry.

Okay.

He's coming.

I'll hang up now.

Are you still working out?

Well, you're early.

I've been here for an hour.

Do you know one hour of my time is expensive?

Well, yours concerns money.

But mine concerns a life.

Whose is more expensive?

Yours.

I just finished a surgery.

Why are you waiting for me?

Are you okay?

You never drink Cola.

Why can't I indulge myself

with soft drinks?

Were you struck by thunder?

You're the one struck by thunder.

I heard after humans are struck by thunder,

the brain circuit

will be different from normal people's brains.

That's an abnormality in the cerebral cortex.

I don't care what you said.

Something is up with you.

Someone is living

like that person

because they are lovesick

and miss each other too much.

I'm sure I'm not in the situation you just said.

I just think

Cola is not that bad.

Are you sure you're okay?

Yeah.

Are you sure

you don't have anything to tell me?

I have nothing to tell you.

Did Ruan Liuzheng come to see you?

No.

Why would she?

Stop lying.

I know what you guys

are thinking about.

About that,

you can just give it up.

I know you can't let it go.

Then why are you trying to talk me into it?

I just think

it's okay if you can't get over it when you were a kid.

But you're not a kid anymore.

After all, he's your dad,

and he's not young anymore.

Then tell me.

If you were in my shoes,

would you perform the surgery?

I can't.

But I know you can.

Why can you not do it, but I have to?

Because you're Zhiqian.

You can do it, you know?

Adjust speed.

Liuzheng, you're here.

What did Zhiqian say?

Why don't

I go and beg him again?

Worse comes to worst, I can trade my life

for hers.

Uncle Ning,

calm down.

I'm sure we have other ways.

Let's figure this out together.

Is that Liuzheng?

Madam Liu.

Be careful.

Don't move.

Just lie down.

Shouzheng,

go and take a breath.

I'd like to talk

to Liuzheng.

Liuzheng.

Come and sit down.

Madam Liu,

feel free to say what you want.

It's not about my illness.

I want to talk to you

about you and Zhiqian.

Zhiqian

didn't remarry you.

At first,

I didn't understand.

I've been thinking about it these days.

Maybe

it's because Zhiqian couldn't get over it.

Madam Liu,

you don't have to worry about us.

You should focus on recovering.

Listen to me.

Actually,

the woman

Zhiqian's dad loves the most

is still Zhiqian's mom.

At that time,

Zhiqian's dad just divorced.

He needed someone to take care of him

and comfort him.

I was his secretary.

So I happened

to be doing all these.

But after that,

- It's already in the past. - it was really...

So stop thinking about it.

Actually, what I wanted to say is,

it's hard

to manage a family

for doctors.

Zhiqian

grew up

in a single-parent family.

He lacked a lot of love.

He doesn't know how to express it either.

I hope

you can understand him.

I can see

that

he really loves you.

He just doesn't want

to hurt you.

Madam Liu,

thank you for telling me all this.

I don't have

a child in this life.

It doesn't matter

how you two end up.

I treat you two

like my children.

I've already considered you as my family.

I hope you

would stop worrying about us.

As for your illness,

we'll find a way to get it treated.

Liuzheng,

I know it's not easy for you.

Thank you.

You're a kind person.

Hello?

Hello, Xiao'er.

How did it go with him?

I don't even want to talk about it.

He's too stubborn to deal with.

He even called me out.

Zheng,

why not

let Dr. Sun do it?

I just asked him.

He said Ning Zhiqian has the best chance for success.

I'll think of something again.

Okay.

Bye.

(Outpatient Building)

Do you have something to say?

You'll have to say it anyway. So shoot.

Did you go and see her during the day?

Yes.

Sun Guodong called me.

You really

put a lot of effort into this.

You even talked to Sun Guodong and Xiao'er.

What do they want to say?

Why didn't they come and see me themselves?

Why did they insist on asking you to talk to me?

They didn't tell me to come.

That means you acted on your own accord.

Why do you think

I must perform this surgery?

Do I have the right to choose not to do it?

You still hate Uncle Ning,

right?

Well, I don't hate him.

I just don't feel anything anymore.

We both go our separate ways.

You said you don't feel anything

and you don't care anymore.

Do you really not care at all?

I know

it was a huge blow to you

when Uncle Ning married Madam Liu

instead of remarrying back then.

You were just a child back then.

So I can understand how you felt.

But now,

you were married and divorced too.

You should know

it's not easy

for things to go back to how it was.

Besides, didn't you also refuse to remarry me?

You're right.

Many years later,

I learned that my father

only made a normal choice

as an adult.

But what you didn't know was,

the day my dad walked out

of the house with his luggage,

I went after him from behind.

I ran after him over a long distance.

But he

never looked back at all.

My mom asked for a divorce.

But my dad doesn't know

how sad and tormented my mom was

after the divorce.

After they divorced,

my mom often looked

at old photos and cried by herself.

I know

she never forgot

my dad.

So one night,

I went out alone

to get my dad back.

But I got lost.

I was terrified at the time.

The next morning,

my mom brought me home after she found me.

After that, my mom went to see my dad

and suggested to remarry.

But my dad

rejected her.

Uncle Ning

had told me all these.

I think

he must have felt sad and conflicted

when he made these decisions.

And I don't think he knows

that Aunt Wen loved him so much.

My dad always thought my mom suggested to remarry

because of me.

But he didn't know

how deep my mom's love was

for him.

He married Liu

only half a year after their divorce.

I'll never forget that day.

My mom told me

they couldn't remarry anymore.

She cried as she hugged me.

It was the first time

my mom cried in front of me.

I'm sorry.

- I didn't know you experienced... - Liuzheng.

If we look at this objectively,

what you said

is well-reasoned.

But I'm also a human being.

I have feelings too.

I'm not a surgical machine.

As a doctor,

I can't bring my personal feelings

to the operating table.

Do you understand this?

I'm sorry.

But Uncle Ning is really desperate now.

I apologize

for troubling you with my family matters.

I'll tell them

that we're co-workers now

and not

to trouble you in the future.

I'm heading home now.

You should go home too.

Hello?

Hello,

Liuzheng.

My wife is not doing well now.

Can you come here?

Okay, Uncle Ning. I'll be right there.

How is she?

It was bad just now.

The intracranial pressure was high.

But I've reduced the pressure.

I'm worried

about slight bleeding in her brain.

We can't delay anymore.

We'll perform the surgery tomorrow.

If Ning Zhiqian can't be

the main surgeon,

I can only take the risk.

By the way,

remember to sign the consent form.

Okay.

Uncle Ning, I'm going out for a while.

Please stay and watch Madam Liu.

Liuzheng,

are you going to see Zhiqian?

I'll go with you.

Just stay here

and wait for my news.

Liuzheng,

you haven't been visiting since you graduated.

I've been busy.

So what can I help you with today?

Do you still remember the speech Professor Wen Yi gave

at our school?

Yeah, I do recall.

I want to find that video.

It's been quite a while.

How about this?

We'll check the database.

Okay, thank you.

Let's go.

(Information Center)

(Low Warning)

Coming.

Come in.

I'll get you a glass of water.

This is for you.

Mom!

What's this?

This is the CD of your grandma's previous speech.

Why are you giving this to me?

You missed the speech

because it was on the day you became the main surgeon for the first time.

It was a surgery that no one was confident in performing.

Yet, you stood firmly by the operating table.

Do you think saying that

will change my mind?

I'll get going then.

(Hello, everyone.)

(I'm Wen Yi,)

(a gynecologist.)

(Do you know)

(medicine)

(is against natural science?)

(Darwin's theory of evolution emphasizes natural selection)

- (and survival of the fittest.) - Dad,

isn't this my grandma?

Do you know

your grandma

was an extremely good, amazing,

and outstanding doctor?

(Dr. Werner Forssmann)

(anesthetized his elbow)

(and inserted a catheter)

- (into his vein.) - Dad,

you're also

an extremely good, amazing,

and outstanding doctor.

(And he proved)

(that the heart can be treated)

(by injecting drugs through a catheter.)

(As doctors,)

(we have to sacrifice our health,)

(and our families,)

(and devote all our energy and time to our work.)

(What is it that we are guarding?)

♪White clouds will never miss out on clear skies♪

♪As we waited, we deserve the embrace♪

♪However, we never♪

♪Chose to stay♪

♪We only care about the future♪

♪While the present slips past us♪

♪Before choosing a direction at the next crossroad♪

♪I let go of your hand out of habit♪

♪Two hearts anticipate approaching each other♪

♪Yet suffer in regrets♪

♪Choosing a direction at the next crossroad♪

♪Is like tearing the universe apart♪

♪Losing oneself in regret♪

♪Saving oneself with silence♪

♪Before choosing a direction at the next crossroad♪

♪I let go of your hand out of habit♪

♪Two hearts anticipate approaching each other♪

♪Yet suffer in regrets♪

♪Choosing a direction at the next crossroad♪

♪Is like tearing the universe apart♪

♪Losing oneself in regret♪

♪Saving oneself with silence♪

♪Choosing a direction at the next crossroad♪

♪Is like tearing the universe apart♪

♪Losing oneself in regret♪

♪Saving oneself with silence♪

♪That won't do♪