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Hombre: Lyle! Levantarse, Lyle!

Levántate.

Hombre: Facebook en vivo, la encontró desmayado, hombre.

La encontró inconsciente en su cara ... (indistinto).

No lo sé. Pero podría estar muerto, hermano. Espera, hermano.

(Mujer que habla indistintamente) Sí, espera, engañar.

Él might-- podría estar muerto, Jack.

Alan Spanos: Nosotros, los médicos estaban equivocados en el pensamiento

que los opioides no se pueden utilizar a largo plazo.

Ellos pueden ser, y que deberían ser.

Estamos acostumbrados a pensar que dejaran de trabajar

o que los pacientes se convertirían en los adictos

o que les gustaría ser sedados en la inactividad.

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Spanos: ahora nos encontramos con que estos medicamentos son mucho más seguros,

mucho más potente, mucho más versátil que utilizamos para pensar,

y creemos que deben ser utilizados mucho más liberalmente

para las personas con todo tipo de dolor crónico.

Hombre: Algunos pacientes pueden tener miedo de tomar opioides

porque se perciben como demasiado fuerte, o adictiva ...

pero eso está lejos de ser un hecho real.

Menos del uno por ciento de los pacientes que toman opiáceos

de hecho convertirse en adictos.

Hombre: ruidos de toma de Ella.

Ella está haciendo ruidos. ¡Yo!

Mujer: La respiración de ella. She's-- Vamos, bebé.

Hombre: La respiración? Mujer: Sí. Ella es ...

Ella está tratando a-- Vamos, chica.

Vamos, Jerry, despierta.

Jerry, despierta! Mírame.

Mírame, Jerry.

Oficial: Jerry, mírame! ¡Venga!

♪ ♪

Hombre: Despierta, chica! ¡Ahí tienes! Hombre 2: Woo-hoo!

Quédate con nosotros. Aférrate. Quédate con nosotros.

Cinco de alto, que estás vivo. Estás bien. Estas bien.

Hombre: ¿Estás bien? Estás con nosotros?

¿Estás haciendo bien?

Hey, quédate conmigo, hombre. Quédate conmigo.

Hombre: ¿Se puede despertar? Mujer: ¿Vas a estar bien?

¿Se encuentra ella bien?

Hombre: Yo, que está sobredosis. Al igual que, ¿qué coño, hombre?

Hombre: ¡Despierta! Hombre 2: ¡Hey!

(Gritando indistinta)

Hombre: ¡Despierta, despierta!

Despertar, muchacho!

Obtener agua, conseguir agua, conseguir agua!

Hombre 2: Verter agua en la primera.

El hombre: lo quieren también? Hombre 2: Joder, tío, porque ...

(Man 2 hablando)

Hombre: Lo sé. Hombre 2: Cualquier cosa podría haber sucedido.

(Niño que llora) ... Mami Mami!

Hombre: Oh, Dios mío.

¡Mamá! (llorando)

¡Mamá!

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Periodista: Aplicación de la ley dice que nunca han visto el abuso

de una seta de medicamentos recetados fuera de control tan rápido.

Newsman 2: Estos medicamentos todos pertenecen a una familia de medicamentos llamados opioides.

Mujer: Y analgésicos recetados conducen a la heroína.

Newswoman: Es un narcótico, estrechamente relacionada con la heroína y la morfina

con el mismo potencial de adicción.

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Stephany Gay: Si somebody'd me dijo hace seis años

que iba a ser un adicto a la heroína,

Yo hubiera pensado que estaban locos.

Ni en un millón de años.

Yo no salgo con niños malos.

No he tenido problemas.

II acaba nunca habría pensado alguna vez que le puede pasar a mí.

Cuando tenía unos 16 años,

Empecé a recibir los cálculos renales,

y que me iban a dar medicamentos para el dolor por ello,

porque eso es prácticamente todo lo que podían hacer.

Kathy Kelly: Los rayos X mostraría los cálculos renales.

No hubo fingiendo, nada.

Es decir, aquí es un niño, 15, 16 ...

que había estado sobre la edad que comenzó a conseguir 'em,

um, y ella está haciendo 'em every-- par de veces al año.

Stephany: Me dio una inyección de Dilaudid,

que es un analgésico muy potente.

Y entonces recuerdo que me enviar a casa,

con una prescripción de Oxycontin

y una receta de Vicodin.

Kelly: Y recuerdo que pensé en ese momento,

"Wow, esas son la clase de medicamentos de alta potencia para una persona tan joven,"

pero yo confiaba en los médicos.

Stephany: En el principio, me gustaría simplemente tomar mi Vicodin

según lo prescrito cuando estaba en el dolor,

pero, al igual que, gradualmente empeoró con el tiempo.

Se adormece mis sentimientos y me hizo sentir como ...

bien de todo.

Usted sabe, "Estoy bien. Estoy-- estoy bien."

(Lamentos sirena)

Ya sabes, me gustaría tener uno extra aquí o allá,

y luego, si se me acabó, me gustaría fingir

al igual que yo no sabía lo que estaba mal conmigo, para que yo pudiera conseguir más.

Ya sabes, fingiendo dolor para ir al hospital para obtener analgésicos.

Es decir, sería algo de Oxycontin,

a Vicodin a Norcos.

A continuación, se pasó de tomar la dosis prescrita

como uno de cada seis horas

a tomar, como, 20 Norcos un día.

Estoy pasando por una receta mes en dos días.

Y llamé a mi madre llorando, y yo estaba como, "No sé lo que me pasa."

"Mamá ... No puedo dejar de tomar estos,

Porque cuando deje de tomarlos, no me siento bien ".

Le dije: "Bueno, tenemos que hablar con su médico."

Y él me escribió otra receta para Percocets,

lo que era más fuerte que los Norcos que había estado tomando.

Mi hermana, Ashley ...

ella era la persona más cercana a mí en todo este mundo.

Lo hicimos todo juntos.

Me gustaría conseguir analgésicos, y me gustaría, como, ya sabes,

cuando empecé a recibir mal con ellos

ella era curioso, porque lo que hizo, lo hizo.

Por lo tanto, para ir a dormir, ella sería como, "A ver si uno de sus pastillas.

A ver si uno de sus analgésicos para ir a dormir. Dame un Vicodin ".

Y me gustaría darle uno, ya sabes,

y ella sería como, "Oh, Dios mío, me encanta esto."

Kelly: Se compartiría ellos entre sí.

"Oh, tengo un dolor de cabeza." "Oh, bueno, aquí, se puede tomar una de mis pastillas."

Um ... los dolores menstruales.

Una hermana compartir medicamentos con otra hermana.

Stephany: Nunca había estado expuesto a las drogas como eso.

No sabíamos lo que podría suceder, ¿sabes?

Sólo pensamos, como,

"Bueno, nuestro médico nos empezó a dar, ya sabes,

estos analgésicos, por lo que no puede ser tan malo ".

Bueno, entonces él la cortó en ellos,

y entonces ella no se sentía bien.

Sus amigos dicen, "Oh, bueno, aquí, voy a dar usted-- tomar la mía."

Sino que se hicieron caro comprar privada de los amigos,

y los médicos no 'em darían a ella nunca más.

Por lo tanto, este amigo le dio una pequeña bolsa,

y dijo: "Sólo oler esto.

"Te va a hacer lo mismo que hacen las píldoras,

"Lo único, no es necesario tomar cinco pastillas.

"Basta con echar la bolsita, olerlo,

y se sentirá mejor ".

¡Y funcionó!

Ella lo tomó y funcionó.

Recuerdo que pensé, como, "Wow. Esta es la mejor sensación del mundo."

Fue realmente, como ...

Tenía, como, no es una preocupación en el mundo.

Me hizo sentir como si pudiera hacer nada.

Me sentía como mujer estupenda.

Es mucho más barato que ...

la compra de 15 Norcos al día a cinco dólares cada uno.

Ya sabes, "Aquí está una bolsa de diez dólares de heroína,

y que le va a durar tres días ".

No tenía ansiedad o no me sentía deprimido.

Me sentía feliz, me sentí caliente.

Sentí que me quería, y me encantó volver.

Se sentía como si estuviera en, como, una relación con ella,

al igual que, me sentí como si tuviera una relación con la heroína.

Fue simplemente la mejor sensación del mundo.

Aspiré a la heroína durante aproximadamente un año.

Yo y Ashley tanto lo hizo.

Kelly: Ellos no sabían

el alcance de la adicción a las que se enfrentaban,

como una ola.

Ya sabes, que está de pie en una playa, y tienes esta ...

50 pies de ondas que vienen en usted.

Y recuerdo Ashley diciendo:

"No es como que estamos pegando agujas en los brazos, mamá."

Stephany: "Eso es para los adictos reales.

"Usted sabe, nunca haré eso.

"Nunca voy a tocar una aguja.

Eso es repugnante, eso es grave ".

Y en alguna parte ... a lo largo de ese tiempo,

alguien introduce la aguja a ellos.

Stephany: es suficiente con hacer un poco pequeña,

y se obtiene, ya sabes, diez veces más alta,

y tiene una duración de diez veces más largo,

pero entonces, que, al igual que, hace tan fuera de control tan rápido.

Si tenía suerte, ya sabes,

sólo me tomaría diez minutos para golpear una vena,

y entonces podría ir acosté.

No tenía las venas que quedan.

Es decir, en el cuello, y el lado de mi cara,

palmas de las manos, los dedos,

Es decir, al igual que, en el pecho,

y que estaría cubierto de sangre.

Sólo quiero dormir todo el día,

hasta que me desperté de estar enfermo de nuevo,

y entonces tendría que pasar por todo de nuevo.

Cuando empecé a usar ...

Tenía mi propia casa de tres dormitorios, dos pisos.

Yo era una madre y ama de casa con mi hija de dos años de edad, hija.

Yo y mi hija de padre,

cada uno tenía nuestros propios coches nuevos.

Hemos tenido una piscina en nuestro patio trasero, que tenía dos perros.

Tenía, al igual que, la vida perfecta.

En el momento en que empecé a inyectarse heroína,

Había perdido mi casa.

Habíamos vendido tanto de nuestros coches,

y he perdido la custodia de mi hija.

Kelly: Me acuerdo Ashley diciendo:

"No quiero seguir con esto."

Ya no era una fiesta,

y ella era un esclavo de ella.

(Cuerno toca la bocina)

Stephany: Se metió en una pelea con su prometido,

y ella fue a buscar un motel.

Estaba limpia en el momento, y yo ...

No pensé que ella estaba usando.

Kelly: Ashley había estado en tratamiento.

Se había quedado en apenas el tiempo suficiente

para obtener a través del tiempo de espera,

y se sentía bien,

y luego salió de un tratamiento temprano.

Fue entonces cuando se puede tomar ellos porque piensan

que pueden utilizar lo que estaban utilizando antes.

Ellos dicen: "Bueno, lo hice mucho"

um "por lo que puedo manejarlo", y que no pueden.

Su cuerpo es volver a lo que era.

Y cuando me diría a mi hija,

"Estoy muy preocupada por ti, Ashley,"

ella dirá,

"Mamá, estoy-- yo soy demasiado joven y bonita para morir.

Estaré bien. Voy a vencer a este ".

Stephany: Pienso que tal vez pensó

ella sólo podía hacerlo una vez más

y conseguir que la muy buena altura,

y luego no hacerlo más.

Y es como ... que una vez, nunca se sabe.

(Llamando a la puerta)

Stephany: Su novio me llama, y él estaba en el motel,

y ella no estaba respondiendo a su teléfono.

(Detonaciones se hace más fuerte)

Stephany: Me llamó y estaba, como, histérica.

(Golpes en la puerta)

Stephany: Empezó a golpear las puertas.

He called 911,
and told the operator,

"My girlfriend
is a heroin addict.

"She's not
answering her phone.

"I know she's in trouble.

Please come to this hotel
and help me."

(pounding continues)

Stephany:
I remember where I was at.

I was at the
Taco Bell drive thru.

I remember seeing
the police station's number
come up on my phone.

And I remember
picking up the phone,

and it being a man's voice.

He was like,
"I'm sorry for your loss."

And I was just like...

I was like,
"What are you talking about?"

And, um, he's like,

"I need you to come
into the police station."

And I just-- I knew.

And...

It was like my whole
world just, like, stopped.

It was the worst nightmare
that anybody could have.

I miss her every day.

Desde la mañana hasta la noche, que es una cosa todo el día.

Stephany: Yo era un suicida cuando perdí a mi hermana.

Me acaba de hacer grandes cantidades,

$ 200 en medicamentos,

en una hora, en una sesión.

Sólo la oración, como,

"Por favor, no me dejes despierto.

Yo no quiero vivir más ".

Stephany: Ella era como una segunda madre a Audrey.

Ella actuó como Audrey era su hija.

Ya sabes, ella would--

Ella se haría cargo cuando me estreso o ...

Kelly: Ustedes dos eran inseparables.

Stephany: Nunca se puede imaginar volver a ...

vivir como yo era.

Nunca pude imaginar volver a ...

pegue a mí mismo con agujas,

15 veces al día durante horas a la vez.

He estado limpia durante el tiempo suficiente para dónde ...

me da miedo, la idea de usar,

porque sé que una vez me podría matar.

Se trata de un tiempo-- fundamental

ahora que usted, usted tiene el tiempo de limpieza.

Ella tenía eso, que el tiempo de limpieza,

y luego se utiliza ...

y me siento como si estuviera ...

estás ahí, y es tan aterrador.

Cada vez que recibo una llamada en medio de la noche,

II conseguir que la sensación de la tripa.

Todo se contrae.

No podía imaginar ...

que le pone a través de la pérdida de otra ... niño.

(estornudos)

(olas del mar rompiendo)

(Gaviota llorando)

Britt Doyle: Esa foto ...

fue tomada cuando era, creo, seis años de edad.

En cierto modo me acuerdo de ese día, como un poco,

pero recuerdo que esa foto fue ...

en su habitación siempre, porque ella dijo que era su foto favorita de nosotros,

y me gusta mucho también. (risas)

Esta cruz ...

ella me dio cuando mis padres se separaron,

porque told--

Yo estaba muy triste un día, y yo estaba como ...

"Mamá, no voy a ser capaz de volver a verte.

Yo no voy a vivir contigo"

y ella era como,

"Tengo el mismo collar.

"Te voy a dar a éste,

"Y si usted lo usa, entonces estamos gonna--

"Sólo sabemos que estamos juntos,

y sólo sé que yo estoy pensando en ti ".

"Estimado Preston,

"He disfrutado cada minuto de nuestro tiempo en Tahoe.

"Usted es este joven asombrosa

que me hace orgullosos todos los días,

"Y más cada año.

"Hay cosas increíbles que le esperan en el futuro.

"Usted es un éxito en la vida ...

"Y siempre lo será, porque tiene esa chispa especial

"Que hacer y disfrutar la vida al máximo.

te quiero. XO, mamá ".

Y leí que ...

literalmente cualquier momento tengo ningún tipo de problema en mi vida,

porque no es sólo el hecho de que ella escribió eso.

Es sólo que ... no sé,

sólo demuestra qué clase de persona que tenía a mi lado durante todos esos años.

Aquí hay una captura de pantalla de un texto que me envió.

(Texto de lectura de Harry)

Y, eh, que no quiere decir que enviar.

Le gusta...

era sólo probablemente alta de la cabeza.

♪ ♪

(Risas) Eso quiere decir imagen.

Lo sé, lo siento. divertida de éste.

Espere. Britt: Whoa!

Britt: Bajar! Estoy delicado, y no me gustan las cosquillas.

Wynne: No se le cosquillas. (Britt ríe)

Yo estaba tratando de pedir un deseo en su barriga, grandísimo Biddy.

(Chillando, la risa)

(Wynne hablando)

(Britt ríe)

¡Ay! ¡No esta pasando!

Britt: Y ella se limpia la nariz con mi pelo.

(Riendo)

Doyle: Cada uno de nuestros tres hijos fueron cesáreas,

but the third one was
a particularly hard pregnancy,

so when Wynne got
out of the hospital,

they gave her a lot of...

uh, prescriptions,
I mean, in a row.

I had no idea

that she'd been
given Oxycontin,

or Vicodin or any
of the opiates that
we all know about now.

We had no idea that
there were any dangers.

About a month and a half
after the baby was born,

Wynne was starting
not to get out of bed.

And that's when
I started finding

the pill bottles
around the house.

All of a sudden, now
there's pills all the time,

and there's more
and more doctor visits,

and there's more and more
trips to the pharmacy,

and she's getting less and less
interested in anything.

She was hiding 'em,

and she was getting 'em
from multiple doctors.

Different doctors
that started showing up
on pill bottles.

Los médicos se acaba de tirar las pastillas en ella.

Y para el final del año,

usted sabe, ella sólo era una persona totalmente diferente.

Completamente diferente.

Era como Jekyll y Hyde.

♪ ♪

Cuando estábamos saliendo,

Nunca había pensado en cualquier tipo de adicción,

o alcohol, es decir, nada.

Salimos un par de veces a la semana.

Nos gustaría ir a restaurantes y beber vino.

Es decir, no había nada.

Es decir, nunca vi nada.

Ella fue impulsado, y divertido estar cerca,

y se sintió bien.

Tuvimos un par de niños, que era una gran madre.

Nos íbamos de vacaciones.

Fuimos a visitar con la familia.

Tuvimos amigos a través de todo el tiempo. Tendríamos las cenas.

Se crió muy bien.

Ella era, como, una estrella de la pista,

a campo traviesa, a la animadora, todo el mundo la quería.

Yo sólo miraba siempre hacia ella cuando era pequeña,

and being like,
"That is the most beautiful
woman, like, ever."

And I'd wear
all of her clothes,
all of her jewelery,

I would do makeup with her

ever since I was--
I could walk, I feel like.
(chuckles)

Doyle:
Christmas morning of 2000,

about five or six months
after the baby was born,

I woke her up, and it
had been a couple of days

since she'd been up,

and, uh, I got
the kids out of bed,

and, you know, she didn't even
realize it was Christmas.

I asked her if
she would consider

going to a treatment facility,

and I had already talked
to Betty Ford Clinic
down in Palm Springs.

She stayed for three days
and then went missing.

I went down
and tried to find her.

She'd checked
into a motel, and...

she was passed out.

I had just no idea
what was going on.

She went to a second
rehab facility,

y pensé, ya que podría permitir en el momento,

quizás este lugar sería mejor porque era tres veces más caro.

Cuando ella desprotegido 28 días más tarde,

que tenía un montón de nuevas pastillas ...

y sucedió de nuevo.

Ella iría en torno a diferentes médicos,

diciéndoles que no tenía dolor.

Ya sabes, que haría algo para herir.

La vi cerrar de golpe la mano en la puerta del coche una vez

simplemente para que pudiera ir a la sala de emergencias,

y los médicos siempre le darían algo,

Vicodin o Oxy o algo así.

Ella rompió ambas muñecas,

y ella tenía ...

um, esto- no sé cómo ...

que tenía como un molde en ambos de ellos,

y tan pronto como todos eran sanados de nuevo,

ella hizo algo que se rompió de nuevo.

En repetidas ocasiones, al igual que el ciclo había terminado, y otra vez,

donde ella había hecho daño a sí misma,

y luego obtener la medicación, y luego se iría fuera, y se van.

Mi padre siempre me dijo que era "escuela de cocina."

Una vez que fui creciendo, empezamos a darnos cuenta de que, al igual que,

ella va a rehabilitación en este momento, pero ...

Es no-- ... no es gonna-- no va a funcionar.

Se llegó al punto en que era tan común,

Yo estaba como, "Tal vez ella era realmente así."

Pero luego me di cuenta cuando estaba limpio,

su estado de salud y apenas se veía increíble,

pero cuando ella era alta, era como ...

era como si estuviera caminando dormido,

al igual, que no era en absoluto a sí misma.

Simplemente, como, sus ojos eran diferentes,

su discurso era diferente,

su forma de andar, todo en ella era realmente fuera.

Preston: Cuando estaba limpia, que era un ser humano increíble,

y simplemente la mejor madre,

and I'd trust her with
my life when she was sober,

but I had to do things that
most kids wouldn't have to.

It almost felt like
I was the parent.

It's like the roles switched,

where I'd be searching
her room for-- for drugs.

Whenever I'd open drawers,
there would be pills hidden.

There would be pills
in the bathroom counters.

You know,
in her coat pockets,
or in her shoes,

in her sock drawer,

I mean, in the back
of the food pantry,
or wherever.

They were everywhere.

Her family was ashamed.

Every Christmas
was a disaster.

All of a sudden,
we're losing friends,

people didn't want
to be around us.

Doyle:
I think at this point,
the kids...

they were just starting
to understand it.

The reason why I would keep
them out in the evenings,
you know,

and always filled their days
with things, you know.

I mean, at one point,
I had all three of 'em
in Little League,

which was a disaster for me,

because I'm driving
all over the place.

Two practices and a game
for each one of 'em every week.

You know, we'd have
dinner out all the time,

and movies,
and you know.

It was exhausting.

I'm trying to keep them away

from wanting to go upstairs
and see their mom in bed.

We knew there was a problem,
but there was nothing that

we could say or do
that was gonna change it,

so it just became
part of our life.

Doyle:
In 2008,
like seven years into it,

a rehab facility in Malibu
called and said,

"Are you not coming
for family week?"
And I said, "No, I've had it.

"You know, I'm not coming
to anymore family weeks.

I've been to too many already."

And they said, um...

"Well, it sounds to me
like you're done."

And I said, "I don't even
know what that means."

He said...

"Well, if you're thinking
about a divorce,

"we... we really ought
to think about that
while she's here,

"so that she doesn't
come home to that

and not have a support group."

I mean, it was the first time
anybody had ever said...

that I actually...

you know,
could get out, so...

um, I...

I filed...

and moved the kids out.

♪ ♪

When we divorced,

Wynne got half custody,

and started living
in San Francisco.

The kids would visit her.

They're getting older.

They're starting
to really develop

a relationship with their mom

that's separate from me.

Harry:
The last house that
we lived at with her

was in the South Market,
and the Embarcadero.

And I used to skate
on the Embarcadero at 10:30,

'cause she would allow me
to, like, leave the house,

like, she gave us
that much freedom.

It was just like my favorite
feeling in the world.

♪ ♪

This was her house, you see,
with all these candles.

Man:
Oh, that's cool, yeah.

Doyle:
When the kids
were with her,

I was always on edge.

Then it really just
became about safety.

I became this hyper-vigilant
sort of guy,

and she was fine,

but I knew it
wasn't gonna last.

It just slowly
deteriorated again.

♪ ♪

I heard from the kids
that she was going
into the hospital

because she had
a kidney stone that
they had to remove.

She had been taking
a lot of opiates,

and once she got
to the hospital,

they were giving her
what a normal person

would be getting as a dose
when you have pain,

but it wasn't near
the amount she'd been
taking on her own.

So, there she is
in a confined spot,

for four days going
through withdrawals,

and it was just getting worse.

So, she left the hospital,

and they gave her
a bunch of opiates
on the way out.

Preston and Harry
were staying with their mom.

Harry:
Like, she had all these pills
on the side of her bed.

"The hospital told me
to take these,"
and I was just like,

just... please
don't overdo this.

Like, there's a lot
of pills here.

Eight bottles
filled to the top,

and I was like,
"Who gave you all of these?"

And she said,
"Oh, my doctor did."

Like, "I'm still in a lot
of pain from the kidneys."

And then, in the morning,
she was just laying there

with her arms spread out,
and her eyes were kind of open.

We said goodbye,
and got no response,

and we thought that was odd.

Preston, like, pulled out
his phone to, like,

take a video to just,
like, show our father,

like, what was,
like, going on.

And I told him, like,

"Put down the phone,
like, right now."

And he's like, "Why?"

And like I, that was--
I was like grabbing her foot,

and it was just ice-cold.

And I called 911,
they were telling me to do
chest compressions on her.

I was just yelling
at Preston to stop,

and he was just like,
said, "We need to do
everything we can."

and... it was, um...

I mean, that's when
I had to call, like,
my father.

And it just was surreal,

in having the conversation
with Harry

as I can hear Preston
in the background.

"Mom's dead.
Like we-- we need
to do something,"

and he just--
he didn't believe me,
and I was just like,

"Just get to the city,
like, right now."

And then hearing Preston
screaming on the other--

You know, he's, um...

trying to give her
compressions. (sniffles)

(sighs)

Doyle:
By the end...

at the funeral,
there were hardly
any of her friends.

♪ ♪

Britt:
When I saw the pills
on her bedside table,

when she had passed,

that was probably
the most anger
I could feel ever,

because she's been
to that hospital

easily like 50 times.

They've seen her there,
unconscious, had to, like,
pump her stomach

so many times,

and yet, she comes in there,

and they leave her,
like, with more?

Doyle:
I firmly believe
that there are so many people

that are being
prescribed opiates

without any
direction or support

that have no idea
what they're getting into,

and then, once they
can't get out of it

the shame and the inability
to actually confront it

and talk about it
with somebody...
makes it worse,

because now,
all of a sudden,
they're an addict.

(rain pattering)

(thunder rumbles)

(Kelly speaking indistinctly)

Do you like it so far?

I love it,
I think it's beautiful.

I was thinking,
maybe we would
make one for your mommy.

That's what I
would like to do when,

when I'm done with yours,
if that's okay.

Let her know
that we're thinking of her.

Kelly:
I have adopted Audrey.

She needed
stability, security,

and until my daughter
could recover,

she just couldn't
give her that.

Kelly:
I'm trying to keep
her a child.

I don't want her
to grow up too fast.

But she's part of this,

and she's kind of my partner.

We have the Narcan,

and I dropped
some off for her.

If something happened,

and I couldn't
get over there,

do you remember
what you would do?

Where--
where do I keep it?

In the top.

So I keep
the Narcan right here.

This one is real
easy access

for Audrey if she needs to.

I keep a couple
of packs inside here.

Three, actually,

and it's two...
two doses per box.

But this is really
easy for her to reach.

I can get at it.

It's very visible
in the red bag.

If she wasn't moving,

try to shake her?
I would check if
she was breathing.

Okay.

And, then, what's the
next thing you would do?

Rub, rub the lips,
try to stimulate her.

And then what
would you do

if she didn't wake up?

Then I would take
the... the Narcan...

Okay.

...and I would...
and I would place it
on her thigh,

her butt,

or right here.
Yep.

Exactly. And then
what do you do?

Then, call 911.

Right.

I'm gonna say
a special prayer
for your mommy today,

'cause she really needs it.

I know she's
trying very hard,

and I know
she misses you.

(both laugh)

I'm gonna bring
some to Stephany.

I don't know
what she's doing...

but it's always good
to have it there,
just in case.

And also...

a lot of times,
they don't use alone.

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

(kisses)

They're so pretty.

(sniffles)

♪ ♪

Gail Cole:
When we found him,

the two of us
pulled him off the bed.

I'll never forget the sound

of just the air
coming out of his lungs.

For the longest time,
I couldn't come in this room.

It's literally like
the day he died.

It took me a year to come in

and throw his garbage out,

and I think I did that,

because I saw that
the medical examiner

left the wrapper for
the body bag in there.

I just--
I can't go through it.

I feel like it's like
getting rid of him.

Brian Cole:
Part of me takes great comfort
in all of this stuff too.

Just reminds me
of his personality,
you know.

♪ ♪

Brian:
I did everything possible

to-- to create a perfect
life for a family.

Brendan:
Brothers get together!

Brian (in video):
All the brothers, hold on.

Brian:
To have this
happen is just

not even conceivable to me.

Brian (in video):
Come on, Connor.

Gail (in video):
Here's Brendan!

Hey baby, I'm not four yet!

Brian (in video):
Yeah, Brendan!

(Gail speaking indistinctly)

Brian: That's his calendar,
he was marking off the days
when he was first...

Gail: Sober?
Brian: ...sober.

I just thought it would
be important for him
to be able to

look at the calendar
at the end of every day,

and cross it off,
and say, you know,

"There's another day,
I've done it."

You know? I just
wanted him to have

some type of way
of measuring his success.

Gail: When he had
come out of rehab,

he looked the best
he had in years,

He looked so healthy
and was so positive.

And he said,
"Oh, can I borrow the car?
I want to go to the mall."

And I said, "Sure."

And he's only gone
45 minutes.

He's texting Brian pictures
of shoes, of all things.

And he came back.

He poked his head in,
I said, "You know,"

I said, "It's so nice
to have you back."

He goes, "Thanks, Mom,
I love you. Thanks for
giving me another chance."

And, with that,
I look at his face

and I'm, like,
"Wow! He's high."

And, you know, the yelling,
the screaming, and...

we agreed tomorrow
would be another day.

And, um, I went to sleep.

Brian fell asleep
on the, on the couch,

and woke up
at around one o'clock,
by the grace of God.

He found him kind of laying
at an odd angle on the bed.

He turned on the light
and screamed.

His lips were turning blue.

He was unconscious.
He was barely breathing.

And you were screaming,
we're shaking him,

calling 911.

The police came,
the ambulance came,

and then Mobile
Intensive Care came

and they revived him
with Narcan...

and he walked out
the front door
to the ambulance.

When we got into
the emergency room,

nobody really talked
about the withdrawal
from the Narcan,

and there was
no real game plan

for what to do
after overdosing.

So, we got in the car
and I drove him home,

and I could, could
barely even speak to him.

I was just so furious.

He was, you know,
sleeping in the front seat,

and we pulled in
the garage and I said,

"Do me a favor, would you
just take a shower and try
to get yourself together?"

And he goes, "I can't."

And I didn't
really understand,

but I've learned,
after the fact,

that when you're
going through withdrawal,

it hurts to shave,
it hurts to shower,
it hurts to brush your teeth.

He went up in his room.

The door was open.

We had his laptop,
we had his cellphone.

We had taken
all those away,

so he was, you know,
kind of in lockdown.

That was at 1:30
in the afternoon.

And then about 2:30,
Brian came up

and said to him, he goes,

you know, kind of
tussled his hair, and said,

"You know...
you got a second chance.

Not everyone gets
a second chance."

He goes, "You better not
waste that second chance."

And that was probably
the last thing anyone
said to him.

It was about quarter to three,
and I came upstairs,

and he was kneeling
with his hands on his head.

And, to this day,
I wish I would have said
something to him.

I wish I would have
come over and said,

"You know, B, I love you.
It's going to be okay."

Connor came home.

It was 20 after three, or so,
and he said, "Where's B?"

I said, "I don't know.
He's upstairs kneeling
next to his bed."

And he went upstairs.

And he must've tried to...

move him and shake him,
and he screamed.

And we called 911 immediately.

And everyone--
Connor's throwing up,

and everyone's screaming,

and Brian had run over
and got our neighbor

who was a doctor.

It was a nightmare.

They, uh, made us
leave the room.

And they tried to revive him
again with the Narcan,

but it didn't work.

They had worked on him
for about 40 minutes.

I knew. I just,
I knew he was gone.

You know,
you prayed, you hoped.
You did everything, but...

And probably at about 4:20,

our neighbor
pronounced him dead.

He had used heroin again.

We found this
old stuffed animal

that had old baggies
of heroin and a syringe in it.

I had the hardest time,
and so did Brian,

wrapping our head around that.

Why would
he have done that?

Like... he knew we loved him.

He knew we wanted to,
you know,

send him back to rehab
and get him help.

And what
could you be thinking,

that, like, that
love wasn't enough.

Brian:
One of the things
that's always a regret

is that you
completely underestimate

how hard the battle
of addiction is.

I mean, you think that,
if you drop everything,

and, you know, you get
the right help,

that you'll be able
to see your way through this

and help somebody,
but it's not quite that easy.

I mean, I thought I knew Brendan
like the back of my hand,

but it's a different person
once this addiction kicks in.

As a father,
you have this,

this guilt that it,
it happened on your watch.

And it's just, you know,
you can explain it away
all you want,

and other people
can tell you, you know,
you did everything you could.

But that always will linger
in the back of your mind.

You taking that also?
Yeah.

And this?
Yep.

(engine starts)

Gail:
When Brendan overdosed,

we didn't know
what happened.

Heroin?
Like, you know,
here we are, we're in...

we're in Allendale,
we're in "Mayberry."

Heroin,
you think a dark alley,

you think, you know,
somebody on the streets,

not in towns like this.

♪ ♪

Gail:
Just sign in.
Nice to see you.

Man:
Good to see you too.

Yeah, just sign in,
make a name tag.

Gail: We formed a group
"Hope and Healing
After an Addiction Death,"

and we meet twice a month,

and it's for people
who have lost somebody

to the disease of addiction.

I thought we would start
by sharing our stories,

um, and, if you have a picture,
that would be great.

Um, you know, just,

share your story
and, and talk about
what you went through.

I have two pictures of Georgia.

(Gail chuckles)

This is my favorite.

Gail:
That's Georgia.
Group: Georgia, Georgia.

This is her.
This is her.

She's just all energy.

All, like, "Yeah!"

You know?
And that's how she was.

(laughing)

David (on tape):
Georgia. Hey, Georgia.

Come here. What?

David:
When Georgia was born,

I remember that I was
in the delivery room with her,

and I started talking to her.

I didn't talk to her
like she was a newborn baby.

I talked to her like
she was somebody who...

we had been waiting for,

and that she had been
waiting to arrive.

Who is that?

David:
Within minutes,
we had our first conversation.

It was one-sided, but...

but it was, uh...

Judy:
But she was special,

she was the first
grandchild, first niece.
David: Yeah.

And we took a lot of pictures
of her doing nothing.

We thought it
was so exciting.

Judy:
She was just very happy.

It was a very special,
happy time of life.

David:
I had a nickname for her,
I called her "Soda Pop,"

because she was bubbly,

and she was, like,
you know...

you didn't want
to shake her
before opening her.

(laughing)

David:
It was just
a constant amazement.

You know, watching her unfold

into an amazingly
bright, young child.

She died, um,
Thanksgiving Day a year ago.

She was 26.

It's like she never
knew what hit her.

But the way
she described it with me was,

that, um, she was
working with a group

that ran several
group homes,

and she was an assistant
in these group homes,

and one day,
she was taking a break.

She was on the porch,
and this was in 2011,

and she fell
through a guard rail,

or a hand rail,
on the porch.

Took a fall
and went down.

Hurt her back
and her hip,

and went and got
prescribed these,

you know,
monster painkillers.

It could have been
anything from Vicodin,

OxyCodone, I'm not sure.

I know it was one of
the heavier ones just
by the way she described it.

And they gave her enough

that, by the time
the prescription ran out,

she needed more.

And, then, this one night,

I came up the stairs
to go into the bathroom,

and Georgia was in
the doorway of her room,

and she was upset
about not being able
to find something.

So I said, "Okay."

I went into the bathroom,

and as I shut the door,
in the middle of the floor,

was a glasses case.

David:
Right? So.

Somebody dropped
their glasses case.

I picked it up
to put it on the counter,

and it felt weird.

And I opened it up,

and there was six
bags of heroin,

and a syringe, and a couple
of other things in there,
and I just went...

"Oh, no, no, no, no."
You know?

And she said she didn't know
where it came from.

"Oh, my God," you know,
it was just the whole thing.

And, and... (sighs)

So this was probably
a month before it happened.

On Thanksgiving morning,

Judy woke me up
about five o'clock, I guess.

And she said,
"Something's wrong with Georgia.

I can't wake her up,
and she's really cold."

So I went
into the living room,

and Georgia was sitting,

the television was on,

she was sitting
between the couch

and the coffee table
on the floor

with her feet out
in front of her,

and her hands
folded in her lap.

She had just leaned
forward like this.

And we had this little
carpet-covered stool thing,
you know, right there.

There was a syringe
laying right on top of it,

and it looked like
she had just dozed off.

And I went over to her and I--

and I could--
as soon as I touched her...

I don't know, at that point,
you're just in something
that you can't even...

describe.

Well, all of you probably could.

So, I put my hand
around her neck
looking for a pulse,

and her skin was
starting to get that

real stiff kind of,
you know...

If you've ever had
a dead pet

that you've had to pick up,
you know that feeling,

and I knew I wasn't
going to find a pulse,

and then I got around, you know,
I had turned on the lights.

So I got around
in front of her,

and I picked her head up,

and I looked--

(exhales sharply)

(sobbing)

♪ ♪

David:
I had called the police,

and they were on their way.

And whatever I said to Judy,

I let her know that
Georgia was gone.

And we finally went outside

with our son, Eli, and

a man pulled up in a car,

parked across the street,
and he got out with a camera,

a big camera in his hand,

and it was obvious
that he was going
to photograph the scene,

but as he was
walking toward me,

we made eye contact,

and he said,
"I'm sorry for your loss."

Pretty soon after that,

they were rolling her out
of the front door on a gurney...

in a body bag.
(sniffles)

That was the last
time she was here.

This person that had
been a part of my life

for more than 26 years...

(sniffles)
would never be again.

I know she's,
uh, she's here.

I feel her.

And I talk to her
the same way I always have.

I miss her.

♪ ♪

Kelly:
The last time
I was with her,

she seemed fine.

Her outlook on
things was hopeful.

And then...

all of a sudden, nothing.

She's not answering the phone.

She's not answering the door.

She started this relapse
around the time

of Ashley's birthday.

(small dog barking)

(knocking on door)

Stephany?

Kelly:
And, when she's using,
it's a very dark,

small, closed world.

Stephany?

Steph?

Kelly:
What happened?

We were together.

We were making plans.

(Stephany speaking)

Kelly:
Nobody's given up
on you, please.

Please, honey.

You can't do it
on your own, sweetie.

You tried,
you gotta go in.

(Stephany speaking)

Kelly:
Why don't you
get up, and...

you come back to the house,
take a nice hot shower.

You'll feel better.
Get dressed.

Okay? You ready?

Yeah.

Kelly:
Okay.

♪ ♪

Oh, it feels
a lot nicer in here.

Laura:
Better than the majority
of my clients.

I'm going to sit here.

Kelly:
You want to try
a little protein?

Whatever. Looks good.

Kelly: They're not chilled.
I was drinking... (indistinct)

Laura: I can get some
for you if you want--

Like ice tea, like
this is really good.

Well, drink the ice tea.
There's a, a pot
of it in there, too.

If you want,
I'll chill this,
this is good for you.

All right.
Kelly: I don't know how
well you've been eating.

I haven't eaten
in like two days.

I just need my clothes.

Kelly:
Clothes? You've got them.

(Kelly speaking)

Laura: Mm-hmm.

I'm worried about that too.

Steph?

What are you doing?
Stephany: I'm taking
my medication!

You okay?
Yes.

(Stephany speaking)

And I can't
straighten it or close it.

Laura:
This is the spoon
of a heroin user.

She had it in her bag.

Stephany is feeling
very anxious right now.

She's gonna be going into rehab.

She knows that she can't use.

♪ ♪

The program that we started
is called "A Way Out."

We have seven
police departments

in our county
that are participating,

and someone can walk
into the police department
and say,

"I need help."

No repercussions whatsoever.

(Laura speaking)

Okay.
(retches)

Okay.

Okay.

All right.

(door closes)

If you do have any sort
of paraphernalia or drugs--

Stephany:
I got-- gave it
all to my mom.

Yeah, I've done
her laundry before,

and I've asked her,
"Is there anything in there
that will poke me?"

Like how-- how many bags?

I just have,
like, a backpack
and, like, a carry bag

with clothes in it
for when I go.
Okay. So, what
we'll do on, on our end,

is we'll go through it. Okay?
Kelly:
Yeah, that's...

just in case, she might--
It's part of the program,

so, whatever we find,
it just gets disposed of.

(pills rattling)

Stephany:
I definitely did not know that
that one was there, Officer.

Just a little bit.

Kelly:
What is it?

It's like really
embarrassing.
Officer: Okay.

It happens.

♪ ♪

Hi, this is Officer
Jake Anderson with the
Mundelein Police Department.

I am calling with
an "A Way Out" participant.

Hi.

Oh.

Sure.

Well, I have, I've suffered
with kidney stones.

Así es como me hice adicto a los opiáceos era

Había estado recibiendo cálculos renales desde que tenía dieciséis años,

Pero eso es todo.

Bueno.

♪ ♪

Stephany: Está bien.

Kelly: Yo culpo opioides de prescripción

para la adicción de mi hija.

Nunca monté

cómo se convierte uno en un usuario de drogas IV.

Eso fue ... eso fue el puente allí mismo.

Oficial: ¿Estás listo?

Sí. Yo te ayudaré a llevar algunas cosas aquí.

Kelly: Ella era todavía un adolescente cuando comenzó con ellos ...

estas píldoras realmente de alta potencia.

Y yo confiaba en los médicos.

♪ ♪

♪ ♪