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my mom always wanted to have a pretty
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daughter but instead she gave birth to
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me an ugly looking girl with a really
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big and crooked nose to make things
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worse my mom lived in complete denial
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and convinced herself somehow that i was
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extremely gorgeous and that i could
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become a supermodel one day if i just
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tried hard enough
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that's why she forced me to wear makeup
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to school ever since i was in first
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grade i can't tell you how awful it was
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especially because the other girls in my
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class constantly made fun of it
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she puts on makeup to look prettier than
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us
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oops someone should tell her that it
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didn't work she still looks like shrek
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finally i had enough of being bullied i
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told my mom i don't want to wear your
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stupid makeup anymore i hate it
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but sweetie how are you ever going to
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find a husband if you look ugly don't
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you want to have kids one day
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she said that to me even though i was
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only 9 years old i think her plan was to
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make me feel insecure and ugly so i
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would put more effort into looking
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pretty my mom's biggest obsession were
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beauty pageants after all once a month
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she would take me to another city put me
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into a ridiculous looking costume and
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make me go on stage
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i can't put into words how much i hated
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those competitions the other mothers
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always stared at me with a face like
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what is this ugly girl doing on stage
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get her off
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meanwhile my mom would scream as loud as
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she could smile more smile more
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one time on stage i got asked what makes
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you different from the other girls and i
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should have responded what makes me
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different is that i'm ugly but i didn't
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want to embarrass my mom in front of the
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other mothers
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so instead i said i am probably the only
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girl participating in this contest that
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hasn't had a boyfriend yet the judges
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all started laughing but the mothers of
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the other girls were super offended they
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acted as if i had called their daughters
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that's what's so creepy about
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beauty pageants for children all the
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moms think their daughter is the
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prettiest and most perfect girl in the
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world and meanwhile they use every
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chance they get to trash talk the
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daughters of other moms i once even
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overheard a mom say did you see that
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girl in the blue dress she was so ugly
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next time she should wear a paper bag
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over her head
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it was such a toxic environment and i
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desperately wanted to get out of it but
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the more competitions i lost the harder
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my mom made me practice at home
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on weekends i had to practice poses and
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strutting down the catwalk until my feet
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were sore the only day i got time off
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was when my mom took my little brother
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to his chess practice
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she really wanted him to become a chess
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grandmaster one day but whenever my
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brother played my mom would stand behind
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him and whisper into his ears what his
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next move should be if my brother didn't
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follow my mom's chess advice she would
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pinch his arm and worse my mom had no
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idea how to play chess so because of her
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interference my brother lost all his
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games and it's no wonder that he built
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up a lot of anger over time
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for his 12th birthday my brother really
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wanted an xbox but when my mom gifted
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him another chessboard he had a complete
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meltdown and threw the board with full
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force at my mom's forehead not only did
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she get knocked out but she also got a
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big scar in the middle of her forehead
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that you can still see today
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after that she never forced my brother
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to play chess again unfortunately i
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didn't have the guts to stand up to my
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mom and hurt her instead i just kept
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losing beauty pageants and over time she
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came to the conclusion that it was my
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fault i wasn't winning because i was too
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fat
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today you will start your diet and only
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eat two apples you have to get skinny
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okay mom i will lose weight for you but
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you also have to promise me something if
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i should get skinny and still not win
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any beauty pageants then please let me
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find a new hobby don't worry sweetie you
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will win it's guaranteed
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well guess what i lost a couple pounds
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of weight and went to another pageant
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the judges had known me for years and
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seen me lose every single contest so out
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of pity they decided to let me win for
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once
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of course i knew i didn't deserve to win
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because i was the ugliest of all
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contestants but i still appreciated
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their kind gesture nonetheless
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unfortunately my mom didn't get it she
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believed that i had won the contest
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because of the diet she had put me on
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she said if you lose some more weight
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you will become the next big supermodel
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i promise you afterward she forbade me
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from eating anything over the weekends
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mom you can't take away my food you are
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starving me
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starving you i would never do that it's
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called fasting religions have practiced
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fasting for millennia
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luckily i knew better kids require lots
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of food and nutrients to develop so i
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asked my brother to bring me food at
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night and in secret
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meanwhile my mom posted hundreds of
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photos of me winning that one beauty
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pageant on instagram always with the
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caption prettiest girl in the world but
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unfortunately my classmates found out
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about it and made fun of me for it again
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you must have bribed the judges to win
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that beauty contest don't think you can
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trick us into believing you are prettier
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than us
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you probably think i should have simply
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refused to participate in any more
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beauty pageants but i didn't want to
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disappoint my mom
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she was working in a call center selling
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life insurance and every day she came
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home from work and told me oh i hate my
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job so much i want to kill myself
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meanwhile you sweetie you are what keeps
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me going one day you will become a
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famous model
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well i wanted my mom to be happy so i
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continued to do whatever she was
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expecting of me but on my 16th birthday
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she did something truly disgusting
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she gave me a folded paper and said here
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is your birthday present sweetie
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i unfolded it and read three words
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free nose job
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you must be kidding me
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no i'm not you always told me that you
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think you are ugly so let's change that
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but i am fine with being ugly i will
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never look like a model and that's okay
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sweetie i think you already look
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gorgeous but why not make you even
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prettier
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the following weeks my mom spent all her
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free time showing me celebrities who had
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gone under the knife to look better she
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was most impressed by bella hadid who
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went from below average looking to being
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super gorgeous and hot
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she continued attractive women make more
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money find better husbands and are
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generally treated better by society why
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should you put up with having a big ugly
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nose when you can change it did my mom
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just say i had a big ugly nose before
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she had always insisted that i was the
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prettiest girl in the world so this
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comment really hurt and made me feel
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insecure
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but it gets worse my mom asked our
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neighbor's son to come over and while
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secretly filming him she asked do you
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find my daughter attractive oh
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i don't know her well
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be honest we both know she isn't pretty
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but on a scale from 1 to 10 how would
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you rate her
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well to be honest i think she is a 1.
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later my mom showed me the video and
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when i heard that the boy thought i was
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a 1 out of 10 i started crying
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my mom was hell-bent on making me feel
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insecure and her plan was working
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meanwhile i'm also a pretty open-minded
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person so i asked myself what the
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downside of getting plastic surgery was
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and honestly the only negative aspect i
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could think of was that my classmates
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would surely make fun of me if they saw
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i had gotten a nose job especially
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because i was still only a teenager
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well my mom kept reminding me for a few
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more weeks just how ugly i was until i
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gave in and got a nose job just like she
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wanted however only eighty percent of
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people who get a nose job are satisfied
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with the results this means that twenty
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percent have a bad outcome i mean what
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if something went wrong and i turned out
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even uglier than before
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well one week after the operation i
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could take off the bandage and oh my god
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my nose looked like that of a supermodel
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it was crazy i wasn't just less ugly but
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i was one of the pretty girls now i ran
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to my mom and said thank you so much it
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looks amazing
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my mom was just as impressed as i was
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and she convinced me that same day to
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also get cheek implants to make my
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cheeks look fuller it's weird growing up
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i always thought i didn't care that i
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was ugly but now that i had a chance to
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turn things around and become really
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good looking my appearance became all i
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cared about when i got back to school
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with my perfect nose all the other girls
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were jealous and trash-talked me do you
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really have such low self-esteem that
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you need plastic surgery how pathetic
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oh really so according to your logic
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anyone who wants to change their body
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has low self-esteem what about people
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who want to lose weight do you think
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that they are pathetic too you see to me
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plastic surgery has become just another
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form of self-improvement some people are
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born pretty by sheer luck and this is my
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way of evening out the playing field
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also my classmates kept calling me fake
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and plastic so out of spite i got even
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more done on my body boob job cheek
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implants tummy tuck piece by piece i
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turned into a stunningly hot girl but
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while it improved my self-image it's
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easy to get addicted to just finding one
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more thing to change especially if your
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mom pays for everything and pressures
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you into getting more and more done she
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recently told me you know that i got
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sixty thousand dollars in debt to buy
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you all that surgery right you should
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start searching for a guy who can pay
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that off or else i'm screwed because i
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have to pay 12 yearly interest on this
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debt
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yeah i'm still only 17 and my mom wants
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me to seduce rich guys to make money i
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guess everything comes with its price in
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the end i'm not sure if enhancing my
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body made me a happier person right now
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i'm always comparing myself to other
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girls and whenever i'm not the prettiest
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girl in the room i immediately feel
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insecure and bad about myself
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