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[ indistinct conversations ]
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Rachel? Hi.
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What are you doing here?
Didn't you move to New Jersey?
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[ indistinct conversations ]
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Do you think
she's gonna win?
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People really hate her.
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Rachel!
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What happened?
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What do you mean?
You've been gone.
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You left--
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Toby has been
looking for you.
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Y-Your kids have been
looking for you.
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You disappeared.
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Uh--
Can I ask you something?
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Yeah.
[ sighs ]
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I can't find my phone.
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And...
Okay.
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I keep trying
to ascertain...
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How many days
are in July?
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I always forget that.
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Um...
[ phone unlocks ]
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I'm just--
I'm gonna call Toby.
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No! Don't!
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No. I'm--
I feel like--
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You know what?
Let me just--
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Let me just eat something.
[ chuckles ]
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Um, I feel like
I need some protein.
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Right. Um...
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Ri-- Just one--
one second.
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[ phone clicking ]
LIBBY: "Delayed further.
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Be home later. Sorry.
Will explain."
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[ message bloops ]
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Um...
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Why don't I just
take you home?
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Okay, sure.
Yeah. No.
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It-- It'd be--
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It'd be good to catch up.
[ chuckles ]
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♪
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♪
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Uh...
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I-I wasn't
expecting anyone.
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Rachel: Um...
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You know
what it's like. Heh.
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♪
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Uh, do you--
do you want some coffee?
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I'm fine.
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[ objects shuffling ]
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♪
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[ crash ]
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I'm okay! [ sighs ]
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Sorry. I just dropped it.
[ chuckles ]
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Um, I haven't used it
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in so long.
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Um, I-I haven't been
drinking coffee, so...
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Uh--
What is going on?
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There are so many parts
to this!
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Rachel.
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I-I also have
all this tea.
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It might be easier.
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I, um--
I bought all this tea
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'cause I was having
a hard time sleeping,
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but all it did was just keep me
in the bathroom all night.
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I feel like I-I don't know
where my toaster is,
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but-- but I do have
some bread.
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Rachel.
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I want to be honest
with you.
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I don't think I-I can make you
coffee right now.
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That's okay. Uh...
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Do-- Do you want
to sit down?
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Okay. Let's...
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Why don't you just tell me
what's going on?
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W-What do you mean?
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I won't tell anybody
if you don't want me to.
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I just--
I want to help.
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[ breathes deeply ]
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I got dumped.
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Yeah. By who?
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By everyone. Yeah.
[ chuckles ]
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Yeah, I g-guess
I got dumped by everyone.
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I don't understand.
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So she started talking.
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At first,
she didn't make sense.
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And she wasn't always coherent.
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She definitely did not
tell me anything
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in the correct
chronological order,
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and it started a lot earlier
than three weeks ago.
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But in the end,
I understood it.
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What happened
was that Rachel was busy.
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She was busier
than she'd ever been.
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It was last year--
months before Toby started
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asking Rachel for a divorce,
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back when they were
still holding on.
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Yeah? Here's my counter.
[ headset beeps ]
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[ door opens ]
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SIMONE: Sam Rothberg
on the line?
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[ door closes ]
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[ chuckles ] To what do I owe
this rare pleasure?
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SAM: Hey, you!
[ chuckles ]
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I have a huge favor
to ask.
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Uh, my nephew
is dying to get an agent.
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And he just--
Look, he just played Judas
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in Godspell at Wesleyan.
He was really good.
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Oh, wonderful.
That is not true.
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He was... fine.
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[ chuckles ] Well,
Godspell is terrible.
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[ chuckles ] It is.
Anyway, I was wondering--
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be honest if I'm asking
too much here--
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do you think you might
be able to meet with him
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and talk to him
about the business?
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It would just be huge
for him.
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Oh, sure I will.
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Um, I-I also know
a casting director
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he could maybe go and sit with
for a while.
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Uh, why don't you give him
my number?
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That's so great. I guess
it's like everything else.
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It's--
It's who you know, yeah?
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LIBBY: So she said yes,
because she always said yes.
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She didn't have time
to be on committees
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and she didn't come
from prestigious stock
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and she didn't have a house
in Zermatt or whatever,
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but she was useful.
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Useful had worked
for her so far.
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Then, a month later...
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I just honestly feel like I'm
wasting my time at this point.
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Why don't you
circle back wh--
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No. I'm in
the middle of--
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Hi, there.
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Um, I-I gotta go, Joe.
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Circle back when
you start making sense.
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[ headset beeps ]
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Uh, what are you
doing here?
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I had to thank you myself.
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Ohh! This is
totally unnecessary!
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Are you kidding me? You just
helped that kid leapfrog, like,
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10 entire steps
in his career.
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Much to his parents'
disappointment.
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You're amazing.
No. Really.
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I know so few people who could
get something like that done.
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I rarely see
that kind of efficiency.
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Well, Toby says
if medicine
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were as well-run a machine
as this office,
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"doctors could afford
to be doctors again."
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Heh. Totally.
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You know, doctors
are the real heroes.
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Yeah.
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Um, come. Sit down.
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Hm!
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Wow.
Look at this view.
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I just had a thought.
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We're trying to find a doctor to
run our new cannabis division.
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You did this great thing
for me.
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I could push Toby to
the head of the line easy.
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Toby?
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Salary starts with a mill,
then the bonus.
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You get the keys
to the Vail house.
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Oh.
Um, I don't know.
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Um, you should ask him.
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He's got this whole thing
about "patient interface."
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He's not likely
to say yes.
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I'm gonna ask him.
[ chuckles ]
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Hey, are you...
almost done for the day?
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You want to get a drink?
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Was it weird that her best
school-mom-friend's husband
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was at her office?
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Um-- [ chuckles ]
I can't.
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I've-- I've got
too much to do here.
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Was it weird that he wanted
to go out with her?
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Do you have a curfew?
[ chuckles ]
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Yes.
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Good, crazy, but...
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Yes, it was. Yeah.
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Rachel had met Miriam Rothberg
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in a Mommy and Me Class
six years earlier.
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After a lifetime of shallow
friendships that never endured,
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Rachel had been determined
to play it cool
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so that the stench
of her desperation
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could no longer be detected.
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Miriam: She should
have been the nominee.
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Sam says he doesn't
like her voice,
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but, what, you need
to like her voice?
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Honestly!
[ scoffs ]
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We flew with them private
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to the Tennessee fundraiser
that fall...
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Miriam had the line
on nursery schools,
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on the concierge pediatrician
who gave you his cell.
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She was on the board
of everything.
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Her family fortune came from a
dubious pharmaceutical company.
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They're pretty litigious.
I shouldn't say their name.
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Well, I was going to
send her to Spence
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because I went there,
but then I had a boy
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and I want them to go
to the same school,
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so I was thinking Lois Francis
instead maybe?
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Miriam was so far ahead
of the game
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that private-school
applications
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were just a formality.
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What are you doing
right now?
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[ sighs ]
I have to get back to work.
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I have an agency. I'm an agent.
A theater agent.
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What?!
[ chuckles ]
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That is so interesting!
Actors, writers, what?
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Oh, everyone. Yeah.
I-I represent the team
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Lindenblatt,
Silberman and Wadler... Okay.
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...from Camps Come Here.
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And Loenberg,
the singer.
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Do you remember
Alejandra Lopez?
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Remind me?
The Suffrage Monologues?
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Yes! Right! What's she doing
now? I love the theater.
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Yeah, no, she's, um--
she's developing something.
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It's pretty incredible.
I shouldn't say more.
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God, I just want to blow
off the rest of the day
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and go see something.
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Come with me.
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Well-- [ sighs ]
I should get back to work.
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The agency--
You work every day?
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I do.
I work every day.
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And the time I don't work
goes to the kids, so...
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You need some you-time.
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Ugh. Yeah.
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You know, on an airplane,
the thing's going down,
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you put your own
oxygen mask on first
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before you put it
on the kids.
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So... are we blowing off today
or what?
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I could get us tickets
right now.
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To anything you want.
Uh, yeah, let's do it.
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Yay!
Yeah.
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Uh, let me just unplug
a few things.
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Okay. Great.
I'll go home and change.
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Okay.
Yes!
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And suddenly, Rachel and Miriam
were friends.
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WOMAN: Good. And lifting up.
Don't let that tailbone come up.
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And then Miriam's friends
were Rachel's friends.
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Pull together.
[ grunts ]
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Three more times.
And open wide.
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Rachel had this whole little
Upper East Side gang.
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[ phone buzzes ]
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It was a second full-time job,
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but she was willing to work it.
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[ phone buzzing ]
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[ school bell ringing ]
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Her mother had died,
and her grandmother
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had sent Rachel
to a fancy Catholic school
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even though they were poor
and her mother had been Jewish.
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Everyone there
was named Catherine,
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and they took tennis lessons
and all seemed to know
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each other from Nantucket
or St. Moritz.
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She understood that it wasn't
her lack of money and proximity
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that made her an outsider.
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It was that her lack
of proximity and money
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created an outsider's
desperation in her.
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But, also,
sophistication is a language.
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You're either born
speaking it...
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or you always speak
with an accent.
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But then... she met Toby.
254
00:10:51,335 --> 00:10:53,172
[ Rachel laughing ]
255
00:10:54,876 --> 00:10:56,880
So, I was, like, maybe
thinking that this would be
256
00:10:56,880 --> 00:10:58,082
a good time for us
to kiss?
257
00:10:58,082 --> 00:10:59,919
Yeah? You want--
258
00:11:01,422 --> 00:11:03,861
Toby couldn't hear her accent.
259
00:11:03,861 --> 00:11:06,398
♪
260
00:11:11,241 --> 00:11:14,114
So, where's your
family from, Rachel?
261
00:11:14,114 --> 00:11:15,350
RACHEL:
We're from Baltimore.
262
00:11:15,350 --> 00:11:16,920
But I don't have
a lot of family.
263
00:11:16,920 --> 00:11:18,489
My mother died
when I was young.
264
00:11:18,489 --> 00:11:21,162
Um, cancer.
She was a single mother.
265
00:11:21,162 --> 00:11:23,499
That's so sad.
Who raised you?
266
00:11:23,499 --> 00:11:24,970
My grandmother.
267
00:11:24,970 --> 00:11:26,205
SHARON:
Ugh! That's terrible.
268
00:11:26,205 --> 00:11:27,976
No, it's okay. No.
269
00:11:27,976 --> 00:11:29,211
It's too young
to not have a mother.
270
00:11:29,211 --> 00:11:30,881
I lost my mother
last year.
271
00:11:30,881 --> 00:11:34,287
I had her all this time,
and I still feel like an orphan.
272
00:11:36,358 --> 00:11:37,861
I'm sorry.
273
00:11:41,001 --> 00:11:43,941
You know, uh, you won't believe
who I ran into.
274
00:11:43,941 --> 00:11:45,410
Who?
SISTER: Stu.
275
00:11:45,410 --> 00:11:47,180
- Which Stu?
- Stu and Jessica.
276
00:11:47,180 --> 00:11:49,084
SHARON: Stu and Jessica?!
Oh, no!
277
00:11:49,084 --> 00:11:51,857
Rachel had been saying
it was okay for so long.
278
00:11:51,857 --> 00:11:53,393
Um, where's your bathroom?
279
00:11:53,393 --> 00:11:55,497
SHARON:
It's through there, dear.
280
00:11:55,497 --> 00:11:58,469
You have to understand--
Rachel never had a family.
281
00:11:58,469 --> 00:11:59,873
[ knock on door ]
282
00:11:59,873 --> 00:12:01,475
You okay in there?
283
00:12:01,475 --> 00:12:03,479
[ indistinct conversations ]
284
00:12:03,479 --> 00:12:07,955
♪
285
00:12:07,955 --> 00:12:09,859
I'm great. [ chuckles ]
286
00:12:09,859 --> 00:12:11,162
RACHEL:
You're doing amazing.
287
00:12:11,162 --> 00:12:12,932
No, I know that.
Yeah. You too. You too.
288
00:12:12,932 --> 00:12:14,435
No. Okay.
[ laughs ]
289
00:12:14,435 --> 00:12:15,972
Wait.
Yup.
290
00:12:15,972 --> 00:12:17,140
No. We need to take it
that way.
No. Wrong.
291
00:12:17,140 --> 00:12:18,343
Nope, nope, nope.
Wrong direction.
292
00:12:18,343 --> 00:12:20,815
This is much heavier
than it looks. Okay!
293
00:12:20,815 --> 00:12:24,522
This is the way to move forward
in life from here on out.
294
00:12:24,522 --> 00:12:26,927
♪
295
00:12:26,927 --> 00:12:29,231
It was true. She was great.
296
00:12:29,231 --> 00:12:31,402
♪
297
00:12:31,402 --> 00:12:33,406
[ sighs ]
And then she wasn't.
298
00:12:33,406 --> 00:12:35,811
I don't know. If you're not
progressing, if it were me,
299
00:12:35,811 --> 00:12:37,280
I'd talk to the doctor
about pulling the plug
300
00:12:37,280 --> 00:12:38,851
on this induction.
Right?
301
00:12:38,851 --> 00:12:40,253
No, I think we should
take a second and--
302
00:12:40,253 --> 00:12:41,455
and catch our breath, okay?
303
00:12:41,455 --> 00:12:43,059
Tell him you'll stay
in the hospital.
304
00:12:43,059 --> 00:12:45,363
Just tell him
you'll do what he says.
305
00:12:45,363 --> 00:12:47,869
[ knock on door ]
306
00:12:47,869 --> 00:12:50,173
- Hello in there!
- We heard you were here!
307
00:12:50,173 --> 00:12:51,409
Get them away.
308
00:12:51,409 --> 00:12:54,314
Yeah. Hi, guys.
Hey. Come with me.
309
00:12:54,314 --> 00:12:55,851
Yeah.
310
00:13:01,095 --> 00:13:04,301
Um, did you hear
from Dr. Goldberg?
311
00:13:04,301 --> 00:13:06,372
I told you.
I'm covering.
312
00:13:06,372 --> 00:13:10,246
I've done this at least
five or six times before.
313
00:13:10,246 --> 00:13:13,620
Okay. I--
Um-- [ clears throat ]
314
00:13:13,620 --> 00:13:17,562
My husband is--
is, um, gonna, um...
315
00:13:17,562 --> 00:13:19,866
D-Do you think that maybe
we should stop the induction?
316
00:13:19,866 --> 00:13:21,369
Because my--
my blood pressure is--
317
00:13:21,369 --> 00:13:23,574
is lower now,
I'm not progressing,
318
00:13:23,574 --> 00:13:26,045
I'm exhausted
from the Stadol.
319
00:13:26,045 --> 00:13:28,449
Um, it made me hallucinate
all night last night.
320
00:13:28,449 --> 00:13:30,353
I didn't want
the epidural yet.
321
00:13:30,353 --> 00:13:32,892
Let's just see what's
going on in there,
322
00:13:32,892 --> 00:13:36,967
and then, if you're still
not progressing, we'll talk.
323
00:13:36,967 --> 00:13:39,170
[ monitor beeping ]
324
00:13:41,175 --> 00:13:44,549
Ow! [ gasps ]
Ow! Ow! Ow!
325
00:13:44,549 --> 00:13:47,254
I-I-Is this-- Is this
just supposed to be a--
326
00:13:47,254 --> 00:13:49,324
Ow!
327
00:13:49,324 --> 00:13:51,061
This is not an exam.
328
00:13:51,061 --> 00:13:52,965
There is some
leakage here.
329
00:13:52,965 --> 00:13:54,234
Ow! Ow!
Get me the hook.
330
00:13:54,234 --> 00:13:55,971
What is he doing?!
What are you doing?!
331
00:13:55,971 --> 00:13:59,178
[ gasping ]
332
00:13:59,178 --> 00:14:02,350
Ow! Ow! Fuck!
333
00:14:02,350 --> 00:14:06,392
What the fuck are you
doing to me?! Stop it!
334
00:14:06,392 --> 00:14:08,329
Hey, hey, hey! What the hell
is going on in here?!
335
00:14:08,329 --> 00:14:11,168
RACHEL:
[sobbing] Stop it!
336
00:14:11,168 --> 00:14:13,306
[sobbing fades]
337
00:14:13,306 --> 00:14:16,244
♪
338
00:14:22,423 --> 00:14:23,927
DR. ROMALINO: Scalpel.
339
00:14:23,927 --> 00:14:26,566
♪
340
00:14:32,611 --> 00:14:35,651
There she was, paralyzed--
literally paralyzed--
341
00:14:35,651 --> 00:14:38,557
splayed out like
she'd been crucified.
342
00:14:38,557 --> 00:14:40,594
Everything in her told her
to get up and run,
343
00:14:40,594 --> 00:14:42,565
to make a break for it.
344
00:14:42,565 --> 00:14:44,502
But she couldn't.
345
00:14:44,502 --> 00:14:48,610
Any power she ever thought
she had was suddenly gone.
346
00:14:48,610 --> 00:14:51,248
TOBY: You're doing great,
honey, okay?
347
00:14:51,248 --> 00:14:54,287
♪
348
00:14:59,765 --> 00:15:01,703
[ indistinct conversations
echoing ]
349
00:15:01,703 --> 00:15:07,648
♪
350
00:15:07,648 --> 00:15:09,686
TOBY:
You're almost there.
351
00:15:09,686 --> 00:15:12,356
♪
352
00:15:18,135 --> 00:15:20,306
[ baby crying ]
353
00:15:20,306 --> 00:15:21,977
Oh, my God!
It's-- It's a girl!
354
00:15:21,977 --> 00:15:23,713
Rachel! Rachel, it's a girl!
355
00:15:25,717 --> 00:15:28,121
It was the worst day
of her life.
356
00:15:30,059 --> 00:15:31,562
[ baby coos ]
357
00:15:38,409 --> 00:15:41,382
I think you should
hold the baby
358
00:15:41,382 --> 00:15:43,554
I still can't feel my legs.
It's not safe.
359
00:15:43,554 --> 00:15:45,524
What if I have to run?
360
00:15:50,433 --> 00:15:51,969
Okay.
361
00:15:54,074 --> 00:15:55,310
Give her to me.
362
00:15:55,310 --> 00:15:58,049
You want to go
to Mommy now?
363
00:15:58,049 --> 00:16:01,422
Okay. Okay, honey.
364
00:16:01,422 --> 00:16:03,158
Okay. Your mommy.
365
00:16:06,064 --> 00:16:07,500
Rachel looked down and knew
366
00:16:07,500 --> 00:16:09,739
that the baby knew
what she was thinking.
367
00:16:09,739 --> 00:16:12,077
[ baby coos ]
368
00:16:12,077 --> 00:16:14,716
She knew...
and would never forgive her.
369
00:16:14,716 --> 00:16:25,169
♪
370
00:16:25,169 --> 00:16:28,209
This was Rachel's introduction
to motherhood.
371
00:16:28,209 --> 00:16:29,712
♪
372
00:16:29,712 --> 00:16:31,716
[ man on P.A.
speaking indistinctly ]
373
00:16:31,716 --> 00:16:34,722
♪
374
00:16:39,565 --> 00:16:42,303
You can go.
I'm fine. Really.
375
00:16:44,341 --> 00:16:46,177
[ baby cooing ]
376
00:16:50,520 --> 00:16:52,290
[ door closes ]
377
00:16:59,705 --> 00:17:03,078
♪
378
00:17:15,136 --> 00:17:19,477
♪
379
00:17:30,333 --> 00:17:32,403
[ Rachel sobbing ]
380
00:17:35,409 --> 00:17:37,180
[ door opens ]
381
00:17:37,180 --> 00:17:39,585
Ahh. Hey.
382
00:17:39,585 --> 00:17:41,254
How-- How was your day?
383
00:17:43,292 --> 00:17:45,162
[ breathing sharply ]
384
00:17:55,316 --> 00:17:57,454
Hey, I'm not--
I'm not telling you what to do,
385
00:17:57,454 --> 00:17:59,692
but I think you should--
I'm not going to a therapist.
386
00:17:59,692 --> 00:18:01,830
...speak to someone. Okay.
387
00:18:01,830 --> 00:18:03,834
[ sighs ]
388
00:18:03,834 --> 00:18:06,740
I-I don't--
I don't feel sad.
389
00:18:06,740 --> 00:18:10,279
Just... crazy.
390
00:18:10,279 --> 00:18:12,317
Like I'm a car
stuck in a gear.
391
00:18:12,317 --> 00:18:14,689
But awareness that I'm a car
stuck in a gear doesn't help.
392
00:18:14,689 --> 00:18:16,826
See? I just--
Just crazy.
393
00:18:16,826 --> 00:18:19,231
Yeah, therapists
deal with crazy.
394
00:18:19,231 --> 00:18:20,567
So do psychiatrists.
395
00:18:20,567 --> 00:18:23,540
That's, like--
That's their whole thing.
396
00:18:23,540 --> 00:18:25,309
What's that?
397
00:18:25,309 --> 00:18:27,414
Oh, yeah,
somebody, uh--
398
00:18:27,414 --> 00:18:30,152
somebody from the agency
dropped this off.
399
00:18:45,249 --> 00:18:46,653
These are so weird.
400
00:18:46,653 --> 00:18:48,590
I'm glad they're already
training our daughter
401
00:18:48,590 --> 00:18:50,560
for the fighting arts.
402
00:18:55,369 --> 00:18:57,474
Hey. Come on.
How about getting in touch
403
00:18:57,474 --> 00:18:59,177
with one of your friends?
404
00:18:59,177 --> 00:19:00,748
Everyone's working.
405
00:19:00,748 --> 00:19:02,885
Those are not your friends.
Those are your colleagues.
406
00:19:02,885 --> 00:19:04,889
What about the women
from the prenatal yoga?
407
00:19:04,889 --> 00:19:07,460
You liked them, right? Why don't
you get in touch with them?
408
00:19:07,460 --> 00:19:09,330
Get a coffee with them.
409
00:19:17,681 --> 00:19:21,488
I'm gonna take Hannah
for a walk, okay?
410
00:19:21,488 --> 00:19:23,492
She had taken
a prenatal yoga class,
411
00:19:23,492 --> 00:19:26,633
and all the women kept
in touch on an e-mail chain.
412
00:19:26,633 --> 00:19:28,770
Those had to be her friends.
Right?
413
00:19:28,770 --> 00:19:34,615
♪
414
00:19:44,000 --> 00:19:45,804
[ sighs ]
415
00:19:45,804 --> 00:19:49,277
♪
416
00:19:53,285 --> 00:19:55,958
She had searched their e-mails
for signs that the birth
417
00:19:55,958 --> 00:19:58,964
they'd had was the same
kind of nightmare she'd had.
418
00:19:58,964 --> 00:20:00,868
But there was no indication.
419
00:20:00,868 --> 00:20:03,807
The women joked that their
vaginas needed to bounce back,
420
00:20:03,807 --> 00:20:06,245
their breasts needed
to bounce back.
421
00:20:06,245 --> 00:20:08,382
Would their abdomens
ever bounce back?
422
00:20:08,382 --> 00:20:09,819
[ phone beeps and buzzes ]
423
00:20:09,819 --> 00:20:11,790
YOGA MOM #1: "Can't.
We're in the Hamptons."
424
00:20:11,790 --> 00:20:13,325
[ phone beeps and buzzes ]
425
00:20:13,325 --> 00:20:14,729
YOGA MOM #2:
"We're sleep-training.
426
00:20:14,729 --> 00:20:16,966
I can't go anywhere.
Sleeping emoji."
427
00:20:19,304 --> 00:20:20,941
LIBBY:
The phrase "bounce back"
428
00:20:20,941 --> 00:20:24,582
seemed like it existed
to make fun of her.
429
00:20:24,582 --> 00:20:26,986
There was no bouncing.
430
00:20:26,986 --> 00:20:28,890
There was no back.
431
00:20:28,890 --> 00:20:30,861
[hushed]
It's Rachel.
432
00:20:30,861 --> 00:20:32,698
Hey.
We just got back
from the Hamptons.
433
00:20:32,698 --> 00:20:35,737
Oh, right. Well, we should--
we should get together.
434
00:20:35,737 --> 00:20:37,340
We'll find a window.
435
00:20:37,340 --> 00:20:39,645
It's just been so crazy
since she was born.
436
00:20:46,358 --> 00:20:47,862
Well, I'll-- I'll--
I'll see ya. [ chuckles ]
437
00:20:47,862 --> 00:20:49,731
YOGA MOM #1:
Okay. Bye.
438
00:20:56,344 --> 00:20:58,783
The rejection
nearly knocked her over.
439
00:20:58,783 --> 00:21:02,724
♪
440
00:21:08,068 --> 00:21:09,872
In the afternoons,
she had a good hour
441
00:21:09,872 --> 00:21:12,343
of Hannah sleeping
before Toby came home.
442
00:21:12,343 --> 00:21:14,882
♪
443
00:21:18,656 --> 00:21:20,493
She called that her me-time.
444
00:21:20,493 --> 00:21:23,032
♪
445
00:21:23,032 --> 00:21:24,735
[ Rachel sobbing ]
446
00:21:24,735 --> 00:21:28,910
♪
447
00:21:28,910 --> 00:21:30,613
But she was being funny.
448
00:21:33,051 --> 00:21:34,487
I ruined her.
449
00:21:34,487 --> 00:21:36,659
No, no. Don't say that.
This is normal.
450
00:21:36,659 --> 00:21:38,796
A lot of mothers
go through this, honey.
451
00:21:50,052 --> 00:21:52,558
♪
452
00:21:52,558 --> 00:21:54,661
[ indistinct conversations ]
453
00:22:00,573 --> 00:22:02,845
Please, come in.
Welcome, dear.
454
00:22:02,845 --> 00:22:04,949
[ indistinct conversations ]
455
00:22:04,949 --> 00:22:08,789
♪
456
00:22:19,578 --> 00:22:24,956
I kept trying to explain it
to my mother, but I couldn't.
457
00:22:24,956 --> 00:22:27,828
She knew she hadn't been raped,
but when she saw that sign,
458
00:22:27,828 --> 00:22:29,966
she knew that inside that room
would be people
459
00:22:29,966 --> 00:22:31,703
who understood
what she'd been through--
460
00:22:31,703 --> 00:22:33,873
far more than the people
in a postpartum depression
461
00:22:33,873 --> 00:22:35,476
support group would.
462
00:22:35,476 --> 00:22:37,814
Would you like to share
anything with the group?
463
00:22:42,758 --> 00:22:44,828
[ breathing sharply ]
464
00:22:48,736 --> 00:22:50,673
[ stifled sob ]
465
00:22:53,746 --> 00:22:55,950
[ breathes sharply ]
466
00:22:57,721 --> 00:22:59,825
[ sobbing uncontrollably ]
467
00:23:11,047 --> 00:23:12,918
You're okay.
468
00:23:12,918 --> 00:23:15,122
[ sobbing continues ]
469
00:23:25,510 --> 00:23:26,745
It's okay.
470
00:23:31,187 --> 00:23:32,757
[ sobbing slows ]
471
00:23:34,795 --> 00:23:36,464
We understand.
472
00:23:40,907 --> 00:23:43,813
[ indistinct conversations ]
473
00:23:43,813 --> 00:23:45,851
Hey. How was it?
474
00:23:45,851 --> 00:23:48,022
It was fine.
It was good.
475
00:23:48,022 --> 00:23:51,094
You wanna talk about it?
476
00:23:51,094 --> 00:23:53,131
Cannot do
any more talking.
477
00:23:55,537 --> 00:23:57,473
Now, there's my wife.
[ chuckles ]
478
00:23:57,473 --> 00:24:07,728
♪
479
00:24:07,728 --> 00:24:11,268
For a while, the world seemed
to have some light in it again.
480
00:24:11,268 --> 00:24:20,152
♪
481
00:24:20,152 --> 00:24:23,225
[ woman on P.A.
speaking indistinctly ]
482
00:24:23,225 --> 00:24:24,962
[ button clicks ]
483
00:24:24,962 --> 00:24:27,801
But then, one day,
on the way to her group...
484
00:24:30,907 --> 00:24:32,176
[ button clicks ]
485
00:24:32,176 --> 00:24:33,846
[ Rachel breathing sharply ]
486
00:24:36,819 --> 00:24:39,891
♪
487
00:24:45,670 --> 00:24:49,144
She had four floors to say
to him, "Look what you did.
488
00:24:49,144 --> 00:24:52,049
Look what you did
to a perfectly good person!"
489
00:24:53,986 --> 00:24:55,824
[ elevator bell dings ]
490
00:24:55,824 --> 00:24:59,230
♪
491
00:24:59,230 --> 00:25:01,300
But she didn't say anything.
492
00:25:02,771 --> 00:25:04,675
What was it
that he'd seen in her
493
00:25:04,675 --> 00:25:07,981
that would make him think
that she would tolerate that?!
494
00:25:10,052 --> 00:25:11,254
[ beep ]
495
00:25:13,125 --> 00:25:14,762
[ beep ]
496
00:25:14,762 --> 00:25:16,966
How had he looked
at her-- at Rachel--
497
00:25:16,966 --> 00:25:20,039
and thought, "Now, there's
someone I can victimize"?
498
00:25:20,039 --> 00:25:22,209
[ doors open ]
499
00:25:26,151 --> 00:25:31,729
♪
500
00:25:31,729 --> 00:25:32,965
[ elevator bell dings ]
501
00:25:32,965 --> 00:25:38,910
♪
502
00:25:38,910 --> 00:25:40,881
[ beep ]
503
00:25:40,881 --> 00:25:42,917
She wasn't a victim!
504
00:25:44,320 --> 00:25:45,924
[ thud ]
505
00:25:45,924 --> 00:25:48,763
She was Rachel
Fucking Fleishman!
506
00:25:48,763 --> 00:25:53,104
♪
507
00:26:12,376 --> 00:26:14,214
It fits, motherfuckers.
508
00:26:14,214 --> 00:26:19,256
♪
509
00:26:29,443 --> 00:26:31,682
She is so cute.
510
00:26:33,786 --> 00:26:35,824
So when do you go back?
511
00:26:35,824 --> 00:26:37,426
Funny you should ask.
512
00:26:37,426 --> 00:26:40,734
That's what I want
to talk to you about.
513
00:26:40,734 --> 00:26:42,136
Remember when I met you?
514
00:26:42,136 --> 00:26:44,941
That Edith Wilson musical
you wanted to do?
515
00:26:47,046 --> 00:26:48,949
I can't stop
thinking about it.
516
00:26:52,958 --> 00:26:55,162
I see.
517
00:26:55,162 --> 00:26:58,435
Crappy bar, far from
the theater district.
518
00:26:58,435 --> 00:27:02,945
Secret meeting formed
without the use of assistants.
519
00:27:02,945 --> 00:27:06,184
Rachel Fleishman,
are you leaving Alfooz?
520
00:27:07,486 --> 00:27:09,959
[ chuckles ]
Matt is gonna shit himself.
521
00:27:09,959 --> 00:27:13,098
You have so much talent
and such a singular vision,
522
00:27:13,098 --> 00:27:15,904
and they put you
in TV writers' rooms.
523
00:27:15,904 --> 00:27:17,674
It's where the money is.
524
00:27:17,674 --> 00:27:19,979
That's where the money is for
an agency that thinks small.
525
00:27:19,979 --> 00:27:22,951
If you have a hit, that's
where the actual money is.
526
00:27:22,951 --> 00:27:25,957
But a person has to believe
you have a hit.
527
00:27:31,835 --> 00:27:33,404
And you know what?
528
00:27:38,048 --> 00:27:39,784
She was right.
529
00:27:45,830 --> 00:27:47,133
Every day,
there was a new demand,
530
00:27:47,133 --> 00:27:50,172
a new client, a new assistant.
I'm sorry.
531
00:27:50,172 --> 00:27:52,310
You wouldn't have to apologize
if you'd been paying attention.
532
00:27:52,310 --> 00:27:54,480
Someone had to be trained
or fired or poached
533
00:27:54,480 --> 00:27:56,151
or visited in rehab.
534
00:27:56,151 --> 00:27:57,854
It took up all
her streams of attention
535
00:27:57,854 --> 00:27:59,357
so that when
she finally got home...
536
00:27:59,357 --> 00:28:01,094
RACHEL: Hey, cutie.
537
00:28:01,094 --> 00:28:02,864
TOBY: I thought
you'd be home at 7:00.
538
00:28:02,864 --> 00:28:04,233
Oh, I was delayed.
539
00:28:04,233 --> 00:28:06,973
Yeah, well, you didn't
answer me today.
540
00:28:06,973 --> 00:28:09,310
Oh, God. I don't even know
what happened today.
541
00:28:09,310 --> 00:28:11,782
I-I'm sorry.
What was it?
542
00:28:11,782 --> 00:28:14,822
TOBY: [ chuckles ]
Passover.
543
00:28:14,822 --> 00:28:17,794
Oh, well, y-you could have
called Simone.
544
00:28:17,794 --> 00:28:20,032
I shouldn't have to call my wife
through an assistant.
545
00:28:20,032 --> 00:28:23,005
She's got the schedule up.
H-Honestly, Toby.
546
00:28:23,005 --> 00:28:24,808
Okay, well, you don't
have to call a nurse
547
00:28:24,808 --> 00:28:26,444
to get me on the phone.
548
00:28:29,551 --> 00:28:30,920
TOBY: Well?
549
00:28:33,158 --> 00:28:34,962
We can't go to your family's
for the whole week.
550
00:28:34,962 --> 00:28:38,936
I've got previews. Maybe we
could just go for the seders?
551
00:28:38,936 --> 00:28:40,774
You're like a 1950s dad.
Like, you come in,
552
00:28:40,774 --> 00:28:42,844
you pat the kids on the head,
and then you're gone.
553
00:28:42,844 --> 00:28:44,347
What the fuck kind of thing
is that to say?
554
00:28:44,347 --> 00:28:46,484
I-I can't take
a whole week off.
555
00:28:46,484 --> 00:28:48,055
Most people can't.
No, I know. I know.
556
00:28:48,055 --> 00:28:49,490
You can't do a whole week
at my parents'
557
00:28:49,490 --> 00:28:51,161
because we need more money.
You know what?
558
00:28:51,161 --> 00:28:52,898
Why don't I call down
to, like, the concierge
559
00:28:52,898 --> 00:28:54,400
and the doorman
and the assistant
560
00:28:54,400 --> 00:28:55,971
and tell them that we don't
have enough money yet?
561
00:28:55,971 --> 00:28:57,774
Toby, what would you do
if you couldn't pretend
562
00:28:57,774 --> 00:28:59,344
that you didn't enjoy
our money?
563
00:28:59,344 --> 00:29:01,882
What would it be like for you
if you couldn't live like a king
564
00:29:01,882 --> 00:29:03,853
and pretend it was
a moral failing of mine
565
00:29:03,853 --> 00:29:05,489
to force you to live
this terrible existence?
566
00:29:05,489 --> 00:29:07,293
Sorry. That--
You're talking about me now?
567
00:29:07,293 --> 00:29:08,796
Yes!
Okay.
568
00:29:08,796 --> 00:29:10,165
Yeah, you get to sit back
like a martyr and--
569
00:29:10,165 --> 00:29:11,836
and pretend
you're an angel.
570
00:29:11,836 --> 00:29:13,940
"No, I only love the--
the patient interface.
571
00:29:13,940 --> 00:29:16,211
I don't need to live on
actual money. I hate money."
572
00:29:16,211 --> 00:29:18,315
No, I don't hate money. I just
don't choose it over everything.
573
00:29:18,315 --> 00:29:20,219
I choose money
over everything?
[ chuckles ] Yeah.
574
00:29:20,219 --> 00:29:23,826
No. I choose-- I choose
safety over everything.
575
00:29:23,826 --> 00:29:26,599
I choose acceptance for
our kids over everything.
Oh, please. Stop.
576
00:29:26,599 --> 00:29:28,268
The only reason
you can't see that
577
00:29:28,268 --> 00:29:30,372
is because you've always
had those things.
578
00:29:30,372 --> 00:29:33,111
I mean, don't--
don't you see?
Yeah, we have enough, Rachel.
579
00:29:33,111 --> 00:29:35,550
Like, at some point,
like, it has to be enough.
580
00:29:35,550 --> 00:29:39,023
Look. It's not--
It's not just about money.
581
00:29:39,023 --> 00:29:40,894
It's about
their friendships.
582
00:29:40,894 --> 00:29:42,864
Oh, it's their friend-- Let them
choose their own friends.
583
00:29:42,864 --> 00:29:44,935
What?! What, you think
you just sit there
584
00:29:44,935 --> 00:29:47,974
and friends come to you?
585
00:29:47,974 --> 00:29:50,479
Sorry. Do you have any idea how
fucked-up what you just said is?
586
00:29:50,479 --> 00:29:52,884
Like, any idea?
Because, yes, of co--
587
00:29:52,884 --> 00:29:54,454
Sorry.
Yes, of course, I do.
588
00:29:54,454 --> 00:29:56,324
Because we are networking them,
aren't we? No, right.
589
00:29:56,324 --> 00:29:58,629
Why don't we have, like, their
possible friends' agents call
590
00:29:58,629 --> 00:30:00,567
so we can, like, get
the ball rolling on them?
591
00:30:00,567 --> 00:30:02,203
Would that be a good idea?
592
00:30:02,203 --> 00:30:03,573
You're mimicking me?
No, I'm...
593
00:30:03,573 --> 00:30:05,577
Toby could set up
a playdate, sure.
594
00:30:05,577 --> 00:30:07,981
He could offer to take
the kids to the doctor.
595
00:30:07,981 --> 00:30:09,484
But he wasn't a mother.
596
00:30:09,484 --> 00:30:11,989
The system was run by mothers,
for mothers.
597
00:30:11,989 --> 00:30:13,960
People talk about
the expectations
598
00:30:13,960 --> 00:30:15,897
that are heaped upon mothers,
599
00:30:15,897 --> 00:30:18,468
but the expectations come from
the mothers themselves--
600
00:30:18,468 --> 00:30:21,141
the moms' nights out,
the fundraisers,
601
00:30:21,141 --> 00:30:22,443
the book drives,
602
00:30:22,443 --> 00:30:24,247
the yoga classes,
the friendships.
603
00:30:24,247 --> 00:30:26,619
Well, that's a relief.
[ laughter ]
604
00:30:26,619 --> 00:30:27,921
Forgot the nose.
605
00:30:27,921 --> 00:30:29,290
- Oh.
- Ohh.
606
00:30:29,290 --> 00:30:30,358
Hm.
607
00:30:33,097 --> 00:30:34,434
- Honestly?
- Go! Go!
608
00:30:34,434 --> 00:30:36,004
- Sam?
- Have fun, ladies.
609
00:30:36,004 --> 00:30:37,106
Bye, Sam.
610
00:30:37,106 --> 00:30:38,576
[ laughter ]
611
00:30:38,576 --> 00:30:41,481
Oh, I wish I'd had a third.
But Toby said no.
612
00:30:41,481 --> 00:30:44,621
He said I work too much
for another child.
613
00:30:44,621 --> 00:30:46,191
Well, we all work.
614
00:30:46,191 --> 00:30:48,428
God, I wish I had a job.
It sounds like a vacation.
615
00:30:48,428 --> 00:30:51,367
Seriously.
Someone, employ me. Right?
616
00:30:51,367 --> 00:30:54,107
Can I go on maternity leave
from motherhood?
617
00:30:54,107 --> 00:30:57,346
[ laughter ]
And there it was.
618
00:30:57,346 --> 00:30:59,618
The hideous thing that divided
the two kinds of women
619
00:30:59,618 --> 00:31:01,655
there were in the world
that Rachel lived in.
620
00:31:01,655 --> 00:31:04,595
The working mothers
and the stay-at-home mothers.
621
00:31:04,595 --> 00:31:06,599
Rachel knew the truth,
which was that the culture
622
00:31:06,599 --> 00:31:08,669
was so condescending
to stay-at-home mothers
623
00:31:08,669 --> 00:31:11,341
that we allowed them the
fiction that being a mother
624
00:31:11,341 --> 00:31:13,178
was the hardest job
in the world.
625
00:31:13,178 --> 00:31:14,615
Well, it wasn't.
626
00:31:14,615 --> 00:31:16,685
Having an actual job
and being a mother
627
00:31:16,685 --> 00:31:18,589
is the hardest job
in the world.
628
00:31:18,589 --> 00:31:20,693
You don't have to say it.
It's obvious.
629
00:31:20,693 --> 00:31:23,365
It was two full-time jobs.
It's just math.
630
00:31:23,365 --> 00:31:26,471
Keeping track of your kids
from afar is not easier.
631
00:31:26,471 --> 00:31:29,277
Entrusting them to a stranger
is not easier.
632
00:31:29,277 --> 00:31:32,717
Nothing makes it easier.
That's what Rachel knew.
633
00:31:32,717 --> 00:31:35,021
But you know
what she also knew?
634
00:31:39,564 --> 00:31:43,305
That these friends of hers
could be gone in a minute.
635
00:31:43,305 --> 00:31:45,042
Hardest job in the world.
636
00:31:45,042 --> 00:31:46,979
Ahh. Cheers to that.
637
00:31:46,979 --> 00:31:50,319
♪
638
00:31:50,319 --> 00:31:53,659
It wasn't an insult.
I mean, it was a job offer.
639
00:31:53,659 --> 00:31:55,663
Are you paranoid? What--
What you do is good enough,
640
00:31:55,663 --> 00:31:58,168
but you should always
take the meeting.
Everyone knows that.
641
00:31:58,168 --> 00:31:59,605
Oh, it's "good enough"
to be a doctor?
642
00:31:59,605 --> 00:32:01,241
Why, thank you so much
for approving
643
00:32:01,241 --> 00:32:03,044
of the full-time job
I've had for 20 years.
644
00:32:03,044 --> 00:32:04,180
God, what planet am I on?
645
00:32:04,180 --> 00:32:06,050
No, I-I'm not saying
you should--
646
00:32:06,050 --> 00:32:08,355
You know what? You have
no respect for me.
647
00:32:08,355 --> 00:32:10,025
Respect?!
Yeah.
648
00:32:10,025 --> 00:32:11,996
He said the base salary's
a mill. That's respect.
649
00:32:11,996 --> 00:32:13,733
Oh, you have a nickname
for a million dollars, too?
650
00:32:13,733 --> 00:32:15,402
Wow. Congratulations.
That is adorable.
651
00:32:15,402 --> 00:32:17,339
No, don't do that to me.
You know, I'm sitting here
652
00:32:17,339 --> 00:32:19,010
wondering if we're gonna
look back on this
653
00:32:19,010 --> 00:32:22,016
and wonder why
we hung on for so long.
654
00:32:22,016 --> 00:32:24,521
Wha-- What are you
talking about?
655
00:32:24,521 --> 00:32:27,159
Come on. You can't possibly
think this is working.
656
00:32:32,402 --> 00:32:34,006
Toby, do you understand
657
00:32:34,006 --> 00:32:37,012
I don't even have time
to get a divorce?
658
00:32:41,087 --> 00:32:44,026
But the truth was, every time
he brought up divorce,
659
00:32:44,026 --> 00:32:48,134
she felt the phantom limb
of abandonment,
660
00:32:48,134 --> 00:32:50,038
her age-old wound.
661
00:32:55,048 --> 00:32:56,619
[ Rachel sighs ]
662
00:32:56,619 --> 00:32:59,457
This is exactly what I'm talking
about. She makes no time for us.
663
00:32:59,457 --> 00:33:02,797
Toby. I'm here.
Is this not time for us?
664
00:33:02,797 --> 00:33:04,568
Yeah, so, we used to take
these long walks together.
665
00:33:04,568 --> 00:33:06,204
Now I cannot remember a time
we took a walk together.
666
00:33:06,204 --> 00:33:07,540
Toby, for all
your love of physics,
667
00:33:07,540 --> 00:33:09,678
you can't quite grasp
that if we walk to dinner
668
00:33:09,678 --> 00:33:12,182
35 blocks away instead of
letting me finish the e-mail
669
00:33:12,182 --> 00:33:13,686
in the cab
on the way there,
670
00:33:13,686 --> 00:33:15,823
I will be finishing
the e-mail at the table.
671
00:33:15,823 --> 00:33:18,663
The e-mail isn't optional.
The e-mail is the entire thing.
672
00:33:18,663 --> 00:33:20,633
I don't know. I think
some people would say
it could all wait.
673
00:33:20,633 --> 00:33:22,469
What could wait?
No. Tell me--
674
00:33:22,469 --> 00:33:24,741
Tell me what I do
that could wait.
675
00:33:24,741 --> 00:33:26,812
Anyone who has ever been
to just one session
676
00:33:26,812 --> 00:33:28,549
of couples therapy
could tell you
677
00:33:28,549 --> 00:33:31,187
that beyond your point of view
lies an abyss
678
00:33:31,187 --> 00:33:33,425
with a bubbling
cauldron of fire
679
00:33:33,425 --> 00:33:35,295
and that just beyond that abyss
680
00:33:35,295 --> 00:33:37,333
lies your spouse's
point of view.
681
00:33:37,333 --> 00:33:38,769
Rachel and Toby
tried to fix it.
682
00:33:38,769 --> 00:33:40,238
I will be
finishing the e--
683
00:33:40,238 --> 00:33:41,809
Wait while you say hello
to your family.
684
00:33:41,809 --> 00:33:44,246
That's all!
But the thing wasn't broken.
685
00:33:44,246 --> 00:33:46,284
[ indistinct conversations ]
686
00:33:46,284 --> 00:33:52,262
♪
687
00:33:52,262 --> 00:33:54,801
Yeah. Sorry.
Do you see how angry she is?
688
00:33:56,538 --> 00:33:58,274
It was gone.
689
00:34:04,821 --> 00:34:07,125
And then... it was over.
690
00:34:10,700 --> 00:34:13,338
She had spent so much time hyperventilating
691
00:34:13,338 --> 00:34:15,743
and terrified of him leaving,
of the actual
692
00:34:15,743 --> 00:34:19,851
one-day-he-wouldn't-be-there
of it all,
693
00:34:19,851 --> 00:34:21,588
that she was shocked
to find out
694
00:34:21,588 --> 00:34:23,825
that when
it finally happened...
695
00:34:26,197 --> 00:34:27,466
[ spits ]
696
00:34:27,466 --> 00:34:29,436
...it was... fine.
697
00:34:31,641 --> 00:34:34,146
It was... good.
698
00:34:36,518 --> 00:34:37,787
She started to think
that marriage
699
00:34:37,787 --> 00:34:39,323
was a section of your life
700
00:34:39,323 --> 00:34:41,294
that you now see
was always meant to end,
701
00:34:41,294 --> 00:34:43,398
like childhood or puberty.
702
00:34:43,398 --> 00:34:44,835
It's just a phase.
703
00:34:44,835 --> 00:34:46,572
But maybe it was also fine
704
00:34:46,572 --> 00:34:49,611
because of one additional
mitigating factor.
705
00:34:49,611 --> 00:34:52,149
Months before, while
all this was going on...
706
00:34:52,149 --> 00:34:53,819
Well, then. I will
bring that to Alejandra.
707
00:34:53,819 --> 00:34:55,623
I have a feeling
she will be amenable.
708
00:34:55,623 --> 00:34:58,228
Oh, get me Alejan--
709
00:34:58,228 --> 00:35:01,535
Uh, good, Richard.
Uh, thank you.
710
00:35:01,535 --> 00:35:03,304
Yeah.
I'll circle back soon.
711
00:35:03,304 --> 00:35:05,409
Hey. Are you looking
for a job here?
712
00:35:05,409 --> 00:35:07,614
'Cause we start people
in the mailroom.
713
00:35:07,614 --> 00:35:09,851
[ chuckles ] Okay. I just
wanted to thank you, again.
714
00:35:09,851 --> 00:35:12,256
Uh, Josh got cast
in a car commercial.
715
00:35:12,256 --> 00:35:13,726
Yeah, I heard!
That's great. He's great.
716
00:35:13,726 --> 00:35:15,897
Yeah, it's one of those ones
where the kid wakes up on
717
00:35:15,897 --> 00:35:18,635
Christmas and the parents have
given him a car or something?
718
00:35:19,904 --> 00:35:22,677
You okay?
719
00:35:22,677 --> 00:35:26,284
No. I'm sorry.
Um, it's just, uh--
720
00:35:26,284 --> 00:35:29,423
Things are
a little hard now.
721
00:35:29,423 --> 00:35:30,960
Let me take you
for a drink.
722
00:35:30,960 --> 00:35:34,333
You look like
you could use a friend.
723
00:35:34,333 --> 00:35:36,572
I've got a ton of calls
to return.
724
00:35:36,572 --> 00:35:40,178
One drink.
You're getting there.
725
00:35:43,451 --> 00:35:45,589
Cut to the part
where you're there.
726
00:35:49,496 --> 00:35:52,336
So they cut to the part
where they were there.
727
00:35:52,336 --> 00:35:54,473
[ both moaning ]
728
00:35:57,446 --> 00:35:59,651
Oh, God, it's good.
729
00:35:59,651 --> 00:36:01,688
Fuck, that's good.
That's good.
730
00:36:01,688 --> 00:36:05,228
[ both moaning ]
731
00:36:05,228 --> 00:36:06,999
It was supposed
to be temporary--
732
00:36:06,999 --> 00:36:08,736
quick nooners at hotels.
733
00:36:08,736 --> 00:36:11,307
But then Toby left
for his new place,
734
00:36:11,307 --> 00:36:13,779
and now she could see him
anytime she wanted
735
00:36:13,779 --> 00:36:16,250
when the kids were with Toby.
736
00:36:16,250 --> 00:36:18,589
And once or twice
when the kids were asleep.
737
00:36:18,589 --> 00:36:20,660
[ both moaning ]
738
00:36:20,660 --> 00:36:22,597
Sam loved that she worked.
739
00:36:22,597 --> 00:36:25,970
Sam wanted to hear about her
deals, about the drama at work.
740
00:36:25,970 --> 00:36:29,744
And Jeff told Reyna,
"No, you can do it.
741
00:36:29,744 --> 00:36:32,249
I just can't
hear you doing it."
742
00:36:32,249 --> 00:36:33,985
[ both chuckle ]
743
00:36:39,396 --> 00:36:41,334
I'm only happy
when I'm with you.
744
00:36:41,334 --> 00:36:44,807
Um, I mean, how do we
figure that part out?
745
00:36:48,782 --> 00:36:51,755
Well...
746
00:36:51,755 --> 00:36:55,696
let's game-plan this and
break down the practicalities.
747
00:36:55,696 --> 00:36:59,871
I've been thinking I might
want to open an L.A. office.
748
00:36:59,871 --> 00:37:02,442
Fendant has
an L.A. office.
749
00:37:02,442 --> 00:37:05,348
[ chuckles ] I love it
when you talk like an agent.
750
00:37:05,348 --> 00:37:08,789
I love it. I love everything
you have going on in your head.
751
00:37:08,789 --> 00:37:11,360
I just... love you.
752
00:37:13,899 --> 00:37:19,811
♪
753
00:37:19,811 --> 00:37:23,351
Sam accepted her.
He was impressed with her.
754
00:37:23,351 --> 00:37:26,023
She began to wonder
if she didn't have to choose
755
00:37:26,023 --> 00:37:28,494
between love and acceptance.
756
00:37:30,365 --> 00:37:31,835
[ chuckles ]
757
00:37:31,835 --> 00:37:33,706
[ television playing ]
758
00:37:33,706 --> 00:37:36,678
♪
759
00:37:42,455 --> 00:37:44,594
I think it's time.
760
00:37:44,594 --> 00:37:45,996
Okay.
761
00:37:47,533 --> 00:37:48,936
Oh.
762
00:37:48,936 --> 00:37:50,405
Oh, God!
763
00:37:50,405 --> 00:37:52,075
It's so gross!
764
00:37:52,075 --> 00:37:54,614
[ both laugh ]
765
00:37:54,614 --> 00:37:56,718
Okay.
It's time to go to bed.
766
00:37:56,718 --> 00:37:58,388
Come on!
767
00:37:58,388 --> 00:38:00,626
No, I let you
stay up this late.
768
00:38:02,730 --> 00:38:04,032
Mwah!
769
00:38:05,068 --> 00:38:08,909
She realized that some people
are miserable after a divorce.
770
00:38:08,909 --> 00:38:11,648
Not Rachel. She was free.
771
00:38:11,648 --> 00:38:14,119
She could do whatever
the hell she wanted.
772
00:38:14,119 --> 00:38:16,558
Well, not everything.
773
00:38:16,558 --> 00:38:18,529
Trust me-- if Rachel
could have moved to L.A.
774
00:38:18,529 --> 00:38:22,570
without having to talk to Toby
about it, she would have.
775
00:38:22,570 --> 00:38:24,841
Every conversation
was a terror with him.
776
00:38:24,841 --> 00:38:26,578
Hey.
Is now a good time?
777
00:38:26,578 --> 00:38:28,448
Uh, sure. Yeah.
Are the kids okay?
778
00:38:28,448 --> 00:38:30,887
Yeah, they're fine.
How's your new place?
779
00:38:30,887 --> 00:38:33,057
[ scoffs ]
What is it, Rachel?
780
00:38:33,057 --> 00:38:35,028
Honestly, your whole thing
is that we're supposed to have
781
00:38:35,028 --> 00:38:36,865
great co-parenting
communication
782
00:38:36,865 --> 00:38:39,604
and be captains of this divorce
team together, but every time
783
00:38:39,604 --> 00:38:41,708
I say something nice to you,
you have a meltdown.
784
00:38:41,708 --> 00:38:43,812
Yeah, I would not call this
a meltdown, okay?
785
00:38:43,812 --> 00:38:45,783
So, I've been thinking.
786
00:38:45,783 --> 00:38:47,620
The Presidentrix! movie
is about to go.
787
00:38:47,620 --> 00:38:49,089
The agency
is doing really great.
788
00:38:49,089 --> 00:38:50,993
Yeah. Yeah. Congratulations.
789
00:38:50,993 --> 00:38:55,636
Um, I'm thinking I want
to start an L.A. office,
790
00:38:55,636 --> 00:38:56,905
expand my business.
791
00:38:56,905 --> 00:38:58,609
Sure. Great. Congratulations.
792
00:38:58,609 --> 00:39:00,613
It would mean that
I'd have to go, set up shop,
793
00:39:00,613 --> 00:39:02,550
and-- and be there
a while.
794
00:39:02,550 --> 00:39:04,754
Yeah, okay. Well, Hannah
goes to camp in two weeks.
795
00:39:04,754 --> 00:39:06,490
And Solly-- I don't know.
796
00:39:06,490 --> 00:39:09,731
Maybe you want to take him
for a week or two?
797
00:39:09,731 --> 00:39:12,670
Well, I'm thinking of doing it
for longer than the summer.
798
00:39:12,670 --> 00:39:16,545
Um, maybe I would
have to be there longer,
799
00:39:16,545 --> 00:39:18,481
like, uh...
800
00:39:18,481 --> 00:39:21,521
move there for a while.
801
00:39:21,521 --> 00:39:23,726
I'd keep my place here,
802
00:39:23,726 --> 00:39:25,896
and I'd still come back
all the time.
803
00:39:25,896 --> 00:39:27,767
And what?
Like, leave the kids?
804
00:39:27,767 --> 00:39:30,038
No, no. I...
805
00:39:30,038 --> 00:39:32,442
[ sighs ]
I would take the kids.
806
00:39:32,442 --> 00:39:35,048
Are you fucking kidding
me?! You are not taking
the kids anywhere. I will--
807
00:39:35,048 --> 00:39:37,052
I will literally-- Rachel,
I will sue you before you--
808
00:39:37,052 --> 00:39:39,791
No, I'm--
I'm saying I need a change.
809
00:39:39,791 --> 00:39:41,895
Oh. Oh, you need a change?
Okay.
810
00:39:41,895 --> 00:39:43,966
No, no.
Please don't make this ugly.
811
00:39:43,966 --> 00:39:45,903
You know what?
Go to California. Seriously.
812
00:39:45,903 --> 00:39:47,674
But you are not
taking the kids, okay?
813
00:39:47,674 --> 00:39:50,546
Honestly, t-they wouldn't even
notice if you were gone.
814
00:39:50,546 --> 00:39:51,682
[ phone locks ]
815
00:39:51,682 --> 00:39:53,484
[ call disconnects ]
816
00:40:02,603 --> 00:40:06,511
LIBBY: It was the meanest thing
anyone had ever said to her.
817
00:40:06,511 --> 00:40:08,582
And he had said
some mean things.
818
00:40:08,582 --> 00:40:10,552
[ phone ringing ]
819
00:40:13,124 --> 00:40:14,561
[ phone unlocks ]
820
00:40:14,561 --> 00:40:16,197
SAM:
I have great news.
821
00:40:16,197 --> 00:40:19,604
Just got a last-minute spot
at Everglade for the weekend.
822
00:40:19,604 --> 00:40:21,240
You there?
823
00:40:21,240 --> 00:40:23,612
Hi. Uh, yeah.
[ chuckles ]
824
00:40:23,612 --> 00:40:26,518
So, I'm telling Miriam
I'm getting super into yoga.
825
00:40:26,518 --> 00:40:30,593
We can finally
do a weekend.
826
00:40:30,593 --> 00:40:33,231
Uh, right.
Um, I'm--
827
00:40:33,231 --> 00:40:35,603
I'm in the middle
of Alejandra's deal.
828
00:40:35,603 --> 00:40:37,472
We're--
We're trying to close.
829
00:40:37,472 --> 00:40:40,513
Did you know the cellphone
had been invented? Come on.
830
00:40:40,513 --> 00:40:42,683
Cut to the part
where you're there.
831
00:40:44,052 --> 00:40:46,023
Great.
Be outside at 6:00.
832
00:40:46,023 --> 00:40:47,960
[ call disconnects ]
833
00:40:47,960 --> 00:40:51,968
[ keys jingling ]
834
00:40:51,968 --> 00:40:56,176
♪
835
00:41:04,694 --> 00:41:07,733
♪
836
00:41:17,185 --> 00:41:20,826
♪
837
00:41:29,877 --> 00:41:35,589
♪
838
00:41:53,892 --> 00:41:55,595
[ engine rumbling ]
839
00:42:04,146 --> 00:42:06,785
There's a silent mindfulness
nature walk at 10:00
840
00:42:06,785 --> 00:42:08,187
that you're
just in time for.
841
00:42:08,187 --> 00:42:10,258
Can we just cut
to the massage part?
842
00:42:10,258 --> 00:42:12,329
Rach, you want
a facial?
843
00:42:12,329 --> 00:42:14,065
Sure.
Cool.
844
00:42:15,769 --> 00:42:17,707
- I can facilitate that.
- Thank you.
845
00:42:17,707 --> 00:42:20,779
[ both moaning ]
846
00:42:26,991 --> 00:42:29,062
[ moaning slows ]
847
00:42:33,404 --> 00:42:36,010
[ chuckles ]
848
00:42:36,010 --> 00:42:41,988
♪
849
00:42:41,988 --> 00:42:43,892
[ vape hissing ]
850
00:42:47,766 --> 00:42:49,670
[ laughs ]
851
00:42:50,839 --> 00:42:52,275
Hey, you okay?
852
00:42:52,275 --> 00:42:55,048
Yeah. Work stuff.
853
00:42:55,048 --> 00:42:57,152
Why don't you get
an early massage?
854
00:42:57,152 --> 00:42:59,189
Let's wash it all off, okay?
855
00:42:59,189 --> 00:43:02,630
Hey.
I brought something for us.
856
00:43:02,630 --> 00:43:04,767
Edibles.
857
00:43:04,767 --> 00:43:07,105
It's the good stuff. Medical.
858
00:43:07,105 --> 00:43:09,042
Mm!
859
00:43:09,042 --> 00:43:10,679
Very romantic.
860
00:43:10,679 --> 00:43:12,048
[ both chuckle ]
861
00:43:12,048 --> 00:43:14,654
Yeah. I--
I can't do that stuff.
862
00:43:14,654 --> 00:43:17,425
They gave me this thing
when I had Hannah
863
00:43:17,425 --> 00:43:19,664
that made me
hallucinate all night,
864
00:43:19,664 --> 00:43:23,872
and now I just...
stay away.
865
00:43:23,872 --> 00:43:25,341
Mm-kay.
866
00:43:32,088 --> 00:43:34,827
Let's begin. Deep breath.
867
00:43:34,827 --> 00:43:37,199
Here's the thing about
consciousness-raising
868
00:43:37,199 --> 00:43:38,835
and awareness.
869
00:43:38,835 --> 00:43:42,075
Let's start.
Deep breath.
870
00:43:42,075 --> 00:43:44,814
You should avoid it.
871
00:43:44,814 --> 00:43:47,920
Let's start.
Deep breath.
872
00:43:47,920 --> 00:43:52,062
I'm sorry. I just-- I just
have to sit up for a second.
873
00:43:52,062 --> 00:43:54,299
[ breathing sharply ]
874
00:43:57,105 --> 00:43:59,978
I have an idea for you.
875
00:43:59,978 --> 00:44:01,982
Try closing your eyes.
876
00:44:01,982 --> 00:44:03,919
[ laughs ]
877
00:44:03,919 --> 00:44:06,691
I-I can't close my eyes.
878
00:44:08,394 --> 00:44:09,731
Now breathe.
879
00:44:09,731 --> 00:44:11,200
[ exhales shakily ]
880
00:44:11,200 --> 00:44:14,272
[ breathing deeply ]
881
00:44:16,310 --> 00:44:18,715
You breath keeps getting caught
in the same place.
882
00:44:18,715 --> 00:44:20,218
What does that mean?
883
00:44:20,218 --> 00:44:23,290
It means you have to clear out
the pipes a little.
884
00:44:26,965 --> 00:44:28,902
Breathe in.
885
00:44:28,902 --> 00:44:30,104
Breathe out.
886
00:44:32,041 --> 00:44:34,112
Breathe in.
887
00:44:34,112 --> 00:44:36,851
Now... scream.
888
00:44:36,851 --> 00:44:38,053
Trust me.
889
00:44:39,489 --> 00:44:40,993
Haaaa!
890
00:44:40,993 --> 00:44:43,063
Don't worry.
No one can hear you.
891
00:44:45,101 --> 00:44:46,704
[ exhales shakily ]
892
00:44:48,073 --> 00:44:49,911
HAAA!
893
00:44:49,911 --> 00:44:51,847
You're getting it.
894
00:44:55,789 --> 00:44:57,392
HAAAAAA!
895
00:44:57,392 --> 00:45:01,467
What if I told you that
inside you are tiny particles
896
00:45:01,467 --> 00:45:03,070
and attached to that
897
00:45:03,070 --> 00:45:05,743
are all the worry
and the anxiety you have,
898
00:45:05,743 --> 00:45:08,014
all your problems,
and that if you gather them
899
00:45:08,014 --> 00:45:11,887
and push them out of your body,
they won't be there anymore?
900
00:45:19,970 --> 00:45:23,343
[ screaming ]
901
00:45:28,588 --> 00:45:33,164
[ scream continues ]
902
00:45:33,164 --> 00:45:35,034
And so she screamed.
903
00:45:35,034 --> 00:45:36,938
One of her screams
was for Hannah,
904
00:45:36,938 --> 00:45:40,378
who had Rachel's disease of the
desire for love and acceptance.
905
00:45:40,378 --> 00:45:42,950
One of them was for Solly,
who thought he was allowed
906
00:45:42,950 --> 00:45:44,554
to be himself in this world
907
00:45:44,554 --> 00:45:47,325
and didn't realize there
would be consequences to it,
908
00:45:47,325 --> 00:45:49,463
no matter what
Mr. Rogers said.
909
00:45:49,463 --> 00:45:51,968
She screamed for her mother,
who was, perhaps,
910
00:45:51,968 --> 00:45:54,941
her last chance
at being a normal person.
911
00:45:54,941 --> 00:45:56,511
[ scream continues ]
She screamed for Toby,
912
00:45:56,511 --> 00:45:58,147
who promised that
he would never leave
913
00:45:58,147 --> 00:45:59,416
and spent their years together
914
00:45:59,416 --> 00:46:01,420
threatening to leave her...
915
00:46:01,420 --> 00:46:03,290
and then finally did.
916
00:46:03,290 --> 00:46:05,862
[ breathes deeply ]
917
00:46:08,935 --> 00:46:12,175
She screamed for the family she
worked her whole life to get...
918
00:46:12,175 --> 00:46:14,079
but then only had so briefly.
919
00:46:14,079 --> 00:46:15,816
[ chuckles ]
920
00:46:15,816 --> 00:46:17,451
[ indistinct conversations ]
921
00:46:28,173 --> 00:46:30,344
This place
is so fucking weird.
922
00:46:37,191 --> 00:46:39,495
[ breathing sharply ]
923
00:46:45,007 --> 00:46:46,511
What is it with you?
924
00:46:46,511 --> 00:46:49,851
I don't know.
I'm just-- I don't know.
925
00:46:49,851 --> 00:46:51,855
I can't seem to calm down.
926
00:46:51,855 --> 00:46:55,061
Here. Take an Ambien.
927
00:46:55,061 --> 00:46:57,132
Isn't that a prescription?
928
00:46:57,132 --> 00:46:59,002
Still a doctor's wife.
929
00:46:59,002 --> 00:47:02,242
Phar-ma-ceuticals.
930
00:47:02,242 --> 00:47:04,513
[ groans ]
931
00:47:10,926 --> 00:47:15,201
Sam liked to take Ambien before
they had sex. God knows why.
932
00:47:15,201 --> 00:47:17,005
Rachel thought about
taking one,
933
00:47:17,005 --> 00:47:19,109
but she'd read these stories
about people
934
00:47:19,109 --> 00:47:22,348
who do crazy things in
their sleep when they take it.
935
00:47:30,030 --> 00:47:32,001
[ sobs softly ]
936
00:47:43,691 --> 00:47:46,162
[ sobs ] Fuck.
937
00:48:05,267 --> 00:48:07,204
[ breathing sharply ]
938
00:48:12,081 --> 00:48:14,085
[ sobs ] Fuck.
939
00:48:18,628 --> 00:48:20,097
What, you're leaving?
940
00:48:20,097 --> 00:48:21,668
I don't get that much time
to myself, you know?
941
00:48:21,668 --> 00:48:23,705
I was hoping
this would be... fun?
942
00:48:23,705 --> 00:48:25,509
You were
supposed to be fun.
943
00:48:25,509 --> 00:48:28,314
I was supposed to be fun?
You know what I mean.
944
00:48:28,314 --> 00:48:31,688
It's not supposed to be
this much work.
945
00:48:31,688 --> 00:48:33,592
I don't think
this is good anymore.
946
00:48:33,592 --> 00:48:36,029
You should pack.
947
00:48:36,029 --> 00:48:40,404
But we were supposed to be here
for-- for another two days.
948
00:48:40,404 --> 00:48:42,408
I don't want
to leave yet.
949
00:48:52,529 --> 00:48:54,634
[ door thud echoes ]
950
00:48:54,634 --> 00:49:00,244
♪
951
00:49:00,244 --> 00:49:03,083
Rachel was left unsure
of what had just happened.
952
00:49:03,083 --> 00:49:05,989
Had there been a progression
that she'd missed?
953
00:49:05,989 --> 00:49:09,196
All she thought is,
"There goes another one."
954
00:49:09,196 --> 00:49:11,500
And then it hit her--
Holy shit!
955
00:49:11,500 --> 00:49:14,774
She was divorced.
The bottom had fallen out.
956
00:49:14,774 --> 00:49:17,546
There was no net.
She was alone.
957
00:49:17,546 --> 00:49:21,186
She was alone, again, when
she had taken such measures
958
00:49:21,186 --> 00:49:24,025
to make sure
she'd never be alone again.
959
00:49:24,025 --> 00:49:26,029
It must be that
she was unlovable--
960
00:49:26,029 --> 00:49:27,733
an illegitimate kind of person.
961
00:49:27,733 --> 00:49:29,770
There were so many people
in the world--
962
00:49:29,770 --> 00:49:32,342
dumb ones, ugly ones,
bad ones even--
963
00:49:32,342 --> 00:49:34,112
and there were people
who loved them.
964
00:49:34,112 --> 00:49:35,616
Why not her?
965
00:49:35,616 --> 00:49:37,586
She couldn't be loved
by her grandmother.
966
00:49:37,586 --> 00:49:40,091
She couldn't be loved by Toby
for being herself.
967
00:49:40,091 --> 00:49:43,163
She couldn't be loved by Sam
for being herself.
968
00:49:43,163 --> 00:49:47,105
Who she was was unacceptable.
969
00:49:47,105 --> 00:49:49,309
SIMONE: "Sutton called and
was asking for clarification
970
00:49:49,309 --> 00:49:51,681
on the final deal point.
And Toby called.
971
00:49:51,681 --> 00:49:54,085
He's saying you have to
pick up the kids."
972
00:49:54,085 --> 00:49:57,660
RACHEL: "Just one
fucking weekend, Simone."
973
00:49:57,660 --> 00:50:01,768
♪
974
00:50:01,768 --> 00:50:05,474
[ phone buzzing ]
975
00:50:05,474 --> 00:50:09,617
[ buzz echoing ]
976
00:50:09,617 --> 00:50:11,420
OVERLAPPING VOICES:
Can you look at this script?
977
00:50:11,420 --> 00:50:12,790
Marsha says we should circle
back when we have more.
978
00:50:12,790 --> 00:50:14,392
Did you hit
the final deal points?
979
00:50:14,392 --> 00:50:15,729
- Final deal points?
- Where are you?
980
00:50:15,729 --> 00:50:17,600
- Where are you?
- Where are you?
981
00:50:17,600 --> 00:50:19,135
It's time to get the ball
rolling on Alison's deal.
982
00:50:19,135 --> 00:50:20,606
- Hey.
- Hey, give me a call back
983
00:50:20,606 --> 00:50:22,442
because you said alternate,
not understudy.
984
00:50:22,442 --> 00:50:23,812
- Alternate, not understudy.
- Can you circle back?
985
00:50:23,812 --> 00:50:25,348
- Alejandra...
- Alejandra called again.
986
00:50:25,348 --> 00:50:27,385
MAN: Hey.
Are you getting these?
987
00:50:27,385 --> 00:50:28,755
[ rumbling ]
WOMAN: Circle back.
988
00:50:28,755 --> 00:50:30,726
[ rumbling stops ]
989
00:50:30,726 --> 00:50:32,729
LIBBY:
Time was a flat circle back.
990
00:50:34,767 --> 00:50:37,205
Well, she couldn't go to sleep
while her phone was nearby.
991
00:50:37,205 --> 00:50:41,146
It was alive.
She could feel it beating.
992
00:50:41,146 --> 00:50:43,150
[ sighs ]
993
00:50:43,150 --> 00:50:48,828
♪
994
00:51:01,386 --> 00:51:07,331
♪
995
00:51:19,556 --> 00:51:20,692
Mrs. Rothberg?
996
00:51:20,692 --> 00:51:23,130
[ chuckles ]
I'm not Mrs. Rothberg.
997
00:51:23,130 --> 00:51:25,267
We were wondering
when you'd be checking out.
998
00:51:25,267 --> 00:51:27,840
Oh, I want another massage
and then do more screaming.
999
00:51:27,840 --> 00:51:29,744
Right.
But your reservation.
1000
00:51:29,744 --> 00:51:32,181
We have a large group coming.
1001
00:51:32,181 --> 00:51:35,254
Well, can I have
a late checkout?
1002
00:51:35,254 --> 00:51:36,690
Sure.
1003
00:51:40,497 --> 00:51:42,368
[ birds chirping ]
1004
00:51:46,342 --> 00:51:49,349
RACHEL: Just get me a car home,
okay? And send me a new phone.
1005
00:51:49,349 --> 00:51:51,286
No, Simone!
It's just one weekend.
1006
00:51:51,286 --> 00:51:53,223
Let me be, please.
1007
00:52:01,907 --> 00:52:03,678
[ horns honking ]
1008
00:52:08,453 --> 00:52:10,591
Mrs. Fleishman.
Long time, no see.
1009
00:52:17,238 --> 00:52:18,507
[ sighs ]
1010
00:52:22,983 --> 00:52:25,454
She was home. Finally.
1011
00:52:28,326 --> 00:52:29,830
Sleep.
1012
00:52:33,938 --> 00:52:36,511
Maybe she was hungry.
1013
00:52:36,511 --> 00:52:39,517
She'd only eaten vegetarian
bullshit for the past few days.
1014
00:52:39,517 --> 00:52:43,591
Maybe if she had some iron
in her she'd be able to sleep.
1015
00:52:43,591 --> 00:52:45,796
[ keypad dialing ]
1016
00:52:45,796 --> 00:52:48,802
She'd had a roommate in college
who used to diet all the time,
1017
00:52:48,802 --> 00:52:50,839
but when she gave up
on her diets,
1018
00:52:50,839 --> 00:52:54,780
which was basically every week,
she'd order beef lo mein.
1019
00:52:54,780 --> 00:52:57,251
You've never seen someone
so happy while eating.
1020
00:52:57,251 --> 00:53:00,558
Uh, yeah, hi.
C-Can I get an order of...
1021
00:53:02,829 --> 00:53:05,234
I'll have the beef lo mein.
1022
00:53:05,234 --> 00:53:07,806
[ doorbell rings ]
1023
00:53:07,806 --> 00:53:10,812
Hello, Mrs. Fleishman.
1024
00:53:10,812 --> 00:53:12,516
[ door closes ]
1025
00:53:12,516 --> 00:53:15,888
♪
1026
00:53:21,967 --> 00:53:23,772
Lo mein is gross.
1027
00:53:23,772 --> 00:53:26,910
Why would you eat spaghetti
from a Chinese place?
1028
00:53:28,714 --> 00:53:30,685
What she needed was exercise.
1029
00:53:30,685 --> 00:53:33,958
Exercise always tired her out.
1030
00:53:33,958 --> 00:53:36,898
Wait. What was she doing
in the bedroom?
1031
00:53:36,898 --> 00:53:48,788
♪
1032
00:53:48,788 --> 00:53:51,661
She'd had a roommate in college
who used to diet all the time,
1033
00:53:51,661 --> 00:53:53,598
but when she gave up
on her diets,
1034
00:53:53,598 --> 00:53:57,573
which was basically every week,
she'd order beef lo mein.
1035
00:53:57,573 --> 00:54:00,277
You've never seen someone
so happy while eating.
1036
00:54:00,277 --> 00:54:02,315
Um, are you still delivering?
1037
00:54:02,315 --> 00:54:04,452
Yeah, I-I'll have
a beef lo mein.
1038
00:54:04,452 --> 00:54:06,824
Delivered to
813 East 84th Street.
1039
00:54:06,824 --> 00:54:08,528
Apartment 7A.
1040
00:54:08,528 --> 00:54:10,932
[ beep, doorbell rings ]
1041
00:54:10,932 --> 00:54:12,803
Hello, Mrs. Fleishman.
1042
00:54:12,803 --> 00:54:23,758
♪
1043
00:54:23,758 --> 00:54:26,764
Disgusting. If you want pasta,
you go to Tony's.
1044
00:54:26,764 --> 00:54:30,337
♪
1045
00:54:30,337 --> 00:54:32,576
She had this idea
that maybe it was
1046
00:54:32,576 --> 00:54:34,479
that her clothes
were too tight.
1047
00:54:34,479 --> 00:54:37,619
She never wore sweatpants anymore.
1048
00:54:37,619 --> 00:54:40,859
They reminded her of
her postpartum breakdown.
1049
00:54:40,859 --> 00:54:43,430
But either Toby or Sam
had left some behind,
1050
00:54:43,430 --> 00:54:45,501
and she thought
maybe the sweatpants
1051
00:54:45,501 --> 00:54:48,373
were what healed her last time.
1052
00:54:48,373 --> 00:54:50,912
She thought of those women
who wore sweatpants all day
1053
00:54:50,912 --> 00:54:53,651
and slept in the park
because they had nothing to do.
1054
00:54:53,651 --> 00:54:55,387
Maybe she could be one of them.
1055
00:54:55,387 --> 00:54:57,124
But, man, she was hungry.
1056
00:54:57,124 --> 00:54:58,928
Rachel thought about
her college roommate
1057
00:54:58,928 --> 00:55:00,799
who had an eating disorder
and who would,
1058
00:55:00,799 --> 00:55:02,669
once a week,
order beef lo mein
1059
00:55:02,669 --> 00:55:04,707
because that's the food you eat
when you've just given up.
1060
00:55:04,707 --> 00:55:06,744
Can I get an order
of beef lo mein?
1061
00:55:06,744 --> 00:55:10,017
813 East 84th Street.
Apartment 7A.
1062
00:55:10,017 --> 00:55:11,386
[ doorbell rings ]
1063
00:55:11,386 --> 00:55:12,990
Mrs. Fleishman.
Thank you.
1064
00:55:12,990 --> 00:55:16,495
♪
1065
00:55:22,976 --> 00:55:24,813
[ sighs ]
1066
00:55:24,813 --> 00:55:27,986
♪
1067
00:55:31,459 --> 00:55:33,430
It was totally gross!
1068
00:55:33,430 --> 00:55:37,673
Why would you eat spaghetti
from a Chinese place?
1069
00:55:37,673 --> 00:55:40,779
Maybe she could get, like,
a supplement or something.
1070
00:55:40,779 --> 00:55:46,623
♪
1071
00:56:00,685 --> 00:56:04,593
A hamburger.
Um, no onions. Uh, no cheese.
1072
00:56:04,593 --> 00:56:08,868
Um, do, uh--
do you have pickles?
1073
00:56:08,868 --> 00:56:12,509
Do you-- Do you still
have that fusilli?
1074
00:56:12,509 --> 00:56:16,049
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
That-- One-- One of those.
1075
00:56:16,049 --> 00:56:18,186
Oh, you want two?
1076
00:56:18,186 --> 00:56:20,925
Yeah, no. Make that two.
[ laughs ]
1077
00:56:20,925 --> 00:56:22,596
[ knock on door ]
1078
00:56:22,596 --> 00:56:25,535
Go away! I don't want it!
1079
00:56:25,535 --> 00:56:27,539
[ banging on door ]
1080
00:56:27,539 --> 00:56:30,110
[ banging on door continues ]
1081
00:56:32,849 --> 00:56:34,953
[ door knob rattling ]
1082
00:56:36,990 --> 00:56:39,461
[ door opens ]
Toby?
1083
00:56:41,165 --> 00:56:44,740
Oh. Hannah.
God, you scared me.
1084
00:56:44,740 --> 00:56:47,478
I know.
I was at the office.
1085
00:56:47,478 --> 00:56:49,449
I have to
tell you something.
1086
00:56:49,449 --> 00:56:51,152
Can you listen?
I have to tell you something.
1087
00:56:51,152 --> 00:56:53,758
I'm busy!
I'll circle back.
1088
00:56:53,758 --> 00:56:56,096
No, no, no. No.
You have to hear it from me.
1089
00:56:56,096 --> 00:57:00,572
I didn't stand a chance.
I never stood a chance.
1090
00:57:00,572 --> 00:57:02,776
Do you hear me?
1091
00:57:02,776 --> 00:57:06,617
I have to
circle back on that!
1092
00:57:06,617 --> 00:57:08,453
Can you tell Solly?
1093
00:57:10,925 --> 00:57:12,629
I left word.
You're not listening!
1094
00:57:12,629 --> 00:57:14,031
[ gasps ]
1095
00:57:30,765 --> 00:57:34,272
[ laughs ] No, honey. The joke
is that the eyes are open.
1096
00:57:34,272 --> 00:57:36,877
TOBY: I find the
patient interface
particularly rewarding.
1097
00:57:36,877 --> 00:57:38,514
[ gasps ]
1098
00:57:44,225 --> 00:57:46,564
Mom, we're late!
You have to get us!
1099
00:57:46,564 --> 00:57:47,799
I can't move, Hannah.
1100
00:57:47,799 --> 00:57:49,670
Mom. Mom, please!
1101
00:57:49,670 --> 00:57:51,640
I can't move.
1102
00:57:51,640 --> 00:57:54,813
I love you! I love you!
Y-Y-You know.
1103
00:57:54,813 --> 00:57:57,552
You know that I love you.
But they're coming.
1104
00:57:57,552 --> 00:58:01,125
They're coming for me,
and I can't even move!
1105
00:58:03,129 --> 00:58:05,769
I'm in L.A. I'm in L.A.
1106
00:58:05,769 --> 00:58:09,810
C-Come see if--
if you can find me, okay?
1107
00:58:09,810 --> 00:58:12,949
We'll-- We'll order
room service. [ sobs ]
1108
00:58:16,590 --> 00:58:18,226
She had to get out of there.
1109
00:58:18,226 --> 00:58:19,730
[ dog barking ]
1110
00:58:19,730 --> 00:58:21,600
[ indistinct conversations ]
1111
00:58:21,600 --> 00:58:26,810
♪
1112
00:58:31,152 --> 00:58:32,755
ROXANNE: Ahem!
1113
00:58:35,761 --> 00:58:38,868
MIRIAM: Rachel Fleishman.
Asleep in the park.
1114
00:58:38,868 --> 00:58:41,005
As I live and breathe!
1115
00:58:41,005 --> 00:58:43,009
We're going to Soul.
Are you coming?
1116
00:58:43,009 --> 00:58:46,082
Oh, um...
1117
00:58:46,082 --> 00:58:47,853
I forgot to tell you.
1118
00:58:47,853 --> 00:58:51,860
Um, I'm waiting on a call,
so I can't.
1119
00:58:53,898 --> 00:58:54,900
- Ohh.
- Oh, it's okay.
1120
00:58:54,900 --> 00:58:57,171
Ohh.
You work too hard.
1121
00:58:57,171 --> 00:58:58,841
Are you o-okay?
1122
00:58:58,841 --> 00:59:00,210
Sure. Yeah.
1123
00:59:00,210 --> 00:59:03,350
Uh, just...
1124
00:59:03,350 --> 00:59:05,020
taking some me-time.
1125
00:59:05,020 --> 00:59:06,624
- [ gasps ] Proud of you.
- Ohh.
1126
00:59:06,624 --> 00:59:08,293
- Yes!
- You go, girl.
1127
00:59:08,293 --> 00:59:10,063
Yeah, that's good.
1128
00:59:16,209 --> 00:59:21,953
♪
1129
00:59:32,040 --> 00:59:33,711
Did something come for me?
1130
00:59:33,711 --> 00:59:35,715
From my assistant?
I ordered a new phone.
1131
00:59:35,715 --> 00:59:38,153
And, uh, I've been without
a phone all weekend.
1132
00:59:38,153 --> 00:59:41,059
She delivered, uh, something
for you a few weeks ago.
1133
00:59:41,059 --> 00:59:43,330
What do you mean?
What--
1134
00:59:43,330 --> 00:59:45,267
[ tablet clicking ]
What--
1135
00:59:45,267 --> 00:59:47,806
Wait. Sorry.
She--
1136
00:59:47,806 --> 00:59:53,684
She delivered it on--
on Sunday?
1137
00:59:53,684 --> 00:59:55,955
It's Thursday.
1138
00:59:55,955 --> 00:59:57,358
It's Thursday?
1139
00:59:57,358 --> 00:59:59,830
But it wasn't just Thursday.
1140
00:59:59,830 --> 01:00:02,903
It wasn't even
the next Thursday.
1141
01:00:02,903 --> 01:00:04,205
It had been weeks.
1142
01:00:04,205 --> 01:00:05,875
Oh, shit.
1143
01:00:10,718 --> 01:00:12,756
She found herself in front
of Toby's apartment,
1144
01:00:12,756 --> 01:00:15,194
but she was afraid to go in.
1145
01:00:15,194 --> 01:00:17,097
Not because she was scared
of him yelling at her,
1146
01:00:17,097 --> 01:00:19,970
which she was,
but because she knew
1147
01:00:19,970 --> 01:00:23,276
that whatever it was he said,
he would be right.
1148
01:00:25,013 --> 01:00:28,186
And she could not bear further
information right then
1149
01:00:28,186 --> 01:00:30,692
about what a piece of shit
she was.
1150
01:00:30,692 --> 01:00:32,261
♪
1151
01:00:32,261 --> 01:00:34,966
She couldn't figure out
how much time had passed.
1152
01:00:36,870 --> 01:00:40,712
She had so much
apologizing to do.
1153
01:00:40,712 --> 01:00:43,718
So she did the first thing
that seemed manageable.
1154
01:00:43,718 --> 01:00:46,923
♪
1155
01:00:53,036 --> 01:00:54,840
[ doorbell rings ]
1156
01:00:54,840 --> 01:01:00,752
♪
1157
01:01:00,752 --> 01:01:02,421
Rachel.
Hi.
1158
01:01:02,421 --> 01:01:06,429
I was just in the neighborhood
and I wanted to see my favorite.
1159
01:01:06,429 --> 01:01:09,802
Uh, I come--
I come bearing gifts.
1160
01:01:11,305 --> 01:01:12,842
[ chuckles ]
1161
01:01:12,842 --> 01:01:15,848
I'll... get Alex.
1162
01:01:15,848 --> 01:01:17,117
Alex!
1163
01:01:26,068 --> 01:01:27,271
Rachel.
1164
01:01:27,271 --> 01:01:30,110
It's me.
[ chuckles ]
1165
01:01:30,110 --> 01:01:33,884
Oh, I, um--
I brought you something.
1166
01:01:38,192 --> 01:01:39,796
Uh, so--
so, I-I think--
1167
01:01:39,796 --> 01:01:41,466
I think we have all our--
our deal points done.
1168
01:01:41,466 --> 01:01:42,936
They're still
being a little--
1169
01:01:42,936 --> 01:01:44,840
Rachel, what are you
talking about?
1170
01:01:44,840 --> 01:01:47,143
I haven't heard from you
in three weeks.
1171
01:01:54,091 --> 01:01:55,728
Wow. Do you--
1172
01:01:58,099 --> 01:02:00,003
Do you ever get déjà vu?
1173
01:02:01,573 --> 01:02:04,445
Rachel, are you okay?
It's 7:00 a.m.
1174
01:02:04,445 --> 01:02:08,086
[ stammers ] Uh, no.
I-I-I had to go out of town.
1175
01:02:08,086 --> 01:02:10,090
It was a--
It was a family emergency.
1176
01:02:10,090 --> 01:02:12,829
Simone said
you were in meetings.
1177
01:02:12,829 --> 01:02:14,231
I called you.
1178
01:02:14,231 --> 01:02:17,137
My lawyer called and said
you weren't returning.
1179
01:02:18,974 --> 01:02:20,443
I called Matt.
1180
01:02:23,082 --> 01:02:24,953
Wait. My Matt?
1181
01:02:24,953 --> 01:02:28,026
My Matt.
1182
01:02:28,026 --> 01:02:29,996
I went back to Alfooz.
1183
01:02:35,340 --> 01:02:37,846
You disappeared!
1184
01:02:37,846 --> 01:02:40,050
I couldn't let it
fall apart.
1185
01:02:40,050 --> 01:02:42,121
I worked too hard
to let it fall apart.
1186
01:02:42,121 --> 01:02:44,993
No, no, no, of course.
No, y-you did the right thing.
1187
01:02:44,993 --> 01:02:47,331
Absolutely.
1188
01:02:47,331 --> 01:02:49,502
Uh, let me-- let me know
1189
01:02:49,502 --> 01:02:52,041
if Matt needs any help
with the transition.
1190
01:02:52,041 --> 01:02:54,111
Rachel--
Wait. Is it--
Is the deal done?
1191
01:02:54,111 --> 01:02:56,382
Did he handle it?
1192
01:02:56,382 --> 01:02:59,789
Yeah, he got it.
All of it.
1193
01:03:01,526 --> 01:03:03,396
It's fine now.
1194
01:03:03,396 --> 01:03:04,866
Rachel, are you--
1195
01:03:04,866 --> 01:03:08,940
I-I'm-- I'm fine.
Yeah. I mean...
1196
01:03:11,412 --> 01:03:13,551
No, it's been a--
it's been a rough week,
1197
01:03:13,551 --> 01:03:15,854
but, you know,
it's-- it's fine.
1198
01:03:20,598 --> 01:03:22,400
I am so p--
1199
01:03:30,450 --> 01:03:33,089
I'm so proud
of what you achieved.
1200
01:03:38,600 --> 01:03:41,004
I'm very sorry
I let you down.
1201
01:03:44,311 --> 01:03:46,315
Rachel had discovered her.
1202
01:03:46,315 --> 01:03:49,121
She'd believed in her when
Matt was still calling her
1203
01:03:49,121 --> 01:03:52,996
a diversity hire
for TV rooms behind her back.
1204
01:03:52,996 --> 01:03:56,002
See? Unacceptable.
1205
01:03:56,002 --> 01:03:58,106
And then I realized
I was hungry
1206
01:03:58,106 --> 01:04:00,310
and if I saw them
when I was hungry
1207
01:04:00,310 --> 01:04:03,049
I was gonna have to leave
to get something to eat,
1208
01:04:03,049 --> 01:04:07,057
so I-I went looking for carbs
and I got a bagel
1209
01:04:07,057 --> 01:04:11,265
and then--
and then I saw you.
1210
01:04:15,373 --> 01:04:17,978
Are you sure I-I can't
get you anything?
1211
01:04:21,118 --> 01:04:23,156
Her story was
all over the place.
1212
01:04:23,156 --> 01:04:26,195
There were several days
she just couldn't account for.
1213
01:04:26,195 --> 01:04:28,032
And half of it didn't add up.
1214
01:04:28,032 --> 01:04:31,438
I don't really remember putting
newspaper on the windows.
1215
01:04:45,500 --> 01:04:47,571
I think you need
some help, Rachel.
1216
01:04:50,644 --> 01:04:52,481
Come on.
1217
01:04:52,481 --> 01:04:54,519
I'd spent the whole summer
listening to Toby's story,
1218
01:04:54,519 --> 01:04:56,523
seeing it through
his eyes alone.
1219
01:04:56,523 --> 01:04:58,994
I'd forgotten an essential
truth of reporting,
1220
01:04:58,994 --> 01:05:00,998
which is that
you should always wonder,
1221
01:05:00,998 --> 01:05:03,269
when you're hearing
someone's version of things,
1222
01:05:03,269 --> 01:05:05,106
what the other person
in the story--
1223
01:05:05,106 --> 01:05:08,647
the one who wasn't there--
would say if he were.
1224
01:05:08,647 --> 01:05:10,651
I'd forgotten that lesson,
which I had learned
1225
01:05:10,651 --> 01:05:12,655
on every story I ever did.
1226
01:05:12,655 --> 01:05:15,260
It was that there are
no real villains in life,
1227
01:05:15,260 --> 01:05:16,597
not really.
1228
01:05:16,597 --> 01:05:18,266
There are no real heroes, either.
1229
01:05:18,266 --> 01:05:21,138
Everyone is great
and everyone is terrible
1230
01:05:21,138 --> 01:05:22,675
and everyone is flawed,
1231
01:05:22,675 --> 01:05:25,280
and there are
no exceptions to that.
1232
01:05:25,280 --> 01:05:27,685
Hey, hey, hey, hey.
1233
01:05:27,685 --> 01:05:32,261
Just try to sleep.
Okay?
1234
01:05:32,261 --> 01:05:34,633
I'll sit here with you.
1235
01:05:34,633 --> 01:05:37,470
And I'm not gonna let
anything happen to you.
1236
01:05:40,043 --> 01:05:42,749
You know,
I always liked you.
1237
01:05:42,749 --> 01:05:45,153
I just thought
you didn't like me.
1238
01:05:45,153 --> 01:05:50,964
♪
1239
01:06:03,456 --> 01:06:09,167
♪
1240
01:06:21,726 --> 01:06:25,200
TOBY: Hey.
I'm sorry about before.
1241
01:06:25,200 --> 01:06:27,037
I hope you're not mad.
1242
01:06:27,037 --> 01:06:30,143
It's just that I've been
going through a lot lately.
1243
01:06:30,143 --> 01:06:35,587
♪
1244
01:06:50,249 --> 01:06:55,594
♪
1245
01:07:09,154 --> 01:07:14,599
♪
1246
01:07:27,825 --> 01:07:33,703
♪
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