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at age 18 i had to make a difficult

decision should i follow my mom's

footsteps and try to become a scientist

or marry my handsome but extremely

insecure boyfriend well as you will find

out i made the wrong choice but maybe

you can learn from my mistake ever since

i was young my mom was my biggest role

model i used to watch her at home

working on complicated science problems

for her laboratory i wanted to impress

her and used to lie down next to her

reading the most challenging books i

could find like niches beyond good and

evil then later while at dinner i'd

summarize the books to her it's fair to

say that i've inherited my mom's passion

for science one time for example we had

a one week power outage at our home so i

picked up a book from my school library

about generators and built a vertical

axis windmill generator that i connected

to a battery it took a whole month to

build and by then we already had

electricity again but i was still

excited to show it to my mom i asked her

to come to the garden where i had put a

curtain over my little creation i lifted

it up and showed her my generator which

was connected to her coffee machine she

pushed the start button the coffee maker

started going and i could see just how

impressed she was when the coffee was

ready she took a sip and even told me

that it was the best coffee she had ever

tasted but while my family was

supportive of my passions school was

different i really wanted to get perfect

grades so one day i could get into an

ivy league university just like my mom

did and honestly in most subjects i

could get straight a's without studying

at all however when i like always was

the only one in class to raise their

hand the other kids would make fun of me

especially kylie my arch nemesis she

wasn't just mean but actually also quite

funny she once said to me i know you're

desperately trying to be smart like

hermione from harry potter but honestly

you remind me more of ron weasley

everyone laughed and i was so offended

by what she had said that in the next

physics exam i gave the right answers to

everyone in our class except kylie this

was my revenge and she actually ended up

with a d while everyone else got an a or

b our teacher of course realized that

the majority of kids in our class had

cheated somehow to get such good grades

that's why he went over to kylie and

said not only do you lack any

understanding of physics but you're also

the only one in class who doesn't know

how to cheat everyone laughed at her but

it turns out that it's rarely a good

idea to attack someone more popular or

powerful than you because now kylie

hated me more than ever that same day in

pe class we were supposed to play tag

and kylie was it and supposed to chase

the rest of us like the other girls i

ran yelling and laughing but when kylie

came close to me she stopped looked at

me and said you do understand that no

one likes you right ouch she'd hit my

weak spot it really hurt to be singled

out again luckily i did have one friend

in my ear we normally met up on fridays

to watch a movie or do a picnic but one

time she told me i can't today i have to

get ready for the big school party

didn't you get invited no

oh well don't worry about it you're just

easily forgotten

i guess she thought that saying you were

easily forgotten was a nicer way of

saying nobody likes you but it still

hurts so much and apparently she made

lots of new friends on that party

because afterward my only friend never

wanted to hang out with me again the

final straw must have been when my music

teacher asked me to sing in front of her

class i told him i'd prefer not to do it

because i was shy but he told me i'd get

a bad grade if i didn't so i went in

front of the class and started singing i

didn't think it was that bad but the

teacher immediately screwed up his face

in pain and held his hands over his ears

that's why all my classmates burst out

laughing at me now i know the teacher

just wanted to make a joke and maybe if

i hadn't been so insecure it would have

been fine but he destroyed the last bit

of confidence i had left after that i

never raised my arm in class again i was

so unhappy that i finally ended up

transferring to a new school to have a

new start and it worked when i arrived

the only free chair was in the last row

next to a really good looking boy called

miguel i sat down next to him and he

immediately started telling me how much

he hated math i responded actually i

like math there is no better feeling

than solving a hard math problem twitchy

said wow i just met you and i already

don't like you at this point in my life

i was so insecure that his words

instantly made me cry however he didn't

mean to hurt me so he added don't worry

i was just joking why don't you come by

my house today i just got an electric

guitar

wow was this my lucky day a pretty guy

wanted to spend time with me i accepted

his invitation and later that day we

hung out in his room for the first 20

minutes miguel tried to put the cable

into the right plug but failed did i

mention he wasn't that smart when i gave

him a suggestion he responded stop

ordering me around i know what i'm doing

wow he was so insecure

and then i learned why he called his dad

to his room and told him dad that guitar

you bought me doesn't work it's broken

did you turn on the speakers miguel

turned completely red realizing he had

forgotten to turn the speakers on his

dad added so you're still a well

maybe i can knock up your mom another

time and have more luck with my next

child wow i was shocked his dad didn't

seem to care how much he was hurting his

son i tried to change the topic and said

so miguel what's your favorite subject

in school by the way who cares about

school only idiots get a degree once i'm

18 i'll become a salesman and make lots

of money that actually wasn't such a bad

idea because miguel was outgoing and

popular i knew he would make a great

salesman however i disagreed that

getting a degree was useless so i told

him i really like school and i hope to

get a phd one day in chemistry i always

get straight a's often without even

studying really i could see how

impressed he was and realized that me

being smarter than him was what could

make me interesting to him

subconsciously he probably knew he

wasn't smart enough to be good in school

but having a brilliant girlfriend could

be some kind of substitute so even

though he was much better looking than

me we started dating and after each exam

i showed him my grade to impress him and

show i wasn't such a bad catch after all

that was a mistake though i misjudged

just how insecure he was about his

intelligence because a few weeks later

he was so fed up with my constant

bragging that he said it was over

between us he didn't want to date a nerd

like me anymore and i immediately

started crying he added no guy wants to

date a girl that always tries to outdo

him i realized i'd made a mistake by

showing off with my grades so much so i

apologized and promised to become a

better girlfriend he ended up giving me

another chance and i still can't believe

what i did next just for him i started

getting bad grades in school on purpose

you see miguel was a quite

family-oriented guy he often told me

about wanting to have loads of children

so i didn't mind if he wanted me to be

his housewife and become a mother i

actually liked the idea the only one not

happy with my decision to basically

throw away my academic career with my

mom i was 18 and she couldn't understand

why i didn't go to college

so what will you do instead she asked

miguel and i will save some money get

married and have children as soon as

possible and as many as we can but

you're only 18. why not have children

after college i was too embarrassed to

tell her the truth that miguel simply

didn't want me to go to college and that

i was afraid of losing him so i lied to

my mom and said i just really prefer to

become a mother and have a family mom

ended up respecting my decision and when

miguel got his first job soon after we

moved into our own apartment it was

exciting to be in a serious relationship

at such a young age we made long-term

plans and even though miguel didn't want

me to get a job with lots of career

opportunities because he argued that

they would distract me from being a good

mother he still allowed me to give

private tutor lessons to children as a

side job or at least until i became

pregnant becoming a mother at 19 was

very exciting because for the first time

in my life i felt like a real adult and

miguel despite his insecurities and

flaws was a loving husband and father

things were good until i fell pregnant

with our second child at age 21 taking

care of both a baby and a toddler is

incredibly exhausting and to be honest

today i regret to not have gone to

university i would have been one of the

top students and looked forward to a

great career it would have been an

easier life however i recently mentioned

to miguel that i was thinking about

getting an engineering degree from an

online college meaning i could study

from home while taking care of our kids

he just got a promotion at his job so i

thought he might be less insecure about

me starting my own career but he

responded saying that i should wait

until our kids are grown up before i

neglect my duties as a mother to be

honest he might be right though at the

moment our children have to come first

i'm sure when the time is right he'll

let me go get a good education because i

know he loves me