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Gyu-hyeon!

Gyu-hyeon!

Don't come any closer!

Gyu-hyeon!

Come down and let's talk, okay?

Gyu-hyeon, why are you doing this?

I said not to come closer!

No!

Gyu-hyeon.

Please.

I can't sing if I get surgery.

I'll never be able to sing again!

That's not true.

It's not like that.

She's right. Listen to her.

It's just a part of your treatment.

Trust us, and come down, okay?

Stop lying.

I heard everything!

Gyu-hyeon.

Aren't you scared?

I'm not scared of dying.

Not at all!

I... I am...

scared.

If I die,

I'll be all alone.

I don't want to be alone.

Bunny and my brother are in heaven,

but I don't think I can go there.

Because I hurt too many people.

Even if people hate me and call me stupid,

I want to live...

since I can still be with people.

But Gyu-hyeon,

people really like you.

I envy you so much.

So, please don't do this.

If you die,

those who like you will be very sad

since they won't be able to see you.

I'm alive, although everyone hates me.

So you shouldn't die.

And you have...

a mom and a dad.

I haven't had one since I was little.

I get scared even at the top of a slide.

Come down quickly. I'm dizzy.

Quickly.

Gyu-hyeon.

Thank you, Gyu-hyeon.

Take him to the ER. We need to remove the abscess.

Yes, sir.

Dr. Ko.

Have you ever administered Hetavizen to a patient?

Just say you did it,

and say the director turned a blind eye!

Who cares if you lose your license?

I'll make you

a director at the foundation.

Did you, or did you not administer it?

Hetavizen?

I've never administered it.

Then have you administered it, Dr. Kim Do-han?

I have not.

Then let me ask Dr. Choi.

Do you know about this drug being administered?

The Hetavizen...

I'm the deputy director.

Is this how the FDA does its investigations?

We're just asking a few simple questions.

Are you prosecutors?

Ask your questions once you have evidence.

If you do this again, we'll take necessary measures against you.

Gyu-hyeon, this isn't surgery.

We're just removing the pus from your throat.

So don't worry, okay?

Don't worry. It'll be over soon.

I'm going to start.

What do you mean?

He wasn't listening to music.

His MP3 player

was empty.

He wasn't listening to music on his MP3 player.

He used it as earplugs to block out sounds.

He probably didn't want to listen to music since that's a sound, too.

Why are you talking nonsense?

It's not nonsense.

When I was young,

I didn't want to hear the kids making fun of me,

so I blocked my ears.

But...

you really won't approve of the surgery?

No.

I will never approve it.

That's bad.

That's bad.

You need to get past this.

What's the point?

I've already lost my integrity.

It's not your fault.

You did it for Si-on.

That's just an excuse.

There were plenty of other proper ways

to keep him here.

I was too rash and closed-minded.

Leave it to Mr. Kang.

This isn't about integrity.

Do-han.

Don't you fail

as your pathetic mentor did.

What kind of a mother is she?

He almost died, and she still won't budge.

I know.

Other moms would be fighting to get them the surgery.

She's obsessed with the German choir,

that's why.

But then, Sim the Blind sold his daughter for a mere 300 bags of rice.

It's not "mere."

A bag of rice back then weighed 144kg.

So 144kg times 300.

That's 43,200kg. That's 43.2 tons.

Current bags of rice are 20kg per bag.

That's 2,160 bags.

A bag of rice costs 40,000 won right now,

so 2,160 times 40,000 won is 8,640,000 won.

The supermarket sells it for only 18,000 won.

Oh. Really?

There were plenty of other proper ways to keep him here.

-Did you call? -Tell Si-on to come in.

You're going to tell him today?

-Please reconsider. -Reconsider what?

You saw earlier.

Dr. Park didn't do anything rash.

He's finally becoming aware.

A surgeon must make thousands of quick decisions.

Doing it once is nothing.

How long must I wait for him to be able to make proper decisions?

A year? Ten years?

Nobody knows.

But there's hope.

I'm transferring him in order to protect that hope.

HYEOK-PIL

What the heck?

What is it?

Would you like a popsicle?

No, get lost!

This popsicle splits in half.

Have some.

You punk. You should listen to your elders.

Calluses. Scars.

What?

You have calluses and scars on your hand.

I envy hands with calluses and scars the most.

It means you've done many surgeries.

You have more than Dr. Kim Do-han

or Dr. Cha Yun-seo.

I want to become a surgeon quickly

and get many calluses and scars like you.

That's my dream.

What are you babbling about? Get lost!

Enjoy.

It must be Mr. Lee.

I had deleted all records of the use of the drug.

But...

the FDA...

Yes, I understand.

Thank you, Mr. Chairman.

-Why do you look so dazed? -What?

I was thinking about what Si-on said. I feel bad.

To be honest, I never hated him, but that's what he thinks.

-I felt bad, too. -Hey.

What's wrong with you two? You know his condition.

That has nothing to do with it.

Even animals know when you hate them.

He may be a troublemaker who's impossible to talk to,

but he's not a bad guy.

Goodness. Hey.

Causing trouble makes him bad!

Like you've never caused trouble?

Why are you taking it out on me?

The FDA issue will be resolved by the end of the day.

It's okay. Please stay out of the hospital's affairs.

If you step down because of this,

what will happen to all you've worked for?

If I've done wrong, I should step down.

You'll hurt all those who respect you,

and Dr. Park Si-on who sees you as a father figure.

You will them all.

No.

My leaving

will be my final lesson to them.

Take the proposal for the hospital you gave me

and leave.

If you refuse, something worse may happen.

After I see you leave,

I will leave as well.

Once you're done with Gyu-hyeon,

transfer to Diagnostics.

I spoke with the professor there.

Here's my recommendation. Keep it with you.

Take it.

I don't want it.

I'll become a pediatric surgeon. I won't go to Diagnostics.

Are you defying me?

No, I'm just telling you my dream.

That's an impossible dream.

Diagnostics is a realistic dream.

I don't know things like that.

I will become a surgeon.

-Don't you get it? -I know you hate me,

but I don't care if you hate me even more.

Please let me stay.

Please listen to me!

Who said to stop being a doctor?

Are surgeons the only doctors?

This is for your own good, so listen!

Professor, why don't you talk about it later?

Si-on.

Yes?

He's not doing that because he hates you.

Yes, he is. He's sending me away because he hates me.

Yes?

Si-on.

Listen very carefully.

Okay.

You can survive here without me now, right?

Answer me.

Are you going somewhere?

No.

I'm asking just in case. For the future.

I'll be very sad

if you are not here. Very sad.

Si-on.

You are

all grown up now. You don't need me to look after you.

Yes, I do. I'm still young.

No.

The way you think of the patients isn't young.

I'm learning a lot from you, too.

That's why you're an adult.

Whether or not I'm here

isn't important to you anymore.

Just as I did for you,

you must be

a good friend

to sick children.

Okay?

I will become a friend to children, as you asked.

But...

I wish you wouldn't leave me.

Let me know if anything else hurts, okay?

I'll make you feel better.

You're very upset that you may not be able to sing, aren't you?

It's not that I'm upset.

I still want to die.

You know...

all I ever did was sing since I was four.

Before I could even speak.

I didn't go to school or have any friends.

I never even played games.

If I can't sing,

I'm nothing.

I think

I understand how you feel.

I may not be able to become a doctor.

People say

I shouldn't become a doctor.

Why not?

I'm a bit different from others.

That makes me a bit stupid.

I don't understand people well,

and I cause trouble.

But at least you have hope.

-Hope? -Even if people try to stop you,

you can just keep on trying,

until you make it happen.

Until I make it happen?

Yes.

Until you make it happen.

But for me,

once I have surgery, I won't even get to try.

We'll take him home tomorrow.

His condition

is much worse than it appears.

We only removed the pus to reduce the swelling.

It's still festering inside.

We're flying out next week.

A long flight may make it worse.

He can be treated in Germany. They have hospitals there too.

It's not just about treatment.

He tried to commit suicide. He needs stability psychologically.

He needs help.

That will never happen again.

I'll give him the psychological stability.

If you have nothing more to say, goodbye.

Wait a minute!

You won't get him surgery in Germany, either, will you?

And you said you'll provide psychological stability.

but how could you, when his health isn't your priority?

Since when do doctors dictate how parents

raise their kids?

I'm not telling you how to raise him.

I'm just worried about his health.

Take a look at the other mothers in the ward.

They cry when their child gets an injection.

You must be single.

Every parent loves their children in their own way.

Regardless, you need the doctor's approval to take him.

Whatever.

Try and stop me.

-Hey. -There's a 5-year-old TA child in the ER.

Possible hemoperitoneum and shock from low BP.

BLOOD IN THE PERITONEAL CAVITY

Gauze.

His BP isn't going up.

The transfusion can't make up for the blood loss.

Please keep it going.

I'll increase the RBC, FFP and PC.

Okay.

The spleen is too damaged to salvage.

Connect the splenic artery.

Mixter.

Metzenbaum.

Tie.

Cut.

His BP is up. His vitals are stable.

Dr. Cha, control the bleeding and finish up.

Yes, sir.

Forceps.

Why are you out here?

Mom doesn't know...

what...

my real dream is.

Then do you have another dream?

My dream...

isn't getting into

a famous choir.

Just like doctors heal sick people,

I want to heal

people's hearts with my song.

Wow.

That's a great dream.

That's really, really great.

I'm not interested

in going to Germany

and singing at fancy places

wearing a fancy uniform.

I want to sing for people

who truly need my song.

She's Eun-ok. She's two years younger than you.

She doesn't have a mom.

So she listens to your song

and thinks of her mom in heaven.

She really can't talk?

No.

But this is a huge improvement.

She was like a real puppy not long ago.

She seems to like you

more than me.

She seems to like holding your hand

more than listening to your song.

Eun-ok.

Say, "Gyu-hyeon."

Gyu-hyeon.

Gyu...

hyeon...

Good. Good job, Eun-ok.

Dr. Park, can I have a minute?

Guardianship rights?

Yes, Eun-ok's aunt relinquished her guardianship rights.

The administration office called and asked

what we're going to do about Eun-ok.

Does that mean Eun-ok is now an orphan?

Yes.

What a horrible human being.

That's not good. That is very bad.

Are you okay?

Sorry?

I'm fine.

You know what I hate most, right?

Mistakes, excuses, and lies.

I never lied to you.

Your being here alone indicates a lie.

Seriously.

Can't you let it slide just once?

And if I do?

What if the others catch you like this?

How do you think I was after I lost

my first patient in surgery?

Probably as how I imagine it.

Calm, cold,

and rational.

You're right.

Because I thought death was a part of being a doctor.

But to be honest,

I couldn't eat for a week.

I don't know why.

And this is the first time I'm telling anyone about it.

You're eating well, right?

That's good. You're better than I was.

I won't tell you to overcome it.

Just don't be lost for too long.

Yes, sir. I'll heal my psyche quickly.

You will?

Then you lead Jeong-min's esophageal atresia surgery next week.

What?

Come on. You were being so nice.

Stop whining.

That will be your first official lead.

The past two were only fill-ins.

If you have a problem with it, become a professor.

I heard about her guardianship matter.

Let's think about it and come up with a plan.

If she ends up in an orphanage,

the kids will hate her because she can't talk or play with them.

Like me.

Do you really think everyone hates you?

I didn't know before,

but I think I understand what it means to get mad now.

It angers me that people hate me.

But I'm too stupid to express my anger.

Who's stupid?

Stop saying things like that.

Everyone hates you?

Head nurse Ms. Nam, Senior nurse Mr. Cho,

Dr. Han, In-hae and me.

What about us? Are we nobody?

They don't hate you because you're stupid.

You think everyone hates you, and that's why you're being stupid.

Nod more.

I'll try to stop the professor

from sending you to Diagnostics.

Although I can't promise anything.

Eat the beef kimbap.

I'll eat the vegetable kimbap.

Aren't you sick of kimbap yet?

To be honest, I've been sick of the seaweed wraps.

So why do you eat it every day?

I'm sick of it, but it's fun because it's triangular.

Eating the top feels like I'm eating a mountain peak.

You have such a special taste, don't you?

I know we have many talented people,

but how about we train Dr. Park Si-on in our hospital?

You know he has many shortcomings to become a surgeon.

Yes, I know.

Even if his autism improves,

the guardians will always be nervous about him.

So my idea is to make Dr. Park Si-on

the best diagnostics expert.

A pediatric diagnostics expert.

Oh, and I found out

that you had talked

to Diagnostics about Dr. Park as well.

I was impressed by your insight.

Dr. Park...

is very appealing.

A genius with Savant Syndrome

who overcomes autism and wants to become a surgeon.

How dramatic.

In Diagnostics, the patients won't be as nervous.

And no one would compare to his popularity.

The public will eat it up.

It may make international news.

You want to use him

as hospital PR?

Don't take it like that.

I didn't mean any offense.

Doctors aren't celebrities.

Professor, the world has changed.

Doctors also need branding.

Doing so

doesn't take away the fact that they heal people.

I'll pretend I didn't hear any of this.

Echo. Echocar. Echocar.

Perica... Pericardi.

Hetavizen.

Known to cause bile congestion, acute pancreatitis

bleeding if injected into children.

Drainage, drainage.

You know what?

The professor told me to take my first official lead.

He said the past two were only fill-ins.

Wow. Congratulations, Dr. Cha.

But I'm scared.

I thought I had overcome it...

You did overcome it.

You don't need to be afraid.

I can do it, right?

I'm sure you will.

I believe in you, too.

Thanks.

I... I... I didn't say anything.

But I know exactly what you were saying.

Wow, that's incredible.

I hope it goes well.

You have to be in the OR with me, okay?

If I get lost...

"There is a problem. You must hurry."

You have to do that, okay?

You really have a problem.

Let's get a sonogram taken.

Lift your shirt. Let me take a look.

No.

-I've already seen it all. -No.

What's that?

Isn't Eun-ok cute?

She is,

but I feel bad for her.

She can't talk,

and has no one by her side.

But I feel good for some reason

whenever I see her.

She's lonely and in pain,

but she always smiles for me.

So does your mom.

No, she doesn't.

She smiles only when I win something.

I don't even remember

when I last laughed.

Look at me.

I want to continue

hearing your songs.

They are so beautiful.

But do you know what I want to hear more?

Your laughter.

I don't know which would make you happier.

All I know is,

you must be healthy in order to laugh.

Your mom will be happy when she hears you laugh too.

Maybe even more

than when you sing.

Don't cry.

Everything will be all right.

SUNGWON FOUNDATION

Thank you for the information on the informant.

We have to get rid of them one by one.

Thank you, Mr. Chairman.

You're the one who leaked to the FDA about the Hetavizen, aren't you?

What?

What? This is outrageous...

These are your driver's call records for the past week.

There's a call to the FDA.

I confirmed that he reported us.

You should've had someone else do it.

Chae-gyeong, have you been investigating me?

We're keeping this quiet because of your relationship

with the founding chairman.

And if I won't keep quiet?

Do as you wish. There's no record of administering the drug at the hospital.

And to be frank, it was your brother-in-law's doing.

You have this all planned out.

I'll quit.

But you will regret this.

You'll see.

What?

This wouldn't have happened had you done as I said!

I'm sorry.

You look out for yourself now.

I don't care if you get fired or transferred!

-But-- -And...

don't ever come over again.

Hyeok-pil!

Si-on, come here.

Dress properly.

A messy collar makes you look goofy.

Thank you.

What do you mean, you won't leave?

Have you lost your mind?

I'm not leaving until I'm cured.

We have to prepare to leave the country next week.

-I won't go to Germany. -Why you...

And I'm going get a surgery.

What?

I won't be happy in Germany, either.

Even if I can't sing anymore, I want to be happy.

I want to go to school and make friends.

And eat what I want.

Quiet! This is all for your own good!

Please do as he wants.

Stay out of it.

Why won't you listen to him?

It's frustrating for him when you don't.

-Change. -No! I'm not going to Germany.

-Hurry up and change. -I'm not leaving!

I won't go to Germany! And I'm going to get the surgery!

Please leave him alone.

I'll make sure he can sing even after...

Never mind.

A doctor is not a religious figure.

You must not give ambiguous hope.

No.

You can't say things like that.

No.

We never approved his discharge.

She's causing a scene, but the kid's resisting.

Can't you please leave?

Do all the doctors here

always annoy people like this?

Do you know something?

I had a puppy when I was young.

Whenever it snowed a lot,

the puppy jumped around on the snow.

I thought he did that because he loved the snow.

But I was wrong.

He jumped around like that

because his feet were too cold.

Gyu-hyeon is like that puppy.

You think he sings because he enjoys it,

but he feels cold.

That's why he sings louder.

Children are good.

They do what they're told, even if they hate it.

But being forced to do something is really bad.

I hate it too.

But even if...

she makes me do something I hate,

I wish my mom were by my side.

Even if she makes me do something I hate.

Must you

break my heart like this?

I want to get surgery...

so that I don't break your heart.

I want to laugh.

Like in kindergarten,

when we went on the carousel together.

I want to laugh like that.

I don't hate you.

I just resented you a little

because you didn't know how I felt.

I'm sorry.

Why are you sorry?

-Doctor. -What?

Can you please operate on Gyu-hyeon?

I know Professor Kim Do-han is good,

but I think it would be better if you did it.

How would it be better?

I feel like

you'd protect his dream.

No, I have no power.

And the diagnosis is out already.

I would like to help.

If, just if, a situation arises,

I'd like to help.

Not just stand there, but help with surgery.

Are you sure about that?

I'd like to operate on Gyu-hyeon.

As my first official lead.

No one here, including myself, has done it before.

That's why I see no problem with it.

It's the first time for anyone.

I don't want to do it because it's new.

I want to try my best

to protect

Gyu-hyeon's dream.

I know you believe in me as much as you're worried.

So, please,

let me operate.

You're slow to decide today.

You're confident?

Yes, sir.

Gyu-hyeon's surgery isn't life-threatening.

But it's such a minute area,

that we won't know everything until we go in.

And another thing.

This surgery trades a child's talents for his health.

I don't usually consider

patient's personal situation when operating on them.

But this time, make sure the surgery is a source of comfort for him.

Understood, Dr. Cha?

Yes, sir.

And Dr. Kim,

please let Dr. Park Si-on be my first assistant.

No.

Can't the lead surgeon choose her first assistant?

Still, no.

I'll talk to him.

Didn't you hear me?

I did.

You're transferring anyway. Stay out of the OR.

This is my last dream as well.

This is my last chance too, just like Gyu-hyeon.

So I want to be with him.

I'll let you observe.

I want to participate, not observe.

What if you have an episode?

Then I will leave the OR immediately.

It's better not to go in at all.

Why can't you trust me?

You don't hate me for making mistakes.

You hate me in case I'll make mistakes.

I won't make mistakes. I swear I won't.

Keep that promise.

If you have an episode, you're out.

Thank you!

Yes!

Si-deok.

To be honest, I'm scared.

But I can do it, right?

You'll help me, right?

Doesn't it bother you?

How could she pick Si-on over you?

Not at all. I assisted her when I was a first year, too.

But you and Si-on are different.

You're right, we are.

Si-on may be better.

Let's set the record straight.

Hyeon-wu who got hurt at the station, Seong-ho,

and the preemie Dong-su.

Who saved all of them?

And who got Eun-ok to talk?

Answer me, Il-gyu.

Yes, Si-on is a troublemaker.

But because of that,

we all forgot that he saved the kids' lives.

No, we refused to acknowledge it.

We were too busy being offended

Hey, Dr. Park.

Yes?

Do you think you may think of a way

during surgery to let Gyu-hyeon continue to sing?

Yes.

I mean,

I think I may be able to.

Did you tell him?

-No. -Why not?

Because I wasn't sure.

You weren't like that with Seong-ho or Dong-su.

Professor Kim Do-han told me

not to give patients vague hope.

So I didn't tell him.

Watching you grow is my joy in life nowadays.

Here, have some of mine.

Thank you.

Eat up.

If we can find the fistula,

we may be able to save the nerve

by turning the thyroid cartilage counterclockwise.

Is that Gyu-hyeon's?

Why, you don't trust me?

No, I don't. So?

I'll do well, so that you don't scold me.

I'm off now.

Yun-seo.

Yes?

-Congratulations on your first lead. -Thank you.

Eun-ok.

Eun-ok, do what you learned earlier.

Good...

luck...

Gyu...

hyeon.

Eun-ok.

It's too hard for him to sing right now.

We have a special guest on our show today.

He's a patient in Pediatric Surgery. Kim Gyu-hyeon.

He's famous for having an angelic voice.

Our first song today will be sung live by Gyu-hyeon.

Mom, when I'm healthy after the surgery,

please do something for me.

Professor.

I'm not here to operate.

I'm just observing.

-Start. -Yes, sir.

-Retractor. -Retractor.

Forceps.

Bovie.

-Suction. -Suction.

We will remove the fistula now.

The infection is pretty extensive near the thyroid,

but we may not have to sever the thyroid.

Remove what you can see first.

Yes, sir.

Gyu-hyeon.

I'll make sure you don't lose your dream.

I'll make sure of it.

We're done removing the fistula.

Shall we do the ligation now?

Be careful. That's right in front of the cartilage.

You may sever the superior laryngeal nerve.

NERVE SUPPLYING THE LARYNX

Yes, sir. Mixter.

Wait.

What?

Gyu-hyeon...

will be able to sing.

We can save his dream.

Don't you think Si-on has changed?

"Dr. Kim Do-han of Pediatric Surgery will operate,"

is not what I said.

You're on call 24-hours starting tomorrow.

-Hey! -Congratulations!

The contours of the hidden areas...

Hey! What did you see?

-You don't know what? -I don't understand what that means.

How could you?

Worse is yet to come.

You don't want to tell her?

You have a beautiful heart.

You must do something if you want to be accepted. Surpass me.