Original subtitles

[dramatic music]

♪

- Oh, hallelujah. I got another fish.

- Short of an emergency,

I'm not leaving here until they come get me.

- Uh-oh. My whole gallon tub

of kidney fat is gone.

- The fox is running my trap lines.

Oh.

He's out there hunting my rabbits.

- Ow!

Ah.

There's blood everywhere.

♪

male narrator: In "Alone's" coldest location ever,

ten participants fight to survive the Arctic...

- The Arctic is one

of the most physically demanding places on Earth.

- So frickin' cold right now.

narrator: Battling subzero temperatures...

- This climate's harsh. It's extreme. It's mean.

It's got teeth.

- Get caught out here in a whiteout, you're in trouble.

narrator: Vicious predators...

- Just heard something big moving back there.

- It's me against a wolverine right now.

narrator: And isolation.

- There's nothing to fill that void.

It's just you left alone with your thoughts.

narrator: How long will they endure?

- House is on fire!

- I'm scared, but I don't want to tap.

- This is the most unforgiving landscape I've ever seen.

narrator: The last one standing wins.

- This environment will strip away

everything and anything you thought you had.

♪

- Med check tomorrow.

Victory, swift victory.

My wife is coming. I know it.

It seems like that's when they kind of have them show up

is on med-check days, you know what I mean?

'Cause they always ask them that same question,

you know, how far do you think--

you think you can still go the distance?

"Oh, yeah."

And then usually the significant other shows up,

and they get the good news and big emotional scene.

I cry.

But I'm gonna win this.

I'm outlasting everybody.

There's no way I'm [bleep] going home.

There's no quit in me, man. None.

Zip.

♪

Tomorrow's gonna be a great day,

but today I've got some work to do.

I need to go check my traps,

and if I've learned anything out here,

it's you don't go anywhere without your bow.

I feel my wife, you know?

I feel her love here.

I know it's close, real close.

Can't be too many of us left.

Hell, I may be the only one. I just don't even know it.

That's the crazy part right there.

My wife is coming.

Next [bleep] check, she's coming to get me.

♪

I am the winner...

of season six, "Alone."

♪

Look at this right here.

Look at those little guys. [chuckles]

Little squirrel.

♪

[animal chittering]

♪

[bow thunks]

How did that [bleep] miss him?

♪

Next one, I'm gonna put it

right through his [bleep] chest.

♪

[bow thunks]

[Bleep].

♪

I really thought that first shot had him.

I'll be honest-- it doesn't matter

because I've already won this.

♪

Tomorrow my wife comes around the corner--

beautiful, sparkling.

Just can't wait for her to be here

and wrap my arms around her.

Ain't that a wonderful thought, huh?

Everything works out for me.

♪

I am the winner of season six, "Alone."

♪

- [distorted voice] 85 kilograms.

36.9 degrees.

- How you feeling, by the way?

- Any other bruises?

[suspenseful music]

[engine idling]

- [exhales deeply]

[exhaling sharply]

I was hoping, I guess,

against common sense

that my wife was gonna be here.

But it didn't happen.

It's tough out here, man.

And I don't care how tough you are.

It can get to you.

♪

And I...

do all the best I can

with the emotional work.

But some days...

it's just a little harder than others.

[bird screeching]

♪

[voice breaking] I'm calling on my wife today.

I really need your strength today.

♪

[exhales sharply]

♪

I know why I'm here. I know why I have to be here.

I want to be here.

I just need your strength today.

I know...

[crying] I know we're 1,000 miles away,

but I need your strength today.

♪

I need you to tell me it's going to be okay.

[sniffling]

Ah... [sniffles]

I need to know that I'm doing good...

and it's gonna be enough.

[crying, exhales deeply]

♪

I'm so used to having you right here...

right here...

where I can wrap my arms around you.

[sniffles] I need to know I'm your hero.

♪

I need to know I'm your hero.

♪

- So, I'm gonna...

sharpen...

my knife on this rock.

[spits]

Wow.

Like, so...

I just spit on the rock, and it's frozen.

Like, it's absolutely frozen to ice already.

That's...

crazy.

Sucks, too, 'cause that was, like, the best spot,

right where all the spit's frozen.

♪

I feel like with getting food,

there's a little bit of a urgency.

Med checks are not a friendly thing

if you're too skinny.

They will pull me

if I get below a certain weight.

And I'm losing weight.

♪

Well, I'm just checking sets, and...

I so need a hare.

It's always in here. It's a weird place.

[gasps] Oh, my gosh. I got one.

My gosh.

I got one.

♪

You beautiful hare. I needed you so bad today.

♪

Thank you so much.

I'm just so grateful.

I have more time here.

This hare is...

It's gonna get me through.

♪

So I'm a bit concerned

about my mineral and vitamin intake.

I mean, I've been drinking teas and stuff, but...

like, where do you get your greens.

Like, where do you get your fiber?

I read that people would eat

the caribou stomach contents.

You're able to eat that material

because they regurgitate

and chew their cud,

and also hares do the same thing.

And so I'm going to try

eating the contents

of this hare's stomach.

And it absolutely is the grossest thing ever.

Like, I can't believe I'm even considering doing it

or about to,

but I'm gonna try it tonight and see what it's like.

♪

You know, there's something that happens in you

when you have a really great need.

It's like you can do things

that you never could do before.

Oh, my goodness. It's yellow and brown.

♪

I have this absolute faith in knowing

that I will be provided what I need.

So I'm trying to just eat everything,

and I don't want anything to go to waste.

♪

[sniffs] Oh, my gosh.

[sniffs] I can't believe it.

Okay, this is--this is gonna sound weird, but...

[sniffs] It smells really good.

♪

So here goes.

[gulps]

And it tastes just like that.

It tastes like a flowery woodland perfume soup.

Wow.

♪

Honestly, I can't believe I'm saying

that stomach contents of hare...

[chuckles] Actually smells like flowery woodland perfume

and tastes like it,

with a sharp-ish...

piney, sappy taste to it.

And it's really good.

[laughs]

I can't believe it.

♪

I don't mind a good salt-and-vinegar chip, though.

Oh, that would be nice right now, wouldn't it,

just some salt?

[dramatic music]

♪

- So I had my med check.

I hadn't really lost significant weight

since the last one, which is amazing,

'cause I haven't had very much to eat.

Definitely been a lot more discouraged

and having a harder time recently

since the fox and the poor trapping.

Okay, let's go and collect some rabbits.

What is this?

It looks like fox tracks.

Whoa.

Damn it.

I think I've got competition.

♪

I know that I just can only starve for so long.

♪

I never expected to be this hungry.

And that's an issue.

I'm going to go and check snares.

This whole fox situation,

it's definitely getting to me.

So I'm kind of in trouble.

♪

All right, I can see my rock still hanging.

And I can see my spring pole still bent.

So nothing in this area.

♪

Oh. Whoa. I got a squirrel.

♪

Wow.

Huh.

Well, that's great. That's food.

That is my first snared squirrel.

Oh, my goodness. It's not a rabbit.

I really wanted a rabbit.

But, oh, my God.

I got a squirrel.

The challenges of my snaring

mean that I'm constantly having to rethink,

re-strategize all the time.

♪

That gives me renewed hope about my trapping.

♪

- [distorted voice] 71 kilograms.

♪

- Well, we had our med check.

It was such a shock and a bit of a disappointment.

♪

When I first came out here,

my strategy was to do everything I could

to get as much food as I could,

and I've got hundreds of pounds of meat,

and I can't even live off of it.

♪

I think the moose is too lean a meat.

Mmm.

♪

Those cracklins are the best.

I can't believe you can just sit there

and eat tons of moose and starve to death.

It doesn't make any sense to me.

So I guess in order to open up

the potential of all that meat,

you got to have a backpack full of fat.

I'm looking to what could possibly be

a future source of fat for me.

I have very little options.

Fish have a sustainable amount of fat in them.

These lake trout are pretty oily.

♪

So...I'm gonna try to go catch some fish.

♪

So...

it's spinning, and it's spinning.

♪

Let's see...

♪

[reel whirring, water splashes]

♪

My time is running out.

I'm losing weight. I need my fat.

If this doesn't work,

I'm so screwed.

I'm never super down.

I'm just looking at the glass a little half empty.

But I'd say I'm a positive person,

so that's kind of a strange paradox,

but I guess the way I remain positive

is by expecting a negative outcome.

♪

Here we go.

♪

Oh, man.

Come, come out.

♪

[water splashes] Oh, no!

Dog gone it!

♪

[water lapping]

Man...

He just stole my lure that I made,

that was all nice.

My little eyelets

that came off of my lure that I found...

my last good hook-- J hook.

♪

[blows raspberry]

♪

I can't tell you how mad I am.

♪

I don't know what to do.

♪

I'm not starving yet, but...

will be soon.

♪

The fact that I was so close makes it that much tougher.

Like, "Dog gone it."

♪

Ah!

♪

If I was watching this in a movie,

I would think, "That is so unrealistic.

"That guy just killed a moose,

"and he's eating it, and he's dying of starvation.

That's dumb."

Hey, no, that's reality apparently.

♪

Apparently the way it is. [laughs]

If I would have known it was this absurd,

I would have just fished, I guess.

♪

So...

that's where my knowledge came short out here, guys.

♪

I thought you could live off of...

off of land mammals, but you can't.

I'm losing a pound a day, no matter what I do.

I have no plan...

no idea what to do.

♪

- I'm not interested in having dreadlocks,

so I cut my hair.

There it all is.

I thought it'd be, like, twice that much, but...

How did I do?

Not too bad for using a knife, eh?

♪

Next on the agenda is to go check...

the...gill net.

♪

My body's feeling it more. I can tell.

Now that I'm getting below my ideal body weight,

the hunger is different.

It's changed a little bit.

It's just there more, I guess.

Earlier, I was just kind of, like,

burning off the excess, and now I'm not.

♪

Yep.

Nothing in the gill net.

♪

Oh, there's a big lake trout.

I don't know, maybe two of 'em.

♪

♪

[thud]

[breathing heavily]

♪

[groans]

♪

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

[classical music]

♪

- [laughs] It's a lot harder to keep count

without a partner and without music.

Oh.

Mm.

Thank you, Sun, for being my partner in my solo waltz.

[smooches]

[dramatic music]

♪

No sign of rabbits around here since the fox,

but I'm not worrying about that now,

because today I have basically,

like, a ball of yarn,

a ball of rabbit yarn essentially.

And that ball is probably the size of a basketball.

I think I could make a rabbit scarf now.

♪

My entire life I've been obsessed with making things

from raw materials.

I've decided to take this opportunity

to finish my slingshot.

Check it out!

My squirrel-skin-covered knife sheath.

♪

A little harvest basket.

Boom. Ready to go.

♪

Super excited to work on this rabbit rope...

because this is the nicest day we've had in forever

and it could easily be another couple weeks

before we get a day like this,

so got to kind of seize the moment right now.

♪

One of the biggest things is that I'm here

representing women

and representing a different approach to survival--

one that includes femininity.

I've struggled so much with my relationship

with being a woman in my life.

Look at all of this furry, fluffy amazing-ness.

I'm just gonna wind back and forth

around these poles.

Spent my 20s really denying my own femininity

to show that I was, like, tough and capable

in a man's world.

And then my whole 30s looking at that

and repairing that relationship

and, finally, in my 40s

super being in my femininity

and myself as a woman

and feeling empowered in that

and like I don't have anything to prove.

Instead of tying a knot,

I'm going to use paracord and tie them together well.

♪

Women have the fortitude to survive very trying times.

And I'd like to show that to the world.

♪

Pretty exciting. Ah!

Check it out!

Beautiful, woven rabbit scarf.

And may it get longer and longer and become

a rabbit shawl and then a rabbit blanket.

Whoo-hoo!

♪

- [inhales deeply]

It's like I get drugged out here.

[inhales deeply]

Here I go again, passing out.

It's like every [bleep] intention of just getting up

and getting to work, and then it's like,

I just lay here thinking of what I'm gonna do.

[imitates snoring] Out cold again.

It's just this nice, toasty-warm bed, I think,

and, you know, like...

just lack of calories and...

[inhales sharply, groans softly]

Mm. Oh, [bleep].

So drained of all just resources.

Okay, I got to go.

I was sleeping again.

♪

I have to go check my traps

before that fox does.

He's got my rabbit, and there's nothing I can do

to get it back.

I know that that's not going to be the only animal

that that fox steals from me

because now that he knows my scent brought him food,

he's never gonna stop.

[sighs]

Tired already. Hardly started working.

I need to keep providing for myself.

My fear every night before going to bed

is that if I'm not performing well enough,

I'm going to have to go home.

This trap line's taking me

four times longer than it should have.

And I can't find my... trail that I use.

♪

I don't know what's going on with me.

♪

Oh, man, I'm gonna have to take a break...

'cause I am...

Like, my vision is going blurry.

Not only is my vision going blurry,

I'm having, like--

I can't find my snares.

I don't know exactly what's wrong with me.

I'm severely constipated. My stomach is rock hard.

Just multiple things coming at me all at once.

♪

I need to find my snares.

♪

[softly, eerily] My body's wasting away.

I'm hanging on by my fingernails,

and my fingernails are starting to rip out.

♪

And, no, that's not me being a wuss.

My heart is strong. My mind is stro--

Like, I'm in it.

♪

We can't go without food.

[water lapping]

Where the [bleep] did it go?

♪

Like I'm getting lost up here.

I can't find my trail.

♪

My stomach really hurts.

Oh.

Now here comes the chills, now.

♪

Yep.

Oh, boy. I can't do this.

♪

I'm turning in circles. I'm getting lost.

Sweat's pouring off of me. I'm nauseous.

I can't hardly see anything and focus on anything.

It's frustrating.

♪

[clatter] Whoa.

Whoa!

Oh.

♪

Ouch.

♪

Whew.

Hold on.

I'm safe now but barely.

[grunts]

Whew, that's how close I came-- diving into the water.

♪

[breathing deeply]

♪

[sniffs]

♪

All right, I got to put this camera away.

It's too dangerous.

♪

♪

My mom died when I was seven.

She had cancer.

I have gone through a lot of stuff.

And so I had developed this drive

where you can pull yourself up if you have the means.

So here I am, struggling.

And my body is coming unraveled

at the seams right now.

Wiping out out here, I hurt my tailbone.

Now comes to the point of the story

why we need to talk about it.

I haven't pooped in 14 days.

♪

I have a big, heavy weight there.

Dragging on my pelvic floor.

♪

[whimpers]

♪

[cries]

♪

But the thing is...

those ligaments that hold

that pelvic floor in place,

when I birthed Lars, I tore a couple of them.

I mean, it's not something that they can fix.

But if I tear...

you know, the other side of those ligaments

that I have left...

straining to have a bowl movement...

♪

I...

I probably can't carry a baby again.

♪

[sniffles]

And I don't want that option taken from me

for something like this.

♪

And maybe I'll be okay,

but today...

Today is not a good day, man.

♪

I never...

ever foresaw this being a problem.

♪

- I'm gonna try and get a good meal in me,

see how that affects my energy.

I just think that I'm not getting enough

salt and electrolytes in my diet out here.

So...

I got the soup reheated, re-boiled,

and it's simmering now.

But...

I only have food left

for dinner tonight,

and breakfast tomorrow is that soup.

So... [sniffs]

It'd be super nice

if I get something in the net today.

And, um...

hopefully I'm not as lightheaded as I was.

♪

Dizzy spells are a problem

because the single most important activity

I do out here is fish off of the edge of a rock

above 10 or 12 feet of water, and it's probably 33 degrees.

If I go down, I'm either gonna fall onto the rocks

or fall into the water or both.

And at the point where that would happen

is 30 or 40 yards

from a place where I can climb out of the water.

It's a deadly place to have a dizzy spell.

Just came to the gill net, and there is a fish in the net,

tangled something fierce in there.

I'm about to pull the net.

Definitely going to put my PFD on.

It's definitely sketchy to be down there.

♪

Got to get stable places to stand here

on this ice and stone.

♪

All right, I've got to be very careful

about walking around here.

♪

Oh, it's a pike! Northern pike!

Holy crap.

Wow.

Oh, neat-o.

I have never seen one of these with my own eyes before.

It's a big one.

Oh, wowee.

♪

It fills the entire screen from four feet away.

That's a sweet fish.

♪

Okay, everybody. So...

♪ Duh-duh-duh-duh

I got my first northern pike.

This thing is a monster.

I mean, these are the sea monster of the north.

Look at the mouth on this thing.

Look how big that is.

This fish is big enough to eat another big fish.

And the teeth inside of it are--

I don't know if you can see those or not.

I got to be careful cleaning it out, but--ow.

Damn it.

Look at that.

That's just how they work.

There we go. Damn.

I'm gonna clean it off and...

clean it up and fillet it.

♪

Here we go.

That gill net is everything right now.

I'm super grateful for it.

And until the ice thickens up,

it will continue to be everything.

- Tomorrow's breakfast will be more nutritious.

♪

Whoa.

was wondering if I wouldn't find

something interesting in this guy's belly.

And there is an entire fish in it.

[laughs]

Two fish.

It's going in the soup pot right now.

♪

Two for the price of one.

♪

♪

[Michelle whimpering]

[whimpering]

[gasps]

[sniffles, whimpering]

[breathing shakily]

[hyperventilating]

It just grips you.

It just rolls, man.

It's like you can't whim--

You just can't help it but whimper

like a [bleep] kicked dog, man.

I think it's just toxic buildup

in me from that waste.

I mean, I could die tonight.

I could go into, like, a shock.

Wouldn't even know what happened.

♪

At least my last wishes will be recorded.

♪

Funeral pyre.

♪

Just let the wild horses run through those ashes.

♪

Sprinkle 'em in a lake.

♪

And blow from the top of mountains.

♪

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust.

♪

Food and drinks and laughter

and music and love...

those would be my final wishes.

♪

- [cawing]

♪

I don't want to, guys.

[sobbing]

Oh, [bleep].

[continues sobbing]

♪

[continues sobbing]

[satellite phone beeping]

[sobs]

I'm--I'm gonna pull myself, um,

from the competition.

I've been pretty sick, and, uh...

I think you guys need to come and get me.

[sobbing]

♪

[sobbing]

♪

My mom died when she was 31 years old,

and I had to provide for myself,

and for the first time in my life,

I can't help myself.

And that is devastating to me.

♪

I pushed my body to its utmost limit.

♪

I need some medicine.

♪

Pretty sick.

I can't poop and, uh...

Fevered and chilled and...

Really weak.

Just--body gave out before my mind could.

That's all.

♪

You have all these self-doubts, like,

"Did I accomplish anything?

Was there a point of me coming?"

♪

There's about 50 different things

running through your head.

None of them good.

I didn't want to have to go home.

I still pushed myself days longer

than I probably should have.

I mean, the only thing keeping me here

is my pride and stubbornness.

♪

And that could risk my chance

of ever carrying a baby ever again.

♪

No amount of winning is worth that to me.

♪

- My fire went out last night.

Without a fire, I could die.

[stick snaps] Ah, [bleep].

- Dang, dang, dang.

All the fat is gone.

And I looked around, and there's wolverine tracks.

- It's the first time I've seen my body

while I've been out here.

Whoo! Look at my bicep.

- Holy [bleep]. My entire bay has frozen.

It's all ice.

♪