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[ominous music]
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♪
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- It's not in me
to push myself
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like I did in Patagonia.
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I can't allow my body
to deteriorate again.
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It is much more empowering
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to take myself out
of the picture.
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- I had an idea
to try and make a lure.
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Come on.
Oh, [bleep].
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My fishing game just took
a significant blow.
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- I need to get this
food situation under control.
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Without food,
I'm not gonna be able to last
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as long as Vancouver Island.
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- My bowels are still
not kicking anything out.
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If I don't have
a bowel movement,
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I won't get to win.
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I won't get to provide
for my family.
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[heavy breathing]
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♪
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male narrator: For the first
time ever on "Alone,"
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ten past participants return.
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♪
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They've come back
with one goal:
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redemption.
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- I deserve to be here,
and I'm back.
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- I want to win more this time
than I did last time.
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narrator:
Now a fresh hell awaits...
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- The cold is an incredibly
strong punch in the face.
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narrator: In the punishing
wilderness of Mongolia.
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- We're in the middle
of nowhere.
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- Mongolia's
a very unforgiving land.
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narrator: They must survive
in complete isolation,
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enduring as long as they can.
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- I'm just gonna push
and push and push
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until there's nothing left.
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narrator:
The last one standing wins.
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♪
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[tense music]
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♪
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- The water I boiled
last night...
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solid chunk of ice.
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I put it by the fire
and it thawed out enough
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to take a little sip.
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It's 30 outside.
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It could swing
60 degrees colder,
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be so cold my fire will freeze.
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♪
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It's, like, no-joke cold.
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Every time I lean,
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and it pulls all my clothes
tight against my back,
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I can feel that the cold
just seeps through every layer,
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me just sitting here like this.
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♪
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Been kind of sleepy today.
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♪
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I won't attribute it
to lack ofleep.
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I'll attribute it directly
to a low caloric intake.
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That's to be expected when
I'm eating as little as I am.
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I need all the protein
I can get.
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♪
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Let's make today
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the first fish I've ever caught
when it's snowing.
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♪
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Is the water higher today?
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♪
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I can't get the good angle
on that cove.
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Yesterday I could stand
over there.
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♪
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It's so high,
on the lip of my boot,
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I got to move back
and change the spot.
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I got to give myself a couple
inches from the top of my boot.
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♪
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See if I can get
further out there
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if I walk up the shoreline
and then walk in.
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♪
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Stupid precipitation is ruining
my fishing spot a little bit.
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♪
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Standing in a freezing river
in the middle of winter.
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My hands are cold.
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♪
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I don't know.
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It's not for them not biting.
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It's that I can't reach
where I know they are.
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That's enough.
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I can't reach the spots.
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♪
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That's frustrating.
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I'm still trying
to stay focused and driven,
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but it's just really hard.
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Every day it gets harder.
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Probably get used to this,
though.
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I could have a lot of days
like this in my future.
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♪
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- Peek-a-boo.
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Peek-a-boo.
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I could be doing a whole lot
of that right now
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with those kiddos at home.
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My little girl loves
peek-a-boo.
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♪
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I've been worried
about my bowel movements
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or lack thereof
so much
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that it could result
in me tapping out,
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because if I get
severe abdominal pain
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and I don't tap out,
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I could seriously ruin
my intestines,
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but a glorious thing happened,
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and my bowel issues
are resolved.
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Now it's back to business.
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♪
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It's just a very cold,
dreary place,
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and with all this, like,
cold around me,
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I, uh--I just decided today
to prioritize firewood.
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This place could snap
at any second,
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and I could be
in a world of hurt.
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♪
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See the little snow flurries
around.
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Definitely well, well,
well below freezing.
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I'm guessing, like,
15 right now, maybe.
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♪
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And it is not that late
in the year.
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Makes you wonder
how cold it's gonna be
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on day 50, 60, 70.
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♪
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[saw scraping]
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♪
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Well, looks like that's all
I got laying around camp.
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Got to go out
and find some more now.
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♪
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I've gone something
like a week
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without any protein
at this point.
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Like, I can feel the muscles
just wearing out
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as the days go by.
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I can feel my strength
giving way.
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♪
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If you haven't tapped into
a food source at this point,
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your odds of just magically
finding something is very low.
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♪
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I tried to catch fish
out here,
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and it wasn't working for me,
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so if I didn't have several
pounds of emergency rations
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still strapped to my frame
in the form of body fat,
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I'd probably have issues
with that.
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So a bit of my strategy
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is to look down at my belly
if I ever feel real hungry,
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see if I can pinch anything
down there,
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and if I've still got
something to pinch,
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that means there's still
a little bit of life
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left in me,
and I'm gonna keep going.
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♪
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[woodpecker tapping]
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- Good Lord,
that's a loud woodpecker.
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[tapping continues]
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God, I miss my family.
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[melancholy music]
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I'll see them here soon.
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I wish my daughter could see
some of the things I've seen.
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She'd have a blast too,
fishing,
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fishing with my own
fishing pole.
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I made that fishing pole.
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♪
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Just got to get my head right,
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get focused,
start doing some stuff.
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I'm gonna go looking around
for a nice piece of birch bark
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that I can harvest...
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That's a nice piece
right there.
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And just make
a pair of birch goggles,
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which makes it so you can
go out into a snowy,
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bright environment
without damaging your eyes.
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♪
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One eyeball is there.
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One eyeball is there.
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♪
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Kind of measure it like that.
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♪
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Just like that.
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♪
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They don't look too bad.
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I even got the nose part
pretty good.
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These are--you know,
you're not gonna have
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a great field of vision out
of these, but that's the point.
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It narrows down
your field of vision
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so the bright glare doesn't
come banging against your eyes
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and give you snow blindness,
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so the next time
it's sunny out,
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I got me a rocking pair of
shades, baby.
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You know you want a pair.
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Ay!
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[wind whistling]
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I just want to do stuff
with people, man.
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I want somebody to talk to.
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I want somebody
to interact with.
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♪
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It gets really lonely
just sharing the experiences
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just with yourself.
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I want to talk to somebody
and say,
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"Dude, did you hear
that elk call?
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"That's so cool.
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"Dude, did you hear the wolves?
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"That's so cool.
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"Do you see the mountain?
It's so beautiful.
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"Did you see the sunrise
this morning?
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It was beautiful."
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I want someone to share
those experiences with.
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This time I'm really
missing my family.
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♪
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[sighs]
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Where the [bleep]
has the time gone?
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[bleep], I was 18
20 minutes ago.
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Meeting my wife in high school.
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♪
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Running away.
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Them years
it was just me and her,
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not a damn care in the world,
man.
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Not a care in the world.
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God, we were fancy-free
and footloose, man.
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Moving down south
and having two kids.
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[voice breaking]
Cutting the cord on my baby boy
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and my baby girl,
cutting the cords,
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changing their diapers,
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bottle feeding them.
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♪
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My son joined the air force.
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He wanted to go see the world,
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and my daughter graduated.
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She went off to college,
and it was empty.
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It was really empty
in the house.
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♪
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It was really empty.
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♪
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[exhales sharply]
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♪
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[rain pattering]
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♪
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God almighty,
give me some [bleep] food.
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This is terrible.
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♪
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♪
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- I've been trying to think
of how to write a--
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like, a little love note
to my wife
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like how I did
on Vancouver Island,
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how I said, "I love Rachael."
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♪
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This is how I've been feeling
ever since I launched
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and especially today.
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I love you, Rachael.
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♪
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I don't know how else
to say it.
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♪
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Right when I got back from
Vancouver Island,
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I was a mess.
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That's what my wife said.
She said I was a hot mess.
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I didn't want to reintegrate
into society.
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I couldn't be
in crowded places anymore.
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It made me really twitchy.
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I had going to work again.
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Rachael, this one
really made me realize
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how much I miss you
and miss the family.
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I think I'm healed now.
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I think this healed me.
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[crying]
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♪
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Oh, I didn't even think
of that.
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I think this did heal me.
I think this trip healed me.
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♪
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I was such a mess
after Vancouver Island.
267
00:13:12,895 --> 00:13:15,967
♪
268
00:13:16,002 --> 00:13:17,693
I just didn't want life at all.
269
00:13:17,727 --> 00:13:19,833
I didn't want anything.
270
00:13:19,868 --> 00:13:23,319
Now I want it all.
271
00:13:23,354 --> 00:13:25,356
I want it back again.
272
00:13:25,390 --> 00:13:30,050
♪
273
00:13:30,085 --> 00:13:32,328
Since I've been here,
I've realized
274
00:13:32,363 --> 00:13:37,471
I truly deep down
need my family.
275
00:13:37,506 --> 00:13:39,853
It's not a superficial need.
276
00:13:39,888 --> 00:13:42,580
I need my family to survive,
277
00:13:42,614 --> 00:13:46,584
but I'm conflicted 'cause
I know I could stay longer,
278
00:13:46,618 --> 00:13:48,931
but it'd be torture
staying longer.
279
00:13:48,966 --> 00:13:52,383
I want to go home.
I miss my family.
280
00:13:52,417 --> 00:13:55,627
I miss the creature comforts
in life.
281
00:13:55,662 --> 00:13:56,628
I'm done.
282
00:13:56,663 --> 00:13:58,665
♪
283
00:13:58,699 --> 00:13:59,873
[device beeps]
284
00:13:59,908 --> 00:14:01,461
♪
285
00:14:01,495 --> 00:14:02,842
Hello, this is Larry.
286
00:14:02,876 --> 00:14:05,292
I'm ready for you guys
to come get me, man.
287
00:14:05,327 --> 00:14:12,368
♪
288
00:14:22,620 --> 00:14:24,553
Mongolia kind of slapped me
upside the head and said,
289
00:14:24,587 --> 00:14:27,694
"Listen, you little moron.
You got a good job.
290
00:14:27,728 --> 00:14:30,870
"You got an awesome wife.
You got fantastic kids.
291
00:14:30,904 --> 00:14:33,665
Just stop moping around
and enjoy life."
292
00:14:33,700 --> 00:14:36,841
I have just enjoyed
the experience
293
00:14:36,876 --> 00:14:39,430
so much more than I did
on Vancouver Island,
294
00:14:39,464 --> 00:14:41,915
and now I'm ready to go home,
295
00:14:41,950 --> 00:14:43,744
and I've got fantastic people
in my life
296
00:14:43,779 --> 00:14:45,263
that I want to keep close to,
297
00:14:45,298 --> 00:14:47,403
and I don't want to leave them
ever again,
298
00:14:47,438 --> 00:14:49,854
and that's what I learned
out here.
299
00:14:49,889 --> 00:14:53,444
♪
300
00:14:53,478 --> 00:14:57,172
I'm gonna remember
what it's like to starve.
301
00:14:57,206 --> 00:14:58,518
I'm gonna remember
what it's like
302
00:14:58,552 --> 00:15:00,209
to not be able to talk
to your friends
303
00:15:00,244 --> 00:15:02,039
or talk to your wife,
304
00:15:02,073 --> 00:15:06,215
but I'm also gonna remember
the blue sky,
305
00:15:06,250 --> 00:15:09,667
the ice crystals on the trees.
306
00:15:09,701 --> 00:15:11,911
I'm gonna remember
my fishing pole
307
00:15:11,945 --> 00:15:15,466
and how I caught a lot of fish
on that.
308
00:15:15,500 --> 00:15:18,020
I've gotten everything out
of this experience I can get.
309
00:15:18,055 --> 00:15:20,712
I had the most pleasure,
the most discomfort
310
00:15:20,747 --> 00:15:23,508
that helped teach myself
these lessons.
311
00:15:23,543 --> 00:15:27,857
Vancouver Island broke me down
to just a shell of a person.
312
00:15:27,892 --> 00:15:31,792
This time I am leaving
on my own terms.
313
00:15:31,827 --> 00:15:33,863
It's okay to know
your limitations.
314
00:15:33,898 --> 00:15:36,107
And it's okay,
I don't have to push myself
315
00:15:36,142 --> 00:15:38,006
as hard as I pushed myself
my entire life.
316
00:15:38,040 --> 00:15:39,386
I'm starting to realize that.
317
00:15:39,421 --> 00:15:46,462
♪
318
00:16:09,451 --> 00:16:12,419
[wind whistling]
319
00:16:12,454 --> 00:16:14,249
♪
320
00:16:14,283 --> 00:16:15,975
- Test, test.
321
00:16:18,287 --> 00:16:22,533
Look. I'm totally not
dressed for this yet.
322
00:16:22,567 --> 00:16:24,017
[laughs]
323
00:16:24,052 --> 00:16:25,708
But look at this.
324
00:16:28,159 --> 00:16:31,197
It snowed, like...
325
00:16:31,231 --> 00:16:33,958
like, 5 inches of snow,
326
00:16:33,993 --> 00:16:36,443
and you know when it's like--
when it's snow outside,
327
00:16:36,478 --> 00:16:38,963
and it's kind of insulated,
so you're not cold,
328
00:16:38,998 --> 00:16:41,103
you don't feel the cold 'cause
it's, like--I don't know.
329
00:16:41,138 --> 00:16:43,623
Maybe I'm just pumped up,
but look at this.
330
00:16:45,763 --> 00:16:47,696
Look at this.
[laughs]
331
00:16:50,699 --> 00:16:52,873
This is awesome.
332
00:16:54,875 --> 00:16:57,878
Mongolia, this is
what I was waiting for.
333
00:16:59,328 --> 00:17:01,779
This is what I was waiting for,
Mongolia.
334
00:17:01,813 --> 00:17:04,782
[humming a circus tune]
335
00:17:04,816 --> 00:17:11,202
♪
336
00:17:11,237 --> 00:17:12,997
I definitely need
to get my fire lit
337
00:17:13,032 --> 00:17:16,035
because I need to get the snow
off the top of my shelter.
338
00:17:16,069 --> 00:17:18,278
If it becomes too heavy
for my structure to hold,
339
00:17:18,313 --> 00:17:20,246
it can totally cave in,
340
00:17:20,280 --> 00:17:22,558
at which point
I don't know if I can recover
341
00:17:22,593 --> 00:17:25,941
from something
as catastrophic as that.
342
00:17:25,975 --> 00:17:29,772
So I am incredibly glad
that a while back
343
00:17:29,807 --> 00:17:32,775
I changed out my birch rafters
344
00:17:32,810 --> 00:17:34,467
and put in these
stick pine ones
345
00:17:34,501 --> 00:17:36,883
because there's a lot
of snow on the roof.
346
00:17:36,917 --> 00:17:39,575
At least it's evenly dispersed,
347
00:17:39,610 --> 00:17:41,060
so I'll keep a nice, warm fire,
348
00:17:41,094 --> 00:17:44,511
get all the snow melted
off my roof,
349
00:17:44,546 --> 00:17:47,963
and, uh, yeah,
it'll be good.
350
00:17:47,997 --> 00:17:51,449
I hear a drip, which is good.
It's melting.
351
00:17:51,484 --> 00:17:56,696
♪
352
00:17:56,730 --> 00:17:59,078
I've got to get firewood.
353
00:17:59,112 --> 00:18:04,600
♪
354
00:18:04,635 --> 00:18:06,775
If it goes from here
and gets colder,
355
00:18:06,809 --> 00:18:11,020
it becomes a game of who can
endure the cold the longest.
356
00:18:11,055 --> 00:18:14,507
It becomes very difficult to
try and maintain body warmth.
357
00:18:14,541 --> 00:18:16,509
♪
358
00:18:16,543 --> 00:18:20,306
I've been jumping over several
hurdles at the same time,
359
00:18:20,340 --> 00:18:21,962
you know, and I can clear
the cold hurdle,
360
00:18:21,997 --> 00:18:23,447
and I can clear
the alone hurdle,
361
00:18:23,481 --> 00:18:25,311
and I can clear
the food hurdle,
362
00:18:25,345 --> 00:18:28,037
but each of the hurdles are
getting a little bit higher.
363
00:18:28,072 --> 00:18:29,625
The alone one snags my foot
364
00:18:29,660 --> 00:18:31,731
every once in a while
and makes me stammer,
365
00:18:31,765 --> 00:18:33,560
and the food one
does the same thing,
366
00:18:33,595 --> 00:18:35,700
so each time
I'm trying to jump,
367
00:18:35,735 --> 00:18:38,634
it just snags me
a little bit more.
368
00:18:38,669 --> 00:18:42,742
Whew, the snow is deep,
369
00:18:42,776 --> 00:18:45,020
and the drag on the sled
doesn't help.
370
00:18:45,054 --> 00:18:48,057
Look at me taking a rest,
and I only walked 50 feet.
371
00:18:48,989 --> 00:18:50,405
♪
372
00:18:50,439 --> 00:18:53,304
Look how good
this snow is, though.
373
00:18:53,339 --> 00:18:56,100
Oh, wow.
Look at that.
374
00:18:56,135 --> 00:18:57,860
I just--look right down.
375
00:18:57,895 --> 00:19:01,623
I mean, there's literally
tracks everywhere.
376
00:19:01,657 --> 00:19:05,385
And now I can see where
some of the animals do it.
377
00:19:05,420 --> 00:19:06,593
They're out here walking
all the time.
378
00:19:06,628 --> 00:19:09,148
I mean,
I hear them howling, and...
379
00:19:09,182 --> 00:19:10,804
♪
380
00:19:10,839 --> 00:19:13,082
And oh!
381
00:19:13,117 --> 00:19:18,157
Well, they came over here
and dug up all this.
382
00:19:18,191 --> 00:19:20,124
Boar?
383
00:19:20,159 --> 00:19:22,333
Bear?
384
00:19:22,368 --> 00:19:23,541
Crazy.
385
00:19:23,576 --> 00:19:26,130
♪
386
00:19:26,165 --> 00:19:27,545
Look at this.
387
00:19:27,580 --> 00:19:31,860
Damn near whole hill
is overturned.
388
00:19:31,894 --> 00:19:34,207
I mean, that's a--
that's 10 feet across.
389
00:19:34,242 --> 00:19:37,245
Oh, man.
390
00:19:37,279 --> 00:19:39,902
Size 14,
391
00:19:39,937 --> 00:19:42,560
and I'm just trying to imagine
392
00:19:42,595 --> 00:19:46,461
the size and the strength
of the animal
393
00:19:46,495 --> 00:19:50,016
that could be doing this
through the snow,
394
00:19:50,050 --> 00:19:52,915
through the rock,
through the sand.
395
00:19:52,950 --> 00:19:54,365
Big hoof tracks.
396
00:19:54,400 --> 00:19:57,092
They are everywhere
out here at night,
397
00:19:57,126 --> 00:20:01,096
and they are extremely close
to my shelter.
398
00:20:01,130 --> 00:20:03,581
♪
399
00:20:06,860 --> 00:20:09,829
[dramatic music]
400
00:20:09,863 --> 00:20:16,905
♪
401
00:20:28,468 --> 00:20:30,953
Tapped into a new
food resource.
402
00:20:30,988 --> 00:20:32,783
Um...
403
00:20:34,819 --> 00:20:36,925
This is, like,
the hidden gem of Mongolia.
404
00:20:36,959 --> 00:20:40,308
So Mongolia actually has
405
00:20:40,342 --> 00:20:42,448
virtually unlimited snow cones,
406
00:20:42,482 --> 00:20:45,244
and it's free
in more than just one way.
407
00:20:47,556 --> 00:20:50,214
There's no carbohydrates.
There's no calories.
408
00:20:50,249 --> 00:20:53,424
You know, it's protein-free,
vitamin-free.
409
00:20:53,459 --> 00:20:55,702
It's--it's free.
410
00:20:55,737 --> 00:20:57,670
♪
411
00:20:57,704 --> 00:20:59,775
Just got to remember
not to eat the lemon ones.
412
00:20:59,810 --> 00:21:02,295
♪
413
00:21:02,330 --> 00:21:05,056
I can't be timid around snow.
414
00:21:05,091 --> 00:21:09,509
I can be actively trapping.
415
00:21:09,544 --> 00:21:12,650
You can really start
to unwind the story
416
00:21:12,685 --> 00:21:15,826
that the animals are telling
all through their tracks,
417
00:21:15,860 --> 00:21:18,587
so the snow is
such a game-changer.
418
00:21:18,622 --> 00:21:25,663
♪
419
00:21:26,354 --> 00:21:28,356
So these tracks right here
420
00:21:28,390 --> 00:21:32,981
are singing a little bit
of rabbit to me,
421
00:21:33,015 --> 00:21:37,123
but I'm also seeing scat
and urination spots.
422
00:21:37,157 --> 00:21:38,297
Those are all really good signs
423
00:21:38,331 --> 00:21:41,023
that we've got some
animal activity.
424
00:21:41,058 --> 00:21:42,749
Pretty good area to put a trap,
425
00:21:42,784 --> 00:21:45,442
so I'm gonna look for
basically an area
426
00:21:45,476 --> 00:21:47,961
with two trees
that are close enough together
427
00:21:47,996 --> 00:21:51,896
that I can anchor an Athabascan
deadfall trap to.
428
00:21:51,931 --> 00:21:53,519
♪
429
00:21:53,553 --> 00:21:57,971
So the Athabascan
deadfall trap
430
00:21:58,006 --> 00:22:02,493
can be as heavy
as you want it to be.
431
00:22:02,528 --> 00:22:04,771
We want an instant kill trap,
432
00:22:04,806 --> 00:22:08,396
so we need a lot of weight
holding it down.
433
00:22:08,430 --> 00:22:10,743
That's nice and strong now.
434
00:22:10,777 --> 00:22:13,746
So it's all anchored
off of this.
435
00:22:13,780 --> 00:22:17,301
You need approximately
six times the body weight
436
00:22:17,336 --> 00:22:22,133
of the animal in order
to make an effective kill.
437
00:22:22,168 --> 00:22:24,550
As far as critters that
we're going after with this,
438
00:22:24,584 --> 00:22:30,383
it's really anything
in the 5- to 20-pound range.
439
00:22:30,418 --> 00:22:32,730
The animal steps right here.
440
00:22:32,765 --> 00:22:34,767
Those are gonna push down
that trigger stick,
441
00:22:34,801 --> 00:22:37,286
and it's gonna trigger it.
442
00:22:37,321 --> 00:22:38,598
Whatever animal is there
is gonna get
443
00:22:38,633 --> 00:22:43,189
a 200-pound log
right down on its back.
444
00:22:43,223 --> 00:22:45,916
I think it's set up
pretty good.
445
00:22:45,950 --> 00:22:48,401
Well, we'll check her
from time to time,
446
00:22:48,436 --> 00:22:50,783
once every 24 hours,
447
00:22:50,817 --> 00:22:54,165
and I'm just hoping
it'll catch me something.
448
00:22:54,200 --> 00:22:55,891
It's just the most
frustrating thing,
449
00:22:55,926 --> 00:22:58,825
because no matter
how hard I try,
450
00:22:58,860 --> 00:23:01,725
the mental demons
definitely sneak in there,
451
00:23:01,759 --> 00:23:05,176
and they tell you, "Hey,
there's other folks out here.
452
00:23:05,211 --> 00:23:08,110
They're doing a lot better
than you,"
453
00:23:08,145 --> 00:23:12,701
and that is a very,
very dark feeling.
454
00:23:12,736 --> 00:23:19,777
♪
455
00:23:28,199 --> 00:23:30,754
- There's a lot more activity
456
00:23:30,788 --> 00:23:34,378
right around my camp at night
than I realized.
457
00:23:34,413 --> 00:23:37,864
All right,
so after seeing those tracks...
458
00:23:40,039 --> 00:23:43,076
I reset my spring snare
with fresh birch.
459
00:23:43,111 --> 00:23:45,596
The hope is
that the animal comes in,
460
00:23:45,631 --> 00:23:47,564
tugs on the bait.
461
00:23:47,598 --> 00:23:50,670
It'll release that toggle,
pulling that up,
462
00:23:50,705 --> 00:23:53,224
and the loop underneath
the animal will cinch tight,
463
00:23:53,259 --> 00:23:54,985
and it'll go up with it.
464
00:23:55,019 --> 00:23:57,159
Hopefully this'll bring
something.
465
00:23:57,194 --> 00:23:59,817
I'd love to get some meat
on my plate.
466
00:23:59,852 --> 00:24:06,962
♪
467
00:24:08,688 --> 00:24:10,449
I love the snow.
468
00:24:10,483 --> 00:24:12,105
♪
469
00:24:12,140 --> 00:24:14,107
It's definitely turning me
into a bit of a kid.
470
00:24:14,142 --> 00:24:17,110
I just wish I had my kid here
to play with me in it.
471
00:24:17,145 --> 00:24:19,388
♪
472
00:24:19,423 --> 00:24:20,873
I'm really missing my family.
473
00:24:20,907 --> 00:24:23,462
I still think
about them constantly,
474
00:24:23,496 --> 00:24:26,188
talk about them,
talk to them.
475
00:24:26,223 --> 00:24:29,951
My family is my drive
out here.
476
00:24:29,985 --> 00:24:31,953
That's all
that's keeping me going.
477
00:24:31,987 --> 00:24:34,300
♪
478
00:24:34,334 --> 00:24:37,855
If I was here for myself,
I wouldn't be here anymore.
479
00:24:37,890 --> 00:24:44,931
♪
480
00:24:46,588 --> 00:24:49,315
But it's hard to keep,
you know, upbeat
481
00:24:49,349 --> 00:24:51,973
going through this
day in and day out,
482
00:24:52,007 --> 00:24:53,595
the whole monotony of it all,
483
00:24:53,630 --> 00:24:55,908
you know, never knowing
when it's gonna be over.
484
00:24:55,942 --> 00:24:57,461
♪
485
00:24:57,496 --> 00:24:59,532
Every day gets harder.
486
00:24:59,567 --> 00:25:03,122
♪
487
00:25:03,156 --> 00:25:05,400
[exhales]
488
00:25:05,434 --> 00:25:07,471
Boy, that was cold.
489
00:25:07,506 --> 00:25:09,162
But it's not about myself.
490
00:25:09,197 --> 00:25:11,717
It's about my family's
well-being.
491
00:25:11,751 --> 00:25:13,201
I'm here to win the money.
492
00:25:13,235 --> 00:25:15,548
I want to be the last one
to be pulled out.
493
00:25:15,583 --> 00:25:18,551
♪
494
00:25:21,830 --> 00:25:28,872
♪
495
00:25:40,331 --> 00:25:43,714
- So last night
it clicked in my head
496
00:25:43,749 --> 00:25:46,268
that it's game on again
for me.
497
00:25:46,303 --> 00:25:50,825
Like, I will be staying
for the long haul.
498
00:25:50,859 --> 00:25:56,382
Just put right back
in my mind the necessity
499
00:25:56,416 --> 00:25:59,385
in my particular world
500
00:25:59,419 --> 00:26:01,076
to be a provider.
501
00:26:01,111 --> 00:26:02,561
♪
502
00:26:02,595 --> 00:26:06,703
As a man, as a husband,
as a father,
503
00:26:06,737 --> 00:26:10,327
being a provider is the
number one priority for me,
504
00:26:10,361 --> 00:26:12,985
and I'm gonna keep going
till they come get me,
505
00:26:13,019 --> 00:26:15,608
basically, and say,
"Hey, buddy, you won."
506
00:26:15,643 --> 00:26:17,541
If I can win this cashola...
507
00:26:17,576 --> 00:26:20,026
♪
508
00:26:20,061 --> 00:26:23,167
I'd say I've done
a pretty good job at providing,
509
00:26:23,202 --> 00:26:25,273
for the time being at least.
510
00:26:26,654 --> 00:26:33,661
♪
511
00:26:44,603 --> 00:26:46,397
- I've said it before.
512
00:26:46,432 --> 00:26:48,296
If I didn't have my family
at home,
513
00:26:48,330 --> 00:26:52,093
there is no way
I'd still be here.
514
00:26:52,127 --> 00:26:55,924
They are, right now,
just the sole driving force
515
00:26:55,959 --> 00:26:58,133
behind everything
that I'm doing.
516
00:27:02,137 --> 00:27:05,520
I keep thinking of all the
things I want to do for them,
517
00:27:05,554 --> 00:27:07,764
how much stuff they deserve.
518
00:27:07,798 --> 00:27:09,938
I mean, it'd be a tremendous
boost financially
519
00:27:09,973 --> 00:27:11,940
to be the last person standing.
520
00:27:13,493 --> 00:27:17,187
Long as I have them,
I can keep going.
521
00:27:17,221 --> 00:27:24,263
♪
522
00:27:34,929 --> 00:27:37,759
- There's really not
a whole lot of success
523
00:27:37,794 --> 00:27:39,727
in any of the traps
that I've set.
524
00:27:39,761 --> 00:27:42,212
♪
525
00:27:42,246 --> 00:27:44,283
I'm starving.
526
00:27:44,317 --> 00:27:46,250
Oh, my goodness,
am I starving.
527
00:27:46,285 --> 00:27:47,976
♪
528
00:27:48,011 --> 00:27:50,151
Like, I feel it now.
529
00:27:50,185 --> 00:27:54,811
I just feel it burning
inside of me that I'm hungry.
530
00:27:54,845 --> 00:27:57,054
The fact
that I haven't had protein,
531
00:27:57,089 --> 00:27:58,884
my muscles are giving in.
532
00:27:58,918 --> 00:28:00,851
It's a bad deal.
533
00:28:00,886 --> 00:28:06,961
♪
534
00:28:06,995 --> 00:28:08,790
- The weird thing
about starvation,
535
00:28:08,825 --> 00:28:10,965
you're not even really
that hungry.
536
00:28:10,999 --> 00:28:12,587
♪
537
00:28:12,621 --> 00:28:15,072
I don't know if my brain
just knows I can't get it,
538
00:28:15,107 --> 00:28:18,524
and my body has just
adjusted to me not getting it,
539
00:28:18,558 --> 00:28:20,422
and what's disturbing
about that
540
00:28:20,457 --> 00:28:25,738
is that's because my body
is just consuming itself,
541
00:28:25,773 --> 00:28:29,121
but if my body can take it
and my brain can take it...
542
00:28:29,155 --> 00:28:30,467
It's just so hard to imagine
543
00:28:30,501 --> 00:28:33,021
fish biting on a day
like this.
544
00:28:33,056 --> 00:28:35,644
This is--this is foolish.
545
00:28:35,679 --> 00:28:41,443
♪
546
00:28:41,478 --> 00:28:43,583
- It is getting freezing cold,
547
00:28:43,618 --> 00:28:47,967
like, ridiculously,
ridiculously cold.
548
00:28:48,002 --> 00:28:50,763
I can either adjust to it
or tap out,
549
00:28:50,798 --> 00:28:53,317
and I'm not tapping out.
550
00:28:53,352 --> 00:28:56,010
- I've been in bed
for over 17 hours,
551
00:28:56,044 --> 00:28:59,082
and if you knew how cold
it was, you'd understand why.
552
00:28:59,116 --> 00:29:00,566
It's getting to be
where all I want to do
553
00:29:00,600 --> 00:29:02,810
is stay warm, stay still.
554
00:29:02,844 --> 00:29:04,743
♪
555
00:29:04,777 --> 00:29:08,988
- Obtaining food in this
environment is not something
556
00:29:09,023 --> 00:29:11,577
that I'm really capable of
right now.
557
00:29:11,611 --> 00:29:15,684
How long will I be able to go
without any food?
558
00:29:15,719 --> 00:29:21,690
♪
559
00:29:21,725 --> 00:29:23,762
- I didn't even open my door
yesterday.
560
00:29:23,796 --> 00:29:25,487
I stayed in here all day.
561
00:29:25,522 --> 00:29:28,042
Don't let the sound of my voice
and what I'm saying
562
00:29:28,076 --> 00:29:30,976
make you think that I'm leaving
563
00:29:31,010 --> 00:29:34,082
or going anywhere,
'cause I'm not.
564
00:29:34,117 --> 00:29:37,396
I just--just don't have
motivation to do anything.
565
00:29:37,430 --> 00:29:41,296
♪
566
00:29:41,331 --> 00:29:43,091
- I miss my family.
567
00:29:43,126 --> 00:29:45,922
I want to be home, but I just
got to keep telling myself,
568
00:29:45,956 --> 00:29:47,647
"It's not your time to go yet.
569
00:29:47,682 --> 00:29:49,926
It's not time."
570
00:29:49,960 --> 00:29:51,859
- Definitely lonely today.
571
00:29:51,893 --> 00:29:53,619
I want my family's
companionship
572
00:29:53,653 --> 00:29:55,621
more than I want food.
573
00:29:55,655 --> 00:29:58,313
I hope they realize
I'm doing this all for them.
574
00:29:58,348 --> 00:30:00,833
♪
575
00:30:00,868 --> 00:30:03,594
- Physically, I am exhausted.
576
00:30:03,629 --> 00:30:06,459
You've done everything
you wanted to do out here.
577
00:30:06,494 --> 00:30:10,843
You've tried everything
in your mind to get food
578
00:30:10,878 --> 00:30:13,259
and mostly failed.
579
00:30:13,294 --> 00:30:15,365
- I made it outside.
580
00:30:15,399 --> 00:30:17,712
First time I've been outside
in four days,
581
00:30:17,746 --> 00:30:20,784
first time I've put
my pants on in three,
582
00:30:20,819 --> 00:30:22,544
but I'm still motivated.
583
00:30:22,579 --> 00:30:23,925
I'm still here
for a purpose
584
00:30:23,960 --> 00:30:25,720
and I still have fight left
in me.
585
00:30:25,754 --> 00:30:32,002
♪
586
00:30:32,037 --> 00:30:36,627
- At this point I'm not sure
how long I can go like this,
587
00:30:36,662 --> 00:30:38,871
and I'll have to tell my wife,
my kids.
588
00:30:38,906 --> 00:30:40,286
♪
589
00:30:40,321 --> 00:30:42,461
I'll go,
"Daddy tried his best."
590
00:30:42,495 --> 00:30:44,877
♪
591
00:30:44,912 --> 00:30:46,810
"Couldn't do it."
592
00:30:46,845 --> 00:30:48,467
♪
593
00:30:48,501 --> 00:30:50,607
- I'm sorry and I'm not sorry,
594
00:30:50,641 --> 00:30:52,436
but the remainder
of the footage
595
00:30:52,471 --> 00:30:54,749
will probably look a lot
like this.
596
00:30:54,783 --> 00:30:58,891
20-hour days of me laying here
are becoming common.
597
00:30:58,926 --> 00:31:01,376
As much as I'm trying
to keep my family in mind
598
00:31:01,411 --> 00:31:02,861
and do it for them,
599
00:31:02,895 --> 00:31:04,379
I'm starting to have thoughts
in my brain
600
00:31:04,414 --> 00:31:06,865
that if my wife could seme
right now,
601
00:31:06,899 --> 00:31:08,107
it would bring her to tears,
602
00:31:08,142 --> 00:31:10,109
and she would beg me
to come home.
603
00:31:10,144 --> 00:31:13,112
[wind whistling]
604
00:31:13,147 --> 00:31:20,188
♪
605
00:31:24,089 --> 00:31:27,057
[device beeping]
606
00:31:27,092 --> 00:31:34,133
♪
607
00:32:00,849 --> 00:32:02,610
- Hi.
608
00:32:02,644 --> 00:32:05,164
- How you doing?
609
00:32:05,199 --> 00:32:07,960
- Uh...
610
00:32:07,995 --> 00:32:10,342
I've been better.
611
00:32:10,376 --> 00:32:12,931
I'm all right.
I'm just--I'm just beaten down.
612
00:32:12,965 --> 00:32:16,451
I've--I've run all the tread
off of my tires,
613
00:32:16,486 --> 00:32:20,041
and I'm sitting in there
looking at my shelter,
614
00:32:20,076 --> 00:32:23,527
and I can't--I can't lay in
there another night by myself
615
00:32:23,562 --> 00:32:27,497
and be freezing and hungry
and by myself and...
616
00:32:27,531 --> 00:32:29,948
I just couldn't do it anymore.
617
00:32:33,330 --> 00:32:36,678
I mean, I may have hit my
limit about a week or so ago,
618
00:32:36,713 --> 00:32:38,715
but I just kept trying
to dig in
619
00:32:38,749 --> 00:32:41,097
and think about
the goals I was here for,
620
00:32:41,131 --> 00:32:43,651
and today I sunk to the low
I just didn't think
621
00:32:43,685 --> 00:32:46,861
I could pull myself
back out of this time,
622
00:32:46,895 --> 00:32:50,175
and I know what I really,
really need is waiting for me
623
00:32:50,209 --> 00:32:52,073
on the other side of the world,
624
00:32:52,108 --> 00:32:54,696
and I just really want
to get back to that.
625
00:32:54,731 --> 00:32:56,733
♪
626
00:32:56,767 --> 00:32:59,011
This is not how I saw myself
leaving,
627
00:32:59,046 --> 00:33:02,635
but I'm not hanging my head
about anything.
628
00:33:02,670 --> 00:33:04,637
I battled myself through
way further
629
00:33:04,672 --> 00:33:07,330
than anybody thought I could.
630
00:33:07,364 --> 00:33:10,091
I'm definitely not
the prototypical survivalist.
631
00:33:10,126 --> 00:33:11,782
I'm that dude that sits
over in accounting
632
00:33:11,817 --> 00:33:14,095
and does the spreadsheets.
633
00:33:14,130 --> 00:33:18,272
I'm not the guy that goes out
in the wilderness for 56 days.
634
00:33:18,306 --> 00:33:21,689
I achieved a great deal,
and I'm really proud of it.
635
00:33:21,723 --> 00:33:23,691
♪
636
00:33:23,725 --> 00:33:26,383
The hardest thing
about this experience was,
637
00:33:26,418 --> 00:33:28,627
it's definitely
a battle of the mind.
638
00:33:28,661 --> 00:33:30,387
I spent a whole lot of time
in Patagonia
639
00:33:30,422 --> 00:33:32,872
breaking down interior walls.
640
00:33:32,907 --> 00:33:35,806
That's the reason that
I got out of there quickly.
641
00:33:35,841 --> 00:33:38,706
Mongolia enhanced
the way I was when I came,
642
00:33:38,740 --> 00:33:41,536
so when I came here now,
I felt a lot more open.
643
00:33:41,571 --> 00:33:43,366
I was a lot more open
in speaking.
644
00:33:43,400 --> 00:33:45,299
I was a lot more open
in my feelings,
645
00:33:45,333 --> 00:33:48,060
and in the end, where I look
at where I ended up,
646
00:33:48,095 --> 00:33:50,028
I'm extremely happy.
647
00:33:50,062 --> 00:33:52,030
I feel cleansed and new
and open
648
00:33:52,064 --> 00:33:53,410
and ready to go back
to my family
649
00:33:53,445 --> 00:33:56,379
and show them
a different type of love.
650
00:33:56,413 --> 00:34:03,524
♪
651
00:34:26,167 --> 00:34:27,755
- Moment of truth.
652
00:34:35,866 --> 00:34:37,282
Oops.
653
00:34:39,007 --> 00:34:40,975
Oh, yeah.
654
00:34:41,009 --> 00:34:42,701
These babies are cruising.
655
00:34:42,735 --> 00:34:45,186
♪
656
00:34:45,221 --> 00:34:47,947
I made these snowshoes
so that when I wake up
657
00:34:47,982 --> 00:34:50,502
and there's a ton of snow
on the ground,
658
00:34:50,536 --> 00:34:54,644
I will have a way to get
around and gather firewood
659
00:34:54,678 --> 00:34:58,199
even if it gets really,
really crummy.
660
00:34:58,234 --> 00:35:01,582
So I--now I just
have to wait for the snow,
661
00:35:01,616 --> 00:35:04,481
wait for multiple feet of snow
before I use them,
662
00:35:04,516 --> 00:35:07,001
but they're ready to go.
663
00:35:10,177 --> 00:35:12,800
Med checks are today
at some point,
664
00:35:12,834 --> 00:35:17,632
but I honestly don't see
them medically pulling me
665
00:35:17,667 --> 00:35:19,669
due to my weight.
666
00:35:19,703 --> 00:35:21,809
I think I went in here
heavy enough
667
00:35:21,843 --> 00:35:25,019
that that's probably
not gonna happen,
668
00:35:25,053 --> 00:35:28,160
but you never know.
669
00:35:28,195 --> 00:35:33,752
♪
670
00:35:33,786 --> 00:35:37,997
I feel really kind of
uncomfortable in the fact
671
00:35:38,032 --> 00:35:43,382
that I'll have to take off my
warm sweater and get weighed,
672
00:35:43,417 --> 00:35:45,660
and I just am not very happy
about it.
673
00:35:45,695 --> 00:35:47,421
♪
674
00:35:47,455 --> 00:35:48,698
- All right.
- You're good.
675
00:35:48,732 --> 00:35:51,701
- I know I've got
a long ways to go.
676
00:35:51,735 --> 00:35:54,290
I know I'm not just slaying it
out here.
677
00:35:54,324 --> 00:35:56,464
I'm very vulnerable,
678
00:35:56,499 --> 00:35:59,571
and all I've got left
is this really hard, dark,
679
00:35:59,605 --> 00:36:01,952
"push through the pain"
kind of time,
680
00:36:01,987 --> 00:36:04,955
and I just want to get
through it.
681
00:36:04,990 --> 00:36:08,166
Honestly,
682
00:36:08,200 --> 00:36:09,719
you know, I'm ready to--
I'm ready to go
683
00:36:09,753 --> 00:36:11,686
at this point, anytime.
684
00:36:11,721 --> 00:36:15,138
Um, it's--
685
00:36:15,173 --> 00:36:17,416
if this was just
a wilderness excursion,
686
00:36:17,451 --> 00:36:20,247
just me, you know,
I'd left a little bit ago,
687
00:36:20,281 --> 00:36:25,217
but I'm willing to push myself
to provide for my family.
688
00:36:31,016 --> 00:36:34,053
[crying]
689
00:36:41,302 --> 00:36:44,340
[sobbing]
690
00:36:47,964 --> 00:36:49,759
I miss those kids a lot.
691
00:36:51,381 --> 00:36:53,521
Like, I can...
692
00:36:56,006 --> 00:36:59,769
I feel like I got a little bit
in me even without...
693
00:36:59,803 --> 00:37:02,910
a lot of food
and all that, but...
694
00:37:02,944 --> 00:37:06,051
yeah, protein has not been
there for me, but that's okay.
695
00:37:06,085 --> 00:37:11,125
It's been, you know, a good
two weeks without protein,
696
00:37:11,159 --> 00:37:14,508
but I just keep thinking,
like...
697
00:37:14,542 --> 00:37:16,337
[sniffles]
698
00:37:16,372 --> 00:37:21,411
♪
699
00:37:21,446 --> 00:37:23,171
Oh, my God!
700
00:37:23,206 --> 00:37:24,863
[sobs]
701
00:37:27,555 --> 00:37:30,178
Oh, my God!
702
00:37:30,213 --> 00:37:31,456
- Hi.
703
00:37:31,490 --> 00:37:34,873
- [sobbing]
704
00:37:34,907 --> 00:37:36,288
- You did it.
705
00:37:36,323 --> 00:37:39,291
- [sobbing]
706
00:37:39,326 --> 00:37:43,882
♪
707
00:37:43,916 --> 00:37:45,366
- You did it.
708
00:37:45,401 --> 00:37:49,232
- [sobbing]
709
00:37:49,267 --> 00:37:51,234
Oh, my gosh.
710
00:37:51,269 --> 00:37:52,960
Oh. Oh.
711
00:37:52,994 --> 00:37:54,996
- How are you feeling?
712
00:37:55,031 --> 00:37:57,965
- Oh, I'm so happy to see you.
713
00:37:57,999 --> 00:38:00,485
Oh, my gosh.
714
00:38:00,519 --> 00:38:03,695
Oh, I had no idea it would
happen today.
715
00:38:03,729 --> 00:38:06,629
Oh, yes!
716
00:38:06,663 --> 00:38:08,907
All right, who has food?
717
00:38:08,941 --> 00:38:10,322
Who has stinking food?
718
00:38:10,357 --> 00:38:13,739
Which one of you guys
brought food with you?
719
00:38:13,774 --> 00:38:15,189
Do you have food?
- Hi. No.
720
00:38:15,223 --> 00:38:17,260
- Oh, where's the food?
- Sorry. Hi.
721
00:38:17,295 --> 00:38:20,298
- [laughing]
722
00:38:20,332 --> 00:38:23,956
Oh, we get to buy a house
723
00:38:23,991 --> 00:38:27,028
and a new car that doesn't
break down all the time.
724
00:38:27,063 --> 00:38:28,754
Has the car been running okay
for you guys?
725
00:38:28,789 --> 00:38:30,998
- Yes.
- Okay, good.
726
00:38:31,032 --> 00:38:34,415
Oh, gosh,
I can't believe it.
727
00:38:34,450 --> 00:38:38,454
Oh, I am so thankful
to see you.
728
00:38:38,488 --> 00:38:40,766
- Good.
- Oh, I love you so much.
729
00:38:40,801 --> 00:38:41,767
- I love you.
730
00:38:41,802 --> 00:38:42,941
- How are the kids doing?
731
00:38:42,975 --> 00:38:44,287
- They're doing good.
732
00:38:44,322 --> 00:38:46,876
- I just thought about
you guys the whole time,
733
00:38:46,910 --> 00:38:50,638
and I just thought about,
like--man, I was like,
734
00:38:50,673 --> 00:38:54,159
"Sydney's back home,
and she's with the kids,
735
00:38:54,193 --> 00:38:57,231
"and she doesn't have
a tap-out button, you know?
736
00:38:57,265 --> 00:38:59,578
"She can't just--
she can't just give up,
737
00:38:59,613 --> 00:39:02,374
so I'm not just gonna give up,"
you know?
738
00:39:02,409 --> 00:39:05,653
- You didn't.
- I can't believe it.
739
00:39:05,688 --> 00:39:08,760
♪
740
00:39:08,794 --> 00:39:10,348
- I want to see everything.
741
00:39:10,382 --> 00:39:12,453
- All right, let's get up.
742
00:39:12,488 --> 00:39:14,904
This is called a Athabascan
deadfall,
743
00:39:14,938 --> 00:39:17,803
so animal basically steps on
here and just does that.
744
00:39:17,838 --> 00:39:19,046
- Snap.
745
00:39:19,080 --> 00:39:21,393
- Yeah, so you can set that
to take any--
746
00:39:21,428 --> 00:39:23,222
you know, any size animal.
747
00:39:23,257 --> 00:39:25,086
♪
748
00:39:25,121 --> 00:39:28,918
This is where I live.
- Sam, this is awesome.
749
00:39:28,952 --> 00:39:33,405
[laughs]
Oh, my gosh.
750
00:39:33,440 --> 00:39:36,822
- See, I've got these
little notches on here
751
00:39:36,857 --> 00:39:39,411
so I can adjust the heat
and make it hotter or,
752
00:39:39,446 --> 00:39:42,621
you know, high,
medium, low type deal.
753
00:39:42,656 --> 00:39:44,382
♪
754
00:39:44,416 --> 00:39:46,211
I feel like
when I left Vancouver Island,
755
00:39:46,245 --> 00:39:48,213
I was just angry at the place.
756
00:39:48,247 --> 00:39:50,284
I was angry at the rain,
757
00:39:50,318 --> 00:39:53,011
and I was just angry
at every little thing,
758
00:39:53,045 --> 00:39:57,429
but in Mongolia, every time
I started my morning fire,
759
00:39:57,464 --> 00:39:59,086
I felt grateful for the fire.
760
00:39:59,120 --> 00:40:04,125
I was thankful for the trees
and the resources that I had.
761
00:40:04,160 --> 00:40:07,577
I was just thankful
for every little, tiny thing
762
00:40:07,612 --> 00:40:10,580
that came my way, and when
I had a thankful attitude,
763
00:40:10,615 --> 00:40:12,617
it just taught me
to love the land
764
00:40:12,651 --> 00:40:15,689
rather than look at what
it couldn't provide.
765
00:40:15,723 --> 00:40:19,382
♪
766
00:40:19,417 --> 00:40:23,490
When I go home,
the $500,000
767
00:40:23,524 --> 00:40:25,457
is gonna be
a crazy change to my life.
768
00:40:25,492 --> 00:40:27,459
Whoo!
769
00:40:27,494 --> 00:40:29,081
♪
770
00:40:29,116 --> 00:40:33,534
This was an opportunity for
personal redemption for me.
771
00:40:33,569 --> 00:40:36,882
Coming out here set the reset
button on my life and
772
00:40:36,917 --> 00:40:39,126
gave me a chance
to have my family
773
00:40:39,160 --> 00:40:42,785
look at me as a provider
rather than someone
774
00:40:42,819 --> 00:40:45,028
who's just barely getting by
all the time.
775
00:40:45,063 --> 00:40:49,308
♪
776
00:40:49,343 --> 00:40:52,311
[both exclaiming]
777
00:40:52,346 --> 00:40:55,245
♪
778
00:40:55,280 --> 00:41:00,630
- Isn't riding helicopters
through Mongolia, like,
779
00:41:00,665 --> 00:41:02,287
pretty much the coolest thing
we've ever done?
780
00:41:02,321 --> 00:41:03,288
- Yeah.
781
00:41:03,322 --> 00:41:04,358
- This is like the honeymoon
782
00:41:04,392 --> 00:41:05,635
we couldn't afford, you know?
783
00:41:05,670 --> 00:41:06,947
- Totally.
784
00:41:06,981 --> 00:41:09,294
♪
785
00:41:09,328 --> 00:41:11,089
- We live in a world
of traffic lights
786
00:41:11,123 --> 00:41:12,470
and smartphones.
787
00:41:12,504 --> 00:41:16,232
It's very difficult
to actually think about
788
00:41:16,266 --> 00:41:20,098
anything of substance,
but out here in the woods
789
00:41:20,132 --> 00:41:23,757
it's basically all
you've got time to do.
790
00:41:23,791 --> 00:41:25,103
You know,
what do I need to do
791
00:41:25,137 --> 00:41:26,587
to be a better dad
when I go home?
792
00:41:26,622 --> 00:41:28,969
What do I need to do
to be a better husband
793
00:41:29,003 --> 00:41:31,972
and a better person to the
other people in my life?
794
00:41:32,006 --> 00:41:33,456
♪
795
00:41:33,491 --> 00:41:35,009
You're subjecting yourself
796
00:41:35,044 --> 00:41:38,806
to an incredibly raw state
of humanity,
797
00:41:38,841 --> 00:41:42,534
and when you get that raw,
it gives me strength.
798
00:41:42,569 --> 00:41:46,849
I'm not afraid anymore to ask
myself hard questions,
799
00:41:46,883 --> 00:41:50,266
and the best way to ask
yourself hard questions
800
00:41:50,300 --> 00:41:51,992
is to put yourself in a place
801
00:41:52,026 --> 00:41:54,960
where you can be
completely vulnerable,
802
00:41:54,995 --> 00:41:57,273
and that only happens
when you're alone.
803
00:41:57,307 --> 00:42:04,418
♪
803
00:42:05,305 --> 00:43:05,878
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