Original subtitles

(Thank You, Doctor)

(Adapted from the novel "ICU 48 Hours" by Sheng Li)

(Episode 19)

Dr. Bai.

Xiao Guang is awake.

I'm here...

to apologize to you.

Dr. Xu told me...

about you and Xiao Guang.

Xu Yi Ran, that blabbermouth.

What did he say to you?

He told me about Xiao Guang's condition...

and your not giving up.

You as a doctor...

and Xiao Guang as a patient...

never gave up.

That's how you made the impossible again and again

I admire your persistence and courage.

And I apologize for misunderstanding you.

So...

are you going to agree with my beliefs...

or are you going to convince me to agree with you again?

A person's belief is formed over a long period of life experiences.

Once it's formed,

it's hard to change.

That's right.

They say a leopard can't change its spots.

That's why I have no intention of surrendering.

I won't persuade you like before either.

I just came to show my respect.

Although I don't agree,

I understand your point of view...

and respect your choice.

A lot has happened lately.

It has changed my opinion of you.

Although I don't agree with your beliefs,

I think...

we're the same kind of person.

Let's agree to disagree and give up the rivalry...

and help more patients.

You've said so much yet I still think...

that my belief is right.

Let's agree to disagree.

I'm going to make my rounds.

Xiao Guang told me...

you look very cool when you ride your bike.

If you have time, visit him often...

and talk to him about bikes.

I will.

I don't know what's with this kid's taste.

If it really hurts,

I'll have them give you a painkiller shot.

Mr. Jiang, are you in a lot of pain?

Xiao Guang.

Are we disturbing you?

No.

My illness hurts all the time.

But I'm not as strong as Mr. Jiang.

Sometimes when I'm in a lot of pain, I'll yell.

But my dad said it will affect others.

But sometimes, I just can't help it.

Mr. Jiang.

If you're in a lot of pain, you should scream.

Then it won't hurt as much.

Little brat.

You know what pain is?

True pain...

is when nothing you do helps.

Then think about...

what makes you the happiest.

The more you think about it, the less it hurts.

That's what my dad taught me.

He said when you're thinking about something happy,

the body will secrete a substance.

That substance can alleviate the pain in the body.

I think about the time Dad took me out to play football.

Thinking about it made my pain go away.

Mr. Jiang, do you want to give it a try?

All my life,

there's nothing to be happy about.

Xiao Guang.

He's tired.

Why don't you rest for a while too?

Thank you.

Does it feel better now?

Xiao Guang is so cute.

I wonder what his mom looks like.

What? Are you trying to replace her?

I'm not capable of that.

Dr. Bai is so picky.

His wife must be a beautiful and talented woman.

His son is eight years old.

Why do all the good men get married so early?

Did I hear you right?

How is he a good man?

You're just prejudiced against him.

- You can't see the big picture. - Hey.

You two.

It's time to work.

Are you not busy?

I'm done.

Dr. Xu.

Come here for a second.

What is it?

You're closest to Dr. Bai.

You must know how his wife looks like.

Bai Zhu isn't married.

Nonsense.

How could he have a child when he's not married?

You'll have to ask him yourself.

I'm not at liberty to say.

He's a bad person.

What kind of logic is that?

How is he a bad person?

He had a child out of wedlock...

and then broke up with her.

Isn't that bad?

Your brain is too big.

You could write a soap opera.

I'm impressed, Tang Hua.

I don't think Dr. Bai is like what you described either.

He's only hiding the fact because he feels guilty.

I must have guessed right.

Did you not take your medicine today?

What's going on?

What do you mean?

You're playing dumb again.

What's going on between you and Xiao Yan?

What's wrong with the two of us?

Come on.

Even Chen Zhi that blockhead could tell.

Do you think I'm blind?

Did you make up with her?

Are you back to the flirting status that you were?

No. When were we flirting?

Don't tell me.

You really live up to the old saying.

The tree wants peace, but the wind won't stop blowing.

There's always someone like you...

around talented people who is such a tattletale.

Forget it. I'm full.

You can eat by yourself.

- Hello. - Dr. Bai.

Xiao Guang is in a lot of pain.

Okay, I'll be right there.

Have some water, okay?

Don't get up.

Yes, lie down.

One more sip.

Good boy.

Did it hurt a lot earlier?

I'm much better now.

Did you reach Dr. Bai?

Yes.

- You're so brave. - Xiao Guang.

Dad.

Does it still hurt?

I'm much better.

What happened?

The pain was acting up.

This kid is really something.

He didn't cry or scream.

He just endured it by himself.

That's how his illness is.

It hurts every day.

You're still so young, but already suffering so much.

It's okay, Ms. Lin.

I'm used to it.

My dad also said,

a real man should endure hardships.

Only then can he protect others.

You're so sensible.

All because I have a worrying dad.

How is there a son like you?

How dare you bully your dad in front of others?

Are you Ms. Xiao Yan who rides the bike?

You know me?

He talks about you all the time at home.

What are you talking about?

I never did that.

I was just kidding. It's a kid's joke.

Since Xiao Guang is fine,

we'll get going.

Bye, Xiao Guang.

Okay. Bye, Ms. Xiao and Ms. Lin.

Bye, Ms. Tang.

How did you know I'm Ms. Tang?

Did your dad badmouth me at home?

No. I heard from Mr. Xu Yi Ran.

He said...

there's a pretty but terrifying aunt in the EICU.

I recognized you as soon as you came in.

You're such a sweet talker.

But I'm not an aunt.

You should call me Pretty Lady.

Okay, from now on, I'll call you Pretty Lady.

- It's a deal. - It's a deal.

- Bye. - Bye.

I'll get him another gown.

He was sweating from the pain.

- Thank you. - You're welcome.

I didn't know...

you were quite sociable.

I learned from you.

From me?

You forced me.

When did I force you?

I'm just kidding. It's a kid's joke.

I think...

Xiao Guang isn't Bai Zhu's biological child.

How could someone like him...

have such a cute child?

It's true Xiao Guang's personality is not like Dr. Bai's.

He doesn't have a mom.

And he's so cute.

He must be adopted.

Get back to work.

I'm sure of it.

Ms. Jiang.

Ms. Jiang.

It's time for Mr. Jiang's medicine.

He's asleep so early.

He was in a lot of pain today.

He must have been exhausted.

Doesn't he have anemia? Does it hurt that much?

What Xiao Guang has is thalassemia.

It's a hereditary hemolytic anemia disease.

There are many symptoms to this illness.

Xiao Guang has the most serious one.

His whole body aches as if poked by needles.

I did some research.

His level of pain...

is almost the same...

as your level of cancer.

This child...

is so sensible that it feels bad.

Many parents...

would give up in the face of this illness.

Is it a fatal disease?

Xiao Guang's thalassemia is the severe kind.

Many kids like him die at the age of five or six.

It's not easy to survive until eight...

like him.

Moreover,

this child is still so optimistic.

Is there no cure?

Does he have to live In fear of death for the rest of his life?

Bone marrow transplantation and cord blood transplantation...

are the only cures to this disease.

But Xiao Guang...

never seems to find a match.

He's such a cute kid.

God is so cruel.

Dr. Xiao.

Can you tell me more about this child's story?

Do you know why...

insisted on saving you and didn't give up?

Is it related to this child?

Xiao Guang is diagnosed...

at birth.

Many doctors thought he wouldn't live past his first birthday.

Only Dr. Bai...

never gave up.

(Tongshan Hospital)

Ever since you've been hospitalized,

you've been eating more.

It takes a lot of energy when I'm in pain.

Does it still hurt?

Not anymore.

Is it enough?

I'm full.

Don't just stay here.

It shows that you don't like to work.

Go back to work now.

You know how to chase me away now.

Fine.

I'll get back to work then.

If it hurts again, tell them to reach me.

If you want water,

ask Ms. Jiang for it.

Okay.

Fine.

Don't worry. I'll keep an eye on him.

Thank you.

I'll get going.

Are you full?

Yes.

Your hair is a bit long.

I'll get the tools later and trim it for you, okay?

Ms. Jiang, you know how to cut hair too?

- Of course. - You're amazing.

It might turn out ugly though.

Xiao Guang.

Didn't you say...

it won't hurt if you scream?

Why did not scream?

I didn't want to bother you.

I also didn't want my dad to worry.

When I'm in a lot of pain while alone at home,

I'll scream.

You're so sensible.

Do you know...

that your illness...

might not be curable?

Xian Yun.

It's okay, Ms. Jiang.

I know.

Xiao Guang.

You might die if it's not cured.

Are you scared?

What are you saying?

I just want to talk to him.

He's still a kid.

- What are you talking about? - Xiao Shan.

You've been here all day.

Why don't you go and take a walk in the yard?

I'm not going.

Don't worry.

I like this kid.

I won't do anything stupid.

How about this?

Go to the market downstairs...

and buy some yogurt for Xiao Guang and me.

My favorite one.

Go on.

Go on.

Do you drink yogurt?

It's okay, Ms. Jiang.

Don't be shy. I know you like it.

I'll go buy it now.

Thank you, Ms. Jiang.

Ms. Jiang, remember to wear your jacket.

Got it.

Xiao Guang.

Thank you.

Xiao Guang, come here.

Come and sit with me.

Come.

You haven't answered me.

If you're not cured, you'll die.

Are you scared?

I'm not.

Why?

Mr. Jiang, are you afraid of dying?

I'm not afraid.

I want to die, but they won't let me.

Do you know what death is?

I know.

Don't think I'm just an eight-year-old.

I know what death is.

I've seen it many times on the TV and Internet.

If I die,

I won't know anything.

I'll never see my teacher and classmates anymore.

I'll never see my dad anymore.

That's right.

You won't be able to see your dad,

your teachers and classmates.

You won't know anything. It's so scary.

But...

everyone dies eventually.

There's no point in being afraid.

We might as well live each day to the fullest.

And you know what, Mr. Jiang?

Just because I have this illness,

my teachers, classmates, and my dad...

all don't get mad at me.

They're so nice to me.

Some of the kids in my class have very fierce parents.

They even envy me for being sick.

This is called...

a blessing in disguise.

What does it mean?

It's an idiom.

The story goes like this.

In ancient times, there was an old man in the frontier.

His name was Sai Weng.

He had a very nice horse.

Then one day, it went missing.

His neighbors...

all came to comfort him...

and told him not to be sad.

Sai Weng said,

"I lost the horse."

"But who knows?"

"It might be a good thing."

Not long after that,

this fine horse that went missing...

suddenly returned.

And it brought back another fine horse with him.

The neighbors came running again...

to congratulate him.

But Sai Weng wasn't happy.

He said, "How do you know..."

"what was brought back..."

"isn't a disaster?"

A few days later,

Sai Weng's only son fell...

- Ms. Jiang. - from the back of the horse.

He broke his leg...

and became crippled.

Sai Weng's neighbors...

came running again.

They wanted to comfort him.

Overjoyed, Sai Weng said,

"How do you know?"

"It might be a good thing."

Then a war broke on the frontier.

All young men had to enlist in the army...

and go to war.

At the battlefield,

nine out of ten people died.

Due to his leg injury,

Sai Weng's son survived.

He avoided the disaster of life and death.

Mr. Jiang, I understand now.

This story talks about...

how good things can be bad and vice versa.

Is it blessing or bane?

Whichever it is,

it will change under certain conditions.

You have to...

see things as they should be.

Whether it's good or bad,

you have to adjust your mindset...

to face it and accept it bravely.

Mr. Jiang, you're amazing.

You sounded like my language teacher.

Mr. Jiang.

Were you a teacher before?

I really was...

a teacher.

But that was a long time ago.

Why did you quit being a teacher then?

Was it because you were sick?

I...

had a car accident.

And I couldn't stand on the podium anymore.

But you spoke really well just now.

Even better than my language teacher.

Little brat.

You're a sweet talker.

By the way, Mr. Jiang.

If you can't stand on the podium,

you can give lectures online.

What?

Give lectures online.

Give lectures online?

That's right. I'm in too much pain sometimes,

I take classes online because I can't go to school.

It's very convenient.

- Really? - Yes.

Xiao Guang, tell me more.

How do I give lectures online?

Sure.

There's some software to give online lectures.

For example...

Dear students, for this class...

Let's learn about wine.

What are the poems about wine?

In what categories can they be divided into?

(Tongshan Hospital)

Get back to work.

Dr. Bai.

Dr. Xu.

Dr. Lu.

Xian Yun asked me to bring him here.

He has something to say.

Dr. Bai.

Thank you for saving me.

In the past few days,

I've caused you a lot of trouble.

From now on,

I'll live well.

As for why I came today...

To be honest,

it's quite embarrassing.

Xiao Guang...

changed me.

Xiao Guang's pain...

in the face of illness...

and the fear of death...

are no less than mine.

Besides, he's only an eight-year-old child.

But he always gritted his teeth...

to face the unknown future...

with strength and a smile.

To be honest,

when Xiao Guang just moved in...

to the bed next to me,

I was really annoyed with him.

After all, he is Dr. Bai's son.

But later on,

every time I saw him,

I'd feel embarrassed.

Compared to Xiao Guang,

I'm more like...

a timid and cowardly child,

while Xiao Guang is the mature and brave adult.

Xiao Guang's strength...

and optimism changed me.

I've rediscovered...

the value and meaning of living.

Xiao Guang is like a small sun.

Xian Yun used to be a good teacher.

Due to the car accident,

he left the podium.

It was Xiao Guang who gave him hope.

These days,

I often dream about the time...

when I used to stand on the podium.

Life was full back then.

it was full of hope.

I want to live like that again.

I want to live a life filled with hope.

Xiao Guang told me...

a lot of people teach online nowadays.

They're not limited by the time and place...

nor their physical condition.

Although I'm not the best teacher,

I've had a lot of life experience.

Today, I'm here to tell Dr. Lu...

that I want to be discharged.

I want to use...

my remaining time...

to go home and organize my teaching experience.

I want to teach online.

I want to help the kids...

who can't enter their classrooms physically.

It's also...

my little contribution...

to the society.

Mr. Jiang.

To be honest,

everyone is happy that you can think this way.

Do you know what?

You're setting a good example...

to those in pain.

No matter what happens,

you must have hope.

Be strong and live on.

Be happy every day.

Okay.

Dr. Lu.

For the past few days,

- I've caused you a lot of trouble. - Not at all.

Especially Dr. Bai.

I really hope...

you can forgive me.

It's okay.

There's nothing to forgive.

Between doctors and patients,

understanding is a must.

Dr. Bai.

Thank you...

and Xiao Guang.

We'll get going.

Xiao Bai.

Thank you so much.

I should thank Xiao Guang too.

You and the kid are always welcome to my home.

- Okay. - I'm leaving.

Bye.

- Bye. - Bye.

Thank you.

- Bye. - Bye.

Ms. Jiang finally did it.

Come to think of it,

we have to thank Xiao Guang.

If it weren't for him,

Mr. Jiang would probably fight until the end...

with us.

Dr. Bai, I've always wanted to ask.

How did you educate Xiao Guang?

He's too sensible.

He's my son.

Of course he learned from me.

Have you forgotten what Xiao Guang said?

- He has a worrying dad. - He has a worrying dad.

- One, two, three. - All right.

- Okay. - Dr. Lu.

I shouldn't have...

It's all right. Let bygones be bygones.

Let's not talk about it.

We should look ahead.

Yes, let's move on.

Come, raise your arms.

Are you tired?

Get some sleep.

- Dr. Lu. - Get some rest.

Close your eyes and get some sleep.

Dr. Lu, sit down. I'll get you...

- The house has been empty... - There's no need.

Xian Yun's thinking has changed so much.

It's quite comforting.

Yes.

I'm really grateful to Xiao Guang.

He's getting better.

You can relax now.

You've been so busy lately...

that you're looking haggard.

You should get some rest too.

Take care of yourself.

As long as Xian Yun is okay,

I can do anything.

Dr. Lu.

With Xian Yun's condition,

I don't think he can be left alone.

I'm afraid I have to look after him at home.

I know.

Don't worry about the department. Leave it all to me.

Just take care of Xian Yun.

Xian Yun's condition...

won't go away in a day or two.

Besides,

all this while,

we've been such a nuisance to the department.

One person is worth eight people in the department.

And you always take care of me.

It'll affect you.

No.

- Well... - I've decided.

I'll resign.

Resign?

You're overthinking it, Ms. Jiang.

Don't try to dissuade me.

Dr. Lu.

This is my resignation letter.

I still have things to do.

I'll get going now.

You don't have to see me out. I'm leaving.

Dr. Lu!

Mr. Pan.

It's Lu Ping An.

Mr. Jiang has been discharged.

Do you still want to help out at their house?

All right. It's still the same as before.

As for the missing money, I'll pay it back for you.

Don't let it slip.

Okay.

I think...

you should give them a call.

Just ask them if they need you there.

Just say you know Mr. Jiang has been discharged,

so you wanted to check on him.

Okay.

You talk on the phone first.

Tell me when it's done.

Okay.

Why didn't you sleep?

- I did. - Did we wake you up?

No.

Honey. Come, sit with me.

What's wrong?

Nothing.

Dr. Lu left?

Something came up at work.

- Right, I'll boil some water. - Don't bother.

Sit with me for a while. I want to talk to you.

What's the matter?

I heard everything when you were talking to Dr. Lu.

Honey, promise me.

Don't quit, okay?

Promise me.

If I don't quit,

who will take care of you?

I know you too well.

Too well.

You've worked at Tongshan Hospital...

since graduating from nursing school.

This job is too important to you.

No matter how important it is,

it can't compare to you.

I was wrong.

I was too egoistic.

I don't want to be a burden to others or to you.

But I understand now.

I want to see you keep working happily.

That way, I can work comfortably, right?

Look.

I've already consulted them.

The website will pay me...

for teaching online.

This way, I can earn my own money.

Don't worry.

I won't do anything stupid like that again.

I'll give Mr. Pan a call.

If he's willing to come back, that's even better.

If he's not willing to come, we can find someone else.

I know what you're worried about.

I won't do anything stupid again.

I already know the value and meaning of living.

Really?

Really.

Okay.

I'll work hard.

Then you give good lectures too.

There are 12 rabbits...

and 23 chickens.

Ms. Xiao.

Look, did I get it right?

You're absolutely right.

That's great.

I used to be afraid of solving problems like this.

I finally know how to solve them now.

Thank you, Ms. Xiao.

That's because you're so smart.

You're so quick-witted.

But why didn't you ask Dr. Bai?

I heard he used to be a top student...

back in school.

I asked him, but he wouldn't help me.

Why?

Every time I ask him,

he'd always say,

"A man has to rely on himself."

"You can't rely on others...

whenever there's a problem."

But he's your dad.

He should be the one to teach you all this.

It's his duty as a father.

Yes, that's what I told him.

And his answer to me was,

"Search online."

Well, he's not a very good father then.

Actually, sometimes,

I know how to solve the math problems...

and spell the English words.

I pretend not to know them on purpose and asked him.

But he always says he doesn't know.

In the words of Mr. Xu and Ms. Zheng,

my dad is someone who needs a sense of presence.

If I don't act like I don't know...

and ask him questions back and forth,

he'll lose his sense of presence.

Once he loses his sense of presence,

there will be trouble for me.

Dr. Bai is so weak.

Yes, my dad is fragile.

He's more of a child than I am.

When he thinks people don't take him seriously...

or steal his thunder,

he can stay mad for days.

He'll play games every day to vent.

He's so childish.

Very childish.

And sometimes, not sometimes.

It's every time.

I have to cheer him up...

on purpose...

before he recovers.

It's tiring to be his son.

It must be hard on you.

Not at all.

Xiao Guang, I'll get back to work.

Dr. Bai.

Are you here to see Xiao Guang?

You're here too.

I'll get back to work.

Dad.

Tell me.

Did you do something wrong again today?

I'm sorry, Dad.

When I had lunch today,

I shouldn't have left half a bowl.

It's a shame to waste food.

Every grain of rice is a product of hard work.

You're still talking nonsense.

- I'm talking about earlier. - Just now,

I shouldn't have asked Ms. Xiao for help.

A man should rely on himself.

Is that what I'm talking about?

Bai Ji Guang.

You're good.

Now you know how to talk behind my back now.

- What? - Am I as fragile and childish...

as you said?

Dad, listen to me.

Haven't you always lectured me to tell the truth?

Is that the truth?

Don't fall.

Also,

when did I need a sense of presence?

Anyway, what I said is true.

I won't hit you.

Do you think...

I won't be able to control you?

From now on,

I'll cut your weekly allowance in half.

No!

No, Dad. I'm sorry.

No...

Dad, you didn't see it.

I didn't mean to slander you.

When Ms. Xiao and I were talking about you,

she was so happy and kept asking me about you.

What did she ask?

Let me tell you.

Why don't you ask her yourself?

- I'm going to bed. - You...

- Finish what you're going to say. - It hurts.

No, Dad. I'm a patient.

You can't beat me like this.

I can't be in pain.

I'm going to sleep. I'm a patient too.

Fine.

Sleep.

Sleep until you die.

Good night.

Good night.

Bye.

See you tomorrow.

Dr. Bai.

Don't you have to take care of Xiao Guang?

He's sound asleep.

Tang Hua mentioned you today.

She has changed her opinion of you because of Xiao Guang...

and hasn't bad-mouthed you in a while.

If one always badmouths me,

that only means...

I'm important to them.

That's the sense of presence Xiao Guang mentioned.

Don't listen to him.

But the relationship between you two is quite interesting.

From what Xiao Guang said,

at home, he's the adult that takes care of you.

You're the kid he takes care of.

By saying that,

you complimented my son yet belittled me.

It's hard to react to that.

I wasn't belittling you.

I just realized something from what Xiao Guang said.

Underneath that arrogant exterior,

you're genuine and warm-hearted.

That's not what you wanted to say, was it?

Mr. Jiang has been discharged.

I've thought about a lot of things.

Including the argument we had the other day.

I've been thinking that if I had followed...

my belief during the treatment...

which is to let him die as he wished,

then he wouldn't have had the chance...

to realize the value and meaning of his life.

So...

I'm a bit lost now.

What belief is it...

that I seek?

To harm or save people?

What do you think?

I think...

You've improved.

Come in.

Sir.

You wanted to see me?

I'd like to talk to you.

You're always so troublesome.

Have a seat.

Go on.

Are you in trouble?

Dr. Xiao told me...

that Jiang Xian Yun's case...

made her feel lost.

She doesn't know if the belief she's pursuing...

is saving or harming lives.

I heard about your argument with Dr. Xiao.

Dr. Xiao is a little lost.

What about you?

I'm fine.

I don't think...

I made the wrong choice back then.

If I had chosen to listen to the patient's wishes,

he wouldn't have had a chance...

to get back on his feet like now...

and start a new life.

If you're so sure,

what did you come to me for?

But...

But to be honest, I had second thoughts too.

More than once.

Every time I pass by the EICU ward...

and hear the screams of excruciating pain,

I would think this.

A doctor's duty is to save lives.

But to let a person live in endless pain,

am I saving him...

or harming him?

Maybe at some point,

it's also a kind of bravery...

to face death in a situation.

It's also...

a kind of respect for life.

If that's the way you think,

it proves I was right about you.

I can see...

your reflection on the values...

of life, death, and living.

It's good.

When you see things from a dialectical perspective,

anything...

will have two sides to it.

Don't struggle with right or wrong.

Especially us doctors.

As long as we stick to the bottom line.

To save lives?

That's right.

That's easy to say.

But it's hard to do.

It requires a lifetime of effort.

Maybe only until the end...

can we understand...

the true meaning of those words.