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❝ The Other Side ❞ Lyricist-Composer: Mars Radio - Singer: Yuan Ya Wei

♫ Two people who are filled with love ♫

♫ Take loneliness as a responsibility ♫

♫ A pair of indifferent eyes ♫

♫ Cannot hide the scalding hot soul ♫

♫ I want to hold you tight ♫

♫ Take your fears and turn them to delight ♫

♫ No longer worry about the fairness of this world ♫

♫ Innocent as a little child ♫

♫ I watch you count the traces of love ♫

♫ Every individual ought to try hard at love ♫

♫ Please let me hold you tight ♫

[Thank You Doctor] ♫ To the other side of love where nobody would be absent ♫

[Episode 9]

At the current level of medical technology, we cannot perform surgery on

a patient who is having huge amount of bleeding from the posterior cranial fossa

Even Hua Tuo (a legendary Ancient Chinese surgeon) wouldn't have been able to save the day

What about drug treatment?

Current medication can only stop bleeding on local areas

It does not have effect on bleeding from the posterior cranial fossa

At least there hasn't been any successful cases

So looking at the current situation, are we basically telling the patient to give up on treatments?

According to the patient's bleeding situation

They will survive for 4 to 5 more days at most

In this case, there wouldn't be a point persisting with the treatments

The patient is only 18 years old. I'd like to keep trying.

How about this. We will ask for the patient's families' opinions

when we see them tomorrow

Doctor Xiao, what's happening?

Why didn't I insist to get them the CT scan?

Their sickness would be diagnosed and treated timely

then the situation wouldn't have escalated like this

Please don't think it like that

You already did what a doctor is responsible for

It was the patient's families who didn't want to get the CT scan

It was them who signed the papers. It has nothing to do with you

If I could have made the correct diagnosis at that time,

It wouldn't have been like this if I convinced their families to get the CT scan done

But at the time the patient's symptoms were not as noticeable

There was no tinnitus and vomiting

Their cardiopulmonary blood pressure was also normal

Who would've thought he was bleeding from Posterior cranial fossa

We are doctors. We are supposed to think of all possibilities

And plus the patients is only 18

Xiao Yan

I have to tell you

Your condition does not look well right now

Chief lu, I...

I understand

But I'm thinking, If it wasn't for my slip-up...

This was not

Tang Hua is right

I know during the whole process of attending the patient

You made the correct diagnosis according to patient's conditions

And fulfilled your responsibility of informing the patient

It only turned out this way because the patient's families did not want to get the CT scan

During the whole treatment of the patient Fangnan

I believe you have done nothing wrong

Chief, I... I know

You hold yourself to high standards

And you are a responsible person

But I'd like to remind you

You have to adjust your mindset

Let's face ourselves and the patient's family

in a professional manner

You especially cannot show guilt

in front of the patient's family

If they see you feeling guilty

it is very likely they would threaten you, and even the hospital

We have to take this into consideration, given the tense relationships between doctors and patients nowadays

And plus you don't have any responsibility in this incident anyway

I think you are more concerned with this incident affecting your career than anything else

Bai Zhu, I know you have problems with me

I am a regular person. I want to get promoted and make a fortune, like anyone else

I am not a saint

It's not that I'm worried that it would affect my career

I am more worried about those things would

impact our passion on being a good doctor

and saving lives

If you want to be a good doctor,

the first thing is to learn how to protect yourself

We would only have time and energy to treat illnesses and save people

when we are able to protect ourselves

This is being responsible for ourselves

and for those

who are waiting to be treated

Yes, Posterior cranial fossa bleeding

Okay, just shoot me an email if you have any info about it

Thank you

♫ Take loneliness as a responsibility ♫

♫ A pair of nonchalant eyes ♫

♫ Cannot hide the scalding hot soul ♫

It's important.

♫ Please believe in these eyes that look for miracles ♫

♫ Please believe in this heart that endure loneliness ♫

♫ Protecting you and your love ♫

♫ So they can get together, without worries ♫

♫ How much do I want to hold you tight ♫

♫ Take your fears and turn them to delight ♫

♫ No longer worry about the fairness of this world ♫

♫ Innocent as a little child ♫

♫ I watch you count the traces of love ♫

♫ Every individual ought to try hard at love ♫

♫ Please let me hold you tight ♫

♫ To the other side of love where nobody would be absent ♫

Doctor Xiao, are you not going to eat?

I don't know what happened to Doctor Xiao these days. She's going nuts

I suspect it's probably because of the patient with Posterior cranial fossa bleeding

It wasn't even her fault

She feels bad

whether or not it was her fault

She always thinks that if she persisted, the patient would have a chance to live

I don't know if you noticed

she reminds me of you in certain aspects

In which aspects?

The brain surgeons already said the patient was no hope

But she still wouldn't give up, looking for documents and patient cases everywhere

She was looking for miracles

Do you just want to die with the patient?

Are you guys good?

I'm fine. But she's not going to be if she keeps up like this

What's happening with you? How do you not see a car this big?

I don't know how I got here

I was going to go to ICU

It was that serious?

Dr. Xiao, are you okay?

Good thing Bai Zhu pulled her out of the way,

otherwise there would have been an accident.

When did you become a hero that saves damsels in distress?

I was worried that Tongshan's Emergency Department would become a laughing stock.

An ER doctor gets killed by the hospital's ambulance

- in front of the emergency center. - Stop it.

Enough with the unnecessary words.

He just can't say something nice.

I gathered you all here today

to think about the posterior fossa hemorrhage patient.

I want us to discuss the question of

the boundaries of medicine

and the boundaries of a doctor.

I'll share my thoughts first.

I've worked in the Emergency Department for more than 20 years.

I've helped save many patients.

What I strongly and clearly believe

is that medicine isn't omnipotent

and doctors certainly aren't omnipotent.

There will always be illnesses that we can't treat

and lives that we can't save.

I agree.

Dr. Xiao, stop blaming yourself because of that patient.

You'll end up collapsing if you continue.

Let me tell you something.

Sometimes we want to save a patient more than they want to save themselves.

Don't burden yourself too much.

I...

When I was an intern after I finished graduate school,

there was an ER doctor who was retiring soon.

He told me that doctors are a group of people in a race with death.

Sometimes they'll win and sometimes they'll lose.

Sometimes they're powerless and guaranteed to lose.

But continuing to run until the end of the race

is the greatest respect for life.

Later on, that ER doctor

spent 50 minutes performing CPR by himself

to save a patient who almost drowned.

The patient regained consciousness,

but the doctor collapsed and didn't recover.

He managed to finish running the race.

I've always hoped to be a doctor with flesh and blood,

a doctor with emotions,

a doctor who could continue running until the end.

That's why

I want to keep treating

the posterior fossa hemorrhage patient.

Xiao Yan put it very well.

I think we should do our best

to continue running for the patient instead of giving up.

I have a suggestion. Everyone should help Dr. Xiao,

and keep running to save this patient.

It's for all of our patients.

Let's work together to figure something out.

- Let's work together. - Good.

Bai Zhu, what's your opinion?

What's the point of saying you'll help?

I'll translate for everyone. Dr. Bai Zhu means that we should work together.

I'll be honest. Right now, I can feel that

our Emergency Department is united

and ready to forge ahead.

We're an assembly united,

an assembly ready to fight,

- an assembly ready to head into a new future. - Alright, that's enough.

Okay, we'll finish here. You're dismissed.

Director.

These are the files you wanted.

Right. Heavy bleeding.

You have to help me with this.

No problem. I'll treat you to 10 meals.

Okay.

You came all the way out here to make a call?

What? Worried that Xiao Yan will find out you're helping her?

I'm not helping her, I'm helping the patient.

- I was right, wasn't I? - What do you mean?

Running until the end for the patient.

If I hadn't heard Xiao Yan say it,

I'd have thought they were your words.

You and Xiao Yan are actually quite similar.

I mean it.

You sure do have a lot of free time.

[Operating Room] [Anesthesia Department] [ICU]

[Emergency] [EICU]

Aren't your shifts over? Why are you all still here?

Dr. Xiao, Chen Zhi and I

compiled some medical papers regarding posterior cranial fossa hemorrhages.

Take a look and see if they're useful.

Thank you both.

Let's go.

This USB has a video of a surgery on a posterior fossa hemorrhage patient at Ruirong Hospital.

Although the surgery wasn't successful, you can use it as reference.

Thank you, Dr. Xu.

- Xiao Yan. - Director.

I contacted the director of neurosurgery at Heidelberg University Hospital in Germany.

You might discover something new after discussing with him.

They have one of the best neurosurgery departments in the world.

I sent you his email address and already introduced you to him.

Director, thank you.

Thank you, everyone.

The way I imagined it, all of us are family here.

Dr. Xiao, has there been any progress?

I went through a lot of documents an consulted a lot of experts,

but all the documents and experts told me

that with this much bleeding,

the patient can't be saved.

Dr. Xiao, Director Lu is right.

We're doctors, not gods.

You've done your best.

You don't need to comfort me. I just wanted to discuss a bit.

Let's go. Help me on my rounds.

What are you doing here so early in the morning?

- What's that? - Professor Ebben at Johns Hopkins University

wrote a paper on posterior cranial fossa hemorrhage.

It was completed last month and hasn't been published yet.

It includes the latest research results.

- How did you get it? - It was easy.

When I went there on the exchange program,

I got along really well with Professor Ebben.

He offered me a position there, but I declined it.

- It should only take a few minutes to get my hands on a research paper. - Yeah, okay, you're great.

Take this back.

You keep it and give it to Dr. Xiao.

Why are you giving it to me? Give it to her yourself.

I'm busy.

So am I.

If you're busy, then why are you still hanging around here?

And make sure you don't leak any of that information.

Otherwise I'll hold you responsible.

How am I friends with someone so...

Dr. Bai helped find this for me?

Although he didn't tell me how he got it,

I know he must have put in a lot of effort.

You know that people usually don't let others look at

their unpublished papers.

Please thank him for me.

Do you two take me as a microphone and speaker?

Right, I'll personally thank him later.

That's more like it.

Okay, thank you.

Dr. Bai!

Thank you.

No problem. I've always liked helping the weak.

Xu Yi Ran was right. Everything you say is sarcastic.

But I sincerely thank you.

I hope it will be useful.

Dr. Xiao, the posterior fossa hemorrhage patient is in cardiac arrest.

Don't look anymore. Xiao Yan isn't coming.

She finished the procedure and went directly to see patients.

You two are here? I thought I wouldn't see you because you've been too busy.

How can that be? It's human nature to enjoy food and lust, without wich, how will we live through our days?

Don't you know how to talk?

Old Bai, how is that patient now?

At 10 o'clock, that child had a sudden cardiac arrest.

The rescue took two full hours but wasn't successful.

Have you eaten yet?

I don't feel like eating.

[Nurses Station]

- Is Heard Nurse here? - I'll call her for you.

No need. I'll come back in a while.

Head Nurse, Director Lu is looking for you.

Director, you're looking for me?

Here's the thing.

I have a relative in my hometown, about 50-some years old.

He worked as a care worker in Jiahe Hospital previously.

He can't continue to work in the hospital anymore for personal reasons.

He came to me for help to find work.

I remembered that you happen to need a nanny in your home.

He is also a male, so it's perfect for him to take care of Xian Yun.

Do you want to consider it?

But he used to work in a private hospital,

so he must be expensive.

No. You only need to provide one meal a day, and ¥3,000 a month.

¥3,000? This is too perfect.

That's right. ¥3,000 is too cheap. Is there a problem?

You can't trust me?

He is cheap for a reason.

His son is working in Shanghai. There is a young grandson

who is going to the primary school. He picks up and drops off the child twice a day.

It's because of this reason that he can't continue to work in the hospital.

You can definitely rest assured about him because he is my relative.

He is reliable and capable. If you will consider him,

I'll call him over here so that you can interview him, okay?

- I-I'm interested— - Head Nurse.

I think it should work.

I'm interested. If I can meet him in person,

it will be even better. Is it convenient?

It's convenient. Let's do this. I'll contact him right away.

I'll tell you once he gets here, so you can meet him. Okay?

- Okay. - Good. - Thank you, Director.

You're welcome.

Director Lu is so good to you.

Lin Zhi, do you have time now?

While there aren't many people now, I'd like to chat with you.

Why are you so serious?

I know that you like to joke.

You usually joke around with everyone for fun.

It can relieve everyone's stress

and also enhance the relationships among co-workers.

However, if you joke about me and Director Lu,

it isn't appropriate.

First of all, I'm already married. I have a husband.

If my husband hears what you said, what would he think?

If he worries about it, it will affect our relationship. Isn't that right?

Additionally, Director Lu is our chief.

He is also a mid-level manager that the hospital focuses on developing.

If our hospital's top leaders heard those jokes of yours,

wouldn't they have certain opinions about Director Lu?

Director Lu is usually good to all of us.

If your jokes end up affecting his future career,

- do you think it's appropriate. - No, it isn't appropriate.

Furthermore, I work in the same department as Director Lu.

Tell me, if everyone in the department joke about us like you do,

how can we continue to work?

For us, one is a director, the other is a head nurse.

If we can't coordinate well, it will impact the work in the empergency department.

Isn't that right? At that time,

do you want to see Director Lu or me to leave?

Neither of you can leave. I wasn't thoughtful.

I just think that Director Lu is especially good to you.

I know I'm wrong. Head Nurse, don't be angry with me.

I'm not angry.

I know Lin Zhi has a lively nature and enjoys joking.

Actually, you didn't mean anything with what you said.

But, you are at work now, and you're a grown-up.

Some jokes are good, but other jokes

should be restrained.

I'll listen to you. I swear I won't tell jokes again.

So I won't worry about your little motor mouth anymore?

Back to work.

I just went to see Bed No.15. They are going to start extubation tomorrow.

- Here, drink some water first. - Thank you.

- Director. - You're here. Come, let me introduce you.

This is my relative, Old Pan. This is Head Nurse Jiang.

Hello, I'm Jiang Shan.

Call me Old Pan. I am Director Lu's relative.

Head Nurse Jiang's husband is paraplegic because of a car accident.

So he needs someone to take care of him.

As for details, you two can talk between yourselves.

If you can really go to Head Nurse Jiang's home to work, you must do a good job.

Don't worry, Director Lu. I'll definitely work hard.

How about this? You two can discuss in my office. I'm going to the front counter on another matter.

- Okay, you go do your work. - Okay, good.

- Thank you, Director. - Don't be courteous.

Old Pan, sit please. I'll be bothering you from now on.

My husband's name is Jiang Xian Yu. He used to be a teacher.

- How was the talk? - Don't worry. We had a good talk.

This is the 3,500 for this month. You can count it.

No need. You are introduced by Director Song. I trust you.

I paid you in cash for this month. Starting next month,

I'll send the money to your bankcard, okay?

Sure, that's no problem.

Oh yes, be careful not to slip up on this matter.

Director Lu, don't worry. My lips are sealed.

Actually, to tell you the truth, there aren't many good people like you anymore.

I can see that Head Nurse is also a good person.

- Too bad... - You must be mistaken.

I'm just helping a co-worker to solve a difficulty in life.

I understand, I understand. Director Lu, if there's nothing else,

- I'm leaving then. - Okay, go ahead.

Bye bye.

36, 37.

I saw the male nanny. He's quite reliable.

39.

I don't want a nanny.

I can't rest assured when you're home alone.

What is it that you can't rest assured about? I can take care of myself.

My illness has already cost a lot of money.

The nanny wants ¥3,000 a month, that's cheap.

- But it's still too expensive for our family. - Don't worry about the money.

I know that you worry and care about me.

But, with our family's current condition, we can't add more burden on you.

Really, believe me. I can do it.

I'm so busy at the hospital. I can't always ask for leave.

Rushing back and forth between the hospital and home, I'm really overloaded.

You should also think for me.

Here, here.

You...You don't move.

I'll do it myself.

Watch me.

How about it? Isn't this good? I can take care of myself. What's the matter?

It's stuck. This tire is flat.

It's so slippery. Come help me. Help me.

Look at how you are, can I not worry?

No, this happened suddenly. It's an occasional occurrence.

Can you not be so stubborn? Just listen to me once.

No, this happens only occasionally.

Watch.

Here, don't you move. Let me do it myself. You don't do it.

I'll do it myself. I'll do it myself. You just watch.

How about it? Didn't I get up here?

Isn't this good?

I can take care of myself.

Wife, what happened that day was a rare incident.

Haven't I taken care of myself all these years?

I'm fine at home by myself.

My lower body is paralyzed, but my hands are good.

My hands are good.

They're good? Then you wipe yourself.

Are you upset?

I'm upset with myself.

Actually, it's not that I don't want a nanny.

I have a reason that's difficult to explain.

I don't want to see a stranger wipe my pee and poop every day.

I don't want a stranger to see how embarrassed I look every day.

It'll let me feel that my life is meaningless.

There is only burden.

There is only unbearableness.

Okay. I understand how you feel.

We won't hire the nanny then.

Here, give me your hands.

Give me. Hurry.

Is it still hard for you to accept?

I don't know who it was that told me,

doctors don't deal with diseases, they deal with patients.

Our job is to stand by their sides.

To help them defeat their disease, to defeat death.

Even if they don't succeed, we still have to be there to accompany them.

To support them in facing an unchangeable fate.

But you became like this because a patient died.

Don't you think its ridiculous?

The survival rate of a massive posterior fossa hemorrhage is practically zero.

No-one can change that fact.

I know that you wanted to save Fang Nan.

But you can't lose your rationality over this.

If it's so hard for you to accept even this kind of death,

it shows you are really not cut out to be a doctor.

When I was a doctor with Doctors Without Borders,

no matter how difficult the situation,

or how serious the illness or wound,

I would always try my best until the very end. But this time,

because of his parents

I compromised.

Although I don't accept your attitude, there was nothing wrong with your treatment.

Standing here, I was thinking

if I just held on a bit longer,

if I just held on,

and gave Fang Nan the CT scan, wouldn't he...

Being a doctor,

we are the closest to life and death.

The phrase written on physician Doctor Trudeau's gravestone

summarizes his thoughts on a life as a doctor.

"Sometimes treating,

often helping, always comforting".

Right now I don't want to tell you

how many people in this huge city need your help,

need you to get it togther for them.

Because this is our teachers always told us as students.

Instead, there's somewhere I want to take you.

- Where? - You'll know when we get there.

[EICU]

Doctor Bai, you wanted to take me to Tongshan Hospital?

Doctor Xiao, do you remember the Hippocratic oath?

Of course. It's the first thing every medical student learns.

We must devote our lives to the improving the health of our nation.

- What's the patient's condition? - 25 years old. Unconscious for an hour.

Temperature of 36 degrees. Heart rate of 118.

Look, this place is filled with people waiting for treatment, or to be saved.

As medics, we don't trust tears.

Either you dry your tears and get on with it, or you leave.

Thank you, Doctor Bai.

Get back to work.

[EICU]

Dr Lin

Dr Lin

- Good morning, Doctor Xiao. - Good morning.

- Later, let's go and check on the patient in bed 7 with cerebral thrombosis. - Ok.

How is the patient who came in two days ago with burns?

He passed away last night. Albumin was only 15 grams.

Even giving him 30 grams a day was still not enough.

He also had high fever. So he couldn't be saved.

Got it.

Director!

Head Nurse.

Is anything the matter?

About the nanny, I discussed with Xian Yun yesterday.

He still thinks it's a little too much to bear.

It's fine. We can discuss with Old Pan again.

I'll talk to him to see if he can be cheaper. He's easygoing.

No need to bother. The problem isn't only about money.

Mainly, Xian Yun doesn't want a stranger to take care of him.

He isn't used to it because he'll feel he is especially useless.

I don't want to make it hard for him, so let's forget about it.

Okay, okay, I understand.

It's fine. I'll tell Old Pan.

Director, I'm sorry.

It's fine. Old Pan is my own relative.

- I still have a meeting. I need to go. Let's talk later. - Okay.

- Go get the prescription. - Okay, thank you, doctor.

Dr. Xiao, there's someone looking for you.

Dr. Xiao, I wanted to come and confirm with you again.

At the start, if Xiao Nan had done the CT scan,

would he not have died?

No one can really control diseases.

Don't blame yourself.

I know I'm the one who let Xiao Nan die.

- Don't think this way. - I'm the one who killed him.

I'm the one.

I'm the one.

You are Fang Nan's family?

I'm the mother who let him die.

Do you have his medical history? I'd like to see it.

Judging from the medical history, Fang Nan's posterior fossa hemorrhage

is caused by an extremely rare congenital disorder.

It's called Masquille Syndrome.

When someone has this disorder, even if CT was done before the hemorrhage started, it still wouldn't be found.

Furthermore, once hemorrhage begins, it's incurable.

Even the CT scan won't find it?

That's right.

The Masquille Syndrome is still an unsolved problem in the world.

No one can solve it.

Maybe after 10 or 20 years,

modern medicine will have a cure for it.

Masquille Syndrome?

Will it sound better as Thomas Boca Syndrome?

Thank you, Dr. Bai, for saving a mother's life.

Don't mention it. It's just a daily routine.

Sure. Here's the thing.

Since everyone is here, let's have a small meeting.

Everyone is busy, I'll make it short.

The wife of Huaman Real Estate's chairman has a recurrence of breast cancer.

They said the result from the treatment in another hospital isn't very effective.

So they want to transfer to our hospital. But the patient

has requirements for the attending physician's qualifications.

Therefore, after Dean Jiang and I discussed carefully,

we'll let Dr. Xiao Yan take over Ge Hong's case.

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♫ If it's fate, we'll meet again ♫

♫ I rehearsed the farewell several times in my heart ♫

♫ Skipped the courteous small talk ♫

♫ A hug fed the longing ♫

♫ Who wouldn't, at the appointed time ♫

♫ Give their most heartfelt first love? ♫

♫ Drawing a period myself ♫

♫ I'll make it perfect ♫

♫ Just let me walk to tomorrow first ♫

♫ All the nice and fine things ♫

♫ I'll leave for you to slowly enjoy ♫

♫ Good one, don't cry ♫

♫ I didn't let this life down ♫

♫ Now, I understand ♫

♫ I'm not the one who suffer ♫

♫ But you who came with me ♫

♫ Just let me walk to tomorrow first ♫

♫ All the nice and fine things ♫

♫ I'll leave for you to slowly enjoy ♫

♫ Good one, don't cry ♫

♫ I didn't let this life down ♫

♫ Now, I understand ♫

♫ I'm not the one who suffer ♫

♫ But you who came with me ♫