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i thought i'd still find you here i'm upstairs they want you on an asap sure they do oh no alex

i'm handling five times the load of any other reporter here they've even got me in the monroe

suicide trying to prove it's not enough is enough i'm only human that's never stopped you before

take it why me this story's full of controversy church versus state anti-semitism civil rights the

war this is taylor made for you michael a chance for your voice to be heard maybe even a pulitzer

take it

um

so

so

you look like a strong boy what is your name michael

beautiful name the name of an archangel

so

yes this teresa benedict was here or too briefly she was transferred from germany

right after christmas 1938.

what can you tell me about her

that's trump

how so

it is believed

there was a distinctive place in society for women and another just as distinctive for men

not equal but but equally important significant

and that the two rested with their own proper dignity and

grace can find harmony and fulfillment in a climate of respect

may i quote you only if you quote me

it is

such beautiful eyes

have you seen this photo before

i may have uh the news desk at the times gave me quite a few

looking for edis means to be consequent young man

committed to the truth to the divine wherever that commitment may lead you if not

are you trying to scare me off yes i would be very afraid if i wear you

walking along the edge of a cliff you better believe in gravity oh you have a sturdy pail fix

and uh what's the metaphor is god the gravity or is he the wings

um i'm giving you the name of someone who may teach you how to fly

erna bieberstein the last surviving sister of edith

when we were young we four stein girls would often sit here on the banks of this lake

staring into its depths so mystical so full of magic as if we could glimpse the future

like many german girls of our age we

we felt that we were atop the lower line looking out of the rhine

dreaming of strong fearless nights would carry us off to the land of camelot

and that dream became a nightmare and the camelots

to which they would deliver us were fortresses of death

i asked myself

where are those fourstein sisters so different that that camelot should be a gas chamber

no

we were not like so many german girls of our age not at all

you forgive the ramblings of an old woman but

you seem the type who understands your memories seem to be without bitterness

how can you be bitter about losing something which may have never been yours

i come here every now and then to remember how things were before and to revisit

the dreams of those young girls full of life

girls are edith

we fled germany in 36 after mother's death to paris and then on to kafka's america

peters and rosa stayed behind

tell me about rosa she was devoted to either most devoted

now they want to make it the same my mother would have loved that

your mother disapproved of edith's conversion mother was so proud of edith in so many ways

her mind her education the way she excelled in the world of men but her becoming a christian well

we were losing everything the third is here in germany you see everything our jobs

our property our dignity our loved ones everything

and when a person loses everything michael they cling to that which no one can take away

identity we were jewish and we would never allow them to take that away from us

when i was contacted by your paper i mimiographed parts of edith's diary

you had a diary in german of course but they tell me you speak languages well a few

you will use this with this question

you have my word

thank you oh that was taken at pesa passover 1893 shows you how absolutely ancient i am

that's edith and i don't know the corner

how many were you my mother had 11 children

four were lost at childbirth leaving seven of us brothers and sisters

poor ano rosa frieda elsa anna and i

along with my beloved mother auguste and siegfried the father who defined my youth in both laughter

and tears as a child i was small and frail and despite all the care given me always pale

i rarely blushed except perhaps when father was talking to god

i was entranced by the magic of that god lord of israel by his statue

elohim

um

is

for me at that young age in those first years of living father could do no wrong

those horses

belief in his compassion and just authority was central to my life

if anything was broken father could fix it he could mend broken toys and spirits

and this day was special

it was my birthday

foreign

no one could fix this no one on earth and no one in heaven

after the funeral which steins got back to the task of living our relatives and close friends had

a council of sorts and when the men were finished mother announced to their surprise that she was a

merchant's daughter and despite being a woman had all the traits necessary to run a business

and she intended to do just that having lost my father and with mother so taken up by her work i

had no point of reference that's why i needed god that's why i needed to believe we were his people

i needed to be in his family because my own was falling apart without god i would have been alone

a girl who had to fend for herself

oh dr herbsters i am eddie stein good sex yes yes i know who you are

but what are you doing here your class has already been called that is precisely why i'm

here dr hebstet i do not wish to go to that class any longer oh i see and why is that i suspect that

it's holding me back it's holding you back really yes dr harpship i feel i am intellectually ahead

of the other children and i feel i should be doing more oh no no need to miss stein

it would be irresponsible of me to grant you your absurd request

and now immediately please find your way back to your assigned class before test me

dr habstein test me on all of these books give me a chance to prove i'm qualified that's all i ask

very well mr schneider but i'm afraid you may regret your conceit most exceedingly

i came to thank you for the regard you have shown my daughter in it she's most appreciative

yes i would think she would play so um i'm not at all sure if this is in her best interests

how so my experience tells me that a girl who excels beyond her years

is chasing a truth that may become irrelevant to her happiness yet i've been told she has a nimble

mind perhaps she will find out herself yet despite my nimble mind my taste was becoming obsessive

i needed to find an answer to the question of god

if he exists why did my father die leaving my mother to suffer so

but perhaps such questions are not for young girls playing with the notion of god

as if understanding the divine were simple as learning how to swim

isn't it safer i thought to just tread water or better end the game before we drown

and as i reasoned so that voice deep inside me which had been so loud when my father lived

the silence

i'm the god of your father god had told moses at the burning bush

and suddenly i realized that for me god had died the day they buried my father

took me years to hear god's voice again

years of battle and war

the nerves that's what it's all about here you know getting a grip

no thank you i don't drink that's a word you mustn't ever use humorous don't

there's nothing you don't do here we're in hell remember all of life's rules become fasted

what's an odd place to find a philosopher lonely country hell is full of them

you really don't drink do you did you think i was being polite

i won't be doing anyone any good sitting here drinking

will i you won't be doing anyone much good out there either patching up soldiers so

they are fit to point the gun for the next round of fire hardly seems worth it

athena ii how inspiring that's all the western front needs more world wariness

you'd know all about that wouldn't you nurse

you're here to redeem yourself aren't you

if you can save a couple of our soldiers into the bargain all the better

beauty calls if you'll

is not an experiment

they stop shooting at night don't they they are french for them the night is sacred

have you had dinner not that this could be called dinner

mine was purely a rhetorical question yes i have thank you the red cross trucks

finally arrived with supplies this morning wonderful now it's safe to be vulnerable

i see you've come prepared you never know

you know why we're fighting this war this time the moon french call it feminine for us it's masculine

demon now how could you ever find peace with such conflicting worldviews you've thought

this through haven't you nothing we do here can even remotely be referred to us thinking

because if we were thinking we wouldn't be here would we you're wrong you know my motives for

being here are not purely selfish yes i know your fellow man and all that a compassion can within

how so the unexpected when that happens all that's off the unexpected this for instance

i should have known better men like you men like me what good evening lieutenant enjoy your meal

a lot of blood i still have my flask i see you haven't lost your sense of humor either

this may sting i assure you when waste precious medicine and men like me

i never kissed a man before you know i know

how do you know i know quite a few things

edith had gone to war to redeem herself for having lost her faith

however sophomoric that may sound well did she all of europe had lost faith michael

indeed to this very day god is being squeezed out of our daily lives there's something you must see

when i was a child this house of god stood alone in the beauty of nature yet now the majesty of god

is dwarfed by men's creation i'm a progressive earner i'm afraid i don't share your loss

then you'd like ana anna anna ana she has a race car near weinstedt

a phenomenon she calls it she raised it in her younger days not that she's

retired or anything fact is she's still one of europe's best best of what you like speed

one of the first true feminists francis claire really said that

her words exactly an odd enough phrase for a lady of the class i thought they disliked them in it

god love them there's just such a bastard in your career

i don't know organized religion's always been a mystery to me

that's the whole point of it young lady i missed you i know what scares me on those rules

pray over here pray over there genuflect genuflect genuflect again that was either's

problem too she often sensed there was too much smoke it's not enough of god's fire

but we started

i met anna at one of the rallies of the prussian women's league having been a nurse in the war

i was asked to be a guest speaker to give a woman's point of view to that senseless death

but i had not dissipated the effect ana would have on me

take your notion of god for instance oh lack of it you've decided there's no god just because

they've god you thought you believed in allows the world to be a bad place but your method

of reasoning is fallacious the intellect will never lead you to god ideas of a nominologist

phenomenology goes back to edmund russell right professor russo i studied under him oh you believe

that reality can never be purely objective exactly a door isn't a door unless we can open it god

isn't good until you can feel him and love isn't love unless it enters your heart shall we dance

lips

worth 36.

how is he the bully grace the pulmonary artery the next few hours are critical

he has a fighting chance to pull through he strikes me as that sort of fellow he is friend

close

closer than i had thought

may i be my guest

so

i was seized by his accessible personality you're going to be my student well i hope so uh

my young colleagues dear ladies and gentlemen what was the first

thought that struck your mind when you read this sentence as the sunflower tracks the sun

human consciousness strives after the truth i spent the year studying with professor hussell

and soon became his best student they are the famous french catholic philosopher

he said the human phenomenon in his famous work he deals with the humanity

if kierkegaard's phenomenon is purely christian what is missing

yes yes physical exactly graduating with a phd summa [ __ ] laude

promoting you to a full professorship

it's actually kept now every time they take a bullet out of you you're pushed up all right

pray i never make general by the way i don't believe we've been properly introduced

it's time hands hand slips

but then you know my name awfully kind of you to inquire after my health and watch over me online

are you sure it was me wounded soldiers often hallucinate not if the wound is too hard besides

how many nurses does germany have with your gorgeous brown eyes and how many nurse steins did

germany stationed in ponta musso so you didn't sleep at the hospital again guilty as charged

you see i was right he patches up give us another gun and send us back to war

this is all cyclical isn't it until we die i see you've mended well sarcasm and all i never lose my

sarcasm i intend to take that to hell with me it will give the devil and me a level playing field

don't die hearts is that a northerners because if it is you should tell my commanding officer he

likes to keep abreast of things like that who can die and who can't he's very tired and white always

i think one of us has to go to war or the kaiser will be very upset should we toss the coin

happens now

i continued my lecture tours for the suffrage society i was becoming famous

how can they know what's best for us we don't know what's best for them we are equal in every aspect

berlin sent a letter of inquiry added inquiry about what

your active involvement in women's rights they are worried they should be

you are playing with fire edith i know that's your favorite toy but haven't you

noticed that those people in government have been some even longer than mine

what does that tell you they are men and they expect their women to behave

is that it the secrets in knowing which battles to lose in order to win the war

what do those bearded fossils know about the war anyway

dear schnapps i think it was thomas man who said that war is a cowardly escape from the

problems of peace so when peace does come and they tell me it's inevitable as our side is

running out of bullets i hope i shall find a way to piece my life together with yours

i must see of schnapps i miss you terribly

she loved hans it's clear even by adi's definition they were made for one another isn't that easy

she missed him apparently

laughs

that releases no beloved from the loving

dante paolo and francesca i'm impressed

don't be only the deeply afflicted remember those passages

deeply afflicted

adi never returned from the war

berlin's and a nice ladder

when did an iron cross

surprisingly some good to come of it

i wish i had your faith on my faith is tested day by day hour by hour

i have found there is no miracle cure for suffering this white is called faith again

i wish i had your faith but you do eat it

i see it in everything you do you are just too stubborn to admit it

for years you have been standing in front of an unlocked door

why don't you finally open it and pass through

come

christ has no body now but yours no hands no feet on earth like yours yours are the eyes through

which he looks with compassion on the world you also defeat with which he walks to do good

of avila said that about the god who is the doorkeeper to my faith

teresa favila 16th century carmelite nun

quite a lady our ancestors were jewish were they that is her

over the altar but it's also abstract so it's mathematics until you have to buy groceries

this was something entirely new to me

people usually went to the synagogue exclusively for the service but he was

this lady interrupting her everyday errands to come to church as if to visit a loving friend

teresa of avila

i had to learn more

so

the customer speaking to god almighty as freely as with a father carrying nothing whether the words

are suitable or not but simply saying the first thing that comes to mind without fear of offense

that is prayer that is the truth of christ

i know what if i were to become a christian

if that is what you feel you must do feel eat it remember thinking with the heart

i think it's what i feel it might be my way back to god what is it of god that you miss most

when i was a little girl as far back as i can remember i worshiped my father

i just learned to walk but i knew i was safe if i let him choose the path

because whatever he did no matter how small he did out of love unconditional love

he taught me the truth of loving and now teresa has shown me the way back

you have shown me the way back

um why do i sense it does not make you happy

i've decided to give that lecture for the prussian women's league next month

i was thinking of visiting home on my way there that's nice

it has been almost a year oh yeah this may

i never cease being a jew you know i had just lost my faith in god and now that faith is

stirring again but i never stop being a jew i know it's important that you know that oh

i understand jesus was also a jew of course and he never stopped being a jew even idiot

you need her approval don't you

but what if she does not approve

oh

i'm giving this speech for the prussian society next week yes earner rude me

i thought i might go over it with you did you get some of your ideas

you've achieved so much as a woman alone i mean in a world catering to men i'm sure

others others have a great deal to learn from you learn i don't know about that

i've read your speeches in the press have you yes i don't know much about that speeches and all

but i feel you could be a bit more well politics isn't really the field is it for women

we'll be going to shul tomorrow

if you'd like to come we'd love to come mother i would love to come with you and the girls good

foreign

we aspire to an anti-semitism based on reason which must lead to the systematic elimination of

the privileges of the jews the ultimate objective of such legislation must be the removal of the

jews in general we we all know who we is the christians there lives among us a non-german alien

race which neither wishes no is able to sacrifice its racial character or to deny its feeling

these aliens are the jews out of hitler people are starting to listen to him at it he's influential

in bavaria and bavaria is almost 100 catholic i would prefer you had no god at all than this

one i am ashamed of you edit mother this man this hitler from what i hear he's just a fanatic mother

germany's had its shed but we're used to it they come and go and we survive you can't judge christ

by descendant of these pigs you can't judge me show me show me you are not one of them

so

my dear schnapps i have recently returned from

war as it was useless to fight on alone after the armistice

i looked forward to hearing from you so very very much

the thought of you had sustained me in that hell yet your silence is revealing

i'm not yet sure what it is meant to reveal but being an optimist by nature i feel the worst

please right

i believe in courage i believe in power of empathy

i believe that each and every one of us has the moral capacity to participate in another suffering

every man must decide whether he will walk in the light

of creative altruism or in the darkness of destructive selfishness

the fear of my own death is conditioned by another's fear of death

as we live together in empathy shall we die together

professor russell what an honor

could we step outside professor why professor i have no secrets for my students

very well these gentlemen have come to escort you out of the class

they've come to escort me out of my class for what purpose professor

you should have heeded my warnings concerning your radical speeches to the passion society

merlin has asked that your professor should be revoked

on what grounds sedition sedition who do they think i am socrates no

no they think you are edith stein and that's entirely enough for them

and you can do nothing to stop this i'm afraid not

my hands are tied then you know what it's like to be a woman

observe the phenomenon class observe it professor what kind of country puts race and gender

above human values and dignity for that is the country your philosophy now serves

phenomenology was a distraction anyway now i have time to focus on what really matters which is the

world is changing honor fast you heard the speeches by that man what's his name hitler

a random narcissistic maniac i thought so too honor but he's gained some control in the german

workers party that's anton drexler's group they now favor what they call non-jewish socialism

it's a catchphrase politicians will say anything to get votes no i think mother was right

the tide of bigotry standing again against us jews what does that mean but for you

practically i've been fighting for women's right

from within our ranks i feel now i must do the same for my people how do you mean

they say hitler's movement is christian perhaps christ wants me to go further

to prove them wrong from within

you mean become a nun

eat it

what about that fellow at the train station in bali

yeah what about him i don't know what happened to her if it was was very secretive about that part

of her life i don't think anyone knows except the only other man who could read her soul

his name is origin brightening he's a bishop now or some such distinction

i find it hard to follow catholic hierarchy a culture of too many colors

you will find him in freiburg that is near the black horse

your excellency mr prager

michael welcome we've been expecting you nice to meet you please sit down thank you

mrs reiner court telling us about your research for the greater glory of god no doubt

or the new york times whichever has a greater circulation yes yes well

tell me what would you like to know about our daedalus okay well firstly

when did edith stein become theresa benedict of lacrosse

let's see it was december 1921 a sunday during advent the second if i recall

i had decided to audit a catholic mass to experience it firsthand

i'd heard good things about a priest in freiburg

a man named white link anna told me he was special and i needed someone special

mail

be

he saw me there in the back pews a face he'd never seen before i must have looked very intense

because the good father couldn't help glancing at me off and on during the entire service fact is i

felt an odd and compelling familiarity with that service with the words of that man jesus i felt

at home i'm afraid it's not that easy my stein

people just can't come in here expecting to become catholics young lady i mean without

you preparation but i am prepared father test me ask me anything from the gospels the psumatologica

the letters of jerome the imitation of christ the catechism the confessions of augustine

how can you even know about thomas summa theologica how can anyone understand ontology

without reading the summa along with anselm's monologue and brentano's study on aristotle

under the cornerstones of pope leo the 13th encyclical immortality

dear mother i send you this invitation to my baptism

with a deep understanding of how difficult this transition must be for you

know that this is not the beginning of a new life but the evolution of my relationship with god

i'm not abandoning my faith just maturing in my love for god

i found i have fallen in love with

christ

how can you explain the unexplainable in 1453 the jews of breslau were driven out of the city

41 of these burned at the stake after a franciscan friar joan of capistrano

unjustly accused them of desecrating the host whenever i cross the bluter plus i can still

smell the stench of burning flesh from all those centuries ago and now you would become one of them

how can you be sure that one day they will not accuse you for disgracing your hosts

there is a reason

nominee

corpus christi

amen

dearest mother your letter left me in anguish

those atrocities you speak of though committed in the church of christ are not of christ we

cannot second-guess god based on the actions of man god is more than that jesus was one of us

what are you doing here if i knew you were in the

market i would have demanded equal time for evangelicals

why didn't you answer my letters i tried

i would start a letter and then realize i had nothing to say except for small talk and i knew

you wouldn't appreciate that actually from you i would have accepted talk of any size

small intermediate large you'll find on the most unbeatable romantic is that what this is a romance

hans my life has taken a few unexpected turns i can see that

you told me you'd never kissed a man before well despite my obtrusive

flamboyance i'm also no libertine i've actually fallen in love with you here

i couldn't help that i blame the bombs but

gorgeous eyes had a bit to do with it

i find i can no longer live without you it will be cruel to us both

i need you

and as is customary in such cases i would ask that you but how am i

hence i'm thinking of becoming a nun

you are serious aren't you

i believe i have a real vocation but my father

confessor has urged me to wait bless you to be absolutely sure you understand

which means you're not and i don't need a priest to tell me that i can see it in your eyes

hans we're not making this any easier easier what do you expect me to do edith you've just

told me my only competition is gone what should i do grow up here give me time hold us 48 hours

whatever i do must bear total commitment to the truth

however whomever i love that love must complete me

i will never settle for anything else

yes

that is who you are

may i may i write him of course were you right back

i'm stubborn you know when i want something

i don't give up

tell him

i love you too are vocations really like that suppressing natural instincts

union with god michael is mankind's most natural instinct

there's a mountain nearby it's called the feldberg 1 500 meters an afternoon's hike

for an experienced climber but there's a section of it there katzenstein

it's called the cat's trail and you really have to be a cat to climb it straight up and down

it almost summited the peak june it was 1958 when i lost my concentration

that happens you know the closer you are to the top the more you take it for granted

one full step and you fall like with mountains you must never ever take god for granted

one fourth step and you are suddenly living your wrong life the same could have happened to edith

you know a vocation's never easy michael and i can tell you it wasn't easy for her

because of her mother

well

there was that yes but there was something else someone else

han's lips she never mentioned him again after she entered the camel of colonia in 34. 1934

hans vanishes from edith's life

hold on this sister gave me her diary diary afraid not

anna sent me a copy a few years ago i poured over it so often i almost know

it by heart but there is no mention of hands not after 1934 1922-1934

12 years of waiting for what course a life would take how did she get through it

he made a deal she would write teach religious education and comparative theology and generally

serving the world until god gave us an irrefutable sign that it was time for her to enter the camel

a sign what you would call shot heard around the world i guess

yes

is

foreign

foreign

officers

what

oh

oh

oh

are you all right

so german

where were you born

doesn't matter tell me where

hamburg

let's see your late twenties

you have heard his speeches haven't you

you were there

i'm sorry i had no way of knowing

one speech

i heard it played over and over again on the radio

especially on kristen knocked

over and over again until we fled

your choice

how did you survive

i'm sorry this is this is not about me are you sure

i can help you michael are you an exorcist no i'm not but i know evil

i felt too bishop and there was no god there to catch me

please

i have a report to deliver to my editor-in-chief

let's stay on edith and his anti-semitic rhetoric came to life like upon guys the nazis were

especially keen to weed out the converted jews from the labeled traitors of their race thank you

the idea of edith serving in the world had hit a brick wall that world no longer wanted her

and she came to me in the fury

it's time you kept your word father if hitler's election isn't an irrefutable sign that i must

enter carmel then you're just not paying attention my people need me now more than ever look edith

asked me to prepare this she said we needed one day to distance the church from hitler's madness

from the very early stages of their campaign the nazi's plan was to systematically tear

german society away from christianity and bend it to their own pagan beliefs consequently a

short while after hitler came to power in 1933 christian rituals were replaced by pagan ones

i had to put christianity face to face with the truth

why didn't you do something huh you the church the catholic church

this people would have listened to you why didn't you do something

you could have said something

i'm listening come on speak speak to me tell me why

this is where i do much of my meditating

for my faith and that of my dear christ

why didn't the church do something to stop

the systematic and wholesale slaughter of millions of jews

ignorance fear madness cowardice you name it

sometimes i ask myself what if i had been the pub back then

would i have been

brazen enough to excommunicate every catholic man or woman who had any part in the holocaust

and not just the upper nazi echelon

but just every nazi soldier of every ring who ever set foot in auschwitz

i wasn't the pope thank god i just

you know like most of the people i just was too naive to believe that anyone could be that cruel

that human beings of a civilized nation

would extinguish other human beings

like gay sex

what about edith

what did she think feel the weight of the cross father his crown of thorns his own humiliation

his

it humiliation her humiliation she just rounded up an amherst fort deported to the east she should

have escaped when escape was still possible why didn't she why did you mention hamas food

mariah

there we are other transit camps for jews rounded up in holland

they were making them why almost fought

where you was that true

paper like the times has access to a lot of facts you know you can't go to help a

lot answer my question why didn't edith escape when she still could

because she would never do it

she could never

she couldn't abandon her own people it would have been like abandoning jesus

on the night of his pressure didn't the apostles do that oh yes they did

because

they were bitter afraid they felt betrayed

i can tell you i too was a bit after my phone

seems like you still got a way to go

i was even thinking of leaving the priesthood but uh

god doesn't appreciate quitters

maybe that's the reason why edith stayed and entered the camera with a slight detour that is

is

after the meal i spent that evening with my mother

until i brought her to bed feeling the weight of her sorrow

uh

it is time

lord you have called me by my name behold i come to do your holy will

dear daughter what your desire

one thing i have asked of the lord

this i seek to dwell in the house of the lord all the days of my life

have you pondered well what you wish to commit yourself to do

i have by the grace of god

have you prepared to follow this on a man your spouse completely until the end

i am by the grace of god

in preparation for the perpetual vows which you are about to pronounce

i invite you now to renounce all actual moral right to own anything under heaven

so

i aided stein promised to observe for the whole of my life the holy gospel of our lord jesus christ

by living in obedience without property and in chastity onto death

they've passed these monstrous laws at nuremberg stripping us of our citizenship of our citizenship

how dare they we jews have been in germany longer than you germans since the second century look the

marriages between jews and citizens of german or kindred blood are strictly forbidden how dare they

not it would have mattered not him hans would have

he really loved me you know

is that why you answered carmel why you were so anxious to cut short the uncertainty of

what he would or would not have done

is it he'd have of course not father what a silly thing to say it's nothing of the sort

my vocation my mission in life our mission as christians we cannot allow this to happen

right under our noses the holy father must act immediately i must tell him

holy father as a child of the jewish people

as well as being for the past 12 years a child of the catholic church

i dare to speak to the father of christianity about that which oppresses millions of germans

for years the leaders of national socialism have been preaching hatred of the jews and now they

have seized power and armed their followers this seed of hatred has germinated everything that

continues to happen on a daily basis originates with a government which calls itself christian

we who see the conditions in germany with open eyes fear the worst for the prestige of the church

if your holiness silence continues any longer if the responsibility must fall on national socialism

it must also fall on those who keep silent in the face of such happenings

do you think edith ever forgave the church for doing so little

she made up for what the church left

she was one of the few who stood up to the nazis right to the very end

what happened

as the political situation worsened for the jews

i met with some of my family

hello

how is he

who mother

that young man

who wrote to you from france what was his name

hans han slips mother

do you love him

yes mother

fine

they visited me to discuss their plans for immigration

and though they begged me to follow i refused

so

what about rosa

she was baptized in winter the same year and joined edith in the carmel rosa became a nun no

i believe after her mother's death when the stein family broke apart rosa found herself alone in the

world alone with edius and she became her greatest ally at the time when edith was

finally

to leave her homeland forever

what can we do for you sister i'm a nun living in the carmel of act

once due to my ethnic origins i thought it might be wise to inform the commandant that i live here

in act if there are any consequences to my being here

to my being a jew please deal directly with me please leave my companions in christ alone

amazing and honorable jew

we already know you're here sister give me the photo from act

yes

you arrived at the end of the year with uh roserstein

correct

i've made all the arrangements this afternoon switzerland is out of the question

it is strictly close to immigrants especially jews

so i've made other plans for you a car will take you to madame brick here jesuit priest father

alting will meet you at the port where a tugboat will take you to kungsbacker here in sweden

you'll be safe there until the jesuits find some other transports for america

you will give this to the tugboat captain

this is the amount they told me don't let him cheat you not a penny more understand i see

mother wasn't the only merchant's daughter in the family concentrate rosa this is important

my beloved sister what makes you think i would ever escape without you but you must rosa

i dragged you into this whole thing if it hadn't been for me you'd be with erna

in america safe and come with me then i'm sure father alting has room for two we've been over

this i cannot leave my place is here yes is mine by this whole thing i suppose you mean baptism

you're special edith but you're not christ and christ is the reason i'm here not you

my sacrifice may not be as impressive as yours

but in my own small way i'm also needed to intercede on behalf of the children of israel

your name is edith stein born in 1891 breslau what's your nationality

german your race jewish your father's race jewish your mother's race jewish

your grandmother's race jewish your grandfather's race jewish your great-grandmother's race jewish

your great-grandfather's race jewish why did you become a nun to serve christ

then they were released for the time being but forced to wear yellow stars

the nazis were sadistic like that cats playing with their mice before the death blow

of course edius knew all this let's why she asked me to witness this

our last will and testament

i joyfully accept and advance the death which god has appointed for me in perfect submission

to his most holy will may the lord accept my life and death for the honor and glory of his name

for the needs of his holy church

and for the jewish people

so that was the end not yet she had to give the church one last push in the right direction

she wrote to archbishop waltz and urged him and other european bishops to do what the pope had

found inconvenient she suggested that time was running out because

as she put it the experiences of these last few years have laid bare intrigues which

from the outset are clearly only aimed at a war of extermination she wrote that extermination yes and

now valza and the others could no longer pretend to be deaf to edith christ they had to speak

out against hitler and this time her message got through with the backlash that cost her her life

yes

me

foreign

come we must go now our people

thank you for this precious day bishop i learned a lot about two very special people edith and you

michael yeah where did you see this

hammersport august 2nd my mother just turned 29 i was 7. go on

i understand

so go with god

it doesn't seem like i have much choice around here

and uh your uncle you never married i'm not sure my mother mentioned

she was engaged to a jewish woman once but the nuremberg laws made marrying her impossible

what do you know about his private life not much he was very um how do you say um

to the content reserved yes uh but mother mentioned something about a book he was writing

before he went to the war was it ever published no but i have the original manuscript

here

please

having loved her i set out to mesh my life with her own as it were

not being a religious man i opted to avoid a journey to catholicism or judaism for that matter

but focused on evis other great passion phenomenology i became one of

germany's most prominent philosophers elbows with the likes of heidegger

i certainly had no problem with self-esteem i could see why she fell for you

i should have made clear that hitler's world would have never stood in our way

we could have had a life elsewhere

there was so much i needed to tell her when i sought her out on a train

the ultimate leaf taking is the leaving of god

meister echad 1260-1327 but then who am i to call philosophers

once what are you doing here i'm stubborn remember i'm not giving up on you jesus

but i wrote telling you this is i know laos chastity calm lightning i got the letter

you know i've done some reading up on that

this whole none thing was never impediment in the middle ages

take the ursuline sisters of lada france 1633 it was i'm full of numbers today aren't i

story goes the priories of the monastery is jean de sanche by name

i like that this all rolls right after

anyway she appears to have been of unstable temperament possessed

actually hasn't diabolically but the hands

please do this to me

if you know how i feel

what i feel for you

please don't do this

this is really what you want

what am i going to do without you

when i get off this train how am i going to live the rest of my life

i would just have to find someone else that's wrong the deus ex machina would erase from my mind

any thought meanwhile you found your own real tale sex monkey haven't you haven't you

that's it though

who knows if there's ever another war we find ourselves sharing another trench

another kiss

hans

yes

i feel very much the same way

be happy schnapps

i need to understand her heart what she felt fear regret anger

i love michael she felt love

i've seen the diary yes the copy i gave you no erna i've seen hans's diary

hans in munich his deepest thoughts buried in some forsaken addict and it had all of that fear

regret anger and so much love having seen into his heart i need to know what was in edith's

those last few days this love that she felt was it for hans

or was was it friend oh god both michael both

i have something

these are the last letters edith wrote the last i know

i've shown them to no one not even breitling

i get them from my safe deposit box after our last meeting i wanted to share them with you

i knew that francis claire forwarded it to me alone

along with the other letters he has never had a chance to post

the night is something of nature

the opposite of light enveloping us and all things it is not an object in the true sense of the word

the night is invisible and formless and yet we perceive it just as light causes

things to stand out so the night swallows us up into its blackness it condemns us to

solitude and makes our own shells shadowy and ghost-like the night is a foretest of death

it is not an object in the true sense of the word

the night is invisible and formless and yet we perceive it just as light

causes things to stand out so the night swallows us up into its blackness

the night is a foretaste of death

so

me

so

um

dear francis claire a privacy from one of the monasteries arrived last evening

with a suitcase for her daughter and god she now offers to take some short letters along

including this one early tomorrow a transport leaves for celestia

to slovakia what is most necessary for us a woolen socks two blankets for rosa all the warm underwear

and whatever she has in her laundry there is no way of knowing how long they will keep us

we've helped you michael told you about edith now why don't you help us tell me michael about

those last couple of days those last few hours they're so precious to all of us who loved her

i was born in bremen 1935.

after crystal knocked in 39 my father and mother fled with me to holland

it was too small to understand

we were scared i could smell it

july 42 we were captured in emin

tagged for deportation

my mother was eight months pregnant oh my god

god no

no god wasn't there in amherst ford

the three of us were held in that transit camp until the first week in august

you made us board a train

oh

oh

oh

okay

i need light is anyone a candle

goose

one two three

yes

good

child

you look like a strong boy what is your name michael

beautiful name the name of an archangel

do you think you could squeeze through there

when you get through it jump down to the ground it's summer now so it's soft you'll be all right

just try to fall on your feet

and once you hit the ground roll onto your side and keep rolling understand

but what about mommy you're doing this for her

and for your sister she would have wanted you to do this

she loved you but we must hurry

we're not far away from the camp the train will be slowing soon it will make it all easier

just remember once you hit the ground

run run into the forest as fast as you can and is far away from this train

go go live your life

hurry hurry

hurry run

i ate it stein promised to observe for the whole of my life

the holy gospel of our lord jesus christ by living in obedience without property

unto death

so

and who might you be little man

come

come

so

oh thank you

is the war over

yes

everyone

so

name

reiner prager

nationality polish

name

michael

last name

prager michael prager

um

how can you be bitter about losing something which may have never been yours

so

so

um

so

you