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["This Ain't Normal"
by Justin Gray]
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- This ain't normal
- Bodies stackin' high
To the sky
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- This ain't normal
- This ain't normal
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Bullets flyin' by
You hear them cry
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- This ain't normal
- No way
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- This ain't normal
- No way
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This ain't normal
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I see it every day
Still they say
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This ain't normal
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Bodies stackin' high
To the sky
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This ain't normal
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Bullets flyin' by
You hear them cry
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- This ain't normal
- No way
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- This ain't normal
- No way
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This ain't normal
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I see it every day
Still they say
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This ain't normal
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I be ridin' round
With my head down
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Window cracked
System low
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So if I see my drum
I'll be on point
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They got they back
I'll be ready to go
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It's him or me
And I ain't tryna slip
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Try to make it home
Gotta bust a dip
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Can't judge me
In these street rules
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Gotta think fast
Or die quick
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The way we're livin'
Ain't normal
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I wish that we
Could live normal
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All my homies dead
Or locked up
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I swear this life
Ain't normal
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The way we're livin'
Ain't normal
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I wish that we
Could live normal
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Lost ten friends before 21
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I swear this life
Ain't normal, for real
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Body's stackin' high
To the sky
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This ain't normal
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Bullets flyin' by
You hear them cry
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- This ain't normal
- No way
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- This ain't normal
- No way
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This ain't normal
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I see it every day
Still they say
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- This ain't normal
- No way
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All right, ladies
and gentlemen,
you know what it is.
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It's 10 o'clock, straight up.
TOUCH 106.1 FM.
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You know how we
hold down the city.
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We feed the streets.
The home of the underdog.
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Nothin' but great Boston slack,
New England hip-hop.
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[rap song playing over radio]
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Boston is small.
You know, very small.
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So you got gangs
on every street.
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Just in this area
right here, alone,
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and it's not that big, man.
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This block from
Hancock to Geneva
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is probably six blocks,
seven blocks.
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And out of this seven
blocks on both sides,
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you probably got a total
of at least 11 gangs.
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There's a gang right here.
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There's a gang next
to this street.
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And then there's a gang
next to that street.
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Then there's a gang
behind that street.
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Then there's two more
gangs on this side.
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So just this area alone,
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there's about six
or seven gangs.
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And that's a three-block radius,
four-block radius.
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[Alan Turner] Boston is a
five-mile radius.
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You have at least six boroughs:
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you have Mattapan, Dorchester,
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Roxbury, South End, Hyde Park.
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In Mattapan you may
have up to 20 gangs.
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In Roxbury you might
have 20, 30 gangs.
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Dorchester you may
have 30, 40 gangs.
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South End you may have
at least ten.
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Overall, there's gangs
being formed every day.
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[Kenney Waller] Warren Gardens,
St. Joseph's,
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Norfolk, H Block, Castlegate,
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Intervale, Brunswick,
Fayston, the Villa,
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Franklin Field, Franklin Hill,
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Lennox, Mass. Ave.,
Draper Street,
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Hendricks Street,
Berry Street, Lucerne.
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I don't have an exact count,
but I would say
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probably over 100.
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[car engine revs]
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[indistinct chatter]
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[rap music plays
over car stereo]
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In the blocks, you start off
as families, you know?
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You grow up with this person,
that's your family.
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That's not your friend.
I don't got no friends,
you know what I'm sayin'?
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You're my associate
or you're my family,
you know what I'm sayin'?
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You know what's up.
You're with me or
you're against me,
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you love me or you hate me,
you feel me?
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-Is this guy really turning?
-They gon' wait.
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They gon' wait. They good.
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As long as I'm good with
these niggas right here,
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I don't give a fuck about
nobody.
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-We ain't the Roxbury--
-[group laughing]
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We don't trick, we don't do
none of that.
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We just get to it.
Catch them fuckboys laughing.
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[all] Never lock it.
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Gotta check the bushes.
You know what I'm sayin'?
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Gotta make sure ain't
no new fuckin' cars
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on the block, all that shit,
man. Know what I'm sayin'?
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We definitely on point.
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I ain't gon' front, man, this,
I love it.
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I love it, too.
I'm not gonna say,
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"Oh, this person
and that person will die
for me."
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Even though I know they would,
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I wouldn't want 'em to.
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You get what I'm sayin'?
'Cause that'll be selfish.
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But when it come on down to it,
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I know they'll die with me.
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It's like if you're
living in an urban area,
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you're meant to
beef with each other
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and kill each other.
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That's all it is out here.
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Now ask yourself: Some of these
people out here killing
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their blood cousins.
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Brothers against brothers.
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Mothers against daughters.
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Fathers against sons.
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-If you choose to do this...
-[horn honks]
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...know what you're jumping
into.
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[Leroy] These young men
are on top of each other.
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You know, your enemy's
across the street,
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around the corner.
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If I'm not in my
comfortability zone,
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I will pass 101 stores.
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Like, uh, not going to that one.
I'm not going to that one.
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That one, that one,
that one, or that one.
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I'm gonna come where
I'm comfortable at.
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We see the young boys
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walking with their
girl down the street
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with their hand, hand in hand.
I can never do that.
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They just don't like us.
We go anywhere we want to.
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It's up to us
if we wanna go there,
ya feel me?
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-Like, we can go anywhere.
-Anywhere.
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It's fucked up, though,
you know what I'm sayin'?
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'Cause it's like, yo, you got
a lady you just meet and shit.
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You like, "Yo, come on.
Let me take you out to dinner."
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And she like, "Damn,
why you keep lookin'
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over ya back like that?"
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You like, "Listen, boo.
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That mean shit's real."
You know?
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What that means,
you know what I'm sayin'?
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-What's going on, bruh?
-You tryna go up the stairs?
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-He good.
Yeah, yeah. Let it go.
-Come on, brotha.
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It's all good.
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You're bound to get seen.
Everybody go to the
same restaurants,
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movie theaters, clubs.
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They walk across
the same streets.
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They drive by each other.
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Hoping that that crew
ain't out there.
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You just gotta look
over your shoulders, like,
you know...
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You just see right here, man.
I just gotta be cautious, man.
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Where I come from, man.
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If not, I'll be on
channel seven news, man.
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[female reporter] Police trying
to track down
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the gunman behind
a daylight shooting.
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A man in his 20s
shot in Dorchester.
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This follows a shocking
night of violence
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in and around Boston.
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Four different crime scenes.
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Eight people shot,
five of them killed.
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Julie Loncich's live
in Boston tonight.
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And Julie, people
just don't feel safe.
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What's been interesting
about this population
is that they're not mobile.
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They've been
in the same communities,
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the same groups,
for the last 30 to 40 years.
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So the profile of a lot of them
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happen to be young,
Black, unemployed,
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part of a group,
looking for something.
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But they have beefs
with other folks
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based on the simplest
things of respect.
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-Respect and disrespect.
-[rap beat]
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I'm an animal
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Without a leash
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Poppin' bottles
With my niggas
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You hear me?
Capisce
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They aint lying
When they tellin' you
That I'm a beast
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They aint lying
When they tellin' you
That I'm a beast
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[Dequan]
Grew up on Warren Gardens.
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You know it's a lotta,
you know, dangerous
neighborhood.
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It was rough, you know.
Shootin' everywhere.
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But, I mean, that's where
I was born and raised.
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That's where my team's at.
When I see 'em, I'ma smack
the shit out you.
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-Tell 'em, bro bro.
-Back of my hands.
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Bitch-ass nigga,
like you my bitch.
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-Fuckin' little bitch.
-[laughing] Oh, my God!
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Dirty... smell like shit.
You little fuckin' faggot.
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Talkin' all that shit, nigga.
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I had him on my birthday,
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March 21st, 1995.
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I was 15.
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I laid on the operatin' table,
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I had to get cut open
at 15 years old.
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[calming music]
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All right, which one of y'all
wanna eat and don't?
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[child yelling]
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Yo, don't even
start that yellin'.
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I'm telling you now.
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-Mom, look at my watch.
-Nice.
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You know, I sold weed,
I prostituted.
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I stripped, I gassed,
I did all that.
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Because I had to.
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I gotta survive in the streets.
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I feel like his life is
like a repeat of my life.
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[Monica Cannon] Bop is a very
ambitious young man.
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He's very passionate
about his love
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for his neighborhood,
and his friends.
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And I think his mindset
is that his friends
is his family.
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[Dequan]
I've been in a tiny home
when I was younger, like DSS.
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Then from DSS,
I've been in juvenile.
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Got committed to DUIS
til I was 18.
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I was in the streets.
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That was interfering
with school,
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so I was more focused on
the streets than school.
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It's lookin' at fancy cars,
all that money,
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I wanted to do the same thing.
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Wanted what they had.
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[music producer]
Yo, you want me to put
you up front a little bit
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-so you don't have to
wait all that time?
-Yeah.
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I got you.
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[Dequan] Moved outta the hood
when I was 15.
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Moved with my mom.
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Then in that time, 14, 15,
that's when I started rappin'.
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With this shit, with this shit
With this shit, with this shit
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Stay strapped with them 30s
We with this shit
With this shit
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With this shit
With this shit
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My niggas be ridin'
We with this shit
With this shit
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With this shit
With this shit
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[Beverly] Dequan started
hanging with guys
that I grew up with.
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I'm just like, damn,
this happened to me
a long time ago
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when I was his age.
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I don't know, something
about Warren Gardens
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that just draws him back.
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That's just his life,
you know what I mean?
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That's just how he grew up.
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[group rapping]
I'm a animal
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- Without a leash
- Yeah
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Poppin' bottles
With my niggas
242
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You hear me?
Capisce
243
00:10:08,482 --> 00:10:11,110
They ain't lying
When they tellin' you
That I'm a beast
244
00:10:11,152 --> 00:10:15,114
They ain't lying
When they tellin' you
That I'm a beast
245
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[group chattering]
246
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[Monica] Even if your children
are not involved
247
00:10:18,409 --> 00:10:19,660
in the stuff that
happens over here,
248
00:10:19,702 --> 00:10:21,829
they are involved
'cause they live over here.
249
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[police siren wailing]
250
00:10:23,164 --> 00:10:24,832
[Belinda] It was an incident
last summer,
251
00:10:24,874 --> 00:10:30,421
the little kids were all outside
that day and they came
from outta nowhere.
252
00:10:30,463 --> 00:10:32,715
A boy was sitting
right here on the steps.
253
00:10:32,757 --> 00:10:35,217
My mother was
sitting right here.
254
00:10:35,259 --> 00:10:37,845
And the boy got shot
in the chest.
255
00:10:37,887 --> 00:10:40,556
And my mother dragged him
into part of my house.
256
00:10:40,598 --> 00:10:44,185
-[Belinda's mother] Yes.
-And my windows were shot out.
257
00:10:44,644 --> 00:10:46,896
And bullets were in my house.
258
00:10:46,937 --> 00:10:50,524
My niece, I thank God
that I grabbed her that day.
259
00:10:50,816 --> 00:10:53,402
And they came up there
two minutes later,
260
00:10:53,444 --> 00:10:55,988
and they shot the boy
right there in front of--
261
00:10:56,030 --> 00:10:58,199
Right in front of everybody.
262
00:10:58,240 --> 00:11:00,493
And did not care about nothin'.
263
00:11:01,160 --> 00:11:02,495
As long as these niggas know
264
00:11:02,536 --> 00:11:04,038
that they good with me
265
00:11:04,080 --> 00:11:05,581
and I'm good with them,
266
00:11:06,040 --> 00:11:08,626
fuck, not you, but your mother,
267
00:11:08,668 --> 00:11:11,462
your uncle, your cousin,
your auntie,
268
00:11:11,504 --> 00:11:13,172
your uncle,
fuck everybody, nigga.
269
00:11:13,214 --> 00:11:17,593
This is us, nigga.
[stammers] You see, nigga,
this is a fam, nigga.
270
00:11:17,635 --> 00:11:19,845
We come out
with the same hats...
271
00:11:19,887 --> 00:11:24,058
[all exclaiming]
272
00:11:24,100 --> 00:11:26,185
We do this.
This is what we do.
273
00:11:26,227 --> 00:11:28,229
[stammers] Free the guys.
274
00:11:28,270 --> 00:11:30,898
This is our little thing,
if you didn't know, man.
275
00:11:30,940 --> 00:11:32,400
The G3 shit, this is us.
276
00:11:32,441 --> 00:11:36,904
[overlapping chatter]
277
00:11:38,114 --> 00:11:39,365
-We a family.
-We a family.
278
00:11:39,407 --> 00:11:41,409
To me, Boston gangs
are totally different
279
00:11:41,450 --> 00:11:45,287
than a Chicago,
very structured, organized gang.
280
00:11:45,329 --> 00:11:48,165
Or LA Bloods, Crips,
where's one side, east,
281
00:11:48,207 --> 00:11:50,376
or west, or south,
you know what I mean?
282
00:11:50,418 --> 00:11:52,753
Boston, historically,
has been streets.
283
00:11:52,795 --> 00:11:55,673
They identify their self
with these sports teams.
284
00:11:55,715 --> 00:11:58,592
[Alan] You got the Trailblazers,
OP Trailblazers,
285
00:11:58,634 --> 00:12:01,804
you got Mission Hill,
Michigan, you know?
286
00:12:01,846 --> 00:12:04,682
You got Green Bay
Packers, Greenwood.
287
00:12:04,724 --> 00:12:07,768
You got Drapewood, D-Boys,
everybody wear Detroit hats.
288
00:12:07,810 --> 00:12:10,271
You got Norfolk,
they wear Chicago Bulls.
You know?
289
00:12:10,312 --> 00:12:16,152
[stammers] These are the teams
you gotta pay attention to
and not wear.
290
00:12:16,193 --> 00:12:17,695
You gotta be careful
what you buy.
291
00:12:17,737 --> 00:12:22,324
[Leroy] If I'm wearing
a baseball hat,
292
00:12:22,366 --> 00:12:26,829
and we're wearing this hat to
represent our hood,
293
00:12:26,871 --> 00:12:28,122
our neighborhood,
294
00:12:28,164 --> 00:12:29,665
that's what we're doin'.
295
00:12:29,707 --> 00:12:32,710
But if that 12-year-old
is wearing that hat
296
00:12:32,752 --> 00:12:36,255
to match with his Jordans,
that's not what he's doing.
297
00:12:36,297 --> 00:12:38,716
He's wearing his hat
as a fashion statement.
298
00:12:38,758 --> 00:12:40,801
But the problem is, he may cross
299
00:12:40,843 --> 00:12:45,222
territorial lines that
he has no clue about.
300
00:12:45,264 --> 00:12:46,348
No clue about.
301
00:12:46,390 --> 00:12:48,559
And here he goes,
about his business,
302
00:12:48,601 --> 00:12:51,353
with his matching
hat and his Jordans,
303
00:12:51,395 --> 00:12:52,980
and gets killed.
304
00:12:53,022 --> 00:12:54,273
Now who's fault is that?
305
00:12:54,899 --> 00:12:57,193
Yeah, you should be able to wear
whatever hat you want.
306
00:12:57,234 --> 00:13:00,446
Unfortunately,
that's not the merry,
good-old-world we live in.
307
00:13:00,488 --> 00:13:05,618
Boston's small.
It's about 75,80,
75 killings a year.
308
00:13:05,659 --> 00:13:09,288
That's just-- yeah, I know,
that may not seem like a lot
309
00:13:09,330 --> 00:13:13,167
to other cities,
like you know, Chicago.
310
00:13:13,209 --> 00:13:14,418
We could look at Chicago.
311
00:13:14,460 --> 00:13:18,672
Five hundred men die a year.
312
00:13:19,173 --> 00:13:21,634
A year.
That's in Chicago.
313
00:13:21,675 --> 00:13:25,262
Tennessee.
Tennessee. Memphis, Tennessee.
314
00:13:25,304 --> 00:13:27,890
188 bodies a year.
315
00:13:29,266 --> 00:13:31,352
New Orleans, Louisiana.
316
00:13:31,393 --> 00:13:34,563
New Orleans, 257 bodies a year.
317
00:13:34,605 --> 00:13:35,940
And they not even
talking about the ones
318
00:13:35,981 --> 00:13:37,650
they can't even find
when you dump them
319
00:13:37,691 --> 00:13:41,862
[stammers] with the crocodiles
and alligators.
320
00:13:44,949 --> 00:13:46,992
[game chiming]
321
00:13:47,034 --> 00:13:47,952
Oh!
322
00:13:47,993 --> 00:13:50,120
And what are the odds
for you to get that, right?
323
00:13:50,162 --> 00:13:53,165
-[game chiming]
-You buying that.
That's what's up.
324
00:13:53,207 --> 00:13:55,376
[game chiming]
325
00:13:55,417 --> 00:13:57,795
-You did it. You did--
-Daddy.
326
00:13:57,837 --> 00:14:01,423
-Daddy knock it off.
-Come on, come on.
327
00:14:01,465 --> 00:14:03,384
-Where you wanna go?
-Last roll.
328
00:14:03,425 --> 00:14:05,427
We got one more roll.
Roll it one more time.
329
00:14:05,469 --> 00:14:06,470
We got one more roll, baby.
330
00:14:06,512 --> 00:14:09,682
[game chiming]
331
00:14:13,185 --> 00:14:14,395
Come on, boo.
332
00:14:14,436 --> 00:14:15,938
I'm a hell of a
father, I believe,
333
00:14:15,980 --> 00:14:19,275
but at the same time
I'm a piece of shit of a father.
334
00:14:19,692 --> 00:14:20,776
Now, I'ma keep it real with you.
335
00:14:20,818 --> 00:14:23,153
This is the honest to God truth.
336
00:14:23,195 --> 00:14:24,280
Like, yeah, I do for mines.
337
00:14:24,321 --> 00:14:26,323
I love mines.
I'd die for mines.
338
00:14:26,365 --> 00:14:29,410
There's nothing you can
tell me about my oldest
and my youngest.
339
00:14:29,451 --> 00:14:32,538
My oldest, four years old,
she just turned four
340
00:14:32,580 --> 00:14:35,374
October 31st,
she's named after me.
341
00:14:36,292 --> 00:14:38,085
Literally, my junior.
342
00:14:38,544 --> 00:14:39,920
My two different
babies' mothers,
343
00:14:39,962 --> 00:14:43,632
you know, just like an
average hood explicative.
344
00:14:44,133 --> 00:14:49,805
[stammers] You know, not really
putting my brains to the use.
345
00:14:49,847 --> 00:14:52,600
Me tryna blend in
with everybody else.
346
00:14:52,641 --> 00:14:54,268
Me tryna look cool.
347
00:14:54,310 --> 00:14:57,229
Me tryna have a reputation.
You know.
348
00:14:57,271 --> 00:14:58,981
What's up, boo boo?
349
00:15:04,528 --> 00:15:06,405
-You scored?
-Yeah!
350
00:15:06,447 --> 00:15:10,492
Yeah? Aw! Awesome, baby! Huh?
351
00:15:10,534 --> 00:15:11,702
[Mel Samuels]
These younger gentlemen,
352
00:15:11,744 --> 00:15:12,995
they're not really bad people.
353
00:15:13,037 --> 00:15:14,997
They're not animals
that they're portrayed,
354
00:15:15,039 --> 00:15:17,833
you know, in the
newspaper or on the news.
355
00:15:17,875 --> 00:15:20,753
It's hard for them
to really grasp
356
00:15:20,794 --> 00:15:22,004
the concept of love because
357
00:15:22,046 --> 00:15:23,714
they wasn't getting
the love from
358
00:15:23,756 --> 00:15:26,175
maybe a father,
as in Jordan's case,
359
00:15:26,216 --> 00:15:27,301
or, you know, a mother.
360
00:15:27,343 --> 00:15:29,595
'Cause a lot of guys now,
361
00:15:29,637 --> 00:15:31,764
you know, there mom's not
involved in their lives.
362
00:15:31,805 --> 00:15:36,894
So it's hard for these
guys to express love
363
00:15:36,936 --> 00:15:40,481
when all they know is the BS.
364
00:15:42,316 --> 00:15:45,486
The dynamics can
change when it comes to
just one person.
365
00:15:45,527 --> 00:15:48,030
[continues indistinctly]
366
00:15:48,072 --> 00:15:50,032
[Robert] The thing that was
a little controversial
367
00:15:50,074 --> 00:15:52,618
when I first started
was we were only
368
00:15:52,660 --> 00:15:54,286
gonna work with
the high-risk folks
369
00:15:54,328 --> 00:15:55,621
who are involved in shootings.
370
00:15:55,663 --> 00:15:57,957
Because the goal
of this has been
371
00:15:57,998 --> 00:16:00,042
reducing murders and shootings.
Period.
372
00:16:00,084 --> 00:16:02,336
You know Dennis got locked up
over the weekend, right?
373
00:16:02,378 --> 00:16:06,507
-[man] I know.
-When I was gone, there was
a shooting every day.
374
00:16:06,924 --> 00:16:09,051
Every day.
What I do isn't a job.
375
00:16:09,093 --> 00:16:13,013
I have to make sure this kid
doesn't get killed.
376
00:16:14,682 --> 00:16:15,933
What's that?
377
00:16:15,975 --> 00:16:19,478
[Robert] This is not a job
based on hours,
378
00:16:19,520 --> 00:16:21,480
or based on convenience.
379
00:16:21,522 --> 00:16:24,900
You have to be acceptable
and available 24/7
380
00:16:24,942 --> 00:16:26,944
because needs are 24/7.
381
00:16:26,986 --> 00:16:28,570
So I really have to say that.
382
00:16:28,612 --> 00:16:29,822
'Cause when you do that,
383
00:16:29,863 --> 00:16:32,574
the power is in the hands
of the young people.
384
00:16:32,616 --> 00:16:34,159
'Cause the young people decide
every day
385
00:16:34,201 --> 00:16:36,787
if they believe and
trust in you to show up.
386
00:16:36,829 --> 00:16:38,664
They don't know
what days I have off.
387
00:16:38,706 --> 00:16:40,874
What're you thinking?
If a kid called, I'm gonna say,
388
00:16:40,916 --> 00:16:44,294
"Hey, I can't talk to you
right now, I'm off."
389
00:16:44,336 --> 00:16:45,504
Yeah. Okay.
390
00:16:45,546 --> 00:16:47,673
Well, don't fuckin'
ever call me again.
391
00:16:47,715 --> 00:16:51,510
I'm 100%-- I'm invested
into their lives.
392
00:16:51,552 --> 00:16:53,137
That's not a job.
393
00:16:53,178 --> 00:16:55,389
That's a commitment
to your community.
394
00:16:55,431 --> 00:16:56,515
Who else will you know
395
00:16:56,557 --> 00:16:59,643
will come out into
a gang-infested,
396
00:16:59,685 --> 00:17:02,271
or a community of violence,
397
00:17:02,312 --> 00:17:04,815
walk up to these young men
398
00:17:04,857 --> 00:17:06,442
who you don't know
what could happen,
399
00:17:06,483 --> 00:17:08,235
and say, "Hey, I'm here
to help you,"
400
00:17:08,277 --> 00:17:10,946
and then take them
and turn their lives around
401
00:17:10,988 --> 00:17:12,406
and make them think different?
402
00:17:12,448 --> 00:17:16,160
[Kenney]
Is this really my community
or is this my hood?
403
00:17:16,201 --> 00:17:18,746
-Right?
-'Cause if you gon'
say it's your hood,
404
00:17:18,787 --> 00:17:20,247
you about that life.
405
00:17:20,289 --> 00:17:22,791
If you gon' say,
"It's my community,"
you love this life.
406
00:17:22,833 --> 00:17:24,251
You love that person
right there.
407
00:17:24,293 --> 00:17:26,295
You takin' care of that kid.
You see him cross the street,
408
00:17:26,336 --> 00:17:29,965
"Ay, what you doin?"
You lookin' out for
another man's kid.
409
00:17:31,050 --> 00:17:33,510
I was one of them myself,
and they know that.
410
00:17:33,552 --> 00:17:36,513
And by that, they allow me in.
You know?
411
00:17:36,555 --> 00:17:38,474
They see that,
"Oh, he's been through
412
00:17:38,515 --> 00:17:40,476
these rough times like us."
413
00:17:42,269 --> 00:17:46,148
You know, my mom showed me
how to revive her
414
00:17:46,190 --> 00:17:47,566
of overdose, man.
415
00:17:47,608 --> 00:17:50,027
She told me,
"Alan, if you ever see me,"
416
00:17:50,069 --> 00:17:52,154
you know what I mean,
"laid out with something,"
417
00:17:52,196 --> 00:17:55,032
or whatever, "wrong with me,
you put me in a tub,
418
00:17:55,074 --> 00:17:58,619
run cold water,
put salt in my mouth
and smack me."
419
00:17:58,660 --> 00:18:00,704
This is a young kid.
I'm like, "What?
420
00:18:00,746 --> 00:18:02,498
What are you talking, Mama?"
421
00:18:02,539 --> 00:18:05,084
But it happened,
and I had to do that.
422
00:18:11,840 --> 00:18:14,093
You have history
in these streets,
423
00:18:14,134 --> 00:18:15,886
and these young cats know that.
424
00:18:15,928 --> 00:18:18,180
These young cats,
a lot of them respect it.
425
00:18:18,222 --> 00:18:20,390
So you just couldn't
get a random dude
426
00:18:20,432 --> 00:18:23,644
to come and talk
to some gang member
on the corner,
427
00:18:23,685 --> 00:18:24,937
'cause they just
gonna look at him
428
00:18:24,978 --> 00:18:26,688
like he got eight heads
or somethin'.
429
00:18:26,730 --> 00:18:29,525
When we first put
streetworkers out there,
430
00:18:29,566 --> 00:18:31,902
some of the kids thought
they were police.
431
00:18:31,944 --> 00:18:33,779
Regardless of their reputations.
432
00:18:33,821 --> 00:18:35,823
And we had to get over
those hurdles
433
00:18:35,864 --> 00:18:37,783
til we got to a place of trust.
434
00:18:38,325 --> 00:18:42,329
On that note, it's good.
Let's work on these other guys
who needs help.
435
00:18:43,747 --> 00:18:45,165
Melly Mel.
436
00:18:46,083 --> 00:18:49,670
Um, my area's pretty cool.
437
00:18:49,711 --> 00:18:51,088
You know, everything's
all right.
438
00:18:51,130 --> 00:18:54,258
Most of my guys are
in a house or...
439
00:18:54,299 --> 00:18:58,220
The number one tool for
dealing with younger gentleman
440
00:18:58,262 --> 00:19:00,722
that feels that their
lives are wasted,
441
00:19:00,764 --> 00:19:04,184
or being wasted,
or lost, is tolerance.
442
00:19:04,643 --> 00:19:07,354
Oh, Mel works with StreetSafe.
443
00:19:07,396 --> 00:19:09,398
That's my mentor.
I'm not even gonna lie to you.
444
00:19:09,439 --> 00:19:14,903
We have a real
tight-knit relationship.
You know?
445
00:19:14,945 --> 00:19:18,407
When I have a situation
and I know I'm gonna move,
446
00:19:18,448 --> 00:19:20,242
it's like, you know,
as I got older, I'm matured.
447
00:19:20,284 --> 00:19:23,579
Sometimes I think about--
Sometimes I think about it.
448
00:19:23,620 --> 00:19:25,080
And I'll call him,
he'll sit there
449
00:19:25,122 --> 00:19:27,708
kickin' with me.
He'll come snatch me.
450
00:19:28,417 --> 00:19:30,460
You know? He's there.
451
00:19:31,420 --> 00:19:35,591
[Mel] Jordan'll say to you,
"Mel's is my mentor,
he's like my father."
452
00:19:35,632 --> 00:19:37,134
But, I don't look
at it that way.
453
00:19:37,176 --> 00:19:39,011
You know what I'm sayin'?
I'm not tryna be his father,
454
00:19:39,052 --> 00:19:42,264
I'm just tryna be someone
that he can depend on.
455
00:19:43,098 --> 00:19:45,350
You gotta hold on, okay?
456
00:19:45,392 --> 00:19:48,353
We did this the last time,
this was fun.
457
00:19:49,354 --> 00:19:50,522
You scared?
458
00:19:50,564 --> 00:19:53,025
[child mumbles]
459
00:19:53,066 --> 00:19:54,193
Okay, I'll hold on.
460
00:19:54,234 --> 00:19:57,279
I just gotta make sure
you hold on, okay?
461
00:19:58,030 --> 00:20:01,074
You gotta hold on
with both hands.
462
00:20:01,783 --> 00:20:03,202
[laughs] It's shaking.
463
00:20:03,243 --> 00:20:05,454
You gotta be careful.
[laughs]
464
00:20:05,495 --> 00:20:07,539
You gotta be careful!
465
00:20:07,581 --> 00:20:09,458
Oh, I got you.
466
00:20:09,499 --> 00:20:12,419
[child mumbling]
467
00:20:14,421 --> 00:20:15,339
Baby, it'll be okay.
468
00:20:15,380 --> 00:20:17,174
I'm goin' to court
for my mother now.
469
00:20:17,216 --> 00:20:19,092
I'm telling y'all now.
My mother's just--
470
00:20:19,134 --> 00:20:21,011
I'll say it on national TV,
I don't care.
471
00:20:21,053 --> 00:20:22,721
My mother's a crack addict.
472
00:20:23,263 --> 00:20:26,808
She got five sons.
I'm the middle child.
473
00:20:26,850 --> 00:20:29,603
If she knows her son,
if we out here doin' what we do,
474
00:20:29,645 --> 00:20:32,814
if we don't give her somethin',
we don't give her no money,
475
00:20:32,856 --> 00:20:34,524
no this, this and that,
476
00:20:34,566 --> 00:20:35,776
we go to jail.
477
00:20:36,568 --> 00:20:37,819
We go to jail.
478
00:20:37,861 --> 00:20:40,906
You know I'm goin' to jail
for threats right now.
479
00:20:40,948 --> 00:20:42,074
For my mother.
480
00:20:42,115 --> 00:20:44,701
When you put your hands
on my daughter
481
00:20:44,743 --> 00:20:46,078
when you was high.
482
00:20:46,119 --> 00:20:49,289
Whoever my father is,
I'ma say it on camera,
483
00:20:49,331 --> 00:20:52,209
you a piece of shit.
Whoever you are.
You know what I'm sayin'?
484
00:20:52,251 --> 00:20:54,503
My mother don't even know
who my father is,
to keep it funky.
485
00:20:54,544 --> 00:20:59,174
She'll tell you to your face,
"Yeah I had-- he was
a one-night stand."
486
00:20:59,216 --> 00:21:01,134
She was in college,
she left college
487
00:21:01,176 --> 00:21:03,220
because she got
pregnant with me.
488
00:21:03,262 --> 00:21:04,721
I don't know who my father is
489
00:21:04,763 --> 00:21:06,473
but I always said
when I have children,
490
00:21:06,515 --> 00:21:09,810
I'd be damned if I'd
be like whoever he was.
491
00:21:09,851 --> 00:21:12,312
Daddy!
492
00:21:13,438 --> 00:21:16,149
I'm so sorry!
493
00:21:16,400 --> 00:21:18,151
Oh, this is your
little roller coaster.
494
00:21:18,193 --> 00:21:19,361
You like your little ro--
495
00:21:19,403 --> 00:21:22,990
My guy Jordan,
I tell him all the time,
496
00:21:23,031 --> 00:21:25,534
"You get locked up,
who gon' take care
of your daughter?
497
00:21:25,575 --> 00:21:30,455
Nobody gon' take care of her
the way you take care of her.
Nobody."
498
00:21:30,497 --> 00:21:35,377
[Jordan] I'm only 26,
and from 17 to 26 is nine years,
and I did six.
499
00:21:35,419 --> 00:21:37,796
So that means outta
my adult life,
500
00:21:37,838 --> 00:21:39,798
I only had three on the street.
501
00:21:40,424 --> 00:21:43,510
I got two open cases now.
Psh. Keep it more real.
502
00:21:43,552 --> 00:21:45,012
That's how real it is.
503
00:21:45,053 --> 00:21:46,263
Two open cases now.
504
00:21:46,305 --> 00:21:47,973
I can't even stay out of jail
505
00:21:48,015 --> 00:21:49,558
for a good two years.
506
00:21:49,599 --> 00:21:51,935
I just went in two years ago,
507
00:21:51,977 --> 00:21:54,062
facing two attempted murders.
508
00:21:54,104 --> 00:21:56,148
Shit, I need to be
more of a father
509
00:21:56,189 --> 00:21:57,607
to my four-year-old.
510
00:21:57,649 --> 00:21:58,734
And I've been trying to do that.
511
00:21:58,775 --> 00:22:00,444
My two-year-old, that's my twin.
512
00:22:00,485 --> 00:22:02,946
[stammers] My four-year-old
looks exactly like me,
513
00:22:02,988 --> 00:22:05,741
but my two-year-old
looks so identical to me.
514
00:22:06,783 --> 00:22:09,036
-[giggles]
-She's so advanced.
515
00:22:09,077 --> 00:22:10,954
I be like, "We're going
to the neighborhood."
516
00:22:10,996 --> 00:22:13,290
She'll say,
"We're goin' to the hood?"
517
00:22:13,332 --> 00:22:15,250
And I just look at her like,
518
00:22:15,292 --> 00:22:17,669
"You're only two
talkin' like this."
519
00:22:17,711 --> 00:22:20,005
-Daddy, I love you.
-Huh?
520
00:22:20,047 --> 00:22:22,966
-I love you.
-Okay. You do?
521
00:22:23,008 --> 00:22:24,801
-Yeah.
-I love you more.
522
00:22:24,843 --> 00:22:27,095
-I love you more.
-No, I love you more.
523
00:22:27,137 --> 00:22:28,764
No, I love you more!
524
00:22:28,805 --> 00:22:30,223
I wanna get some candy!
525
00:22:30,265 --> 00:22:32,768
-We'll get you some candy.
-Okay.
526
00:22:32,809 --> 00:22:33,935
[Jordan] Okay?
527
00:22:33,977 --> 00:22:35,228
But I love you more.
528
00:22:35,270 --> 00:22:36,688
[girl] I love you more.
529
00:22:36,730 --> 00:22:38,065
[Jordan] I love you more, more.
530
00:22:38,106 --> 00:22:39,816
You gon' hold my hand
when you cross the street?
531
00:22:39,858 --> 00:22:41,985
No I'm gonna cross
the street by myself!
532
00:22:42,027 --> 00:22:44,279
You can't cross the street
by yourself.
533
00:22:44,321 --> 00:22:45,781
But there's no cars
in front of me
534
00:22:45,822 --> 00:22:48,492
and they're not
gonna run me over!
535
00:22:48,533 --> 00:22:50,160
Okay. Okay.
536
00:22:50,202 --> 00:22:52,746
[stammers] Okay.
537
00:22:53,121 --> 00:22:56,583
I don't know why Mommy
didn't put your Jordans on.
538
00:22:57,793 --> 00:22:59,419
Why ain't you put 'em on?
539
00:22:59,878 --> 00:23:04,174
Because I will get them dirty.
540
00:23:04,216 --> 00:23:05,384
[Jordan laughs]
541
00:23:05,425 --> 00:23:07,677
You didn't wanna
get them dirty?
542
00:23:07,719 --> 00:23:09,096
-Mm-mm.
-Oh. [stammers]
543
00:23:09,137 --> 00:23:12,307
You know about keeping your
sneakers clean at three, huh?
544
00:23:12,641 --> 00:23:14,684
Okay, I ain't mad at you.
545
00:23:14,726 --> 00:23:15,977
As long as you keep 'em clean.
546
00:23:16,019 --> 00:23:18,605
Come on, we're gonna get
something to eat, okay?
547
00:23:19,564 --> 00:23:20,982
[grunts] Come on.
548
00:23:21,024 --> 00:23:22,984
We're gonna go this way, okay?
549
00:23:23,026 --> 00:23:24,444
Thank you!
550
00:23:26,905 --> 00:23:29,658
[Alan] They need more men
in this area.
551
00:23:29,699 --> 00:23:32,160
'Cause a lot of these
young men, as I'm finding,
552
00:23:32,202 --> 00:23:33,203
they don't have dads.
553
00:23:33,245 --> 00:23:35,163
Some of their dads have died.
554
00:23:35,205 --> 00:23:37,999
Whether it be from
murder or sickness.
555
00:23:38,041 --> 00:23:40,877
You know?
They don't have dads at all.
556
00:23:40,919 --> 00:23:44,423
I think a heavy
presence of real men
557
00:23:44,464 --> 00:23:48,301
in their lives would
actually make an impact.
558
00:23:50,137 --> 00:23:51,596
-It's a full-stack?
-Yeah.
559
00:23:51,638 --> 00:23:54,599
-For free?
-Yeah, do whatever
you wanna do with it.
560
00:23:54,641 --> 00:23:55,725
But it's for the crib.
561
00:23:55,767 --> 00:23:56,852
How you do that?
562
00:23:56,893 --> 00:23:58,019
You gotta get on the lease.
563
00:23:58,061 --> 00:23:59,813
You and your girl
got kids together,
564
00:23:59,855 --> 00:24:02,232
so you, you know,
it's called doublin' up.
565
00:24:02,274 --> 00:24:04,192
You're doublin' up
with your parents.
566
00:24:04,234 --> 00:24:07,320
-Yeah.
-So if you get a crib,
and they sign you to the lease,
567
00:24:07,362 --> 00:24:08,530
you don't gotta begin it.
568
00:24:08,572 --> 00:24:09,948
As long as they sign you
to the lease,
569
00:24:09,990 --> 00:24:12,409
just call emergency funding.
570
00:24:12,451 --> 00:24:15,704
What if it's on
my grandmama's lease?
571
00:24:15,745 --> 00:24:17,080
Nah, it don't work like that.
572
00:24:17,122 --> 00:24:19,416
-It's for your own crib.
-Oh, all right.
573
00:24:19,458 --> 00:24:22,419
[Niko stammers] Yeah, my mother,
she wasn't really there.
574
00:24:22,461 --> 00:24:24,379
She was in and out of jail
since I was five.
575
00:24:24,421 --> 00:24:25,797
My Pops died when I was five.
576
00:24:25,839 --> 00:24:28,425
So, you put two
and two together.
577
00:24:28,467 --> 00:24:32,429
My father got killed
May 18th, 1996.
578
00:24:32,471 --> 00:24:34,181
He got into a scuffle
with some guy.
579
00:24:34,222 --> 00:24:36,016
Got the best of him.
580
00:24:36,057 --> 00:24:37,517
The guy killed him.
581
00:24:41,480 --> 00:24:43,356
It was fucked up, you know?
582
00:24:44,107 --> 00:24:45,859
Little kid losing his dad.
583
00:24:45,901 --> 00:24:47,360
I remember like
it was yesterday.
584
00:24:47,402 --> 00:24:51,323
I'll never forget stuff
like that, you know?
585
00:24:53,074 --> 00:24:54,576
I guess it happens.
586
00:24:56,661 --> 00:24:58,955
Like, for me,
it would feel like normal,
587
00:24:58,997 --> 00:25:00,874
'cause nobody around
really had a pops.
588
00:25:00,916 --> 00:25:02,417
You know what I'm sayin'?
589
00:25:02,459 --> 00:25:04,294
So when I didn't
really have a pops,
590
00:25:04,336 --> 00:25:08,131
it wasn't like
everybody got a father,
I'm not the only one.
591
00:25:08,173 --> 00:25:10,550
Nobody really had a pops.
You know what I'm sayin?
592
00:25:10,592 --> 00:25:14,221
Probably like two of us,
two people out of 30 had a pops.
You know what I'm sayin'?
593
00:25:14,262 --> 00:25:18,099
So it's like their pops
was like our pops.
594
00:25:18,141 --> 00:25:20,101
You know what I'm sayin'?
"Y'all be good, boom, boom."
595
00:25:20,143 --> 00:25:21,520
They kinda was strict.
You know what I'm sayin'?
596
00:25:21,561 --> 00:25:24,397
But it's like I'm not
really around that.
597
00:25:24,439 --> 00:25:26,024
So it was like, bruh,
of course you see it.
598
00:25:26,066 --> 00:25:28,109
Thinkin' like "Oh my pops..."
[stammers]
599
00:25:28,151 --> 00:25:29,277
"What am I supposed
to learn from?
600
00:25:29,319 --> 00:25:30,904
What was I gonna learn from?"
601
00:25:30,946 --> 00:25:32,113
You know what I'm sayin'?
602
00:25:32,155 --> 00:25:33,657
Every little child
needs his pops.
603
00:25:33,698 --> 00:25:35,951
We don't gotta get sentimental,
but it's the truth.
604
00:25:35,992 --> 00:25:37,369
Sometimes people
ain't gonna admit it,
605
00:25:37,410 --> 00:25:39,496
but at the end of the day,
you wanna know
606
00:25:39,538 --> 00:25:41,581
who your father
and your mother is.
607
00:25:41,623 --> 00:25:44,918
It's, like, corny 'cause
your father wasn't there
608
00:25:44,960 --> 00:25:47,837
and he made you,
but he ain't care.
609
00:25:47,879 --> 00:25:49,089
Who is that?
610
00:25:49,130 --> 00:25:50,674
I wanna know what he did
to make me.
611
00:25:50,715 --> 00:25:53,218
-Who was that?
-My father passed away
when I was four years old.
612
00:25:53,260 --> 00:25:56,638
-So I don't who...
-My father passed away,
613
00:25:56,680 --> 00:25:58,473
my little brother's father
passed away,
614
00:25:58,515 --> 00:26:01,851
one of my little brother's
fathers got natural life.
615
00:26:01,893 --> 00:26:02,852
Psh, all bad.
616
00:26:02,894 --> 00:26:04,813
I don't know who my father is.
617
00:26:04,854 --> 00:26:07,107
This is real life, man!
618
00:26:08,525 --> 00:26:12,112
[Donald] Young fella said to me
three days ago,
619
00:26:12,153 --> 00:26:13,738
"You know, we shootin' around,"
620
00:26:13,780 --> 00:26:16,700
and it was that first night,
it got real cold.
621
00:26:16,741 --> 00:26:20,078
And he said, you know,
he took his hat off,
622
00:26:20,120 --> 00:26:21,580
took his coat off,
and I always remember
623
00:26:21,621 --> 00:26:23,290
his mother comin' out here,
yelling at him,
624
00:26:23,331 --> 00:26:25,166
"Put your hat on,
put your coat on!"
625
00:26:25,208 --> 00:26:28,461
So, you know, I told him
to put his hat and coat on.
626
00:26:28,503 --> 00:26:30,171
Then one of the other
kids started laughing
627
00:26:30,213 --> 00:26:32,591
and was like, "I told you
he was gonna say something."
628
00:26:32,632 --> 00:26:36,011
And then he said, "Well,
Donald's like my dad."
629
00:26:36,052 --> 00:26:39,264
You know, and that--
that moved me.
630
00:26:39,306 --> 00:26:44,019
For him to say it to me,
say it to them about me,
631
00:26:44,060 --> 00:26:46,438
it was just a big deal.
632
00:26:47,564 --> 00:26:51,109
Ain't none of these guys
are committing violence for fun.
633
00:26:51,151 --> 00:26:52,360
Like, yeah, don't get me wrong,
634
00:26:52,402 --> 00:26:54,654
it might be fun
shooting somebody.
635
00:26:54,696 --> 00:26:58,908
But they're doing it
simply for a reason.
636
00:26:58,950 --> 00:27:00,577
Because it was done to them,
637
00:27:00,619 --> 00:27:01,703
or maybe they have to do it
638
00:27:01,745 --> 00:27:03,371
because they're
put in a situation
639
00:27:03,413 --> 00:27:04,706
where they gotta
stick up for themself
640
00:27:04,748 --> 00:27:07,000
and they grew up
hard in the streets.
641
00:27:07,042 --> 00:27:08,460
You know what I mean?
642
00:27:08,501 --> 00:27:12,047
And certain things led to them
in their life to be angry.
643
00:27:12,088 --> 00:27:14,466
Parents ain't
around for guidance.
644
00:27:14,507 --> 00:27:15,759
There's nobody talkin' to them.
645
00:27:15,800 --> 00:27:17,427
There's no, really,
positive role model.
646
00:27:17,469 --> 00:27:19,512
There's positive role models,
definitely.
647
00:27:19,554 --> 00:27:21,139
But it just can't be one person
648
00:27:21,181 --> 00:27:22,557
talkin' to a hundred people
649
00:27:22,599 --> 00:27:24,392
that's in a negative
state of mind.
650
00:27:24,434 --> 00:27:25,477
You get what I mean?
651
00:27:25,518 --> 00:27:27,437
[Omaira]
My name is Omaira Alicea.
652
00:27:27,479 --> 00:27:29,481
My role as a program coordinator
653
00:27:29,522 --> 00:27:33,860
is to connect young people
to programs and services
654
00:27:33,902 --> 00:27:37,572
that will immediately
facilitate their needs.
655
00:27:37,614 --> 00:27:39,532
Joe Sierra was a young man
656
00:27:39,574 --> 00:27:42,619
that was referred to me
through a street worker.
657
00:27:42,661 --> 00:27:44,412
He came to my office and he was,
658
00:27:44,454 --> 00:27:46,373
for lack of a better word,
659
00:27:46,414 --> 00:27:48,291
very rugged at the time.
660
00:27:48,333 --> 00:27:51,044
And I knew that he
could really benefit
661
00:27:51,086 --> 00:27:53,463
from being a part
of the program.
662
00:27:53,505 --> 00:27:55,256
[Joe] One day I got outta jail,
663
00:27:55,298 --> 00:27:57,759
I came to my neighborhood
and I seen a streetworker
664
00:27:57,801 --> 00:28:00,261
with a streetworker thing,
jacket,
665
00:28:00,303 --> 00:28:03,098
and I was like what is this?
666
00:28:03,556 --> 00:28:05,684
My friends was telling me that
there are people
667
00:28:05,725 --> 00:28:09,312
around here that is
trying to help us, uh,
668
00:28:09,354 --> 00:28:12,649
get our ID, get our license,
669
00:28:12,691 --> 00:28:13,983
just help us with little things
670
00:28:14,025 --> 00:28:15,276
that we need help with.
671
00:28:15,735 --> 00:28:18,154
And so I was like,
"I need help with my ID."
672
00:28:18,196 --> 00:28:20,031
Our relationship
started out with me
673
00:28:20,073 --> 00:28:21,449
taking him to get his IDs
674
00:28:21,491 --> 00:28:25,120
and I didn't think it was
that big of a deal at first,
675
00:28:25,161 --> 00:28:26,246
because to me,
676
00:28:26,287 --> 00:28:28,164
I just felt like
I was doing my job.
677
00:28:28,206 --> 00:28:30,250
But to him it felt
like so much more.
678
00:28:30,291 --> 00:28:31,668
And once he spoke
to me about it,
679
00:28:31,710 --> 00:28:34,295
I realized that it was
really deep for him.
680
00:28:34,337 --> 00:28:37,173
That getting an ID
for the first time
681
00:28:37,215 --> 00:28:39,551
was validating his existence.
682
00:28:39,592 --> 00:28:41,177
The ID meant a lot to me.
683
00:28:41,219 --> 00:28:47,142
The ID opened doors for me
to do other things in life,
so...
684
00:28:47,183 --> 00:28:48,852
You can't do nothin'
without an ID
685
00:28:48,893 --> 00:28:49,936
at the age of 21.
686
00:28:49,978 --> 00:28:51,604
So... You know?
687
00:28:52,939 --> 00:28:54,607
[Donnell sighs]
688
00:28:55,275 --> 00:28:56,860
How old are you, brother Derek?
689
00:28:56,901 --> 00:28:58,111
Twenty-seven.
690
00:29:01,823 --> 00:29:02,532
Okay.
691
00:29:02,866 --> 00:29:06,244
-What high school did you go to?
-I didn't go to any.
692
00:29:06,286 --> 00:29:08,413
You started at one
at some point, right?
693
00:29:08,455 --> 00:29:09,789
Nope.
694
00:29:10,749 --> 00:29:12,500
-Never, Jones?
-Never.
695
00:29:12,542 --> 00:29:14,919
-Not one day?
-Not one day.
696
00:29:17,922 --> 00:29:20,759
-Not one day?
-Not one day, brother.
[chuckles]
697
00:29:20,800 --> 00:29:22,844
-All right.
-[drawer clatters]
698
00:29:22,886 --> 00:29:24,345
[Donnell] You're dealing
with a situation
699
00:29:24,387 --> 00:29:26,181
where you have
a lack of resources
700
00:29:26,222 --> 00:29:27,432
in a particular community.
701
00:29:27,474 --> 00:29:31,561
You have a lack of
and/or no education.
702
00:29:31,603 --> 00:29:33,813
And when I say this,
I'm speaking of either
703
00:29:33,855 --> 00:29:36,483
the parent, the parents,
the child,
704
00:29:36,524 --> 00:29:38,359
or all of the above.
705
00:29:38,401 --> 00:29:40,570
And also, too,
you're talking about
706
00:29:40,612 --> 00:29:44,324
a climate that often fosters
707
00:29:44,365 --> 00:29:45,658
this type of behavior.
708
00:29:45,700 --> 00:29:48,369
We gotta get your GED
before the end of the year.
709
00:29:48,411 --> 00:29:49,871
Yeah, I ain't goin' to
Strideville.
710
00:29:49,913 --> 00:29:51,664
-You don't like that location.
-I don't like, I mean,
711
00:29:51,706 --> 00:29:54,834
you put me in a situation
to kill or be killed.
712
00:29:54,876 --> 00:29:56,586
-That area's hot for you.
-Psh.
713
00:29:56,628 --> 00:29:58,421
I gotta go in
Dorchester somewhere,
714
00:29:58,463 --> 00:30:00,715
I gotta go somewhere by my area.
715
00:30:01,633 --> 00:30:03,551
When it comes to the safety
of the young men
716
00:30:03,593 --> 00:30:06,679
that I'm working with,
I rely on the information
717
00:30:06,721 --> 00:30:09,098
from the guys that are
on the battlefield,
718
00:30:09,140 --> 00:30:10,558
which are the streetworkers.
719
00:30:10,600 --> 00:30:14,729
If I'm taking some guys to
BCL, Boston Career Links,
720
00:30:14,771 --> 00:30:16,815
I need to check with
my streetworkers.
721
00:30:16,856 --> 00:30:19,776
"Hey, listen, I'm taking
a group of guys down.
722
00:30:19,818 --> 00:30:22,028
Is that area gonna
be okay today?"
723
00:30:22,070 --> 00:30:24,489
Because it can change
at a second's notice.
724
00:30:24,531 --> 00:30:25,782
The streetworkers
have information
725
00:30:25,824 --> 00:30:27,909
that the police will never have.
726
00:30:27,951 --> 00:30:30,578
They have information
that no one
727
00:30:30,620 --> 00:30:31,871
in the community will ever have.
728
00:30:31,913 --> 00:30:33,498
Because they're dealing
with these young men
729
00:30:33,540 --> 00:30:36,334
on a day-to-day basis,
developing the bond.
730
00:30:36,376 --> 00:30:39,546
[Napoleon]
Me and Joe go back to the time
731
00:30:39,587 --> 00:30:41,422
he was 12 years old.
732
00:30:41,464 --> 00:30:44,509
You know, Joe,
he was an angry kid.
733
00:30:44,551 --> 00:30:47,470
[Joe] I got expelled from
all Boston public schools
734
00:30:47,512 --> 00:30:48,721
after sixth grade.
735
00:30:48,763 --> 00:30:52,058
And from, there it was
like no public school
736
00:30:52,100 --> 00:30:52,976
wanted to accept me.
737
00:30:53,017 --> 00:30:55,353
And then I was going
in and out of DYS,
738
00:30:55,395 --> 00:30:58,106
so I was going to school in DYS.
739
00:30:58,147 --> 00:31:03,236
I was working at the
Department of Youth Services.
740
00:31:03,278 --> 00:31:04,445
And, um...
741
00:31:04,487 --> 00:31:08,950
I seen how they was
treatin' the kids unfairly.
742
00:31:08,992 --> 00:31:12,495
I got committed to DYS
at the age of 13 to 18.
743
00:31:12,537 --> 00:31:14,622
I did a year, got out 30 days.
744
00:31:14,664 --> 00:31:16,666
Went back in there a year,
got out 30 days.
745
00:31:16,708 --> 00:31:18,293
Went back in there
three months, got out.
746
00:31:18,334 --> 00:31:20,128
Went back in there
six months, got out.
747
00:31:20,169 --> 00:31:22,797
[Napoleon] I said, "Joe, why you
do the things you do?"
748
00:31:22,839 --> 00:31:26,551
He's like,
"Man, Nap, I'm angry."
749
00:31:26,593 --> 00:31:28,678
[Joe] I survived them
streets by simply
750
00:31:28,720 --> 00:31:31,598
just running with my friends,
you know?
751
00:31:31,639 --> 00:31:33,641
Having a crew with
my neighborhood.
752
00:31:33,683 --> 00:31:35,643
I learned how to sell drugs,
market it,
753
00:31:35,685 --> 00:31:37,770
flip, make my money,
save my money.
754
00:31:37,812 --> 00:31:40,773
And that's how I kept
clothes on my back,
755
00:31:40,815 --> 00:31:43,359
that's how I kept
money on the side.
756
00:31:43,401 --> 00:31:44,527
That's all I knew.
757
00:31:44,569 --> 00:31:46,779
On my days off,
758
00:31:47,155 --> 00:31:49,073
um, Joe would wild out
759
00:31:49,115 --> 00:31:50,366
when I wasn't at work.
760
00:31:50,408 --> 00:31:53,119
And they used to have to
call me in.
761
00:31:53,161 --> 00:31:55,079
Psh. Man.
762
00:31:55,121 --> 00:31:56,539
It was just sad, man.
763
00:31:56,581 --> 00:31:59,042
Fightin' everyday, fightin'.
764
00:31:59,083 --> 00:32:01,002
Um, segregation.
765
00:32:01,044 --> 00:32:04,505
I spent almost a year
and a half of segregation.
766
00:32:04,547 --> 00:32:06,883
Um, segregation
is jail within jail.
767
00:32:06,925 --> 00:32:11,012
You're 23 hours in the cell,
one hour out a day.
768
00:32:11,054 --> 00:32:13,514
It's all hell.
The COs is disrespectful.
769
00:32:13,556 --> 00:32:15,266
Every time I come in
the CO was like,
770
00:32:15,308 --> 00:32:16,559
"Oh, you're back!"
771
00:32:17,101 --> 00:32:19,354
[Napoleon]
Joe was special to me, man.
772
00:32:19,395 --> 00:32:22,732
And you know,
once I won Joe's respect,
773
00:32:22,774 --> 00:32:24,400
I won everybody's respect.
774
00:32:24,442 --> 00:32:28,154
He said, "Nap, dude,
you ever been in a gang?"
775
00:32:28,196 --> 00:32:31,908
And I said... I didn't
wanna answer the question,
776
00:32:31,950 --> 00:32:34,494
but, you know, I was
keeping it real with him
777
00:32:34,535 --> 00:32:37,080
because I seen
I had his attention.
778
00:32:37,121 --> 00:32:39,999
I said, "Yeah, Joe,
I was in a gang, man.
779
00:32:40,041 --> 00:32:43,461
I started in a gang
when I was nine years old.
780
00:32:43,503 --> 00:32:46,005
It was about ten of my cousins.
781
00:32:46,047 --> 00:32:49,717
And they said,
'You're gon' be a part of this.
782
00:32:49,759 --> 00:32:51,552
You gotta get a tattoo.'"
783
00:32:52,178 --> 00:32:56,349
So we went down into one
of my cousin's basement,
784
00:32:56,391 --> 00:32:58,601
and we got tattoos.
785
00:32:59,018 --> 00:33:03,481
Um, we drank some liquor
called Martell.
786
00:33:03,940 --> 00:33:05,775
And then my cousin
put us in the car
787
00:33:05,817 --> 00:33:08,820
and said, "Yo, we gotta ride."
788
00:33:09,487 --> 00:33:11,197
And, um...
789
00:33:11,948 --> 00:33:14,826
I shot my first individual
790
00:33:14,867 --> 00:33:17,161
when I was nine years old, man.
791
00:33:23,126 --> 00:33:24,377
[hip-hop beat]
792
00:33:24,419 --> 00:33:28,965
[Dequan] Sometimes you gotta
sell weed or, you know,
other stuff.
793
00:33:29,007 --> 00:33:30,383
Late-night stuff, you know?
794
00:33:30,425 --> 00:33:32,385
In the cold, morning time.
795
00:33:33,302 --> 00:33:35,013
We havin' drama with people.
796
00:33:35,054 --> 00:33:35,847
You know.
797
00:33:35,888 --> 00:33:37,682
Lotta guns and stuff.
798
00:33:37,724 --> 00:33:40,059
Goin' to war with each other
and all that.
799
00:33:40,101 --> 00:33:41,811
At the same time,
you gotta worry
800
00:33:41,853 --> 00:33:43,688
about losing your life.
801
00:33:43,730 --> 00:33:46,315
Then you gotta worry
about the police coming,
802
00:33:46,357 --> 00:33:47,567
goin' to jail.
803
00:33:48,484 --> 00:33:50,361
I've been at Nash and South Bay.
804
00:33:50,403 --> 00:33:52,155
For my shootin' I was in Nash,
805
00:33:52,196 --> 00:33:55,074
then for my gun
I was in South Bay.
806
00:33:57,160 --> 00:33:58,703
Gotta follow COs.
807
00:33:58,745 --> 00:34:00,246
They tell you when to come out,
808
00:34:00,288 --> 00:34:01,831
tell you when to eat.
809
00:34:01,873 --> 00:34:02,832
All type of stuff.
810
00:34:03,124 --> 00:34:05,960
-It's mad dumb stuff.
-[kids laughing, yelling]
811
00:34:06,002 --> 00:34:07,670
[Dequan]
I talk to my little brothers.
812
00:34:07,712 --> 00:34:10,840
But I be tellin' them,
"You don't wanna be like me.
813
00:34:10,882 --> 00:34:12,967
You don't wanna be
in my predicament."
814
00:34:13,009 --> 00:34:15,428
'Cause three of 'em,
two little ones,
815
00:34:15,470 --> 00:34:17,388
one big one,
I be tellin' the big one,
816
00:34:17,430 --> 00:34:18,723
"Help out Mama.
817
00:34:18,765 --> 00:34:21,476
Take out the trash for her,
help her out."
818
00:34:21,517 --> 00:34:23,561
[indistinct chatter]
819
00:34:23,603 --> 00:34:25,480
[Dequan]
Their pops is not there.
820
00:34:25,521 --> 00:34:28,357
I'm like their pops/brother.
821
00:34:28,399 --> 00:34:29,525
I'm showin' them, you know,
822
00:34:29,567 --> 00:34:31,486
the right things
to do and stuff.
823
00:34:31,944 --> 00:34:35,573
When I was 17 years old,
I caught a charge,
824
00:34:35,615 --> 00:34:36,741
a drug charge.
825
00:34:36,783 --> 00:34:39,202
That was my first adult case,
and...
826
00:34:39,243 --> 00:34:42,288
the adult system,
I probably did almost,
827
00:34:42,330 --> 00:34:45,458
I'd say almost about
six years all together.
828
00:34:45,958 --> 00:34:48,086
The feds give you 18 months
for every charge
829
00:34:48,127 --> 00:34:50,671
you've been convicted
of on your record.
830
00:34:50,713 --> 00:34:51,756
I've been convicted of 12.
831
00:34:51,798 --> 00:34:53,257
So what's that telling you?
832
00:34:53,299 --> 00:34:54,425
Uh, I'm not-- Psh.
833
00:34:54,467 --> 00:34:57,261
Okay, I can't even do those
type of numbers in my head.
834
00:34:57,303 --> 00:34:59,847
I don't even wanna do those
type of numbers in my head.
835
00:34:59,889 --> 00:35:01,891
I don't even wanna
think about it.
836
00:35:01,933 --> 00:35:03,434
Like, police don't give
a fuck out here.
837
00:35:03,476 --> 00:35:05,770
They don't care about you.
Don't tryna make it seem like,
838
00:35:05,812 --> 00:35:08,940
Oh, police is Boston, police,
you got Boston's finest now.
839
00:35:08,981 --> 00:35:10,191
Tryna make it seem
like they give a fuck.
840
00:35:10,233 --> 00:35:11,651
They don't care,
they don't do shit.
841
00:35:11,692 --> 00:35:13,653
I get pulled over,
"What you doin'?
842
00:35:13,694 --> 00:35:15,822
When you goin' back to jail?
When you gettin' killed?"
843
00:35:15,863 --> 00:35:17,073
That's the first
thing they sayin':
844
00:35:17,115 --> 00:35:18,658
"What you doin'?"
You know what I'm sayin'?
845
00:35:18,699 --> 00:35:19,951
I go in the white neighborhood,
846
00:35:19,992 --> 00:35:21,661
I get pulled over in
a white neighborhood,
847
00:35:21,702 --> 00:35:23,079
first thing that comes out
their mouth is, "Nigga".
848
00:35:23,121 --> 00:35:25,081
I got out from doin'
a year and a half.
849
00:35:25,123 --> 00:35:28,084
Two days later,
I committed a crime.
850
00:35:28,126 --> 00:35:29,877
Two days later, I committed
a crime.
851
00:35:29,919 --> 00:35:31,796
It was an armed robbery.
852
00:35:31,838 --> 00:35:34,048
And I went to jail
and I did another year.
853
00:35:34,090 --> 00:35:38,052
And when I went back in
in the three [mumbles],
854
00:35:38,094 --> 00:35:41,597
the COs came
with my property bag
855
00:35:41,639 --> 00:35:44,934
from my last jail sentence.
856
00:35:44,976 --> 00:35:46,853
They came with the property bag
857
00:35:46,894 --> 00:35:49,021
from my last jail sentence
doing a year and a half,
858
00:35:49,063 --> 00:35:50,606
and they came
and brought it to me
859
00:35:50,648 --> 00:35:52,733
like, "Look, you ain't
even last a month.
860
00:35:52,775 --> 00:35:53,943
We still got your jail..."
861
00:35:53,985 --> 00:35:55,236
I didn't even have
to order nothin'.
862
00:35:55,278 --> 00:35:56,904
My shoes was there,
my boxers there,
863
00:35:56,946 --> 00:35:58,364
my soap, everything was there
864
00:35:58,406 --> 00:36:01,492
from the last bid I did.
865
00:36:01,534 --> 00:36:02,910
I think about that to this day,
866
00:36:02,952 --> 00:36:05,663
like, that is sad, man.
867
00:36:05,705 --> 00:36:08,207
I look at the system
as modern-day slavery.
868
00:36:08,249 --> 00:36:09,876
-You know what I'm sayin'?
-Word.
869
00:36:09,917 --> 00:36:11,252
It's like, you know?
870
00:36:11,294 --> 00:36:13,921
They lock us up,
you know what I'm sayin'?
871
00:36:13,963 --> 00:36:17,091
They make thousands of,
thousand dollars a year
872
00:36:17,133 --> 00:36:20,261
per each man that fills the bed.
You know what I'm sayin'?
873
00:36:20,303 --> 00:36:24,891
And then they send us back into
the community on bracelets.
874
00:36:24,932 --> 00:36:26,225
You know what I'm sayin'?
875
00:36:26,267 --> 00:36:28,394
It's like, all right,
you think that's safe.
876
00:36:28,436 --> 00:36:30,938
Okay, it's a catch-22.
You know what I'm sayin'?
877
00:36:30,980 --> 00:36:32,190
Because you gotta think,
878
00:36:32,231 --> 00:36:34,567
you on a bracelet,
now somebody could know
879
00:36:34,609 --> 00:36:35,943
when you gotta come home.
880
00:36:35,985 --> 00:36:38,988
You have a GPS monitor,
you have a bracelet on.
881
00:36:39,030 --> 00:36:40,907
Well, you know what
comes with a bracelet?
882
00:36:40,948 --> 00:36:41,949
A curfew.
883
00:36:41,991 --> 00:36:44,035
So if I know that you're
on a bracelet,
884
00:36:44,076 --> 00:36:46,120
I could just be at your house
at seven o'clock
885
00:36:46,162 --> 00:36:48,080
because you have to be home.
886
00:36:48,122 --> 00:36:49,540
So I'll be there at 6:00.
887
00:36:49,582 --> 00:36:53,002
I'll make myself a sandwich,
and I'ma get in your bushes.
888
00:36:53,044 --> 00:36:55,213
And I know you comin'
through that door
889
00:36:55,254 --> 00:36:58,299
because you'll be locked up
if you ain't there by 7:00.
890
00:36:58,341 --> 00:37:01,135
So when they created
this great device,
891
00:37:01,177 --> 00:37:04,263
they didn't factor that.
They don't care about that.
892
00:37:05,139 --> 00:37:08,976
[Niko] When I sold drugs,
did I think about getting
caught?
893
00:37:09,018 --> 00:37:13,356
No. Not til I was in the
motherfuckin' holding cell.
894
00:37:13,397 --> 00:37:15,107
What up, Tay?
895
00:37:17,109 --> 00:37:18,819
I know how to sell drugs.
896
00:37:18,861 --> 00:37:21,822
I'm not gonna
sugarcoat anything.
897
00:37:21,864 --> 00:37:25,493
So I though I was, you know,
a big-shot guy, man.
898
00:37:25,534 --> 00:37:26,786
[rap beat]
899
00:37:26,827 --> 00:37:28,371
These niggas watching
My every move
900
00:37:28,412 --> 00:37:30,414
My every move
My every move
901
00:37:30,456 --> 00:37:32,041
These niggas watching
My every move
902
00:37:32,083 --> 00:37:33,751
These hoes watching
My every move
903
00:37:33,793 --> 00:37:36,295
These cops watching
My every move
904
00:37:36,337 --> 00:37:38,464
-[young boy] What?
-Who did it?
905
00:37:38,506 --> 00:37:39,215
You did?
906
00:37:39,257 --> 00:37:41,884
[boy] No, he was just like...
907
00:37:41,926 --> 00:37:43,552
[little boy mumbles] Up there!
908
00:37:44,220 --> 00:37:48,015
-Don't call that
nasty-looking cat down here.
-[little boy chattering]
909
00:37:48,057 --> 00:37:51,936
[Beverly] They need me,
so if I flip out and go
somewhere,
910
00:37:51,978 --> 00:37:53,813
jail or somethin',
who's gonna help them?
911
00:37:53,854 --> 00:37:55,189
You know?
912
00:37:55,856 --> 00:37:59,819
From 1995 to 2003,
913
00:37:59,860 --> 00:38:04,907
I've been from DYS
to the big-girl jail, and...
914
00:38:04,949 --> 00:38:09,161
The last time
I had to do a bid,
almost two years,
915
00:38:09,203 --> 00:38:10,579
was like 18 months.
916
00:38:10,621 --> 00:38:13,874
My son said,
"I'm not comin' to see you
no more."
917
00:38:13,916 --> 00:38:16,002
And I was like, well, you know,
"Why?"
918
00:38:16,043 --> 00:38:18,462
I kinda understood because
it's jail, you know,
919
00:38:18,504 --> 00:38:22,883
I'm thinkin' maybe
it's scary to him
and stuff like that.
920
00:38:22,925 --> 00:38:25,886
And he's just like,
"I can't come back and see you."
921
00:38:25,928 --> 00:38:27,305
So I'm like,
"Why you can't come back?
922
00:38:27,346 --> 00:38:29,348
Why you don't wanna
come back and see me?"
923
00:38:29,390 --> 00:38:32,184
He said, "Because you
can't get on the elevator
924
00:38:32,226 --> 00:38:33,436
and leave with me."
925
00:38:33,477 --> 00:38:35,354
[voice breaking] You know,
that bothered me a lot.
926
00:38:35,396 --> 00:38:39,608
I'm like, "You know what,
I gotta get outta here
927
00:38:39,650 --> 00:38:42,028
and stay focused on my kid."
928
00:38:42,069 --> 00:38:43,195
You know what I'm sayin'?
929
00:38:43,237 --> 00:38:46,741
I can't keep comin'
back in here.
930
00:38:47,575 --> 00:38:48,826
[Dequan] My mom's strong.
931
00:38:48,868 --> 00:38:51,620
She's one of the strongest
womans I know.
932
00:38:51,662 --> 00:38:53,039
Been through a lot, struggle,
933
00:38:53,080 --> 00:38:55,166
but still holdin' on.
934
00:38:55,875 --> 00:38:58,586
Um, I used to go up
to South Bay to see her
935
00:38:58,627 --> 00:39:00,296
with my grandfather.
936
00:39:00,338 --> 00:39:01,797
Always, I didn't wanna leave,
937
00:39:01,839 --> 00:39:03,841
I wanted her
to come home with me,
938
00:39:03,883 --> 00:39:05,343
but she couldn't.
939
00:39:05,926 --> 00:39:10,431
Then she came home,
got in contact with me.
940
00:39:11,015 --> 00:39:13,601
Then from there,
we built and got strong.
941
00:39:14,393 --> 00:39:18,356
[Beverly]
Once I got custody of him,
it felt good.
942
00:39:18,814 --> 00:39:20,608
Because I had other kids too
943
00:39:20,649 --> 00:39:23,903
and we was all under one roof,
944
00:39:23,944 --> 00:39:25,196
and I felt like a queen.
945
00:39:25,237 --> 00:39:28,407
Because I'm the only girl
and it's four boys.
946
00:39:28,449 --> 00:39:33,162
So they stress me out,
all four of 'em.
947
00:39:33,204 --> 00:39:35,164
Dequan still stress me out too.
948
00:39:35,206 --> 00:39:36,791
But I love 'em. They're mine.
949
00:39:36,832 --> 00:39:39,668
I got 4 C-sections.
Those are my kids.
950
00:39:39,710 --> 00:39:41,629
Got a four pound
You gon' hear it quakin'
951
00:39:41,670 --> 00:39:43,798
This mack will make 'em
Do the Harlem Shake
952
00:39:43,839 --> 00:39:45,883
[mumbles]
I be gettin' baked...
953
00:39:45,925 --> 00:39:47,134
Damn. One more time.
954
00:39:47,176 --> 00:39:49,178
-Do it one more time.
-[producer] All right, I got it.
955
00:39:49,220 --> 00:39:51,972
[Beverly] That better not be
what you're performing
at the show.
956
00:39:52,014 --> 00:39:53,265
I got so much stuff
I'm performing.
957
00:39:53,307 --> 00:39:55,101
[Beverly]
Okay, you can't do that.
958
00:39:55,142 --> 00:39:57,895
Yeah, I can. Yeah, I can.
What you talkin' about?
959
00:39:57,937 --> 00:39:59,438
You can't be like,
"I'ma start that over."
960
00:39:59,480 --> 00:40:01,816
No, you can't.
They gon' kick you right off.
961
00:40:01,857 --> 00:40:03,192
I told my momma
Ain't givin' up
962
00:40:03,234 --> 00:40:05,069
Just be patient
We gon' live it up
963
00:40:05,111 --> 00:40:06,946
This is my time, nigga
Give it up
964
00:40:06,987 --> 00:40:09,031
I make niggas
Cleanin' niggas up
965
00:40:09,073 --> 00:40:11,534
I catch a homicide
Broad-day with no hoodie on
966
00:40:11,575 --> 00:40:13,702
- Don't give a fuck
- ...not just being patient
967
00:40:13,744 --> 00:40:17,540
We gon' live it up
This is my time, nigga
Give it up
968
00:40:17,581 --> 00:40:19,500
[light music]
969
00:40:20,167 --> 00:40:22,336
[Beverly] He posts pictures
of me on Facebook,
970
00:40:22,378 --> 00:40:24,839
"I love my mother,"
"My fly mother."
971
00:40:24,880 --> 00:40:26,715
I be like,
"Yeah you know you got
972
00:40:26,757 --> 00:40:28,509
that fly mother."
973
00:40:28,551 --> 00:40:29,343
And stuff.
974
00:40:29,385 --> 00:40:31,095
But I love my son, man.
975
00:40:31,137 --> 00:40:34,932
I just wish I had a chance
to raise them, you know?
976
00:40:34,974 --> 00:40:37,268
Probably woulda been
a little different.
977
00:40:38,102 --> 00:40:41,021
I feel like those that wait
978
00:40:41,063 --> 00:40:43,232
will be rewarded at the end.
979
00:40:43,274 --> 00:40:45,401
All you gotta do
is have patience.
980
00:40:45,443 --> 00:40:47,653
Gotta keep keepin' at every day.
981
00:40:47,695 --> 00:40:51,323
Stayin' patient,
stayin' patient,
stayin' patient.
982
00:40:52,616 --> 00:40:55,661
[inspiring music]
983
00:40:56,454 --> 00:40:59,999
Tired of everything
984
00:41:04,378 --> 00:41:09,633
All the words, all the words
All the words
985
00:41:10,217 --> 00:41:13,846
I'm so tired
986
00:41:14,638 --> 00:41:20,519
Tired, tired, tired
Tired, tired
987
00:41:24,482 --> 00:41:25,691
All the words
988
00:41:25,733 --> 00:41:27,902
All the hard
989
00:41:28,527 --> 00:41:32,364
All the birdies
All the words
990
00:41:33,115 --> 00:41:37,369
Tired, tired, tired
Tired, tired
991
00:41:46,045 --> 00:41:47,880
Each of y'all, we got a packet.
992
00:41:48,172 --> 00:41:50,925
Um, start on the first page.
993
00:41:51,467 --> 00:41:54,220
We got six active guys.
994
00:41:54,261 --> 00:41:55,930
Amongst the six active,
995
00:41:56,347 --> 00:42:00,142
um, we have two
that are in need of GEDs.
996
00:42:00,184 --> 00:42:03,646
LU-26 is currently
employed part-time,
997
00:42:03,687 --> 00:42:07,066
but again,
does not receive enough hours
to be financially stable.
998
00:42:07,107 --> 00:42:08,692
But, you know, he's been
stayin' out of trouble.
999
00:42:08,734 --> 00:42:11,320
He's goin' to work,
you know what I mean?
1000
00:42:11,362 --> 00:42:13,739
This would be such a waste
and shame if he lost--
1001
00:42:13,781 --> 00:42:16,325
[Donnell] Lost all the-- yeah.
All the-- yeah.
1002
00:42:16,367 --> 00:42:18,911
[Marta]
My name is Marta Rivera.
I'm the Service Delivery Manager
1003
00:42:18,953 --> 00:42:20,329
for StreetSafe Boston.
1004
00:42:20,371 --> 00:42:21,664
As a service delivery manager,
1005
00:42:21,705 --> 00:42:23,415
I work with the
program coordinators.
1006
00:42:23,457 --> 00:42:26,085
I help to identify
service providers
1007
00:42:26,126 --> 00:42:28,587
and employers that'll
work with our clients.
1008
00:42:28,629 --> 00:42:31,048
-[Donnell over phone]
Hey, Marta.
-Hey, Donell.
1009
00:42:31,090 --> 00:42:34,343
Did you have a chance
to talk to Marcel?
1010
00:42:34,385 --> 00:42:35,678
No, I called him
a couple of times.
1011
00:42:35,719 --> 00:42:38,055
-I have not gotten to him.
-Okay.
1012
00:42:38,097 --> 00:42:40,224
Could you make that priority,
please?
1013
00:42:40,266 --> 00:42:42,101
I don't want the day
to go by without knowing
1014
00:42:42,142 --> 00:42:43,686
why he didn't show up.
1015
00:42:44,103 --> 00:42:46,105
My entire life has been about
1016
00:42:46,146 --> 00:42:48,857
improving the conditions
for families
1017
00:42:48,899 --> 00:42:49,984
living in Boston.
1018
00:42:50,025 --> 00:42:52,111
In 1993, July 2nd, 1993,
1019
00:42:52,152 --> 00:42:54,822
I lost my 19-year-old brother
to gang violence.
1020
00:42:54,863 --> 00:42:56,156
And, um...
1021
00:42:56,198 --> 00:42:59,618
Yeah, so I do this as a way
to sort of pay him homage.
1022
00:43:06,292 --> 00:43:11,630
My father died
when I was five years old.
1023
00:43:12,214 --> 00:43:13,591
He was 24.
1024
00:43:14,174 --> 00:43:17,845
I'm about to be 24 and
my son is five years old.
1025
00:43:17,886 --> 00:43:19,680
So that's kinda hairy, you know?
1026
00:43:20,222 --> 00:43:23,726
My son is the same age
as I was when my father died.
1027
00:43:24,310 --> 00:43:26,770
I just hope history
doesn't repeats itself.
1028
00:43:26,812 --> 00:43:28,522
[bird squawks]
1029
00:43:30,566 --> 00:43:33,736
-[dramatic music]
-[Robert] When you start
to think about
1030
00:43:33,777 --> 00:43:37,323
the climate of the city
during the late '80s
and the '90s,
1031
00:43:37,364 --> 00:43:42,202
you know, in 1989, we had,
I think, 152 people murdered
1032
00:43:42,244 --> 00:43:43,829
in the city of Boston.
1033
00:43:43,871 --> 00:43:44,913
Shootings were up.
1034
00:43:44,955 --> 00:43:46,665
The epidemic of crack cocaine
1035
00:43:46,707 --> 00:43:50,628
was just so prevalent
through our communities.
1036
00:43:50,669 --> 00:43:52,338
And at that time,
folks were fighting
1037
00:43:52,379 --> 00:43:54,757
around turf
and fighting around drugs.
1038
00:43:54,798 --> 00:43:58,218
[Conan] This city has a history
of doing street work.
1039
00:43:58,260 --> 00:43:59,470
During the earlier times,
1040
00:43:59,511 --> 00:44:02,514
they had this thing
called a Boston Miracle.
1041
00:44:03,182 --> 00:44:04,558
And the Boston Miracle was that,
1042
00:44:04,600 --> 00:44:06,810
I think it was a year
to 18 months
1043
00:44:06,852 --> 00:44:08,896
where there wasn't
a death that happened.
1044
00:44:08,937 --> 00:44:12,149
And a lot of people
was high-fivin' and, you know...
1045
00:44:12,399 --> 00:44:16,612
[stammers] It was a great thing
for our community nonetheless.
1046
00:44:16,654 --> 00:44:21,700
However, it wasn't just about
people doin' street work
1047
00:44:21,742 --> 00:44:26,205
or reverends talkin' to
people on the street.
1048
00:44:26,246 --> 00:44:28,165
It had more of a reality
1049
00:44:28,207 --> 00:44:31,210
of it was a mass incarceration.
1050
00:44:32,670 --> 00:44:34,630
It was different police agencies
1051
00:44:34,672 --> 00:44:36,799
that collaborated together.
1052
00:44:36,840 --> 00:44:39,510
That knew who
the impact people were.
1053
00:44:39,551 --> 00:44:42,304
That knew who the folks were
that was involved
1054
00:44:42,346 --> 00:44:45,140
in the violence
and the drug transactions
1055
00:44:45,182 --> 00:44:46,225
in the city.
1056
00:44:46,266 --> 00:44:47,935
And they collaborated
1057
00:44:48,519 --> 00:44:50,187
and made a mass incarceration.
1058
00:44:50,229 --> 00:44:52,773
-[clattering]
-[officer] Let's go, let's go!
1059
00:44:52,815 --> 00:44:54,775
[Conan] They locked up
a lot of people.
1060
00:44:54,817 --> 00:44:57,277
And from that,
there wasn't no violence
1061
00:44:57,319 --> 00:44:58,779
that happened as a result.
1062
00:44:58,821 --> 00:45:01,990
But the reality
that we see today,
1063
00:45:02,574 --> 00:45:05,994
is some of the results
that come from that.
1064
00:45:06,036 --> 00:45:08,372
And what I mean by that is this:
1065
00:45:08,414 --> 00:45:11,375
because they didn't
service the community,
1066
00:45:11,417 --> 00:45:13,502
because it was an after effect
1067
00:45:13,544 --> 00:45:15,963
of servicing
and being deliberate
1068
00:45:16,004 --> 00:45:17,589
and focused on the services
1069
00:45:17,631 --> 00:45:20,050
as it was on the arrests.
1070
00:45:21,093 --> 00:45:23,929
This one area that had one gang
1071
00:45:24,430 --> 00:45:25,556
now has twelve.
1072
00:45:25,597 --> 00:45:29,059
The city who probably
once had 50 gangs,
1073
00:45:29,101 --> 00:45:31,854
or 40 gangs, or 30
1074
00:45:31,895 --> 00:45:33,939
now has 128.
1075
00:45:37,568 --> 00:45:41,280
[hip-hop beat]
1076
00:45:45,576 --> 00:45:47,911
[man] Give you five seconds,
come on.
1077
00:45:47,953 --> 00:45:52,416
Five, four, three,
1078
00:45:52,458 --> 00:45:53,751
two, one.
1079
00:45:53,792 --> 00:45:57,379
[Joe] I got outta jail, so I had
a trust pass in my neighborhood.
1080
00:45:57,421 --> 00:45:58,797
So I was like, "You know what,
1081
00:45:58,839 --> 00:46:01,425
I'm just gonna work out
and I'm gonna be all in--"
1082
00:46:01,467 --> 00:46:04,511
[stammers] I was selling drugs.
1083
00:46:04,553 --> 00:46:06,889
I was working out
and selling drugs.
1084
00:46:06,930 --> 00:46:09,516
After I was working out
at the YMCA,
1085
00:46:09,558 --> 00:46:12,269
from StreetSafe giving me
the YMCA passes,
1086
00:46:12,311 --> 00:46:15,689
I was so tired that
when people called me,
1087
00:46:15,731 --> 00:46:18,776
like clientele
called me for drugs,
1088
00:46:18,817 --> 00:46:20,360
I was so tired that I was like,
1089
00:46:20,402 --> 00:46:22,529
"Man, I don't feel like
goin' down there to sell.
1090
00:46:22,571 --> 00:46:24,031
I don't feel like going down
to give them drugs."
1091
00:46:24,072 --> 00:46:25,532
I went home to sleep.
1092
00:46:25,574 --> 00:46:27,201
And that kept me out of trouble.
1093
00:46:27,242 --> 00:46:28,619
[Omaira]
You know, I really thought
1094
00:46:28,660 --> 00:46:30,496
that he had a gift to
share with the world
1095
00:46:30,537 --> 00:46:33,916
and that's a sentiment
that not only I share,
1096
00:46:33,957 --> 00:46:37,377
but Jon of Inner-City
Weightlifting shares as well.
1097
00:46:37,419 --> 00:46:39,505
You know, he really thinks
that all young people
1098
00:46:39,546 --> 00:46:41,256
have a talent as well.
1099
00:46:42,049 --> 00:46:45,552
[Jon] I think one of the things
that makes our program
somewhat unique
1100
00:46:45,594 --> 00:46:47,346
along with organizations
like StreetSafe,
1101
00:46:47,387 --> 00:46:48,847
is that we don't
necessarily assume
1102
00:46:48,889 --> 00:46:51,558
we know what's best
for our students.
1103
00:46:51,600 --> 00:46:53,143
Their lives are so complex
1104
00:46:53,185 --> 00:46:54,436
and they're up against barriers
1105
00:46:54,478 --> 00:46:56,522
that, fortunately,
very few of us
1106
00:46:56,563 --> 00:46:59,775
will ever see ourselves
or fully understand.
1107
00:46:59,817 --> 00:47:01,443
So what we do is we empower them
1108
00:47:01,485 --> 00:47:03,737
to try to make
positive decisions
1109
00:47:03,779 --> 00:47:05,364
and find those
positive solutions
1110
00:47:05,405 --> 00:47:08,325
around the significant
challenges they face.
1111
00:47:08,367 --> 00:47:10,744
[Joe] I got introduced
to Jon a week later.
1112
00:47:10,786 --> 00:47:12,162
He seemed like a cool dude.
1113
00:47:12,204 --> 00:47:13,288
He's pretty small.
1114
00:47:13,330 --> 00:47:14,748
I was like, "Man, I don't know.
1115
00:47:14,790 --> 00:47:16,500
I don't know about this dude."
1116
00:47:16,542 --> 00:47:18,252
He said he could come
pick me up tomorrow.
1117
00:47:18,293 --> 00:47:20,379
When he came,
picked me up tomorrow,
1118
00:47:20,420 --> 00:47:22,422
every day, he came and got me.
We worked out.
1119
00:47:22,464 --> 00:47:24,216
From workin' out, you know,
1120
00:47:24,258 --> 00:47:25,634
he laughed with me,
talked to me,
1121
00:47:25,676 --> 00:47:28,262
showed me love,
brought me out to eat.
1122
00:47:29,012 --> 00:47:32,432
-[man] Two!
-[Jon] As you start working out
with someone,
1123
00:47:32,474 --> 00:47:34,518
you're not seeing
each other based on
1124
00:47:34,560 --> 00:47:37,563
this person's from this area
or that person's from that area,
1125
00:47:37,604 --> 00:47:40,732
this person's made some
decision in their past
1126
00:47:40,774 --> 00:47:41,859
that was a bad decision.
1127
00:47:41,900 --> 00:47:43,944
You see them as
the people they are.
1128
00:47:53,787 --> 00:47:55,455
Boom!
Come back to your face.
1129
00:47:55,497 --> 00:47:57,791
Cover up.
You know what I'm sayin'?
1130
00:47:57,833 --> 00:47:59,543
Curl up.
You gotta protect your face.
1131
00:47:59,585 --> 00:48:02,045
Come back and protect your face.
That's what you need to protect.
1132
00:48:02,087 --> 00:48:04,590
When you punch,
you go like this
and you bring it back.
1133
00:48:04,631 --> 00:48:07,426
You need to punch it
and bring it straight back.
Come on.
1134
00:48:07,467 --> 00:48:09,636
In the gym, I go to the gym,
it's just business.
1135
00:48:09,678 --> 00:48:12,055
You know what I'm sayin'?
I'm tryna become
that fitness trainer,
1136
00:48:12,097 --> 00:48:14,641
I'm tryna get that
six-figures, man.
I need that, man.
1137
00:48:14,683 --> 00:48:17,060
You know what I'm sayin'?
That's a quick hustle
right quick.
1138
00:48:17,102 --> 00:48:18,979
Keep the hustle, man,
change the product.
1139
00:48:19,021 --> 00:48:19,771
Man, you know?
1140
00:48:19,813 --> 00:48:22,900
Give me left, left.
1141
00:48:22,941 --> 00:48:25,861
I've come from a neighborhood
where it's Black or Spanish.
1142
00:48:25,903 --> 00:48:29,406
We don't like white--
We're not racist,
don't get me wrong,
1143
00:48:29,448 --> 00:48:30,741
but we don't trust white people
1144
00:48:30,782 --> 00:48:32,993
'cause either they cops, judges,
1145
00:48:33,035 --> 00:48:37,706
COs, they're law enforcements,
or they're crack heads
1146
00:48:37,748 --> 00:48:39,124
comin' to buy drugs from us.
1147
00:48:39,166 --> 00:48:42,544
You know, I was just exposed
to a different world.
1148
00:48:42,586 --> 00:48:44,463
So as a time, goin' with Jon,
1149
00:48:44,504 --> 00:48:47,633
I started changing
and, you know,
1150
00:48:47,674 --> 00:48:50,552
like with him and Omaira.
they all taught me that
1151
00:48:50,594 --> 00:48:53,221
just because I got
a street background,
1152
00:48:53,263 --> 00:48:54,765
I got felonies, and tattoos,
1153
00:48:54,806 --> 00:48:57,768
that doesn't mean
I can't make it.
1154
00:48:57,809 --> 00:49:00,103
That that stuff shouldn't
hold me back.
1155
00:49:00,145 --> 00:49:02,147
As I went to get my GED,
1156
00:49:02,981 --> 00:49:05,275
Jon came back and said
he was gonna hire me
1157
00:49:05,317 --> 00:49:06,568
for assistant manager.
1158
00:49:06,610 --> 00:49:08,820
So I was like,
"Ah, it's beautiful."
1159
00:49:08,862 --> 00:49:10,697
It's the best job ever,
you know?
1160
00:49:10,739 --> 00:49:12,866
There's nothing better
than having a job
1161
00:49:12,908 --> 00:49:16,078
and loving what you do,
you know?
1162
00:49:16,119 --> 00:49:17,704
I been out of jail
for two years now.
1163
00:49:17,746 --> 00:49:19,957
This is the longest time
I ever been outta jail.
1164
00:49:19,998 --> 00:49:23,835
I never been out more than
a month and a half.
1165
00:49:24,544 --> 00:49:28,632
[Omaira] When I was a kid,
when I was about two,
almost three years old,
1166
00:49:28,674 --> 00:49:34,596
my father, who was a petty
drug dealer at the time,
1167
00:49:34,638 --> 00:49:38,892
um, he was robbed and murdered.
1168
00:49:38,934 --> 00:49:42,562
And shortly after that,
1169
00:49:42,604 --> 00:49:44,940
my mother had
a really challenging time
1170
00:49:44,982 --> 00:49:47,609
raising my older sister and I.
1171
00:49:47,651 --> 00:49:52,447
And for much of
our formative years, um,
1172
00:49:52,489 --> 00:49:54,324
and well into my teenage years,
1173
00:49:54,366 --> 00:49:56,326
and even into my adult years,
1174
00:49:56,368 --> 00:49:58,453
my mother's been a drug addict.
1175
00:49:58,996 --> 00:50:02,624
And so I know personally
what it's like
1176
00:50:02,666 --> 00:50:04,584
to grow up without a father.
1177
00:50:04,626 --> 00:50:06,586
I know personally
what it's like to grow up
1178
00:50:06,628 --> 00:50:07,838
without a mother.
1179
00:50:08,213 --> 00:50:12,050
[voice breaking] And so...
[clears throat]
1180
00:50:12,551 --> 00:50:15,762
S-- You know, I had
to really dig deep
1181
00:50:15,804 --> 00:50:19,725
to decide what kind of life
I wanted for myself.
1182
00:50:20,100 --> 00:50:22,894
And, um, I knew it would be
a challenge,
1183
00:50:22,936 --> 00:50:25,814
but I really wanted to
rise to that occasion.
1184
00:50:25,856 --> 00:50:29,109
I really wanted
to see how I could,
1185
00:50:29,151 --> 00:50:31,903
you know,
make a way out of nowhere.
1186
00:50:31,945 --> 00:50:33,280
I wanted him to know that
1187
00:50:33,321 --> 00:50:35,073
although he felt, at the time,
1188
00:50:35,115 --> 00:50:37,034
that he was a product
of his environment,
1189
00:50:37,075 --> 00:50:40,537
that you don't have to be a
product of your environment.
1190
00:50:40,579 --> 00:50:42,831
There's strength
and there's pride
1191
00:50:42,873 --> 00:50:46,334
in, you know, making
decisions for yourself
1192
00:50:46,376 --> 00:50:48,587
and deciding that you wanna live
1193
00:50:49,379 --> 00:50:51,089
in a better way.
1194
00:51:01,558 --> 00:51:04,102
[rap music]
1195
00:51:04,770 --> 00:51:08,398
[Travis] This right here
keeps me off the
streets for hours.
1196
00:51:08,690 --> 00:51:11,068
It keeps times off my hand.
You know what I'm sayin'?
1197
00:51:11,109 --> 00:51:14,905
I be in the gym for
the first half of the day,
from 7:00 to 7:00.
1198
00:51:14,946 --> 00:51:17,157
Come here, right after 7:00,
come here, be here
1199
00:51:17,199 --> 00:51:19,868
for hours,
til wee hours of the night.
1200
00:51:19,910 --> 00:51:22,829
I know how important
music is to young people,
1201
00:51:22,871 --> 00:51:24,956
especially the culture
of young men
1202
00:51:24,998 --> 00:51:25,916
that we're dealing with.
1203
00:51:25,957 --> 00:51:27,042
That's the common denominator
1204
00:51:27,084 --> 00:51:28,376
for every gang in this city.
1205
00:51:28,418 --> 00:51:30,712
There's someone that does music.
1206
00:51:30,754 --> 00:51:32,005
StreetSafe has a relationship
1207
00:51:32,047 --> 00:51:34,716
with the studio
Hit Quarters Studios
1208
00:51:34,758 --> 00:51:37,552
off of River Street in Mattapan.
1209
00:51:37,594 --> 00:51:40,555
You'd be amazed
at some of the rap songs
1210
00:51:40,597 --> 00:51:43,100
that these brothers lay out.
1211
00:51:43,141 --> 00:51:46,269
Striking like a pit
With a red nose
1212
00:51:46,311 --> 00:51:49,564
Striking like a dog
With a red nose
1213
00:51:49,606 --> 00:51:52,734
That's a red beam
On a four-four
1214
00:51:52,776 --> 00:51:56,071
It's a green light
Ride down your block slow
1215
00:51:56,113 --> 00:51:59,032
[Travis] Music's my passion.
You know what I'm sayin'?
Where else am I gonna go?
1216
00:51:59,074 --> 00:52:03,120
I don't got mad bread to be
spendin' money on haters.
1217
00:52:03,161 --> 00:52:05,622
Comin' here for two hours
is 500.
1218
00:52:05,664 --> 00:52:08,041
-These kids are on time.
-Mm-hmm.
1219
00:52:08,083 --> 00:52:10,710
They ahead of us sometimes
like, "Are you here?"
1220
00:52:10,752 --> 00:52:12,796
They wanna come in here
when it's not even booked.
1221
00:52:12,838 --> 00:52:15,298
They see me in the
streets or the bus
they say like...
1222
00:52:15,340 --> 00:52:17,676
They feel it's like
everything for them.
1223
00:52:17,717 --> 00:52:20,554
It's not even work some
of the time they're here.
1224
00:52:20,595 --> 00:52:22,139
It's not really recording.
1225
00:52:22,180 --> 00:52:25,976
They just feel like,
"It's my second home."
1226
00:52:26,017 --> 00:52:27,978
It's a safe haven for me
1227
00:52:28,019 --> 00:52:29,312
and these guys.
1228
00:52:29,354 --> 00:52:30,355
You know?
1229
00:52:30,397 --> 00:52:31,815
Twenty-four-hour access.
1230
00:52:32,315 --> 00:52:35,819
There ain't a 24-hour access
nowhere in the city of Boston.
1231
00:52:35,861 --> 00:52:38,071
I don't know about it.
1232
00:52:38,488 --> 00:52:40,323
And dealin' with
this population?
1233
00:52:40,365 --> 00:52:41,241
Who?
1234
00:52:41,283 --> 00:52:43,618
Everything's closed
at 8:00 or 9:00.
1235
00:52:43,660 --> 00:52:46,413
These guys don't come out
til 8:00 or 9:00.
1236
00:52:46,454 --> 00:52:49,332
[rap song playing faintly]
1237
00:52:49,374 --> 00:52:52,002
Put the-- Yeah!
1238
00:52:52,586 --> 00:52:54,045
TOUCH FM.
1239
00:52:54,713 --> 00:52:57,632
I like that joint.
Yeah, that joint's crazy.
1240
00:52:57,674 --> 00:52:59,885
Literally crazy.
[laughs]
1241
00:53:00,135 --> 00:53:03,221
[Rusti]
I play Boston hip-hop music,
I play New England music,
1242
00:53:03,263 --> 00:53:05,849
and that's music
just from this state.
1243
00:53:05,891 --> 00:53:08,226
From this region.
That's it.
1244
00:53:08,268 --> 00:53:10,437
The reason for that is
giving an opportunity,
1245
00:53:10,478 --> 00:53:15,442
giving a spirit,
giving some... a hope
that these brothers out here
1246
00:53:15,483 --> 00:53:18,528
that wanna do this music
can feel like they can do it.
1247
00:53:18,570 --> 00:53:20,197
That shit ain't normal
1248
00:53:20,238 --> 00:53:21,948
So my niggas on my team
1249
00:53:21,990 --> 00:53:23,909
We ain't normal
1250
00:53:23,950 --> 00:53:26,703
[rapping indistinctly]
1251
00:53:26,745 --> 00:53:28,872
[Niko] I like everything
about making music.
1252
00:53:28,914 --> 00:53:30,207
I like--
You know what I'm sayin'?
1253
00:53:30,248 --> 00:53:33,126
That's what separates me
from people who just rap.
1254
00:53:33,168 --> 00:53:35,879
You know?
Rappers just wanna rap.
1255
00:53:35,921 --> 00:53:38,632
I like making music so I listen
to all types of things.
1256
00:53:38,673 --> 00:53:42,135
[rapping indistinctly]
1257
00:53:42,177 --> 00:53:45,722
I write music
that everyday people
can think about.
1258
00:53:45,764 --> 00:53:48,433
You know, if you're goin'
through some struggles,
I got music for that.
1259
00:53:48,475 --> 00:53:51,603
[stammers] If you goin' through
some happy times,
1260
00:53:51,645 --> 00:53:53,438
I got music for that.
1261
00:53:53,480 --> 00:53:55,941
If you hate the world,
I got music for that.
1262
00:53:55,982 --> 00:53:58,610
You know?
I'm a renaissance guy.
1263
00:53:59,611 --> 00:54:02,030
[Dequan]
Been working with other
streetworkers before.
1264
00:54:02,072 --> 00:54:04,991
I've been in the studio.
They brought me in the studio
and stuff.
1265
00:54:05,033 --> 00:54:08,036
There's a lot of people
that's talented in Boston.
1266
00:54:08,078 --> 00:54:09,162
Boston's next up.
1267
00:54:09,204 --> 00:54:11,081
But it's just like
Boston don't know
1268
00:54:11,122 --> 00:54:12,332
how to get with each other.
1269
00:54:12,374 --> 00:54:14,584
Everybody got drama
with each other.
1270
00:54:15,210 --> 00:54:18,546
[Calvin]
We have three groups here
that are supposed to be rivals.
1271
00:54:18,588 --> 00:54:23,260
After getting together they say,
"We are not really enemies."
You know? And, uh...
1272
00:54:23,301 --> 00:54:24,970
Then they start
making songs together.
1273
00:54:25,011 --> 00:54:26,221
They start making songs
together.
1274
00:54:26,263 --> 00:54:30,016
Which is, to me, it's amazing.
1275
00:54:30,058 --> 00:54:33,770
-Yeah.
-It's the best behaving
people I've met in my life.
1276
00:54:33,812 --> 00:54:36,022
-[stammering]
-[laughing]
1277
00:54:36,064 --> 00:54:38,316
I would change my whole life
to rewrite my whole life.
1278
00:54:38,358 --> 00:54:40,235
Things I thought was important,
this is more important.
1279
00:54:40,277 --> 00:54:42,279
Way more than anything
I've experienced.
1280
00:54:42,320 --> 00:54:44,906
-It's amazing when they
get that energy!
-I don't see--
1281
00:54:44,948 --> 00:54:47,784
I have more problems
with regular people
1282
00:54:47,826 --> 00:54:48,785
that's not gangsters.
1283
00:54:48,827 --> 00:54:50,829
These are intelligent people
1284
00:54:50,870 --> 00:54:53,081
that know how to move
when they're treated
1285
00:54:53,123 --> 00:54:55,083
with that respect
and they have a direction,
1286
00:54:55,125 --> 00:54:58,086
and they see the value
in who they are.
1287
00:54:58,128 --> 00:55:00,714
All these organizations
and companies
1288
00:55:00,755 --> 00:55:01,965
claiming to do this work,
1289
00:55:02,007 --> 00:55:04,092
you have to show it
because we need you.
1290
00:55:04,134 --> 00:55:07,637
I can't do it all.
Gym can't do it all.
Studio can't do it all.
1291
00:55:07,679 --> 00:55:13,560
When we all come together and
converge around them
is when we're gonna win.
1292
00:55:13,601 --> 00:55:15,270
Right now, it's a half-circle.
1293
00:55:15,312 --> 00:55:18,523
We need a full-circle
to wrap around these guys.
1294
00:55:21,985 --> 00:55:23,320
The only thing our kids
are at risk of
1295
00:55:23,361 --> 00:55:26,197
is being successful
if we believe in them.
1296
00:55:26,239 --> 00:55:28,158
So the young folks
of StreetSafe,
1297
00:55:28,199 --> 00:55:30,201
all they're at risk of
is being successful
1298
00:55:30,243 --> 00:55:31,870
if we provide them
with the pathway
1299
00:55:31,911 --> 00:55:33,538
and the tools to
allow them to do that.
1300
00:55:33,580 --> 00:55:37,542
[Donnell]
If you ask a young man
to put down the gun,
1301
00:55:37,959 --> 00:55:41,463
then you ask the young man
to stop selling drugs,
1302
00:55:41,504 --> 00:55:45,842
then you ask the young man
to stop his gang activity,
1303
00:55:46,301 --> 00:55:49,471
what do you replace it with?
Has to be something.
1304
00:55:49,512 --> 00:55:51,222
They want me full-time
but I don't wanna do it.
1305
00:55:51,264 --> 00:55:53,266
You don't wanna
go full-time yet.
1306
00:55:53,308 --> 00:55:55,518
It's only, what,
a 50-cent difference?
1307
00:55:55,560 --> 00:55:58,146
It's no difference,
it's the same thing.
1308
00:55:58,188 --> 00:55:59,439
-You get no--
-It's the same thing?
1309
00:55:59,481 --> 00:56:01,691
Yeah, it's $9.25
and it's like, for what?
1310
00:56:01,733 --> 00:56:04,277
Like, it's cool.
I'm not sayin' there's
nothing wrong,
1311
00:56:04,319 --> 00:56:05,820
'cause it's work, brother.
You know what I'm sayin'?
1312
00:56:05,862 --> 00:56:07,822
It gets you off the streets.
It's work.
1313
00:56:07,864 --> 00:56:11,743
But $9.25 for five days a week,
1314
00:56:11,785 --> 00:56:13,370
being away from my lady,
is not worth it.
1315
00:56:13,411 --> 00:56:15,872
At the end of the day,
your check be like $300.
1316
00:56:15,914 --> 00:56:17,832
Yeah, a lot of jobs is hiring.
1317
00:56:17,874 --> 00:56:20,085
$8, $8.50, $9.00.
1318
00:56:20,126 --> 00:56:21,878
But you know
what our attitude is?
1319
00:56:21,920 --> 00:56:24,089
Okay, we do it.
We get in there.
1320
00:56:24,130 --> 00:56:28,426
But at the end of the week,
when we step out,
it's only $300.
1321
00:56:28,468 --> 00:56:31,096
[Dequan] Everybody in my squad,
we all got kids.
1322
00:56:31,137 --> 00:56:32,430
You know what I'm sayin'?
1323
00:56:32,472 --> 00:56:35,183
We can't pay the rent,
put food on the table,
1324
00:56:35,225 --> 00:56:37,769
put clothes on our backs,
the kids' backs,
1325
00:56:37,811 --> 00:56:40,522
and survive off $9,
off $7.
1326
00:56:40,563 --> 00:56:42,357
You know what I'm sayin'?
That ain't poppin'.
1327
00:56:42,399 --> 00:56:45,026
You know what I'm sayin'?
It comes a time when it's like,
1328
00:56:45,068 --> 00:56:48,029
"Damn, how long we
gotta suffer for?"
1329
00:56:48,071 --> 00:56:49,072
You feel me?
1330
00:56:49,114 --> 00:56:51,157
How long we gotta
be on the bottom,
1331
00:56:51,199 --> 00:56:53,284
you know what I'm sayin',
before we make it to the top?
1332
00:56:53,326 --> 00:56:54,744
You feel what I'm sayin'?
1333
00:56:55,328 --> 00:56:57,539
I'm already tellin' myself.
That's in my mind.
1334
00:56:57,580 --> 00:56:59,707
-I'm already there.
-Exactly. So in terms
of the life skills,
1335
00:56:59,749 --> 00:57:03,628
that I feel as though you're...
That's a non-factor.
1336
00:57:03,670 --> 00:57:08,091
You know what I mean?
'Cause, pretty much work,
1337
00:57:08,133 --> 00:57:09,843
-gym, family.
-That's it.
1338
00:57:09,884 --> 00:57:13,054
That's what you do.
So in terms of the life skills
ladder,
1339
00:57:13,096 --> 00:57:16,766
you're actually, man,
a breath of fresh air for me.
1340
00:57:17,183 --> 00:57:19,352
Just because they're
out here on the street
1341
00:57:19,394 --> 00:57:21,187
it's because
that's all they know.
1342
00:57:21,229 --> 00:57:23,606
But if they see us
believing in them
1343
00:57:23,648 --> 00:57:26,401
and giving them some
alternatives to life,
1344
00:57:26,443 --> 00:57:29,279
you don't have to be out here.
1345
00:57:29,320 --> 00:57:32,615
You can take that same
skill set of, let's say,
1346
00:57:32,657 --> 00:57:35,410
hustling, you can take
that same skill set
1347
00:57:35,452 --> 00:57:38,079
and turn that into
an entrepreneurship
1348
00:57:38,121 --> 00:57:39,205
that's legal.
1349
00:57:39,789 --> 00:57:42,667
We didn't wake up like,
"Oh, we wanna be gangbangers."
1350
00:57:42,709 --> 00:57:44,127
You know what I'm sayin'?
1351
00:57:44,169 --> 00:57:47,881
We grew up playin'
football, basketball...
1352
00:57:47,922 --> 00:57:49,382
-Baseball.
-Exactly.
1353
00:57:49,424 --> 00:57:52,051
It's people who coulda
been somewhere right now.
1354
00:57:52,093 --> 00:57:53,678
In this circle.
Right here.
1355
00:57:53,720 --> 00:57:56,389
People who coulda
went somewhere far.
You know what I'm sayin'?
1356
00:57:56,431 --> 00:58:00,393
But the streets
fucked it up for people.
You know what I'm sayin'?
1357
00:58:00,435 --> 00:58:03,354
A lot of us,
a lot of us here, man,
1358
00:58:03,396 --> 00:58:05,273
we have different talents, man.
1359
00:58:05,315 --> 00:58:08,818
Um, I played basketball.
Some do music.
1360
00:58:08,860 --> 00:58:11,696
-But after a while,
it's like a'ight.
-I'm a good driver.
1361
00:58:11,738 --> 00:58:14,741
-Where are these
talents gonna get us?
-We still out here.
1362
00:58:14,782 --> 00:58:16,826
-We out here.
You know what I'm sayin'?
-We still out here.
1363
00:58:16,868 --> 00:58:20,538
-Livin' day by day.
-Then we start gettin' nice
with other things.
1364
00:58:20,580 --> 00:58:22,957
...takes my breath away
1365
00:58:22,999 --> 00:58:24,334
I can't breathe
1366
00:58:24,375 --> 00:58:26,002
But I can't leave
1367
00:58:26,044 --> 00:58:28,463
These streets
Keep callin' me
1368
00:58:28,505 --> 00:58:31,799
[Joe] If they growin' up around
a bunch of drug dealers,
1369
00:58:32,258 --> 00:58:35,386
and they comin' outside everyday
and seeing drug deals,
1370
00:58:35,428 --> 00:58:38,264
and they're seeing crackheads
in their hallway,
1371
00:58:38,306 --> 00:58:39,724
that's what they're
gonna become.
1372
00:58:39,766 --> 00:58:42,310
I always idolized the guys
that was tough, man.
1373
00:58:42,352 --> 00:58:44,437
The guys who had cars and money,
1374
00:58:44,479 --> 00:58:46,981
and the big guy
run the way, man,
1375
00:58:47,023 --> 00:58:50,026
just givin' out
dollars to kids, man.
1376
00:58:51,236 --> 00:58:53,905
For that day,
that guy is Superman.
1377
00:58:54,656 --> 00:58:58,493
'Cause that kid might not
ever get a ice cream
that day, right?
1378
00:58:58,535 --> 00:59:02,080
But there's one dude,
known to society
1379
00:59:02,121 --> 00:59:04,666
as a drug dealer,
scum of the earth,
1380
00:59:04,707 --> 00:59:09,671
but he just gave a kid,
on a 90-degree weather hot day,
1381
00:59:09,712 --> 00:59:13,341
he just fed the whole block
ice cream.
1382
00:59:13,383 --> 00:59:15,134
And that's the guy I want to be.
1383
00:59:15,176 --> 00:59:17,262
They're not growing up
around people
1384
00:59:17,303 --> 00:59:19,931
that's gettin' master's.
1385
00:59:20,932 --> 00:59:23,518
[stammering]
1386
00:59:23,560 --> 00:59:27,146
Like, I only met
four people in my life
that got a master's degree.
1387
00:59:27,188 --> 00:59:28,690
I didn't even know
what that was.
1388
00:59:28,731 --> 00:59:31,859
I was like, "A master's?
Don't know what a master's is."
1389
00:59:31,901 --> 00:59:33,444
My grandmother wanted better.
1390
00:59:33,486 --> 00:59:35,655
I'm sure everybody's
parents and grandparents
1391
00:59:35,697 --> 00:59:37,740
all here wanted better
for their child.
1392
00:59:37,782 --> 00:59:40,368
If I could rewind time
and do other things,
1393
00:59:40,410 --> 00:59:42,412
I would have.
You feel what I'm sayin'?
1394
00:59:42,453 --> 00:59:47,292
But, you know, this
is what we stuck with.
1395
00:59:47,333 --> 00:59:48,876
Like, you know, I'm pretty sure
everyone out here
1396
00:59:48,918 --> 00:59:54,007
in these streets had dreams
of being an NFL player,
1397
00:59:54,048 --> 00:59:56,718
NBA player, you know.
Dreams...
1398
00:59:56,759 --> 01:00:00,179
Even if it'd be more realistic,
even the ones that
didn't play ball
1399
01:00:00,221 --> 01:00:04,475
wanted to be a doctor,
teacher, lawyer.
1400
01:00:04,517 --> 01:00:06,477
You know what I'm sayin'?
1401
01:00:06,519 --> 01:00:08,146
We all ruined that.
1402
01:00:09,397 --> 01:00:11,608
[Kenney] Everyone in life
makes mistakes.
1403
01:00:11,649 --> 01:00:14,944
It just so happens
that often the mistakes
1404
01:00:14,986 --> 01:00:16,404
of young brothers and/or sisters
1405
01:00:16,446 --> 01:00:18,406
in the inner-city, historically,
1406
01:00:18,448 --> 01:00:20,199
have a greater consequence.
1407
01:00:20,658 --> 01:00:24,370
A'ight. So now I got
the concerns out the way.
1408
01:00:24,412 --> 01:00:26,456
-Yeah.
-Now I'm gonna ask you
another question.
1409
01:00:26,497 --> 01:00:28,499
The hell is wrong with you, man?
1410
01:00:29,167 --> 01:00:30,460
-I don't know, man.
-Bro!
1411
01:00:30,501 --> 01:00:33,296
You let another man talk
enough crap to you...
1412
01:00:33,338 --> 01:00:37,842
-Yeah.
-You know, that you had
to bust him in the mouth
1413
01:00:37,884 --> 01:00:39,677
-at work.
-Yeah
1414
01:00:40,553 --> 01:00:42,597
So he figured out
how to press your buttons.
1415
01:00:42,639 --> 01:00:46,351
He be gettin' drunk
all the time, like every day.
He got a drinking problem.
1416
01:00:46,392 --> 01:00:49,520
So me and Ranja,
we already know that,
1417
01:00:49,562 --> 01:00:50,897
so we stay way from him.
1418
01:00:51,272 --> 01:00:54,609
But just that day,
he was feelin' himself so much.
1419
01:00:54,651 --> 01:00:57,820
Just talkin' mad trash
to everybody.
1420
01:00:57,862 --> 01:00:58,863
Right to my face.
1421
01:00:58,905 --> 01:01:01,324
Lookin' me in my eyes
and called me a bitch.
1422
01:01:01,366 --> 01:01:03,493
I let-- Hit me in my mouth,
I let that slide.
1423
01:01:03,534 --> 01:01:06,287
You call me a sucka two times,
I let that slide.
1424
01:01:06,329 --> 01:01:08,748
Then you call me a bitch
to my face?
1425
01:01:08,790 --> 01:01:11,209
This ain't even it.
So I'm like...
1426
01:01:11,250 --> 01:01:14,337
I said... I couldn't even talk
and get it out
1427
01:01:14,379 --> 01:01:16,297
because I couldn't believe
he was disrespect--
1428
01:01:16,339 --> 01:01:18,049
I never been--
Nobody ever talked
to me like that.
1429
01:01:18,091 --> 01:01:20,635
Dudes I got beef with,
they don't even talk to me
like that.
1430
01:01:20,677 --> 01:01:24,263
But he's laughing like, "Ha ha."
I said "Yo, you know what?
1431
01:01:24,305 --> 01:01:25,515
I don't know
what your problem is
1432
01:01:25,556 --> 01:01:26,724
or who you think
you're talking to,
1433
01:01:26,766 --> 01:01:28,309
but I'ma tell you
this right now.
1434
01:01:28,351 --> 01:01:29,811
Let's go in the bathroom."
1435
01:01:29,852 --> 01:01:32,647
He was like, "Nah, nah, nah,
you know it ain't like that."
1436
01:01:32,689 --> 01:01:34,190
I said,
"Oh, now it ain't like that.
1437
01:01:34,232 --> 01:01:36,317
I told you I wasn't playin'
with you before."
1438
01:01:36,359 --> 01:01:38,653
So we get in the bathroom,
he's like, "Yeah, man.
1439
01:01:38,695 --> 01:01:41,614
You know what I'm sayin'?
'Cause you got popped
in your head,
1440
01:01:41,656 --> 01:01:43,491
that's your problem."
That's when I hit him.
1441
01:01:43,533 --> 01:01:44,951
Boop. And I knocked him out.
1442
01:01:44,992 --> 01:01:49,664
Then I woke him up and then
we left out the bathroom.
1443
01:01:49,706 --> 01:01:52,500
That's when the managers
got involved and everything.
1444
01:01:52,542 --> 01:01:55,461
What you needed to do
was walk away,
1445
01:01:55,503 --> 01:01:57,505
go to the manager,
"Hey, listen,
1446
01:01:57,547 --> 01:01:59,924
-this gentleman over here..."
-I'm not doin' that.
1447
01:01:59,966 --> 01:02:01,843
I can't work-- Listen.
Hear me out, hear me out.
1448
01:02:01,884 --> 01:02:03,803
"This gentleman over here,
I can't work with him today.
1449
01:02:03,845 --> 01:02:05,847
Somethin' wrong with him.
Y'all might need to
check him out."
1450
01:02:05,888 --> 01:02:09,142
Because if not,
it goes to the extreme
and then what happens?
1451
01:02:09,183 --> 01:02:10,977
You act on impulse.
Then what happens?
1452
01:02:11,018 --> 01:02:13,354
You get in a fight at the job.
Then what happens?
1453
01:02:13,396 --> 01:02:15,273
You lose your gig.
Then what happens?
1454
01:02:15,314 --> 01:02:16,733
The check that you
was countin' on
1455
01:02:16,774 --> 01:02:19,235
to help your family
is no longer there.
1456
01:02:19,277 --> 01:02:22,113
Yeah. But it's like I'm bein'
put in situations
1457
01:02:22,155 --> 01:02:24,282
that I never been through
before.
1458
01:02:24,323 --> 01:02:26,701
So it's not like
I know off instinct
1459
01:02:26,743 --> 01:02:28,828
like, "I should act this way"
1460
01:02:28,870 --> 01:02:30,371
when I never was put
in a position
1461
01:02:30,413 --> 01:02:32,832
to act that way
in the first place.
1462
01:02:32,874 --> 01:02:35,626
-Confrontation on the job...
-Mm-hmm.
1463
01:02:35,668 --> 01:02:38,337
-...is not rare.
-Yeah.
1464
01:02:38,379 --> 01:02:39,964
That happens.
1465
01:02:40,006 --> 01:02:41,382
-That happens.
-Mm-hmm.
1466
01:02:41,424 --> 01:02:44,510
Whether it is another employee
comin' to work drunk.
1467
01:02:44,552 --> 01:02:48,306
Whether it is another employee
feelin' as though,
1468
01:02:48,347 --> 01:02:50,308
"I'm just gon' disrespect him
just because."
1469
01:02:50,349 --> 01:02:52,810
-Yeah.
-No more of that, man.
1470
01:02:54,520 --> 01:02:56,355
No more of that, bro.
1471
01:02:56,397 --> 01:02:58,191
You need anger counseling?
1472
01:02:58,608 --> 01:03:00,067
-Probably.
-All right.
1473
01:03:00,109 --> 01:03:02,278
I'm not even being funny,
I'm not being funny with that.
1474
01:03:02,320 --> 01:03:05,281
-That's a real situation.
-I might need some, man.
1475
01:03:05,323 --> 01:03:07,700
So I want you to get evaluated.
1476
01:03:09,035 --> 01:03:11,996
Reason being, seriously,
1477
01:03:12,038 --> 01:03:14,499
it's not normal
for a young man to be shot.
1478
01:03:14,540 --> 01:03:15,958
-Yeah.
-Like, that's not normal.
1479
01:03:16,000 --> 01:03:17,585
-Mm-hmm.
-You understand
what I'm sayin'?
1480
01:03:17,627 --> 01:03:18,961
It's not normal for someone
to be drivin'
1481
01:03:19,003 --> 01:03:20,797
in their car and someone
to shoot up the car.
1482
01:03:20,838 --> 01:03:22,924
-Yeah.
-That's not normal.
1483
01:03:22,965 --> 01:03:25,635
It's not normal
for me and my family
1484
01:03:25,676 --> 01:03:29,847
to be somewhere and then
the crib get shot up.
1485
01:03:29,889 --> 01:03:32,308
-Mm-hmm. Yeah.
-That ain't normal.
1486
01:03:32,350 --> 01:03:34,227
That's why we can't
ever go no damn where,
1487
01:03:34,268 --> 01:03:37,271
'cause you always cryin'.
You need $5.
1488
01:03:37,313 --> 01:03:38,898
I just spent $10 on your outfit
1489
01:03:38,940 --> 01:03:41,692
and you done already
ripped it up.
1490
01:03:44,654 --> 01:03:46,364
Come on, let's cross the street.
1491
01:03:46,405 --> 01:03:47,990
Wait, give me your hand.
1492
01:03:48,991 --> 01:03:50,201
Get his hand.
1493
01:03:51,661 --> 01:03:52,703
Wait, David!
1494
01:03:52,745 --> 01:03:54,247
Pay attention
to the damn street.
1495
01:03:54,288 --> 01:03:56,874
-I am!
-You know, I'm in the kitchen,
1496
01:03:56,916 --> 01:04:00,711
I'm 'bout to make
some pastelitos for my kids
1497
01:04:00,753 --> 01:04:05,633
and I get a message,
a notification message
to my phone.
1498
01:04:05,675 --> 01:04:08,719
It's my friend texting me
from Facebook.
1499
01:04:08,761 --> 01:04:12,223
Like, "Boppy's been shot."
I'm like, what?
1500
01:04:12,265 --> 01:04:15,935
[ambulance siren wailing]
1501
01:04:15,977 --> 01:04:17,478
[Beverly]
It was a hollow-tip bullet,
1502
01:04:17,520 --> 01:04:20,523
so it ripped his bowels,
his intestines,
1503
01:04:20,565 --> 01:04:21,607
all that stuff.
1504
01:04:21,649 --> 01:04:24,277
And it took them
six to eight hours
1505
01:04:24,318 --> 01:04:27,905
to repair
all that stuff back for him.
1506
01:04:37,081 --> 01:04:38,749
Got shot, you know?
1507
01:04:38,791 --> 01:04:41,085
Can't really move
my leg right now.
1508
01:04:41,127 --> 01:04:44,171
Can't really pee
on my own right now.
You know?
1509
01:04:44,213 --> 01:04:47,800
[intense music]
1510
01:04:53,556 --> 01:04:55,182
[Beverly] He a thug
in the streets,
1511
01:04:55,224 --> 01:04:56,851
that's how he portrays himself.
1512
01:04:56,893 --> 01:04:59,896
But to hear him crying
in pain like that,
1513
01:04:59,937 --> 01:05:03,274
he needed his mother,
and I couldn't do nothin'
for him.
1514
01:05:03,316 --> 01:05:05,818
[intense music]
1515
01:05:13,701 --> 01:05:14,994
[Dequan] I was on a roll.
1516
01:05:15,036 --> 01:05:17,622
About to get features
with people and all that.
1517
01:05:17,663 --> 01:05:19,123
Famous people, you know.
1518
01:05:19,540 --> 01:05:22,543
But this incident,
getting shot, messed me up.
1519
01:05:22,585 --> 01:05:24,378
Slowed me down.
1520
01:05:24,420 --> 01:05:25,713
I mean, I'm not gonna
say what happened,
1521
01:05:25,755 --> 01:05:28,341
it's just wrong place,
wrong time.
1522
01:05:29,342 --> 01:05:30,968
Wrong place, wrong time.
1523
01:05:31,510 --> 01:05:34,472
[intense music]
1524
01:05:58,371 --> 01:06:00,498
[Angelo] I like to think
we're successful.
1525
01:06:00,539 --> 01:06:01,916
Before we came out here,
1526
01:06:01,958 --> 01:06:02,917
there used to be a shootin'
1527
01:06:02,959 --> 01:06:04,710
almost every other 10 minutes.
1528
01:06:05,127 --> 01:06:08,381
Shit, we lost our first friend
at 15.
1529
01:06:08,422 --> 01:06:11,342
He died at 15, 2003.
1530
01:06:11,884 --> 01:06:13,511
One day, everything
can be all great
1531
01:06:13,552 --> 01:06:18,224
and then next thing you know
everything is going down.
1532
01:06:18,265 --> 01:06:20,226
2004, lost another one.
1533
01:06:20,267 --> 01:06:22,228
2005, lost another one.
1534
01:06:22,269 --> 01:06:24,397
2006, lost two more.
1535
01:06:24,438 --> 01:06:25,856
2007, lost one more.
1536
01:06:25,898 --> 01:06:29,068
2008, January 8th,
God rest my nephew's soul.
1537
01:06:29,110 --> 01:06:31,320
[kisses fingers]
Darrion L.J. Carrington.
1538
01:06:31,362 --> 01:06:32,530
Lost him.
1539
01:06:35,408 --> 01:06:36,784
[sighs]
1540
01:06:36,826 --> 01:06:39,412
This is the life we chose.
You know what I'm sayin'?
1541
01:06:39,453 --> 01:06:42,999
So it's just like... damn.
1542
01:06:43,040 --> 01:06:45,334
He got out December 21st
of 2007,
1543
01:06:45,376 --> 01:06:48,796
got killed January 8th, 2008.
1544
01:06:48,838 --> 01:06:51,048
That wasn't even
three weeks yet.
1545
01:06:51,674 --> 01:06:53,050
Three weeks.
1546
01:06:53,759 --> 01:06:54,927
Just 'cause he
went to go get some
1547
01:06:54,969 --> 01:06:58,097
Chinese food
in a fuckin' restaurant.
1548
01:06:58,973 --> 01:07:00,808
Til this day, we know nothin'.
1549
01:07:00,850 --> 01:07:02,435
Know nothing.
1550
01:07:02,476 --> 01:07:03,894
Nothing.
1551
01:07:06,605 --> 01:07:11,694
[man] They feel like
murder is normal.
1552
01:07:11,736 --> 01:07:13,070
We get a call somebody's shot.
1553
01:07:13,112 --> 01:07:15,698
We go to the scene
to assess the scene.
1554
01:07:15,740 --> 01:07:18,075
When you see
16-year-old females
1555
01:07:18,117 --> 01:07:22,955
with iPhones filming
the young person on the ground
1556
01:07:22,997 --> 01:07:26,751
opposed to calling 911
to get an ambulance,
1557
01:07:26,792 --> 01:07:28,461
something's wrong.
1558
01:07:30,796 --> 01:07:33,507
[intense music]
1559
01:07:33,799 --> 01:07:35,885
[man] Yeah, when shit like that
happen, man,
1560
01:07:35,926 --> 01:07:37,595
you start questioning
a lot of shit.
1561
01:07:37,636 --> 01:07:39,013
You know?
1562
01:07:39,597 --> 01:07:41,891
It always hurts
when somebody you close to
1563
01:07:41,932 --> 01:07:48,105
or just anybody that you know
get killed.
1564
01:07:48,147 --> 01:07:51,650
Eh... Ain't nothin' sweet
about it.
1565
01:07:51,692 --> 01:07:54,153
It's not something
you get used to.
1566
01:07:55,613 --> 01:07:57,031
[intense music]
1567
01:07:57,073 --> 01:07:58,908
[Robert] Angel's been part
of us for years.
1568
01:07:58,949 --> 01:08:03,662
An extraordinary young man
who was moving his life along.
1569
01:08:03,704 --> 01:08:05,748
Graduated high school,
was working,
1570
01:08:05,790 --> 01:08:08,334
got a promotion,
was looking to go to college,
1571
01:08:08,375 --> 01:08:10,127
never missed practice.
1572
01:08:10,920 --> 01:08:14,256
Damn. [sniffles]
1573
01:08:23,933 --> 01:08:25,017
I just got a phone call sayin'
1574
01:08:25,059 --> 01:08:28,020
my man got shot
in the head, man.
1575
01:08:29,271 --> 01:08:31,524
And he's never gonna
come home, man.
1576
01:08:32,149 --> 01:08:34,693
[stammers] We're never gonna
see him again.
1577
01:08:34,735 --> 01:08:36,320
I just got a phone call...
1578
01:08:38,906 --> 01:08:41,617
and that kinda
fucked me up, man.
1579
01:08:42,243 --> 01:08:44,829
'Cause from there,
everything's just--
1580
01:08:44,870 --> 01:08:46,497
went downhill, you know?
1581
01:08:48,582 --> 01:08:50,292
I wasn't the same person
1582
01:08:50,334 --> 01:08:54,505
as I was the day before
when he was alive.
1583
01:08:54,547 --> 01:08:55,673
Just turned different.
1584
01:08:55,714 --> 01:08:57,633
I didn't wanna do
anything anymore.
1585
01:08:57,675 --> 01:08:59,176
I didn't care.
1586
01:09:00,886 --> 01:09:03,180
Just wanted to shut down,
you know?
1587
01:09:04,598 --> 01:09:07,977
[indistinct chatter]
1588
01:09:09,436 --> 01:09:11,897
[Leroy] You have individuals
who have served
1589
01:09:11,939 --> 01:09:15,442
you know, one, two, maybe
three tours in Afghanistan.
1590
01:09:15,484 --> 01:09:20,030
Right? And they never have
seen someone get killed.
1591
01:09:20,072 --> 01:09:22,575
But at the same time,
just the pressure alone,
1592
01:09:22,616 --> 01:09:24,952
they may come back home
with PTSD,
1593
01:09:24,994 --> 01:09:26,370
post-traumatic stress syndrome.
1594
01:09:26,412 --> 01:09:28,497
Now you have individuals,
young men,
1595
01:09:28,539 --> 01:09:30,833
who may be 22 or 23 years old,
1596
01:09:30,875 --> 01:09:33,335
and he's seen 17
of his friends murdered.
1597
01:09:33,377 --> 01:09:36,172
But he's seen it right there.
Been in the midst of it.
1598
01:09:36,213 --> 01:09:39,466
He has a possibility of having
post-traumatic stress syndrome.
1599
01:09:39,508 --> 01:09:41,510
[Thea] When you live in that
kind of an environment,
1600
01:09:41,552 --> 01:09:45,014
you sort of begin
to develop ways
to cope with that.
1601
01:09:45,055 --> 01:09:47,433
And apparently, a young
person's consciousness
1602
01:09:47,474 --> 01:09:51,645
does not really
develop until their
mid to late-twenties.
1603
01:09:51,687 --> 01:09:54,815
So what you create in yourself
1604
01:09:54,857 --> 01:09:57,151
and develop in yourself
to survive
1605
01:09:57,193 --> 01:09:59,862
and cope with these things
is things like hyper-vigilance,
1606
01:09:59,904 --> 01:10:04,241
anxiousness, you switch
from thriving to surviving.
1607
01:10:04,283 --> 01:10:07,912
People lose empathy,
you can lose empathy
for other people.
1608
01:10:07,953 --> 01:10:09,788
You know, you're sort
of anxious in the way
1609
01:10:09,830 --> 01:10:12,082
you respond to people,
maybe in a way
1610
01:10:12,124 --> 01:10:15,377
to help protect yourself.
1611
01:10:15,961 --> 01:10:19,298
[indistinct chatter]
1612
01:10:21,884 --> 01:10:25,971
-[intense music]
-[Beverly] When my son got shot,
1613
01:10:26,013 --> 01:10:29,183
I found myself walking
through Warren Gardens
1614
01:10:29,600 --> 01:10:33,187
with a hoodie on,
big-ass machete,
1615
01:10:33,604 --> 01:10:35,606
'cause I wanna find this boy.
1616
01:10:37,608 --> 01:10:38,651
I was high.
1617
01:10:38,692 --> 01:10:40,736
And all these boys
that's out there,
1618
01:10:40,778 --> 01:10:42,446
that I grew up with,
1619
01:10:42,488 --> 01:10:44,406
"Oh, what's up Pumpkin?"
1620
01:10:44,448 --> 01:10:46,116
Err. Save it.
1621
01:10:46,158 --> 01:10:48,160
"What you doin' up here?"
1622
01:10:48,202 --> 01:10:50,037
And my mind is somewhere else.
1623
01:10:50,079 --> 01:10:51,789
'Cause I have split
personalities.
1624
01:10:51,830 --> 01:10:54,208
And I said,
"Don't talk to me right now."
1625
01:10:54,250 --> 01:10:55,542
"What are you doin' up here?"
1626
01:10:55,584 --> 01:10:57,836
I'm like, "Niggas, I'm lurkin'."
1627
01:10:57,878 --> 01:10:59,463
"What do you mean
you lurkin'?"
1628
01:10:59,505 --> 01:11:01,131
"Like I said, I'm lurkin'.
1629
01:11:01,173 --> 01:11:05,803
I'm looking and if I see
somethin' fishy or funny,
1630
01:11:05,844 --> 01:11:07,763
somebody's gonna get cut."
1631
01:11:10,599 --> 01:11:12,643
You know, but one of my girls
1632
01:11:12,685 --> 01:11:14,395
that grew up in Warren Gardens,
1633
01:11:14,436 --> 01:11:19,066
she know the situation
so she's like,
1634
01:11:19,108 --> 01:11:21,652
"Yo, P. Let's go, come on!"
1635
01:11:21,694 --> 01:11:23,028
You know, it was just like
1636
01:11:23,070 --> 01:11:27,032
outta the cut, she just
ended up walking up and...
1637
01:11:27,074 --> 01:11:30,536
"Don't say nothin' to me.
I don't care.
1638
01:11:30,577 --> 01:11:32,871
F y'all. Don't talk to me.
1639
01:11:32,913 --> 01:11:34,915
Y'all aint my son's friends."
1640
01:11:34,957 --> 01:11:36,166
I know my son.
1641
01:11:36,208 --> 01:11:38,002
I know he wants revenge.
1642
01:11:38,043 --> 01:11:40,379
'Cause he's the boy
in the hood, you know?
1643
01:11:40,421 --> 01:11:43,966
He's the fighter,
he'll go set it off
1644
01:11:44,008 --> 01:11:45,259
on whoever he got to.
1645
01:11:45,301 --> 01:11:47,303
If they come and disrespect him.
1646
01:11:47,344 --> 01:11:49,513
And he's not getting that back.
1647
01:11:55,436 --> 01:11:58,147
Flow nice
My flow tight
1648
01:11:58,188 --> 01:12:00,816
So you know
I'm 'bout to get right
1649
01:12:00,858 --> 01:12:02,276
Take flight
Not me
1650
01:12:02,318 --> 01:12:04,987
Lit bitch OG
Ain't shit change
1651
01:12:05,029 --> 01:12:07,406
I'm still poppin' niggas
On E
1652
01:12:07,448 --> 01:12:10,993
-[all shouting] On E!
-On E, nigga! [laughs]
1653
01:12:11,035 --> 01:12:13,495
-Wanna go see Tough?
-Let's go see Tough!
1654
01:12:13,537 --> 01:12:14,496
Let's go see Tough.
1655
01:12:14,538 --> 01:12:16,206
-[indistinct chatter]
-Let's go see Tough.
1656
01:12:16,248 --> 01:12:17,708
[man] Let's go see Tough.
1657
01:12:17,750 --> 01:12:19,752
[chatter continues]
1658
01:12:23,047 --> 01:12:26,425
-Let him drink. Let him drink.
-Let him drink, though.
1659
01:12:27,092 --> 01:12:30,846
[Leroy] You have to be very
cognitive of homicides
1660
01:12:30,888 --> 01:12:32,306
when young people are lost.
1661
01:12:32,348 --> 01:12:34,933
You have to know the dates
that they got killed.
1662
01:12:34,975 --> 01:12:36,518
You have to know
their birthdays.
1663
01:12:36,560 --> 01:12:39,229
[man] Yo, this is homie
from OP, right?
1664
01:12:39,271 --> 01:12:41,607
-Who?
-Yeah.
1665
01:12:42,691 --> 01:12:44,860
[Leroy] A lot of guys may
wanna go to the cemetery.
1666
01:12:44,902 --> 01:12:47,613
But after the cemetery
and after a couple of blunts
and some drinking,
1667
01:12:47,654 --> 01:12:50,491
you damn sure
better have a plan
to where y'all are goin' next.
1668
01:12:50,532 --> 01:12:53,952
Because if you know
the anniversary is today,
1669
01:12:53,994 --> 01:12:55,996
and you just let them
outta your sight,
1670
01:12:56,038 --> 01:12:57,456
boy, you basically
just co-signing
1671
01:12:57,498 --> 01:12:58,999
what you know that
they're gonna get ready
1672
01:12:59,041 --> 01:12:59,958
to go do.
1673
01:13:00,334 --> 01:13:03,170
We gotta go to the L.
We gotta go to the L.
1674
01:13:03,212 --> 01:13:06,548
-We have to.
And we gotta go to the--
-[man shouts]
1675
01:13:06,590 --> 01:13:08,717
[Kenney]
Well, I think it's very
important
1676
01:13:08,759 --> 01:13:10,135
to get these guys outta the city
1677
01:13:10,177 --> 01:13:13,055
when it's-- I guess
you could say it's high peak
1678
01:13:13,097 --> 01:13:14,598
crime days or, you know,
1679
01:13:14,640 --> 01:13:17,434
where you expect something
to happen. You know?
1680
01:13:17,476 --> 01:13:20,562
[stammers]
Because everybody's out.
1681
01:13:20,604 --> 01:13:22,689
It's a good chance
these guys may be seen.
1682
01:13:22,731 --> 01:13:25,818
And if that happens,
we have another problem
on our hands.
1683
01:13:25,859 --> 01:13:30,489
The Fourth of July,
the whole city is outside.
Everybody's here.
1684
01:13:30,531 --> 01:13:34,201
Cookouts, you know.
We comin' out in the best gear.
1685
01:13:34,243 --> 01:13:36,161
We all went
and bought new outfits.
1686
01:13:36,203 --> 01:13:37,621
I'm tryna hit the city.
1687
01:13:37,663 --> 01:13:39,289
We rollin', I got wheels.
1688
01:13:39,331 --> 01:13:41,250
We ridin' four, five deep.
1689
01:13:41,291 --> 01:13:43,377
We pull up,
"Yo, you niggas is trippin'.
1690
01:13:43,419 --> 01:13:46,130
Why y'all ridin' deep like..."
[stammers]
1691
01:13:46,171 --> 01:13:48,966
"Man we 'bout to..."
"Yo, y'all wanna go to..."
1692
01:13:49,007 --> 01:13:52,052
"What? Where? Hell yeah.
Let's go."
1693
01:13:52,094 --> 01:13:54,012
[Kenney] We went to Six Flags.
1694
01:13:54,054 --> 01:13:56,932
I had one guy who was,
at the time,
1695
01:13:56,974 --> 01:13:59,268
he was 29 years old.
1696
01:13:59,726 --> 01:14:03,147
It was his first time ever being
at an amusement park.
1697
01:14:03,188 --> 01:14:04,648
At 29.
1698
01:14:06,275 --> 01:14:09,820
-He wanted to get on every ride.
-[indistinct chatter]
1699
01:14:09,862 --> 01:14:13,449
Skydive shit.
You pull yourself up
on the little rope
1700
01:14:13,490 --> 01:14:16,535
and you just fall down.
First time in my life, nigga.
1701
01:14:16,577 --> 01:14:19,455
I was scared to death.
But that shit was fun as shit.
1702
01:14:19,496 --> 01:14:22,708
-All we woulda did in the hood--
-[man mumbles]
1703
01:14:22,749 --> 01:14:26,753
[all laughing]
1704
01:14:27,296 --> 01:14:30,257
That's what I do, though.
This is coming from the man
1705
01:14:30,299 --> 01:14:33,302
that didn't wanna
get on the fuckin'
kiddie rides.
1706
01:14:33,343 --> 01:14:36,138
He didn't wanna get
on the water splash.
1707
01:14:36,180 --> 01:14:37,306
The fuckin' log joint.
1708
01:14:37,347 --> 01:14:38,474
That nigga was scared.
1709
01:14:38,515 --> 01:14:40,893
Sittin' on the bench,
waiting for us.
1710
01:14:40,934 --> 01:14:43,187
[chatter continues]
1711
01:14:43,228 --> 01:14:44,771
[Kenney]
To me, I'm sittin' there like,
1712
01:14:44,813 --> 01:14:46,857
"I'm not about to get
on this ride twice."
Like, you know?
1713
01:14:46,899 --> 01:14:49,151
But, "No we gotta do this.
We gotta do this.
We gotta do this."
1714
01:14:49,193 --> 01:14:51,612
[stammers]
And I had to understand, like,
1715
01:14:51,653 --> 01:14:54,364
he never experienced
nothin' like this.
1716
01:14:54,406 --> 01:14:58,785
It's just gang life,
incarceration,
back to gang life.
1717
01:14:58,827 --> 01:15:03,081
So now we goin' for
the whole Fourth of July
and half of the fifth.
1718
01:15:03,123 --> 01:15:05,959
And we come back late.
So it's like that whole day,
1719
01:15:06,001 --> 01:15:07,461
who knows
what the fuck woulda happened.
1720
01:15:07,503 --> 01:15:10,005
We probably woulda
been in the hood
a hundred deep.
1721
01:15:10,047 --> 01:15:12,299
Shootin' the shit,
swallowin' spit, nigga.
1722
01:15:12,341 --> 01:15:13,467
But we wasn't.
1723
01:15:13,509 --> 01:15:15,969
We was cities, states over,
1724
01:15:16,011 --> 01:15:18,597
ridin' fuckin'
roller coasters and shit.
1725
01:15:18,639 --> 01:15:20,182
[Kenney] It was just good
to see the looks
1726
01:15:20,224 --> 01:15:22,809
on their faces to know
there's more to life
1727
01:15:22,851 --> 01:15:23,977
than Boston.
1728
01:15:24,019 --> 01:15:25,479
Than Dorchester
and Roxbury and Mattapan.
1729
01:15:25,521 --> 01:15:29,107
You know what I'm sayin'?
That, to me, was everything.
1730
01:15:29,816 --> 01:15:32,319
You're not the only one that
has a tattoo on your face.
1731
01:15:32,361 --> 01:15:33,946
You know, I love you regardless.
1732
01:15:33,987 --> 01:15:35,322
You know, tattoo or no tattoo.
1733
01:15:35,364 --> 01:15:37,991
But the honest to God truth
is that
1734
01:15:38,033 --> 01:15:39,535
I would be doing you
a disservice
1735
01:15:39,576 --> 01:15:41,245
if I didn't tell you
that professionally,
1736
01:15:41,286 --> 01:15:45,040
that's going to be
an obstacle for you forever.
1737
01:15:45,082 --> 01:15:46,959
One of the first insights I had
1738
01:15:47,000 --> 01:15:48,460
into who these
young people were,
1739
01:15:48,502 --> 01:15:50,671
even before
I understood the science
1740
01:15:50,712 --> 01:15:52,923
and the history
and things like that
1741
01:15:52,965 --> 01:15:56,843
that has evolved
over recent years,
1742
01:15:56,885 --> 01:15:59,471
I would look at their tattoos.
1743
01:15:59,513 --> 01:16:04,059
And their tattoos would,
you know, cause me to pause.
1744
01:16:04,101 --> 01:16:06,103
For example,
they would say things like,
1745
01:16:06,144 --> 01:16:07,437
"Born to be hated.
1746
01:16:07,479 --> 01:16:09,356
Dying to be loved."
1747
01:16:09,398 --> 01:16:12,734
"Life is hard, dying is easy."
1748
01:16:12,776 --> 01:16:14,444
Or "Death is nothing.
1749
01:16:14,486 --> 01:16:17,447
But to live defeated
is to die every day."
1750
01:16:17,489 --> 01:16:20,993
And I mean these...
I remember them because
1751
01:16:21,034 --> 01:16:23,203
they're burned
in my consciousness.
1752
01:16:23,245 --> 01:16:25,414
And to add to that,
the young people
1753
01:16:25,455 --> 01:16:29,543
who were siblings
or other family members
1754
01:16:29,585 --> 01:16:31,086
who would come to visit them,
1755
01:16:31,587 --> 01:16:35,340
these young people talk about
what they want their
shrines to look like.
1756
01:16:35,382 --> 01:16:37,175
I mean, they're nine
and 10 years old.
1757
01:16:37,217 --> 01:16:42,139
So in their mind, this is
a normal trajectory of life.
1758
01:16:43,307 --> 01:16:45,017
[Beverly] Last year
in the summertime,
1759
01:16:45,058 --> 01:16:46,935
they witnessed my son's friend
1760
01:16:46,977 --> 01:16:48,562
getting shot in their face.
1761
01:16:48,604 --> 01:16:51,565
You know, like, on the street.
1762
01:16:51,607 --> 01:16:55,235
Maybe 10 feet away from us.
1763
01:16:55,277 --> 01:16:56,612
Seeing his friend get shot,
1764
01:16:56,653 --> 01:16:59,031
laid on the stretcher,
bloody and everything.
1765
01:16:59,072 --> 01:17:00,532
My kids was scared.
1766
01:17:01,116 --> 01:17:02,200
You know? And...
1767
01:17:02,618 --> 01:17:06,663
Every Fourth of July,
my five-year-old, DaRon,
1768
01:17:06,705 --> 01:17:11,084
I gotta turn TVs up,
I gotta play music,
1769
01:17:11,126 --> 01:17:13,045
'cause when the firecrackers
go off,
1770
01:17:13,086 --> 01:17:15,047
he starts crying and gets scared
1771
01:17:15,088 --> 01:17:16,506
and the first thing
he says to me
1772
01:17:16,548 --> 01:17:19,051
is, "Those are gunshots.
1773
01:17:19,092 --> 01:17:22,137
They're coming
to kill my brother."
1774
01:17:23,513 --> 01:17:24,973
I mean, they're kids.
1775
01:17:25,599 --> 01:17:28,685
They're kids.
The two little ones, you know,
1776
01:17:28,727 --> 01:17:32,064
they really don't
know all the way, but...
1777
01:17:32,648 --> 01:17:34,483
The big one, David, he knows.
1778
01:17:34,524 --> 01:17:36,068
He knows, he knows.
1779
01:17:36,109 --> 01:17:38,904
He's smart. He's smart.
1780
01:17:38,945 --> 01:17:40,197
He knows.
1781
01:17:41,865 --> 01:17:43,158
Don't look at it.
1782
01:17:43,742 --> 01:17:45,827
It's not funny,
don't look at it.
1783
01:17:45,869 --> 01:17:47,829
Don't look at it.
1784
01:17:48,413 --> 01:17:51,500
[Dequan] She's cool, she's good.
You know?
1785
01:17:51,541 --> 01:17:53,460
She took a charge for me.
1786
01:17:53,502 --> 01:17:55,003
She's good.
1787
01:17:55,045 --> 01:17:56,213
She's a keeper.
1788
01:17:56,797 --> 01:17:59,466
-Every day?
-Yeah, on weekdays.
1789
01:17:59,508 --> 01:18:01,551
-[mumbles]
-Weekdays.
1790
01:18:01,593 --> 01:18:05,222
-This is a weekend.
-Oh, yeah, it's Sat-- Wow.
[chuckles]
1791
01:18:05,263 --> 01:18:07,808
[scoffs]
Gotta stay off that liquor.
1792
01:18:07,849 --> 01:18:10,852
I don't drink liquor,
first of all.
1793
01:18:10,894 --> 01:18:12,062
I smoke.
1794
01:18:13,188 --> 01:18:15,649
-My brain's fried.
-I know.
1795
01:18:15,691 --> 01:18:18,402
[Beverly]
Easter Day, we had a fire.
1796
01:18:18,443 --> 01:18:19,736
We lost everything.
1797
01:18:19,778 --> 01:18:22,489
I had to stay in a shelter
with my three kids
1798
01:18:22,531 --> 01:18:24,074
for three weeks.
1799
01:18:24,116 --> 01:18:25,742
Then move here.
1800
01:18:26,159 --> 01:18:28,203
Then find out
my son had got shot.
1801
01:18:28,245 --> 01:18:31,998
And then my youngest
is diagnosed with asthma.
1802
01:18:32,040 --> 01:18:33,625
So I was like a walking zombie.
1803
01:18:33,667 --> 01:18:36,378
'Cause it's like my baby's
on the fourth floor,
1804
01:18:36,420 --> 01:18:38,547
my big baby's
on the seventh floor.
1805
01:18:38,588 --> 01:18:41,925
So when it's time for the baby
to get his treatment,
1806
01:18:41,967 --> 01:18:45,262
that give me time to go upstairs
and spend with Dequan.
1807
01:18:45,303 --> 01:18:47,013
I'm mad he got shot.
1808
01:18:47,514 --> 01:18:50,642
I'm so mad.
Because when he was here,
1809
01:18:51,059 --> 01:18:53,103
them younger kids that I have,
1810
01:18:53,520 --> 01:18:56,857
he had them under control.
You know?
1811
01:18:56,898 --> 01:18:59,985
It was like
the big brother's here,
1812
01:19:00,026 --> 01:19:02,195
you know, to watch the kids.
1813
01:19:02,237 --> 01:19:03,196
He was there.
1814
01:19:03,572 --> 01:19:06,241
It's time to go take these boys
to get their hair cut.
1815
01:19:06,283 --> 01:19:08,952
'Cause they lookin' rough.
Come on, babies.
1816
01:19:08,994 --> 01:19:11,079
[Dequan] I know God's gonna
make a way for me.
1817
01:19:11,121 --> 01:19:13,498
He's gonna help me.
1818
01:19:13,540 --> 01:19:15,208
He got me.
1819
01:19:15,250 --> 01:19:16,710
Movin' my foot now and stuff.
1820
01:19:16,752 --> 01:19:19,129
I got muscles
and stuff coming back.
1821
01:19:19,629 --> 01:19:23,049
Then, um, I still got
my bladder problem,
1822
01:19:23,091 --> 01:19:24,384
I can't pee on my own right now.
1823
01:19:24,426 --> 01:19:26,720
Gotta get catheterized.
1824
01:19:26,762 --> 01:19:28,263
But I learned to do it myself
1825
01:19:28,305 --> 01:19:30,348
so even if my leg come back
1826
01:19:30,390 --> 01:19:32,976
and I still gotta
catheterize myself,
1827
01:19:33,018 --> 01:19:34,936
I can do that at home.
1828
01:19:34,978 --> 01:19:36,229
Nah, I gotta get rich.
1829
01:19:36,271 --> 01:19:37,481
Gotta stay away.
1830
01:19:37,522 --> 01:19:38,732
[rapping]
1831
01:19:38,774 --> 01:19:40,567
[Dequan] Do this music stuff.
1832
01:19:40,609 --> 01:19:42,194
Just get rich.
1833
01:19:42,235 --> 01:19:45,197
Then I get rich,
have my team with me,
1834
01:19:45,238 --> 01:19:47,157
so they can be outta Boston.
1835
01:19:51,328 --> 01:19:52,913
Okay.
1836
01:19:52,954 --> 01:19:54,873
It's ringing, so.
1837
01:19:54,915 --> 01:19:56,333
Hi, Mommy.
1838
01:19:58,502 --> 01:20:00,337
You wanna tell Momma
what you did today?
1839
01:20:00,378 --> 01:20:01,713
Mm-hmm.
1840
01:20:02,547 --> 01:20:06,343
I was at the Pump N Jump.
1841
01:20:06,384 --> 01:20:11,723
[stammering] I was scared to
go down the slide.
1842
01:20:11,932 --> 01:20:14,768
[Mel] You know,
he's called me sometimes.
1843
01:20:14,810 --> 01:20:16,770
He's had issues. I've went--
1844
01:20:16,812 --> 01:20:19,439
He's called me,
I went right to his house
1845
01:20:19,773 --> 01:20:23,026
and interrupted
altercations between him
and his baby's mother.
1846
01:20:23,068 --> 01:20:25,946
At one point, I was abusive,
now I'm really verbally--
1847
01:20:25,987 --> 01:20:28,615
I'm verbally abusive.
I'm not doin' this jail shit.
1848
01:20:28,657 --> 01:20:31,576
I'm just, nah,
I'm verbally abusive.
1849
01:20:31,618 --> 01:20:33,912
But God works
in mysterious ways,
1850
01:20:33,954 --> 01:20:35,997
'cause what did He
bless me with?
1851
01:20:36,039 --> 01:20:36,957
Two little girls.
1852
01:20:36,998 --> 01:20:40,502
So it's just like,
it's just like, ah, man!
1853
01:20:40,544 --> 01:20:42,629
Like, ooh!
Y'all are my angels.
1854
01:20:42,671 --> 01:20:46,258
-Mommy said she miss you.
-I miss you, too.
1855
01:20:46,967 --> 01:20:49,261
-[indistinct phone chatter]
-Okay.
1856
01:20:49,302 --> 01:20:52,180
-Say, "Love you, Momma."
-I love you.
1857
01:20:53,265 --> 01:20:55,725
-Bye.
-Bye.
1858
01:20:56,685 --> 01:20:58,353
What's up, Mel?
1859
01:20:58,937 --> 01:21:00,564
Ain't much been
goin' on, really.
1860
01:21:00,605 --> 01:21:02,607
[Jordan] What's-her-name's
on Instagram, still.
1861
01:21:02,649 --> 01:21:04,067
-[Mel] Who?
-Corey.
1862
01:21:04,109 --> 01:21:07,070
Me and Donnell was supposed
to go out there to the rehab...
1863
01:21:07,112 --> 01:21:10,574
Mel, you know,
I don't wanna put his business
out there,
1864
01:21:10,615 --> 01:21:11,658
but he did 10 years.
1865
01:21:11,700 --> 01:21:12,784
So, of course, it's only right
1866
01:21:12,826 --> 01:21:15,370
that he comes back
to the community
1867
01:21:15,412 --> 01:21:17,372
and try to guide us
in the right path.
1868
01:21:17,414 --> 01:21:21,251
I went away from '91 to 2000.
1869
01:21:22,294 --> 01:21:24,212
So, you know, I was home,
1870
01:21:24,254 --> 01:21:25,630
I was on parole.
1871
01:21:25,672 --> 01:21:28,717
2005, got arrested.
1872
01:21:28,758 --> 01:21:32,304
And 2007, when my mom passed...
1873
01:21:32,721 --> 01:21:35,849
and, I mean, she was my life.
Know what I'm sayin'?
1874
01:21:35,891 --> 01:21:39,352
She was my life,
as if anybody's mom.
1875
01:21:39,686 --> 01:21:43,148
And my cousin said to me,
1876
01:21:44,107 --> 01:21:48,862
"It would be easy to say
'I don't give a fuck,'
1877
01:21:48,904 --> 01:21:53,909
but that's not what she
would have wanted you to do."
1878
01:21:54,576 --> 01:21:57,287
You know?
So I was like, "You know what?
1879
01:21:57,329 --> 01:21:58,622
You're right, cuz.
1880
01:21:59,164 --> 01:22:02,542
I'm gonna do what she
would want me to do."
1881
01:22:02,959 --> 01:22:08,465
And I've been on the path
to success so far.
1882
01:22:08,798 --> 01:22:10,967
And I'm reachin' for them stars.
1883
01:22:12,886 --> 01:22:15,889
-[girl] Cat!
-[Jordan] Come on,
I'ma come pick him up,
1884
01:22:15,931 --> 01:22:18,558
then we gon' come back
in the living room.
1885
01:22:18,600 --> 01:22:21,978
Boo! [screams]
1886
01:22:22,646 --> 01:22:24,397
[both laughing]
1887
01:22:24,439 --> 01:22:25,899
-Who's the man?
-You.
1888
01:22:25,941 --> 01:22:27,484
-Who's the princess?
-Me.
1889
01:22:27,525 --> 01:22:30,278
Okay.
Where's Uncle Willy at?
1890
01:22:30,320 --> 01:22:31,780
[laughs]
1891
01:22:31,821 --> 01:22:33,365
[Jordan]
I'm out here right now.
1892
01:22:33,406 --> 01:22:34,783
I stay with my brother
right now.
1893
01:22:34,824 --> 01:22:36,284
And we're both hot-tempered.
1894
01:22:36,326 --> 01:22:39,079
But I say God
does everything for a reason.
You know?
1895
01:22:39,120 --> 01:22:42,415
And since we've been
out here together,
we haven't--
1896
01:22:42,457 --> 01:22:44,042
It's been cool,
calm, and collected.
1897
01:22:44,084 --> 01:22:45,877
We all on one,
we all on the same page.
1898
01:22:45,919 --> 01:22:48,672
We all wanna focus.
We all wanna do better
for ourselves.
1899
01:22:48,713 --> 01:22:49,881
-[girl] Dad!
-Yes?
1900
01:22:49,923 --> 01:22:51,466
All those people's
making me mad.
1901
01:22:51,508 --> 01:22:53,343
Don't worry.
I'll protect you.
1902
01:22:53,385 --> 01:22:56,513
You gotta stand
right there, okay?
1903
01:22:56,888 --> 01:22:58,765
'Cause I gotta be
in eyesight of you.
1904
01:22:58,807 --> 01:22:59,933
You gotta be in my eyesight.
1905
01:22:59,975 --> 01:23:01,977
I'm learning on my own
how to be a man.
1906
01:23:02,018 --> 01:23:04,396
I'm not a complete man.
You know what I'm sayin'?
1907
01:23:04,437 --> 01:23:06,398
I still got a lot
of things to learn.
1908
01:23:06,439 --> 01:23:07,774
It's one day at a time.
1909
01:23:07,816 --> 01:23:11,194
Like an AA and NA meeting,
take it one step at a time.
1910
01:23:11,236 --> 01:23:12,362
You know?
1911
01:23:12,779 --> 01:23:14,239
[laughing]
1912
01:23:14,280 --> 01:23:15,865
You wanna meet your new friends?
1913
01:23:15,907 --> 01:23:19,035
I've been waiting to
introduce you to these two.
1914
01:23:19,828 --> 01:23:22,372
-Say hi!
-Hi!
1915
01:23:24,624 --> 01:23:27,419
[Jordan] You havin' fun? No?
1916
01:23:29,087 --> 01:23:31,881
This is what it's about
right here, though.
1917
01:23:34,634 --> 01:23:36,553
This is what it's about, man.
1918
01:23:37,220 --> 01:23:39,848
I missed my childhood.
And most of us out here,
1919
01:23:39,889 --> 01:23:42,976
out here in the hood,
we missed our childhood,
1920
01:23:43,018 --> 01:23:46,062
but you just try to make it--
Yeah.
1921
01:23:46,104 --> 01:23:47,981
You just try to make it
to where your children
1922
01:23:48,023 --> 01:23:50,066
get to have that childhood.
1923
01:23:50,692 --> 01:23:52,068
A good one.
1924
01:23:52,527 --> 01:23:54,279
My brother's keepers
1925
01:23:54,320 --> 01:23:57,574
Reach out
Receive the deliverance
1926
01:23:57,615 --> 01:24:00,827
We oughta live life
With love
1927
01:24:00,869 --> 01:24:03,121
With open arms
1928
01:24:03,163 --> 01:24:06,291
Armed with
My brother's keepers
1929
01:24:06,332 --> 01:24:09,627
Reach out
Receive the deliverance
1930
01:24:09,669 --> 01:24:12,839
We oughta live life
With love
1931
01:24:12,881 --> 01:24:15,383
With open arms
1932
01:24:15,425 --> 01:24:18,636
Filled with love
1933
01:24:19,554 --> 01:24:21,848
[Travis] Michael Jackson said
he never had a chance
to be a child
1934
01:24:21,890 --> 01:24:23,683
'cause he was just so famous.
You know what I'm sayin'?
1935
01:24:23,725 --> 01:24:27,270
He never had
a chance to be a child,
have fun, chill.
1936
01:24:27,312 --> 01:24:29,105
When I was a child, yeah,
I was playin' sports,
1937
01:24:29,147 --> 01:24:30,607
but when I was playin' sports,
I'm thinking about,
1938
01:24:30,648 --> 01:24:32,317
"Yo, I gotta my mom--
1939
01:24:32,358 --> 01:24:33,651
I gotta do this for my family.
1940
01:24:33,693 --> 01:24:36,071
Gotta do this because
we need money."
1941
01:24:36,112 --> 01:24:38,364
You know what I'm sayin'?
I gotta get a house,
I gotta do this.
1942
01:24:38,406 --> 01:24:41,701
You know what I'm sayin'?
I never really got a chance
to be a child.
1943
01:24:41,743 --> 01:24:43,411
So now that I'm older,
I play a lot.
1944
01:24:43,453 --> 01:24:45,955
I play, like,
this dude's like a big kid.
Been locked up so long.
1945
01:24:45,997 --> 01:24:49,000
It's like now I'm out,
I wanna have fun.
I wanna laugh now.
1946
01:24:49,042 --> 01:24:50,460
I wanna smile.
You know what I'm sayin'?
1947
01:24:50,502 --> 01:24:51,920
I been tight so long
1948
01:24:51,961 --> 01:24:53,713
that everything had
to be serious for me.
1949
01:24:53,755 --> 01:24:56,716
I wasn't really a joking kid.
I didn't have a childhood.
1950
01:24:56,758 --> 01:24:59,052
It was just took from me
'cause I'm in the hood, man.
1951
01:24:59,094 --> 01:25:03,139
Live life with love
With open arms
1952
01:25:03,181 --> 01:25:06,184
Armed with
My brother's keepers
1953
01:25:06,226 --> 01:25:09,187
Reach out
Receive the deliverance
1954
01:25:09,229 --> 01:25:12,732
We oughta live life
With love
1955
01:25:12,774 --> 01:25:15,443
With open arms
1956
01:25:15,485 --> 01:25:18,988
Filled with love
1957
01:25:23,284 --> 01:25:25,245
[inspiring music]
1958
01:25:25,286 --> 01:25:29,207
Boston needs one strategy.
There's different programs.
1959
01:25:29,249 --> 01:25:32,085
There's the city streetworkers,
the faith-based streetworkers,
others.
1960
01:25:32,127 --> 01:25:35,255
I think there needs to be
one collective strategy
moving forward.
1961
01:25:35,296 --> 01:25:37,340
I think if we do this
the right way
1962
01:25:37,382 --> 01:25:41,094
with really, really wrapping
around these neighborhoods
and these streets,
1963
01:25:41,136 --> 01:25:47,267
we'll get a chance to really
claim our streets back.
1964
01:25:47,308 --> 01:25:50,103
[Jordan]
I wanna be that person
that can say, "This dude,
1965
01:25:50,145 --> 01:25:53,898
he really did something
for himself, his community.
1966
01:25:53,940 --> 01:25:55,358
He tried to help."
1967
01:25:55,400 --> 01:25:58,153
Or, "He helped these kids,"
or, "He helped himself."
1968
01:25:58,194 --> 01:26:02,574
-This kid was
choking me for real.
-[laughter]
1969
01:26:03,533 --> 01:26:05,743
I don't wanna be a bad story.
1970
01:26:05,785 --> 01:26:08,037
I wanna be a good story.
1971
01:26:10,832 --> 01:26:12,876
A couple years
had passed, you know.
1972
01:26:12,917 --> 01:26:15,253
Me and Joe
still building our bond.
1973
01:26:15,295 --> 01:26:21,092
And one day, he called me
and he was like, "Nap, man...
1974
01:26:21,134 --> 01:26:24,053
I just got in touch
with my father on Facebook."
1975
01:26:24,095 --> 01:26:28,141
My older cousin call me,
and he's like, "I think I found
your father on Facebook."
1976
01:26:28,183 --> 01:26:30,101
I'm like, "My father?
My father who?"
1977
01:26:30,143 --> 01:26:32,228
He's like, "Looks just like you.
His name's Joe Sierra."
1978
01:26:32,270 --> 01:26:35,315
My cousin was like,
"It is him, 'cause I know him
from back in the day."
1979
01:26:35,356 --> 01:26:38,943
He was like,
"I wanna go see him, Nap."
1980
01:26:38,985 --> 01:26:40,153
I said, "You know what?
1981
01:26:40,195 --> 01:26:43,656
Go tell Omaira
to look on the computer
1982
01:26:43,698 --> 01:26:45,200
and get you a ticket, man."
1983
01:26:45,241 --> 01:26:48,077
I went to Miami,
I met my father,
1984
01:26:48,119 --> 01:26:50,121
and I met my grandmother.
1985
01:26:50,163 --> 01:26:53,416
I got cousins, uncles, aunts.
1986
01:26:53,458 --> 01:26:58,129
[Omaira] That was
really, really, really,
a turning point for Joe,
1987
01:26:58,171 --> 01:27:00,340
because I knew
that if he went to Miami
1988
01:27:00,381 --> 01:27:03,343
and something went wrong
with his father
1989
01:27:03,384 --> 01:27:07,138
or that there was some glitch,
that could definitely, you know,
1990
01:27:07,180 --> 01:27:09,098
change Joe
when he got back home.
1991
01:27:09,140 --> 01:27:10,683
He got two little boats.
1992
01:27:10,725 --> 01:27:14,145
And he brought me
on a boat to the canal.
1993
01:27:14,187 --> 01:27:16,022
Canal's crazy, man.
It's like...
1994
01:27:16,064 --> 01:27:18,024
Pssh, man, I'm from the hood.
1995
01:27:18,066 --> 01:27:20,693
I don't think the hood got
anything on the canal, man.
1996
01:27:20,735 --> 01:27:23,279
The canal's like a little river,
1997
01:27:23,321 --> 01:27:26,950
and there's snakes
in there, snapping turtles,
1998
01:27:26,991 --> 01:27:30,411
alligators right under
the boat, starin' at you.
1999
01:27:30,453 --> 01:27:33,331
And then there's
all type of wild birds,
there's iguanas.
2000
01:27:33,373 --> 01:27:36,209
Iguanas over the trees,
fallin' on the boat, man.
2001
01:27:36,251 --> 01:27:39,128
It was just-- it was wild, man.
You know what I mean?
2002
01:27:39,170 --> 01:27:42,423
He took me on a canal.
Then it got real dark.
2003
01:27:42,465 --> 01:27:45,260
It was scary.
It was pitch black on the canal.
2004
01:27:45,301 --> 01:27:47,804
And you see the alligators'
eyes glowin'.
2005
01:27:47,845 --> 01:27:50,056
I was like, "Man, we gotta
get up outta here."
2006
01:27:50,098 --> 01:27:51,557
-[woman laughs]
-You know what I'm sayin'?
2007
01:27:51,599 --> 01:27:54,435
We gotta get outta here
before somethin' happen to us.
2008
01:27:54,477 --> 01:27:55,436
And he's normal with it.
2009
01:27:55,478 --> 01:27:57,230
He's like, "They're not
gonna do nothin'."
2010
01:27:57,272 --> 01:28:00,483
I'm like, "Man, listen,
we gotta go."
2011
01:28:00,525 --> 01:28:02,026
You know what I'm sayin'?
2012
01:28:02,068 --> 01:28:04,112
So, definitely trying
to be a father.
2013
01:28:04,153 --> 01:28:06,656
I don't take nothin' from him.
2014
01:28:08,032 --> 01:28:09,909
[Beverly]
At the end of the day,
2015
01:28:09,951 --> 01:28:12,120
I hope this
is an experience for Bop
2016
01:28:12,161 --> 01:28:17,166
so he can share
everything with them
2017
01:28:17,208 --> 01:28:21,170
and keep them
on the right path.
2018
01:28:22,463 --> 01:28:25,675
[Dequan] Just getting shot
was a wake-up call.
2019
01:28:27,468 --> 01:28:30,638
I'm not about to get
jacked by the police.
2020
01:28:31,180 --> 01:28:32,432
None of that.
2021
01:28:32,473 --> 01:28:34,392
I already know
what I have to do.
2022
01:28:34,434 --> 01:28:36,686
You know,
father live out of Boston,
2023
01:28:36,728 --> 01:28:40,106
so I just gotta go back home.
2024
01:28:40,148 --> 01:28:42,942
-I'm healin'.
That's all that matters.
-[Beverly] Yeah.
2025
01:28:42,984 --> 01:28:45,028
They had to take
out a third of my colon,
2026
01:28:45,069 --> 01:28:46,487
reattach my stomach.
2027
01:28:46,529 --> 01:28:51,743
But then I still got
the full-flight hollow-tip
2028
01:28:51,784 --> 01:28:55,079
right here in my spine.
2029
01:28:55,121 --> 01:28:58,750
Once you get injured,
you always come back stronger.
2030
01:28:59,751 --> 01:29:01,210
I'll be good fully--
2031
01:29:01,252 --> 01:29:03,212
like another year and a half
from now,
2032
01:29:03,254 --> 01:29:05,131
I'll be back runnin'.
2033
01:29:05,173 --> 01:29:10,511
Before I can even try to
figure out what's gonna happen
2034
01:29:10,553 --> 01:29:13,931
with them as they're growin' up,
I just need to work on myself
2035
01:29:13,973 --> 01:29:18,478
and just pray like hell
that they don't grow up
2036
01:29:18,519 --> 01:29:23,232
and follow into
Dequan's footsteps.
2037
01:29:25,485 --> 01:29:30,782
Sometimes in my mind
I wanna relapse 'cause
it's hard out here doin' this
2038
01:29:30,823 --> 01:29:32,617
and then all the problems
and my temper.
2039
01:29:32,658 --> 01:29:37,789
But at the same time,
I always say to myself,
I can never leave my daughters.
2040
01:29:37,830 --> 01:29:42,418
No matter what it is,
I have to wake up the next day
to speak to my daughters.
2041
01:29:42,460 --> 01:29:45,505
I have to go to sleep
every night to speak
to my daughters.
2042
01:29:45,546 --> 01:29:47,632
God is good, you know?
I'm here today.
2043
01:29:47,673 --> 01:29:50,051
By the grace of God,
I could get through the night
2044
01:29:50,093 --> 01:29:52,595
and wake up tomorrow
and worry about that day.
2045
01:29:52,637 --> 01:29:54,222
And there on, there forth.
2046
01:29:54,263 --> 01:29:57,475
-[growling]
-[girl screaming]
2047
01:29:58,935 --> 01:30:00,144
Ah, you got me!
2048
01:30:00,186 --> 01:30:02,188
Don't nobody wanna keep
looking behind their back.
2049
01:30:02,230 --> 01:30:04,148
I don't give a fuck who it is.
2050
01:30:04,190 --> 01:30:07,860
I don't give a fuck if you
the toughest motherfucker
in America.
2051
01:30:07,902 --> 01:30:10,530
If you can live drama-free
2052
01:30:10,571 --> 01:30:14,450
and try to take care
of your family,
2053
01:30:15,034 --> 01:30:16,244
shit, why not?
2054
01:30:16,285 --> 01:30:18,955
I'm just trying to make up
for lost time.
2055
01:30:19,956 --> 01:30:21,666
That's all.
2056
01:30:21,707 --> 01:30:23,501
But it's hard, though.
2057
01:30:23,543 --> 01:30:26,421
It's all about
taking those steps.
2058
01:30:26,462 --> 01:30:31,050
I'm not gonna lie, man,
I'm scared to take those steps.
2059
01:30:31,092 --> 01:30:32,885
'Cause change is real, man.
2060
01:30:32,927 --> 01:30:34,637
Change is big.
2061
01:30:34,679 --> 01:30:37,181
Change is just not easy.
2062
01:30:37,223 --> 01:30:39,350
Like I said,
it's a process, man.
2063
01:30:39,392 --> 01:30:42,520
A butterfly doesn't turn
into a butterfly.
2064
01:30:42,562 --> 01:30:45,815
It's a fuckin' caterpillar
at first.
2065
01:30:46,441 --> 01:30:49,235
I just gotta learn how to fly.
2066
01:30:49,277 --> 01:30:51,988
Fly away from all this bullshit.
2067
01:30:53,406 --> 01:30:56,826
[Joe] I'm just a person.
I don't wanna be mad no more.
2068
01:30:56,868 --> 01:30:58,369
I used to get mad quick.
2069
01:30:58,411 --> 01:31:00,872
Now I actually do get mad quick,
2070
01:31:00,913 --> 01:31:04,167
but I tend
to brush it off quicker.
2071
01:31:04,208 --> 01:31:09,338
In 10 years--
where I see myself in 10 years?
2072
01:31:09,964 --> 01:31:12,383
I don't really see that far.
[echoes]
2073
01:31:14,427 --> 01:31:20,516
We can end this situation
by, again, education.
2074
01:31:21,267 --> 01:31:25,188
We can end this situation
by providing
2075
01:31:25,229 --> 01:31:26,772
mental health counseling.
2076
01:31:26,814 --> 01:31:32,945
We can end this situation
by providing drug counseling.
2077
01:31:32,987 --> 01:31:37,909
We should be having
their faces on a board too,
like, "No, we're gonna save him.
2078
01:31:37,950 --> 01:31:40,161
And everybody
up under this tree."
2079
01:31:40,203 --> 01:31:42,872
Make the FBI tree.
2080
01:31:42,914 --> 01:31:47,084
And then showin' charts
of where we're at
in their lives.
2081
01:31:47,126 --> 01:31:49,128
Okay, what stage
is this at with him?
2082
01:31:49,170 --> 01:31:51,589
Where's he at with this?
How's the home?
2083
01:31:51,631 --> 01:31:53,883
Who's workin'
on that home piece?
2084
01:31:53,925 --> 01:31:55,259
We're not doin' that.
2085
01:31:55,301 --> 01:31:58,179
We're not doin' that.
Who's doin' that?
2086
01:31:58,221 --> 01:32:00,515
So we get the results
that we're gettin'.
2087
01:32:00,556 --> 01:32:02,600
[Donnell]
I'm asking you right now.
Think.
2088
01:32:02,642 --> 01:32:06,020
That's the question--
where do you see yourself
in five years?
2089
01:32:06,062 --> 01:32:08,022
-Tss, I can't say.
-Okay.
2090
01:32:08,064 --> 01:32:09,941
-Here's the answer.
Right?
-Yeah.
2091
01:32:09,982 --> 01:32:12,902
-You're trying to get
in Building Pathways, right?
-Yeah.
2092
01:32:12,944 --> 01:32:14,362
-For a union job, right?
-Yeah.
2093
01:32:14,403 --> 01:32:16,364
So in five years,
where do you see yourself?
2094
01:32:16,405 --> 01:32:18,616
-Workin' in the union.
-Workin' in the union.
2095
01:32:18,658 --> 01:32:21,327
-Yeah.
-Making a career out of it.
2096
01:32:21,369 --> 01:32:23,871
-Making a career
out of it, right?
-Yeah.
2097
01:32:23,913 --> 01:32:25,206
Giving back to my community
2098
01:32:25,248 --> 01:32:27,375
by helping build structures
in my community.
2099
01:32:27,416 --> 01:32:28,626
-Yeah.
-Right?
2100
01:32:28,668 --> 01:32:31,963
Showing the people
at Building Pathways
2101
01:32:32,004 --> 01:32:33,673
and the people
at StreetSafe Boston
2102
01:32:33,714 --> 01:32:35,716
that they didn't make a mistake
by helping me get in here
2103
01:32:35,758 --> 01:32:37,426
because now I've been
in here five years
2104
01:32:37,468 --> 01:32:39,971
-and I'ma be in here
for 40 more.
-Yeah.
2105
01:32:40,012 --> 01:32:43,057
-From zero to 50?
-Yeah.
2106
01:32:43,099 --> 01:32:47,061
From gettin' shot in my arm,
shot in my head?
2107
01:32:47,103 --> 01:32:49,188
-Gangbangin', hustlin'?
-Yeah.
2108
01:32:49,230 --> 01:32:51,190
To makin' more money, legit,
2109
01:32:51,232 --> 01:32:54,402
-than I was able to make
on the streets?
-Yeah.
2110
01:32:54,443 --> 01:32:56,737
Where do you see yourself
in five years?
2111
01:32:56,779 --> 01:32:58,406
[laughs]
2112
01:32:58,447 --> 01:33:02,451
Pfft, man, finishin' up
my apprenticeship.
2113
01:33:02,493 --> 01:33:04,870
You know
what I'm saying?
[laughs]
2114
01:33:04,912 --> 01:33:07,248
Come on. Come on.
Come on.
2115
01:33:07,290 --> 01:33:10,209
I'm feelin' good about myself.
I've got my head held high.
2116
01:33:10,251 --> 01:33:12,044
I came a long way, you know?
2117
01:33:12,086 --> 01:33:14,922
That's where I see myself
in five years.
2118
01:33:14,964 --> 01:33:16,674
-Fabulous. All right?
-Mm-hmm.
2119
01:33:16,716 --> 01:33:18,634
Now, we gonna do this
a million times.
2120
01:33:18,676 --> 01:33:20,761
-We gonna have to.
-We'll do it a million times.
2121
01:33:20,803 --> 01:33:24,515
-Yeah.
-But that question's gonna
be the make or break.
2122
01:33:24,557 --> 01:33:26,183
-All right.
-Keep out of trouble.
2123
01:33:26,225 --> 01:33:27,977
-How's wifey, man?
-She's all right.
2124
01:33:28,019 --> 01:33:32,189
[Donnell] You know,
surely, we're dealin'
with a situation...
2125
01:33:32,231 --> 01:33:34,317
that some could say
they fall victim to
2126
01:33:34,358 --> 01:33:36,527
without contemplation.
2127
01:33:36,569 --> 01:33:38,571
You say that these cats
really love these gangs,
2128
01:33:38,613 --> 01:33:41,741
and I say, you know what,
you got to be mistaken.
2129
01:33:41,782 --> 01:33:44,619
See, 'cause I don't know no cat
from Humboldt, man,
2130
01:33:44,660 --> 01:33:46,829
who enjoy the thangs,
to be called the bangbang,
2131
01:33:46,871 --> 01:33:48,664
because he's just
tryin' to overstand,
2132
01:33:48,706 --> 01:33:51,834
damn, when can me
and my people eat, fam?
2133
01:33:52,376 --> 01:33:53,669
It's hard in this land.
2134
01:33:53,711 --> 01:33:55,921
And if I walk down
the block to Grove Hall
2135
01:33:55,963 --> 01:33:59,508
and I'm lookin' at Adidas Park,
that old school wall, because
you know what?
2136
01:33:59,550 --> 01:34:01,719
Intervale is still there.
Hold up, beware.
2137
01:34:01,761 --> 01:34:04,680
'Cause MIC,
they ain't goin' nowhere.
2138
01:34:04,722 --> 01:34:07,141
Magnolia, Intervale,
Castlegate, whoa!
2139
01:34:07,183 --> 01:34:09,393
Columbia Road, whoa!
Can somebody hear?
2140
01:34:09,435 --> 01:34:11,812
You see there's pain
in this atmosphere.
2141
01:34:11,854 --> 01:34:14,440
Because there is no
economical growth in my land
2142
01:34:14,482 --> 01:34:16,192
and I'm looking
at all these abandoned
2143
01:34:16,233 --> 01:34:17,902
apartment buildings
and I'm saying damn.
2144
01:34:17,943 --> 01:34:20,446
Because on this day and time,
some folks are really blind
2145
01:34:20,488 --> 01:34:22,531
to what's goin' on
for me and mine.
2146
01:34:22,573 --> 01:34:25,201
And down in OP,
they still not eatin'.
2147
01:34:25,242 --> 01:34:27,370
I mean, they got a whole
bunch of new buildings.
2148
01:34:27,411 --> 01:34:29,497
How 'bout the new school
that Menino built?
2149
01:34:29,538 --> 01:34:31,749
But, damn, I'm still feelin'
all this type of guilt.
2150
01:34:31,791 --> 01:34:36,087
Why? Because it's like givin'
folks cereal with no milk.
2151
01:34:37,046 --> 01:34:38,297
Do you understand?
2152
01:34:38,339 --> 01:34:40,091
What's contemplating,
or should I say
2153
01:34:40,132 --> 01:34:41,801
going on in this land?
2154
01:34:41,842 --> 01:34:45,471
But now, today,
I'm sittin' and I'm wonderin'.
2155
01:34:45,513 --> 01:34:47,598
Does anybody really care
2156
01:34:47,640 --> 01:34:50,893
about what's happenin'
in this atmosphere?
2157
01:34:53,604 --> 01:34:55,189
This is not an accident--
2158
01:34:55,231 --> 01:34:58,818
all of these homicides
that happenin' within
a three-mile radius.
2159
01:34:58,859 --> 01:35:01,654
If you think
you can make me believe
2160
01:35:01,696 --> 01:35:03,239
that Boston, Massachusetts,
2161
01:35:03,280 --> 01:35:06,450
one of the best
forensic systems,
2162
01:35:06,492 --> 01:35:08,911
law enforcement systems
in the world
2163
01:35:08,953 --> 01:35:11,038
can't control three miles,
2164
01:35:11,080 --> 01:35:12,498
you're crazy as all out hell.
2165
01:35:12,540 --> 01:35:15,668
As a community,
as a city, as a society,
2166
01:35:15,710 --> 01:35:18,212
we have to stop bullshittin'.
2167
01:35:18,254 --> 01:35:19,922
Let's be truthful.
2168
01:35:22,508 --> 01:35:23,592
It's already been proven--
2169
01:35:23,634 --> 01:35:25,261
if we wanna make
something happen
2170
01:35:25,302 --> 01:35:28,639
or stop something
from happenin', it can happen.
2171
01:35:29,515 --> 01:35:32,351
That Boston Marathon
proved that.
2172
01:35:32,393 --> 01:35:35,813
You know, we had 5,000 cops
when that happened,
2173
01:35:35,855 --> 01:35:38,649
when that marathon bombing
happened.
2174
01:35:38,691 --> 01:35:41,902
You know, you can't get
those type of resources
2175
01:35:41,944 --> 01:35:43,821
to come up here
and stop this violence?
2176
01:35:43,863 --> 01:35:47,283
As the focus
was on that marathon...
2177
01:35:48,367 --> 01:35:50,953
the hood was still shootin'.
2178
01:35:51,996 --> 01:35:53,956
But you never heard that.
2179
01:35:54,582 --> 01:35:56,292
I'ma be the one to tell you.
2180
01:35:56,333 --> 01:36:00,004
I was there and it happened
night after night
2181
01:36:00,045 --> 01:36:02,298
after night since then.
2182
01:36:02,339 --> 01:36:03,924
There was a shooting.
2183
01:36:03,966 --> 01:36:04,967
There was a murder.
2184
01:36:05,009 --> 01:36:08,763
There was a murder,
a shooting, a shooting.
2185
01:36:09,388 --> 01:36:12,057
But nobody said
anything about that.
2186
01:36:12,099 --> 01:36:15,311
So that right there tells you
2187
01:36:16,145 --> 01:36:19,690
what society's vision and view
2188
01:36:19,732 --> 01:36:23,819
on what's going on
in the inner-city don't matter.
2189
01:36:25,196 --> 01:36:27,990
How plain do you
want that to be?
2190
01:36:29,116 --> 01:36:30,409
Why do we all need to care?
2191
01:36:30,451 --> 01:36:33,621
Because the issue of murder,
the issue of violence,
2192
01:36:33,662 --> 01:36:35,372
the issue of death by a gun,
2193
01:36:35,414 --> 01:36:40,419
is happening in urban,
suburban, and rural communities
throughout America.
2194
01:36:40,461 --> 01:36:42,254
We need to rally about this.
2195
01:36:42,296 --> 01:36:44,632
Smith & Wesson, the company,
2196
01:36:44,673 --> 01:36:47,009
is not in Roxbury,
Dorchester, or Mattapan.
2197
01:36:47,051 --> 01:36:50,262
What we also have
to make sure we're doin'
is how do we figure out,
2198
01:36:50,304 --> 01:36:53,265
to deal with getting guns
off the street.
2199
01:36:53,307 --> 01:36:55,142
So, folks,
that's all of our problems
2200
01:36:55,184 --> 01:37:00,356
because until,
and I will say this
and not to offend anyone...
2201
01:37:01,273 --> 01:37:05,027
until-- if this hits
White America,
2202
01:37:05,069 --> 01:37:07,071
White suburban-America...
2203
01:37:08,239 --> 01:37:10,032
policies will change.
2204
01:37:10,699 --> 01:37:12,993
Why wait for that to happen?
2205
01:37:13,619 --> 01:37:15,496
Why wait for it to happen?
2206
01:37:15,538 --> 01:37:17,248
Solve it now.
2207
01:37:18,290 --> 01:37:21,752
["Ridin'" by Quelli Hy]
2208
01:37:32,805 --> 01:37:34,431
Breathin' my air
2209
01:37:34,473 --> 01:37:35,975
Why you still here?
2210
01:37:36,016 --> 01:37:39,520
Ridin', ridin'
Ridin', ridin'
2211
01:37:39,562 --> 01:37:43,315
Some will be scared
I will always be here
2212
01:37:43,357 --> 01:37:46,110
Ridin', ridin'
Ridin', ridin'
2213
01:37:46,151 --> 01:37:49,780
- What you don't know
Is what you can't see
- Ooh
2214
01:37:49,822 --> 01:37:53,117
- We gon' take your block
So you can't eat
- Oh
2215
01:37:53,158 --> 01:37:56,078
My team will steal your air
So you can't breathe
2216
01:37:56,120 --> 01:38:00,833
So we always ridin'
Ridin', ridin', ridin'
2217
01:38:00,875 --> 01:38:02,710
Don't judge, now
You don't even know me
2218
01:38:02,751 --> 01:38:04,461
No struggling
You could ever show me
2219
01:38:04,503 --> 01:38:06,088
No curve ball
You could ever throw me
2220
01:38:06,130 --> 01:38:08,048
I mean, try me
Ford built to last
2221
01:38:08,090 --> 01:38:11,552
That fiberglass
Ain't breakin' for nobody
2222
01:38:11,594 --> 01:38:13,137
You alive and talkin' trash
2223
01:38:13,178 --> 01:38:14,972
Come through
And catch your body
2224
01:38:15,014 --> 01:38:16,724
I come alive
In the night sky
2225
01:38:16,765 --> 01:38:19,018
Pop three shots
Followed by a drive-by
2226
01:38:19,059 --> 01:38:21,604
How I feel when I kneel
Pray that my girl or my boy
Didn't get killed
2227
01:38:21,645 --> 01:38:24,648
But you never know
What the future will hold
So I always been told
2228
01:38:24,690 --> 01:38:27,109
That we got a long road
To learn from each other
2229
01:38:27,151 --> 01:38:29,695
Come together
Speak the same code
2230
01:38:29,737 --> 01:38:31,530
Breathin' my air
2231
01:38:31,572 --> 01:38:33,365
Why you still here?
2232
01:38:33,407 --> 01:38:36,702
Ridin', ridin'
Ridin', ridin'
2233
01:38:36,744 --> 01:38:40,414
Some will be scared
I will always be here
2234
01:38:40,456 --> 01:38:43,334
Ridin', ridin'
Ridin', ridin'
2235
01:38:43,375 --> 01:38:47,004
- What you don't know
Is what you can't see
- Ooh
2236
01:38:47,046 --> 01:38:50,341
- We gon' take your block
So you can't eat
- Oh
2237
01:38:50,382 --> 01:38:53,552
My team will steal your air
So you can't breathe
2238
01:38:53,594 --> 01:38:59,141
So we always ridin'
Ridin' Ridin', ridin'
2239
01:38:59,183 --> 01:39:03,020
- Ain't nobody ever
Hand me nothin'
- Ooh
2240
01:39:03,062 --> 01:39:05,230
- It's all on my own
- Oh
2241
01:39:05,272 --> 01:39:09,401
Breathin' my air
Why you still here?
2242
01:39:09,443 --> 01:39:12,571
Ridin', ridin'
Ridin', ridin'
2243
01:39:12,613 --> 01:39:16,450
Some will be scared
I will always be here
2244
01:39:16,492 --> 01:39:19,203
Ridin', ridin'
Ridin', ridin'
2245
01:39:19,244 --> 01:39:22,831
- What you don't know
Is what you can't see
- Ooh
2246
01:39:22,873 --> 01:39:26,210
- We gon' take your block
So you can't eat
- Oh
2247
01:39:26,251 --> 01:39:28,963
My team will steal your air
So you can't breathe
2248
01:39:29,004 --> 01:39:35,177
So we always ridin'
Ridin', ridin', ridin'
2249
01:39:37,137 --> 01:39:38,514
Ooh
2250
01:39:40,391 --> 01:39:42,184
Oh
2251
01:39:46,146 --> 01:39:49,900
["This Ain't Normal"
by Justin Gray]
2252
01:39:57,533 --> 01:40:00,953
- This ain't normal
- Body's stackin' high
To the sky
2253
01:40:00,995 --> 01:40:02,621
This ain't normal
2254
01:40:02,663 --> 01:40:04,289
Bullets flyin' by
You hear them cry
2255
01:40:04,331 --> 01:40:06,166
- This ain't normal
- No way
2256
01:40:06,208 --> 01:40:08,002
- This ain't normal
- No way
2257
01:40:08,043 --> 01:40:09,878
This ain't normal
I see it every day
2258
01:40:09,920 --> 01:40:11,964
Still they say
This ain't normal
2259
01:40:12,006 --> 01:40:15,092
Bodies stackin'
High to the sky
This ain't normal
2260
01:40:15,134 --> 01:40:19,013
Bullets flyin' by
You hear them cry
This ain't normal
2261
01:40:19,054 --> 01:40:20,931
- This ain't normal
- No way
2262
01:40:20,973 --> 01:40:23,058
This ain't normal
I see it every day
2263
01:40:23,100 --> 01:40:25,728
Still they say
This ain't normal
2264
01:40:25,769 --> 01:40:28,063
Every day bodies
Dropping in the streets
2265
01:40:28,105 --> 01:40:31,108
- This ain't normal
- You'll be lucky
To make it to 23
2266
01:40:31,150 --> 01:40:34,153
- This ain't normal
- Had to grow a third eye
So I could see
2267
01:40:34,194 --> 01:40:38,282
- This ain't normal
- Or these cowards
Will try and kill me
2268
01:40:38,323 --> 01:40:40,034
Been ridin' around
With my head down
2269
01:40:40,075 --> 01:40:41,827
Window cracked
System low
2270
01:40:41,869 --> 01:40:43,704
So if I see my drum
I'll be on point
2271
01:40:43,746 --> 01:40:45,664
To cock thang back
And be ready to go
2272
01:40:45,706 --> 01:40:47,332
It's him or me
And I ain't trying to slip
2273
01:40:47,374 --> 01:40:49,126
Try to make it home
Gotta bust a dip
2274
01:40:49,168 --> 01:40:50,919
Can't judge me
These street rules
2275
01:40:50,961 --> 01:40:52,629
Gotta think fast
Or die quick
2276
01:40:52,671 --> 01:40:54,256
The way we livin'
Ain't normal
2277
01:40:54,298 --> 01:40:55,966
I wish that
We could live normal
2278
01:40:56,008 --> 01:40:57,760
All my homies
Dead or locked up
2279
01:40:57,801 --> 01:40:59,303
I swear this life
Ain't normal
2280
01:40:59,344 --> 01:41:01,096
The way we livin'
Ain't normal
2281
01:41:01,138 --> 01:41:02,681
I wish that
We could live normal
2282
01:41:02,723 --> 01:41:04,141
Lost ten friends before 21
2283
01:41:04,183 --> 01:41:06,226
I swear this life
Ain't normal
2284
01:41:06,268 --> 01:41:08,479
Bodies stackin'
High to the sky
This ain't normal
2285
01:41:08,520 --> 01:41:12,066
Bullets flyin' by
You hear them cry
This ain't normal
2286
01:41:12,107 --> 01:41:13,901
- This ain't normal
- No way
2287
01:41:13,942 --> 01:41:15,986
This ain't normal
I see it every day
2288
01:41:16,028 --> 01:41:18,072
Still they say
This ain't normal
2289
01:41:18,113 --> 01:41:21,158
Bodies stackin'
High to they sky
This ain't normal
2290
01:41:21,200 --> 01:41:25,579
Bullets flyin' by
You hear them cry
This ain't normal
2291
01:41:25,621 --> 01:41:27,456
This ain't normal
2292
01:41:32,503 --> 01:41:36,423
[police siren wailing]
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