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(wheels screeching)
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(cars crashing)
(horns honking)
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(sirens wailing)
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(energetic music)
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♪ Gettin' lit ♪
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(door slams)
(quirky music)
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- God, I had to weirdest driver.
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He heard the bottles in my bag
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and he was like, "You're not 21 yet!"
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"You're not old enough
to be drunk in my car."
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And so I got my passport
out, I'm like, "Look!
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"1995, 23, eat it, weep."
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- You just attract the
strangest people, don't you?
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- [Escort] I do, and
it's always about my age,
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I swear to you, anyways.
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- That actually remind me,
are you, are you 23 or?
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- [Escort] Yeah.
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- You're not fuckin' with me?
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You're disgusting.
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- This is true, this is true.
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- That's what I like about you, though.
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(suspenseful music)
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(sirens wailing)
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I didn't used to feel bad about it.
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I mean, hell, so many men do it.
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I mean, married men, single men.
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It just, I didn't think anything of it.
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It was, it was people in
position, in my field,
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guys that I worked with talking
about, you know escorts.
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(couple panting)
And just, it just,
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it wasn't a big deal.
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It was like going to Vegas,
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puttin', puttin' 10 grand
down on the craps table.
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Wasn't a big deal, it was a commodity.
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- Adorable?
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Like your daughter?
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(customer sighs)
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- (sighs) God, it's funny sometimes.
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- Then why'd you call me?
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- Stressed. (groans)
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(sighs) My work, my family,
surrounded by (scoffs)
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mediocrity and oh, my god.
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- Hmm, I think what's wrong
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is staying somewhere where you're unhappy.
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Are you happy when you come here?
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When you see me?
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(customer sighs)
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(escort moans lightly)
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What are you thinkin' about?
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- Gah, just dealing with
a fucking idiot at work
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and dealing with my kids, my (sighs)
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my wife is up my ass and it's just...
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How old are you?
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I feel like after all this time,
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I, I still don't even know your real name.
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Wow, just shut the door on me like that.
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(murmuring)
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Does it matter?
- Mm-mm.
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I'm sorry.
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- Do you really care?
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(tense music drowns out speech)
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(seagulls squawking)
(water splashing)
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- Um, then I decided to take it further
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and meet with some of the people in person
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and do, like sugar-babying,
the girlfriend experience,
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so it didn't always start
off as, as putting on a wig
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and going to meet some guy in hotel.
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It was more having relationships
with these men and,
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and seeing where it could go and,
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and then a lot of weird
people, a lot of mean people,
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I got into some hairy situations.
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Erm, but I've met a lot of sad people too.
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And a lot of lonely ones.
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No, I don't think you're pathetic.
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Maybe sad or bored.
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(tense music)
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- (sighs) It's gone into the
level of absurd at this point.
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It's.
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- It's okay.
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That's why I'm here to help. (giggles)
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It's your time.
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Making me sad.
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(customer snorts)
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I'm really sorry.
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- Yeah?
- Really, really sorry.
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I'm really sorry.
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- I feel like after all this time
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I still don't even know your real name.
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- Um, I don't think he's a bad person.
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No, I don't, I don't
think it's inherently bad
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to pay for sex or to be paid for it.
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But it's not something I wanna
do for the rest of my life.
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It's not something I'm passion about.
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Um.
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I can see parts of what I'm
passionate about in this,
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that I like getting dressed up,
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that I like playing another person,
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but I don't like taking
from another person
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or, or feeling like I'm manipulating them.
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- I mean, yeah, it's, it's,
it's shitty to, you know,
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treat my family that way,
treat my wife that way,
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but if I'm honest with myself, I,
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I should never have married her anyway.
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I mean, I, I created this whole life,
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I created this whole rat-race lifestyle,
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what, what I thought I had to do.
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Everyone was telling me
"Oh, this is the girl
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"you should marry, this
is where you should live,
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"you should have, have two and half kids
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"and the nuclear family and all that."
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I didn't want any of that.
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I did want any of it.
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- Yeah.
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Just bullshit, nothin' to
look forward to or you know?
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(light, playful music)
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Can you back it up or are you just stuck?
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(unsettling music)
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Sorry.
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If you want, erm, I can
give you something else
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to think about or you know? (giggles)
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I don't know, er, why'd you call me then?
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That's okay too, we
don't have to get to it.
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We'll just hang out.
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Okay.
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- And so I rationalized why it was okay
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that I was doing what I was doing.
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It wasn't my fault.
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I, I victimized myself.
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Who the fuck am I, all right?
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I pull in 200K a year, who the fuck am I?
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(grunts)
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It's despicable.
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I know it's despicable, it's disgusting,
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it's vile, it's heinous.
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But it's what I know that I deserve.
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(sighs)
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I just.
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Fuck, I don't even know anymore,
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I just don't know, I
just don't know, I just.
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(tense music)
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I know I'm goin' to hell.
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I'm not a good person,
no matter what she says.
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She doesn't know me.
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But I know her.
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Yeah, I know who she really is.
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She's just scared girl,
runnin' from her past.
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- (giggles) Are we, are we praying now?
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You wanna? (chuckles)
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(customer groans)
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Now I lay me down to sleep,
if I should die before I wake,
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I pray the Lord my soul to keep. (giggles)
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- Oh, my God.
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(escort giggles)
(customer sighs)
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This is so bad.
(escort moans lightly)
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- Um.
- Oh, gosh, so bad.
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- We can feel bad together, I like that.
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Your watch is broken.
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- (sighs) Like everything else in my life.
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- You're not broken.
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- You don't even know me.
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- I know you're not broken.
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Broken people aren't this nice.
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- Says the little porcelain doll.
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- (moans) Uh-huh.
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(escort moans softly)
(both giggling)
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- [Customer] (grunts) What are we doin'?
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- I don't know.
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I don't wanna stop though.
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(both sighing)
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(clicks tongue) I'm bored.
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(customer chuckles)
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- [Customer] God, you
have the attention span
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of a squirrel, don't you?
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- This is true, what I do, man?
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- Can we just (sighs) just talk?
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- (clicks tongue) Okay.
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Do have anything good?
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Any fun facts, any gossip, tea to spill?
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- (sighs) Uh, erm.
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Why do I feel that I can
tell you all this stuff?
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I just.
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- I don't know.
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- Some stranger in life, you're
like this little red siren.
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(escort giggles)
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- I'm a good secret-keeper, honest.
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(customer sighs)
Mm-hm.
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Now I'm bored, I'm bored, I'm bored!
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What are we doin'?
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Let's so somethin'.
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(customer sighs)
(tense music)
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- [Customer] What do you care?
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- I care that people
are havin' a good time
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when I'm them or that I'm
having a good time, sometimes.
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(dramatic music)
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- What'd you want from your life?
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- Hmm.
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To be old and have a really
nice house and my cat.
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- [Customer] What about all
the stuff in between, though?
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- I don't know, if I get it, I get it.
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Um, that's it.
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Um, I dunno if I wanna
family, if I want all that.
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Just know that I wanna
be comfortable and happy.
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- Maybe be a better man.
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Maybe.
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I think I can do that.
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- You seem like, like a really nice guy.
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So why are you here?
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Why are you doing this?
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- I'm not a nice guy.
(tense music)
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You just see me here, in this
room, for a couple of hours.
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I've done some heinous things.
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Unquestionable things and.
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(groans) I think I call you
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because I think that
maybe if I get involved
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with someone else's life,
someone that needs help,
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that I can make up for all
of the fucked-up things
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that I've done.
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That's just not true.
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- You know, when you have
money, life's a little easier.
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And, you know, I feel safe with you, I do.
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(suspenseful music)
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- You feel safe with me?
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Why?
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- I don't know, I just
like being with you,
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I like it when you call me,
I like sleepin' next to you.
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I usually don't do that.
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Just feels, feels kinda good.
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Some guys are really weird or really mean
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and I like that you don't
have any of those things.
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And you'd never hurt me.
- I find that really odd.
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You're not making this easy.
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I thought this would make my life easier
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but you're just, you're making
this really difficult, um.
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- And I feel badly.
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A lot of these men, you know
they don't just call me for sex
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or for the physical side of things
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but they want someone to talk to,
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someone to be there with them,
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just someone to fall asleep next to,
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um, so it's not, it's not
always a sexual thing.
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Sometimes it's really
beautiful and sad, too.
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(intense music)
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- Maybe I just thought that I could find
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who I really am with somebody else.
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I still don't know.
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It's not you.
- The hair's not me,
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but it's me, you know?
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It's fun.
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- It may be fun but I
wanna see the real you.
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- No, the wig, the wig's better, yeah.
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- [Customer] What are you afraid of?
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- (sighs) I don't know.
256
00:23:34,114 --> 00:23:35,823
Why you gettin' on serious on me?
257
00:23:36,990 --> 00:23:38,540
It doesn't have to be that way.
258
00:23:41,440 --> 00:23:46,110
- 'Cause in some fucked-up way
259
00:23:47,850 --> 00:23:50,170
I feel like have to help you
260
00:23:51,103 --> 00:23:53,940
- No.
- Because there's nothing
261
00:23:53,940 --> 00:23:58,600
in my life, there's
nothing, of all the shit,
262
00:23:58,600 --> 00:24:00,753
there's nothing that I'm proud of.
263
00:24:02,270 --> 00:24:04,160
- No, see you call it "shit"
264
00:24:04,160 --> 00:24:06,333
but I don't, I don't think it's shit.
265
00:24:07,260 --> 00:24:10,163
I think you have a family,
you have a good job,
266
00:24:11,920 --> 00:24:14,870
it's somethin', you can make
something with that, you know?
267
00:24:18,750 --> 00:24:21,560
- To you, you see all the
material things that I have
268
00:24:21,560 --> 00:24:23,270
and you think oh, that's success
269
00:24:23,270 --> 00:24:28,249
but it's all bullshit.
270
00:24:28,249 --> 00:24:29,082
- Hm.
271
00:24:30,120 --> 00:24:31,747
I think a family is success, you know?
272
00:24:31,747 --> 00:24:33,463
You made something, someone.
273
00:24:35,248 --> 00:24:36,081
And that means something,
274
00:24:36,081 --> 00:24:38,303
even if the person
doesn't see you anymore.
275
00:24:40,820 --> 00:24:43,470
- [Customer] I made something
with the wrong someone.
276
00:24:45,520 --> 00:24:47,820
You have no idea what
that feels like, do you?
277
00:24:50,093 --> 00:24:51,783
- (sighs) Not really.
278
00:24:54,001 --> 00:24:54,834
- Why?
279
00:24:55,670 --> 00:24:56,670
Why do you trust me?
280
00:24:59,603 --> 00:25:02,450
- (moans softly) Just have a good feeling.
281
00:25:02,450 --> 00:25:06,730
You're not mean or weird, really.
282
00:25:06,730 --> 00:25:09,939
- Says you.
- (giggles) Yeah, says me.
283
00:25:09,939 --> 00:25:13,283
- Yeah, you have no fucking idea who I am.
284
00:25:15,150 --> 00:25:16,624
You know that, yeah?
- Yeah.
285
00:25:16,624 --> 00:25:19,791
- And I'm not gonna just throttle you?
286
00:25:21,104 --> 00:25:23,310
- I have a good feeling.
287
00:25:23,310 --> 00:25:25,263
- Could break your neck if I wanted to.
288
00:25:28,676 --> 00:25:31,009
Look, I could snap your arm.
289
00:25:35,342 --> 00:25:40,342
(sighs) (tuts) You don't
know what I'm capable of.
290
00:25:44,061 --> 00:25:45,644
- [Escort] Show me.
291
00:25:48,394 --> 00:25:50,431
(moaning)
292
00:25:50,431 --> 00:25:55,311
- Show you. (sighs)
293
00:25:55,311 --> 00:25:56,144
Fuck.
294
00:26:01,197 --> 00:26:05,854
Why don't you just show me
who you really are, huh?
295
00:26:05,854 --> 00:26:08,299
Well, why don't you just?
- No, no, no, no, no.
296
00:26:08,299 --> 00:26:09,216
- Why?
- No.
297
00:26:10,780 --> 00:26:13,306
- Why, why, why the, why this?
298
00:26:13,306 --> 00:26:16,926
Why, why, why the stockings,
why the wig, why everything?
299
00:26:16,926 --> 00:26:18,754
Why can you just be you?
- I like it.
300
00:26:18,754 --> 00:26:22,750
I'm not being me right
now, I'm being Clarissa.
301
00:26:22,750 --> 00:26:23,850
- But I wanna see you.
302
00:26:25,150 --> 00:26:25,983
- Sorry.
303
00:26:29,106 --> 00:26:31,053
This is what you get.
304
00:26:31,053 --> 00:26:32,423
I think it's pretty good.
305
00:26:33,647 --> 00:26:36,133
- (sighs) I want what's real.
306
00:26:38,800 --> 00:26:43,453
I know this started as,
as a fantasy and all the,
307
00:26:44,650 --> 00:26:46,690
all the smoke and mirror and the bullshit
308
00:26:46,690 --> 00:26:51,560
but if you trust me,
if I'm, I'm this person
309
00:26:51,560 --> 00:26:53,740
that you can be yourself
with, you feel safe with,
310
00:26:53,740 --> 00:26:55,340
why can't you be honest with me?
311
00:26:57,830 --> 00:26:59,600
- It's just more fun to lie.
312
00:26:59,600 --> 00:27:01,966
It's more fun to make up stories.
313
00:27:01,966 --> 00:27:03,566
I like it, it feels like acting.
314
00:27:06,130 --> 00:27:09,283
- Yet, you're not an actress.
315
00:27:11,225 --> 00:27:12,725
You're you, right?
316
00:27:14,389 --> 00:27:16,389
Look, I'm trying to help you here, okay?
317
00:27:18,160 --> 00:27:21,263
You don't need this, you
don't need this fucking life.
318
00:27:23,680 --> 00:27:25,510
- Then why do people
like you keep calling me?
319
00:27:25,510 --> 00:27:26,700
Keep wanting to see me, hm?
320
00:27:26,700 --> 00:27:29,310
- Because I'm fucked-up, okay?
321
00:27:29,310 --> 00:27:31,120
- So you're the only one
that's allowed to be fucked-up?
322
00:27:31,120 --> 00:27:32,070
Other people can't?
323
00:27:33,185 --> 00:27:36,174
(customer groans)
324
00:27:36,174 --> 00:27:40,083
- Look, I got a lot more
years than you, okay?
325
00:27:40,083 --> 00:27:42,243
And I don't want you
to go down a bad path.
326
00:27:45,790 --> 00:27:47,563
I see something in you, you're not,
327
00:27:49,293 --> 00:27:52,724
(sighs) you're not common.
328
00:27:52,724 --> 00:27:53,557
- Mm.
329
00:27:54,880 --> 00:27:57,950
Um, and I like making
these different characters
330
00:27:57,950 --> 00:28:00,170
and these different people to
go with these different men.
331
00:28:00,170 --> 00:28:04,290
It feels like acting, it feels like lying.
332
00:28:04,290 --> 00:28:07,470
Um, so I do wanna go to
school, maybe get a BFA
333
00:28:07,470 --> 00:28:10,940
or do theater somehow, yeah.
334
00:28:10,940 --> 00:28:11,993
Makes me happy.
335
00:28:13,822 --> 00:28:16,322
(tense music)
336
00:28:22,930 --> 00:28:27,930
- Sometimes, we do terrible
things in our lives
337
00:28:30,640 --> 00:28:34,963
but they lead us to do
really great things.
338
00:28:37,970 --> 00:28:41,643
You just, we didn't see it from the start.
339
00:28:53,945 --> 00:28:57,528
(gentle, optimistic music)
340
00:34:27,775 --> 00:34:29,275
This is nice.
- Mm.
341
00:34:30,900 --> 00:34:33,253
Feel kinda sad in here, to be honest.
342
00:34:34,179 --> 00:34:35,123
- Yeah?
- Yeah.
343
00:34:37,750 --> 00:34:39,780
- What would make you less sad?
344
00:34:39,780 --> 00:34:40,612
- Mm.
345
00:34:41,940 --> 00:34:43,313
Going out in the sun.
346
00:34:44,170 --> 00:34:45,157
Maybe with you.
347
00:34:47,018 --> 00:34:47,851
- Really?
348
00:34:48,920 --> 00:34:49,753
- Mm-hm.
349
00:34:51,290 --> 00:34:53,456
- That could be fun.
- Mm.
350
00:34:54,540 --> 00:34:55,679
- Yeah.
351
00:34:55,679 --> 00:34:56,513
- Okay.
- Let's do that.
352
00:34:56,513 --> 00:34:57,588
- Is it a date?
353
00:34:57,588 --> 00:34:58,566
- It's a date.
- It's a date, really?
354
00:34:58,566 --> 00:35:01,153
- Let's do it.
- Okay. (giggles)
355
00:35:04,610 --> 00:35:07,800
I do feel guilty sometimes
356
00:35:07,800 --> 00:35:12,470
because I get a lot of
money from these men
357
00:35:12,470 --> 00:35:15,053
and I feel like sometimes
I'm manipulating them
358
00:35:15,053 --> 00:35:17,840
because I am lying, I am
putting on a character,
359
00:35:17,840 --> 00:35:20,373
a wig, a different person.
360
00:35:21,610 --> 00:35:25,310
And that's money that
could've gone to their kids,
361
00:35:25,310 --> 00:35:27,623
to their kid's education, to their wife.
362
00:35:28,680 --> 00:35:30,220
You know, who am I to come into their life
363
00:35:30,220 --> 00:35:32,030
and take that from them?
364
00:35:32,030 --> 00:35:33,983
So I, I do feel guilty sometimes.
365
00:35:36,604 --> 00:35:38,130
- I mean, even before we were married
366
00:35:38,130 --> 00:35:41,093
I knew it was destined to be hell.
367
00:35:42,330 --> 00:35:45,340
Just, yeah, Stacy seemed great on paper
368
00:35:45,340 --> 00:35:49,010
but she was who everyone
wanted me to be with and,
369
00:35:49,010 --> 00:35:52,330
and as soon as we were married,
just (snaps fingers) phew!
370
00:35:52,330 --> 00:35:53,330
Flipped the switch.
371
00:35:53,330 --> 00:35:55,740
She just became this raving bitch.
372
00:35:55,740 --> 00:35:58,550
Just, everything I did was
wrong, or it wasn't enough
373
00:35:58,550 --> 00:35:59,877
or "Why can't me have more vacations?
374
00:35:59,877 --> 00:36:01,940
"Why can't we go to the Hamptons?"
375
00:36:01,940 --> 00:36:04,630
Just, all she wanted to do was
just take and take and take
376
00:36:04,630 --> 00:36:07,180
and, and, and when we had
kids we thought that would,
377
00:36:07,180 --> 00:36:09,130
that would help but that made it worse.
378
00:36:10,540 --> 00:36:15,540
Just (sighs) to have so
many people on your back
379
00:36:16,740 --> 00:36:18,260
that want something from you, your wife,
380
00:36:18,260 --> 00:36:20,863
your kids, your boss, your, your job,
381
00:36:22,010 --> 00:36:25,285
it's, I mean, are you
surprised that this happened?
382
00:36:25,285 --> 00:36:27,885
Are you surprised that I
ended up in this situation?
383
00:36:28,940 --> 00:36:31,693
Doesn't just happen. (scoffs)
384
00:36:33,286 --> 00:36:36,110
I mean, yeah, I'm no saint but (sighs)
385
00:36:38,160 --> 00:36:39,963
sometimes enough is enough.
386
00:36:41,790 --> 00:36:43,840
I mean, every man has his breaking point.
387
00:36:47,230 --> 00:36:49,480
And I just (sighs)
388
00:36:52,380 --> 00:36:56,173
I felt lost for so long.
389
00:36:58,906 --> 00:37:02,483
And I just didn't know what to do.
390
00:37:05,448 --> 00:37:07,737
So I start seeing this, this girl
391
00:37:09,010 --> 00:37:14,010
and I didn't think that I'd
have this connection to her.
392
00:37:15,090 --> 00:37:17,320
I didn't think it would go this deep.
393
00:37:17,320 --> 00:37:20,593
I didn't think that I
would get this involved.
394
00:37:25,540 --> 00:37:30,540
Maybe I just thought that I could find
395
00:37:31,540 --> 00:37:34,883
who I really am with somebody else.
396
00:37:39,820 --> 00:37:42,393
But then, when I think
about all of the good,
397
00:37:43,900 --> 00:37:45,650
all the peace that it's brought me,
398
00:37:48,250 --> 00:37:52,323
I'm not just some dirty old fuck.
399
00:37:53,740 --> 00:37:57,173
I think that, through this experience,
400
00:37:59,410 --> 00:38:02,680
maybe I can have a better
relationship with my wife
401
00:38:02,680 --> 00:38:05,360
and with my family, and, and I can,
402
00:38:05,360 --> 00:38:10,344
I can put it in the past,
I can, I can stop, I can.
403
00:38:10,344 --> 00:38:14,750
(sighs) It's just been a,
it's been a really hard test
404
00:38:14,750 --> 00:38:19,750
for me because I do have
the physical attraction,
405
00:38:21,100 --> 00:38:26,100
I have the lust but I
think what's more important
406
00:38:26,740 --> 00:38:29,743
is helping another human
being find themselves.
407
00:38:31,100 --> 00:38:35,763
And I think that I can bring
that back to my family.
408
00:38:37,330 --> 00:38:38,573
Maybe be a better man.
409
00:38:41,964 --> 00:38:42,797
Maybe.
410
00:38:47,672 --> 00:38:51,532
♪ One, two, three, four ♪
411
00:38:51,532 --> 00:38:54,199
(gentle music)
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