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[Beloved Life]

[Episode 34]

Look at this.

The figure is not right.

You know?

Yeah.

Give us a minute, please.

Dr. Du,

I'm sorry.

Your mom

is brain dead.

What did you say?

Dr. Du,

as you know,

the brain stem of vegetative people is still functional.

They have heartbeats

and usually reflex actions, too.

This is why

some vegetative patients

can wake up.

But brain death

means

the brain stem has lost all its functions,

which is indicative of death.

You must have been so heart-broken

that you chose

to leave without hesitation.

I have been hoping

maybe you'd wake up some time.

I wish you could talk to me

once again at least.

Mom.

Now I'm motherless.

So is my sister.

Mom.

I'm sorry, mom.

Life has been so hard for you.

If you feel tired,

just take a good rest.

I'll take good care of my sister.

Don't worry.

I don't want you to go.

Don't go.

Du Di, have you arranged everything

for your mom's funeral?

I guess you already know

what I'm about to say.

I hate

to talk about this

at such a difficult time.

But what your dad did

has stirred up a storm.

Unfortunately,

the higher-ups all saw it.

Dr. Tian,

I swear.

I swear I didn't

do any fetal gender identification against the rules.

He's your dad.

You're reported by your own father.

Who do you think the administration trusts more?

We have strict rules

that forbid

non-medically necessary

fetal gender identification.

This practice, once found, will never be tolerated.

At such a critical time

as you compete for the chief resident,

it's quite a scandal.

You tell me,

what should I do?

Are you gonna

deny me the chance

to contend for the chief resident?

That's the lenient punishment.

To put it more seriously,

you might not only

lose the chance to compete for the chief resident,

but your career as a doctor

could also be ruined.

I can hardly tell

if you can stay or not.

Come in.

Director Huang, you wanted to see me?

Close the door.

Sit.

Now it's the worst time

for our department.

Lin Wei is on leave.

We don't know if he'll come back.

And Du Di is suspended.

So,

you have to hang tough.

Dr. Huang.

Don't worry.

I know you've been a little gloomy

due to your physical conditions

lately.

Is there something wrong

between you and Junxiao too?

I'm kind of lost right now.

When God closes a door, he opens a window.

If everything goes as expected,

the next chief resident

will be you.

What about Du Di?

Du Di is suspended,

which means

she's disqualified from the competition.

It's not a fair win.

Dr. Huang.

I can't take this quota.

At the moment,

there's an acute shortage of O.B.s.

When the chief resident's tenure is over,

soon, there'll be an attending position

open for you.

This is a very rare opportunity.

Don't be swayed by your feelings.

I've been there.

Here's my advice,

women have so many roles in life.

We're wives who want a happy marriage.

We're moms.

And we're professional women

who want to climb up the ladder.

But in life,

we can't get everything we want.

So if, for the time being,

you can't have it all,

then grab whatever you can.

Something is better than nothing,

isn't it?

When Du Di

was still my rival for the chief resident,

I imagined many times

how happy I would be

if I won.

But now,

I'm not happy at all.

Dr. Huang.

Could you talk to Director Tian,

please?

The accusation that Du Di

identified the fetal gender against the rules

is completely a fabrication.

There is no such thing.

Du Di's infraction

is no longer in the hands of Director Tian

and me.

Suspension

is the best result

Direct Tian could get for her

after an arduous talk with the administration.

But Du Di was disqualified

for family reasons.

It's so unfair

to her.

Maybe everyone has

their fate.

Take me as an example.

Over the past years,

you know how much

I devoted myself to work.

In the eyes of others,

I'm the lucky one

who wins both in family and career.

I became a director

at a young age.

So many doctors

envy me.

But when it comes

to a divorce lawsuit

concerning the kids' custody,

all this becomes a negative impact.

Because I'm too busy to balance

work and family.

I almost gave up my two kids

to their

violent dad.

Fortunately,

Sichen tried so hard to persuade the judge.

And I got the kids.

Do you think

this is fair to me?

Dr. Huang.

In fact, in this world,

there is no such thing as

fairness.

I seem to have lost a lot,

but I still feel

relieved.

You thought it would be difficult

to take one step forward.

In fact, you should have taken it a long time ago.

And for you right now,

you need to seize the opportunity

to be the chief resident.

Don't let go of it.

Wait a minute.

Let me put the beanie on her.

When did you buy the beanie?

The beanie is not all.

I consulted with the Head Nurse

and bought a full set of

baby products.

Crib, diapers,

formula, rash powder,

and baby sleep helpers.

These might have been

delivered to your home right now.

Your baby can go home?

Yes.

I envy you.

My baby has been in there

for more than 10 days.

We still don't know

when we can leave.

You should believe that

they must also want

to see their parents sooner.

Your husband is so sweet.

When I was pregnant,

I prepared the baby's stuff

all by myself.

Such things never came to my husband's mind.

Sorry, I'm a different man now.

Stop complaining.

What are you looking at?

I think we are

like a family of three right now.

Are we?

Unfortunately, her dad

is so busy suing her sister

that he can't come to get her out of the hospital.

Du Di,

no matter what happens in the future,

I'll be there for you.

We'll take care of your sister together.

In the past, I was always on my own.

I thought I could

solve every problem all by myself.

But today,

I feel for the first time that in my life,

there's someone I can count on

and I'm no longer alone.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

How many times do we have to go through this in a night?

You peed.

I see.

OK.

Don't those moms

sleep at night?

Now that you mentioned it,

the moms

of newborns in our wards

seem to barely

sleep at night.

How long is this

gonna last?

I don't know.

Let's get up.

Get up for milk.

All right.

Here you go.

What did you do last night?

You're totally whacked out.

Taking care of the baby..

You helped Du Di take care of the baby?

Great, consider it as practice.

Human babies

are so inhumane.

It's retrograde.

Dads and moms

both need rest.

But the baby is

either eating, crying, peeing, or pooping,

except for sleeping.

I googled it.

They'll remain this way

for one to three years.

It's so devastating.

You took care of a baby for one day

and you're already whining.

I suggest you

convince Du Di to give the baby

back.

You're both receiving standardized residency training.

This is too much a burden for you

both mentally and physically.

I know you want to help her,

but you could end up

turning on each other.

That's certainly not what you want.

Give the baby back?

No way.

I'd miss her.

You don't know

how cute her sister is.

Especially

when I feed her milk,

her big eyes

would look at me.

She's super cute.

Yeah, she's cute, but also a poor girl.

Her dad just took off.

Is she her sister's liability now?

Two young doctors still in the residency program

who are not married yet

have to raise a kid.

Is this gonna work?

It is not impossible.

Slick man.

I'll admire your good conscience

if you stick to the end.

Why hasn't Director Tian come yet?

Are you waiting for him?

Why?

I have a favor to ask.

He has an administrative meeting.

I'm sure he'll be here.

There's a consultation today.

Director Tian.

Director Tian, about Du Di...

Save it.

The decision is made.

But there are not many

residents.

Now the department is seriously short of staff.

Can't you try

to talk to the administration?

You think I didn't?

I kept speaking for Du Di

at the administrative meeting.

But in the end,

things didn't get any better.

Instead, the president

gave me quite a reprimand.

You kids

have never taken the rules seriously.

You always thought you could make up

for the mistakes.

Not all mistakes

can be blamed on being young.

Some of them are just stupid.

He's so burned up.

Looks like he's taken

a hell of reprimands from the administration.

Don't worry.

When the scandal quiets down,

let's see what we can do.

I can't wait.

It's a critical time for Du Di

to compete for the chief resident.

This is gonna

blow up her chance.

Two outstanding doctors,

one is reported by her father

and the other is troubled by love.

If Congrui can't pull herself together,

she won't be able to become the chief resident, either.

It's not that bad.

We can focus on the baby then.

Thank you for helping me find this cemetery.

It's the...

It's the first time I held a funeral.

I didn't know what to do.

I didn't know, either.

I came here

to mourn my mom.

Now I'm also

a motherless person.

Did you tell your dad?

I don't have a dad either.

I think your dad

is just too sad.

He'll come back.

I don't care if he comes back or not.

It has nothing to do with me.

I just feel sorry for my mom.

I always thought

when I became the most successful woman

with a career

and a lot of money,

I could return with my mom

to our hometown with pride

so that those who ridiculed her

for not being able

to have a son could see.

I thought I could bring her

happiness.

But eventually,

I watched her

become

a breeding tool.

She was only 50 years old.

All my efforts

have lost their meaning.

You work hard for yourself.

We don't work hard

to prove anything to anyone.

We work hard

so that when we're alive,

we can enjoy life

and do whatever we want to do.

That's for people like you

who face no financial problems

to say.

Enjoy life.

It's exhausting for many people

to simply make a living.

Du Di,

we have to pull ourselves together.

Didn't you

encourage me like that before?

Time.

Time can overcome all.

There's nothing

we can't get through.

That's right.

Think about your role model, Lin Qiaozhi.

She's a legendary woman.

Compared to her,

I'm plain and lowly.

You are not plain

or lowly at all.

You're just

a little lost now.

I don't know if I can

find my purpose back.

But I'm afraid we have to go back

to pick up the baby.

The Head Nurse didn't promise

to help me take care of her for a day.

I'm glad you're back.

But I'm also confused.

You were so determined

when you left.

What makes you change your mind?

My sister is in a very serious condition.

I need a lot of money.

And Shengji fired me.

I can't just watch

my sister's condition deteriorate, can I?

So are you going to stay in Kaiming

permanently?

I don't want to go to any Grade-A tertiary hospitals

except for Shengji.

OK then.

Let's work together

and create the future.

Sign it.

Thank you, Huang,

for taking care of my daughter.

We'll be relieved to have you here.

You're welcome, Mrs. Zhang.

You're due?

Yeah.

Her fetus is in a late transverse lie position.

Arrange for C-section for her tomorrow.

Caiting.

Welcome!

You two are sharing a ward?

Yeah.

Zhang Ying,

I didn't expect that

we could go through childbirth together.

We came to

do antenatal check-ups together.

And

we both have some problems.

So we're both hospitalized

by Director Huang.

Caiting,

do you know when

your labor is due?

The doctor said the fetal heart rate was not up to standard

and put me under monitoring.

I don't know yet.

Congrui, ask the nurse

to get prepared

for tomorrow's surgery.

You'll be my first assistant.

Thank you, Director Huang.

You two have a good rest.

See you tomorrow.

Bye-bye!

Bye-bye!

Zhang Ying.

Dr. Huang.

Wait a minute.

Mrs. Zhang.

Do you have any single ward?

Zhang Ying sleeps lightly at night.

I'm afraid that sharing a ward with someone else,

she'll have trouble falling asleep.

Is that so?

Zhang Ying requested

to share a ward with Guo Caiting.

Huang,

to be honest with you,

my daughter is an unsophisticated person.

We may know a person's exterior, but not her heart.

I'm afraid that Guo Caiting

would hurt my daughter

and her baby.

I don't think so.

They teamed up

against Zhang Zilu before.

And they became close friends later.

Women like her are unethical.

I feel uneasy.

And I heard that her child is not well.

When Zhang Ying's baby

turns out to be healthy

and hers doesn't,

will she do something bad?

Mrs. Zhang, don't worry.

Zhang Ying will have a C-section tomorrow.

The recovery period will be short.

As for Guo Caiting,

her baby is not stable.

But it's possible

it'll be a while until she gives birth.

Maybe when you leave the hospital,

she hasn't given birth yet.

What if she could?

How about this?

I'll tell the nurses

to keep a close eye

on your daughter and her baby.

You're in a hospital.

She can't do anything bad.

I'm still worried.

But the wards are all occupied now.

If you're still worried,

when there's an available bed,

I'll find an excuse

to move Zhang Ying out.

Oh, that'll be great.

Thank you.

I have to go back.

While talking to you,

I'm anxious

to leave them alone.

Thank you.

Is she kind of overprotective?

It's normal for a mother to worry

under this situation.

Did he try to look for you?

Yes, every day.

He even went to my hometown.

Luckily I listened to your advice

and moved.

But I'm still a little worried

that he'll take revenge on me.

I don't think he knows

we've become allies.

He only knows that you've disappeared.

He wouldn't dare to come to me.

In addition,

he wouldn't have thought

we're now

in the same ward,

expecting the babies.

Zhang Ying,

shall we tell

the kids

their kinship?

It won't hurt them to know.

It won't?

What are you doing, mom?

What are you going to tell the kids?

One's mom

wrecked another's mom's

marriage.

You expect them to go to school

hand in hand?

You wrecked another woman's marriage.

It's shameless of you

to ask such a question.

Mom, it's not fair.

She was cheated.

She was not!

How could you believe everything she said?

You're such a fool,

my silly daughter.

All right, mom.

Will you stop?

I'll get angry if you don't stop.

You're angry?

So am I.

Your baby won't have a dad when it's born.

You don't care.

Could the baby be happy?

Enough.

My baby doesn't need that kind of dad.

I'm sorry.

Welcome back.

Good wine.

I can't celebrate your return with bad wine.

This is from

one of Burgundy Grand Crus.

It's rare.

It's expensive, isn't it?

You can't put a price

on my feelings for you.

How many cervical surgeries

do you have to perform to buy a bottle?

I don't mean to be rude.

I just want to express my feelings.

When I realize that I have to

do many surgeries

to afford this bottle of wine,

I want to drink more.

As long as you are with me,

you can have as much good wine as you want.

I've always wanted to ask you.

Why do you like me?

Because your talent

is plain for all to see.

Many female residents

and interns like you.

If you were not

with Du Di,

they would fight so badly over you.

And you have this

perseverance

and a strong sense of responsibility,

like a pure white lily

hanging above the mire.

It is particularly attractive.

You almost made me

blush.

Du Di doesn't understand you.

Neither does Wu Congrui.

If not chained

to a destitute family,

you'd soar in the sky

like a hawk.

I never thought that the one who knows me the best

is you.

Junxiao.

You need to be liberated

and fight without scruples.

And I

am your ideal partner.

Here's to your appreciation.

Cheers.

I'm going out to unpack.

You're finally asleep.

I'm exhausted.

Oh my God.

I need to take a break.

Thank you

for letting us

move in with you.

Your place is too small

for the three of us.

The apartment

is flooded by baby products.

I can't even put my foot in.

I feel so tired.

I used to stay up so many nights

to prepare for exams,

yet I didn't feel tired at all.

This week,

I feel like I'm dying.

You were holding Mengmeng for most of the day.

Let me give you a massage.

I'm fine. You have a rest.

It's OK.

I think I forgot to feed her.

You rest, I'll go.

I'll take a nap then.

All right.

Liu Nianbai.

The bottle is broken.

Do you have another bottle?

I suppose. Let me see.

Liu Nianbai, she pooped.

I need a diaper.

A diaper, OK.

Who is it?

[Medical Devices Procurement]

These are all substandard devices.

Yet they purchased so many.

This hospital has no regard for patients' lives.

You're both

intelligent people.

And you've been taking care of her for a few days.

Yet you still don't get the hang of it.

She fell asleep already.

Give up.

I say

you'd better send her

to my parents.

They have nothing to do anyway.

If this keeps up,

the baby wouldn't feel comfortable

and you would collapse.

Thank you for saving us.

I have to take a leave in a few days

to visit Mr. Du.

Will he meet you?

I think he will.

He's always liked me.

As long as he's willing to withdraw his complaint,

Du Di will be able to go back to the hospital.

I have a hunch

that he will forgive Du Di.

If he can,

that'll be great.

If only Li Junxiao

could come back too.

Li Junxiao is still avoiding you?

He's not answering his phone.

It seems there's something

he doesn't want to tell.

I have a hunch that

he will come back to you.

Has the baby driven you mad?

You seem to have a hunch about everything.

Sometimes we have a hunch

because we believe in human nature.

We believe in human nature?

I believe that in their hearts

there must be love.

So,

we both need to try harder.

Tomorrow I will visit Mr. Du.

You'll go to see Li Junxiao.

We'll split up

and do our best.

OK.

Wait a minute.

Sit down and take a rest.

Wait a minute.

Have you seen Dr. Li?

He didn't even show up for work today.

And he didn't answer his phone.

He has so many appointments.

But he's not even here.

I'm busy assigning these patients

to other doctors.

He didn't drink much yesterday.

My contracts.

Mr. Du,

thank you for seeing me.

How is the baby?

She's fine.

She eats and sleeps well, and seldom cries.

Let me show you her photos.

She looks a lot like her mom.

You must miss her a lot.

Liu,

you must hate me so much.

Do you think

I killed my wife

and destroyed my daughter?

I spent a lot of time

gathering tons of information

and trying to understand

why you want so much to have a son.

I can understand a little now.

But I still can't accept it.

My older generation taught me that.

From the time when I could understand things,

I've known how important

boys are to a family.

Sooner or later, a girl has to marry into another family.

Although after I went to school,

I learned from the textbooks that men and women are equal.

But I have to admit

that I was a bad student.

Pride and dignity mean everything to me.

But

now,

it's too late.

I don't think so.

You have two daughters.

One is already excellent.

She will become

one of the best doctors.

The other one needs your love

so that she won't have a childhood

like her sister's

which was full of hardship and pain.

When I see them,

I'm reminded

of their poor mother.

I hate them

and I hate myself, too.

It's easy to hate.

But what good does that do?

Mr. Du,

please forgive Du Di

and yourself, too.

Go back.

Please withdraw the complaint against Du Di.

I won't leave until you withdraw it.

Du D's grandma is dying.

I haven't told her this yet.

She said she wouldn't die

until she sees her grandson.

Go back.

When my mom rests in peace,

I'll think about other things.

You may not have seen

how hard your daughter worked

over the years before.

I heard that since she went to college,

she hasn't slept for more than 6 hours

in a single day.

She's known as the school's

crazy nerd.

To gain your respect,

she's never been

like a girl.

This complaint

is devastating to her.

You're her father.

You haven't done your job

as a father.

You never loved her

or encouraged her.

I don't expect you

to make up for her in the future.

But

I hope you can withdraw the complaint.

Because you'll ruin

what she's been fighting for over a decade.

Even a stranger

would feel sorry for her,

let alone her family.

Li Fei! Li Fei! Li Fei!

I just witnessed

the spontaneous delivery of boy-girl twins.

They're so cute.

When one cries,

the other follows immediately.

So, telepathy is true.

They're for you.

Did you make a fortune?

Or did the Head Nurse complement you?

You bought so many.

They're for you, too.

Are you insane?

Li Junxiao was here.

He bought these for you.

And he asked me to tell you this,

"I'm sorry.

I'll do what I have to do.

Bye."

What does that mean?

He said he had to go away.

He'll send you details by WeChat.

How long has he been gone?

Five or six minutes.

[Congrui]

Hello?

Li Junxiao,

let's talk face to face.

Come back.

I'm sorry, Congrui.

I was going to say it in person.

But the twin babies

you were delivering took too long.

I was going to be late for a train.

Where are you going?

To my hometown.

Congrui.

In the last few days,

I figured out one thing.

I'm not good enough for you

or Shengji.

I want to apologize to you.

When I learned

you had a fertility problem,

my first thought

wasn't to go through the hard times with you.

Instead, I hesitated.

I love you so much

but I didn't stand firmly

by your side.

In fact,

Congrui,

rather than worrying over

if you could have a baby,

I'm worrying that

I'd be a burden to you

when we stay together.

What Shengji has taught me

in the past years,

medical skills or ethics,

were trampled down under my feet.

I can no longer let you

do more for my family

unconditionally.

I'm really ashamed of it.

But we love each other.

We'll get through this.

Come back.

I've made up my mind

to work for a hospital in my hometown.

Don't be impulsive.

You'll have no future there.

If not Shengji,

we can go to another

Grade A Class 3 hospital.

You come back first.

Come back right now!

I'm not being impulsive.

I have worked so hard for so many years

just to

leave the small town where I came from.

But during my time in Kaiming,

I found that

many women in remote areas

are so easily fooled.

They barely have

any medical knowledge.

♫Behind this door♫

For example,

the county hospital of my home

is in acute shortage of medical resources.

♫It's bustling people day and night♫

Its doctors

also need to improve their skills.

I think

if I can

contribute the medical skills I've learned

to the people in my hometown,

♫They're waiting for miracles♫

all the efforts it took me

will be worthy.

Are you sure

♫They shoulder pressure and lives♫

this is the result

of your careful consideration?

♫The warmest hands in the world♫

Yes, I am.

Then what about me?

♫Always by your side with care♫

I'm sorry.

♫You make it easy to be happy♫

Are we...

♫Every soul is different now and dreaming about the distance♫

♫The last item on life's list♫

Are we breaking up?

♫Luckily I have an angel like you♫

I'm sorry.

I don't want to hear you say you're sorry.

♫Who gives me hope♫

Li Junxiao.

Now I know

how hard you feel inside.

I know that you're leaving

for a reason.

And I also know that

you'll forever keep Shengji

in your heart.

But you have to remember what I'm about to say.

You're a good doctor,

an excellent one.

Even if you took the wrong path

♫You make it easy to be happy♫

at a stage of your life,

in the future,

♫Every soul is different now and dreaming about the distance♫

you will be an amazing

doctor.

♫The last item on life's list♫