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[Beloved Life]

[Episode 33]

I'll inform an attending physician

to schedule her for surgery as soon as possible.

We'll also closely monitor

the fetal heart rate.

Thank you.

This is our first baby,

so my wife is very nervous.

Sorry to trouble you.

Are you sure it's your first baby?

Yeah.

Then

if you think of something

or if you want to talk to me alone,

you may find me

in my office.

OK.

I'm really starting to doubt life.

That's obviously

a scar of lateral episiotomy.

She had a baby before.

How come they both said

it's their first baby?

Maybe that woman lied to her husband.

She may lie to her husband,

but she mustn't lie to me.

If I treat her

as a primipara,

she might have a precipitate labor.

Besides, Dr. Lin

clearly wrote on her medical records

a multipara.

Then how did Dr. Lin

know it?

Maybe we should give her

a further examination.

Come on!

Don't push them.

You don't even want to tell

what's going on with your eyes.

Can't you let others

have some privacy?

I didn't have plastic surgery.

Then did you have a lift?

But your skin looks not sagging.

No.

Are you here for Dr. Du?

Dr. Du,

I'm sorry.

I didn't tell you the truth

in the ward.

This is not

our first baby.

But…

You can't be kidding.

This is a hospital.

How can you be inconsistent about

whether it's your first baby?

Exactly.

Who just said with certainty

that it's your first baby?

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

In front of my wife,

I can't tell you the truth.

18 years ago,

she gave birth to a son.

But three years ago

when he was in high school,

he went outing with his classmates

and got trapped in the mountains by a rainstorm.

Then he had an accident

and died.

It was a terrible blow

to my wife.

She cried all day

and became completely different.

She used to cry and laugh

and loved to dress up.

But she became quiet after that

and sometimes she could just sit still

for all day

without saying a word.

It wasn't until she got pregnant again

that she suddenly cheered up again.

But I soon noticed

that she has forgotten

everything about our son.

Then,

I kept my son's clothes and photos

out of her sight.

But one day,

she found our group photo.

She pointed at

our son in the photo

and asked who he is.

I was stunned.

But afterwards I thought

this might be a good thing.

Forgetting our son,

she wouldn't feel so much pain.

And she could be happily

waiting for our baby

to be born

as if it's our first baby.

That's the happiest thing for her.

So would you please,

please

help me keep it from her?

Please don't let her know the truth.

Now the umbilical cord around the neck

has already made her nervous.

If she remembers

our deceased son,

I'm afraid she can't stand it.

We can do it.

About her conditions,

I will talk to you privately.

But

you raised your son up to 15.

How could she suddenly forget all about him?

Are you really sure

there's nothing wrong with her health?

I took her to do a checkup.

She is very healthy.

I think

she might be too sad

and has selective amnesia.

I consulted a psychiatrist

and I was told

that this is possible.

Possible?

This judgement is too vague.

My concern is

whether she has

any hidden disease.

She didn't have her physical examination

in Shengji, right?

What about this?

I'll schedule her for another checkup.

Otherwise, I can't rest assured.

OK.

Thank you, Dr. Du.

That's my job.

Everything including BP is fine.

Moreover,

the psychiatric rate scale

shows that

she is completely normal,

even more normal than I am.

It's weird.

Are there people

who really have selective amnesia?

This doesn't conform to medical commonsense.

How could there be no other symptoms

in an amnesia case?

President Liu.

President Liu.

Just sit.

Just sit.

Your father is over there.

Don't you go over and say hi?

Now I can tell

that my father is strong.

He hasn't chosen to forget me.

Your eyes' swelling should have gone down.

You can take off your sunglasses.

I think you should find a time

to have a good talk with your father.

No.

Whatever,

it's up to you.

I know how you feel.

But to be honest,

after watching the video last night,

I've realized how much he loves you.

And I can understand

that there're many things

he couldn't control.

He is still good

in health.

Some words are better to be said

before it's too late.

Otherwise,

it would be like my mom and me.

Just have the meal.

It's getting cold.

If it's major depressive disorder (MMD),

there must be some physiological symptoms,

such as hair loss,

long-term insomnia,

and the feeling of varying degrees of pain.

She has none.

Her hair is thicker than mine.

She sleeps better than I do.

She would tell the doctor if she feels pain.

I chatted with her

about her recent days

and about her dates

with her husband.

She remembers everything.

She has lost

exactly that part of her memory.

What a strong learning atmosphere!

It's good.

You've started organizing a learning session

and invited me.

Director Tian,

about that selective amnesia case,

we haven't

found out the cause.

I've read the details

and talked to President Liu on the phone.

Du Di and Nianbai,

you go and see President Liu now.

President Liu?

This is an obstetric and gynecologic case.

It might involve the psychiatric department.

The Neurosurgery Department…

You mean…

I'm not sure about it now.

President Liu

saw similar cases before.

He asks you to see him

will all relevant materials.

Can you see it?

It's here,

near the memory center.

President Liu,

how did you know it's brain tumor?

Memory is controlled by brain.

Then memory loss

must be related to brain.

In the Neurosurgery Department,

we have many amnesia cases due to
neurological defects

caused by compression from brain tumor.

Director Tian contacted me

in the first place.

I scheduled the patient

for an unenhanced brain CT.

She's pregnant,

so we didn't do that

in her physical examination.

Generally speaking,

if a patient

never complained of vomiting and headache,

we wouldn't connect it

to brain diseases.

And brain tumor

is a very complicated disease.

A slight difference in size and position

may cause different symptoms.

Her tumor is still small

and has only affected part of her memory.

If it grows bigger,

it would be worse.

I suggest an elective surgery to remove it.

Before or after childbirth?

After she gives birth

and recovers,

it could be done.

OK.

I'll go

talk to the family about this.

Thank you, President Liu.

Go ahead.

You stay.

Why?

Just do what I said.

After coming back,

you haven't been home yet, right?

No.

Then come back

when you have time.

What else do you want to ask me?

No.

Then

go with your girlfriend.

I heard that you just had a cold.

You had a liver transplant

and your immunity is not as good as before.

Don't work so hard.

You're back.

Why didn't you tell me in advance?

You must haven't had dinner yet.

I'll do some grocery shopping.

Don't bother. I had it.

Do you just eat this?

I'm used to

the packed meal from the hospital.

Why don't you hire someone

to cook for you?

It's inconvenient

to have someone unfamiliar at home.

I'll have this myself then.

Why isn't there any water?

How have you

lived such a life?

No wonder you had a poor liver.

Come on, don't eat this.

It's cold.

It's okay.

-Let me warm it up for you.
-I'm used to this.

I thought you're living

a happy and free life alone.

It seems that you're abusing yourself.

You rarely come back.

Don't be angry.

I watched the video.

Why didn't you show it to me earlier?

About what your mother said

before she died,

I watched it many times.

But I didn't know

how to interpret it.

I couldn't even interpret it,

how could I

let an immature child

watch it?

Whose fault was that,

your mother's or mine?

I thought about it for many years.

I finally figured it out.

It was my fault

in the final analysis.

As her mate in life,

I failed to help her

restore her confidence in work.

As her husband,

I made her feel like

she was an accessory.

Your mother

was such an excellent woman

and such a strong woman.

But I couldn't understand her.

Therefore,

I rather want you to hate me

than hating

your mother.

At least

for the two of us,

there's someone we both love.

But

that's unfair to me.

Yes.

But I didn't know what to do.

With that kind of pain,

I couldn't raise you up well.

I know

it's hard to grow up abroad alone.

I feel really sorry for that.

However,

you would feel free

while staying abroad.

It's better than watching me

wearing a sad look every day.

You should have told me these earlier.

I don't know if it's too late

to tell you these now.

I'll hire a housemaid for you tomorrow.

You're too old

to take care of yourself.

If something happens to you,

it will be me to take care of you.

You…

Are you planning to move back?

I'll see.

Baby.

He's opened his eyes.

Baby.

Look at Mommy.

-Honey.
-Look at Mommy.

Honey.

He looks exactly like Xiaole.

Are you so happy that you've become silly?

This is Xiaole.

Right? You're Xiaole.

Yeah.

Xiaole.

Lin Xiaole.

Smile at Mommy.

Xiao…

When did you

give him the name?

Have you forgotten?

When we were dating,

you said that

I was happy all the time.

Then you gave me the nickname,

Xiaole.

I thought this is a good name

and decided to call our first baby

Xiaole.

You're called Xiaole.

Yeah.

I've forgotten that.

Xiaole.

I'm your daddy.

This is your mommy.

-Dr. Du.
-Congratulations.

-Thank you.
-Congratulations.

Mr. Lin, may I have a talk with you?

Dr. Du,

what's the matter?

Have you made up your mind?

Is this tumor

benign or malignant?

According to President Liu's judgement,

it's a benign tumor.

Then

until when we can wait?

Until when?

You can't think that way.

If the tumor grows bigger,

it wouldn't be just a matter of compression.

It may affect

other brain tissues

and cause a brain damage.

You can't wait any longer.

It's okay.

The tumor is now not life-threatening.

She named our son

Lin Xiaole.

It's also

the name of our first son.

Watching her holding the baby

so happily,

I really hope

that our lives could go on like this.

If she undergoes a surgery

and has the tumor removed,

I'm worried that

she would remember our first son

and forget the second.

Is that possible?

I'm not sure about it.

But after the tumor is removed,

it's possible to remember the past.

You don't know

how she lived her life before.

She was just like a walking dead.

She is finally alive.

I really…

I really dare not

go back to the life we lived before.

Yes.

But do you want her to be happy but sick,

or depressive but healthy?

If I were you,

it would also be a hard choice for me.

Congrui, you're still here.

Director Huang.

I've searched for some data

about ovarian cancer.

Why?

Are you interested in

studying gynecological tumors?

No.

I still like what I'm doing.

Seeing new babies come to the world every day

is the happiest thing about being a doctor.

I did that for Junxiao's sister.

Yeah?

No wonder

he's been restless lately.

Among gynecological tumors,

ovarian cancer is not the most common,

ranking the third.

But the mortality rate is the highest.

Therefore, it's known as

the most ferocious killer

for women.

I'm really worried about her.

Fortunately, it's still at the early stage.

I tried to get her hospitalized

for timely treatment,

but she doesn't agree.

Then you'd better talk her through.

Early detection,

diagnosis and treatment

are very important.

Among patients with early-stage ovarian cancer.

the five-year survival rate

is as high as 90%.

Even if it recurs within two years after surgery,

the treatment result

is really good.

If it's the advanced stage,

the result would be different.

Among cases with advanced ovarian cancer,

the five-year survival rate

is only between 30% and 40%

Her sister is actually

worried about money.

I'll try to talk her through later.

Yes.

She must not miss

the best time for treatment.

Where is Junxiao?

Director Tian just called him.

I don't know what's going on.

Give me back my grandson.

I want my grandson.

-That's right.
-Give him back to me.

You have to

compensate us today.

Otherwise we won't leave.

Right.

It's a doctor

from Shengji Hospital

who killed my son.

You have to fire him.

We are going to sue him in court.

I want my grandson.

I want my grandson.

Why is my life so miserable?

Ma'am.

Calm down.

Let's talk about it.

You said

Li Junxiao aborted your grandson.

I have a question.

At which hospital did he do it?

Was it here at Shengji?

Don't…

Don't change the subject.

Even if

he didn't do it

at Shengji Hospital,

but still,

he's one of your doctors here,

right?

You are his superior.

Shouldn't you take responsibility?

That's right.

I'll take responsibility.

It's all on me.

You can just talk to me.

Don't make a scene in the hospital.

You bastard.

What are you doing?

It's him.

Stop it.

It's this quack.

Give me back my grandson.

Stop it.

Calm down.

You can file a complaint all you want.

But don't even think

that you can hit people here.

Guards.

Throw them out.

Come back after you calm down.

What are you doing?

Move.

Give me back my grandson.

Listen, Li Junxiao.

I'll file a complaint.

You'll get fired!

Explain.

I was working

at Ye Ying's hospital.

That guy

is Ye Ying's friend.

His wife was seven-month pregnant

They already have two daughters

and wanted a boy this time.

But turned out it was a girl again.

So they wanted to abort it.

And you helped them?

Ye Ying promised me

that there wouldn't be any problems.

And it was their wish

to abort the child.

They signed the agreement.

Junxiao.

My years of support has been in vain.

The chairman of the student union.

The doctor of a Grade A Class 3 hospital.

How can you be so blind

at a critical time?

You work a part-time job.

I'm not against it.

But the least you can do

is to work in a decent hospital.

You know the notorious history

of Ye Ying's hospital.

How could you go there?

I'm sorry. Director Tian.

I'll have to fire you.

Director Tian.

It's the only way to protect you.

Do you understand?

It's not going to do you any good

with the patient's families

coming all the time to make a scene.

Thank you.

Junxiao.

I have to warn you.

Ye Ying told them

where you work,

and led them to me

to file a complaint.

She's trying

to let you

take all the blame.

You have to be careful.

Don't turn it into big trouble.

So we did the health check.

It's good for our health.

-Ruirui is back.
-You are back.

Why are you here?

Feng is here

to bring us the fruits.

The cantaloupe

is so fresh.

Why do you look so pale?

I'm fine. Just a little tired.

Maybe you should go rest in your room.

Isn't it time for you to go home?

You have operations tomorrow.

You…

Don't say that.

He just got here.

I do have operations tomorrow.

I guess I'll leave now

and visit Dad and Mom next time.

Your dad and mom.

Goodbye, Dad.

Be safe.

I'm so sorry.

Be safe.

What was that about?

I want to ask you that.

You drove him away

without even offering dinner.

It's already over for us.

Why would you give him hope?

Ruirui.

Don't be so stubborn.

When Feng had

the vasectomy,

we were so mad at him.

We thought

he was being wayward

for having the operation

without telling us.

We only know it now

that he did it to protect you.

So you found out.

Ruirui.

Don't put so much pressure

on yourself.

If it's too risky to have children,

you don't have to do it.

Feng Yuanhang told us

just now

that if you will get back to him,

he's fine being childless

for all his life.

But I'm in a relationship

with Li Junxiao now.

Li Junxiao.

Where is he?

You were talking about getting married.

Your mom and I

had even got the invitations ready.

But now we don't even hear

a word from him.

If we knew that he's so unreliable,

we wouldn't have agreed on this relationship.

Ruirui.

Feng did hurt you before.

But now you understand

that his intentions

were good.

Hear me out.

Why don't you give him another chance?

What do you think?

It's true that

I'm grateful to him.

But the love is dead.

It can't come back to life.

We can't return to the past.

Ruirui.

Since you are so determined,

we won't push you to do anything.

But you have to think twice

about marrying Li Junxiao.

Don't get married just to be married.

If he's unreliable,

you can stay single all your life

and live at home.

We can afford to feed you.

I'm so lucky to have you.

We're lucky to have you, too.

Do it.

Don't do it.

Do it.

Don't do it.

Do it.

Don't do it.

Do it.

Don't do it.

Do it.

Don't do it.

Do it.

Don't do it.

What is it?

What's the solution?

You'll do it or not?

This flower isn't good.

I'll find another one.

We both know that we should do it.

But the question is,

how do we persuade them to do it?

There is a saying

that you can do anything

with time and patience.

I'll persuade them

with time and patience.

Don't bother.

I'd say

when the tumor grows too big,

they'll have to come.

If we remove it earlier,

there will be more memory

for her.

Every mother

wants to remember her child.

No matter how sad they are,

the most beautiful memory is always

when they have the child.

I have to try.

The volume is good.

The urine…

The excrement is normal too.

Here.

Dr. Liu.

Everything's fine.

This is scar-reducing cream.

It works well with stretch marks.

After she wakes up, give it to her.

Thank you.

Dr. Liu.

You really don't have to come all the time.

You take such good care

of Ma Ru.

The other patients even thought

that you were her family.

Families and doctors

are basically the same.

We all want the best for the patient.

And,

I can only be happy

when they take me for her family.

I know

why you are doing all this.

You want to persuade me

to let her have the operation, right?

I didn't make it

that obvious…

If this happens to another family,

they can discuss it.

But I can't discuss it with her.

Please forgive me.

I don't want her to have the operation.

If we do it,

it might affect

her memories a little bit.

But it's certainly better

for her brain.

I have decided.

We won't do it.

We're going home tomorrow.

Please think twice.

There's no need.

Just go.

No, listen to me.

I'm doing this for her sake.

We can't let the tumor

get worse.

Say no more.

We won't do it.

What are you talking about?

Do what?

That's about it.

You mean I have a brain tumor.

And you won't

let me

have the operation?

Yes.

If it's just a brain tumor,

it can't be such a difficult decision.

Is there anything else

you are not telling me?

Anyway,

it's okay

if you don't do it now.

I'll do it.

Why?

No reason.

I'm willing to trust

Dr. Liu.

Dayou.

This is not our first time

going to a doctor.

But,

we've never met a doctor

who's as conscientious as

Dr. Liu.

Right?

On the one hand,

he can't force you.

On the other hand,

if he's too pushy,

he won't get off the hook

once anything goes wrong.

Dr. Liu

is trying so hard

to persuade you

to do this.

It proves that this thing

is absolutely necessary.

And,

he's prepared

to take responsibility.

Right?

So I'm willing to trust him.

Thank you.

Thank you for your trust.

But,

if you do it...

If I do it,

there might be a bad consequence,

right?

And there are so many things

you can't tell me now, right?

It's okay.

Actually,

I've been very happy lately.

But,

I still feel like

it's foggy in my brain.

Like it's not clear

and something's not there.

So,

I want to have the operation.

After the operation, if…

If something bad happens,

I won't be afraid.

Because I have you

and Xiaole.

We will make it through.

We definitely will.

Right?

Right.

Cheer up, silly.

Geez.

Right?

Why are you sweating so much?

You are not doing the operation.

It's been four hours.

I'm so nervous.

It's not a big tumor.

But it's located poorly.

One little shift of the scalpel,

the brain gets damaged.

It's only natural that the operation takes a long time.

I know.

But…

You fear that President Liu will be liable for it?

You have to believe in your dad.

No matter how your relationship is,

he's still

the best neurosurgical expert

in our hospital.

He's not young anymore.

I don't know if he'll be fine

sitting there for so long.

How long has it been?

Eight hours.

No wonder my back hurts.

His legs must have gone numb

from sitting for so long.

It's over.

Close it.

President.

Let's go that way.

What?

What will he do?

You two go back first.

Go.

We need people in the wards.

Just go.

What?

Is there anything

you're not satisfied with?

Thank you.

Dad.

Why?

It's a doctor's duty.

Dad.

I'll walk you back to your office.

No need.

I can take it.

Dad.

Dad is your umbrella.

It's so good to have it.

[Dad]

Hello.

Du Di.

You have to save your mother

and your brother.

I know.

Du Di.

I beg you.

Please.

Save your mom.

You are here.

Director Huang.

How is my mom?

She has infections

in the windpipe and alimentary tract

because of long-term intubation.

Hydrops in both kidneys.

And also infections

in her blood and lungs.

We have to do

the cesarean section now.

Otherwise the fetus

might get infections too.

I'll be the first assistant.

No, Du Di.

You are her family.

And you're always emotional

whenever

it comes to your mother.

I'm sorry, Du Di.

I have to be responsible for her.

Congrui will be the first assistant.

Du Di.

It's going to be okay.

Seven points in the first minute.

Mild asphyxia.

But the baby

is strong.

We're prepared

for many possible situations.

But none of them happened.

I'll send the baby to the ICU.

Du Di.

If your mom knew

about this,

she'd be proud.

Mom, did you hear?

Prepare to sew her up.

Director Huang.

Can I do it?

As her daughter,

I've never done much

for her.

I'm not a good daughter.

This is probably

the only thing I can do for her

for now.

Director Huang.

Let her do it.

Okay.

Thank you, Director Huang.

I'll be your assistant.

You did well.

You can send her to the ICU.

Your mom

is practically stable now.

But the post-birth treatment

will be tricky.

Be prepared for the worst.

Don't leave.

There must be a mistake.

Wait till I get it straight.

Did you send the wrong baby?

They said it's a boy.

Why is it a girl now?

Can you at least ask about

my mom first?

Okay.

I'll ask.

How is your mom?

The operation is successful.

But she still has infections.

Then treat her.

Now. Tell me.

Where is my son?

That one

is not my child.

Right?

Was there another woman delivering

in the operation room?

Go.

Tell me.

That one they brought out

is your daughter.

No way.

How is that possible?

When you do the sex diagnosis

last time,

you said it's a boy.

Uncle.

We can talk about it

after we send Aunt

to the ICU, okay?

No.

Get this straight here and now,

or no one can leave.

Leave him. Let's go.

You want to go?

Give me back my son!

I lied to you.

I wanted you

to treat my mom better.

Then I wanted

to save the baby.

So I lied to you.

Are you satisfied now?

How can you?

How can you make your mom

suffer like this?

Calm down, Uncle.

I'll beat you to death!

What's going on?

Mister.

Mister.

Mister.

You have to help me.

Du Di did a sex diagnosis

for us.

And she said

that my wife had a son.

That's why we kept the baby.

My wife is vegetative now.

She suffered for so long

just for this baby.

But turned out

it's a girl.

Tian Yunshan.

The hospital has always strongly

prohibited fetal sex diagnosis

without medical needs.

What is this about?

This…

There might be a misunderstanding.

Please give me some time

to find out what happened.

President.

Get up first.

Calm down.

We can talk about it, whatever it is.

Don't get worked up.

You have to grant me justice.

Okay, okay.

Give me back my son.