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[Beloved Life]

[Episode 32]

It's all for Congrui.

She's a happy-go-lucky person.

I was afraid she'd be distracted from work.

Now I don't have to worry.

I'm not her family anymore.

Have you told her

that thing yet?

Not yet.

Not yet?

When are you going to tell her?

I want the best for her.

I thought this disease was a good reason

for her to focus on her career.

And I planned to tell her

when she became chief resident.

I didn't expect that

she was seeing someone else so soon.

When you were her husband,

I respected your opinion.

You made a decision

that you thought was a good one for her.

So I didn't tell her.

But now I heard

she would soon

marry Junxiao.

You know

how much she wants to have children.

If you don't tell her,

she may be devastated by the truth later.

What are you talking about?

Dr. Huang.

Is there something

you and Feng Yuanhang trying to hide from me?

Is it about me?

Congrui,

I'd like to say sorry first.

And then,

I hope you can try

to stay calm

and let me finish, OK?

Dr. Huang.

The miscarriage is not an accident.

Not an accident?

During the operation,

I found that Congrui had a congenital

cervical insufficiency.

Any future pregnancy would result in a miscarriage

unless during pregnancy,

she has a prophylactic cervical cerclage.

Also,

she'll have to stay in bed all the time,

which means

for Congrui to successfully

give birth to a child,

it's gonna be a huge project.

Trying to work as usual during pregnancy

is impossible.

That means

if Congrui

wants to have a baby,

after pregnancy,

we must monitor all the time

the condition of the cervix.

And after the cervical cerclage,

she'll have to stay in bed for the long term.

Then it is impossible for her to

complete the standardized residency training,

not to mention contend for chief resident.

Exactly.

Because she has to spend

all her energy on keeping the baby.

Dr. Huang.

Could you please

not tell her this yet?

Why?

Congrui wants so much

to have a baby.

But honestly,

I wish she could be healthy and happy,

rather than paying a huge price

to become a mom.

She has plans

for everything.

I don't want the pregnancy

to disrupt her plans.

From preconception to delivery,

it takes at least two years.

When she resumes standardized residency training

to compete for the chief resident,

Du Di would have become

an attending doctor by then.

I would rather she completes

her career plans first.

The baby can wait.

Why?

Who is he?

I was supposed to make choices

for my life.

Who was he to make the choice

for me?

He was your husband.

He loved you so much.

So he made a decision

which he thought was right.

He was going

to tell you the truth

after you become the chief resident.

But as you know,

you've always wanted to have another baby.

But he didn't want you

to suffer another miscarriage

in a short time,

so he

got himself a vasectomy,

hoping to

take all the blame

by telling you

that he wanted to be a dink.

But he never expected that

your yearning for kids

outweighed your love for him.

It led directly to your divorce.

He probably never thought

he would divorce you.

All he ever wanted was

to spend the rest of his life with you.

So he thought everything

would work out eventually.

But he didn't know

this situation

would lead to your desperation,

heartbreak

and the decision to abandon him.

What should I do?

Can I still get married?

But Junxiao wants so much to have babies.

What should I do?

Congrui,

I'm sorry

I had to tell you this

at this juncture.

As your mentor,

my life

is also a mess.

So I don't know

what advice I could give you.

But in the next 2, 3 years,

baby or work,

you have to choose one.

You go back and think carefully about

which is more important

to you.

What's up?

What happened?

I may not be able

to have my own children in my life.

I can't get married.

It's impossible.

Don't feel bad yet.

Didn't you get pregnant before?

How come you can't

have a child of your own?

Don't cry.

You have to work in the afternoon.

Do you want to

go to the wards with swollen eyes?

Dry your tears.

Talk to me.

Director Huang told me

my last miscarriage was not an accident,

but severe

congenital cervical insufficiency.

Cervical insufficiency

isn't something incurable.

Why are you crying like a baby?

I thought it was something big.

It's the worst type

and I need a major operation

to barely give birth to the child.

And once I'm pregnant,

I have to stay in bed

for months, you know?

It's not like you can't get pregnant

or have children.

It'd be awful for you.

It's not as simple as being awful.

Director Huang showed me my medical record.

It takes a year or two

and all my energy

to barely keep the baby.

It's gonna be very, very difficult.

Li Junxiao couldn't possibly

taking care of both her sister

and a pregnant wife

who cannot get out of bed at the same time.

Then don't have a baby now.

Even if you couldn't have a baby at all,

so what?

You two are going to marry

for love,

not for having babies.

I want babies,

so does Li Junxiao.

This agreement

is the cornerstone

of our relationship.

Yes.

I didn't want babies.

Neither did Feng Yuanhang.

So you and Junxiao,

the two who want babies, get together.

But this is by no means

the basis of your marriage.

It's your appreciation, respect

and love for each other.

If the goal of your marriage

is to have children,

what's the point of getting married?

But I'm still worried.

About what?

If Li Junxiao knows

it's difficult for me to bear children,

and even if I get pregnant,

we'll still have to give so much,

will he still be willing

to spend his life with me?

If he isn't,

you should leave him as soon as possible.

It means it's not true love.

OK, don't cry.

I believe he loves you.

Congrui.

Congrui.

Still angry about Ye Ying?

I've made up my mind

to resign from her hospital.

Aren't you happy?

I've already thought about it.

Look,

I'll find some decent jobs to do

and take time to save money.

I don't want you to misunderstand.

You don't have to quit your job.

I'm in no position to interfere with your business.

In no position?

Who was so angry with me before?

Moreover,

you

are my girlfriend.

If you're not in the position, who else is?

Have you eaten yet?

How about this?

Let's have lunch

together at noon.

I'll go fill out the medical records first.

What medical records

need the attending doctor to fill out himself?

This is a complicated case.

A 41-year-old pregnant woman

planned to be a dink couple

with her husband.

But as they grew older,

the couple regretted and wanted a baby.

After 9 ovulation inductions,

8 egg retrievals and 7 transplants,

the wife got pregnant

through IVF.

But it turned out to be an ectopic pregnancy.

So they had to abort it.

The medical history is

far too complicated.

I'm afraid the resident would miss anything.

What's your opinion on this case?

My opinion,

no matter how long humans' lifespan

extends,

the best childbearing age

won't change.

It's called the best for a reason.

Many young couples

want to be dinks.

When they get older, they regret it.

By then they cannot conceive at all.

Get married when you should.

Get pregnant when you should.

We do things

at particular ages.

Going against the physiological laws,

you'll end up

too late to regret.

Is dink

completely unacceptable for you?

Why dink?

Children make a family completed.

Don't you think

procreating is also

our contribution to society?

If every couple chooses to be dink,

human beings will soon be extinct.

And we both

like children.

We'll have a lot of children.

Let's have two first.

If the policy allows, we'll have more.

As long as I work hard,

I can definitely support them.

Wait for me for a while.

I'll be done in 10 minutes.

My mom wants to see me.

I won't have dinner with you.

You...

Abort it.

If this is reported,

we will be in big trouble.

We were good friends back in school.

Do you think I'll report you?

When you came here, you begged me

to ask the ultrasound doctor

to check

the gender of the baby.

You said it was your first child.

It was the same whether it was a boy or a girl.

You just wanted to know what kind of babywear you should buy.

When you found out it was a girl,

you wanted an induced abortion.

This is too much to ask.

To be honest with you,

I already have two daughters.

My wife has had two C-sections.

This time,

she's facing great risk

to get pregnant.

Look,

if we have this daughter,

it's possible

that she won't have any babies.

So...

I don't have

a doctor who's capable of doing it.

We're talking about induced abortion,

not an early-stage abortion.

We specialize in gynecology here,

not obstetrics.

Why don't you make up an excuse

and do it in a Grade-A teritary hospital?

No, no, no.

Too many procedures.

How about this?

As long as you can do it,

I don't care how much

it takes.

Let's talk about it later.

Please come in.

-I...
-Dr. Li,

you're just in time.

I have a surgery here.

I'm thinking about who is

more capable of it.

When I see you,

I got the answer.

Take a look.

I'm here to resign.

I don't think

I belong here.

Even if you resign today,

it can't be effective immediately.

Right?

As per our contract,

there's a one-week transition period.

Why don't you take a look?

There's nothing wrong with it.

Why do you want an induced abortion?

We just

don't want the baby.

If you don't want it,

why wait until it's 28 weeks?

Legally speaking, a fetus reaching 28 weeks

is considered a human life.

I won't do this kind of surgery.

Dr. Li, wait a minute.

It's not like this is some

outrageous crime.

The couple

decided not to have this baby.

Tell them to do it through regular procedures

in a Grade-A teritary hospital.

We go through regular procedures too.

I'm here to resign today.

I'll go back

to my work at the hospital later.

I don't have time for surgery today.

Wait, why do you have to quit?

Doesn't your sister need chemotherapy?

My sister's business is not your concern.

And I don't want

Congrui to misunderstand.

OK.

Since you are so determined,

I won't try to persuade you to stay.

But I'll give you 50,000 yuan.

The couple

is willing to spend more money on this surgery.

I'll give you 50,000.

Don't you want to propose properly?

A decent ring

costs at least 50,000, right?

When the surgery is done,

I'll let you go.

Here, here, here.

Ouyang.

Why do we have to make it so complicated?

Let's just

make a copy of the guest list

of Congrui's last wedding.

Why did you smack me?

You're such a fool.

It's Congrui's second wedding.

If we invite

all the guests at her last wedding,

some of them would scold you.

OK.

Then you say, I'll write.

Listen to me.

This one first, Wu Jia.

Yang Ying.

And Wang Qian.

No cold drinks.

It's bad for health.

Come.

You sit here.

Have a look.

This is the guest list for your wedding.

And

your dad and I don't recognize

your classmates and colleagues.

Check if we miss out on some guests.

Put their names on.

Take a break, no rush.

What's up?

Did you have a fight?

No, we didn't.

It's so busy at the hospital lately.

I don't want to do this right now.

I want to put off

the wedding.

Oh,

how can you put off

a major event like marriage?

Your dad and I

even selected an ideal hotel.

Drink some hot water.

You haven't made a reservation.

I don't want the wedding now.

What?

Something must be wrong.

Shall I ask Du Di about it

on WeChat?

She may not tell you.

And Congrui will be angry when she finds out.

Let's wait and see.

What's going on?

Li Junxiao,

you quack! I'm gonna kill you.

I didn't make any mistakes in the surgery.

Why are you here

threatening to kill me?

You aborted my son!

Of course I'm gonna kill you.

Get off me!

Stop!

What are you doing?

Let me tell you something.

I'll hold you accountable too.

Didn't you tell me

it was a daughter?

Why is it a son?

You two!

Give my son's life back!

You're so patriarchal.

You deserve it.

What did you say?

I dare you say it again!

You! Control him!

Let go of me!

I'll sue you!

Li Guang,

you signed for the surgery.

Do you think you can win the lawsuit?

Let me tell you something.

I'll sue you first.

I'll make sure

your hospital will never be able to open again.

And you, Li.

Just wait.

I'll make you sorry!

Let go of me!

Let go of me!

Go.

Go!

We'll see!

Go!

Are you OK?

Let's go get checked out.

Then we'll ask him for compensation

with the report.

No, I'm fine.

I have to go.

Just a sec.

Together, we can

make Kaiming a top hospital.

I'll put you in charge.

You can call off the surgeries

you don't want to do.

I'll do whatever you want, OK?

You can make a lot of money.

And you can inherit

my family property.

I'll do whatever you say.

Please, don't go.

I don't want any of these.

Did I hear that right?

The family property?

What are you looking at?

Go back to work.

Come on, let's go to work.

Li Junxiao, you'll regret it.

Junxiao,

you're back so early

today.

Oh,

what happened to your face?

You...

Oh.

Did you fight with someone?

No.

I fell accidentally.

Don't lie to me.

The bruises are clearly

the result of a fight.

You never fought with others.

What happened?

I really didn't, Xiaojuan.

Don't worry about me.

Don't go. Sit down.

Tell me everything.

I noticed you'd been gloomy

lately.

What's up?

Are you short of money?

Does Congrui despise you?

It's my fault.

Junxiao,

don't keep it to yourself.

No matter how big it is,

I'm here with you.

We can go through it.

Xiaojuan.

I'm not a good brother.

I have already arranged for you

a hospital for treatment.

But now it's over.

If I had known, I would not have studied medicine.

So you wouldn't have toiled for so many years.

And now you've got cancer.

Xiaojuan.

I just want to make some money.

But every day I have to do those operations

against my conscience.

I knew that

cervical erosion wasn't a disease,

but I cut patients' cervixes.

I knew that

a couple wanted to abort a baby girl,

yet I did the induced abortion for them.

I went from undergraduate

straight to doctoral study in Shengji.

I'm an attending doctor at Shengji Hospital.

Yet that's what I did.

Xiaojuan.

I just want to make some money

so you can get good treatment

and be a healthy bride.

I want to give Congrui

a well-off life.

I don't know what's wrong with me.

Other people can easily

get these things.

But why is it so hard for me?

Junxiao,

what

have you done?

I'm an attending doctor

in Shengji hospital.

Shame on me!

Don't...

Don't do this, don't do this.

Please.

I'm here.

I'm here.

Xiaojuan.

I know it's wrong.

I don't want to do this anymore.

But now...

It's Congrui.

I have to go see her.

-Why aren't you at work?
-Why aren't you at work?

What happened to your face?

I'm OK.

I...

resigned from Ye Ying's hospital.

By the way,

we haven't decided on

the hotel to hold our wedding reception.

Why don't we decide today?

When my sister gets her surgery,

we'll hold the wedding.

There's no rush.

You've been rushing me for a long time.

I was busy making money before

and didn't have time.

I'm sorry.

I told you,

there's no rush.

There's no rush.

We can put it off for a few weeks.

After all, my sister needs time

to recover from the surgery.

If she can come

to our wedding,

it'll be great.

No.

I don't want to get married.

My last miscarriage wasn't an accident.

I have congenital

cervical insufficiency.

Getting pregnant and delivering babies

will be very dangerous

and difficult.

Don't you want to have children

as soon as we get married?

I don't want to let you down.

When did you know about this?

Three days ago.

I don't think you would want to marry

a woman

with fertility problems.

Let's say goodbye here, Dr. Lin.

-It's OK.
-Dr. Lin,

I'm so grateful to you this time.

I'll send a silk banner

to every doctor and every nurse

I met in this hospital.

I have made dozens of them.

Are you doing wholesale business?

This hospital saved

my wife and my baby's lives.

I'd like to give each employee here

a silk banner.

Although all indicators are

good now,

you must remember

to come back on time for review.

Better safe than sorry.

Sure, we will.

Don't worry. Dr. Lin.

From now on,

I'll listen to all your advice.

I'll come back to you.

You will not see me

in Shengji anymore.

Why?

You are my last patient.

I'm going to resign

and leave the hospital.

You can't do that.

You have such good skills.

You are needed here.

Shengji

is never short of talents.

All right, go home.

OK.

I'll leave now, Dr. Lin.

Bye.

Are you really leaving?

I have successfully completed

8,000 surgeries

and I cured Wang Xiaoke.

It's time to fulfill my promise.

Xiaojuan.

Xiaojuan.

Junxiao,

I left.

For hometown.

I've broken up with Dacheng.

Don't try to find me.

I don't want to be a burden to you

and ruin your future.

I shouldn't have come in the first place.

Keep saving money.

Marry Congrui.

I can't attend

your wedding.

Send me pictures of the wedding.

Bye.

Hello,

the number you dialed

is not answered for the moment.

Please redial later.

I don't agree.

Even so, I have to quit.

Don't you want to go to

Pokhara?

Go.

I'll give you the leave.

Come back when you have enough rest.

Dr. Tian,

do you know how I felt

when Feng Ke passed away?

Every minute and every second of these years

is a torture to me.

It was my promise to her

got me through.

I spent almost every day in the operating room,

hoping to fulfill my promise to her

some day.

Now I've fulfilled it.

I don't want to come back.

Lin Wei,

to be an excellent doctor,

it takes a man

at least 15 years of hard work

from a medical school student to a lead surgeon.

With your qualifications,

in a couple of years,

you'll probably be promoted to deputy director,

or even the head of a department.

What you're giving up

is not only a promising career,

but also years of hard work.

I don't think Feng Ke

would want you to give it up.

I know what you're trying to do.

But I really don't see

the meaning to be a doctor anymore.

Dr. Tian.

Dr. Huang.

You're just in time.

Help me persuade this stubborn donkey.

If you're really no longer interested

in being a doctor,

then you should leave.

I asked you to persuade him.

What are you doing?

But,

you're obviously passionate

about being a doctor.

Though you're obsessed with surgeries

and don't care about promotion,

you always

put patients' lives

first and foremost.

Sometimes you even risked your own future

to save lives.

Take Wang Xiaoke's case as an example.

You did so much homework

in the hope that you could

cure her

while giving her baby the best protection.

The patient may not understand,

but we do.

A doctor who has performed

8,000 surgeries

still has the light of hope in his eyes

every time he saves a life.

Do you know what it means?

It means

you love this profession

from the bottom of your heart.

Director Huang is so right.

That's what I wanted to say.

I believe when Feng Ke asked you

to make this promise,

she didn't care

how many surgeries you could perform.

She hoped when she was gone,

you would still be able

to stick to this path

as a doctor.

Director Tian has approved.

Take a long vacation.

Right.

You haven't had a vacation in years.

I'll give you a long vacation.

Travel around and relax.

Come back when you have enough fun.

The door of Shengji Hospital

is always open for you.

So?

What's it gonna be?

Will he come back or not?

I believe he will come back.

In the past, I imagined

the head of a department

was the one who called the shots

with great dignity.

Now that I've become one, I realize

I have to beg around every day.

There's so much to worry about.

It's totally different

from what I imagined.

By the way,

how are things

at your home?

Well,

I finally got my divorce.

It's inappropriate to say congratulations, right?

Look, lunch is on me.

Let's go.

Lin Wei,

What?

Don't want me to go?

Are you coming back?

It depends on my mood.

Maybe when I have fun

somewhere,

I'll find a local wife

and settle down there.

If you do that,

I'll go to the ends of the world

to get you back.

Lin Wei,

be safe.

Gross.

Bye.

By the way,

take it.

It was broken before.

I've already fixed it for you.

You're welcome.

What's this?

I picked it up somewhere.

Watch it for yourself.

I'm fine with this place.

It's really not a big deal.

It's not for you, but it is for me.

He'll stay at my place.

Director Tian

managed to get me a bed

in the hospital dormitory.

And,

I don't have to take the subway

during the morning peak.

It's close here.

Not an excuse to take advantage of him.

Let's go.

Don't come out.

Say daddy.

Daddy.

-Daddy.
-My baby.

Daddy.

Look, look, look!

He just called you.

Why?

He suddenly called you daddy.

It was accidental,

not a conscious behavior.

Miemie, my baby.

Your dad

is just a dull head.

When you grow up

and watch this video,

you must scold him.

But,

he changed diapers for you

and everything.

Forget it.

You'd better not scold him.

Our Miemie is so small.

Yet mom told you to scold dad.

Baby,

say you love daddy.

Then you have to tell him you love him first.

Come on, dull head.

I said it in my heart.

No, say it quickly.

Say you love him.

Baby,

I love you.

Daddy loves you.

Look at him. So cute.

Daddy loves you so much.

Miemie!

Hold Daddy's hand.

Hold Daddy's hand.

That's good.

Miemie, you also love dad,

don't you?

Yes.

You love daddy too.

My baby.

That's good.

That's good.

Miemie, you love daddy too, don't you?

Why are you back?

I walked my dad to the subway station.

I remembered you hadn't eaten anything.

So I bought you some food.

What's wrong?

Did you cry?

You're just in time.

There's something

I'm afraid I can't watch it all by myself.

Miemie!

OK, blow out the candles. Come on.

Look!

How old were you?

Three or four years old, maybe.

I can't remember.

Happy birthday to you.

I never saw

my dad so happy.

Happy birthday to you.

Why didn't he show you

the lovely video earlier?

Maybe the more lovely it looks,

the scarier

the truth behind it is.

One, two, three.

-I think your mom was very brave.
-You're 4 years old.

-Daddy will cut the cake for you.
-At that time,

she obviously suffered

from depression.

But

look,

she kept laughing

so happily.

To make others happy,

she must have been trying so hard to pretend.

Take a bit and you're one year older.

I remember this dress.

This is what she wore the day she disappeared.

Miemie,

Zhenghua,

I'm leaving.

In fact, even I myself

don't know

why I can't hold on any longer

when

the three of us love each other so much.

I know

I have a mental problem.

But Miemie,

if you find out

everything in the future,

please don't blame yourself.

Mom did not get depression

because of having you.

Mom just

can't accept the fact

that I become

an ordinary woman,

dependent on your dad.

But you mustn't hate your dad.

He has done everything he can

to show tolerance.

He loves us so much,

really.

Zhenghua, I love you so much.

But I'm not

a qualified mom.

I'm not a qualified

head nurse.

I'm not even a qualified

wife for you.

I...

I'm lost.

I don't know

who I really am.

I don't know

which identity

I can hold on to the end.

I know that

you always pretend to be relaxed.

I also know that

when I'm gone,

your life with our son

will be very difficult.

But

please forgive me.

I'm too tired.

I can't take it anymore.

I love you, Zhenghua.

Miemie,

mom loves you too.

I hope that in the future

you will meet someone

who loves you more than I do.

Don't go.

Stop.

You can't go.

I won't let you go.

I won't forgive you.

I won't forgive you.

And I hate my dad.

Come back.

Mom.

You said you loved us.

Why couldn't you hold on a little longer?

Do you know for how many years

I've hated my dad?

Don't blame a depressed patient.

Back then,

people knew little about

depression.

Your mom

must have been in so much pain.

So was your dad.

At least you know now

that you love each other.

And,

your mom

didn't get depression

because of having you.

You've saved so many

depressed people.

I'm sure she'd be proud

of you.

Ms. Wang.

Did you inherit Lin Wei's style

or what?

We lost a punk doctor.

And here comes another.

Talk to your boyfriend.

What kind of image is this?

He's OK.

I made him cry last night.

Doctor.

Dr. Liu,

I heard that you had an eyelid surgery.

But you already had double-fold eyelids.

Did you broaden them?

Where did you hear this?

I'm amazed how the rumor developed

in just an hour.

Ma Ru, 42 years old,

multipara.

When did you have your last baby?

This is my first child.

I never had a baby before.

It's written here that you're a multipara.

Maybe you made a mistake.

No way.

Who did this?

Dr. Lin.

He's not here right now.

He can't possibly make such a mistake.

Maybe Dr. Lin was distracted before he left

and made the mistake.

No way.

Not in a hundred years

would he make such a stupid mistake.

It's OK.

I'll give him a call later

to confirm it.

I learned that it's a nuchal cord

and needs a C-section, right?

Yes.

I need to check you out now.

OK, thank you.

Doctor,

what should we do with

a nuchal cord?

I'm so worried.

Dr. Du,

Dr. Liu,

have you checked her?

How is she?

When will we

take the surgery?

The umbilical cord wraps around the baby's neck 3 times.

The blood supply looks OK so far.

The fetus does not show asphyxia.

But the fetus may move

in the womb anytime.

If the cord tightens

when it moves,

it will impact the blood supply.

Then there will be a risk of distress at any time.

I will tell the senior doctor now

to schedule your surgery as soon as possible.

We will also monitor closely

the fetal heart condition.

Thank you.

This is our first child.

My wife is extremely nervous.

Thank you for taking care of her.

Are you sure it's your first child?