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That looks way cool, man.

Number!

Number!

Number!

One.

Two.

Three.

Four.

Five, six,

seven, eight, nine.

Cipião.

Mendes.

Cardoso.

Leave your backpacks
and proceed to reconnoitre.

Cardoso!

l think we've already lost him.

Are you sure it's this way?

l think so.

It must have been the wind...

It's been ages
since the wolves vanished.

How cold it is outside!

Let's resume, Paulinha.

Hey, they're two blokes!

Must be girlfriends of your father's...

Don't you know them?

My father's dead!

Like l said,
I'd prefer an organic intervention.

You get to make use of everything,
only the testicles go.

TO DlE LlKE A MAN

Certain techniques
are nothing short of amputation.

What l suggested
to your friend Irene is this:

We make a cut in the penis,
just as you do with sausages.

You open it up and stretch the skin.

You fold it over.

Sew it up.

Turn it inside out.

Nothing is discarded,

everything
is made into something else.

Your vagina begins to take shape.

The foreskin,

the clitoris.

This part here

can be used to make the small labia...

the ante-chamber of the vulva...

We use the scrotum for the large labia.

The foreskin, which is more sensitive,
will be right here at the entrance.

It's the closest we can get
to a clitoris...

So you can feel pleasure.

l feel like l'm planning a crime.

It's all so violent; it affects
so much of what l am inside.

Only you can decide.

l know, Irene,
but do you really trust the doctor?

How long have you been seeing him?

l've been seeing Dr. Francisco
for a year.

He's always been most kind.

He calls a spade a spade.

How awful!
He's so direct it's frightening.

He spoke of a sex-change
as if he were filleting steak.

May God forgive him.

Irene, you're my best friend.

But l'm not to be cut
and drawn on a butcher's block.

Tonia, you sound like
you're against these operations.

But you've done far worse things.

Remember the crazy woman's
silicone injections?

You nearly died.

- Remember the pain and suffering?
- l don't want to talk about it.

The more l know,
the more scared l get.

Sure, but at the time
you were absolutely certain.

This is the way God made me.

l've done so many things...

l don't know, Irene.

Are you going to live your life
with your eyes closed?

But it would make
my Rosário so happy...

Who cares about Rosário!

You're doing this for yourself,
not him.

It's for Rosário, too.

That kid's old enough
to be your son.

Do you really love him that much?

l do.

l love him as my boyfriend
and as if he was my son.

Can't you see
he's got nobody else in Lisbon?

ls it because he's alone here

or because you're tired
of being on your own?

How about this one?

It would look pretty in the garden.

No, not this one.

It's the sort
that dies within the week.

Or this pretty speckled one?

- They're made in labs.
- Right, they don't last long.

But look at this one...

Those are greenhouse flowers.

Irene, l can't cope with flowers
right now.

Let's go.

Where's the dog?

Agustina!

Agustina, where have you got to?

It's cute, isn't it?

Rosário's not really into
this sort of thing.

- It's a very nice birthday present.
- Course it is!

This toy is in top-notch condition.

l even touched up the paintwork.

So how about you, do you like it?

It's a rocket, this machine!

Get a move on, Tonia,
go and get Rosário!

The TV...

He's stolen everything!

Foolish me, he's up to his old tricks.
Son of a bitch!

So, isn't he coming?

He said he was at home.

Switched off... Weird.

Don't bother waiting.

He must have gone to the café
and hung around chatting.

Go on, hurry up.

- Right then, ciao.
- Don't miss the train.

My gold rosary...
Did he take that too, the heretic?

Saint Anthony, steep hills did you climb

to encounter the Good Lord
and ask of Him

that what was lost be found
and given back.

Oh my miracle-working Saint,
give me back what l have lost.

It's a very heavy cross
for a woman to bear.

Forgive me, Lord.
l'm not even a woman.

Today was such a difficult day.
l'm so tired.

l think about him all the time,
but who thinks about me?

Why did you let him run off, Lord?

Why didn't l leave you here
to stand guard?

You're old, Agustina.
You're like me.

You're no use to anyone anymore.

He does whatever he wants.

It's punishment for me being so vain.
God forgive me.

Eating! That you don't forget.

Are you hungry? You're not getting
any more out of me today.

- You're getting no food, neither am l.
- That'll teach us.

Junkie!
By now he's probably already sold it.

Has he shown up?

No.

Sergio, help me here
to zip the dress.

My shoes? Where are my shoes?

Not those, the higher heels.

My plumes?

Go and have a look.

He's not here yet.

And the wind has changed
And he's not back

Isn't Rosário
going to blow out the candles?

Mind your own business, you witch!

Slow down.

Stop here.

Why're you threatening me, Rosário?

l'm gonna cut you!

Don't you recognise me?

Drop the blade. It's me.

You're barefoot.

What have you done with your shoes?

And the earrings?

- And the chain l bought you?
- Don't know, lost them.

You lost them?

You sold them!

Come on, let's catch a taxi
and go home.

You're wearing the dress
l made for you.

You look so pretty, Tonia.

It's been raining.

Only l know l am a weed

Difficult to mould

Clay and cement and builder's sand...

This way.

See that door?

Can you see it?

It's carrying a cross.

It's calling us.

Come on,

it's a longer walk
but you get there all the same.

But we will get there, won't we?

Only l know l am stone

l'm stone that's hard to sculpt...

A target for stones

A pebble you can't mount

Only l know l am clay

Difficult to mould

Clay and cement and builder's sand

And no one knows how to mould it

ln pre-made moulds
l don't know how to create myself

ln ready-made forms
l can't be broken

And l don't know
If l want to shape myself

Because l don't know

Because l don't know
If l want to polish myself

l don't know either
If l want to burnish myself

l don't know either
If l want to run away

From this beast

This beast

l don't know either
If l want to polish myself

l don't know either
If l want to burnish myself

l don't know either
If l want to run away

From this beast

l am searching for

Happy birthday.
It's your birthday present.

l'm sorry, Tonia.

l've lost my driver's licence.

You've lost it?
How much did they give you for it?

And your mobile, you lost that too?

And the TV?

What about all my gold?

And everything you've stolen from me?

What a birthday party...

You're never going to change, are you?

And you? Are you going to stay
like this for ever?

Neither one thing nor the other.

Neither fish nor flesh, nothing.

You're a man with boobs.
A cowardly old woman.

Do you think I'd leave you
on the street? In this weather?

Can't have you catching a cold.

As soon as you're well,

we'll take the car for a long outing.

Me, you and Agustina.

What do you think?

We'll leave Lisbon
and go and see your brother.

l so want to meet
your nephews and nieces.

We'll get away for a while.

Have a change of scenery.
You'll see, it'll be good.

And you'll enjoy it too, right, Agustina?

Remember when we met?

How happy we were?

It'll be like it was before.

Rosário, calm down!

It's my wig.

Tonia, have you lost it?

You ripped Jenny's wig off!

The wig's mine!

Nobody messes with my stuff.

l won't stand for effrontery!

The wig belongs to the club.

The fuck it does. The wig's mine.

This show only has one blonde
and that's me.

The cheek of stealing
the club star's props!

You can take the wig away, Tonia.

But nobody can take the applause
away from me.

Just look at you!
The Black Stain wants to shine...

Only last summer you were hooking.

You're ungrateful!
Who brought you here?

l taught you everything.
ls this the thanks l get?

You'll be needing me
for the eclipse to be total.

ls that a threat, you witch?
Are you going to do voodoo?

l don't need to, darling.
l have an audience.

l have to go and thank them.

Tonia, stop creating problems.

You've got plenty on your plate,
don't you think?

How's Rosário?

ls he holding up?

Not really.
He's going through withdrawal again.

Do you want the week off
to look after him?

Already trying to get rid of me?

l'm only trying to help.
Forget it.

Teixeira, you're my friend,
but l'm not blind.

There's a lot of venom around.

l'm still in charge here, don't worry.

The audience still wants you.

And you, do you?

Tonia!

Open the door!

l need to get out of here!

l won't do it again, l promise!

Tonia, get me out of here!

Please, open the door!

Tonia, is that you?

Tonia, open the door!

Let me out!

Augustine, my girl.

Rosário, is that you?

It's me, Zé Maria.
Don't be afraid.

My son.

You have long hair.

- My God what happened?
- Stop!

Calm down, Zé Maria.

l need your help.

Didn't you hear? Help me!

Alright, l'll help you,
but calm down.

- Lower your rifle. You're in your home.
- This isn't my home.

Why are you treating me like this?

l'm your father.

Help me.

First, lower your rifle.
You're scaring me.

Let's talk.

My darling.

Don't touch me!

- Do you need money?
- l don't want your money.

What then?

l want you to hide me.

What about the barracks?

l can't go back. l went AWOL.

If l go back, l'll be arrested.

Arrested?

God give me strength.
What've you done?

- Does your mother know?
- l don't want to talk about her.

Ok, Zé Maria,
but tell me what happened.

It doesn't matter.

What matters
is that l have nowhere to go.

l can't go back to the barracks,
or home...

or anywhere.

You've got to tell me
what you've done.

Answer me.
Why are you carrying that rifle?

Look at me, l'm your father.
Have you killed somebody?

l have.

l killed a poofter like you
who didn't deserve to live.

And you know what else?
I'd do it again.

l killed him and it's your fault.

Rosário!
Rosário!

Why'd you leave me all alone?
Am l an animal you can put on a leash?

It's your fault, all of it.

You take better care
of your shitty dog than of me.

Nothing will ever change.

Stop, please.
l'm getting out here.

Rosário!

Rosário!

Zé Maria!

You're a coward.

You only hide
where you know l'll find you.

l couldn't drive the car.
l was leaving.

l got lost.

l was so scared.

Rosário...

You make things so difficult for me.

Sometimes it seems like
l'm your mother.

You're not my mother,
you're my girlfriend.

The other fish have died.

Agustina?

Where is Agustina?

What've you done to her now?
Augustina!

How awful, Agustina.

You're covered in burns.

Mommy's going to take care of you.

My poor little darling.

There, there now.

Does that hurt, Agustina?

He's much better now.
It even started to work.

Rosário,
you're giving it your all today.

That's what he's doing.

That dress is for Jenny.

She's never had any reason
to complain.

On stage, she's got to be
as well got up as me.

And that's the truth,
she's always flawless.

You're very quiet, Rosário.

Are you listening, Rosário?

Let him be. He's busy.

Look, you were right.

Being off of drugs changes him.

You and your crazy ideas...
Extensions on a wig!

This is no time for fashion.
Haven't you ever heard of recycling?

Did you have Agustina shorn?
She looks thinner.

The poor thing's been shedding hair.

You're getting old,
aren't you, Agustina?

My folly...

Who is it?

My dalliance...

Who is it?

As lonely as ever

into a cafe l went

It was almost a miracle

When l found you

Your distant gaze

ln mine came to a stop

l became your lover

At first glance

My love

Who is it, who is it?

My secret

Who is it, who is it?

My dalliance

Who is it, who is it?

My folly

Who is it, who is it?

Everybody already knows
Only you can't see

Life has more ebb and flows,
you know...

No hope, no sin

And you, still so sentimental

You walk by sadly
You notice no-one

l've got to find
the songs for the new show.

That one's pretty.
Why don't you sing that?

And why don't you really sing it
and stop lip synching?

You've got such a lovely voice.

No, not that song.
l need something more glamorous.

That's no song for a drag show!

Besides, that has to be sung by a man.

And what are you?
A woman?

Don't start with that,
l won't have it.

Tonia, he does have a point.

l may not be a woman, but plenty
of people think l'm his mother.

And be quiet.
l pay you to fix my hair.

Don't say I didn't try to help.

It's you call. Only you know
what to do with your life.

Bad dog! Don't you play
with your owner's things!

Me, I've got my op
booked with Dr. Francisco.

Let me take this one out,
it's getting loose.

You'll be green with envy...

Shut up! I don't want
to talk about it any more.

Where's the other one got to?

What happened?

l can't see the fringe.

What do you mean?
Have you lost it?

l don't know. l had it in my hand.

And now you don't know where it is?

Are you winding me up?

Was it you, Agustina?

There's nothing in her mouth!

Relax, no need to make a meal of it.
It'll turn up.

Irene, this is no laughing matter.
Real hair costs an arm and a leg.

Tonia, it can't be far.

Are you accusing me of stealing it?

Stop whining and give it back.

That does it.

After all l've done for you,
you're calling me a thief?

You won't be setting eyes on me again!
l'm out of here!

For God's sake!
l came all this way, for this.

Bitch!

She takes advantage of me,
then plays innocent.

Stop!

Stop everything!

You want to do that
for an audience?

l for one am not taking part
in this farce.

We do things properly
or we don't do them at all!

- ls that what you want?
- What now?

l've already said
l'm the only blonde here.

But l'm the one in charge here.

Jenny, put the wig back on.

No, take it off!

l created this act.
Take it off!

We'll never get anywhere like this.

l could take off the wig
in the middle of the song.

It wouldn't be the first time.

You're a blonde, Tonia.
Why don't you do the act?

Are you happy now?

No.

Those sleeves look awful.

Rosario.

That bodice.
Do you think it's pretty?

You look as if
you've swallowed a lamp stand.

Shall l take off the rest?

What are you looking at, Rosário?

Never seen a naked man?

So, given any thought to my proposal?

You want to pay me like a newcomer.
l have years of experience.

I'd be better off staying at home.

It's your call.

The audience wants to see legs,
not your years of experience.

Mind what you say.
Legs are a dime a dozen here.

A real drag show is more than just legs.

Times have changed, Tonia.
What can l do?

Pay me what l'm due.

l do. l pay you enough
to live a decent life.

Isn't that enough?

l'm tired of your penny-pinching!

You'll have to make do.
This isn't Estoril's Casino.

The audience
comes here to see Tonia.

Not anymore.

Fuck you! Pay me what l ask
or can forget about me!

Did Teixeira chicken out?

l don't want to talk about it.

Jenny's been offered a job elsewhere.

Seems she's going
to the Finalmente Club.

If you stretch him, he may give in.

Why don't you go with her?
You shitty junkie.

Think l haven't seen you drooling?

Go join her in her village hut.
Limp dick!

All she has to do is ask.

Slow down, Rosário.
You're scaring me.

Stop!

Look who's here.

Must be a street dog.

You're hungry, aren't you?

Stay away, Agustina,
you'll catch his fleas.

Poor thing.
l'm just going to feed him.

- ls he coming in?
- It's cold.

Come on in, you bum.

Come on.

Why are you sending him
into the garden?

It's too cold out.

He's not a greenhouse flower
like your dog.

He's a bum.
He won't catch cold.

l can't take it any longer, Rosário.

We've got to get out of here.

Why don't we go visit your brother?

Let's go visit your brother.

Zé Maria!

Son!

You can go.

What are you waiting for?

Tell me about that loneliness

That has you talking to yourself

Tell me what you are

Talking to yourself about

Tell me what this contempt is

That makes you not look at anybody

Or do you think there is nobody

Who sees you

What journey is this

That you travel on in every direction

You're looking for lost dreams

There goes the nut

There goes the lunatic

There he goes passing by

That's what they call you
All those people

But you're always absent

And they can't reach you

But you're always absent

And they can't reach you

Tell me what madness is this

Which clothes you in fantasy

Tell me it frees you

Of the empty life

Tell me what distance that is

That you carry in your daze

What hunger and what hurry

That you want to reach

What journey is it

That sends you in every direction

Shut up!

You're lookin for...

Speak.
Say something.

What d'you want me to say?
You talk.

- Don't you want to know?
- Do you want to tell me?

Stop that!

Zé Maria is my son.
Hadn't you realized?

Was l supposed to?
l thought it was a secret.

There are no secrets.
Only shame.

Ashamed you're a father?

Of being everything and being nothing.

You're talking to yourself.

Don't wind me up.

It's because l've got nobody to talk to.

It's because you like the sound
of your own voice.

l talk to myself because
l'm on my own.

Because l can't trust you.

You don't trust me?

You don't trust anybody.

And you always have
the last word.

Go ahead, get worked up.

You're the one who gets worked up.

l can handle it.

You think you know everything.

The dam!

How did we end up here?

l must have taken a wrong turn.

Fuck! The dam again.

Let's stop here for a while.

You've been driving a long time
and it's so beautiful here.

l want to get to my brother's
before night falls.

But aren't we already close by?

We can stop just to stretch our legs.

Agustina, Bum, get out.

Are you staying there?

It's pretty, isn't it, Agustina?

Come on, Rosário, let's go.

Bum!

Bum!

What are you waiting for?
Get in.

And what about Bum?

Get in, Tonia.

The dog's a bum,
let him get on with it.

Tonia, where are you going?

Look, how beautiful...

Look at this blue.

I'd never seen flowers
like these before.

l wonder what they are?

Maybe they'll grow
in the garden back home.

Look.

Hello!

Tonia.
My boyfriend, Rosário.

Bakker. Maria Bakker.

You're travelling through, no doubt?

And you must have got lost,
am l right?

Only two types of people visit me:

those who get lost

and those who are looking for me.

The grave of the unknown soldier.

Poor thing...

He fell from the skies.

But do come in,

you've arrived just in time for tea.

These shoes are so comfortable...

They annoy me!

Come in.

A woman is not complete
without aching feet.

Jenny.

It's Jenny.

A magnificent specimen of the Nuba.

A witch.

A gift from an adventurer
friend of mine, a treasure hunter.

This is unique.

This is Paula,

a fellow inmate.

Sit down.

Bring two more cups, darling.
We have guests.

And cakes too?

How pretty!

Bring a vase too, Paula.

You'll be the only one eating cake,
as usual.

And it shows.

Right?

She's a wild berry, my little Paula.

Very shy, very sweet...

A little gauche.

Paula, darling, the knife.

Bring me the cake knife.

l'm doing my bit for social solidarity.

Her father beat her every day.

He thought he could make
a man of her.

She had three brothers, all dead;

the youngest from pneumonia,

the second OD'd.

The oldest got AlDS.
He died a year ago now.

The social worker,

a petulant evangelical
with a thin voice and untidy hair,

nearly finished off the job.

She got to this house
just a minute before going mad.

And you, madam,
have you been here long?

My youth has not allowed me
to be anywhere for too long.

Why do you live cut off from world?

Out of boredom, sheer boredom.

l've crisscrossed the five continents.

My success was total.

So much praise is bothersome.

Dedication is what matters, in the end.

Isn't that right, darling?

Are you happy
among the peasants?

l am.

But where are the peasants?
l haven't seen them.

- You don't go out often?
- No, l go out a lot.

But the peasants, as you call them,
only travel by car

and l'm not one
to stand at the roadside.

ls your work on stage
or on the roadside?

Do try it!

You'll be making little Paula happy.

l've done drag for twenty years.

l've reached the end.

l can't afford to and l don't want to,
but it has to be.

l don't know what it will be like after.

You'll just be a woman.

Will l really?

You had twenty years
to convince other people.

Time to convince yourself!

How?

Not letting yourself be fooled.
Appearances are very important.

l forgot the milk.
Do you still want some?

No, bring the cigarettes instead.

As for appearances,
they're useful to fool other people.

Should we fool ourselves as well?

There's always someone
criticizing us...

Not when we're on our own.

Or in good company.

And afterwards,
how will l support myself?

l have someone
who depends on me.

That is the real problem.

Do you smoke?

Excellent.

l don't like the smell
of other people's smoke.

Doctor Felgueiras is here!

My dear friend, l've come to disturb
your solitude. l see l'm too late.

My dear doctor...

Tonia, Rosário.

Doctor Felgueiras.

My ambassador to the Planet of Men.

Another happy expatriate in this forest.

The usual, Doctor?

What news do you bring
of the barbaric nation?

Problems, as usual.

l've turned off the TV
and stopped reading newspapers.

l'm too old for more worries.

It's unfair, good friend.

''On time's long tables
the pitchers of God carouse...''

''They drink the eyes of the sighted

''and, then, the eyes of the blind.''

Celan, my dear Celan.

How time flies...

Night has fallen.

- Let's go catch ''xnipes''.
- Snipes, my friend?

They died out a long time ago.
They're extinct.

Only when l was a child.

But let's go back, Doctor Felgueiras,
back to our childhood.

Paula, go and get the bags.

Let's all go hunt
that extinct species.

Tonight we improvise xnipes!

Snipes!

Forget-me-nots,
at this time of the year?

Did you know the name
of these Myosotis palustris?

No? Well ''forget it not''.

It's a good omen for a night journey.

Are there any wolves in this area?

Wolves?
It'll be easier to find snipes.

What was that sound?

This is scary.

What's that?

What's wrong now?

- What are you up to, doctor?
- l'm picking mushrooms.

Mushrooms?
At this hour of the night, what for?

l may as well,
since l've got the bag.

Or do you think
l'm going to fill it with snipes?

That's what l call
lacking of imagination.

l'm freezing...

We'd better go back.
Let's leave the snipes be...

l've caught one!
l've caught one!

l don't believe you.
Show it here!

l've caught one.
Look.

Rosário, that's a glow-worm.

Did you think it was a snipe?

What's that?

Can you hear it?

Hear what?

It's them.

Who's them?

Let's go back.

The snipes
have retired for the night.

You were already here
before entering,

and you will remain
after you have left.

Did you enjoy our walk, Tonia?

l thought it was wicked.

Didn't you, Tonia?

Where's Tonia?

l haven't heard her in a while.

Tonia, where are you?

Rosário!

Agustina!

Agustina, where's Tonia?

l've found Bum.

This is way high.

Close the window, it's cold.

It's so peaceful here.
You can't hear a thing.

You left your
forget-me-nots downstairs.

Thank you.

l'm very glad you decided
to stay the night.

''Long before night-fall,

''someone arrives at your house,

''who has greeted solitude.

''Long before dawn,

''he wakes up

''and throws, before leaving, a dream,

''a sleeping space
which echoes with footsteps.

''You hear him measure the distances

''and you throw your soul after them.''

Sleep well.

Tomorrow we'll play on the swing.

Are you asleep, Rosário?

l am.

Let's go, Rosário.

This place
gives me the creeps.

You're not used to it.

Get into bed and sleep.

We have to wake up early
to go to my brother's.

l can't, Rosário.

There's something wrong
with this place.

Let's go.

Please, don't fall asleep.
Let's go!

l no longer want to go to your brother.
l want to go home.

Get out of my way, Bum!

My gold rosary...

It was you, you wretched dog.

Are you still there?

Come inside,
it's starting to rain.

Rosário, come and see,
look what l found!

My knife.

- Look.
- Was it buried there?

Agustina's been playing tricks on me
all these years.

l thought you were innocent.

Thank you, Lord.

l bought it at Fatima to ask
the Blessed Virgin to find me a man.

l had a rosary,
she sent me a Rosário.

The cufflinks!

The ones l gave you
to wear at the gala?

And l thought you had sold them.

Now see what you've done!

You can't see a thing,
you poor thing.

God punished you.

As for you,
you just didn't get a chance to.

What about the other cufflink?

Shut up and dig.

My clog!

That looks really valuable...

Well it is, so there!
It has historical value.

l wore these shoes
in a show with Ruth,

l played a Nazarene woman.
l looked wonderful.

- A Nazarene, you?
- And what's wrong with that?

What's that?

That from that cow, Lidia.

One night, she came in wearing a hood
with two other queens.

She scared me so much
l wet my pants.

Then she tied me to a chair
and started firing.

l didn't talk to her for a week.

We actually did a show with this.

What was it called?

''War Veterans''.

She was a complete nutcase,
that Lidia...

Bum.

The fringe...

And l stopped talking to Irene
because of this.

It's raining, Tonia.

Shall we go back inside?

Get away.

Zé Maria...

So little.

How l hunted for this photograph...

Shall we go back inside?

This brings back so many memories.

Let's go inside.

Yes, l'm freezing.

What's your name?

Tonia.

You're very weak, Tonia.

The strength you've got left
is rejecting the silicone.

The body knows best.

You've been very brave, Tonia.
l even admire your stamina.

We're going to have to remove
your implants.

The whole thing is infected.

That's why you got those boils,

which are pouring out the infection,
the silicone,

everything...

Weren't you in pain?

And those blue contacts will also
have to come out, unfortunately.

First, the contacts.
Doctor's orders.

That's one.

Don't close your eyes.

I lost it.

See, that was easy.

Be brave, Tonia.
Everything will go well.

Stop it, don't bother.

Can you open that drawer?

Come on, Irene. Please humour me.
Open the drawer.

Not that one,

the other one underneath your bag.

Can you see a small red box?
It's for you.

So much work creating Tonia...

Just one day...

and Tonia is over.

Forgive me.

It was Agustina fooling around.

And there l was,
thinking it was you.

We learn to mistrust everyone,

just not animals.

It's your turn now.

You can do everything differently.

Look at me, Tonia.

What do you see?

A beautiful woman.

l never had friends,

just envy, envy...

Don't worry,

l don't want your place.

We're all here in passing.

None of this is the end.

The flowers took root, after all.

l have nothing but good memories
of that trip.

Remember?

''Forget me not''.

l wish l had met
your brother and your nephews.

Never mind that now, let's eat.

Irene was here.

She's had the op.

She's become such
a beautiful woman.

Whereas I...

Don't think about it.
I love you just as you are.

Do you know, she was fixing me up.

Wig and everything.

She wanted me to look pretty again.

But it's not worth it anymore.

"Don't let them bamboozle you",
you used to tell me.

You never understood
it was my way, mother

Come on Tonia, you have to eat.

l gave you a grandson.

But that was never enough, was it?

You left me when l most needed you.

Zé Maria,

where are you?

Open your mouth, Tonia.

Come on, open your mouth.

You need to eat,
come on swallow it.

That's it.

Nowadays, the disease
doesn't kill anyone anymore.

You have to keep the faith.

Don't let your spirits get low.

l've never made things out
to be better than they were,

but in this case...

We need you. You're a star.

l won't be leaving this place, Teixeira.

The money is a big help, but...

You were always a fighter, Tonia.

You can't give in now.

We're the ones who started it all.

Without you, drag will disappear.

Drag will be over without me?

l don't know...

Drag is over for me.

But never mind.

If l wasn't here,

waiting to die...

where would you be?

Our conscience is weighing us down.

The bad things that happened...

But let's not talk about sad things.

Remember when
l came up with the name Tonia?

You liked Tonia Carrero so much.

Tonia's...

not coming back.

Because you were the woman

l never wanted to have

That's why l love you

Because you wanted the woman

Who l can't even be

That's why l love you

Because l loved the pain

The Lord gave us

That's why l love you

Because l was so happy

That's why l never wanted to say

l love you

Because it's so fleeting

To have you, young man

That's why l love you

And it's for being lucky enough

Not to gaze at death

That l love you

And it's because of not knowing

What it means

That l love you

What a lovely surprise.

The two so close together.

You're really nuts.

How did you manage
to smuggle them in?

l'm always carrying
a lot of stuff,

they never even asked me anything.

l'm so glad you came.

l had no news of you.

What are going to do
with your life?

Forgive me, son.

l never was a good mother.

And you never wanted to be my father.

l want to ask you a favour,

but it's a secret.

l need a suit.

God didn't make me
to go around in skirts.

And to go around in trousers?

There are no tailors in heaven.

l know what l'm talking about.

It's not me deciding now.

l lived like a woman,

l want to die like a man.

Don't worry, father,
l'll sort it out.

Zé Maria.

Turn the light on.

Good evening, Tonia.

So,

talking to yourself in the dark?

Agustina! Come here.

Are you scared?

Whenever the sun shines

On that beach

l feel your body quiver inside me

Your breathing

Your face, your hair

Your kisses

l shake

Oh how I'd like to live in the plural

This singular is worse than bad

Unknown rider in eternity

Exile in the seas of my yearning

Ignoring in me the greatest loneliness

Even on the streets
with neither ceiling nor floor

Tricking the mirror
with pictures of me

Don't be so sure, that's not who l am

Found in space
Forgotten by the world

l feel no fatigue
l'm the deep echo

l want to be plural
Waning, waxing

Live for a second
The eternal moment

We already knew...
Without her, he couldn't make it.

It was for the best.

But why is she wearing a suit?

Another joke she played on us.

She wanted it that way.

She wanted a religious burial.

She wanted to be dressed
as she was born.

She used to say she'd have to be
strong to bury Rosário,

not knowing
she would be buried with him.

Being born a larva

Dying a butterfly

Caterpillar, chrysalis

Of a purplish hue

Being an eagle, moonlight

With velvet hands

So many flowers...

Yearning to be one day complete

Remembering God's voice
in an immense garden

Poet of the space,
the being l'm becoming

Coming from the east,
the bird that will free me

Taking with me the light in a medal

Found in space
Forgotten by the world

l feel no fatigue
l'm the deep echo

l want to be plural
Waning, waxing

Live for a second
The eternal moment

Found in space
Forgotten by the world

l feel no fatigue
l'm the deep echo

l want to be plural
Waning, waxing

Live for a second
The eternal moment

Don't be so sure,
that's not who l am

Don't be so sure,
that's not who l am