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i'm vogue williams

i'm vogue williams
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i'm 31 and like most women my age my

i'm 31 and like most women my age my
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biological clock is ticking

biological clock is ticking
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i'm starting to get a little breeding

i'm starting to get a little breeding
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i'm in a relationship i'm really happy

i'm in a relationship i'm really happy
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but who knows what the future holds

but who knows what the future holds
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one thing i do know for certain is that

one thing i do know for certain is that
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i want kids

i want kids
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get pregnant

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with more and more women in ireland

with more and more women in ireland
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choosing to goat alone i want to take a

choosing to goat alone i want to take a
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closer look at all the options for

closer look at all the options for
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creating a baby when life hasn't doubted

creating a baby when life hasn't doubted
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the currency product might plenty of

the currency product might plenty of
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challenges

challenges
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you know deciding to be a single mum by

you know deciding to be a single mum by
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choice from the use of the world's

choice from the use of the world's
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largest sperm bank came to denmark and

largest sperm bank came to denmark and
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i'm going to be surrounded in sperm

i'm going to be surrounded in sperm
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come on no thanks tanks here

come on no thanks tanks here
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to the more traditional method do you

to the more traditional method do you
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only have sex with them or do you do

only have sex with them or do you do
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anything else perform foreplay on the

anything else perform foreplay on the
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lady

lady
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you've got 118 children they're spread

you've got 118 children they're spread
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all over the world i'll be meeting

all over the world i'll be meeting
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single mums who have made that

single mums who have made that
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life-changing choice what do you know

life-changing choice what do you know
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about your sperm donor he has been told

about your sperm donor he has been told
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he looks like josh hartnett and some of

he looks like josh hartnett and some of
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the donor-conceived offspring who've

the donor-conceived offspring who've
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been living with the emotional impact of

been living with the emotional impact of
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that choice it just seemed repugnant i

that choice it just seemed repugnant i
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wished i'd been conceived in an act of

wished i'd been conceived in an act of
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passion you would like to have a child

passion you would like to have a child
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but let's think about the long-term

but let's think about the long-term
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consequences what is in the best

consequences what is in the best
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me and my best friend ashley who's

me and my best friend ashley who's
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currently pregnant had made a pact with

currently pregnant had made a pact with
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each other that at 30 we'd have kids she

each other that at 30 we'd have kids she
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was married at the time i was married at

was married at the time i was married at
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the time the thing that i wanted most

the time the thing that i wanted most
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was to have kids

was to have kids
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i am no longer married the one thing

i am no longer married the one thing
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that stuck with me was the fact that

that stuck with me was the fact that
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there was a strong possibility that now

there was a strong possibility that now
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i wouldn't be able to have kids because

i wouldn't be able to have kids because
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what if i didn't meet somebody else what

what if i didn't meet somebody else what
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if i never got married again

if i never got married again
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now i find myself in a relationship that

now i find myself in a relationship that
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i'm very happy in and if things go well

i'm very happy in and if things go well
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within about two years i think that both

within about two years i think that both
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of us would probably be ready to have

of us would probably be ready to have
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kids but at the same time because i want

kids but at the same time because i want
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them so much i would do it on my own i

them so much i would do it on my own i
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don't know what the best route is going

don't know what the best route is going
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to be if i was to even just have kids

to be if i was to even just have kids
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whether it's alone or with somebody else

whether it's alone or with somebody else
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so they're the things that i really want

so they're the things that i really want
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i invited my sister and some friends

i invited my sister and some friends
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over to chat about one of life's biggest

over to chat about one of life's biggest
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decisions whether to have kids and when

decisions whether to have kids and when
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to have them hey

to have them hey
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who wants peter

who wants peter
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please yeah i'd love some it's good to

please yeah i'd love some it's good to
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see you work for once yeah

see you work for once yeah
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dan you're getting a tiny piece for that

dan you're getting a tiny piece for that
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one i was thinking if i ever did decide

one i was thinking if i ever did decide
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to have children would i be able to have

to have children would i be able to have
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them on my own if i hadn't like i'm so

them on my own if i hadn't like i'm so
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if me and spencer didn't work out or

if me and spencer didn't work out or
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something like that i think you'd be

something like that i think you'd be
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totally capable to do it on your own and

totally capable to do it on your own and
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you've got a good network of friends and

you've got a good network of friends and
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family i know people that can't have

family i know people that can't have
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children and they're my age and then you

children and they're my age and then you
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hear of so many other couples that like

hear of so many other couples that like
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are going through like years of of ivf

are going through like years of of ivf
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men don't actually have this pressure in

men don't actually have this pressure in
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say 10 years if i'm gonna have kids i

say 10 years if i'm gonna have kids i
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could myself and anne um were eggs and

could myself and anne um were eggs and
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we were asked if we wanted to have kids

we were asked if we wanted to have kids
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that's something definitely we would

that's something definitely we would
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consider we would obviously want to have

consider we would obviously want to have
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our own place before we even kind of

our own place before we even kind of
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like got into the nitty-gritty of trying

like got into the nitty-gritty of trying
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to consider having kids you guys are

to consider having kids you guys are
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kind of going oh like i need to have a

kind of going oh like i need to have a
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house i need to have this i need to have

house i need to have this i need to have
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that and then there's actually people

that and then there's actually people
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that don't

that don't
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the luxury of having that kind of stuff

the luxury of having that kind of stuff
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like like my mom was a single parent and

like like my mom was a single parent and
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they're just adopted people you just

they're just adopted people you just
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adapt i actually might not able to have

adapt i actually might not able to have
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children and i don't i don't i don't

children and i don't i don't i don't
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even know that yet if you're actually

even know that yet if you're actually
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worried about fertility then you should

worried about fertility then you should
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go and check that out so that that's not

go and check that out so that that's not
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the reason why you're having a kid is

the reason why you're having a kid is
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because of your fertility talking to you

because of your fertility talking to you
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girls like first of all there's no

girls like first of all there's no
stigma

stigma

stigma
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i ask where you're going to get the

i ask where you're going to get the
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sperm yeah i was just thinking

sperm yeah i was just thinking
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no no no no no

no no no no no
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of course dan was right to have a baby

of course dan was right to have a baby
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you need sperm but with no sperm banks

you need sperm but with no sperm banks
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in ireland clinics here have always had

in ireland clinics here have always had
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to use donors from regulated banks

to use donors from regulated banks
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abroad

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but in a traditionally catholic country

but in a traditionally catholic country
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this hasn't always been an easy task

this hasn't always been an easy task
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pioneering the way forward was mary

pioneering the way forward was mary
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mcneeney of the hampton clinic mary you

mcneeney of the hampton clinic mary you
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brought the first ever

brought the first ever
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sperm into ireland the first frozen

sperm into ireland the first frozen
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donor sperm from england the end of

donor sperm from england the end of
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1979. how did you go about getting that

1979. how did you go about getting that
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started into ireland there was customs

started into ireland there was customs
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then between ireland and britain and it

then between ireland and britain and it
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was it was complicated it was

was it was complicated it was
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bureaucratic it was hilarious because

bureaucratic it was hilarious because
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they told us that we would have to go to

they told us that we would have to go to
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the department of agriculture and get a

the department of agriculture and get a
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a license for a bull semen even though

a license for a bull semen even though
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it was true

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because they just didn't have a category

because they just didn't have a category
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to put us into working in the clinic in

to put us into working in the clinic in
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79 it was

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really hard to give out condoms or the

really hard to give out condoms or the
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contraceptive pill what did people think

contraceptive pill what did people think
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about you bringing in sperm then the

about you bringing in sperm then the
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catholic church was very opposed many

catholic church was very opposed many
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people were upset in fact that the sperm

people were upset in fact that the sperm
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was english

was english
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to the fact that it might be catholic

to the fact that it might be catholic
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sperm we had protests outside the clinic

sperm we had protests outside the clinic
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the whole fertility issue has moved

the whole fertility issue has moved
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along it has evolved as society has

along it has evolved as society has
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evolved and you know sometimes it takes

evolved and you know sometimes it takes
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a little bit of time to accept something

a little bit of time to accept something
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new but i just have a cutting here for a

new but i just have a cutting here for a
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newspaper in 1984 that's me with a

newspaper in 1984 that's me with a
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client but the headline is brave new

client but the headline is brave new
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babies and i think maybe the newspapers

babies and i think maybe the newspapers
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have stopped trying to sensationalize

have stopped trying to sensationalize
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what really should be a very natural

what really should be a very natural
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medical process becoming a solo mum

medical process becoming a solo mum
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isn't in most women's game plan but the

isn't in most women's game plan but the
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number of irish women choosing this

number of irish women choosing this
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route today is certainly on the rise

route today is certainly on the rise
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one danish sperm bike alone has been

one danish sperm bike alone has been
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responsible for over 1500 irish babies

responsible for over 1500 irish babies
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i'm meeting 31 year old mum jean who was

i'm meeting 31 year old mum jean who was
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faced with one of life's hardest

faced with one of life's hardest
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decisions

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hi hi how are you

hi hi how are you
hi

hi

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sadie she is so cute

sadie she is so cute
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oh what are you doing what are you doing

oh what are you doing what are you doing
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you giving her

you giving her
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mom will you come and take your mom to

mom will you come and take your mom to
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the rescue

the rescue
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bye tony bye bye

bye tony bye bye
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bye-bye you decided to go it alone

bye-bye you decided to go it alone
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and now you have a beautiful daughter

and now you have a beautiful daughter
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sadie you do how did that all come about

sadie you do how did that all come about
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so basically i am was having my period a

so basically i am was having my period a
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lot i had chemotherapy as a teenager so

lot i had chemotherapy as a teenager so
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i always knew there might be a little

i always knew there might be a little
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issue so i went and got a blood test so

issue so i went and got a blood test so
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she put me on the pill and she rang me

she put me on the pill and she rang me
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four days later and when your doctor

four days later and when your doctor
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rings you you always get a fright and

rings you you always get a fright and
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she said stop taking the bill the gist

she said stop taking the bill the gist
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was my egg count was very low for my age

was my egg count was very low for my age
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it should have been between 8 and 13 but

it should have been between 8 and 13 but
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it was 0.8

it was 0.8
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from that then i went to a fertility

from that then i went to a fertility
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clinic

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spoke to the specialist and

spoke to the specialist and
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he said do you want kids and i said well

he said do you want kids and i said well
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someday i want to be a mom he said well

someday i want to be a mom he said well
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if you want kids you need to get going

if you want kids you need to get going
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fairly soon and i said have any time to

fairly soon and i said have any time to
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think about this so he said six to 12

think about this so he said six to 12
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months maybe

months maybe
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that was in february or march um

that was in february or march um
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by august i was pregnant so how did you

by august i was pregnant so how did you
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choose what was right for you

choose what was right for you
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specialists had said to me your quality

specialists had said to me your quality
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is good but the quantity isn't great so

is good but the quantity isn't great so
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let's keep them where they are

let's keep them where they are
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and go directly to the source you get

and go directly to the source you get
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three straws they call it and i was very

three straws they call it and i was very
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lucky and it worked on the first straw

lucky and it worked on the first straw
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hey get me a flower sadie

hey get me a flower sadie
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thank you good girl i just think it is

thank you good girl i just think it is
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so brave to do it alone at 31. i suppose

so brave to do it alone at 31. i suppose
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if the

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question was put to you in such a

question was put to you in such a
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severe way and said well it's now and

severe way and said well it's now and
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ever so what do you know about your

ever so what do you know about your
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sperm donor i have a whole profile the

sperm donor i have a whole profile the
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staff have described him as adventurous

staff have described him as adventurous
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a very handsome gentleman and my

a very handsome gentleman and my
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favorite line he has been told he looks

favorite line he has been told he looks
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like josh hartness

like josh hartness
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so that's an absolute winner total

so that's an absolute winner total
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winner like you know i have like a

winner like you know i have like a
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recording of his voice for instance and

recording of his voice for instance and
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yeah which i've only listened to a

yeah which i've only listened to a
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couple of times you have to let me

couple of times you have to let me
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listen to that do you want to hear that

listen to that do you want to hear that
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okay hold on hold on look it up uh i

okay hold on hold on look it up uh i
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actually knew a family that

actually knew a family that
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participated in a donor program and at

participated in a donor program and at
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first i always thought it was kind of

first i always thought it was kind of
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embarrassing and then i realized that

embarrassing and then i realized that
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you can really make a significant impact

you can really make a significant impact
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in somebody's life for the better um so

in somebody's life for the better um so
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that's what i want to do sounds good

that's what i want to do sounds good
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looking and you doesn't sound good

looking and you doesn't sound good
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looking what will you say to her about

looking what will you say to her about
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it when she's old enough she'll always

it when she's old enough she'll always
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know that mommy needed the help and

know that mommy needed the help and
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mommy got the help i don't want to

mommy got the help i don't want to
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nearly start developing a relationship

nearly start developing a relationship
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in my head with this stranger do you

in my head with this stranger do you
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know what i mean i'm eternally grateful

know what i mean i'm eternally grateful
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to him but he is a donor to me for me

to him but he is a donor to me for me
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thinking about going in alone would you

thinking about going in alone would you
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have any advice for me my gut in my head

have any advice for me my gut in my head
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just said do it

just said do it
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get pregnant yeah

get pregnant yeah
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if you're told you only have a certain

if you're told you only have a certain
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amount of time and you're considering

amount of time and you're considering
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going it alone that's where i would say

going it alone that's where i would say
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go for it

go for it
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gene's iui treatment costs six thousand

gene's iui treatment costs six thousand
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euro but costs do depend on the route

euro but costs do depend on the route
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you take

you take
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after chatting with gene i decided it

after chatting with gene i decided it
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was time to check up on my own fertility

was time to check up on my own fertility
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i'm going in to get my fertility test

i'm going in to get my fertility test
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today what's scaring me the most and

today what's scaring me the most and
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like is really giving me the fear is

like is really giving me the fear is
that

that

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that i won't be able to have children at

that i won't be able to have children at
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all

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the worst possible outcome

the worst possible outcome
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is that i'm completely infertile i

is that i'm completely infertile i
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haven't thought of my options for that

haven't thought of my options for that
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but we're not going to think about that

but we're not going to think about that
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i'm going to be positive it's not a test

i'm going to be positive it's not a test
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i can't study

i can't study
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it's just my body and that's just the

it's just my body and that's just the
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way it's going to be

way it's going to be
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i'll be nervous until i get the results

i'll be nervous until i get the results
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i've come to sims fertility clinic in

i've come to sims fertility clinic in
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dublin to meet with dr john kennedy one

dublin to meet with dr john kennedy one
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of the country's leading fertility

of the country's leading fertility
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consultants

consultants
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hi how are you john kennedy lovely to

hi how are you john kennedy lovely to
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meet you nice to meet you okay

meet you nice to meet you okay
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how are you i feel a bit nervous nervous

how are you i feel a bit nervous nervous
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as normal nervousness is very very very

as normal nervousness is very very very
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much loud do you have any medical

much loud do you have any medical
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problems no not any tablets or

problems no not any tablets or
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medications no no no i'm on the pill

medications no no no i'm on the pill
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that's an important one

that's an important one
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how long you've been on the build one

how long you've been on the build one
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this is what scares me 12 years 12 years

this is what scares me 12 years 12 years
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that's okay

that's okay
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okay actually that's 13. do you smoke no

okay actually that's 13. do you smoke no
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when i drink are you got any beating in

when i drink are you got any beating in
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between periods

between periods
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no but sometimes i forget to take my

no but sometimes i forget to take my
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pill for three for three days and then i

pill for three for three days and then i
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can't find me

can't find me
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i'm not good at the pill

i'm not good at the pill
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your turn what brings you in here

your turn what brings you in here
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there's my fertility and there's wanting

there's my fertility and there's wanting
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to see the roots i could take if i ever

to see the roots i could take if i ever
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was in a position where i needed to have

was in a position where i needed to have
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a child on my own there's an increasing

a child on my own there's an increasing
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number of women in ireland who are

number of women in ireland who are
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either single or in same-sex

either single or in same-sex
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relationships or indeed heterosexual

relationships or indeed heterosexual
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couples where there's for whatever

couples where there's for whatever
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reason noseberm not some but none who

reason noseberm not some but none who
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are accessing treatment using donor

are accessing treatment using donor
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sperm we source our donor sperm from two

sperm we source our donor sperm from two
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different countries from denmark and

different countries from denmark and
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from the usa we don't source internally

from the usa we don't source internally
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from ireland i'd probably go for a

from ireland i'd probably go for a
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danish one for us to choose we're not

danish one for us to choose we're not
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talking about sperm today we're talking

talking about sperm today we're talking
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about eggs

about eggs
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now eggs are a finite resource as human

now eggs are a finite resource as human
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beings we tend to hold on to our

beings we tend to hold on to our
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fertility up to about the age of 34

fertility up to about the age of 34
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years old from 34 to 40 it starts to

years old from 34 to 40 it starts to
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drop off and 40 onwards it drops off

drop off and 40 onwards it drops off
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very shortly it's only really

very shortly it's only really
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two and a bit yeah it's not so far away

two and a bit yeah it's not so far away
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if you had a three-year plan would it

if you had a three-year plan would it
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have children out um

have children out um
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i'd probably have a pregnancy in it okay

i'd probably have a pregnancy in it okay
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when we're talking about tests we're

when we're talking about tests we're
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talking about two tests for your ovarian

talking about two tests for your ovarian
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reserve one is a scan where you look at

reserve one is a scan where you look at
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the ovaries by looking at the number of

the ovaries by looking at the number of
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small little antral follicles that you

small little antral follicles that you
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have it gives me one idea of your

have it gives me one idea of your
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ovarian reserve the other is a blood

ovarian reserve the other is a blood
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test called an amh so these two figures

test called an amh so these two figures
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tell me what your ovarian reserve is

tell me what your ovarian reserve is
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like this is knowledge and this allows

like this is knowledge and this allows
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choice are you that left-handed or

choice are you that left-handed or
right-handed

right-handed

right-handed
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that's right which has got the better

that's right which has got the better
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veins oh it doesn't matter look at that

veins oh it doesn't matter look at that
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vein it doesn't matter you've got your

vein it doesn't matter you've got your
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veins are fine you could drive a truck

veins are fine you could drive a truck
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that's actually not that small

that's actually not that small
ah

ah

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good well done that's this that's it i

good well done that's this that's it i
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don't like this but either

don't like this but either
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hold up

hold up
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what i'm going to do now is we're going

what i'm going to do now is we're going
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to do an internal scan here

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it should be easier than a smear test

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it's a very small narrow probe okay so

it's a very small narrow probe okay so
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it's quick and it's easy it's usually

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really well tolerated

really well tolerated
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this is not going to be the most

this is not going to be the most
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comfortable either i know that i've been

comfortable either i know that i've been
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i've been this soldier before you're

i've been this soldier before you're
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gonna be fine okay genuinely

gonna be fine okay genuinely
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i'm gonna feel a little bit of cold and

i'm gonna feel a little bit of cold and
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pressure here okay yeah

pressure here okay yeah
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i'm sorry the worst part of this is at

i'm sorry the worst part of this is at
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the very start

the very start
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there we are you okay there yeah what

there we are you okay there yeah what
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i'm looking at here is the womb it's not

i'm looking at here is the womb it's not
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that big isn't it or not

that big isn't it or not
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and straight away even eyeballing this

and straight away even eyeballing this
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ovary i'm very happy with it okay

ovary i'm very happy with it okay
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so this is only one ovary how happy are

so this is only one ovary how happy are
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you with this ovary i'm very happy with

you with this ovary i'm very happy with
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this like is it a brilliant ovary it's

this like is it a brilliant ovary it's
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just special six seven eight

just special six seven eight
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nine so i can see nine atrial follicles

nine so i can see nine atrial follicles
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what's the maximum well there is no

what's the maximum well there is no
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maximum but if it goes high that could

maximum but if it goes high that could
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indicate another problem

indicate another problem
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and your left ovary is a little bit

and your left ovary is a little bit
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quieter but it still looks fine now i've

quieter but it still looks fine now i've
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got count it's fine it's absolutely fine

got count it's fine it's absolutely fine
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that was actually fine good what happens

that was actually fine good what happens
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from here we've done the bloods i'm

from here we've done the bloods i'm
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going to take these up to our lab we'll

going to take these up to our lab we'll
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process them they'll take a few days to

process them they'll take a few days to
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come back and we'll talk through the

come back and we'll talk through the
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results at that point

results at that point
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we'll then talk about what you want to

we'll then talk about what you want to
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do the best results

do the best results
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to leave here next week with is that i

to leave here next week with is that i
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have nothing to worry about and they're

have nothing to worry about and they're
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all great obviously the worst result is

all great obviously the worst result is
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going to be if he tells me that i can't

going to be if he tells me that i can't
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have children at all that would just

have children at all that would just
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be devastating so that's what's making

be devastating so that's what's making
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me quite anxious being in there it sort

me quite anxious being in there it sort
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of hit home a little bit that it would

of hit home a little bit that it would
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be hard to do it alone but

be hard to do it alone but
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i have to wait a week for my results but

i have to wait a week for my results but
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i have so many questions at this stage i

i have so many questions at this stage i
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need to get googling

need to get googling
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best option google

best option google
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i've typed in women who want to have

i've typed in women who want to have
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children on their own single moms burned

children on their own single moms burned
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on a blog a lesbian couple i know have

on a blog a lesbian couple i know have
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had a baby they got sperm from denmark

had a baby they got sperm from denmark
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and that's how they did it it all seems

and that's how they did it it all seems
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to be sperm donation

to be sperm donation
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quiet seems to be the most popular sperm

quiet seems to be the most popular sperm
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bank in denmark so i'm going to go to

bank in denmark so i'm going to go to
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their website the dates have more than

their website the dates have more than
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once ranked as being the happiest people

once ranked as being the happiest people
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according to the us world happiness

according to the us world happiness
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report

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and denmark is well known and recognized

and denmark is well known and recognized
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for its high level of quality especially

for its high level of quality especially
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within healthcare i'm hearing the word

within healthcare i'm hearing the word
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healthy a lot about the danes the

healthy a lot about the danes the
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general education level is very high

general education level is very high
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education level in denmark is high see

education level in denmark is high see
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now i already want danish sperm priors

now i already want danish sperm priors
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can help make your dreams come true

can help make your dreams come true
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friends can help make your dreams come

friends can help make your dreams come
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true

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okay generous search

okay generous search
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i'm basically just going to choose

i'm basically just going to choose
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somebody that i would fancy

somebody that i would fancy
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green

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that's a nice eye color what hair color

that's a nice eye color what hair color
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is nice with green eyes

is nice with green eyes
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brown hair i like brown hair on a voice

brown hair i like brown hair on a voice
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height

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9 million foot with shipping methods how

9 million foot with shipping methods how
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long before ovulation i don't know when

long before ovulation i don't know when
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i ovulate i have so many questions

i ovulate i have so many questions
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already and i don't understand this and

already and i don't understand this and
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then what motility of sperm do i want

then what motility of sperm do i want
what

what

what
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oh my god they give you an instruction

oh my god they give you an instruction
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manual with the sperm looking at choirs

manual with the sperm looking at choirs
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websites i'm dying to know more

websites i'm dying to know more
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i'd love to see it can help make your

i'd love to see it can help make your
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dreams come true

dreams come true
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first time in denmark and it's so clean

first time in denmark and it's so clean
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this is weirdly clean and i feel like

this is weirdly clean and i feel like
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this is what the sperm bank is going to

this is what the sperm bank is going to
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be like really clinical

be like really clinical
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first time seeing the danes and you know

first time seeing the danes and you know
what

what

what
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i'd have a danish baby

i'd have a danish baby
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there are absolute rides

there are absolute rides
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not him came to denmark

not him came to denmark
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and i'm going to be surrounded in sperm

and i'm going to be surrounded in sperm
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find a good bash that's coming home with

find a good bash that's coming home with
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me they'll definitely give me a freebie

me they'll definitely give me a freebie
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if i've come all the way here

if i've come all the way here
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i'm meaning olay shu founder of choirs

i'm meaning olay shu founder of choirs
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and the man responsible for over 60 000

and the man responsible for over 60 000
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babies so ollie we are here at the

babies so ollie we are here at the
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biggest sperm bank in the world where

biggest sperm bank in the world where
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did it all begin

did it all begin
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we have to go back to

we have to go back to
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1981. i was a student at that time

1981. i was a student at that time
and

and

and
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a night i waked up

a night i waked up
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and had a dream

and had a dream
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of frozen sperm

of frozen sperm
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and uh yeah it was not a wet dream or

and uh yeah it was not a wet dream or
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something it was just a picture of ice

something it was just a picture of ice
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formation and and sperm cells in the

formation and and sperm cells in the
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eyes and and i remember this picture uh

eyes and and i remember this picture uh
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next morning when i woke up and then i

next morning when i woke up and then i
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started to read about it and then was

started to read about it and then was
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catch what sperm studies did you do

catch what sperm studies did you do
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well i masturbated and examined my own

well i masturbated and examined my own
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sperm in the microscope i couldn't 100

sperm in the microscope i couldn't 100
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200 300 times and i took contact to some

200 300 times and i took contact to some
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gynecologist and asked

gynecologist and asked
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told them i want to make a sperm bank

told them i want to make a sperm bank
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really help me it started that now we

really help me it started that now we
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have had probably more than 60 000

have had probably more than 60 000
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children

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60 000 children wow we have anonymous

60 000 children wow we have anonymous
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and non-anonymous donors most of them be

and non-anonymous donors most of them be
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anonymous or how does that work here

anonymous or how does that work here
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three out of four would be anonymous

three out of four would be anonymous
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because the the demand is increasing for

because the the demand is increasing for
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non-anonymous or identifiable open

non-anonymous or identifiable open
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donors what they're called so today

donors what they're called so today
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about 60 of our incoming donors are

about 60 of our incoming donors are
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non-anonymous

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and here we have the reception area and

and here we have the reception area and
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waiting room and here we have the donor

waiting room and here we have the donor
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cabin uh if you want to learn diamond

cabin uh if you want to learn diamond
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yeah but now i can see one is occupied

yeah but now i can see one is occupied
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so we have to be a little

so we have to be a little
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discreet so

discreet so
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but

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what is in there somebody's in there

what is in there somebody's in there
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working yes working yeah well

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having a good time donating yes how long

having a good time donating yes how long
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do they usually take with a donation

do they usually take with a donation
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five minutes about five minutes

five minutes about five minutes
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okay i think it's free now so we can go

okay i think it's free now so we can go
in

here we see the

here we see the
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donor cabins oh and

donor cabins oh and
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people can well there's a instruction

people can well there's a instruction
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for you

for you
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you might not touch any of the magazines

you might not touch any of the magazines
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no they might be a bit sticky yeah you

no they might be a bit sticky yeah you
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know it's a nice bright room people can

know it's a nice bright room people can
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wash the peonies before masturbation and

wash the peonies before masturbation and
then

then

then
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masturbate into the wild okay so how big

masturbate into the wild okay so how big
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is the cup

is the cup
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so the most should be it's never going

so the most should be it's never going
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to be that full so it would always be

to be that full so it would always be
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like just a little tiny only little

like just a little tiny only little
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things this is under 10. the average

things this is under 10. the average
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ejaculate is about three milliliters

ejaculate is about three milliliters
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okay should we leave you to it are you

okay should we leave you to it are you
gonna

gonna

gonna
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come on no thanks

come on no thanks
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cryo's donor sperm is rigorously checked

cryo's donor sperm is rigorously checked
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for its quality and speed and depending

for its quality and speed and depending
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on the options you choose and the amount

on the options you choose and the amount
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of information you want a straw can cost

of information you want a straw can cost
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anything from 45 to a thousand euro is

anything from 45 to a thousand euro is
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that good sperm so there will be about

that good sperm so there will be about
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50 60 million motiles per milliliter oh

50 60 million motiles per milliliter oh
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there's loads of us

there's loads of us
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after the analysis the sperm is placed

after the analysis the sperm is placed
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into some straws

into some straws
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and they are labeled and they are sealed

and they are labeled and they are sealed
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and then they are frozen here you see

and then they are frozen here you see
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the big tanks here

the big tanks here
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liquid nitrogen

liquid nitrogen
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so in each tank we have maybe 30 40 000

so in each tank we have maybe 30 40 000
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units so here's material for probably 5

units so here's material for probably 5
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000 children and here we do the packing

000 children and here we do the packing
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process and they can find the

process and they can find the
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straws and pack them in each shipment

straws and pack them in each shipment
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uh wherever they are for in the world

uh wherever they are for in the world
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wow that's incredible well thank you for

wow that's incredible well thank you for
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showing me around wow it's been amazing

showing me around wow it's been amazing
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i might see you soon you never know

i might see you soon you never know
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was

was

was
fascinating

fascinating

fascinating
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when we were there a guy came out of the

when we were there a guy came out of the
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donation room he wouldn't be somebody i

donation room he wouldn't be somebody i
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would want to be the father of my child

would want to be the father of my child
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and that is so

and that is so
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shallow of me but i found

shallow of me but i found
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being in there and looking at their

being in there and looking at their
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website i started becoming just more and

website i started becoming just more and
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more shallow yeah six foot four yeah

more shallow yeah six foot four yeah
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blue eyes yeah i was able to go and see

blue eyes yeah i was able to go and see
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the clinic and see these people first

the clinic and see these people first
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hand but no other women really get to do

hand but no other women really get to do
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that they choose online they really

that they choose online they really
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don't have any indication of what he's

don't have any indication of what he's
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going to look like or anything

going to look like or anything
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i just think the whole thing is amazing

i just think the whole thing is amazing
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it's just i think it's so great that you

it's just i think it's so great that you
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as i cycled around copenhagen on my

as i cycled around copenhagen on my
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sperm bike of course i could see why

sperm bike of course i could see why
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viking sperm is a popular choice but i

viking sperm is a popular choice but i
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wondered what's in it

wondered what's in it
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i caught up with a donor at the european

i caught up with a donor at the european
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sperm like you asked to remain anonymous

sperm like you asked to remain anonymous
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so you are a sperm donor i am and what

so you are a sperm donor i am and what
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age are you

age are you
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i'm 24. what was your reason for

i'm 24. what was your reason for
donating

donating

donating
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mainly a supplement of money and how

mainly a supplement of money and how
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often do you donate right now

often do you donate right now
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my

my
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my quality isn't that good i had a

my quality isn't that good i had a
chlamydia

chlamydia

chlamydia
so

so

so
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okay my my quality got worse but it's uh

okay my my quality got worse but it's uh
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this they say the doctor said it's gonna

this they say the doctor said it's gonna
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get good again how much do you get paid

get good again how much do you get paid
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per donation

per donation
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i get uh

i get uh
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200 uh each goal yeah yeah that's a lot

200 uh each goal yeah yeah that's a lot
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of money that's okay how do you feel

of money that's okay how do you feel
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about knowing that you could

about knowing that you could
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have children out there i could choose

have children out there i could choose
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and start to be an

and start to be an
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anonymous donor so the kids that i put

anonymous donor so the kids that i put
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in the world they could have a chance to

in the world they could have a chance to
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say hi to hi to me at some point but i

say hi to hi to me at some point but i
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didn't really want that because i

didn't really want that because i
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couldn't really see the point in that

couldn't really see the point in that
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because if they think like oh this is my

because if they think like oh this is my
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dad this is my biological dad i have not

dad this is my biological dad i have not
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anything to do with them i'm not that

anything to do with them i'm not that
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bad in any way so you're getting four or

bad in any way so you're getting four or
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500 euro for doing something that you'd

500 euro for doing something that you'd
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probably do for free at home

probably do for free at home
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exactly it sounds like a nice little job

exactly it sounds like a nice little job
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you've got yourself

you've got yourself
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chatting with a sperm donor really made

chatting with a sperm donor really made
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me think about the clinical process

me think about the clinical process
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involved in something that has always

involved in something that has always
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been a very natural act

been a very natural act
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so i've traveled to the netherlands to

so i've traveled to the netherlands to
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meet with another donor

meet with another donor
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hi ed spoke who does it the

hi ed spoke who does it the
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old-fashioned way

old-fashioned way
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ed hoban prefers to have sex with his

ed hoban prefers to have sex with his
clients

clients

clients
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hi eric hi bo nice to meet you thank you

hi eric hi bo nice to meet you thank you
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nice place

nice place
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thanks i tried to decorate you like blue

thanks i tried to decorate you like blue
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i like blue a lot how did you get into

i like blue a lot how did you get into
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your type of sperm donation

your type of sperm donation
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i thought maybe i could help people even

i thought maybe i could help people even
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though i don't consider myself

though i don't consider myself
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an attractive person

an attractive person
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that maybe some people look more to the

that maybe some people look more to the
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inside as to the outside and

inside as to the outside and
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they were happy to conceive in a natural

they were happy to conceive in a natural
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way and would you have to have

way and would you have to have
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a physical attraction to the person

a physical attraction to the person
well

well

well
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i've tended to choose to help only

i've tended to choose to help only
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people who have a healthy lifestyle what

people who have a healthy lifestyle what
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do you charge from the beginning i said

do you charge from the beginning i said
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to myself

to myself
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life is a gift and not something to make

life is a gift and not something to make
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money of

money of
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i want these people to feel that they

i want these people to feel that they
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are as close to conceiving normal way as

are as close to conceiving normal way as
possible

possible

possible
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as much as they wish and normally you

as much as they wish and normally you
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don't pay your partner so how many do

don't pay your partner so how many do
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you have the 118 cents on the way yeah

you have the 118 cents on the way yeah
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it's a crazy situation i mean you've got

it's a crazy situation i mean you've got
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118 children well i feel like a normal

118 children well i feel like a normal
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guy in a special situation so do you see

guy in a special situation so do you see
these

these

these
babies

babies

babies
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as your children

as your children
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i would like to take as much

i would like to take as much
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responsibility as i can obviously i

responsibility as i can obviously i
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cannot be a daily father for all of them

cannot be a daily father for all of them
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i have to respect that the parents

i have to respect that the parents
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are sometimes mortified by the thought

are sometimes mortified by the thought
that

that

that
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their donor would want to play a daily

their donor would want to play a daily
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role in their child's life so all

role in their child's life so all
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contact is on their initiative a mother

contact is on their initiative a mother
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from germany has twin boys for me but

from germany has twin boys for me but
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she lives close to the border so the

she lives close to the border so the
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twins grow up knowing me and saying papa

twins grow up knowing me and saying papa
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ed and it's

ed and it's
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really totally no problem do you not

really totally no problem do you not
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have any concerns over them looking for

have any concerns over them looking for
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financial support of you because

financial support of you because
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essentially they could really go for

essentially they could really go for
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that because you're the biological

that because you're the biological
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father women take a huge step in

father women take a huge step in
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trusting me

trusting me
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i must do something in return for that i

i must do something in return for that i
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trust them not to try to get money from

trust them not to try to get money from
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me i think

me i think
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when you sleep with women you're not in

when you sleep with women you're not in
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love with them

love with them
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you're intimate in a way but that's not

you're intimate in a way but that's not
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that's not intimacy to me intimacy to me

that's not intimacy to me intimacy to me
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is being in love with somebody and being

is being in love with somebody and being
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with somebody

with somebody
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that you feel close to i agree but at

that you feel close to i agree but at
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some point like a german philosopher

some point like a german philosopher
said

said

said
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it's a choice of being or not being

it's a choice of being or not being
so

so

so
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this is where the romance happens

this is where the romance happens
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this is where the magic happens yep i've

this is where the magic happens yep i've
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just come into the room if i was a woman

just come into the room if i was a woman
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on my own i think i'd feel very nervous

on my own i think i'd feel very nervous
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do you kiss

do you kiss
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kissing even though we try to create a

kissing even though we try to create a
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life for some people is a step too far

life for some people is a step too far
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we're naked yeah you have to get an

we're naked yeah you have to get an
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erection so how is that happening are we

erection so how is that happening are we
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doing foreplay or no foreplay

doing foreplay or no foreplay
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i usually explain to the women before

i usually explain to the women before
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that we don't plan everything out

that we don't plan everything out
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because you you you can i need a plan i

because you you you can i need a plan i
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feel so nervous well what would you do

feel so nervous well what would you do
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would you only have sex with them or do

would you only have sex with them or do
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you do anything else in my experience

you do anything else in my experience
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it's very helpful to the chance for

it's very helpful to the chance for
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success if i perform foreplay on the

success if i perform foreplay on the
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lady but she doesn't have to perform

lady but she doesn't have to perform
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foreplay on me oral sex or han sex

foreplay on me oral sex or han sex
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sorry to be so detailed i'm just very

sorry to be so detailed i'm just very
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interested to the woman it's everything

interested to the woman it's everything
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necessary what about the lesbians i'm

necessary what about the lesbians i'm
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quite sure they wouldn't really be into

quite sure they wouldn't really be into
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it no offense many lesbian women have

it no offense many lesbian women have
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been in hetero relationships before my

been in hetero relationships before my
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sister is a lesbian and she would

sister is a lesbian and she would
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definitely not want to be touching a

definitely not want to be touching a
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willie there have been cases where the

willie there have been cases where the
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men actively took part in the bed do you

men actively took part in the bed do you
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have to do anything to him absolutely

have to do anything to him absolutely
not

not

not
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but like i said they want to be

but like i said they want to be
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supportive of their partner under all

supportive of their partner under all
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circumstances most of the times they

circumstances most of the times they
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want to perform the foreplay

want to perform the foreplay
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and leave the main act to me well

and leave the main act to me well
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that's well there's a huge amount of

that's well there's a huge amount of
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trust if people come to me for this the

trust if people come to me for this the
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love between them is uniquely for them

love between them is uniquely for them
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the strength of this love makes them

the strength of this love makes them
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take this step and feel secure about it

take this step and feel secure about it
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it's getting harder and harder if i

it's getting harder and harder if i
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don't feel attracted to a woman i cannot

don't feel attracted to a woman i cannot
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keep disrespecting my own boundaries i

keep disrespecting my own boundaries i
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know i'm not a person who looks like he

know i'm not a person who looks like he
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could choose but

could choose but
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i have my preferences i hope that the

i have my preferences i hope that the
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children when they are older they don't

children when they are older they don't
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have to love me but if they

have to love me but if they
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as mature persons can say i am happy

as mature persons can say i am happy
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with my life i'm good i don't think i've

with my life i'm good i don't think i've
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ever heard anything like this before and

ever heard anything like this before and
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i'm going to go home now and have a big

i'm going to go home now and have a big
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think about this sure

think about this sure
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you know where to find me i just feel

you know where to find me i just feel
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particularly when i walked into the

particularly when i walked into the
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bedroom that's when i started feeling

bedroom that's when i started feeling
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anxious straight away and

anxious straight away and
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that's only me going in to have a look

that's only me going in to have a look
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at the bedroom what about a woman

at the bedroom what about a woman
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who comes

who comes
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and she has to then get naked and sleep

and she has to then get naked and sleep
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with this man and

with this man and
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it's not just one band thank you mom

it's not just one band thank you mom
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like it has to be other things because

like it has to be other things because
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he has to get an erection he's not just

he has to get an erection he's not just
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going to get naked and be like

going to get naked and be like
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like i mean there has to be a lot of

like i mean there has to be a lot of
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involvement in it and i i just would i

involvement in it and i i just would i
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wouldn't be i just don't think i could

wouldn't be i just don't think i could
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do something like that

do something like that
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biologically in an ideal world women

biologically in an ideal world women
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will be having babies in their 20s

will be having babies in their 20s
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but 50 of women in maryland are now

but 50 of women in maryland are now
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having their first child in their 30s

having their first child in their 30s
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back in dublin i caught up with a group

back in dublin i caught up with a group
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of young professionals to see whether

of young professionals to see whether
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motherhood is something they ever think

motherhood is something they ever think
about

about

about
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so this might sound like a really scary

so this might sound like a really scary
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question but what does fertility mean to

question but what does fertility mean to
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you i would always just be scared of it

you i would always just be scared of it
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being an actual problem i think i've

being an actual problem i think i've
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kind of just like pushed it aside and

kind of just like pushed it aside and
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not really

not really
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given it a lot of thought which is

given it a lot of thought which is
probably

probably

probably
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not a good thing i have never had that i

not a good thing i have never had that i
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need to check i need to check i need to

need to check i need to check i need to
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check but after this conversation i'm

check but after this conversation i'm
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probably going to have to contract

probably going to have to contract
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i'd love to be like a young mum like i

i'd love to be like a young mum like i
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think it's just so much more energy and

think it's just so much more energy and
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it's a bit of fun lack but then

it's a bit of fun lack but then
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obviously if you're trying to like plan

obviously if you're trying to like plan
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your career that gets a bit more

your career that gets a bit more
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difficult i think with our generation

difficult i think with our generation
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definitely career is what's stopping

definitely career is what's stopping
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women having children younger i'm very

women having children younger i'm very
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career driven but i do think that it you

career driven but i do think that it you
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know at some point in my life i'd like

know at some point in my life i'd like
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to start a family as well and go back to

to start a family as well and go back to
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the career too women in this day and age

the career too women in this day and age
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can do both i think we're empowered

can do both i think we're empowered
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enough to to juggle i mean ideally i

enough to to juggle i mean ideally i
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would just take like a year or two out

would just take like a year or two out
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and then kind of swoop back on in there

and then kind of swoop back on in there
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i know it's probably harder than it

i know it's probably harder than it
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sounds you sound like me how much you

sounds you sound like me how much you
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know you want to have a baby

know you want to have a baby
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when's this happening right now i have

when's this happening right now i have
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my little tiny year plan it probably

my little tiny year plan it probably
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won't work

won't work
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when my last serious relationship broke

when my last serious relationship broke
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up i was sort of

up i was sort of
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faced with the possibility of never

faced with the possibility of never
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being able to have children because

being able to have children because
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obviously you're just in the fear and

obviously you're just in the fear and
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you're like you're never gonna meet

you're like you're never gonna meet
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anybody i did start thinking about the

anybody i did start thinking about the
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possibility of having a child on my own

possibility of having a child on my own
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and i'm just wondering you want them so

and i'm just wondering you want them so
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much that if you were on your own at

much that if you were on your own at
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single at let's say 35 36 would that be

single at let's say 35 36 would that be
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a path you would take yeah i think it

a path you would take yeah i think it
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would definitely be something that i

would definitely be something that i
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would consider just kind of terrifies me

would consider just kind of terrifies me
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i suppose like growing up with two

i suppose like growing up with two
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parents and seeing how they supported

parents and seeing how they supported
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one another that is in my opinion kind

one another that is in my opinion kind
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of like the ideal situation yes it's

of like the ideal situation yes it's
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pretty tough for the people to do it on

pretty tough for the people to do it on
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their own but it's doable so i think if

their own but it's doable so i think if
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it got to the stage where you know it

it got to the stage where you know it
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was something that i had to do by myself

was something that i had to do by myself
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yeah i think i could

yeah i think i could
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i could do it

i could do it
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careers aside if you haven't met mr

careers aside if you haven't met mr
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right by a certain age and you long to

right by a certain age and you long to
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have a baby then becoming a mum on your

have a baby then becoming a mum on your
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own becomes a very real choice

own becomes a very real choice
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as it did for two single mums vicki and

as it did for two single mums vicki and
anne-marie

anne-marie

anne-marie
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you are two women who decided to go

you are two women who decided to go
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alone i had a very strong maternal

alone i had a very strong maternal
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instinct from when i was really young i

instinct from when i was really young i
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had aspirations to meet someone settle

had aspirations to meet someone settle
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down get married and that just didn't

down get married and that just didn't
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quite happen so i reached my

quite happen so i reached my
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mid-thirties just decided that i'd i'd

mid-thirties just decided that i'd i'd
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go this route when i turned 34 my best

go this route when i turned 34 my best
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friend had just had her third child

friend had just had her third child
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and i think that was a big turning point

and i think that was a big turning point
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for me i remember sitting down with my

for me i remember sitting down with my
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mum the night of my 34th birthday and

mum the night of my 34th birthday and
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saying this is the year i had three

saying this is the year i had three
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rounds of iui the first two didn't work

rounds of iui the first two didn't work
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third one did luckily and ruby was born

third one did luckily and ruby was born
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in november 2013. i did two rounds of

in november 2013. i did two rounds of
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iui that didn't work the doctors were

iui that didn't work the doctors were
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suggesting i go another route of iui and

suggesting i go another route of iui and
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i actually said no i want to up my

i actually said no i want to up my
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chances of success so i actually chose

chances of success so i actually chose
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ivf how many eggs did they harvest 16

ivf how many eggs did they harvest 16
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eggs harvested 13 fertilized they went

eggs harvested 13 fertilized they went
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into an incubator and that 13 and became

into an incubator and that 13 and became
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two i had two implanted and added that i

two i had two implanted and added that i
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have one baby you two are high career

have one baby you two are high career
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women was it difficult to go alone my

women was it difficult to go alone my
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boss is quite understanding there are

boss is quite understanding there are
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sometimes if she's sick and i need to go

sometimes if she's sick and i need to go
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i'm you know and and and he's very

i'm you know and and and he's very
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flexible in that regard my journey has

flexible in that regard my journey has
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been a little bit different since i had

been a little bit different since i had
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ruby um so when she was about 10 months

ruby um so when she was about 10 months
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old i started a business with my best

old i started a business with my best
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friend so i continued with my full-time

friend so i continued with my full-time
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job at the same time um

job at the same time um
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on the business on a new baby yeah it

on the business on a new baby yeah it
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was busy it was very busy um but i think

was busy it was very busy um but i think
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that's really important for the girls as

that's really important for the girls as
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well to see us working and raising girls

well to see us working and raising girls
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you want them to see you know

you want them to see you know
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that kind of

that kind of
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example i suppose vicki when you were

example i suppose vicki when you were
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choosing your sperm donor what sort of

choosing your sperm donor what sort of
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options did you have everyone has i

options did you have everyone has i
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think things that they prioritize over

think things that they prioritize over
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other things and for me height was a big

other things and for me height was a big
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thing because i'm a short ass the known

thing because i'm a short ass the known
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and unknown aspect is important as well

and unknown aspect is important as well
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and you know the reasons why you would

and you know the reasons why you would
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choose one over the other or

choose one over the other or
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very personal i think i would go with it

very personal i think i would go with it
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known

known
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yeah i did that sort of brings me to the

yeah i did that sort of brings me to the
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ethics of the whole thing a lot of

ethics of the whole thing a lot of
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people are forced a lot of people are

people are forced a lot of people are
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against this but did you find that

against this but did you find that
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society was accepting of your decision i

society was accepting of your decision i
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feel as a parent of a child that's come

feel as a parent of a child that's come
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into the world this way that i have a

into the world this way that i have a
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responsibility to you know i suppose

responsibility to you know i suppose
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challenge the traditional view of the

challenge the traditional view of the
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irish family i certainly don't want my

irish family i certainly don't want my
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little girl to grow up feeling any

little girl to grow up feeling any
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different i'm very open and very proud

different i'm very open and very proud
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and positive about my story and i want

and positive about my story and i want
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my little girl to hear that language as

my little girl to hear that language as
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she grows up there are plenty of

she grows up there are plenty of
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challenges you know deciding to be a

challenges you know deciding to be a
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single mum by choice but there certainly

single mum by choice but there certainly
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i would never look back and i would

i would never look back and i would
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never undo my decision it's one of the

never undo my decision it's one of the
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best things i've ever done would you say

best things i've ever done would you say
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it's empowering to make the choice to go

it's empowering to make the choice to go
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alone yeah it is empowering being able

alone yeah it is empowering being able
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now in in these days to be able to do

now in in these days to be able to do
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this is a great thing just being able to

this is a great thing just being able to
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take control of something and fulfill

take control of something and fulfill
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your own dream and not be waiting for

your own dream and not be waiting for
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someone else to fulfill it for you is

someone else to fulfill it for you is
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empowering you know do you feel that

empowering you know do you feel that
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your child might miss out on maybe a

your child might miss out on maybe a
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male influence in their lives

male influence in their lives
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i don't think she's going to miss out i

i don't think she's going to miss out i
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definitely love her more than enough for

definitely love her more than enough for
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two people and we have a wonderful

two people and we have a wonderful
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support network of people around us that

support network of people around us that
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help all of the time ruby went to me the

help all of the time ruby went to me the
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other day i love a mommy and a daddy

other day i love a mommy and a daddy
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and i would say you know i'd love you to

and i would say you know i'd love you to
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have a daddy as well of course i would

have a daddy as well of course i would
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i'd usually say to her

i'd usually say to her
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i didn't have a granddad when i was

i didn't have a granddad when i was
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small and she loves her granddad so much

small and she loves her granddad so much
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so i don't think she's missing out on

so i don't think she's missing out on
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having certainly not male role models

having certainly not male role models
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anyway you know yeah how does dating go

anyway you know yeah how does dating go
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then how do you find dating being a

then how do you find dating being a
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single working mom

single working mom
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finding babysitters is the difficult

finding babysitters is the difficult
thing

thing

thing
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i do a bit of online dating but no no

i do a bit of online dating but no no
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joy yet

joy yet
[Laughter]

meeting those two women was

meeting those two women was
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pretty amazing because i find them

pretty amazing because i find them
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really quite similar to myself i've

really quite similar to myself i've
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always been really

always been really
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adamant that i want my career and i want

adamant that i want my career and i want
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a child like all these words like going

a child like all these words like going
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through my mind iui ivf egg freezing and

through my mind iui ivf egg freezing and
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there's just so many things to consider

there's just so many things to consider
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women are actually quite amazing that we

women are actually quite amazing that we
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can do this we can harvest all these

can do this we can harvest all these
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eggs and freeze them and just like keep

eggs and freeze them and just like keep
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them if we want them for later in life

them if we want them for later in life
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we can also

we can also
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put sperm into them and then put them

put sperm into them and then put them
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inside us and have a baby and the whole

inside us and have a baby and the whole
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thing is just like sort of mind-blowing

thing is just like sort of mind-blowing
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donor conception raises a lot of

donor conception raises a lot of
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emotional and ethical questions

emotional and ethical questions
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and irish mums to be face the difficult

and irish mums to be face the difficult
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decision of choosing between an

decision of choosing between an
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identifiable or anonymous donor

identifiable or anonymous donor
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i've traveled to london to meet joanna

i've traveled to london to meet joanna
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rose who was donor conceived and has

rose who was donor conceived and has
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been campaigning against anonymous

been campaigning against anonymous
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donation for most of her life

donation for most of her life
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my genetic father

my genetic father
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was an anonymous sperm donor and how did

was an anonymous sperm donor and how did
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you find that is

you find that is
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my dad told me when i was eight how did

my dad told me when i was eight how did
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you feel about that

you feel about that
very

very

very
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responsible for his feelings

responsible for his feelings
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responsible for your dad's feelings yeah

responsible for your dad's feelings yeah
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i felt that i had to make him feel

i felt that i had to make him feel
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better did you still have the same

better did you still have the same
relationship

relationship

relationship
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or did it change i loved my dad and i

or did it change i loved my dad and i
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always will but

always will but
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he couldn't answer fundamental questions

he couldn't answer fundamental questions
about

about

about
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why i was the way i was i tend to use

why i was the way i was i tend to use
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the word dad for the man who raised me

the word dad for the man who raised me
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and i used father for the man who

and i used father for the man who
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fathered me and i don't really like the

fathered me and i don't really like the
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word donor because

word donor because
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you can't inherently donate paternity

you can't inherently donate paternity
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that person is one of the closest living

that person is one of the closest living
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human beings genetically on the planet

human beings genetically on the planet
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related to me

related to me
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joanna spent 20 years trying to find her

joanna spent 20 years trying to find her
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father before bringing her case to the

father before bringing her case to the
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high court in 2002

high court in 2002
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an action which led to a ban on donor

an action which led to a ban on donor
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anonymity in the uk in 2005.

anonymity in the uk in 2005.
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in ireland choosing anonymous sperm is

in ireland choosing anonymous sperm is
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still allowed

still allowed
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52 harley street that is the clinic

52 harley street that is the clinic
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part of me hates it

part of me hates it
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but it's also the only place that i know

but it's also the only place that i know
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that my genetic father's actually been i

that my genetic father's actually been i
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could kind of touch something that i

could kind of touch something that i
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know he touched yeah

know he touched yeah
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it's the gateway to all the secrecy to

it's the gateway to all the secrecy to
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all my genetic family all of my genetic

all my genetic family all of my genetic
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history on my paternal side locked away

history on my paternal side locked away
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from me so what do you know about your

from me so what do you know about your
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genetic side now nothing do you think

genetic side now nothing do you think
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you'd feel different if it was

you'd feel different if it was
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non-anonymous anonymous sperm donation

non-anonymous anonymous sperm donation
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is the worst

is the worst
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but if you were talking about any other

but if you were talking about any other
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human being not knowing a genetic parent

human being not knowing a genetic parent
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for the whole of their childhood

for the whole of their childhood
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normally that would be considered a loss

normally that would be considered a loss
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and it is for don't offspring too i

and it is for don't offspring too i
believe

believe

believe
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to intentionally

to intentionally
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create people who won't know

create people who won't know
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some or all of their genetic families

some or all of their genetic families
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not for child protection but for child

not for child protection but for child
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production i can't imagine what it would

production i can't imagine what it would
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be like to be in your position i would i

be like to be in your position i would i
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would hate that because i would hate to

would hate that because i would hate to
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not know but on the other hand i'd do

not know but on the other hand i'd do
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anything in my power to have a child if

anything in my power to have a child if
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you have in a whole industry has

you have in a whole industry has
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predicated on the notion that adults

predicated on the notion that adults
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should have as much as possible their

should have as much as possible their
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own genetic child but those children

own genetic child but those children
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don't have as much as possible their own

don't have as much as possible their own
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genetic parents you've got a real

genetic parents you've got a real
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mismatch of ethics the long-term

mismatch of ethics the long-term
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consequences for those children to then

consequences for those children to then
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meet a genetic parent when they're an

meet a genetic parent when they're an
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adult that they've never known and to

adult that they've never known and to
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meet countless siblings half siblings

meet countless siblings half siblings
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the complexity and the loss

the complexity and the loss
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what you think is then the step forward

what you think is then the step forward
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for this what would you like to see

for this what would you like to see
happen

happen

happen
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i think we need to take a serious look

i think we need to take a serious look
at

at

at
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what is in the best interest of the

what is in the best interest of the
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child i think it's to be

child i think it's to be
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brought up cared for and loved by their

brought up cared for and loved by their
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parents whether that be

parents whether that be
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so you don't take if that's the case

so you don't take if that's the case
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when you have children

when you have children
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anybody should just take any child home

anybody should just take any child home
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from the hospital as long as that child

from the hospital as long as that child
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is loved it shouldn't matter

is loved it shouldn't matter
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but when people want to have their own

but when people want to have their own
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genetic child and they go to these

genetic child and they go to these
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extremes you have washed sperm you have

extremes you have washed sperm you have
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ivf you have all these different

ivf you have all these different
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procedures so people can have their own

procedures so people can have their own
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genetic children you can't tell me genes

genetic children you can't tell me genes
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don't matter i can understand why you're

don't matter i can understand why you're
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campaigning all over the world it has to

campaigning all over the world it has to
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be non-anonymous and then it might make

be non-anonymous and then it might make
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people think a bit longer about whether

people think a bit longer about whether
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they want to be a donor or not but i

they want to be a donor or not but i
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think the people who donate who do it

think the people who donate who do it
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for what would be considered altruistic

for what would be considered altruistic
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reasons don't realize that they could be

reasons don't realize that they could be
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creating as much pain as gain

creating as much pain as gain
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because on the one hand they might help

because on the one hand they might help
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this person to have their own genetic

this person to have their own genetic
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child as much as possible

child as much as possible
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but that child doesn't have them

but that child doesn't have them
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you know i really believe that all of

you know i really believe that all of
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all the things

all the things
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a sane parent can give their child

a sane parent can give their child
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it's their own love

it's their own love
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don't really see

don't really see
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anything stopping in the industry i

anything stopping in the industry i
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don't see anything slowing down i do see

don't see anything slowing down i do see
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your side of it i do see and understand

your side of it i do see and understand
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why you're upset and i think it's

why you're upset and i think it's
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important to show your side that

important to show your side that
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everyone has different opinions but

everyone has different opinions but
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it's good to chat to you

it's good to chat to you
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good to chat to you and thank you for a

good to chat to you and thank you for a
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chance to share a different perspective

chance to share a different perspective
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i really wanted to know how other donor

i really wanted to know how other donor
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offspring felt about their conception

offspring felt about their conception
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and so i went to meet david who has

and so i went to meet david who has
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managed to trace his paternal genetics

managed to trace his paternal genetics
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on a lot of his half-siblings

on a lot of his half-siblings
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hi<00:39:20.240> david<00:39:20.640> it's<00:39:20.800> vogue<00:39:21.040> here

hi david it's vogue here

hi david it's vogue here
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how did you find ace that you came from

how did you find ace that you came from
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sperm donation

sperm donation
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i was told uh by my dad the impact was

i was told uh by my dad the impact was
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enormous i thought a lot about what it

enormous i thought a lot about what it
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meant in terms of the way my family

meant in terms of the way my family
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related to one another what it meant for

related to one another what it meant for
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my dad when it went for my mum i think

my dad when it went for my mum i think
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my mum was intensely disappointed

my mum was intensely disappointed
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um that she couldn't have children with

um that she couldn't have children with
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my dad um

my dad um
and

and

and
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she kind of blamed him

she kind of blamed him
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yeah because he was infertile

yeah because he was infertile
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i think he was intensely disappointed

i think he was intensely disappointed
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felt he'd failed but i didn't think

felt he'd failed but i didn't think
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about who the donor was i was more

about who the donor was i was more
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interested really in the sort of

interested really in the sort of
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emotional moral political

emotional moral political
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um background this idea about donor

um background this idea about donor
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conception what's your stance on that

conception what's your stance on that
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initially i was very hostile to the

initially i was very hostile to the
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whole idea it just seemed

whole idea it just seemed
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repugnant i used to feel that that i

repugnant i used to feel that that i
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wished i had been conceived in an act of

wished i had been conceived in an act of
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passion knowing other people who don't

passion knowing other people who don't
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conceive meeting donors meeting all

conceive meeting donors meeting all
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kinds of people

kinds of people
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has modified that it must have always

has modified that it must have always
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been on the back your mind i was

been on the back your mind i was
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involved in a documentary believe it or

involved in a documentary believe it or
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not another donor conceived person saw

not another donor conceived person saw
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it sent the tape

it sent the tape
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to a friend of hers in australia who was

to a friend of hers in australia who was
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a sort of donor conception activist she

a sort of donor conception activist she
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was in touch with somebody in the united

was in touch with somebody in the united
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states who was also donor conceived and

states who was also donor conceived and
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he and i should be in touch a guy called

he and i should be in touch a guy called
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bill cordray after a bit billy emailed

bill cordray after a bit billy emailed
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me and he said i'm in touch with this

me and he said i'm in touch with this
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guy in toronto and

guy in toronto and
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he said you and he have such exactly the

he said you and he have such exactly the
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same writing style and scentsy humor

same writing style and scentsy humor
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i bet you're half brothers we probed a

i bet you're half brothers we probed a
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bit and we discovered that lo and behold

bit and we discovered that lo and behold
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this guy in toronto had actually been

this guy in toronto had actually been
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conceived in the same clinic as me in

conceived in the same clinic as me in
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london he and i were the half brothers

london he and i were the half brothers
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and that was really what started us off

and that was really what started us off
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it was just like well blow me down if we

it was just like well blow me down if we
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are then you know who else might be and

are then you know who else might be and
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is this not a sort of train of inquiry

is this not a sort of train of inquiry
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we could follow your story is quite

we could follow your story is quite
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fascinating to me because you found out

fascinating to me because you found out
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who your sperm donor was we thought that

who your sperm donor was we thought that
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one of the candidates at least was the

one of the candidates at least was the
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husband of dr mary barton who ran the

husband of dr mary barton who ran the
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clinic so we approached his son jonathan

clinic so we approached his son jonathan
wiesner

wiesner

wiesner
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and asked if he would do a dna test and

and asked if he would do a dna test and
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said yes of course why not

said yes of course why not
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and that solved the mystery i think it's

and that solved the mystery i think it's
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quite lovely though that you were able

quite lovely though that you were able
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to find it that's why i don't really

to find it that's why i don't really
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agree with um

agree with um
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anonymous donation where the state

anonymous donation where the state
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regulates donor conception as it does

regulates donor conception as it does
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in the uk anyway pretty heavily

in the uk anyway pretty heavily
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um then it seems to me that

um then it seems to me that
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everyone has the right not to be

everyone has the right not to be
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deliberately deceived or deliberately

deliberately deceived or deliberately
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deprived of significant information

deprived of significant information
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about their own personal history so how

about their own personal history so how
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many more half siblings did you end up

many more half siblings did you end up
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finding oh god i'm rubbish at counting

finding oh god i'm rubbish at counting
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david invited me to meet some of his

david invited me to meet some of his
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half-siblings including jonathan the son

half-siblings including jonathan the son
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of the clinic's founder

of the clinic's founder
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did you know that your dad was donating

did you know that your dad was donating
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his sperm i didn't know that he was

his sperm i didn't know that he was
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doing it no i knew that of course their

doing it no i knew that of course their
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practice was dependent on sperm donors

practice was dependent on sperm donors
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naturally i would have thought that that

naturally i would have thought that that
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would be normal with a scientist my mum

would be normal with a scientist my mum
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told me that

told me that
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she had been told that any donor would

she had been told that any donor would
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have had three children of their own but

have had three children of their own but
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also they would be either she was very

also they would be either she was very
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specific about this either a businessman

specific about this either a businessman
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or a barrister

or a barrister
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oh how interesting you became

oh how interesting you became
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embarrassed good stock sitting here

embarrassed good stock sitting here
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trying to find a similarity between all

trying to find a similarity between all
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of you i see a similarity between the

of you i see a similarity between the
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boys and i do see a similarity between

boys and i do see a similarity between
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the girls do you see that yeah a little

the girls do you see that yeah a little
bit

bit

bit
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becky who's naughty

becky who's naughty
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and i look very much alike she poor

and i look very much alike she poor
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devil looks looks like a kind of female

devil looks looks like a kind of female
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version of me which is a face i wouldn't

version of me which is a face i wouldn't
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wish on anybody i never ever thought

wish on anybody i never ever thought
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that i would ever find out who the donor

that i would ever find out who the donor
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was and then i saw an article

was and then i saw an article
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about david and barry

about david and barry
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i think it was in the observer yeah

i think it was in the observer yeah
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that's right

that's right
and

and

and
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mentioned mary barton's clinic well i

mentioned mary barton's clinic well i
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knew about mary barton's clinic my mum

knew about mary barton's clinic my mum
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had told me that was where i was

had told me that was where i was
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conceived i knew my mother had had

conceived i knew my mother had had
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fertility treatment

fertility treatment
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i knew she'd gone to a private clinic

i knew she'd gone to a private clinic
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i knew she'd met a female

i knew she'd met a female
gynecologist

gynecologist

gynecologist
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and she thought she was wonderful that

and she thought she was wonderful that
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is jonathan's mother a couple of people

is jonathan's mother a couple of people
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put me in touch with david i was shocked

put me in touch with david i was shocked
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of course yeah um

of course yeah um
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because i had known absolutely nothing

because i had known absolutely nothing
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about being donor conceived how many

about being donor conceived how many
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siblings could be out there hundreds

siblings could be out there hundreds
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hundreds oh yes definitely hundreds one

hundreds oh yes definitely hundreds one
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of my other sisters has actually said

of my other sisters has actually said
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it's the best club she ever joined

it's the best club she ever joined
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and that made me smile and in fact it

and that made me smile and in fact it
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all makes me smile and i'm very grateful

all makes me smile and i'm very grateful
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my dad

my dad
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said these are my children and i love

said these are my children and i love
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them as my children

them as my children
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he wasn't bothered about the fact that

he wasn't bothered about the fact that
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we were not his genetic children if we

we were not his genetic children if we
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focus too much on the dna and the

focus too much on the dna and the
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genetics and all the rest of it we lose

genetics and all the rest of it we lose
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the point

the point
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of what this is really about which is

of what this is really about which is
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the maternal urge is a powerful one and

the maternal urge is a powerful one and
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one that some of us just can't ignore

one that some of us just can't ignore
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even if it means going solo

even if it means going solo
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i'm meeting selena and maria who have

i'm meeting selena and maria who have
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each had more than one baby on their own

each had more than one baby on their own
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so what made you guys decide to goad

so what made you guys decide to goad
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alone marie so i was turning 35 i

alone marie so i was turning 35 i
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already have a nine-year-old daughter

already have a nine-year-old daughter
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rhea it's just kind of like a bold

rhea it's just kind of like a bold
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lightning i wanted to have another baby

lightning i wanted to have another baby
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i wanted to text in my family well i had

i wanted to text in my family well i had
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my first boy when i was 27 march 2015 i

my first boy when i was 27 march 2015 i
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visited cork fertility and

visited cork fertility and
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in june 2016 my twin boys arrived you've

in june 2016 my twin boys arrived you've
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decided to have another baby i'm using

decided to have another baby i'm using
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the same donor as before are we gonna

the same donor as before are we gonna
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stop at baby number four yes we are

stop at baby number four yes we are
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going to stop the baby number four i

going to stop the baby number four i
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guess if it's something that you really

guess if it's something that you really
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want then you should just go for it yeah

want then you should just go for it yeah
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because you you know you hear people

because you you know you hear people
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talking about wanting to have the kind

talking about wanting to have the kind
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of perfect setup to bring a baby into i

of perfect setup to bring a baby into i
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don't think there is perfect setup a

don't think there is perfect setup a
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baby needs love when it comes to sperm

baby needs love when it comes to sperm
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donation did you choose anonymous or

donation did you choose anonymous or
non-anonymous

non-anonymous

non-anonymous
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non-anonymous i feel that every child

non-anonymous i feel that every child
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has the right to know like where they

has the right to know like where they
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came from and

came from and
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like why close that decision before

like why close that decision before
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they're even old enough to make the

they're even old enough to make the
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decision themselves yeah i just felt it

decision themselves yeah i just felt it
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was their right to have that information

was their right to have that information
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yeah they may never

yeah they may never
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or they might and do you know much about

or they might and do you know much about
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your donor

your donor
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um i just know um height hair color i

um i just know um height hair color i
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cut our profession

cut our profession
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um and that's it but i chose not to see

um and that's it but i chose not to see
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my donor i just kind of wanted to leave

my donor i just kind of wanted to leave
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the mystery i didn't want to focus on

the mystery i didn't want to focus on
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that at the time i want to focus on

that at the time i want to focus on
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getting pregnant so xavier's son is now

getting pregnant so xavier's son is now
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six when did you start telling him where

six when did you start telling him where
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i've kind of started talking to him

i've kind of started talking to him
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about it already talking to them about

about it already talking to them about
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it when they're young is really

it when they're young is really
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important this just becomes more

important this just becomes more
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normalized than like there's no big

normalized than like there's no big
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secret so tell me about your maternal

secret so tell me about your maternal
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instinct i mean you must have had it in

instinct i mean you must have had it in
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a massive way to decide to go alone just

a massive way to decide to go alone just
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it felt so natural when i had my first

it felt so natural when i had my first
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baby it was just

baby it was just
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it felt right and it just felt that it

it felt right and it just felt that it
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was what i was meant to do

was what i was meant to do
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i'm back in dublin and today is the day

i'm back in dublin and today is the day
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you're nervous when you go to any doctor

you're nervous when you go to any doctor
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but this doctor is about to tell me

but this doctor is about to tell me
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something that could change my whole

something that could change my whole
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life really he could tell me to go and

life really he could tell me to go and
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have kids now six to 12 months is all

have kids now six to 12 months is all
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you've got that would be

you've got that would be
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a big shock to me to know that i have to

a big shock to me to know that i have to
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have children now because i know i'm not

have children now because i know i'm not
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ready now the best possible outcome is

ready now the best possible outcome is
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just that everything's okay that i don't

just that everything's okay that i don't
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need to feel rushed into having a child

need to feel rushed into having a child
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the worst i'd come for me would

the worst i'd come for me would
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definitely be that if i wasn't able to

definitely be that if i wasn't able to
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have children like i would be devastated

have children like i would be devastated
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if that's the outcome you'd grieve for i

if that's the outcome you'd grieve for i
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mean a child that you never actually had

mean a child that you never actually had
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and so many women don't walk away with

and so many women don't walk away with
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good news and then i almost feel bad if

good news and then i almost feel bad if
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i'm like really excited if i get good

i'm like really excited if i get good
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news because

news because
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not everybody gets that news

not everybody gets that news
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we did a scan of your womb and your

we did a scan of your womb and your
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ovaries your womb was looked normal and

ovaries your womb was looked normal and
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your ovaries looked active with an

your ovaries looked active with an
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antrophobic account a total combined

antrophobic account a total combined
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actual health count of 15. okay so we

actual health count of 15. okay so we
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also did a number of blood tests and

also did a number of blood tests and
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they're the ones i want to talk to you

they're the ones i want to talk to you
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about today we checked your thyroid

about today we checked your thyroid
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which was normal at 1.05 okay we checked

which was normal at 1.05 okay we checked
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your prolactin 368 which is completely

your prolactin 368 which is completely
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normal we checked your testosterone and

normal we checked your testosterone and
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it was normal okay okay everything's

it was normal okay okay everything's
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normal everything those are all normal

normal everything those are all normal
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the important test the one you're

the important test the one you're
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interested in is your amh your

interested in is your amh your
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anti-malarian hormone the test of your

anti-malarian hormone the test of your
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ovarian reserve how many apples are left

ovarian reserve how many apples are left
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in the barrel your amh has come back in

in the barrel your amh has come back in
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at 12.73

at 12.73
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12.73 oh i feel so nervous i actually

12.73 oh i feel so nervous i actually
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feel a bit sick 31 year old i would say

feel a bit sick 31 year old i would say
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would have a normal amh of about 11 up

would have a normal amh of about 11 up
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to about 45.

to about 45.
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okay so i would think only 12. yours is

okay so i would think only 12. yours is
12.73

12.73

12.73
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that's not good but we know that your

that's not good but we know that your
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amh is going to be artificially

amh is going to be artificially
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suppressed by the fact that you're on

suppressed by the fact that you're on
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the pill i'm very very happy with the

the pill i'm very very happy with the
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results today and i do think that they

results today and i do think that they
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indicate that you have the normal

indicate that you have the normal
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fertility potential of a woman your age

fertility potential of a woman your age
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which is to say you have an excellent

which is to say you have an excellent
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fertility potential okay that's okay so

fertility potential okay that's okay so
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it is good news it's not bad news it is

it is good news it's not bad news it is
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very very good use everybody should i

very very good use everybody should i
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think should have their children younger

think should have their children younger
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okay that's but if you're not ready

okay that's but if you're not ready
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socially or

socially or
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financially or in the relationship or

financially or in the relationship or
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whatever it is then having children now

whatever it is then having children now
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might not be a realistic option and

might not be a realistic option and
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that's where egg freezing comes into its

that's where egg freezing comes into its
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own you are an excellent counter for egg

own you are an excellent counter for egg
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freezing you're freezing them so that

freezing you're freezing them so that
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when you run into problems when and if

when you run into problems when and if
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touch wood you're on problems there is a

touch wood you're on problems there is a
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plan b if you're planning to get

plan b if you're planning to get
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pregnant next year then egg freezing

pregnant next year then egg freezing
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this year is probably unnecessary i

this year is probably unnecessary i
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think this whole journey has sort of

think this whole journey has sort of
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made me feel like i have to rush a bit

made me feel like i have to rush a bit
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no that's not what i want to get across

no that's not what i want to get across
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to you you don't have to rush at all

to you you don't have to rush at all
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that isn't there is i'm not seeing any

that isn't there is i'm not seeing any
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urgency or panic here but at least

urgency or panic here but at least
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you're thinking about your fertility

you're thinking about your fertility
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options in the future the clearest

options in the future the clearest
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advice i can give you today and the

advice i can give you today and the
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message i want you to take away with you

message i want you to take away with you
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is that whatever you decide to do is the

is that whatever you decide to do is the
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well i have to say that is a big relief

well i have to say that is a big relief
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the news could have been much different

the news could have been much different
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i think the only time you ever want to

i think the only time you ever want to
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be called normal is when you're it's

be called normal is when you're it's
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anything to do with medicine or anything

anything to do with medicine or anything
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medical i'm really happy that i am at a

medical i'm really happy that i am at a
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normal level but now i know where my

normal level but now i know where my
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fertility is at i can decide what i'm

fertility is at i can decide what i'm
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going to do

going to do
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if your fertility is in good order you

if your fertility is in good order you
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still have the financial cost to

still have the financial cost to
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consider

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and depending on your options going

and depending on your options going
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alone can be an expensive choice

alone can be an expensive choice
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but it is a choice that more and more

but it is a choice that more and more
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single irish women are making today

single irish women are making today
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hanging out with my niece jeannie is

hanging out with my niece jeannie is
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just one of my favorite things to do

just one of my favorite things to do
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she's just incredible

she's just incredible
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and as fantastic as it is to hang out

and as fantastic as it is to hang out
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with my brother's child i want to be

with my brother's child i want to be
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i think that everybody that i've met

i think that everybody that i've met
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who's decided to go to loan

who's decided to go to loan
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has a huge maternal instinct

has a huge maternal instinct
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it's sort of empowering to see and it's

it's sort of empowering to see and it's
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amazing to see these women that they

amazing to see these women that they
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went and they did it and they're so

went and they did it and they're so
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unbelievably happy

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although it's still terrifying to me of

although it's still terrifying to me of
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course it's terrifying to think of being

course it's terrifying to think of being
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a single mother it is something that i

a single mother it is something that i
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want i do want children in my life so if

want i do want children in my life so if
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i find myself at the age of let's say 36

i find myself at the age of let's say 36
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i don't have a partner i think that i

i don't have a partner i think that i
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would definitely have to freeze my eggs

would definitely have to freeze my eggs
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even as an insurance policy but

even as an insurance policy but
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missing out on motherhood is just not an

missing out on motherhood is just not an
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option for me my future 100

option for me my future 100
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has to have children in it

has to have children in it
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there's no doubt in my mind

there's no doubt in my mind
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