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So, I know you came for a reason,
which was to talk about the way
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that you feel about yourself or who.
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Okay.
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So I'm just gonna ask you to tell
me a little bit more about that.
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I have this feeling that I'm invisible,
uh, seems to manifest in the world
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through broken conversations through,
um, incomplete availabilities.
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It it's just this feeling
that I'm really not.
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I mean, I get that I'm seen, but my
soul and my words aren't seen or.
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Okay.
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And so that gives you the
sense of just being invisible.
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That's the word you give to it?
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I give invisibility to it.
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Yes.
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Okay.
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So what we'll do is, you know, I'm
gonna do the unfindable inquiry with
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you and with the unfindable inquiry,
I'm gonna ask the question is that you,
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the invisible self, and what I want
you to do is whatever I'm asking you to
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look at, just say in response yes or.
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Okay, so just keep your
response to yes or no.
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What that does is it keeps your mind from
sort of wandering off onto another trail.
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Mm.
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And it keeps you just recognizing that
you have this capacity to be aware
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and that you're using that capacity,
your own capacity to be aware, to
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look at thoughts, look at feelings,
look at sensations as I bring them up.
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Okay.
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Okay.
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Again, if you have to step in and
say something more than yes or
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no, because you're confused or.
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For whatever reason, that's fine,
but just try to keep it to yes or no.
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I wanna explain a little
bit more before we start.
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So you know what I'm doing with you?
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Okay.
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The kind of looking that I'm asking
you to do is like a very basic
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looking that we can do it's before we
think about something, we have this
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capacity to be aware of thoughts.
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Right, correct.
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Right.
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Or even before we give a
meaning or label to an.
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we have the capacity to be
aware that there's energy
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there mm-hmm in our bodies.
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Right?
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Mm-hmm so that's the kind of looking,
I often say it's like a child looking,
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you know, before they've learned a lot,
a big language, they just look right.
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You know, so the kind of looking that
we're doing will be more interior looking
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at thoughts when I pull up a thought and
I say, is that thought the invisible,
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you, you don't have to intellectualize it.
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mm-hmm it's actually you just, if an
emotion responds to the thought, in
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other words, if you get anxious, if you
feel an emotional trigger or tightness
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or anything in your body, when you're
looking at that thought, you just say,
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yes, that's me just unapologetically.
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Just say yes, cuz that what that does
is helps us go into the body now.
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And if you don't get a response from
the body, you just say, no that's cuz
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then you're saying that it's just a.
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Okay.
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It's just a picture that doesn't feel
like you, that invisible person, which
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is that's what we're trying to find here.
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Yeah.
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Right.
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So I want you just to
start by just relaxing.
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Resting is awareness or just that
kind of knowingness is the kind
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of knowingness that just is aware
of basic colors here in the room.
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Okay.
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You know what you're aware of
light, you know, you're not
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in the story of Elizabeth.
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You're just here and you're.
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Basic things that show up
in your present experience.
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And then even though you can't really find
the awareness, you know, that you're aware
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because you see, because you sense cuz
you feel, cuz there's thinking happening
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and then there's just awareness of that.
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So it's just through the inquiry as
much as often as possible as just
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returning to that place where you're
here, presently aware, see beautiful.
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When I bring up thoughts, they're
just gonna be either words or pictures
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and words or things like my name is
Elizabeth, uh, or any, any other words
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and pictures are literally pictures that
are mental pictures, mental images that
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are actually happening here in the space.
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So if I said, look at a picture
of yourself when you're 10 years
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old, even though we're here
talking, you can see that picture.
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If you.
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Even if you have to sort of just pull
away, you can see the picture of yourself.
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So that's a picture here I
would be asking you to look at.
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Okay.
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Okay.
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Just relax.
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And we're trying to find
the person who's invisible.
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So I want you to start just with the word.
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And so we don't often look at words
this way, but I want you to actually
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see if you can visualize the.
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And ju you know, sometimes it's
helpful to close your eyes at first
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mm-hmm cause with your eyes closed,
you can, for example, imagine the word
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in a picture frame, just seeing the
word spelled out within the frame.
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Mm-hmm so you just rest as the space
there's space here, restful awake
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week space, and then there's this
picture frame with that word in it.
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You see it?
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Mm-hmm . So we're trying to find
the invisible you, is that word
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it, and the way that you answer is
by listening to your body, if your
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body responds it's yes, if not, no.
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No.
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Okay.
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So just continue noticing this
present space, just resting in the
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space, and now you're not doing
anything with the picture or the.
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you're just letting it
float there in the space.
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And now I want you to just sit here and
wait until there seem like words that come
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through that seem to confirm that you're
an invisible person, something that you
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hear in thought that seems to prove or
indicate that you're an invisible person.
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Just take your time all the time in you.
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All the word that comes
through is, um, Um,
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empty.
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Okay.
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Let's let's just start with that.
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Okay.
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Keep your eyes close.
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Cuz we're gonna come back
with eyes open in a second.
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Okay.
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But I want you just to, first of
all, look at the word ugly again
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on a road side or a picture frame.
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It's something that you're looking at
a word inside the frame or on the road.
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Hm.
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And so there's awareness
and then there's a word.
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See that mm-hmm and we're trying
to find the invisible person.
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Is that word it is that word
you listen to your body?
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No.
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Okay.
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So again, now that you know, that's not,
you, that's not the invisible person.
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There's nothing to do with that word.
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It just floats there in space.
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maybe it disappears, maybe not,
but now just coming back to that
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restful presence, that's here.
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Just that space, like
awareness that is here.
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So now look at the word empty where
you can see each of the letters
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begin in a picture frame,
or just floating in.
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is that word?
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You the invisible person?
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Yes.
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Okay.
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So whenever a word feels like you,
it just means there's an emotion or
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a sensation in the body that came
up with the word, take a deep breath
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and just bring a very gentle quality
of attention to the feeling itself.
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But without putting the word on.
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it's like being aware of having a stomach
ache before you call it that you're
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just aware that there's energy there.
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So I just want you to, so, and,
and let the energy be as it is.
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Just let it float freely in the
space as if you're not, you're
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not putting any words on it.
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You're not trying to get it to go away.
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You're not trying to get to change.
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I understand it.
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You're just letting it float freely
and just resting into it for a second.
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Now there's no right or wrong
answer to any of these questions,
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but is that feeling itself?
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The person who's invisible?
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No.
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Okay.
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So now that you know, it's
not, you, it's not what we're
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trying to find this invisible.
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you just relax as that space that allows
it and you just let it float freely.
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Is there any, does that feeling
have a picture with it, a shape
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or a form or a boundary or any
other kind of mental image with it?
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An image that first
popped up was like Spears.
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So I just want you to relax
and just look at that picture.
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That's a mental picture there
in the present space of Spears.
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So again, you're not
focused down on the picture.
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You just relax and aware
gently of this picture.
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Is that picture itself,
a person who's invisible.
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Okay, so you just let
the picture float freely.
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You see how, when you see
something's not this invisible
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person, you can relax a bit.
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You can relax the intense
focus, the meaning that
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you're placing on the picture.
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Just let it be there as it is.
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Just again, noticing the, the
basic space here that you could.
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the space in which, or through
which all this stuff is just
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coming and then disappearing.
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So I'm gonna ask a different question.
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Now it's more open ended.
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So now I just want you just resting
and being aware, which is natural.
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We're just here and we're aware.
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I want you to tell me where
the invisible person is.
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I want you to pinpoint it to me.
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tell me where you feel like
that is in your experience here.
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It could be words.
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It could be pictures of the past future.
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It could be feeling it could be sensation.
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Can it be external?
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It could be any it, anything
that comes up for you?
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What came up was I feel invisible
to the people in my life.
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Okay.
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I want you to look at
those words directly.
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I feel in.
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To the people in my life.
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I don't want you to put
any pictures on it yet.
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Just look at the words themselves.
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Even if you have to put it in the picture
frame to where you see each letter,
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you see the space between letters,
notice that there can be space between
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each of the letters that you're really
seeing, that it's a series of letters.
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It's words are those words themselves,
the invisible person that we're trying to.
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and let your body be the, the respo
if your body responds it's yes.
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If not, no.
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No.
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Okay.
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So just relax.
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Let that be as it is.
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Are there any pictures that seem
to go with those words though?
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That in other words, some mental image
of the past, if you scan the past,
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they're like still photographs of the.
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is there some photograph that
you look at that seems to confirm
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that you're invisible or some
part of the movie of your life?
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Okay.
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So what are you looking at?
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Exactly.
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I'm looking at a movie of conversations
with friends and I'll be talking and
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all of a sudden they will start talking.
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and forget I even was speaking.
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And, and that's when you feel invisible.
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Absolutely.
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So I want you to look
at that present memory.
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So there's still this,
this awake space here.
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That's it has the capacity
to proceed the picture.
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You see that?
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Mm-hmm . So I just want you to
look at that picture and tell me,
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is that the invisible person is
the picture itself before you.
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let your body be the thing that answers
you must have felt something there.
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So if you did just say yes, yes.
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Okay.
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So now just bring attention into
the body gently, just letting the
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picture kind of fade for a second.
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So you can just let the present
energy float freely in the space here.
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Again, not trying to get it to go.
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Not trying to neutralize it, not trying
to get it to change or even diminish,
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but allowing the energy to be within the
space exactly as it is, which is just a
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way of saying no viewpoints for a second,
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just resting into it.
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Is that feeling the person who's in.
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there's no right or wrong answer.
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Yes mm-hmm okay.
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So when a feeling feels like that
person, that just means there are
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words or pictures coming through
that seem to want to confirm that
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the feeling means I'm invisible.
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So I just want you to relax,
knowing again, that awareness is
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here, able to perceive whatever
words are coming through or.
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And tell me what came through when
you said yes, that's me that feeling?
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Uh, it was just a big black spot.
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Okay.
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So that was the image.
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Mm-hmm the picture is the
black spot still there?
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Yes.
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Okay.
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So I want you to look at
the words, black spot.
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Just pull that out of the mix and
look at the words, the letters.
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Put it in a picture frame by itself.
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So you can see the words.
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Are those words, the
person who's invisible?
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No.
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Okay.
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So just let the words kind of relax.
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They came through, you saw them, you
saw that that's not the invisible
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person, which is what we're looking for.
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Now.
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Just let the picture of the black.
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be there in the space, just
floating freely, not trying
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to place new meaning on it.
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You're just resting without
thoughts, looking at a picture as
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if it was a painting on the wall
and you're just discovering it.
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Is the picture itself.
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You, the person who's invisible?
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No.
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Okay.
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So just let the picture of
the black spot be as it.
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you can see now you don't
have to do anything with it.
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You know, it's not the
person who's invisible.
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It's just pick this picture and watch.
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If you just do nothing with it,
watch how it's boundaries or
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it's shape begins to just change.
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Naturally.
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You're not trying to push it away
or just watch to see how it starts
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to change or morph or even melt.
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And just describe to me how it.
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It just seems to, um, become
little particles and just
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flutter away, flutter away.
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Mm-hmm is there any image of it left?
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No.
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I want you to note, to, to notice that
there's awareness within the space
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of your body, in the sense that you
could scan, you could scan inside your.
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you could actually scan inside
your stomach area as if you were
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a child on an Easter egg hunt,
looking for that proverbial egg.
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You're, you're really looking
for it as if it's gotta be here.
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You're scanning without words.
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But what you're looking for
is the person who's invisible.
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And I want you to scan all the areas
of your body, being aware of that space
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within even up through your chest and.
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and into the physical space of your head.
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And tell me if you bump into
the person , who's invisible.
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mm-hmm , uh, that's funny.
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I'm not bumping into this person.
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Okay.
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So just relax now and look
anywhere else you want to look
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like, even if you wanted to.
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Scan the pictures of your past.
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Go back to your timeline back when you
were a child or, um, teenager, are there
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any other pictures that seem to indicate
there's a person who's invisible here?
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No.
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You don't find that?
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No.
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Okay.
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What about the pictures of the future?
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You're scanning projections of
things that haven't happened
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yet, but they can seem real.
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Do you find the person that's invisible?
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No.
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Okay.
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Is there anything in your body that
feels like there's still a person
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here who's invisible, maybe a
sensation, a feeling a sense of some.
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No.
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So the notion about the sense of being
deficient, whether the, is the story
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of being invisible for you, is that
even when we're sitting here and we
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look, you can't find it, relationship
tends to bring it out for people.
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So other people mirror back
the sense that you're in.
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um, that's how kind of identity works.
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It's like a, like I call the boomerang.
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It's like, we bring the story with us.
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That's who we think we are.
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It's like, we throw a boomerang
out and it comes back to us
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confirming that we're invisible.
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Right.
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Right.
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So when with the boomerang, you're
just setting up one other person
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here in your life, um, to see.
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E we want it to be someone who really
does reflect back to you that you're
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invisible on a pretty regular basis.
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Someone who triggers you a lot.
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And so I'd like you to just sort of tell
me about the person and tell me how they
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seem something about how they act or
don't act seems to trigger or reflect back
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that you're invisible someone specific.
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Okay.
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Um,
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um, I have a dear friend and.
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I just it's as if I can't talk.
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So when I start speaking, I somehow plan
to seed for her to her story told, and
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then I also no longer telling my story
and then minutes go by sometimes hours,
339
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go by and I'm still sitting there waiting.
340
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Hello?
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Yeah, I was talking.
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Are you not aware that
I was talking right.
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And it makes me feel invisible.
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Right.
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Because I either wasn't invaluable
enough to have my story told.
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Right.
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I really don't exist.
348
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Okay.
349
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That's a good example.
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So if you can just see that,
that friend of yours, I can
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see it's bringing up something.
352
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Yeah.
353
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Yeah.
354
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So, so what I wanna do is in the midst
of what just got triggered there.
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I want you to see if you
can find the invisible.
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so I want you to look at a memory
of the last time she did that.
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She just cut you off.
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And for that, you might have to close
your eyes again at first, because
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just closing your eyes helps you
see those pictures more clearly.
360
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Mm-hmm so can you see how she cut?
361
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She's cutting you off.
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Do you see that picture?
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Yes.
364
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Okay.
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Is that picture you the invisible
person and the way that your answer
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is just by seeing whether something is
arising in the body and that's a yes.
367
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If so, Okay.
368
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Yes, that's me that picture.
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Okay.
370
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So again, now, just bringing attention
gently to the feeling and just
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letting the feeling float freely.
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It's like, you're not putting
any pictures on the feeling.
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You're not trying to go to words resting
as the space, letting that feeling, just
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move freely, just letting it be as it.
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so just looking at that feeling by itself,
there's a present energy here and you're
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looking at it like the child looking for
the egg, you stumbled upon this feeling.
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Is that feeling you, the
person who's invisible?
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No.
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Right or wrong answer her.
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Yeah.
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No.
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So now that you know that it's not
an invisible person, you see how it's
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easier just to relax and that it be as.
384
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Yes, you don't have to put that
meaning on it for a few seconds.
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So I want you to go back
to the picture of her face.
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When you look at that picture, does
it seem to reflect back to you that
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you're someone who's invisible?
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No.
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Okay.
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So I want you to look at
any of the scenarios with.
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Any of the situations where you
felt triggered again, you're seeing
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them as present pictures here.
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Memories.
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Do any of those memories seem to
indicate that there's someone here
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that you are invisible and you
answer by listening to the body?
396
00:23:33,899 --> 00:23:34,139
No.
397
00:23:34,950 --> 00:23:35,129
Okay.
398
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So I want to take it a
little bit wider now.
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A little broad.
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and we're gonna do the Panorama
inquiry, which is, imagine yourself.
401
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Well, you don't have to imagine yourself
cuz you're already sitting here, but
402
00:23:50,900 --> 00:23:55,215
imagine that there's a circle of people
around you or in front of you probably.
403
00:23:55,305 --> 00:23:56,175
I'm not one of them.
404
00:23:56,505 --> 00:23:57,915
You'll be people that are close to you.
405
00:23:58,065 --> 00:23:58,355
Okay.
406
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Could be mother, father, friends,
um, partners, boss, coworker.
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00:24:07,110 --> 00:24:09,419
it could even be events and situations.
408
00:24:09,449 --> 00:24:14,100
Anything that you feel like triggers
that sense that you're invisible.
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I want you to put in an imaginary
chair around you, close your eyes
410
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and just put the people in situations
in events, in a semi circle in front
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of you, the ones that have triggered
that sense that you're invisible.
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Get the ones that really
do the triggering.
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Take your time.
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Do you feel something
mm-hmm anxiety, anxiety?
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Who, or what are you
looking at in the circle?
416
00:24:51,090 --> 00:24:53,190
Yeah, about eight people.
417
00:24:53,790 --> 00:24:54,030
Okay.
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Is there any one person
or thing that seems to.
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really draw your attention in.
420
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Mm.
421
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They all tend to, they all do.
422
00:25:07,950 --> 00:25:08,129
Yeah.
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Look at one in particular where
there's a real strong trigger.
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You see the face.
425
00:25:15,960 --> 00:25:16,410
Yes.
426
00:25:17,610 --> 00:25:20,370
I want you to first see, can you
see that there that's a picture, a
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rising care within your own presence,
within an awareness that can see the.
428
00:25:28,335 --> 00:25:30,135
You can rest, is that
awareness for a second?
429
00:25:31,485 --> 00:25:36,405
So that picture feels like
you, the invisible person is
430
00:25:36,405 --> 00:25:38,595
that you no, it's not you.
431
00:25:39,075 --> 00:25:39,295
No.
432
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So the body didn't respond to that much.
433
00:25:47,475 --> 00:25:51,705
Does it feel like, well, let me ask
you this, that person, the picture
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of that person triggered something.
435
00:25:54,254 --> 00:25:55,485
Can you find the invisible.
436
00:25:56,459 --> 00:25:57,149
The got triggered.
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00:26:00,600 --> 00:26:03,270
If you look for it again, like
the child looking for the egg,
438
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you're scanning everywhere.
439
00:26:04,895 --> 00:26:09,810
Like you're looking at words,
you're looking at pictures, you're
440
00:26:09,810 --> 00:26:14,280
looking at feelings and you're
noticing they're all rising within
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this basic capacity to be aware.
442
00:26:19,350 --> 00:26:21,090
Can you find the person who's invisible?
443
00:26:24,629 --> 00:26:24,850
No.
444
00:26:29,220 --> 00:26:32,760
You said a second ago, that anxiety
comes up when you look at that circle?
445
00:26:33,330 --> 00:26:33,420
Yes.
446
00:26:34,980 --> 00:26:37,530
When you look back at it again,
does it seem to arise again?
447
00:26:43,200 --> 00:26:44,160
Not as strongly.
448
00:26:45,000 --> 00:26:45,060
Okay.
449
00:26:45,060 --> 00:26:45,660
Still there.
450
00:26:46,800 --> 00:26:51,510
Look at the word anxiety, just
pull it out of the mix and
451
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put it up in a picture frame.
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however you can see the
letters you see that.
453
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See that word mm-hmm is that word itself?
454
00:26:59,879 --> 00:27:01,200
The person who's invisible?
455
00:27:01,950 --> 00:27:02,010
No.
456
00:27:02,760 --> 00:27:02,909
Okay.
457
00:27:04,409 --> 00:27:07,200
Do you feel the energy that
you're calling anxiety?
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Yeah.
459
00:27:10,500 --> 00:27:15,840
So watch the word anxiety by looking
at the word, you can watch it sort
460
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of fade away just the word itself.
461
00:27:18,750 --> 00:27:20,909
Now there's just this
present energy to give it a.
462
00:27:23,835 --> 00:27:28,185
Relax and let that be without
words and without pictures for a
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second, let it F float freely here.
464
00:27:47,835 --> 00:27:50,625
Is there anything in you that
wants to say that that feeling.
465
00:27:51,449 --> 00:27:53,040
Is the person that's invisible?
466
00:27:57,990 --> 00:27:58,290
No.
467
00:27:59,070 --> 00:27:59,310
Okay.
468
00:28:00,629 --> 00:28:05,699
So just relax and rest here,
letting all energies be as they are,
469
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whatever the energy that needs to be.
470
00:28:08,044 --> 00:28:09,270
There is just relaxing.
471
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Not trying to put words on
it, just allowing it in the.
472
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Now look back at the circle.
473
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Does someone around that circle
seem to mirror back to you that
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you're someone who's invisible?
475
00:28:35,325 --> 00:28:35,745
No.
476
00:28:36,165 --> 00:28:37,455
Nowhere, no.
477
00:28:40,065 --> 00:28:41,235
. Do they look different now?
478
00:28:41,805 --> 00:28:42,595
They do.
479
00:28:43,305 --> 00:28:44,385
Tell me what you mean by that?
480
00:28:44,385 --> 00:28:53,745
Looking different before they looked
hostile and just like big God, you know,
481
00:28:53,745 --> 00:29:02,775
Godzilla is just ready to stomp on me and,
um, now they just seem normal and present.
482
00:29:03,465 --> 00:29:03,675
Yeah.
483
00:29:05,445 --> 00:29:09,405
You see how just looking for the
self clears up the relationships.
484
00:29:10,595 --> 00:29:10,885
Yeah.
485
00:29:10,890 --> 00:29:10,965
Do you.
486
00:29:11,775 --> 00:29:16,515
Yeah, it's that simple when we're
always pointed outward at them, we
487
00:29:16,515 --> 00:29:19,215
don't notice that we're just, all we
had to do was turn and see if we could
488
00:29:19,215 --> 00:29:20,835
find the self that's reflected back.
489
00:29:21,675 --> 00:29:22,095
See that.
490
00:29:22,275 --> 00:29:22,395
Yeah.
491
00:29:24,195 --> 00:29:29,865
So now that your eyes are open,
can you find a person who's
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invisible in the way that you came
to me with that in the beginning?
493
00:29:33,254 --> 00:29:37,215
Is there anything about your body,
anything about the visual aspect of your
494
00:29:37,220 --> 00:29:38,925
experience, or just being here with.
495
00:29:41,955 --> 00:29:44,595
Um, well, there's a lot more calmness.
496
00:29:44,805 --> 00:29:45,075
Yeah.
497
00:29:45,225 --> 00:29:50,085
Um, usually there feels like
there's a hot still rod just driven
498
00:29:50,085 --> 00:29:52,305
between my heart and my, yeah.
499
00:29:52,425 --> 00:29:53,415
The middle of my body.
500
00:29:53,715 --> 00:29:53,865
Right.
501
00:29:53,865 --> 00:29:58,485
And it seemed like it was
just, you know, um, absorbing
502
00:29:58,485 --> 00:30:00,195
everything to make me invisible.
503
00:30:00,315 --> 00:30:03,735
Mm-hmm and that's really cool
and refreshing and, but it's
504
00:30:03,735 --> 00:30:06,435
more like a tree mm-hmm versus.
505
00:30:07,725 --> 00:30:07,995
good.
506
00:30:08,000 --> 00:30:09,045
Can you see the tree?
507
00:30:09,255 --> 00:30:11,265
Can you, even though we're just
sitting here, there's no tree.
508
00:30:11,445 --> 00:30:12,735
Can you see the image of the tree?
509
00:30:12,735 --> 00:30:13,615
I, I can.
510
00:30:14,415 --> 00:30:14,445
Okay.
511
00:30:14,445 --> 00:30:15,225
Look at that image.
512
00:30:15,495 --> 00:30:20,355
Like if I close your eyes and look at
that tree, see that mm-hmm, just let
513
00:30:20,355 --> 00:30:24,645
that be there as it is not trying to
change even the good feelings you see
514
00:30:24,645 --> 00:30:26,295
that or trying to keep them around.
515
00:30:28,275 --> 00:30:30,765
Um, but is that picture of that tree?
516
00:30:30,765 --> 00:30:31,755
An invisible person?
517
00:30:33,885 --> 00:30:34,105
no,
518
00:30:38,250 --> 00:30:43,590
So my last question hopefully is
some came to me with a belief that
519
00:30:43,590 --> 00:30:44,910
you're someone who's invisible.
520
00:30:45,360 --> 00:30:47,370
Mm-hmm they seemed to have
proof in your life of that.
521
00:30:47,370 --> 00:30:47,639
Right.
522
00:30:47,670 --> 00:30:52,080
Mm-hmm so what's that like, not
to be able to find that now I
523
00:30:52,085 --> 00:30:56,730
really believed that it was real.
524
00:30:57,210 --> 00:30:57,420
Yeah.
525
00:30:58,379 --> 00:31:03,810
And it's not it's it's not even there.
526
00:31:04,649 --> 00:31:05,070
So.
527
00:31:06,430 --> 00:31:08,370
it kind of messes with you a little bit.
528
00:31:08,430 --> 00:31:08,820
Yeah.
529
00:31:09,420 --> 00:31:11,220
Because something that's always
sort of been there in a way.
530
00:31:11,460 --> 00:31:11,850
Yeah.
531
00:31:11,850 --> 00:31:12,990
It's yeah.
532
00:31:12,990 --> 00:31:14,010
Always felt like it was there.
533
00:31:14,070 --> 00:31:14,430
Right?
534
00:31:14,430 --> 00:31:15,090
Yeah.
535
00:31:15,090 --> 00:31:15,900
I had proof.
536
00:31:15,900 --> 00:31:19,860
I had everything I needed
to say I'm invisible.
537
00:31:20,250 --> 00:31:20,340
Right.
538
00:31:20,850 --> 00:31:26,790
And yet you've managed to show me that
as we go through this, I'm looking and
539
00:31:26,790 --> 00:31:31,890
looking and looking and yet there's no
object or thing or feeling that's it?
540
00:31:32,250 --> 00:31:33,330
It, and can you.
541
00:31:34,649 --> 00:31:36,629
even as we sit here now, can
you find there's passengers?
542
00:31:36,629 --> 00:31:40,379
No, I looked in the tree
branches I looked in my toes.
543
00:31:40,440 --> 00:31:45,899
Um, there's nothing there that
says this is Elizabeth invisible.
544
00:31:46,490 --> 00:31:46,780
Yeah.
545
00:31:46,920 --> 00:31:47,580
That's interesting.
546
00:31:47,790 --> 00:31:47,970
Yeah.
547
00:31:49,020 --> 00:31:49,350
Thank you.
548
00:31:49,649 --> 00:31:50,399
Thank you.
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