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Have you ever wanted
to be noticed so badly,
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you didn't even care what it was for?
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You just wake up every day thinking,
"I want to be seen."
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To be completely honest, Danni Sanders
might actually be the worst person
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we've ever covered on this show,
and we covered Hitler.
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I wanna be important.
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Okay, guys. Today,
we're talking about white privilege.
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So you know
we need to talk about Danni Sanders.
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…acting like she was the victim.
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I think that
that turned a lot of people off to her.
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I wanna have purpose.
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So I was just gonna bleach the front bits,
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but I'm really not trying to get mistaken
for Danni Sanders.
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I wanna be known.
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I wanna be loved.
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And the award
for Most-Anticipated Death…
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- Danni Sanders!
- I can't wait for her to kick the bucket.
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- Don't...
- In fact, I'll do it for you.
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That's a little far.
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I'm not gonna go that far. It's a fine.
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Not for me. I own guns.
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I wanna matter.
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Yeah, well, let me tell you…
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Be careful what you fucking wish for.
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♪ I'm the worst ♪
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♪ You're gonna hate me ♪
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♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪
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♪ I'm the worst ♪
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Okay.
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- Danni.
- Yeah?
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Had a chance to read
that article you sent me.
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- You did?
- Mm-hmm.
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What did you think?
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Well, you've titled it, "Why am I so sad?"
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That's just a working title.
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"In a world surrounded by those
who seem to have it all,"
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I've settled on a few reasons
for my own feelings of emptiness.
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"The first is that
I currently live in Bushwick."
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J-Train Bushwick.
L-Train Bushwick would be fine.
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Just, like, somewhere you can get
a decent matcha, you know?
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"Reason number two,
my lack of a private office at work."
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Open-concept spaces
really drown out my inner voice.
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Finally,
and this one really stuck with me.
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Okay.
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"Missing 9/11."
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Yeah.
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I was on a cruise with my parents
when it happened.
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In general, I think we try to avoid
expressing any kind of FOMO about 9/11.
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Did you read that article on The Cut?
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The one...
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It talked about how it was the single
most formative trauma experience
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for "zillennials."
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And since I wasn't there,
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I didn't get to share that bond
with my peers.
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You know, like,
I didn't even know anyone that died.
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Okay. And you don't feel like it comes off
a little tone-deaf? Offensive even.
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- Can't tone-deaf be, like, a brand though?
- Oh, no.
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- Isn't that what Lena Dunham does?
- You don't wanna be like Lena Dunham.
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I don't feel like
you take me seriously as a writer.
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That's because you're not a writer.
You're a photo editor.
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One who's very late on their deadlines.
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Deadlines that should take priority
over personal goals.
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I've just been having
a difficult time focusing lately.
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And I've been having a difficult time
ending this conversation. And we're done.
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Okay.
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Gonna load up
the Headspace app after that.
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- Hi, Harper.
- Interesting article pitch.
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Thanks.
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Hey, Susan,
I just uploaded the new draft for Tuesday.
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Thank you. Oh, and great work
on that RBG retrospective.
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I can't believe you got that quote
from her personal trainer.
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Thank you.
I was thinking of using it as my sample
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to apply for a couple writers' retreats.
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Oh, a retreat.
Yeah, you would be a shoo-in.
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Oh, thank you.
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They love SCOTUS.
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♪ Never met a pill
I didn't know how to take ♪
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♪ But that was getting old
I had to give it a break ♪
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♪ I never met an emotion
I didn't know how to fake ♪
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♪ But now I'm getting older
And I wanna be straight ♪
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♪ I never got a tattoo
that I didn't regret… ♪
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Hey, yo. Frame up on this shit.
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♪ I'm not a brat
Used to be a hot little mess ♪
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♪ But I never made a video
You didn't embed ♪
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♪ I got a new pair of shoes
And my hair done ♪
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♪ Where's Sonny Moore? Damn
When I'm gonna meet a millionaire's son? ♪
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8♪ I'm bored of being the rare one
I'm the chairwoman ♪
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♪ Never took a dare
I don't really care for 'em ♪
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♪ Watch me… ♪
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- Colin, dude, how was the trip?
- Ah!
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Man, you know how it was.
Lit as shit. Lick a tit. We did it.
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Also, peep this.
I learned how to twist it.
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That's a scorpion joint
right fucking there.
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- That's so cool.
- Yo, zoom in on that.
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- He can't hear you.
- I said zoom in on it.
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No, do it like I meant.
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♪ It isn't bad
But it is embarrassing enough ♪
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We're gonna do it again.
Gotta do it again. Everybody back inside.
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♪ I'm an Abercrombie-lookin' ass bitch
And I don't give a fuck ♪
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♪ I got a new pair of shoes and a payment
Slay Kitty Ray damn ♪
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♪ When I'm gonna meet a limitation… ♪
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- Hey, Danni's in the house.
- Okay.
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Um… Oh, I've had a crazy morning.
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I just found a new shortcut
for sharpening in camera RAW.
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That is great, Kevin.
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It's Kelvin. My name... it's... it's Kelvin.
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No. I don't think so.
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Okay.
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I'm pretty sure, though, that, um…
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- Sarah's coming tonight.
- Like, Sarah, Sarah?
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Yeah, Sarah from Cubbyhole.
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- So you're drinking tequila tonight.
- Yeah, I am.
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It's the tequila
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- It's the tequila
- It's the tequila
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Wait. What's happening tonight?
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- We're going queer bowling.
- Yas, queen! Slay!
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You know me. I'll probably just drink
alone in my apartment till I black out
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and call my old best friend
from high school, or something.
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Is this queer bowling night
only for LGBTs?
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- Yeah. Yeah.
- Okay.
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You know…
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…I made out with a girl
at an NYU party once.
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So, I might be bi.
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Not with those nails.
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What's wrong with my nails?
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Just wishful thinking.
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You guys are so lucky. You have, like,
a community. You have a parade.
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- You have your own bowling night...
- Yeah, being a minority is great.
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Right?
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Well, have fun.
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- I hate straight people.
- Uh-huh.
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- Hi, Mom.
- Hi.
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- You wanna hang out tonight?
- I can't. It's Friday.
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Oh.
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Yeah, no worries. That's all good.
I understand.
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Girlboss book club is pretty… unmissable.
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Hi, it's your favorite writer, socialite,
scammer, Caroline Calloway.
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I'm here in London right now
to meet up with my UK publisher.
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You guys are such a big part of why
this is happening. Fucking love you guys.
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No way. Je obsessed.
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Colin.
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Oh, shit. What up, honey?
Yeah, I can't take a pic right now, but...
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No, no, no. Danni, from work.
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- Danni. Yeah. What's good?
- What are you doing here?
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- Do you live in Bushwick?
- Me? No. Fuck no.
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- I'm so...
- No. No, I'd never live here.
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Uh, no. I'm supposed to be going to, uh…
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there.
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Matcha Baby.
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Plus my plug lives here,
so two birds, one stone.
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Yeah, I smoke marijuana,
like, all the time.
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Ever see one of these?
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Other side.
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Okay.
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Oh, shit.
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Good.
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Yo, Colin!
It's that weed blogger from Depravity.
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Hey, yo, shorty. What up?
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Yo. I love your videos, man.
Costa Rica looks sick.
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Let's go, baby! Stay up, boss.
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Aight. What up? You good?
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So cool that you have a fan.
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Oh, yeah. I got... I got a bunch.
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That's just one.
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Hmm.
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So, like, what are you?
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Like, at Depravity? What are you?
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I'm a... I'm a writer.
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I started in the photo department,
but I'm transitioning.
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And then I'm looking to, like, develop
my work more by, like, uh, traveling.
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And maybe, like, going on
one of those writer retreats or something.
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- Oh, you're going on re-treat?
- Sort of retreat.
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- What?
- You're going on re-treat?
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- That's tight.
- Oh, I just got invited to a re-treat.
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Retreat's actually coming up next week.
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I'm going to Paris for it.
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Shit. That's dope.
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- Hey, get pics.
- I'm gonna get lots of pics. Yeah.
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♪ I'll throw 'em all up on the 'gram ♪
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By the way, this was laced with mad wax.
So your tolerance must be OD as fuck.
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Damn, ma.
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Good luck in Paris, Jenny.
Good to meet you.
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Danni.
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- What's up?
- My name's Danni.
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No, it's Colin.
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I'll see you at work. Or I guess I won't.
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Oh!
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Fuck me.
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Oh.
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Why, Danni, why?
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Why'd you do that?
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Okay, crazy bitch.
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Paris. Paris, Paris, Paris.
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All right. How much are you, Paris?
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Shit.
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What do you think?
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Should we call Mommy and Daddy?
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See if they'll buy us a ticket?
Will they know that we're on drugs?
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Just kidding.
I know that you're not on drugs.
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Guinea Weasley,
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you're a fucking genius.
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Hello?
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Susan. Hi. Danni. I had a question.
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If a really big opportunity came up,
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would there be a way
to get some time off work?
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- Absolutely not.
- Amazing. Thank you. Bye.
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Hey, Mom.
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- Guess what?
- What?
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I got invited to a writers' retreat
in Paris.
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- Really?
- Yes, really.
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It's not a scam?
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No, it's not a scam.
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It has a website.
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Hey, guys. Crazy plot twist.
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I got an e-mail today inviting me
to go on this retreat in Paris.
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I'm on my way to the airport.
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So for this very chic beauty look,
we're gonna be taking this concealer.
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And we go dot, dot, dot.
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And dot there.
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The next weekend,
I did step up my outfit game a little
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because it was time to head to Paris
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and mispronounce
the names of all the pastries.
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I'm gonna stress-eat my croissant
a little bit
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to ease the discomfort
of vlogging in public.
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I'm getting dressed for a date.
A first date in fact. Now my...
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Oh, my God.
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…whether I look like I'm trying too hard
or don't try hard enough.
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Like, trying to find
the fucking effortless sexy balance
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that is always impossible to find.
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I thought it would be easier
since I only have about 40 items…
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Okay.
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But somehow, I have…
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3:00 a. m. That's 9:00 a. m. Paris time.
I'll post…
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Clothes are everywhere.
I've only tried about every…
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Starting my morning right.
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Now, where is my baguette?
237
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…very, like, French-maid-chic.
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It feels like a little bit more
of a classic first date outfit though.
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Usually with a bit of an open neckline,
so that when you're chatting...
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Shit.
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Okay.
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We have some breaking news at this hour.
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A string of coordinated terrorist attacks
struck Paris this morning at 9:13 a. m.,
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targeting landmarks across the city.
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The bombings hit the Louvre,
the Champs-Élysées,
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the Centre Pompidou
and the Arc de Triomphe.
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Oh, fuck.
248
00:17:08,694 --> 00:17:09,695
Hi, Mom. Hi, Mom.
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Oh, my God. Danni?
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- Yeah.
- Honey, she's okay!
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- I'm okay.
- What happened? Where have you been?
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- We have been calling for hours.
- No... I'm fine. I'm okay.
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00:17:17,703 --> 00:17:19,247
- Thank God.
- Where are you?
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00:17:19,330 --> 00:17:21,624
Yeah, no, I'm... I'm not actually...
255
00:17:21,707 --> 00:17:24,085
- When can she come home?
- It's a long story. But... What?
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00:17:24,168 --> 00:17:25,294
Are you able to leave?
257
00:17:25,378 --> 00:17:27,814
- I could call our travel agent...
- No, no, no. I'm... I'm not…
258
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Harold, call your mother.
She keeps trying this line.
259
00:17:29,757 --> 00:17:31,676
- I told her to call my cell.
- Grandma knows?
260
00:17:31,759 --> 00:17:33,886
Magdalena called.
You remember, your old nanny?
261
00:17:33,970 --> 00:17:36,406
- She follows you on the Instagram...
- Okay, I just need to... Shi...
262
00:17:36,430 --> 00:17:38,599
- Oh, my God. What now?
- Ow!
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- Are you okay?
- Are you all right?
264
00:17:40,059 --> 00:17:41,060
Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
265
00:17:41,143 --> 00:17:44,397
- Danni!
- Yeah. Hi. I'm fine. I gotta go. Okay?
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Danni!
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…but neither agency is reporting
268
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an official statement at this hour.
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So far, no terrorist organization has
claimed responsibility for the attacks.
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However, multiple witnesses have reported
seeing this suspicious individual,
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although officials have not
identified a suspect at this hour.
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00:18:09,672 --> 00:18:12,800
Just tell them you fucked up.
You just tell them you fucked up.
273
00:18:13,843 --> 00:18:16,178
Oh, my God. Come on, you fucking idiot.
274
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So many.
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00:18:23,894 --> 00:18:25,229
Really hope you're okay.
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I'm okay and safe. Period.
277
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I don't have reliable service yet,
278
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but please know, I am all right.
Exclamation mark.
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Devastated for those who are not.
Broken heart emoji.
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Air France flight 2677 now arriving.
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Here they come.
282
00:19:16,238 --> 00:19:20,409
Sir. Were you there at the Arc?
Do you think this was an act of terrorism?
283
00:19:20,493 --> 00:19:22,286
Did you experience any of the attacks?
284
00:19:22,370 --> 00:19:25,331
We are live here
at the International Arrival gate at JFK.
285
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The flight from Paris just got in.
286
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Danni?
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- Danni. Oh, my God. Honey.
- Hi.
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Hi.
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Hi.
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Oh, God.
291
00:19:49,814 --> 00:19:51,190
You okay, Daddy?
292
00:19:51,273 --> 00:19:52,692
Here you go.
293
00:19:53,484 --> 00:19:56,654
Just the way you like it
with the mini marshmallows.
294
00:19:57,613 --> 00:19:58,948
Wow. Thank you.
295
00:19:59,532 --> 00:20:02,743
You need to get that trauma
out of your muscles before it sticks.
296
00:20:02,827 --> 00:20:05,496
So, I'm booking you a massage
with Greta for tomorrow.
297
00:20:05,579 --> 00:20:08,290
And I want you
to start taking these new supplements.
298
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Harold, pull it together.
299
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We could've lost her. Little baby girl.
300
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Sweetie, have you eaten yet?
Did they feed you on the plane?
301
00:20:18,008 --> 00:20:19,135
Not really.
302
00:20:19,927 --> 00:20:21,595
Maybe we could order Momofuku?
303
00:20:21,679 --> 00:20:22,888
Oh, of course.
304
00:20:22,972 --> 00:20:26,308
Harold, do you have
that, uh, app thing for the food?
305
00:20:26,392 --> 00:20:29,103
Seamless? Grubhub?
306
00:20:31,021 --> 00:20:33,149
I just can't believe
you posted that photograph
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five minutes before the bombs hit.
308
00:20:34,692 --> 00:20:36,902
I mean,
what if it had been five minutes later?
309
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Could you even imagine?
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- Oh, God.
- It's... It's a lot.
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It's pretty… …unbelievable.
312
00:20:45,828 --> 00:20:47,872
I was actually... I was pretty close.
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So, I had just started
walking away when it...
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00:20:51,917 --> 00:20:52,917
Oh!
315
00:20:52,960 --> 00:20:54,336
You saw the blast?
316
00:20:54,420 --> 00:20:56,672
Yeah, I saw the... I saw the blast.
317
00:20:56,756 --> 00:20:59,633
- Oh, my God.
- Are your ears okay?
318
00:20:59,717 --> 00:21:01,051
My... What do you...
319
00:21:01,135 --> 00:21:02,303
No ringing?
320
00:21:02,803 --> 00:21:04,597
- A little.
- Harold, wha...
321
00:21:04,680 --> 00:21:06,724
What's the name
of that colleague of yours? The ENT?
322
00:21:06,807 --> 00:21:09,435
- Richard?
- No, no, no. Mom. They're gonna be fine.
323
00:21:09,518 --> 00:21:10,519
- I'm calling Helen.
- No.
324
00:21:10,603 --> 00:21:13,230
Yeah. Her husband's cousin
was at the Boston bombing.
325
00:21:13,731 --> 00:21:16,150
Well, he was at least
in Boston at the time.
326
00:21:16,734 --> 00:21:18,903
Actually, I think he used to go
to a support group.
327
00:21:18,986 --> 00:21:20,571
That'd be good for you, emotionally.
328
00:21:21,697 --> 00:21:22,740
- Peanut.
- Yeah?
329
00:21:23,449 --> 00:21:25,409
Wanna make things
a little bit easier for you.
330
00:21:26,744 --> 00:21:28,454
- Just any way I can.
- Thank you.
331
00:21:32,458 --> 00:21:34,001
Feels like Christmas.
332
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We might not have ever had
another Christmas together.
333
00:21:55,981 --> 00:21:58,818
- I just wanted to say good night.
- Okay. Night.
334
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Love you.
335
00:22:07,576 --> 00:22:09,036
I love you too.
336
00:22:10,162 --> 00:22:13,582
I know I haven't said this
as much as I should,
337
00:22:14,333 --> 00:22:17,586
but I just want you to know
I'm so proud of you.
338
00:22:18,754 --> 00:22:20,256
Me too, Peanut.
339
00:22:24,593 --> 00:22:25,594
So…
340
00:22:27,513 --> 00:22:28,722
Sweet dreams.
341
00:22:37,857 --> 00:22:39,441
Dix.
342
00:23:24,987 --> 00:23:28,824
Starting my morning right.
Now, where's my baguette? Baguette emoji.
343
00:24:18,499 --> 00:24:20,125
Danni.
344
00:24:20,209 --> 00:24:22,586
I have to be honest.
I don't even know what to say.
345
00:24:23,087 --> 00:24:24,338
What?
346
00:24:24,421 --> 00:24:26,590
I can't even fathom
what you've been through.
347
00:24:26,674 --> 00:24:29,510
And I don't want you to feel pressure
to come back to work right away.
348
00:24:29,593 --> 00:24:32,846
No, really. I wanna be here.
349
00:24:32,930 --> 00:24:35,724
If you're sure, but you set the pace.
350
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If you need to leave early,
take a mental health day,
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you don't even have to ask, just go.
352
00:24:42,773 --> 00:24:44,066
- I will.
- And, Danni...
353
00:24:45,234 --> 00:24:46,944
I know we've had our conflicts.
354
00:24:47,027 --> 00:24:50,114
And I'm so sorry
I was ever gonna fire you.
355
00:24:50,197 --> 00:24:51,657
But I want you to know,
356
00:24:51,740 --> 00:24:54,344
- the fact that you're standing right here…
- You were gonna fire me?
357
00:24:54,368 --> 00:24:57,663
…In front of me instead of being
curled up in a ball somewhere,
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00:24:57,746 --> 00:25:01,291
mainlining gummy worms,
which is what I would have been doing,
359
00:25:02,459 --> 00:25:04,086
that's incredible.
360
00:25:04,169 --> 00:25:06,338
You are so strong.
361
00:25:07,881 --> 00:25:09,550
Isn't she so strong, everybody?
362
00:25:09,633 --> 00:25:11,593
- Yeah.
- Mm-hmm.
363
00:25:11,677 --> 00:25:13,220
Yeah.
364
00:25:13,303 --> 00:25:16,473
You go, girl! You go, woman.
365
00:25:16,557 --> 00:25:19,935
Thank you, everyone. Thank you.
366
00:25:20,019 --> 00:25:22,396
Mmm. It means the world.
367
00:25:22,479 --> 00:25:25,524
Okay, good.
368
00:25:26,108 --> 00:25:28,777
Let me know if there's anything else
I can do. Anything at all.
369
00:25:28,861 --> 00:25:30,029
- Okay.
- Okay.
370
00:25:38,245 --> 00:25:39,329
Actually.
371
00:25:42,082 --> 00:25:43,333
I was thinking, um…
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00:25:46,045 --> 00:25:49,089
Maybe writing a piece about my experience,
373
00:25:49,173 --> 00:25:53,218
it... it might help me
work through the pain.
374
00:25:53,302 --> 00:25:57,973
Of course. Depravity would be honored
to give you a platform.
375
00:25:58,599 --> 00:25:59,641
All right.
376
00:26:07,357 --> 00:26:10,027
So, it was a totally normal day at first.
377
00:26:10,694 --> 00:26:12,571
It was sunny. It was clear.
378
00:26:12,654 --> 00:26:16,033
I was at the Arc having
a cute little, quiet morning to myself,
379
00:26:16,116 --> 00:26:18,368
before I went to breakfast
with the other writers.
380
00:26:21,038 --> 00:26:22,206
And I don't know.
381
00:26:23,332 --> 00:26:26,251
I saw this weird guy in this big jacket.
382
00:26:29,004 --> 00:26:30,881
Then suddenly,
I was hit with this feeling.
383
00:26:32,966 --> 00:26:34,802
Like something horrible was gonna happen.
384
00:26:34,885 --> 00:26:35,969
Oh, Jesus.
385
00:26:36,470 --> 00:26:37,763
I knew I needed to leave.
386
00:26:39,098 --> 00:26:42,476
So I turned around to go,
and as I was walking away,
387
00:26:42,559 --> 00:26:43,811
boom!
388
00:26:44,394 --> 00:26:45,771
That's when it hit.
389
00:26:46,814 --> 00:26:50,442
So you're a psychic.
Like the Lady of Galadhrim.
390
00:26:50,943 --> 00:26:52,402
Or it was God.
391
00:26:52,486 --> 00:26:55,656
Excuse me.
This is a non-denominational workspace.
392
00:26:55,739 --> 00:26:56,990
Well, I didn't say which god.
393
00:26:57,491 --> 00:26:58,784
- Didn't you?
- Whoa. Whoa.
394
00:27:01,203 --> 00:27:04,915
My bad.
It's just my ears are still ringing.
395
00:27:04,998 --> 00:27:06,708
Because of the terrorists?
396
00:27:07,417 --> 00:27:08,418
Yo, Danni.
397
00:27:10,504 --> 00:27:11,713
Come here for a sec.
398
00:27:12,673 --> 00:27:14,424
Yes. Co... I come.
399
00:27:16,135 --> 00:27:18,178
Danni, um…
400
00:27:18,262 --> 00:27:21,640
We just wanted to invite you
to queer bowling.
401
00:27:21,723 --> 00:27:23,475
- Aw!
- Like, if you wanted to come.
402
00:27:23,559 --> 00:27:25,978
Everybody's a little bit gay. Right?
403
00:27:26,061 --> 00:27:27,146
Aren't we?
404
00:27:29,731 --> 00:27:30,816
I have to...
405
00:27:31,733 --> 00:27:34,945
Sorry. I was just... just chatting
with my gay friends.
406
00:27:36,530 --> 00:27:37,614
Wow.
407
00:27:37,698 --> 00:27:40,450
I, uh… I got you this.
408
00:27:41,577 --> 00:27:44,955
You know, for, like, a feel-better gift.
409
00:27:46,248 --> 00:27:47,624
It's a joint.
410
00:27:48,792 --> 00:27:49,835
Thank you.
411
00:27:50,627 --> 00:27:52,045
I'm really glad you're not dead.
412
00:27:54,339 --> 00:27:55,340
Me too.
413
00:27:57,384 --> 00:28:00,429
Ha.
414
00:28:04,391 --> 00:28:08,270
My name is Danni Sanders,
and on April 10th, I almost died,
415
00:28:08,770 --> 00:28:11,023
but something, or someone, saved me.
416
00:28:11,607 --> 00:28:15,611
Maybe it was a guardian angel,
or God, or Alan Rickman's ghost,
417
00:28:15,694 --> 00:28:17,574
but I don't think that I believe
in any of that.
418
00:28:18,280 --> 00:28:21,283
More likely, it was me who saved me.
419
00:28:22,367 --> 00:28:23,636
Not that I believe in myself either.
420
00:28:23,660 --> 00:28:26,413
But if all of this
has taught me something…
421
00:28:28,582 --> 00:28:29,625
…it's that maybe I should.
422
00:28:31,501 --> 00:28:32,544
Oh, my God.
423
00:28:34,838 --> 00:28:36,965
This is me. Exclamation mark.
424
00:28:42,137 --> 00:28:44,139
Neuf.
425
00:29:05,786 --> 00:29:09,790
I will never forget what I saw that day.
426
00:29:14,878 --> 00:29:16,213
What did I see that day?
427
00:29:19,258 --> 00:29:22,094
Okay. Survivor of bombing.
428
00:29:24,096 --> 00:29:25,514
Ew.
429
00:29:25,597 --> 00:29:26,598
Oh, my God.
430
00:29:32,271 --> 00:29:34,523
That's good. That's a good idea.
431
00:29:40,028 --> 00:29:41,905
- Hello?
- Hey, Mom. Hi, Mom.
432
00:29:41,989 --> 00:29:43,532
- How are you, Danni?
- Hi, Mom. Yeah.
433
00:29:43,615 --> 00:29:45,409
- No, I just had a quick question.
- Uh-huh?
434
00:29:45,492 --> 00:29:46,493
What...
435
00:29:46,994 --> 00:29:49,997
Do you remember what the name
of the support group is
436
00:29:50,080 --> 00:29:51,790
that Helen's husband used to go to?
437
00:30:07,556 --> 00:30:11,143
…and the sounds were coming,
like, 30 seconds apart.
438
00:30:11,226 --> 00:30:14,187
I'm sure it was just
a wheel on the tracks.
439
00:30:14,688 --> 00:30:16,982
Everyone else was just, you know, annoyed.
440
00:30:17,899 --> 00:30:20,068
I physically started shaking.
441
00:30:20,569 --> 00:30:24,364
I got off the train.
I just walked uptown from Canal.
442
00:30:24,448 --> 00:30:27,951
I mean, I felt like such an idiot.
And I was late.
443
00:30:29,119 --> 00:30:31,663
I was not getting back on that train.
444
00:30:31,747 --> 00:30:33,707
Loud noises can be very triggering.
445
00:30:34,541 --> 00:30:36,141
I think a lot of us struggled with that.
446
00:30:36,877 --> 00:30:39,629
I make my kids mute
the TV when they're gaming.
447
00:30:40,672 --> 00:30:43,759
They hate it.
But I can't get any work done
448
00:30:43,842 --> 00:30:47,179
when I'm hearing gunfire
or... or explosions.
449
00:30:47,262 --> 00:30:49,056
You let your kids play those?
450
00:30:50,015 --> 00:30:53,435
You don't think that's normalizing
a culture that glorifies gun violence?
451
00:30:53,518 --> 00:30:56,396
Okay, why don't we all just take a second
452
00:30:56,480 --> 00:30:59,983
and welcome our new addition.
453
00:31:01,568 --> 00:31:02,569
Hi.
454
00:31:03,153 --> 00:31:04,279
Hi.
455
00:31:04,363 --> 00:31:06,490
- What's your name?
- Danni.
456
00:31:10,285 --> 00:31:13,413
I was in Paris last week
when the bombings hit at the Arc.
457
00:31:15,457 --> 00:31:18,460
Oh. I am so sorry. Do you...
458
00:31:19,252 --> 00:31:25,133
Do you wanna share anything about how
you're... you're feeling, or your thoughts?
459
00:31:25,717 --> 00:31:27,511
Oh.
460
00:31:30,097 --> 00:31:32,516
I was just hoping to listen today.
461
00:31:33,225 --> 00:31:35,769
Of course. Of course, Danni.
In your own time.
462
00:31:36,812 --> 00:31:38,730
We're all survivors here.
463
00:31:39,981 --> 00:31:42,567
Charles, why don't you speak for a bit?
464
00:31:43,193 --> 00:31:46,405
Charles is one of our newer members.
465
00:31:46,905 --> 00:31:49,241
He just returned from the UK.
466
00:31:50,325 --> 00:31:52,244
He's also a bombing survivor.
467
00:31:52,327 --> 00:31:54,204
He was at the Ariana Grande concert.
468
00:31:56,540 --> 00:31:59,418
Look, it's not easy…
469
00:32:00,710 --> 00:32:01,711
okay?
470
00:32:03,004 --> 00:32:04,923
I mean, it's been years for me,
471
00:32:05,006 --> 00:32:07,384
and I still have to talk
about it every week.
472
00:32:10,804 --> 00:32:13,682
I'm sorry. That's not comforting. Um…
473
00:32:14,808 --> 00:32:16,268
It's not like...
474
00:32:17,310 --> 00:32:20,564
Your life doesn't end. Okay?
475
00:32:22,691 --> 00:32:25,026
I know that it probably feels
like that right now.
476
00:32:26,528 --> 00:32:27,654
It's just…
477
00:32:29,906 --> 00:32:31,241
Everything changes colors.
478
00:32:32,659 --> 00:32:35,120
Yes. That's... Exactly.
479
00:32:36,455 --> 00:32:38,415
I never would have thought
to put it like that.
480
00:32:39,833 --> 00:32:42,043
What is it for you?
481
00:32:44,671 --> 00:32:45,839
Maybe purple.
482
00:32:47,507 --> 00:32:48,592
What's yours?
483
00:32:51,887 --> 00:32:53,054
Red.
484
00:32:53,930 --> 00:32:56,850
It's like everything is red forever.
485
00:32:58,477 --> 00:33:02,772
And on one hand,
it's really vivid and intense.
486
00:33:04,900 --> 00:33:07,861
But on the other,
everything feels completely…
487
00:33:10,155 --> 00:33:11,239
monochrome.
488
00:33:13,617 --> 00:33:14,951
You relate to that, Danni?
489
00:33:17,871 --> 00:33:18,997
I just...
490
00:33:21,124 --> 00:33:22,918
Sort of understand the monochrome bit.
491
00:33:24,586 --> 00:33:26,922
That's how everything is for me too.
But mine's like…
492
00:33:29,591 --> 00:33:31,051
gray all the time.
493
00:33:33,053 --> 00:33:35,931
And how does it feel
when the world looks that way to you?
494
00:33:37,349 --> 00:33:38,433
I don't know.
495
00:33:39,226 --> 00:33:40,810
Doesn't really feel like anything.
496
00:33:43,688 --> 00:33:44,773
Just sort of numb.
497
00:33:50,529 --> 00:33:51,613
Ugh.
498
00:33:55,617 --> 00:33:56,743
See you next week.
499
00:33:56,826 --> 00:33:59,579
Yeah. I will 100% be back.
500
00:34:00,121 --> 00:34:02,374
Rowan, I am so sorry to do this to you,
501
00:34:02,457 --> 00:34:04,626
but my daughter is such
a huge fan of yours.
502
00:34:05,126 --> 00:34:07,754
Would you mind taking a quick photo
with me for her?
503
00:34:07,837 --> 00:34:11,466
- Yeah, of course.
- Thanks. I really appreciate it.
504
00:34:14,719 --> 00:34:17,097
Where's my ChapStick? Maybe I dropped it.
505
00:34:17,180 --> 00:34:18,598
Oh!
506
00:34:18,682 --> 00:34:21,768
You guys almost forgot this last chair.
507
00:34:21,851 --> 00:34:24,396
- Here.
- Oh, you're so sweet.
508
00:34:24,479 --> 00:34:25,605
So, um…
509
00:34:27,399 --> 00:34:30,193
I'm Danni, by the way. Danni Sanders.
510
00:34:31,194 --> 00:34:33,780
- Rowan. Welcome to group.
- Thanks.
511
00:34:35,490 --> 00:34:38,785
Thanks for sharing today.
I know the first meeting can be hard.
512
00:34:39,703 --> 00:34:44,624
Do you guys do, like,
post-group coffee or…
513
00:34:44,708 --> 00:34:46,960
Actually I have to run
to this school rehearsal thing.
514
00:34:47,043 --> 00:34:48,396
- No worries, no worries.
- Next time.
515
00:34:48,420 --> 00:34:49,460
- Yeah, yeah, yeah.
- Yeah.
516
00:34:49,504 --> 00:34:51,423
Maybe we can swap Insta handles
or numbers?
517
00:34:51,923 --> 00:34:52,966
Sure. Yeah.
518
00:34:53,466 --> 00:34:54,718
Okay. Yeah.
519
00:35:00,098 --> 00:35:02,642
Here. Just text me anytime, okay?
520
00:35:02,726 --> 00:35:03,810
Oh, thank you.
521
00:35:04,686 --> 00:35:06,187
Bye. I'll talk to you later.
522
00:35:06,271 --> 00:35:07,897
- See ya, Charles.
- See ya.
523
00:35:15,780 --> 00:35:18,533
I'm actually free right now
if you wanna go grab that coffee.
524
00:35:19,534 --> 00:35:21,119
Oh, gosh.
525
00:35:21,953 --> 00:35:25,248
I forgot I have this thing
that I have to do. So…
526
00:35:25,832 --> 00:35:26,875
Yeah. Okay.
527
00:35:26,958 --> 00:35:29,836
Cool. Hey, did you want my Insta handle?
528
00:35:29,919 --> 00:35:31,546
Uh…
529
00:35:31,630 --> 00:35:35,634
It's "godisawomanmann."
Two Ns. "Godisawomanmann."
530
00:35:35,717 --> 00:35:36,718
Okay.
531
00:35:47,270 --> 00:35:49,272
Today we're talking about Rowan Aldren,
532
00:35:49,356 --> 00:35:54,069
a teen gun-safety activist,
poet and social influencer.
533
00:35:54,152 --> 00:35:56,547
After surviving the Oak Valley
school shooting in North Carolina,
534
00:35:56,571 --> 00:35:59,658
Rowan came to New York to partner
with the We've Had Enough organization
535
00:35:59,741 --> 00:36:03,662
to begin her fight for gun reform.
Here's a look.
536
00:36:03,745 --> 00:36:04,788
Two miles.
537
00:36:06,206 --> 00:36:09,042
You can be two miles from a gunshot
and still hear it.
538
00:36:10,460 --> 00:36:12,504
That day,
even if you were nowhere near it,
539
00:36:12,587 --> 00:36:15,924
I swear, you heard those bullets
loud enough to fear 'em.
540
00:36:18,093 --> 00:36:19,386
Two miles.
541
00:36:20,887 --> 00:36:23,515
But the 23 at my school
carried much farther.
542
00:36:24,182 --> 00:36:27,394
Maybe that's just how it sounds
when a child dies a martyr.
543
00:36:28,603 --> 00:36:31,147
And yet, it was quiet.
544
00:36:32,399 --> 00:36:33,775
Quieter than it should have been.
545
00:36:34,859 --> 00:36:37,821
We needed a riot
and all we got was a funeral hymn.
546
00:36:38,780 --> 00:36:41,324
And someone saying, "Hey,
couldn't one of you have tackled him?"
547
00:36:43,493 --> 00:36:47,247
Two miles. And yet not a word.
548
00:36:48,373 --> 00:36:52,794
I look up at the people in power
and ask how thick are your walls
549
00:36:52,877 --> 00:36:55,088
that you can't hear what I heard?
550
00:36:56,464 --> 00:37:01,010
Well, here, behind our walls,
our lives were taken turn by turn.
551
00:37:03,138 --> 00:37:05,640
Have we earned your sympathy yet, sir?
552
00:37:08,101 --> 00:37:10,770
There is more than one person at fault
for what happened to us.
553
00:37:11,938 --> 00:37:14,983
There is more than one person
who pulled the trigger on that gun.
554
00:37:15,066 --> 00:37:16,609
And I have had enough.
555
00:37:17,110 --> 00:37:19,362
Enough pain. Enough corruption.
556
00:37:19,446 --> 00:37:21,489
Enough death. Enough destruction.
557
00:37:21,573 --> 00:37:25,493
Enough sleepless nights,
still watching my friends die.
558
00:37:26,494 --> 00:37:30,206
Enough of listening
to our politicians lie.
559
00:37:30,290 --> 00:37:31,374
Enough!
560
00:37:42,051 --> 00:37:43,136
Hey.
561
00:37:43,845 --> 00:37:47,766
- Hey.
- That is such a cute hairpin. I'm dead.
562
00:37:47,849 --> 00:37:51,603
- Oh, thank you. I made it myself.
- Cool.
563
00:37:52,771 --> 00:37:54,397
- So... No, you.
- So...
564
00:37:54,481 --> 00:37:56,167
I was just gonna say thank you
for meeting me.
565
00:37:56,191 --> 00:37:57,984
Yeah, of course. Of course.
566
00:37:58,985 --> 00:38:01,279
How are you... How are you doing?
567
00:38:01,362 --> 00:38:02,614
I'm good. Yeah.
568
00:38:02,697 --> 00:38:06,034
- I mean, I'm managing, I guess. Yeah. But…
- Yes.
569
00:38:07,827 --> 00:38:10,705
Do you have family around?
You know, like, in New York?
570
00:38:10,789 --> 00:38:13,875
Yeah. My dad cries
whenever he sees me now though.
571
00:38:13,958 --> 00:38:16,544
And my mom keeps shipping me
572
00:38:16,628 --> 00:38:19,088
wellness supplements
that she reads about on goop.
573
00:38:19,172 --> 00:38:24,260
Okay, um, well, what about your friends?
574
00:38:26,805 --> 00:38:28,223
I mean, I'm seeing you, right?
575
00:38:29,724 --> 00:38:30,809
Right.
576
00:38:31,893 --> 00:38:32,977
So, you know…
577
00:38:41,402 --> 00:38:45,990
Hey, are you... are you cool
if we, maybe, walk somewhere?
578
00:38:46,950 --> 00:38:48,076
- Yeah.
- Yeah?
579
00:38:48,827 --> 00:38:49,911
That's a good idea.
580
00:38:53,164 --> 00:38:54,457
I'm glad you reached out.
581
00:38:54,541 --> 00:38:57,794
It's gonna be great to have someone
in group who's not, like, 50.
582
00:38:57,877 --> 00:39:01,047
Oh, that's... No, I'm...
I don't think I'll...
583
00:39:02,131 --> 00:39:04,843
That was just, like,
a onetime thing for me. But...
584
00:39:05,343 --> 00:39:06,886
The support group? Why?
585
00:39:08,346 --> 00:39:11,391
I don't know.
Therapy never really worked for me.
586
00:39:13,726 --> 00:39:17,605
It's not therapy, okay?
It's better. It's... It's family.
587
00:39:19,357 --> 00:39:23,528
Besides, I mean, who's gonna help me
explain TikTok references to the boomers?
588
00:39:23,611 --> 00:39:26,614
Is TikTok a... Is it a topic
that comes up a lot in meetings?
589
00:39:26,698 --> 00:39:28,700
Oh, you would be surprised.
590
00:39:30,785 --> 00:39:34,581
So, listen. I was kinda hoping I might
be able to get your advice on something.
591
00:39:35,123 --> 00:39:37,500
Full disclosure, I stalked you online.
592
00:39:38,751 --> 00:39:41,546
That poetry you do, it's crazy.
It sounds just like Hamilton.
593
00:39:42,964 --> 00:39:44,883
Yeah, it's... it's called spoken word.
594
00:39:44,966 --> 00:39:46,801
Cool, cool, cool. I'm a writer too.
595
00:39:46,885 --> 00:39:47,886
Oh, cool.
596
00:39:47,969 --> 00:39:50,013
Yeah. And I actually have
this article due right now
597
00:39:50,096 --> 00:39:51,576
for the magazine that I'm working at.
598
00:39:51,639 --> 00:39:53,433
And I feel really stuck.
599
00:39:53,516 --> 00:39:54,893
Like, I just...
600
00:39:55,935 --> 00:39:58,688
I don't know if you could
give me any tips, or…
601
00:39:59,188 --> 00:40:00,440
It's about what happened?
602
00:40:01,149 --> 00:40:02,567
And I brought my laptop.
603
00:40:02,650 --> 00:40:06,487
I don't know. We could hole up
at one of those little writer-y cafés.
604
00:40:06,571 --> 00:40:07,655
You could be my coach.
605
00:40:08,573 --> 00:40:10,325
- Sure.
- Thank you. Okay.
606
00:40:10,408 --> 00:40:13,828
You know, actually,
I wanted to take you here first.
607
00:40:14,495 --> 00:40:16,331
I think it could be super helpful.
608
00:40:16,414 --> 00:40:19,375
Before you write, you have to deal with
why you're feeling stuck.
609
00:40:20,460 --> 00:40:23,504
- Oh, okay, so... And then we'll go write?
- Yeah. Come on.
610
00:40:23,588 --> 00:40:24,589
Okay.
611
00:40:26,799 --> 00:40:28,259
What is this place?
612
00:40:28,760 --> 00:40:30,595
How do you feel about breaking things?
613
00:40:31,262 --> 00:40:34,515
Fuck the Senate for not passing
that background check bill last week.
614
00:40:37,518 --> 00:40:38,561
Now you try.
615
00:40:39,687 --> 00:40:41,481
Oh. Um…
616
00:40:42,231 --> 00:40:43,316
Okay.
617
00:40:48,237 --> 00:40:49,781
Fuck the bombing in Paris.
618
00:40:49,864 --> 00:40:52,617
No, you're not mad enough, okay?
You have to feel it.
619
00:40:53,743 --> 00:40:58,456
Okay. What if I don't...
What if I don't feel angry?
620
00:40:59,207 --> 00:41:01,459
All right, then what do you feel?
621
00:41:02,710 --> 00:41:04,462
Well, I don't know.
622
00:41:08,508 --> 00:41:09,884
Numb.
623
00:41:09,968 --> 00:41:11,052
Still numb.
624
00:41:12,553 --> 00:41:15,598
Use that. Smash the numbness.
625
00:41:18,518 --> 00:41:19,978
Smash the numbness.
626
00:41:24,691 --> 00:41:26,442
Good. Again.
627
00:41:28,403 --> 00:41:31,155
Yes. Okay, you feel that?
Keep going. Let it out!
628
00:41:32,407 --> 00:41:35,243
That's it. Let it out.
Yell if you want to.
629
00:41:37,286 --> 00:41:38,287
Fuck you.
630
00:42:00,935 --> 00:42:05,356
Look, what you asked before...
That is how I write.
631
00:42:06,232 --> 00:42:07,692
You have to attack it.
632
00:42:08,526 --> 00:42:10,862
That is what's gonna make
people pay attention. Okay?
633
00:42:10,945 --> 00:42:13,573
No more scrolling past headlines.
No more distractions.
634
00:42:15,450 --> 00:42:16,993
We do that with our truth.
635
00:42:19,620 --> 00:42:21,456
If you're not okay, that's okay.
636
00:42:22,582 --> 00:42:25,043
You know as... as fucked up as it sounds,
637
00:42:26,127 --> 00:42:28,212
your pain is your biggest asset.
638
00:42:36,721 --> 00:42:37,722
Yeah.
639
00:42:50,943 --> 00:42:51,944
Oh, my God.
640
00:42:53,988 --> 00:42:54,989
Okay.
641
00:42:57,825 --> 00:42:59,786
I'll never forget what I saw that day.
642
00:43:00,286 --> 00:43:03,039
But the truth is,
you don't need to hear it.
643
00:43:03,706 --> 00:43:05,333
All you need to know is…
644
00:43:05,416 --> 00:43:09,170
I am not okay.
645
00:43:11,380 --> 00:43:13,591
What happened in Paris changed me.
646
00:43:13,674 --> 00:43:18,346
But what I've realized since
is that my pain can actually be an asset.
647
00:43:18,429 --> 00:43:20,807
It can stop you all
from scrolling past headlines,
648
00:43:20,890 --> 00:43:25,103
distracting yourselves with baby goats
and SHEIN ads and ASMR videos.
649
00:43:25,186 --> 00:43:26,646
It can make you pay attention
650
00:43:26,729 --> 00:43:30,733
and, in turn, truly ask yourselves,
"Am I okay?"
651
00:43:30,817 --> 00:43:32,527
Am I okay?
652
00:43:32,610 --> 00:43:36,906
Now, my own sadness, my anger...
They may stem from something
653
00:43:36,989 --> 00:43:39,784
more traumatic
than you'll ever experience,
654
00:43:40,493 --> 00:43:43,121
but that doesn't mean
your pain isn't just as real.
655
00:43:43,204 --> 00:43:44,205
Yo.
656
00:43:44,288 --> 00:43:46,666
It doesn't mean
you're not waking up every day
657
00:43:46,749 --> 00:43:49,502
feeling numb and useless and alone.
658
00:43:50,002 --> 00:43:51,838
I think a lot of us are.
659
00:43:52,463 --> 00:43:53,923
So I wanna invite you.
660
00:43:54,006 --> 00:43:58,177
Take this opportunity to share your truth,
share your pain.
661
00:43:58,261 --> 00:44:01,472
You've got nothing to lose
and everything to gain.
662
00:44:01,556 --> 00:44:02,849
Let's make the world wake up
663
00:44:02,932 --> 00:44:05,351
and pay attention
to the fact that we're all hurting,
664
00:44:05,434 --> 00:44:07,937
and it's time to stop being so afraid.
665
00:44:08,020 --> 00:44:10,940
We stan a fearless queen.
666
00:44:11,023 --> 00:44:14,569
- Hey, Danni. Booch?
- Sure.
667
00:44:14,652 --> 00:44:16,445
Oh, my God. Cheers.
668
00:44:17,280 --> 00:44:18,364
Cheers.
669
00:44:21,993 --> 00:44:24,495
So as BLM and MeToo came before us,
670
00:44:24,579 --> 00:44:31,460
let us usher in a new era of honesty
on the Internet. #IAmNotOkay.
671
00:44:34,297 --> 00:44:35,715
This is a lockdown drill.
672
00:44:35,798 --> 00:44:38,968
All students and teachers
please follow lockdown procedure.
673
00:44:50,479 --> 00:44:53,900
Here's the article.
It would mean a lot if you reposted.
674
00:44:53,983 --> 00:44:55,735
Couldn't have written it without you.
675
00:44:55,818 --> 00:44:57,737
Dancing girls emoji,
sparkling heart emoji.
676
00:45:04,160 --> 00:45:06,537
Congrats, @TheDanniSanders.
677
00:45:07,413 --> 00:45:10,833
If you haven't read her article yet,
it's up on Depravity right now.
678
00:45:13,920 --> 00:45:18,382
#IAmNotOkay.
679
00:45:40,655 --> 00:45:42,490
I feel empty all the time.
680
00:45:42,573 --> 00:45:44,253
I can't sleep
because our planet is fucked.
681
00:45:46,244 --> 00:45:48,371
- I am not okay.
- I am not okay.
682
00:45:48,454 --> 00:45:50,081
I am not okay.
683
00:45:50,164 --> 00:45:52,458
We are not okay.
684
00:45:52,541 --> 00:45:54,377
#IAmNotOkay.
685
00:45:58,714 --> 00:46:00,424
Danni, you had a big week.
686
00:46:01,634 --> 00:46:03,636
Do you wanna talk a little
687
00:46:03,719 --> 00:46:06,973
about how it felt
to publish such a personal piece?
688
00:46:08,140 --> 00:46:09,350
Uh…
689
00:46:10,017 --> 00:46:11,018
Honestly…
690
00:46:14,397 --> 00:46:16,190
it's been amazing.
691
00:46:16,274 --> 00:46:20,611
It's just so freeing
to finally admit that I am not okay.
692
00:46:21,112 --> 00:46:25,032
And it's so crazy
to see all these celebrities
693
00:46:25,741 --> 00:46:28,703
using my hashtag
to talk about their trauma.
694
00:46:28,786 --> 00:46:30,663
Did you see Kendall Jenner's post?
695
00:46:30,746 --> 00:46:32,123
- You did?
- Oh, yeah.
696
00:46:32,206 --> 00:46:34,959
I had no idea
that she was so discriminated against.
697
00:46:36,502 --> 00:46:38,296
You always hear these horror stories
698
00:46:38,379 --> 00:46:41,299
of people in the spotlight
getting all this hate, but I don't know.
699
00:46:41,382 --> 00:46:43,009
Doesn't seem to be happening to me.
700
00:46:44,802 --> 00:46:47,680
Well,
you should still be prepared if it does.
701
00:46:49,765 --> 00:46:51,851
I think what Rowan is trying to say is,
702
00:46:52,518 --> 00:46:57,231
some people on the Internet just
aren't as nice as we'd like them to be.
703
00:46:57,982 --> 00:47:00,901
I think I can handle, like,
one troll on Twitter.
704
00:47:03,070 --> 00:47:05,031
I've been through a lot worse, right?
705
00:47:06,615 --> 00:47:08,159
Right. Yeah, of course.
706
00:47:12,455 --> 00:47:16,417
So, wait. Did I hear you guys were doing,
like, a kickball game on Saturday?
707
00:47:16,500 --> 00:47:20,504
Yeah. It's kind of the best time.
You should come.
708
00:47:20,588 --> 00:47:22,548
Yeah, sure. I'm down.
709
00:47:22,631 --> 00:47:27,803
You know, I owe you a major,
major thank you for posting my article.
710
00:47:28,721 --> 00:47:30,890
You're one of the main reasons
that it blew up.
711
00:47:30,973 --> 00:47:32,475
I mean, you and Kendall.
712
00:47:32,558 --> 00:47:34,602
No, I'm... I'm happy to help.
713
00:47:35,561 --> 00:47:39,190
And listen, I didn't... I didn't mean
to sound pessimistic or anything in group.
714
00:47:39,273 --> 00:47:40,941
- I just... I...
- Oh, no.
715
00:47:41,025 --> 00:47:44,570
I know the Internet likes
to turn victims into villains sometimes.
716
00:47:44,653 --> 00:47:48,366
And I am an expert at blocking,
so I am here if you need me.
717
00:47:48,449 --> 00:47:49,450
Thank you.
718
00:47:51,535 --> 00:47:54,497
So, what are these mysterious rehearsals
you're always walking to?
719
00:47:54,580 --> 00:47:57,041
Oh, uh, this thing called Act Up
at my school.
720
00:47:57,124 --> 00:47:58,334
It's, um...
721
00:47:58,417 --> 00:48:01,257
Well, they call it a talent show
for the most talented kids in New York.
722
00:48:01,295 --> 00:48:03,214
No pressure or anything.
723
00:48:03,297 --> 00:48:06,133
No pressure? Rowan,
you're literally the most talented person
724
00:48:06,217 --> 00:48:08,803
- that I have ever met in my entire... Yes.
- Oh, my God. No.
725
00:48:08,886 --> 00:48:11,222
- What do you mean, "no"?
- It's a lot to juggle, okay?
726
00:48:11,305 --> 00:48:14,433
It's... I've got another rally
coming up next week,
727
00:48:14,517 --> 00:48:16,894
- and I always get so anxious.
- Really?
728
00:48:16,977 --> 00:48:18,479
I have really bad stage fright.
729
00:48:18,562 --> 00:48:19,939
- I don't believe that.
- No, I do.
730
00:48:20,022 --> 00:48:23,359
I mean, back at Oak Valley,
Cora, my sister...
731
00:48:23,442 --> 00:48:26,570
She literally had to, like,
hype me up before every book report.
732
00:48:26,654 --> 00:48:27,947
That's cute.
733
00:48:28,030 --> 00:48:30,991
Yeah. She would, like,
blast cheesy oldies music in her car.
734
00:48:31,075 --> 00:48:33,994
- Like, dad tunes?
- Yeah. Like, Avril Lavigne.
735
00:48:34,078 --> 00:48:36,914
Did you just say
that Avril Lavigne is oldies?
736
00:48:37,623 --> 00:48:41,127
I can't. I didn't know you had a sister.
737
00:48:41,210 --> 00:48:43,295
- She older or younger?
- I'm right here.
738
00:48:43,379 --> 00:48:44,922
She's... She's older.
739
00:48:46,757 --> 00:48:48,050
You're so lucky.
740
00:48:48,134 --> 00:48:52,096
I've always wanted a sister.
Being an only child is so boring.
741
00:48:52,179 --> 00:48:55,391
Does she, like, sneak you beers
and all that fun stuff?
742
00:48:56,934 --> 00:48:59,353
Uh, no. Actually, she's, um…
743
00:49:01,564 --> 00:49:04,191
She... She died in the shooting.
744
00:49:10,698 --> 00:49:11,699
Shit.
745
00:49:13,701 --> 00:49:16,412
I'm gonna... I'll see you later.
746
00:49:23,919 --> 00:49:25,921
Sept.
747
00:49:31,135 --> 00:49:33,971
Our most popular article
in two and a half years.
748
00:49:34,054 --> 00:49:40,186
Covered in The Cut, Refinery29,
BuzzFeed, and trending on Twitter,
749
00:49:40,269 --> 00:49:42,146
all because of you, Danni.
750
00:49:43,022 --> 00:49:44,148
- Damn.
- You can clap.
751
00:49:44,231 --> 00:49:46,358
That's an appropriate response.
752
00:49:46,442 --> 00:49:48,152
Thanks, everyone.
753
00:49:48,861 --> 00:49:50,488
Knock, knock.
754
00:49:50,571 --> 00:49:51,864
Who's there? It's me.
755
00:49:51,947 --> 00:49:57,411
Um, I just wanted to say that, um,
your article gave me the courage
756
00:49:57,495 --> 00:49:59,330
to finally speak up to my DnD Discord.
757
00:49:59,413 --> 00:50:02,416
I told them about my trypophobia.
758
00:50:02,500 --> 00:50:05,002
It means I have a fear of small holes.
759
00:50:05,085 --> 00:50:09,048
Um, like this cookie is terrifying to me,
760
00:50:09,131 --> 00:50:13,052
but you've given me the strength
to eat the cookie.
761
00:50:16,180 --> 00:50:18,474
Hey. Yo, Kevin.
Mind if I steal Danni for a sec?
762
00:50:19,016 --> 00:50:22,186
It's Kelvin. It's like the base unit
of thermodynamic temperature.
763
00:50:22,269 --> 00:50:24,480
- Hey, whatever. So, uh...
- Hi, Colin.
764
00:50:24,563 --> 00:50:26,857
Shout-out from Rowan Aldren, huh? Damn.
765
00:50:26,941 --> 00:50:28,734
- She's famous as fuck.
- Is she?
766
00:50:30,110 --> 00:50:31,570
She's just Rowan to me.
767
00:50:32,404 --> 00:50:33,864
We met in our support group, so…
768
00:50:33,948 --> 00:50:35,491
All right, so listen. This...
769
00:50:36,242 --> 00:50:38,911
I got this event this weekend.
It's like a party.
770
00:50:38,994 --> 00:50:40,746
Influencer stuff. Saturday night.
771
00:50:41,330 --> 00:50:45,251
I can get you on that list.
But you wanna come through?
772
00:50:46,460 --> 00:50:47,461
Yes.
773
00:50:47,545 --> 00:50:48,963
- Yeah?
- Yeah, I mean, if I can...
774
00:50:49,880 --> 00:50:52,049
If you can get...
If you can get me on that list.
775
00:50:52,132 --> 00:50:53,384
Yeah, I'll get you on that.
776
00:50:53,467 --> 00:50:55,469
I'll send you the deets.
DM me your number.
777
00:50:55,553 --> 00:50:56,929
- Okay.
- All right, late.
778
00:50:57,471 --> 00:50:58,472
Bye.
779
00:51:03,269 --> 00:51:06,021
So, I guess
you're officially a writer now.
780
00:51:06,647 --> 00:51:08,023
Hmm, I guess so.
781
00:51:08,524 --> 00:51:10,776
Did I, uh, hear you're getting an office?
782
00:51:10,859 --> 00:51:13,404
Well, Susan just told me. Crazy, right?
783
00:51:14,196 --> 00:51:16,657
- That is... That is crazy.
- Let me go talk to her.
784
00:51:16,740 --> 00:51:18,325
You know, I meant to ask you.
785
00:51:18,409 --> 00:51:21,120
What was the name of that retreat
that you went on?
786
00:51:21,203 --> 00:51:22,204
L'Esprit Nouveau.
787
00:51:22,288 --> 00:51:25,141
Cool. Where'd you hear about it?
I've been looking for journalism programs.
788
00:51:25,165 --> 00:51:27,205
I just haven't really found one
that's right for me.
789
00:51:28,252 --> 00:51:31,022
I read this article. It was like,
I don't know, I can't remember exactly,
790
00:51:31,046 --> 00:51:34,592
"Top Ten Famous Writers' Retreats"
or something, you know.
791
00:51:34,675 --> 00:51:35,968
- Well, yeah. Super easy.
- Yeah.
792
00:51:36,051 --> 00:51:39,555
It was honestly so beautiful.
So, so beautiful.
793
00:51:39,638 --> 00:51:42,808
Before, you know, it all went down.
794
00:51:42,891 --> 00:51:43,892
Right, right.
795
00:51:44,685 --> 00:51:46,437
Toured this gorgeous cathedral...
796
00:51:46,520 --> 00:51:47,646
Oh, nice. Which one?
797
00:51:50,733 --> 00:51:51,859
Which cathedral?
798
00:51:54,862 --> 00:51:55,863
Notre-Dame.
799
00:51:57,531 --> 00:51:58,532
Interesting.
800
00:51:58,616 --> 00:52:00,409
Six.
801
00:52:05,581 --> 00:52:06,957
Anyway,
802
00:52:07,041 --> 00:52:10,836
it... it was obviously
a really awesome opportunity,
803
00:52:11,545 --> 00:52:13,756
but mainly I'm just so happy to be alive.
804
00:52:13,839 --> 00:52:14,840
Hmm.
805
00:52:14,923 --> 00:52:16,759
I'm gonna... I gotta... Do one…
806
00:52:16,842 --> 00:52:17,843
- Yeah.
- …thing.
807
00:52:20,054 --> 00:52:21,055
Notre-Dame.
808
00:52:22,306 --> 00:52:24,058
♪ Fuck you ♪
809
00:52:24,141 --> 00:52:26,560
♪ And you, and you ♪
810
00:52:26,644 --> 00:52:30,314
♪ I hate your friends
And they hate me too ♪
811
00:52:30,397 --> 00:52:31,482
♪ I'm through ♪
812
00:52:31,565 --> 00:52:32,650
♪ I'm through ♪
813
00:52:32,733 --> 00:52:33,734
What's your name?
814
00:52:34,777 --> 00:52:36,987
Um… Danni.
815
00:52:37,738 --> 00:52:39,281
- Danni what?
- Um…
816
00:52:39,365 --> 00:52:40,491
Danni Sanders.
817
00:52:41,992 --> 00:52:43,327
Oh, my God. Of course.
818
00:52:43,410 --> 00:52:44,970
You're the girl from the Paris attacks.
819
00:52:45,037 --> 00:52:46,747
- #IAmNotOkay.
- Mm-hmm.
820
00:52:46,830 --> 00:52:48,374
- Come in, girl.
- Thank you.
821
00:52:48,916 --> 00:52:50,209
♪ I swear she had a man ♪
822
00:52:50,292 --> 00:52:53,003
♪ But shit hit different
When it's Thursday night ♪
823
00:52:53,087 --> 00:52:54,287
♪ That college dropout music ♪
824
00:52:54,338 --> 00:52:56,090
♪ Every day leg day
She be too thick ♪
825
00:52:56,173 --> 00:52:58,092
♪ And my friends are all annoying ♪
826
00:52:58,175 --> 00:52:59,927
♪ But we go dumb
Yeah, we go stupid ♪
827
00:53:00,010 --> 00:53:01,178
♪ This that 10K on… ♪
828
00:53:01,261 --> 00:53:02,429
Danni.
829
00:53:04,223 --> 00:53:05,557
Yo, give me a hug.
830
00:53:07,351 --> 00:53:09,019
- Danni Sanders?
- Hey, you smell nice.
831
00:53:09,103 --> 00:53:10,562
- What?
- Bonsoir.
832
00:53:10,646 --> 00:53:12,481
- Oh, hi.
- Look at you.
833
00:53:12,564 --> 00:53:14,650
We have a photo opportunity
right over here.
834
00:53:14,733 --> 00:53:15,943
- Cool.
- Hey, let's get a pic.
835
00:53:16,026 --> 00:53:17,152
- Yes!
- Come on.
836
00:53:18,654 --> 00:53:19,655
Cool.
837
00:53:19,738 --> 00:53:22,533
Y'all, this is Danni Sanders.
She was in the Paris attacks, yo.
838
00:53:22,616 --> 00:53:24,159
Hi, Danni Sanders.
839
00:53:24,243 --> 00:53:25,244
Ooh.
840
00:53:27,955 --> 00:53:30,040
Let's not forget the signature red beret.
841
00:53:32,292 --> 00:53:33,544
Get one with the beret.
842
00:53:36,046 --> 00:53:37,047
Here.
843
00:53:38,090 --> 00:53:39,091
All the way in?
844
00:53:42,511 --> 00:53:44,179
That's it. Smile.
845
00:53:44,263 --> 00:53:46,432
I wanted to ask you, actually.
846
00:53:46,515 --> 00:53:49,435
Snapchat is thinking of
doing a beret filter,
847
00:53:49,518 --> 00:53:52,062
you know, to honor everyone lost in Paris.
848
00:53:52,146 --> 00:53:53,939
Can we reach out to you about a collab?
849
00:53:54,022 --> 00:53:56,275
- Yeah.
- Amazing. I'll have them DM.
850
00:53:56,358 --> 00:53:57,860
And don't forget a gift bag.
851
00:53:57,943 --> 00:53:59,486
- Oh, okay.
- Au revoir.
852
00:53:59,570 --> 00:54:00,821
- Thank you. Bye.
- Bye.
853
00:54:02,406 --> 00:54:04,450
- Are these free or…
- Yeah, fuck yeah.
854
00:54:04,533 --> 00:54:06,368
Take as many as you want.
No one gives a shit.
855
00:54:06,452 --> 00:54:07,536
Take, like, ten.
856
00:54:08,245 --> 00:54:09,496
Okay.
857
00:54:10,372 --> 00:54:11,999
Hey, bartender.
858
00:54:12,082 --> 00:54:15,169
Can we get two tequila shots, please?
You got Kendall Jenner's brand?
859
00:54:15,252 --> 00:54:16,253
Dope.
860
00:54:16,879 --> 00:54:18,505
- This is crazy.
- Yeah.
861
00:54:19,089 --> 00:54:20,299
Yeah, you get used to it.
862
00:54:20,883 --> 00:54:22,634
What you got now, like, 20K followers?
863
00:54:22,718 --> 00:54:24,928
Uh, 32K, actually.
864
00:54:25,012 --> 00:54:26,638
Shit. Okay.
865
00:54:27,306 --> 00:54:28,474
Hey, cheers to that.
866
00:54:29,266 --> 00:54:30,476
- Thanks.
- Yeah.
867
00:54:31,143 --> 00:54:32,394
Cheers.
868
00:54:35,439 --> 00:54:37,232
Fuck. Yo.
869
00:54:38,066 --> 00:54:41,862
I just realized, like,
I never even asked you if you were okay.
870
00:54:41,945 --> 00:54:43,864
- What?
- Are you okay?
871
00:54:43,947 --> 00:54:44,948
Yeah.
872
00:54:45,657 --> 00:54:48,076
- Why?
- 'Cause, like,
873
00:54:48,160 --> 00:54:51,163
if what happened to you ever happened
to me, I don't think I'd ever be okay.
874
00:54:52,372 --> 00:54:53,874
Right now I'm okay.
875
00:54:55,501 --> 00:54:59,713
I just wanted you to know, like…
if you weren't…
876
00:55:02,257 --> 00:55:05,093
I'd, like, be there, you know.
877
00:55:08,639 --> 00:55:10,641
Do these fucking shots, yo!
878
00:55:10,724 --> 00:55:12,351
Ah-ha!
879
00:55:12,434 --> 00:55:14,853
- Hey, do the arm thing.
- What's the arm thing?
880
00:55:14,937 --> 00:55:17,606
- The arm thing. Like this.
- Oh, that arm thing.
881
00:55:17,689 --> 00:55:18,690
Yeah.
882
00:55:26,907 --> 00:55:28,450
Hey, fuck terrorists!
883
00:55:30,953 --> 00:55:31,954
Say it. Come on.
884
00:55:33,831 --> 00:55:35,123
Fuck terrorists!
885
00:55:35,207 --> 00:55:36,935
- Yeah, fuck terrorists, yo!
- Fuck terrorists!
886
00:55:36,959 --> 00:55:38,794
The fuck you even doing, huh?
887
00:55:44,967 --> 00:55:46,134
Cinq.
888
00:55:51,890 --> 00:55:53,433
Is there somewhere else we can go?
889
00:55:56,687 --> 00:55:57,938
You read my mind.
890
00:56:11,577 --> 00:56:12,578
That's it.
891
00:56:13,787 --> 00:56:15,414
Shit's like double knotted.
892
00:56:19,751 --> 00:56:21,437
- What the fuck is that?
- They're bike shorts.
893
00:56:21,461 --> 00:56:24,172
- All right, I guess.
- Maybe I should just get 'em off.
894
00:56:24,256 --> 00:56:25,257
Okay.
895
00:56:29,428 --> 00:56:30,429
Ow.
896
00:56:34,391 --> 00:56:36,476
Fuck. You're so tight.
897
00:56:36,560 --> 00:56:37,561
Jesus.
898
00:56:38,478 --> 00:56:40,105
Who's my damaged little girl, huh?
899
00:56:41,481 --> 00:56:42,691
You're damaged?
900
00:56:43,859 --> 00:56:45,485
Don't worry, I'ma protect you.
901
00:56:46,320 --> 00:56:48,655
I ain't gonna let anything bad
happen to you now.
902
00:56:50,657 --> 00:56:54,536
You're so fucking helpless.
Yeah, you're so fucking helpless.
903
00:57:10,677 --> 00:57:12,095
Did you just come in me?
904
00:57:54,930 --> 00:57:57,770
Hey, what's good? It's your boy, Colin.
You know I got the honeys on me.
905
00:57:57,849 --> 00:58:01,561
We had a time, about to roll out.
You know we headed to LAVO.
906
00:58:01,645 --> 00:58:02,813
Lick my face, girl.
907
00:58:06,608 --> 00:58:08,986
This is going great, clearly.
908
00:58:30,674 --> 00:58:33,760
What's so different about that?
909
00:58:33,844 --> 00:58:34,845
Hey, guys!
910
00:58:36,054 --> 00:58:38,223
- Danni!
- Hey. Oh, my God.
911
00:58:38,306 --> 00:58:39,850
- You made it.
- I made it!
912
00:58:39,933 --> 00:58:42,269
- You look, uh…
- A tad overdressed?
913
00:58:42,352 --> 00:58:44,187
- Do you want a T-shirt?
- Yes, please.
914
00:58:44,271 --> 00:58:47,232
- Do you have an extra one?
- Charles made them.
915
00:58:47,315 --> 00:58:48,900
- Cute.
- Hey!
916
00:58:48,984 --> 00:58:50,694
- Welcome to the league.
- Thanks!
917
00:58:50,777 --> 00:58:53,697
Just like softball only less dangerous.
918
00:58:53,780 --> 00:58:54,781
Yay!
919
00:58:55,699 --> 00:58:57,451
- You look amazing.
- I look... You want to...
920
00:58:57,534 --> 00:58:59,578
You want the look
to get even more elevated?
921
00:58:59,661 --> 00:59:01,496
- Yeah. How are you...
- Are you ready?
922
00:59:01,580 --> 00:59:04,249
You didn't think it could get better.
Whoa!
923
00:59:04,332 --> 00:59:08,211
- Oh, yes. The bike shorts.
- The power of the bike shorts.
924
00:59:08,295 --> 00:59:09,963
Come on,
we're gonna start a new game.
925
00:59:10,047 --> 00:59:11,256
Okay, coming!
926
00:59:12,132 --> 00:59:14,176
All right, dibs on you for my team.
927
00:59:14,259 --> 00:59:17,387
Really, are you sure about that?
I'm not so good with the sports thing.
928
00:59:21,058 --> 00:59:22,059
♪ Dee B got that heat ♪
929
00:59:22,142 --> 00:59:23,727
♪ You got that heat
You got that heat ♪
930
00:59:39,993 --> 00:59:42,788
♪ I don't wanna be on the ground
When the time flies ♪
931
00:59:42,871 --> 00:59:46,333
♪ Had so many friends goin',
"Wonder when it's my time" ♪
932
00:59:46,416 --> 00:59:48,919
♪ I live every day like
I'll die by the nighttime ♪
933
00:59:49,002 --> 00:59:52,547
♪ It took me so long
Gettin' back to my right mind ♪
934
00:59:52,631 --> 00:59:54,925
♪ Five days straight, no rest
Oh, well ♪
935
00:59:55,008 --> 00:59:58,345
♪ Eyeball a bitch, don't need no scale ♪
936
00:59:58,428 --> 01:00:00,972
♪ I've been on my shit
I don't need no help ♪
937
01:00:01,056 --> 01:00:04,434
♪ Always gettin' money
Rain, snow, sleet, hail ♪
938
01:00:04,518 --> 01:00:07,437
♪ I never used to think
I'd be on magazine covers ♪
939
01:00:07,521 --> 01:00:10,857
♪ They keep on trying to find new ways
To push my buttons ♪
940
01:00:10,941 --> 01:00:14,069
♪ I came out of the jungle
Where it rain and it thunder ♪
941
01:00:14,152 --> 01:00:17,114
♪ But I bring the heat like the summer ♪
942
01:00:17,197 --> 01:00:19,908
♪ I don't wanna be on the ground
When the time flies ♪
943
01:00:19,991 --> 01:00:23,036
♪ Had so many friends goin',
"Wonder when it's my time" ♪
944
01:00:23,120 --> 01:00:26,081
♪ I live every day like
I'll die by the nighttime ♪
945
01:00:26,164 --> 01:00:29,292
♪ It took me so long
Getting back to my right mind ♪
946
01:00:30,001 --> 01:00:32,879
I'm really, really glad
that I came out tonight.
947
01:00:32,963 --> 01:00:35,799
I thought that group was going
to be, like, depressing.
948
01:00:35,882 --> 01:00:37,592
- Mmm.
- It's actually really fun.
949
01:00:38,593 --> 01:00:39,594
We try our best.
950
01:00:40,303 --> 01:00:43,348
I don't know. Being with you guys
makes me realize what good people are.
951
01:00:44,558 --> 01:00:46,059
You're a good person too.
952
01:00:47,394 --> 01:00:48,395
Thank you.
953
01:00:54,693 --> 01:00:55,819
Bleurgh.
954
01:00:55,902 --> 01:00:57,571
- What is that?
- I don't know.
955
01:00:57,654 --> 01:00:59,906
I keep trying to like beer,
and I just don't like beer.
956
01:00:59,990 --> 01:01:01,408
I hate it, actually.
957
01:01:02,242 --> 01:01:04,286
- Can I try some?
- Oh, I pitched it really well.
958
01:01:04,369 --> 01:01:06,413
You want to try it, you rebellious teen?
959
01:01:06,955 --> 01:01:08,540
Oh, my God. It's just a sip.
960
01:01:13,670 --> 01:01:15,755
Yeah.
No, I think it's pretty good, actually.
961
01:01:15,839 --> 01:01:17,132
- Really?
- Yeah.
962
01:01:17,674 --> 01:01:19,092
- Okay, no.
- Whoa!
963
01:01:19,176 --> 01:01:20,177
Hey.
964
01:01:20,719 --> 01:01:22,762
We're having fun...
We're not having too much fun.
965
01:01:22,846 --> 01:01:25,390
- Really?
- Yeah. Just the right amount of fun.
966
01:01:25,473 --> 01:01:29,060
Oh, my God. You sound just like my sister.
967
01:01:31,104 --> 01:01:32,564
You don't have to talk about it.
968
01:01:32,647 --> 01:01:34,399
No, no. I, um…
969
01:01:35,859 --> 01:01:37,485
I want to, I... I do. It's…
970
01:01:38,486 --> 01:01:40,697
It's nice.
I... I wish I could do it more often.
971
01:01:42,866 --> 01:01:43,867
It's just…
972
01:01:46,369 --> 01:01:48,413
You know,
not a lot of people know she exists.
973
01:01:50,040 --> 01:01:53,460
I don't...
I don't talk about her in my speeches.
974
01:01:55,670 --> 01:01:57,339
I mean, I wish I could, but, uh…
975
01:02:00,217 --> 01:02:01,218
Well…
976
01:02:10,101 --> 01:02:11,937
Do you want to do something fun next week?
977
01:02:15,815 --> 01:02:16,858
Um…
978
01:02:18,151 --> 01:02:20,195
Maybe, I don't, um... I...
979
01:02:20,987 --> 01:02:25,325
I have a lot of prep stuff to do
for the "We've Had Enough" rally. I...
980
01:02:26,368 --> 01:02:29,496
God, I haven't even started working
on what I'm going to say yet, so…
981
01:02:32,374 --> 01:02:33,667
Do you want me to help you?
982
01:02:35,085 --> 01:02:36,670
Do you want me to help you write it?
983
01:02:36,753 --> 01:02:39,172
People online keep saying
that we have super similar voices.
984
01:02:40,715 --> 01:02:42,842
And we could even, like,
perform it together.
985
01:02:45,762 --> 01:02:46,972
Uh…
986
01:02:47,055 --> 01:02:48,223
- What?
- Yeah.
987
01:02:48,306 --> 01:02:49,641
- Yeah?
- Yeah, I mean…
988
01:02:50,433 --> 01:02:52,644
I've never really performed
with anyone else before,
989
01:02:52,727 --> 01:02:55,272
but, I don't know,
it could be kind of fun. I...
990
01:02:55,355 --> 01:02:57,023
Could be really fun.
991
01:02:57,107 --> 01:03:00,360
We'd be leading a revolution
together like Katniss and Rue.
992
01:03:04,656 --> 01:03:06,259
- It'll be fun though, right?
- Yeah, it...
993
01:03:06,283 --> 01:03:07,963
It would be nice to not be alone up there.
994
01:03:08,034 --> 01:03:09,035
Yeah.
995
01:03:10,370 --> 01:03:11,579
I got your back, sis.
996
01:03:15,500 --> 01:03:16,626
Rowan!
997
01:03:18,420 --> 01:03:21,172
That would be my ride, so…
998
01:03:23,425 --> 01:03:24,509
Oh.
999
01:03:27,637 --> 01:03:29,055
All right. I'll see you.
1000
01:03:32,100 --> 01:03:33,226
And get home safe.
1001
01:03:40,942 --> 01:03:42,402
Quatre.
1002
01:04:02,422 --> 01:04:04,382
Here. For you.
1003
01:04:11,306 --> 01:04:13,433
What the fuck am I supposed to do with...
1004
01:04:23,318 --> 01:04:25,820
♪ It's a mood ♪
1005
01:04:25,904 --> 01:04:30,033
We are here with Danni Sanders,
the girl of the moment,
1006
01:04:30,116 --> 01:04:33,161
who rose to Internet fame
after surviving the Paris bombings.
1007
01:04:33,244 --> 01:04:37,540
You know her as the girl
behind the hashtag, "I Am Not Okay."
1008
01:04:37,624 --> 01:04:42,170
But, girl. Right now, can I just say,
you look more than okay.
1009
01:04:42,253 --> 01:04:43,671
Are we getting a shot of this fit?
1010
01:04:46,633 --> 01:04:49,677
So, you and your new bestie Rowan Aldren,
1011
01:04:49,761 --> 01:04:52,138
you've been blowing up our Insta feeds.
1012
01:04:52,222 --> 01:04:54,516
I mean, speaking of bombings, okay.
1013
01:04:54,599 --> 01:04:57,352
So, what are you two up to lately?
I know that you've both posted
1014
01:04:57,435 --> 01:05:01,731
about this "We've Had Enough" rally
that you're going to be speaking at.
1015
01:05:01,815 --> 01:05:03,149
That's right.
1016
01:05:03,233 --> 01:05:06,528
Enough is an incredible organization,
1017
01:05:06,611 --> 01:05:10,281
and I'm so, so thankful to Rowan
for introducing me to it.
1018
01:05:10,365 --> 01:05:15,578
She's been such an amazing guide
into my new identity as an activist.
1019
01:05:15,662 --> 01:05:16,663
One second.
1020
01:05:16,746 --> 01:05:20,959
There is so much to learn,
and it's just such an important cause...
1021
01:05:21,000 --> 01:05:23,670
- And I have to stop you right there.
- Okay.
1022
01:05:23,753 --> 01:05:26,005
I'm so sorry,
that's all the time that we have.
1023
01:05:26,089 --> 01:05:29,926
'Cause next up, Danni and I,
we're doing goat yoga.
1024
01:05:30,510 --> 01:05:32,929
- Harper, hi.
- Hi.
1025
01:05:33,805 --> 01:05:36,266
Susan wants you to punch up my RBG article
1026
01:05:36,349 --> 01:05:38,768
to give it, and I quote,
"more viral potential."
1027
01:05:38,852 --> 01:05:40,895
- Hmm.
- That's the latest draft.
1028
01:05:42,397 --> 01:05:45,066
All righty.
Thank you so much for bringing this over.
1029
01:05:46,693 --> 01:05:47,861
How? Hmm.
1030
01:05:50,029 --> 01:05:52,240
Yeah, it's just gonna need a little work.
1031
01:05:52,323 --> 01:05:56,369
But I probably won't be able to get to it
till next week. I'm heading out right now.
1032
01:05:56,453 --> 01:05:58,538
You taking another mental health day?
1033
01:06:00,957 --> 01:06:03,501
No, I'm not taking
another mental health day.
1034
01:06:03,585 --> 01:06:07,464
I'm going to the "We've Had Enough" rally,
actually. Have you heard of it?
1035
01:06:09,090 --> 01:06:11,092
- Yeah.
- Yeah. That's where I'm going.
1036
01:06:12,635 --> 01:06:14,995
You know, Harper, you could probably
get your own office too
1037
01:06:15,054 --> 01:06:17,223
if you worked on that positivity a little.
1038
01:06:18,433 --> 01:06:19,476
Hey, there's my girl.
1039
01:06:20,685 --> 01:06:22,312
- Hey, you want to chill later?
- No.
1040
01:06:22,395 --> 01:06:23,688
- What about tomorrow?
- No.
1041
01:06:23,771 --> 01:06:27,025
What about, like, uh...
Like next Wednesday or something?
1042
01:06:27,108 --> 01:06:28,693
I'm just busy.
1043
01:06:28,776 --> 01:06:31,905
Yeah, I'm busy trying to make the world
a better place, Colin.
1044
01:06:31,988 --> 01:06:33,257
- Yeah.
- I see what you're doing.
1045
01:06:33,281 --> 01:06:36,075
It's like a...
Like a hard-to-get kind of thing.
1046
01:06:36,159 --> 01:06:38,077
- I'm gonna go now.
- Okay, you go.
1047
01:06:38,953 --> 01:06:40,455
Go. You follow your dreams.
1048
01:06:41,372 --> 01:06:43,917
- I'll see you later.
- No, you won't.
1049
01:06:46,085 --> 01:06:47,420
Bitches, am I right?
1050
01:06:50,131 --> 01:06:52,800
Damn, she still got that backside
on her though.
1051
01:06:52,884 --> 01:06:55,303
Got that thickie. That fatty, right?
1052
01:06:55,386 --> 01:06:57,555
Colin, you're from Maine.
1053
01:07:00,391 --> 01:07:02,769
Okay. Cool, Harper. Great.
1054
01:07:03,686 --> 01:07:05,772
We all know information about each other.
1055
01:07:06,356 --> 01:07:07,565
I still got bars.
1056
01:07:08,191 --> 01:07:10,068
I still got bars for days, bro.
1057
01:07:10,151 --> 01:07:12,320
You know, we chose goat yoga
1058
01:07:12,403 --> 01:07:14,489
because you're the greatest of all time.
1059
01:07:14,989 --> 01:07:19,410
I sit on my throne.
Is that a pizza? That's a calzone.
1060
01:07:30,630 --> 01:07:31,798
Hey.
1061
01:07:31,881 --> 01:07:34,175
Look, I know it's, like, so embarrassing.
1062
01:07:34,259 --> 01:07:36,386
No, it's fucking cool.
1063
01:07:36,469 --> 01:07:37,554
- Thank you.
- Come on.
1064
01:07:39,097 --> 01:07:41,349
Hey, Linda.
I didn't know you were speaking today.
1065
01:07:41,432 --> 01:07:42,559
Oh, I... I'm not.
1066
01:07:43,476 --> 01:07:47,272
So, plot twist. Linda's actually my mom.
1067
01:07:48,773 --> 01:07:50,650
For real?
1068
01:07:52,277 --> 01:07:54,612
But I thought you... you were a survivor?
1069
01:07:54,696 --> 01:07:59,367
I am. I worked at Rowan's old school
in the front office.
1070
01:08:00,535 --> 01:08:02,537
Fuck. Oh, shit. I mean...
1071
01:08:02,620 --> 01:08:05,415
Oh. No, it's fine.
1072
01:08:06,291 --> 01:08:09,294
It's a...
It's a fuck-shit kinda thing to find out.
1073
01:08:18,386 --> 01:08:21,264
So, you'll be taking the girls
directly to the stage, correct?
1074
01:08:21,347 --> 01:08:24,100
That's right. We'll be meeting security
when we get there.
1075
01:08:28,896 --> 01:08:30,982
Hey. What's up? You okay?
1076
01:08:32,442 --> 01:08:34,527
Nervous. Told you.
1077
01:08:40,575 --> 01:08:41,909
Can I have the aux?
1078
01:08:44,495 --> 01:08:45,580
Thank you.
1079
01:08:55,673 --> 01:08:57,342
♪ 'Cause life's like this… ♪
1080
01:08:59,552 --> 01:09:00,762
Avril?
1081
01:09:00,845 --> 01:09:03,473
For your stage fright.
Cheesy "oldies", right?
1082
01:09:04,057 --> 01:09:06,976
♪ Chill out, what ya yellin' for? ♪
1083
01:09:07,060 --> 01:09:09,979
♪ Lay back, it's all been done before ♪
1084
01:09:10,063 --> 01:09:14,150
♪ And if you could only let it be ♪
1085
01:09:14,233 --> 01:09:16,069
♪ You would see ♪
1086
01:09:16,152 --> 01:09:19,238
♪ I like you the way you are ♪
1087
01:09:19,322 --> 01:09:22,408
♪ When we're driving in your car ♪
1088
01:09:22,492 --> 01:09:24,744
♪ And you're… …to me ♪
1089
01:09:24,827 --> 01:09:26,204
- So stupid, you know?
- I know!
1090
01:09:26,788 --> 01:09:28,247
- Come on.
- I'm not doing that. No.
1091
01:09:28,331 --> 01:09:29,916
♪ Somebody else
'Round everyone else ♪
1092
01:09:29,999 --> 01:09:30,999
We're not...
1093
01:09:31,042 --> 01:09:33,002
♪ You're watchin' your back
Like you… ♪
1094
01:09:33,086 --> 01:09:34,087
No. Don't look at me...
1095
01:09:34,170 --> 01:09:36,589
You can't stop yourself.
You're going to have to join in.
1096
01:09:36,673 --> 01:09:38,966
♪ Look like a fool to me ♪
1097
01:09:39,050 --> 01:09:40,176
♪ Tell me ♪
1098
01:09:40,259 --> 01:09:44,097
♪ Why'd you have to go
And make things so complicated? ♪
1099
01:09:44,847 --> 01:09:46,432
♪ I see the way you're ♪
1100
01:09:46,516 --> 01:09:50,895
♪ Actin' like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated ♪
1101
01:09:50,978 --> 01:09:52,980
♪ Life's like this, you ♪
1102
01:09:53,064 --> 01:09:56,693
♪ And you fall, and you crawl
And you break, and you take what you get ♪
1103
01:09:56,776 --> 01:09:59,612
♪ And you turn it into honesty ♪
1104
01:09:59,696 --> 01:10:03,366
♪ And promise me
I'm never gonna find you fakin' ♪
1105
01:10:03,449 --> 01:10:04,534
♪ No… ♪
1106
01:10:04,617 --> 01:10:06,202
This is far as I can go.
1107
01:10:12,166 --> 01:10:13,668
You're gonna be great, baby.
1108
01:10:14,419 --> 01:10:15,795
And you too.
1109
01:10:17,505 --> 01:10:19,382
I'll be watching the whole time.
1110
01:10:23,970 --> 01:10:25,388
- Bye.
- Bye.
1111
01:10:29,392 --> 01:10:32,937
The people united will never be divided!
1112
01:10:33,020 --> 01:10:35,273
The people united will never...
1113
01:10:40,153 --> 01:10:42,321
We love you, Rowan!
1114
01:10:42,947 --> 01:10:44,532
Danni! Danni!
1115
01:11:05,428 --> 01:11:06,929
Say it with me.
1116
01:11:07,013 --> 01:11:08,514
We've had enough.
1117
01:11:08,598 --> 01:11:10,308
We've had enough!
1118
01:11:10,391 --> 01:11:13,144
We've had enough! We've had enough!
1119
01:11:13,227 --> 01:11:14,979
We've had enough!
1120
01:11:43,758 --> 01:11:46,469
My speech here today is for Cora Aldren.
1121
01:11:52,642 --> 01:11:57,230
She should have been here today to watch
her little sister up on this stage.
1122
01:12:01,359 --> 01:12:04,695
But instead,
her life was taken by violence.
1123
01:12:06,989 --> 01:12:12,161
This year, there have been
over 250 mass shootings in the US alone.
1124
01:12:12,245 --> 01:12:13,913
Over 250!
1125
01:12:14,997 --> 01:12:19,460
And across the world, we have endured
countless episodes of terrorism.
1126
01:12:19,544 --> 01:12:22,380
But if what I witnessed in Paris
taught me any...
1127
01:12:23,256 --> 01:12:25,424
- Trois.
- Uh…
1128
01:12:29,428 --> 01:12:31,305
- You got this.
- Keep going.
1129
01:12:31,389 --> 01:12:33,057
- We, uh...
- Danni!
1130
01:12:33,140 --> 01:12:35,476
We need to... We need to work together to...
1131
01:12:47,154 --> 01:12:48,197
Firecrackers!
1132
01:12:49,282 --> 01:12:51,784
They're firecrackers!
They're firecrackers!
1133
01:12:51,868 --> 01:12:53,452
Fucking snowflakes!
1134
01:12:53,536 --> 01:12:54,829
Check it out, it's okay!
1135
01:12:54,912 --> 01:12:56,831
Move out, come on. Let's go.
1136
01:12:57,498 --> 01:12:59,000
Rowan? What's happening?
1137
01:13:01,002 --> 01:13:02,169
It's okay, Rowan.
1138
01:13:02,587 --> 01:13:04,547
Rowan, it's okay. It's just firecrackers.
1139
01:13:04,630 --> 01:13:05,631
Can you do something?
1140
01:13:05,715 --> 01:13:07,133
Rowan.
1141
01:13:07,216 --> 01:13:08,426
Stop taking photos!
1142
01:13:08,509 --> 01:13:09,510
Rowan?
1143
01:13:11,262 --> 01:13:12,805
Can you tell us what's happening?
1144
01:13:18,394 --> 01:13:19,812
Is the movement over?
1145
01:13:20,688 --> 01:13:21,689
Come on!
1146
01:13:35,745 --> 01:13:38,122
Apparently, the brand
of firecracker was "Truth Bomb."
1147
01:13:38,205 --> 01:13:40,100
- Gets the libs every time.
- Rowan Aldren is a pussy.
1148
01:13:40,124 --> 01:13:41,417
So much for "bravery."
1149
01:13:41,500 --> 01:13:43,836
The libtards have a leader
as weak and stupid as they are.
1150
01:13:43,920 --> 01:13:46,422
LOLOL. Guess we don't
even need guns to win boogaloo.
1151
01:13:46,505 --> 01:13:48,883
Just throw firecrackers
and the snowflakes will surrender.
1152
01:13:48,966 --> 01:13:51,260
Rowan Aldren clearly faked
being in a school shooting
1153
01:13:51,344 --> 01:13:53,804
to get attention. #fakenews #liarliar.
1154
01:14:03,606 --> 01:14:04,607
Hi.
1155
01:14:15,743 --> 01:14:16,744
Hey.
1156
01:14:18,454 --> 01:14:19,455
Hey.
1157
01:14:22,416 --> 01:14:24,043
They give you some good drugs at least?
1158
01:14:27,713 --> 01:14:28,714
Liquid Valium.
1159
01:14:32,760 --> 01:14:35,596
Brought you some hot cocoa.
I'll bring it to you.
1160
01:14:36,263 --> 01:14:37,723
No mini marshmallows.
1161
01:14:39,016 --> 01:14:40,142
- Here.
- Thanks.
1162
01:14:48,234 --> 01:14:49,527
Well, that was embarrassing.
1163
01:14:51,821 --> 01:14:54,073
Stop. It wasn't.
1164
01:14:55,366 --> 01:14:57,451
You don't have to... I know I fucked up.
1165
01:14:57,535 --> 01:14:59,179
I know no one's gonna
take me seriously anymore.
1166
01:14:59,203 --> 01:15:01,205
Rowan, that is... that is not true.
1167
01:15:01,288 --> 01:15:03,290
I am supposed to be setting an example,
1168
01:15:04,542 --> 01:15:06,085
but I couldn't, and I just...
1169
01:15:08,629 --> 01:15:10,297
I feel so weak.
1170
01:15:13,843 --> 01:15:17,013
And if I'm weak,
then that just weakens what I stand for.
1171
01:15:17,096 --> 01:15:20,975
And everything, everyone I fought for,
it just... it all...
1172
01:15:21,058 --> 01:15:23,185
- It falls apart.
- Ro.
1173
01:15:23,269 --> 01:15:25,980
God, the alt-right is gonna
crucify me for this.
1174
01:15:27,189 --> 01:15:28,190
Look at you.
1175
01:15:29,191 --> 01:15:32,778
You need to...
Remember what you said to me? You...
1176
01:15:32,862 --> 01:15:36,323
That the Internet loves
to turn villains into victims.
1177
01:15:39,535 --> 01:15:41,120
Said it the wrong way, didn't I?
1178
01:15:46,709 --> 01:15:48,002
Yeah. Right.
1179
01:15:51,797 --> 01:15:52,965
God, I don't know...
1180
01:15:53,674 --> 01:15:57,178
I don't know how you stayed so… strong.
1181
01:15:58,304 --> 01:16:00,347
But I just, like, I saw it,
1182
01:16:00,431 --> 01:16:03,267
and it was like I was back there again,
and I...
1183
01:16:04,435 --> 01:16:06,187
Un.
1184
01:16:06,270 --> 01:16:07,938
Just coming to check your vitals.
1185
01:16:09,440 --> 01:16:10,775
Right, I'll let you guys…
1186
01:16:10,858 --> 01:16:12,443
- Oh, you're welcome to stay.
- No, no.
1187
01:16:13,360 --> 01:16:14,612
You should get some rest.
1188
01:16:15,738 --> 01:16:16,739
I'll see you later.
1189
01:16:23,287 --> 01:16:24,288
Danni?
1190
01:16:26,207 --> 01:16:30,377
I just want to thank you
for being there today.
1191
01:16:30,961 --> 01:16:32,296
Coming here.
1192
01:16:32,379 --> 01:16:35,007
I mean, honestly,
you're probably one of the only people
1193
01:16:35,091 --> 01:16:37,843
that really gets what she's been through.
1194
01:16:42,389 --> 01:16:43,390
Well…
1195
01:16:44,308 --> 01:16:45,309
I...
1196
01:16:47,061 --> 01:16:50,231
Uh, I don't, um… I have to go.
1197
01:16:51,065 --> 01:16:52,066
Okay.
1198
01:16:52,149 --> 01:16:54,527
Yeah, my phone. I have to charge my phone.
1199
01:16:54,610 --> 01:16:58,572
And I have to feed my guinea...
My guinea pig.
1200
01:16:59,949 --> 01:17:02,451
Okay.
So, I have to leave, like, right now.
1201
01:17:02,535 --> 01:17:05,204
Like, big rush, but, um…
1202
01:17:06,080 --> 01:17:07,623
But... Bye.
1203
01:17:24,014 --> 01:17:25,891
Don't look at me like that.
1204
01:17:29,603 --> 01:17:30,813
Dix.
1205
01:17:32,940 --> 01:17:34,400
Neuf.
1206
01:17:36,026 --> 01:17:37,236
Huit.
1207
01:17:38,612 --> 01:17:39,738
Sept.
1208
01:17:41,073 --> 01:17:42,158
Six.
1209
01:17:42,950 --> 01:17:44,118
Cinq.
1210
01:17:44,827 --> 01:17:45,995
Quatre.
1211
01:17:46,078 --> 01:17:47,121
Trois.
1212
01:17:47,204 --> 01:17:48,622
Deux. Un.
1213
01:18:09,810 --> 01:18:13,105
♪ Dix, neuf, huit, sept, six, cinq
Quatre, trois, deux, un ♪
1214
01:18:13,189 --> 01:18:14,231
♪ Neuf, huit, sept… ♪
1215
01:18:14,315 --> 01:18:16,901
Rowan! Rowan, no, no! No!
1216
01:18:16,984 --> 01:18:18,861
This is all your fault!
1217
01:18:18,944 --> 01:18:21,155
Stop!
1218
01:18:21,238 --> 01:18:23,365
- Your fault, Danni!
- This is your fault!
1219
01:18:23,449 --> 01:18:26,035
Your fault, Danni, this is all your fault!
1220
01:18:35,961 --> 01:18:38,088
- Hello.
- It's Harper.
1221
01:18:40,049 --> 01:18:41,050
Who?
1222
01:18:42,051 --> 01:18:44,303
Harper, from work. Can I come up?
1223
01:18:44,887 --> 01:18:47,014
Uh, yeah.
1224
01:18:47,097 --> 01:18:48,599
Uh, yeah. One sec.
1225
01:19:01,028 --> 01:19:02,821
- Hi.
- Hi.
1226
01:19:03,614 --> 01:19:04,615
Hey.
1227
01:19:07,493 --> 01:19:08,494
What's up?
1228
01:19:11,830 --> 01:19:12,831
Harper?
1229
01:19:12,915 --> 01:19:14,208
We need to talk.
1230
01:19:15,334 --> 01:19:16,377
Okay, about what?
1231
01:19:17,503 --> 01:19:18,671
About Paris.
1232
01:19:25,844 --> 01:19:28,639
I don't...
I don't know what you're talking about.
1233
01:19:28,722 --> 01:19:30,516
Remember your first day back at work?
1234
01:19:30,599 --> 01:19:34,311
You talked about how sunny and clear
it was all morning before the bombings.
1235
01:19:34,395 --> 01:19:38,232
Well, I remembered reading
it was raining right before the attacks.
1236
01:19:38,983 --> 01:19:39,984
That's weird, right?
1237
01:19:40,567 --> 01:19:42,361
But I thought, "Hey, you know what?"
1238
01:19:42,444 --> 01:19:44,571
She's confused.
She's been through a lot. It happens."
1239
01:19:45,531 --> 01:19:47,533
Then, at that party,
1240
01:19:47,616 --> 01:19:50,703
you know the one
for your brilliant article,
1241
01:19:50,786 --> 01:19:52,705
you said you went and toured Notre-Dame.
1242
01:19:54,039 --> 01:19:55,374
Which I found odd,
1243
01:19:55,457 --> 01:19:58,794
considering it's been closed to the public
since half of it burned down.
1244
01:19:58,877 --> 01:19:59,878
Okay.
1245
01:19:59,962 --> 01:20:02,715
So, I decided to look up
this retreat, L'Esprit Nouveau.
1246
01:20:02,798 --> 01:20:05,884
Other than one website,
doesn't really seem to exist.
1247
01:20:05,968 --> 01:20:08,137
And when I Googled
all the names on the list,
1248
01:20:08,220 --> 01:20:11,598
not a single one turned up anything
about writing, except yours.
1249
01:20:11,682 --> 01:20:13,702
I mean, God,
does nobody fact-check anything anymore?
1250
01:20:13,726 --> 01:20:15,853
Okay. If you just give me...
1251
01:20:15,936 --> 01:20:17,187
Uh, no. I'm not done.
1252
01:20:18,564 --> 01:20:20,190
See, I had my suspicions.
1253
01:20:20,774 --> 01:20:23,319
But I didn't have proof. Until I saw this.
1254
01:20:26,822 --> 01:20:29,366
You went through my computer?
Why would you do that?
1255
01:20:29,450 --> 01:20:34,288
You know what? Because I didn't like you.
I never trusted you.
1256
01:20:34,371 --> 01:20:37,333
The way you acted when you came back
from Paris was sus as hell.
1257
01:20:37,416 --> 01:20:39,561
And yeah, I was probably jealous
that you got an office.
1258
01:20:39,585 --> 01:20:40,961
But you know what I didn't do?
1259
01:20:41,045 --> 01:20:45,007
Lie about being in a fucking
terrorist attack to get one for myself.
1260
01:20:45,090 --> 01:20:47,652
I didn't know. How was I supposed to know
that there was going to be a...
1261
01:20:47,676 --> 01:20:50,637
I just was lying about a trip,
that was it, to get Colin's attention.
1262
01:20:50,721 --> 01:20:52,264
So what? You thought this was better
1263
01:20:52,348 --> 01:20:54,808
than admitting you lied
in a couple of Instagram stories?
1264
01:20:54,892 --> 01:20:57,978
I don't know. I don't know. I just...
Harper, I'm a different person now.
1265
01:20:58,062 --> 01:21:01,690
Please. Please, just... What do you want?
1266
01:21:01,774 --> 01:21:04,860
Do you want money? I can find you money.
My parents have a lot of connections.
1267
01:21:04,943 --> 01:21:07,237
My mom can get you into Soho House,
the one in Malibu.
1268
01:21:07,321 --> 01:21:09,114
People died, Danni!
1269
01:21:12,326 --> 01:21:14,995
Do you get that? People died.
1270
01:21:20,959 --> 01:21:21,960
I know.
1271
01:21:25,756 --> 01:21:27,758
I'm gonna give you two options here.
1272
01:21:27,841 --> 01:21:30,219
You can either wait for me
to write an article exposing you,
1273
01:21:30,302 --> 01:21:32,679
which would be really good for my career…
1274
01:21:35,557 --> 01:21:38,018
or I will give you the opportunity
to tell everyone yourself.
1275
01:21:39,019 --> 01:21:40,020
I don't...
1276
01:21:40,104 --> 01:21:41,897
You have until Monday
to make your decision.
1277
01:21:43,774 --> 01:21:45,609
Oh, and by the way,
1278
01:21:46,360 --> 01:21:47,694
whichever one you pick,
1279
01:21:49,071 --> 01:21:51,365
you owe Rowan Aldren a fucking apology.
1280
01:22:09,883 --> 01:22:11,093
Fuck.
1281
01:22:13,512 --> 01:22:14,513
Fuck.
1282
01:22:36,326 --> 01:22:37,327
I can't.
1283
01:22:55,804 --> 01:22:57,389
I want to start off by saying
1284
01:22:58,348 --> 01:23:01,226
there's nothing that will make
what I'm about to tell you okay.
1285
01:23:02,686 --> 01:23:04,771
Two months ago, I informed you all
1286
01:23:04,855 --> 01:23:07,733
that I had been selected
for a writers' retreat in Paris.
1287
01:23:09,026 --> 01:23:10,027
I lied.
1288
01:23:11,111 --> 01:23:12,613
I never went to Paris.
1289
01:23:13,489 --> 01:23:16,450
I stayed home and faked photos
to make it look like I did.
1290
01:23:17,034 --> 01:23:18,911
All to impress a guy.
1291
01:23:18,994 --> 01:23:20,329
Fuck.
1292
01:23:20,412 --> 01:23:24,249
I was under the influence of marijuana
at the time that I concocted this idea,
1293
01:23:24,333 --> 01:23:26,919
which contributed
to my poor decision-making.
1294
01:23:27,002 --> 01:23:31,798
But still, I am taking full responsibility
for my actions.
1295
01:23:33,091 --> 01:23:36,011
I recognize now that this decision
was a product of my loneliness
1296
01:23:36,094 --> 01:23:38,263
and desire to find meaning in my life.
1297
01:23:40,140 --> 01:23:42,267
And also my depression.
1298
01:23:44,478 --> 01:23:48,190
I deeply regret my actions,
and I'm committing myself to change.
1299
01:23:51,068 --> 01:23:55,072
I feel that coming clean now
is the first step towards that change.
1300
01:23:57,824 --> 01:23:58,992
And Rowan...
1301
01:24:24,518 --> 01:24:28,689
I promise you, I will do better.
1302
01:24:39,449 --> 01:24:40,492
Okay.
1303
01:25:10,731 --> 01:25:13,692
Ro, you're trending.
1304
01:25:30,042 --> 01:25:32,377
This is so fucked up. Isn't it, Kevin?
1305
01:25:33,211 --> 01:25:34,296
White women.
1306
01:25:34,838 --> 01:25:37,090
We did... We did a round of fact-checking.
1307
01:25:37,174 --> 01:25:38,759
She made a fucking website.
1308
01:25:52,356 --> 01:25:53,482
Where is she?
1309
01:26:19,257 --> 01:26:21,885
- No, I know...
- Do not touch me right now!
1310
01:26:36,149 --> 01:26:38,527
You have no idea!
You didn't tell me!
1311
01:26:38,610 --> 01:26:41,697
I had to find out
from a fucking Depravity article, Danni!
1312
01:26:41,780 --> 01:26:44,199
Just give me one minute! I know! I know!
1313
01:26:49,955 --> 01:26:54,167
And I made a mistake! And I just...
I feel bad because you're my best friend!
1314
01:26:55,210 --> 01:26:57,629
You have to go. No, Danni.
1315
01:26:57,713 --> 01:26:58,922
Listen to me for one minute.
1316
01:26:59,464 --> 01:27:03,218
No. You have to go. You have to go.
1317
01:27:03,301 --> 01:27:04,803
Just go.
1318
01:27:27,367 --> 01:27:28,994
Oh, shit.
1319
01:27:30,287 --> 01:27:31,288
What I miss?
1320
01:27:47,012 --> 01:27:52,100
♪ Why does the sun go on shining? ♪
1321
01:27:53,727 --> 01:27:54,853
♪ Why does the sea… ♪
1322
01:27:54,936 --> 01:27:56,897
Danni Sanders
might actually be the worst person
1323
01:27:56,980 --> 01:27:59,316
we've ever covered on this show,
and we covered Hitler.
1324
01:27:59,399 --> 01:28:01,318
…acting like she was the victim.
1325
01:28:01,401 --> 01:28:04,070
I think that
that turned a lot of people off to her.
1326
01:28:04,154 --> 01:28:07,324
But I'm really not trying
to get mistaken for Danni Sanders.
1327
01:28:07,407 --> 01:28:09,284
I'm not gonna go that far. It's a fine.
1328
01:28:09,367 --> 01:28:11,203
Not for me. I own guns.
1329
01:28:11,286 --> 01:28:13,538
You wanna be everywhere?
Try being in an obituary.
1330
01:28:13,622 --> 01:28:16,208
Danni Sanders,
you don't seem to know where you're at.
1331
01:28:16,291 --> 01:28:17,560
But you know, I know where you're at.
1332
01:28:17,584 --> 01:28:19,344
- Is that your address?
- That look familiar?
1333
01:28:19,377 --> 01:28:20,772
I'm pretty sure that's your address.
1334
01:28:20,796 --> 01:28:23,632
3824 Linden Street.
1335
01:28:23,715 --> 01:28:25,091
You're here, ha-ha!
1336
01:28:25,175 --> 01:28:28,512
Yo, any serial killers wanna do
a little practice run. There's your place.
1337
01:28:28,595 --> 01:28:31,115
If I was you, I would not want
that information out. That sucks.
1338
01:28:31,139 --> 01:28:32,557
- Oh, no.
- That sucks.
1339
01:28:32,641 --> 01:28:34,518
No one loves you, Danni. Fuck you!
1340
01:28:34,601 --> 01:28:39,189
♪ It ended when I lost your love ♪
1341
01:28:41,566 --> 01:28:46,571
♪ I wake up in the morning and I wonder ♪
1342
01:28:48,031 --> 01:28:53,119
♪ Why everything's the same as it was… ♪
1343
01:28:53,203 --> 01:28:54,204
Danni?
1344
01:28:56,957 --> 01:29:00,335
No, no, no. Look at this. Hmm?
1345
01:29:00,418 --> 01:29:04,089
Six years in Afghanistan.
You want to talk about fucking trauma?
1346
01:29:04,172 --> 01:29:05,841
Huh? Trauma! That's...
1347
01:29:06,842 --> 01:29:07,843
Bitch!
1348
01:29:12,264 --> 01:29:16,226
All right, Guinea Weasley.
This is gonna be our new home for a while.
1349
01:29:17,269 --> 01:29:18,895
What are you gonna do?
1350
01:29:18,979 --> 01:29:21,189
How are you ever gonna be able
to get another job?
1351
01:29:21,273 --> 01:29:23,024
Or find a husband.
1352
01:29:23,567 --> 01:29:26,319
- Or get approved by a co-op board?
- I don't know. I don't know.
1353
01:29:26,403 --> 01:29:27,571
I don't know.
1354
01:29:28,864 --> 01:29:32,242
Your father is getting death threats
sent to his work.
1355
01:29:32,325 --> 01:29:34,536
They're accusing us of being in on it.
1356
01:29:34,619 --> 01:29:35,620
Yeah, I know.
1357
01:29:38,915 --> 01:29:40,959
I just... I can't.
1358
01:29:42,002 --> 01:29:43,628
Okay, I... Me...
1359
01:29:43,712 --> 01:29:45,505
Can I have a cup of hot cocoa?
1360
01:29:48,925 --> 01:29:50,051
Please?
1361
01:30:09,029 --> 01:30:12,782
♪ Why does my heart go on beating? ♪
1362
01:30:15,535 --> 01:30:19,873
♪ Why do these eyes of mine cry? ♪
1363
01:30:22,208 --> 01:30:25,503
♪ Don't they know ♪
1364
01:30:25,587 --> 01:30:29,090
♪ It's the end of the world? ♪
1365
01:30:29,174 --> 01:30:32,344
♪ It ended when you said ♪
1366
01:30:35,180 --> 01:30:36,932
♪ Goodbye ♪
1367
01:30:44,481 --> 01:30:47,192
Hi. I'm Danni.
1368
01:30:48,526 --> 01:30:52,447
It has been a little over a month.
1369
01:30:54,491 --> 01:30:57,202
And it's like I still don't know
where to start.
1370
01:30:57,744 --> 01:31:02,123
Sometimes a good place to start
can be with a little self-reflection.
1371
01:31:02,207 --> 01:31:07,295
You know, speak on the new perspective
that you've gained from this experience.
1372
01:31:07,379 --> 01:31:08,797
Right, yeah. I...
1373
01:31:08,880 --> 01:31:13,343
I guess... what I've learned
from this experience is that…
1374
01:31:16,554 --> 01:31:17,555
I…
1375
01:31:18,723 --> 01:31:21,226
I don't think
that I like myself very much.
1376
01:31:21,309 --> 01:31:22,519
Mm-hmm.
1377
01:31:23,520 --> 01:31:25,730
I'm not sure that I ever really have.
1378
01:31:26,856 --> 01:31:29,734
Which is funny.
Like, considering my life...
1379
01:31:29,818 --> 01:31:32,904
Oh, my God.
My life before this, it was so easy.
1380
01:31:32,988 --> 01:31:34,406
So easy.
1381
01:31:36,324 --> 01:31:38,159
No one stared at me in the street.
1382
01:31:38,910 --> 01:31:41,579
No one doxed me on Twitter. No one...
1383
01:31:42,914 --> 01:31:44,749
No one gave a shit.
1384
01:31:45,500 --> 01:31:46,500
Yeah.
1385
01:31:49,838 --> 01:31:51,131
Which is why I lied.
1386
01:31:52,298 --> 01:31:53,341
And now…
1387
01:31:55,760 --> 01:31:58,596
Now I hate myself so much more
than I did before.
1388
01:32:00,682 --> 01:32:03,351
So what?
Are we supposed to feel bad for you?
1389
01:32:05,228 --> 01:32:06,730
I mean, you're saying you've learned,
1390
01:32:06,813 --> 01:32:09,065
but at the end of the day,
you're a privileged white girl
1391
01:32:09,149 --> 01:32:10,589
who thinks she's the main character.
1392
01:32:10,650 --> 01:32:14,446
Quinn! What have we said
about criticizing other people…
1393
01:32:14,529 --> 01:32:17,198
For the mistakes
we've made ourselves.
1394
01:32:17,282 --> 01:32:18,283
Quinn's…
1395
01:32:19,617 --> 01:32:20,618
totally right.
1396
01:32:22,912 --> 01:32:25,707
I don't know if I've learned anything.
I don't know…
1397
01:32:26,750 --> 01:32:28,376
if I'm better.
1398
01:32:28,460 --> 01:32:30,045
I don't know if I've grown.
1399
01:32:30,128 --> 01:32:34,257
I don't know if I've… learned,
1400
01:32:34,340 --> 01:32:36,926
and... I just... I don't know. I don't know.
1401
01:32:37,010 --> 01:32:38,887
Have you tried making amends?
1402
01:32:42,348 --> 01:32:44,392
Directly to the people that you hurt.
1403
01:32:45,101 --> 01:32:47,395
Not like over the Internet.
1404
01:32:47,479 --> 01:32:48,688
Hmm.
1405
01:32:51,191 --> 01:32:52,192
Okay.
1406
01:33:00,283 --> 01:33:02,952
♪ Finale, finale, fin-ale ♪
1407
01:33:03,036 --> 01:33:05,663
♪ Finale, finale, fin-ale ♪
1408
01:33:05,747 --> 01:33:08,458
♪ Finale, finale, fin-ale ♪
1409
01:33:08,541 --> 01:33:11,503
♪ Finale, finale, fin-ale ♪
1410
01:33:35,527 --> 01:33:36,736
And up next,
1411
01:33:36,820 --> 01:33:41,157
we have Rowan Aldren reciting
an original spoken-word piece.
1412
01:33:59,509 --> 01:34:03,346
So this is a different piece than the one
I originally planned on doing.
1413
01:34:04,889 --> 01:34:08,143
It's a little rough, but I, um…
1414
01:34:09,644 --> 01:34:10,937
I think it's more fitting.
1415
01:34:26,411 --> 01:34:28,955
If you're not okay, that's okay.
1416
01:34:31,708 --> 01:34:33,585
That's advice I gave.
1417
01:34:34,210 --> 01:34:36,337
Six words that came out of my mouth
1418
01:34:36,421 --> 01:34:39,007
that on that day
you snatched up like a handout.
1419
01:34:40,091 --> 01:34:41,968
#IAmNotOkay.
1420
01:34:42,677 --> 01:34:44,804
A sentence that resonated
with a nation... No.
1421
01:34:44,888 --> 01:34:47,265
A generation scared to wake up
in their own nation,
1422
01:34:47,348 --> 01:34:50,602
determined of their own
inevitable termination.
1423
01:34:52,145 --> 01:34:54,814
Smart move,
turning that fear into clickbait.
1424
01:34:59,027 --> 01:35:03,239
But, God, I guess I am
just so used to being stolen from,
1425
01:35:03,323 --> 01:35:06,659
that when I read my words in your voice,
I reposted 'em.
1426
01:35:07,410 --> 01:35:09,078
And applauded as you boasted.
1427
01:35:09,162 --> 01:35:11,789
Gave you a platform
that floated you right up to the top.
1428
01:35:13,291 --> 01:35:14,959
And you never thought to stop?
1429
01:35:16,502 --> 01:35:19,464
When you looked down at the bodies
that you used as props,
1430
01:35:19,547 --> 01:35:23,134
when you looked into my eyes,
you just saw another voice to co-opt?
1431
01:35:23,801 --> 01:35:28,431
You know, for someone who's not okay,
you seem okay with quite a lot, actually.
1432
01:35:30,850 --> 01:35:34,187
And while I was blindsided,
why am I not surprised?
1433
01:35:35,605 --> 01:35:38,483
Why is a story like yours
something we read every other night?
1434
01:35:38,566 --> 01:35:41,027
Why do people like you get movies
on Netflix and Hulu,
1435
01:35:41,110 --> 01:35:44,614
and people like me get told
to sit tight and wait for change?
1436
01:35:44,697 --> 01:35:47,659
No, you don't know what that's like!
You can't take the mic!
1437
01:35:47,742 --> 01:35:50,870
This is my time slot.
One more minute, right?
1438
01:35:57,001 --> 01:35:59,128
I have had everything stolen from me.
1439
01:36:00,255 --> 01:36:02,048
Their breath, stolen.
1440
01:36:02,882 --> 01:36:06,761
My breath, perpetually holding, wondering
if someone near me might be holding...
1441
01:36:08,179 --> 01:36:09,764
I'm sorry.
1442
01:36:09,847 --> 01:36:11,182
Is my trauma showing?
1443
01:36:11,266 --> 01:36:14,018
Because I don't plan
on slowing or sitting down.
1444
01:36:14,102 --> 01:36:17,730
This is my time to take back the words
that you stole from my mouth.
1445
01:36:17,814 --> 01:36:21,276
You have never seen anything destroyed
except yourself!
1446
01:36:23,695 --> 01:36:25,238
And that is of your own doing.
1447
01:36:30,034 --> 01:36:33,246
So hell no. I am not okay.
1448
01:36:37,625 --> 01:36:39,752
I think about her every single day.
1449
01:36:45,049 --> 01:36:48,303
You know when the newspapers wrote
about my sister,
1450
01:36:48,386 --> 01:36:49,929
they misspelled her name?
1451
01:36:53,057 --> 01:36:55,935
And now you think her place
is something you can claim?
1452
01:36:59,230 --> 01:37:02,442
Her body is in the ground,
and you think you're the same?
1453
01:37:10,074 --> 01:37:13,244
I hope you realize that by doing this,
you've only given me more to say.
1454
01:37:15,747 --> 01:37:17,915
So maybe one day I'll forgive you…
1455
01:37:19,792 --> 01:37:22,086
but we will never be okay.
1456
01:37:45,735 --> 01:37:46,736
Yes!
1457
01:37:47,695 --> 01:37:48,696
Yes!
1458
01:38:06,881 --> 01:38:09,133
You did that. You did it.
1459
01:39:14,407 --> 01:39:18,411
♪ Like a dog with his tail
Between his legs ♪
1460
01:39:18,494 --> 01:39:22,415
♪ I sleep in the bed I know I've made ♪
1461
01:39:22,498 --> 01:39:26,085
♪ I knew things could get complicated ♪
1462
01:39:26,169 --> 01:39:29,422
♪ Oh-oh, I'm ashamed ♪
1463
01:39:30,131 --> 01:39:34,343
♪ I don't know her face
Or where she came from ♪
1464
01:39:34,427 --> 01:39:38,014
♪ I don't even know her name ♪
1465
01:39:38,097 --> 01:39:41,642
♪ The mirror's clean, I scream again ♪
1466
01:39:41,726 --> 01:39:44,937
♪ Whoa-oh, oh, I'm ashamed ♪
1467
01:39:46,147 --> 01:39:49,317
♪ So-whoa-whoa-whoa ♪
1468
01:39:49,400 --> 01:39:51,736
♪ I run ♪
1469
01:39:53,488 --> 01:39:57,116
♪ Can't escape the fate of judgment day ♪
1470
01:39:57,200 --> 01:40:00,828
♪ For the things I've done ♪
1471
01:40:00,912 --> 01:40:04,248
♪ This is a declaration of a fuckup ♪
1472
01:40:05,500 --> 01:40:08,002
♪ A product of how I was raised ♪
1473
01:40:09,003 --> 01:40:11,797
♪ And I don't expect a single teardrop ♪
1474
01:40:12,840 --> 01:40:15,968
♪ Whoa, I am ashamed ♪
1475
01:40:16,594 --> 01:40:19,430
♪ This is a declaration of a fuckup ♪
1476
01:40:20,431 --> 01:40:23,434
♪ And in the end
I don't know how to change ♪
1477
01:40:24,435 --> 01:40:27,271
♪ And I don't expect a single teardrop ♪
1478
01:40:28,272 --> 01:40:31,567
♪ Whoa, I am ashamed ♪
1479
01:40:32,610 --> 01:40:36,197
♪ Shot you words you don't deserve ♪
1480
01:40:36,280 --> 01:40:40,201
♪ Rolled through your town
And massacred ♪
1481
01:40:40,284 --> 01:40:43,871
♪ I wish I died a hundred times ♪
1482
01:40:43,955 --> 01:40:47,291
♪ Whoa-oh, oh, I'm ashamed ♪
1483
01:40:48,292 --> 01:40:51,629
♪ So-whoa-whoa-whoa ♪
1484
01:40:51,712 --> 01:40:53,965
♪ I run ♪
1485
01:40:55,675 --> 01:40:59,303
♪ Can't escape the fate of judgment day ♪
1486
01:40:59,387 --> 01:41:03,224
♪ For the things I've done ♪
1487
01:41:03,307 --> 01:41:06,269
♪ This is a declaration of a fuckup ♪
1488
01:41:07,520 --> 01:41:10,189
♪ A product of how I was raised ♪
1489
01:41:11,148 --> 01:41:14,026
♪ And I don't expect a single teardrop ♪
1490
01:41:15,027 --> 01:41:18,447
♪ Whoa, I am ashamed ♪
1491
01:41:18,531 --> 01:41:21,742
♪ This is a declaration of a fuckup ♪
1492
01:41:22,743 --> 01:41:25,705
♪ And in the end
I don't know how to change ♪
1493
01:41:26,747 --> 01:41:29,792
♪ And I don't expect a single teardrop ♪
1494
01:41:30,501 --> 01:41:33,796
♪ Whoa, I am ashamed ♪
1495
01:41:34,463 --> 01:41:37,925
♪ Oh, I am deranged ♪
1496
01:41:38,426 --> 01:41:41,887
♪ Oh, I am insane ♪
1497
01:41:41,971 --> 01:41:45,600
♪ Oh, I'm inhumane ♪
1498
01:41:46,142 --> 01:41:49,312
♪ Oh, I am ashamed ♪
1499
01:41:50,062 --> 01:41:53,190
♪ Oh, I am deranged ♪
1500
01:41:53,941 --> 01:41:57,361
♪ Oh, I am insane ♪
1501
01:41:57,862 --> 01:42:00,906
♪ Oh, I'm inhumane ♪
1502
01:42:01,532 --> 01:42:04,827
♪ Oh, I am ashamed ♪
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