All language subtitles for ER.S15E18.What.We.Do

(male narrator)
Previously on"ER."

- Hi, mom.
- Do I know you?

You said you were going
to stay until we got her

settled in to the nursing home.

I can't, Sammy.

Archie, this is my
new partner, Ed Bernstein.

I hear you're
looking out for her.

She looks out for herself.

It festers in you,
'cause you know

you know it's wrong.

You need to, you need to talk
to somebody about this.

What was it like
when you were a kid?

You never talk about that stuff.

Oh, I-I was barely living
before I met you.

I need a kidney,
and I came back

to the States
to get on the list.

(Chuny)
'Good job today.
It's like you never left.'

(John)
Sit? Do you want me to sit?

- 'Yeah, we're rolling.'
- Okay.

It's a little warm in here.

It must be the, uh..

Alright, so you guys
started yesterday, huh?

(male #1)
'You can relax, Dr. Carter.'

And you're interested in, what?
Life in the ER?

'We're
documenting the challenges'

'of emergency care
in the 21st century.'

And you want to know what?

'About you, the people
who work here.'

- 'What you do.'
- Okay.

'How long have
you been at County?'

I started about 15 years ago.

That's actually
kind of hard to believe.

Wow.

- 'Can you focus here?'
- Yeah.

Oh, here? Yeah.

Sorry. Oh, uh, I was
a med student then, and, uh..

...well, the thing
that you realize

pretty soon
is that, you see it all.

You see the whole spectrum
of human experience.

[laughs]

Does that sound
a little pretentious?

It did, right?

Sound a little
pretentious, uh..

Well, you guys
are going to probably..

- Anyway--
- 'Go on with that.'

Yeah? Good?

Um, well, whatever you
can imagine, it happens here.

Sometimes you're
there for the end.

And that part
never gets any easier.

Uh, it can be the
loneliest place in the world.

Or, where you go
for a second chance.

And every once in a while

if you're smart,
or lucky, maybe..

...you find exactly
what you need right here.

Come on.
You can be a little late.

No, I can't.

What's so important?

Um, a murder investigation?

Oh, that's the best
you can come up with?

[chuckles]
You're cute.

Hey, did you mean what you said?

You hate the way
this place is decorated?

You're a man, okay?
Just get rid of the futon.

I love that futon.

And what's with this paint job?
It's like shades of feces.

You know, that's all I'm saying.

I was a bachelor till very
recently. Give a guy a break.

Don't worry, Archie.
I'll whip you into shape.

[instrumental music]

[music continues]

(John)
The one thing
that you keep learning

is that you can never think
that you know, what's coming.

Policia!

(John)
Because when the rig rolls up

and the doors pop open,
you have no idea what's inside.

[gunshots]

[gunshots]

Diaz?

'Diaz, talk to me.'

'Ten one, ten one, B54 12.
My partner's been shot.'

'I'm at, 25, 49, West Harrison.
Third floor, rear landing'

'Return fire,
officer needs assistance.'

'Ten, one, seven,
officer needs assistance.'

(John)
So the only rule is..

- 'Dr. Carter.'
- Never relax.

Sorry to interrupt.
Two GSW's five minutes out.

'One's a police detective,
multiple wounds.'

Alright, set up both trauma
rooms and call for some O-neg.

I got to go.

- 'Can we finish this later?'
- Yeah...if you can find me.

[theme music]

The most common thing I see?
That's easy.

Rectal insertions.
Seriously.

I say, I say "stat."
Yeah, I say "stat" quite often.

This guy, he was, um,
he was high on PCP.

But he was, like,
over seven feet tall

and we had him
strapped down on a gurney.

I mean, the funny
part is-is that

it doesn't matter
if it's a shampoo bottle

uh, a light bulb,
a whisk, whatever.

They always tell you
the same story..

..."I fell on it."

"Thoracotomy, stat."

"I fell on it."

And that guy got up

and he had the gurney strapped
to, strapped to his back.

And he was chasing us
all up and down the hall.

Men.

People in Australia can
understand me, which is good.

I've got an accent,
you see, um..

"Just clerks?"

Those were his words,
"just clerks."

He said that
we didn't count

as emergency
healthcare providers.

"He?"
Who is "he?"

- A writer, I think.
- Of a documentary?

Documentaries have writers?

Well, he pieces it together
or something, I guess.

"Pieces it together."

Well, that's what's wrong
with television.

He seemed like
a pipsqueak to me.

So you've met him?

- He interviewed us yesterday.
- The nurses?

- Got their own day?
- Get over it, Frank.

- We go to school for this.
- That's it.

If they can make their own
stupid reality show, so can I.

Can't argue with that.

Uh,I-I don't think that's
such a good idea.

Here, press and point.

You know how
to work these things.

Okay, okay, but there's
nothing wrong with a life

lived out of the spotlight.

A stack of files,
a broken stapler

a three-hole punch..

But lives are saved
and lost right here.

- It's a desk, Frank.
- Admit.

The nerve center of the ER.

What you're about
to see is a document

of those who serve
as the gatekeepers.

My name is Martin. Frank Martin.

Jerry Markovic.

The few, the proud..

(both)
The desk clerks!

[siren wailing]

That film crew get to you yet?

Yeah, they just asked me
a bunch of boring questions

about the effect of the economy.

The effect of the economy
is that people get poor

and then they use guns to get
money and the ER stays busy.

Now you tell me.
What are we getting?

- I heard officer down.
- A detective.

- How'd he get shot?
- He's a she.

This one's ours.
Perp's coming behind.

- Okay, we got this one.
- Claudia Diaz.

I think you guys know her.

(Tony)
'She and Morris have a thing.'

"A thing?" Is that what it is?

(John)
'What happened here, detective?'

Son of a bitch shot me
when I was walking away.

- I bit my damn tongue.
- Lucky you had your vest on.

Yeah, I feel real
lucky right now.

Here's the shooter! Took
multiple shots from her partner.

Let's get chest and abdominal
films, type and cross..

[coughing]
...type and cross four.

- You alright, boss?
- Yeah.

Now, work on access
when we get in there.

Does Archie know yet?

My partner's still on the scene.
He said he'd call him.

I'll try too. Just to be sure.

Thank you,
for bringing breakfast.

Yeah, this is nice,
what you're doing.

You like it?

You know,
I was, I was torn between

uh, an eggshell white
and-and something bolder.

Like a,
like a Robin's egg type thing.

Okay, now I sound gay.

I mean, not that there's
anything wrong with that.

You're nervous.

It's kind of risky,
asking her to move in.

Maybe-maybe she'll say "no."

I think anygirl
would appreciate

a guy willing
to repaint for her.

How are things going
with thewonder from down under?

Good...I guess.

As long as we don't talk much.

Typical guy.

I know you fellas have
to have your deepest thoughts

and feelings pried from
your cold, dead fingers, but..

...still, he's hard to figure.

Well, it's understandable.

You know, with
what happened to him as a kid.

Told him he needs
to see somebody.

You know, if-if you've
been hurt like that

you know, sexually,
at a young age.

'It doesn't just
go away on its own.'

Well, it's, um,
good he confides in you.

'It's been hard for him...
moving to Chicago.'

There's-there's you
and there's me.

That's basically his
whole circle of friends.

Real ones, anyway.

Right.

Wait. You didn't..?

- 'He never told you?'
- Hmm-mm, it, um...

Neela, I'm-I'm sorry.

- 'I-I didn't mean--'
- It explains a lot.

Um, I have to get
to work by 9:00.

We've got a
complicated triple-A repair.

- Dubenko wants me in on, so..
- No, Neela--

I-I'll see you later.

[phone ringing]

Hello?

[dramatic music]

[instrumental music]

Decreased on the right, ten
blades, sterile eights and a..

[coughing]

And a chest tube tray.

Hey. She took two shots

one to the buttock,
one to the shoulder.

We got an exit wound
in the right chest.

I told you to get a desk job.

- Bastard shot me in the back.
- How's your partner?

- He's alright.
- You were covered?

- Any pain here?
- Ow! Yeah.

- It wasn't like that.
- How do you know?

It was clean, Archie.

Alright, four milligrams
morphine, IV, set up..

- Is 32 okay?
- No, it's not okay.

It's too big!

Hey, John,
let's just get the films.

- Then I'll do the chest tube.
- I'm okay. I'm okay.

Just dig up a 28
someplace, would you?

Are you sure
you're okay with this?

- It's all you guys.
- I'm sorry.

This has to stay on you. Okay?

[clears throat]
Let me get the sterile
eights, please.

Bullet crossed the mediastinum.

(Tony)
'That doesn't sound good.'

- Probable aortic injury.
- I need a 28.

- Try the hallway.
- Whoa, whoa, half a liter out.

- Alright, hold compressions.
- He's still asystole.

Okay, start up. Let's, uh,
let's hang another unit.

- Should we do a thoracotomy?
- Aorta's transected.

- There isn't much point.
- It's worth a shot, isn't it?

When you're new,
everything's questioned.

Even when you know,
you knowsomething

you say it with an inflection.

It's never, "Thoracotomy!"

It's more like, um,
"Thoracotomy?"

[humming]

[knocking]

You got my smokes?

Hi.

The orderly said he'd
get me a carton of Salems

for the right price.

That was two days ago.

I hate smoking these things.

Taste like wet leaves.
Where's Carlos?

I was, uh, kind of hoping

today would be the day
you'd remember me.

I remember you, well enough.

- I'm your daughter. I'm Sam.
- I said,I know who you are.

[wheezing]

They told me you been around.

That's good.
You're more alert.

Yeah, this place
is like a dream come true.

I feel like
I won the super lotto.

[wheezing continues]

Turn off my tank
for me, would you?

You can't smoke in here.
It's against the rules.

What?

So it's your turn now,
is that right?

[wheezing]

I want to make sure
that you're okay.

- Kelly and I both do.
- Kelly never left.

Kelly stayed home
and took care of me.

I don't know
what you've been doing.

- You kicked me out.
- I didn't.

You called me a "whore"
and a "slut."

You told me I didn't
belong to you anymore.

You said you didn't
care what happened to me.

You are always dramatic.

You told me no one would
even notice I was gone.

I was 15 years old.

What happened
to that baby of yours?

His name's Alex.

Alex?

When a head injury rolls into
the ER, every minute counts.

- And, um...
- Delays. Talk about delays.

A delay of even 15 minutes

can mean the difference
between life..

...and death.

(Haleh)
'Here's the pelvic film.'

[coughing]

And Brenner's
calling, next door.

- Right.
- Guy lost a lot of blood.

How are we doing in here?

(Claudia)
I can't stay. I'm going to be
late for a meeting.

- She's not lucid.
- They lose him?

- 'Yeah.'
- I'll bet no one will miss him.

Hey. Come on. A guy died.

(John)
'Bullet traversed the pelvis.'

Could've hit it or the bladder.

Or the uterus
on the way through.

- Where's surgery?
- In the OR.

They promised they'd send
someone in a few minutes.

There's fluid
around the liver.

Let's hang another
unit, type specific.

- She going to need an ex lap.
- Or maybe not.

Let's CT her.
It's going to take time

for the surgeons to get here.

She could be in and out of

the scanner in,
like, ten minutes.

- Christ. Mac 4 and 7.5.
- 'So you're going to intubate?'

- We gotta protect her airway.
- Airway's fine!

- We don't know that for sure.
- Her lungs are re-expanded.

- Hey, this isn't the time!
- This is the time.

Okay, Tony, he's right!

You're right.

Laryngoscope and a tray, please.

- How's she doing?
- How's it look?

- Hang in there, Diaz.
- 'What happened?'

We were taking witness
statements on a murder case.

Some guy started
shooting through the door.

Can I get
that laryngoscope, please!

- Where were you?
- 'Right next to her.'

'Not a scratch.
What a lucky guy.'

- 'Is there a problem?'
- As long as you had her back.

You'll want to think about
slowing your roll here.

Is that what,
is that what I want to do?

Take it from me. A badge
beats a lab coat any day.

Yeah, yeah,
"Band of Brothers," right?

Where's your chief, huh?
Where's the department?

On their way, pal. Ease up.

This guy always
such an asshole?

Hey, come on. You want
to get into it with me, huh!

[indistinct shouting]

[thud]

(Jerry)
'Alright-alright, you got us
both in frame there, Boris?'

Composition not ideal.

'You are freakishly
tall and Frank's head'

is square like, block of wood.

Thanks for the input, Spielberg.

In this segment,
we are going to highlight

some of the
unsung heroes of the ER.

First up is Sadiq,
the computer guy.

Sadiq Gibran-Hassani.

I'm not just
a "computer guy," my family has

illustrious history in
Syria before we were forced out.

Uh, let's just try to stay
on point, Sadiq, okay?

Without me, there'd be
no timely lab results

or X-ray readings which are
crucial in the saving of life.

You let me know
when I can speak again.

- Okay, Uncle Sam?
- Thank you, Sadiq.

You're the boss.

And this is
Crystal Hung, pharmacy tech.

Okay, when a doctor says,
"I need an amp of Lidocaine"

a nurse goes to get it.

If there's no Lidocaine,
it's a problem.

I put the Lidocaine
in the cart every damn day.

So that's that.

Interesting. Very interesting.

And here we have
good old Fred Tennyson

custodial service engineer

and catcher
for the ER softball team.

I switch out whatever's broken.

Like light bulbs. Without light
bulbs, it's hard to see.

And doctors, they..

...well, you know,
they need to see stuff.

And uh, here we have...uh..

[clearing throat]
...uh, from thecafeteria.

[speaking in Spanish]

Uh, and without food,
we would all go hungry.

[speaking in Spanish]

And on camera
we have Boris

from, uh, media services.

Please, leave me out of this.
This is horrible.

- When was your last dialysis?
- Dialysis?

Banfield thought I should know.
Since you were gonna be working.

Two days ago. I'm not due
for another four hours.

Must be fluid overloaded
since he's not making urine.

Waiting on a kidney transplant?

- Yes. Long story.
- Any fever?

No.

Increased salt or fluid intake?

Maybe an extra sip of coffee

and a handful of popcorn,
nothing crazy.

Sometimes this kind
of thing is idiopathic.

It can happen when you're a
chronic dialysis.

I know.

Systolic's down to 92.

(Archie)
'Let's get
nephrology down here.'

'I'll grab the ultrasound.'

'If there's a big effusion,
we need to tap it.'

Get my nephrologist,
Gustavo Petrov at Northwestern.

Anyone else you want us to call?

- No.
- I'll be right back.

Pelvic trajectory goes
through the soft tissues.

- Could have bagged the iliac--
- I need an ultrasound.

- And how's she doing?
- She needs angio.

She should go to the OR first.

It didn't enter the peritoneum.

- We don't know that.
- Okay, let's not argue here.

I'm not denying
she needs surgery.

I'm saying that let's
look at the iliacs first.

There's no hematoma.

What if she starts bleeding
from the pelvis?

- We'll deal with it?
- Vascular's standing by?

You do not listening
to a word I've said.

And you're not
thinking things through.

We've got time to
be systematic here.

- Systematic?
- Angio, retrograde cystogram.

- Let's not lose our heads.
- Calm down.

And make a decision.

Archie, it's your call.
Angio or surgery?

You guys need to decide this.

Bone fragments
to the bladder wall?

She needs the OR.

The pace down here is visceral.

It demands being instinctive,
in the moment.

I prefer having time to,
to think something through.

Hash out different
possible versions, make a plan.

I mean that's why I'm
better at being...a surgeon

than I was strictly
working in the ER.

You're going to get in trouble
if they catch you doing that.

[wheezing]

Maybe they'll throw me out.

You know, if you don't want me
here, you should just say so.

Not like I'm going to leave

but at least we could
talk about it.

Why don't we just try
to forget our mistakes

and wipe the slate clean.

- Mistakes? What mistakes?
- The ones that we both made.

- Speak for yourself.
- Alright, you know what?

I'm not going to
sit here and play along

with you as the martyr
and me as the evil child.

You don't have
to sit here, at all.

I was young
and dumb and in love, mom.

I believed everything he said.

I raised you better than that.
I raised you better than that!

No, you didn't.

You actually know, you didn't.

What is this? It's all wet.

You spilled something?

Leave it.

I'll go get somebody
to clean it up.

- No, it's just fine.
- It's what they do here.

- It's what they get paid for.
- Don't want the staff in here.

- I said stop it.
- It's disgusting.

'It's not. Leave it!'

Would you please get out
of here, you little bitch!

- Get out! Just get out of here!
- Give it to me!

- Give it to me!
- Just get out!

[metal clanking]

Mary, I was coming to get you
for flex and fun. You ready?

Do I look like I'm ready
for flex and fun, you idiot?

[instrumental music]

So your mother's stroke
affected her frontal lobe.

- Do you know what that is?
- Yes, I'm a nurse.

Oh, I thought, I thought
you were in fashion.

No, that's my sister.

I didn't realize
there were two of you.

Anyway, what we see
with frontal lobe injuries

is the-the filters come down.

The ability to self-censor

be empathetic, sensitive

all tends to be affected.

Yeah, I know what
you're getting at.

So the things that she says,
it's not really her.

It's the stroke talking
and it changed her.

I appreciate
what you're saying.

I do, but the
thing is, is that..

My mother hasn't changed a bit.

What you see in there,
that's who I grew up with.

That's exactly how
I remember her.

Could use a bit more
angle on that needle.

Eureka.

Good. I'll be right back.

We'll, um, do
a liver lac

then explore
the pelvis.

Urology will fix
the bladder.

GYN will scrub in
to address the uterine issue.

Primary repair
will get it done?

Well, I hope so.
She may need a hysterectomy.

- Well, whatever you have to do.
- Okay.

She has four more units
cross matched.

We'll have 'em
sent up with her.

OR's ready.

I hate the fact that you put
yourself in danger every day.

Every time you do,
I'm so proud of you.

Okay, let's go.

- How's it going?
- Fluid is serosanguinous.

And Johnny Boy here
is a backseat driver.

- Dr. Carter?
- John?

- Dr. Carter?
- John!

- He's in V-tach!
- No pulse.

- Did I irritate his myocardium?
- No, it's not your fault.

500 of calcium gluconate,
amp of D50, 10 of insulin.

We don't know
his potassium level.

No, trust me, it's high

if the kidneys can't excrete it.

Alright, here.

Charged to 360.

Clear!

- Still V-tach.
- Again! Clear!

Again!

Hi, you guys have
a consult for renal?

Mig of epi,
150 of amiodarone.

Excuse me, Dr..?

Emily Haverman from nephrology.

- Gates, switch.
- Alright.

You're a med student?

Um, fourth year.
I'm doing a rotation.

Okay. That, that is an ER
attending coding on the table

and this is not
a teaching case, so please

turn around, walk out

get your attending,
and come back now.

I'm sure Dr. Wheeler
would prefer it

if I at least examined the--

I'm trying to remain
professional here, Emily

but if you're not
walking away from me

within three seconds,
I swear to God

I may start doing
compressions on your head.

(Tony)
I spent a lot
of years in the army

jumping out of choppers and..

I thought I was
a team player.

I wasn't.

Not until I got here.

Whoa, K's 7.6.

- Calcium's on board.
- Going again. Clear!

Back in sinus.
Carotid's good.

Recheck the lytes
now and Q 30.

I'm Dr. Wheeler
from nephrology.

My attending.

Perfect timing.

Morris..

You saved me?

I'll never live it down.

Mom?

I...gotta get to work.

When's Kelly coming back?

A week, maybe.

I must have spilled
some water on that..

...blanket or something,
I don't know.

Well, I'll take care of it.

I'll get it back to you tonight.

[wheezing]

I'm gonna keep coming here..

...no matter what.

You won't go through this alone.

[phone ringing]

You do what you gotta do.

We all have our cross to bear.

You know, the UNOS list
can take a long time.

Have you thought
about direct donation?

Yeah, I've considered it.

And...your wife not a match?

If not, you know, we have
paired organ donor program here.

The two of you could
qualify for that.

Yeah, I'm aware
of that program.

I just haven't talked
to Kem about that yet.

There's very little
risk in testing.

Well, it's just
not something we're in a place

to get together
on right now.

Well..

Does she know
about your status?

She knows that I have
some medical...issues.

I came back to Chicago.

She's in France.
She's visiting her family.

I left the whole thing
kind of vague.

Okay.

I will shut up now.

I'm just kind of tired.

I'll split.

- Pull that curtain for me?
- You got it, boss.

Hey, I didn't realize
you were coming in.

Yeah, me either. I got
paged for an organ transport.

Heart donor.

- Plane leaves in two hours.
- How's your mom?

Visiting her makes me
feel like Jodie Foster

in"Silence Of The Lambs."

Fun.

Hey, no offense,
but this smells like piss.

Yeah, I'm supposed
to bring that to her tonight

and now, I'm not
gonna make it.

I'll take care
of it for you.

- Really?
- Yeah.

All you really have
to do is send it up to laundry

and then drop it off
on your way home.

Not a problem.

- Sure you don't mind?
- Did I not just volunteer?

You know,
you're not such an ass

as some people say.

Thank you.

Um, what were we talking about?

Oh...but you know, eventually

I-I started
to figure things out..

...as a doctor, you know

and how I fit in professionally
with this place

and this community of people.

Yeah..

That's a big,
big part of it..

For me...is, uh

being...good with yourself

and who you are

and-and who you're meant to be.

You know, finding yourself.

And then...there's
the next step..

...after that, which is..

...finding somebody else.

And sometimes you think..

No, that's just, that's
never gonna happen...for me.

And you meet someone..

...who makes you feel..

You know..

Who-who-who gets you.

And you, and you get her.

Yeah, some-someone
you can, you can imagine..

[chuckles]

[sighs]

I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

People think all we do is scrub
poop and vomit off the floor

but I refill the paper towels,
the toilet papers

stock the soap,
the dispensers.

Without clean hands,
you get lots of bad infections.

She's right.

'Nosocomial infections
cause over 30,000 deaths'

in the US each year.

He knows.

So, boys, what's this all about?

Oh, the...interview guy

said that we were
non-essential staff.

Non-essential?

We're offering a rebuttal.

You're essential.
You're quintessential.

Uh, yeah.

I'm sure
you'll set him straight.

- Let me get a little rest, eh?
- Yeah.

Hey, hey.

I think this lady's having an
allergic reaction or something.

Uh, okay, okay.
Uh, we'll page somebody.

Let's put her
right over here.

(Frank)
'Let's get Morris.'

(Jerry)
'No, Morris is upstairs.'

How about Brenner?

Uh, critical ICU.

How long have
you had this rash?

[hoarsely]
An hour.

She's having
trouble breathing.

Penis!

Did she say "penis"?

This is getting a little weird.

Pea-nuts!

Peanuts!
It's a peanut allergy.

I knew a kid
who had this in school.

- And?
- He died.

Oh, man, she's not
moving any air.

We need help.

Uh...uh..

Uh...no, we don't.

[laughs]

[gasping]

[sighs]

Oh, thank you!

- Yeah?
- Huh!

[both laughing]

Oh, in your face, reality boy!

Yeah, do we look
non-essential now?

I thought you'd be upstairs
working on Claudia.

Uh, urology's doing
the bladder reconstruction.

They swapped me out
for their own resident.

Ah.

I'm, um, going
on a heart retrieval

so I figured
I'd grab a coffee.

- What do you have?
- A heart retrieval for Joanie?

Yeah, it's good news.

That is,
that's fantastic!

The, uh, heart's in Seattle

so we won't be back
until the middle of the night.

Right.

Are we alright?

What do you think?

Well, um, that..

...something's bothering you?

Clever twist.

Forget it.

No. Explain it to me.

Hey. How is my being
worried about you a twist?

Because you keep
turning everything around.

I-I don't think I'm smart
enough to fight with you.

Like that.

You're plenty
smart enough, but right now

it's easier to make me
seem hyper-analytical.

I mean this morning..

...wasn't going your way,
so I was "irrational."

Neela, I never said you were--

I'm the one who's
bothered by something.

I'm the one refusing to have
a reasonable conversation

and I'm the one
who doesn't make sense.

It's all a defense mechanism.

Defense...defense for what?

I don't know.

Something you haven't told me?

I don't tell
anyone everything.

Then what are we doing?

We hit a speed bump...weeks ago

and you react by disappearing.

We see each other
all the time.

We talk. We-we-we
sleep together..

There's a way to do all those
things and still disappear.

Why would I want to do that?

Tell me.

Look, Neela,
there are, there are..

there's things that-that
should be kept private.

Not between two
people who are trying

to figure out if
they belong together.

No, I'm-I'm
comfortable with you.

Well, maybe
that's not enough.

Not when I have
to find out things..

...important things

about you from other people.

Oh, so that's it?
That's it, is it?

What, I'm not chatty enough,
so you go snooping around

trying to get under my skin?

No. It's not like that.

Trying to make me be what you
think a boyfriend should be

sharing my emotions and..

...and...ta-talking about
every stupid damn thing

that-that-that bothers me? No.

[shouting]
No!

Look, a terrible
thing was done to you.

I understand that.

And I hate
that it happened.

But somewhere..

...in all of what's
gone on between us

one thing is clear.

We're not meant to be together.

It doesn't mean we don't care
about each other deeply, but..

You know, I truly believe..

...there's something better
out there for both of us.

Whenever we're ready for it.

Better?

Something more right.

So, Northwestern, huh?

Too good for county.

Well, what can I say, Frank?

I've seen how you care
for your patients here.

Dr. Morris says to make sure
they check another potassium

as soon as you get there.

Thanks, Haleh.

We're gonna see you soon, right?

Not if I see you first.

Alright, folks,
it's only a mile away.

You can visit him
when we're not on the clock.

[engine starting]

Um..

Primary repair worked.

So, I-I guess the world
can look forward to, uh

a gaggle of olive-skinned kids..

...with red hair and freckles.

If-if that's
something that you want.

(Simon)
The life you lead, the things
you have been through..

They define how you do your job.

The-the quality of, of..

The quality of your work.

Especially in a place like this.

So at the, um..

At the end
of the day, you choose to..

...deny or deal.

(male #1)
'And which do you choose?'

It's evolving.

I'm evolving.

Um..

All I know is that I-I know..

Um, that there is
a lot of work that I need to do.

(male #1)
'Can you be more
specific about that?'

No. Not with you.

Mrs. Taggart?

Hi. Tony Gates.

I work with Sam.

I used to play.

You know, Christmas time.

Play the carols.

[discordant notes sound]

- It's all gone now.
- Yeah.

Well, Sam wanted me
to get this back to you.

Well, she said
she was coming by.

Well, she-she can't tonight.

She's on a work call.

Uh-huh.

And you are?

I am a friend.

A friend?

Do you smoke?

No, ma'am, I don't.

That's too bad.

You're a good looking fella,
though, aren't you?

Hmm, must be the
lighting in here.

Do you know..

...that out of all
these people in here

I'm the youngest one
by about 15 years?

[wheezing]

What the hell did
I do to deserve this?

I can't imagine.

[chuckling]

I don't want her
to stop coming.

So, if she thinks that's so,
you tell her it's not.

Okay.

You know, Sam's
an amazing person.

She's very strong.

She's overcome
a lot of obstacles.

You get to know her,
you'd be very proud.

- She hates me.
- No, she doesn't.

Well, she thinks
that I hate her.

Well, then, change that.

Sure.

[striking piano keys]
Tada!

Changed.

Well..

...it's up to you.

Have a good night.

Hey.

You're not lying, are you?

She's going
to come back tomorrow?

When Sam makes up her mind

nothing stops her.

I love helping people.

You know, originally,
I-I wanted to, um..

...be the first baseman
for the Chicago Cubs.

The thing I hate
most about my job?

(male #1)
'Mm-hmm.'

- Smells.
- The smells.

The human body's got
some pretty interesting smells.

What's-what's
the dating life like?

[laughing]

Well, I'm not going to tell you.

[laughing]

It's personal.

A patient is a patient.

Um...pain is pain.

It's-it's universal.

(John)
I reached a point about

five years ago..

...where I started..

...to feel that every
day was the same thing.

And I'd had enough.

But I've been through
a lot of stuff since then.

And now..

...I try to embrace the idea

that..

...everything that happens
has never happened before.

Like that saying..

...that you can't
stand in the same river twice

because by the time
that you come back

it's not the same river.

And you're not the same man.

Anyway.

I look around this place now

and I can't imagine
ever finding it boring.

Because right at the moment..

...that you think
you've seen it all..

Something happens that
you never could have expected.

[monitor beeping]

[chuckling]

[exhales]

[theme music]