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♪ Blue skies smiling at me ♪
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♪ Nothing but blue skies ♪
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♪ Do I see ♪
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♪ Blue birds singing a song ♪
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♪ Singing a song,
singing a song ♪
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♪ Singing a song,
singing a song...
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You can't just do this.
You can't just give up on me.
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- Like hell I can't.
- Let me try again.
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Let me fix it.
He was so close.
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I just... I...
I don't know why I stopped him.
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It was, like, this stupid
crisis of conscience.
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I had one of those
myself recently,
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but now I'm over it,
and I've never felt better.
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Please!
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Please just...
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just let me try again.
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Do you think
this is the kind of place
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that hands out second chances?
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And cut the hysterics 'cause
I'm not falling for them again.
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You really aren't
any different, are you?
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You're just as cruel and
as sick as everybody else here.
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Well, shit.
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- I guess so.
- Do you even have a daughter?
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Or was that photo
you showed me
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just some cheap
internet stock photo?
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Hush your mouth
and keep walking.
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You brought this
on yourself, you know?
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Came up with a plan and didn't
even bother asking yourself
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if you can go through with it.
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And speaking
of half-baked schemes,
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we found your little weapon,
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the knife you hid
in the toilet tank.
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Did you honestly think
we weren't doing sweeps?
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I had you thinking I was nice,
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and you had me
thinking you were smart.
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I guess we really did
play each other.
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Our next interview's
in place...
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...but it can wait
if you need a moment.
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I hate the beach.
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Well, some people say
the ocean brings peace.
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Yeah, well,
having been out here an hour,
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I'd like to report
they're full of shit.
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Okay, talk to me.
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Talk.
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I'll bill you later.
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I'm a scientist, you know?
A strict materialist.
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I don't subscribe to any kind
of mystical thinking,
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except when it comes
to failure.
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For me,
failure's always had
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a sort of black magic to it.
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Like, you got to ward it off
with crosses and garlic
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and everything in your power,
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because if you let it in,
even just the thought of it,
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it becomes inevitable.
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And then I woke up
this morning,
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there it was,
the prospect of failure
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just sort of sitting
on my chest,
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waiting for me
to acknowledge it.
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All because these fucking boys
won't fucking talk.
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Well, we'll cycle through
a few more of them today.
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We'll press them harder.
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We'll get more surgical
with our questions.
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Yes, there is a hole
in our research,
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but we will fill it.
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Look, you can't lose sight
of the endgame here, Gretchen.
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You got to remember
what you're doing here.
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I swear to Christ, Dan,
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I swear to the actual
biblical Christ,
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if he ruined this, if he did
something to taint this...
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He.
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Good.
So you're ready
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to have this conversation.
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You're ready to admit
that the problem...
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our real problem here
was your choice of operative.
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Look, um, I don't mean
to sound the alarm or anything,
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but I'm starting
to worry about Josh.
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All the meds that he takes
for stress or depression,
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I don't know what.
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And the poor kid, he drinks...
he drinks so much.
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And, like, gets really sloppy.
I found him wandering all alone
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last night, uh,
just totally out of it.
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And then this morning we were
collecting salt water for, um,
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so we could boil it down
and preserve the jag meat...
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Preserving sustenance.
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That's a pretty impressive
milestone for them to hit.
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Josh, he was
so hungover he tried to drink
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the water straight
from the ocean.
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I don't know
what's going on with him.
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Maybe his dosages
are off something.
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I do wonder why Gretchen picked
someone like Josh
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with all of his health issues.
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Okay, first off,
most of his illnesses
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are obviously psychosomatic.
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And second, his family
is one of the few that paid.
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World-altering studies don't
just fund themselves, Susan.
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The kid is absurdly fragile,
Thom.
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- That's all I'm saying.
- That's why he's there,
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to grow some thicker skin.
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Look,
if I had someone helping me
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the way Gretchen's
helping Josh, I,
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you know, might've come
into my own a little sooner.
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But anyway, he's got support.
Look.
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I'm doing my best
to look out for him.
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I just hope it'll be enough.
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I mean, if he hurts himself
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or like, someone else, then...
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I don't know.
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I had to put this
on your radar though.
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I'll memo this and CC her.
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You know, it might be time
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to admit what's happening here.
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The guys are building community
even faster than the girls did.
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I don't think it's time
to admit that.
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They've killed
an apex predator,
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they're working as a team,
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and they've already
cracked food preservation.
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The girls are how many days
ahead of them
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and they still haven't
figured that one out.
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All right, eat up.
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- This shit won't keep.
- No, I can't.
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- I'm way too full over here.
- Come on, guys.
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We'll feel like dicks if we
just throw away food today
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and then, you know, we don't
have anything tomorrow.
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- Yummy.
- No.
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Mm-mm.
I'm engorged,
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and not in a hot way.
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Wow, I am so over
this feast to famine bullshit.
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I know, they're sort
of awful in their own way.
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I don't know.
I still like feast.
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Look at my food baby.
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Absolutely not, Martha.
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No one has said "food baby"
since 2017 for a reason.
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We decided to leave it there.
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Food baby?
I think it's kind of cute.
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Nope, Shelby,
we are not reinforcing this.
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Martha, I love you,
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but I'm not letting you
resurrect "food baby."
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My thing is, like,
if you extend the metaphor,
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when you do take a shit,
are you supposed to love it
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like a child?
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It's all very confusing.
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I'm sorry, baby.
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I didn't know you'd
be so controversial.
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Yeah, Jesus.
Come on.
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Let her have her food baby.
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Ah, nails on a chalkboard.
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Can we just stop saying it?
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Come on, Fatin,
let her have her baby.
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Just let her have
her little food baby.
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This isn't funny.
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- Now you're...
- You want a little kiss?
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Fuck!
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- Oh, my God.
- Oh.
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Oh, shit!
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I'm so sorry.
I'm so, so sorry.
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Yeah, it's fine,
it's fine, it's fine.
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It's fine.
Honestly, something needed
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to interrupt
that conversation, so...
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Yeah, that was pretty low
for us in terms of banter.
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I wanna know if you're okay.
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I am.
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And then I'm not.
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And then I am,
and then I'm really not.
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But the prayer thing
is working.
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Uh, I guess I just
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want more.
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More?
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Like, I don't know,
more God, I guess.
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I don't mean
to make this heavy, I just...
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I just want some
of what you got.
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Well...
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...finding God
is about faith really.
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You can't just get it
or learn it.
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You know, you...
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you sort of have to trust it.
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Yeah, but you know me.
I've got control issues.
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Like, I need steps.
Like...
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like a program
or some rituals or something.
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Okay.
Uh, well...
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...um, maybe you could start
with, like, a baptism or...
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I've been in water
my whole life.
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It's kind of played out for me.
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Then there's marriage,
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though not everybody's
allowed that.
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Not in my church anyway.
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Uh, I don't know.
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Uh,
maybe the Catholics do more.
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We just kind of hit
the high notes, you know,
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babies, matrimony, death.
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Rachel, I didn't mean
to bring that up.
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- I'm... I'm so sorry.
- Don't be.
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Maybe, like, that's
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what I need.
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A funeral, you know?
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Maybe I need to...
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Maybe I need to bury her.
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We're here to help.
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Whatever you need.
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I'll be here for you.
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Thank you.
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Um, I'll get some
of her stuff together.
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You okay?
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Of course.
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Shelby,
you gave her your cross.
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I'm just... I'm just trying
to be a good friend.
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When you're
brought up a certain way,
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you just do stuff
and believe stuff,
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'cause it's what
your parents taught you.
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Like...
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Like you've got to make
your bed with the tight corners
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and put the milk in the fridge
with the spout facing out.
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How everything
is always better
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when it's straight
and neat and clean.
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And you don't
question it really...
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...because it's all you know.
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Until it's not,
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and you glimpse something
different for yourself.
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Yeah, like the morning
after the hunt.
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We had all this dried meat
from the kill.
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We could look at it
and say that we did that.
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We provided for ourselves.
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I was eating it, you know,
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grease all over my hands,
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gristle under my nails.
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I've never been proud
and dirty at the same time.
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What?
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Why are you looking at me
like that all weird?
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Nothing, man.
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It's just a good day is all.
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It's just a damn good day.
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Who wants some more?
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This is unreal, dude.
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I can't believe you got it
to taste okay.
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Hey, it's not just okay, okay?
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This shit
is fucking marketable.
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It... it's all-natural,
gluten-free.
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It's exotic.
I mean, when we get home,
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me and you are gonna talk.
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We gonna see
if we can't market this shit.
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Yeah, I don't know.
I tried a few things.
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Took that bunker ketchup
and used it as a rub,
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and then I smoked the meat
for a punch of mesquite.
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Um, I'm sorry, what?
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Uh, my coach used
to be a pit master.
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Taught me all this cool shit.
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It's good, Kirin.
Compliments to the chef.
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Where's J-Bird, huh?
He get any?
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You know what, maybe
we should just let him chill.
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He's super hungover.
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Probably should just,
like, walk it off.
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Besides the energy
is good here.
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If Josh comes over, then it's
a whole spiel about alcohol
253
00:12:59,906 --> 00:13:02,115
and the effects
on his microbiome.
254
00:13:03,617 --> 00:13:05,159
He might not be
drinking enough water.
255
00:13:05,160 --> 00:13:07,203
That's true... Raf,
tell them what he told you.
256
00:13:07,204 --> 00:13:09,748
Tell them why he doesn't wanna
drink from the water supply.
257
00:13:09,749 --> 00:13:12,542
He doesn't want
to abuse his white privilege.
258
00:13:12,543 --> 00:13:14,752
Oh, Lord.
So what?
259
00:13:14,753 --> 00:13:16,838
Instead, he's gonna die
heroically of dehydration
260
00:13:16,839 --> 00:13:18,048
and make himself the center
of the narrative
261
00:13:18,049 --> 00:13:19,215
when we get back home?
262
00:13:19,216 --> 00:13:21,425
- Please.
- Nah, it's true.
263
00:13:21,426 --> 00:13:23,762
I mean, that boy's
all messed up with this shit.
264
00:13:23,763 --> 00:13:25,514
The other day,
guess what he called me?
265
00:13:25,515 --> 00:13:27,078
Wait for it.
266
00:13:27,079 --> 00:13:28,641
Articulate.
267
00:13:33,605 --> 00:13:35,523
Josh!
268
00:13:35,524 --> 00:13:37,024
Come hang out.
269
00:13:37,025 --> 00:13:39,569
I feel like I just told you
to let him chill, but okay.
270
00:13:39,570 --> 00:13:42,113
Packs don't leave the weak
on their own.
271
00:13:42,114 --> 00:13:44,407
It's against nature.
272
00:13:44,408 --> 00:13:45,951
Hey.
273
00:13:47,118 --> 00:13:48,827
How are you feeling, man?
274
00:13:48,828 --> 00:13:50,830
- You holding up okay?
- Joshua,
275
00:13:50,831 --> 00:13:52,582
would you like some water?
276
00:13:52,583 --> 00:13:54,500
I really shouldn't.
277
00:13:54,501 --> 00:13:57,671
I want you to know that me and
my people would very much love
278
00:13:57,672 --> 00:13:59,673
for you to take some water
and not die.
279
00:13:59,674 --> 00:14:01,904
Yeah, dude.
We want you to rebound.
280
00:14:01,905 --> 00:14:04,135
We got a "good vibes only"
thing here and...
281
00:14:05,303 --> 00:14:07,138
...uh, we want you in on it.
282
00:14:07,139 --> 00:14:10,058
Here.
Seriously.
283
00:14:11,351 --> 00:14:12,936
Are you sure you're okay, Josh?
284
00:14:15,689 --> 00:14:17,189
Oh, shit.
285
00:14:17,190 --> 00:14:18,733
We blew through
the fucking water supply.
286
00:14:18,734 --> 00:14:20,359
Aw, man.
287
00:14:20,360 --> 00:14:21,777
No, no, it's cool.
It's cool.
288
00:14:21,778 --> 00:14:24,990
Between the alcohol and...
and the salt on the meat,
289
00:14:24,991 --> 00:14:26,199
we weren't not
gonna get thirsty.
290
00:14:26,200 --> 00:14:28,867
We just...
we just got to...
291
00:14:28,868 --> 00:14:30,912
We got to hit the woods,
find some fresh water.
292
00:14:30,913 --> 00:14:33,163
- Come on, come on.
- Spillz is right.
293
00:14:33,164 --> 00:14:35,166
- We can't really put this off.
- Let's go, come on.
294
00:14:35,167 --> 00:14:36,418
Should we split up,
cover more ground?
295
00:14:36,419 --> 00:14:38,378
Excellent idea
all the way around.
296
00:14:38,379 --> 00:14:40,338
I'll... I'll hang back here
with... with J.
297
00:14:40,339 --> 00:14:42,257
No,
I, uh...
298
00:14:43,550 --> 00:14:45,572
No, I...
I should move.
299
00:14:45,573 --> 00:14:47,595
I should keep it moving.
300
00:14:47,596 --> 00:14:49,763
You can go with me,
Snowflake.
301
00:14:49,764 --> 00:14:52,559
I'll push your sad ass up
the hill if it comes to that.
302
00:14:52,560 --> 00:14:53,684
Let's go.
303
00:14:53,685 --> 00:14:55,186
Great.
Thanks... thanks, Kirin.
304
00:14:55,187 --> 00:14:56,688
Show me those high knees.
305
00:14:56,689 --> 00:14:58,022
Let's do it.
306
00:14:58,023 --> 00:14:59,607
Up high.
No charge.
307
00:14:59,608 --> 00:15:01,191
Let's go.
Let's get it.
308
00:15:01,192 --> 00:15:03,778
The first one to find water...
309
00:15:06,114 --> 00:15:07,949
...gets water.
310
00:15:25,550 --> 00:15:27,364
- Fuck!
- Hey.
311
00:15:27,365 --> 00:15:29,178
Oh, my God, you scared me.
312
00:15:29,179 --> 00:15:31,096
How long
were you lurking over there?
313
00:15:31,097 --> 00:15:33,016
Long enough to marvel
at you doing laundry.
314
00:15:34,768 --> 00:15:36,977
Weird, right?
315
00:15:36,978 --> 00:15:38,646
- Is that Nora's?
- Mm-hmm.
316
00:15:38,647 --> 00:15:41,274
Rachel wants to bury it
as part of the funeral.
317
00:15:42,609 --> 00:15:43,943
If it's just gonna
get dirt all over it,
318
00:15:43,944 --> 00:15:45,882
why are you cleaning it?
319
00:15:45,883 --> 00:15:47,822
I don't really know.
320
00:15:49,783 --> 00:15:52,327
Feels more respectful
or something.
321
00:15:56,164 --> 00:15:57,499
You know, about today...
322
00:15:58,625 --> 00:16:01,628
...I really wanna be there
for Rachel but...
323
00:16:02,921 --> 00:16:04,839
...all things Nora are just
sort of triggering for me,
324
00:16:04,840 --> 00:16:06,466
and I think maybe I should
just sit this one out.
325
00:16:06,467 --> 00:16:09,301
And here we are again.
326
00:16:09,302 --> 00:16:10,720
- Here we are where?
- You're fixated
327
00:16:10,721 --> 00:16:12,805
on shit that's dead and gone.
328
00:16:12,806 --> 00:16:14,890
If it's not Nora,
it's your writer boyfie,
329
00:16:14,891 --> 00:16:16,976
and honestly,
I don't love any of it for you.
330
00:16:16,977 --> 00:16:19,395
I know I trash talk Jeff,
right?
331
00:16:19,396 --> 00:16:21,481
I think it's just
because I'm bummed out.
332
00:16:21,482 --> 00:16:22,691
You give him
so much real estate
333
00:16:22,692 --> 00:16:24,484
in your head and your heart.
334
00:16:24,485 --> 00:16:26,277
I don't think he deserves it.
335
00:16:26,278 --> 00:16:28,779
Well, if I give it up,
336
00:16:28,780 --> 00:16:31,574
like, I stop thinking
about him and Nora...
337
00:16:33,368 --> 00:16:35,077
...what then?
338
00:16:35,078 --> 00:16:38,915
Just dream bigger
or better or different.
339
00:16:46,882 --> 00:16:49,883
Ben Folds.
340
00:16:49,884 --> 00:16:51,177
- What?
- I'll fantasize
341
00:16:51,178 --> 00:16:52,511
about Ben Folds.
342
00:16:52,512 --> 00:16:54,972
- Is that a human being?
- A human.
343
00:16:54,973 --> 00:16:57,433
A musician,
a songwriter, a poet,
344
00:16:57,434 --> 00:17:00,894
a messy-haired wearer
of great glasses.
345
00:17:00,895 --> 00:17:03,314
Wait, do you really not know
Ben Folds of Ben Folds Five?
346
00:17:03,315 --> 00:17:05,023
He was, like,
huge in the early aughts.
347
00:17:05,024 --> 00:17:06,901
Bieber was huge.
I've never heard of this guy.
348
00:17:06,902 --> 00:17:08,193
Okay, he was,
like, niche huge.
349
00:17:08,194 --> 00:17:10,633
But my cousin at Berkeley
was super into him
350
00:17:10,634 --> 00:17:13,074
and so I was super into him
and he just, like...
351
00:17:13,075 --> 00:17:14,742
he wrecked me.
352
00:17:14,743 --> 00:17:16,410
I was maybe 11.
353
00:17:16,411 --> 00:17:19,581
He was my first crush and I
knew every lyric to every song.
354
00:17:19,582 --> 00:17:21,583
I wrote them all over
my binders, my walls,
355
00:17:21,584 --> 00:17:23,250
sometimes my skin.
356
00:17:23,251 --> 00:17:25,128
Yeah, that sounds really
on brand for you.
357
00:17:27,380 --> 00:17:29,339
See, isn't this is more fun
358
00:17:29,340 --> 00:17:31,301
than getting hung up
on the same old shit?
359
00:17:34,012 --> 00:17:36,473
You know what else sounds fun?
360
00:17:39,142 --> 00:17:41,310
Oh...
361
00:17:41,311 --> 00:17:43,083
Whoo!
362
00:17:43,084 --> 00:17:44,856
Agh.
363
00:17:46,441 --> 00:17:49,651
Yeah, Leah!
364
00:17:49,652 --> 00:17:53,072
Oh, fuck me, it's so cold.
365
00:17:54,574 --> 00:17:57,117
I'm so fucking hot.
366
00:17:57,118 --> 00:17:59,661
I'm fucking thirsty too.
367
00:17:59,662 --> 00:18:02,831
But I keep at it.
I keep going.
368
00:18:02,832 --> 00:18:06,669
'Cause "pain is weakness
leaving the body."
369
00:18:06,670 --> 00:18:08,879
You ever heard that before?
370
00:18:08,880 --> 00:18:11,132
"Pain is weakness
leaving the body?"
371
00:18:12,759 --> 00:18:14,176
Come on, dude.
Keep going.
372
00:18:14,177 --> 00:18:16,179
Sweat it out.
It'll be good for you.
373
00:18:16,180 --> 00:18:18,722
- I'm trying.
- Try harder.
374
00:18:18,723 --> 00:18:21,184
Redeem yourself
for getting so shit-faced.
375
00:18:25,396 --> 00:18:27,877
Shh, shh, shh.
376
00:18:32,487 --> 00:18:34,030
Oh, shit.
377
00:18:35,615 --> 00:18:38,847
H2O, baby!
378
00:18:38,848 --> 00:18:42,079
Yeow-y!
379
00:18:46,804 --> 00:18:49,044
Oh, yeah.
380
00:18:52,215 --> 00:18:55,384
Whoo!
381
00:18:55,385 --> 00:18:58,388
We fucking did it, bro!
382
00:19:04,602 --> 00:19:07,855
Oh!
383
00:19:07,856 --> 00:19:09,147
Come on down.
384
00:19:09,148 --> 00:19:13,695
Sweet baby Jesus,
it feels so good.
385
00:19:14,571 --> 00:19:16,322
Dude, let's go, let's go,
let's go.
386
00:19:16,323 --> 00:19:19,012
Get in the water!
387
00:19:19,013 --> 00:19:21,702
Oh, yeah.
Oh, yeah.
388
00:19:21,703 --> 00:19:23,830
What are you doing, man?
Get the hell in here.
389
00:19:28,042 --> 00:19:29,168
It's nice.
390
00:19:30,503 --> 00:19:32,421
What the hell was that?
391
00:19:32,422 --> 00:19:35,633
All the way in, man.
Feels fucking amazing.
392
00:19:36,885 --> 00:19:38,595
- Oh, you're getting in.
- No.
393
00:19:38,596 --> 00:19:39,636
Oh, yeah.
394
00:19:39,637 --> 00:19:40,513
I'm really not up for it.
395
00:19:40,514 --> 00:19:43,390
Oh, yeah!
Oh, yeah!
396
00:19:43,391 --> 00:19:45,894
Come on, don't be such
a little bitch, Joshy.
397
00:19:45,895 --> 00:19:48,083
I'm telling you,
you'll be reborn.
398
00:19:48,084 --> 00:19:50,492
- Get...
- Come on.
399
00:19:50,493 --> 00:19:52,900
- Kirin, get off!
- Whoa!
400
00:19:52,901 --> 00:19:55,068
- What is that on your stomach?
- It's nothing.
401
00:19:55,069 --> 00:19:57,780
It just happens sometimes
when I drink, especially beer.
402
00:19:57,781 --> 00:20:00,116
It's just... it's gluten.
It'll go away.
403
00:20:01,242 --> 00:20:04,328
Jesus, why are you like this?
404
00:20:04,329 --> 00:20:06,330
We literally can't get
a single win
405
00:20:06,331 --> 00:20:08,666
without you bringing up
some of your sad shit.
406
00:20:08,667 --> 00:20:10,542
Whatever.
Seth's right.
407
00:20:10,543 --> 00:20:12,587
We're all out here vibing,
trying to keep each other up...
408
00:20:12,588 --> 00:20:14,171
What did Seth say?
409
00:20:14,172 --> 00:20:15,631
That this is your thing.
410
00:20:15,632 --> 00:20:17,862
Killing the high,
being the problem,
411
00:20:17,863 --> 00:20:20,093
I'm not the fucking problem.
Seth is!
412
00:20:20,094 --> 00:20:22,221
Seth is the problem!
He's the fucking problem!
413
00:20:22,222 --> 00:20:24,349
It wasn't me!
I'm not the fucking problem!
414
00:20:24,350 --> 00:20:26,350
- Hey, hey, hey, hey, shh, shh.
- No!
415
00:20:26,351 --> 00:20:27,644
- No, it's okay.
- I just... I couldn't...
416
00:20:27,645 --> 00:20:29,479
- Okay.
- Seth...
417
00:20:31,230 --> 00:20:33,858
I am not the fucking problem,
man.
418
00:20:34,859 --> 00:20:37,987
I'm not the fucking problem.
419
00:20:37,988 --> 00:20:39,113
Josh...
420
00:20:40,490 --> 00:20:42,824
...what happened, man?
421
00:20:42,825 --> 00:20:45,453
Is there anything
that you might share with us
422
00:20:45,454 --> 00:20:48,623
about what he told you
that day?
423
00:20:48,624 --> 00:20:51,625
It changed us.
424
00:20:51,626 --> 00:20:53,210
It changed everything.
425
00:20:53,211 --> 00:20:56,798
How exactly did it change you?
426
00:20:57,924 --> 00:20:59,217
Not sure
it's one of those things
427
00:20:59,218 --> 00:21:02,344
you can describe, just...
428
00:21:02,345 --> 00:21:07,557
...boom,
and then nothing was the same.
429
00:21:07,558 --> 00:21:11,854
Well, for you to be so rattled
by this, that's saying a lot.
430
00:21:11,855 --> 00:21:14,232
You who'd been so strong,
so steady,
431
00:21:14,233 --> 00:21:15,649
the one everyone counted on,
432
00:21:15,650 --> 00:21:17,860
or at least that's
what the others have said.
433
00:21:17,861 --> 00:21:19,987
Used to that, I guess.
434
00:21:19,988 --> 00:21:22,615
Sort of had to be an adult
back home, you know?
435
00:21:24,242 --> 00:21:26,411
Mom doesn't count.
You figured that out
436
00:21:26,412 --> 00:21:27,996
if you talked to her.
437
00:21:27,997 --> 00:21:29,830
And my father...
438
00:21:34,585 --> 00:21:37,963
I wonder if this
adult quality that you have
439
00:21:37,964 --> 00:21:41,342
is why Josh felt so comfortable
opening up to you
440
00:21:41,343 --> 00:21:43,051
when he shared with you
what he did.
441
00:21:43,052 --> 00:21:46,723
I actually figured out
where he lived, my dad.
442
00:21:46,724 --> 00:21:52,352
New house, new wife, new kid.
443
00:21:52,353 --> 00:21:56,691
I was in the third grade
I think and I went by.
444
00:22:01,821 --> 00:22:04,657
They were having
pancakes for dinner.
445
00:22:12,623 --> 00:22:13,958
That feeling...
446
00:22:17,045 --> 00:22:19,505
...never really goes away.
447
00:22:21,966 --> 00:22:25,720
That shitty feeling
of not mattering to people...
448
00:22:29,098 --> 00:22:32,185
...not mattering to the people
you're supposed to matter to.
449
00:22:43,362 --> 00:22:45,447
It hits hard.
450
00:22:45,448 --> 00:22:46,949
It hits early.
451
00:22:47,992 --> 00:22:50,620
And it will fuck
with your soul.
452
00:22:59,587 --> 00:23:02,006
That not mattering shit...
453
00:23:05,468 --> 00:23:07,178
...you can let it fuck you up.
454
00:23:09,055 --> 00:23:10,556
Or you can bury it.
455
00:23:27,281 --> 00:23:30,827
♪ I wanna fall deep
in your ways ♪
456
00:23:34,288 --> 00:23:38,751
♪ I wanna wash
under your waves ♪
457
00:23:40,670 --> 00:23:44,423
♪ And if it all falls away ♪
458
00:23:47,510 --> 00:23:51,013
♪ I'll still be held
in your shape ♪
459
00:23:53,850 --> 00:23:58,019
♪ Mm, mm, mm ♪
460
00:23:58,020 --> 00:24:00,565
'Cause she loved birds.
461
00:24:02,316 --> 00:24:04,568
My last cig.
462
00:24:04,569 --> 00:24:07,487
Martha suggested
that I give it to her.
463
00:24:07,488 --> 00:24:11,701
My family burns tobacco
when we pray to our creator.
464
00:24:11,702 --> 00:24:15,225
The smoke sends our prayers
to Manidoo.
465
00:24:15,226 --> 00:24:18,749
♪ I wanna be holed up
with you ♪
466
00:24:21,335 --> 00:24:25,423
♪ I wanna be wrinkled as two ♪
467
00:24:28,092 --> 00:24:32,346
♪ And even if it's a phase ♪
468
00:24:34,724 --> 00:24:39,562
♪ I'll always be
in your shape ♪
469
00:24:41,689 --> 00:24:46,318
♪ I wanna fall deep
in your ways ♪
470
00:24:46,319 --> 00:24:50,113
♪ I wanna wash
under your waves ♪
471
00:24:50,114 --> 00:24:56,037
You think I could
have a moment alone with her?
472
00:24:56,038 --> 00:25:00,416
Maybe say goodbye
just the two of us?
473
00:25:02,793 --> 00:25:06,088
♪ I'll still be held
in your shape ♪
474
00:25:09,467 --> 00:25:15,473
♪ Mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm ♪
475
00:25:18,184 --> 00:25:21,311
Do you guys think that,
476
00:25:21,312 --> 00:25:23,773
like, our families have
given us funerals?
477
00:25:26,150 --> 00:25:28,653
Jesus,
I hadn't thought about that.
478
00:25:29,570 --> 00:25:30,988
Yeah.
479
00:25:32,990 --> 00:25:35,660
I mean, it's been so long
that we're probably...
480
00:25:35,661 --> 00:25:39,538
Gone to people back home?
481
00:25:42,416 --> 00:25:44,335
We are dead to the world.
482
00:25:47,255 --> 00:25:50,215
Oh, my God, my parents.
483
00:25:50,216 --> 00:25:53,823
I love them but they definitely
got the funeral all wrong.
484
00:25:53,824 --> 00:25:57,431
Probably made a slide show
with all the pictures I hate,
485
00:25:57,432 --> 00:26:00,558
the baby ones
when I had a cone head.
486
00:26:00,559 --> 00:26:03,145
And they definitely picked
some regrettably bad song
487
00:26:03,146 --> 00:26:04,938
like "I Hope You Dance."
488
00:26:04,939 --> 00:26:07,191
My parents probably
cry a lot...
489
00:26:09,277 --> 00:26:12,488
...but are probably trying
to be strong for my sisters.
490
00:26:13,948 --> 00:26:16,117
I hope someone's
taking care of my bunny.
491
00:26:17,243 --> 00:26:18,618
If you don't love them,
bunnies get mean.
492
00:26:18,619 --> 00:26:22,372
Your mom's definitely taking
care of Mr. Bunniesworth.
493
00:26:22,373 --> 00:26:28,879
That fucking Dr. Gretchen Klein
with her whole greasy little
494
00:26:28,880 --> 00:26:32,049
"don't you deserve good things"
sales pitch.
495
00:26:32,050 --> 00:26:35,219
- Who are you talking about?
- Gretchen Klein,
496
00:26:35,220 --> 00:26:38,471
the retreat lady
in the airplane video.
497
00:26:38,472 --> 00:26:40,724
I don't think she's actually,
like, a doctor-doctor,
498
00:26:40,725 --> 00:26:42,977
but that's just, you know,
how she introduced herself.
499
00:26:42,978 --> 00:26:45,896
- Wait, you met her?
- Yeah.
500
00:26:45,897 --> 00:26:47,063
Didn't you?
501
00:26:47,064 --> 00:26:48,566
- No.
- No.
502
00:26:48,567 --> 00:26:49,733
Oh.
503
00:26:49,734 --> 00:26:52,319
I think she just
gave me a donut,
504
00:26:52,320 --> 00:26:55,614
did her little song and dance
selling me on the retreat.
505
00:26:56,657 --> 00:26:59,869
Said that she'd sort out
child services,
506
00:26:59,870 --> 00:27:02,663
so I fucking went for it.
507
00:27:04,290 --> 00:27:08,336
Doesn't that strike you
as weird that she met with Dot?
508
00:27:08,337 --> 00:27:09,961
Yes,
I'm just not really interested
509
00:27:09,962 --> 00:27:12,109
in reopening
some extremely closed doors
510
00:27:12,110 --> 00:27:14,258
that weren't good for me
in the first place.
511
00:27:14,259 --> 00:27:15,800
Said with love.
512
00:27:33,569 --> 00:27:36,572
You know, I'm just
gonna keep asking this.
513
00:27:37,907 --> 00:27:39,658
I'm not really a quitter.
514
00:27:41,118 --> 00:27:42,286
Are you okay?
515
00:27:46,415 --> 00:27:48,541
You know what I thought
516
00:27:48,542 --> 00:27:50,628
when I realized I was dead
to the world?
517
00:27:53,172 --> 00:27:55,091
Good.
518
00:27:56,967 --> 00:27:58,511
'Cause if they knew
who I really was,
519
00:27:58,512 --> 00:28:00,638
I'd be dead to them anyway.
520
00:28:06,185 --> 00:28:08,165
- I'm gonna kill him.
- Kirin, no.
521
00:28:08,166 --> 00:28:10,146
You said you wouldn't,
over and over.
522
00:28:10,147 --> 00:28:12,023
And I keep changing my mind
over and over.
523
00:28:12,024 --> 00:28:13,859
But you can't just sweep
this shit under the rug.
524
00:28:13,860 --> 00:28:14,984
Yeah, but it's my thing.
525
00:28:14,985 --> 00:28:16,404
Don't I get to decide
what happens?
526
00:28:16,405 --> 00:28:18,238
There have to be consequences.
527
00:28:18,239 --> 00:28:19,864
Otherwise monsters
like this piece of shit
528
00:28:19,865 --> 00:28:22,701
start getting fucking confident
and then they take charge.
529
00:28:22,702 --> 00:28:24,578
No!
530
00:28:25,704 --> 00:28:29,332
I can't tell people.
Like...
531
00:28:29,333 --> 00:28:32,002
I don't wanna
be the kid who, like...
532
00:28:33,003 --> 00:28:35,630
Look, I'm not gonna be that.
533
00:28:35,631 --> 00:28:36,923
Then we don't
tell them what happened
534
00:28:36,924 --> 00:28:38,216
and I beat the shit
out of him anyway.
535
00:28:38,217 --> 00:28:40,803
Okay, no, but I was drunk
and I was all over the place,
536
00:28:40,804 --> 00:28:43,055
so who even knows
and who's gonna believe me?
537
00:28:43,056 --> 00:28:45,224
I believe you.
538
00:28:46,308 --> 00:28:48,601
Look, if you want me to chill,
539
00:28:48,602 --> 00:28:52,648
not say anything,
not do anything, fine.
540
00:28:52,649 --> 00:28:55,818
But if he comes
near you again...
541
00:28:58,154 --> 00:28:59,947
Come on.
542
00:29:12,251 --> 00:29:13,377
Hey!
543
00:29:14,962 --> 00:29:16,547
What do we got?
544
00:29:17,631 --> 00:29:20,842
- Goal?
- Sorry.
545
00:29:20,843 --> 00:29:24,346
I found this.
It's not water though.
546
00:29:24,347 --> 00:29:26,264
Sick consolation prize though.
547
00:29:26,265 --> 00:29:28,809
Hey, man.
Somebody better come through.
548
00:29:28,810 --> 00:29:30,727
My mouth is dry as hell.
549
00:29:30,728 --> 00:29:35,316
Got that white buildup shit in
the corners of my damn mouth.
550
00:29:35,317 --> 00:29:36,650
I hate that.
Here, take mine.
551
00:29:36,651 --> 00:29:38,318
Thanks, man.
552
00:29:38,319 --> 00:29:40,904
Hey, how'd we go?
Goal?
553
00:29:40,905 --> 00:29:43,866
- You don't even play soccer.
- My entire body is screaming.
554
00:29:43,867 --> 00:29:47,368
Okay, I'll take that as a...
as a no.
555
00:29:47,369 --> 00:29:49,788
Uh, we're zero for two,
but it can turn around.
556
00:29:49,789 --> 00:29:53,250
I'm a man of... of...
of faith.
557
00:29:53,251 --> 00:29:54,877
Mm-hmm.
Ish.
558
00:29:56,504 --> 00:29:58,380
- Hey.
- Hey!
559
00:29:59,298 --> 00:30:01,133
Goal?
560
00:30:03,010 --> 00:30:04,428
Oh, shit, fuck yeah!
561
00:30:04,429 --> 00:30:07,598
- Goal!
- Whoo-hoo!
562
00:30:07,599 --> 00:30:11,267
Goal!
Goal!
563
00:30:11,268 --> 00:30:13,103
Heads-up seven up!
564
00:30:14,813 --> 00:30:17,440
JK bringing it home, baby.
565
00:30:17,441 --> 00:30:20,611
Bottled at the source,
Crystal Geyser realness.
566
00:30:20,612 --> 00:30:22,154
Don't.
567
00:30:23,781 --> 00:30:25,699
It needs purifying.
568
00:30:27,284 --> 00:30:29,495
Huge find.
Thanks, guys.
569
00:30:29,496 --> 00:30:31,371
Yeah, of course.
570
00:30:31,372 --> 00:30:34,416
It's a really good spot
about an hour away.
571
00:30:34,417 --> 00:30:36,501
It's a waterfall, actually.
572
00:30:36,502 --> 00:30:38,586
It's a whole fall of water.
573
00:30:38,587 --> 00:30:40,589
- Pretty psyched about it.
- Joshua!
574
00:30:42,362 --> 00:30:44,133
You prince!
575
00:30:44,134 --> 00:30:45,886
Here I thought
you were off your game,
576
00:30:45,887 --> 00:30:48,201
but you saved the fucking day.
577
00:30:48,202 --> 00:30:50,516
Get your fucking hands off him!
578
00:30:50,517 --> 00:30:52,433
Kirin!
579
00:30:52,434 --> 00:30:54,352
Kirin!
Kirin, Kirin!
580
00:30:54,353 --> 00:30:56,271
Agh!
581
00:30:56,272 --> 00:30:58,461
- Chill!
- Come on, dude!
582
00:30:58,462 --> 00:31:00,650
What the hell is your problem?
583
00:31:00,651 --> 00:31:03,112
Why don't you ask
your sick fuck friend?
584
00:31:06,115 --> 00:31:07,740
What caused Kirin
585
00:31:07,741 --> 00:31:10,868
to show such aggression
towards Seth,
586
00:31:10,869 --> 00:31:12,621
especially when things
were going so well?
587
00:31:12,622 --> 00:31:16,041
You had food and then water.
588
00:31:18,502 --> 00:31:21,380
Oftentimes when the physical
needs of a group are met,
589
00:31:21,381 --> 00:31:24,300
emotional conflicts tend
to bubble up.
590
00:31:24,301 --> 00:31:25,884
Is that what
was happening here?
591
00:31:27,761 --> 00:31:30,179
Maybe.
592
00:31:30,180 --> 00:31:32,828
Or maybe Seth deserved it.
593
00:31:32,829 --> 00:31:35,476
Why might he have deserved it?
594
00:31:35,477 --> 00:31:38,021
Well, his face is
sort of punch-able.
595
00:31:38,022 --> 00:31:40,816
The Germans have
a marvelous word for that.
596
00:31:42,651 --> 00:31:45,279
Backpfeifengesicht.
597
00:31:45,280 --> 00:31:48,489
Sure.
That.
598
00:31:48,490 --> 00:31:51,951
As Seth's step-brother,
you must've had
599
00:31:51,952 --> 00:31:55,789
some complicated feelings
about Kirin's attack.
600
00:31:55,790 --> 00:31:59,835
Fear or anger,
defensiveness.
601
00:32:03,839 --> 00:32:06,383
When I was a young boy...
602
00:32:07,551 --> 00:32:10,888
...my father took me
into the city
603
00:32:10,889 --> 00:32:13,307
to see a marching band.
604
00:32:13,308 --> 00:32:14,308
Go on.
605
00:32:15,517 --> 00:32:18,645
He said,
"Son, when you grow up...
606
00:32:18,646 --> 00:32:22,357
♪ Will you be the savior
of the broken ♪
607
00:32:22,358 --> 00:32:26,070
♪ The beaten,
and the damned?" ♪
608
00:32:28,072 --> 00:32:31,617
♪ He said,
"Will you defeat them? ♪
609
00:32:31,618 --> 00:32:33,326
♪ Your demons ♪
610
00:32:33,327 --> 00:32:36,287
♪ And all
the non-believers?" ♪
611
00:32:36,288 --> 00:32:39,249
♪ To join the black parade ♪
612
00:32:42,503 --> 00:32:44,587
- Mm.
- No...
613
00:32:44,588 --> 00:32:46,590
I think we should talk.
614
00:32:52,763 --> 00:32:55,578
You remember when we had
that grudge match
615
00:32:55,579 --> 00:32:58,394
over who had
the shittiest life back home?
616
00:33:01,021 --> 00:33:04,566
Well, I'm... I'm not
conceding here, you know?
617
00:33:04,567 --> 00:33:06,610
I still got it locked up but...
618
00:33:09,071 --> 00:33:10,780
...I'll admit I...
619
00:33:10,781 --> 00:33:11,990
I don't know what it's like
to have the kind
620
00:33:11,991 --> 00:33:13,409
of parents you do.
621
00:33:15,786 --> 00:33:17,871
You know, who can't or won't...
622
00:33:17,872 --> 00:33:19,789
Accept me?
Yeah.
623
00:33:19,790 --> 00:33:21,395
That's got to hit deep,
you know?
624
00:33:21,396 --> 00:33:23,001
There's no way
that it doesn't, so...
625
00:33:25,003 --> 00:33:27,089
...I get it if...
626
00:33:28,799 --> 00:33:30,801
...this is hard.
627
00:33:32,720 --> 00:33:34,930
If being with me is hard.
628
00:33:37,433 --> 00:33:40,143
It's not though.
629
00:33:40,144 --> 00:33:43,397
I may be doubting
everything else,
630
00:33:43,398 --> 00:33:44,982
but not this.
631
00:33:47,609 --> 00:33:50,779
With the church,
it was all just...
632
00:33:52,072 --> 00:33:55,200
...lies and hiding.
633
00:33:56,326 --> 00:33:59,057
That's what I wanna
be done with.
634
00:33:59,058 --> 00:34:01,789
That's the part that
I wanna, like,
635
00:34:01,790 --> 00:34:06,462
burn or scrape out of me
until I'm just...
636
00:34:06,463 --> 00:34:09,381
until I'm just here, you know?
637
00:34:09,382 --> 00:34:12,008
And okay.
638
00:34:12,009 --> 00:34:14,240
And honest.
639
00:34:14,241 --> 00:34:16,471
You are.
640
00:34:16,472 --> 00:34:19,558
You're the most
honest person I know.
641
00:34:19,559 --> 00:34:21,309
Except I'm not.
642
00:34:24,313 --> 00:34:28,317
I was on lookout
a few nights ago and...
643
00:34:29,902 --> 00:34:32,612
...I saw a light
on the horizon.
644
00:34:32,613 --> 00:34:35,324
Like...
like the light of a boat.
645
00:34:36,408 --> 00:34:40,287
I went to go and get the tinder
to stoke the fire...
646
00:34:45,125 --> 00:34:47,503
...but then I just froze.
647
00:34:49,004 --> 00:34:53,300
Only for a second or two,
but when I came back the...
648
00:34:53,301 --> 00:34:56,053
the boat... the light was...
it was gone.
649
00:34:57,596 --> 00:35:00,681
I was so afraid of my other
life that I hesitated
650
00:35:00,682 --> 00:35:03,727
and I missed our chance
of being saved and I fucked up.
651
00:35:03,728 --> 00:35:05,979
- Shh.
- I fucked up and I'm so sorry.
652
00:35:05,980 --> 00:35:07,355
- Shelby.
- I'm sorry.
653
00:35:07,356 --> 00:35:09,399
- I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
- Shelby, Shelby.
654
00:35:09,400 --> 00:35:12,027
- I'm sorry.
- Shh, shh.
655
00:35:13,737 --> 00:35:16,865
It probably wouldn't have
made a difference, okay?
656
00:35:16,866 --> 00:35:18,074
Okay,
if the boat was that far out,
657
00:35:18,075 --> 00:35:20,577
the fire wouldn't have helped,
all right?
658
00:35:23,372 --> 00:35:24,706
It's okay.
659
00:35:28,669 --> 00:35:32,297
This is quite possibly
the sickest destiny
660
00:35:32,298 --> 00:35:34,215
I've ever beheld.
661
00:35:34,216 --> 00:35:37,761
You're gonna marry Shrek,
which sucks for Marcus,
662
00:35:37,762 --> 00:35:40,638
but Shrek is one hot piece.
663
00:35:40,639 --> 00:35:43,350
You're gonna be
a powerful and sexy
664
00:35:43,351 --> 00:35:44,872
Veterinarian Without Borders.
665
00:35:44,873 --> 00:35:46,394
You're gonna live in a shack,
666
00:35:46,395 --> 00:35:47,896
which given
the current circumstances,
667
00:35:47,897 --> 00:35:49,355
is a true upgrade.
668
00:35:49,356 --> 00:35:51,817
And you are going
to have 18 beautiful children.
669
00:35:51,818 --> 00:35:55,070
Real ones.
Not food ones.
670
00:35:55,071 --> 00:35:58,322
I'm on fire with jealousy.
671
00:35:58,323 --> 00:36:00,074
Really?
Because 18 kids is a lot.
672
00:36:00,075 --> 00:36:03,662
Yeah, maybe not 18
with global warming in play,
673
00:36:03,663 --> 00:36:06,206
but a brood sounds nice.
674
00:36:06,207 --> 00:36:08,749
Heading to signal fire duty.
675
00:36:08,750 --> 00:36:12,420
Oh, um, if you see Rachel,
can you tell her to come back?
676
00:36:12,421 --> 00:36:16,091
Funerals are draining and I
just sort of want her to crash.
677
00:36:20,012 --> 00:36:22,222
Okay.
My turn.
678
00:36:23,473 --> 00:36:25,349
- Do my MASH.
- Sure.
679
00:36:25,350 --> 00:36:27,269
Oh, but don't waste
your time filling in the jobs
680
00:36:27,270 --> 00:36:29,896
because A, I am retired and B,
681
00:36:29,897 --> 00:36:32,273
I'm gonna be living
off the settlement money.
682
00:36:32,274 --> 00:36:35,944
You know, Dr. Klein doesn't
have to pay for a funeral,
683
00:36:35,945 --> 00:36:39,615
but she will have to bankroll
my very luxurious lifestyle.
684
00:36:41,533 --> 00:36:43,534
Wow, you're really out
for her blood.
685
00:36:43,535 --> 00:36:45,536
Yeah.
I mean, I don't know.
686
00:36:45,537 --> 00:36:48,624
It just feels nice
to have someone to blame.
687
00:36:50,584 --> 00:36:55,047
Look, can I... can I please
explain now that I'm...
688
00:36:56,381 --> 00:36:59,760
now I'm no longer getting
thrashed for no fucking reason.
689
00:36:59,761 --> 00:37:02,053
No reason, my ass.
690
00:37:02,054 --> 00:37:04,201
- He jacked off on him.
- Kirin, let him explain.
691
00:37:04,202 --> 00:37:05,984
There's not usually a rationale
for sexual assault.
692
00:37:05,985 --> 00:37:07,768
Come on, we... we don't know
that's what happened.
693
00:37:07,769 --> 00:37:09,143
Let him talk!
694
00:37:09,144 --> 00:37:11,896
Look, Josh,
he walked in on me
695
00:37:11,897 --> 00:37:14,191
when I was in the middle of...
when I was...
696
00:37:14,192 --> 00:37:16,108
I was... I was jerking off,
697
00:37:16,109 --> 00:37:17,944
and then he was just
standing there,
698
00:37:17,945 --> 00:37:19,779
and he saw me and...
and that's it.
699
00:37:19,780 --> 00:37:21,031
And now somehow,
it's getting scrambled.
700
00:37:21,032 --> 00:37:22,783
Bullshit.
701
00:37:24,076 --> 00:37:26,494
Lift up your shirt.
702
00:37:28,768 --> 00:37:31,041
Show 'em.
703
00:37:33,293 --> 00:37:37,381
He's got, like,
red all over.
704
00:37:40,050 --> 00:37:41,426
What the hell is going on?
705
00:37:41,427 --> 00:37:43,010
Why can't we hear anything?
706
00:37:43,011 --> 00:37:44,741
Microphones must
be malfunctioning.
707
00:37:44,742 --> 00:37:46,962
Oh, what?
Like that... like that's
708
00:37:46,963 --> 00:37:49,783
supposed to be
some smoking gun?
709
00:37:49,784 --> 00:37:52,603
Look, I mean, no offense, Josh,
710
00:37:52,604 --> 00:37:55,357
you literally break out
in hives over everything.
711
00:37:55,358 --> 00:37:57,192
Why would Josh lie?
712
00:37:58,485 --> 00:38:00,445
Huh, why?
713
00:38:00,446 --> 00:38:02,405
He's right.
714
00:38:02,406 --> 00:38:04,783
And if Kirin O'Connor is
believing the victim, then...
715
00:38:06,326 --> 00:38:08,265
...something obviously
happened here.
716
00:38:08,266 --> 00:38:10,205
Okay.
Wait, wait, wait, wait.
717
00:38:10,206 --> 00:38:12,206
Kirin, dude, I mean, you got,
718
00:38:12,207 --> 00:38:14,500
like, 99 reasons
to fuck with Seth.
719
00:38:14,501 --> 00:38:16,837
You've been in a dick measuring
contest with him since day one.
720
00:38:16,838 --> 00:38:19,631
You think I'd make up
some sick lie about it?
721
00:38:21,550 --> 00:38:23,342
Josh, I believe you.
722
00:38:23,343 --> 00:38:24,970
Okay, okay.
Okay, this...
723
00:38:24,971 --> 00:38:26,471
this is getting out of hand.
724
00:38:26,472 --> 00:38:29,016
He's not okay!
725
00:38:29,017 --> 00:38:31,517
Somebody...
726
00:38:31,518 --> 00:38:33,624
somebody did something to him.
727
00:38:33,625 --> 00:38:35,730
You say that like you're sure.
728
00:38:35,731 --> 00:38:38,233
I know that kind of scared
when I see it.
729
00:38:39,401 --> 00:38:41,861
This is a whole mess.
730
00:38:41,862 --> 00:38:44,364
I'm not about to be on the
wrong side of history, man.
731
00:38:44,365 --> 00:38:46,679
Wait, come on.
Sides of history?
732
00:38:46,680 --> 00:38:48,587
Looks like
you've picked yours.
733
00:38:48,588 --> 00:38:50,495
No.
No, I'm... I'm not.
734
00:38:50,496 --> 00:38:52,205
I...
735
00:38:53,790 --> 00:38:55,959
Josh, I'm not saying
you're making it up...
736
00:38:57,335 --> 00:39:01,048
...but with the drinking
and everything.
737
00:39:04,176 --> 00:39:06,343
Henry,
738
00:39:06,344 --> 00:39:08,764
do you really think
that he could do this?
739
00:39:08,765 --> 00:39:10,682
He's your family.
You know him.
740
00:39:12,267 --> 00:39:13,267
Talk.
741
00:39:17,064 --> 00:39:18,230
It's possible.
742
00:39:18,231 --> 00:39:19,482
What?
Hen... Henry,
743
00:39:19,483 --> 00:39:21,818
Henry, what... what the fuck?
Wh... I mean.
744
00:39:21,819 --> 00:39:23,987
His own brother said he did it.
745
00:39:23,988 --> 00:39:26,156
I didn't.
I said it's possible.
746
00:39:26,157 --> 00:39:28,115
He's out.
747
00:39:28,116 --> 00:39:29,701
We're kicking
the motherfucker out of camp.
748
00:39:29,702 --> 00:39:31,118
Can we
just take a second...
749
00:39:31,119 --> 00:39:33,914
No, I'm sorry, we're not
being passive about this.
750
00:39:33,915 --> 00:39:35,664
Okay, we'll vote.
751
00:39:35,665 --> 00:39:37,876
Okay, it's the... it's the just
and fair way to decide.
752
00:39:37,877 --> 00:39:39,294
This is insane.
This is...
753
00:39:39,295 --> 00:39:40,711
this is completely
off the rails.
754
00:39:40,712 --> 00:39:41,838
Let's keep this as civilized
as possible, okay?
755
00:39:41,839 --> 00:39:43,173
All those in favor
of protecting Josh
756
00:39:43,174 --> 00:39:46,885
and removing a toxic force...
757
00:39:46,886 --> 00:39:47,969
hands up.
758
00:39:57,854 --> 00:39:59,772
I can't get behind this.
759
00:39:59,773 --> 00:40:03,985
Josh, I'm sorry, I don't think
you would lie, but...
760
00:40:06,029 --> 00:40:07,989
...I don't think
Seth would either.
761
00:40:07,990 --> 00:40:11,575
No.
It's okay, I, uh...
762
00:40:11,576 --> 00:40:14,412
Well, I... I don't...
I don't wanna mess things up
763
00:40:14,413 --> 00:40:16,706
and, um, may...
maybe I was just confused
764
00:40:16,707 --> 00:40:18,999
and, you know,
things were really confusing
765
00:40:19,000 --> 00:40:23,421
and I just... you know, I just
wanna forget... forget it.
766
00:40:23,422 --> 00:40:25,132
He just wants to forget.
He just wants to...
767
00:40:25,133 --> 00:40:27,801
he just wants
to forget this, so...
768
00:40:31,805 --> 00:40:33,849
Hey...
769
00:40:41,231 --> 00:40:45,485
Seth, you are hereby expelled
from this group.
770
00:40:45,486 --> 00:40:47,069
For the safety of Josh
and everyone else,
771
00:40:47,070 --> 00:40:51,241
remove yourself and keep your
distance until further notice.
772
00:40:51,242 --> 00:40:53,618
Pack your fucking bags.
773
00:41:02,002 --> 00:41:05,213
Camp mics one
through six all out.
774
00:41:05,214 --> 00:41:06,297
I'm calling Alex.
775
00:41:06,298 --> 00:41:08,382
If we can't get
the audio repatched,
776
00:41:08,383 --> 00:41:10,468
we'll be completely
in the dark.
777
00:41:27,570 --> 00:41:28,945
Guys.
778
00:41:30,864 --> 00:41:33,053
I'm fine.
779
00:41:33,054 --> 00:41:35,242
Really.
780
00:41:35,243 --> 00:41:37,244
You don't have to, like,
781
00:41:37,245 --> 00:41:40,040
put me on some kind
of watch or something.
782
00:41:40,041 --> 00:41:41,791
We know.
783
00:41:44,377 --> 00:41:47,254
I, uh...
784
00:41:47,255 --> 00:41:50,237
I should thank you, everybody,
785
00:41:50,238 --> 00:41:53,219
for having my back, you know?
786
00:41:53,220 --> 00:41:56,723
Even when I didn't have
my own, you know, back.
787
00:41:58,266 --> 00:42:00,226
I'm just...
788
00:42:00,227 --> 00:42:02,186
I'm sorry.
789
00:42:02,187 --> 00:42:05,106
Apology fiercely rejected.
790
00:42:06,358 --> 00:42:07,901
Oh.
791
00:42:09,402 --> 00:42:11,654
Okay.
792
00:42:11,655 --> 00:42:14,323
- I'm sorry.
- Josh,
793
00:42:14,324 --> 00:42:18,036
you are not the one who needs
to be apologizing.
794
00:42:18,037 --> 00:42:20,080
You're the victim here.
795
00:42:22,123 --> 00:42:23,625
Right.
796
00:42:24,793 --> 00:42:26,961
Yeah.
797
00:42:26,962 --> 00:42:28,629
That's great.
798
00:42:28,630 --> 00:42:30,382
No, honey, don't...
799
00:42:31,424 --> 00:42:33,426
There's no stigma.
800
00:42:34,261 --> 00:42:36,011
It's your truth,
801
00:42:36,012 --> 00:42:39,473
and now you need to own it...
802
00:42:39,474 --> 00:42:42,956
What I need is to never
fucking think about it again,
803
00:42:42,957 --> 00:42:46,439
and for everybody here
to shut up about it... forever!
804
00:42:46,440 --> 00:42:48,921
Whether we get out
of this place or not.
805
00:42:48,922 --> 00:42:51,267
I have been called
all of the things...
806
00:42:51,268 --> 00:42:53,612
pussy, chicken shit,
little bitch...
807
00:42:53,613 --> 00:42:56,407
and I'm so sick of it all
that I could choke.
808
00:42:56,408 --> 00:42:59,201
And everyone is like,
own it, just own it,
809
00:42:59,202 --> 00:43:03,456
like if you own it you'll
be invincible or something.
810
00:43:05,208 --> 00:43:08,336
And that is just...
it's not how it works.
811
00:43:12,007 --> 00:43:16,261
Owning it just means
that you are it.
812
00:43:19,931 --> 00:43:21,765
Okay, whatever you need, Josh.
813
00:43:21,766 --> 00:43:24,602
For you to just
never tell anyone...
814
00:43:25,770 --> 00:43:27,354
...please.
815
00:43:30,650 --> 00:43:31,901
I promise.
816
00:43:33,403 --> 00:43:34,799
I promise.
817
00:43:34,800 --> 00:43:36,207
I promise.
818
00:43:36,208 --> 00:43:38,162
I promise.
819
00:43:38,163 --> 00:43:40,118
I promise.
820
00:43:46,958 --> 00:43:48,793
I promise.
821
00:44:01,514 --> 00:44:06,311
"Boy who cried wolf,
unstable, problem case."
822
00:44:06,312 --> 00:44:08,229
Ugh, these are some
of the monikers...
823
00:44:08,230 --> 00:44:11,503
Blah, blah, blah.
824
00:44:11,504 --> 00:44:14,287
Blah, blah, blah, blah.
825
00:44:14,288 --> 00:44:17,072
Those are just words.
826
00:44:17,073 --> 00:44:19,740
Right.
827
00:44:19,741 --> 00:44:22,785
So why didn't you
tell us in your words
828
00:44:22,786 --> 00:44:25,830
what happened to you
on that island?
829
00:44:27,707 --> 00:44:30,042
I learned a lot.
830
00:44:32,796 --> 00:44:35,548
Like what, Josh?
831
00:44:37,425 --> 00:44:41,429
Silence can be very potent.
832
00:45:26,558 --> 00:45:29,226
R.I.P.
833
00:45:29,227 --> 00:45:31,312
What a load of shit.
834
00:45:32,856 --> 00:45:35,065
Rest in power?
835
00:45:35,066 --> 00:45:38,653
Rest in power,
rest in peace,
836
00:45:38,654 --> 00:45:41,322
the "rest" of it all.
837
00:45:42,866 --> 00:45:45,326
I tried really hard today...
838
00:45:46,453 --> 00:45:51,249
...to walk the paces,
to get my goodbye right.
839
00:45:53,376 --> 00:45:55,878
Nope.
840
00:45:55,879 --> 00:45:57,839
There's no rest.
841
00:45:59,090 --> 00:46:01,301
Not for me at least.
842
00:46:03,136 --> 00:46:07,639
Oh, fuck.
Fuck, fuck, fuck.
843
00:46:07,640 --> 00:46:09,142
You're probably really sick
of hearing this.
844
00:46:09,143 --> 00:46:10,976
You all must be.
845
00:46:20,278 --> 00:46:22,572
Not even a little.
846
00:46:27,660 --> 00:46:29,662
I just really miss her.
847
00:46:31,873 --> 00:46:33,458
Have faith, Rachel.
848
00:46:37,712 --> 00:46:40,131
Nora will find you.
849
00:46:43,259 --> 00:46:47,305
The people who have really
meant something to us,
850
00:46:47,306 --> 00:46:50,475
they never really go away.
851
00:46:53,061 --> 00:46:56,313
They stay by our sides,
852
00:46:56,314 --> 00:46:59,067
and they show up
in the strangest ways.
853
00:47:10,537 --> 00:47:12,914
They leave us signs...
854
00:47:16,834 --> 00:47:18,378
signals...
855
00:47:30,848 --> 00:47:32,934
to make sure
we still feel them.
856
00:47:34,018 --> 00:47:36,938
Holy shit.
857
00:47:49,284 --> 00:47:52,787
If I could just see her
one more time...
858
00:48:05,967 --> 00:48:08,386
Oh, my God.
859
00:48:10,555 --> 00:48:11,639
Martha.
860
00:48:17,270 --> 00:48:19,480
Martha.
861
00:48:33,911 --> 00:48:35,163
She's here.
862
00:48:43,171 --> 00:48:45,173
Nora's here.
863
00:49:13,826 --> 00:49:15,703
It's time.
864
00:51:20,036 --> 00:51:22,997
Beep beep,
coming through!
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