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♪ Crazy is when I go off the rails ♪
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♪ This is what you've done to me ♪
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♪ Crazy is how your
loving makes me feel ♪
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♪ This is what I always want to be ♪
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♪ I like it when a
girl gets crazy in bed ♪
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♪ Don't mess with the bitch
who's crazy in the head ♪
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- ♪ You do ♪
- ♪ You don't ♪
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♪ Want to be crazy ♪
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- ♪ And you don't ♪
- ♪ You do ♪
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♪ Want to be crazy ♪
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♪ To clarify, yes, no on the crazy ♪
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♪ We hope this helps. ♪
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What?
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Previously on Crazy Ex-Girlfriend...
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If I'm crazy,
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you made me crazier
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because your life is broken and boring.
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I'm sick and tired of you!
I want you out of my life!
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REBECCA: I've officially alienated
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every person I know.
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I give up.
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I'll come home.
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Darling, it's time that I take
over the reins of your life.
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You're incapable.
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You made me think that you loved me.
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You gave me hope
when I had none.
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And now, that hope is gone.
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- Is everything okay?
- I need help.
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_
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Oh, sorry.
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She's okay.
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She's out of the woods for now.
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- Oh...
- Oh, thank God.
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I knew she'd be fine.
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The minute I heard,
that's what I told myself.
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All right, I got to get back in there.
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Dr. Akopian is leaving,
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and Rebecca needs somebody in
the room with her at all times.
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Uh, they assigned a nurse to be
her “sitter” or something,
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but I got rid of her.
And so, now,
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all I have to do is fend off
a very overeager housekeeper
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who just keeps
interrupting for no reason.
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- VALENCIA: Paula.
- Yeah?
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You don't have to do this by yourself.
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We can help, we can take turns.
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Yeah, you have a family at home.
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Don't be silly. Rebecca needs me.
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And my family will understand.
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Actually, there is another
way you guys can help.
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So, she knows everyone is
hearing about what happened.
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I mean, her phone is blowing up...
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Lots of concerned people,
really sweet, very annoying.
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Could you please just let
everyone know that she's okay?
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I could do it. I'll get
in touch with everyone.
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I want to help.
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- Oh, great.
- Hey.
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- I got here as fast as I could.
- Why?
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- Is Rebecca okay?
- For now. Josh, you need to leave.
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I can't have Rebecca seeing you
or hearing you.
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I don't want her to be upset.
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In fact, I am worried
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that your body spray is
gonna waft into her room
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and she's gonna know that you're here,
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so leave... without wafting.
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(Paula sighs)
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Dude, you should go.
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But I want to talk to Rebecca.
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I mean, last time I saw her,
we had a really bad fight
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and I said I wanted her
to go away, which I did,
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but not in, like, a permanent way.
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Will you at least tell her I was here?
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- No...
- No.
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I'm so sorry, Dr. Akopian.
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I failed you.
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- God, I'm such a coward.
- You were no such thing.
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No such thing.
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You were brave. You asked for help.
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Brave. Asked for help.
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Just agreeing with you.
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I'll let you get some
rest, but don't worry,
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there are some great
psychiatrists on staff here,
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and we'll work together
to get you the right help.
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Thank you.
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- Hi.
- Hi.
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Are the girls still here?
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Oh, yeah. No, we're all here.
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# GirlGroup4Evah. (laughs)
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- Are they mad at me?
- No.
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- No one is mad.
- (door opens)
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Not now, Denise!
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Denise, what did I say?
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Sweetie, do you need anything?
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No, um, no, I think I'm
just gonna go to sleep.
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Oh. Oh, God.
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Oh, I'm so embarrassed
that I caused such a scene.
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And I didn't, I didn't even want to die.
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I just wanted the pain to stop.
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I know.
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(sniffles) It's like
I was out of stories
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to tell myself that
things would be okay.
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I just feel like I
inconvenienced a lot of people.
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No, no, no, no. No, you didn't.
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And don't you worry about
anyone else right now, okay?
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- (sniffles) Okay.
- Okay.
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♪ ♪
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(clears throat)
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(typing)
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(reading words on screen): _
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Hmm.
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_
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(clears throat)
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- Hey, boss. So, the whole office...
- (clears throat)
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... is going in on a
cupcake basket for Rebecca.
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Do you want to kick in some money or...
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probably doing your own thing?
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Yeah. No, I'm-I'm doing my own thing.
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Okay, so no money from you, then.
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Because I do need an extra eight bucks
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and I can't find Darryl.
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Called and texted him.
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He's at a yurt with his
boyfriend or something.
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Uh, he probably doesn't
have cell service.
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Are you okay?
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This must be tough, and
I know you care about her.
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- George, we're done here.
- For sure. Uh-huh.
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(sighs) All right, I
just have to do this.
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I'm gonna do it.
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(phone beeps)
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Hi, everyone, I'm Valencia Perez,
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Rebecca Bunch's friend.
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I wanted to just post a
quick update on Rebecca
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because I know a lot of
people are worried about her.
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Rebecca went through a tough
time a few days ago, obviously,
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but she's stable now
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and she appreciates
everyone thinking about her.
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If you want to connect with her,
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you can just write in the comments below
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and I will make sure
she gets the message.
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- Thanks, all.
- (phone beeps)
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You're posting a video?
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I thought you were gonna,
like, e-mail people.
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Seemed impersonal.
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I thought a Facebook
video would be better.
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I asked Paula, and she
said Rebecca thought
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it was a great idea.
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Okay, sounds good.
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Oh, where should I put these chips?
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Um, why is he here?
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Well, we were supposed
to go on our third date
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and I was gonna cancel, but then
he didn't want me to be alone.
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- (chuckles)
- That's sweet, right?
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Yeah, sure.
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I didn't know a friend's suicide
attempt was a plus one event,
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but cool.
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(quietly): I told you she might be mad.
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She gets like this.
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In third grade, she cut off my rat-tail
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'cause I sat in her desk once.
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Hector, just unpack the
cheese puffs... also, rat-tail?
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So many questions.
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Valencia, let's not be controlling.
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I don't think there are, like,
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rules for this kind of situation.
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(sighs) You're right.
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It's a tough time.
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We should be gentle with each other.
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- Bitch, don't get in my way, bitch.
- (yelps)
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Are you sure you don't
need to go be at home?
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What about your kids?
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And... the girls... I mean,
they haven't been to their jobs
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or anything in days; I just feel so bad.
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It's fine, it is fine.
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Paula,
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I'm okay here by myself.
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I mean, I got doctors and nurses,
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- and Denise.
- (door opens)
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Denise, I will strangle
you in your sleep!
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(door closes)
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Unbelievable.
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(sighs)
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Honey, do not worry about me.
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(sighs)
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I am where I should be,
which is right by your side.
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How's your throat feeling?
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Still a little scratchy from the
stomach pump and the barfing.
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Ugh, it was like all six
months of my college bulimia
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happened in one day.
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That was sassy.
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Sassy... my girl is still sassy.
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Mama, what's gonna happen
when I get out of here?
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Tell you what, let's not
worry about that right now.
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Because you are doing
everything you're supposed to.
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You met with a doctor,
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that... very nice-looking Dr. Shin,
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or, as I like to call him, Dr. Dan.
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Or, even better, Dr. Damn...
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- because he is so cute.
- Hmm.
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You were honest and brave.
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And they said that in a couple of days,
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you can go home.
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But that's what I'm nervous about.
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Once I go home...
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how will things be different?
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I... will not let you leave
here without a plan.
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Okay.
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♪ ♪
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VALENCIA: Hey, all. Thank you so
much for all your comments.
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Rebecca feels so encouraged and
she's making a lot of progress.
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I've read a lot of your comments to her
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and they really cheer her up.
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Now, get your liking fingers ready,
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because Rebecca is going home today.
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Yeah, she's talking to the
doctor, like, right now.
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One sec, guys, BRB.
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You ruin a shot again
and I will put you in ICU.
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HEATHER: He's just trying to go
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to the bathroom, and
it's right behind you.
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No, no, it-it's fine. I
can get out of the shot.
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I'll just crawl on the floor.
I'm sure they mop it frequently.
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Are you done talking?
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Rebecca's friends are waiting
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for their daily dose of inspiration.
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And they're gonna
think something is wrong
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or maybe feel upset, I don't know.
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(exhales)
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Like I was saying, our little
Becky Girl is going home.
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Yay.
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You okay?
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Need me to wipe anything?
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REBECCA: Uh, no, it was weird
last time when you did that.
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Yeah, I shouldn't have looked you
right in the eyes. Copy that.
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Paula?
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I know exactly what's
gonna happen today.
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Dr. Shin, he's gonna
prescribe me a bunch of meds,
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like doctors always do,
and they're not gonna work,
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and I'm gonna end up back here.
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Wait, wait, wait.
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Let's give the guy a chance.
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Remember? Dr. Damn... is good people.
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Dr. Damn... it's funny
that you call him that.
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These are the moments
when I used to laugh.
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So, ha, ha, ha, ha.
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Hello, Rebecca.
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How we feeling today?
“We,” sorry, that's lame doctor-talk.
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How are you feeling today?
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Um, I, um, all right.
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PAULA: So, you're springing
our girl today.
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I can't wait to get
her back home with me.
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You two live together?
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Oh, no, no, no. No,
I live with my husband
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and kids, but you know,
my focus is Rebecca
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right now, so I will be
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driving her and staying with
her and sleeping in her bed.
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- In her bed?
- Yes.
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Oh, I'm sorry, have you never
had a best friend before?
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Because you should talk
to someone about that.
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REBECCA: O-Okay, so, um,
all right, Doc, tell me what to do.
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Um, first question, how
many meds am I gonna be on?
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Uh, can you give me the daytime
version of whatever it is?
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Because all of the other
meds I've been prescribed
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have made me numb or drowsy or...
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Actually, your treatment protocol
is not centered on medication.
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- Wait, what?
- Yeah, how is she supposed
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to get better with no medicine?
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Oh, there may be some, but
it's not the main focus.
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Rebecca, in my opinion, you've
been misdiagnosed over the years.
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It's one of the main reasons
you've been struggling.
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I think, with the right
diagnosis and treatment,
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you can get a lot better.
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Wait, so you have a
new diagnosis for me?
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So I'm not anxious or OCD
275
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or depressed or any of
the vague combo of things
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people have told me I am?
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- Oh-oh, my God. What am I?
- Great questions,
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but I don't want to
get ahead of treatment.
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Okay? We're gonna talk about all that
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and the steps towards your recovery
later today at the clinic.
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Wow, this is huge.
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- I'll see you then, okay?
- Okay.
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Bye.
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Paula, did you hear what he said?
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I have a new diagnosis. A new one.
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♪ ♪
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He just opened up
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a whole new future of
possibilities for me.
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A new path for my life.
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♪ For almost 30 years, I've
known something was wrong ♪
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♪ But Mom said weakness
causes bloating ♪
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♪ So I tried to be strong ♪
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♪ Fake it till you make it ♪
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♪ That's how I got by ♪
295
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♪ And when I tried
to find the reason ♪
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♪ For my sadness and terror ♪
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♪ All the solutions
were trial and error ♪
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♪ Take this pill, say this chant ♪
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♪ Move here for this guy ♪
300
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♪ But now, there's
no need for regret ♪
301
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♪ 'Cause I'm about to get ♪
302
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♪ A diagnosis ♪
303
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♪ A diagnosis ♪
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♪ Don't tell me, “No,
sister, you don't fit in” ♪
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♪ Doc, prescribe me my
tribe, give me my throng ♪
306
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♪ Tell me that this
whole time I've belonged ♪
307
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♪ With those other
people who share ♪
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♪ My diagnosis ♪
309
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♪ What could it be?
What could be right? ♪
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♪ Schizophrenic or bipolar lite? ♪
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♪ I've never heard voices ♪
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♪ But maybe it's time to start... ♪
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VOICES: You're super cool, Rebecca.
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Thanks.
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♪ Obsessives with numbers ♪
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♪ Hoarders with cats ♪
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♪ I could really
rock a tinfoil hat ♪
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♪ Perfect they're not,
but at least they know ♪
319
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♪ Who they are ♪
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- (gasps)
- _
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♪ No more bad pills,
fads or tricks ♪
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♪ Who says there isn't an easy fix ♪
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♪ With a diagnosis ♪
324
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♪ I'm ready to blow this ♪
325
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♪ Joint, and by joint, I mean
my inner sense of confusion ♪
326
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- VOICES: ♪ You said that confusingly ♪
- Shh.
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♪ I'm aware mental
illness is stigmatized ♪
328
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♪ But the stigma is worth
it if I've realized ♪
329
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♪ Who I'm meant to be ♪
330
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♪ Armed with my diagnosis ♪
331
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♪ Oh, the doctors that I've met ♪
332
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♪ Who didn't get me ♪
333
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♪ This one naturopath ♪
334
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♪ Used feathers to pet me ♪
335
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♪ They said anxiety,
insomnia were my affliction ♪
336
00:13:54,962 --> 00:13:58,730
♪ The naturopath said
it was sex addiction ♪
337
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♪ But all those things
I knew I wasn't ♪
338
00:14:02,169 --> 00:14:06,505
♪ Yes, I like penises,
but who doesn't? ♪
339
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♪ So put me in a
bottle, slap a label on ♪
340
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♪ List out the side effects,
then worries begone ♪
341
00:14:13,481 --> 00:14:16,915
♪ 'Cause finally, I'll know this ♪
342
00:14:16,917 --> 00:14:21,453
♪ My diagnosis! ♪
343
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- (exhales)
- Welcome to your therapy, Rebecca.
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_
345
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Okay. Diagnosis time. Hit me.
346
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Okay. Now, it's
important to keep in mind
347
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that nobody's diagnosis is
simple or covers everything.
348
00:14:37,508 --> 00:14:39,175
- Yep, yep, yep, yep.
- It's also important
349
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to not look up the diagnosis online
350
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before we have a chance
to get into it, okay?
351
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Got it. I will not look up anything,
352
00:14:45,258 --> 00:14:46,791
if you don't want me
to. I'm a good student.
353
00:14:46,793 --> 00:14:48,960
I will stick to the
required reading, sir.
354
00:14:48,962 --> 00:14:52,563
Rebecca, I am noticing
how energetic you are.
355
00:14:52,565 --> 00:14:55,233
That's not uncommon
after a suicidal event.
356
00:14:55,729 --> 00:14:58,569
Too energetic. Sorry. Sorry, um, sorry.
357
00:14:58,571 --> 00:15:01,606
I'm-I'm calm now, this
is my calm, low voice.
358
00:15:01,631 --> 00:15:03,441
Okay, so,
359
00:15:03,443 --> 00:15:06,277
based on my conversation
with Dr. Akopian
360
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and our meetings at the hospital,
361
00:15:08,648 --> 00:15:12,517
it is my belief that, while
you do have some symptoms
362
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of anxiety, depression, OCD
363
00:15:15,355 --> 00:15:16,687
and possibly PTSD...
364
00:15:16,689 --> 00:15:17,922
Right. But I've heard
all those things before,
365
00:15:17,924 --> 00:15:20,158
- and you said this was a new thing.
- I'm still talking.
366
00:15:20,160 --> 00:15:21,893
- Sorry.
- It is my opinion
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that you exhibit many
of the characteristics
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00:15:24,197 --> 00:15:27,265
of borderline personality disorder.
369
00:15:28,139 --> 00:15:31,084
Wow. O-Okay, um...
370
00:15:31,383 --> 00:15:34,184
First question... what is that?
371
00:15:34,374 --> 00:15:38,037
Well, a person with BPD
is essentially someone
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who has difficulty
regulating their emotions.
373
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Someone that lacks the
protective emotional skin
374
00:15:45,418 --> 00:15:47,552
to feel comfortable in the world.
375
00:15:47,554 --> 00:15:49,140
Wow.
376
00:15:49,483 --> 00:15:51,759
Um, just a couple questions, um...
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00:15:51,784 --> 00:15:53,825
How did I get BPD? Is BPD curable?
378
00:15:53,827 --> 00:15:55,827
How serious is BPD?
Is BPD easy to fix?
379
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Is BPD genetic? Did I get
the BPD from my mother?
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I got it from my mother, right?
Again, just, like, rapid fire.
381
00:15:59,632 --> 00:16:01,632
Just, like, answer.
Don't think about it.
382
00:16:01,634 --> 00:16:03,434
Okay, I never fall for “rapid fire.”
383
00:16:03,436 --> 00:16:06,771
Rebecca, I know you have a lot
of questions. I understand.
384
00:16:06,773 --> 00:16:08,840
And we'll talk about
it a lot more, luckily,
385
00:16:08,842 --> 00:16:11,108
in your group therapy, which
is where we're headed right now.
386
00:16:11,110 --> 00:16:13,077
So you're just gonna pull a
Yoda and not tell me anything
387
00:16:13,079 --> 00:16:15,279
I want to know before I'm
ready to know it, yeah?
388
00:16:15,281 --> 00:16:16,424
That's what this is?
389
00:16:16,950 --> 00:16:19,650
Hot-ass doctor, telling me not
to look things up online.
390
00:16:19,652 --> 00:16:21,152
Oh, I'm gonna look things up online,
391
00:16:21,154 --> 00:16:22,787
hot-ass doctor. All right.
392
00:16:22,789 --> 00:16:26,591
“What is borderline
personality disorder?”
393
00:16:26,593 --> 00:16:28,793
(exhales)
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_
395
00:16:32,199 --> 00:16:34,199
_
396
00:16:34,224 --> 00:16:35,858
_
397
00:16:35,882 --> 00:16:37,592
_
398
00:16:37,617 --> 00:16:39,617
_
399
00:16:39,641 --> 00:16:41,641
_
400
00:16:41,741 --> 00:16:43,007
Nope.
401
00:16:43,009 --> 00:16:45,343
No. No, no, no. No.
402
00:16:45,345 --> 00:16:46,644
So, guys.
403
00:16:46,646 --> 00:16:47,745
Guys, guys, guys.
404
00:16:47,747 --> 00:16:49,780
Day five, part two.
405
00:16:49,782 --> 00:16:52,116
Rebecca is at the outpatient center
406
00:16:52,118 --> 00:16:53,751
getting wonderful treatment.
407
00:16:53,753 --> 00:16:55,553
And meanwhile, back at the ranch,
408
00:16:55,555 --> 00:16:59,156
we've stocked up on all of
her favorite... comfort carbs.
409
00:16:59,158 --> 00:17:01,459
My girl loves her sugar, salt and dough.
410
00:17:01,461 --> 00:17:03,828
Now, all of you supporters out there,
411
00:17:03,830 --> 00:17:06,063
Rebecca's big #Bunchafriends,
412
00:17:06,065 --> 00:17:08,799
I want you to know that
her heart is strong,
413
00:17:08,801 --> 00:17:10,501
her spirit is bright, and she...
414
00:17:10,503 --> 00:17:11,836
Did you tell all your bots
415
00:17:11,838 --> 00:17:13,871
that we had to take all
the knives out of the house?
416
00:17:13,873 --> 00:17:15,406
Also, maybe ask them if they know
417
00:17:15,408 --> 00:17:18,075
how to jailbreak an
avocado, because I do not.
418
00:17:18,077 --> 00:17:19,176
Heather, we're live.
419
00:17:19,178 --> 00:17:20,444
- Okay.
- (door opens)
420
00:17:20,446 --> 00:17:21,545
Oh, my God, guys, she's here.
421
00:17:21,547 --> 00:17:23,681
Guys, guys, guys, let's see how it went.
422
00:17:23,683 --> 00:17:26,284
(door closes)
423
00:17:26,286 --> 00:17:30,154
- Okay, let's put that away.
- (phone beeps)
424
00:17:30,156 --> 00:17:34,525
REBECCA: So, um, I got the worst
diagnosis ever, basically, um...
425
00:17:34,527 --> 00:17:35,826
Yeah, I really hate it.
426
00:17:35,828 --> 00:17:38,529
It's, uh, called borderline
personality disorder,
427
00:17:38,531 --> 00:17:40,765
and I read two and a
half sentences about it,
428
00:17:40,767 --> 00:17:42,300
and they were the worst sentences ever,
429
00:17:42,302 --> 00:17:44,068
and I don't want to know any more.
430
00:17:44,070 --> 00:17:46,581
(crying): And it's all just awful.
431
00:17:46,606 --> 00:17:48,506
(phone beeps)
432
00:17:48,508 --> 00:17:49,907
(mouthing)
433
00:17:49,909 --> 00:17:51,809
Oh, my God. Stop.
434
00:17:52,612 --> 00:17:56,013
“Wishing you the best
435
00:17:56,015 --> 00:17:59,517
“after your suicide attempt.
436
00:17:59,519 --> 00:18:03,287
“Yours, Nathaniel J. Plimpton III,
437
00:18:03,289 --> 00:18:05,022
Esquire.”
438
00:18:07,961 --> 00:18:09,446
Yeah.
439
00:18:17,570 --> 00:18:19,603
(exhales)
440
00:18:19,605 --> 00:18:21,806
(panting)
441
00:18:29,415 --> 00:18:31,382
- (groans)
- What's up, boss?
442
00:18:31,384 --> 00:18:32,984
Uh, nothing.
443
00:18:32,986 --> 00:18:36,732
Uh, just had a little
weird déjà vu moment.
444
00:18:37,090 --> 00:18:38,589
So glad you called me in...
445
00:18:38,591 --> 00:18:41,092
- I did no such thing.
- ... because we are planning
446
00:18:41,094 --> 00:18:43,160
to visit Rebecca at home this weekend.
447
00:18:43,162 --> 00:18:46,263
I'm kind of nervous,
'cause I'm terrible with death.
448
00:18:46,265 --> 00:18:47,765
When I was a kid, my dog died.
449
00:18:47,767 --> 00:18:52,343
- I was the one who found him,
- all, like, splayed out,
450
00:18:52,952 --> 00:18:55,906
eyes rolled into the back of his head,
451
00:18:55,908 --> 00:18:57,475
his tongue hanging out.
452
00:18:57,477 --> 00:18:58,809
It's, like, burned into my brain...
453
00:18:58,811 --> 00:18:59,944
Stop it!
454
00:18:59,946 --> 00:19:01,679
Oh.
455
00:19:01,681 --> 00:19:03,014
I'm sorry.
456
00:19:03,016 --> 00:19:04,682
Don't worry about me.
457
00:19:04,684 --> 00:19:07,518
I'm a cat guy now.
I have a cat named Andromeda...
458
00:19:07,520 --> 00:19:09,053
I got to go.
459
00:19:09,055 --> 00:19:10,287
Are... you...
460
00:19:10,289 --> 00:19:11,555
Just get out of my office.
461
00:19:11,557 --> 00:19:13,057
Okay, well.
462
00:19:14,228 --> 00:19:17,628
So you didn't go to group
therapy, you just blew it off?
463
00:19:17,630 --> 00:19:18,863
No, I didn't go.
464
00:19:18,865 --> 00:19:20,587
I was too upset.
465
00:19:20,967 --> 00:19:24,635
I mean, I don't have an illness,
I have a personality disorder.
466
00:19:24,892 --> 00:19:28,305
It's not something I
have, it's something I am.
467
00:19:28,307 --> 00:19:30,908
This is what I've feared
my whole life. I'm broken.
468
00:19:30,910 --> 00:19:34,311
Honey, what did I say to
you over and over in the car?
469
00:19:34,313 --> 00:19:35,479
You are not broken.
470
00:19:35,481 --> 00:19:36,714
You're wonderful.
471
00:19:36,716 --> 00:19:37,882
VALENCIA: She's right.
472
00:19:37,884 --> 00:19:40,251
You are an inspiration
to hundreds of people.
473
00:19:40,253 --> 00:19:42,720
There is a Facebook group in Venezuela
474
00:19:42,722 --> 00:19:44,755
that's completely devoted to you.
475
00:19:44,757 --> 00:19:47,324
It's called El Buncho Valiente.
476
00:19:47,326 --> 00:19:49,393
Oh, my God, seriously, stop.
477
00:19:49,395 --> 00:19:52,263
Okay, listen, Rebecca, if you
hate this diagnosis so much,
478
00:19:52,265 --> 00:19:55,132
then, let's get a second opinion.
479
00:19:55,398 --> 00:19:57,268
Second opinions are very common.
480
00:19:57,270 --> 00:19:59,070
And, you know, this new doctor,
481
00:19:59,072 --> 00:20:00,805
he just met you.
482
00:20:00,807 --> 00:20:02,406
He doesn't know you yet.
483
00:20:02,408 --> 00:20:04,275
And who says we just have to sit here
484
00:20:04,277 --> 00:20:07,311
and accept his diagnosis
with a capital “D”?
485
00:20:07,313 --> 00:20:09,547
We don't have to just take his “D.”
486
00:20:09,549 --> 00:20:11,015
Who says his “D" is so great?
487
00:20:11,017 --> 00:20:12,550
No, you're right. He
should get to know me better
488
00:20:12,552 --> 00:20:14,318
before he shoves his
“D” down my throat.
489
00:20:14,320 --> 00:20:15,553
Yeah. What we should do,
490
00:20:15,555 --> 00:20:17,254
is get another “D.”
491
00:20:17,256 --> 00:20:19,323
And then we'll have two Ds.
492
00:20:19,325 --> 00:20:20,758
You know, one here, and one there,
493
00:20:20,760 --> 00:20:22,059
and we'll just...
494
00:20:22,061 --> 00:20:25,929
- figure out which “D” you like better.
- Okay, let's calm down.
495
00:20:25,954 --> 00:20:29,233
Rebecca, we can ask Dr. Akopian.
496
00:20:29,235 --> 00:20:32,236
Oh, my God, Paula, you're totally right.
497
00:20:32,238 --> 00:20:33,871
I mean, she knows me
way better than Dr. Shin,
498
00:20:33,873 --> 00:20:36,807
and she never said anything
about a personality disorder.
499
00:20:36,809 --> 00:20:38,509
I mean, she likes me a lot.
500
00:20:38,511 --> 00:20:41,779
I-I thought Dr. Akopian
consulted with Dr. Damn
501
00:20:41,781 --> 00:20:43,581
on your diagnosis?
502
00:20:43,583 --> 00:20:45,850
She may have, but... no.
503
00:20:45,852 --> 00:20:48,152
I-If she knew how much
I hated this diagnosis,
504
00:20:48,154 --> 00:20:50,254
and how upset it was
making me, she'd be pissed.
505
00:20:50,256 --> 00:20:52,223
I mean, Dr. Akopian only
wants me to be happy,
506
00:20:52,225 --> 00:20:54,204
and this is not what happy feels like.
507
00:20:54,229 --> 00:20:56,594
All right. Let's go. I'll drive.
508
00:20:56,596 --> 00:20:58,462
Okay.
509
00:20:58,464 --> 00:21:00,564
I do recommend an appointment.
510
00:21:00,566 --> 00:21:02,867
Maybe don't crawl
through her doggie door.
511
00:21:02,869 --> 00:21:07,037
Hmm. How do I spin this
for the worldwide audience?
512
00:21:07,039 --> 00:21:08,305
- (door closes)
- (phone beeps)
513
00:21:08,307 --> 00:21:09,440
Oh...
514
00:21:09,442 --> 00:21:11,642
(piano playing softly)
515
00:21:12,378 --> 00:21:14,245
- (knocking on door)
- (door opens)
516
00:21:14,247 --> 00:21:15,579
Father. Mother.
517
00:21:15,581 --> 00:21:17,248
Nathaniel, martini time
cannot be interrupted.
518
00:21:17,250 --> 00:21:18,649
The timing is crucial.
519
00:21:18,651 --> 00:21:19,950
That skin of ice on the top,
520
00:21:19,952 --> 00:21:21,352
it melts in seconds.
Melts. I know, I know.
521
00:21:21,354 --> 00:21:23,187
Oh, it's okay, darling.
He came all this way.
522
00:21:23,189 --> 00:21:24,388
What is it, Nathaniel?
523
00:21:24,390 --> 00:21:25,744
W-Would you like a martini?
524
00:21:25,769 --> 00:21:29,426
- No, no. I need answers.
- I don't like your tone.
525
00:21:29,744 --> 00:21:31,061
Mom.
526
00:21:31,455 --> 00:21:33,898
When I was ten, did you
try to kill yourself?
527
00:21:34,507 --> 00:21:36,340
Not now, Bernice!
528
00:21:37,547 --> 00:21:38,880
Did you?
529
00:21:45,643 --> 00:21:47,677
NATHANIEL: I have this... memory.
530
00:21:47,679 --> 00:21:50,012
I was ten years old, and I
heard something fall over.
531
00:21:50,014 --> 00:21:52,315
And I went to your room, and I saw you,
532
00:21:52,317 --> 00:21:55,528
Mom, passed out on the floor.
And your eyes
533
00:21:55,553 --> 00:21:58,321
were rolling back in your head.
And I tried to wake you up...
534
00:21:58,323 --> 00:21:59,422
Nathaniel, enough.
535
00:21:59,424 --> 00:22:00,823
And Dad told me to go
to my room, and I did.
536
00:22:00,825 --> 00:22:03,359
And then the next thing
I know, you were gone
537
00:22:03,361 --> 00:22:05,094
for, like, a month. And everyone said,
538
00:22:05,096 --> 00:22:06,763
“Don't talk about it.
Don't ask questions.”
539
00:22:06,765 --> 00:22:08,097
So I didn't.
540
00:22:08,787 --> 00:22:10,733
But now I really need
to know what happened.
541
00:22:10,735 --> 00:22:12,268
You know what happened.
542
00:22:12,270 --> 00:22:14,470
Your mother had the
flu and got dehydrated,
543
00:22:14,472 --> 00:22:16,229
so she went sailing for a month
544
00:22:16,254 --> 00:22:19,041
- with your Aunt Sissy in Rhode Island.
- That's right.
545
00:22:19,043 --> 00:22:21,377
I brought you back that
anchor key chain, remember?
546
00:22:21,379 --> 00:22:23,731
It wasn't the flu. Come on.
547
00:22:23,756 --> 00:22:25,989
There were sleeping
pills. There was a bottle
548
00:22:26,014 --> 00:22:28,418
of pills on your nightstand,
and you wouldn't wake up.
549
00:22:28,420 --> 00:22:30,653
We told you what happened.
This conversation is over.
550
00:22:30,655 --> 00:22:32,287
It's not over.
551
00:22:33,224 --> 00:22:35,992
Look, I need to know the truth.
552
00:22:35,994 --> 00:22:37,660
My friend just tried to kill herself,
553
00:22:37,662 --> 00:22:39,228
and I can't reach out to her at all,
554
00:22:39,230 --> 00:22:41,197
because every time I think about her,
555
00:22:41,199 --> 00:22:43,900
I picture this... lifeless body.
556
00:22:43,925 --> 00:22:45,752
And it makes me think of you that night.
557
00:22:45,777 --> 00:22:48,908
And I get panicked and I can't breathe.
558
00:22:48,933 --> 00:22:50,500
And I don't know what that is.
559
00:22:50,502 --> 00:22:53,136
And, I'm sorry, also, who
goes sailing for a month
560
00:22:53,138 --> 00:22:54,804
when they have the
flu? That's not a thing.
561
00:22:54,806 --> 00:22:56,105
That's a terrible lie.
562
00:22:56,107 --> 00:22:59,842
- Please tell me the truth.
- Nathaniel, stop this now.
563
00:22:59,844 --> 00:23:01,778
This isn't how we raised you.
564
00:23:02,958 --> 00:23:04,539
Mom?
565
00:23:07,578 --> 00:23:08,951
Please.
566
00:23:09,484 --> 00:23:12,588
Oh, Nathaniel, I hate
to see you so upset.
567
00:23:12,804 --> 00:23:16,659
But it's-it's just so
unpleasant to dredge up the past.
568
00:23:16,661 --> 00:23:18,428
(clears throat) Now,
569
00:23:18,430 --> 00:23:20,096
why don't you join us for dinner.
570
00:23:20,098 --> 00:23:21,431
We're having lamb tonight.
571
00:23:21,433 --> 00:23:23,499
And-and then you can
come out and see my roses.
572
00:23:23,501 --> 00:23:24,467
They're looking
573
00:23:24,469 --> 00:23:25,501
so healthy...
574
00:23:25,503 --> 00:23:26,869
Will you please just answer me?!
575
00:23:30,108 --> 00:23:31,607
(sighs)
576
00:23:31,609 --> 00:23:34,944
(exhales) I think I'd
better go lie down.
577
00:23:34,946 --> 00:23:37,246
I suddenly have a terrible headache.
578
00:23:38,068 --> 00:23:39,958
Mom, I'm sorry. I...
579
00:23:42,716 --> 00:23:43,989
You upset her.
580
00:23:44,716 --> 00:23:45,822
Something's happened to you
581
00:23:45,824 --> 00:23:48,024
since you started working
in that new office.
582
00:23:48,026 --> 00:23:49,759
You're getting peppery,
583
00:23:49,761 --> 00:23:51,894
and I don't use that word lightly.
584
00:23:51,896 --> 00:23:55,062
Now, congratulations,
you've ruined our evening.
585
00:23:55,087 --> 00:23:57,366
And we were having lamb.
586
00:23:57,368 --> 00:23:58,952
Get out of my house.
587
00:24:02,273 --> 00:24:05,708
VALENCIA: So, guys, I want to
send a special thank you
588
00:24:05,710 --> 00:24:07,643
to Shimmer Glimmer
Cosmetics for sending over
589
00:24:07,645 --> 00:24:10,747
those amazing and gorgeous
lip glosses to Rebecca.
590
00:24:10,749 --> 00:24:14,650
I'm wearing one right now,
and she is going to love them.
591
00:24:14,652 --> 00:24:15,952
There's nothing wrong
with a little pampering
592
00:24:15,954 --> 00:24:17,820
in a tough time... Just
plain ol' self-care.
593
00:24:17,822 --> 00:24:19,622
And, remember, if you
don't like the shade,
594
00:24:19,624 --> 00:24:21,157
Shimmer Glimmer will
send you a different one
595
00:24:21,159 --> 00:24:22,658
- for free... Wait. Okay.
- No, that's enough. I've had it.
596
00:24:22,660 --> 00:24:25,084
- Wait, no! (grunts)
- I've had it. I'm going to murder you.
597
00:24:25,109 --> 00:24:27,196
What is wrong with you?
598
00:24:27,198 --> 00:24:30,299
You're using your friend's
crisis to get swag?
599
00:24:30,770 --> 00:24:33,669
I mean, not to judge, V, like, at all,
600
00:24:33,671 --> 00:24:36,639
but what you're doing is
pathetic and vain and stupid
601
00:24:36,641 --> 00:24:39,245
and cringey and trendy
and selfish and basic.
602
00:24:39,270 --> 00:24:41,711
(gasps) Oh, my God. Wait, hold up.
603
00:24:41,713 --> 00:24:43,346
You think this is about me?
604
00:24:43,348 --> 00:24:45,948
- Yes.
- Are you blind?
605
00:24:45,950 --> 00:24:49,652
This has way transcended any one person.
606
00:24:49,654 --> 00:24:52,155
Rebecca's story and her courage
607
00:24:52,157 --> 00:24:54,257
and my courage sharing her courage
608
00:24:54,259 --> 00:24:56,359
is inspiring an entire movement.
609
00:24:56,600 --> 00:24:58,427
And that's what people want to feel...
610
00:24:58,429 --> 00:25:00,763
Inspired, not sad.
611
00:25:00,765 --> 00:25:02,365
And that is what I give them...
612
00:25:02,367 --> 00:25:04,233
Hope and joy
613
00:25:04,235 --> 00:25:06,469
and, yes, makeup tips and gorgeous hair.
614
00:25:06,471 --> 00:25:07,804
Oh, my God, you're so full of it.
615
00:25:07,806 --> 00:25:09,972
You're, like, so full of crap.
616
00:25:09,974 --> 00:25:11,741
No, I'm not.
617
00:25:11,743 --> 00:25:13,676
I'm full of something else.
618
00:25:13,678 --> 00:25:15,773
♪ ♪
619
00:25:29,360 --> 00:25:32,128
♪ There's a rumbling within me ♪
620
00:25:32,130 --> 00:25:34,630
♪ Something I just can't ignore ♪
621
00:25:34,632 --> 00:25:37,600
♪ I thought I could contain it ♪
622
00:25:37,602 --> 00:25:40,870
♪ I can't hold it in anymore ♪
623
00:25:40,872 --> 00:25:43,539
♪ It started as just a trickle ♪
624
00:25:43,541 --> 00:25:46,042
♪ Loose and undefined ♪
625
00:25:46,044 --> 00:25:48,644
♪ Now it's starting to solidify ♪
626
00:25:48,646 --> 00:25:53,416
♪ Into something we
can all get behind ♪
627
00:25:53,418 --> 00:25:56,385
♪ This is my movement ♪
628
00:25:56,387 --> 00:25:59,722
♪ Can't stop this movement ♪
629
00:25:59,724 --> 00:26:02,391
♪ It's coming out fast
in a powerful blast ♪
630
00:26:02,393 --> 00:26:04,227
♪ From deep inside of me ♪
631
00:26:04,229 --> 00:26:06,996
♪ Like an explosion ♪
632
00:26:06,998 --> 00:26:09,966
♪ Of built-up emotion ♪
633
00:26:09,968 --> 00:26:12,101
♪ Oh, I wanna scream and shout ♪
634
00:26:12,103 --> 00:26:13,302
♪ I got to let it out ♪
635
00:26:13,304 --> 00:26:17,907
♪ 'Cause this movement
is bigger than me ♪
636
00:26:17,909 --> 00:26:21,377
♪ My movement's getting stronger ♪
637
00:26:21,379 --> 00:26:24,413
♪ There's no containing it ♪
638
00:26:24,415 --> 00:26:27,416
♪ I can't wait any longer ♪
639
00:26:27,418 --> 00:26:30,186
♪ I've really, really got to ♪
640
00:26:30,188 --> 00:26:32,922
♪ Sh... ine a light on this issue ♪
641
00:26:32,924 --> 00:26:34,323
♪ ♪
642
00:26:37,962 --> 00:26:40,062
♪ I know what you mean ♪
643
00:26:40,064 --> 00:26:43,966
♪ I work at a hotline
for suicidal teens ♪
644
00:26:43,968 --> 00:26:45,635
What's your hashtag?
645
00:26:45,637 --> 00:26:47,403
We don't have one. It's a call center.
646
00:26:47,405 --> 00:26:49,305
Yeah, that's not a movement.
647
00:26:49,307 --> 00:26:52,208
♪ Mine is a movement ♪
648
00:26:52,210 --> 00:26:56,178
♪ A big ol' stinky movement, oh ♪
649
00:26:56,180 --> 00:26:59,115
♪ It's gonna be a beauty,
'cause it's my duty ♪
650
00:26:59,117 --> 00:27:01,951
♪ To spread it all over the world ♪
651
00:27:01,953 --> 00:27:03,386
♪ I'm gonna spread it ♪
652
00:27:03,388 --> 00:27:08,190
♪ All over the world. ♪
653
00:27:08,947 --> 00:27:11,594
It sounds like you're
just talking about poop.
654
00:27:11,596 --> 00:27:12,528
What? No.
655
00:27:12,530 --> 00:27:14,384
I rarely poop. It's been a month.
656
00:27:14,866 --> 00:27:16,699
♪ ♪
657
00:27:22,250 --> 00:27:24,968
So, I'm glad to see you here again.
658
00:27:24,993 --> 00:27:27,793
How has everything been
going? How are you feeling?
659
00:27:27,795 --> 00:27:30,234
Uh, not great. Still have
the same problem.
660
00:27:30,698 --> 00:27:34,233
I'm so happy, and I feel
so good all the time.
661
00:27:34,235 --> 00:27:36,029
And that's hard, because
662
00:27:36,068 --> 00:27:37,968
I know not everyone feels that way.
663
00:27:37,970 --> 00:27:40,904
- And that makes me sad.
- I hear you.
664
00:27:40,906 --> 00:27:42,305
And that's wonderful.
665
00:27:42,307 --> 00:27:44,975
But maybe we could circle back
to what you told me last week.
666
00:27:44,977 --> 00:27:46,943
About your mother shooting
your father in cold blood
667
00:27:46,945 --> 00:27:48,244
in front of you on your birthday.
668
00:27:48,246 --> 00:27:49,679
Oh, I've moved beyond that.
669
00:27:49,681 --> 00:27:50,647
(chuckles)
670
00:27:50,649 --> 00:27:52,816
Dr. Akopian, we need to talk to you.
671
00:27:52,818 --> 00:27:55,485
Excuse me. You can't
just burst into my office.
672
00:27:55,487 --> 00:27:56,886
It's okay. It's fine.
673
00:27:56,888 --> 00:27:58,462
Rebecca tried to kill herself.
674
00:27:58,487 --> 00:28:01,191
She needs this more than
I do. Really, I'm good.
675
00:28:01,193 --> 00:28:02,726
- Like I said.
- PAULA: See?
676
00:28:02,728 --> 00:28:05,095
- Kevin is fine with it.
- Go get 'em, champ.
677
00:28:05,097 --> 00:28:08,131
Me and all the Bunchafriends,
we're cheering you on.
678
00:28:08,133 --> 00:28:09,831
No! Kevin!
679
00:28:11,169 --> 00:28:13,136
(sobbing): Why, Mommy, why?!
680
00:28:13,138 --> 00:28:15,773
Rebecca, this is highly inappropriate.
681
00:28:15,798 --> 00:28:18,541
I'm so sorry. I know, I
know. But it's an emergency.
682
00:28:18,543 --> 00:28:20,510
- I think I've been misdiagnosed.
- Yeah.
683
00:28:20,512 --> 00:28:23,079
They told her she had some
stupid personality thing.
684
00:28:23,081 --> 00:28:25,348
REBECCA: Okay, and I know that
Dr. Shin consulted with you,
685
00:28:25,350 --> 00:28:27,517
but I think he tricked you
into giving me that diagnosis
686
00:28:27,519 --> 00:28:29,419
by mansplaining you into it.
687
00:28:29,421 --> 00:28:32,288
Rebecca, did you talk to Dr. Shin?
688
00:28:32,290 --> 00:28:35,125
- Did you go to your group therapy?
- No, I did not.
689
00:28:35,127 --> 00:28:37,127
Because I don't want to
hear any more about it.
690
00:28:37,129 --> 00:28:39,095
I know it's wrong. I know
in my heart it's wrong.
691
00:28:39,097 --> 00:28:40,897
So just give me a new thing,
okay? Give me the thing I know
692
00:28:40,899 --> 00:28:43,166
you want to give me. Right?
'Cause it's a better thing.
693
00:28:44,903 --> 00:28:45,802
One, two, three, go.
694
00:28:45,804 --> 00:28:47,404
JOSH: So, um,
695
00:28:47,406 --> 00:28:48,571
okay, I'm ready.
696
00:28:48,573 --> 00:28:50,707
Give it to me straight.
697
00:28:50,709 --> 00:28:52,609
What is Rebecca saying about me?
698
00:28:52,611 --> 00:28:54,044
I've been there basically every day.
699
00:28:54,046 --> 00:28:55,645
Haven't heard your name once.
700
00:28:55,647 --> 00:28:56,813
You don't have to shield me.
701
00:28:56,815 --> 00:28:58,248
I can take it.
702
00:28:58,506 --> 00:29:02,018
I am responsible for someone
almost taking their life.
703
00:29:02,194 --> 00:29:04,554
Look, from what I picked
up in the hospital...
704
00:29:04,556 --> 00:29:06,189
And I'm in the inner circle;
705
00:29:06,191 --> 00:29:07,724
I provide snacks, advice,
706
00:29:07,726 --> 00:29:10,160
and an outlet for
Valencia's aggression...
707
00:29:10,162 --> 00:29:12,095
Being suicidal has nothing to do
708
00:29:12,097 --> 00:29:14,130
with any one life event or person.
709
00:29:14,132 --> 00:29:17,000
It's more of a general
mental illness thing.
710
00:29:17,002 --> 00:29:19,335
Um, yeah. Well, Rebecca
has been obsessed with me
711
00:29:19,337 --> 00:29:21,738
since she was 16. I ruined her.
712
00:29:21,740 --> 00:29:24,974
Suicide is a cardinal sin,
and I almost sin-assisted.
713
00:29:24,976 --> 00:29:26,309
No, this is on me, man.
714
00:29:26,311 --> 00:29:27,977
I-I've got to do something,
715
00:29:27,979 --> 00:29:29,946
see Rebecca, make things right.
716
00:29:29,948 --> 00:29:30,947
(sighs)
717
00:29:30,949 --> 00:29:32,315
Or you don't.
718
00:29:32,317 --> 00:29:33,349
Or I do.
719
00:29:33,351 --> 00:29:34,350
Or you really don't.
720
00:29:34,352 --> 00:29:35,218
I do, though.
721
00:29:35,220 --> 00:29:36,586
I don't think you really do.
722
00:29:36,588 --> 00:29:39,022
Except that I do, I think.
723
00:29:39,024 --> 00:29:40,056
I don't think so.
724
00:29:40,058 --> 00:29:41,591
AKOPIAN: Rebecca, it sounds
725
00:29:41,593 --> 00:29:44,828
like you don't have accurate
information about borderline.
726
00:29:44,830 --> 00:29:47,997
Dr. Shin asked you not
to look it up online,
727
00:29:47,999 --> 00:29:50,700
- but I'm suspecting that you did.
- So what?
728
00:29:50,702 --> 00:29:52,635
Yeah, I did. So what? All right.
729
00:29:52,637 --> 00:29:55,139
Why don't we take a sec
and look at the checklist,
730
00:29:55,164 --> 00:29:56,773
see if anything resonates.
731
00:29:56,775 --> 00:29:58,475
- What checklist?
- To determine
732
00:29:58,477 --> 00:30:00,610
whether or not a person has BPD.
733
00:30:02,124 --> 00:30:05,715
A checklist sounds like
homework. You like homework.
734
00:30:05,717 --> 00:30:07,984
Wait, why don't we just hear
it and then see what we think?
735
00:30:07,986 --> 00:30:10,285
I mean, I am right here.
I am right next to you.
736
00:30:10,310 --> 00:30:12,522
Yes, you are.
737
00:30:12,524 --> 00:30:14,724
Which is a whole nother
thing we should talk about.
738
00:30:14,726 --> 00:30:16,126
- I don't... I don't...
- All right,
739
00:30:16,128 --> 00:30:18,461
in order to receive a diagnosis for BPD,
740
00:30:18,463 --> 00:30:20,530
a person has to have at least five
741
00:30:20,532 --> 00:30:22,565
of the following nine tendencies.
742
00:30:22,567 --> 00:30:24,334
Just keep an open mind.
743
00:30:24,336 --> 00:30:27,337
Okay? Okay, the first one is
744
00:30:27,339 --> 00:30:29,906
severe mood swings.
745
00:30:29,908 --> 00:30:31,474
♪ ♪
746
00:30:31,476 --> 00:30:33,376
(chuckles) Well, we'll see about that.
747
00:30:33,378 --> 00:30:34,544
(both laugh)
748
00:30:34,546 --> 00:30:36,913
We'll see about that.
749
00:30:37,829 --> 00:30:40,483
Profound fear of abandonment.
750
00:30:40,875 --> 00:30:43,609
Josh. Hey, no, Josh!
751
00:30:44,343 --> 00:30:47,223
Instability in relationships.
752
00:30:47,225 --> 00:30:50,226
It's like you think I'm your
daughter or something, but I'm not.
753
00:30:51,563 --> 00:30:53,554
Unstable sense of identity.
754
00:30:53,579 --> 00:30:56,266
I don't know who I am if
you're not in my life anymore.
755
00:30:57,572 --> 00:31:00,807
Paranoia or dissociative episodes.
756
00:31:01,106 --> 00:31:03,106
What? Robert.
757
00:31:03,108 --> 00:31:04,108
No!
758
00:31:05,810 --> 00:31:08,011
Excessive and frequent anger.
759
00:31:08,013 --> 00:31:09,646
Stop running, you coward!
760
00:31:10,982 --> 00:31:13,116
Feelings of emptiness.
761
00:31:13,118 --> 00:31:16,019
My womb is empty, like my life.
762
00:31:17,522 --> 00:31:18,955
Impulsive behavior.
763
00:31:18,957 --> 00:31:20,657
(moaning)
764
00:31:24,444 --> 00:31:25,895
And, finally,
765
00:31:25,897 --> 00:31:30,033
recurring suicide threats or attempts.
766
00:31:31,818 --> 00:31:33,816
Oh, my God.
767
00:31:34,773 --> 00:31:35,939
I know.
768
00:31:35,941 --> 00:31:37,540
So not you, right?
769
00:31:37,542 --> 00:31:38,841
(chuckles)
770
00:31:38,843 --> 00:31:40,410
Paula,
771
00:31:40,511 --> 00:31:42,344
all those things were me.
772
00:31:43,051 --> 00:31:45,574
I don't have five... I have nine.
773
00:31:46,218 --> 00:31:48,618
(sighs)
774
00:31:55,062 --> 00:31:57,629
(crickets chirping)
775
00:31:58,897 --> 00:32:01,635
Hey. How'd it go?
Did you get a new diagnosis?
776
00:32:01,660 --> 00:32:03,433
No. Uh, same one.
777
00:32:03,435 --> 00:32:05,826
But it's right.
778
00:32:06,357 --> 00:32:09,739
Yeah, the verdict's in.
I am officially, medically,
779
00:32:09,741 --> 00:32:12,990
certifiably “crazy.”
780
00:32:13,378 --> 00:32:15,445
Well, no one said anything about crazy.
781
00:32:15,447 --> 00:32:19,048
Um, so, look, I-I
appreciate everyone's support.
782
00:32:19,050 --> 00:32:20,650
And I love you guys. I really do. But...
783
00:32:20,652 --> 00:32:23,762
I'm very tired, so...
I'm just gonna go to bed.
784
00:32:25,614 --> 00:32:26,926
Alone.
785
00:32:36,925 --> 00:32:39,392
I'm sure she just needs to rest.
786
00:32:39,504 --> 00:32:41,271
(door lock clicks)
787
00:32:51,755 --> 00:32:53,942
Good morning, Mother.
Nathaniel, you're back.
788
00:32:54,255 --> 00:32:55,988
I waited for Dad to leave.
789
00:32:56,575 --> 00:32:58,153
Mom, I came back
790
00:32:58,155 --> 00:32:59,487
because I wanted to apologize
791
00:32:59,489 --> 00:33:01,122
for how I acted last night.
792
00:33:01,124 --> 00:33:02,691
Oh, no, that's okay.
793
00:33:02,693 --> 00:33:04,459
I know you don't like
to rehash the past,
794
00:33:04,461 --> 00:33:06,040
and I respect that.
795
00:33:07,181 --> 00:33:10,081
I'm not trying to make
you feel bad, really.
796
00:33:10,986 --> 00:33:14,939
I know we don't say this stuff
in our house, but...
797
00:33:19,684 --> 00:33:21,828
I love you, Mom.
798
00:33:22,245 --> 00:33:25,608
And I want you to know
that if you ever need me,
799
00:33:25,918 --> 00:33:27,651
I'm here.
800
00:33:29,578 --> 00:33:31,077
And you're right...
801
00:33:31,298 --> 00:33:33,264
These roses, they really are beautiful.
802
00:33:36,656 --> 00:33:38,210
Nathaniel, wait.
803
00:33:41,161 --> 00:33:44,869
When you were ten, I was
going through a hard time.
804
00:33:46,576 --> 00:33:49,251
I made a mistake with my sleeping pills.
805
00:33:50,580 --> 00:33:52,036
Then I went away for a while
806
00:33:52,038 --> 00:33:55,908
to a place where I learned
to sleep without pills.
807
00:33:57,877 --> 00:34:02,298
There was some sailing there. Not much.
808
00:34:03,793 --> 00:34:05,705
Anyway, you're right.
809
00:34:06,142 --> 00:34:07,685
I should have told you.
810
00:34:09,275 --> 00:34:10,421
Wow.
811
00:34:14,727 --> 00:34:16,527
Did we just have a talk?
812
00:34:17,469 --> 00:34:20,031
- I think we did.
- (both laughing)
813
00:34:20,033 --> 00:34:23,034
- (gasps) Don't tell your father.
- Oh, no, I won't.
814
00:34:23,036 --> 00:34:25,727
Do you want to take some of
these roses to your friend?
815
00:34:26,302 --> 00:34:28,168
I think she'd like them.
816
00:34:35,215 --> 00:34:36,814
What are you guys doing?
817
00:34:36,816 --> 00:34:39,150
- Oh...
- (groans)
818
00:34:39,152 --> 00:34:41,052
Um, just having a sleepover.
819
00:34:41,332 --> 00:34:44,722
Yeah, the floor's so
cozy, I slept great.
820
00:34:44,724 --> 00:34:46,691
All right, guys,
sorry, I got to pee, so,
821
00:34:46,693 --> 00:34:49,560
- I've just got to...
- Oh.
822
00:34:49,562 --> 00:34:52,430
- All right, just watch your step.
- O-Okay.
823
00:34:54,850 --> 00:34:57,001
I can go to the bathroom by myself.
824
00:34:57,475 --> 00:34:59,737
- Yeah, I mean, sure.
- Totally.
825
00:34:59,739 --> 00:35:00,771
- Mm-hmm.
- Yeah.
826
00:35:00,773 --> 00:35:02,473
Yeah.
827
00:35:05,535 --> 00:35:07,568
Okay, we can't do this.
828
00:35:08,047 --> 00:35:09,547
She's gonna sleep, she's
gonna go to the bathroom,
829
00:35:09,549 --> 00:35:11,449
she's gonna cut bagels...
We have to get used to it.
830
00:35:11,451 --> 00:35:13,751
(gasps) Oh, my God, I just remembered.
831
00:35:13,753 --> 00:35:15,353
I left toenail clippers in there.
832
00:35:15,355 --> 00:35:17,455
You clip your nails at my house?
833
00:35:17,457 --> 00:35:18,990
My toenails grow really fast,
834
00:35:18,992 --> 00:35:20,291
and they're super-thick
so I carry these
835
00:35:20,293 --> 00:35:21,759
heavy-duty nail clippers on me.
836
00:35:21,761 --> 00:35:23,928
Okay, okay, let's just, like, calm down.
837
00:35:23,930 --> 00:35:25,463
She's not, like, gonna kill herself
838
00:35:25,465 --> 00:35:28,432
- with your nasty, oversized clippers.
- All right.
839
00:35:28,434 --> 00:35:29,634
(sighs) Let's calm down.
840
00:35:29,636 --> 00:35:31,369
And I'm just, I'm knocking on the door
841
00:35:31,371 --> 00:35:33,703
and see if she's okay, that's all.
842
00:35:35,441 --> 00:35:36,578
Rebecca?
843
00:35:41,381 --> 00:35:42,980
Becca?
844
00:35:42,982 --> 00:35:45,650
(jiggling locked doorknob, knocking)
845
00:35:45,652 --> 00:35:47,251
Becky?
846
00:35:47,253 --> 00:35:51,255
Okay, she's not answering.
847
00:35:51,257 --> 00:35:54,592
- (knocking on door)
- (ear-buds): ♪ Yes, no on the crazy ♪
848
00:35:54,594 --> 00:35:57,461
♪ We hope this helps. ♪
849
00:35:57,735 --> 00:35:59,263
What?
850
00:35:59,265 --> 00:36:01,265
She never locks the bathroom door.
851
00:36:01,267 --> 00:36:02,934
Heather's right. Let's not panic.
852
00:36:02,936 --> 00:36:04,569
Okay, all right. (gasps)
853
00:36:04,571 --> 00:36:06,037
What are you doing?
854
00:36:06,039 --> 00:36:08,406
This is my intruder ax. I
can't just stand out here.
855
00:36:08,408 --> 00:36:10,007
I thought you put all
the sharp things away.
856
00:36:10,009 --> 00:36:11,642
I live in a famous murder house.
857
00:36:11,644 --> 00:36:13,077
You think I don't have an ax?
858
00:36:13,079 --> 00:36:14,212
Do it! Do it!
859
00:36:14,214 --> 00:36:16,314
- Just chop it down.
- Just chop it...
860
00:36:16,316 --> 00:36:19,283
(screaming)
861
00:36:20,587 --> 00:36:22,253
Hey, girl.
862
00:36:22,255 --> 00:36:24,046
How was your pee?
863
00:36:30,230 --> 00:36:32,683
What is going on?
864
00:36:32,708 --> 00:36:35,542
Okay, so we may have
been a touch worried.
865
00:36:35,544 --> 00:36:37,911
You didn't answer the
door when we knocked.
866
00:36:37,913 --> 00:36:39,146
I had ear-buds in.
867
00:36:39,488 --> 00:36:41,615
- Oh, ear-buds.
- Ear-buds, right.
868
00:36:41,617 --> 00:36:43,934
In your ears, so you couldn't...
869
00:36:43,959 --> 00:36:45,168
Makes total sense.
870
00:36:45,587 --> 00:36:47,654
I'm sorry to worry you
guys. Look, I was in there
871
00:36:47,656 --> 00:36:49,156
doing this thing that I sometimes do
872
00:36:49,158 --> 00:36:50,857
to make sense of things, I was...
873
00:36:50,859 --> 00:36:54,127
listening to music and
watching music videos and, yeah.
874
00:36:54,129 --> 00:36:56,463
Oh, yeah, cool, because we just thought
875
00:36:56,465 --> 00:37:00,300
- you were killing yourself.
- (sobbing)
876
00:37:01,196 --> 00:37:04,137
We thought you were dead.
877
00:37:04,139 --> 00:37:06,439
We thought we were gonna open the door,
878
00:37:06,441 --> 00:37:07,874
and you'd be all kinds of dead.
879
00:37:07,876 --> 00:37:10,377
I'm so afraid you're gonna die, Rebecca.
880
00:37:10,379 --> 00:37:13,046
I'm so scared. (sniffs)
881
00:37:13,048 --> 00:37:16,383
I have never had a
friend like you before.
882
00:37:16,706 --> 00:37:20,253
I... almost lost you.
883
00:37:20,255 --> 00:37:23,890
And I have been telling all
these people... to have hope,
884
00:37:23,892 --> 00:37:26,993
when, really, I am so sad and so scared,
885
00:37:26,995 --> 00:37:30,297
and I have to poop so, so bad.
886
00:37:30,299 --> 00:37:32,732
- Oh, honey.
- Oh.
887
00:37:33,041 --> 00:37:35,612
(Valencia sobs)
888
00:37:36,556 --> 00:37:38,438
Rebecca, please.
889
00:37:39,025 --> 00:37:42,042
Promise me you'll never do it again.
890
00:37:42,652 --> 00:37:45,619
I... I would lo... I would
love to promise you that.
891
00:37:46,715 --> 00:37:48,673
I'd love to promise you all that.
892
00:37:49,797 --> 00:37:51,530
But I can't.
893
00:37:53,322 --> 00:37:54,971
Look...
894
00:37:55,666 --> 00:37:57,691
The way I felt on that plane, I don't,
895
00:37:57,693 --> 00:37:59,471
I don't ever want to
feel like that again.
896
00:38:00,362 --> 00:38:04,174
And now that I know... what I have,
897
00:38:05,502 --> 00:38:07,834
I hope I can get the help that I need,
898
00:38:07,836 --> 00:38:09,936
but... the truth is,
899
00:38:09,938 --> 00:38:12,533
I don't know what the future holds.
900
00:38:13,619 --> 00:38:16,945
So I just can't promise
anything to anyone, even myself.
901
00:38:18,601 --> 00:38:22,226
You know, for someone who's “crazy,”
902
00:38:22,463 --> 00:38:24,992
you sound pretty sane.
903
00:38:26,911 --> 00:38:28,672
Thank you, Heather.
904
00:38:31,426 --> 00:38:34,027
And I'm so sorry that
I put you through this.
905
00:38:34,029 --> 00:38:35,295
Really.
906
00:38:35,297 --> 00:38:37,063
- Where is she?
- (gasps)
907
00:38:37,065 --> 00:38:39,499
Where's my girl? Oh, I
came as soon as I heard.
908
00:38:39,501 --> 00:38:42,435
She's fine, but what happened to you?
909
00:38:42,437 --> 00:38:45,305
WiJo and I were in a
yurt, totally off the grid,
910
00:38:45,307 --> 00:38:47,274
and for one second, I got cell service,
911
00:38:47,276 --> 00:38:48,842
and all these messages came through,
912
00:38:48,844 --> 00:38:51,011
and I saw what was happening with you,
913
00:38:51,013 --> 00:38:53,813
so I borrowed this tank top from
WiJo because it was so hot out,
914
00:38:53,815 --> 00:38:55,548
and then I hopped in my
car, but it wouldn't start
915
00:38:55,550 --> 00:38:57,050
because the battery died,
916
00:38:57,052 --> 00:38:58,518
so I found a guy in
one of the other yurts,
917
00:38:58,520 --> 00:39:01,154
and I borrowed his car,
but it was a convertible.
918
00:39:01,156 --> 00:39:04,024
And there was so much traffic
coming from the desert.
919
00:39:04,026 --> 00:39:06,927
So I just drove three hours in the sun.
920
00:39:06,929 --> 00:39:08,728
And I didn't stop for sunscreen.
921
00:39:08,730 --> 00:39:11,331
I had a hat but it fell
off after five minutes.
922
00:39:11,434 --> 00:39:14,200
I knew I was burning, but
I had to come see my girl.
923
00:39:14,202 --> 00:39:15,762
- Who needs skin?
- Oh.
924
00:39:15,787 --> 00:39:18,905
- Oh. No, no, no. I'm sorry.
- Sorry, sorry. Sorry, sorry, sorry.
925
00:39:18,907 --> 00:39:21,341
- You've been through so much.
- No, Darryl,
926
00:39:21,343 --> 00:39:22,976
I want to apologize...
927
00:39:22,978 --> 00:39:24,411
for all the horrible
things I said to you
928
00:39:24,413 --> 00:39:25,679
before I left for New York.
929
00:39:25,681 --> 00:39:28,315
It w... they were,
they were all terrible.
930
00:39:28,317 --> 00:39:29,683
I want to apologize to all of you guys.
931
00:39:29,685 --> 00:39:31,618
You know I didn't
mean any of that stuff.
932
00:39:31,620 --> 00:39:34,387
I know that. We know that.
933
00:39:34,389 --> 00:39:36,289
- Of course we do.
- Absolutely. No question.
934
00:39:36,291 --> 00:39:38,291
(overlapping chatter)
935
00:39:38,293 --> 00:39:41,661
DARRYL: I swear to God, when I
get my hands on that Josh Chan...
936
00:39:41,663 --> 00:39:43,296
When I get my hands on that jerk,
937
00:39:43,298 --> 00:39:44,931
I'm gonna give him a piece of my mind.
938
00:39:44,933 --> 00:39:46,199
Because you know what?
939
00:39:46,201 --> 00:39:48,223
I could murder Josh right now.
940
00:39:48,248 --> 00:39:49,803
I do have an ax.
941
00:39:49,805 --> 00:39:52,105
Good. This is all his fault.
942
00:39:52,107 --> 00:39:53,606
REBECCA: Darryl, calm down.
943
00:39:53,608 --> 00:39:55,275
This is not Josh's fault.
944
00:39:56,711 --> 00:40:00,580
I mean, it feels weird
to even say Josh's name.
945
00:40:01,000 --> 00:40:03,414
I-I haven't thought about him in days.
946
00:40:03,919 --> 00:40:06,016
Truly. I mean, it-it's almost like...
947
00:40:06,822 --> 00:40:08,727
Josh is irrelevant.
948
00:40:09,324 --> 00:40:11,398
It's not even about Josh.
949
00:40:13,546 --> 00:40:15,453
Maybe it never was.
950
00:40:17,961 --> 00:40:20,233
Oh, Darryl, honey,
let's-let's get you in...
951
00:40:20,664 --> 00:40:22,135
I don't know, some sort of ice bath.
952
00:40:22,137 --> 00:40:23,670
DARRYL: What does it
mean when it blisters?
953
00:40:23,672 --> 00:40:24,971
REBECCA: Oh. Okay.
954
00:40:24,973 --> 00:40:26,973
No one touch him. No one touch him.
955
00:40:28,577 --> 00:40:30,143
So I'm here.
956
00:40:30,145 --> 00:40:32,645
And I'm ready to face it all.
957
00:40:32,647 --> 00:40:34,814
And I'm ready to start
group therapy, too.
958
00:40:34,816 --> 00:40:36,216
I think you'll like it.
959
00:40:36,218 --> 00:40:38,585
Everyone is really nice and supportive.
960
00:40:38,587 --> 00:40:40,253
But, like, nuts, right?
961
00:40:40,255 --> 00:40:42,455
(laughs) Let's go.
962
00:40:42,457 --> 00:40:44,024
But you didn't answer me.
963
00:40:44,026 --> 00:40:45,831
Are they, are they all terrible?
964
00:40:49,765 --> 00:40:51,865
(sighs)
965
00:40:53,828 --> 00:40:55,568
You were not supposed to see me.
966
00:40:55,570 --> 00:40:57,804
I didn't know you delivered stuff.
967
00:40:57,806 --> 00:40:59,172
This your side hustle?
968
00:40:59,174 --> 00:41:00,573
(chuckles)
969
00:41:00,575 --> 00:41:01,775
Oh.
970
00:41:01,800 --> 00:41:04,546
Oh, these are beautiful.
971
00:41:10,519 --> 00:41:12,085
Wow, this is really sweet.
972
00:41:12,087 --> 00:41:13,586
Well, I mean it.
973
00:41:14,212 --> 00:41:15,779
I do.
974
00:41:16,258 --> 00:41:17,857
I'm here for you.
975
00:41:17,859 --> 00:41:19,025
Thank you.
976
00:41:19,932 --> 00:41:21,547
That really means a lot.
977
00:41:22,964 --> 00:41:24,597
I got a... I should get inside.
978
00:41:24,599 --> 00:41:26,099
I got a workbook in therapy today,
979
00:41:26,101 --> 00:41:27,534
and I love workbooks, so...
980
00:41:27,536 --> 00:41:28,835
You like to work?
981
00:41:28,837 --> 00:41:30,370
That's the first I've heard of it.
982
00:41:30,372 --> 00:41:32,539
(laughs)
983
00:41:33,781 --> 00:41:35,314
Oh, wait. Um,
984
00:41:35,339 --> 00:41:37,534
ju... um, brought this.
985
00:41:37,559 --> 00:41:38,812
Oh, my God,
986
00:41:38,814 --> 00:41:41,047
I was wondering where
Ruth Gator Ginsburg went.
987
00:41:41,049 --> 00:41:42,415
Thank you.
988
00:41:42,572 --> 00:41:44,348
I'm, uh...
989
00:41:45,367 --> 00:41:46,911
I'm glad you're home.
990
00:41:56,098 --> 00:42:00,427
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