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Previously on This Is Us...

What is so terrible about me right now?

You're just different.

Moving here is the only way that we are gonna stay a family.

Did you, uh, fill Sheila's job yet?

No, but we're looking at applicants.

I'd like to be considered.

-- Jack! -- Jack!

Jack!

Jack?! Where are you?

Hey. Hey, buddy. Hey, buddy, Grandma's here.

I told you to listen for the click.

Maybe I would have heard the click

if you weren't yelling at me all the time.

I don't know if Toby and I are gonna make it.

Marriage...

Marriage is what brings us together today.

Coming in, coming in, I don't know the rules,

but I gotta get something cleared for the toast.

I just need to know if movie quotes

-or impressions are allowed. That's all. -Yes.

Yes. This is the last time I'm doing this,

so go crazy, brother.

You look beautiful.

Okay, get out. Get out.

-Bye-bye. -The whole thing, it's really great.

-- Bye! -- Oh, come on.

Geez, kill a guy for trying to deliver

a perfect wedding speech!

Ah, your brother's an idiot.

But he's right. You are beautiful.

Philip is going to lose it.

You are the perfect bride. And this is going to be

the perfect day.

Beth, we both know today will go wrong

in a thousand ways, but it doesn't matter.

Kate Pearson, you are an incredibly zen bride.

Have you been hitting my CBD pen in that dressing room?

No.

Hello?

Hi.

Hi.

Um, hey, listen, I know, I know you're getting married

in a few hours. Um, congratulations.

I just, I just wanted to say...

Kate, you know what you said to me

the day we signed our divorce papers?

Yeah, I remember.

I want you to know...

that I see it now.

I'm sorry it took me so long.

If only I'd had a crystal ball,

if I could've seen the way that this all ended up.

Yeah. Life would be much simpler

if we could live it backwards, huh?

Well, they're both sleeping in.

-Small miracles. -Yeah.

I imagine Jack is pretty spent.

I am going to take the job here in L.A.

The one that I turned down.

It'll be a huge step back in my career,

but I'm willing to do whatever it takes to save our family.

Okay.

Um, we've got to go to couples therapy.

And I know that you haven't wanted to in the past.

I'll do it. I'll do it.

Whatever it takes.

Whatever it takes.

-You're home! -Okay, you ready to help me?

This one? Okay. Can you hand that one to Mama?

-Be careful. Careful. -Here you go, Mama.

Oh, thank you.

-- All right. Here we go. -- Yes!

There you go.

Yeah, and so Toby was trying really hard

to make San Francisco work for all of us.

I mean, killing himself basically,

coming back and forth every weekend...

A-And Kate was incredible with the kids.

She picked up so much of the slack while I was gone.

I hope this classroom treats you as well as it treated me.

This is for you.

Now, I'm going to start walking you through

your new duties as a supervisor.

-This is your office. -Oh. Right.

Welcome aboard.

Yeah, thank you.

What's that song, Mama?

That is a song that I'm teaching the kiddos at school.

-Hey. Hey. -Hi.

-How-how was your day?

Oh, yeah, it was great. Yours?

It was fine.

I'm sure she'll be here any minute.

Traffic this time of day can be so unpredictable.

Yeah.

We've been coming here for six months.

She knows how long it takes to get here.

Hi. I'm sorry I'm late.

Jack's teacher cornered me at pickup

and then he guilted me into buying the new class bird.

So, anyway, um, I did my best. Sorry.

Sure you did.

What is that supposed to mean?

Toby, it seems like you're having feelings

about Kate being late.

I'm having feelings about Kate being late again.

You know, you could be on time if you wanted to.

You don't have to spend 20 minutes

talking to Jack's teacher every time you pick him up.

I am polite to our children's teacher

because the way that I treat them

impacts the way they treat him.

Something you might know if you ever spent a second longer

at his school than you have to, right?

Okay. Wow. So now I'm not

spending enough time at Jack's school?

Good to know. Another secret test

about our kids that I didn't know I was failing.

I am really so tired of this.

Every day

it's just like a different version of the same fight.

It's like we are trapped

in a hellish version of Groundhog Day.

Dianne, you've met a lot of miserable couples.

Some make it, some don't.

In your professional opinion, which kind are we?

First, she's not a Magic 8 Ball, Toby.

Okay? And maybe if you actually listened when we come here,

we might be in a different spot, right?

-You think that. -Okay, you know what?

Screw it.

You can come late, I can leave early.

Great engagement party, guys.

Have you started talking about wedding venues yet?

-Because I have thoughts. -Yeah.

We're going to Santa Ynez next month.

We're looking at this winery with this beautiful courtyard.

-This awesome fountain... -Yeah.

-Stuffed mushrooms. Elijah. -What?

You put this baby in me, you will get me stuffed mushrooms!

Hello, hello. All right.

Hey! There they are. The couple of the hour.

Uh, this is Leslie.

-Hi. -Congratulations, you guys.

-Thank you. Thank you. -Thank you.

Gosh, you look so familiar. Have we met?

-Oh, I-I don't think so. -No.

Oh.

-Go on, do it. You can do it. -Oh.

It's fun.

-Right. -Of course, yeah.

Of course. You're the-the State Farm girl.

-Yes! -Yes.

-So nice to meet you.

She's not making the family photo.

-Don't even... -What are you talking about?

There's some potential there.

-No? -There was potential

with the Verizon girl, the iPhone girl,

with the condom commercial girl...

The condom commercial girl.

Yeah, maybe you're right. Maybe no-no photo.

-Yeah. Right. -Yeah.

Hey, are you okay?

Uh...

I told you she was going to be here with her husband.

Yeah. Yeah, I'm okay. It's fine.

I-I'm glad you two are good friends again anyway.

Yeah.

I'm gonna go say hi.

-Hey! -Hey.

Kate, this spread is next level.

I am burnt out on oysters, which I didn't think was possible.

But, uh, screw it, I'm gonna have another one.

-Good.

I gotta go, Jae Won.

No. No more calls. I'm at my sister's engagement party.

Bye. Sorry about that.

Donor contributions for my campaign are up 20%.

He's very excited.

Well, we are excited to have a future senator

at our engagement party.

Oh, come on.

Mom, you look beautiful.

Thank you, sweetheart. You, too.

Oh, I am so, so happy for you.

Thank you.

And for you, too.

Philip.

Thank you.

Yes.

All right, let's bring Kate up to the stage.

Oh, if you'll excuse me.

Excuse you where? W-What's happening?

You'll see.

Oh, boy.

Hi, everyone. Thank you so much for coming out tonight.

This is really special.

A few years ago,

on an unusually hot day in Koreatown,

this song changed everything for us.

So, uh, get your ass up here, pal. Let's go.

-- Philip! -- Philip!

-- Let's go. -- Come on, Philip.

-- You. -- Come on, Philip!

-- Philip! Philip! -- Me and you.

I knew it. Ah. All right.

Everybody!

Oh, see, you like it. Yeah.

It's a great gift, guys. Thank you very much.

That song certainly isn't gonna ruin my life at all, is it?

Oh, my God, I love his witty humor.

-Oh.

I'm gonna go get a drink.

I mean, her bar's a little low when it comes to "wit."

But she's, you know, she's the new Trojan girl,

so if you ever need any free condoms...

Hey, Kate, how's the, uh, how's work going?

Yeah, great. Last week was '90s week

so, uh, the whole class sang "Backstreet's Back."

Pretty much my dream job.

Now if it just paid something, we'd really come out on top.

Wow, Toby.

It was a jab at the school, not at you.

Yeah. I'm gonna go put the candles on the cake.

Hey.

How do I know...

How do I know when it's time to end a marriage?

I think you'll know.

If that time comes, I think you'll know.

If it comes to that, if it comes to that...

...you and the kids will be fine. Okay?

Look at me and Madison, we managed to work things out.

And I'm not saying that's you and Toby.

But if it is, you... you will all be happy again.

Hello? Do you have any eights?

Huh? Oh, um, sorry, Jack.

Um, no, go fish.

Philip?

-Jack? It's dinnertime.

Don't worry. It's gonna go good.

Thanks, pal.

Spinach?

Listen, I don't think it's weird at all.

Of course it is.

You've got the entire kindergarten chorus

singing "Maneater."

Whatever, they love it!

Hey, listen, you have my support.

All right? Whatever filth you decide

to make those children sing,

I will be at that piano, accompanying you with bells on.

Well, thank you, that is what I like to hear.

All right.

Okay.

Do you think you want some desser...

I'd accompany you anywhere actually.

Uh, I-I've known it since our first date.

You remember when that mariachi band,

they arrived at our table,

and you took my hand, and the rest is history.

God, I love you, Kate.

I love your germy, loud, unrefined children.

My time with you has just--

it's just been the happiest time of my life.

So, um, what do you say we-we make it official?

Will you... Will you marry me?

Oh, before you answer... Okay, now. Now.

Hailey, go, Hailey!

Yes. Yes, I will marry you.

Yeah!

We've been seeing you for 16 months.

How much longer are we supposed to keep coming here?

Until we fix our marriage.

When's the last time you two had dinner together?

Just the two of you?

-Sweetie, sweetie, just-just relax.

Come on, Hailey.

Hailey, Hailey, Hailey.

Hailey, come on, come on. Shh.

You look so nice. I've always loved that dress.

-Yeah, I know.

Wow.

Toby, dinner looks so good.

Just trying to make Dianne proud.

Well, do you feel proud, Toby?

What matters is how you feel.

And, Kate, how do Toby's feelings

about his feelings make you feel?

How was work today?

Ah. Fine.

I got out of there at00 on the dot, so that's a bonus.

Sorry.

How was your day?

-The usual. -Mm.

Mm. How was bedtime? I heard a little drama.

Yeah, Hailey was up in arms that we couldn't do

a sixth reading of Corduroy.

Well, did you, uh, read Hush Little Polar Bear last?

'Cause it really winds her down. You know.

Uh, no. No, like I just said,

she-she kind of had a one-track mind for, uh,

for Corduroy tonight.

Okay.

You know I put her to bed all the time, right?

No, you don't.

Jesus.

What? I mean, it's true.

Like, you don't put her down all the time.

Okay. Here we go.

Here we go what? I heard her crying.

And when I hear my daughter, who never cries at bedtime,

-crying at bedtime... -Mm-hmm?

I can't ask you about it to, like, protect your ego?

-I mean, just, I'm try... -Yeah, maybe, for once,

you could resist the urge to criticize me.

It wasn't a criticism...

It certainly was a criticism.

Okay, fine, you put the kids to bed

more often and they like it better when you do it.

Who cares? I do other things. Like when they're sick,

I use that little snot grabber thing

because it makes you gag.

But do I make you feel guilty about it? No. I just do it.

Okay, well, congrats.

You occasionally clear their noses.

Okay, enough! I am a good dad! All right?

I love my kids and they love me.

And you criticizing everything I do around them, it just--

you suck the joy out of being a dad.

What joy? You look miserable half the time you're with them.

I look miserable because you are in the room.

Well, there it is.

You know what? Yeah, there-- actually, th-there it is.

There it is. All this time working with Dianne

trying to figure out how we ended up where we are now.

It's-it's not because I lost a bunch of weight,

it's not because it took me too long to-to bond with Jack

or I moved to San Francisco or any of the other BS

that we talk about in there. Turns out,

the only crime that I can consistently

find myself guilty of is not being Jack Pearson.

-Okay, wow. -No!

Admit it. This marriage has been a rigged game.

-What? -I am sorry that I like

putting on a suit to go to work and Jack Pearson hated it.

I'm sorry I don't father my children exactly

the way Jack Pearson did.

I'm sorry that Jack Pearson died

and you ended up having to marry me instead of him!

-Stop it! -Mom, Dad, I need help!

-KATE Jack? -Jack?

Boba Fett fell in the toilet.

You guys have to stop yelling now and get him out.

Okay. Yeah. We'll get him out.

Come on. I'll help you back to bed.

I promised myself that I would never be like my parents.

That I wouldn't put my kids through listening

to crap like that.

It's over, Toby.

It's time.

Hey.

Hi.

Uh, I, uh, took the liberty of ordering.

Hope you like Guinness.

Not really. But thanks.

How about those Rams?

Yeah, uh... we don't have to do the whole small talk thing.

Oh, thank God.

Because I had absolutely no follow-ups to

"how about those Rams."

Yeah. Thanks for coming.

Um, I'll just, I'll-I'll cut to the-the chase here.

Um, you and Kate are getting serious.

Which means that you're going to be spending a lot more time

with Jack and Hailey.

So I thought we were long overdue for a real conversation

about what I expect from you,

regarding the way you behave around them.

Yeah. No, I totally agree.

I too think it's important.

Especially as, um...

I plan to propose to Kate soon.

I'm sorry to spring that on you. If you need a moment...

It's fine. I, uh, I kind of saw that coming.

Look, most importantly,

is that you don't yell around the kids.

You don't yell around them and you don't yell at them.

Yeah, don't worry. British people don't yell.

Even when we're furious, we just

wrinkle our noses disapprovingly.

I'm sure this is all pretty rich coming from me, huh?

Based on what you've heard about me. As a dad.

I've heard nothing but good things as of late.

Yeah. Not good enough, I guess.

How do you mean?

I thought if we worked hard,

if we fixed what was broken,

that we would...

...that we would find our way back to each other.

But instead we got divorced and, uh,

Kate found her way to you. So...

I-I'm sorry. This is, this is kind of getting off the rails.

Listen, Toby...

there's not much I can say to make this moment more palatable.

But I will say...

I love your children.

And I consider it a great privilege to...

to help raise them.

Th-Thank you.

Was that a, uh, field goal then?

Good God, man, do you not even understand

the objective of this game?

I thought I did until just now.

If you want to marry Kate Pearson, you have to have

at least a general understanding of American football.

It is a huge deal in her family.

It was huge to her father.

Um... look, okay, American football

is not that different from soccer.

Except instead of kicking a ball into a goal,

you're trying to carry a ball into an end zone.

It's over, Toby.

It's time.

This is the unit that's available.

Yeah, well, beige is my favorite color.

We just want to do whatever's best for the kids.

I'm glad to hear that.

Divorce is never pleasant, but it doesn't have to be ugly.

The mediation process helps you work together

to decide the best way to co-parent

and divide assets.

Floor B.

Ground floor.

Uh...

Okay.

-Oh, come on, you're lying. -I'm not lying!

I don't have a least favorite student.

I think they're all very sweet in their own ways and...

Ugh, you're no fun.

Actually that is not true. You are extremely fun.

I am enjoying our first date very much, Kate Pearson.

Me, too.

Oh, uh, that's okay.

-Th-Thank you though.

This-this kind of, like, personal attention

makes me very uncomfortable.

Well, breathe. Breathe, Philip.

We're gonna get through these nice men playing music for us.

Can you excuse me for a sec?

Everything all right?

Philip, listen to me.

I was married to a wonderful man.

And we loved each other a lot.

And it wasn't enough.

We were both so scared of pushing each other away

that we just swallowed our feelings, time after time.

And I can never be in a relationship like that again.

Understood.

So I'm gonna ask you directly.

What are you doing with me?

You are a serial womanizer

who dates a string of toothpick-sized women.

I'm a recently divorced,

non-toothpick-sized mother of two.

My life is...

it's messy, it's complicated

and it's hard.

And you spend your life avoiding those things.

So I'm gonna ask you again.

What are you doing?

Wait, are you not skinny? I hadn't noticed.

Are you ser-- Okay, you know what?

You're clearly not capable of having a real conversation.

No, it is extremely presumptuous of you

to assume that I've avoided messiness and complication

just because I don't go around talking about my feelings

all the time like you Americans do, more specifically you do.

As you know, I was married once, too.

And she was beautiful in an imperfect way.

Bit of a crooked nose. But it worked for her.

And she was blind.

We were happy for a really long time.

But we had trouble conceiving.

I thought it was just a sign that we

weren't meant to have children.

But she was determined.

You know, we did three rounds of IVF.

Yeah, it consumed our time, drained our bank balance,

just sucked all the lightness and laughter out of our home.

She said she wanted to try a fourth time and...

I refused.

She said I was giving up on our life together.

And I said...

I said I no longer recognized our life together,

so what was there to give up on?

She of course then packed a bag to go to her mother's.

And, um... I didn't even say goodbye

when the cab came to pick her up.

She only made it five minutes down the road

before she was hit by a drunk driver.

Killed instantly.

My God.

So to, uh, to answer your question...

I am trying...

to be happy again.

And... you, you make me happy.

So...

that is-is what I am doing.

I hope that's a-- is that a satisfactory answer?

Yes, it is.

Okay, good.

Did you guys get a chance to discuss

your post-divorce housing plan since our last session?

Yes.

We agreed that

I would stay in the house with the kids,

and that Toby would get a place nearby.

Hi.

Something extraordinary has happened.

They're both asleep.

Can you believe it?

You're both here.

So, how was the petting zoo?

Tuckered them out.

Yeah. Yeah. It was, uh, it was good.

You know, Kate, there's still time.

We don't have to go through with this.

Toby, don't do this.

We're signing the papers in two days.

We are getting better together, aren't we?

I mean, I-I'm making progress with the kids, right?

Yeah. Definitely. I see it.

I feel it. I know they feel it.

I think, I think we should go--

we should go back and see Dianne.

That was where-- I wasn't, I wasn't really

receptive to it at first, but-but I-I will be this time.

Toby, I don't want to see Dianne again.

I don't.

I haven't felt this good in a long time.

Like, I-I feel like I can actually breathe. You know?

And I think that you're doing so great with the kids

because you have your space to figure out your thing with them.

Away from me.

You know, they're happier, too.

When they're with you, when they're with me.

Their smiles are starting to come back.

They will be happier--

they will be happier if we are back together.

Did you not hear what he said w-when he woke up?

Yes.

I know that in the long run...

Kate, do not do this.

Okay? Don't do this, please.

I am terrified. I don't-- I don't want to be alone.

Okay? I-I don't want to have to start over.

I don't want to have to live half of my life without my kids.

We can, we can, we can get better. I know that we can.

This cannot be the way that our story ends.

Please, please, please, this-this-this cannot...

this-this can't, this cannot be the way that it ends. Okay?

Toby.

I'm sorry. I can't.

I can't.

Well, I guess that's the last time

that I'll ever kiss my wife.

I'll-I'll see you Wednesday.

It's gonna be another scorcher, so...

-Hi. -Hi.

It's a bit of a scorcher, isn't it?

It is.

Thanks for offering to hang.

Well, yeah, I remembered it was a, uh, big morning for you.

Thought you could use a friend.

How was it?

It was brutal.

So, Koreatown, huh?

Are we doing a little post-signing

the divorce papers bibimbap?

Not exactly...

you can play the piano.

How am I singing on my own now? Come on.

Okay. You two made it to the finish line.

Hope you brought your favorite pens,

'cause we got a lot of signing to do.

Okay, let's get started.

Right, this is the joint petition.

Okay? Here we have a division of assets.

So, I'll see you tomorrow?

Yeah. I'll pick up the kids before your classes.

Okay. Hey, Toby. Wait.

Look, Kate, we don't need to make a big thing out of this.

It's really, really hot out, I gotta get to work,

and I'm just, I'm really, really tired.

I know. Just, please, let me say one thing.

This is not how our story ends.

Just because our marriage is over,

doesn't mean our story's over.

You can just put everything in that corner.

So, I got all the same furniture as in his other room.

I tried to match the layout as best as possible,

so it's easier for him to navigate.

The slime is hungry for children!

What if we drip some on your shoe?

No? You don't want to get messy?

-I know who it is. Hi!

Hi, Jack. Hi, sweet girl.

-Yay! -Hey, there.

-Hiya, guys. -Watch out! Coming through!

-Coming through! -What are you guys having for dinner?

-Hey, guys, what are we having for dinner?

Can I interest you?

Uh, yeah. Yeah, sure.

All right. I'll have dinner with you guys.

-Good job!

-Oh. -Sorry.

Um, sorry.

It's okay.

Well...

Well, isn't this just parfait.

Like perfect. It was a joke. Sorry.

Come on. It's-it's okay.

It was a cute joke. Yeah, it was just...

yeah, it was just a little vanilla.

That was good. I liked it.

-Thank you. -Hi, I'm Toby.

-Oh, hi, sweetheart. -Hi, Mom.

I can't wait to hear you play later.

Hey, buddy.

You're both here.

This is not how our story ends.

Just because our marriage is over,

doesn't mean our story's over.

I mean, we were meant to find each other

in that weight loss group.

We were meant to be together.

And now... we're meant to be apart.

And I know that one day you will see it.

Kate, I promise you...

I will never see it.

Kate, do-do you remember

what you said to me the day we signed our divorce papers?

Yeah, I remember.

I want you to know...

that I see it now.