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♪ Hey, yah, oh, hey, yah
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♪ Hey, yah, oh, hey, yah
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♪ Bring it on
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♪ Hard time come
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♪ That was nothing now
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♪ Ooh, how you like it now?
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♪ Bring it on
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♪ Yeah-ah-ah-ah-ah
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♪ Ahhh-ahh-ahh-ahh
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♪ Bad days, rat race
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♪ Mud in the face days,
scream and shout ♪
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♪ Trying to take you out
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♪ Oh, I can make it louder
than thunder ♪
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♪ When you go down,
who you come to? ♪
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♪ Bring it on
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♪ Hard time come
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♪ That was nothing now
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♪ Ooh, how you like it now?
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♪ Bring it on
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♪ Yeah-ah-ah-ah-ah
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♪ Ahhh-ahh-ahh
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♪ Hey, yah, oh, hey, yah
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♪ Hey, yah, one more time
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♪ Bring it on
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[ Doors slam ]
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Maya: I know it's been
a long night, team,
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and we have a long shift
ahead of us,
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but I want you all
to know that --Diane.
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Jack.
Don't worry.
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I got a rapid test
this morning,
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so I'm clean
as a whistle.
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Uh, what are y--
What is she --
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I asked her to come.
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There's been a death,
and you are all grieving,
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so I asked her
to come.
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I'm sorr-- You me--
[ Stammers ]
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You talking about
George Floyd?Dean: You brought in
a therapist
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to help us process the death
of George Floyd?
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I did.
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I feel
powerless to help,
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and this felt like
something I could do.
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Diane: There are not
many fire captains
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who would treat a moment
of national crisis
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like an internal tragedy,
and your captain is.
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I respect it,
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so I'm honored to be here
to help however I can.
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I don't need you
to talk about Mr. Floyd.
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I'm not gonna make you
talk to me at all.
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This isn't mandatory.
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I'm just here
if you need me.
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[ Door opens ]
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♪♪
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[ Doors close ]
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♪♪
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♪♪
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[ Breathing shakily ]
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♪♪
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[ Breathes deeply ]
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♪♪
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[ Ringing ]
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Carina: You're bold,
and you're trying.
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Right or wrong,
you tried something today.
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You tried something
to help.
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Thank you.
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I love you.
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[ Cellphone beeps ]
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How do you do it?
I mean, how do you --
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I-I-I know you have to be
as shaken up as I am,
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so how do you --
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How do I do my job?Well, yeah.
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You fought a fire
this morning.
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How did you do it?
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I pushed my pain aside
and did what had to be done.
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Same.
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I saw what happened to
Dean Miller.
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He's suing
the police department,
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and he's right
to do it.
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But?
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[ Clears throat ]
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But, uh -- uh, it --
it makes me uncomfortable.
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Because he's
a firefighter
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and we're supposed to shut up
and look pretty?
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No,
because when the police
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made me lie down on the street
like an animal
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during
a routine traffic stop --
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You didn't sue.
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I didn't do
much of anything at all.
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♪♪
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I did yell, you know,
whi-- which was...
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♪♪
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[ Sirens wailing ]
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♪♪
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I feel like
a hypocrite.
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A hypocrite?
Yeah.
I have two kids.
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I have a new son
since we last spoke.
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Congratulations.
Thanks.
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You get any sleep?Well, he's 18, so, you know...
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Oh.
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While I'm not losing sleep
because of him --
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You're losing sleep
overhim.
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Yeah.
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Anyway,
m-my wife and I, we --
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we gave "the talk"
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and explained
that young Black men
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don't get to behave
any old way they want
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when dealing
with the police.
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We told them to do whatever
it took to get home safe.
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But when Ihad a run-in
with the police myself,
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I -- I-I yelled
at that officer
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as he
got into his car.
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I mean, if my boys had yelled
at a cop like that, I --
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You'd be upset
with them?
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Well, hell, yes,
I'd be upset!
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I'd...[ Sighs ]
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But I'd also
be proud.
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U-- Because they'd
be right.
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You know,
I was right.
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Miller was right.
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But y-you can't
do that.
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You can't yell at a cop
because, you know, w--
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because they've got a gun,
you know?
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They're given authority.
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They have the power t--
[ Sighs ]
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D-Do you have kids?
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Three teenagers.
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Oh, wow. Okay, so, you get
just how frustrating
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and infuriating it is
to pour every ounce
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of energy
and brain power you have
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into them to --
to try and mold them
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into confident
young men --
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to make them
honestly believe
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that they can
accomplish anything,
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to -- to work so hard
to get them to s-stand tall
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and feel good
in their own skin --
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only to then
have to tell them that
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because of the color
of that skin,
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they have to shrink
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when in the presence
of a police officer.
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Do you tell them that?
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Do you tell them
to shrink?
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No.
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No, I -- I don't tell them
to shrink.
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I --
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[Sighs]
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I tell them to stand
with dignity,
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and I tell them
to de-escalate.
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I-I tell them that in any
confrontational situation,
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their job
is to de-escalate.
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But it should be
the cop's job.
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You're right.
It should.
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[ Clears throat ]
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So, let me just make sure
I have this straight.
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You're mad at yourself
that you didn't do more
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after that cop
treated you that way,
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and you're mad at yourself
that you didn't do less
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after that cop
treated you that way.
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Because Miller's
doing more,
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and because you want your boys
to do less.
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Look...
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I'm exhausted, you know?
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[ Stammers ]
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I'm exhausted by navigating
a -- a w-- a world
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that sees me and --
and my kids as a threat.
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I mean,
it's -- it's this --
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it's this constant
nagging worry
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that --
that never goes away.
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And i-if I do manage to forget
and just --
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you know,
just exist...
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♪♪
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...a comment or a look
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or the news that a man
has been killed in the street
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reminds me
that I have to be careful.
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And -- And it steals all of
my mental and emotional energy
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that I should be giving
to my wife
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and my kids
and my health.
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Is something going on
with your health?
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♪♪
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Being Black in America is
a life-threatening condition.
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Other than that...
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♪♪
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Seattle protests continued late
into the evening last night
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with police presence
on the scene.
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Should we go?
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Can we?
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I mean,
after shift.
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No, still --
can we?Oh, you mean --
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Because we're FD.
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I mean,
is that an official policy?
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Do they have to say anything?
We know.
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Well,
it's a free country, so...
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In theory.
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But the Department's
a public entity.
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And the protests
are considered anti-police.[ Laughs ]
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'Cause asking
for our right to live
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is inherently
anti-police,
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and nobody seems to...
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realize
that's the problem.
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[ Sighs ]
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[ Telephone rings ]
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Any takers?
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Just one, so far.
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And you.
What?
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Sit.
No, I'm not --
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You're what? You're -- You're --
You're not grieving?
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You had
a happy little firehouse
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where everyone
was best friends
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and racial disparity
was not a hot topic.
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And now?Everything has changed.
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Everything and nothing.
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I know fire.
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I mean, I'm the person
that studies them for fun.
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But this fire --
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This fire
is beneath our feet.
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It's built into
every foundation --
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our history,
language, n-news coverage.
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It's everywhere.
I mean, we vent fires
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to let out
the hot smoke and gasses
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so that we can contain
the fire,
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but I don't see
how we can contain this,
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let alone
put it out.
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And growing up,
we were taught about
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Black history
and the Civil Rights movement.
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We were taught to believe
that they had beat it.
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And I think,
on some level,
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that belief
was still inside of me,
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because I didn't listen to Dean,
and I didn't listen
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to the mothers
of those kidnapped girls,
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and I am so embarrassed
saying that to you.
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Well, you were taught that
in school...
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and probably also
at home.
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And that teaching,
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it's the coal
that keeps the fire hot.
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When I was a child
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and I learned about
the Native American genocide,
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I pictured
one small village --
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one small village of men
with feathers in their hair
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who gave
the white people turkey
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and then got mad
that they wouldn't leave.
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Now,
I pictured it because
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those were the literal pictures
in my history books.
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And even though
I knew
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that my people
had been stolen from their homes
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and brought here
chained up on ships,
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somehow,
I believed that textbook.
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I was 35 years old
when I learned that in 1492,
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Columbus sailed
the ocean blue,
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and in the wake
of that,
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millions upon millions
of people
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who had been living here
for 15,000 years
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were extinguished.
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And the ones who survived
were fighting every day
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against a culture
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that still wants to pretend
they don't exist.
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We learn
when we learn.
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And the shame
we feel
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at having taken so long
to learn,
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well, that can be useful
as long as we use it well.
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Once we know better,
we have to do better.
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When I was 13,
I ran cross country and track,
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and during the off-season,
my dad would train...
261
00:10:25,276 --> 00:10:27,796
[ All panting ]...a group of us girls
who ran both.
262
00:10:27,844 --> 00:10:29,114
And he would
push us too hard,
263
00:10:29,150 --> 00:10:31,020
and when
I didn't hit a drill
264
00:10:31,065 --> 00:10:32,235
the way
he wanted me to...[ Yells indistinctly ]
265
00:10:32,283 --> 00:10:34,293
...he'd make me do it
over and over and over
266
00:10:34,329 --> 00:10:36,289
until I would collapse
on the ground.
267
00:10:36,331 --> 00:10:37,991
And my dad
would leave me there,
268
00:10:38,028 --> 00:10:39,508
and one by one,
269
00:10:39,551 --> 00:10:42,901
my team members
would lie down next to me.
270
00:10:42,946 --> 00:10:46,166
Face to the concrete,
eyes on me, silent.
271
00:10:46,210 --> 00:10:50,350
Giving me space,
but...
272
00:10:50,388 --> 00:10:52,088
also making sure
I wasn't alone.
273
00:10:52,129 --> 00:10:53,699
And my instinct
is that
274
00:10:53,740 --> 00:10:55,180
that is
what I have to do
275
00:10:55,219 --> 00:10:57,479
for the Black members
of my team --
276
00:10:57,526 --> 00:10:58,876
to quietly show up
277
00:10:58,919 --> 00:11:01,489
and let them know
that I support them.
278
00:11:01,530 --> 00:11:04,790
But I think
that instinct is wrong,
279
00:11:04,838 --> 00:11:06,798
because when my friends and I
were 13,
280
00:11:06,840 --> 00:11:08,580
we didn't have
the capacity
281
00:11:08,624 --> 00:11:11,324
to stand up against
an abusive power.
282
00:11:11,366 --> 00:11:13,186
And now I do.
283
00:11:13,237 --> 00:11:16,407
I -- I have the power
to stand up
284
00:11:16,458 --> 00:11:18,938
and say
when something is wrong.
285
00:11:18,982 --> 00:11:21,072
I mean,
I have the power
286
00:11:21,115 --> 00:11:22,985
to call out injustices
when I see them.
287
00:11:23,030 --> 00:11:25,380
I have...
288
00:11:25,423 --> 00:11:28,953
the power to make sure
that everyone can breathe.
289
00:11:28,992 --> 00:11:33,342
♪♪
290
00:11:33,388 --> 00:11:36,038
[ Sighs ]
291
00:11:36,086 --> 00:11:39,126
[ Footsteps approaching ]
292
00:11:39,176 --> 00:11:41,876
Hey.Hey.
293
00:11:41,918 --> 00:11:44,088
The protests
have really grown.
294
00:11:44,138 --> 00:11:45,568
Yeah, I saw.
295
00:11:45,617 --> 00:11:46,837
[ Inhales deeply ]
296
00:11:48,185 --> 00:11:50,055
What happened to you?
You get into a bar fight?
297
00:11:50,100 --> 00:11:52,230
[ Laughs ]
298
00:11:52,276 --> 00:11:55,886
Yeah, with an SCBA.
299
00:11:57,499 --> 00:11:59,589
You okay?Nope.
300
00:11:59,631 --> 00:12:01,331
You gonna talk
to Diane?
301
00:12:01,372 --> 00:12:02,902
I doubt it.
302
00:12:02,939 --> 00:12:04,899
[ Clears throat ]
303
00:12:04,941 --> 00:12:06,421
Yep.
304
00:12:06,464 --> 00:12:07,864
♪♪
305
00:12:07,901 --> 00:12:10,731
[ Refrigerator door opens ]
306
00:12:15,822 --> 00:12:18,002
[ Indistinct talking on TV]
307
00:12:18,041 --> 00:12:20,441
God,
look at that.
308
00:12:20,478 --> 00:12:21,918
It's just getting
309
00:12:21,958 --> 00:12:23,088
bigger
and bigger, hmm?
310
00:12:23,133 --> 00:12:24,873
Mm-hmm.
It's all over
the world.
311
00:12:24,918 --> 00:12:27,398
Almost makes you...
312
00:12:27,442 --> 00:12:28,882
hopeful?
313
00:12:28,922 --> 00:12:30,312
Take this.
[ Laughs ]
314
00:12:30,358 --> 00:12:32,268
Turn to channel 17.
315
00:12:32,316 --> 00:12:34,356
And let me get that.
316
00:12:34,405 --> 00:12:36,485
What?So you don't
throw it across the room.
317
00:12:36,538 --> 00:12:38,148
Dixon:
...the news in Minneapolis.
318
00:12:38,192 --> 00:12:40,242
We stand in support
of our communities,
319
00:12:40,281 --> 00:12:41,591
no matter their color.
320
00:12:41,630 --> 00:12:43,550
Oh, God.
Give me that coffee cup back.
321
00:12:43,588 --> 00:12:44,888
This little play-act
322
00:12:44,938 --> 00:12:46,678
has been on loop
for half an hour now,
323
00:12:46,722 --> 00:12:48,072
and these stations
are eating it up.
324
00:12:48,115 --> 00:12:50,895
Like he's some shining example
of PD valor.
325
00:12:50,944 --> 00:12:53,084
Oh, God, I just threw up
in my mouth a little bit,
326
00:12:53,120 --> 00:12:55,950
I think.Well, get ready
to throw up some more.
327
00:12:55,992 --> 00:12:59,652
As far as any question about
where this department stands
328
00:12:59,691 --> 00:13:01,871
on the issue of Black Lives...
329
00:13:01,911 --> 00:13:03,221
[ Camera shutters clicking]
330
00:13:03,260 --> 00:13:04,480
I know this little earthworm
is not gon--
331
00:13:04,522 --> 00:13:05,832
Mm.
332
00:13:05,872 --> 00:13:08,092
Oh. What?!
Yeah.
333
00:13:08,135 --> 00:13:09,955
Oh, come on.
That.
334
00:13:10,006 --> 00:13:11,826
That is why
every time I wonder
335
00:13:11,878 --> 00:13:13,748
whether to continue
with the lawsuit,
336
00:13:13,793 --> 00:13:16,143
whether it's too much...
337
00:13:16,186 --> 00:13:19,226
[ Sighs ]
...too little,
too fast, too slow.
338
00:13:19,276 --> 00:13:22,316
It's -- It's something,
at least.
339
00:13:22,366 --> 00:13:25,326
Some way
to fight against this --
340
00:13:25,369 --> 00:13:29,979
this performative, uh --
uh, hypocritical, destructive...
341
00:13:30,026 --> 00:13:31,286
Yeah.
342
00:13:31,332 --> 00:13:33,292
[ Sighs ]Yeah.
343
00:13:41,168 --> 00:13:42,598
Travis.
344
00:13:42,647 --> 00:13:44,207
Diane.
345
00:13:44,258 --> 00:13:46,958
You know, the Department
pays me no matter what,
346
00:13:47,000 --> 00:13:48,960
but, uh, there's only
347
00:13:49,002 --> 00:13:51,182
so many crossword puzzles
I can do, so...
348
00:13:51,221 --> 00:13:52,571
[ Laughs ]
349
00:13:52,614 --> 00:13:54,964
You want to talk?
Oh, no.
350
00:13:55,008 --> 00:13:56,878
I mean,
I -- I want to let
351
00:13:56,923 --> 00:13:58,403
the Black firefighters
go first.
352
00:13:58,446 --> 00:14:02,316
O-- Do you see a line
outside this door?
353
00:14:03,886 --> 00:14:06,626
I-I know
the past couple months
354
00:14:06,671 --> 00:14:08,411
can't have been easy
for you, either.
355
00:14:08,456 --> 00:14:09,846
Hate crimes
are hate crimes,
356
00:14:09,892 --> 00:14:11,202
no matter the race.
357
00:14:16,333 --> 00:14:18,683
My mom got, uh --
358
00:14:18,727 --> 00:14:20,027
Well, she was spit on
at the grocery store...
359
00:14:20,076 --> 00:14:21,336
Mm.
360
00:14:21,382 --> 00:14:23,732
...the same day that
George Floyd...
361
00:14:23,775 --> 00:14:26,295
My, uh --
my mom was leaving,
362
00:14:26,343 --> 00:14:31,393
and a crazy maskless woman
was like...
363
00:14:31,435 --> 00:14:33,125
"If this Kung Flu
is real,
364
00:14:33,176 --> 00:14:36,086
it's because of people
like her."
365
00:14:36,136 --> 00:14:38,306
The woman both
didn't believe COVID was real
366
00:14:38,355 --> 00:14:40,265
andwas blaming my mom
for it.
367
00:14:40,314 --> 00:14:45,364
♪♪
368
00:14:45,406 --> 00:14:46,836
[ Whimpers ]
369
00:14:46,886 --> 00:14:49,146
When my mom
told me,
370
00:14:49,192 --> 00:14:52,412
it actually felt like
my organs were melting.[ Sobs ]
371
00:14:52,456 --> 00:14:54,326
I was so hot with rage,
you know,
372
00:14:54,371 --> 00:14:56,331
remembering the times
when I was a kid,
373
00:14:56,373 --> 00:14:59,333
and, you know,
people would say stuff to us.
374
00:14:59,376 --> 00:15:02,156
And then,
we would just go home.
375
00:15:02,205 --> 00:15:05,205
Never to
be discussed again.
376
00:15:05,252 --> 00:15:07,692
And I -- And I didn't say
anything to anyone here about it
377
00:15:07,732 --> 00:15:10,302
because, you know,
it didn't feel appropriate.
378
00:15:10,344 --> 00:15:13,264
This giant, massive thing
was happening --
379
00:15:13,303 --> 00:15:14,573
a hate crime.
380
00:15:14,609 --> 00:15:17,959
[ Whimpering ]
381
00:15:18,004 --> 00:15:20,964
[ Sobbing ]
382
00:15:21,007 --> 00:15:23,917
An atrocity so much more brutal
and egregious.
383
00:15:23,966 --> 00:15:26,796
You know, other people
were hurting so much more.
384
00:15:26,838 --> 00:15:28,138
I'm sorry.
385
00:15:28,188 --> 00:15:29,928
I don't know why
I'm talking to you about this.
386
00:15:29,972 --> 00:15:31,712
I don't know why
I'm doing that.
387
00:15:31,756 --> 00:15:33,146
Because I'm
a Black woman,
388
00:15:33,193 --> 00:15:34,893
and my racist stuff
is "bigger"?
389
00:15:34,934 --> 00:15:36,284
Something like that.
390
00:15:36,326 --> 00:15:38,066
That doesn't work.
391
00:15:38,111 --> 00:15:39,631
It doesn't notwork.
392
00:15:41,375 --> 00:15:44,765
I know
that since COVID,
393
00:15:44,813 --> 00:15:46,683
hate crimes against
Asian Americans
394
00:15:46,728 --> 00:15:49,688
have spiked
like crazy.
395
00:15:49,731 --> 00:15:52,261
And yet, no one is talking
about it --
396
00:15:52,299 --> 00:15:53,739
no one but us.
397
00:15:53,778 --> 00:15:55,128
Not the media.
398
00:15:55,171 --> 00:15:58,131
No the --
[ Scoffs ]
399
00:15:58,174 --> 00:16:00,964
I mean,
grandmas and grandpas --
400
00:16:01,003 --> 00:16:02,793
halmoniand haraboji.
401
00:16:02,831 --> 00:16:04,831
People being shoved
into walls
402
00:16:04,876 --> 00:16:06,836
and off
subway platforms.
403
00:16:06,878 --> 00:16:09,488
You have
Filipina nurses
404
00:16:09,533 --> 00:16:10,753
who say goodbye
to their families
405
00:16:10,795 --> 00:16:12,745
and their own country
to come here
406
00:16:12,797 --> 00:16:14,497
to work the front lines
of a pandemic
407
00:16:14,538 --> 00:16:15,758
being attacked
in the streets.
408
00:16:15,800 --> 00:16:17,760
A 2-year-old
and a 6-year-old
409
00:16:17,802 --> 00:16:19,802
stabbed at
a big-box store.
410
00:16:19,848 --> 00:16:22,158
I mean, who stabs
a 2-year-old?
411
00:16:22,198 --> 00:16:25,768
And why is that
not news?
412
00:16:25,810 --> 00:16:28,940
Why are we so...
413
00:16:28,988 --> 00:16:30,248
invisible?
414
00:16:30,293 --> 00:16:32,173
I don't know.
415
00:16:32,208 --> 00:16:34,338
I -- [ Sighs ]
416
00:16:34,384 --> 00:16:35,344
I don't know.
417
00:16:35,385 --> 00:16:37,295
I don't know either!
418
00:16:39,040 --> 00:16:42,220
But how can we
even make a fuss
419
00:16:42,262 --> 00:16:46,792
when this is all it is
relative to how horrifically
420
00:16:46,831 --> 00:16:48,491
this country treats
Black people?
421
00:16:48,529 --> 00:16:51,269
I mean,
I watched that whole video,
422
00:16:51,314 --> 00:16:54,804
and in addition to the
absolute horror that I felt --
423
00:16:54,839 --> 00:16:59,019
and feel --
I also thought...
424
00:17:00,541 --> 00:17:05,151
..."What do we have
to even complain about?"
425
00:17:05,198 --> 00:17:09,898
Travis,
it's all bad.
426
00:17:09,941 --> 00:17:11,601
I know you're trying
to be generous,
427
00:17:11,638 --> 00:17:15,118
but it is all bad.
428
00:17:15,164 --> 00:17:18,914
There are no winners
in the Oppression Olympics.
429
00:17:18,950 --> 00:17:20,300
Okay?
430
00:17:20,343 --> 00:17:22,823
And it's gaslighting
if anyone tells you
431
00:17:22,867 --> 00:17:24,737
or if
you tell yourself...
432
00:17:24,781 --> 00:17:26,571
[ Sobbing ]...to be okay
with the brutalities
433
00:17:26,609 --> 00:17:28,349
being inflicted
on your community
434
00:17:28,395 --> 00:17:30,605
because worse things
are happening to another.
435
00:17:30,658 --> 00:17:32,748
♪♪
436
00:17:42,365 --> 00:17:45,015
[ Sighs ]
437
00:17:47,936 --> 00:17:49,326
She's just
trying to help.
438
00:17:49,372 --> 00:17:50,852
Okay.
439
00:17:53,202 --> 00:17:54,642
Robert --
440
00:17:54,682 --> 00:17:56,552
Look,
I'm not gonna do it, okay?
441
00:17:56,597 --> 00:17:58,287
I'm not
gonna just sit there
442
00:17:58,338 --> 00:17:59,818
and -- and perform
my pain...
443
00:17:59,861 --> 00:18:01,301
It's not --
444
00:18:01,341 --> 00:18:02,951
...so that Bishop
can feel better, alright?
445
00:18:02,994 --> 00:18:04,004
That's not -- [ Sighs ]I'm not gonna do it.
446
00:18:04,039 --> 00:18:06,609
Andy,
I just need a minute.
447
00:18:06,650 --> 00:18:07,960
[ Buckle clinks ]Okay.
448
00:18:09,958 --> 00:18:11,128
I need a minute.
449
00:18:11,177 --> 00:18:13,087
Okay. Okay.
450
00:18:19,663 --> 00:18:22,713
[ Door opens ][ Sighs ]
451
00:18:22,753 --> 00:18:24,193
You know,
it's always bothered me
452
00:18:24,233 --> 00:18:27,633
when men would suddenly
see the world differently
453
00:18:27,671 --> 00:18:28,721
after they had
a daughter.
454
00:18:28,759 --> 00:18:30,019
Like,
I always wondered
455
00:18:30,065 --> 00:18:31,675
why it took
them having a daughter
456
00:18:31,719 --> 00:18:33,589
in order
to open their eyes.
457
00:18:33,634 --> 00:18:36,164
But I guess
that's how it feels for me now.
458
00:18:36,202 --> 00:18:37,552
I'm that guy.
[ Exhales sharply ]
459
00:18:38,595 --> 00:18:41,635
The world changed
for me
460
00:18:41,685 --> 00:18:44,645
because I fell in love
with a Black man,
461
00:18:44,688 --> 00:18:47,038
and now I see
what he sees.
462
00:18:47,082 --> 00:18:50,562
You know, I -- I worry
for him every day.
463
00:18:50,607 --> 00:18:52,347
I-I've taken on
the fear
464
00:18:52,392 --> 00:18:54,392
that he doesn't
allow himself to feel.
465
00:18:54,437 --> 00:18:56,787
I -- You know,
I've always seen it
466
00:18:56,831 --> 00:18:57,831
and felt it
growing up.
467
00:18:57,875 --> 00:18:59,395
I saw my dad
go through it.
468
00:18:59,442 --> 00:19:01,882
People would call him
awful names,
469
00:19:01,923 --> 00:19:04,493
and he would --
he would just walk by,
470
00:19:04,534 --> 00:19:06,104
hold his head
up high.
471
00:19:06,145 --> 00:19:08,755
A-As a kid, people would look at
my last name,
472
00:19:08,799 --> 00:19:11,109
and they would ask me,
"Where are you really from?"
473
00:19:11,150 --> 00:19:12,850
[ Scoffs ]
474
00:19:12,890 --> 00:19:15,020
I even had teachers
who would look really surprised
475
00:19:15,066 --> 00:19:17,066
once they realized
that I was smart.
476
00:19:17,112 --> 00:19:18,462
But, you know,
mostly...
477
00:19:18,505 --> 00:19:20,025
[ Clicks tongue ]
478
00:19:20,071 --> 00:19:21,201
[ Scoffs ]
479
00:19:22,552 --> 00:19:24,472
It's okay to say it.Mostly,
I got treated okay
480
00:19:24,511 --> 00:19:26,251
because my skin
is light.
481
00:19:26,295 --> 00:19:27,945
I pass for white.
482
00:19:27,992 --> 00:19:30,562
And you feel guilty
about that?
483
00:19:30,604 --> 00:19:31,874
[ Clicks tongue ]
I --
484
00:19:31,909 --> 00:19:33,389
You know...
[ Clears throat ]
485
00:19:33,433 --> 00:19:36,223
I swear to God,
I don't even know how I feel.
486
00:19:36,262 --> 00:19:37,442
Uh,
can we walk?
487
00:19:38,742 --> 00:19:42,012
This year has been
so much -- so much.
488
00:19:42,050 --> 00:19:44,230
It's been just one thing
after another a--
489
00:19:44,270 --> 00:19:46,320
with no time
to recover.
490
00:19:46,359 --> 00:19:48,489
And that video?
[ Scoffs ]
491
00:19:48,535 --> 00:19:49,875
I feel --
492
00:19:49,927 --> 00:19:52,927
[ Stammers ]
I feel betrayed.
493
00:19:52,974 --> 00:19:55,764
I mean, j-- I know
it's always been this way,
494
00:19:55,803 --> 00:19:58,503
but I needed
to love a Black man --
495
00:19:58,545 --> 00:20:00,455
I needed to be married
to a Black man --
496
00:20:00,503 --> 00:20:02,073
in order to see
the whole picture?
497
00:20:02,113 --> 00:20:05,033
Why? Why?
Where was my call for justice?
498
00:20:05,073 --> 00:20:06,513
Like, why didn't I
see this before?
499
00:20:06,553 --> 00:20:10,213
W-- Why am I just
waking up now?
500
00:20:10,252 --> 00:20:12,432
A lot of people
are waking up now,
501
00:20:12,472 --> 00:20:15,432
and they're asking themselves
the same questions.
502
00:20:15,475 --> 00:20:17,425
And you --
you're the daughter
503
00:20:17,477 --> 00:20:19,517
of a fire captain.
504
00:20:19,566 --> 00:20:20,826
Police have been
a part of your life
505
00:20:20,871 --> 00:20:22,311
since you were
a little girl.
506
00:20:22,351 --> 00:20:24,611
Cops and firefighters
were your family.
507
00:20:26,877 --> 00:20:28,747
They would call me
Pruitita.
508
00:20:28,792 --> 00:20:30,402
It means
Little Pruitt.
509
00:20:30,446 --> 00:20:33,316
And there was this sort of
mental gymnastics going on
510
00:20:33,362 --> 00:20:36,502
where, a-as I got older,
I thought I knew
511
00:20:36,539 --> 00:20:38,279
that police brutality
was rampant.
512
00:20:38,324 --> 00:20:39,764
But at the same time,
513
00:20:39,803 --> 00:20:41,413
I didn't count the cops
that I knew personally
514
00:20:41,457 --> 00:20:42,757
into that issue.
515
00:20:42,806 --> 00:20:44,416
You know,
it was double-think.
516
00:20:44,460 --> 00:20:46,200
Like, I never stopped
and questioned
517
00:20:46,245 --> 00:20:48,635
why the good cops weren't
calling out the bad ones.
518
00:20:48,682 --> 00:20:52,432
You know, not a single one
of my dad's old police friends
519
00:20:52,468 --> 00:20:55,468
have stepped forward
to denounce the actions
520
00:20:55,515 --> 00:20:57,255
of the officers
that murdered George Floyd?
521
00:20:57,299 --> 00:21:00,559
Not a single one.
522
00:21:02,609 --> 00:21:05,529
It is my instinct
as a therapist to comfort you,
523
00:21:05,568 --> 00:21:08,088
but your comfort --
524
00:21:08,136 --> 00:21:10,086
and everyone else's
comfort --
525
00:21:10,138 --> 00:21:13,748
has been such a big part
of this problem
526
00:21:13,794 --> 00:21:14,884
for so long.
527
00:21:18,364 --> 00:21:20,764
[ Sighs ]
528
00:21:20,801 --> 00:21:24,371
[ Ringing]
529
00:21:24,413 --> 00:21:26,333
Carina: You're beautiful,
and you're brave,
530
00:21:26,372 --> 00:21:29,292
and you are --
Okay, no,
just listen.
531
00:21:29,331 --> 00:21:31,121
I want
to tell everyone
532
00:21:31,159 --> 00:21:33,639
that I support them
attending the protests.
533
00:21:33,683 --> 00:21:34,953
I want to go.
534
00:21:34,989 --> 00:21:38,079
I don't want
to silently support anymore.
535
00:21:38,122 --> 00:21:40,172
I want to scream
in the streets.
536
00:21:40,211 --> 00:21:41,871
Wonderful.
I'll join you.
537
00:21:41,909 --> 00:21:43,739
You don't understand.
538
00:21:43,780 --> 00:21:47,350
It's -- Things are bad enough
right now between 19 and PD.
539
00:21:47,393 --> 00:21:49,573
The Department
won't like it.
540
00:21:49,612 --> 00:21:51,572
Okay,
but they cannot
541
00:21:51,614 --> 00:21:54,364
officially discipline you
for it, though, right?
542
00:21:54,400 --> 00:21:56,140
No, no.
543
00:21:56,184 --> 00:21:57,364
But [sighs]
544
00:21:57,403 --> 00:21:59,843
I'm on a track,
545
00:21:59,883 --> 00:22:03,193
and if
I support this publicly --
546
00:22:03,234 --> 00:22:05,374
which everything in me
wants to do --
547
00:22:05,411 --> 00:22:07,201
it'll take me
off that track.
548
00:22:07,238 --> 00:22:10,288
Because people are setting
fires to police stations.
549
00:22:10,329 --> 00:22:13,589
Yes, and because firefighters
work with the police, okay?
550
00:22:13,636 --> 00:22:15,936
They're our brothers, too,
551
00:22:15,986 --> 00:22:17,376
and there are
some bad apples, bu--
552
00:22:17,423 --> 00:22:19,473
Okay, they keep saying that
on the news.
553
00:22:19,512 --> 00:22:21,382
The "one bad apple,"
"one bad apple."
554
00:22:21,427 --> 00:22:22,727
And I didn't understand
what it meant,
555
00:22:22,776 --> 00:22:24,206
so I looked it up,
556
00:22:24,255 --> 00:22:26,515
and one bad apple
ruins the whole barrel.
557
00:22:26,562 --> 00:22:28,042
That's the saying.
558
00:22:28,085 --> 00:22:30,305
So, after we all saw
the horrific video,
559
00:22:30,349 --> 00:22:32,179
why aren't
all the brothers --
560
00:22:32,220 --> 00:22:33,830
why aren't
all the friends --
561
00:22:33,874 --> 00:22:35,924
why isn't
every member of the police force
562
00:22:35,963 --> 00:22:38,103
in the streets
demanding systemic change?
563
00:22:38,139 --> 00:22:39,969
Why?
564
00:22:40,010 --> 00:22:42,750
Because it'll take them
off of the track.
565
00:22:44,319 --> 00:22:47,019
[ Knock on door ]
566
00:22:47,061 --> 00:22:48,981
Can I ask you
a question?
567
00:22:49,019 --> 00:22:50,369
Of course.
568
00:22:50,412 --> 00:22:52,072
How do you
become a therapist?
569
00:22:53,459 --> 00:22:56,809
I'm sorry. I'm not, uh,
often taken off-guard.
570
00:22:56,853 --> 00:22:59,903
Are you considering
a career change?
571
00:22:59,943 --> 00:23:01,423
Oh, no. No, no, no.
I mean, not now.
572
00:23:01,467 --> 00:23:03,117
I just --
It would be nice
573
00:23:03,164 --> 00:23:04,694
to have a back-up plan
that's better than
574
00:23:04,731 --> 00:23:06,251
waiting tables
at my parents' restaurant
575
00:23:06,297 --> 00:23:08,127
in case I get injured
or...
576
00:23:08,169 --> 00:23:09,649
Or what?
577
00:23:10,954 --> 00:23:14,004
Or if
I give myself permission
578
00:23:14,044 --> 00:23:15,484
to throw a brick
at a police station
579
00:23:15,524 --> 00:23:17,224
and it gets me
kicked out of FD.
580
00:23:18,527 --> 00:23:19,957
It's, uh,
four years of undergrad
581
00:23:20,007 --> 00:23:21,567
plus two years
of grad school.
582
00:23:21,617 --> 00:23:23,047
I'm only like
eight credits shy
583
00:23:23,097 --> 00:23:24,747
of my undergrad degree,
so...
584
00:23:24,794 --> 00:23:26,194
In what?
585
00:23:26,230 --> 00:23:28,190
Uh, it'll be a
Bachelor of Fine Arts.
586
00:23:28,232 --> 00:23:29,932
A Bachelor
of -- of Fine Arts?
587
00:23:29,973 --> 00:23:31,243
Yeah,
I studied musical theater.
588
00:23:31,279 --> 00:23:32,669
Wow.
589
00:23:32,715 --> 00:23:34,495
What are the classes
when you get
590
00:23:34,543 --> 00:23:35,723
a Bachelor of Fine Arts
in musical theater?
591
00:23:35,762 --> 00:23:37,242
Well, let's see.
592
00:23:37,285 --> 00:23:39,235
Uh, there's voice
and speech,
593
00:23:39,287 --> 00:23:41,157
and acting,
singing, ballet,
594
00:23:41,202 --> 00:23:42,732
and also circus skills
595
00:23:42,769 --> 00:23:46,469
like walking a tightrope
or juggling.
596
00:23:46,512 --> 00:23:48,122
And they give you a degree
for that?
597
00:23:48,165 --> 00:23:50,205
Well, they would have,
but the theater burned down,
598
00:23:50,254 --> 00:23:51,874
and my favorite teacher
didn't make it out.
599
00:23:51,908 --> 00:23:53,518
And I did make it out,
but I couldn't go back.
600
00:23:53,562 --> 00:23:55,352
I couldn't finish,
so...
601
00:23:55,390 --> 00:23:57,040
So...?
602
00:23:58,959 --> 00:24:01,089
[ Sighs ] Uh, why are we
talking about this?
603
00:24:01,135 --> 00:24:03,175
I don't know,
but if I had to guess,
604
00:24:03,224 --> 00:24:05,664
I'd say it's because
you are desperate to talk
605
00:24:05,705 --> 00:24:07,355
and think about
literally anything
606
00:24:07,402 --> 00:24:08,972
besides that video.
607
00:24:09,012 --> 00:24:11,102
Can you think
of anything...
608
00:24:11,145 --> 00:24:12,795
No.
609
00:24:19,458 --> 00:24:21,108
[ Sighs ]
610
00:24:21,155 --> 00:24:22,935
I like
to fix things.
611
00:24:22,983 --> 00:24:24,813
I see a fire
and I put it out.
612
00:24:24,854 --> 00:24:27,904
But we have been having
this same fight for so long --
613
00:24:27,944 --> 00:24:29,734
for so long.
614
00:24:29,772 --> 00:24:31,212
I mean, my grandma used to
tell me about the sit-ins
615
00:24:31,252 --> 00:24:33,252
and boycotts she used to do
in the '60s.
616
00:24:33,297 --> 00:24:34,817
And we're
how many moments
617
00:24:34,864 --> 00:24:36,914
and movements
and marches later,
618
00:24:36,953 --> 00:24:38,833
and what do we have
to show for it?
619
00:24:38,868 --> 00:24:41,038
And to see so many people
act like this is news --
620
00:24:41,088 --> 00:24:43,258
like this is just
some brand-new information
621
00:24:43,307 --> 00:24:44,787
they're just now
waking up to.
622
00:24:44,831 --> 00:24:46,751
Do you know how many
white friends
623
00:24:46,789 --> 00:24:49,789
texted me or emailed me
just out of the blue?[ Laughs ]
624
00:24:49,836 --> 00:24:51,446
Right? And everything
under this guise
625
00:24:51,490 --> 00:24:53,620
of just checking in
and just asking how I was doing.
626
00:24:53,666 --> 00:24:54,966
"How are you feeling?"
You know?
627
00:24:55,015 --> 00:24:57,795
I -- [Laughs]
I knew they meant well,
628
00:24:57,844 --> 00:25:01,594
but I also knew
what was behind it -- guilt.
629
00:25:01,630 --> 00:25:03,890
So, I -- Pbht.
I don't know, how am I feeling?
630
00:25:03,937 --> 00:25:05,847
How are you feeling?
'Cause that -- Like --[ Laughing ]
631
00:25:05,895 --> 00:25:07,455
[ Both laugh ]
632
00:25:07,506 --> 00:25:09,026
'Cause as much
as I couldn't fix this problem,
633
00:25:09,072 --> 00:25:10,552
at least
I knew it was there.
634
00:25:10,596 --> 00:25:12,286
And for a better reason
than I was just
635
00:25:12,336 --> 00:25:13,636
stuck inside my house
this time
636
00:25:13,686 --> 00:25:15,946
and I couldn't
look away.
637
00:25:15,992 --> 00:25:17,862
Yeah.
638
00:25:17,907 --> 00:25:21,427
And the way they're
talking about him already.
639
00:25:21,476 --> 00:25:23,736
Yeah.
T-T-The spin
already afoot
640
00:25:23,783 --> 00:25:25,743
by usual suspects
in the media
641
00:25:25,785 --> 00:25:29,215
trying to vilify him
rather than the murder of him.
642
00:25:29,266 --> 00:25:30,746
You kn--
You know what's almost
643
00:25:30,790 --> 00:25:32,010
equally as enraging
to me, too?
644
00:25:32,052 --> 00:25:34,882
It's the people patting
themselves on the back
645
00:25:34,924 --> 00:25:36,454
trying to
humanize him.
646
00:25:36,491 --> 00:25:38,411
It's like, you're trying
to humanize a person.
647
00:25:38,449 --> 00:25:39,759
[ Exhales sharply ]
648
00:25:39,799 --> 00:25:42,449
Do you really
have to look for proof
649
00:25:42,497 --> 00:25:43,847
that we're people,
too?
650
00:25:43,890 --> 00:25:44,980
[ Scoffs ]
Really?
651
00:25:45,021 --> 00:25:46,411
We should care
more about him
652
00:25:46,457 --> 00:25:47,977
because he was a --
a good father
653
00:25:48,024 --> 00:25:49,504
or a loving brother
654
00:25:49,548 --> 00:25:50,898
or a high-school athlete
or he's fun at a party?
655
00:25:50,940 --> 00:25:52,640
No, we -- we should
care about him
656
00:25:52,681 --> 00:25:53,861
because he was
a person.
657
00:25:55,945 --> 00:25:57,635
[ Voice breaking ]
George Floyd shouldn't have been
658
00:25:57,686 --> 00:26:00,646
treated this way
because he's a person.
659
00:26:00,689 --> 00:26:03,129
A cop...
660
00:26:05,041 --> 00:26:07,171
...should not have had his knee
on his neck
661
00:26:07,217 --> 00:26:09,737
until the last gasp of life
was choked out of him,
662
00:26:09,785 --> 00:26:11,605
because he is
a person.
663
00:26:11,657 --> 00:26:14,357
[ Sirens wailing in distance ]
664
00:26:14,398 --> 00:26:17,268
[ Screams ]
665
00:26:17,314 --> 00:26:19,494
[ Glass shatters ]
666
00:26:19,534 --> 00:26:21,584
[ Sirens continue ]
667
00:26:21,623 --> 00:26:25,933
♪♪
668
00:26:25,975 --> 00:26:27,585
[ Scoffs ]
669
00:26:27,629 --> 00:26:30,589
So, do you think I could
get into grad school, or...?
670
00:26:30,632 --> 00:26:33,332
You really gonna throw
that brick?
671
00:26:33,374 --> 00:26:35,864
[ Sirens wailing ]
672
00:26:35,898 --> 00:26:38,158
[ Glass shatters ]
673
00:26:38,205 --> 00:26:43,815
♪♪
674
00:26:43,863 --> 00:26:49,523
♪♪
675
00:26:49,564 --> 00:26:51,964
I just want
a back-up plan.
676
00:26:52,001 --> 00:26:53,701
♪♪
677
00:26:59,356 --> 00:27:01,006
[ Knock on door ]
678
00:27:02,316 --> 00:27:03,616
Diane:
♪ Little ditty
679
00:27:03,665 --> 00:27:06,185
♪ About Jack
and Diane ♪
680
00:27:06,233 --> 00:27:07,673
I'm sorry.
681
00:27:07,713 --> 00:27:09,853
I'm sure I'm not the one
you're here to talk to.
682
00:27:09,889 --> 00:27:12,149
I'm here to talk
to anyone who needs it.
683
00:27:12,195 --> 00:27:14,585
I'm afraid to talk
to anyone right now.
684
00:27:14,633 --> 00:27:16,073
Not just you --
t-to anyone.
685
00:27:16,112 --> 00:27:18,072
I'm afraid
to talk to my best friend.
686
00:27:18,114 --> 00:27:19,644
Ah, Miller.
687
00:27:20,987 --> 00:27:23,377
I'm afraid I'm gonna get
every word wrong,
688
00:27:23,424 --> 00:27:25,034
or even one word.
689
00:27:25,078 --> 00:27:26,648
Yeah, I know
I'm not a racist.
690
00:27:26,688 --> 00:27:28,208
Ohh.
I-I know that.
691
00:27:28,255 --> 00:27:31,605
You do realize that
"I'm not racist" is kind of
692
00:27:31,650 --> 00:27:34,700
the -- the club slogan
of racists?
693
00:27:34,740 --> 00:27:36,790
And that's because
we live in a culture
694
00:27:36,829 --> 00:27:38,609
built on
white supremacy,
695
00:27:38,657 --> 00:27:40,697
so the racism
is baked in.
696
00:27:40,746 --> 00:27:42,746
And we can't begin
to undo it
697
00:27:42,791 --> 00:27:43,841
until we name it
and own it.
698
00:27:43,879 --> 00:27:45,619
Okay, see,
this is exactly my point.
699
00:27:45,664 --> 00:27:47,844
You know, I'm damned if I do,
and I'm damned if I don't.
700
00:27:47,883 --> 00:27:50,363
Cops take a knee,
join the protests,
701
00:27:50,407 --> 00:27:52,017
they're called hypocrites.
702
00:27:52,061 --> 00:27:53,801
And Dixon?
He is a hypocrite.
703
00:27:53,846 --> 00:27:55,796
He is a racist.
704
00:27:55,848 --> 00:27:58,328
But it can't be that
across the board.
705
00:28:00,026 --> 00:28:02,896
Jack, you come to see me
twice a month,
706
00:28:02,942 --> 00:28:06,382
so I have to assume
that you like me, right?
707
00:28:06,423 --> 00:28:08,693
You like
that I give you tough love
708
00:28:08,730 --> 00:28:10,730
and tell it like it is
and don't pull punches?
709
00:28:12,081 --> 00:28:14,521
And you came in here today
looking for some clarity.
710
00:28:14,562 --> 00:28:16,092
So,
here it is.
711
00:28:16,129 --> 00:28:18,349
I know what you mean
712
00:28:18,392 --> 00:28:19,922
when you say
you aren't racist,
713
00:28:19,959 --> 00:28:21,179
and I believe
714
00:28:21,221 --> 00:28:24,701
that you do not have hatred
in your heart.
715
00:28:24,746 --> 00:28:28,046
But you also
aren't damned.
716
00:28:28,097 --> 00:28:29,657
Not even
in the least bit.
717
00:28:29,708 --> 00:28:33,148
You're blessed
as hell.
718
00:28:33,189 --> 00:28:35,319
I know you grew up
on the streets in the system,
719
00:28:35,365 --> 00:28:37,885
and I'm not diminishing
your hardship,
720
00:28:37,933 --> 00:28:39,763
but you are --[ Indistinct shouting ]
721
00:28:39,805 --> 00:28:41,235
Yeah, I'm privileged
because I'm white.
722
00:28:41,284 --> 00:28:42,764
I get it.
723
00:28:42,808 --> 00:28:46,378
When I was a kid --
when I was squatting --
724
00:28:46,420 --> 00:28:48,900
after that last
foster home,
725
00:28:48,944 --> 00:28:51,734
there were a few of us
who would hunker down
726
00:28:51,773 --> 00:28:54,083
to make a place
for ourselves.
727
00:28:54,123 --> 00:28:55,303
[ Sirens wailing ]You know,
to stay out of the system.
728
00:28:55,342 --> 00:28:57,692
Eventually,
the cops would find us,
729
00:28:57,736 --> 00:28:59,256
and we'd run.
730
00:28:59,302 --> 00:29:01,612
And it was scary.
731
00:29:01,652 --> 00:29:03,702
But when
I was being chased,
732
00:29:03,742 --> 00:29:06,222
not once
did I think that,
733
00:29:06,266 --> 00:29:11,136
"If he catches me,
he might kill me."
734
00:29:11,184 --> 00:29:12,794
♪♪
735
00:29:12,838 --> 00:29:14,798
I never
feared for my life.
736
00:29:14,840 --> 00:29:16,450
♪♪
737
00:29:16,493 --> 00:29:20,633
But I know
some of my friends did.
738
00:29:20,671 --> 00:29:23,071
I know
I'm privileged, Diane.
739
00:29:25,024 --> 00:29:27,374
I watched
what those cops did to Miller,
740
00:29:27,417 --> 00:29:29,327
I watched that video,
741
00:29:29,376 --> 00:29:32,336
and I want
to blow up the world.
742
00:29:32,379 --> 00:29:34,339
And?
743
00:29:34,381 --> 00:29:36,471
And...
744
00:29:36,513 --> 00:29:38,823
we're firefighters.
745
00:29:38,864 --> 00:29:42,174
We need the cops,
and they need us.
746
00:29:42,215 --> 00:29:43,995
And we can't all of a sudden
overnight decide
747
00:29:44,043 --> 00:29:45,783
that the whole institution
is evil.
748
00:29:45,827 --> 00:29:48,697
Some good guys
stayed silent,
749
00:29:48,743 --> 00:29:51,223
and that
makes them bad.
750
00:29:51,267 --> 00:29:55,527
Except, they're not
actually all bad.
751
00:29:55,576 --> 00:29:57,966
They're individuals.
752
00:29:58,013 --> 00:30:00,023
And I feel like
I'm not allowed to say that.
753
00:30:00,059 --> 00:30:04,849
I'm afraid
to say anything.
754
00:30:04,890 --> 00:30:05,720
Mm.
755
00:30:06,761 --> 00:30:08,021
[ Inhales deeply ]
756
00:30:08,067 --> 00:30:11,107
I was
a firefighter, too.
757
00:30:11,157 --> 00:30:13,987
I have
cop buddies, too.
758
00:30:14,029 --> 00:30:17,819
Our cop buddies
are not the point.
759
00:30:21,732 --> 00:30:24,392
Do you know
what the 13th Amendment did?
760
00:30:25,824 --> 00:30:27,654
Abolished slavery.
761
00:30:27,695 --> 00:30:29,995
Except as a punishment
for a crime.
762
00:30:30,045 --> 00:30:31,695
Yeah,
but that was like --
763
00:30:31,742 --> 00:30:33,012
That's still the law.
764
00:30:33,048 --> 00:30:36,528
It is still legal
to enslave Americans
765
00:30:36,573 --> 00:30:38,713
as a punishment
for a crime.
766
00:30:38,749 --> 00:30:40,799
And do you know
the statistics
767
00:30:40,839 --> 00:30:42,929
of incarcerated Black folks
in America?
768
00:30:42,971 --> 00:30:44,931
34%.
769
00:30:44,973 --> 00:30:47,543
We are 34%
of the prison population,
770
00:30:47,584 --> 00:30:51,114
but we only make up 13%
of this country's population.
771
00:30:51,153 --> 00:30:52,943
That seem right
to you?
772
00:30:52,981 --> 00:30:54,771
And you're thinking,
773
00:30:54,809 --> 00:30:57,549
"Well, that's because
more Black people are poor,
774
00:30:57,594 --> 00:30:59,214
so they have to resort
to crime.
775
00:30:59,248 --> 00:31:01,638
So they
get arrested more.
776
00:31:01,685 --> 00:31:04,465
Sucks for them, but, hey, you do
the crime, you do the time."
777
00:31:04,514 --> 00:31:07,134
But how many crimes
did you commit, Jack,
778
00:31:07,169 --> 00:31:09,219
when you were out there
on the streets?
779
00:31:10,433 --> 00:31:13,833
Did you, uh, steal to eat?
Did you run from police?
780
00:31:13,872 --> 00:31:15,792
Did you get drunk sometimes and
make a mess with your friends?
781
00:31:15,830 --> 00:31:17,610
Yeah,
all of that.
782
00:31:17,658 --> 00:31:19,008
But you never
went to prison.
783
00:31:19,051 --> 00:31:20,531
Never went to jail.
784
00:31:20,574 --> 00:31:23,014
Never had a gun
pointed at you.
785
00:31:23,055 --> 00:31:25,485
Never have a knee
put on your neck.
786
00:31:25,535 --> 00:31:28,705
When you make mistakes,
you get to learn from them.
787
00:31:28,756 --> 00:31:31,846
When people who look like me
make any kind of mistake,
788
00:31:31,890 --> 00:31:34,680
we go to prison...
or worse.
789
00:31:34,718 --> 00:31:38,418
And way too often,
no mistake is needed.
790
00:31:38,461 --> 00:31:40,861
We can laugh too loud
and they'll arrest us.
791
00:31:40,899 --> 00:31:42,339
We can put our hands
in the air,
792
00:31:42,378 --> 00:31:43,418
and they'll shoot us.
793
00:31:43,466 --> 00:31:45,206
It's not in the past.
794
00:31:45,251 --> 00:31:46,991
It's now.
It's still.
795
00:31:47,035 --> 00:31:49,255
♪♪
796
00:31:49,298 --> 00:31:52,558
And I know you don't have
hatred in your heart, Jack.
797
00:31:52,606 --> 00:31:54,556
But that's not enough
anymore.
798
00:31:54,608 --> 00:31:56,518
You have to
dig deeper.
799
00:31:56,566 --> 00:31:58,656
When you're
too uncomfortable to talk
800
00:31:58,699 --> 00:32:00,569
and you don't know
what to say?
801
00:32:00,614 --> 00:32:02,664
That's okay.
802
00:32:02,703 --> 00:32:05,183
Listen instead.
803
00:32:05,227 --> 00:32:12,837
♪♪
804
00:32:13,932 --> 00:32:16,462
[ Sighs ]
805
00:32:18,284 --> 00:32:20,424
I know.
806
00:32:20,460 --> 00:32:23,160
You want me
to talk to her.
807
00:32:23,202 --> 00:32:28,772
No, I want you to do
whatever you need to do.
808
00:32:37,477 --> 00:32:40,177
[ Footsteps retreat ]
809
00:32:46,703 --> 00:32:49,233
[ Knock on door ]
810
00:32:50,838 --> 00:32:53,148
Hey, there.Yeah?
811
00:32:53,188 --> 00:32:54,318
Is it alright
if we come in?
812
00:32:54,363 --> 00:32:56,283
You guys okay?
813
00:32:56,322 --> 00:32:57,712
You need medical attention
or anything?
814
00:32:57,758 --> 00:32:59,148
Oh, no.
I was just hoping
815
00:32:59,194 --> 00:33:01,634
someone could show my boys
around the station.
816
00:33:01,675 --> 00:33:03,415
Can we
slide down the pole?
817
00:33:03,459 --> 00:33:06,069
Sorry, but the station tours
are cancelled because of COVID.
818
00:33:06,114 --> 00:33:07,204
I'm sorry.
Aww!
819
00:33:07,246 --> 00:33:09,246
Can we go now?
820
00:33:09,291 --> 00:33:13,511
Hey, guys, um --
just, um, wait for me
821
00:33:13,556 --> 00:33:15,166
out there on the bench
for me, okay?Ugh, fine.
822
00:33:15,210 --> 00:33:16,780
I'll be right out.
823
00:33:16,820 --> 00:33:19,820
Uh, look, u-- sir,
I'm -- I'm sorry, but I...
824
00:33:23,262 --> 00:33:24,922
My kids
saw the video.
825
00:33:26,221 --> 00:33:27,571
They watched it.
826
00:33:27,614 --> 00:33:29,404
I didn't tell them
that they could,
827
00:33:29,442 --> 00:33:31,052
but it's all over
social media.
828
00:33:31,096 --> 00:33:34,006
And before I even
got home from work,
829
00:33:34,055 --> 00:33:35,795
they had watched it.
830
00:33:35,839 --> 00:33:40,059
My 11-year-old slept with
his comfort blanket last night.
831
00:33:40,105 --> 00:33:43,055
He dug it out of storage
and he hid it under his pillow.
832
00:33:43,108 --> 00:33:45,068
He thought
I didn't see it.
833
00:33:45,110 --> 00:33:48,500
He hasn't slept with that
since he was 8 years old.
834
00:33:48,548 --> 00:33:51,028
They don't understand,
835
00:33:51,072 --> 00:33:53,512
and I cannot find
any honest words
836
00:33:53,553 --> 00:33:55,083
to explain it
to them.
837
00:33:55,120 --> 00:33:58,820
But I saw your station
on the news,
838
00:33:58,862 --> 00:34:01,042
and I knew that there were
Black firefighters here.
839
00:34:01,082 --> 00:34:03,872
And I thought
that my boys should see
840
00:34:03,911 --> 00:34:07,091
good people in uniform --
people that look like them.
841
00:34:07,132 --> 00:34:10,142
So...please.
842
00:34:13,659 --> 00:34:15,179
Stand back, sir.
Please.
843
00:34:27,282 --> 00:34:28,852
You all have to sanitize,
alright?
844
00:34:28,891 --> 00:34:30,811
Come on.
Let's go.
845
00:34:30,851 --> 00:34:32,371
Hey, guys, come on!Come on, boys.
846
00:34:32,418 --> 00:34:33,328
Here you guys go.
847
00:34:40,469 --> 00:34:41,949
[ Sniffles ]
848
00:34:44,125 --> 00:34:46,075
[ Breathes deeply ]
849
00:34:46,127 --> 00:34:47,777
[ Sniffles ]
850
00:34:50,175 --> 00:34:53,305
[ Sniffles ]
851
00:34:53,351 --> 00:34:56,091
Uh -- Uh...
852
00:34:56,137 --> 00:34:58,657
[ Sighs, sniffles ]
853
00:34:58,705 --> 00:35:02,055
[ Crying, sniffling ]
854
00:35:02,100 --> 00:35:04,410
[ Breathing deeply ]
855
00:35:05,799 --> 00:35:09,499
[ Sighs ]
856
00:35:12,588 --> 00:35:14,068
[ Breathes unsteadily ]
857
00:35:18,464 --> 00:35:20,774
Thanks.
858
00:35:22,207 --> 00:35:24,027
[ Sniffles ]
859
00:35:24,078 --> 00:35:25,298
[ Breathes deeply ]
860
00:35:25,340 --> 00:35:27,430
[ Rubs hands ]
861
00:35:27,473 --> 00:35:29,653
[ Inhales deeply ]
862
00:35:33,566 --> 00:35:34,696
[ Door closes ]
863
00:35:34,741 --> 00:35:35,871
[ Exhales sharply ]
864
00:35:37,961 --> 00:35:39,921
[ Inhales deeply ]
865
00:35:39,963 --> 00:35:42,923
♪♪
866
00:35:42,966 --> 00:35:45,836
See that?[ Laughing ] Whoa!
867
00:35:45,882 --> 00:35:47,802
This is Station 19.Oh, this thing is huge!
868
00:35:47,841 --> 00:35:49,841
Awesome.Whoa, it's so --
869
00:35:49,886 --> 00:35:51,406
Firefighter, baby!Perfect, yeah.
870
00:35:51,453 --> 00:35:53,113
Does it look good on me?Of course it does, yeah!
871
00:35:53,151 --> 00:35:54,631
I'm wearing
a firefighter helmet!Whoa!
872
00:35:54,674 --> 00:35:56,204
Unh!
873
00:35:56,241 --> 00:35:57,981
Yeah, man!
874
00:35:58,025 --> 00:35:59,805
Hey! Hi!Hi!
875
00:35:59,853 --> 00:36:01,203
Oh, hey!
876
00:36:01,246 --> 00:36:02,596
Bye!Bye!
Say thank you.
877
00:36:02,638 --> 00:36:03,938
Sullivan: Come on.Thank you!
878
00:36:16,826 --> 00:36:19,086
[ Mutters indistinctly ]
879
00:36:22,267 --> 00:36:24,527
[ Sighs ]
880
00:36:29,274 --> 00:36:32,804
This one
was different.
881
00:36:32,842 --> 00:36:34,102
This wasn't
just another video
882
00:36:34,148 --> 00:36:37,238
of an innocent Black man
being shot by police.
883
00:36:37,282 --> 00:36:40,502
This wasn't an officer
making a split-second decision
884
00:36:40,546 --> 00:36:44,456
that resulted in another
Black man losing his life.
885
00:36:44,506 --> 00:36:48,246
This wasn't fight-or-flight
or panic-induced impulse
886
00:36:48,293 --> 00:36:50,823
or unconscious bias
or unnecessary escalation.
887
00:36:50,860 --> 00:36:54,080
This was the murder
of an unarmed, defenseless,
888
00:36:54,124 --> 00:36:55,744
compliant Black man
889
00:36:55,778 --> 00:36:58,478
in the middle of the street
in broad daylight.
890
00:36:58,520 --> 00:37:00,260
Right in front
of our eyes --
891
00:37:00,305 --> 00:37:02,255
all of our eyes.
892
00:37:02,307 --> 00:37:04,127
And, you know, white people
are finally realizing
893
00:37:04,178 --> 00:37:07,658
that we aren't hysterical
or beating a dead horse.
894
00:37:09,314 --> 00:37:11,324
They saw that white woman
in Central Park
895
00:37:11,359 --> 00:37:14,709
casually use a racist
police system as a weapon,
896
00:37:14,754 --> 00:37:17,714
and they're starting
to understand
897
00:37:17,757 --> 00:37:22,107
that all of it renders us
Black people terrorized.
898
00:37:22,152 --> 00:37:23,592
Hunted.
899
00:37:23,632 --> 00:37:28,162
Exhausted by
everyday life.
900
00:37:31,249 --> 00:37:33,559
And, you know,
I'm tired.
901
00:37:33,599 --> 00:37:36,169
I'm -- And I'm mad,
and I'm sad.
902
00:37:36,210 --> 00:37:40,080
And I'm tired for having to
explain why I'm mad and sad.
903
00:37:41,650 --> 00:37:44,910
I'm mad because
I have to take a magic pause
904
00:37:44,958 --> 00:37:48,568
every time I'm being tracked
by eyeballs in a store.
905
00:37:48,614 --> 00:37:52,014
Or when people who are
in life-threatening danger
906
00:37:52,052 --> 00:37:55,192
choose to take their chances
by themselves
907
00:37:55,229 --> 00:37:58,539
rather than being rescued
by a Black firefighter.
908
00:37:58,580 --> 00:38:01,020
[ Scoffs ]
909
00:38:06,240 --> 00:38:08,680
But, you know,
mostly, I'm scared.
910
00:38:08,721 --> 00:38:10,811
I'm scared.
911
00:38:12,681 --> 00:38:15,381
Because no matter
how tired I am,
912
00:38:15,423 --> 00:38:18,303
how mad I get,
how sad I get,
913
00:38:18,339 --> 00:38:22,779
there's nothing I can say
to change their minds.
914
00:38:22,822 --> 00:38:24,352
There's nothing
I can do
915
00:38:24,389 --> 00:38:28,699
that will make them see me
as a hardworking professional.
916
00:38:28,741 --> 00:38:30,741
A loving husband.
917
00:38:30,786 --> 00:38:34,746
Or just a man.
918
00:38:34,790 --> 00:38:37,660
There's nothing that prevents
something like this
919
00:38:37,706 --> 00:38:39,266
from happening
to me.
920
00:38:39,317 --> 00:38:41,407
Nothing.
921
00:38:41,449 --> 00:38:44,449
I'm scared because
I am eight minutes away
922
00:38:44,496 --> 00:38:48,196
from being another
George Floyd.
923
00:38:48,238 --> 00:38:51,198
♪♪
924
00:38:51,241 --> 00:38:53,771
[ Sighs ]
925
00:38:55,071 --> 00:38:57,251
We're a quiet bunch tonight.
[ Chuckles ]
926
00:38:57,291 --> 00:38:59,861
Look, I'm just --
I'm just glad to see your faces.
927
00:38:59,902 --> 00:39:02,082
You know,
know you're good and safe.
928
00:39:02,122 --> 00:39:04,432
Are you sure
we can't go to the protest?
929
00:39:04,472 --> 00:39:06,302
A bunch
of my friends are going.
930
00:39:06,344 --> 00:39:08,304
They're all masked
and everything.
931
00:39:08,346 --> 00:39:09,866
I'll follow your lead,
Ben.
932
00:39:09,912 --> 00:39:13,002
Another Black Trans woman
was killed today.
933
00:39:13,046 --> 00:39:15,656
Tuck --I want to march, Aunt Roz.
934
00:39:15,701 --> 00:39:17,751
I want to march for you
and for myself.
935
00:39:17,790 --> 00:39:19,140
I want to march.
936
00:39:19,182 --> 00:39:22,532
W-W-Why won't you
let us march?
937
00:39:25,493 --> 00:39:26,493
Travis: You sure?
Hey.
938
00:39:26,538 --> 00:39:27,838
It'll be great.
939
00:39:27,887 --> 00:39:29,757
I was thinking tomorrow
after shift,
940
00:39:29,802 --> 00:39:31,282
Captain Bishop
has given the all-clear
941
00:39:31,325 --> 00:39:33,145
for us
to go to a protest.
942
00:39:33,196 --> 00:39:35,456
Us?
943
00:39:35,503 --> 00:39:38,113
I'd like to go,
if you'll have me.
944
00:39:38,158 --> 00:39:39,728
Uh --
945
00:39:41,553 --> 00:39:43,423
Cool. [ Laughs ]Vic: Yeah.
946
00:39:43,468 --> 00:39:45,168
Um, but if anybody
comes at us with weapons,
947
00:39:45,208 --> 00:39:48,428
it is your job to put your body
between us and them.
948
00:39:48,473 --> 00:39:50,433
Got it.Yeah,
he's not kidding.
949
00:39:50,475 --> 00:39:51,645
I'm not kidding.
950
00:39:51,693 --> 00:39:53,653
I kinda figured,
yeah.
951
00:39:53,695 --> 00:39:56,085
Okay. [ Laughs ]
952
00:39:57,743 --> 00:40:00,093
[ Sighs ]
953
00:40:07,492 --> 00:40:10,362
[ Chuckles ]
954
00:40:12,322 --> 00:40:14,282
I was so desperate
for a promotion
955
00:40:14,324 --> 00:40:18,204
that I was gonna try and stop
Miller's lawsuit,
956
00:40:18,241 --> 00:40:21,241
which is the best shot we have
at anything changing.
957
00:40:21,288 --> 00:40:23,248
Robert...
958
00:40:23,290 --> 00:40:27,250
This demotion
has been humbling.
959
00:40:27,294 --> 00:40:28,694
It's been humbling,
960
00:40:28,730 --> 00:40:32,470
and I've had
so many dark thoughts.
961
00:40:32,517 --> 00:40:37,347
Sometimes,
I doubt my own...
962
00:40:37,391 --> 00:40:40,091
my own goodness.
963
00:40:40,133 --> 00:40:44,493
No one is just good.
964
00:40:44,529 --> 00:40:47,489
We -- We make mistakes,
and we learn from them,
965
00:40:47,532 --> 00:40:48,712
and we do better
next time.
966
00:40:48,750 --> 00:40:50,270
That's how
goodness works.
967
00:40:50,317 --> 00:40:53,487
It's not
about purity.
968
00:40:53,538 --> 00:40:57,148
It's about --
It's about growth.
969
00:40:57,193 --> 00:41:06,253
♪♪
970
00:41:07,247 --> 00:41:09,767
♪♪
971
00:41:09,815 --> 00:41:11,765
[ Laughter, chatter ][ Sighs ]
972
00:41:11,817 --> 00:41:13,167
Let's get into the car
real quick.I --
973
00:41:13,209 --> 00:41:14,559
19.
974
00:41:14,602 --> 00:41:16,562
Hopefully this goes
without saying,
975
00:41:16,604 --> 00:41:19,354
but although you have the right
to peacefully protest
976
00:41:19,389 --> 00:41:21,389
and my
wholehearted support,
977
00:41:21,435 --> 00:41:25,085
I trust that you will not engage
in any activity or action
978
00:41:25,134 --> 00:41:28,404
that will bring discredit
to you, 19, or the SFD.
979
00:41:28,442 --> 00:41:30,402
♪♪
980
00:41:30,444 --> 00:41:32,144
19.
981
00:41:32,185 --> 00:41:34,055
19.19.
19.19.
982
00:41:34,100 --> 00:41:38,670
♪ That people do when
they have known true pain ♪
983
00:41:38,713 --> 00:41:41,413
[ Indistinct conversations ]♪ What choice was he given?
984
00:41:41,455 --> 00:41:43,405
♪ In this world
that we're livin' ♪
985
00:41:43,457 --> 00:41:44,887
All:
No justice, no peace!
986
00:41:44,937 --> 00:41:46,977
♪ When I see you
987
00:41:47,026 --> 00:41:49,196
♪ I see love
988
00:41:49,245 --> 00:41:51,805
♪ I see America
989
00:41:51,857 --> 00:41:53,767
No justice, no peace!
No justice, no peace!
990
00:41:53,815 --> 00:41:56,335
♪ I feel your pain
991
00:41:56,383 --> 00:41:58,173
♪ I share your blood
992
00:41:58,211 --> 00:41:59,951
♪ And I see America
993
00:41:59,995 --> 00:42:01,865
No justice, no peace!
994
00:42:01,910 --> 00:42:03,430
No justice, no peace!
995
00:42:03,477 --> 00:42:04,907
♪ I see you
996
00:42:04,957 --> 00:42:06,257
♪ When I see you
997
00:42:06,306 --> 00:42:07,566
♪ I see love
998
00:42:07,612 --> 00:42:08,872
♪ I see love
999
00:42:08,917 --> 00:42:10,697
♪ I see America No justice, no peace!
1000
00:42:10,745 --> 00:42:12,745
No justice, no peace!
1001
00:42:23,628 --> 00:42:33,588
♪♪
1002
00:42:33,638 --> 00:42:43,598
♪♪
1003
00:42:43,648 --> 00:42:48,388
♪♪
66092
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