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♪♪
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MEREDITH: Our genes, which we
inherit from our parents,
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determine who we are biologically.
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Just a heads-up...
The owner of the cabin
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has a very strict no-phones policy,
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except in emergencies.
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I wouldn't want to upset the owner.
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- [CHUCKLES] No, you wouldn't.
- [CHUCKLES] Right?
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Wow.
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It's more amazing than you described.
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Well, the porch railing's
a little loose,
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and, you know, bears.
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But they're not inside, so...
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Okay. Hmm.
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Our blueprint.
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♪♪
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Sorry, it's just
one last e-mail to Amelia
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about the FDA.
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And then you'll be done
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- changing the world?
- Yes.
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- [CELLPHONE SWISHES]
- Done.
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[CHUCKLES]
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- Ready?
- Yeah.
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Let's go.
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MAN OVER PA: Paging
Dr. Hamilton to the Grey Center.
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Dr. Hamilton to the Grey Center.
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MEREDITH: Everything from
our eye color to our height.
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Even our laugh.
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But, also, our diseases.
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Did I miss the party invite?
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A very expensive experiment succeeded,
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which means more money, more people.
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More toys. Is this a new 3D b...
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- Don't.
- I know. Don't touch it.
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Did you see Meredith's notes?
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She said we could finish the report.
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Asthma, diabetes, cancers.
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And be done with all this?
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But who you are at your core
goes way beyond genes.
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98, 99, 100!
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- Ready or not, here I come.
- So, the sun is actually white?
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- Yeah. Weird, huh?
- Yeah.
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- And it's not even the biggest star.
- Is that true, Aunt Maggie?
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Huh?
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I'm so sorry. What was it?
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What... Ask me again.
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Well, I think you should go lay down.
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No. No.
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I took the flu medication.
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I'm gonna rally,
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and I'm gonna help with the kids.
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Well, you know I used to be
a camp counselor, right?
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I know CPR, and I've seen
every Marvel movie.
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And, you know, the whole surgeon thing.
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It's just it requires
a different kind of training.
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I'll be fine.
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Let's just get you upstairs and...
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I can't find Ellis.
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- [SIGHS]
- Oh, God.
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Yeah, okay. Here we go.
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Here we go.
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[CHUCKLES]
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You're rewriting your report
in your head, aren't you?
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I am still stuck on the part
where we explained
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why we chose to break up
the injection into four parts.
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Mm.
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When you work on something like that,
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it invades your thoughts.
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It i-invades your dreams, everything.
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It's weird.
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Two weeks ago, I wrote out
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a cellular calculation
on Zola's homework.
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Well, think how smart she looked.
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- It was a history assignment.
- Oh.
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About 15 years ago,
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I got involved in a study
on liver transplants
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with HIV-positive donors and recipients,
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and it was a lot of ups and downs
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and flying all over the country.
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And I wanted to be able
to turn my brain off
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every once in a while, so... cabin.
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It was the first big purchase
I made just for me.
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Did it work, to shut your brain off?
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The first few times I came up here,
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I got a little stir crazy.
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- Because there were no lives to save.
- Not a single one.
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So, I had to settle into the calm.
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[LAUGHS]
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Oh. What's that like?
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Takes some getting used to.
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[LAUGHS]
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- You're not very good at this, are you?
- [LAUGHS]
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No. [SNIFFLES]
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♪♪
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- Come here.
- [CHUCKLES]
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[GLASS TAPS LIGHTLY]
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♪♪
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♪♪
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I think we need to re-work
the way we tackle
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David's bowel obstruction.
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It reads like he was intentionally
trying to hide it.
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- Didn't he?
- Maybe,
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but he's already been
accused of pay-to-play.
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Putting entire responsibility on him
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would further discredit him,
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just as he's looking
to widen the project.
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So we should take the blame?
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I didn't say that, either.
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Hamilton's primary care physician
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had examined and cleared him,
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and he reported feeling fine
that morning.
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Patients with Parkinson's are at risk
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for other health conditions.
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Maybe we could have done more
on our end.
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Hamilton almost cost us
that entire surgery.
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- Why would we lie?
- We're not.
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But the goal is to further
Parkinson's research.
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Do you have to do that?
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- Walk?
- Pace.
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Fine, okay... An argument could be made
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that due to the extreme
motivation of patients
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who are seeking
this experimental surgery,
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it requires more in-depth
history and physical pre-op.
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Right, okay. Let's frame it like that.
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Thorough history-taking
and rigorous testing
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should be considered
before performing the surgery
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moving forward.
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Yeah, it doesn't point fingers,
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and it focuses on outcomes.
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And it provides value
to future surgeries.
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Mm-hmm.
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Pacing works.
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[SIGHS]
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So, are we ready to submit this?
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I think we are.
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Okay, we are...
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done.
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We are.
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My flight doesn't leave
until tomorrow morning.
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Or I could change it...
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to today.
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Or you could stay.
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You wanna come to a show?
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[DOOR OPENS]
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What the... Uncle Nick!
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Charlotte! What...
What are you doing here?
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Clearly, we had the same idea.
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[CHUCKLING] Can you give me a minute?
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Just a minute.
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♪♪
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[LAUGHS]
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Sorry.
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- Ellis!
- Ellis?
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- [DOOR CLOSES]
- Where is that girl?
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Well, she's not in the bathroom.
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- Ugh, God.
- Are you okay?
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My sinuses have just turned
into a vise around my brain.
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[SIGHS]
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Hey, doesn't she love
to hide in her closet?
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- I checked. She's not there.
- Ellis!
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How am I gonna tell Meredith
I lost one of her kids?
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We didn't lose her...
We just don't know where she is.
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Ellis!
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I can just hear Meredith now.
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"I always knew it was gonna be you."
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- I found her!
- Oop.
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Mm. Mm.
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Here I come.
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Are you okay?
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Did I win?
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[LAUGHS] Yeah, you sure did.
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- Let's play again.
- No, let's not.
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Why don't you two go get
a juice box, all right?
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And I'll be right there in a second.
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- Ugh...
- [SIGHS]
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- Hey, let me handle it.
- Mm.
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All right? You rest.
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Look how level-headed I was
during all that.
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[BOTH LAUGH]
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What is this?
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[SIGHS]
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Oh, this looks like
some of Ellis' old stuff.
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I thought Meredith had all
of this stuff put in storage.
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Can I keep this?
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I don't see why not.
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I mean, we can ask your mom.
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[GASPS] Wow.
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Wow.
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Is this for you, Aunt Maggie?
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♪♪
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[BREATHES SHARPLY]
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♪♪
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www.addic7ed.com
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- Hi.
- CHARLOTTE: Hey. [LAUGHS]
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Okay, let's try this again.
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Uh, Meredith,
this is my niece, Charlotte.
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- Charlotte, this is Dr. Meredith Grey.
- Hi, Charlotte.
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It's really nice to meet you.
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He talks about you all the time.
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Aww. Wait, Dr. Grey?
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As in the... the surgeon
that saved your kidney?
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Life. But, yes, same one.
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You forgot to mention
that she's your girlfriend.
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Well, I wanted to properly
introduce you two.
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Well, that was definitely
an introduction.
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[CHUCKLES] And, um, are you supposed
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to be dating your patients?
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He's not my patient anymore,
so it's fine.
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- Who's this?
- Oh, uh, this is Silver.
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Silver? Okay. Nice to meet you.
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You guys, uh, friends, or...
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- More like soul mates.
- "Soul mates"?
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It's like we've known
each other lifetimes.
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Eras.
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♪♪
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Long time.
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Pretty far away from school.
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You know, mid-terms.
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I'm starving.
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- I saw steak.
- I can eat.
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♪♪
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- Let's eat.
- Let's eat.
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♪♪
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Are you gonna open it?
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Well, it could be for another Margaret.
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You know, after my mom died...
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there was a fire
in my grandmother's house,
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and it burned up a good part of it,
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including the bedroom
where my brother and I kept
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a lot of our stuff in storage.
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I lost a lot of pictures and books,
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and I lost the last birthday card
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my mom had given me.
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I was devastated.
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And to this day, I still dream about...
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seeing her handwriting again.
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You don't even have to read it,
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but it's nice that you have it.
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♪♪
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♪ When I think of you,
I don't know what to do ♪
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Do you want a soda?
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A water?
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I would love a ginger ale.
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Can I get a ginger ale and Coke, please?
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[CHUCKLES]
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I spent a lot of time
in places like this
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- when I was younger.
- [CHUCKLES]
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- What was that Amelia like?
- Lucky to have survived.
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High most of the time.
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Doing things she could not
remember the next day.
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- Probably still brilliant.
- They call it high-functioning.
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Well, this Amelia
just helped a million patients
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get one step closer to a cure
for their horrible disease.
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♪ Shoot a hole into the sun ♪
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To the one who drilled the holes.
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To us.
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[INDISTINCT CHATTER]
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♪♪
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[FOOD SIZZLING LIGHTLY]
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- Are you okay?
- Yeah.
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Not exactly the night I had planned,
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but I'm still gonna make you
the perfect steak.
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00:10:04,297 --> 00:10:05,864
If Silver doesn't eat it first.
264
00:10:05,908 --> 00:10:07,475
Yes, that is true.
265
00:10:07,518 --> 00:10:09,759
A little more cheese
would go a long way.
266
00:10:12,001 --> 00:10:13,785
- So, Silver.
- SILVER: Hmm?
267
00:10:13,829 --> 00:10:15,091
- Cool name.
- Yeah.
268
00:10:15,134 --> 00:10:16,179
- Real cool.
- It feels like who I am
269
00:10:16,222 --> 00:10:17,572
in this moment, you know?
270
00:10:17,615 --> 00:10:19,225
Bright, but overlooked.
271
00:10:20,488 --> 00:10:23,360
When I first met Silver,
his name was actually Oak,
272
00:10:23,403 --> 00:10:25,188
but he's much more of a Silver now.
273
00:10:26,624 --> 00:10:28,539
I'm sorry... [STAMMERS]
Silver's not your real name?
274
00:10:28,583 --> 00:10:29,973
Oh, it is... for now. Yeah.
275
00:10:30,016 --> 00:10:31,499
Uh, we're always evolving, you know?
276
00:10:31,542 --> 00:10:33,501
So, I change my name each time I feel
277
00:10:33,544 --> 00:10:35,981
- like a different person.
- Huh.
278
00:10:36,025 --> 00:10:37,461
- Is that often?
- No more than the next person.
279
00:10:37,505 --> 00:10:38,636
[CHUCKLES]
280
00:10:38,680 --> 00:10:40,072
Mmm.
281
00:10:40,116 --> 00:10:41,334
Mmm, that's good.
282
00:10:41,765 --> 00:10:42,722
A little salty.
283
00:10:45,556 --> 00:10:46,731
Where did you two meet?
284
00:10:46,775 --> 00:10:48,428
- In the woods.
- [CHUCKLES]
285
00:10:48,472 --> 00:10:51,426
Charlotte participated in one
of my micro-dosing experiences.
286
00:10:52,084 --> 00:10:53,651
- Drugs?
- Psilocybin.
287
00:10:53,695 --> 00:10:55,174
- So, 'shrooms?
- Calm down.
288
00:10:55,218 --> 00:10:57,002
Real low doses. You don't even feel it.
289
00:10:57,046 --> 00:10:58,482
As I understand it, micro-dosing therapy
290
00:10:58,526 --> 00:10:59,918
is for people with, uh, anxiety,
291
00:10:59,962 --> 00:11:01,746
depression, substance abuse issues.
292
00:11:01,790 --> 00:11:03,772
Does that describe you, Charlotte?
293
00:11:05,228 --> 00:11:07,273
We use it to get in touch
with our shadow selves...
294
00:11:07,317 --> 00:11:10,059
The parts of us that
we're ashamed and scared of.
295
00:11:10,102 --> 00:11:11,353
Not what it's for. Meredith?
296
00:11:11,396 --> 00:11:14,150
- Yeah?
- Uh, micro-dosing therapy...
297
00:11:14,193 --> 00:11:16,413
- Know anything about it?
- I...
298
00:11:16,456 --> 00:11:19,242
- have read some of the science, sure.
- Mm-hmm.
299
00:11:19,285 --> 00:11:23,500
I'm not sure I'm as educated
on it as Silver is.
300
00:11:24,290 --> 00:11:26,385
So, are you guys in some
of the same classes, or...?
301
00:11:26,429 --> 00:11:27,773
Nope. Uh, are we ready to eat?
302
00:11:27,797 --> 00:11:28,842
SILVER: I'm not really
a college type of guy.
303
00:11:28,885 --> 00:11:30,601
I'm more of a student of life.
[CHUCKLES]
304
00:11:30,645 --> 00:11:32,560
So, as a student of life,
what do you do?
305
00:11:32,603 --> 00:11:34,039
We can learn a lot more
from traveling the world
306
00:11:34,083 --> 00:11:35,929
than sitting in a classroom.
307
00:11:36,651 --> 00:11:39,044
Okay, we're definitely ready to eat.
308
00:11:39,088 --> 00:11:40,611
Mm. [SNIFFLES]
309
00:11:40,655 --> 00:11:42,047
We plan to really
study everything around us
310
00:11:42,091 --> 00:11:43,269
in Costa Rica.
311
00:11:44,528 --> 00:11:45,921
- [CLEARS THROAT]
- NICK: I'm sorry. "Costa Rica"?
312
00:11:45,964 --> 00:11:48,271
Are you guys planning a trip
after the semester's over?
313
00:11:48,314 --> 00:11:50,360
- In two weeks.
- Is this some sort of study abroad?
314
00:11:50,403 --> 00:11:53,624
Why pay tuition when you can
just go for a few months?
315
00:11:54,081 --> 00:11:56,474
- I was gonna tell you.
- Tell me what?
316
00:11:57,497 --> 00:11:59,456
I'm leaving school.
317
00:11:59,499 --> 00:12:07,203
♪♪
318
00:12:07,246 --> 00:12:08,465
[BIRDS CHIRPING]
319
00:12:09,307 --> 00:12:10,380
[SNIFFLES]
320
00:12:10,423 --> 00:12:16,299
♪♪
321
00:12:16,342 --> 00:12:17,866
[SIGHS]
322
00:12:17,909 --> 00:12:27,658
♪♪
323
00:12:27,702 --> 00:12:29,442
ELLIS: I have to admit
that letter writing
324
00:12:29,486 --> 00:12:32,663
is my preferred form of communication.
325
00:12:32,707 --> 00:12:34,491
You're able to say what you need to say
326
00:12:34,534 --> 00:12:37,407
without rude interruption
or interference.
327
00:12:38,713 --> 00:12:41,454
"There are things I should
probably say to you, Margaret,
328
00:12:41,498 --> 00:12:44,153
and there's no time like the present.
329
00:12:44,196 --> 00:12:46,285
My recent diagnosis has forced me
330
00:12:46,329 --> 00:12:49,245
to think about my own mortality.
331
00:12:49,288 --> 00:12:50,463
The past."
332
00:12:51,504 --> 00:12:53,075
"And mistakes."
333
00:12:53,118 --> 00:12:54,946
♪♪
334
00:12:58,038 --> 00:13:00,693
"You know, I think I got
my desire to take care of people
335
00:13:00,736 --> 00:13:02,271
from my mother."I
can't believe it's you.
336
00:13:02,314 --> 00:13:04,184
"She was the quintessential housewife."
337
00:13:04,981 --> 00:13:06,722
"And everything, down to the pleats
338
00:13:06,765 --> 00:13:10,334
in my A-line skirt, had to be perfect.
339
00:13:10,378 --> 00:13:12,087
But that wasn't enough for my father.
340
00:13:12,130 --> 00:13:14,148
He slept with all of his secretaries.
341
00:13:14,191 --> 00:13:15,702
Even the married ones.
342
00:13:15,727 --> 00:13:18,469
My mother hated it, but clearly
not enough to say a word.
343
00:13:18,512 --> 00:13:21,603
But I swore I'd never become
someone's doormat."
344
00:13:21,646 --> 00:13:24,344
I would never have taken you
as the doormat type.
345
00:13:24,388 --> 00:13:26,172
I wasn't.
346
00:13:26,216 --> 00:13:27,434
Who are you?
347
00:13:27,478 --> 00:13:28,697
This letter is for my daughter.
348
00:13:28,740 --> 00:13:30,710
It's... It's...
I'm... I'm... I'm Maggie.
349
00:13:30,960 --> 00:13:32,309
Margaret. Your daughter.
350
00:13:32,352 --> 00:13:34,485
I-I am one of your daughters.
351
00:13:35,747 --> 00:13:37,634
Hmm.
352
00:13:38,184 --> 00:13:39,446
Where was I?
353
00:13:39,490 --> 00:13:40,926
[PAPER RUSTLES]
354
00:13:40,970 --> 00:13:44,669
"I swore I'd never follow
my mother's example.
355
00:13:44,713 --> 00:13:45,931
Well, that was short-lived.
356
00:13:45,975 --> 00:13:47,890
I ended up as Richard Webber's doormat.
357
00:13:47,933 --> 00:13:49,282
Oh, how I loved that man.
358
00:13:49,326 --> 00:13:51,328
Even the part of him that was married,
359
00:13:51,371 --> 00:13:54,853
because that meant I could
never end up like my mother..."
360
00:13:54,897 --> 00:13:56,507
Don't hover over me! [GASPS]
361
00:13:56,550 --> 00:13:57,682
Y-You're distracting me.
362
00:13:57,726 --> 00:13:59,597
I'm sorry, I...
363
00:13:59,641 --> 00:14:00,685
I'm s... Please.
364
00:14:00,729 --> 00:14:02,121
[BREATHES SHARPLY] Don't go.
365
00:14:02,165 --> 00:14:03,775
Please, just keep reading.
366
00:14:03,819 --> 00:14:06,865
♪♪
367
00:14:06,909 --> 00:14:08,214
[CLEARS THROAT]
368
00:14:09,128 --> 00:14:10,207
Hey. Hey, you two.
369
00:14:10,231 --> 00:14:11,565
- Hey. Why don't you come sit down...
- Give it back!
370
00:14:11,609 --> 00:14:13,132
- ...so that we can play "Connect Four"?
- Give me the bear!
371
00:14:13,176 --> 00:14:14,873
- Give me the bear!
- And we can be real quiet
372
00:14:14,917 --> 00:14:16,183
so that your Aunt Maggie
can get some sleep, okay?
373
00:14:16,207 --> 00:14:17,343
No, he's mine! Give me it!
374
00:14:17,367 --> 00:14:18,529
I'll teach you my game
strategy if you come sit down.
375
00:14:18,572 --> 00:14:19,922
- Always choose yellow...
- BAILEY: Give it back!
376
00:14:19,965 --> 00:14:21,314
...if you want to win.
377
00:14:21,358 --> 00:14:22,881
Aren't you tired yet?
378
00:14:24,013 --> 00:14:25,144
Whew.
379
00:14:25,188 --> 00:14:28,685
Were you scared when your mom died?
380
00:14:30,062 --> 00:14:31,455
- Um...
- [GLASS TAPS LIGHTLY]
381
00:14:31,498 --> 00:14:34,240
Yeah, I'm... I-I was.
382
00:14:34,284 --> 00:14:36,765
I was... I-I was a lot of things.
383
00:14:36,808 --> 00:14:39,942
I was scared when I thought
my mom was dying.
384
00:14:39,985 --> 00:14:41,770
Yeah, I was, too.
385
00:14:41,813 --> 00:14:43,728
But thankfully, she's here now.
386
00:14:43,772 --> 00:14:44,937
She's okay.
387
00:14:44,981 --> 00:14:46,731
Yeah, but I'm...
388
00:14:46,775 --> 00:14:48,602
still scared.
389
00:14:48,646 --> 00:14:50,561
Yeah, I understand that.
But you know what?
390
00:14:50,604 --> 00:14:53,172
I think all we can do...
391
00:14:53,216 --> 00:14:56,523
is try to take advantage
of the time we have now
392
00:14:56,567 --> 00:14:57,786
- with the people we love.
- BAILEY: It's mine! It's mine!
393
00:14:57,829 --> 00:14:59,613
- Give me it!
- It's mine! Stop!
394
00:14:59,657 --> 00:15:01,180
- [METAL CLATTERING]
- BAILEY: Ow!
395
00:15:01,224 --> 00:15:03,139
- WINSTON: - Oh. Uh-oh, okay.
- ZOLA: Oh, God.
396
00:15:03,182 --> 00:15:04,279
What happened?
What, what, what, what, what?
397
00:15:04,322 --> 00:15:05,271
- What happened? What happened?
- [SOBBING]
398
00:15:05,315 --> 00:15:06,664
- Oh.
- Oh, are you okay?
399
00:15:06,708 --> 00:15:08,100
Ooh, okay.
400
00:15:08,144 --> 00:15:10,102
- [BOTH SOBBING]
- Ow.
401
00:15:10,146 --> 00:15:11,234
CHARLOTTE: [CHUCKLING] I swear,
402
00:15:11,277 --> 00:15:12,278
I was gonna tell you.
403
00:15:12,322 --> 00:15:13,540
- When?
- Soon?
404
00:15:13,584 --> 00:15:14,759
I knew you were gonna do this.
405
00:15:14,803 --> 00:15:16,152
I knew you were gonna be you
and freak out.
406
00:15:16,195 --> 00:15:17,936
I'm sorry. How am I supposed
to react to the news
407
00:15:17,980 --> 00:15:19,503
you're dropping out of college?
408
00:15:19,546 --> 00:15:20,722
I'm taking time off.
409
00:15:20,765 --> 00:15:22,419
Charlotte, you have two years left.
410
00:15:22,462 --> 00:15:23,725
I want to travel now.
411
00:15:23,768 --> 00:15:26,264
You finish, then you travel the world.
That's how it works.
412
00:15:26,288 --> 00:15:27,641
The world really is the best classroom.
413
00:15:27,685 --> 00:15:29,172
Dude. Please?
414
00:15:29,215 --> 00:15:30,475
He's not entirely wrong.
415
00:15:30,519 --> 00:15:32,646
- Are you serious?
- Will you just listen?
416
00:15:32,690 --> 00:15:34,866
Silver and I want to elevate ourselves,
417
00:15:34,910 --> 00:15:37,216
and Costa Rica's all about wellness...
418
00:15:37,260 --> 00:15:38,648
I'm planning some sweet
meditation workshops.
419
00:15:38,692 --> 00:15:40,089
Man, you've got to stop talking.
420
00:15:40,132 --> 00:15:42,656
We're gonna stay in an eco-lodge
and be surrounded by nature.
421
00:15:42,700 --> 00:15:44,658
Are you hearing yourself,
or am I the only one that thinks
422
00:15:44,702 --> 00:15:45,877
this sounds ridiculous?
423
00:15:45,921 --> 00:15:47,574
Please, help me out here.
424
00:15:48,967 --> 00:15:50,926
Wow, thank you. You know what?
425
00:15:50,969 --> 00:15:53,058
- It's not your decision to make.
- How you gonna pay for it?
426
00:15:53,102 --> 00:15:55,060
I have money saved,
and we're gonna make some more
427
00:15:55,104 --> 00:15:57,106
with Silver's... workshops.
428
00:15:57,149 --> 00:15:59,761
- They're pay-what-you-can.
- That sounds about right.
429
00:15:59,804 --> 00:16:01,197
So, what happens
when you change your mind
430
00:16:01,240 --> 00:16:03,155
about the eco-lodge and your soul mate?
431
00:16:03,199 --> 00:16:05,375
You know, when Silver here
turns to Bronze.
432
00:16:05,418 --> 00:16:06,811
You're gonna be stuck
in Costa Rica with no money.
433
00:16:06,855 --> 00:16:08,326
Who you gonna call then, huh?
434
00:16:09,161 --> 00:16:10,336
Not you.
435
00:16:10,380 --> 00:16:11,983
I'm the only one you can call!
436
00:16:14,776 --> 00:16:16,647
[SILVERWARE CLATTERS LIGHTLY]
437
00:16:16,690 --> 00:16:19,003
I think this steak's Wagyu.
438
00:16:21,173 --> 00:16:23,697
- An afterlife? Really?
- You seem surprised.
439
00:16:23,741 --> 00:16:25,090
'Cause you're a neuroscientist.
440
00:16:25,134 --> 00:16:26,875
Who doesn't believe
this is all there is.
441
00:16:26,918 --> 00:16:30,269
I think that this life
is part of one long journey.
442
00:16:30,313 --> 00:16:32,445
I don't think I want
to keep living life after life.
443
00:16:32,489 --> 00:16:34,012
It sounds exhausting.
444
00:16:34,056 --> 00:16:36,188
Well, I'd like to think
we do better each time.
445
00:16:36,232 --> 00:16:39,539
So, the next one will be decent?
446
00:16:39,583 --> 00:16:40,802
Exactly.
447
00:16:40,845 --> 00:16:44,718
So, to temper your expectations...
448
00:16:44,762 --> 00:16:46,677
the band is okay.
449
00:16:46,720 --> 00:16:48,200
The vibe is good.
450
00:16:48,244 --> 00:16:50,637
I would listen to bad karaoke right now.
451
00:16:50,681 --> 00:16:52,509
- Can you watch my Coke?
- Mm-hmm.
452
00:16:53,538 --> 00:16:55,425
[DRUM SOLO PLAYS]
453
00:16:55,468 --> 00:16:57,340
[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]
454
00:16:57,383 --> 00:16:58,602
All right, guys.
455
00:17:00,256 --> 00:17:02,040
[DRUMSTICKS TAP RHYTHMICALLY]
456
00:17:02,084 --> 00:17:03,650
["TROUBLE" PLAYS]
457
00:17:03,694 --> 00:17:05,522
♪♪
458
00:17:05,565 --> 00:17:09,308
♪ You been causing me trouble
and keeping me up ♪
459
00:17:09,352 --> 00:17:11,702
♪♪
460
00:17:11,745 --> 00:17:13,835
♪ Throw your rock at my window ♪
461
00:17:13,878 --> 00:17:15,924
♪ I'm calling your bluff ♪
462
00:17:15,967 --> 00:17:17,621
♪♪
463
00:17:17,664 --> 00:17:20,972
♪ An eye for an eye
doesn't seem too unfair ♪
464
00:17:21,016 --> 00:17:24,106
- ♪ If you stare long enough ♪
- [CROWD CHEERS]
465
00:17:24,149 --> 00:17:26,891
♪ Keep your hands off my phone
and I'll leave you alone ♪
466
00:17:26,935 --> 00:17:29,546
♪ Do you miss me or what? ♪
467
00:17:29,589 --> 00:17:31,374
♪♪
468
00:17:31,417 --> 00:17:34,768
[CROWD CHEERS]
469
00:17:34,812 --> 00:17:39,730
♪ And when the night comes,
I hope I'm causin' you trouble ♪
470
00:17:40,731 --> 00:17:45,170
♪ And when the night comes,
I hope I'm keepin' you up ♪
471
00:17:45,214 --> 00:17:47,303
♪♪
472
00:17:47,346 --> 00:17:52,656
♪ And when the night comes,
I hope I'm causin' you trouble ♪
473
00:17:52,699 --> 00:17:56,268
♪ And keepin' you, and keepin' you up ♪
474
00:17:56,312 --> 00:18:02,927
♪♪
475
00:18:02,971 --> 00:18:09,542
♪♪
476
00:18:09,586 --> 00:18:11,066
[FALLING FABRIC ECHOES]
477
00:18:11,109 --> 00:18:16,506
♪♪
478
00:18:16,549 --> 00:18:18,638
[RUSTLING CLOTHES ECHO]
479
00:18:18,682 --> 00:18:20,510
[HEAVY BREATHING ECHOES]
480
00:18:20,553 --> 00:18:26,516
♪♪
481
00:18:26,559 --> 00:18:32,826
♪♪
482
00:18:32,870 --> 00:18:34,959
[DEEP BREATH ECHOES]
483
00:18:35,003 --> 00:18:41,096
♪♪
484
00:18:41,139 --> 00:18:43,098
[DEEP BREATH ECHOES]
485
00:18:43,141 --> 00:18:50,018
♪♪
486
00:18:50,061 --> 00:18:51,933
[DEEP BREATH ECHOES]
487
00:18:51,976 --> 00:18:53,586
♪♪
488
00:19:03,205 --> 00:19:05,336
I used to be Charlotte.
489
00:19:05,990 --> 00:19:09,590
I had pink hair,
traveled all over Europe.
490
00:19:10,038 --> 00:19:12,083
I had soul mates that were fun.
491
00:19:12,127 --> 00:19:13,135
[WOOD SPLINTERS]
492
00:19:15,565 --> 00:19:17,567
- That supposed to make me feel better?
- Maybe.
493
00:19:17,610 --> 00:19:19,569
I'm just saying,
things worked out okay for me.
494
00:19:19,612 --> 00:19:20,831
When I thought I was dying,
what did I ask you
495
00:19:20,874 --> 00:19:21,832
to do for Charlotte?
496
00:19:21,875 --> 00:19:23,442
To make sure she got an education.
497
00:19:23,486 --> 00:19:24,617
That's right.
498
00:19:25,792 --> 00:19:27,577
Then you should know this isn't
really up for discussion.
499
00:19:27,620 --> 00:19:28,606
Because of your sister?
500
00:19:28,630 --> 00:19:29,971
I'm not gonna talk
about my sister right now.
501
00:19:31,276 --> 00:19:34,453
If you keep trying
to control her, you...
502
00:19:34,497 --> 00:19:36,847
you will lose her.
503
00:19:36,890 --> 00:19:39,763
You have to find a way
to let her be who she is.
504
00:19:39,806 --> 00:19:42,940
That's the one thing I do know
about being a 20-year-old woman.
505
00:19:42,984 --> 00:19:44,294
It's hard. I get it.
506
00:19:44,337 --> 00:19:46,291
No, you do not get it.
507
00:19:46,335 --> 00:19:48,337
You had a mother
who was a surgical genius.
508
00:19:48,380 --> 00:19:49,729
She had a woman
who couldn't recognize her
509
00:19:49,773 --> 00:19:51,775
9 times out of 10.
510
00:19:51,818 --> 00:19:54,038
She's genetically programmed
to make huge mistakes,
511
00:19:54,082 --> 00:19:55,257
and I've spent the last 10 years trying
512
00:19:55,300 --> 00:19:56,736
to make sure that that does not happen.
513
00:19:56,780 --> 00:19:59,478
So, no, you do not get it.
514
00:19:59,522 --> 00:20:00,479
[AXE THUMPS SOFTLY]
515
00:20:00,523 --> 00:20:03,961
♪♪
516
00:20:04,005 --> 00:20:05,180
[WOOD CLATTERS]
517
00:20:05,223 --> 00:20:08,400
♪♪
518
00:20:12,451 --> 00:20:14,627
She pushed me into the fireplace.
519
00:20:14,670 --> 00:20:16,542
- Ellis!
- He pushed me first!
520
00:20:16,585 --> 00:20:18,935
- He's my bear.
- No, it's mine!
521
00:20:18,979 --> 00:20:20,633
- No, give me it! Stop!
- Give me! Ah!
522
00:20:20,676 --> 00:20:22,113
Hey, we want Aunt Maggie to stay asleep
523
00:20:22,156 --> 00:20:23,940
so she doesn't see the blood
on the carpet, okay?
524
00:20:23,984 --> 00:20:26,291
- How much blood is there?
- Barely any.
525
00:20:26,334 --> 00:20:27,901
And I told you not to run in the house.
526
00:20:27,944 --> 00:20:29,772
You always run in the house.
527
00:20:29,816 --> 00:20:31,213
You know what?
528
00:20:32,036 --> 00:20:33,994
We are gonna play emergency room.
529
00:20:34,038 --> 00:20:35,778
- Is that a game?
- Yeah.
530
00:20:35,822 --> 00:20:37,084
It's an exciting one, too.
531
00:20:37,128 --> 00:20:39,347
- Can I play?
- You're our patient.
532
00:20:39,391 --> 00:20:41,219
And, Zola, you're my resident,
533
00:20:41,262 --> 00:20:43,090
so you will assist me with the surgery.
534
00:20:43,134 --> 00:20:44,526
- Will you prepare the antiseptic?
- Mm-hmm.
535
00:20:44,570 --> 00:20:46,615
- Surgery?
- It's like a play surgery.
536
00:20:46,659 --> 00:20:48,313
You know, like, pretend.
It's make-believe.
537
00:20:48,356 --> 00:20:49,966
- It'll be fun.
- Here you go.
538
00:20:50,010 --> 00:20:51,533
Thank you, Dr. Grey-Shepherd.
539
00:20:51,577 --> 00:20:53,057
You're welcome, Dr. Ndugu.
540
00:20:53,100 --> 00:20:54,101
We're going to clean the cut first,
541
00:20:54,145 --> 00:20:55,885
and then we're going to apply gauze
542
00:20:55,929 --> 00:20:57,713
to protect the skin
and help with healing.
543
00:21:00,794 --> 00:21:02,491
[HUMMING "HUSH, LITTLE BABY"]
544
00:21:02,516 --> 00:21:07,477
♪♪
545
00:21:07,640 --> 00:21:11,035
♪ Hush, little baby, don't say a word ♪
[MAGGIE BREATHING SHARPLY]
546
00:21:11,118 --> 00:21:13,947
♪ Papa's gonna buy you a mockingbird ♪
547
00:21:13,990 --> 00:21:16,863
- Did you ever think about me?
- ♪ And if that mockingbird don't sing ♪
548
00:21:16,906 --> 00:21:18,473
Or did you ever try to contact me...
549
00:21:18,517 --> 00:21:20,432
...or want to contact me?
550
00:21:20,475 --> 00:21:23,609
♪ And if that diamond ring Stop singing,
please. ♪
551
00:21:23,652 --> 00:21:25,045
"I used to be so unsure of myself.
552
00:21:25,089 --> 00:21:26,916
I constantly listened
to everyone else...
553
00:21:26,960 --> 00:21:28,962
Advisors, attendings,
even other residents...
554
00:21:29,005 --> 00:21:31,225
But I never listened
to the voice inside.
555
00:21:31,269 --> 00:21:33,314
To what I wanted."
Is that why you gave me up?
556
00:21:33,358 --> 00:21:35,403
"I didn't even want to go
into general surgery initially.
557
00:21:35,447 --> 00:21:38,450
I wanted to do cardio,
but I talked myself out of it.
558
00:21:38,493 --> 00:21:39,842
I forced myself out of it."
559
00:21:39,886 --> 00:21:41,453
You wanted to go into cardio?
560
00:21:41,496 --> 00:21:42,715
"I would have been extraordinary."
561
00:21:42,758 --> 00:21:44,543
I am extraordinary!
562
00:21:44,586 --> 00:21:45,892
I went into cardio.
563
00:21:45,935 --> 00:21:46,950
Ellis, is that because of you?
564
00:21:46,994 --> 00:21:48,764
How should I know?
565
00:21:48,808 --> 00:21:50,084
Because...
566
00:21:50,636 --> 00:21:52,290
I a-am your daughter.
567
00:21:52,333 --> 00:21:53,334
I...
568
00:21:54,335 --> 00:21:55,771
Please, look at me! Please!
569
00:21:55,815 --> 00:21:57,701
Please! See me! Please!
570
00:21:57,744 --> 00:21:58,948
"Regrets are useless, though.
571
00:21:58,992 --> 00:22:00,254
They make you weak.
572
00:22:00,298 --> 00:22:02,387
Always pining for something
out of your control.
573
00:22:02,430 --> 00:22:04,084
That's why I became
a remarkable surgeon...
574
00:22:04,128 --> 00:22:06,173
Because I never let the inconsequential
575
00:22:06,217 --> 00:22:07,218
get in my way."
576
00:22:07,261 --> 00:22:08,654
[SCOFFS]
577
00:22:08,697 --> 00:22:09,959
I was inconsequential?
578
00:22:10,003 --> 00:22:11,981
Margaret, would you stop interrupting?
579
00:22:14,964 --> 00:22:16,444
[HUMMING "HUSH, LITTLE BABY"]
580
00:22:16,488 --> 00:22:18,577
♪♪
581
00:22:18,620 --> 00:22:19,665
[EXHALES SHARPLY]
582
00:22:19,708 --> 00:22:21,145
[DOOR CREAKS LIGHTLY]
583
00:22:24,496 --> 00:22:26,280
[SNORING SOFTLY]
584
00:22:31,329 --> 00:22:33,157
[DOOR CLOSES]
585
00:22:34,636 --> 00:22:37,639
Your sister's kids are cute.
KAI: Yeah, they're adorable.
586
00:22:37,683 --> 00:22:38,988
PB&J?
587
00:22:39,032 --> 00:22:40,338
- Yeah!
- [CHUCKLES]
588
00:22:42,383 --> 00:22:46,474
Did you ever feel
the kid and marriage pressure?
589
00:22:46,518 --> 00:22:49,347
Mm, my grandmother guilts me
every Thanksgiving.
590
00:22:49,390 --> 00:22:50,826
She's not getting any younger.
591
00:22:50,870 --> 00:22:51,958
Mm.
592
00:22:52,001 --> 00:22:54,090
So, plants?
593
00:22:54,134 --> 00:22:55,353
Yeah, mm-hmm.
594
00:22:55,396 --> 00:22:57,359
This is Ringo.
595
00:22:58,252 --> 00:22:59,340
Makes sense.
596
00:22:59,365 --> 00:23:01,497
[CHUCKLES] And this is Janis.
597
00:23:01,620 --> 00:23:03,796
- Mm-hmm.
- Mm-hmm.
598
00:23:03,839 --> 00:23:05,624
And that is Tina.
599
00:23:05,667 --> 00:23:07,713
[CHUCKLES]
600
00:23:07,756 --> 00:23:09,845
I actually love kids.
601
00:23:09,889 --> 00:23:11,195
So much that I don't want any.
602
00:23:14,502 --> 00:23:17,592
Being a parent is hard, as you know.
603
00:23:17,636 --> 00:23:18,593
Don't touch.
604
00:23:18,637 --> 00:23:19,855
You are responsible
605
00:23:19,899 --> 00:23:21,248
for another person's everything.
606
00:23:21,292 --> 00:23:23,250
Shaping their perspective and worldview.
607
00:23:23,294 --> 00:23:24,556
Trying to keep them alive
608
00:23:24,599 --> 00:23:26,645
and help them be a decent human being.
609
00:23:26,688 --> 00:23:28,386
All the while,
figuring out your own stuff.
610
00:23:29,561 --> 00:23:31,477
Well, yeah.
611
00:23:31,998 --> 00:23:33,347
But there's a lot of love
612
00:23:33,391 --> 00:23:35,741
that kind of comes in
to balance all of that.
613
00:23:35,784 --> 00:23:37,438
I love.
614
00:23:37,482 --> 00:23:40,236
I love my plants.
615
00:23:49,842 --> 00:23:52,627
[REFRIGERATOR DOOR OPENS, CLOSES]
616
00:23:52,671 --> 00:23:53,889
- Oh, hi.
- Oh, sorry.
617
00:23:53,933 --> 00:23:54,934
I thought Silver was in here.
618
00:23:54,977 --> 00:23:56,892
No, he went outside, I think.
619
00:23:56,936 --> 00:23:58,329
He said something
about needing a "pipe."
620
00:23:59,591 --> 00:24:02,681
Um, look, I know we just met,
621
00:24:02,724 --> 00:24:05,379
but, uh, would you mind
talking to my uncle for me?
622
00:24:05,423 --> 00:24:07,425
Since you've probably got
some sway with him right now.
623
00:24:07,468 --> 00:24:10,645
Charlotte, you remind me
so much of myself.
624
00:24:11,844 --> 00:24:13,976
Except you're a lot braver than I was.
625
00:24:15,607 --> 00:24:18,436
I thought I was rebelling
against my mother.
626
00:24:18,479 --> 00:24:19,741
In actuality, I was doing
627
00:24:19,785 --> 00:24:21,944
exactly what she wanted me to do.
628
00:24:22,396 --> 00:24:23,919
I'm not rebelling.
629
00:24:24,964 --> 00:24:26,835
- Are you sure?
- Yes.
630
00:24:26,879 --> 00:24:28,141
Yeah, I'm sure.
631
00:24:28,184 --> 00:24:29,621
I just... I don't know.
632
00:24:29,664 --> 00:24:32,496
I want something new, different.
633
00:24:33,451 --> 00:24:34,754
Change.
634
00:24:34,798 --> 00:24:36,062
- Yeah.
- Yeah.
635
00:24:36,105 --> 00:24:37,933
The last two years
were not what I expected,
636
00:24:37,977 --> 00:24:39,848
and I've been thinking about, you know,
637
00:24:39,892 --> 00:24:41,067
the way I want to live my life,
638
00:24:41,110 --> 00:24:43,809
and maybe it's not like other people
639
00:24:43,852 --> 00:24:46,464
or like how my uncle wants me to.
640
00:24:46,507 --> 00:24:48,117
- You know he means well.
- [SIGHS]
641
00:24:48,161 --> 00:24:50,337
He is so worried
about me becoming my mother
642
00:24:50,381 --> 00:24:53,775
that he doesn't see, you know,
who I'm actually becoming.
643
00:24:53,819 --> 00:24:56,343
♪♪
644
00:24:56,387 --> 00:24:58,911
Very hard to live outside
the shadow of your parents.
645
00:24:58,954 --> 00:25:00,347
Yeah, well, he's making it harder.
646
00:25:00,391 --> 00:25:03,176
It's always been his way or no way.
647
00:25:03,219 --> 00:25:05,178
You'll see that... Eventually.
648
00:25:05,221 --> 00:25:06,222
♪♪
649
00:25:06,266 --> 00:25:07,354
[DOOR CREAKS OPEN SOFTLY]
650
00:25:07,398 --> 00:25:08,573
Will you talk to him?
651
00:25:08,616 --> 00:25:10,357
♪♪
652
00:25:10,401 --> 00:25:11,402
[DOOR CLOSES]
653
00:25:12,316 --> 00:25:13,534
You can.
654
00:25:14,230 --> 00:25:15,580
You can.
655
00:25:15,623 --> 00:25:23,152
♪♪
656
00:25:23,196 --> 00:25:26,800
"I stopped doing what was
expected of me after Richard.
657
00:25:26,983 --> 00:25:30,857
I started doing what was best
for me, and only me."
658
00:25:30,882 --> 00:25:33,102
Now, I'm not judging you
for giving me up.
659
00:25:33,249 --> 00:25:34,555
I just feel like you're ashamed of me.
660
00:25:34,599 --> 00:25:35,991
I'm the child of an affair
661
00:25:36,035 --> 00:25:38,646
with a married man
who didn't choose you.
662
00:25:40,387 --> 00:25:41,780
Tell me I'm wrong.
663
00:25:41,823 --> 00:25:43,347
"The first time I met Bill and Diane,
664
00:25:43,390 --> 00:25:45,392
I was so nervous
that they would judge me.
665
00:25:45,436 --> 00:25:46,654
But it was nothing like that.
666
00:25:46,698 --> 00:25:49,265
They we really kind,
loving, hardworking people
667
00:25:49,309 --> 00:25:51,572
who really wanted a child."
668
00:25:51,616 --> 00:25:53,487
You chose my parents?
669
00:25:53,531 --> 00:25:56,055
"I knew you were going to be
in good hands.
670
00:25:56,098 --> 00:25:57,535
They were my first choice.
671
00:25:57,578 --> 00:25:59,145
I just knew."
672
00:26:00,712 --> 00:26:02,453
"They asked if I wanted
the occasional update
673
00:26:02,496 --> 00:26:04,019
about how you were doing."
674
00:26:04,063 --> 00:26:06,413
- They did?
- "Of course, I declined."
675
00:26:06,457 --> 00:26:08,328
- You declined?
- Hmm.
676
00:26:08,372 --> 00:26:10,591
I'm not a dinner invitation, Ellis.
677
00:26:10,635 --> 00:26:12,376
♪♪
678
00:26:12,419 --> 00:26:13,768
[BREATHES SHARPLY]
679
00:26:13,812 --> 00:26:15,006
You declined?
680
00:26:15,049 --> 00:26:17,642
You weren't the least bit
curious about me?
681
00:26:17,685 --> 00:26:19,078
You're the one who thinks
that everything you touch
682
00:26:19,121 --> 00:26:20,427
is extraordinary.
683
00:26:20,471 --> 00:26:21,994
Didn't want to see if I fit the bill?
684
00:26:22,037 --> 00:26:24,257
No, no, no. Look at me, Ellis.
685
00:26:24,300 --> 00:26:26,607
You don't get to avoid me now.
686
00:26:26,651 --> 00:26:28,261
- Look at me!
- What do you want me to say?!
687
00:26:28,304 --> 00:26:29,654
That I wish it was different?
688
00:26:29,697 --> 00:26:32,439
That I wish that you
and Meredith and me and Richard
689
00:26:32,483 --> 00:26:34,615
could have been one big, happy family?
690
00:26:34,659 --> 00:26:35,747
Well, that was a childish fantasy.
691
00:26:35,790 --> 00:26:37,226
It was never gonna happen!
692
00:26:37,270 --> 00:26:38,837
I... I'm here.
693
00:26:38,880 --> 00:26:42,144
Living every day in the shadow
of the great Ellis Grey.
694
00:26:42,188 --> 00:26:44,233
Her living and breathing
and walking and talking mistake,
695
00:26:44,277 --> 00:26:46,279
the one who wasn't
good enough to be approved.
696
00:26:46,322 --> 00:26:48,063
You don't know how hard it was for me.
697
00:26:48,107 --> 00:26:50,631
But I picked up the pieces,
and I moved on.
698
00:26:50,675 --> 00:26:52,459
And I did it... On my own.
699
00:26:52,503 --> 00:26:54,766
And I spent every day
700
00:26:54,809 --> 00:26:56,332
wondering why I wasn't worthy.
701
00:26:56,376 --> 00:26:58,073
Didn't you ever think about
how I might feel?
702
00:26:58,117 --> 00:27:00,150
I made a decision, and I stood by it.
703
00:27:00,194 --> 00:27:02,774
That decision not to see you
I do not regret one bit.
704
00:27:02,817 --> 00:27:05,341
That decision I am proud of!
705
00:27:05,385 --> 00:27:07,300
[SCREAMS]
706
00:27:07,343 --> 00:27:09,084
[BREATHING HEAVILY]
707
00:27:09,128 --> 00:27:10,738
♪♪
708
00:27:10,782 --> 00:27:12,436
[SIGHS]
709
00:27:12,479 --> 00:27:14,307
[CRYING]
710
00:27:14,350 --> 00:27:15,961
♪♪
711
00:27:16,004 --> 00:27:18,659
[RUNNING FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING]
712
00:27:18,703 --> 00:27:20,732
- [DOOR OPENS]
- Baby, hey.
713
00:27:20,775 --> 00:27:21,880
What happened? What's going on?
714
00:27:21,923 --> 00:27:22,837
- Are you okay?
- [EXHALES SHARPLY]
715
00:27:22,881 --> 00:27:24,835
That woman...
716
00:27:25,536 --> 00:27:28,016
She's awful. She...
717
00:27:28,060 --> 00:27:29,583
[EXHALES SHARPLY] She was exactly
718
00:27:29,627 --> 00:27:31,716
how Meredith described her.
719
00:27:31,759 --> 00:27:33,457
I don't think I'm gonna
finish the letter.
720
00:27:34,929 --> 00:27:36,191
Then don't.
721
00:27:37,428 --> 00:27:39,141
And know that...
722
00:27:39,985 --> 00:27:42,509
whatever it says does not change
723
00:27:42,553 --> 00:27:44,337
the amazing person that you are.
724
00:27:46,992 --> 00:27:49,124
I know. [INHALES SHARPLY]
725
00:27:49,168 --> 00:27:50,343
Okay.
726
00:27:51,268 --> 00:27:53,519
I just wish I didn't
need her to know that.
727
00:27:53,564 --> 00:27:56,349
♪♪
728
00:27:56,392 --> 00:27:58,133
Come here.
729
00:27:58,177 --> 00:28:00,266
♪♪
730
00:28:02,954 --> 00:28:05,348
Finishing school is gonna
give you more options.
731
00:28:05,391 --> 00:28:06,827
It's something most people do not have.
732
00:28:06,871 --> 00:28:08,394
Most people... You're talking about Mom?
733
00:28:08,438 --> 00:28:10,280
Yes. Your mom could have had options,
734
00:28:10,304 --> 00:28:11,461
but she threw them all away.
735
00:28:11,505 --> 00:28:14,339
She made the same mistake
over and over and over again.
736
00:28:14,364 --> 00:28:16,314
- I know. I was there.
- Then act like it!
737
00:28:16,358 --> 00:28:18,175
I'm not her! Oh, my...
738
00:28:18,199 --> 00:28:19,325
Wait, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
Please, stop.
739
00:28:19,369 --> 00:28:20,239
Stop, stop, stop, stop, stop. No, no.
740
00:28:20,283 --> 00:28:23,155
Stop, stop, stop. I-I-I...
741
00:28:23,199 --> 00:28:25,871
Look, I just want
what's best for you, okay?
742
00:28:25,896 --> 00:28:27,376
Based on what you want, not what I want.
743
00:28:27,419 --> 00:28:29,247
No, based on a lot of life experience.
744
00:28:29,291 --> 00:28:30,814
You know, most people aren't like you.
745
00:28:30,858 --> 00:28:32,903
Not everyone wakes up one day
and immediately knows
746
00:28:32,947 --> 00:28:34,992
what they want to do.
747
00:28:35,036 --> 00:28:37,991
I need to figure
some stuff out by myself.
748
00:28:38,953 --> 00:28:40,911
Why can't that be okay?
749
00:28:42,286 --> 00:28:43,766
I just...
750
00:28:46,208 --> 00:28:48,571
I don't want you to have to struggle.
751
00:28:48,614 --> 00:28:50,486
Will you give yourself some more credit?
752
00:28:50,529 --> 00:28:52,967
Have you ever had
to bail me out of jail?
753
00:28:53,010 --> 00:28:55,404
Or, like, pick me up
off the side of the road?
754
00:28:55,447 --> 00:28:58,276
Or... I don't know,
take pills out of my hand?
755
00:28:58,320 --> 00:29:00,389
- No.
- Because you did your job.
756
00:29:01,627 --> 00:29:04,282
I'm okay, and it's because of you
757
00:29:04,326 --> 00:29:07,604
that I can even think
about traveling the world.
758
00:29:09,766 --> 00:29:13,527
I will go back to school. I promise.
759
00:29:14,640 --> 00:29:16,164
CHARLOTTE: I'll make sure
that I have options.
760
00:29:16,207 --> 00:29:17,687
But in order for me to do that,
761
00:29:17,730 --> 00:29:21,952
you have to stop trying
to dictate my every move.
762
00:29:21,996 --> 00:29:24,172
You have to let me mess up
763
00:29:24,215 --> 00:29:26,609
and, like, change my mind a few times.
764
00:29:26,652 --> 00:29:28,959
♪♪
765
00:29:29,003 --> 00:29:31,222
- And if I do drugs...
- [SCOFFS] Charlotte.
766
00:29:31,266 --> 00:29:34,747
...they will be plant-based, okay?
767
00:29:34,791 --> 00:29:36,358
So calm down.
768
00:29:36,401 --> 00:29:37,968
[CHUCKLES]
769
00:29:38,012 --> 00:29:39,665
[SIGHS]
770
00:29:39,709 --> 00:29:45,149
♪♪
771
00:29:45,193 --> 00:29:50,633
♪♪
772
00:29:50,676 --> 00:29:52,330
[INSECTS CHIRPING IN DISTANCE]
773
00:29:53,810 --> 00:29:56,160
[SNORING SOFTLY]
774
00:30:01,861 --> 00:30:10,783
♪♪
775
00:30:10,827 --> 00:30:12,350
ELLIS: "I do have one regret."
776
00:30:12,394 --> 00:30:14,004
[SIGHS]
777
00:30:14,048 --> 00:30:15,571
Please, go.
778
00:30:15,614 --> 00:30:18,052
"I do wish that you
and Meredith could have met.
779
00:30:18,095 --> 00:30:20,010
She could have used a sister.
780
00:30:20,619 --> 00:30:22,056
She's so much like me.
781
00:30:22,099 --> 00:30:24,406
Stubborn, singular-focused.
782
00:30:24,449 --> 00:30:27,148
I have a feeling you would have
been a good influence on her."
783
00:30:27,191 --> 00:30:28,366
♪♪
784
00:30:28,410 --> 00:30:30,281
True sisters.
785
00:30:30,325 --> 00:30:32,588
♪♪
786
00:30:32,918 --> 00:30:34,355
We are.
787
00:30:35,939 --> 00:30:38,681
I wasn't the best mother to Meredith.
788
00:30:38,724 --> 00:30:40,248
I had high expectations
789
00:30:40,291 --> 00:30:42,119
which she couldn't always reach.
790
00:30:42,163 --> 00:30:45,035
♪♪
791
00:30:45,079 --> 00:30:48,082
But I did my best with you,
792
00:30:48,538 --> 00:30:50,562
by giving you away.
793
00:30:51,124 --> 00:30:53,522
I knew you would be better off
with Bill and Diane.
794
00:30:53,565 --> 00:30:54,914
♪♪
795
00:30:54,958 --> 00:30:56,481
I was.
796
00:30:56,525 --> 00:31:04,533
♪♪
797
00:31:04,576 --> 00:31:12,671
♪♪
798
00:31:12,715 --> 00:31:16,762
♪♪
799
00:31:16,806 --> 00:31:19,678
Hey, my baby.
800
00:31:19,722 --> 00:31:21,289
- [EXHALES SHARPLY]
- [CHUCKLES]
801
00:31:21,332 --> 00:31:22,942
Mom!
802
00:31:22,986 --> 00:31:25,206
[BREATHES SHARPLY]
803
00:31:25,249 --> 00:31:27,295
[SIGHS]
804
00:31:27,338 --> 00:31:28,557
Okay.
805
00:31:28,600 --> 00:31:32,039
[BREATHES DEEPLY]
806
00:31:32,082 --> 00:31:35,129
♪♪
807
00:31:35,172 --> 00:31:37,087
[BREATHES SHARPLY]
808
00:31:37,131 --> 00:31:38,262
♪♪
809
00:31:38,306 --> 00:31:40,351
[SNIFFLES]
810
00:31:40,395 --> 00:31:41,918
[EXHALES SHARPLY]
811
00:31:41,961 --> 00:31:46,357
♪♪
812
00:31:46,401 --> 00:31:48,794
[MELLOW TUNE PLAYS ON GUITAR]
813
00:31:48,838 --> 00:31:51,667
♪♪
814
00:31:51,710 --> 00:31:54,061
AMELIA: When did you get into music?
815
00:31:54,104 --> 00:31:55,497
- A few years ago.
- Really?
816
00:31:55,540 --> 00:31:57,194
You looked like you'd been
playing since you were a kid.
817
00:31:57,238 --> 00:31:58,195
[CHUCKLES]
818
00:31:58,239 --> 00:32:00,458
It started as a dare, actually.
819
00:32:00,502 --> 00:32:02,565
My friend took me to an Open Mic Night,
820
00:32:02,609 --> 00:32:05,072
certain it would cure
my hatred of public speaking.
821
00:32:05,115 --> 00:32:06,551
Didn't work. [CHUCKLES]
822
00:32:06,595 --> 00:32:07,857
[CHUCKLING] Clearly.
823
00:32:07,900 --> 00:32:10,512
No, still hate it,
but performing is different.
824
00:32:10,555 --> 00:32:12,992
It's like this deep part of myself
825
00:32:13,036 --> 00:32:16,300
that doesn't get to come out often...
826
00:32:16,344 --> 00:32:19,042
gets to be a rock star.
827
00:32:19,086 --> 00:32:20,957
You're real carefree on stage.
828
00:32:21,000 --> 00:32:22,741
I am.
829
00:32:22,785 --> 00:32:24,308
And self-assured.
830
00:32:24,352 --> 00:32:26,397
♪♪
831
00:32:26,441 --> 00:32:29,096
Just when I feel like
I'm figuring my stuff out...
832
00:32:29,139 --> 00:32:31,446
- [GROANS]
- ...life lifes.
833
00:32:31,489 --> 00:32:33,752
Why do you pretend like
you're not a rock star yourself?
834
00:32:33,796 --> 00:32:36,233
♪♪
835
00:32:36,277 --> 00:32:38,627
Thank you for flattering me.
836
00:32:38,670 --> 00:32:40,411
No, I-I'm wondering.
837
00:32:40,455 --> 00:32:42,544
Why do you self-deprecate?
838
00:32:42,587 --> 00:32:43,980
You're more than that.
839
00:32:44,023 --> 00:32:46,069
[SIREN WAILS IN DISTANCE]
840
00:32:49,290 --> 00:32:50,943
[CHUCKLES]
841
00:32:52,162 --> 00:32:53,859
I don't know.
842
00:32:53,903 --> 00:32:55,665
I guess...
843
00:32:56,340 --> 00:32:59,213
it's kind of become my shield of armor.
844
00:32:59,256 --> 00:33:00,518
Protection.
845
00:33:00,562 --> 00:33:02,129
From what?
846
00:33:03,782 --> 00:33:06,134
From fully loving every part of me.
847
00:33:07,264 --> 00:33:10,138
'Cause if I do, then...
848
00:33:11,399 --> 00:33:13,618
I deserve a love that does the same.
849
00:33:13,662 --> 00:33:16,230
It took me a long time
to embrace all of who I am.
850
00:33:16,273 --> 00:33:19,668
So, outside love is like icing.
851
00:33:19,711 --> 00:33:23,454
♪♪
852
00:33:23,498 --> 00:33:27,284
I don't even think
I know all of who I am.
853
00:33:27,328 --> 00:33:31,070
Well, I'm excited to get to know
all of who you are.
854
00:33:31,114 --> 00:33:35,886
♪♪
855
00:33:35,929 --> 00:33:37,223
Me, too.
856
00:33:37,267 --> 00:33:41,255
♪♪
857
00:33:41,478 --> 00:33:43,001
You sure you two don't wanna come?
858
00:33:43,045 --> 00:33:44,916
Should be a sick full moon ceremony.
859
00:33:44,960 --> 00:33:46,309
Meredith? Sick full moon?
860
00:33:46,353 --> 00:33:47,702
- I'm good.
- We'll pass.
861
00:33:47,745 --> 00:33:49,051
It was nice meeting you.
862
00:33:49,094 --> 00:33:50,705
I'm glad my uncle has
someone else to worry about.
863
00:33:50,748 --> 00:33:52,750
Have a great time in Costa Rica.
864
00:33:52,794 --> 00:33:53,890
We will.
865
00:33:54,970 --> 00:33:57,015
- So, next weekend, yes?
- Yes, yes, yes.
866
00:33:57,059 --> 00:33:58,974
I will come, and I'll give you
all the deets about our trip.
867
00:33:59,017 --> 00:34:01,280
You know, coordinates, flights,
the trees I'll be touching.
868
00:34:01,324 --> 00:34:03,275
[CHUCKLING] Okay. Goodbye.
869
00:34:06,373 --> 00:34:08,113
[SIGHS]
870
00:34:13,554 --> 00:34:16,905
I'm sorry our weekend got ruined.
871
00:34:16,948 --> 00:34:19,473
No, these are our lives.
872
00:34:19,516 --> 00:34:21,213
There's no need to apologize for them.
873
00:34:22,171 --> 00:34:23,390
[EXHALES SHARPLY]
874
00:34:28,537 --> 00:34:30,278
I'm not used to help.
875
00:34:31,180 --> 00:34:32,399
Someone else's opinion.
876
00:34:32,442 --> 00:34:33,922
Well, if you know anything about me,
877
00:34:33,965 --> 00:34:35,445
you'll have to get used to it.
878
00:34:35,489 --> 00:34:36,664
Well, yeah, that's not easy for me.
879
00:34:36,707 --> 00:34:38,013
I mean, how would you feel
if I was trying
880
00:34:38,056 --> 00:34:39,536
to give you help
when it comes to your sisters?
881
00:34:39,580 --> 00:34:41,016
I wouldn't like it,
882
00:34:41,059 --> 00:34:42,800
and I would tell you you were wrong.
883
00:34:42,844 --> 00:34:45,317
Well, then, we're gonna
have to get used to it.
884
00:34:49,851 --> 00:34:52,114
Charlotte's a great girl.
885
00:34:52,157 --> 00:34:53,594
You did a really good job.
886
00:34:53,637 --> 00:34:54,899
The weird thing is,
887
00:34:54,943 --> 00:34:57,467
is I don't want her
to end up like me, either.
888
00:34:57,511 --> 00:34:59,600
So rigid one day, she wakes up
889
00:34:59,643 --> 00:35:01,210
and wants to rethink everything.
890
00:35:01,253 --> 00:35:02,588
Is that what you're doing?
891
00:35:02,632 --> 00:35:05,214
I chose a career where saving
one life means losing another,
892
00:35:05,257 --> 00:35:08,957
and every case feels harder
than the last.
893
00:35:09,000 --> 00:35:10,567
Are you thinking about quitting?
894
00:35:10,611 --> 00:35:11,655
No.
895
00:35:11,699 --> 00:35:13,178
[CHUCKLES]
896
00:35:13,222 --> 00:35:14,310
I don't know.
897
00:35:15,764 --> 00:35:17,313
I don't... I don't know.
898
00:35:21,230 --> 00:35:23,885
You know, Hamilton thinks that
I took the Parkinson's project
899
00:35:23,928 --> 00:35:26,670
because I'm really trying
to cure Alzheimer's.
900
00:35:26,714 --> 00:35:28,803
- Is that true?
- I don't know.
901
00:35:28,846 --> 00:35:30,544
But I also don't know
if I can just go back
902
00:35:30,587 --> 00:35:33,024
to Grey-Sloan and be
Chief of General anymore.
903
00:35:33,068 --> 00:35:34,809
[SIGHS LIGHTLY]
904
00:35:34,852 --> 00:35:36,332
♪♪
905
00:35:40,870 --> 00:35:44,352
You know, I think today,
you saw that I'm not the, um...
906
00:35:44,377 --> 00:35:46,379
I'm not the most, uh...
907
00:35:46,423 --> 00:35:48,381
♪♪
908
00:35:48,713 --> 00:35:50,035
Patient?
909
00:35:50,079 --> 00:35:52,037
Yeah, that's it.
910
00:35:52,081 --> 00:35:55,040
Who is patient when it comes
to their family?
911
00:35:55,084 --> 00:35:57,434
♪ Think I got a new philosophy ♪
912
00:35:57,477 --> 00:35:58,870
Not me.
913
00:35:58,913 --> 00:36:02,569
♪ I wanna dive right in ♪
914
00:36:03,019 --> 00:36:04,397
I also have a temper.
915
00:36:04,441 --> 00:36:05,616
- You have a temper?
- Yeah.
916
00:36:05,659 --> 00:36:07,835
- Well, I don't believe it.
- [CHUCKLES]
917
00:36:07,879 --> 00:36:10,273
[CHUCKLES]
918
00:36:10,316 --> 00:36:11,665
♪ But I don't think I know how to swim ♪
919
00:36:11,709 --> 00:36:15,484
I threw a retractor once. Yeah.
920
00:36:15,527 --> 00:36:17,802
About eight years ago,
after losing a patient, I...
921
00:36:17,845 --> 00:36:19,456
♪ And when I'm standing
on the precipice ♪
922
00:36:19,499 --> 00:36:22,372
I didn't hit anymore,
but I-I think about it
923
00:36:22,415 --> 00:36:24,200
about once a day.
924
00:36:24,243 --> 00:36:27,464
I also have a very hard time
trusting people.
925
00:36:27,507 --> 00:36:29,596
And if you sell insurance
or you don't like dogs,
926
00:36:29,640 --> 00:36:30,858
- you're dead to me.
- [CHUCKLES]
927
00:36:30,902 --> 00:36:33,078
- Well, agreed on that.
- [CHUCKLES]
928
00:36:33,122 --> 00:36:35,341
♪ Some days I wonder
why I'm doing this ♪
929
00:36:35,385 --> 00:36:38,649
- ♪ So much easier to love regret ♪
- I just...
930
00:36:38,692 --> 00:36:41,173
When I'm falling in love, I-I-I...
931
00:36:41,217 --> 00:36:42,696
I mean, it scares me
932
00:36:42,740 --> 00:36:44,829
because I've done it
very rarely in my life.
933
00:36:44,872 --> 00:36:47,701
♪ My love, if I jumped in ♪
934
00:36:47,745 --> 00:36:50,095
I just don't love the
feeling of losing control.
935
00:36:50,139 --> 00:36:51,923
When you're falling in love?
936
00:36:51,966 --> 00:36:53,403
♪ Is it too much to ask, dear? ♪
937
00:36:53,446 --> 00:36:55,535
Yeah, when I'm falling in love.
938
00:36:55,579 --> 00:36:57,233
♪ I need to know you'll be here ♪
939
00:36:57,276 --> 00:37:00,105
♪ My love, if I jumped in ♪
940
00:37:00,149 --> 00:37:03,630
♪ Would you save me from drowning? ♪
941
00:37:03,674 --> 00:37:06,416
♪ Is it too much to ask, dear? ♪
942
00:37:06,459 --> 00:37:07,852
♪ I need to know ♪
943
00:37:07,895 --> 00:37:11,464
♪ I need to know you'll be here ♪
944
00:37:11,508 --> 00:37:15,120
♪ Stuck on the poolside ♪
945
00:37:15,164 --> 00:37:17,949
♪ Trying just to get by ♪
946
00:37:17,992 --> 00:37:22,910
♪ Been waiting a long time
just to know ♪
947
00:37:24,347 --> 00:37:28,742
♪ But the poolside's all I know ♪
948
00:37:30,365 --> 00:37:32,323
- WINSTON: There you go!
- Thank you.
949
00:37:32,367 --> 00:37:33,865
Is Aunt Maggie okay?
950
00:37:33,908 --> 00:37:35,111
Yeah.
951
00:37:35,457 --> 00:37:36,946
She's all right.
952
00:37:39,809 --> 00:37:41,245
Are you okay?
953
00:37:42,551 --> 00:37:45,914
Do you think my birth mother
thinks about me?
954
00:37:47,930 --> 00:37:49,236
Do you think about her?
955
00:37:49,261 --> 00:37:53,047
I wonder about her,
but I feel bad about it.
956
00:37:53,072 --> 00:37:55,292
I don't want to make my mom sad.
957
00:37:55,317 --> 00:37:57,492
I think it's normal
to wonder where we came from
958
00:37:57,566 --> 00:37:59,002
and why we are the way we are.
959
00:37:59,046 --> 00:38:00,613
And we can...
960
00:38:00,656 --> 00:38:02,702
We can have different feelings about it.
961
00:38:02,745 --> 00:38:04,049
[MOUTHS WORD]
962
00:38:04,092 --> 00:38:05,855
Growing up, I didn't like
being around my dad
963
00:38:05,898 --> 00:38:08,098
because of some
of the decisions he made.
964
00:38:08,478 --> 00:38:10,146
But my mom...
965
00:38:10,797 --> 00:38:12,712
She was my hero.
966
00:38:12,755 --> 00:38:14,651
♪♪
967
00:38:14,676 --> 00:38:16,504
So's mine.
968
00:38:16,529 --> 00:38:19,836
♪ Your eyes look bored,
your brow's mean ♪
969
00:38:19,861 --> 00:38:23,212
♪♪
970
00:38:23,462 --> 00:38:27,814
♪ Looking upon your lit up screen ♪
971
00:38:27,857 --> 00:38:29,708
♪♪
972
00:38:29,733 --> 00:38:33,128
- ♪ And the story that plays out... ♪
- You know, you could stay.
973
00:38:33,394 --> 00:38:35,222
- ♪ ...is not clean ♪
- [SIGHS]
974
00:38:35,247 --> 00:38:36,928
- I can't.
- Why not?
975
00:38:36,953 --> 00:38:38,925
Because I'm a mom.
976
00:38:39,565 --> 00:38:43,003
- ♪ You can't un-see what you've seen ♪
- And when I'm here in Minnesota...
977
00:38:44,091 --> 00:38:45,658
[SIGHS]
978
00:38:45,701 --> 00:38:48,182
...I miss my son
with every cell of my body.
979
00:38:48,225 --> 00:38:49,792
♪ I go walking out, the storms upon me ♪
980
00:38:49,836 --> 00:38:51,751
And I hope that part of me
doesn't scare you away,
981
00:38:51,794 --> 00:38:56,103
because it is a part of me
that I truly, deeply love.
982
00:38:56,146 --> 00:38:58,105
♪ And I'm wandering about
upon the stone ♪
983
00:38:58,148 --> 00:38:59,976
♪♪
984
00:39:00,020 --> 00:39:05,547
♪ And the evening sky is storming, too ♪
985
00:39:05,591 --> 00:39:07,506
♪♪
986
00:39:07,549 --> 00:39:10,944
♪ Was I better off ♪
987
00:39:10,987 --> 00:39:13,120
♪ The less I knew? ♪
988
00:39:13,163 --> 00:39:18,821
♪♪
989
00:39:18,865 --> 00:39:20,562
MEREDITH: Who you really are
990
00:39:20,606 --> 00:39:22,564
is the result of many, many things.
991
00:39:22,608 --> 00:39:25,436
♪ We're coming up in odd days ♪
992
00:39:25,480 --> 00:39:27,134
How you deal with fear.
993
00:39:27,177 --> 00:39:31,704
♪ And one person's easy path's
another's maze ♪
994
00:39:31,747 --> 00:39:33,532
Who you surround yourself with.
995
00:39:33,575 --> 00:39:36,273
♪ And yet we go on unfazed ♪
996
00:39:36,317 --> 00:39:38,234
I can't believe she wrote this.
997
00:39:39,929 --> 00:39:42,062
It doesn't even seem like her.
998
00:39:42,105 --> 00:39:43,585
[SIGHS]
999
00:39:43,629 --> 00:39:44,934
It's not like she mailed it.
1000
00:39:44,978 --> 00:39:46,501
[LIGHTER CLICKS]
1001
00:39:46,545 --> 00:39:48,721
She could have forgotten she wrote it.
1002
00:39:48,764 --> 00:39:50,897
- ♪ See the dog trees swaying ♪
- Are you glad you read it?
1003
00:39:50,940 --> 00:39:52,638
♪ Above the ground ♪
1004
00:39:52,681 --> 00:39:54,161
I don't know.
1005
00:39:54,204 --> 00:39:56,119
- I just...
- ♪ And the cold ♪
1006
00:39:56,163 --> 00:39:58,382
- ...felt like I should.
- ♪ Upon your skin ♪
1007
00:39:58,426 --> 00:40:00,602
♪ It feels so true ♪
1008
00:40:00,646 --> 00:40:03,126
I used to feel like
there was something missing,
1009
00:40:03,170 --> 00:40:05,912
and I just figured it was her.
1010
00:40:05,955 --> 00:40:07,740
♪ Were you better off,
the less you knew? ♪
1011
00:40:07,783 --> 00:40:10,525
♪♪
1012
00:40:10,569 --> 00:40:12,135
I don't feel that way anymore.
1013
00:40:12,179 --> 00:40:13,746
- ♪ And all I see ♪
- Mm-hmm.
1014
00:40:13,789 --> 00:40:15,574
♪ Is greys and greens ♪
1015
00:40:15,617 --> 00:40:17,227
♪♪
1016
00:40:17,271 --> 00:40:21,928
♪ With all the other colors in between ♪
1017
00:40:21,971 --> 00:40:23,930
[FIRE WHOOSH ECHOES]
1018
00:40:23,973 --> 00:40:25,888
♪♪
1019
00:40:25,932 --> 00:40:27,673
And how you show up when it matters.
1020
00:40:27,716 --> 00:40:32,242
♪♪
1021
00:40:32,286 --> 00:40:36,116
♪ The less we know, oh-oh ♪
1022
00:40:36,159 --> 00:40:37,552
♪ The less we know ♪
1023
00:40:37,596 --> 00:40:40,120
♪♪
1024
00:40:40,163 --> 00:40:45,902
♪ Are we better off the less we know? ♪
71493
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