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- When we first, you know,
walked into the country,

I mean, you had the weight of
the nation on your shoulders.

You know,
we were America's response

To the most catastrophic
terrorist attack on U.S Soil.

- Ever.
- Ever.

- And for a lot of us,

You know, we felt that we
had a responsibility

To the people that died,

To set the stage that you just
don't do that to America

And not pay the price.

It was about...
not retribution,

But it was about justice.

- What's that saying

About, "who will go?"

"send me."

- You know...
- Isaiah 6:8.

- Sir?
- Isaiah 6:8.

"Whom will go,
and whom shall I send?"

- Yeah, "who will go,
and who shall I send?"

Send me, send me,

'cause I'm the dude
that wants to make somebody pay

For killing my brothers
and sisters.

- I think we have to assume

That there will be more attacks.

- The United States military
has begun strikes.

- Coalition warplanes have
free rein over Afghanistan.

- The public, though...
- I think 94% of the public...

Wants us to go in somewhere
and do something.

- U.S. Army Special Forces,
known as the Green Berets...

- The green berets...

- Inside Afghanistan.

Those reports first appeared
in Pakistani newspapers...

- Known as
the quiet professionals...

So secretive,
we've agreed not to disclose

Even their first name.

- I never spoke out the way
I felt like I should have.

- It was an American green Bert
raid in the dark of night.

- Guns starting to flail
back and forth.

pow-pow, pow, pow...

- This is another type
of warfare:

War by guerillas.

- Unconventional warfare.

- And to me,
it's like brotherhood.

- What is winning?

- You're just praying

You'll get to prove yourself
to your brothers.

- What began
as a 100-day mission...

- The longest U.S War...
- It's been a long war...

- The longest war
in American history.

- We've been living it
for 15 years.

- Think I was 10.

Must have been 9 or 10,
about 1970, I guess.

I saw john Wayne,
"the green berets,"

And I thought, "man, yeah..."

- They all seemed to think
that because my dad joined,

That it was natural
for me to join,

But that wasn't the case.

I went to go see a movie.

- Funny thing.

A fella takes one of these
into battle,

And he carries
a strange sense of guilt

All the rest of his life.

- I figured everything else
I'd done in the Army

Hadn't been all that hard,
for me.

I figured, how hard could it be?

It was pretty hard.

Pretty good, yeah.

- The Taliban must turn over
Osama Bin Laden

And must destroy
the terrorist camps.

Otherwise,
there will be a consequence.

- Spokesman for the Taliban
denies Afghanistan

Allowed Bin Laden to strike
from its territory.

- Good afternoon.

On my orders,

The United States military
has begun strikes

Against the Taliban regime
in Afghanistan.

- I'm as close to these people
as anyone in my own family,

And in some ways closer.

These are my 11 best friends
in the world.

That's how I feel.

- This is us in Afghanistan.

I mean, we were in,
you know, some harsh...

- Probably is as extreme
a combat environment

As you can fathom.

It tested you in every way...
physically, mentally...

Emotionally.

- We are it.

And when you need the Army,

We are the vanguard,
the spearhead, the praetorian.

- This has been happening
for, what, 15 years.

- Wow, since Vietnam.

- Yeah.

- We're talking about people.

You know, as a unit,
we've been...

We've been deployed
doing some pretty crazy crap

For a while.

And you get
into a unit like this,

And that's what you do.

That's your game.

- I've been in the military
now 30 years.

That mission was the pinnacle
of my career,

Absolutely the finest thing

A team of green berets could do.

- Mark wasn't on the team
anymore at that time.

So I thought I was good to go.

I was 6 1/2 months pregnant.

And we got a call
while we were in a baby store,

Shopping for baby things.

I think Mr. Paul called him
and said...

- "get your butt back here."

- "guess what,
you're back on the team."

And I was like, "oh..."

- We both realized

I was probably
not gonna be there

For the birth of our child.

On the drive back
from Nashville, then,

We realized we'd
better pick a name.

Amy knew we were gonna go,
but she didn't know where.

Hell, I didn't know
where we were going exactly.

- Ramp runs down a big cloud

Of that fine talcum powder dust.

We come piling
out of the back of that,

Haul all of our shit out in
this big, huge clump of stuff.

Helicopter takes off.

Dust kind of settles,

And out of the dust
comes the sand people.

- That's right.

- When you see a man with an AK

Who's dressed
just like your enemy,

And you've got to walk
over to him

And basically ask him,
"hey, how you doing?"

And you have no idea
whether he's gonna say...

You put out his hand
and shake it,

Or he's gonna shoot you.

- The Taliban's Army
of some 30,000 fighters...

Born from the crucible of war,

Captured Kabul in 1996
and imposed draconian laws.

- Indiscriminate and brutal...

- Whipped in public for adultery

In front
of an all-male audience...

- We have a small group...

- The Taliban
invited Osama Bin Laden...

- Osama Bin Laden
would offer money

And his fighters to fight.

- The northern alliance
came together

In mutual opposition
to the Taliban.

- General Dostum
and his Advance Security Party

Come riding up.

- General Dostum,
who has a fierce reputation

For his treatment
of foreign prisoners.

- He jumps down
off the horse, and...

- Hell, the horse is still
moving, he jumps off.

- Yeah.
- He was like, "hey."

- General Dostum agreed
to take my team members and I

Up to his forward command post.

"I can't guarantee
your safety."

He said, "there's some people

That may be upset
that the Americans are here."

So we would mount horses
for the first time in combat.

- Mark knows horses.

He knew horses
when he got there.

We didn't.

Mark figured out real quick

That you go up to 400 dudes
on a horse and say,

"hey, somebody
get off their horse

And give it to an American,"

You ain't gonna get
a smooth horse.

- We got to General Dostum's
headquarters.

My job at that point

Is to establish
and maintain rapport.

His plan
that he had briefed to us

Was that Mazar-e Sharif
was the key to the country,

And if we could liberate
Mazar-e Sharif,

The northern provinces
would be liberated.

If we liberated
the northern provinces,

Then Kabul could be liberated.

And from there, Herat,
Kandahar, Jalalabad.

We represented 5th group.

We represented America's
foreign policy...

At the point end, nasty, dirty,
bloody end of that fight...

That we went in
and helped enable

The possibility
of a brighter future

For the people of Afghanistan.

- It was my first rodeo.

We got married in April;
He left in October.

He was a medic.

I thought it was safe.

Yeah, he lied to me, guys.

No, he didn't lie to me;
He was a medic.

- Is that what they're called?

- I don't know.

You know what it is.

- Little dust off that.

- A pickle tea.

- A lot of memories,
you know what I mean?

It's like... that you kind of
tamp down and put away.

Not so good, but that's okay.

- Every one of the husbands
will tell you

That they're gonna die
before us spouses do.

- Suck it up, buttercup.
- Suck it up, will.

- Hey, how about we toast
to everybody who's not here?

- Yeah, there you go.

- 'Cause we got chad,
we got Pete...

- Pete.
- We got Steve.

- Bill.
- Bill, wherever you are.

- Wherever he's at.

- Salud.
- Salud.

- Whoo!

That shit's nasty.

- What is this shit?

- Hey.

Say hello.

Come on.

It wasn't until you were
forced to retire,

You had to retire.

Then you isolated yourself
from your family

And everybody else.

You internalize everything.

You try to find a new normalcy.

- Off.

Sit, sit, sit.

Psst, sit.

What I found kind of peace with

Is to go out here,
crawl around on jeeps

And, you know, be one again.

Being out here, I mean, listen.

You know, you get to have
no thoughts at all.

Each one of our stories
are almost similar,

How we isolated ourselves,
our family, everything else.

Started reaching out and found,

You know, the only way we're
all gonna heal each other

Is to get back together.

- Holy shit.
- That's that blooper.

- Oh, there we go.

Big Marky Mark.

- Marky Mark.

- I'm up here somewhere.

That's me right there.

- You know, in special forces,
you have a team,

And a team is 12 men.

You've got a Captain,
a team sergeant,

A team warrant officer,

Two Engineers, two Commo,

Two medics,
two weapons sergeants.

That formulates a team,

And each team
would have a specialty,

Like high-altitude,
low-opening jumping

Or scuba diving

Or assaulting direct action.

- I was the greatest tactician

For direct action
that there was.

Back then, I thought I was
on top of the world.

- In the back.

- Right here?
- Yes.

- General franks,
again, on special forces,

Can you give us a sense
of how the size and scope

Of their mission will expand
over the next month,

From classic liaison
with northern alliance groups

And reconnaissance,

To more direct action,

Shoot-em-up ambush
type of situations?

- A short answer,
and that is that...

One should not assume
that there has not been

Strategic reconnaissance
and direct action activity.

You would not expect for me
to tell you

Exactly what they're doing.

- Evidence that another,
much more covert operation

Is well under way...

- These special forces
are trying to hunt down

Suspected terrorist
Osama Bin Laden...

- The letter-like attacks
by commandos

To go after and root out
some of that infrastructure.

- The mission statement
was to kill or capture

Senior Al-Qaeda
and Taliban leadership, stop.

Insert name, stop.

Insert location, stop.

At our level,
there was a big map there,

And the big map is synchronized
by who's next,

Who's on first, okay?

And then, who's on first
is a number

And a picture
and a little bit of background.

Went into one room,
it was total chaos.

Seven guys, machine guys,

Dodging bullets,
shooting people, hand-to-hand.

You run into the next room,

Guys are shooting
out the back of the window.

One guy is surrendering.

You went into the next room,
bam.

It was on-off, on-off,
on-off, on-off, on...

Helicopter home.

As a kid, I was forced
to read homer's "odyssey,"

You know, about a warrior king
trying to come home

And the family
going through its situation.

You never really understand it,

Because you don't have
the maturity.

Now, you know, you're trying
to find, you know,

The subtleties
and calmness of life.

That, right now,
is more valuable

Than a million dollars
in the bank.

- As a leader,

You have to balance, you know,
"what's the mission?

What are you trying
to accomplish?"

And the mission is invariably

To put your soldiers
in harm's way.

So, I think, as a soldier,

There's a part of you that,
as an individual,

You want to see it,
to understand it,

To be tested by it.

But then, as a leader,

You're so terrified
at the thought

Of making bad decisions
that get your soldiers killed.

- You need a very strong
team leader.

Amerine was outstanding.

- It's like a democracy.

You've got to
kind of, you know...

There's strong wills.

12 strong wills.

- You're stuck
with this bunch of guys

And thrown into Afghanistan.

And it was just fun.

Yeah, it was awesome.

- You know,
we identified Tarin Kowt

As the first step
in our campaigns.

The goal was, seize Kandahar.

I met Hamid for the first time
in the hallway.

You know, he was going
to the bathroom,

And I was walking
to get some coffee,

And it was just men
trying to work with one another

That didn't have
any time for bullshit.

Even as all the tensions rose

Between the U.S
And Hamid Karzai,

He still had an uncanny ability

To hold things together
over there.

I think it was around
3:00 in the morning or so.

The F-18s spotted a small
convoy of trucks heading north.

So here are these F-18s
flying overhead,

And they're calling
for permission to engage.

And that was when...
that was then the war

Really became real.

There was just this moment
where Alan looks at me

And says, you know,
"are they clear to engage?"

And, like, everybody
was suddenly quiet.

I mean, I was...

I was gonna authorize
these F-18s

To drop bombs on pickup trucks
that were likely the enemy.

But, you know,
what if I was wrong?

And it was the silence
that always sticks with me.

You know,
"are they clear to engage?"

And suddenly all eyes are on me.

I looked at Allen,
and I said, "smoke 'em."

And after I said the words,

It was just sort of,
where did that come from?

Smoke 'em?

I don't say shit like that.

I mean, that's just not me.

The thing we didn't
realize, though,

Is that these trucks weren't
the leading edge of the convoy.

They were actually
at the tail of the convoy

Of maybe 1,000 Taliban.

- So we're just kind of lookin',
you know, with Binos,

And we saw this glimmer.

- I mean, these guys
were coming heavy,

And we're talking 23mm guns.

A 23mm is, like, that big.

I mean, it will...
it will blow you, "pah."

You'll be like mist.

- We tell the pilots,

"okay, we're the two truck
right there."

And the pilots would go like,
"that's it."

"yep, that's us; Everybody else
is the enemy south of us."

We were fucked.

- And Yoshida assured us,
he's like, "man, I'm on tune.

"I'm talking to these pilots.

We're knocking them out."

And he would just keep saying,
"cleared hot, cleared hot."

Through the whole night,

It just kept going further
and further and further.

And we just, like, bombed out,
like 100 vehicles

Through the whole night.

"Pop-pop-pop."

- I mean, I don't know that we
were high-fiving and euphoric.

It's like, "whew."

We were just trying to win...
and live.

- I think, for me, the notion
of fighting from a distance,

Of fighting
with these airstrikes,

It didn't sit well with me.

I mean, it...

It almost promoted
just the promiscuous use

Of military power.

I don't know how to explain it.

It's just...

I mean, we would
have died otherwise.

There was no alternative.

But something just didn't
feel quite right about it.

I mean, in the end,
we slaughtered them, you know.

And as they were retreating,
we kept bombing them.

I mean, we wiped them out.

But I didn't feel good
about how we had to do it.

I just felt like...

Felt like I should have been
looking the enemy in the eye

Before I killed him.

- We went down, and we started
doing battle damage assessment

And counting, you know,
destroyed vehicles.

And, you know, in some of them,

There were still
some charred bodies

That were just...

They're traveling
in these little Toyota trucks,

And you jam as many guys
in the back of the truck

And as many guys in the front
of the truck as you could.

So there might be
eight or nine people

In a Toyota truck,

And there was, you know,
hundreds of those trucks.

- I don't know
how to describe it.

It was just...

It was just what it is,
you know?

You just... you're, like,
initially kind of...

I don't want to say shocked,
but you're just like, "wow."

I mean, you're seeing people

That are literally
burnt and charred to death.

You know, you're like,
"ooh, wow."

- That was the first
of any of that carnage

That I had seen, you know,
with my own two eyes.

It didn't really bother me.

It was just kind of gruesome,
whatever.

But you're the enemy,
and so it's okay.

And that's kind of
how you programmed it.

"If I don't do this to you,
you're gonna do it to me."

And it's really that simple.

- One of the things people...
- they just...

First thing out of their mouth,
"how many people you kill?"

I didn't know we were counting.

I didn't know
we were supposed to count.

If you know how many people
you've killed,

It's probably not enough.

- It's not a scorecard.
- It's not a scorecard.

- You know, it's...

- And there's a difference

Between shooting somebody
face-to-face

And somebody from a distance
dropping a bomb.

It's impersonal,
you know what I mean?

"Ah, got him.

Ooh, dust, whoo-hoo, high-five."

You know,
little bit longer shot,

"wow, the mechanics
of that shot was great."

Face-to-face, I could tell you
what they smelled like,

You know, how long
it took them to bleed.

Some guys can't get rid
of the smell, okay?

Smell of a burning body

Is different than
the smell of a burning tire.

And you never know
until you walk by

And you're like, "oh, shit,"

'cause that smell is now
implanted in your brain,

What that means.

- My beard was covered in blood.

I mean, I didn't
just see, smell; I tasted.

I thought I'd broke my nose,
but then I realized,

I didn't get hit by anything,
and why am I bleeding?

And, oh, it wasn't my blood.

And I still... I will get
that flash smell on occasion,

And it'll take me right back.

You just... that's...

You know, that's the horror
of it all.

It's very personal.

- I grew up with that
strong American cowboy,

U.S. Cavalry Heritage.

I was probably on a horse
before I could walk.

You know, I'd studied U.S
And confederate

Cavalry commanders.

We had walked the battlefields
of Gettysburg

And down through
the Tennessee campaign.

It was not lost on me
that here I am,

In the 21st century,

And I'm leading
a 19th century cavalry.

- One of the things
about the sf guys,

Most of them are kind of
rough and tumble guys

To begin with.

- She goes, I expect...

- And just slide the bar
the other day with that...

- There's no weight behind that.

- No, put that down first.

Put that down.

- The way I grew up
in west Virginia,

It was clan-ish, you know.

Certain hollows, all these
families lived up this one.

All these families
live up that one.

And, you know, if you make
an enemy of one guy here,

There's more.

- Afghani...

- Yeah, understanding
how tribal people think

Is obviously gonna help.

- Every one of these leaders
told us,

Do not become portrayed
as the invaders.

You're here as liberators.

That's what you've said.

Because we were so few guys,

We could actually portray

That Taliban are actually
the foreign invaders,

The Pakistani Taliban
that had come over,

The Al-Qaeda
that had taken over

And hijacked
these people's country.

- Straight ahead.
- Straight ahead.

- That is foreign Taliban.
- Foreign Taliban.

- Okay, the one to the left...

- We've now raised this Army,

Who are gonna rise up
across the northern provinces,

And we're gonna press
for Mazar-e Sharif.

The situation dictated
that we needed to decentralize.

Each of these
three-man cells, then,

Is tasked to support
an afghan commander

That had between
300 to 750 fighters.

Each of those cells is a four-
to eight-hour horse ride.

It was hot, dusty, dirty,

Riding the meanest, rankest,
nastiest horse.

- I rode Vince's horse
that one time.

- Rusty?

- I was like,
"oh, my god, Vince,

How are you staying
on this thing"

- That horse was cross-bred
with a werewolf.

That thing...

- The Americans
would get bucked off.

The afghans would
get bucked off.

And everybody would
kind of cheer.

That was another
bonding experience.

- Extraordinary
defense department photo

Released today.

United states special forces
on horseback.

- When was the last time
you saw U.S. Military Personnel

In combat on horseback?

- Haven't had them in combat
in a long time.

That's a tough mission.

- Not till I saw him on TV.

- Yeah, that was
kind of a giveaway.

- Yeah, that was
when I got the phone call

At 3:00 in the morning.

- Well, and 2 and 2
still make 4.

It's like, "oh, let's see,
where could they be?

Afghanistan perhaps?"

- Yeah.
- Yeah.

- We couldn't talk
about where we were at

Or anything we were about to do.

And coming back
from a skirmish, then,

I get a message:

"Something's wrong; Call home."

- I had...

I had Kaya.

And Michelle, bless her heart,

She was on the phone,

Trying to find a way
to get a hold of Mark

To let him know that I had
delivered our daughter.

And... but I didn't hear
from him

Till we were already
discharged and at home

Several days later.

- Amy went in
for an appointment,

A normal appointment,

And there were some
complications, evidently,

And the ob specialist

Said, "you're having
this baby today."

And it was over, what,
a month early?

- Yeah, she said I had two hours
to get my affairs in order,

And I was not to leave,

That I had to stay
on the hospital grounds.

So I called...

- She called these wasps.

- These ladies.

- And they came.

And from what I understand,

Every one of you
were in the delivery room.

- But it's what you do.

You just do what you have to do

To keep your house in order,

To keep your kids doing what
they're supposed to be doing.

- And safe.

- Yeah.

And while they're doing
what they do,

You do what you have to do,

And that's just the way we are.

That's the way
this group of ladies are.

- Bounce back.

You know, they teach you that
in the Q course.

They teach you that in
ranger school, in sere school.

You just have to bounce back.

So I regrouped,
took a deep breath, and...

We're about to go into battle.

- Morning wood.

- I wish we had that...

The froth, you'll see.

- Yeah, whatever.

- Worth $7 a cup.

I want to do something, man.

- You know there's
gonna be a fight.

What are you gonna do,
slap each other?

There's a breaking of a wrist,

A breaking of a finger
that's on you.

There's a chewing of a nose off.

- We hit one of the compounds,

And you could just tell
right away, you know,

That it was gonna be
a difficult hit.

- They're on building one.

- You had less than one hour

From the time
you left the helicopter,

Because if you weren't on
the helicopter in another hour,

They would fly off for 24 hours,
and you had to stay there.

- Unlike you, we didn't have
any Afghani counterparts.

We were... it was us,
on our own,

And we were out
in bad guy country

With no support.

- And we breached
into the house,

And it's all squishy
and everything.

We're walking around,
we're like, "what he heck?"

Well, at the time,
we didn't realize

That they didn't have beds
or furniture.

They just piled rugs.

So we're under night vision.

You could barely see anything.

Your eyes were going glean.

And on the floor,
you saw some movement,

You know, squirming,
like, "what the heck?"

I was a big guy then,

And tony was twice as big as me.

We're looking,
and all of a sudden,

We see two little hands come up
from this blanket

And lift it over,

And looks up
and sees green little eyes,

And she sits up for second,
squeezes her eyes like this.

And I'm like...

You know, you don't want
to say nothing,

Because her dad could be
in the next room.

We all got kids.

Imagine your girl
starts screaming.

So all of a sudden, she did.

She started screaming
and going nuts.

We're like...

- Yeah, yeah, "be quiet."

- So I pick her up.

Starts screaming even more.

One of the other rooms
had caught fire.

So now she's really
screaming and going crazy.

- We could hear it
over the radio.

- Yeah, so you could
hear it on the...

- And I'm like...
- 'cause we were outside.

- We were all
on different houses.

- Yeah, we were outside
in a gunfight.

- I remember I had
a baby Ruth bar,

So I reach in my pocket,

I pull out a little
baby Ruth bar.

I'm like... you know,
she doesn't know what candy is.

Going like this,

And she's screaming and turning
her head and everything.

I put it on my lips,
and I put it on her lips,

And she licks her lips,
and she's like, "huh?"

I came around the corner,

Where they were kind of lining
up some other family members.

And I come out of the darkness.

And I think it was
Rodney Trosco at the time,

Going, "what the fuck
are you doing?"

You know, "put the kid down.

We're in a gunfight over here."

I'm like, "I don't know."

I got the rest of my tattoo
colored in.

- Did you really?

Wow, I haven't.

I need to get some more...

One of the big things
about combat

Is being able to
keep your emotion in check.

A lot of people say that
we don't have emotions anymore.

Well, maybe it's
because we're good

At controlling our emotions

And not letting our emotions
overtake everything else.

- Because you suppressed
all those emotions

So much and so long,

You don't know what you're
supposed to be happy for

Or sad for anymore.

Zero emotions, across the board.

I don't get overly happy.

I don't get overly sad.

I don't get overly excited.

And it, you know,
becomes a big burden

For the family, too, because
they don't know where I'm at.

"Did I do a good thing, dad?"

"of course, I love you,
way to go."

- My name is bill Howell,
nice to meet you.

Yeah, I worked with Jefferson.

I'm a special forces guy.

- Oh, you are?
- Yes, Ma'am.

I worked with him there
in 5th group.

Fix the bike,
put it back together,

Get it running, yes, Sir.

- That's it, right there.

- Holy... look at that.

September '02.

To be able to do this
for Jesse is awesome.

- You know, he was man
that could walk in the room

And tell you how it is.

That's the way the bike is;
It's loud.

You feel it, you know,
the engine was strong,

Just like my father.

- Y'all want to try
to push it back?

- In my head, that emulates
everything my father was

And what I missed about him.

- I mean, there's no way

That anyone could
ever replace his dad,

But if each one of us
can give him a little something

Of what J.D's not able to,

Then I believe we're
doing our job as brothers.

I would have never wanted
to be my wife.

I wouldn't have wanted
to be one of my sons.

Back and forth, back and forth,

Not knowing
if you're gonna come home,

Somebody else getting killed.

What kind of...
what kind of father was I?

I was young.

Very hard.

Very mean.

It's the whole intimacy
of family,

That I didn't have it
when I was a green beret,

'cause I was a good green beret.

Did a lot of things wrong.

Good lord.

And if I could, I'd do
a lot of them different.

I'd sure be a better father
and a better husband.

You know, it's just...

What can you do,

But try to learn
and move forward, you know?

- Is that dad?
- That's dad.

- I just don't believe it.

- I remember when my dad
initially got his paperwork

About how he's gonna be
the team sergeant of 574.

And that was honestly
my dad's biggest dream,

To be a team sergeant.

- Doing the tobacco.

- Working the tobacco field.

- Yes.

That's a real scorpion
right there.

- He left, and then...

It felt...

Normal again in the sense
that that's what he did.

He would leave
and go do his work,

And we would all be here.

Go to school.

And then he would come back
in six or nine months.

We would see him again.

- This is the first letter
I received from him.

"Hello, sweetheart.

"today is the 31st of October.

"this has been hardest trip
for me.

"I really didn't want to go.

I just didn't want to leave
you and the kids."

- I've never read it.

- I kept it for you.

- His love for family

Extended to how
he treated the team.

It was an extension
of his family.

- He was a good team sergeant.

He was rather soft-spoken.

He was like a big bear, until...

Until you pissed him off,
and he'd, you know...

We didn't piss him off a lot.

- The anti-Taliban forces
appear to be closing in

On the Taliban stronghold
of Kandahar.

- Talks on Afghanistan's future
began this morning.

- A 44-year-old Pashtun
Tribal Commander, Hamid Karzai.

- After Tarin Kowt,

There were all these
terrific indicators

That we had the Taliban scared.

- We'd go through a village
and not even fire a shot.

These guys would
come out of the woodwork.

And you... you would be amped up.

You'd be like, "wup, wup."

You know, you're about
ready to shoot.

You know, they'd be like,
"ahh!"

You know, waving.

Once they could see
the force coming in,

They were all about it.

They wanted to be with you.

They wanted
to get the Taliban out.

- We were literally throwing as
in the back of SUVs,

And just, you know,
stacks and piles.

"hey, we got a couple more,
guys.

Let's keep going."

- We had this few hundred man
mob of afghan fighters,

And we just had to move
this mob down to Kandahar.

- That's when we coined the tem...

"fucked up
like an afghan convoy."

- I knew it was
completely unrealistic

When I went into special forces

That I'd be given
the kind of autonomy

That, holy shit, here I have...

It was exactly the campaign
I, you know, dreamed of.

- Northern alliance commander..

They have moved their troops

Into areas close
to Mazar-e Sharif...

- Fighting is intensifying.

- We had greater maneuverability
on horseback in that terrain

Than the Taliban
or Al-Qaeda did.

They're in armored vehicles
and pickup trucks.

They're tied
to their Fuel Depos.

And so we were able
to cut them off

From reinforcement

And cut them off from retreat.

I probably rode
300 miles or more.

I was determined
I was gonna ride that horse

All the way
into Mazar-e Sharif.

- Crossed over the river.

The water was higher enough

That the horses actually
started to float down the river.

And, of course, we did not
want to go for a swim.

- Standing in the water,
very cold water,

Water up to my waist.

I just looked back,
looked south,

And then I just realized,
it was...

It was the most unbelievable
shot I'd ever seen.

It was a thousand riders
on horseback.

It was peaceful,
yet magnificent.

- Mazar-e Sharif
has indeed been captured

By the northern alliance.

- They perceived us
as liberators.

I didn't learn until later

That they perceived my team,

From the Uzbek Lore, as Malakas,

Avenging angels
with swords of lightning.

- The fall of the city

Is the biggest blow
to the ruling Taliban

Since the allied airstrikes
began 35 days ago.

- That was the pinnacle

Of what all sf soldiers
train for.

- I graduated from the
university of Nevada Las Vegas

With an accounting degree.

Went to work
for an accounting firm

And determined that
I did not like it at all.

And I said, there's got
to be more to life

Than balancing a checkbook.

Don Bolduc was the best officer
in my battalion.

He was also
my operations officer.

- It was the opinion
of our senior leadership

In the pentagon

That they wanted
a lieutenant colonel,

A more experienced officer,

On the ground in Afghanistan.

And so that's why we deployed.

To me, it was...

It was exciting.

- I mean, one day I'll tell
my Grandkids about it

When I'm old and decrepit,

And they'll go,
"oh, yeah, sure, grandpa."

- You know,
while left to our own devices,

We felt like we were able
to get quite a lot done.

It was almost the seeds
of our own destruction,

Because everything went so well.

Then we find out, you know,
a headquarters with 20 folks

Are going to come in.

- I remember celebrating
thanksgiving in Pakistan,

And then we infilled
the next night.

- Okay, they're moving in.

- Well, once I got there,
I had a big meeting,

You know, getting
coffee-breath close with them.

And I explained it to them.

I said, "okay, here's the deal.

"This is the way
it's been organized.

"this is the way
it's been directed.

"and we're soldiers,
so let's salute the flagpole

And get beyond
the emotion of it.

- So the thing we had feared
when this higher command

Comes in and starts
giving us orders,

We're gonna have to follow them.

Well, higher command came in,
giving us orders,

And now we have to follow them.

So somebody else
was now controlling the fight.

- I meet Captain Amerine
for the very first time,

Captain Amerine
and Master Sergeant Davis.

I don't think they were...

I don't think
they were real happy.

- Oh, god, I hate it,
telling this story.

It just sucks.

Always sucks.

I've seen all the ways
that the truth can be twisted.

And...

I couldn't let that happen.

- How are you?

- I don't know.

I don't know.

The morning of the 5th,
things were done.

- 7:00, we started seeing
people, "oh, all right,"

You know, and then,
"hey, what's going on?"

And then the mail,
so we were reading mail

And burning it
as soon as you read it.

- On the 5th of December,

The targets were
predominantly in this area.

We received intel

From what we considered
a very reliable source

On where the Taliban
and Al-Qaeda

That were still resisting us

On the other side
of the bridge were.

So I went to colonel fox.

I said, "Sir, I would like
to start initiating

"some close air support,

Daytime close air support
in this area."

- The hostilities were over.

The Taliban were coming
to surrender.

Why was the battalion
headquarters

Calling in an air strike
to begin with?

I mean, to me,
it was pretty obviously

A way to say
that they'd engaged the enemy

Before the war ended.

- I don't know if the sun
hit it just right.

But we observed the opening
of a cave.

- Every air strike
that we directed

Was basically personally
authorized by me.

I explained it
to fox and Bolduc.

- You know, I'm a colonel;
He's a Captain.

So both professional enough
to know,

You know, I'm giving the orders.

You execute...
you execute the orders.

- I was livid.

Again, trying
to contain my anger.

There was no valid target
to bomb there.

- He's a commander.

I mean, he outranks you.

He can do
whatever he wants, really.

Is it the most tactically
proper way of doing things?

No, not with us being there.

- We could have done nothing.

But nothing was...

You know, I don't believe

That was the proper
course of action.

We were just...
we were just trying

To interdict them

And drop enough ordinance
on them

To make a statement

And, you know,
kind of ruin their day

And get them to dislodge
and go in retreat.

- B-52s overhead.

They look back at me and say,

"are we cleared to drop
a 2,000-pound Jdam

On the cave opening?"

I say yes.

I, you know...

I'd say it's something that
I'll take to my grave with me,

As a, you know, should I have
done something different?

Should I have done...

Should I have...

You know, should I have
just ignored this?

- When you call in an Airstrik,
you have to be hypersensitive

Of all the things
that could go wrong.

You're talking about
a 2,000-pound bomb.

- I would give everything back,

All the promotions,
all the recognition,

All the medals,
everything that I have,

Everything that I have,

For none of this
to ever have happened.

- All emotion and everything

Just kind of shut off
for a little bit.

And I remember this feeling.

It was,
"fuck you, I'm not dead."

- The next thing I know

Is that my head's
being driven into the dirt.

- Mag was blown apart over her.

You know, this was...
I didn't see anybody.

I mean, you're focused
right here.

- And I had blood
and body parts,

You know, various...
all over my uniform.

- And I'm just sitting there
looking at myself,

And this thumb was touching
the inside of my arm here.

I'm like, "oh, that's bad."

As I arched, because I had
a big sucking chest wound,

All this blood starts
blasting out of my shirt here.

And I remember starting
to kind of go into shock,

And I said, "oh, my god,"
three times.

And so the last thing
I thought was,

As I was looking at that, is,

If I go face-down,
I'm gonna drown in this.

So when I go out,

I got to go
and turn my head this way.

And that's the last thing
I remember, and I...

- You know,
there's really not a day

I don't think
about that whole event.

I mean, we never found enough
of Master Sergeant Davis.

We had to do a DNA analysis,

Because the bomb hit
exactly where he was standing.

- Our company sergeant major
came in with the news

That 574 had a Jdam
dropped on their position,

And said J.D And...

- Dano.

- Dano were K.I.A.

And that was kind of
a devastating moment.

- The 574 casualties
hit me pretty hard.

Trying to figure out
what I want to...

How I want to tell you this,
but...

- These guys
on your left and right,

And they will always be there,
no matter what.

And, to me,
it's like brotherhood.

Excuse me.

- I finally shut off
for a minute,

And I just cried my eyes out.

The first Americans
killed in Afghanistan

Were killed by their own people.

- Afghan fighters
have deserted the Taliban.

- Soldiers are now
deserting in the hundreds.

- They surrendered Kandahar
that day.

And... I just need a minute here.

- In four short months,

Our nation has begun to rebuild
new york and the pentagon,

Rallied a great coalition...

- I was down there below,
on the floor of congress,

Listening to the president
give the "evil empire" speech,

Which would end up being
a very defining speech

For the next 14 years, really.

- Terrorist training camps,

Saved a people from starvation,

And freed a country
from brutal oppression.

- What does victory feel like?

It felt like we had
done our jobs.

I mean, as hindsight,
it was the perfect...

You know, it was the mission
that we'd trained for

From the time
we came in special forces.

That was the mission.

- We had less than 100 guys.

We topped the Taliban
and ran Al-Qaeda off.

Add 20,000 troops,
been bogged down every since.

- I think we did
make it look too easy.

But we didn't really have time
to reflect on that

Before we were invading Iraq

With the expectation
it would be over quickly.

- What we have found
in Afghanistan confirms

That, far from ending there,

Our war against terror
is only beginning.

- So when we chased Bin Laden

Out of Afghanistan,
into Pakistan,

As far as the commander told us,

We have done our job.

"great job."

We all but tied the bow
on Afghanistan at the time.

That same team,
that same group of guys

Went to Iraq,
and less than 90 days,

We thought Iraq was over too.

- Yeah.

- We were having tea in Baghdad.

- Literally.

- Eating in a restaurant.

- You're welcome.

- You're welcome.

Yeah, here's your country.

- You know, nine months later,
you come home again,

And you got a new mission.

You used to go in a VFW,

And you hear one guy
had one tour,

And you're like, "oh, wow."

And you hear one guy
had two tours,

You're like,
"ooh, he's a little crazy."

You know what I mean?

Somebody had three tours,

You know they're
out of their minds.

- Yeah.

- And what you see now is,
you know,

People have five, seven,
nine, ten tours,

And they're still going.

- Me and Scotty...

Scotty and I retired
the same year.

And when I retired,

I just went home and...

And I'm gonna tell you this.

11 days after I retired,
I put my wife in the hospital.

I don't even know why.

I just kind of freaked out.

I'm not saying it's PTSD.

I'm not saying it was anything.

I don't even really
remember what happened.

It's just... it's just like,

You know, you go,
and you do things,

And you do some, really,
stuff that's crazy.

And then, when you're done,

They just tell you, "bye."

You know?

- I just came back
from Afghanistan again,

Another deployment over there.

This was my 26th
deployment total.

I forgot to give him
some stuff last night.

- I'm just filling him.

How long have I known Mark?

For as long as I can remember.

Probably since 3 or 4.

So I've known him
for a long time.

I usually know
what he's thinking,

And sometimes he does me.

- I know.

- Yeah, but...

- Amy's, you know,
raised our family,

You know,
being a single working mom

Majority of the year.

- I've had some
trying times at home,

But I manage to get through it,

And then I yell at him
for it later,

Going, "this is what
I had to deal with."

- It's just adapting,

Continuing to evolve
and adapt to that new normal.

Maybe that's part of it,

Is, you keep turning up the heat
a couple degrees at a time

Over 26 deployments,

And then you're kind of
at that new normal.

My tolerance level for bullshit

Is kind of at its max.

And, you know, I...

I'd say that's maybe one thing,

Just lose some patience
with myself

Or my family, or...

- When he comes home
from deployments,

We try to bring everybody here
to just be a family,

Hang out outside.

- Is that good?

- But, yeah, 14 years.

Kaya was born
when he was in Afghanistan.

She's almost 14.

- Wait, wait...

Now.

- I keep going back
because I want to believe

That we made a difference.

You know, the ranger creed
they instill in us

Is, you know,
"readily will I display

"the intestinal fortitude
to carry on to the objective.

Though I be the lone survivor,
I keep going back."

- I remember that morning.

It was like 2:00
in the morning.

I happened to be just up.

And I see it on CNN.

It goes, two special forces
soldiers got killed.

And I'm just thinking,

"oh, god.

I hope they're nobody
that I know."

- I was 13.

Yeah, I was at school.

They called my name
for dismissal,

To come to the office
to be dismissed.

And I went,
and the person picking me up

Was someone who I never thought
would be picking me up.

And we got in the car,
and we were driving home.

I said, "well, why are you
picking me up?"

And he said, "well, your mom
just wanted me to come get you,

Pick you up early."

And I remember saying out loud
to him,

"maybe my dad came home."

I said, "maybe my dad's
coming home today."

- I walked in the door,

And that's when I saw
the chaplain standing there.

I actually saw
my mom and my sister crying.

The next day, when they said
that they dropped a bomb

And it hit him,

I was angry.

I actually hated the military
for a little while,

But I had to act like I didn't.

- How many soldiers die?

And what is it for?

What is it for?

Okay, it's for our country.

But what is it for?

- Hey, this is a little
special rum from Guatemala

That was introduced to me
by a good friend.

His team worked
in Guatemala for like a year,

Doing a fid mission,
and kicked ass.

So...

- All right,
one for the brotherhood.

One for the legion.

- One for the legion.
- The legion, brothers.

- Hello, Cuz.

You doing all right?

Good to see you.

Good to see you.

Mikyong, how are you?

Good to see you.

What you think, man?

- Yeah.

She's here, man,
that's the main thing.

She's here.

- Dude, it's...

- Are you excited?
- Very, very.

- Program's clean.

What do y'all think, man?

- I'm ready to start it.

- Give it a try?

- Just make sure it's
in neutral.

Turn the key on.

Let her rip.

- Yeah, it's in neutral.

Hey, you want to sit on it?

- Jesse, why don't you
sit on it?

That way, you can balance it,
'cause it's not on the stand.

There you go.

Pop the thrust, get some fuel
in that bad boy.

Yeah!

Whoo-hoo-hoo!

- All right!

Whoo!

- Just hearing the bike,

It was almost
hearing my dad again.

Like, "I'm here."

Like, "I'm right here."

- There are just certain spots
around the world

Where I feel like I can
just kind of get lost,

You know, just being
able to disappear.

Every soldier
I ever led in action

Was wounded or killed.

What does that say about me?

What does it say
about my abilities as a leader?

What does it say
about me as a soldier?

Everybody was off the hill,

And I walked back up on the hill
to where I knew J.D Had been,

And I just started
kind of doing a loop,

Looking for anything I could.

I looked.

I couldn't find anything.

It...

All that could come
to mind for me was this poem,

"futility" by Wilfred Owen.

There was all this...

There was this pervasive naivety
about what modern war was about.

And then, the trenches of Europe

Wiped out a generation.

"Move him into the sun.

"gently its touch
awoke him once,

"at home, whispering
of fields un-sown.

"always it woke him,
even in France,

"until this morning
and this snow.

"If anything might rouse him now

"the kind old sun will know.

"think how it wakes the seeds...

"woke once the seeds
of a cold star.

"are limbs, so dear-achieved,
sides

"full-nerved, too hard to stir?

"Was it for this
the clay grew tall?

"o what made fatuous
sunbeams toil

"to break earth's sleep at all?

Here's another one.

I'm gonna slide next to you.

- You know, what's amazing to e
is, we're not dead.

Because they don't put
things out like this

Unless you're dead.

- Well, there's a difference
between a monument

That's why it's a monument,
and not a memorial.

- Exactly.