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In the criminal justice
system,

sexually based offenses

are considered
especially heinous.

In New York City,
the dedicated detectives

who investigate
these vicious felonies

are members
of an elite squad

known as
the Special Victims Unit.

These are their stories.

Come on, Noah,
bark like a dog.

Woof, woof!

Now eat your food,
little doggie.

- I said, eat it.
- No!

Noah! Your mom's here.

Hudson, what's going on?

Nothing.
We were just playing.

Noah, are you okay?

We were just messing around.

Hudson made us play
cats and dogs.

Boys will be boys, right?

Noah, where's your coat?

Annie, say goodbye to Noah.

Bye, Noah.

Let's get you home.

- Okay.
- Come on.

So, Noah, you wanna tell me
what was going on back there

at Hudson and Annie's?

How about,
why is your neck so red, honey?

'Cause it looked like...

If I tell you,
will you stop asking?

Yes.

Honey, just tell me
what's going on, please.

Hudson's a jerk.

He put his dog's collar on me,
locked me in the cage.

Then he wanted me
to eat dog food.

- What?
- I said no.

I don't want to talk
about it anymore, okay?

Once again,
repeating our top story.

Tony Delgado, the long-tenured
teacher and coach

from East Harlem Prep,
was found dead

in his burning apartment
early this morning.

Police are still investigating

possible arson.

Tino, are you done
with your homework?

All done, Uncle Carlos.

Okay, I'm gonna step out
for a minute.

I'm gonna swing by Maya's.
Are you okay?

Yeah, I just wanna stay home.

Listen, don't tell your dad
or abuela that I left.

If they call,
I'm in the bathroom. Yeah?

Okay.

Death to tyrants!

Hi.
Are you Tino?

I'm SlayerKidd's dad.

My son asked me
to pick you up.

Yeah. Where... where is he?

Oh,
he's finishing his homework.

- Oh.
- He's gonna meet us, though.

Okay.

Just, uh, just shove
that stuff on the floor.

You know, my son says
you're a really good gamer.

You're hitting those
pretty hard.

Why don't you cut me
some slack, okay?

Sorry.

Um, can I get some ice cream?

No, baby,
you already had some.

Go get ready for bed
and brush your teeth.

But I'm not tired.

I got him.

Why don't you come over here,

and I'll read you a story,
yeah?

What about this one.
You read this one?

- No.
- No? Okay.

Well, here we go.

I'm home.

Got home from work early.

Hello?

Where is everybody?

Yo.

Where's Tino?

What do you mean?
He's not here?

No.

Where you been?

- I went out, man.
- I got him a... got him a juice.

You were supposed to be
watching him.

Wait...

Mami, is Tino with you?

No, no, no, just, um...
Just come home.

- He's not with Mami.
- Okay.

- Maybe he went out.
- He went out?

Carlos,
where the hell is he gonna go?

He's eight.

Hey, you been drinking?

I had a beer.

Come on, Carlos! God.

- Where you going?
- I'm gonna go look for him

- at the playground.
- I'm gonna come with you.

No, you ain't going nowhere.
Stay right here,

like you shoulda done
in the first place.

- God.
- Come on, Seby.

Come on nothing, Carlos.

So where's SlayerKidd?

Still at the library.

Hey, I'm gonna take
a picture of us.

And I'll send it to him.

Is this your guys' house?

Where's his mom?

She's working late.

It's dark out.

My son,
he really wants to see you.

Hey, how about I order us
a pizza? Huh?

I feel dizzy.

I should go home.

Oh, why don't I get you some
more of that special soda?

I wasn't supposed to be here.

I have a new game
I wanna show you.

I promised my uncle.
I have to go.

Ah!

I can't let you do that.

*LAW AND ORDER
SPECIAL VICTIMS UNIT*

*LAW AND ORDER SPECIAL VICTIMS UNIT*
Season 23 Episode 11

Episode Title: "Burning with Rage Forever"
Aired on: January 13, 2022.

So Tino's eight?
How long has he been missing?

Going on seven hours.

No cell phone,
no way to track him.

Looks like he left in
a gray hoodie with a backpack.

Did the parents talk
to his friends?

Mother's deceased.

There's a father,
father's brother, grandmother.

Home seems a little chaotic.

So you suspect abuse?

My sergeant said
better safe than sorry.

- That's why we called you guys.
- Thank you.

Well, those cops are useless.
Why haven't they found my son?

Mr. Guzmán, everybody is
doing all that they can.

We're checking
local security footage.

We're canvassing
with Tino's photo.

When was the last time
someone saw him?

Well, my brother was supposed
to be watching him.

Seby, stop blaming Carlos.

Carlos, so you were here
with your nephew until when?

This is all my fault, okay?

I left around 4:00.
He was fine.

He was playing online
video games in the room.

And he doesn't have a phone?

- No. I told the other cops.
- Just a desk computer.

Okay, so does he have
an iPad or an email address?

Just a school iPad,
but he can't game on that.

Okay, so this is
the only place he plays?

Sometimes I let him use
my laptop.

Okay, we're gonna need
to take a look at that too.

Okay.

Okay, uh, I didn't notice this,

but he must have taken it,
'cause it's gone.

Fin's on his way.

Are we in the right place?

TARU confirmed, they were
able to track the signal

from Carlos' computer
to this building.

But they can't pinpoint
an apartment?

We gotta do it
the old-fashioned way.

Hey.

Hey, have you seen this kid?

His name's Tino Guzmán.

No, uh-huh.

- Hi, I'm looking for a kid.
- He's about eight years old.

He was wearing
a hoodie and sweatpants.

- Mm-mm.
- No.

I may have seen this kid

go into
that apartment over there.

- Okay.
- You know your neighbors?

Most of them.

But that one,
there's a lot of turnover,

a lot of people
coming and going.

- Okay, thank you.
- Mm-hmm.

NYPD, open up.

Fin, Velasco.

- NYPD!
- Police!

- Go!
- Move! Police!

Tino?

Here.

Hey.

Here. Hey.

Are you okay?

I'm gonna get these things
off of you, all right?

There you go.

Place is clear.
The guy is gone.

- They guy that took you...
- Where'd he go?

I don't know.

Please, I just wanna go home.

Come here.

Hey.

How is he?

He's tired, but...

okay, considering.

He's got some anal abrasions,
traces of pre-ejaculate.

We're... we're processing
the DNA.

And the blood work showed
alcohol and cold medicine.

Okay.

- You guys run the apartment?
- Yeah, it's a rental.

Nobody's on the lease
right now,

and the building's light
on security cams.

Fin and Velasco are trying
to track down

the part-time super.

Was Tino able
to tell you anything?

He hasn't... he hasn't spoken
much since I picked him up.

But the one thing...

When the uni tried to unbuckle
his seat belt,

he yelled, "No me toques."

- "Don't touch me."
- Yeah.

Poor kid.

Fin.

The super said
he cut a side deal

with an unlicensed broker
who was renting this spot out

for short stays.

He'd take a $50 kickback.

Okay,
who was his last client?

I just spoke to the broker,
and I told him

I needed a place to rent
tonight to, uh,

get away from my wife.

I'm gonna meet him in an hour.

Great. Keep me posted.

I thought you were renting
the apartment with her.

Yeah, well,
you thought wrong.

And what you're doing
is illegal.

Maybe I'm not filling out
the paperwork.

But I'm just helping
these guys.

- Like I was gonna help you...
- Who'd you run into yesterday?

That's confidential.

I have to protect my clients.

- My business is based on trust.
- Trust?

You know the last person you
trusted that apartment with

kidnapped, drugged,
and assaulted a kid?

I had nothing to do
with that.

Great. Then you'll cooperate.

He didn't give me
his real name.

But he... he Venmo'd me.

Give me your phone. Now.

So it turns out
his Venmo account

is as faked
as his gaming profile.

We tracked
one of his credit cards.

SlayerKidd's real name is
Theodore "Teddy" Murtaugh.

He's 39 years old. No record.

Copy that, Captain.

We got the go-ahead
to arrest?

Yeah, we take it easy.
Don't make any accusations.

We're really gonna show this
piece of crap consideration?

Yeah, if we want him
to talk to us.

We don't want him
to see us judge him.

NYPD.

Anybody home?

So we go in, right?

Hey, we have a warrant.

We're coming in.

NYPD. Teddy Murtaugh?

Whoa.

That's a lot of blood.

Call a bus.

Got a pulse.

SVU portable, rush a bus
to 1208 Whittier Street.

Unconscious male, bleeding out.

This guy, Murtaugh...
How bad is he wounded?

Multiple stab wounds.

Arms, legs, groin.

He lost a lot of blood.
He's still in surgery.

And Tino made the ID?

Well, we're getting that now.

And we're running
Murtaugh's DNA.

His phone is missing,
so we're searching his car,

his apartment, his computer.

But, of course, his files are
multiply encrypted,

so TARU's going through.

Stabbed in the groin?

Day after Tino was assaulted?

That's not a coincidence.
That's revenge.

Yeah. We'll be talking
to Tino's family.

Look, somebody found out
where he lived

and got there before we did.

Him.

That's the man who took you
and kept you in that apartment?

You sure?

I'm sure.

You did really good, Tino.

Are you done?

Yeah.

He can go play in his room,
right?

Yeah, I'll let you know
if I need

to talk to you again, okay?

How's he doing?

He's been quiet.

The thing he liked more than
anything was his video games.

Mm-hmm.

I don't know what to tell him
about all this.

Well,
you tell him he's brave,

that you love and support him
no matter what.

What if he wants to talk
about it?

I would really urge you

to take him to that counselor
I recommended.

This man's been arrested?

He's in custody.

And I have to ask you,

what time did Seby get home
last night?

Last night? He never left.

I was home all night.

You can ask my mother,
taking care of my son.

Why would you even ask me that?

Because, Seby,

our suspect was found
beaten and stabbed.

He's still in the hospital.

That damn animal. Good.

He doesn't deserve
to draw another breath.

So do you have any idea
who might have done that?

If it was me,
he wouldn't be in surgery.

He'd be in the morgue.

And I wouldn't lose
a minute of sleep over it.

Benson.

Last night, I had to get
the hell out of here, okay?

Every time I looked at Tino,
he was...

He was quiet.

I'm worried about him, man.
It's like he's gone.

He's... he's broken,
and he can't be fixed.

It's gonna take
some time, Carlos.

Yeah.

So last night, you went out.
What time?

Halftime for the Knicks game,
so, like, 8:30, maybe.

- Adónde fuiste?
- I was just out walking.

Look, Carlos.

Somebody got to this Teddy guy
before we did.

Stabbed him.
He's in the hospital.

Well, it wasn't me.

I swear,
I was at my girlfriend's.

So if I call her,
she's gonna confirm?

Don't call her right now.

She's got a kid
she's looking after.

You know what?

Whoever beat up this scumbag,
if it was my nephew,

I would've done the same thing,
all right?

But I need you to tell us
where you were last night.

I was at my girlfriend's.

You wanna call her,
you can call her.

Yeah, Carlos came by.

He's been a total wreck
over Tino.

I don't know how he's ever
gonna get through it.

It's good he has you
to be there for him.

- How long did he stay?
- All night.

- He left early this morning.
- Mami, can I have a juice box?

Here, pequeño.

Why don't you go play
on the slide?

What a cute kid.

I got a daughter
around his age.

I'll leave you to it.

Hand to God,

if anyone ever did to Andre
what that man did to Tino...

I feel the same way.

Any word
on Murtaugh's condition?

He's out of surgery,

but he still hasn't
regained consciousness.

We got this guy
dead to rights.

Kid ID'd him,
and his DNA's a match.

What about his computer,
the laptop?

TARU is still working on it.

They're searching his car,
his apartment.

What about the other kids
that play that video game?

- Did he DM them?
- Yeah, he did.

But Tino's the only one we can
find that he met in person.

Okay.

Do we have any leads on who put
Murtaugh in the hospital?

Seby and Carlos deny it.
We confirmed their alibi.

It's his mother
and a girlfriend,

so do we really believe that?

Do we care?

Is it worth the shoe leather?

- We do, Velasco, and it is.
- Yes.

We all know Murtaugh
is good for it.

Even so, that's our job.

That's not
the victim's family's.

The real question is,

if Seby or Carlos did do this,

how did they get there
before we did?

I don't know, but they did.

Security cam footage
from across the street.

Son of a bitch.

It is Carlos.

I was at Maya's, and I know
she told the detectives that.

- So I... I...
- Yeah.

Because you asked her to lie.

And she did.

Carlos, we're on your side.
Okay?

What you did, we get it.

Look, man,
you gotta come clean.

We checked the cameras.

We have the cell phone records
that put you there.

Don't make this any worse
by lying to us.

What happened to Tino,
all of it, is my fault.

How could I leave him there
like that?

I-I can't eat.
I can't sleep.

- I feel sick all the time.
- Carlos.

How did you know
where Murtaugh lived?

I don't want anyone else
to get in trouble.

He's just a kid,
but he's smart.

Tino?

Yeah.

When the guy came
to pick him up,

his car was messy.

Food, bills, receipts.

Tino had a bad feeling
about it,

so he pocketed
one of the bills.

He didn't tell you guys
'cause he... he didn't want

to get in trouble
for taking something

that didn't belong to him.

Okay, why don't you walk us
through this, Carlos?

Okay.
I knocked on the door.

He opened up.

I pushed my way inside.

I was just so angry,
I was... I was...

I was out of my head.

And he was just standing here

with this stupid little
smirk on his face.

"Why are you so upset?"
he asked me.

"What happened to Tino,
he wanted it."

He said that?

I just felt so sick.

It was like he was reliving
the thing.

He said he had a camera

and he filmed some of it
so he could watch it back

whenever he wanted.

He said
Tino's skin was so soft.

He said that he could tell
by the noises he was making

that... that he was enjoying it.

So I snapped.

I went to the kitchen.
I grabbed a knife.

I just... I needed him to feel

as scared as Tino
must have felt.

And I closed my eyes,
and I stabbed him.

I screwed up.

'Cause I shouldn't have left
until I was sure

that he bled out.

That's a tough story.

Yes, it is.

And I hope he pleads guilty,

because that story
in front of a New York jury?

All the press?

This trial's gonna turn
into a real... show.

Elvis,
thank you for helping us.

All right, you're a hero
in the neighborhood.

Your brother Carlos
is the hero.

This lawyer, Mr. Spiro,
you trust him?

He's done time
for assault himself.

Makes me trust him even more.

Spiro spent 14 years
in the prison library

absorbing every law book
known to man.

Came out to graduate
Cornell Law, top honors.

He's meticulous.

I need it much quieter
in here, folks.

Carlos Guzmán,
charged with assault one

and attempted murder.
How do you plead?

Not guilty, Your Honor.

We request to be released
on his own recognizance.

The People request $50,000,
Your Honor.

Mr. Guzmán put a man
in the ICU.

Your Honor, my client's
record is clean as a whistle.

He understands ROR is
a binding legal promise

to stay out of trouble
and return to court.

He gives his word that
he'll abide by that promise.

Only wants to be home,
caring for his nephew.

Childcare is not
a get out of jail free card.

I'm setting bail at $25,000.
Next case.

I don't have
that kind of money.

Don't worry about it.
We'll get you out of here.

Stay strong.

This isn't right.

- He was just protecting Tino.
- Breathe, Seby.

GoFundMe's up to 60K.

That's enough
to make bail and fight.

Let's go, Seby.

No,
I want to see him plead guilty.

Case number 08950,
People v. Theodore Murtaugh,

on the charges
of kidnapping in the first

and three counts
of criminal sexual act.

State your plea.

Not guilty, Your Honor.

People on bail?

Apologies, Your Honor,
I was, uh...

I was under the impression
that we were

working out a deal
for Mr. Murtaugh.

Well,
consider it late breaking news.

In that case,
People request $500,000.

Mr. Murtaugh is a violent
sexual offender. He is...

Your Honor,
may I say something?

And you are?

I'm Seby Guzmán.

This man molested my child.

All I need is five minutes
with him.

Mr. Guzmán, please sit down.

I'm asking, Judge,
just two minutes.

Mr. Guzmán, sit down.

Oh, you son of a bitch!

Hey, wipe that smirk
off your face.

Look what he did
to my family, to my son!

I understand your anger,
Mr. Guzmán.

This is a court of law.

Bail is set at $250,000.

Free Carlos! Free Carlos!

Mr. Carisi.

Why didn't Murtaugh
plead guilty?

He wants to take this
to trial.

Does that mean Tino's gonna
have to testify?

Possibly.

Were you able to get in touch
with a social worker?

My mother doesn't believe
in that.

Would it help if
I spoke with her...

No.

I'll make an appointment.

You're not really gonna go
through with this, are you?

Carlos is a hero.

Even so, he broke the law.

You can tell his lawyer
I'm open to a deal.

Get that pedophile
to plead guilty first.

I'm not gonna give up
fighting for Carlos.

You shouldn't either.

Free Carlos! Free Carlos!

Seby, let's get your brother
and take him home.

Free Carlos! Free Carlos!

You've got your work
cut out for you.

I'll talk
to Murtaugh's lawyer.

Maybe this is just a ploy.

Hopefully.

Look, I never said
we weren't open to a deal.

Well, that's good to hear,
because your client's guilty.

He's looking at kidnapping,
sexual assault of a minor.

Hold on,
I did not kidnap Tino.

He got into my car willingly.

He wanted to play video games.

He said he was home alone.

He was feeling
lonely and scared.

That doesn't explain
your seminal fluid

on the kid's underwear.

Yeah,
he was sitting on my couch.

He sat on my lap.

He used my bathroom...

Or the anal trauma.

Oh, the poor kid had
stomach issues.

He was in my bathroom
a long time.

Okay, Teddy.

You left him zip-tied
to a radiator.

Oh, that was his idea.

It's one of the levels
of the Tyrant's Curse

that you have to escape.

Do you want this
to go to trial?

Because I would love to get
your client on the stand.

O-okay, Teddy.

Let's listen
to what Mr. Carisi has to say.

Okay, what are you offering?

Kidnapping's an A-1 felony.
That's 25 to life.

Add the criminal sexual acts,
you're looking at 50 to life.

Now, my guess is, your client
would like a nice flat number.

20 years.

- Can meet you halfway.
- How's ten?

Ten years
without a computer?

- Let me talk to my client...
- I'm still at 20.

- Yes or no?
- Give me a few minutes.

Look, you chose this job.

Don't be mad because
you actually have to do it.

- Well, now you're at 25.
- Keep talking.

You got five minutes.

Murtaugh thinks that he can
get away with only ten years?

- I mean, he turned down 25.
- He wants this to go to trial.

We got a strong case.

But Tino's testimony
puts him away for life.

Do you want me
to help prep him?

Well, you took
his initial disclosure.

- It would be helpful.
- Okay.

- Mr. Guzmán is here.
- Send him in.

Where's Tino?
Is he... is he okay?

No.

I'm sorry,
I can't let him testify.

I told him last night,
and he had nightmares.

And he didn't go to school
in the morning.

But did you tell him that he
wouldn't have to see Murtaugh,

that he can testify on video?

I'm not putting him
through this.

All right?
I have to take care of my son.

Okay, I understand.

Didn't we videotape Tino
at the Child Advocacy Center?

Yeah, we did,
but we can't use that in trial

unless the defense can
cross-examine.

What about Carlos?

He told us
that Murtaugh confessed to him.

You want my client
to testify for you?

Tough ask, considering
you're prosecuting him

for attempted murder.

Well,
I can talk to my superiors

about reducing the charges.

But I assume, since your client
almost killed Mr. Murtaugh,

that last thing he wants is
to see him walk.

Hey, what do you mean, walk?
That can't happen.

No, it shouldn't.

But your family does not want
Tino to testify.

And I still need the jury
to hear

what that animal did
to your nephew.

Now, you told the detectives

that Mr. Murtaugh confessed
to you.

He gave you details
about the assault.

- Is that true?
- Yeah, I swear to God he did.

And I'll tell the jury
exactly that.

Good. And he said
he had video of Tino?

Yeah.

Here's my problem.

We searched his house.
We searched his car,

his cloud account.
We didn't find anything.

So I have to ask you,

did he really say that?

First you want
my client's testimony.

Now you're accusing him
of lying.

I'm not lying.

There is a video.

It was on his phone.

I took it 'cause

I didn't want
anyone else watching it.

While we're gratified
that Teddy Murtaugh

will spend the rest
of his life behind bars

on federal
child pornography charges,

we're angry
that the DA has failed to make

Carlos Guzmán, whose
cooperation led directly

to Murtaugh's conviction,
a reasonable plea deal.

We are planning
on taking this to trial

and are confident
that a jury of his peers

will vindicate Carlos
with breathtaking speed.

Look, whatever you wanna say
about Baktashi,

he knows how to play
the media game.

- He does. And that crowd?
- Half of New York think

Carlos is a hero.

Well, he did help us
get Murtaugh.

What is Carisi offering?

Assault one,
five years down from ten.

I wouldn't take that either.

What would Carisi have done
if it was one of his nephews?

It's not Carisi's call,
Velasco.

Carlos' girlfriend Maya
and her son Andre are here.

She brought her son in?

What's going on, Maya?

I'm literally shaking
right now.

I don't know
what the hell to do.

I'm Captain Benson.

Can I help you?

Is there some place
Andre can wait?

Yeah, I got you.

Hey, little man.
Wanna get something to eat?

I can take him with me.

You wanna come?

- Come with me.
- There you go.

Yeah,
why don't you give us a sec?

Is, uh... is your son okay?

No, h-he's not.

I saw Carlos on TV,
said, "Andre, come look."

He walked in, said,
"Why are they cheering?

Turn that off."

He started to cry.

He said he never wanted
to see Carlos again.

I asked Andre why
he didn't want to see Carlos.

He said he was scared Carlos
was gonna touch him again.

I almost threw up.

Did he say how or when?

Yesterday.
They were in the bathroom.

Yesterday.

So Carlos came over
after he made bail?

He was a mess.
Drinking.

Andre was in the shower.
He forgot to bring a towel.

Carlos went in to help him.

How could I not have known?

Did Andre
say anything last night?

No, but he was really quiet.

He said his stomach hurt.

He didn't eat his dinner.

And how long have
you and Carlos been dating?

We met over the summer
at Orchard Beach.

Andre really liked him.

He's so good with kids.

His nephew...

Most guys my age,
they see you have kids,

they run the other way.

Do you... you think that's why?

Did he ever spend
any time alone with Andre?

I know... I know this is tough.

Can you think back?
Anything?

I'm trying to think back.

He always came over to my place

'cause of that house, with
his brother and his mother.

If he ever tried
to get Andre alone,

I didn't... I didn't notice.

Did you talk
to Carlos about his?

It turned into
one of our screaming matches.

First,
he said it never happened.

Then he said
it was an accident.

Then he said he was sorry,
that it was the first time.

It would never happen again.

So we're gonna need
to speak with Andre now.

With me, right?

Actually, sometimes
it's easier for a child

to open up if the parent
isn't in the room.

Right there. Carlos put
his hand on me there.

Andre,
I'm sorry that happened to you.

But it's really good
that you told your mom.

She was mad.

But not at you.
You know that, right?

- Mm-hmm.
- This isn't your fault.

It was a bad touch.

Yeah?
How did you know that, Andre?

They told us in school.

Yeah,
Andre and I were talking about

what he's learned at school
about good touches

- and bad touches.
- Mm-hmm.

And you know the difference,
Andre?

Mm-hmm. A good touch is
like a handshake.

- And a hug?
- Good.

But when Carlos touched you
in the bathroom?

It was bad.

Mm-hmm. Had he ever done
that before, Andre?

No.

Just good touches at first.

I don't want Carlos
to get in trouble.

I just don't want him
to do it again.

So either Carlos did this,

or Maya realized there was
100 grand

in the GoFundMe account
and is shaking him down.

Kid is credible, Velasco.

We go pick up Carlos,
get his side.

'Cause Maya told him already,
right?

She did, and they went at it.
So you can't ruse him.

And he's had time to figure
out how to explain it away.

I don't get it.

Carlos tries to kill Murtaugh
because of what he did

to his nephew, and meanwhile,

he was doing the same thing
to Andre?

We don't have
the full story yet.

But I'll get you warrants for
his phone, for his computer.

But we need
to pick up Carlos now.

He knows we're onto him,
and we know he can be violent.

We do.

So that's why we need to stay
calm and wear our vests.

Oh, guys, hold on.

We may be past that.

Just got a text from Elvis.

Carlos is on the roof,
threatening to jump.

Let's go.

Thank you for coming.

I didn't wanna call 911.

What's going on with Carlos?

I came over to talk to him
about doing a radio show,

and he was drunk, raving.

Kept saying, "I'm no hero."

I ain't never seen him
so upset.

He was crying like a baby.

I had my mother take Tino
to the library.

What the hell
was he talking about?

I don't know.
He said he did a bad thing.

I got no idea.

Is he still on the roof?

I'm afraid
he's gonna hurt himself.

Is he armed?

I tried to talk to him.

He pulled a knife,
told me to get the hell away.

HNT and the jumper squad
are on their way.

In the meantime,
I will talk to him.

Captain,
I'd like to come with.

All right,
you let me take the lead.

Rollins, go talk to Tino,
see if there are any issues

- that we missed.
- On it, Captain.

Come on.

Okay.

Carlos.

Just leave me alone.

I just wanna talk.

I begged Maya
not to tell you guys.

I told her
it would never happen again.

Look, I know you, man.

I know you would never hurt
a kid, man.

No, I wouldn't.

I just wanna hurt myself, okay?

Carlos, what you're feeling
right now, this...

That's not
how you're gonna feel forever.

No, I deserve to die.

Carlos, you know what?
I'm glad you said that.

I'm glad that you said
that you deserve to die.

Because I do.

Because the scariest thing
that you could tell me

is that you want to die.

But you said
you deserve to die,

which means that part of you
wants to live.

No, I don't deserve to live.

What I put Andre through,
he's never gonna get over that.

- You don't know that.
- Yes, I do.

- I know that for a fact.
- How?

How do you know for a fact?

Because it happened to me,
and I never got over it.

It happened to me, and...

I never told anyone,
and I don't know why.

Well, you can tell us,
Carlos.

Carlos.

We want...

We want to understand.

- I'm sorry.
- I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

So you saw in the news
that your teacher died

in that fire?

I hadn't thought about it
in 20 years.

And then it all just came
flooding back.

How old were you?

My father had been gone
for years.

I was in the third grade.

Mr. Delgado could see
that I was hurting.

He made me feel like...
Like I wasn't alone.

And he asked me to help him
and stay after class,

and I felt important.

And then one day,
my shirt was untucked,

and he said that wasn't
allowed.

And then what did he do?

We were alone
in the classroom,

so he helped me
tuck it back in.

That's how it started.

And that went on until...

Middle school.

Carlos, we have to ask...

That fire
where he was killed...

I didn't have anything
to do with it.

But I am glad he's dead,

'cause he's in hell,
where he belongs.

He was the bright boy.

Yeah, he was gonna make
us all proud.

Then, one year,
he just stopped studying,

started acting out.

Why didn't he tell anybody?

For so many reasons.

But Seby, you need to be there
for Carlos now.

Hmm?
And for your son.

Thank you.

His teacher died,
Tino gets abused,

and he gets triggered,

so he goes after Teddy,

and everybody calls him a hero.

He... he can't handle it.

Starts devolving,
self-loathing.

He ends up at Maya's
with Andre.

These cycles of abuse
are so much greater

than one single act.

And they never go away.

So, Mr. Carisi,

leaving aside
the assault on Murtagh,

on this charge,
Carlos is contrite.

Single moment of confusion.

For him, maybe.
Not for Andre.

But I'm aware of
the mitigating circumstances.

We're prepared to charge Carlos
with sex abuse two,

a misdemeanor.

Because Andre's
under 18 years old,

Carlos has to go
on the registry.

The registry?

Carlos is not a predator.
He's a victim.

If we have to take this
to trial, we will.

No, we won't.

I'm not making
that kid testify.

I'll plead guilty.

Okay, good.

I'll talk to the DA
about the assault charges

on Murtagh,
see where we stand with that.

Hey, you're doing
the right thing.

Just keep your head down,
back to the wall,

and you're gonna be okay.

You should've let me jump...

for everybody's sake.

One way or another,
I have been dead

since I was nine years old.

Thanks, Carisi.

Four years, all in,
mandatory counseling,

Maybe he makes it through.

You can hope.

We just need to follow up

that Tino and Andre
get the help they need.

Yeah.

You going home to the girls?

- Yeah.
- Good.

You know, with our kids,
do you ever worry

that, um,
we're missing something

like Carlos' mom did?

- Oh, God, please. Great.
- Let's hope not.

'Cause parenting,
you do the best you can.

You never feel
like it's enough.

So Annie's mom called

and wanted to have
another playdate,

and I said
that it would be better

if she came to our house.

You didn't tell her it was
about Hudson and the dog cage.

Actually, I did.

Mom, I asked you not to.

- Well...
- Hudson's just an idiot.

No one likes him anyway.

He bullies everyone.

It was just my turn
to be his target.

Why?

I don't know.

First, he went after Corey

'cause Corey told everyone

their pronouns are they/them,

and Hudson started calling
Corey a fairy.

So then I said that I was bi

and that there's no shame
in being true to yourself.

That's right, Noah.

So you stood up for Corey...

and stood up for yourself.

And that is incredibly brave.

Well, it's my truth.

I just hadn't told anybody
before.

Well, thank you
for telling me.

No big deal.

It's not like I have
a boyfriend or girlfriend.

It's just not fair
for anybody to be left out.

I hear that.

I'm really proud of you.

Okay.

Anyway, could we go eat now?

Yes.