All language subtitles for Please.Like.Me.S02E07.Scroggin.720p.WEB-DL.AAC2.0.H.264-PLMBR-DTRC-eng

- Okay, we need to get some water.
- I forgot to fill my water bottle up.

No, you don't need to. There's
meant to be a tank around here.

I'm sorry, Josh,

I'm just a bit nervous about everything.

No, it's all right.
We'll be fine. Let's do it.

I'm just afraid we might
have forgotten something.

- That's all.
- Nope.

One, two.

One, two, three, four.

Yeah.

I'll be fine.

Yeah.

Yeah.

The good Lord knows it.

The good Lord knows it.

I left the bad behind.
I'll be fi-i-i-ine, yeah.

May the momma get another buck.

Fi-i-i-ine, yeah.

Left the bad behind.
I'll be fi-i-i-ine on mon's own.

Ma, Ma.

You don't...

Don't feel like you need to fill out

all the quiet space, okay?

There's only five
days of quiet space, okay?

Sorry, just...

try not to be the donkey to my Shrek, yeah?

- All right.
- Okay.

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Ma, are you okay?

There's a big hill coming.

Do you want me to take some of your stuff?

Ma?

Hey, Ma.

Ma, do you need a rest?

Ma?

I'm sorry, Shrek.

I was just trying to give
you some quiet space.

What are you making?

Macaroni and cheese.

Macaroni and cheese,

yes, please, macaroni and cheese.

What a tease.

Macaroni.

That's beautiful.

Mac is back with cheese.

Yes, please.

Do you remember you when you were a scout?

Yeah, of course I remember.

Did you get your mac and cheese badge?

I got my camp cooking badge, yes.

Were you ever touched?

Pardon?

By a scout master?

No.

No, I was not touched.

Why?

Just thought maybe you had

but nobody ever asked you about it.

No. I was never touched.

And I was never touched as a kid.
People don't generally like touching me.

Here we go about Patrick again.

No, we're
not going about Patrick.

Patrick! Patrick!

What a prick! Patrick!

You're a prick teaser.

Actually, that's pretty clever.

Yeah.

Joshua, can you help your mother, please?

Yup.

You know why I wanted to
come on this hike, don't you?

After Ginger killed herself,

you couldn't stay in that hospital

'cause that's depressing.

But it's a horrible
idea for you to be home alone

so, here we are, in a creek.

Yup.

It's getting late.

- Let's keep moving.
- Yeah.

- Like a shark.
- Okay.

Stop it.

What are you reading?

"History of Sexuality."

You're reading an erotic book?

No.

How much have you read?

About half.

What's it about?

I have no idea.

I don't know why she didn't tell me.

Okay.

We're talking about Ginger, yeah? I knew
this would happen. I am prepared.

I thought we were friends. I just
don't know why she didn't tell me.

I dunno. You didn't tell
anyone when you did it.

It's different.

- How?
- I didn't plan it.

She planned it.

Okay.

She left me a note.

Okay.

I haven't read it.

Well, maybe the note will tell you

why she didn't tell you.

She didn't want to tell me because
she knew I'd stop her.

Yeah, wouldn't you have stopped her?

Yeah, of course.

Yeah, so that makes sense.

It's just that I would have thought
that she'd want to be stopped.

You never really wanted to be stopped.

It was different.

All right then.

You know I'm sorry about when I tried?

Yeah, I know.

- Okay.
- Okay.

It's okay to be angry if you want.

No, I don't want to be angry, okay?

I always assumed it wasn't about me.

Morning!

God.

How are you awake?

There's a side walk we can
do today to a waterfall.

It's an extra seven kilometers.

Are they all drugs?

No wonder our packs are so heavy.

Do you want to go? It's a lot of walking.

I don't mind.

- Whatever you want.
- No, I don't mind either.

- It's up to you.
- No, I don't mind.

- Do you feel up to it?
- Just tell me what you want, Josh.

- I want whatever you want.
- Why can't you just tell me what you want

instead of carrying on like everything
you do to me is a big fat favor?

- Just trying to be easy.
- Yeah, well, you're being a shit.

Alright, well, let's
not go to the waterfall.

No, let's not go to
the bloody waterfall then.

Yeah. Fuck the waterfall.

Yeah.

Have you ever wanted to
try and kill yourself?

Gosh. No.

- Not really.
- Never?

There's been times where,

like, I didn't want
to feel anything anymore

and it seemed like a nice idea

but all those times, they passed.

Okay.

Yeah.

So how did they pass?

Well, I dunno.

Maybe "Everybody Loves Raymond" came on.

Maybe someone offered me pancakes.

I love pancakes.

But you never wanted
to do anymore than that?

Once when I was 19,
I wrote a suicide note.

I'm sorry.

No, I don't think that's a big deal, is it?

To want to kill yourself for an afternoon?

That's normal.

As long as you don't actually try.

What did your note say?

I can't remember.

Probably something very teen angsty.

You must remember what it said.

Okay, fine.

I remember but I just...

I don't want to reflect on it.

I don't really want to reflect on

any of the decisions I made
as a teenager, to be honest.

What, like when you
started dressing like Eminem?

Yeah.

Or that shirt. Do you remember that
shirt you made and then you wore it.

It said, "Some people think that
we only use 10% of our brains

but I think we only use 10% of our hearts."

Of our hearts.

Yes. Insightful. It's an insightful quote.

I was an insightful teenager.

Sorry, the beans.

Don't want to talk about it.

Lucky we're not sharing
the same sleeping bag.

Not listening.

So you never have opinions on anything.

Like, I don't think I've ever heard you

have an opinion on anything.

There's too many opinions
these days, Josh.

Everybody seems to think
that they have to have an opinion.

Okay, good, you have opinions on opinions.

No, it's...

I mean, it's fine if they
want to have opinions.

And I do have opinions, by the way.

Maybe you've just never heard them.

Okay. Well, let's play a game

where I ask you about something

and you have to have an opinion on it.

Yeah, okay. Yeah, I can do that.

Okay? So, Mother, what's your
opinion on "Australian Idol"?

The judges are too mean.

Okay. In the first two seasons but
then they became, like, sickly nice.

I knew you
didn't really want my opinion.

What about...

God?

Well, I don't believe in God, but,

I don't like it

when you go around telling
people that He doesn't exist.

- But He doesn't exist.
- Why do you bother them?

Well, the other day, a
Christian politician said

that God sent AIDS to kill gays.

I hate-I just-I think I'm
allowed to rebut that.

Well, that guy sounds like an idiot.

You're allowed to bother him.

Okay.

Just, mostly I'm just surprised
that God couldn't come up

with a better plan than AIDS, you know?

It's not very efficient.

It doesn't just kill gays.

No, it kills a lot of Africans

but, you know, God is clumsy like that.

He's notoriously clumsy.

Also I don't understand, like,

they got AIDS in the '80s, you know?

It took God six days to make the universe

and that long to come up with AIDS?

Like, what was it about the '80s?

Think he saw George Michael and was, like,

"No! This shit has gone far enough. AIDS!"

Not all Christians believe that.

It's just that one guy.

- Yeah.
- Jesus was fine with gays.

Was he?

Yeah, like, he hung
out with all those blokes

who drank wine and

washed their feet.

Is that a gay thing?

Washing feet?

I've never washed a foot.

Is that what you think we do?
You think we wash feet?

Let's swim, Josh.

God, no. It's freezing.

- I don't have any swimmers.
- It doesn't matter.

You just go in your clothes.
It'll clean them.

Nah. No, that is freezing.

Come on, it'll be fun.

Nope. Don't want to.

You are giving me the shits.

I want to have a nice time.

Yesterday I was getting in trouble

for doing activities

just 'cause you wanted me to do them.

I just want you to want to do things.

I don't want to do a thing, you know?

I don't know how to want to do
a thing I don't want to do.

I know how to lie about it.

You told me not to do that.

It's fuckin' freezing.

Yeah, I said, right?

- Shut up.
- I said, "It's freezing."

Shut up!

It really warmed up, Joshie.

Good. Good.

I'm gonna go to the other side, okay?

Okay.

Okay.

What's up?

There's a snake, Joshie, there's a snake.

- Where?
- My God.

- It swam away.
- Okay.

Good. Good.

No, no, it's in the water.

Eugh! Freaky.

Well, how am I gonna get back?

I dunno.

You just have to swim,
you just have to swim back.

No, I can't do that.

Joshie, can you come and get me, please?

How will that help?

I can't do it on my own. Come on, please.

I get in there, it's just gonna
make a... double-size target.

Well, what do I do?

You just have to swim.
You just have to swim back.

No!

Okay, when I was a scout,
they told us that snakes are,

like, scared of people so
if we just make some noise,

you'll, like, scare it, it'll piss off.

Go away.

Go away, snake, go away!

No, not like that.

You need to, like, on the ground,

jump and stomp or something.

Geez. It's in the water.

Okay, fine, I'll come
in and scare the snake.

Oy, snake!

Snake, snake!

Did you have to hit it like that, Josh?

Yeah, sure. I learned it in scouts.

Plus, there
isn't a fuckin' one.

All right, okay. The snake's scared.

- Come in.
- No, I'm too scared.

Fucking do it.

Don't you swear at me, Joshie.

All right.

Snake, get outta here, snake!

Okay, what are you... keep going.

No, I'm too scared. I'm too scared.

Shit. Okay.

C'mon.

Let's go. Jesus Christ.

You're my hero, you know that?

Yeah.

- Am I your hero.
- Sure. Why not?

You're my hero.

I don't understand how you
never got angry with me.

I'm so angry with Ginger.

You're really stuck on this, yeah?
Do you want me to get angry?

Do you wish I was angry?

I just want to understand

what's going through your head, Josh.

I just try and understand when
you do things like this

that you're doing them because you're ill

and then I don't get angry

the same way you wouldn't get angry

at someone with a cold
for having a runny nose.

That's sort of unfeeling.

No.

I mean, like, sure, sometimes, I got angry,

like, it seems like a pretty crazy way

to get my attention but
also I promise my anger

just never felt like a priority.

I wasn't trying to get your attention.

Really?

No, look, see, a
psychiatrist I saw early on

asked me if I was trying to get attention.

That really surprised me.

What were you trying to do, then?

I was trying to kill myself.

Yeah, of course.

I can't use attention if I'm dead, can I?

The third time, you tried to kill yourself,

there was, like, a day where we didn't know

if your stomach had been pumped in time.

If it had been pumped in time,

they assured me you would be fine.

But if it hadn't,

you were gonna die slowly over two weeks.

Yeah, I know.

Yeah. I just... you're my mum.

Yeah? Just imagine if I had to watch you

die slowly over two weeks.

Watch you kill yourself over two weeks.

'Course, like, I was scared.
I was fuckin' terrified.

But then, when I found out you were fine,

then I got angry.

That was an angry day for me.

And sometimes, when I call you at 2 p.m.

and you're still in bed, not
working at getting better,

then I get angry then,
which I know is harsh

because that's your disease.

It's very hard for you to get out of bed

but if we keep excusing
it because it's your disease,

then you're never gonna get better.

No, I have tried to get better.

Sure. Just don't do it again, right?

Do you want some chili?

Yup.

I brought a little surprise.

- Is that marijuana?
- Yes, I always wanted to try it.

Where did you get that?

Tom. He rolled it for me too.

He's such a nice boy.

I don't really smoke it.

It's all right, lovey, I don't mind.

I know you smoke it.

No, I don't.

It makes me cough and it makes me scared.

Don't be such a pussy.

- A pussy?
- Yeah.

No.

I just-I'm worried we'll
eat all the food, Mom.

We have rations.

Ha. Extra chocolate.

I thought ahead.

I don't know how that's
gonna mix with your medications.

Jesus fuckin' Christ, Joshua.

I am trying to build a
fuckin' bonding moment here.

It's just already so scary here.

All right, all right. We're
gonna need some water.

What?

Nothing, it's nothing.

Here, don't hog it. Don't hog it.

So when do I start feeling high?

Now-ish.

Yeah.

Yeah.

That's good.

It's good.

Already?

That was sudden, wasn't it?

I'm having fun. This is really fun.

Peer pressured into doing drugs by my mum.

This really is fun, Josh.

Why did you and Patrick split up?

I don't want to go over it again.

But you really liked him.

Yeah, I was so happy.
My tummy felt so nice.

Sun was shining, you know,
like, flowers were doing,

like, flowery-type stuff.

Bluebirds were giving each other hand jobs.

It was good.

I don't get that.

What?

Why were they giving each other hand jobs?

It was a joke.

I don't get your jokes, Josh.

Yeah, I know.

You know, I can sort of see it

from Patrick's point of view.

What?

Well, it's hard to imagine you having sex.

Yeah, good. You shouldn't be imagining it.

Because, you're bad at
interacting with people

when you feel self-conscious, that's all.

Suddenly, she has opinions.
Lots of opinions.

Still, you're always questioning things

and seeking approval.

I don't do those
things when I'm having sex.

Well, once I had to
apologize but that was...

that was warranted.

What'd you do?

No. No, I'm not telling you.

I'm so sad, Joshie.

No. I'm just not gonna talk about it.

Don't be such a baby.

I'm not a baby.

Not a baby.

- I'm not a baby.
- "I'm not a baby."

- I'm not a baby.
- "I'm not a baby."

You're a fuckin' baby.

"You're a fuckin' baby."

It's our last day tomorrow.

Yeah, and we didn't see a Tasmanian devil

or a wombat or nothing.

I'm really looking forward to the boat.

I'm looking forward to moving,
not with my legs.

I'm gonna read Ginger's note tomorrow.

What do you reckon it'll say?

I dunno. Could be anything.

Hope it's a treasure map.

You may be bisexual.

No. Gosh, you've really kept your hopes up.

Well, it's just that I've never understood.

You dated Claire for so long.

I just didn't know I was gay yet.

Well, what changed?

I got older, you know?
I got bored with girls.

And also, I just, at the time,
I didn't want to be gay.

No one wants to be gay.

Geoffrey was so pretty.

He forced me to come to terms with it.

Well, did you enjoy having sex with girls?

Yeah, at the time.

Well, doesn't that make you bisexual then?

No. That's a teenager.

Putting your penis anywhere when
you're a teenager is fun.

Plus I tried to have sex with a watermelon.

I wasn't fussy.

I'm gonna go back to the mental home.

And get better.

Yeah, you have to, otherwise,
they're gonna force you

to stay in a public hospital.

Okay. Yeah, that's a point.

No, I want to.

Great. That's great.

I wasn't trying to hurt
you when I attempted.

I didn't... it wasn't like Ginger.

It wasn't planned.

Okay.

Just hadn't been out of bed for two weeks

so I hated myself so much

I just thought everybody
would be happy if I was dead.

I was trying to do you a favor.

Well, I guess that's...

quite selfless of you.

Hah.

Ginger's note.

Okay, let's do it.

I thought we'd have a little ritual, like,

I'll read it out and then we can burn it

and just let it go.

And keep moving like a shark.

Okay.

"Rose, you fat bitch."

"Thanks for keeping me company.

Take care of yourself. Ginger."

That's it?

- Yeah.
- It's hardly closure, is it?

No.

No treasure map?

No.

No.

We're not getting anything out of this.

Yeah.

All right.