All language subtitles for PSYCHOLOGIST EPISODE 37 [VIKI]

♫ With no specter to cut off the waves ♫

♫ With no halo bestowed by heaven ♫

♫ I should admit I was born ordinary ♫

♫ But I'm not resigned
to the silence on stage ♫

♫ Break it down ♫

♫ I'm taking over now ♫

♫ Tough it out. That's what I'm all about ♫

♫ We are destined to
break through a mental wall ♫

♫ To unlock a ray of light ♫

♫ We know there will be infinite waves ♫

♫ Getting in my way ♫

♫ They will build up into roads that
enable me to climb high and see far ♫

♫ To test me, inspire me,
make me and give me courage ♫

♫ I am the master ♫

♫ Of my own destiny ♫

Episode 37

Jiahui,

I... I made some delicious dishes.

If you are not in a hurry,

I'll get you a bowl of rice.

When I was your age,

I'd faint from hunger for missing a meal.

It's dinner time.

Get something for your stomach.

I thought you weren't going to come.

Let me heat these dishes

for you.

Don't bother.

Let's eat.

Okay.

So, you went to see her.

Was she happy to see you?

Your mom

has been like that.

She has good and bad days.

It's not your problem.

Don't take it to...

I mean,

we're getting old.

Sometimes,

we can't remember clearly our past.

Especially for her.

We failed as parents.

None of this is your fault.

Have some cabbages.

These are from my gardens, very organic.

I hate cabbages.

Well...

When you two met,

did you talk about anything?

You have so many questions.

Why don't you ask her yourself?

I'm full.

Thanks.

Jiahui!

Jiahui!

Jiahui!

Jiahui!

Are you my son?

I have a father.

You got your own life.

I got mine.

Don't bother doing anything for me.

The best way for us

to get along

is to get away from each other.

Tomb of Beloved Son He Jun

Junjun,

it's mom.

It seems

you've grown up a little.

You haven't?

Have I grown old?

I haven't?

Look what I got for you.

Do you remember

the sunflowers

in our yard?

You wanted to pick some
every time you walked by there.

I'd prevent you from going ahead.

I told you to respect all living things.

I know you like this smell.

Smell it.

Do they smell as they used to?

Right?

I got you another surprise.

See?

When you were a kid,

your favorite food was cream cake.

Do you know

why I'd prevent you from eating cakes?

Because you'd skip meals for cakes.

If you don't eat well,

how can you grow taller into a big boy?

Right?

Now,

you don't need to grow any taller.

So, I bring some cakes for you.

Enjoy.

Have a taste.

I made them myself.

If you like it,

I'd come here with cakes

more often.

Okay?

I got another thing you like.

I never got it back then.

I didn't understand

why you'd bring it with you everywhere,

even to your bed.

As a man,

I'm gonna protect my family,

speak my mind,

and keep my word.

This is my way of acting like a Ninjia.

I was silly.

After your death,

I kept it

with me

as something

to remember you by.

I was wrong.

This is your treasured object.

You're the one who likes it.

So, I bring it to you today.

It will stay with you.

I put it here.

Junjun,

you must be mad at me.

You have all the reasons to be mad at me.

You must blame me

for not protecting you

from falling into the water,

for not holding your hands

firmly enough

when you were swept away by water.

Right?

It really was my fault.

I'm sorry.

I failed

as a mother.

After your death,

for millions of times,

I thought

if only

I was the one

who got swept away by water.

However, I got but two hands.

There was no way I could save you both.

I was planning

to come back for you

after saving your sister.

But you were just a little kid.

You were trapped in a dark place.

You must be so scared

and hate me so much

when I failed to appear.

I hate myself for that, too.

Do you know

why I didn't kill myself?

It's not that I'm afraid of death.

No.

I want to see you so much.

You see,

I'm not only your mother.

I'm also

the mother of your sister.

Your sister was also a kid back then.

I just couldn't imagine her

growing up without a mother.

I would worry if she got bullied at school,

if she failed to focus on school

or if she fell in love too young.

She is gonna need my advice

on her romantic relationship,

marriage

and parenting skills.

You see,

you don't need that

anymore.

Junjun,

you don't have the chance to be mischievous,

to experience puppy love,

to find a girlfriend,

to get married.

You don't need me anymore.

I don't need to

worry about you anymore.

I know

you're a

good boy now.

I have another reason.

You see,

because of your death,

your dad and sister had a nervous breakdown.

I was worried about your father.

That's why

I chose to stay.

Junjun,

perhaps you don't understand

what I'm saying.

You're just a kid.

You only need to understand

one thing.

That is,

mom

loves you

very, very much.

I just can't love you enough.

Go, go, go.

Go, go, go.

There you go. There you go.

Hold your position.

Keep your back straight.

Breathe. Breathe.

Two more to go.

One.

Put it down slowly. Put it down slowly.

There you go.

I can't make it.

- One more to go.
- I'm exhausted.

I'm exhausted.

My legs are so weak.

Your mom called.

You don't want to call her back?

No need.

What happened?

Did you have a fight?

We are good.

Come on.

Lili,

you need to learn to take care of yourself.

Mr. Jin Tao,

actually, I'm pretty good at it.

But answer my question.

Why does a girl need a boyfriend

if she can do everything on her own?

I didn't mean that.

I signed up for you here

for one year.

Next time, let's go to the gym together.

Lili, don't waste your money.

I don't need it.

Okay.

Do you need gym card?

This card is for one year at the gym.

It's for free. Do you want it?

Excuse me.

So, if you don't want it,

no one can have it?

Don't be so capricious,

okay?

You're not getting any younger.

Don't be capricious.

I just want us

to spend more time together.

Is there anything wrong with that?

What's wrong with you today?

Why don't we cut right to it?

Never mind.

Jin Tao, tell me the truth.

Your parents don't like me,

do they?

Of course they do.

They like you very much.

It's just

I'll be gone for a while.

What you do mean?

Did I upset you

by being capricious?

Not at all.

Then what on earth do you mean?

Tell me.

Why are you being so evasive?

I can't explain.

It's complicated.

I think

it's better for both of us

to take a break.

Did I get you upset?

Not at all.

Do you know

why I get to do things in my own way?

Because no one ever asked me

to take responsibility.

Lili!

You're here.

Whose kid is Jiahui?

Feifei

is obviously my kid.

Who is his father?

Let go of me!

Were you pregnant

when you left me?

Is he my child?

Is he my child?

Let go of me!

Let go of me!

Mom! Mom! Mom!

Fu Tang! Fu Tang! Okay, okay, I stop asking.

Professor Ji. Professor Ji.

It's okay. It's okay.

Let's go back.

It's okay.

Professor Ji.

You need to play it cool.

Let her get some rest.

Auntie,

are you writing something?

I don't know.

It's okay.

Don't push yourself.

Do you want a candy?

See?

Your favorite candy.

Last time we were here,

you said you'd let us know

the end of the story.

That's right.

Childhood sweetheart and love at first sight,

what was her final decision?

Just give us some hints.

Even the TV show

has a preview.

You just wouldn't

give us a clue.

The story must go on

till it gets to the end.

Then, let's keep on playing,

okay?

This time,

I want to play another character.

It's raining outside.

What are you doing here?

I'm here to see you.

I told you

not to come.

You never meant it.

I really meant it.

I hate those who didn't keep their promises.

You just hate it

when people failed to

keep their promises to you.

Are you judging me?

Not at all.

I mean,

it's raining

outside.

I don't want you to catch a cold.

What I hate most

is hypocrisy.

I understand why you're mad.

I haven't finished collecting the data

of the phase II trial.

No one can be sure

about the side effects

of the drug.

Science

is a serious subject.

It has to be precise.

Especially for you.

You have no confidence in your drugs.

Can't it wait?

It's like you don't know me at all.

Do you really want to give it a try?

You don't like this story, do you?

Well.

This is your story.

I don't get a say in this.

It's just that I feel a
little sorry for this man.

You do?

Don't you think

this man doesn't know her at all?

Why do you ask that?

They are more alike

no matter in their personalities,

family backgrounds or many other things.

They belong

to the same world.

I'm not too sure I agree with that.

Who says two similar people

are meant to be together?

For me,

what matters in a relationship

is that the two people like each other.

Right?

They are like

a pair of hedgehogs.

Standing back in back,

they'd hurt each other.

However, once they turn around,

they'd find each other's soft side.

Well,

that's the part of a story
to be recounted later.

What are you doing?

I just bought this digital camera.

I know it's a digital camera.

I'm asking what you are doing with that.

Recording my study subject.

I accepted the offer

on one condition

that I'll make a case study

out of your case.

You're free to quit

if it makes you uncomfortable.

That makes me

your guinea pig.

Rather, a volunteer.

Will this video

be made public?

Don't worry.

This is for psychological research purpose.

I'm probably the only one

who gets to watch this video.

I'm obliged to

keep your case confidential.

Hold on.

Let's get started.

Let's call it a day.

Before ending our session today,

I want you to promise me

that for the following sessions,

you'll eat and sleep

at regular times

and won't hurt yourself.

Can you promise me that?

Can you do that for me?

You've asked me

so many questions.

Can I ask you one question?

What question?

Keep holding

that digital camera.

Please go ahead.

Let's fall in love.

No.

Why?

No reason.

This is against the rules.

I'm your psychiatrist.

I like breaking rules.

Don't you want to fall in love with me?

I just want to cure your disease.

You're ducking the issue.

I'm not.

Then promise me

that we'll be together

when I'm cured.

When I

look back on my life,

it seems

he was standing at the fork of each road,

smiling at me

like a loyal solider.

It's just that

I never picked him once.

Is this a reward for me?

You're in good condition these days.

So,

are we in a relationship now?

I just want to cure your disease.

Can't you tell

I'm already cured?

Is it safe for her

to use a scissor?

Actually,

we should have confiscated such things.

But characteristically,

even if we hide it somewhere,

she'd find it

anyway.

It's for you.

"I have nothing to offer you"

The next line is?

"I have nothing to offer you

but a blossom branch from
my hometown in the spring time"

What does it mean, mom?

There was this poet

named Lu Kai.

He had a good friend

whose name was Fan Ye.

They were very good friends.

However, they lived very far apart.

One lived in the south

while the other lived in the north.

They'd express how much they miss each other.

In their letters.

One day,

Lu Kai ran into a postman.

He asked the postman

to deliver a letter to his friend.

But what to write about?

While he was pondering this,

plum blossoms greeted his eyes.

So, he picked a blossom branch

and wrote this poem.

"I have nothing to offer you

but a blossom branch from
my hometown in the spring time"

He wanted his friend to have a glimpse of

the springtime in the regions
south of the Yangtze River.

Thanks.

It's beautiful.

What happened then?

How would you like this story

to develop?

Well,

one day,

the girl was found to

take pills secretly.

So, it's true you've been drugging her.

Can't you see

she's getting much better?

Shouldn't you let me know

before giving her pills?

Why should I?

Who do you think you are?

You also gave her this drug,

right?

Listen,

the bottle

has no information on it.

I need you to explain to me

the name and ingredients of this drug.

Otherwise I'll report you to the SFDA

for illegal drug use.

You're committing a crime!

Are you threatening me?

You're despicable.

Did you know

your treatment

never worked on her?

Did you know

she tried to kill herself the other day?

That's not true.

That's true!

How could you ignore

such obvious mood swings?

So, the psychiatrist believed

he has helped the girl

feel better.

But the pharmacist thought

the girl would have killed herself

but for his drugs.

After that fight,

the rivals in love

started to accuse each other

and became sworn enemies.

What happened then?

Did that girl get recovered?

Of course she did.

But...

But?

News report.

Sikang Pharmaceuticals

announced early this morning

the termination of

the research and development of a new drug

for bipolar disorder.

According to a supervisory organization,

some clinical trial patients

showed serious adverse reactions

to the drug,

including memory impairment

and confusion,

which led to protests

from patients and their families.

Now,

the research and development of the drug

have been suspended at all levels.

It can't be true.

It can't be true.

They told me

they were about to pass

the phase II of the clinical trial.

I was framed.

I will find a solution.

It seems to me

you always wear

a red dress.

This has never changed.

Do you like it?

Yes.

Excuse me.

Can I get a face mask?

Thanks.

You're welcome.

When I was at the entry,

I saw a person in the hospital gown

looking for someone.

I thought this place has an entrance guard.

Shit.

Fu Tang

This is for you.

Where are we now?

You mean,

you can have it

because we are sort of related?

Your parents don't like me,

do they?

Of course they do.

They like you very much.

It's just

I'll be gone for a while.

Both of them

are nice.

That's a dangerous thought.

She has to choose from them.

Otherwise the story

will end in tragedy.

Whom would you choose

if that were you?

I'm not her.

I can't make the decision for her.

Would you

analyze it

as a female psychiatrist?

It seems

the girl thinks favorably

of the psychiatrist.

Jiahui,

are you all right?

I'm fine.

What do you think?

Whom do you think the girl will choose?

It seems

she'll choose neither of them.

Why?

In this world,

she has the right to love anyone,

and not to love anyone.

She is not to be

a prisoner of love.

Perhaps she loves no one but herself

and freedom.

Jiahui, may I ask you a question?

Go ahead.

Is that pharmacist

your foster father?

Professor Ji.

What brings you here?

Drop the vegetables.

Come on.

Let's cook dumplings.

Aren't you a king

at home?

See,

shrimp dumplings, a hit product.

It contains shrimps and vegetables.

It can save a lot of time and trouble.

Let's go.

Come on,

you lazy guy.

Let's go.

Zhang,

take a seat.

You have a son, don't you?

How old is he?

Twenty-nine.

Is it hard to discipline kids

of that age?

You call a 29-year-old man kid?

Discipline them?

How?

He is gonna start a family.

There is nothing I can do.

I just want to know

how I should

get along with them.

You mean my son and I?

There is no specific ways.

We can sit together for a whole day

without saying anything.

It's the bond between a father and his son.

Perhaps you have nothing to say to each other.

That's better than

saying mean things to each other, right?

It's nicer when people just get along.

Wait a moment.

What do you mean by that?

What?

Don't point your fingers at me.

Do you have a crush

on someone?

And she has an adult son?

Come on, at my age,

that's not happening.

I'm just curious.

It seems you don't get to enjoy

the happy family time.

My son is getting married this year.

Perhaps I'll have a grandson

next year.

Hey,

I've got a plan.

I'll take care of the baby

three days a week.

When the baby grows older,

he'll live with me.

I'll teach him on my own.

That will save the tuition
fee for preschool education.

All right, give it a rest.

Go cook the dumplings.

Aye.

I need you to sign here.

Mr. Ye, I told you before,

I was working on the promotion

of pilot projects of group counseling.

The association has approved the budget.

Opening shops in the communities

lays the foundation

of the promotion

of domestic therapeutic apparatus.

The committee members all believe

this is the right time.

What about

the feedback

on the apparatus in commission?

All I need is your approval.

For any problem

which may occur,

I'll deal with it.

Once I sign these papers,

I'll be the one

who takes full responsibility for the problems.

You can rest assured of that.

Everything will be fine.

However, it's good to know that
you have a sense of responsibility.

So, Mr. Ye,

please send me a copy

when the data collection is done.

That will be reassuring for me.

How is it going

with the files?

Any good news?

Not yet.

I'm sorry.

I see.

You have a million things to do every day.

It would be impossible

to cover every single issue

in a perfect way.

I understand.

Thanks for understanding.

If there is no other business,

I might now take my leave.

Wen,

there is something I want to confirm with you.

We're still

on the same boat,

aren't we?

It depends

whether we are heading

in the same direction.

♫ Each dawn blooms with a word of flowers ♫

♫ Here is an aroma of coffee and you ♫

♫ Whether the haze turns into a rain
or the weather suddenly clears up ♫

♫ I wish to be with you ♫

♫ A shower of rain gently
floats far out of the sky ♫

♫ Taking with it my blue and cloudy memories ♫

♫ I bloom a scenery as clear as a song ♫

♫ I see your eyes as bright as a star ♫

♫ They warm my smile
and listen to my true voice ♫

♫ Giving me the gentlest response ♫

♫ I see the sudden arrival ♫

♫ Of beautiful love ♫

♫ Holding you hand, I can feel your heart ♫

♫ Holding you hand, I can feel your heart ♫